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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 1 year ago

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somewhat satisfied with this... pretty butterfly man...

#didnt want to diverge too drastically from his canon palette #but butterflies never retain their caterpillar colors so. blue-green & pink howdy supremacy #and a lot of butteflies have black bodies/legs and also dark gradients on arms/hands Absolutely Fucks #so he gets fancy black gradients! and cool wings!#his wings were a Bitch to do ngl #also fluff... butterfly fluff...#in my mind the back of his hindwings have big ol eyespots on em & smaller ones on the forewings #which you can kind of see #scribble salad #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #howdy pillar #yassified howdy <3 #i didnt have to make him pink. but i did. for all of our sakes.#pink/teal is The color combo no i dont take criticism. im right.#its like the bad bitch version of red/blue #WAIT IMPORTANT QUESTION. googling if butterfly fluff is soft #probably... ive always been too scared of hurting them to pet the ones ive caught/held #theyre not as sturdy as moths or bees. both of which are very soft and i wish they were dog-sized #so i could have a honeybee pet.#GETTING OFF TOPIC ONCE AGAIN #howdy Is very sturdy tho! so it'd be totally safe to-#actually yknow what im gonna stop right there

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voxmilia · 6 months ago

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I just wanna say I really disliked how heated everyone got last night because even though everyone's feelings are valid, things started to get vitriolic and I never ever condone harassing the cast and crew

And I'm so happy today everyone seems to have taken a deep breath and decided to spread love and positivity instead

I kiss you all, it's all love now

#ngl i literally had to get high bc i was stuck in such bad thought loops #some of the deaths took me aback but discourse /always/ fucks with me #fandom culture tends to be very black and white and im too autistic to deal in that #it makes me question if im a good person ™️ if i have differing opinions #which!! is my own baggage to deal with but regardless #this fandom has generally been so lovely and fun and positive and kind #so im glad to see the trend returning after last night #fhjy #fantasy high #d20 #christina.txt

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badlydrawndedkidz · 3 months ago

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hello there! it's me, Tortilla, known mostly as Mod by the people who have been following this blog for a While!

if you've ever scrolled for a bit here, you've probably Seen that I've tried a few times to get back into posting more often and failed comically as i grappled with the dreaded Mental Eel Nesses and Executive Dysfunction, among other things. especially since ask blogs aren't as popular as they were back in the day when i made this blog (2015! turned 9 years last aug 15th! that's an entire child. jin owes me a lot of child support,)

(before anyone gets scared, no I'm not deleting anything lol gimme a sec to word this thought)

okay so like. cutting straight to the point not gonna get sentimental right now I'll save that for later: i want to keep this blog active REALLY bad, but as much as I'd like to, for multiple reasons i cannot draw as much as i did back in the day, which is like... the main thing i usually post here. so I've been pondering for the past year or so What to Do about it

my one idea is to turn this into a general kgpr blog and reblog other people's art and official stuff and the alike here, instead of keeping it Just My Stuff

but the thing is, if i DO that i would want to change my url, because reblogging art to a place that's named "badly drawn--" whatever is. i Don't Want That y'know? it's disrespectful lol

the thing is that that's soooo many links that would Break. among other things. (+ i have nooo clue what id change the name to but that's a different issue)

so like, my question here is,

#...ngl i could swear i had more to say in this post but i forgot so uh. jazz hands #mod post #ive been going back and forth on this for a While lol..drafting posts and deleting them and rewording #life's been rough but kp's been there for me always and recently ive been back in the pit again #(managed to drag some of my friends in! they're having fun)#and ive been doing a doodle or two here and there but they're not in the badly drawn™ style #and after nearly a decade i STILL dont know if im allowed to post my normal style art here #(yes i know it's my blog i can do whatever. my brain works in mysterious ways. not even my therapist knows how it works)#if i do repurpose this id definitely go back and make the organization system better too lol which may take a bit #since there's like. over 2k posts or smth here? last i checked anyway #maybe more #might be over 3k but id rather lowball it #anyways im rambling uhhhhh #feel free to give more options/ideas if what i said doesnt feel Quite like the solution ig?#i just know ive been getting new followers still even when i havent been posting and it makes me feel bad like OH NO.... I HAVENT POSTED....

