#i have so many more thoughts tbh but ok calm down now

[sensivs]

Smash

SUBBY GHOST SMUT O_o ?!?!?!

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Basic summary: your a very flirty man, you basically flirt with everyone in 141, but ghost takes your flirting to the next level bc he’s IN LUV WITH YOU OOOOOOO, and then he corners you and basically says “give me that dick”

(Btw your shorter than him, maybe 6’2/6’0 or however short you wanna be)

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“Hey sexy, what you doing with all that?” You said to soap as he walked by, soap chuckled, “I’m gonna go to sleep”

“Awhhhh, can I sleep with you?” “Not today at least” you then again whined but let soap be on his way.

You were just gonna go have a walk outside, today had been a tough day and all you needed was a good refresher.

You stepped out of the base and just started walking, looking ahead into the black road. You then looked up into the sky, the stars glistened, fire blazing 40 trillion kilometers away from where you stood.

The moon shined the brightest, wanting all the compliments that the world had to say for it contribution.

Suddenly, you felt a tap on his shoulder, he looked back, readying to punch the shit out of whoever dared to touch you.

It was.. ghost? “Ghost what are you doing here?” “I was looking for you”, oh god what did ghost want from you now?

He already asked you to do 160 push ups earlier today so maybe he wanted more from you. “I-“ “no I’m not gonna do 160 push ups right now thank you”.

Ghost chuckled, “no I’m not gonna asking that, it’s just..” you grew more concerned on what ghost had for you, he was not the type of guy to hold back anything he had to say and was straight up.

“I was wondering about that thing you said to me earlier..” what? What did you say to him earlier?… oh yea.

You told him how fucking hot he was, no lies were told tho. “Oh yea, haha, are you here to beat me up for it?”

“Not necessarily” if he didn’t want you to do 160 push ups.. and if he didn’t want to beat you up for calling him a hottie then.. what did he want.

“I just thought.. if the thing you said.. did you mean it?” What? Did this guy never experience flirting? Tbh.. you really did mean it, no one just took you seriously bc you flirt too much.

“Oh.. yea I kinda did to be honest” you sheepishly rubbed your neck, not wanting to be straight forward with how much you really did like ghost.

Ghost looked kinda taken aback by it, even in the barely lit area you two were in, the moon shone on ghost’s mask and his eyes.

His eyes were fucking beautiful in the night sky.. the brown and white really went well together.

“If you want me to stop then I can do that” “no.. it’s just..” you could tell that ghost was struggling to say something, he was trying to make something out of the sputters that came out of his mouth.

He grew irritated and you realized that, “hey hey, let’s calm down alright?” You grabbed both of his hands, the warmth that your hands made ghost stop his sentence.

He looked into your eyes, he completely embarrassed himself and he knew that. He took a deep breath..

“I like you..” you heard him, but just to play with him.. “what?” “I fucking like you ok?” Your eyes widened a bit.

Ghost.. an absolute killing machine, has gone through so many traumatic things, cold blooded and didn’t care for anyone .. was in love with you?

“Oh yea? What do you like about me~?” “Shut up and just kiss me” oh wow.. what a straight forward approach for someone who didn’t know how to express anything.

Ghost lifted up his mask above his lips and collided them with yours. You kissed him with passion, you loved him with everything in you.

Ghost grabbed your ass, you took this as a chance to wrap your legs around his waist. “You gonna fuck me?” Ghost chuckled and shook his head, “no, you’re gonna be the one to fuck me”.

.. WHAT 😨. Ghost was.. A SUBMISSIVE AND BREEDABLE GUY???? This had to be a dream… cuz this is was exactly what you wanted.

“Oooo, how will everyone else feel knowing their killing machine is an absolute whore?” “I don’t fucking care anymore, just fucking take off your pants and fuck me with everything you got”.

You quickly took off your pants, along right ghost’s as well. Ghost’s ass was HUGE, I’m not kidding, you touched it, THAT SHIT JIGGLED.

You then had a wonderful idea.. you charged up your hand and slapped the shit out of his ass. You heard ghost moan from that..

God this man was an absolute whore for pain but you didn’t complain. You then took two fingers and pressed them against ghost’s mouth.

“Suck them babe~” he happily did so, drenching your fingers in so much saliva it dripped out of his mouth.

You took your two fingers and positioned them at his hole. You then pushed them into him, fuck was he tight.

He clenched a bit but you could tell that he was trying his best not to. You started to finger him, causing the big man to start moaning like an absolute whore.

“You like this don’t you?” Between moans ghost responded with a shakey “y-yes”. Once you stretched him again, you positioned your dick right in front of his hole.

But something came up in your mind.. you then had the perfect position for ghost’s and your first time.

You sat flat down on your booty, you grabbed ghost’s hips and pulled them closer to you. Right where ghost’s hole was now perfectly positioned above your cock.

You then pushed him down, ghost’s ass basically engulfing your cock to the base. Ghost moaned loudly, he knew that it was extremely loud but he honestly didn’t care. He just wanted you and your cock.

“Ride me big boy~” the way you said that made ghost shiver in excitement, he then picked up his ass and then slammed it back down.

You threw your head back, this bitch really knew how to ride a big cock. He kept bouncing his ass up and down, his huge ass jiggling every second he rode you like a rodeo.

You couldn’t take it anymore.. “o-oh fuck..! Cumming!!” You squealed as you then blew a huge load into ghost.

You huffed a bit, but ghost kept bouncing on you. “W-what the fuck are you doing? I already came!”

“We’re not stopping until I cum big boy~” ghost’s riding became too much to handle, he was overstimulating you and wanted all the cum you could offer.

You felt his hole clench, he was close. A few seconds later. He came.

You two sat there, trying to catch both of your breathes. “Sooo.. does this mean we’re dating?” “What do you think?….. of course we fucking are”

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HEYYY GUYS :D

Sorry for not uploading for a couple of days, school is getting kinda tuff BUT WINTER BREAK IS COMING WOOOOOOOOO

be ready for upcoming smuts! And hcs <3333

LOVE YOU GUYS !!!!!! /p

[y0urnewhyperfixation2]

autistic rwby hcs

ive been seeing a lot of autistic rwby hcs so here's some of my own :)) it's very unorganized so good luck (totally was not projecting throughout all of this)

RUBY - the autistic silly ever i love her sm. we already see in the show, even the manga she's crazy obsessed with weapons so I'll take that as either her special interest or hyperfixation. i like to hc that when she was little she rambled abt weapons to mainly yang, but when she went to beacon she began talking abt them more to blake. sometimes even weiss would listen (but again, mainly blake). ALSO ruby cannot understand social cues for her LIFE (me fr). This is a common trait many autistic people share. Overall, she has trouble communicating and interacting with others in v1. In one of the first few episodes (ep 2 i think) she seems to oppose the idea of making new friends when Yang brings it up. This could hint at a small disliking for change (that she eventually learns can be a good thing). when she was younger i like to imagine that ruby wouldn't really have a sense of fear, and would often get herself into dangerous situations that yang or summer had to pull her out of. impulsive ruby perhaps. probably a clumsy little kid too. now these are just hcs so i hc ruby as a leg bouncer. i think she'd stim the most out of all of rwby and just can't keep still no matter what (maybe AuADHD ruby rose idk just an idea). I think ruby would enjoy hand-flapping when she's excited, and she's usually bouncing on her toes or swaying on her feet bc shes so restless. chewing her nails too when she's anxious. I like the idea that ruby would sit down and rock herself when she's distressed (again, totally not projecting). hc that ruby would also despise eye contact. also i think ruby would absolutely hate the texture of eggs, idk why. ruby also has meltdowns from time to time, but they increase in numbers the closer they get to v9 and worsen. ALSO ALSO ALSO ruby has trouble controlling her volume, incorrect pitch tone and speed. basically ruby is very autistic to me :D

WEISS - weiss is a trickier one tbh but I CAN SEE IT. ok so yknow that one time in v2 (or 3 idk) where weiss wont shut up abt the vytal festival and remnant world history n stuff. and that other time she starts talking to ruby abt vale's communication tower and the history behind it. i know she's probably just invested in that stuff bc shes weiss and she was also from another country (atlas), but STILL. i think she would hyperfixate on that stuff. she would like to just compile the weirdest most random facts ever abt the world around her and just start spouting them out at everybody bc it makes her so happy. this makes people think she's a know-it-all though, so :( which also leads into my hc that weiss was forced to mask her autism for a LONG time in Schnee Manor. her father thought she had some "illness" and took the ableist route (sounds familiar). i think this would lead to weiss being insecure abt her autism and having that sinking feeling of needing to be "fixed". dw, weiss begins to embrace and accept her autism the more time she spends with rwby :) also, even if weiss is pretty sarcastic herself i think she had trouble understanding sarcasm back at beacon. she got a little better at deciphering it over the next few volumes but ultimately she has trouble sussing it out sometimes. i also think that weiss would bounce her leg when she's nervous, probably twirl her pencil. her voice gets noticeably higher in the show when she's excited (like when she met with Winter), so i hc that she squeals when shes super happy. she would enjoy organizing as well. maybe she'd even use singing as a vocal stim. at first, i think weiss would've hated being touched, but then she shifts to be absolutely touch-starved. (she likes yang and ruby's hugs the best bc the deep pressure calms her) and also we all know weiss probably sucked at making friends if she ever had the opportunity. she probably also is crazy good at spotting even the smallest details and observations and stuff. ive also considered bpd weiss but y'all arent ready for that discussion

