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hellfridge · 6 months ago

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this is probably what addicts feel like when their main supplier is out of town for one (1) day actually

im literally so scared for ao3 shutting down tomorrow this must be how addicts feel before rehab

#ao3 #my beloved #i have faith that you will return to me #and give me thine devine drugz once more #i must not fear fear is the mind-killer fear is the little death that brings total obliteration i will face my fear i will permit it to

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keferon · 2 months ago

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Did you think I was done? Ahahahaha no, I have more.

Because chapter 70 of MOMU gave me the very dynamic between them that I missed so much, I just blacked out and started drawing uncontrollably lmao

Also. ALSO. I noticed a while ago that Prowl has the habit of..like…constantly frowning. So. I did a bit of research and made this graph.

In 70 chapters, Prowl frowns rougly 104 times. And the intensity of this gesture is very clearly correlated with the development of his relationship with Jazz, as you can see ahahahahah It might be wrong tho don’t take me seriously I’m not good with graphs

#maccadam #transformers #prowl #jazz #jazzprowl #fic fanart #momu fanart #I just #mmmmm #For the whole fic Prowl had to think twice about everything Jazz says #every information could end up being wrong #sometimes even without Jazz realising it #so when Prowl says #he’s trusting Jazz. it’s.#also it totally wasn’t me googling ‘believing and trusting nuance difference in english’#the moment I realised the difference I think my brain started rollercoaster loops #he can’t believe him but he found enough faith to trust him #while. YES. For the whole story Jazz couldn’t fucking be believed #list e n #Jazz did a lot of things for Prowl #fucktons of big and small gestures to show that yes he likes loves and appreciates Prowl #I’m so happy Prowl is returning this energy #like #remember that scene a while back when Jazz kissed Prowl? Cool cool okay. Did Prowl kiss him? nope. It was one sided gestures #*gesture. That kiss didn’t make me feel like it’s truly something precious because Jazz started it but Prowl didn’t do quite the same #but this👆. This feels so much more important for me. Because Prowl #who is for the whole story was mister I calculate every chance of possible betrayal. Prowl whos entire personality is to trust nobody #Prowl goes. Fuck that I trust you. You feel me?#it wouldn’t be the same if he said I love you. Because love is very much something you don’t have a lot of control over.#but to trust someone? It’s a choice Prowl had to consciously make. You see what I mean? I love it. oh fuck I ran out of tags..

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the-hot-zone · 18 days ago

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recommendations for @mail-me-a-snail & honestly everyone who follows me bc y'all know i give out recommendations like candy. i think especially you may like I think love is something that happens to other people and HOW TO BE A DOG (the latter is similar to Your Faithful Servant).

#zoneposting #poetry #some recommendations #my followers know ive never been normal or calm about poetry ever #oh god i forgot to update you guys that i recently won a 2k grant to establish a 3 year program to teach poetry to kids thru my poetry org #i wanna post some of the poems im gonna use esp since lots are in spanish/by latino authors #reminder to do that #n e ways i have so much more but im showing restraint (rattles the bars of my cage)#how to be a dog is rly similar to your faithful servant in structure and theme and actually i fear im composing a small essay abt it.#ALSO it is absolutely okay if none of these vibe with you--poetry is incredibly subjective & i passed over some of my favs to rec these #sometimes what rewrites one person is just words to another and that is more than alright #but i wanted to try to return the favor bc im adding your faithful servant to my poetry doc bc it honestly hit me spectacularly hard #& im very glad you decided to post it

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koheletgirl · 1 year ago

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ok so i don't personally believe in the 2 states solution (for a myriad of reasons i won't get into now), but why does it seem like everyone who supports it these days is labeled as a zionist? i know why i might think that, but i doubt it's for the same reasons so i'm genuinely asking here

#it's just that the two states solution is still seen as a leftist delusion in israel #which i think is laughable like i know why i hate it #but idt tumblr.com hates it for the same reasons?#again like maybe im reading this wrong but. to me it seems like a not insignificant amount of ppl here oppose any solution in which ->#<- jews would remain here?#or like i have seen ppl suggest that palestine should become a nation state in which jews can choose if they want to become citizens or go #and from a historical justice pov i completely understand that but u understand why that would be impossible to achieve realistically right #so actually what im saying is. are u really opposed to the 2 states solution for real reasons (valid)#or are you opposed to any solution that doesn't fit perfectly with your ideals and thus preventing any actual progress from happening #for the sake of us having this discussion in good faith. i personally believe in 1 secular state + right of return to palestinians #+ reparations + full equality under the law #which also doesn't sound very realistic in the current climate but yk #politics cw #did i make any sense at all with this