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moruboru · 1 month ago

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having the time of my life rn

#im just gonna dump this here bc i srsly cant go with this anywhere else cause my veins are about to pop #going on bsky really making me realize that my art simply got carried by the algorithm and not bc ppl actually like it i feel lol #i crawl back to twt bc im so addicted to the notification pop up there at least there i can feel like i actually matter #everyone has been getting serotonin from bsky but for me it was the exact opposite most friends also dont care for bsky so im just alone #maybe its also just the realization that perhaps there is nothing left for me on this earth #i put so much of my selfworth into the stupid numbers online and now im paying the price for it #my mental health is so bad rn i cant go a single day without feeling like i wanna end it today or i wont live past my 30s nor that i even #WANT TO live past my 30s my passions are gone dont have goals in life anymore like whats even the point maybe this really is the final #nail in the coffin for me lol i dont even think anyone cares for me beyond a personal surface level not even my family im so done with lif #im so eaten up by jealousy in every aspect of my life and i have had to bottle it up for so long bc nobody actually gives a shit even if i #openly talked about it to whoever how its making me miserable but its always the “just think about the good in life :)” there is none #i honestly wished for several years i shouldve been dead or at least not exist physically anymore and it was only the clout online that kep #me alive for better or worse but now im starting to believe this was all jsut lies too lol ngl i just wanna crawl into a hole and never ge #back out of it anymore i dont think anyone would even miss me anyways lol

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wonder-worker · 8 months ago

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people really do not know what they're talking about when it comes to Elizabeth Woodville's social status, huh?

#yes Elizabeth was without a doubt considered too low-born to be queen #no she was not a commoner and nobody actually called her that during her life (so I'm not sure why people are claiming that they did?)#Elizabeth's social status was not a problem in itself; it was a problem in the context of queenship and marrying into royalty #Context is important in this and for literally everything else when it comes to analyzing history. Any discussion is worthless without it.#obviously pop culture-esque articles claiming that she was 'a commoner who captured the king's heart' are wrong; she wasn't #But emphasizing that ACTUALLY she was part of the gentry with a well-born mother and just leaving it at that as some sort of “GOTCHA!”#is equally if not more irresponsible and entirely irrelevant to discussions of the actual time period we're studying.#Elizabeth *was* considered unworthy and unacceptable as queen precisely because of her lower social status #her father and brother had literally been derided as social-climbers by Salisbury Warwick and Edward himself just a few years earlier #the Woodvilles' marriage prospects clearly reflected their status (and 'place') in society: EW herself had first married a knight and all #siblings married within the gentry to people of a similar status. compare that to the prestigious marriages arranged after EW became queen #Elizabeth having a lower social status was not 'created' by propaganda against her; it fueled and shaped propaganda against her #that's a huge huge difference; it's irresponsible and silly to conflate the two as I've seen a recent tumblr post cavalierly do #like I said she was considered too low-born to be queen long before any of the propaganda Warwick Clarence or Richard put out against her #and the fact that Elizabeth was targeted on the basis of her social status was in itself novel and unprecedented #no queen before her was ever targeted in such a manner; Clearly Elizabeth was considered notably 'different' in that regard #(and was quite literally framed as the enemy and destroyer of 'the old royal blood of this realm' and all its actual 'inheritors' like..)#ngl this sort of discussion always leaves a bad taste in my mouth #because it's not like England and France (et all) are at war or consider each other mortal enemies in the 21st century #both are in fact western european imperialistic nations who've been nothing but a blight to the rest of the world including my own country #yet academic historians clearly have no problem contextualizing the xenophobia that medieval foreign queens faced as products of their time #and sympathizing with them accordingly (Eleanor of Provence; Joan of Navarre; Margaret of Anjou; etc)(at least by their own historians)#Nor were foreign queens the “worst” targets of xenophobia: that was their attendants or in times of war commoners or soldiers #who actually had to bear the brunt of English aggression #queens were ultimately protected and guaranteed at least a veneer of dignity and respect because of their royal status #yet once again historians and people have no problem contextualizing and understanding their difficulties regardless of all this #so what is the problem with contextualizing the classism *Elizabeth* faced and understanding *her* difficulties?#why is the prejudice against her constantly diminished & downplayed? (Ive never even seen any historian directly refer to it as 'classism')#after all it was *Elizabeth* who was more vulnerable than any queen before her due to her lack of powerful foreign or national support #and Elizabeth who faced a form of propaganda distinctly unprecedented for queens. it SHOULD be emphasized more.