BLAKE - now i'll be honest: i haven't actually thought abt autistic blake a lot. the thought kinda just skimmed my mind im sorry ;w; but we all know blake would hyperfixate on her books. a bunch. ngl she'd probably be that one person in the fandom writing a whole lot of fanfics idk why. maybe she had a small hyperfixation for wildlife and nature when she was little. i can see her being one of those kids who enjoyed playing in the grass and collecting bugs in Menagerie. in the show (beacon arc) we do know that blake is more reserved and it takes a while for her to trust, and its probably bc of her past relationship with adam but shhhhh. BUT at the beginning of v1 we do notice that blake prefers to be alone, and this is different from the whole 'running away bc she thinks she's endangering everyone else' thing. like, at the beginning of v1 she's implied to be mildly annoyed at yang's attempts to befriend her, and she immediately walks away from ruby the first time they met. many autistic people prefer to be alone and blake may have been one of those people. again, just my hcs. i think blake would've had a slightly similar case to weiss, masking her autism around adam. (but less extreme and she stopped masking earlier than weiss.) ghira and kali probably got her diagnosed at a young age, so blake's always been aware of her autism and overall, she doesn't have a big problem with it. i think (mainly post v9) blake would sometimes purr or like yknow hum to soothe herself. i can also see her organizing and rearranging stuff. she would also run her fingers and twirl her hair a bunch. i also think blake would be the most affected from loud noises, and she owns a pair of modified cat-ear headphones for this. blake's social battery is drained pretty easily too.

YANG - haven't thought of her that much either ;w; but i think her special interest would be motorcycles or smth like that. similar to blake, maybe she was obsessed with nature at some point, like bugs and birds. i think yang would also find comfort in deep pressure. probably owns a heavy-weighted blanket (she and ruby would cuddle up underneath it when they were both overwhelmed as kids). yang probably bounces her leg too when she's nervous, maybe taps her fingers on the desk or chews her pencil. i think yang would also struggle with managing her emotions and has several methods to calm herself down. oh and yeah i think yang would've been diagnosed at a young age. she doesn't really know whats "wrong" with her at first, but comes to accept her autism pretty easily after that. when she was little i think she had a rough time making friends. she was always too loud and couldn't control her volume. taiyang has always made an effort to understand yang's autism and tries to help her in any way he can (yang gets a little annoyed by it). oh no yang is a hard one too uhhhh lemme think. yang would've loved certain sweet, flowery smells and fluffy textures as a kid, and often went to them seeking comfort. maybe scented pillow or smth. i think she would've also been those kids to carry around a comfort object like a stuffed animal everywhere (ruby does this too). probably one of those kiddos to also get hurt a lot, so summer would have to patch her up almost every day after school. yang learns to be more careful and watchful of her steps later on. i feel like yang would also be kinda picky abt what clothes and fabric she wears bc of the texture.

my brain juices are dead so those are my autistic rwby hcs. uhm yay bye help this took hours for some reason even though nobody is gonna see this lol

[angelic-brutality]

hii ! idk if your requests are open atm but if they are then pls ignore this message jfjskkj

i was wondering if i could request for hanma with gender neutral! reader who gets panic attacks from the sound of someone hitting objects? they tend to get moody due to that but this time their hands were all shaky and they began crying

im sorry if this made you uncomfortable pls ignore this if you want to and ty in advance btw

look who's finally writing something again

and hey, anon! dw, ofc i can write that ;) and sorry for the delay :< i was on a trip and had some ""creative problems""

a/n.: i'm brazilian, there are probably some grammar mistakes here. and this is more like a "hanma helping reader with a panic attack" cause tbh i never experienced what you're saying, and i don't wanna mess everything up. still hope you like it!

if you both were in public, he would get you by your arm and head to a place without many people. if you both were at some place with rooms, he would lock you guys inside one so you wouldn’t be disturbed.

at first, hanma would be quite scared. he never dealt with anything close to that, so watching you have a panic attack made him quite hesitant and undecided;

he only experienced panic attacks when he was the person panicking, and he thought “not everything i do to calm down would calm down another person”

if you were wearing a sweater, he would ask you to take it off. one thing he leant is that cold can help in those type of situations

hanma slightly touched your face and lifted it, starting to make eye contact with you

“listen, i might not be the best person to help you right now, but i can try. here, breath with me”

even though you had a runny nose - because of the crying - you began to breathe with him. on the beginning it was quite difficult cause you kept sobbing, but he kept the same pace

eventually he would ask if he could touch you. if you say yes, he’d grab both your hands or even hug you (if you’re the type that likes hugs). if you say no, he would murmur an “ok” and just get his hands off of your face

he would also ask if you want to talk about it. if the answer is yes, he would probably ask why you felt so nervous and started to panic, just so he understand more and try a more effective way to help

if the answer is no, he’d start to talk about something that doesn't relate in any way to that

however, if he thinks you’re getting uncomfortable, he would stop and ask how he can help at that moment

once you’re fully calm down, he would make some stupid jokes, just to try to make you smile - or even laugh

honestly if nothing helps he would offer you a cigarette

tagging; @shujivenus @drakensprincess @wittykittywoes @drakensrealgirlfriend @rome-alone

[growling]

please give us the tea on the warrior cats ships!!!

I'll go first by saying Mothpool is overhyped and Leafpool had more chemestry with Cinderpelt. (in my opinion, ship what you like!)

:3c !!! Didn't think anybody would actually ask I am gonna gonna ramble now.. Separating this into pos and neg opinions

Positive:

I did think of leafcinder before and thought it was cute but not really something I'll get passionate about (i tend to be very picky on these kinda age gap/mentor x apprentice ships), now that I'm reminded of it I can really see it! They would have a great dynamic (taking tnp cinderpelt personality into account here. tbh her in tpb and her in tnp are almost different characters to me... where's your whimsy girl...), and honestly, there are almost endless options for Leafpool ships (she interacts with so many cats woagh that's crazy for this series she actually has friends??) that have more chemistry than crowpool. I mean it's fine I guess from a strictly plot perspective (and even that's well. bendable) but why is Leafpool, 30 cat years after their breakup, dead, in cat heaven, STILL deeply in love with cat Clay Puppington. I know they will get back together in StarClan because the authors absolutely love them and think they popped off writing their romance subplot they think they created a banger. Sorry this veered off into negative can't help being a hater.

hollyjaylion, leafsquirrel and bramblehawk are the three shipcest pairings I will never be able to be normal about. Canon to me. I say this as if I'm joking but I'm serious oughhh the goddamn dynamics. On a joking note though, graysky. there is no healthy nothing to see here just bro supporting his bro explanation for whatever the hell gray wing's problem was this entire arc

spottedtiger is cool it's interesting it's mindblowing it saves lives and it's haters are sooo silly I am sorry... "but spotted is his aunt according to the family tree!!!!" ok. and is this made relevant in the books at all? do they ever even acknowledge these two as kin. It's so pointless.. draw them making out

why's the fandom turning on darktiger suddenly now because they're still related (which is not even relevant or explicitly pointed out in the books and them being related was only decided way after both of their arcs together were done I. ughhhh.) wasn't this your favourite little henchman x fascist dictator toxic yaoi ship just a few years ago?? cowards. draw them making ou- ah wait that's just dark being obsessed with tiger, who on the other hand would RATHER NOT he wants that useless lickspittle OBLITERATED he doesn't CARE

ivyhawk good she could fix him. or he can make her worse. once again the fandom are major cowards for turning on it just like they did with darktiger, but much, much more aggresively so. like you people need to calm tf down just take deep breaths it's just a warrior cat ship...

people complaining about dovetiger's age gap (which are commonplace in the wc series tiger is not alone in dating apprentices) are so boring. they actually have the most wholesome dynamic in the current era/arcs I'd argue. they're in love and I love them. as a ship and both as characters.

fallenholly had the option to be one of THE best dubiously-canon wc pairings to come out of this series had they just went the direction of making fallen actually somewhat more messed up after being trapped as a ghost in the torment tunnels for cat centuries like. I remember someone else wording this really well earlier but I'm not really gonna search so just. Yeah. fallen leaves ships.

leopardtiger is hilarious I don't care. she thinks he's sooo correct and intelligent and truly the enlightened sigma worthy of the tigerclan podcast throne while also poisoning his food because he's fucking pissing her off in their side twitter dms and plotting his demise every night while he's snork mimimi'ing next to her in their kitty political marriage cuddle pile. ben shapiro x pragerU fucking ship I hope they kill each other

mudhawk... funny... seriously WHY is the fandom picking the most interesting goddamn ships to get pissed off at and call "problematic"??????? "age gap" THEY WERE BOTH ADULTS WHEN THEY MET WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU ON LET HAWK MANSPLAIN MANIPULATE MANFUCK THAT OLD MAN

I didn't read AVoS in it's entirety (and don't want to. it's... boring for the most part. I mean I love violet but is she enough to make me keep reading all that.) and don't remember if they even had any notable interactions but violetpuddle is very cute and my favourite (and, honestly, only) option for their ships. puddle's mother suckled violet but they don't consider each other "real" siblings just like how their mother doesn't consider violet as her daughter but try telling that to the fandom who can't distinguish between wet nurse arrangement, foster siblings and adopted siblings. Proud only resident of violetpuddle nation...... literally nobody else is here...

