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For the art requests/suggestions, how about your favorite Link in your favorite outfit? Interpret the last however you want--imaginary favorite outfit, canon favorite outfit, or like your own favorite outfit out of your own closet! (Also it's lovely to see you around again! But definitely take care of yourself first and foremost, everything else can always wait <3 )
LAGOMBI ARMOR MY BELOVED
this was so much fun thank you so much !!!! ;v; I was completely lost on what to do at first since I don't consider myself very fashionable but since I was playing a lot of MHS2 when I got this ask I quickly went to how many fun outfits are in that game !
#ask#I would've absolutely loved to do Elderfrost armor too but I cannot for the life of me find a good ref of it aaaaahsfuhs#the girlie pop version of Elderfrost armor specificially I mean!#for this one I went with the guys' version since that's the one I see in game But I did steal the other version's boots and sleeves.....#AND ALSO I wanted to do the Cainhurst Knight set from Bloodborne soooo bad too.... the one with the big red sleeves...#ngl tho this literally took me all day so maybe it's better if I stop myself...#my art speed is nonexistent... buy this was so super fun !!!#I've been having so much fun with character designs and outfits recently !!!! thanks to Zelda brainrot for this one I believe!#I hope it can one day translate to irl too...#so I will be more than the sad owner of. 4 identical turtlenecks and. hand me down pants from my dad...#(and also thank you so much again <33 I do my best! ;v; getting to draw is always a good addition to life definitely!)#I HAD SO MUCH I MEANT TO DO TODAY BUT I WAS SO CONSUMED..... TOMORROW........#he's barely recognizable under all that outfit sorry Link sdfhsifd
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Why... Why does Megapolis have so many demons?

Plot convenience probably, but this is something I've been thinking about :')))) has anyone actually asked this question before? I have no idea! But here's my take on it:
The thing is, when you really think about it, there are a lot of notable demons in the city of LMK. Like of course, you have Demon Bull King, who was trapped inside the mountain Megapolis is built on and around for 500 years.

But then you have Lady Bone Demon, who was trapped in a tomb, buried under the same mountain DBK was trapped in. And when you realise that the Demon Bull Family's lair was built in the very place the staff used to be, Wukong's staff is pretty close to where LBD had been laid to rest.

Which, is already strange enough as it is. Because Wukong should have known (or maybe he forgot) that LBD was within the vicinity before popping out a nearby mountain and squishing DBK with it. It's actually weird to think, somewhere during that battle between Wukong and DBK, LBD was just... There, chilling in her tomb. She probably didn't appreciate the noise and her new neighbour.
Actually, I have an idea now: Somebody needs to make a (crack) fic where LBD and DBK are like cranky roommates while trapped inside the mountain. Has anyone done this yet? Any takers? No? Do I have to do it myself?
Anyways, the Spider Queen is here too. And so is her ruined kingdom (which is proof that she actually has a connection to the land Megapolis is built on, and so she's not just some wayward demon like a certain pair of gold and silver demons). Again, within the vicinity, very close to the mountain. But I'm willing to bet that Wukong defeated her and destroyed her underground kingdom before he imprisoned DBK. He probably thought the Spider Queen would have moved away after being defeated. Or maybe she actually did move away, but then came back? Either way, her kingdom remained in ruins.

And then you have Jin and Yin. Who are, themselves. And even though we've seen them in other places like the Lantern City, and the place that festive town in season 5 (so cool that the show actually brought in Jin and Yin's roles and designs as DJs from the 5th Anniversary Lego set), but it's clear that their base of operations is Megapolis (maybe because they just want to fight MK?).

And I can't believe I almost forgot, but Macaque is here too. Honestly I'm willing to assume he only came to Megapolis because of MK and, probably taking great interest in how the kid uses Wukong's golden staff. But the dude has a dojo. He- he owns a property. Or maybe I'm jumping to conclusions! Maybe the guy just broke into an abandoned dojo (or one that was actually technically still owned by someone) and claimed it as his own.

