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i'd love to be like omggg my beloved comfort guys suguru and dazai yayy yipeee yayy i can't wait to rot away with them but . suguru fucking hates dazai it's sohgsdahgdhgsaghdahs like they cannot be in the same room together at all if dazai tried to join us on the couch suguru would just push him offđđđđ
#these two just might be THE worst blorbo combination of mine#ghsadghshgdghahgda#it's so funny pls#the thing is that i think while suguru is a very composed right?#but#dazai... is very good at getting under people's skin lmao#so i feel like when it comes to these two.. dazai just win whatever kind of a fight they've got going on and that's why suguru dislikes him#he can see that he has like . NO chance of pissing him off lmao#i think suguru is a jealous jealous man#so dazai has more than one way of irking him#one would be just bringing up satoru#and the other would be me if we're talking abt whatever this trio is#like if i were to give dazai more attention you best know suguru is going to fucking sulk in his own room like the grown man that he is#i have to force them to make up somehow#bc i love them#both#and i need them both#mayor of loserville
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seeing ppl on twitterâs takes about snowgrave kriselle makes me want to kill myself oh my godddd âits toxicâ âregular kriselle better bc its healthierâ DO YOU THINK I WANT TO SEE THEM MUSHY KISS AND BE LOVEY DOVEY AND HUG EACH OTHER??? NO!!! the APPEAL is that adding romantic connotations to their snowgrave relationship (which mind you very much already exists in canon) allow their relationship to become so much more interesting. do i think theyâll become truly endgame canon? do i think theyâre in love with each other??? ABSOLUTELY NOT!!! AND I DONT WANT THEM TO!!! the POINT is that itâs supposed to be dark and interesting and exploratory of their characters in relation to the deconstruction of autonomy in video games through gender roles and principles of knighthood and the idea of the âdamsel in distressâ. not to mention that âshippingâ regular kriselle and snowgrave kriselle isnt mutually exclusive either. in fact i think understanding both allows you to analyse their relationship much more fully and deeply than without considering the other side. and besides, isnt the fucking point of shipping to explore character relationships??? why would you want to Ignore nuance and depth rather than focus on it???? are you unable to handle anything deeper or darker than like fucking cocomelon??? if you hate character analysis and dark themes in relationships you can head on back there or smth idfk oh my lord i cant fucking TAKE IT ANYMORE
#snowgrave#kriselle#rant#deltarune#this probably comes off as harsh lol#i was going to add its alright if you find snowgrave kriselle uncomfortable for personal reasons#but like sincerely if youre in the utdr fandom and youâve seen the fucking geno route then i think you can handle this#and not only that but i feel like nowadays fandoms are purposefully trying to get away from darker subject matter and themes#while in the process airbrushing nuance and details in favour of shoving characters into tropes and boxes#all in the name of âperson comfortâ and âpreferenceâ#and while i cant control what other people do or ship or whatever#i do think its a sign that weâre leaning far more into anti-intellectualism these days#and people are just completely unwilling to engage with things outside their comfort zone#its okay to have preferences! its fine if you think kriselle is bad!#but like if your only reasoning is that its unhealthy and toxic then idfk what to tell you man#please play/watch/read better media#relationships in media can be toxic and unhealthy and portrayed without romanticisation#kriselle is very much so!#my ideal version of them is that neither of them have feelings for each other at all#neither does the player have any for noelle#the romantic/marriage connotations are there as metaphor for the stripping of autonomy through a forced heterosexual lens#however if they somehow form some fucked up forced conditioning traumabond feelings for each other along the way which fucks things up even#more⊠now THATS fucking interesting#really gets you questioning the lines between the decisions you make and the ones they make of their own volition#suselle completely endgame though#i just like analysing kriselle more LOL
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i havent played dst in awhile what is that thing
new thing from the halloween update! They're called void masques i'm not sure if it's just for halloween or if it's a permanent feature actually but i think it's here to stay
basically it's those mask things! they spawn when rifts are activated in a world around nightmare fissure if i understood correctly? But basically those things will possess mobs and can even possess you the player if you die!
