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Alright look.
You don’t need to be famous!
You don’t need to be a content creator.
You don’t need to have a hundred thousand followers.
You don’t need to make a massive impact on the world.
It’s okay to fucking EXIST in the world. To make a small impact. To have normal friends and a normal obscure life, like everyone else on this planet.
I get it if you’re lonely, I get it if you feel like there’s no point to life, but fame isn’t the answer to that problem.
Yes I am talking about James fucking Somerton. Hell, I am talking TO James Somerton, motherfucker if you’re reading this, somehow, despite me literally being a nobody on tumblr, then- wow! What are the odds! What the fuck is wrong with you. Also don’t fucking do it. Please log off and live a happy normal mediocre life. Please.
But I’m also talking to every 20-something (me included) who thinks “gee i want to be like those fancy content creators and filmmakers and artists who make stuff and everyone looks at it.”
LISTEN. STATISTICALLY SPEAKING, YOU PROBABLY WON’T BE A CELEBRITY, AND THAT’S PROBABLY A GOOD THING.
And I’m not saying don’t dream big. “Dream big” can mean all sorts of things, and none of them have to be about fame. Entertainment and academia are like 10% of the full breadth of human experience.
You can garden. Knit. Raise animals. Go scuba diving. Join a book club. Play sportsball. Dance at a club. Dance at a park. Learn tango! Paint pictures for small local galleries and people who want something crazy on their walls. Have sex. Go to concerts. Volunteer. Write poetry. Learn an instrument. Learn a language. Go hiking! Biking! Run a marathon! Collect coins, collect shells, collect bones. Find god (any god). Be the guy who hands put water bottles at protests. Join a tabletop gaming group. Play trading card games.
I’ve been saying for a real long time that someone like James Somerton is just not fit to write video essays, he’s not fit to be a content creator - James if you’re still here, we all saw your ‘measured response’, if you were telling the truth about those memory issues and ADHD and they genuinely are so bad that you can’t properly cite your sources- you can’t be a video essayist. I’m sorry. It’s part of the job description.
and look. that’s okay. because there’s so much other stuff he can do with his life. Stuff that doesn’t require him to, you know, make proper citations. Write creatively. Manage a film production company. Those things. The things he evidently can’t do competently.
The idea that he’d rather die than have a normal life, a peaceful life out of the public eye, working a job that he can actually be good at, having his hobbies and his real life friends and maybe even a family… there’s no other word for it than “sad”. That’s so fucking sad, and I don’t even mean that in an insulting way. I know I hate the dude, but jesus.
And I just. If you’re reading this post and the idea of someone absolutely who’d rather die than be normal resonated with you - first of all, do you need a hug, second of all,
This post is for you.
Please take care of yourself and just find joy doing what you want to do. Don’t try to Be Famous. Please.
#tw suicide#james somerton#sorry if my phrasing seems off im trying to thread a tonal needle here#i hope my message is clear#if not lemme clarify: i say this with compassion. not mockery.
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some of you are just so lovely and sooo easy to love and i mean it when i say with 100% certainty that ur favs would be head over heels for you
#are ALL very lovely btw#but it’s just i have seen a lot of people be very doubtful of themselves recently#and it’s like … wdym you don’t think you are the most wonderful person in the entire world how could anyone not adore you i love you so muc#sorry i am not very eloquent when it comes speaking my own feelings i’m afraid but i hope the message is still clear 😔#what i’m trying to say … some ppl on here are so kind and have so much love for everyone and i wish you could see urselves how i see you#bc i do aspire to be more like you i suppose 🤍
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TAEMIN - 'Eternal' Track List ♥︎
#shinee#taemin#shinee taemin#lee taemin#taemin eternal#eternal#dailyshinee#kpopccc#malegroupsnet#ksoloists#dailybg#smsource#maleidolsnet#bgnetwork#speakofgifs#kpop#THIS TOOK SO LONG TO MAKE OMG but it was very creatively satisfying :)) i tried a lot of things i've never done before#i'm a little sad i feel like i'm prob a bit late posting this and the MV teasers come out tomorrow lol#but i wanted to grab clips i hadn't seen used much and put emphasis on the way taemin seems to b contrasting his concepts against each othe#there are a lot of parallels so far in everything he's released so i wanted to flip and reverse the clips to mirror each other~ i hope#my intentions/theme is clear in this set!#oh! and of course his handwritten “no matter what taemin is taemin” which again i feel furthers this contrasting of himself against himself#only to turn it around to remind us all sides of himself come together in the end ~eternally~#taemin is endlessly inspiring damn a true muse of a man <33 i'm impossibly excited to see what message he has for us this time :)
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Hi I hate to be cheesy but I wanted to say that while a lot of people - very rightly!!! - point out how cool your art is and how inspirational it is that you showed art can be learned, not just a rare natural born talent, I also LOVE your sense of humor. The dialog and visual jokes are always so sharp and are guarenteed to make me laugh! Because I'm autistic as hell lol I like to bookmark things I can read through over agian when I'm looking for laughs and your blog is now high on the list! Thx!
