#i have such delicate hearing :(

[fireladybuckley]

I can’t believe a boyfriend made a silly sex joke to lighten the mood after both partners had a moment of vulnerability. The audacity. The horror. The normalcy! Unbelievable. How dare a conversation about feelings turn to levity. How dare a couple have a light chat about trauma-related things over dinner that doesn’t turn into an incredibly deep heart to heart instead of a joke and moving on. Unbelievable. I’m never watching this show again! 👎🏻

[aflerglow]

also tell me what your overplayed song is!

[trans-leek-cookie]

its past midnight and time to yap about Mouthwashing. Anyway obviously we don't see the Specific Events only how the characters react but with Anya... Okay I'm going to talk about the Sexual Assault not with Specific Details but that's what the post is about so

Anyways she reads to me as very like... trying to downplay the severity to herself. Like thinking through it (not having the exact quotes but) I feel like it'd be an unfortunately natural reaction- if you were stuck with 4 guys and the guy with the second highest position on the ship assaulted you depending on the situation. I feel like its not hard to imagine you'd try and reframe it as Less Bad to cope because let me be honest if I had to confront the implications of that, mainly the fact he could do it again and I wouldn't have any real way of dealing with it without complicating things even further bc he doesn't just have a close relationship with the guy with the Most Power on the ship, he also is in charge of keeping Me and The Other People On The Ship Safe, i would be in deep denial just to not lose my god damn mind like thats so fucking scary. And then the implication you tried to talk to the captain and even if he wasn't cruel he didn't Understand the Severity of what you were suggesting is like. Besides feeling afraid it could genuinely really fuck with my own perception bc like "if this guy who I trust says he's not a bad person maybe I'm just overreacting?" is. Again unfortunately understandable.

And again I'll say that Anya fully breaks down when the news breaks that pony express is fucked and like. 1. I think that's related to her own finances (and also. Literally just realized the way an abortion could interact badly with "no savings" like I Just Processed that fact. Like I knew "oh if she couldn't abort having to support a child wouldn't just be traumatic but also fucking nightmarish finance wise" but even having an abortion could make things so much harder.) 2. Jimmy LASHES OUT at Curly OPENLY. again based on my interpretation of Mildly In Denial To Cope this would. Like. Really fuck with that because it goes from "I trust the captain and I don't want to be afraid of my crewmate for a year" to "oh he is willing to verbally abuse the captain, who is his friend" and realizing I wasn't overreacting.

I also wanna point to the dead pixel conversation and obv it's symbolic but idk if it's meant as "there's a dead pixel that Anya noticed and she's using the topic to like test the waters" or if it's "anya is literally just trying to figure out Curly's thought process" which isn't like super important but like. Focusing on the way she starts the conversation by saying that she "Likes the illusion the screen has". (I don't remember the exact words sorry) But that's really interesting to me bc obviously you can read into Curly not seeing the dead pixel and instead focusing on the bigger picture (and how the dead pixel "doesn't ruin the illusion") but I think it's really interesting that Anya starts by talking Positively about the screen even though the dead pixel is there (and she can't stop thinking about it)

Like thinking through implications option 1: she's talking about the screen and uses the dead pixel to get a feel for how Curly responds to her bringing up issues

2: she's being entirely metaphorical and still trying to sort of self soothe- seeking external validation that the dead pixel Isn't Actually That Big A Deal (and therefore she's just overthinking)

3: idk how to phrase this exactly but ppl have talked Abt the way she talks to Jimmy, how it indicates a sort of "Fawn" response where she tries to keep him calm with compliments and stuff, and her talking about "enjoying the illusion" is her trying to do something similar with Curly- essentially starting the metaphor by downplaying the issue

Anyway. I don't know if I have a full conclusion but another thing is I think ppl need to acknowledge that while Curly fucked up and harmed Anya (mainly thru inaction). He's not uniquely shitty. Most people will be in a situation where they act similarly, and that DOES NOT JUSTIFY HIS ACTIONS. I AM NOT SAYING CURLY IS ANY BETTER. I am saying that you need to be able to recognize your capacity for harm thru inaction and understand that like. He's not uniquely terrible he's just Normal Levels Of Unhelpful, which in a situation like Anya's is Dangerous

