#i have a lot to say and not enough braincells to process it and not enough words to use

[she]

ray needing so desperately to be loved and needed and sand so promptly ready to care for this stranger throwing up in his toilet and make exceptions for him yeah im going to need a minute

[latteunwoo]

meet-cute!vernon

to be fair, the two of you did share a lot in common

one of those things being that the two of you shared the same braincell (this was endorsed by wonwoo who watched yours and vernon's first meeting unfold)

you finally had a free day from both school and work and decided to take a little walk around the city and check out the music store across the street from the coffee shop you always get your morning coffee from

the store wasn't very big nor did it seem very popular as it was one of those hole in the wall places that you could only notice if you looked hard enough

that being said, there was probably like four other people besides yourself in the store

"welcome!" the store owner said as she welcomed you as you entered the store

you simply gave her a soft smile as you made your way through the crates filled of vinyl records towards the back of the store

as you reached out to grab a boys like girls vinyl that you had caught in the corner of your eye, another hand reached for it from the otherside as well making you jump not realizing someone else had been in the vinyl section as well

of course the boy jumped as well when you had jumped, causing the vinyl that was in both of your hands and your phone to fall onto the ground

"i'm so sorry, i didnt mean to scare you" he said as he reached down to help you pick the vinyl and your phone from the ground but instead ended up headbutting you as you both stood up again at the same time 😭

wonwoo couldnt help but laugh from the other side of the room

"and so it begins" wonwoo said to himself as he watched the interaction between the two of you

"oh my god, I am so sorry. are you okay?" vernon asked as you rubbed your forehead after the impact.

"i'm fine," you said as you looked up at him to see he had a red mark on his forehead, which made you start laughing.

vernon raised an eyebrow at you at first before you pointed to his forehead

"are you okay?" you asked as he rubbed his forehead a little then nodded

"yeah, I'm fine. does it look bad?"

you let out a small laugh, "kind of."

vernon unknowingly let out a small chuckle as he couldn't help but notice how cute your laugh was

once he had caught himself he quickly cleared his throat before looking back at the vinyl in your hand

you noticed his gaze and looked back at him

"um... are you going to get that?' he asked as you just nodded, "oh"

there was a small awkward silence betwen the two of you as you thought about what to say because it looked like he really wanted the vinyl too and there was only one left, however you've also been looking for this for a while

eventually a thought came to you, "it looks like you also want this vinyl and i don't think they'll have more stock of it until a few months from now so if you want i'd be willing to let you borrow it sometime. if that's okay with you?"

there was another silence between you two as he looked at you then the vinyl and back to you

"that's fine with him," wonwoo said from behind vernon as vernon quickly turned to his hyung with a look of 'what are you doing?!'

wonwoo just smiled at vernon and gave him a look of 'i'm trying to help you' before he went back to looking at the other vinyls

"um... so...." you said as even though wonwoo said it already you still wanted confirmation from vernon

"y-yeah sure that's fine with me." he said quickly as you nodded and took out your phone and gave it to him to put his number in

"i'll send you a text so you can save my number too and you can just message me whenever you want to borrow it um.... vernon," you said as you looked at the contact name he put on your phone and smiled up at him.

"yeah, for sure" vernon said, still trying to process just exactly what was currently happening.

"alright, well, i'll see you around," you said as you gave him a soft smile before walking back to the front of the store to purchase the vinyl.

as you walked away, vernon stood there still trying to process what had just happened.

"hyung, what just happened?" he asked as wonwoo laughed and patted vernon's shoulder

"you might have just gotten yourself a possible date"

vernon quickly turned around as wonwoo noticed his ears started to turn red, "what do you mean?!"

"what do i mean?", wonwoo asked as he let out a smal laugh, "i saw how you looked at her. it seems like you're interested in her so you're welcome."

"i didn't- that's not- ah, whatever," vernon said as he quickly walked away and wonwoo just laughed

that night, you had texted vernon to make sure that he also got your number and since that day you two began texing each other more often and finding out that you actually had a lot in common

seventeen m.list || main m.list

[bryce-bucher]

500 CALIBER CONTRACTZ Post #12

Dialogue!!!11:

The main thing I did over the past week or so was put together this dialogue system. The system itself was fairly easily to implement, and I think the only interesting part of the process to share is how I went about making the UI. As per usual, I wanted to have a cool mechanical feeling ui, but at the same time a friend of mine suggested an AOL instant messenger inspired chat window. I loved both of these ideas so I decided to combine them into a screen that pops up and contains the aim-like window. The modeling process for the screen was similar to how I went about making the other two bits of ui that are on screen in the above photos, but I decided to include a VGA port.