Be not afraid to be cheesy; your genuine message has brought me immense joy B’*)
#ask#non mdzs#<-temp tag until i figure out a good sona tag name#I am currently living in a hazy state of exhastion so I cannot make my thoughts as clear as I would like - however#Thank you kindly for sending such a sweet message💙#I am very glad to be the funny little creature that brightens someone’s day#Also very happy to have the autism brain brrrr seal of approval. A true honour B*)#I’d Love to know your favourites if you’re comfortable sharing. Sort of a cool littlt tidbit to know!#I hope you have a great day! Tha k you again for your support!#(meant to combine this with the jyl post - for the 27th- whoops! this is how far we have fumbled the ball these last two weeks)
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yes i'm rooting for m*leven breakup because byler is neat but mostly? i'm rooting for m*leven breakup for the sake of el and mike.
to me, their romance was always a puppy love born out of a combination of social pressures, naïve curiosity, and a lack of true understanding regarding intimacy and romantic love and what it really is. it was real in that they do truly, deeply care about each other and they are close friends, maybe even shared an attraction, but a maturing romance is so much more than that. they've grown up and out of being boyfriend/girlfriend, and that's okay! i think television/film needs to show more often that most of us don't have definite "soulmates" or first childhood loves that we spend our whole lives with. it doesn't mean these relationships meant nothing and didn't impact us, it just means they've run their course and that something else is in the cards, and this is part of life!
i've always felt el was at her best and most confident self when broken up with mike, discovering who she was and what she liked alongside another girl her age instead of just relying on mike for mentorship on how to live in the real world. she deserves more of an opportunity to find herself, her autonomy, and her independence, and to love who she is, and she's made it clear she's felt insecure in the relationship with mike because she isn't being loved and understood the way she wants, needs, and deserves from someone who is her partner.
also, it's okay if mike doesn't love her in "the way he should". he is not obligated to love her romantically and stay in a relationship with her just because she's a girl, because she "needed someone", or because he cares about her a lot. he shouldn't be pressured into a romance if it's not truly coming from his heart. he deserves freedom to find out and honour who he is, too, instead of just staying in his non-functional first relationship — one he got into as a child, essentially — and defining himself that way because it's what's expected when a boy and a girl are close. he loves her in some way, yes, but it's okay if he doesn't feel comfortable or secure being her boyfriend anymore, for whatever reason that is. he's felt insecure too, and that's valid and it matters.
they are their own people and are steadily growing and changing every day. they need time to figure out who those people are, and it's become clear (at least in my opinion) that those people aren't meant to be a couple at this stage.
they deserve freedom. they deserve to grow up and be authentic to themselves and not feel like they need to lie for the sake of a relationship. they deserve to move on from this version of their relationship that isn't making them happy and rekindle the best part of their bond: their strong, beautiful friendship. they don't have to be a couple if it doesn't make them stronger and better and happier people.
i think it would be healthy and wonderful for a show, especially one consumed frequently by young adults, to show a relationship starting, progressing, and ending on good terms in this way. sometimes things don't work out, and that is okay.