Like. Basically you can say "fuck jimmy fuck curly" all you want but you need to be able to understand that everyone including yourself has the same capacity for harm

[bandtrees]

looking for art of my beloved homunculus blorbo and then having to scroll at the speed of sound past people trying to do Well-Intentioned-Anti-Racist-But-Still-Super-Skeevy-And-Uncomfortable #deep #commentary with their not!sasha designs

[davrinassan]

casually crying because there’s a fly in a spiders web desperately trying to fly out so hard it sounds like screaming like it’s begging and pleading for my help but i know that spider needs to eat and it’s nature and to interfere is a different kind of cruelty

[lightblueminecraftorchid]

I love learning ASL it’s so good. Makes me happy to learn it. I’m so glad my university has classes for it with professors actually steeped in Deaf culture.

[definitelynotshouting]

Hello. Chapter 6 absolutely killed me. It’s just fjnsiwmsoekroxmsomekdm /pos

It is giving me so many emotions and I am not okay from it. Just the contrast of the others figuring out more of what is going on with Grian and trying to help him verse Grian planning to kill himself.

Really glad that Xisuma is fully planning on helping Grian his way without giving Grian a choice in the matter. He needs to be dragged kicking and scream to be helped, and I’m glad that they’re willing to do that.

I’m also hurting from Scar trying so hard to help Grian but Grian just rejecting him at every offer 😭

:DDD im so so glad you enjoyed the chapter!!!! It was a real monster to grind out, so im glad it seems like it was worth the wait!!! 🥰🥰🥰

There's definitely some very interesting dissonance happening between scar + xisuma and grian here-- that push and pull between the help and harm is something i find endlessly fascinating to depict, because its just so real. Sometimes you find yourself in the unenviable position of having to make hard choices for somebody else's safety, and it SUCKS, and nobody is happy about it, least of all the person you're actually trying to help

Im really glad the scene with Xisuma and Scar deciding to bring Grian back to Hermitcraft (despite his protests) seems to be hitting where i want it to tho!!! Ive got a lot of thoughts and feelings abt depictions of autonomy and especially when that autonomy is being undermined, and i wanted this to come across as what it is: a necessary, last-ditch evil for the sake of someone's survival. Better an angry friend than a dead one, etc etc-- it's not something Xisuma wants to overrule him on, but at the same time, it's the only course of action he can see that will save his friend. He's pretty fucked up over Grian almost dying in front of him, tbh, and i hope that despite the mild way he tries to conduct himself, that shines through fairly clearly

Eidjwjdsj alright ramble over thank you so much for both the comment and this ask, im truly so glad you liked this chapter!!!!! :DDDD

[johnbly]

cork board? no no no. cork boat.

[lostandbackagain]

annoying people love telling you it's your fault if a book is confusing and boring

[howtobeamagicalgirl]

Can't believe I put off buying mesh lingerie/delicates bags for laundry for so long. I use at least 2 per load. You can put all of your socks/underwear/other small items in there and wash them and dry them in the bag, and then when the laundry is done you don't have to hunt through all of your other clothes to find them, they're all in a little pouch for you and they get just as clean that way.

You can also put a fitted sheet in one and it will prevent it from gathering up all of the other items in the dryer and preventing everything else from getting dry. I'm learning so much about the capabilities of these things.

[dnalt-d2]

OH WAIT THEY CAN TRY TO APPEAL IT????

YOU CAN'T PLAY WITH MY HEART LIKE THIS MAN I'M NOT EMOTIONALLY OKAY RIGHT NOW

[honeybabymp3]

@sapphicscience :’) god 2019 was such a Time

[tvrningout]

chiyo biting her fist when guys have nice hands and ladies are very shaped? yeah

[karmaphone]

also mad that the movie changed it to a light pink silk dress. Carrie chose red velvet for a reason. luxury (even imitation luxury) fabrics are Godless and Sinful and red is The Color Of Sin. it echoes the blood dress she wears later, it's a cry to God or Anyone Who'll Listen, it's a slap in her mother's face, it's a maroon stop sign to the plague of her mother's house and the impending slow death of her post-education life

[ryouverua]

Just had a revelation on how both Ryou Bakura and Kaito Momota could both be such strong favourite characters for me when they seem so different, self-centred selfless characters my beloved -

[cetoddle-archive]

good god. i wish i could adjust the volume on my ipad better