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sunnibits · 1 year ago

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decided to join in on @quezify’s eggtober again this year as a little art warmup and I actually ended up really enjoying it!! it’s obviously way outside of my usual comfort zone so I’m very happy that I was able to create an end result that I’m proud of :)

#eggtober gives me SO much joy I’m so happy it’s happening again #I did two eggs last year and really enjoyed them so I thought it would be fun to try again and I was right!#I experimented with some new things and I really think I made some great progress from last years attempts :)#eggtober #eggtober2023 #my art #art #‘warmup’ my ass lmao. I spent at least an hour on this.#felt rlly good tho #v fun I highly recommend trying to make an Egg even if you think it’s way outside of ur abilities!!#it really pushes you to experiment and play around and just have fun with art!

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bettinalevyisdetermined · 23 days ago

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Aww, I woke up as early as I could, but it looks like the pumpkin is gone from my mobile dashboard, and with it, all the boops...

Wait, no! I opened Tumblr on my computer at one point! I might have a final count!!! (saves draft and switches to laptop)

Wow, you guys actually got me all the way to BLR again! *sniff* I'm so honored I have such wonderful fans who were that dedicated to booping me. X3

And would you look at that? 96 million boops globally! Just short of 97 million! And if we look at the April Fool's final count, at least according to what I screenshotted myself...

Yeah, nope, April Fool's still wins at 128 million. :P But hey, we got pretty close, didn't we? And I think staff left the tamagotchi up for longer than the pumpkin, so who's to say what could have been?

Like I said in the last post, Halloween is officially over. Time to shed the costume pfps, return to my regular ones, and turn off asks for a while.

Best Halloween ever!

#never have I felt so much joy on halloween #than when Deltarune came out 6 years ago #I started click or treating #staff brought back booping and made it BOOping #and I even went to a party with family and friends #and saw the wildest variety of creative costumes in person!#blessed with so many treats this year

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youmakethelight · 24 days ago

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I need scenes where Daryl explicitly shows that he loves Carol for all of who she is as a human. I know we know it, even though that feeling has been fading since the spin-off and even in parts of season 11. But I reallyyy need at least one scene where Daryl catches Carol doing something distinctly Carol and looks at her for a *prolonged* time with unambiguous love all over his face. And then he actively shows and tells her. Like the scenes where Aaron and Rosita see Carol putting herself through pain to kill the horse to feed Alexandria. I need to know that Daryl sees that in her. And I need to see him radiate intense love in her direction because she fucking needs it.

#i just feel like carol has spent years and years and years being the most selfless and loving human on the planet #and she has no idea how fuck beautiful of a human she is #even though her family love her they also punish her for her flaws and its gross honestly #but you know who never did that #daryl #and you know who now feels like he sometimes does that #you guessed it #and i just feel like shes trapped in this state of daryl being the only person who always loved her unconditionally and just hoping for...#for that version of him to come back again #but shes not asking for it bc she doesnt think she deserves it #but she hopes #and it feels like he isnt there for her #not really #i need her to feel loved again #even when they reunited in france it just felt like she was relieved to have found him but at terminus it was more like joy to realise...#how much he loved her #when does she get to have that again #even the shocked look she gave during “im the one you tell” when she realised he actually WANTS to be there for her i'd like that again #our man daryl just built all of this reassurance that he loves and supports her and then when shes at her most lost he withdraws it #like what the fuck #i just want carol happy so much #or just LOVED i just want her to feel truly loved #bc right now i feel like she feels like people just tolerate her #can anyone honestly tell me they watched tboc and feel like carol feels unwaiveringly loved and supported throughout that series #bc wow #silly me but i think we all deserve more than what she got there #caryl #the book of carol #tboc #carol peletier

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foxgloveinspace · 11 months ago

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People jumping ship cause of the new masks is very ahhhh. Telling. Tbh.