and apparently the characters have quotes for seeing their own possessed corpse, maxwell's says "Jack? Wait, no." ( thank you plushee for giving everyone the quotes when the wiki isn't updated yetttt )
#i'm saying APPARENTLY because i am TERRIBLE at don't starve and have never gotten to the rift thing#and i've tried everything but i'm just too stupid cuz making em spawn with commands doesnt seem to work#or at least idk the command to do it#forcing a rift to spawn is nice but i got unlucky and got other thralls than that one so huhh yeah idk#at some point i managed to get its mask appear on my face and like talk somehow??? idfk how i did that and cant replicate it so idfk#so while i sadly can't provide a screenshot of it the quote EXISTS in the files and that is GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME i gave up seeing it ingame#huhh yeah thats all i got to say#dst#i heavily reccomend people to go read the quotes regarding them it's alot of fun ngl#i'm a big dumdum so sorry for no in game screen of the quote oopsy
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thinking about ch0mpkin's evil evbo post (evilbo, if you will) and going "How can I align this with My Interests (the axes)" and the answer is Very easily actually
#thoughts in tags.....#when the cookie crumbles#pciv#pvp civilization#you know. evbo leaving behind everything he knows for his friend and going along with The Plan#constantly telling himself its for the greater good its for the greater good#but the longer he goes on the worse it gets#and both tabi and clown force him to stop diagetically monologuing somehow because otherwise he'll blow their cover#so he just gets quieter and quieter and withdraws more and more#to the point where even tabi is thinking like âdamn maybe i Should've killed him in sword civ...â but he's here now#another thing is i think evbo would 100% buy and sneak another video journal machine out and when tabi finds out she Flips Her Lid#clown is less concerned because he wasn't With them so he doesn't know like tabi does that he spends So Much Time On This Shit#not knowing that (like minute said) video journaling is the biggest reason evbo is able to take in so much new info and maintain himself#and if they straight up take it away from him he's going to get Even Worse#i think clown doesn't see it as much of an issue despite tabi's major objections because he'd literally be talking about their plan On Air#and that tape goes somewhere and is Seen by someone (plus if someone else sees their cover is gone cuz video journals are sword only)#but in his eyes that means the only people who will ever see it are the diamond swords in their ivory tower who can't leave anyways#so why worry? if anything it shows them what they're (the axes) doing to their (the swords) little golden boy and they can't stop it#another thing i thought about is that they would definitely hold killing evbo over his head like. Constantly#and evbo's fear of dying isn't the same because he never died to tabi's axe so he doesn't know zam is waiting for him (which is also funny)#so instead it takes a spin of tabi saying âill kill you and let you respawn in sword civ and you'll stay there with your regretsâ#because even if zam Wasn't still waiting for him he kinda ditched the diamond swords so uh... kinda lost your sense of kinship there#a-NOTHER point of interest: guardfriend#since guards can access all civilizations they'd definitely want to take advantage of his connections and relation with evbo#especially since unless evbo spills the beans he most likely wouldn't know the eternal sword was taken and tabi is the one who took it#let alone that she (and clown by extensionâ but to throw off suspicion he doesn't show up around guard) is a natural born axr#so they can defo use what trust those two have to get places easier#but if he ends up getting in the way... [makes a chopping gesture across my throat]#could even do it in Front of evbo as an example of what happens to those who stand between them and their mission#holy shit this is the first time ive ever hit 30 tags. wtf
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sometimes looking at like Self Help Strategies lists for the symptoms I'm having is always just like:
thing that I already do
thing I have tried 10 times
thing I already do
thing that I don't have the money to do
thing I already do
thing I've been doing since I was 10yrs old to no avail
thing that is impossible given my situation
thing that doesn't apply to me
thing that I already do
thing I have already tried
hrmm, oh wait, maybe finally- OH, yeah.. okay. thing that I already do but it was just phrased slightly differently
thing I have already done
#I think maybe productivity tips help less if the reason you're unproductive is partially like.. physcial health and other extenral things#out of your control. rather than just like having trouble paying attention or spending too much time on tiktok or whatever#all the strategic to do lists in the world are not going to somehow prevent me from waking up with a debilitating migraine or whatever#or having external stressors or lacking resources and connections or other Productivity Essentials etc.#especially many tips involve stuff like 'cut off from social media' since thats the modern day time waster for so many poeple#and it's like.. lol.. i can hardly even maintain a blog even thuogh i actively WANT TO DO SO. 'shut off your smart phone!' already#done babey i fucking hate smart phones i shall never use an app unless i am forced to. 'delete tiktok' yep. already covered. tiktok and#all of those thinsg are my enemies. 'save money by cancelling some of your services' cool. already ahead of you.#who the fuck is out here paying for like 10 different subscription services. pirated videos uploaded to google drive and youtube to mp3#my beloved. etc. etc. and so on. 