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mars-ipan · 29 days ago

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Your priest au has me considering becoming religious again. Which was probably not the intention but oh well.-💐

it was not the intent but also you are a human being with free will so. if my yaoi makes you believe in god then i think that’s beautiful

#marzi speaks #ask #💐#this is a really funny ask for me actually #bc i have never once trusted a pastor or priest since i’ve been old enough to understand what they are and what they do #i actually like . am a bit afraid of organized religion. mainly christianity bc of cultural impact but also just in general #obvs though i’m not gonna discourage anyone from their faith #just bc something isn’t for me doesn’t mean it isn’t for anyone!#incredible though that an au about a deeply corrupt religious figure and also just generally the way that religion can be weaponized #has made you go ‘hm. maybe i should return to my faith’#anywho. whatever you choose for you i hope you have fun. stay safe don’t let nobody take advantage of you religious or not

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my-thoughts-and-junk · 4 months ago

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thinking about fallout 4 against my will

#random thoughts #fallout #unfortunately nora compels me #the fact the 'hi honey!' tape specifically mentions her 'shaking the dust off' her law degree is interesting #like she gave up her job to stay at home with her husband and kid. why?#like that's a whole year. at LEAST.#love the idea of nate pressuring her into it <3 maternity leave turns into 'isnt it so nice being with sean around the clock?'#'too bad you won't have this quality time when you return to work'#turns into 'you can always return to work if you feel like it but we DO have a lot saved up . . .'#and it's like. okay so fallout 4 would be so much better if it were set in the 1960s. literally no reason it shouldnt be #yknow beyond complying with lore which. it isnt that faithful to in the first place #i just think it's weird the game is like 'here's the FUTURE' and then it's like 'here's the FUTURE FUTURE'#anyway make it the 1960s. give me time-appropriate fucked up family dynamics #and nora's a laywer and a feminist who promised herself she'd never compromise her career for a man #and nate seemed so NICE and like he understood until uh oh. frog in a slow cooker #and he makes everything seem like it's her idea until she's barefoot in the kitchen with a screaming baby on her hip and burnt food in a pan #and she doesn't even realize she's trapped until it's too late. isolated from friends and family #idk ill do more research later to make it more time-accurate (ESPECIALLY interested in second-wave feminism)#anyway i think she cheats. with a door-to-door salesman selling places in the bomb shelters #(honestly probably the only adult social interaction she's had in weeks beyond her husband)#i like to think at some point she had a bit of a car accident due to the stress so nate took her keys #probably just a minor fender bender he blew out of proportion but she believes it because oh god what if she hurt sean #her feelings toward sean are complicated. i dont think she quite loves him which she feels guilty about so she overcompensates #with trying to keep him as safe as possible and she feels like he KNOWS and HATES her #(honestly when the bombs drop everything happens so quickly and when she's in the future and registers sean's gone she feels. so relieved)#(followed by heavy shame)#nate sabotaged her birth control btw. love evil 1960s patriarchs #never outright stated but heavily implied!#anyway nora in the future (while she felt very progressive for her time) feels very out of place #like her ideals have no place. like she has no place

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sealsapocalypticmusic · 1 year ago

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Tomorrow/later today brings good news for people who like The Silt Verses and 8 minute long narrative folk songs

#seal's apocalyptic rambles #tsv #sealapocalyptic says music related words #could I have cut it down? maybe. will I? No!#I have in my heart like a. fanfic academic paper about the folk music tradition of the followers of the trawlerman #maybe i'll write it someday #because I've spent a lot of time thinking about my tsv songs #and the recurring phrases/interconnectedness and how that its probably reflective #of the natural evolution of folk songs and you could connect them together #return to the river is explicitly. to me. an evangelism song that is new and drawing on those old tradtions #and yet recontextualizing them in a way that makes them fundementally more #idk palatable outside the context of people already in the faith yk?#anyway it's the fabled promised bride song I've been talking about #for a million years at this point

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lacystar · 1 year ago

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I missed amongus server drama? 🥲