Negative: (gonna start censoring the cat/ship names now)

so correct moth.pool overhyped and their fans annoying. and also because I headcanon moth as aroace like there is not a single romantic thought in her body I cannot ever imagine her in a relationship moth don't care.

*takes a deep breath* mouse.fur is not aroace. tall.star, raven.paw and barley aren't gay. authorial statements made 10 years ago at some con ARE NOT CANON. IF IT'S NOT IN THE TEXT IT'S NOT CONFIRMED CANON. Also the latter examples also reek of biphobia lol. you can ship any of these characters with anyone forever, what is any of you people's problem.

long.fire, shadow.root, holly.cinder, bright.cloud, jay.kestrel are boring yaaawn I am falling asleep and do not see it. same with sandfire; these two did not have the groundbreaking dynamic (nor was sand that uh, well-rounded as character) you think they did you're just nostalgic. I actually prefer spottedfire and cinderfire over sandfire. anything over sandfire.

hawk.ash pisses me off because their shippers are always "hahahaha toxic yaoi sooo fucked up they make each other worse!!" but show them an actual toxic pairing and they immediately shit themselves and call you an abuse fetishizer. COWARDS you lot are COWARDS and this is why I cannot get behind hawk.ash at all like I associate them with the most annoying people so much I cannot sorry. I'm sure it's a cool ship or whatever

I actually got tired and now am too sleepy to articulate myself properly anymore but still here are the other ships that I either dislike or just plain out hate seeing: fern.ivy, alder.needle, crow.squirrel, bristle.root, bramble.squirrel (but that's a very popular one lol), lion.cinder.

thanks for the ask! :3

[cobaltsunflower]

Lotsa thoughts in the house tonight

Should i make a separate blog for stuckpiece? I don’t think talking about it on duck(verb) or here is really appropriate since no one cares about it anyway

Can someone please teach me how to put picture on ao3??? And how do ppl do the cool formatting stuffs???

I think i have a lot of bots followers on this main blog so it pushes the number wayyyy too high. Block or no? Tbh it’s too much to bother by now

Cool one piece artists why are you following me?!?!?!? Specially this main blog?!?!? I offer nothing of value besides reblogs and only draws indulgent buggy and crossovers that no one cares for anyway you are making me self conscious please

HOLY FUCKING SHIT THERE’S A COCKROACH HALF A METER AWAY FROM ME AS I TYPE THIS FFUUUUUCCCCCKKKKKK

FUCK RAINY WEATHERS FUCK STORMS FUCK COCKROACHES PLEASE YOU DON’T SEE ME MOVE ALONG PLEASE

Ok calm *Calm* i think it’s stationary

Should i post in vnmese? I won’t have anything better to say but at least swearing would be more satisfying eh. Would serve to make my blog even less approachable i believe

Planned to do so many things in this semester break. Ended up w executive dysfunction and doing nothing. Still want to draw, write down stuckpiece, pick up italian again, finish 2 books i borrowed from the library,... no where with anything yet

Sometimes i feel like me being overenthusiastic is pretty cringe maybe. Im always too eager to chat and answers questions for one piece newbies honestly i just want to make some friends. But i think i’m so cringe.

Maybe i’m not and it’s just a depressive episode from this fucked weather and loneliness. I can’t really talk to my friends about much due to difference in interests and one of them is spiraling in depression that I cannot help and it honestly makes me depressed too every time it came up

If i do an art trade with another artist, do we both post our pieces up and tag the other? Is there a consensus or assumed understanding to post or no? I approached the other artist a bit too abruptly and now I’m embarrassed to ask about posting since it feels like i’m asking to use their name for attention, since for real I wasn’t and was just excited for art motivation. It has been a week and I haven’t post it, would posting/asking permission to post now be too weird?

Should go to sleep now it’s late

[mooncalfe-art]

Ok. So. Of course that I ,after seeing the most recent post made about my girl, Alopex, had to bring a bit of my own take on it. Like, I do agree whit a goob portion of what was said in that post, tho, not quite whit it all. But, that dose not matter too much and i will not elaborate on what I don't believe is necessary correct. Evreyone has different opinions after all and, as you said, is interesting from how many ways this current situation is taken from.

What I do wana bring up tho, is something that both that person, me and many more agree whit...aka, the fact that Alopex right now is not in the right mental state to take care of little ones, which are also pretty traumatized themselves. At this point, evreyone is pretty down as far as state of mind and soul goes . Bad decisions ,nerves, frustration ,aggressivity ...you name it. So, of course, any kind of attempt to fix the situation at this moment will not succeed too much. What they need is to first find the peace they need, one way or another, before trying to fix the damage done in any way that will last more then 5 sec. Lol.

And, that brings me to Alopex. Her story shows a much greater interest than I initially thought. Which which was surprising to me. I focused on her relationship with the turtles and especially Raph too much ,in a moment that ,the turteles themself "crumble away", just like her ,for the moment. Even when they end up at an truce ,for the sake of Mushroom, is not like it will last long, at how all of them are and whit whatever might happen whit the little one as well ( and from what we saw from 144 and 145 descriptions ). They are not up for this pretty much at this time . And, becose of that, I think that I do get way you gave this story to Alopex and the little ones. Alopex haveing to learn from all of this, calm down and make responsible decisions ones more and be a good leader for the little ones and to help them ,is a story with great potential!

Also. About her and Raph. I be honest. Ones evreyone get their personal problems solved ,I would not mind if Alopex learn to remain good friends with Raph and the others ( something like her and Angel for example ). I loved them together...but, I can't lie. At this point, I miss them more as just companions than lovers. They always work well as a duo, no matter what, far befor the Mutant Town arc. And. Another thing.

Not only that I would do enything to see my child happy again, no matter what, but, something interesting tbh,would be to show that ,breaking up with someone you don't have a lot of ill feelings with isn't necessarily a bad thing and you can still be budys. After all. Friends are extremely important as well, from what we saw last issue.

Soo,to me, right now, that is the main things II be focus on, related to her story.

Only time will tell! ;)

[trashlie]

How do you feel about 223? Haven’t seen your thoughts on this even on Reddit so hope you’re ok!

Aaaaahhhbbh this message is so sweet hehe! 🥰💕 No worries, I'm fine! I went on my first trip I'm 5 years and I was so busy I had no down time to write down any of my thoughts! I did read it, though - I was trailing behind my friends into H-Mart and having a quiet cry as I read LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOO

I'm going to try to write a proper post after work but aaaaaahhhh! Tbh as hopeful as I wanted to be, I think the episode went through best it could have. (More spoilers moments under the cut!)

Real talk: I feel like there was no other way for that episode to go. I wanted to hope that Shinae could push Nol, I wanted to hope that Nol could in that moment find the comfort he needs, but I think we all knew better. And as heartbreaking as the episode was (like, TRULY heartbreaking) it felt weirdly hopeful...?

I'm going to write up a commentary/thought post as I reread it here shortly but I guess all summed up my thoughts are: Nol's scars are so incredibly deep, and many of them yet unhealed. While Shine has her scars and we know she hasn't made peace with them all (as evidenced when she went ham on the bear costume), she's in a better place regarding her scars than Nol is. I don't want to downplay what she's endured by any means, and I think part of her endurance is because she shoved so much of it down and repressed it, but I think it's safe to say that what has hurt her isn't as active. Alyssa's betrayal is in the past. Her mom leaving her is in the past. Although she's dealing with her sister stalking her, because she's not actively dealing with it, it's "in the past". That is to say - she's not held back in the same way by her scars as Nol is. His methods worked on her because of that, and likewise, using his methods on him won't work the same.

Nol's life is an active pit of quicksand pulling him down, and he found the more he struggled, the faster he went down. But even when he was content and ignored it, even when he found a sense of, perhaps not calm or peace but just a breather, he was still being dragged down. What happened to Shinae at the Kim formal is a reminder of just how active his scar remains. What happened with the judge of his case was a reminder of how active his scar still is.