#eve text#elmike#stranger things#byler#only tagging byler because i feel like yall will like this take lol#tagging tagging tagging WHAT ARE EVERYONE ELSE'S THOUGHTS#god i can't believe i'm making a post about stranger things. this feels like poking a bear#i'm not particularly anti m*leven but like... they'd have to do something pretty special at this point for me to feel like it's viable#i'm seeing the bts of s5 and it's got me Having Thoughts#elmike friendship is something i am so passionate about#even before i ever liked byler (didn't ship at all until s4 even though i knew it was a thing before) i've felt this way about elmike#i always believed they were close friends at heart and needed to break up#the romance part of them felt very distinctly young and very much “he was a boy she was a girl” to me#and it hasn't deepened into anything more mature and i don't see how it could based on the current state of the writing...#the fact that lumax exists — a young relationship that is actively maturing and is healthy — makes that clear to me#and the “love confession” in s4 and how disingenuous and miserable it felt was just the nail in the coffin#also the fact that will (who is IN LOVE with mike) was instrumental in making it happen? ... uh... okay... interesting choice…#fucked up and reductive if they make it another queer unrequited love sacrifice for the sake of pushing the heterosexual agenda YUCK#so i really hope the speculation about a m*leven breakup is real!! i think it just makes sense for their characters but who knows#i don't believe in the notion of love at first sight or one true love and i think the writers don't too???#love to me is an accumulation of experiences and we inevitably choose it at some point rather than fall into it... but idk#tv is so fixated on keeping couples together... sometimes it's just not reality guys especially with young people... LET IT GO...#like i said though i'm not 100% sold that they're going to give up their “golden couple” LMAO#stranger things hasn't historically subverted too many tropes if i'm being honest#anyway i seriously need this season to come out quickly... i'm so bored and getting my master's is crushing my soul#i need frivolity#ALSO btw i won't respond to hateful messages about this so please don't bother. it's not that serious. this is a netflix show
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By the setting sun,
the wind blows away
all that’s left to say
something (tears, bandages, a body) falls.
into gravity’s embrace.
There’s a story left untold.
There’s a place he longed to go.
Say good night to the suicidal man who didn’t really want to die.
#tw suicide#tw beast spoilers#every time beast au i cry#i hope its clear that not everyone who ends their life ends it bc they want to die#some just think they shouldn’t live on on anymore and theres a difference#beyond fandom i hope this message reaches something more important#back to angst just because#beast light novel#idk if asagiri did it on ourpose that this scene happened during sunset#like mahn#the last part hurt to read wtf asagiri#bsd beast#bsd#dazai osamu#bsd dazai#angst#bungou stray dogs#bsd fanart#my art#my comic
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in light of recent events with the election, i want to remind everyone to take care of themselves the best they can. i know that things are really hard right now for so many people—women, poc, lgbtq+, especially. but please do not forget that there are people out there who love you, who care for you, and wish nothing but the best for you. check in on your loved ones, and check in on yourself 🤍
i love you. we’ll be ok. it doesn’t feel that way now, and it might not feel that way for awhile. but we’ll be ok.
#⋆.˚ s talks!#american politics are. a lot rn.#and i felt that not speaking about this AT ALL#would be like lying to myself#bc as someone who is going to be impacted by this greatly (as we all will)#this has been the only thing i have thought about for the last 24+ hours#please please please check in on the people in your lives#the women#the queer / trans people#the people of color#the women of color especially#because my god#this country has failed us over and over#and i shouldn’t be surprised. but i unfortunately.#btw this is not a trump safe zone please leave.#i feel like that’s pretty clear but i just want to add that#you are not welcome here. at all.#anyway i’m not going to talk about this very much#but i just wanted to leave a small message#and i hope you’re able to take care of yourself and stay safe#and i want to say that i love you#us politics#us elections#election 2024#positive suggestions#positive thoughts#positive mental attitude
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i think its cute that they made dean jerk off to softcore magazines and hentai and silly casa erotica dvds when in reality he'd be so desensitized to porn the stuff he watches to get off is borderline illegal. leg in a bear trap and punches in the face to cum type of shit. he's got friction burn on his dick he probably needs to smell povidone iodine to cum
#he has a gooning account on twitter. retweeting the worst kinds of filth#i love him my sweet sweet boy 💞#i did have to look up povidone iodine because idk what they call it in english sorrrreyyy hope the message is clear still
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hi! seeing you during all this ep95 mess has been a breath of fresh air. you seem to have a really firm grasp of canon so I wanted to ask what you think of the recent discord message from Liam where he says Orym didn't know that Laudna was under Delilah's influence when she killed Bor'dor? I watched the clip from 4SD, & it's pretty clear that Liam says Orym understood Laudna was opening the door for Delilah when he encouraged her to kill Bor'dor & even says "we'll need that." But the Discord message seems to walk that back. It's been super frustrating being accused of vilifying Orym or infantilizing Laudna for repeating what Liam himself said. I just don't really know how to reconcile these two statements from Liam & it has me a bit confused on Orym's character.