'socialize less' .........LOL.. if only you knew.. mr.writer of the article. i can barely muster#talking to friends more than once a month and even less if I'm actively sick (often occurence) etc. etc. ... hewoo#I think maybe instead of generic productivity tips I need more like.. how to refocus and be productive anyway even if you have a headache#or are nauseous or etc. Not that those are always things to ignore. and of course you should let your body rest and etc. But plenty of peop#e have mild physical symptoms and just work through them. Ithink something about the way my body/mind is SOO hyper attuned to all#sensory information just makes it like... constantly 'GRR well I cant focus on WRITING right now because my lef#t ear feels weird and my socks are too itchy and my back has a strange pressure and I'm vaguely warm and my eye feels some ssort of#way it doesnt normally feel and I'm hyperaware of my breathing and also nauseous for no reason' and like half of those things I#think '''normal''' people wouldnt even notice or at least would be able to just live through. but for me it's like.. nealry impossible to i#gnore and soooo distracting always. like 'wahh.. nooo we can't draw or get anything done.. my legs feel slightly heavy or something!!'#like............. ok......... who cares. thats not even a PAIN sensation it's just something weird. but it's just like.. NO. constant#mental alerts about the 'heaviness' of your legs be upon ye. Though Imean like.. yes.. 70% of the time I am in genuine pain#or having some sort of actual ailment with trackable physical symptoms. but sometimes it's just like... we could totally be working right#now and ignoring this silly thing but my brain is fixated on it for no reason uncontrollably. etc. etc. I guess it's the same way that like#most people can go to a grocery store without the whole experience being so overwhelming and so much stuff going on at once#that they have to rest afterwards but like.. in my own HOME doing NOTHING i feel like I should be able to not get overwhelmed lol. ANYWAY#Rolling my bastard little rock up a dumbass hill and so on and so forth
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i am predicting that sunday will be a nihility character to contrast robin's harmony (hoyo PLEASEEE make him a dot buffer đ i really want him but if he won't synergize well with kafka then i fear i'll have to skip...)
honestly at this point i just want sunday to be drip marketed and released and in my account đđ like i will be pulling him and his lc no matter what his synergy with the charas in my account are bc i need him. carnally. and desperately.
#omg a convo !?#nonnies !!#may this journey lead us starward <3#but omg him being nihility to contrast robin....#im just super curious as to how he will be when we next see him bc he was confined but then freed?? i think??#and now its basically up to him to choose his own path so that could majorly affect his path#originally i thought he was going to be erudition but now i feel like it could be anything depending on how he goes abt it#like stellaron hunter sunday would be cool.... but then again him joining the express..... i want that....#mainly bc they have been hinting about another member joining in the future to make the crew 8 members#read: when tb was talking about wishing we had another ae member to play to games of celestial jade since we had 7 not 8#and so what IF sunday is that 8th member and his initiation is playing celestial jade bc we said so#also i think it would be so so nice for his character growth to see diff worlds with us and experience the independence humans#have within them to make peace and forge their own life as opposed to how he was forced to believe humans/everyone else#were inherently weak and needed that protection and shelter; smth gopher wood told him he could provide and be their salvation#but yes astral express crew member sunday who finds the warp jumps so baffling and he stumbles and falls and wonders how he got here#and then he watches march fail miserably in trying to stay balanced#and then he somehow finds himself growing fonder and fonder for humanity and its inhabitants and discovers his own resolve#through likeminded individuals and has this massive growth and development arc and oiulrjtlg
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MarĂa is a bad bitch queen supreme with a simple dream of reclaiming her land Volturi-style after her human life was tragically cut short by a Texan who had invaded Mexico to create his own vampire Golden Corral. RESPECT HER OR PERISH
#LOVE AND RESPECT FOR HER SHE IS WONDERFUL I LOVE HER#ALSO she's a total softie emotional lil angel who wouldn't have felt forced to take power if her entire coven hadn't been slaughtered#but after YEARS of losses - her human fam & her vamp fam & her HOME - @ the hands of vampires & white colonizers#she got addicted to power & victory! what's a girl supposed to do honestly?????#& LET'S NOT FORGET she & Jasper enabled each other to seek victory bc before they met THEY WERE BOTH LOSERS.#like#i'm just saying she is just as powerful as the Volturi#with a knack for identifying talents in humans#who used the SAME tricks as the Voturi#who was influenced to a degree by Jasper to get greedy bc they were stronger together & loved winning for a change#(we love fucked up relationship 'i can make them worse' dynamics ok)#AND who - & i really can't stress this enough - is only in this damn war because she had everything stolen from her & wanted revenge#yet somehow she gets a lot of flak because she 'manipulated' (not true) and 'abused' (also not true) Jasper?????? the Confederate?????????#just remember#without MarĂa jasper would have died in a union-army POW camp eating the fleas off his own clothes#FAX FAX FAX
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I'm just... really hung up on that person coming onto my blog and somehow getting the impression that I was anti glimbow or SPOP critical. Like could they have possibly read the room worse?