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flying-cat · 4 months ago

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oh boy i can smell the time skip ending from 500 miles away

#time skip endings aren't always bad but #shudders. demon slayer ending #that is the main reason why i have not yet read and completed demon slayer #watch it be a marriage and badly done time skip ending and i'll just be sitting on my bed #staring at my phone #somehow irate and also empty at the same time #idk how i feel about ochako's arc conclusion #i feel like it could've been executed better but i'm not like angry at it either #at the very least thank fuck it wasn't a confession scene #maybe this conclusion could be considered mediocre but you know what would be worse? that.#bnha spoilers #mha spoilers #bnha leaks #mha leaks #also im ngl idgaf about that old lady #to be clear i would massively prefer a marriage time skip ending over a confession in this chapter but also at the same time #fuck marriage endings outside of romance manga

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bootyful-seventeen · 9 months ago

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I am heavily contemplating on buying myself a dvd player soon and buying all the DVDs for a ton of movies and tv shows I grew up watching cuz I miss the magic of dvds

#hear me out on this one okay. but the Barbie movies were magic on dvd back in the day #and I do wanna see if stores are still selling the old strawberry shortcake dvds before I go online for those #I wanna snort that nostalgia so bad #and of course I’ll need to get the dcau on dvd #like all of it cuz I’m so bored with the dccu since we don’t get as much new stuff #it’s always Batman or superman and love them but I’m kinda bored from always seeing a new bman or sups movie #Wonder Woman I wouldn’t mind a new actor for her but I know she’s not gonna be a muscle mommy which I’ll be sad about #give me a Wonder Woman that is built like rhea ripely god damnit #the flash is eh cuz I found out this whole time I’ve been watching the Wally west flash #but yeah Wally is who I want and then there’s the green lantern like dude is so cool iams all we have is the 1 from 2011 I think #sure I could watch some of the tv series they have but I have too many shows on my watch list it’s overwhelming at times so I skip over lots #tho I will have to pray like crazy cuz some of the things I know I want are probably gonna be expensive as fuck even as second hand #saw a class of the titans season 1 dvd going for $81 cad 💀💀💀#the world is not kind to those who don’t love the digital age #I prefers my dvds cuz I own it and no one can take it away from me unless they physically steal it #omg I’m turning into my grandma cuz she still had the vhs player with some tapes too #just wish she never donated the tapes for swan princess 1-3 and Anastasia and ferngully and basically all my faves that she owned #like Ngl a part of me wants to hit up value village just to see if maybe they’re still there or if I’ll find other copies of the same things #cuz a perk about cities with older people is that you get so much older tech and other items it’s insane

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mercymaker · 7 months ago

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looking at my gif ideas list and feeling absolutely nothing has to be one of the most crushing feelings as a creator