VGA PORT:

I didn't originally plan to include a VGA port, but I was in the middle of researching monitors and accidentally left a window open on my computer that just had a big photo of one and I went "wait a minute.". With my final two braincells I suddenly decided to slap together a model for the port which I ended up being proud enough of to, for some reason, make an entire section for it.

Sorry if any of the above sentences read horribly. I am going to need a third braincell if you want this stuff to be coherent. Anyway, Blender is so cool. Using the array modifier to make all these lil squares for the holes in the port is just such a satisfying process. I've come to really like makin pre-rendered assets like this.

New Movez:

This is actually a pretty big inclusion, and I probably should've ranked it in my mind above the VGA port. I added some new movement options to the game!

Firstly, I added this melee move where you swing the back of the sniper forwards to propel yourself a bit. It is mainly useful as a bunnyhop that allows you to conserve momentum.

Next up I added this kick that happens if you melee while in the air. It's basically just the one from mario64. It lets you gain a little bit more height and distance. It also becomes way more effective if you have a lot of momentum. A good tool for correcting jumps and reaching new heights.

Finally, we have the big schmovement slide. This slide gives you a huge burst of speed that you can jump out of in order to send your self flyin. Surprisingly, it didn't really break any of the level design and ended up being a really fun addition imo. In order to perform it, you have to do a ground pound and then melee as you hit the ground. Also, I feel like I basically stole this from pseudoregalia. Played through that recently and it has been a good source of inspiration.

Nova!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:

This is a cameo skin I've been really excited to finally make myself put in the game. Anodyne 2 is a really important game to me, and I love it much. I'm really happy tha folks at analgesic let me put her in here, and I'm p happy with how her model came together. If you haven't peeped the Anodyne games I highly recommend them. The first one was a major inspiration for parts of Fatum Betula.

Conclusion:

Lately I've been playing this game way too much. It has made it impossible for me to tell if it is fun or well designed. Some problems cropped up during playtesting that ima need to address, and I hope that it all comes together into something that one could say is "fun and cool". I think takin this weekend off is gonna do my brain good. Oh yeah also I feel like I should advertise that I'm still doing commissions if anyone is interested. Anyway, have a good 1 and enjoy urself.

[actualbird]

hi zak, my luke plush got a bit dirty and dusty.... do you happen to have a guide on how to wash (and care) for your luke plush properly?? thanks ueuueue ;;-;;

hi hi chika!!! i see youve finally gotten to the quintessential luke plush owner milestone of having to give your boy his First Bath!!!

i wouldnt say i know the textbook Proper way to wash luke plushie, because when i got my luke plushie i lost the official hyv tag he came with so i never got to read the wash/care instructions (if there were any) BUT i can tell you how ive been washing my luke plushie because it seems to have worked so far!!

without further ado

step 1: pre-wash

youre first gonna wanna remove his clothes, luke plush is a lot easier to wash when hes naked, and it's also easier to wash the clothes fully when theyre off of his body

(pictured: the plushie family and clothes, separated)

i'd also suggest using a lint roller at this stage to get some of the surface dirt off, just so washing him is easier once hes in the water

once hes naked and lint-rolled, its off to the bath!!

step 2: bath time

we're going to be hand washing him, not machine washing because machine washing a plushie is scary to me. theyre all alone in there.....

anyhoo, fill a basin with cold water and drown your luke plushie in there. make sure there's enough water to fully submerge your boy.

once hes all wet, add gentle detergent, the gentlest you have

both the water temp and detergent kind is to prevent any color fading. very much avoid any harsh chemicals like bleach and whatnot.

this is not part of the washing process but now is the perfect time to pause and take a picture because luke plushie will look like hes in a bathtub

(pictured: bubble bath time for luke plushie)

anyhoo, once youre done taking a pic, gently GENTLYYYYY scrub at any portions that have dirt or grime on them. gently GENTLLLYYY rub everywhere else that doesnt have any visible dirt.

repeat with the clothes, and take extra care because ive found that his clothes are very fragile.

dunk luke plushie's head under the water and gently GENTLYYY squeeze, so his stuffings and braincells also get washed.