#very much so #tell me you where only here cause of the looks without telling me your only here cause of the looks #listen. I miss the old masks already too. that’s not the point.#you can mourn for something without that taking away your joy for it.#‘it’s all moving so fast’ iii has been turning red since July.#‘they’re evolving too fast’ or we just got here later then others.#‘I can’t even listen anymore’ sucks to be you. the music that has been put out hasn’t changed so I don’t understand this one #‘they’re gonna get cancelled over this’ ok. I guess this is just thinning out the people who were real fans and who where fake fans #I’m gonna be a sleep token fan til the end. if this is the way they want their image to go? I’ll follow. if we get heavier music next?#sounds fucking amazing to me. (I listen to heavier stuff anyway).#idk I just think it’s so so so fucking telling. that if your jumping ship cause their Live Performance Aesthetic has changed… you didn’t #mean it when you said sleep token was important to you.#like I’m 100% MOURNING the old masks. I am BMO with Finn’s old hair sobbing about the old masks.#but I know this too shall pass #this is how I fucking felt about Vessel’s mask change #and to everyone going ‘what about Vessel and the Chior!’#1). VESSEL HAD A MASK CHANGE EARLIER THIS YEAR!!! he isn’t gonna change masks again so fast those fuckers r expensive!#2). the choir did have a change?? they wherent wearing robes at all and where in body chains they looked amazing #I get we are all neurodiverse and hate change but take a deep breath before you renounce all your sleep token love #I’m guessing Vessel will get a new mask in April again. for the kick off show.#tonight was a closing show. and he didn’t FEEL GOOD. I wouldn’t be surprised that if he was gonna do something with a new mask #if he pushed it back because he didn’t feel good.#he performed a whole show while we could TELL his throat was hurting. fuck.#I want to wrap him up in a warm hug and give him hot water with honey in it.#idk I’m rambling. it’s just telling.

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saers · 1 year ago

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“Shhh…” He soothes, “It’s alright. Let yourself slip deeper. I’m right here to keep you steady. Let yourself sink.” You do kind of feel like you’re sinking, but it’s so warm and soft that you don’t really mind… not to mention how good the hand through your hair feels. You sigh, and it feels like you literally sink into the mattress, beyond what should be realistically possible.

Chapter 16 of R&R (Rabble & Rampallians) (M Rating!) by @wishing-stones featuring @megalommi's (18+ only please, cw for unreality and hypnosis!) Sans, Baggs, really round-house kicked my brain into doing Some Shit(tm)! I'm on Chapter 31 now, and am having a great time. I also did not trust Baggs as far as I could throw him at this point, so he came out much more menacing than perhaps needed. 8'D

#saers scribbles #R&R (Rabble & Rampallians)#I'm embarrassed by the quality of this bUT this is the first thing I've completed in Procreate #This is also the first time in six years that I've drawn something and had so much fun.#not me tearing up over my iPad like Oh My God Every Time I Used To Draw I Felt This Joy I HAVE BEEN DEAD FOR YEARS #Megalosomnia #dr baggs #also excuse me i am simping hard over baggs get me out of here #is it because i too have been in an insomnia cycle or is it the dub con appeal of hypnosis we jUST DONT KNOW #is it because hes a nasty boy yes probably that one #cw eyestrain #cw unreality #cw fictional hypnosis

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spaghett-onaplate · 6 months ago

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depression is really weird actually wdym i spent 2.5 years of my life in bed