#life #ngl i've been feeling my drive to make gifs slowly declining but would always brush it away as 'having a bad day'#and just push myself to make things because those are MY blorbos?? and if i don't make anything then no one will #but i fear i'm slowly approaching the end of things #like i downloaded the hug mod and looked at it and looked at it and looked at it #and felt absolutely nothing #mel from like 5 months ago would be STOKED af about it rushing to find the prettiest location the cutest outfits etc.#and now i'm just.. yea #funny enough i was inspired to write quite a bit today so holding on to that creatively #not to be all gloom and doom though fingers crossed it's just exhaustion and heat doing a number on me #but i just felt like finally voicing what's been going on in my noggin #will go sit in the garden today and plant some flowers and see how i feel about things after that

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angeltism · 3 months ago

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The future is such a wonderful thing to look forward to

#➳ the fool speaks #seriously. I've never really been suuuper ''oooh yes i looove thinking about my future'' and it's still kinda scary #but I feel like I have so much to look forward to now. I mean idk I always did but when my mental health was so bad it was hard to look #ahead and think of more than just. like. what annoyed me that day or whatever #but now every day I feel myself being excited for stuff in the future which is awesome ngl

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graciebrams · 5 months ago

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#tw: vent #so my mother is basically mean to me like 99 % of the time and we literally argue every single day #and i have been trying my hardest to not pay any heed to what she tells me but recently she told me something that really #made me feel so incredibly hurt and stupid idek how to put thaf into words #i avoid sharing things with her because she makes me feel bad about even the tiniest most unnecessary thing i share with her #so basically i have this one friend who was staying away from home for uni and she lives near me so i always try to be there for her #becayse i know how lonely it gets for her and i always go everytime my friends need me and my mom hates that #she makes me feel like being nice to my friends and others is the dumbest thing on this planet and that im stupid #but if my sister does it she's an angel #i was just waiting for my friend to figure things out as she was moving back home after uni ended so we could go look at internships #toghether #and she went home and got a job and while im happy for her she didn't even mention anything about it which made me sad enough but when i #told my mother about it she made me feel worse she said that was not very nice what she did you did so much for her and i told her #that's alright i dont mind and she said that my friend used me for her benefit and that I'm stupid for being nice to people #because according to her every nice thing that ive done is stupid and nothing i have done is going to make her feel proud or is enough #she qould NEVER say this to my sisters EVER #aah fuck this became too long #im so sorry if anyone came across this #but yes my mother is literally my biggest enemy most times ngl #she makes me feel like i wish i was not alive #it hurts to see my friends have great relationship with their moms and sisters #:')

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headlessstar · 6 months ago

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Finally got a tekken 3 copy with its manual and wanted to compare the story synopsis of the final product with the demo i got a few months ago. Save to say that the quality difference is substantial.

I’m still confused on what they wanted to accomplish by the early concept of ogre not only killing jun but also kazuya. I’d write it off as an error but it appears in multiple sources so it makes me wonder if the early version of the story would have had kazuya living peacefully with jun after tekken 2? It seems so far fetched especially with them establishing that heihachi reigns as head of the mishima zaibatsu.

#tekken #shoomi.txt #should prob put this in the side blog buuut i’ve been neglecting this blog for months now #not over “jun kazuya” how do you even make that mistake #im unsure whether the demo was released before or along with the full product but im assuming before just for the story misconceptions #ngl the thought of kazuya leaving it all behind to leave with jun always sorta… rubbed me the wrong way #not that im not all for happy kazjun #(okay maybe if they work hard for it)#but kazuya abandoning his quest to murder heihachi seems so…. un-kazuya #at least to me #he’s a character that’s built off vengeance for the wrongs he has been dealt so idk #just me being particular anout kaz i guess #happy for jun tho she deserves to have a full family. for however long it lasts #hmmm but thinking of the implication of the reveal in t8 about her in such an au #it’s been a while since i got into the tekken headspace haha #also sorry for the bad captures i scanned these on my phone

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chappellrroan · 1 month ago

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sometimes ignorance isn't the worst thing