do this for a few minutes until youre satisfied or until the visible dirt has been removed

once done, set luke plushie and clothes aside, dump the sudsy water out, and fill the basin again with clean cold water. dunk luke plushie and clothes in the cold water to rinse them off, swishing luke plushie and clothes around under the water.

after some swishing, you can run luke plushie and his clothes under a running faucet or hose to further rinse him out.

keep rinsing until the water no longer comes out with sudsy bubbles. you may have to squeeze his head GENTLY GENTLYYYY a few times in between this process to get all the suds out of his cranium, so just be patient

once the water is no longer sudsy, it's time to dry him!!

step 3: drying

since the clothes are thin, you can hang those up right away to air dry. for luke plushie, however, his head is huge and currently filled with water which makes him very heavy at first.

to get some of that water out, place him on a towel, fold the towel over him, and press down on his head gently or roll him around in the towel. do this a few times to get as much of the water in his head Out so he isnt so heavy when you hang him

once his skull has been drained of most of the water, hang luke plushie on a hanger by his legs, since it's easiest for clothespins to clip onto that

(pictured: just hanging out)

if luke plushie's head is still too heavy from the water to be hung from his legs, another alternative is tying a ribbon around his neck and hanging him from the ribbon instead. i just dont do this myself because it VERY MUCH EMOTIONALLY DISTRESSES ME to see him choking like that, but objectively it's a good workaround

IMPORTANT NOTE: if youre air drying them outside, place them away from direct sunlight. this is, once again, to prevent color fading.

i find that leaving them to hang out for one full day is enough to dry him completely!!

and thats it!! once everything is dry, you can clothe luke plushie once more and he'll be all clean and fresh

oh one last note. if your luke plushie had slight blushies on his cheeks (like it was sprayed on), you might notice that thats faded a bit after the first wash. this is normal and unavoidable (at least in my experience), but you can add his blushies back with makeup, if you have any

also, i'd highly suggest getting a lint roller for when luke plush gets dusty but isnt dirty enough to warrant a full bath!! just gently give him a bunch of rolls like so to keep him dust free :D

i hope this helps!!! i wish you the best on your luke plush washing adventures!!

[period-of-nocturne]

I just read lutf.

Fuck. (I say that word a lot below)

I knew what was going on because everyone went crazy about it- and it's not really a surprise. But still. Fuck.

Something something An being shield by Vivid Street. Something something An shielding Kohane at the start of their partnership. Something something subconsciously acting like the people who taught you life even while being blissfully unaware of what they're doing.

Taiga was a jerk but since everyone made a fuss over it I'm not especially shocked by it, or even mad. I don't need to be mad when I know the kids will destroy him soon enough.

Still I am not immune to siblings relationships.

It was his little sister, for fuck's sake.

I can't help but feel I'd never even entertain the thought of anyone getting better than my lil' sis. I don't have one but this isn't the point. The point is : Nonsense. That whole day was for her and nothing could ever be similar to it. Because it was for my lil' sis. So everyone fuck it, back off and go home.

I kind of get why's he's so grumpy. At the same time I think it was his own twist way to encourage them.

Caucasian man aside!

An.

An. I want to talk about An but I'm left speechless. Can I just hug her.

Props to Jiena for the amazing dub. I think she destroyed my mental sanity with that shaken, broken, oversensitive An.

Also Yorushika's Bakudanma. It's an An song to me now.

Yeah I'll ignore the central point and keep rambling about random details - not because I don't care, but because I can't process sh*t right now.

Flashback Ken has literally two braincells and they're called Shiraishi An. This is hilarious to me. Actually young Ken seems hilarious to me.

I wonder if Akito and Taiga kicked the same thing at the same place years apart when they got mad. Poor bin being used as the bad news punching ball.

I don't know y'all. I just went from tense, to more tense, to screaming like a banshee before somehow calming down and then I spent the rest of the event between tears, hype and a weird sense of peace. I think my brain stopped functioning. Granted, almost every pjsk event does this to me.

Nagi.

"I don't want to die. I want to keep living life with all of you here. Forever."

"Tell her... I believe in her."

Those stupid scenes wrecked me.

This is the less structured post ever.