#and wdym that lifestyle changed so quickly into being out and about and an active member of the world??#very proud of myself #and i mean it wasn't that quick of a change #it was like 1.5 years primarily depression bedrotting with occasional school -> primarily depression bedrotting ->#primarily depression bedrotting with 3-9 hours of work weekly -> straight into 31+ hours school+9-12 hours work weekly #so there was somewhat of a gradual progression #but still #also wowza i wake up 7-7:30am every morning now. 1pm was an early wake up for a not so insignificant amount of time #i mean of all fundamental growth years to miss out on the ages like what 12/13-15 aren't too bad? they would suck in a different way if i #had been socially involved #anyway it's just. yea i'm proud of myself but it is a crazy lifestyle change #and even when i was deeply depressed in a horrible routine i feel like i learned a lot. how to regulate my emotions and cope well and find #the joy in everything. bc if i stayed in bed all day then i would at least be happy about the sun or whatever #and for the while of being not at school at all i WANTED to be at school i just could not find one bc our school system is so cute like tha #(basically every school is at capacity and the local school that has a guaranteed place for me would have been an all boys or girls 😭)#but i miraculously found and got into this school and miraculously made it work so well for me socially and now academically #it's also a good time to get back into school for my education bc any later and it woulda been pretty bad for all my certifications and uni #ive missed out on so much maths that its not worth it to me to try and catch up but my teacher knows that #but ive always hated maths regardless i only ever understood it for the first half of yr 7 then my attendance dropped #and after my recent exam i decided to try harder at school. but i still got an A on the exam i didn't study for!! academic weapon fr #i'm just idk thinking back to myself in the past few years #and how hopeless it all felt. but i got out of it!! i beat the depression and social anxiety and found a good place and made the most of it #and during the peak of my depression i remember i went out someplace near my old school and panicked so so badly about seeing #kids from my old school. and the friends at the time didnt really check on me when i went to shake and cry in a side street lmao #i kept the best of that friendgroup and have better friends now. but anyway now i take a bus each morning with some kids from my old school #and you see these hands? they look like they're shaking to you?#anyway yeah it's just cool i got to this point :) i really had no hope for so long but now i have a life i'm living and a future i'm build #--ing towards #which is funny i just decided some random day last november after watching some better call saul 'huh actually lawyer would b pretty cool'#and will i get there? we'll see but i do have hope now

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wormchaser · 2 months ago

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you are complaining about complaining too much while complaining about the fact that maybe people dont like you because you complain too much while complaining about being alone. just stop complaining and do something about it. talk to people. reach out. dont just wait for someone to come to you first.

i have tried reaching out to different people in the past year or so but it never works. i understand its my own fault for letting relationships decay because of my own insecurities and issues but that doesn't mean i can just will myself to think or believe different things about myself. it's a self fulfilling prophecy ; i think people don't like me so i don't reach out so people don't like me etc . i am sure you do not want to hear me list all the things i want to say in response so i will put them in the tags.

#every time i try to reach out or talk to someone it goes nowhere. i dont have any social skills anymore and have no clue how to keep a #conversation going. half the time even when i do people stop replying to me. which is fine theydont owe me a reply but still feels likeshit #when i tried to make one new irl friend it just didn't work because they have better options for friends. we spoke occasionally but never #messaged online like ever and would only talk when we happened to be in the same place. i tried multiple times to organize a time to hangou #none of which came to pass. i dont understand why this one didn't work because i thought this person was interested in being my friend but #i guess i was wrong or thought they were more interested than they really were.#i have a problem with reaching out anyway which has been a problem i have had since i was like 11. reaching out to people first doesnt come #easily to me - in the beginning when i was a lot younger i didn't want to bother people with my presence & thought if i were to come to #someone first they would feel pressured into talking to me when they didn't want to. this is stupid of course. but has still not left me as #something i feel is very core to the way i act today. waiting for someone to come to me first feels like my only option because i do not #know how to reach out effectively (my evidence being i have failed every time i have tried) & i am convinced people dont like me in the #first place and do not want me to approach them.#i dont really even know who to reach out to in the first place. my world is extremely narrow. the number of people i know has shrunk #significantly and my standing in their eyes collectively has also shrunk significantly in the past few years. i feel like every person i #was once friends with wants nothing to do with me. i feel as if i have burned every bridge possible.#when it comes to the fact i complain all the time . which i know of course is annoying. its because i cant find any kind of joy in anything #i do or see or whatever. nothing makes me happy - i only see things to complain about. all stimulus seems grating and the world seems #specifically catered to make me miserable. all i can really do is complain. i treat this blog like a stream of consciousness and when most #of that consciousness is occupied with how much i hate being alive the blog will mostly be complaining. its a vicious cycle lol .#anyway . i guess the key theme is low self esteem begets low self esteem in many ways. mental illness begets mental illness.#i am not really saying this to anyone least of all to you anon. i just felt compelled to recount i guess for myself the reasons that came #to mind for why i am like this. i am talking to myself here

