#I JUST HAVE A LOT OF THOUGHTS. ABT AUTONOMY. AND THE DELICACY OF PORTRAYING THAT BEING UNDERMINED

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Hello. Chapter 6 absolutely killed me. It’s just fjnsiwmsoekroxmsomekdm /pos

It is giving me so many emotions and I am not okay from it. Just the contrast of the others figuring out more of what is going on with Grian and trying to help him verse Grian planning to kill himself.

Really glad that Xisuma is fully planning on helping Grian his way without giving Grian a choice in the matter. He needs to be dragged kicking and scream to be helped, and I’m glad that they’re willing to do that.

I’m also hurting from Scar trying so hard to help Grian but Grian just rejecting him at every offer 😭

:DDD im so so glad you enjoyed the chapter!!!! It was a real monster to grind out, so im glad it seems like it was worth the wait!!! 🥰🥰🥰

There's definitely some very interesting dissonance happening between scar + xisuma and grian here-- that push and pull between the help and harm is something i find endlessly fascinating to depict, because its just so real. Sometimes you find yourself in the unenviable position of having to make hard choices for somebody else's safety, and it SUCKS, and nobody is happy about it, least of all the person you're actually trying to help

Im really glad the scene with Xisuma and Scar deciding to bring Grian back to Hermitcraft (despite his protests) seems to be hitting where i want it to tho!!! Ive got a lot of thoughts and feelings abt depictions of autonomy and especially when that autonomy is being undermined, and i wanted this to come across as what it is: a necessary, last-ditch evil for the sake of someone's survival. Better an angry friend than a dead one, etc etc-- it's not something Xisuma wants to overrule him on, but at the same time, it's the only course of action he can see that will save his friend. He's pretty fucked up over Grian almost dying in front of him, tbh, and i hope that despite the mild way he tries to conduct himself, that shines through fairly clearly

Eidjwjdsj alright ramble over thank you so much for both the comment and this ask, im truly so glad you liked this chapter!!!!! :DDDD