[kozukatt]

i wanna see those ninjago headcanons pleaseeeeee

ask and you shall receive :3

Lloyd:

𑁍 he would be the one to sneak food out of the kitchen

𑁍 whenever Zane’s baking he’s there ready to taste test and steal chocolate chips

𑁍 everyone keeps forgetting he’s just a kid in an adult body so even though he acts tough Lloyd is actually terrified of fighting 

𑁍 after Harumi died in the collapsed building he took a few days off to process the whole thing

𑁍 Kai is a big brother to Lloyd so whenever he’s upset Kai’s always there to help

𑁍 same thing with Nya; she’s a big sister and the middle sibling of the RGB trio

𑁍 Lloyd respects everyone on the team for practically raising him and dealing with his evil phase

Kai:

ꕥ will ironically say “FIYAAAA!” But everyone is used to it so there’s no reaction

ꕥ literally an oven

ꕥ remember in s1 when he found Zane in the fridge? Yeah he never lets him live it down even though he chilled in the oven around that time

ꕥ blames himself for every little thing that goes wrong on a mission

ꕥ takes criticism hard

ꕥ grew to be less protective of Nya but he still worries about her time to time

ꕥ relies on his elemental abilities so when they’re taken away (s10) he feels utterly useless 

ꕥ avoids water because 1: he’s terrified of it and 2: so he won’t ruin his hair

ꕥ Kai’s only afraid of bodies of water so anything more than Nya’s abilities is terrifying to him

Cole:

 he’s simply a bear

 a plus size god

(Minor TW for eating disorder)

 developed an eating disorder during the 1 year time skip as a way to punish himself 

(TW over :3)

 video games are his outlet

 never actually had a crush on Nya he was just confused and felt like he had to feel like he liked her

 amazing at sarcasm

 his and Jay’s bromance can never be broken

 even though his relationship with his dad got better he still never feels like he’s enough

 is afraid of singing because of a deep rooted fear of failing stemmed from his dad

 he’s an amazing listener and comforts the team whenever they need

Jay:

✫ has repressed his comic nerd until Lloyd came along

✫ ADHD at its finest

✫ hyper fixated on comic book characters to try and escape his responsibilities 

✫ gaming with Cole is one of his outlets 

✫ doesn’t like to be called out on his faults but will take them well and improve

✫ still feels resentful to his biological mother and father for leaving him but is glad he has Ed and Edna

✫ his hair is always staticky and always shocks people

✫ isn’t allowed in the kitchen because once he tried starting a fire and blew up the oven

✫ his freckles developed after acne and are a result of scars from said acne

✫ a natural ginger

Zane: 

❄︎ his hair is individual strands of synthetic hair

❄︎ whenever his skin got damaged in s1-3 it would mend back together like real skin

❄︎ when he rebuilt himself he only had basic functions but as time went on Jay added on the ability to feel temperature and other things

❄︎ he constantly has imposter syndrome for being a nindroid

❄︎ he has immense respect for his team and Wu

❄︎ the only rational braincell of the group

❄︎ acts irrationally though when it comes to family (Falcon, the ninja, etc.)

❄︎ he sometimes gets rusty and has trouble moving without pain

❄︎ constantly cold but doesn’t feel it so it takes fire or some other super hot thing to make him even a little warm

❄︎ cooking and baking for the team and people he cares about is his way of showing love

❄︎ whenever someone is having trouble with something he will be there to help no matter what

Nya:

༄ she’s a buff queen

༄ one of the tallest of the group

༄ doesn’t have a good relationship with her mother until the end of seabound

༄ even after she reached her full potential Nya is constantly afraid of failing 

༄ her and Kai relied on each other a lot when they were growing up

༄ they didn’t have a good relationship when they were younger but after Wu took them in they had a stable environment and were able to have a better relationship 

༄ wants to prove to herself and others that she’s worthy of being on the team

༄ has a grudge against Dareth for trying to downplay her 

༄ HATES being put into stereotypes 

༄ never backs down from a fight 

༄ even when she knows she can’t win Nya’s able to stall until catching them off guard to gain the upper hand

[measuringbliss]

So one thing I suddenly started thinking about with my insomnia-ridden single braincell was translation in Harry Potter. Not translation of the books (although it IS fascinating), but translation of books, in-universe. And speech-translation, and presumably translation of everything.

Is translation a job in HP's magical world?

You could argue that there's probably a spell, a potion or any type of thing that supposedly provides translations. A very quick search throughout the wikia doesn't provide me with an example, but let's suppose so.

I see two main ways of doing translation, which I will compare with IRL processes:

The Human Way

The Artificial Intelligence (AI) Way

The first method implies some degree of conscience, where the translator understands the languages comprised in the interaction and the cultures they're associated with. The human can interpret, have opinions, deliberate, be influenced, and overall use their judgment. In the magical world, the direct equivalent would be identical: a human translator.