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wlwaerith · 1 year ago

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not to be gay on main without prompting (+maybe it's the wine talking) but wow i love being a lesbian. so much. it's so comfortable. it's such a nice word. i love getting to apply it to myself. it makes me so happy

#ophelia.txt #idk. it's been a little over a year now since i realised i'm a lesbian and i have never felt more comfortable with myself #i've known since i was 11-12 that i liked women & it was hard to let go of the bi label even when i was ready to accept that i wasn't #but idk. things are still rough at times & being queer at all where i live is rough as it is. but sometimes i remember that i'm a dyke and #am just overcome w so much joy. i love being a lesbian!!!!!!!!

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lhoandbehold · 1 year ago

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You know, it took a lot of effort but my "Kid who reads all the time > Adult who can't focus on a book for more than one page at a time > Adult who is trying to retrain their reading attention span > adult who almost read 10 books this year and just put in a library reservation for another book" is complete!

#lho rambles #about life #I know 10 books isn't much to an avid reader #but a few years ago that would have felt impossible #and now I take joy in reading again #and it's so good for my brain

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wellzofyouth · 1 month ago

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That one post of my mine predictably aged like fine wine. Never let somebody on comic twitter in the writer's room😭😭😭 Like imagine a 1 to 1 adaptation of literally any event?? -1b at the box office. "Who are these people???"

#Anywayyy I'm writing a retelling of DC and it is honestly so fun to imagine the characters in a new but familiar light #Like the biggest reason why I was never interested in writing fanfic before 2 months ago is because I never felt like those characters were #I felt... uncomfortable writing it not because i thought fanfic was bad or anything but because I felt it was weird to write for example #“XYZ DID THIS AND DID THAT AND DID THIS” like maybe he did?? I wouldn't know I don't know him like his creator!!!#But comic characters feel like more flexible due to the many interpretations over the years but firm enough where I can decide how to take #Certain traits and minimize them or expand on them #Also 1 to 1 adaptations suck balls to write. I'm not sure if that's universal but the whole fun of writing is coming up with new ideas #Writing a straight adaptation would be kind of writing a translation into a new medium. Which isn't bad. Novelization are literally those #But a common sentiment among writers I've seen is that Novelizations aren't that fun either unless you get to experiment either #Adapting comics into a new format and retelling them is kind of hell because you have all these intersecting plotlines and insane events #That's just tangled up in a story with a timeline that literally makes its contradictions into plot lines. But it's FUN coming up with ways #To condense a character's origin and sort of rewire it into the story you want to tell. Because yeah I think a lot of people miss is #that at end of the day #you tell stories about people and their struggles. You need to find a way to fit those moments of joy sadness love.#Like a movie about Jason Todd being RH will never be emotional as Jason Todd dying because you'll have less time to feel the love and pain #that Bruce felt for him. Like sure #flashbacks and exposition but that can only go so far. At the end of the day #It will always be about RH vs Batman. That's what people came to see. But that's not all Jason is. He was Robin before he was RH. A 1 to 1 #Adaptation will never translate that to screen. Plus you (sadly) have shared universes now and a movie can only jump around in time so much #For example in my fic if I wanted to add Tim and faithful to his source material I would need to add so MUCH about Jason death #About like Bruce grieving without skipping all over that and missing the human element. It would severely mess up pacing.#I don't know i love how adaptations can make you see the characters in a new light or elevate the source material #Iwtv my beloved doesn't adapt the books exactly but reimagined in it a way that I like much more #Anyway this proves my point about comic fans being weirdly childish and omfg I hate to use this term...anti intellectual 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨#Everyone who writes or yknow reads should like understand this on a fundamental level. One to one adaptations are safe but boring.#Like the Psycho remake was bad not because it made bad changes but it barely made any changes.#Anyway watch amc iwtv to understand good adaptations better than your average comic stan on twtter #Not a rant I just love discussing adaptations #Long tags