And then you have these guys. Whoever they are:

And then ALL OF THESE GUYS (Jin and Yin are there but we aren't talking about them):


I might have missed some demons that live in Megapolis, since this is all that I remember. But you guys get the point, right?
So sure. Plot convenience. All of them can be explained by plot convenience. MK can't be running around outside the city until Season 3, because his adventures needed to be focused within Megapolis. Sure, Spider Queen needs demons to power up her mech and so therefore there needs to be some random demons that get caught in her webs. Sure.
But I really do wonder if there could be at least some sort of logical explanation for it. Because there is no way all the other cities in China have this many demons and this many problems (unless, all of the trouble making demons just ended up in Megapolis and, the rest of the world's demons are just really chill and, don't try to take over populations).
So, well. I think about Wukong's staff. The one that trapped DBK.

Maybe... Within the 500 years the staff had stayed there, it had practically become some sort of power beacon that herded in demons? It's a powerful staff, and maybe normal mortals might not be able to feel it, but demons probably could. It's not like any of the demons know why they decided to come (or return) to Megapolis (or the quaint village it once was), but they were drawn to it anyway. Obviously this isn't the best explanation, but it would be cool if, the golden staff caused the series of events within LMK to unfold in more ways than one.
Idk guys, what do you think :DDD???
#lego monkie kid#monkie kid#lmk#lmk demon bull king#monkie kid demon bull king#lmk spider queen#monkie kid spider queen#lmk lady bone demon#monkie kid lady bone demon#lmk jin#lmk yin#monkie kid jin#monkie kid yin#lmk wukong#monkie kid wukong#lmk macaque#monkie kid macaque#late night rambles (late for me at least)#I headcon that Macaque lives in his dojo- in the second floor/attic of the building- that blue round bit with round windows#honestly I feel bad for Spider Queen sometimes- until I remember she brainwashed the people of Megapolis in order to do her bidding#-like thats kinda screwed up ngl when you think about it#Jin and Yin will always have my forgiveness- they can silly as close as they want to the sun#LBD and DBK would be awful room mates- they shared a headspace in the series so I don't being trapped in a mountain would've been any bette
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Just curious, will you ever draw megop?
I can see why its the most popular ship, if I had just gotten into transformers now I think I would have been a big fan, there’s so much good fan content for them and I can’t deny their relationship is pretty gay, but my mind is consumed with other robot thoughts ya know? Sides, you guys don’t need me, there’s plenty of talented megop artists out there haha!
I have drawn a stupid joke with them once before, maybe I'll redraw that but more better??
#yo heads up I ended up going on a tangent in the tags… a tagngent#ngl if i shipped megop more i dont think i would have ever created this blog#i did origonally create this for ratchet and optimus but i dunno if i would be as into it as i was if i was already into megop#same with Megatron and Starscream#its just how my brain likes to ship like a character can have many side ships that i like but the main pairing? ohh that is like drugs#i think if i wasnt into transformers as much i would've shipped megop for the movie and consumed the content for it and then moved on#not to say that megop fans arent into transformers!! its just I wouldnt have such a need to create anything because everyone else is!#which is what ive been doing in fandom lately ive just been getting into the most popular things for the abundant content then... moving on#sure I will always come back to transformers and tf2 but with newer stuff I’ve gotten into the habit of liking the most popular ship first#just to have access to the abundant fan content and ngl I don’t think theres anything WRONG with that#it’s just that I haven’t been creating anything for 2 years before starting this blog and I think I forgot how fun it was#it’s been FOREVER since I was obsessed with a ship with barely any fanfics#hell even a ship with less then 1000 works#but ever since I started posting and creating I’ve been having thoughts of#huh#so this is what it’s all about#no hate to megop at all this ask just made me think a lot#I am very sleep deprived sorry if this makes no sense#not judging anyone here it’s just a bunch of internal stuff#im also a comp sci student so talks of ai consumerism and the joy of creating art for art have been on my mind#ai bad just to be clear I just wanna code games#asks#maybe I’ll clear this later
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what was the turning point of dom becoming your fav?