Now, the second method is different. It bases itself a canon of sorts (usually constituted of legal texts), where human translations have been executed, and the process checks what comes back again and again. It remembers that, for example, "Monsieur" is often (but not always! We immediately get a nuance) translated as "Sir" from French. If the machine sees that word, it will translate it that way. It won't take the cultural context into account (Does it take place in France? Is the character French? What's the social status of everyone involved? In which era?), it will just see the word, the sentence as a whole if it's not too terrible, and will repeat what it saw dozens and dozens of time.

An immediate issue with this method is that a lot of languages rarely interact with each other. English and French are common pairs, but Turkish and Afrikaans? Not so much. If the machine doesn't have enough data, it has to rely on intermediary translation, for example by first translating the text from Language A to Language B, then from Language B to Language C, which can be highly inaccurate.

In the magical world, a similar thing would simply be magic.

Magic is an interesting concept if you get in the nitty-gritty. We know that human translators, thanks to their humanness, their conscience, are better translators than AI (and that will never change).

So the question is: how would magic work?

Does it have a conscience? It doesn't seem so. It does help kids by revealing itself, but it seems to stop there. It's not all-powerful; any reader of Harry Potter knows that food can't be conjured from nothing. What stops magic from doing so: technical limitations (laws of nature?) or a simple, thought-out refusal?

There's no evidence to support the second theory, so we must assume that magic not only doesn't have conscience, but also has limits.

Now, we already determined that to translate accurately, you need a conscience. If magic doesn't seem to interpret anything (it seems to simply receive instructions and execute the command; think of how the wand movements and pronunciations need to be precise! How does that go for non-British wizards? Does everybody in the world need to have a British accent to say Latin formulas?), it's very comparable to an AI--at least, it doesn't try to pass off as human. At least, not without human intervention, whereas AI, once created, does have some autonomy.

Ergo, the magical world absolutely needs human translators and is probably aware of that fact to a better degree than the human world of 2024.

[acrylicscore]

So like, I felt like doing a little “My MCSM Choices and Headcanons” post, just as a like basis for my personal canon on MCSM while also additional letting people who read my blog know what to expect from me in terms of this silly block game.

I will place my choices in “read more” so those that don’t wanna don’t gotta.

Jesse Type:

Red-Suspender Jesse.

He’s just my favourite little guy. He just seems different. Like honestly, compared to Green-Suspender Jesse (who I’ve found people view as a gruff and bulky short-stack that has the most adorable puppy eyes, and I love it), I like to view Red-Suspender Jesse as this short skinny dainty looking thing that is somehow the scar-covered hero that saved the world. Anyone who is directly looking for him is like “Oh you’re the famous Jesse? I thought you’d be tougher looking”, and then they immediately meet their fate on the floor in the Family Guy dead pose. But of course, Green-Suspender Jesse is my second choice.

Jesse Personality:

Chaotic Neutral or True Neutral

Some days he’s a sweetheart, other days he’s a little shit. There is no telling what this man’s personality could be at any given moment. There is no pattern. But he’s naturally cheeky so who knows.

Also he’s one of those people that doesn’t process his emotions too well. So for my Jesse, he’s naturally sad at heart, which results in him finding it difficult to cope with extra sadness too well, but also having a constant longing feeling for happiness or moments of pure bliss. He finds that the best way to fill that void is helping people or being in the act of helping people. If left doing nothing for too long, he gets very unstable.

He also feeds off of other people’s happiness and joy, especially his friends. He’s his happiest around people he loves. If left totally alone, he can’t cope.

Prefered Armours:

Shield of Infinity

I adore Shield of Infinity! There’s just something about it that just makes my brain happy. It have this really regal/majestic vibe to it (which is also mentioned in game), and it looks to incorporate emeralds into its patterns. Not only that but spikes on the shoulders! Also its Lapis Blue in colour.

Tooth Chipper

I just really like how simple this one is. While the Underneath’s armours don’t get much love, I would just like to say I love this one. It doesn’t feel too cluttered compared to the other armours on offer.

Favourite New Order Member:

Olivia

I just can’t describe it, but I LOVE Olivia. She’s just that vibey bestie that’s not afriad to tell you you’re an idiot in the most serious or sarcastic tone ever. She’s also like that friend that is more like a sister and will annoy the hell out of you if given the chance.