It is not enough to love and be loved, because Nol is, for lack of better metaphor, a prey animal who has spent his life living like prey. He feels constantly under attack (because he IS) and thus he cannot bear to show his weakness. It's not simply that he doesn't want Shinae to see him like this, to see that weakness; it's not who HE wants to be, either. I think he bore a lot of remorse that he couldn't do it, that he isn't strong enough to. It's not a slight against their relationship, or who she is to him. It's that he is a person who is so hurt, who has spent so much of his life so afraid and hurt, whose very weaknesses have been used against him over and over. It's that while Shinae has found the ability to love him, he, himself, has not found the ability to love himself, can't bear to be who he really is for long.

I think Shinae is right, that she got a glimpse of the real him, and I'm glad she wants to see more. I think as heartbreaking and painful as the episode was, it's also SO HOPEFUL. It would be very easy to give up on him, but Shinaed learned from herself that no one is so hopeless they can't be helped. As it was, she thought it was impossible to beat herself when it came to this, and now she's learned that Nol suffers on a level she couldn't even imagine before, and instead of being mad that he won't open up to her, she has the empathetic insight to know the last thing he needs is to be truly abandoned. Maybe it's easier for him to feel like he's enduring alone, that he's not bringing anyone down or being a burden, but I trust that Shinae will find a way to reach out to him. Maybe it WILL take time. I always worried that we'd find all three main characters going their separate ways and it seems like I was right.

Maybe time away will help Nol heal some of his wounds. Maybe he'll find himself while he's away. Or maybe he'll find a shell that's easier to wear. (I've had a thought that maybe if Nol ever does go anti-hero, Shinae would be the tether that keeps him from going overboard, from turning into that what made him.) Like I said, it's not enough to be loved - he has to find a way to heal. Even if he's not fully healed, right now he's just an open-wound that's continuing to fester, and he can't make progress like that.

But at any rate, yeah, it feels hopeful. Shinae has learned that people need different methods to heal, that people are not an inherently lost cause. And while she's hurt by his refusal to take off his mask, I think she gets it, and understands that abandoning him is the last thing he needs.

But man did I cry lmao I felt so deeply for her, but also for him. It hurts to know how badly he feels, that even a moment that brought her so much joy couldn't reach him the same (that he's likely haunted by the fear of what happens when it ends, afraid that it could be used against him, afraid he doesn't deserve any of it). That little panel of her red nose ;~; I think this was masterfully played, too - the pacing has been SO GOOD and the tender, intimate episode leading to this one, the way 222 felt SO MUCH like the season finale of your favorite show leading to this moment of pain and heartbreak, that's somehow JUST hopeful enough for you to think that maybe, JUST maybe, on the other side of all this pain is the sunrise they desperately need ;~;

[ithinkabouttzu]

Ok now I'm up to date with how this works could I please have an Ateez ship.✨

My dream would be to live the cottagecore dream, have golden retrievers, a garden, a pretty office to write in and live somewhere isolated and peaceful with lots of land. However I do feel like this contrasts with my chaotic personality a bit, but I have many sides which means I need somebody who is able to keep up with me. My ideal partner would be a little more relaxed than me though because I feel like if I was just dating myself it would be wayy too much aha.

In my friendgroup I'm kind of the princess one a bit demanding aha,I like nice things (I blame my Taurus moon for this though) fashion, makeup, self care. I love videos games, going to theme parks, concerts, eating out with friends, partying.. just trying to absorb as much life as possible if that makes sense.

If I had to describe my physical appearance it would be like cute babyface (I hear trauma de-ages you lol) (I have a dark sense of humour ooop) and an hourglass body, my best feature is my hair it's naturally strawberry blonde, green eyes, can't live without my winged eyeliner and false lashes.

In the past I've had traumatic experiences in relationships but I'd like somebody I can really depend on and who can take good care of me. I like to be playful but also have somebody who you can have more serious deeper conversations with. Honestly I find myself to be a walking contradiction.. I love romance books but I'm cynical about love, I'm confrontational and protective over my friends but I'm also trying to seek peace in my life. I exhaust myself lol. 🐄-anon

yes ofc thank you for your request!!! 💗

I ship you with…

Choi Jongho!

Song recommendation: A Sunday Kinda Love - Etta James

- Okay I feel like he’d be this calming presence in your fast life style tbh

- mans is so down to give you the best princess treatment ever, like when y’all go shopping together, literally get anything you want and don’t worry about a budget, he just wants to take care of his bae and spoil the heck outta you!

- Appearance wise he would find you GORGEOUS OMG, like your hair is so pretty to him he just loves the color so much, and your pretty green eyes he’s obsessed literally. He tries to be lowkey about it as much as he can but he’s so whipped for you like actually

- He would be so nervous to come up to you at first but you could definitely tell he was into you by the way he was full on staring at you, i think you’d make the first move, and he’d be talking to you with the biggest

- You help him live a little, he’s usually so busy working that he doesn’t have time to just enjoy life, But when he’s with you he can live it up to the fullest, going to little amusements and concerts, he feels young with you (even tho he is young he just acts like a grandpa sometimes 🌝)

- I could see y’all just settling down and having a peaceful life together, he’s totally down for living in a cute little cottage with an even cuter pup, as long as he’s with you he doesn’t care where you guys are

- omg he’d love playing video games with you so much. Like y’all would make a little contest like, “whoever wins gets to take the other on a date” or something cute like that

- He is very protective over you, not like an overbearing type but if someone is bothering you he’s gonna give them a full on death stare, probably even just take you away from that situation, and you’d be the same for him, if someone was making him uncomfortable you’d confront them about it definitely!

- He will always try to take the best care of you. He just wants to see you happy and will always take the time to do little sweet things for you. He’s so dang thoughtful and loving omg

- You also like bring out this cute playful side of him (he is a maknae after all) banter and teasing are always needed in yalls relationship, y’all are just like two kids around eachother and it’s actually so adorable.

Thank you for requesting lovely i hope you enjoy! <3

[libretitamortal]

I’d love to hear more of your Tony/Maria thoughts. For me I liked their meeting better in 21 and though I miss the light heartedness of their relationship, it was interesting seeing Maria point out a lot of societal issues to Tony. It’s a difficult couple to write Imo

Omgomg i finnally have the chance to go off

They sure are difficult to write i mean with what happened in the fight, with bernardo and riff and chino and then tony going to maria like nothing happened and begging (but not really) for her forgivness bc a womans love clears all mens sins.... i cant be that mad tho there's just something very special about them, for me at least, but some of it did made me mad in 2021 and i'll tell you why.

Well, i'll begin the the good bc i do agree with you nonny, i really loved how active Maria was in this ver, it felt like a different character than 1961 in some ways, it's as if she had more screentime too and i smiled every time she spoke bc she was speaking in spanish and in facts. How she spoke her mind to her brother and sis-in-law and then to tony to tell him how pointless and ridiculous a fight between both sides is bc one side is in clear disadvantage against the other... and bc she just doesn't want anyone to get hurt!!!!!! And what bothers me about the train scene is that tony was always trying to get the conversation to focus on him and his side, and yk what i get it! Riff is his bestie but why is he constantly bringing him up to get Maria to stop talking about stopping the fight.

another thing is that Maria also talked about her future plans, going to college, and doing something with her life (which wasn't something she brought up in 1961) and it just never gets adressed ever again(?) It could have been useful to support their plan to run away together but it just wasn't used because of reasons.

And then we have tony *takes a deep breath* i have a problem with 2021 tony and i'm tired of pretending i'm not. I'm gonna ignore the fact that he was played by *@&#*$&#*$# and go straight to the way he was writeen. It was fine until that scene in the mini market *cries in latina* and then he said he wanted to find a puerto riqueña girl just like doc because???? I dont even remember but thats enough for me to remember, it felt like he just wanted someone like that bc he envisioned the "perfect couple" and thats what it looked like (and tbh i feel as if he didn't change that mindset much but anyway). And the way he cuts maria off when she's talking about something important, more important that whatever relationship he has with his ex gang, is just weird.

There was something else about tony but right now i dont remember ;-;

Now....what i really have a problem with is the way THAT scene on the bedroom was handled. I know it's like the most controversial part of the show bc why would Maria sleep with the guy who killed her beloved brother. But at least 1961 tony explained why he did it, he said he had no choice bc her brother had killed his bestie (still questionable but yeah) and 2021 tony explained....nothing he didnt say a damn thing to try to get maria to calm down a little, he just stayed there waiting for maría to get over her completely understandable breakdown and he was ready to go before making sure she was ok i'm- *flips a table*

I guess there are other things that people smarter than me could point out but this is just what came to my mind first.

Even as i say all this, i really love wss 2021, every musical number is larger than life and the way so many things changed form 1961 and worked better than 1961 makes me so happy. This was actually the only movie i was excited for during the last 3-4 years i think. But 1961 is also close to my heart bc there's something about that ver that is really dreamy (the meeting scene for example) while 2021 went for a more realistic aproach. I love both of them. But i'm a sucker fo the "and the world disapeared leaving only them" trope in romance.