Anon, this answer is actually so hard you don't even know 😭
So I gotta start this off by saying Roberto Firmino was my first really big Liverpool fav. You could throw Daniel Sturridge in the mix, but I started following Liverpool in the 14/15 season, so you never really saw him tbh (Sidenote: A DECADE of Liverpool?? With Brendan Rodgers????? I deserve financial compensation)
So what I loved about Bobby was just straight up his energy, his flair (do you remember those no look goals??) and the absolute love and respect he had for Liverpool. He made Liverpool seem like THE club, even when he became the best False 9 around, he would always say he'd do it for Liverpool only. I still watch old matches where he was the star of the show because I miss the absolute magic he'd have and how he laid it all out on the pitch. LFCTV coming in clutch with the 10 year archive.
So when he left?? I literally didn't know what to do with myself. Obviously, it was still Liverpool forever, but the squad looked a little less familiar. And according to some, Szoboszlai was supposed to be something of a Firmino replacement. I wasnt fucking having it though, I'll be so real lmao I was so big on Firmino being irreplaceable and how we should have kept him as a squad player (I STILL think this, sign Bobby back!!). I wasn't Dominik's WORST critic, but I wasn't as enthusiastic about him as I am now. I'd be okay if he had a good match, but confused on why we'll keep him when he was doing similar stuff to Minamino in Szobo's first season, and Minamino is now long gone. (#JusticeforMinamino)
So I'll be real, I don't know what switched in my head. I think it was probably the Carabao Cup ironically, from last year, when he ran down even while injured to celebrate. It felt like Dominik loved the club just as much as I did, if not more. Or how he's genuinely just running more than ever before and showing just what we missed when it came to a hardworking midfield. Or the fact that we have a great 8 again!! (No offense to Kieta fans, pls) Him being handsome doesn't hurt in the SLIGHTEST, but I love a guy that could be a Liverpool captain in the future and if not, a good shout for a hardworking, impactful legend.
#whenever it comes to my szobo super fan origin story . . . it's always long#I'm ngl i never knew footyblr existed . . . so i straight up would've been a Firmino blog back in the day if i did lmao#the rebrand would have startled y'all so bad#but if dominik gets a usa fan club . . . y'all know who's running for prez#and by the end of this season?? I'm getting his jersey because i deserve it 🤭🤭#dominik szoboszlai
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as i get closer to finishing this playthrough, i once again find myself locked in the dilemma of "the trick solas ending is sick as hell and very in character for lydia" vs. "i can't do any other ending for solas besides the mythal one bc i feel so bad for him and I wanna see my inky" 🫠
#the thing is that I'd always liked the idea of lydia having an arc about trying to find peaceful solutions#instead of diving straight to violence (after shit like starting the bar fight and punching the first warden had bad Consequences)#but really the trick ending doesn't negate that and has suchhh a cathartic line in “Varric taught me. and you killed him”#before i played the game the Trick ending would have been the PERFECT scenario for how I wanted to defeat solas#but then the game went and made me really feel for him :(#hot take but I actually wasn't that impressed with his character in DAI#but i find him and his backstory Extremely Compelling in Veilguard#and having Mythal release him from her service and James give One Last Shot at talking him down. and seeing Solas FINALLY do the right thin#ngl it's very powerful#but it does take basically all the focus off of rook/their companions to do this#i think the problem (or not really a problem but my Dilemma)#is that the Trick ending is a very good end to Veilguard but the Mythal Ending is a very good end to Inquisition#i'm going to prepare for th Mythal ending just in case but we shall see what I actually end up doing#datv#datv spoilers#veilguard spoilers#oc: lydia laidir#<- just bc I think this is the first time I've mentioned her Arc
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I just wanna say I really disliked how heated everyone got last night because even though everyone's feelings are valid, things started to get vitriolic and I never ever condone harassing the cast and crew
And I'm so happy today everyone seems to have taken a deep breath and decided to spread love and positivity instead
I kiss you all, it's all love now
#ngl i literally had to get high bc i was stuck in such bad thought loops#some of the deaths took me aback but discourse /always/ fucks with me#fandom culture tends to be very black and white and im too autistic to deal in that#it makes me question if im a good person ™️ if i have differing opinions#which!! is my own baggage to deal with but regardless#this fandom has generally been so lovely and fun and positive and kind#so im glad to see the trend returning after last night#fhjy#fantasy high#d20#christina.txt
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hello there! it's me, Tortilla, known mostly as Mod by the people who have been following this blog for a While!