I will say though, Jesse is normally my favourite NOOTS member, but he can be shoved to the side for favouritism punishment.

Favourite Old Order Member:

Ellegaard

Omg the redstoners are my favourites, what a surprise! But seriously though, for me Ellie is just really neat. She has that “I don’t like people” charm to her. Like, she’s very awkward in conversation and seems like she doesn’t realise what she’s saying until long after she’s spoken. She’s quirky, like me-

Ivor was also shunted to the side because of favouritism punishment. He can be a family in the corner with Jesse.

Favourite Side Character:

Gill

Why do I like Gill? Fuck you, that’s why. He’s just so goofy and huggable and “I don’t know wtf i’m doing” coded. He lives in my head rent free. He just wants to vibe but Aiden wouldn’t let him.

Also I project a lot of personality and ideas onto Gill, and I specialise in pairing him with Jesse in the most dumbass situations where Jesse progressively loses more braincells the more time he spends with Gill. I just love them <3

Favourite Villain:

Cassie Rose

I prefer Cassie overall. She’s mysterious, and she’s lashing out because of cruelty done to her in her shrouded past. You don’t know why she’s angry or why she resorted to murder, but you know enough to understand why she wouldn’t simply reach out for help. Also she’s a cat person, and I simply cat pass up a cat-person coded character.

Favourite S2 Character:

Jack

Personally I don’t like the Season 2 characters, with the majority of them just completely escaping from my memory until someone mentions their name. However, I do have my preferences in Jack, Nurm and Radar; the Beacon Town bois.

Jack was the one I got attached to the most, with Nurm followed very close behind. He radiates “cool uncle” energy that makes me smile every time, especially when he’s showing off or bragging. Even if people find his bragging habit annoying, I personally love it because it’s just a simple touch of world building and fun interaction. He’s just fun.

Leave or Stay:

Stayed in Beacon Town

This choice is basically “Be Gay or Do Crime” and I chose to be gay, just not gay for Lukas.

On a reasonable note, I honestly think the reason Jesse would have stayed in Beacon Town would be from a guilty conscience. He feels he’s to blame for the destruction and disruption of both Beacon Town and Champion City, and that everything that happened is all his fault because he was the one that first lured the Admin in, even if accidentally. He wants to fix his mistakes, not abandon them.

We are now entering more-so Headcanon territory

Ships:

Jesse x Gill

It’s a stupid ship, but its my stupid ship. I will love them till the end of time.

Lukas x Olivia

They have such nice chemistry, and also they’re both nerds that just click for me.

Ivor x Harper

We all know why.

Jack x Nurm

They are husbands, your honour.

Jesse x Cassie

This isn’t a very prominent ship of mine, and often takes a more friendship-like approach anyway. This is honestly just here because of AU reasons, as for some reason if I have an AU where Jesse and Gill don’t interact (either at all or really late) then Cassie is automatically Jesse’s best friend. This is the case for Lapis Swap and Ender Child.

Despite this, this ship is either “They’re best friends” or “They are specifically romantically insterested”, which is why I’m listing it as a ship. There is only one of my AUs that’s somewhere in the middle, but other than that it’s between those two options. Although I will say, there are only a total of four AUs of mine that have Jesse and Cassie interact like this.

Other than that, I still think its funny if regular canon Jesse had an “Oh she’s cute” moment when first meeting Cassie. Basically Cassie was Jesse’s “Omg I’m not just gay” awakening but he won’t dare to admit it.

Jesse x Lukas

I don’t generally ship this one, but it’s the ship that I love reading about and viewing art for. I just love the fanfictions and art pieces I find, with pretty much everything being some of the best works I’ve encountered for any fandom. Its the ship that I just follow the fandom for, but I still have a great appreciation for.

Canon Event:

I’ve never watched Spiderverse so I’m just guessing if I’m using the term right.

In my canon of MCSM, the canon event is Jesse’s childhood home being destroyed when he was a child. Yes yes, I’m going for the “Jesse is an orphan” trope, but its fine. This event is what pushes forward a lot of my canon and also AU stories, and is altered accordingly when needed.