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krbk-notebook · 3 months ago

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hey @real-life-cloud @thatsgaybro @lyricalvicki @tempestaurora @sweetietenya @greyladyblue @moumjn

we‘re either mutuals on my main (@pecuirlig), on here, or you follow this blog — and it looks like we all like krbk ! :‘)

first of all, feel free to decline <3

would anyone be interested in making a little krbk discord group or something? :‘)

as a casual fun hangout spot for people of similar ages (i think we‘re all 20+, most early 20s?), for talking about krbk (& maybe other ships/characters/shows etc too), sharing or talking about fics, or art, or whatever we want :‘)

i know i‘ve wanted to have a space like that for years tbh lol, since i haven‘t had the luck to meet anyone irl who‘s also into fandom or specifically krbk, back when tumblr group chats were a thing they weren’t very lively lol, and the krbk discord groups i‘ve checked out so far haven‘t had active members my own age.

i would be super happy if any of you might be interested too ! :‘) but i will continue to suffer alone lmao if you should not <3 (/lighthearted)

(btw— i‘m super open to other people joining this too, so please do feel invited if you are 20+ and you want something like this too ! i just only @'ed these people because there‘s been Some interaction between us already. not having @'ed you doesn‘t mean you‘re not welcome :‘) !)

#what i yearn for most often in my daily life is people to send drawings to #i‘ve started drawing and i get so happy when something works out imo & i send them to my friends and they‘re nice but they don‘t Get It lol #and although i don‘t know how brave i would be abt those; i‘ve had so many krbk thoughts over the years; like scenarios and aus and whatnot #i yearn to get happy abt them with other people; abt krbk #they bring me so much joy #i want to share it #i understand if you already have ppl for that or just don‘t want to for any other conceivable reasons; that‘d ofc fine #but i thought i‘d ask :‘)#((i would also rather have a group chat type of thing than post on here bc i get rly anxious about the content/audience type of thing; and #i don‘t think i could keep the good relationship i have with making stuff myself if i shared it on a platform. i want a little community;#and whenever i‘ve tried to create one here; it still felt rly distant and kind of lonely for me.#what i wish for is just a chatroom thing whatever where we can talk abt krbk lol; and it‘s comfortable so like hc differences and everythin #gets accepted and it‘s fine to share stuff however unfinished or unpolished or whatever it is and it‘s not about numbers at all #it‘s just a little group being happy about krbk hehe. if that sounds appealing to you; let‘s make one! :‘) ))

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birdie-ghost · 4 months ago

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Guys we're so back I remembered how to love drawing

#Wooooo #don't ask me about the comic im talking about art in general #working at a daycare has made me realize that it is fun again #i have been severely stunted for like 2 years and I'm finally feeling capable of sitting and enjoying art again #i felt robbed of the joy cus I kinda used it as a coping mechanism to an extreme extent so much so that I ended up like #entirely not drawing after the fact cus it put me in a weird place again #but now no longer #kinda #i am slower #but #i feel better overall which is whats important

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plutobutartsy · 4 months ago

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omg ppl really don't lie when they say your life can drastically change for the better in a short amount of time, don't let depression tell you otherswise

#like i've had 2 friends from school reach out to me about hanging out and that along with therapy has pretty much made my fear of everybody #secretly hating me VANISH #i have never felt as good about myself as i do now #and to think that about a year ago i was so depressed i could barely change my clothes everyday #and like. absolurely DRENCHED in anxiety about the future #and now i have a job prospect that acrually mwkes me feel excited about work/school and i've managed to do so many new things #so my fear of never learning to be independent is also slowly disappearing #bro at the beginning of this year i was so convinced i'd be a burden to my parents until they die and felt so so guilty about thst idea #and now boom #instead of dread i actually feel excited about the future??#amazing #moots i'm sending some of my joy to you so you can feel as amazing as i do because WOW #i feel like a whole new person life is great #stella's horoscope

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turtlecleric · 11 months ago

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