#i was about to sleep when i came across the pgc campus rape case reel which ofc yeah that's my feed and now i have to sit with the fact that #not only they did not get justice but many students were brutally beaten up and shot at while protesting ++ they denied everything because #there were suspicions of the ceo of institute being involved #i say the world is a scary for women always has been and won't change overnight but us south asian countries really excel in oppressing our #women girls specially young girls it was bangladesh first then the moumita case here in bengal (not like there weren't other disgusting and #horrifying rape cases & aren't still going on) but the brutality of these just keeps on upping each other #why did i have look into it now it sounds so selfish but atleast being ignorant is better than feeling all this helplessness & dread #i wish i had the 'oh i don't look at news' kind of attitude sometimes ngl because jesus it's just bad after worse after worse #but then i won't be able to live with myself i never had that dumb naive attitude towards world i grew up hearing about nirbhaya #i was terrified of men & our government & all the powerful people who get away with everything since i remember being able to walk to school #i was supposed to be sleeping rn sigh #tw rape

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facultyloungecosplay · 1 year ago

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Debating black jacquard curtains for the closet. Oob thinks it would be “too much black” in my very small bedroom, but I’m inclined to disagree. I liked the white when my room leaned more airy Victorian, but it’s decidedly more gothic these days.

#the sharp line at the bottom has always bothered me #so why not just replace them with Extra curtains #and I feel like the white is too bright? it worked before but I find it a bit jarring now #\users\oz #very nearly done with the gallery walls but who knows #I’ve been hard at the Halloween hunting because it’s my home decor #too bad it’s 110°F #if you’re wondering why I don’t have closet doors #it’s because this house is cursed #and they kept falling off the track #which we replaced #but it still happened #so Victorian curtains it is! and ngl I like them better

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stinkrascal · 1 year ago

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will someone come to my house and do my dishes for me plz 😔

#i feel rlly sick today :(#i have been pushing myself a lot lately #making lots of plans and i have more plans this weekend #i’ve been very social the past 2 weeks and im happy ab it but also just so exhausted its making me physically sick #but alas the dishes must be done theyre so bad rn 😭#im ngl im a huge slob yall #definitely a lot better than i used to be but the kitchen is my weak point its always so messy lmao

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gods-favorite-autistic · 11 months ago

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Glass Onion really was just me yelling about how stupid Miles is the entire time and then feeling the satisfaction when the other characters realized it too

#I was on the miles hate train from the moment I saw him but also when he said the mona lisa’s smile appears and disappears I was so pissed #like yes the meaning of the mona lisa’s smile changes every time you look at it I can get behind that #but the smile itself does not disappear!!!!! the restoration of her smile was like a whole thing!!!! what the fuck are you talking about!!!’#‘that is the Aegean sea’ one of my favorite lines ngl #glass onion #glass onion spoilers #technically I guess?#ok spoilers starting here #also I can’t have been the only one who realized that the handwriting on the envelope that said ‘love andi’#was the same as the handwriting on the invitation that said ‘love miles’#bro couldn’t even get original with that #love the fact that blanc didn’t even get the chance to solve the puzzles so he just trashed them to miles’ face just cause he could #an icon honestly #also I truly don’t think that’s how allergic reactions work like he would not have just died that quickly but I guess it must have been bad #also also for the record I called the allergic reaction thing from the second he dropped cause why else would they mention that #to be fair I fully thought that the fruit in his drink was a straight up pineapple so I am kinda dumb but it did remind me of the allergy so #helen brand you will always be famous #anyways i’ll shut up now #autism (mads) speaks

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akkivee · 4 months ago

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heat so hot i walked outside and it flash cooked my brain, for a second i was so confused why it was so hot bc i thought we were in october with the bat release next month 😭😭😭😭

#this is vee speaking #i also really want it to be october lol dh release and shadow gens it’s going to be fire lol #but that’s kinda concerning ngl LOL #i will always prefer heat misery to cold misery bc i will make very bad decisions due to cold misery #but i have never been so affected by the heat it caused confusion maybe we as a species should agree to stay indoors when the temps are 96➕#save ourselves from extreme weather it’s what kuukou would want as resident extreme weather hater lmao

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