#you got me guys this whole time I was a glimbow hating spop anti playing a realllllllllllly long con because uh... profit???#me posting nothing but love for the show for 4 years straight#this person somehow: ah a hater like me!#i would feel bad for unleashing the full force of my rage#but I have had a horrible day and if you are going to come onto my post and make an utter fool of yourself#you deserve what you get at that point#at least I didn't share their bad tags so they can choose to delete and save face#though i of course kept them in case they choose violenceđ#when people realize they can just dislike something without having to make up reasons it's bad only then will i know peace#anyway today sucked and my body hates me so no one else piss me off I need rest
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been scribblin with the dip pens to prepare for inking the next comic (yuutoâ«âs âorigin storyâ kind of basically) and wow turns out I can do anything I want forever
yuutoâs new friends names of amy and linh >:]c
#UTAU#sawayama yuuto#bakuspecial#[comic tag pending]#I'll be drawing about just the beginning of this whole plot this time round. but boy oh boy if I were paid to serialize this!!#well even if I wont. I will hopefully get to chip away at it a bit at a time. over the next uhhhhh ten years#in another news. I think somethings up with the dip pens. about anything comes out looking good with them#its scary!! I kept looking at my sketches like no way these are gonna work out. but I'll do it for the practice hour#and then I do it and it always turns out pretty good. what the hells!!! thats weird!! thats kinda scary I like it!!!#and like I'm absolutely not even that good with a dip pen yet!! 1/Ive just had these for uhh. two days. and 2/my hands are NOT steady#its why u see me undo and redo a line 298473987 times twice a half hour. it was caught on stream multiple times#but!! the dip pen's making me commit to a line. and also I'm slowly internalizing that anything'd come out okay with them#as long as I have a sketch. boy oh boy is freehanding with these hard#its so. idk its so nice!! its so fun. somehow a lot less pressure than the usual stuff I do lol#I cant wait to really get into drawing this comic... I cant wait to force all of u to look at yuuto&co#you WILL see and hear my baby boy#dskjfhsjk Im so glad the senpai lets me do this. I mean even if he doesnt I will do it anyway. its just gonna suck#but Im so happy I get to do this with him actually#hehehe >:]c
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someone really should be talking about how difficult it is to plan a wedding - a gay wedding - when both of your families fucking suck
#who is talking about this!!!! let me know#idk i have 0 expectations for my family but they still somehow always manage to let me down which#i was anticipating#and i didnât think i would care because i have never cared before#but liiiiiike.#i wasnât expecting to feel sad rofl but my family is so fucking flaky. again i KNOW THIS i know i cannot rely on any of them#itâs annoying when i have given them a year and a half to make plans and i have had so many people tell me they would be there#just to back out or ghost or come up with some excuse#like do you know how expensive weddings are đ JUST fucking be honest with me and rsvp no#anyway i was very intentional with the few family members i did invite#and specifically invited people i have a rapport with / had a good (ish lol) relationship with growing up#people i have bent over backwards trying to please!!! and dropping everything to help them out#and they canât even be bothered to communicate with me lol itâs fine. like. i do feel like itâs internalized homophobia at this point#or maybe they have hated me this entire time which is totally plausible#but they KNOW how much ayesha means to me and knows that no one from her family is coming to our wedding#at the end of the day itâs going to be like. 5 people from my family 1 from ayeshaâs (her brother) and like 30-40 friends#which i am so grateful for obviously#i sound like such a brat but itâs also like - watching your family continuously choose drugs/alcohol over showing up for you - lol#AGAIN iâm used to this and expected as much but iâm still feeling bad#just rsvp so i can move on with my life please. stop telling me youâre trying to make it work when we both know you arenât#i have so much more to say but iâm going to sound crazy even though i knooooow it is homophobia like i Know it#i think there are certain people i will finally go no contact with for good after this#which is a freeing thought but i only invited v few family members to begin with. thereâs abt to be no one left lmao#probably for the best#ugh whatever#again i canât help but feel a certain way when they have done more/traveled further for relatives they hardly know#meanwhile i was forced to spend so much of my life living for these people and for them alone#AAAAAAAA i just want to scream#text
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i've fixated on the sticks for the past 7 months and i also just finished watching the first half of rottmnt s1 and also the movie, and i have come to the following conclusion:
this venn diagram is almost completely just straight-up a circle
#rosie babbles#sticks#rottmnt#animator vs animation#animation vs minecraft#red-coded brawler in a friend group of fighters who'd rather goof off and have fun but are more than capable of stepping up to save the day#questionable father figure whose past may or may not bite them all in the ass#has a kickass bestie who isn't really like them but can easily hold their own and may or may not be capable of uh. big laser blast.#(april would make it happen somehow i believe in her)#lives somewhere out of the way of 'normal' society#loves teensy weensy animals#the moment someone messes with the besties It Is On Fucking Sight#got possessed and forced to fight and nearly kill the besties once#canonically died in at least one timeline but through the power of Fuck You they're still kicking to this day#yellow-donnie parallels and the parallel conglomerate of blue-green-mikey-leo#are also bouncing around my head like a mach speed windows screensaver#it's 1:20 AM. help lmfaooooo#8:30 AM edit: OH I FORGOT ONE AHSJAHZHAHAA#they have also both been within a massive duplicate of themself controllable by their own movements and have used it for good at least once#tmnt
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So Reylos are now freaking out over episode 4 of Ahsoka cause Anakin showed up in what appears to be the wbw. I have not watched Ahsoka and don't plan to. I personally think that nothing will come out of this in regards to Ben Solos return. People think Leia sacrificed herself to send Ben there? If she sacrificed herself to save him then he wouldn't have gone anywhere he would have been alive.
Anyone who thinks there was planning or thought behind anything in tros is delusional.
Thinking they're setting up Ben's resurrection is almost as removed from reality.
#as I said years ago his return in some form is inevitable#ie: more content using the character- almost certainly exclusively in the mask and doing meaningless completely OOC villain antics#and obviously not live-action- cartoons comics books etc.#that will fuck up the timeline and make no sense#but the likelihood of Ben being resurrected and his story actually continuing forward is infinitesimal#they have made their bed and they have made clear their intention to lie in it#piss-soaked sheets and burning pillow notwithstanding#this is about finding an excuse to use HC in their show for fanservice and buzz#and that's as deep as it goes#I wouldn't watch any of this shit if you paid me but does this not destroy the ending of RotJ even more than it already was by implying#Anakin is not in a state of peace or really dead or ascended to nirvana?#he was one with the Force he should not be in any kind of purgatory or transitional dimension or whatever#but I suppose there is absolutely nothing scared and they've already shit all over everything that ending was about so why not#let's just go for the final insult and say Anakin's redemption wasn't real and he wasn't accepted into the afterlife#why let any Skywalker have anything#not one of them can have ever accomplished even he most hollow of victories#somehow we have to give THIS to Rey too#she time travelled and forced him to save Luke#NOT THAT I'M BITTER
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so i found a wriggly thing under my bed right is what happened. & naturally i catastrophise & jumped to the conclusion Oh no i have a maggot infestation! (ft. absolutely nothing to corroborate that) & so ive been stressed & upset & cleaning my room for the past two hours bc of that. well not cleaning so much as trying to sort all this shit i have no room for bc i have 2 pieces of furniture & thus not nearly enough space to put all my shit in. but yk. thats been my life without food đ
#extra context we moved in this flat a year ago & my mother never picked up the shit she left in my room that is hers#naturally i a person with adhd see the mountain of mess half of which i can literally do nothing about & am unable to do anything abt it#but im forcing myself. & then maybe my mother will stop fucking thinking she isnt taking up all my space.#once all my shit is sorted she'll see how much space shes making me miss out on.#extra extra context the dogs have pissed on my bed before so i have to use some of my boxes as a sort of gate#to prevent them from getting on my bed#& they pissed on my bed bc my mother is incapable of walking them like shes supposed to.#by incapable i mean 'she just doesnt care enough & somehow thinks shes not neglecting her pets she chose to have'#the dogs are also constantly cooped up in my room. she never even looks at them.#some people deserve to suffer. I mean who said that.
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Do y'all ever get like weirdly resistant to doing things bc people keep asking you to do them? Like there's a book series I wanna read but a friend has been pestering me to read it and keeps asking if I've read it and gets kinda bummed whenever I say I haven't yet.