hi anon, thank you!
this turned into a much longer one than i was expecting dfksjdkfs
so last week i posted this Really Long Ask about the whole discussion, if you want to take a look. but i intentionally didn't bring up liam's discord message because you're right! it seemed contradictory to something that was stated in the past, which was confusing
honestly i think the most realistic answer is that liam probably didn't mean for what he said on 4SD to be understood as such a strong and maybe even polarizing character choice. i think a lot of us heard it as "orym sees delilah as a useful/necessary asset that outweighs what might happen to laudna afterward." particularly because he framed it as something that made the whole situation "even creepier," and during that same convo, marisha was emphasizing the psychological impact that killing bor'dor had on laudna. it's a strong stance and it reflects what orym is doing to himself (handing his endgame over to the questionably fickle nana morri to increase their chances of success against ludinus)
but i suppose liam's clarification suggests that he meant it in a softer, more practically level-headed way, like "orym knew he couldn't do a whole lot about delilah's return but he also thought it could have benefits," or something along those lines. they're obviously two hugely different interpretations with pretty big implications on how we understand orym's relationship with laudna
i'm not a connoisseur of orym's character by ANY means so i can't confidently tell you what the change might mean from a narrative perspective, but i personally still prefer the former stronger stance. because i think it raises interesting questions about how orym views his own place in this war and whether or not it's valid for him to (intentionally or subconsciously) project that placement onto the other party members. is it okay for orym to expect the same level of personal sacrifice from laudna, or imogen with predathos (a whole separate can of worms), or anyone else? is it safe? etc etc. but maybe liam doesn't want to go in that direction, or maybe he does but just not in the way we expect, i don't know! only time will tell!
also regardless of what he meant, i think it's important to acknowledge that it's really easy and completely understandable to feel like he was walking something back. that episode of 4SD was almost a whole year ago! many of us built that statement into our perception and understanding of orym's character for a long time, so it's totally valid to go "wait what the fuck???" when liam suddenly pops into the discord to say that's not what he meant. those feelings are valid and real! especially when discourse can already make you question your own intelligence and your personal interpretations of a story, having that pillar, as big or small as it might've been in your mind, knocked over can be really jarring. you are very much not alone in that, and it's okay!!
#hope this helps?#anonymous#ask#answered#critical role#cr3#cr fandom#cr negativity#cr meta#*meta#orym cr#liam o'brien#for the record i think the wording of his discord message is super flimsy compared to what he said on 4SD#which only made it easier for me to feel like he was just sticking his nose in discourse to try and defend his character#which - during what was very clearly taking shape as an orym vs. laudna argument - made me feel like liam was shitting on my feelings#i'm OBVIOUSLY not saying that's what his intentions were but i can't logic my way out of my initial rage reaction to a discord screenshot#and it just illustrates the dangers of cast members directly involving themselves in fandom discourse#which i kinda thought the cast maybe wasn't ever ever gonna do again....after c1 reddit....after bowlgate.......etc.......#saying vaguely defensive stuff when two parts of a fandom are at each other's throats only adds fuel to the fire. it clears up fuck all#and it gives people more reasons to agree or disagree with each other and point to your vague-ass message as evidence#so really. not that you asked but. i really think he shouldn't have said it lmao. bc ppl got Even Nastier after he did#¯\_(ツ)_/¯ it's out there now! what can you do!