I could go on and on about what i liked about wss 2021 but this is already a long post 😭.

But yeah i think my biggest problem with this ver. is tony and maria's relationship. Everything else was chef's kiss.

[starsofthestorm]

guh this was supposed to be a quick warmup and it was NOT

fandom opinion stuff !!!!!

notes abt why and blank template below the cut

Favorite character - I've just always loved Rivulet. Even before I realized I WAS riv, ive always just. loved him. i love how fast-paced the campaign is, i love the story, i love the colors and mechanics and design and just. all of it !!!!!

Liked by everyone but me - i just cant really understand a lot of the fandom's love for artificer. like i dont hate arti at all but i just dont understand all of the love. to me, artificer is someone trapped in that pure fury who simply could not let go of it, regardless of how hard they may have tried to break out of it. i think that it should be highlighted more in the fandom and thats actually what im trying to change about my own rain world au- i want to highlight that fury, that grief, that pure hatred mixed with the confusion of what to do, and how even once theyve calmed down from that fury, that it can be reignited in an instant from anything that reminds them of the death of their pups, the toll scavengers, ect.

Didn't like at first - i just thought monk was boring tbh. As ive played rain world for longer and longer ive realized that monk is incredibly brave and fascinating

Would like to know more about - always been curious about nightcat and i am even MORE curious now bc of the announcement of the Watcher !!!!!!

Least Favorite Character - again, i just. i cant stand how the fandom sees arti exclusively as someone to be sympathetic for and someone to be redeemed without any of that lasting guilt and fury. kinda just ruined them for me. i do love their campaign though

Like the design, dislike (Campaign) - i literally LOVE gourm ok. i love just how much can be done with their character, i love how theyre presented in game as that kind colony member who braved a new, unknown area to benefit their family, their colony, everyone they care about and love. i just hate the exhaust mechanic and i found the food quest to just be boring and unnessecarily long and tedious

Like the campaign, dislike design - by this i mean more like. just how hunter was shown in game. i really liked the story but i feel like we just werent given enough. what were they like before leaving nsh? what were they like before the rot or before the rot began to seriously affect them? how many other iterators knew about hunter? how old even were they when they began their mission? and dont get me started on the ending i wish there was more than just the one end scene art, i wish we knew more about hunter and nsh's relationship

Similar personality - guys i kin rivulet i have always seem him acting like how i do and vice versa sorry this ones a bit boring of an answer

Fav ships - i love you puffball. i love you deepsea. my favorites ever <33

Least fav ship - this isnt personal to anyone and no hate to anybody who enjoys monk ships, i just cant see them as anything other than a pup so monk ships are just uncomfortable for me to see

would befriend irl - no joke. any of them tbh. potentially artificer but probably not just because of how that kind of grief and anger can affect people, im not sure if arti would be able to make friends with others. also the slug i drew is my slugsona, the lizardtamer <3

would never befriend irl - arti for the reasons listed aboveeee

yeah :333 heres the template !!!

[positivelybeastly]

🖤 Emma frost

attractiveness:

repulsive / hideous / ugly / not attractive / unappealing / not unattractive / meh / no preference / ok / mildly attractive / nice looking / cute / adorable / attractive / pleasant on the eyes / good looking / hot / sexy / beautiful / gorgeous / hot damn / would tap that / perfect / godlike / holy fuck there are no words.

Emma Frost is objectively an incredibly gorgeous woman who Hank, so far as I can tell, has no real sexual interest in. On an aesthetic level, she's literally the picture of perfection - of course she is, she paid top dollar for that to be the case - but I just don't think she moves the dial for Hank. When they're at their best, during, say, New X-Men, I think Hank just regards her as too close a friend to 'betray' by harbouring sexual thoughts and so he just kinda wills it not to be a thing. When they're at their worst, like, say, during Utopia, I think Hank finds her morality to be too much of a turn off to even consider her actual beauty.

personality:

grating / irritating / frustrating / boring / confusing at best / awkward / unreasonable / psychotic / disturbing / interesting / engaging / affectionate / aggressive / ambitious / anxious / artistic / bad tempered / bossy / charismatic / appealing / unappealing / creative / courageous / dependable / unreliable / unpredictable / predictable / devious / dim / extroverted / introverted / egotistical / gregarious / fabulous / impulsive / intelligent / sympathetic / talkative / up beat / peaceful / calming / badass / flexible.

I mean, let's hear it from the man himself, shall we?

I think that Hank really does like Emma, all the way up to Krakoa, but I feel like Emma doesn't always like Hank, because that's the kind of person Emma is, and who she's become over the last 20 years has changed a fair bit (to say nothing of what Marvel's done to Hank). On some level, it feels as though they're a little too much like one another in some ways, and far too different from one another in others.

how likely they would have sex with them:

not if they were the last person on earth and the world was ending / fuck no! / never / no way / not likely / not sure / indifferent / I’m asexual / maybe / probably / it depends / fairly likely / likely / yeah sure / yes / would tap that / hell yes / fuck yes! / wishing that could happen right now / as many times as possible / we are already having sex.

I don't see it, tbh. If there was ever a time, it was, like, twenty years ago, before Scott/Emma became a thing, and even then, Hank never read as being into her, imo. I've read a fic that had him pining for her, which I can see if I squint, but . . . ehh. Pretty much every version of Hank I write wouldn't, but if Marvel wanted to give it the good old college try and put a decent writer on it, then maybe.

Though, honestly, with the Scemma shippers being as fervent as they are, that's the one thing Hank could do that would earn him more hate than the war crimes.

level of friendship:

never in a million years / worst of enemies / enemies / rivals / indifferent / neutral / acquaintance / friendly toward each other / casual friends / friends / good friends / best friends / fuck buddies / bosom buddies / practically the same person / would die for them / true friends / my only friend.

Even as their friendship deteriorated over Hank's increasing instability and . . . whatever the fuck was going on with Emma post-Bendis, pre-Krakoa, I feel like Hank always wanted them to be friends, though it felt increasingly like Emma just didn't care. I hold the snippets that exist close to my heart, like Hank comforting her when New Tian goes down after Secret Empire fell, but tbh, when she confronted him at the Hellfire Gala and the X-Force Annual, I was like, eh, even without Beast being a butcher and a bastard now, that friendship needed a lot of work to be salvaged. It's probably going to be completely scrubbed regardless of how X-Force ends, and I'll miss it, but I suspect I'll be one of the few who mourns it.

first impression of them:

i hate them so much / i don’t like them / i don’t trust them / they annoy me / they’re weird / I’m indifferent / meh / they seem alright / they’re growing on me / truce / I think I like them / I like them / I’m not sure if I trust them / I trust them / they’re cool / they’re genuine / I think we’re going to get along / I really like them / I think I’m in love / oh fuck they’re hot / I love them.

First impression would likely have been being told about her during the Dark Phoenix Saga, so he would have fucking hated her goddamn guts! :) Honestly, it's kind of a mark of how forgiving Hank can be that he doesn't really hold it against her at all (barring one comment), going so far as to stick his neck out for her, repeatedly, in New and Astonishing X-Men.

current impression of them:

i hate them so much / i don’t like them / i don’t trust them / they annoy me / they’re weird / I’m indifferent / meh / they seem alright / they’re growing on me / truce / I think I like them / I like them / I’m not sure if I trust them / I trust them / they’re cool / they’re genuine / I think we’re going to get along / I really like them / I think I’m in love / oh fuck they’re hot / I love them.

You have to go back to, like, 2011 to find an example of these two being genuinely affectionate and nice towards one another. Even when Hank was comforting her after New Tian went down, it felt very one-sided, and X-Force Beast's thoughts on Emma are soiled not just by how poisoned his mind is in general, but also by her conduct with regards to Alex and the Hellions.

[sillyfudgemonkeys]

Ok there hasn't been much aside from a magazine shot and some kinda confirmation, what are your thoughts on the protagonist of metaphor, 1 having their own backstory, and 2, apparently not being a fully silent protagonist? I ask bc I know some similar points come up with the p5 protagonist and eheheh I can guess how ya feel about that

Well I mean.......I'm fine with P2, P3, and Catherine, and those all fulfill either one or both criteria. TT0TT

P2 has a firm backstory for chars, and they speak/technically speak at some point.

P3 they have a firm backstory that plays into the main plot later (P3/4MCs have the more varied personality tho).

And Vincent.....alksfjdkjff Vincent is self explanatory, but one of the best examples of a voiced MC who's personality can greatly differ from the sliding law/chaos scale as make certain choices.

Hell, Serph from DDS1, I thought he could totally be voiced during those dialogue choice scenes. Was kinda let down they didn't even though I found the opportunity to be right there!