if you've ever scrolled for a bit here, you've probably Seen that I've tried a few times to get back into posting more often and failed comically as i grappled with the dreaded Mental Eel Nesses and Executive Dysfunction, among other things. especially since ask blogs aren't as popular as they were back in the day when i made this blog (2015! turned 9 years last aug 15th! that's an entire child. jin owes me a lot of child support,)
(before anyone gets scared, no I'm not deleting anything lol gimme a sec to word this thought)
okay so like. cutting straight to the point not gonna get sentimental right now I'll save that for later: i want to keep this blog active REALLY bad, but as much as I'd like to, for multiple reasons i cannot draw as much as i did back in the day, which is like... the main thing i usually post here. so I've been pondering for the past year or so What to Do about it
my one idea is to turn this into a general kgpr blog and reblog other people's art and official stuff and the alike here, instead of keeping it Just My Stuff
but the thing is, if i DO that i would want to change my url, because reblogging art to a place that's named "badly drawn--" whatever is. i Don't Want That y'know? it's disrespectful lol
the thing is that that's soooo many links that would Break. among other things. (+ i have nooo clue what id change the name to but that's a different issue)
so like, my question here is,
#...ngl i could swear i had more to say in this post but i forgot so uh. jazz hands#mod post#ive been going back and forth on this for a While lol..drafting posts and deleting them and rewording#life's been rough but kp's been there for me always and recently ive been back in the pit again#(managed to drag some of my friends in! they're having fun)#and ive been doing a doodle or two here and there but they're not in the badly drawn™ style#and after nearly a decade i STILL dont know if im allowed to post my normal style art here#(yes i know it's my blog i can do whatever. my brain works in mysterious ways. not even my therapist knows how it works)#if i do repurpose this id definitely go back and make the organization system better too lol which may take a bit#since there's like. over 2k posts or smth here? last i checked anyway#maybe more#might be over 3k but id rather lowball it#anyways im rambling uhhhhh#feel free to give more options/ideas if what i said doesnt feel Quite like the solution ig?#i just know ive been getting new followers still even when i havent been posting and it makes me feel bad like OH NO.... I HAVENT POSTED....
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people really do not know what they're talking about when it comes to Elizabeth Woodville's social status, huh?
#yes Elizabeth was without a doubt considered too low-born to be queen#no she was not a commoner and nobody actually called her that during her life (so I'm not sure why people are claiming that they did?)#Elizabeth's social status was not a problem in itself; it was a problem in the context of queenship and marrying into royalty#Context is important in this and for literally everything else when it comes to analyzing history. Any discussion is worthless without it.#obviously pop culture-esque articles claiming that she was 'a commoner who captured the king's heart' are wrong; she wasn't#But emphasizing that ACTUALLY she was part of the gentry with a well-born mother and just leaving it at that as some sort of “GOTCHA!”#is equally if not more irresponsible and entirely irrelevant to discussions of the actual time period we're studying.#Elizabeth *was* considered unworthy and unacceptable as queen precisely because of her lower social status#her father and brother had literally been derided as social-climbers by Salisbury Warwick and Edward himself just a few years earlier#the Woodvilles' marriage prospects clearly reflected their status (and 'place') in society: EW herself had first married a knight and all#siblings married within the gentry to people of a similar status. compare that to the prestigious marriages arranged after EW became queen#Elizabeth having a lower social status was not 'created' by propaganda against her; it fueled and shaped propaganda against her#that's a huge huge difference; it's irresponsible and silly to conflate the two as I've seen a recent tumblr post cavalierly do#like I said she was considered too low-born to be queen long before any of the propaganda Warwick Clarence or Richard put out against her#and the fact that Elizabeth was targeted on the basis of her social status was in itself novel and unprecedented#no queen before her was ever targeted in such a manner; Clearly Elizabeth was considered notably 'different' in that regard#(and was quite literally framed as the enemy and destroyer of 'the old royal blood of this realm' and all its actual 'inheritors' like..)