Qwerty no amount of update accounts could describe what happened

#don’t stop the party #his ass did not get hired NDA loving wife potato farm swag priest I’ll use him later the interview cyrus copper house Cyrus farm underside #the village armor spells out chef well he underwater mines tools named after master chef winners red light district what amendment is the ri #ght ti remain silent THEYRE fuckinng at the red light district all the time clings reciting poetry maybe if I finish his gift he’ll like me #when is the divorce is clings socks son because he’s mixed who is the father church so trinkets the pope then is it priest or pastor I’m not #calling him father cyrus how are you doing Cyrus I’m feeling swaggy bedrock minecraft isn’t on mac Nintendo online is $20 a year you did #lore and you’re not even on our server can I get the family tree when will my husband return from the war cyrus has the nda why are you at #the red light district trinket crying laughing #I’m gonna listen to YCGMA is your husband faithful oh well he works csn cyrus deafen the king solomon baby story recited from a techno quote #in a Cyrus fic please areus don’t tell you know clings I just want my family to be okay you don’t know what this would do to him please #he doesn’t even have a priest outfit you are not allowed to build in swag nation afyer some debate the council has considered you for the #job of pastor so how are Andy and clings related #cyrus gets tagged 5 times consecutively on a burger post. clings is in the backrooms. it’s jover.#amogus server #asks #qwerty

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robotsafari · 1 year ago

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this has to be a metaphor. for something

#robo ramble #im just going to read this as a thinly veiled metaphorical critique for the writing of the guild in xrd.#the writers made him faithful to the DQ blue raspberry misty float. all of his character development thrown in the trash completely #missing the point of the entire guild's story in favor of the dairy queen blue raspberry misty float coming back on the menu.#people liked the taste of the misty float but never got the point of its creation. it was only the taste they wanted. you could've easily #recreated this taste but they sought to return it in the worst way possible. without getting the point either.#that misty float ruined the lives of the people around him. and yet diary queen missed the point in favor of genre defining puppet characte #they wrote him back in and just made everyone around him feel like i guess everything is fine now??? its horrendous.#they made venom continue to be faithful to the dairy queen blue raspberry misty float. they tried to convince him that he had saved his #life all along or something??#like?????? the fuck. thats awful. horrible taste in my mouth-- LIKE THE HORRIBLE TASTE OF THE DAIRY QUEEN BLUE RASPBERRY MISTY FLOAT.#like if you wanted to make the dairy queen blue raspberry misty float playable again then just revive eddie and only eddie like tf?? you #could've come up with an excuse to make him live without a host. i mean you came up with bedman suddenly reprograming his bed in his final #moments what that doesnt make sense but ok..........#its better than diary queen blue raspberry misty float #i did it. these gifs have officially made me go insane. please dont read these tags.

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vampirepuppygirl · 7 months ago

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You know, I grew up catholic and never experienced catholic guilt, and it still kind of confuses me

When I went to mass, the readings and the gospel were always just life lessons or stories to make you think, and what it wanted you to think about was usually humility and piety and loyalty and faith and stuff like that

Faith formation was mostly about learning the history of the church and important stories that you should remember, plus prayer memorization

I don't ever actually remember a time where they were specifically like "you must feel guilty about this" or "everyone by default deserves to go to hell and you must constantly prostrate before god to be deemed worthy"

It was "everyone sins and everyone drifts away from god and that's okay because he will never abandon you"

It was "Jesus died for your sins. To liberate you from them so you're no longer beholden to the old way, so you're no longer beholden to original sin, so you can have a clean slate without ceaseless penance"

The sin forgiveness cycle that Catholics kind of get pulled into was always described to me as a liberating cycle. It gives you the freedom to sin and the freedom to make mistakes as you bumble through the blind chaos of life without worrying about perfection or damnation

Even when I went to confession it wasn't just a blanket "don't do it again" it was "think about why that is a sin and let that experience teach you something."

If I know anything about catholics it's that they love rules and they love the pursuit of knowledge, I once had a very long conversation with a priest about why a certain rule was a rule and why a certain sin was a sin and it was a lot more complicated than just "god said so," even if I can't remember the specifics anymore

I don't know, maybe it was my specific diocese or I've just been around a lot of liberal priests or something, but I even had someone tell me basically word for word "As long as you follow the ten commandments and use the seven virtues as a framework to guide you, you're set. Use confession to scrub away the sins you can't avoid and that's it. Nobody is without sin so just do your best and that's all anyone can ask of you."

Primarily, what growing up catholic taught me was just the importance of love

Love your family, love your neighbor, love a stranger, love the Earth, love nature, and fundamentally love yourself. And forgive yourself. And be patient with yourself. Because I was taught that everyone sins and that's okay.