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There's a weird kind of tension I feel being in the Locked Tomb fandom without being Christian. Especially having grown up in a heavily Christian part of the world, constantly surrounded by pressure to convert.
I don't only mean the constant low grade cultural pressure underpinning daily life, though I mean that too. I mean I get accosted in the street by missionaries. I mean I was first told I was going to hell when I was four years old, by a babysitter who would only let me watch Veggie Tales. I've had a man handing out leaflets follow me around attempting to lay his hands on my head or shoulders while reciting what I think a Catholic friend later told me was called the Sinner's Prayer, cajoling me to repeat after him. My grandfather died after being unable to find a support group that wasn't rooted in the christian faith, and didn't therefore require him to violate his religious beliefs.
Which is all taking the long way around to saying I don't really vibe heavy with the series' christian subtext. I like to enjoy the story primarily through other lenses.
But at the same time the symbolism is there, and intentional, and doing a lot of very interesting things. So I am paying attention to it. I try to consider it an interesting mythological theme, like the classical Greek references. It usually works, but maintaining that distance can be a struggle.
I don't really have a conclusion here. It's just a weird place to be. The draw of wanting to connect the dots, to appreciate the intricate symbolic art, at war with... all that, and with the creeping anxiety that whispers: how much of a philosophy can you know before you get filled up with it? Is there ever a point where you are what you know, whether you want to be or not?
#so yeah#I'm not likely to get very in depth with christian interpretations#because when I try to consider thing from that perpective there's a small animal in the back of my mind that starts tearing itself to piece#like a rat in a glue trap#to be clear this isn't about animosity#I hope there are people writing very deep essays about how Gideon is Jesus is Harrow and Thomas and Peter and all those guys#I might write some myself framed as literary references#I am glad people send me references and connections they make and make predictions from them#I love getting those messages!#this is just about the small animal which is me dying in a glue trap#and how pretending it isn't there only makes it worse#please don't let my weird second hand smoking style religious trauma dissuade ypu from sending me your theories#op
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#vent cw#negative cw#ferre said something i hope it was dumb ( ooc. )#i too sometimes wonder if my rp days are coming to an end....#or at least just switch over to writing with only friends#like of course i still love rp#and i truly DO....miss the days when being on my dash excited me#and i didn't feel guilty#like i KNOW i said that i am ridiculously slow and i assume?? that my current writing partners understand that#but i dunno....i guess i just feel like when i do pop in here#it doesn't really matter#kinda like....i'm just another person to get replies from/on dash and that's it#and that's on me.....like yeah i'm ridiculously slow with ooc messages and with replies so ppl are going to move on; i'm not blaming anyone#rn my job and rl is so busy/stressful now...most times when i look at my keyboard to write i get sleepy and i can't write#and i can't help but feel like i'm bothering ppl when i reply to their threads or if i messaged them with ideas bc of how infrequently i ca#be on here#the exception being ppl who i know are just as slow as me (u know who u are)#something tells me that maybe more renovations might be needed or i just need to make new dynamics or i need to find new partners#or maybe even just drop muses/threads/dynamics.....#or even just moving blogs again to clear up space#but i don't think that will work so no moving#i also know that i have...i have a very specific vibe i go for in my dynamics and it's not....it's not everyone's cup of tea#i can't help but also wonder if i'm just being too precious with my muses like#i can't always throw them into any plot or give them spontaneous ships- i wonder if i'm just being too inflexible here ://#and they're on the older side and i don't want to have them constantly in say caretaker roles#i know i'm venting i'm sorry :/#if anyone has advice on just....starting up again#that would be nice....i am also aware that this has become a vent post so feel free to ignore this too#i will...have more time to rest soon so i'll try to get to at least ooc messages
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Do you know what it means - not interested? Weirdos
#lol i barely reply to my own friends why would i wanna talk with that type of people 😆 NOT INTERESTED#I've been here for fckng 11 y#i dont txt people#im not interested in anyone#i dont send asks#i dont wanna sext people#and when i wanna talk to ppl i txt them lol#if i dont reply to the first 3 messages i won't reply to the 20#i hope this clears things up