And like, it's making me wanna not read it bc fucking jeez I'll get to it when I get to it and if I force myself to read it bc they want me to I won't enjoy it bc it'll feel like an obligation or a chore and not something I'm choosing to do for fun
But on the flip side I feel bad bc I'm SURE I'll like it bc it's super up my alley, and I know they're recommending it bc they like it a lot and they know I'll like it too! And actually I had found and intended to read this series BEFORE my friend ever read it! And I wanna talk to my friend about this thing they like even if I end up not enjoying it yknow?
But the stubborn part of my brain is digging in it's heels and getting weirdly resentful and wants to NOT read it bc said friend is so excited and like??? what a shitty emotion, to start to resent the idea of something bc someone you care about likes it??? fucking WHY ugh let me try the things my friends enjoy
#I have to force myself to talk to friends about joint interests sometimes#like a bunch of us have all listened to tma#but I'm not finished and they are and I don't want to tell them I'm trying to get caught up#bc they'll get all excited and expectant and then my brain will do this thing and make me stop#I always complain about wanting to talk to people about my interests#but like the second my friends are in to something I get weird about talking to them about it#and idk why#like am i worried I'll like it differently? or âwrongâ somehow?#am i worried they'd judge me if I'm TOO into it (but like no they won't i know this??)#am i worried they'll be disappointed if i don't like it as much as they do??#and this is EVERY shared interest#like why am i so resistant to talking to specifically my irl friends about shit we all like????#idk another convo for my therapist i guess#whenever i find one again
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one thing they don't tell you about song writing is you WILL get hit with inspiration at 1 am and you WILL have to write down the whole thing before you forget and you WILL find a tune for it while typing and now you gotta actually finish it so you can record a draft so you don't forget it and- oh look it's 2:22 am
#:(#BUT the draft slaps. imo. the singing's Not Great it's purely to save the melody somehow#also some parts def need to be polished lol when i sing along on my phone in bed I'm too lazy to go back and do retakes#(in part bc it can delete stuff i don't want deleted so.) so if there's a line I'm not sure about well. i have to wing it lol#anyway. this one exists in the same cinematic universe as loveless. aka fun upbeat pop songs about how i can't feel love#i like it! i like how my brain immediately went to a fun pop tune while writing. it's perfect. i love the irony of it so so much âĄ#it's also kinda funny to call it pop when there isn't any music ajdkflglh but i can hear it clearly in my head so đ§ yeah.#yknow I'm surprised by how naturally this sort of thing comes to me now#and i find myself writing to match the tune rather than forcing a tune to match the lyrics#it also just. makes them better. sound more natural imo. less pretentious too :P#idk I'm excited that i managed to create smth sorry for the ramble đ#i need to wake up at around 9:45 so wish me luck with that đ„Č bc i doubt I'll be able to sleep soon lol
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me feeling bad about being unaligned with binary gender and then i think about how Guz would just Get It right off the bat because honestly idk how it's such a hard concept for ppl to grasp đ and it makes me feel a little better fdsfjkl
#i feel bad sometimes like oohh ur such a special snowflake for not being feminine OR masculine oooh u wanna be special so bad#no you Made-Up-Person-in-my-Brain. no i dont want to be special actually fdsjkl#i really wish this was just normal. i so badly want to just be normal#honestly i start thinking ''maybe i should just be okay with being considered feminine or masculine. i should just pick one i guess''#but no !! neither fit right !! both make me uncomfortable !!#i do understand the concepts of both but i exist outside of them somehow! and idk why thats so difficult for ppl to grasp!#it is just a little lonely seeing posts talking about ''feminine ppl or masculine ppl'' like. okay i dont fit either of those. damn.#and it feels alienating bc i guess ppl dont know unaligned folk exist! transneutral is such a rare label to see talked about!#''this is nonbinary inclusive bc im saying masculine and feminine :)'' WHAT IS SO HARD TO GRASP ABOUT NON-BINARY. ITS RIGHT IN THE NAME!#why are u re-inventing the gender binary !!!!!! u just changed the words ur using for binary gender WHAT đđđ#i think maybe i resent that i have to force myself into one category or the other for other ppls comfort tbh fdsjkl like. can i just exist.#but i do think Guz would genuinely just understand it immediately. not just because i Want him to LOL.#he'd be like ''ohhh theres a word for that? hell yeah that rules. i'll have to see if a few of the grunts heard about this shit yet''#bc im sure there'd be a wide range of queer kids on the team LOL#if u get a bunch of misfits together ur going to have like... a LOT of queer ppl in the group FDSJFKL#dandy.cmd#vent //#đso good at being in trouble
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