So like I don't mind a silent MC, I don't mind a silent MC with a backstory, I don't mind a silent MC with a vague/small backstory, I don't mind a voice MC, I don't mind a voiced MC with a backstory, I don't mind a voiced MC with a vauge/small backstory.

As long as they handle it well I'm good.

(now for the P5 rant uwu, oh you know it was coming)

My issue with P5 is......contradictions. I'm really suppose to believe that the boy who saved a woman he didn't know, would try to creep on (at best) a sex worker/maid? (at worst the undertones of possible sexual assault esp with two other guys hiding in the same room really......makes my skin crawl, I know that's not their intention, but god could you imagine being Sadayo for a minute???? it's already bad enough it's her STUDENT! And now she has to figure out if it's intentional or not, but if she knew about the two hiding???? I'd freak).

I'm supposed to believe he is cool with creeping on his female friends (it's not about being horny, it's the fact they don't keep it to themselves it really isn't that hard)? He'd stand bye and allow Ryu to creep on them and make pervy plans that involved the girls? That'd he'd say he's "so jealous" when he sees a fake Anne on Kamo's arm?

It just doesn't add up. It's either "we put it in there for shits and giggles but yeah it doesn't make sense for his char," OR worse yet.....they do coexist and Joker is actually a piece of shit with a fucked moral compass. (which the latter COULD BE interesting, but it's never explored so :'D can't really argue it being a good writing choice).

Like shit, let's ignore his established character moment and backstory and focus on Anne/Ryuji. What bothered me was......these two are his ride or die. They had his back and he had their back. Ryu tried to protect him with his life after just meeting him. Anne put her trust in him, and pushed him to become Joker. Like if Ryu is the reason formed the group PT. Anne's the reason Joker pursued being a PT in the first place (she gave him the push he needed).

....yet the game gives you a biiiit too many opportunities to shit on them???? Sometimes it's not even optional! Like the dialogue choices are all somehow negative towards them at times and it's like???? Why???? I can maybe get Yusuke, but then he joins! But nooooo no 100% negative option for Makoto, even tho she drives off one of your leads! (tbh I think that's the starting point the game even calms down on Anne/Ryuji choices too). But really??? Why am I fine leaving Ryu alone with two harassers??? Why do I treat them like this? If there are two chars that the MC should go to bat for regardless, it should be Anne/Ryuji.

Just....why? Why? Can't I have a choice where I 100% agree with them? I don't care if they are in the wrong, I don't care if they thing 2+2=7. Let me talk them up!

It's like the opposite of the Junpei/P3MCs issue. I can't buy a friendship between Junepei and P3MC because I don't see them develop as friends in the main story (and I don't get even a side story/SL with him). I have a hard time stomaching parts of Junpei/FeMC friendship (but reverse), because even I can easily see them as friends, he still acts all pissy! And you'd think that'd damage their relationship.

Now replace Junpei with P5MC, and P3MCs with Anne/Ryuji/*insert other char* and I have the same issue. It's not about "I don't want people kissing MCs asses all the time" it's not about kissing ass, it's about making sure they feel like they are actually friends when the game tells me they are. TT0TT

Between that and.....P5MC.....feeling like they WANTED to write a more concrete MC BUT felt compelled to make him silent.....I think hurts his writing more.

One benefit for the P3/4MCs is the diversity in personalities it created with the different choices (of course you can easily make contradictions, but those contradictions are PLAYER BASED rather than STORY/GAME BASED like P5). Esp between the good endings vs the bad endings.

I can buy P3MCs choosing ignorance and killing Ryoji, because of the meaning of SLs, ignoring them, or doing them and being absolutely HORRIBLE and reversing/breaking them (male side). FeMC it's more ignoring them and her just smiling hollowly.

P4MC I can see giving into the bad ending or even the accomplice ending for the most part. Esp if they choose to ignore SLs, be an ass/loner when possible, and be as unhelpful in the investigation as possible as well. Considering he still hangs out with his friends outside SLs, him still being horrified by what he's done and not 100% evil in the accomplice ending still makes sense. (needs some tweaking but still makes sense)

But P5MC? Giving into Yaldy? I dunno. I can kinda see it, he does insult his friends at times (reason why? who knows! is he jaded because of his arrest? Maybe? But his friends are also outcasts too??? At least with P3/4MCs it can be played off as loners right out the gate who get wrapped up in shenanigans. P5MC? he's deliberately giving motivation by his first friends and his strong sense of justice so????? doesn't that contradict????). The only thing that seems to foreshadow this ending decently is him saying some greedy and outta pocket/"sinful" things.....at times. Like I've said before, it's contradictory. Wishy washy!

At least with P3/4MCs, the fun times they experience could be explained by they are faking it (either emulating emotions for P3MCs and are still hollow inside/fear death, or hiding their true intentions for P4MC aka for the accomplice ending). Hell! P4 even puts the idea in the players head by Shadow Yosuke that Yosuke is only looking into this case cause it's "fun" and "to play hero" and maybe P4MC is doing just that (in P4G at least). Otherwise the "fail" ending for P4MC doesn't really have any personality contradictions, you just fail to see the truth and/or convince the others.

P5/P5MC relies on a moral choice of the MC (chosen by the player). But the MC himself has a lot of set personality traits and said choice contradicts the majority/prominent/establishing traits (compared to the minor ones that align with that choice but contradict the establishing traits). It just feels....weird.....

Like it's not allowed to breathe. Joker isn't open-ended enough like P3/4MCs to rationalize the bad ending. But he's also not concrete enough to stay consistent and just stick with set ending.

If P5MC was written more like the approach they took to Vincent, that might've helped it.

Cause Vincent (looking at just Catherine Classic for this btw, but I think it also applies to FB just a few more hoops) can be Loyal/Neutral/Cheater without too much contradictions.

He's already shaky on his stance, and is unsure of himself (maybe a bit flighty and changes his opinion on things)

He is thrusted into a situation he had no control over (he does start off as loyal leaning so it's most likely a situation he wouldn't have ever found himself in if he wasn't targeted)

That incident causes him to change via reevaluating his outlook on life. From his choices in dialogue, to the questions in the confession. Those small choices affect his psyche and causes him to constantly change

With each change to his psyche, we see a new rationalization pop into his head.

Every ending rationalizes each thing, even the ones that contradict (aka the bad endings).

Yes it's the players choice, but 99% of the options feel within reason. And not just within reason, they are rationalized.

Basically what I'm saying is P5 needs to rationalize it. Either by making P5MC MORE openended like P3/4MCs....or make him more into a fixed character like Vincent but give different rationalizations as you make choices.

Back to Refan, as long as it handles itself well and isn't wishy washy or contradictory, I'm fine with however they wanna handle the MC. Silent or not. TT0TT

[weabooweedwitch]

Different anon here, I really appreciate when you vent here. Yeah you don't have perfect thoughts, you're not a self-sacrificing saint of patience and virtue, but seeing someone let out those thoughts without worrying about always seeming like the objectively correct person in every single situation is very liberating to me personally. I've been in a very similar family situation, and I also know I was not an angel in those circumstances either. Seeing someone else willing to talk about the nitty gritty shit instead of just "oh woah is me for they are toxic and I am but a fragile victim" fuck ESPECIALLY after you got raided for it? You're brave as fuck, brutally honest as fuck, and anyone can respect your feelings, but fuck I respect YOU. I hope you're able to cut ties eventually and live a more fulfilling life, my life didn't feel like it started until I was able to break free. I'll hold out hope for you :) (and also keep an eye out if you ever decide to take comms again because I totally missed that and would've jumped on it.)

I mean don't get me wrong, I do think and kind of analyze how I must be perceived when I say certain things, not in the sense that I adjust what I say but more so internally thinkg "I probably sound like a POS right now" but like, since part of the reason I vent is for, I guess, to help clarify certain things and, get feedback if people feel the urge to, that only comes from being honest, idk? Like I guess, not that I'm really saying this is her fault, but my mom told me "oh they only believe you because they plonly heard YOUR story" so many times I just settled into "ok well if I tell EVERYTHING as I can remember it, then I'll have more information to tell if I was right or wrong".

Like for sure I definitely overshare a lot but I also try and genuinely use it not just as comfort and just, letting loose of those negative feelings, but it's also like I guess, a diagnostic tool to gauge the situation? Idk does that make sense? Like sure I COULD write in a diary that only I can see, but would that help me realize if I'm making a mistake or if I AM the victim? Does that "answer" my racing anxious thoughts? It's like that. It's like a problem I'm trying to find the solution for.

Tbh me continuing to vent after the whole raid thing is kind of in itself a very co-dependant behavior on my part because it's sort of like, I am directly making myself a target for people to potentially really try and wound me, but it's also like, the pain of having to keep everything inside and not knowing "what I'm supposed to think" or if I'm right or wrong or, even just not being heard is really much more painful to me. The doubt and curiosity and guilt for, so many things in my life can literally eat me alive sometimes.