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breakups are so fucking weird. three years and just like that it's gone. huh
#helix.txt#gross i ended up spilling my guts in tags. look at them fucking writhing on the floor all bloody#dont rb please#vent#to quote fall out boy i knew it was over i just didn't know the date#yeah that's it. fall out boy can fix this.#i will feel better if i go listen to bang the doldrums#and infinity on high in general#and folie a deux. folie a fucking deux how i love that album#my chem will make me better. gerard way save me#god what a weird feeling. you used to know me better than any other person but then you moved hundreds of miles away and it worked#for a while. then two years later you said it wasnt working and that this was best for both of us. guess i never got the memo for that one#hope we treat other people better because i wasn't as kind as i should have been towards the end and you were never as thoughtful or con-#-siderate as i needed towards the end. we grew apart because you're bad at keeping contact over messaging#and in some ways the cracks in the foundation that grew from that were my fault too i guess. our conversations always felt one sided#maybe i was smothering you#you could never seem to keep more than a passing recollection of the things i liked or even pay much attention to them#but i wasn't great about that either#we just became different people. you weren't what i wanted or needed and you couldn't do long distance. whatever#i know it was the right thing i just wish it hadn't made me feel so damn awful#will we still talk after this? who knows. we didn't end on bad terms but things are definitely weird#and considering your track record with people you can only talk to online i'm not optimistic#you tried to break things off initially by saying you'd said you would improve in the past with nothing to show for it#something i didn't disagree with but i said it didn't bother me much. and it didn't#but it's complicated now. i did deserve better. but you made it clear i'm not getting it from you#you weren't as present or thoughtful as i needed#i wasn't there in person the way you needed and certainly not as considerate as i should have been. and for that second part i'm truly sorr#anyways. sorry. i'd been thinking about it for a long time anyway. i didn't want to admit it because i didn't like to think#about what it might bring. maybe i should have been braver#right. that's enough
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valentibners thoyghts yesterday: i love my girlfrebd and i wish i wasn't so sleepy all the time
#hooly noises#i fell asleep in call before it even if it was 4am for her and like 3pm for me#i wiiissshhhhh i had much energy to do things for ppl i love. i would like to draw ppl things and id like to hang out#i feeeeellllll a little bit selfish all the time. i feeeeeeelllll like i rarely use what energy i have for anything other than myswlf#which you knowwwww isn't the worst thing in the world. but i feel like im always distancing myself socialllyy#because i don't respond to messages or i don't give people time or i don't let people know#---#i think when my brain found out im not technically obligated to do anything socially ever it took it too far#prioritize feeling good and going to sleep. nothing else#little bit assholish. im a little bit shittty#but i hope it's clear i still love?#sorry! im still learning. don't look at me for too long#zzz
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ffs guysss
the number of messages in my inbox that i can’t see has increased again :(
if you’ve left me an ask and i haven’t gotten round to it yet for a while, here’s why ☹️
#tumblr omg fix this#i repeat this once again but guys#my blog is NOT big enough for me to go ‘i have so many asks so i can’t answer all of them yet’#like we are still a small family here just to be clear 😭#and yet tumblr wants to punish me like this#i click that inbox every time hoping one day i’ll get to see those missing messages#only to find that every day i’m met with failure :/#tumblr don’t pmo rn#about me
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bro no fucking way I called the vet (closes at 6pm) at 4:45 and its already unattended 💀
#tried again 5. nope. i think theyre closed 💀#tried yesterday maybe 5:20 and got the same message)#thats what i get for not being up early???????#its open in the morning and then again in the afternoon...#oh my god. on the message they refer u to an animal hospital#i just checked and theyre closed today??? 😭😭😭😭 what is going ON#i know its like. dude ur dog was having problems since friday why didnt u call earlier#well monday was a public holiday so i couldn't 😭#not open on weekends also#tuesday the hope was to get a hold of eye drops and see if we could get it to clear up#that didnt pan out (colloidal silver in eye drops???? golden seal????????) so called that afternoon. nothing#tried again today. nothing#i know we could try a different vet but this is the one we prefer with the costs down 😭😭😭😭
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