#ngl this sort of discussion always leaves a bad taste in my mouth#because it's not like England and France (et all) are at war or consider each other mortal enemies in the 21st century#both are in fact western european imperialistic nations who've been nothing but a blight to the rest of the world including my own country#yet academic historians clearly have no problem contextualizing the xenophobia that medieval foreign queens faced as products of their time#and sympathizing with them accordingly (Eleanor of Provence; Joan of Navarre; Margaret of Anjou; etc)(at least by their own historians)#Nor were foreign queens the “worst” targets of xenophobia: that was their attendants or in times of war commoners or soldiers#who actually had to bear the brunt of English aggression#queens were ultimately protected and guaranteed at least a veneer of dignity and respect because of their royal status#yet once again historians and people have no problem contextualizing and understanding their difficulties regardless of all this#so what is the problem with contextualizing the classism *Elizabeth* faced and understanding *her* difficulties?#why is the prejudice against her constantly diminished & downplayed? (Ive never even seen any historian directly refer to it as 'classism')#after all it was *Elizabeth* who was more vulnerable than any queen before her due to her lack of powerful foreign or national support#and Elizabeth who faced a form of propaganda distinctly unprecedented for queens. it SHOULD be emphasized more.
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i'm back on tumblr (again)
#exams are over mostly#for now at least until may altough i might have one next week let's see#but so far so good#i did postpone a few unfortunately thought but it is what it is i'll still have to do them this semester#it's gonna be tough but i'll pull through and i want to prepare even better i can do this#the one's i did though i die exceptionally well on which makes me kinda proud ig#i got an a on two really difficult one's as the only person :oo lol ig i did something here#feels like i cracked some code for studying and ngl it feels so good i want more results like these#not sure it will work on all exams though but i feel like my studying techniques were pretty spot on and i actually studied more than usual#i feel like i'm getting addicted to this lol like actually being good at uni feels so good so rewarding#i mean i always wanted it and i have been good at uni for some time now but like i did even better this semester - i finished with no c#and lots of a's#but then also i wish i could just study for the enjoyment of it 🥹#don't get me wrong i love learning and being at uni most of the time is actually enjoyable :)#and i like learning the materials because it's interesting to but actually sitting down to study - the anxiety takes so much away from that#when i sit down and study it's usually with so much anxiety ... how do you study without those negative thoughts in your head constantly#i'm always convinced i'm gonna fail anyway and also when i don't meet my study goals on a day i get stressed because i'm behind schedule#and disappointed whenever i don't study as much as i planned or even not at all#like i tell you before i wrote that exam i got an a on i thought oh i might fail i'm gonna need a bit of luck to get a d#altough i thought i could also get a better grade but i have no judgment#part of me still thinks i got a bit lucky with the questions and i still cannot fathom how i did that ngl#i'm trying to stop these thoughts to make studying more enjoyable and i try to tell myself it's not a linear process#and sometimes it takes longer than expected but then your knowledge increases exponentially at one point#or i also feel like i set myself such unattainable study goals i'm bound to not meet them#and i should really prioritize my sleep more and not study in terribly sleep deprived states sometimes#i did get better with that but still it's so bad how i'd sacrifize my mental health for my grades 🥲#but if i'd fail an exam or do badly on it i'm also always so disapointed in myself so it's like i can't win 😅#i just want better balance with good grades and having a life and being in a better mental state#i do have some internal motivation like i want this for my future still i wish i could be more internally motivated#i also don't want my parents to worry and want to make them proud altough that's not a bad one
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I realised once again how bad I am at recognising faces ...