And that's okay.

I was taught that seeking absolution and forgiveness is meant to steer you in the right direction, yes for the ultimate goal of heaven, which was defined to me as Oneness with God. And hell was defined to me not as a multi-tiered demon filled demiplane of fire and brimstone and ice, but simply the state of separation from god.

But it wasn't just about salvation it was also about making the Earth we live in now a better place and they are rules specifically to facilitate good communication and good relationships with other people and yourself, and obviously God (but whatever.) It was always basically let God absolve you of your guilt but don't force yourself to feel guilty if you make a mistake.

I don't really consider myself catholic anymore, mostly because of other people, catholics and protestants who use their religion as a tool to spread hateful rhetoric and become their own personal left hand of God, instead of using their religion to spread love and patience and understanding and forgiveness and tolerance and all of the things that they actually fucking preach. Why y'all throwing stones huh? Y'all ain't without sin. Literally nobody is. That's the point.

But I like what I was taught. I use what I was taught a lot. Technically even if I don't consider myself catholic I still am. I have been confirmed, I could waltz right into a catholic church confess my sins and my doubts and have a long conversation with a priest and boom blank slate once more. There would be penance hoops I would have to jump through but that's literally what happens with every confession, so still

But that's always what confused me about Catholic guilt like

What were you taught?

#lila speaks #Catholicism #and I was never really taught to police my thoughts either #like jealousy and stuff were taught as bad but the emphasis was on action and intent #which may have mostly been my parents and the area I grew up in #my personal beliefs about the universe have shifted as I'm grown up so I don't think I'll ever actually be returning to the Catholic church #maybe I wasn't paying attention for that I guess?#but faith was always taught to me as like #trust god to guide you and trust him to forgive you #and trust him to not get mad over every little thing you do #I dunno I'm not even catholic anymore so what do I know #I just think punishing yourself is ridiculous #I'm reminded of the story about that wealthy man's son though I can't remember his name #where one son goes off to do whatever and completely forge his own path and basically abandoned the family #and the other son works hard every single day supporting the family working the farm etc etc etc #and then the other son comes home and the father is immediately like slaughter the fatty calf we are going to have a party #my son has returned and I am through the Moon #he didn't care that his son left and disappeared #he cared that he came back #I always took that as a story about God's relationship with Christians #do what you need to do to live your life and leave if you must #and then celebrate when you return #that was always the message I was given #and then there was the other story about the other son getting jealous because he put all this work in for the father #but he didn't get his own party so he was mad because he felt like he didn't get the recognition he deserved #but it wasn't really about him because he was always there #anyway my opinions about the universe and how it works has shifted as I have gotten older #and I'm not big on religious obligations so I've forged my own spiritual path that is distinctly and notably heretical #but my roots are Catholic and it still affects the way I interact with the world and in some ways I am grateful #but I've moved on

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freddieandersen · 1 year ago

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shoutout to the posts about taking people’s kindness at face value. they are working on me

#tree.txt #i have had a lot of retroactive anxiety after dance class #like I made it through the freak out that was supposed to stop me from Going #so my anxious thoughts are trying to get me to change my mind about whether it was a positive experience in order to stop me from going Back #anyways I keep going ‘what if actually I was annoying and everyone hopes I never come back’#and then stopping myself and saying ‘no. if they did not like you they would not have welcomed you and expressed hope that you would return’#it makes no sense to assume bad faith in completely normal interactions and it’s mean to baselessly decide someone is being cruel to you #and it helps to have those posts in mind because they helped me recognize the cognitive distortion as it’s happening #‘I’m scared that everyone secretly hates me’ well. that hurts you and them both. You can worry about that if it happens.

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qumiiiquinnquin · 1 year ago

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I hope things will get better for you and less scary

thank you 🫂

#i always wish i had more to say...#i feel bad because people are kind enough to tell me these things but i don't respond much because i feel bad for giving short responses #people take time out of their day to be nice to me and im nothing but rude in return #im sorry #i appreciate people having this kind of faith in me and my future...#i do hold all messages and asks i get very close to me even if i don't respond #i try to trust everyone and i again thank you #🫂🫂🫂#i love you all

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depresseddepot · 2 years ago

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I'm reading the winternight trilogy by katherine arden and I gotta be honest, I am obsessed with whatever fucked up nonsense konstantin has got going on