And I even recognize that my mom has done and tried a lot for me, more than a lot of other parents. But that also doesn't erase a lot of the issues we have? Like even if I learn to calm myself down and act more, I guess, appropriately, I would still be constantly hurt by these behaviors of hers? It would still be incredibly stressful to see her scold me for things she does all the time, and I'm still upset about how I can't even go "please don't interrupt me" and her immediate response being "but YOU interrupt ME all the time" like there is definitely a mutual respect and self improving that needs to go on, I by no means consider myself perfect in any way but I will say that I consider myself better than her at reading poeple and trying to behave appropriately and empathetically. one thing that had bonded us when I was younger was, it sounds fucked up in hindsight but when we were having so many problems with my sister we would be discussing like, what do we do, how do we act around her, hey did you notice that thing she did that might be a symptom, and my mom would tell me I was so so good at predicting how my sister would respond, not even inherently in a manipulative way, like I would go "im afraid if we tell her XYZ that that will only make her angry and she won't want to talk to us" and even with these recent stressful events with her, she praised me for being able to try and communicate with my sister as best I could and even after, like, that really stressful awful visit, she turns to me and says "you were right, you were totally right, she did exactly what you thought she would do"

And its like, I just wish, she respected me enough to try and give some credence and, idk, if im smart enough when talking about everything else, why am I never smart enough when I say "hey mom this thing you did, i think was wrong and it hurt me" or even just "hey mom please don't do that thing, I think that's really irresponsible and could backfire on us" and she just gets defensive. Like, to list an example of something that doesnt even have to do sith our relationship, she says I criticize her driving too much (which I totally admit I can do sometimes, I've been having nightmares since childhood involving being in the car and I'm naturally anxious in cars) but like then I can list examples of "hey mom when you turned left at that light you literally swung over so early you were briefly in the oncoming traffic lane and crossed over the double yellow line to get into your lane, you should drive farther forward and THEN turn, i see you do this almost every day" and its just automatically "ugh Miranda it's every day with you, I can't do one single thing right"

It's almost like you know, I'm losing my patience because she won't like review her actions, and then I have to bring things up all the time, and then she just feels attacked because I'm bringing them up all the time and this almost stubbornly refuses to do anything about it almost out of spite it feels like, which then just. Makes me more impatient and call those things out more.

And on another note, like I constantly whiplash between "God she drives me crazy, I hate her, she doesn't deserve my respect, she's stupid, i have to run away and never ever see or talk to her again" to "no I want to hug my mom and tell her about all these interesting things I've read and us watch TV together and smoke together and I'll miss her when I'm gone, I have to have to HAVE TO try and fix this before it's too late because what happened between her and HER mom has done so much damage to her". We might have a bad argument where I say shitty things to her and she says shitty things to me and we could be in the car as she drives me to work and I might try and make some small talk because, idk maybe it's BPD or mood regulation but sometimes I can move on from things quickly, and she'll just give me the silent treatment or reply with something snarky and I'll think "yeah I guess I deserve that"

And other things i worry about are like, when I was living in Florida with roommates there was an incident where she slipped and fell on the ice and she had horrible body aches and was struggling to go to the store and buy food for herself and I was panicking and wanting to try and have food delivered for her? She sometimes struggles to take the trash out because she needs her knees replaced and she's kind of, always had chronic issues she's still trying to find the cause for, and like, before this recent round of our relationship getting worse we had been discussing trying to get a first time homeowners loan together so we could finally settle down somewhere and have permanant housing, something that was OURS, no more apartments, no more awful neighbors

But those things are only possible if we can work together and both of us have issues? Both of us have our own problems that have to be worked on, and, I often wonder if either one of us are just "stuck in our ways" but there are so many times where, like, obviously money is a factor but there are so many times I'm not seriously looking into moving out not just because I'm scared of being on my own but also scared of leaving her by herself and scared that, what if we break that bond and never see each other again and suddenly one of us gets into an accident or she gets sick or, you know?

And on a flipside of that, while I was living away and paying my own bills and having you know my first ever job, she needed to borrow money from me a few times and it kind of devastated me because I thought, "oh I'm finally away and taking time for myself and she's still having trouble handling things, why can't I be allowed to focus on me, have time for me, have money for ME" because like. I do consider myself a caring and empathetic person but a lot of situations were pretty much forced on me where I had to expend myself or at least my mental energy on her specifically till I just felt, empty and unappreciated and used up.

I also recognize my mom wanting to use me as a friend and therapist also stems from issues she has with being able to trust and maintain relationships with other people but that's unfortunately a thing only really she and a counselor or something can focus on. I shouldn't have been tasked with, well, by her own admission there were many times where I was her sole pillar of emotional and psychological support and that was. That was such a heavy weight on a kids shoulders? And it eventually got to the point where I would say "hey mom sometimes i feel like you only talk to me when you need something or have to complain" and she'd brush me off until, I reached an age where I would tell her straight to her face "I don't care" because she wouldn't let me set those boundaries where her venting to me was a consensual thing, it eventually became "obligatory" and it'd literally be her like, talking and talking where you haven't said anything for like 5 or 10 minutes straight and I would see her do this to my grandma to the point my grandma would literally hold the phone away from her ear and occasionally only "check back" to see if she was still going.

Like when I try and step back and look at things analytically, I think a lot of this anger and resentment in me stems specifically from my pre-teen/teen years. I was still a kid and still emotionally vulnerable and, you know, not fully developed and needing my own help, but I was mentally and emotionally "mature" enough that my mom often confided a lot in me, and even later on she admitted she tried to treat me more as a friend than as a mom, but, it got to a point where I was a huge source of support to her in ways that were damaging to me. Like jesus when I first started working and me and my mom would like, talk about my day and my problems with coworkers, I remember, I so vividly remember thinking "gosh it's sure nice to like actually be able to understand this stuff now" because I would be in elementary or middle school and she'd be talking about complex inter-work issues I literally couldn't understand? I couldn't even understand or become invested in what she was trying to say and then "wasn't allowed" to disengage from the subject. I would be in a car with her liyerallt wanting to bail out onto the road because she'd be talking and talking and not even checking if you're listening or following along

I just. I constantly have to ask myself if this is a situation that can br permanantly improved and "be normal" and, that's going to take work from both of us, and unfortunately both of us are pretty good at finding excuses

[ohwell-itsme-but-danganronpa]

tbh, as the years pass, I need to admit, the main reason I don't like Kaito isn't even his fault, I mean, I like Souda, one of my faves in sdr2 and they have A LOT in common. I do not need my faves to be nice and agreeable, I mostly like them a little fucked up, actually.

But the narrative & the fact that I've been in the fandom since before v3 came out... I've seen too much. In canon we never get even a hint of Kaito trying to change himself, what he does is try to make others more like him. Salmon mode lets you convince Tenko that Not All Men, you're never told Kaito is anything but an example for Shuichi to follow and. And then there's fanon, being there for the early everybody-needs-to-have-a-hot-take stage has ruined any and all possibility for me ever liking the guy: too many people acting like he's a saint, waxing poems about how great and right Kaito was in everything and getting straight up violent in denial of the pointed out homophobia or any criticism actually, the absolute fuckery of Kaito fans vs Kokichi fans where they just said "you're a Kokichi fan" as a counter to all opinions they didn't like, it was the "ok, boomer" of the fandom discourse, as a visible Kokichi fan you'd be often put in the hot seat and expected to defend your opinion, then the parallels between the two would come up and they'd shut you down real fast, no defense just denial, playing defense is exclusively for the other side of the argument, and when they did ship them it was "Kaito could fix Kokichi", "canon didn't happen :)", "Headcanoning him as gay and trans fixes the entire problem, it's completely unreasonable if you dislike him for writer's views, yeah those aren't his views they just made him act on them, this statement makes sense uwu".

You're right that the dynamic could be fun (P.S. Kaito still would be unattractive tho, the opposite of what I want to look at, but funny), unfortunately the fandom made sure to traumatize me so thoroughly that seeing him next to a character I like, and sometimes even just thinking about him for a bit too long, upsets me enough to effectively disrupt my day, when talking about it like I just did I take my time, stop several times and distract myself for a bit to stay calm, do something else so I don't start crying or go on a rant covering everything I already said one more time, I am so tense right now, and too hot, I paced for quite a bit. With how many times I have talked about my feelings regarding Kaito, you'd think I do that every time I think of him, but the truth is most of the time I just try to recover as soon as I can instead of digging into this, a lot of the time it happens when I couldn't even if I wanted to, because I will get lost in thought some time late at night or when I am out and I'll end up going through my shit list just because brain loves self-torturing when alone, and this topic is nearly on par with the personal ex-bestie saga I don't actually talk about (you know it's extra messy when even I don't make it public in front of random people who didn't ask)

tbh more people need to understand that kaitos (internalized) homophobia is part of what makes oumota so damn fun.