I started watching Charité (a German historical series about the Charité hospital in Berlin) and straight up did not notice that Justus von Dohnányi plays one of the main characters🤦 I don't often keep up with specific actors, but I really like many of his works (there are some films that I discovered only because they were listed in his filmography), and thought I would've probably grown accustomed to his face by now. To be fair in Charité he looks decently different since he has a beard and darker hair than usual (many characters that he played before that I know of were blond, which is also his natural colour I think). Still I wonder how long it would've taken me to realise it was him if I didn't have the show's Wikipedia page open on the side😅
#I know it's not very wise because I might accidentally spoiler myself but I just really like reading trivia and behind the scenes stuff#I'm currently only at S1E3 though#idk why I have to start new things always when I actually don't really have the time for it#but I saw one (1) gif series and was like 'I have to see this'#I think I really enjoy it so far though definitely worth a watch (it can be a bit difficult to find though😭)#I really like Ida and her and Georg are so cute I hope nothing bad happens to them🥺#but also unrelated I have a hairdresser appointment in february and I've been wanting to make kind of a mood/inspiration board for it#maybe I'll have to add Georg because ngl I kinda like his hairstyle ... probably not as a 1to1 copy (not sure if it would suit me anyway)#but like something in that direction ...#charité#justus von dohnányi#selnia talks
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so, i suppose it's time for me to address the elephant in the room: why i mentioned ritual sacrifice as a part of the triggers that'll be on this account (i know it's a trigger most probably don't see often BUT JSJSJ i promise that there's a reason behind this being included in this account, of course!). and that is because i wanted to express this one idea that, as zora neale hurston once said, 'half gods are worshipped in wine and flowers. real gods require blood.' + this basically means that, while 'lesser gods' might require simple sacrifices, there's this idea among those who worship the gods in resgalis's pantheon that true gods demand more significant offerings to be bestowed to them when being prayed to to have their prayers answered.
and this, of course, includes resgalis because they are known as the god of change as well as boundaries; which means that if you are entering a transitory period within your life, then i came up with this headcanon that worshippers of ressa would want to try to 'appease' them in order to be given the best outcome possible when they come out on the other side. + they will also offer resgalis these UHHH... kind of unsavory offerings in hopes that the god will bring 'good' change to their life and that whatever they're wanting to change will happen. so, it's a sort of wish fulfillment ritual in a way since resgalis is known to preside over a rather large domain of people's lives (change). and that means being in good favor with them is very advantageous to some of the people in the religion that's associated with them.
so, yeah. i'm not saying that ritual sacrifice is right and i'm also certainly not saying that i agree with it as the mun, but this is something that i wanted to integrate within her character to introduce an element of extremeness to the religion / their worship overall; because the gods in their pantheon are viewed more as forces of nature than anything else. and i hope that makes sense, but if it doesn't, then just let me know y'all and i'll try to give you all a more detailed explanation of this.
#ALONE. A TRUTH I HAVE FELT ALWAYS: musings.#SO VIOLENTLY DO I KNOW THE WORLD: headcanons.#ooc post.#yeahhh... so in summary: ressa's followers offer them ritual sacrifices in order to try to recieve favor from the god sometimes-#and i know that is honestly really kinddd of a big 'yikes' to put it lightly BC killing things like this is well... bad for obvious reasons-#but the gods are not exactly moral beings NGL and that is to say that resgalis isn't exactly moral either.#that isn't to excuse what they're doing OFC but it is an explanation behind what they want from their worshippers to-#'make things happen' sometimes in a way as it basically reinforces that they hold some form of power over their worshippers and-#it in theory makes them more amenable to interacting with humans so. yeah it's messed up but this is the explanation-#behind this storytelling element for those who might've been curious about it (':#tw: mentions of ritual sacrifice.#tw: mentions of murder.
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oh boy i can smell the time skip ending from 500 miles away
#time skip endings aren't always bad but#shudders. demon slayer ending#that is the main reason why i have not yet read and completed demon slayer#watch it be a marriage and badly done time skip ending and i'll just be sitting on my bed#staring at my phone#somehow irate and also empty at the same time#idk how i feel about ochako's arc conclusion#i feel like it could've been executed better but i'm not like angry at it either#at the very least thank fuck it wasn't a confession scene#maybe this conclusion could be considered mediocre but you know what would be worse? that.#bnha spoilers#mha spoilers#bnha leaks#mha leaks#also im ngl idgaf about that old lady#to be clear i would massively prefer a marriage time skip ending over a confession in this chapter but also at the same time#fuck marriage endings outside of romance manga
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I wanna post about my J/J/K OC one day but… I wonder if she’d be a little controversial since her relationship/dynamic is pretty (purposefully) toxic lol
#also doesn’t help that I’m super behind on the series#I remember being near the start of the current arc(?)#but ngl my mind and heart have always been stuck in the hidden inventory arc 😭😭#but yea my oc… well let’s just say I think she’s real fun ✨#(and if you know anything about me you know that’s bad news ✨)#butter rambles#I also got a K/N/Y one who’s story I really like..#and my M/D/Z/S one who’s lowkey one of my favourite ocs…#so many ocs… so little time…#just know my jjk one would probably need to come with a few content warnings lol
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looking at my gif ideas list and feeling absolutely nothing has to be one of the most crushing feelings as a creator

#life#ngl i've been feeling my drive to make gifs slowly declining but would always brush it away as 'having a bad day'#and just push myself to make things because those are MY blorbos?? and if i don't make anything then no one will#but i fear i'm slowly approaching the end of things#like i downloaded the hug mod and looked at it and looked at it and looked at it#and felt absolutely nothing#mel from like 5 months ago would be STOKED af about it rushing to find the prettiest location the cutest outfits etc.#and now i'm just.. yea#funny enough i was inspired to write quite a bit today so holding on to that creatively#not to be all gloom and doom though fingers crossed it's just exhaustion and heat doing a number on me#but i just felt like finally voicing what's been going on in my noggin#will go sit in the garden today and plant some flowers and see how i feel about things after that
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Forever crazy to me when people write characters who have canonically (or semi-canonically in Legends) struggled with the Dark side brush Anakin off as a lost cause. Obviously in order to return to the Light you have to want to, I do get that and the characters are likely going to know that, too. But it's just so disingenuous to me when people have these characters be unforgiving and skeptical, ignoring that character's past and experiences. I'm not sure if it's just a lack of knowledge of the characters in question or if they just like using characters as Anti-Anakin/Vader mouthpieces but it really takes me out of a story.
#ngl this is mostly about quinlan vos but like idk! the jedi are about forgiveness!#and doing better!#and i want to clarify like i get that vader is constantly choosing not to repent until luke i understand that#and i get to an extent that by the ot some of the remaining jedi like yoda have lost faith that he could return#but i read a fic where quinlan was warning obiwan OFF OF LUKE??? WHO IS A KID???#bc 'they had no clue anakin would fall either' LIKE NO WHY WOULD QUINLAN#QUINLAN!!!#WHO WAS CREATED IN AND FOR LEGENDS!#WHO FAMOUSLY NEARLY LOST HIMSELF TO THE DARK SIDE WHILE UNDERCOVER!#WHOS FAMILY TRIED TO ASSASSINATE HIM AT AGE 6#JUDGE LUKE FOR HIS FATHERS CRIMES?#AND THEN ACT LIKE ANAKIN WAS ALWAYS DESTINED FOR DARKNESS?#ill admit i havent read the 'canon' book that he is in yet maybe he said some bullshit in that that led people to follow this train#of thought but like hm#feels bad scoob#i think if it had just been quinlan saying something shitty about anakin it wouldnt have bothered me as much#even tho i hate the fanon that anakin hates quinlan/quinlan doesnt like anakin#but like... LUKE???#thats not my quinlan THATS NOT#fandom wank#comm chatter#wow that was a long rant in the tags sigjirgs#the fic was so good otherwise too
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The future is such a wonderful thing to look forward to
#➳ the fool speaks#seriously. I've never really been suuuper ''oooh yes i looove thinking about my future'' and it's still kinda scary#but I feel like I have so much to look forward to now. I mean idk I always did but when my mental health was so bad it was hard to look#ahead and think of more than just. like. what annoyed me that day or whatever#but now every day I feel myself being excited for stuff in the future which is awesome ngl
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