[jojotichakorn]

ok so my thoughts on today's gmmtv event:

we are getting (or at least are supposed to be getting) 22 series and 1 movie next year. out of those, 7 or 8 are mlm dramas (the "or 8" is because i can't tell you what's going on with 'be my favorite').

out of the series mentioned, i am most interested in 'star & sky', 'never let me go', 'vice versa' (on account of being mlm series that have very interesting premises), 'moonlight chicken' (on account of being p'aof's work), '10 years ticket' (on account of having ohm as the lead), 'be my favorite' (on account of what the fucking hell is going on, krist perawat and mike chinnarat starring opposite each other in a drama, where one of the central points is at the very least mike's character being in love with krist's character).

now, to my live blogging under the cut:

i am on my knees in front of the translators and everyone responsible for SUBTITLES in a LIVE STREAM;

gun and tay playing brothers in the three gentlebros is kinda cute (will i watch it tho? absolutely not);

does nanon ever catch a break like?? the amount of series he's in...

anyway, nanon described his series unidentified mysterious girlfriend as "a sci-fi romcom", but it looks like an alien horror mystery from the trailer, so that's,,,, incheresting, oh and drake is playing the bff again, which honestly good for him, the man's just chilling;

sir mr archen's first work on gmm being an mlm drama? mike, toptap, arm and jj in this same drama? the drama being separated into two parts, the first premise being about high school crushes reuniting later in life, and the second being lowkey atots-inspired? idk about you, but i'm writing down star & sky into my to-watch list;

love, chimon, aj & jj, and gun in a weird creepy boarding school drama home school? potentially something some of y'all might be into tbh idk;

made by the fish upon the sky creative team, earth and mix are in a new series cupid's last wish - there is an element of body-switching between a brother and a sister, and the trailer makes it all very confusing, but i'm pretty sure that ultimately it is also an mlm drama;

there is this series oops! mr. superstar hit on me about a young girl dating an older actor, which i am pretty much not interested in, except gawin is in it - his role is SUPER unclear tho, so i can't say anything more than that, something super background, i assume;

podd is in... something? i mean, the series is called my dear... donovan, and the trailer suggests that it's like a story about a model and a kindergarten teacher falling in love, and then things get kinda intense - i love podd, but his role is clearly very background, and otherwise i'm very not interested;

please never talk to me about new's series the warp effect... like yes, it is directed by jojo, but still... a big no from me;

khaotung and first's new series the eclipse is also an mlm drama - the premise isn't entirely clear to me tbh, there is some kind of a curse happening and it is definitely a thriller, but that's about all i got from that, it doesn't seem like my cup of tea tbh, but i'll need more info to make a concrete decision (i might still just try watching it when it comes out at the end of the day), oh and also aj is in it <3;

the ultimate gmm poster boy krist perawat has a new series good old days, of course (and there is also a little bit of tay, win and bright there and, as tradition dictates, bright plays a musician), the premise of finding out where the things from an antique shop come from is very interesting, but i am likely not going to be watching it;

never let me go is another series directed by jojo and this one i am VERY interested in - it's an mlm drama, very much about the complex relationship between the "bodyguard" and the person he is supposed to protect, intense in a very gripping way (something jojo is very good at), so very exciting (also, chimon is in it, though he isn't one of the leads);

gmm is gonna be big with the intense and dramatic next year, and i feel like 10 years ticket is the most intense and dramatic so far - i'm gonna be honest, it's not really the kind of thing i would typically watch, but ohm's the lead, so i'm obviously going to be watching this one;

love's series you fight, and i love actually looks kinda cute (and if you go back to circa 2019, i had a big crush on victor, who is also in the cast), but i can't say anything concrete atm;

we've got the midnight series trio which i am not sure why these series were put together, but they were:

in it, we have midnight motel - off's heist-esque series, which looks fun, but is something i probably won't be watching;

we finally have a series directed by p'aof, and it is also another earthmix series - moonlight chicken, i wanted to joke that gmm didn't just attach them by the hip, but sewed them together at this point, but p'aof can do absolutely whatever he wants, and i mean that genuinely - obviously watching that one, no questions about it;

dirty laundry is another series directed by jojo (does this man get any time to breathe? jeez), nanon is playing one of the leads and jennie is also in it, but as you might have noticed - as much as i am endlessly impressed by jojo's more serious dramatic work, his humor doesn't really go well with mine, and this series is definitely rather comedic, so i probably won't be watching it;

remember i said that jimmy should do everyone a favor and star as a lead in some nice series? well, we have vice versa, a body-swapping (or rather body possession?) mlm drama. can't believe i'm not freaking out about the fact that nanon and ohm are in it (and technically playing opposite each other), but they are clearly very secondary to the series, as they are basically just the vessels carrying the souls of the main characters (they are so secondary that they didn't even come out with the cast), but the fact itself is still wonderful (they really went "we need two people with a good connection that would have natural chemistry on screen despite only being in a couple of scenes" and chose ohmnanon);

p.s. i hate you is fucking intense my guy, and definitely not my thing;

my school president is another mlm drama, the premise seems to be a very classic high school story, but it's quite cute, so i will be at least trying to watch it;

win's new romcom devil sister also stars podd (and seemingly in the same role of "the other guy"), kinda cute but i probably won't be watching it;

no comments about be my favorite yet, it looks VERY interesting, but i am literally going feral over all the implications (krist? with mike? what is happening? holy shit);

bright's love triangle romcom astrophile is cute, but i'm not a big fan of love triangles, so i won't be watching it, even if jennie and toptap are also in the series;

my precious looks like it was first and foremost very fun to film - i want to see all the backstage stuff from it, nanon is the lead again which truly that boy doesn't take a break, and of course seeing ohm is very nice (and clearly means i will be watching it).

[kiatheinsomniac]

Hi there, how are you doing?

I read the request about frogs (and thought that was lovely, Jacob is a big jerk lmao) but now I'm thinking about how assassins would react when realize their s/o have phobia of storms/thunders?

(I have an oc with that issue and remembered this when read your ask yesterday)

Thank you for your attention ❤️

Hi! I’m not doing too great with study stress tbh so I’m thinking of opening my requests again once my inbox is empty to make me feel better because I enjoy writing for you guys! Also, why are so many of you scared of the things I love? HAHA

a l t a ï r :

He’s not a big fan of them either as he’d prefer to be out in the sun and the rain makes everything feel so much colder but he wouldn’t say he’s afraid of them.

He'd rather spend the time with you instead and he decides that giving you some lessons in drawing is a good way to distract you.

He'd sit beside you, leaning in close, wrapping an arm around your shoulders to get a better look at what you're doing, etc.

He doesn't comment on your phobia while the storm is going on, he doesn't want to make you feel silly at all, but I feel like he'd playfully tease a little once it's passed.

e z i o :

This man will sing for you and put those rusty lute skills to use, I just know it.

Sure, he's not cut out to be a professional singer or anything but the fact that he's doing it for you will be enough to take your mind off the storm and think about how much you love him instead.

So mission accomplished for him.

Oh, and if the storm's going on at night, he can think of some other noises to drown the thunder out with

e d w a r d :

Honestly, they kind of scare him too.

Hard memories from sea life and everything, when he heard a storm at sea, it never really ended well and there would usually always be at least one guy who went missing.

He would never tell you this though, for fear of scaring you further. 

But he wants you to know that you’re not the only one who’s afraid. 

He’ll hold you close and probably teach you some shanties over a few drinks to calm your nerves. 

c o n n o r : 

He strikes me as the kind of guy to love storms and I think that he’d try to get you to see the beauty of them instead or at least help you calm down during the storm. 

Worried about flooding? Nah, it’s ok, you can race the raindrops instead and see that everything’s ok between the races. 

Wind got you worried? He tells you all about how he secured everything around the house beforehand. 

Don’t like the thunder? It becomes a game where you could between the loud sounds. 

Worried about the lightning? He gets you to close your eyes and lay on his chest as he tells you stories from his childhood. 

a r n o :

I feel like Arno would love storms too, the whole gothic pathetic fallacy literature kind of vibe.

He’d take you down into the café if it’s empty and play piano for you. 

If there are customers in there, he’ll take you down to the club hall instead. 

Because it’s underground and there are no windows and the music from the café drowns out any noise from the storm. 

He would set you on his lap by the fire and read to you, playing with your hair with his free hand the whole time. 

j a c o b :

Like Altaïr, he doesn’t like them but he isn’t afraid of them. 

Winds in England during storms can be bloody horrendous which isn’t very good if you’re living on a train on exposed rails. 

Also he doesn’t like how such heavy rain makes parkour so much harder until it’s cleared up a little. 

Anyway, he would probably coax you to sleep with him (in more ways than one) until the storm passes.

And I mean, if you need to be worn out just to fall asleep he’s a good boyfriend and ready to deliver ;)

You can’t tell me that this guy isn’t secretly a big nerd for things like flower language (Evie introduced it to him and it was popular at the time anyway) and so I think he’d cuddle you for hours and tell you all about it in a quiet voice.