So info about this day; Jesse’s home is attacked by griefers when he was age 6, resulting in him fleeing from home (and dad’s death). However on this particular day there were multiple presences in the area; Sammy, Jack & Vos, who were coming to visit the family as Sammy was Jesse’s biological aunt; Ellegaard, who was heading back to Redstonia with a crew of miners who had come back from a mining expedition; and Ivor, who was travelling to collect materials to take back to his lab. Out of everyone to encounter, Jesse encounters Ivor, who then fended off any pursuing griefers to protect the child. He then takes him to the nearest town to ensure Jesse was a bit safer.

This event can be altered in many ways to suit my AU differences, like encountering Sammy’s group, or encountering Ellegaard, or simply Ivor taking care of Jesse himself. I have even changed the time that the event takes place, or removed it all together. Honestly, if I make an AU revolving around Jesse, this is the spot that I look at beforehand.

AUs (listed):

Lapis Swap AU

Ender Child AU (Son of Soren AU)

Engineer Jesse AU (Son of Ellegaard AU)

Alchemist Jesse AU (Son of Ivor AU)

Jack’s Nephew AU

Secret Elytrians AU

Origins AU

Early Daughter AU

“It Never Happened” AU

Permanent Champion AU

Admin Order AU

If there are any AUs that may intrigue you, feel free to ask. I’m always happy to chat about them and answer questions.

Little Side Idea I Wanna Share:

I’m giving Jesse a parrot.

Yes, I know Lluna exists, but she’s still technically Stella’s pet. And also yes, Jesse may not be able to fully get over Reuben, but sometimes getting another pet is the best way to move on.

Also the main reason I’m giving Jesse a parrot is due to my post-canon events. Long story short, the Order is severely injured but Jesse has it worse and is permanently out of commission. The rest of the Order healed to a reasonable health before Jesse could, so they could head back to their respective towns. Although, a couple of days before they do, Jack and Jesse find a young parrot fresh out of the nest without any feathers except one single lapis-blue tail feather. Jack recommends (forces) Jesse to take care of the bird while he was recovering, as Jack could definitely see that Jesse’s mental state wasn’t too good, but also the parrot’s lack of feathers was due to parrot depression too. While reluctant at first, after the first night he started connecting with the parrot almost immediately as the two found their similarities really quick, and helped each other into healing (physically & mentally).

Basically my whole purpose for the parrot is for the analogy and comparision for healing. Jesse is devasted that he can’t do what he loves anymore because of his injuries, so there would be every chance that he would spiral downwards, so give him the one thing he needs to prevent that from happening; company. The others, despite their efforts, are always going to have to leave, so Jesse needs someone who won’t leave. Not only that, but Jesse is someone who just feels the need to help people, to help others. So in my theory, you give him someone who won’t need his side but also someone who needs his help too. So I gave him a parrot friend.

Also the parrot’s name is Lazuli, because she has lapis blue feathers. She was named that because of the singular tail feather she had initially though before she healed.

She also acts as a messager around Beacon Town, because why the hell not.

Hope this opens up a but about my personal canon of Minecraft Story Mode. I’m quite happy with what information I’ve given about my brain, but if you have questions, don’t be afraid to ask.

Have a good day!

[yes0another0outsiders0blog]

Finally rereading The Outsiders like I said I would. I think I'll probably be doing a chapter a day, even though it's short enough that I could probably bust it out in one or two sittings. I'm really prone to burnout and I am trying to write a bit each day and I have a job to work and adult tasks to do and such, so a chapter sounds like a good goal with that considered.

Also, I'm sick as a fucking dog while reading this first chapter. Not relevant, just a little fun fact.

Anyway, have my thoughts while I read it!!

The Outsiders Reread : Chapter One Notes

less than a page in and I'm already tired of Ponyboy being Not Like The Other Girls

he's 14, that's positive, I should not be able to stomach a well-written 14 year old on account of them acting very 14, but also shut the fuck up

"yeah, I read books, unlike EVERYONE ELSE" go to hell

not to intentionally misread and water down a character, but Ponyboy saying "but sometimes I just don't use my head" is literally all you need to fucking know. that's it, that's the book

we get it, Pony, you come from a very hot family, yall are all conventionally attractive. paragraphs, ffs

also, I love that Soda doesn't drink. that he has a drunk on life attitude. could absolutely never be me, love that for him, unfortunately I fw Two-Bit's vibes with alcohol a bit more--

and the fact that Soda is the only one that can tease Darry.

there isn't a single positive thing said about Dallas besides "I didn't like him, but he was smart and you had to respect him." but frfr he's so great.

but if I met any of these fuckers irl Soda is the only one that I'd have a chance in hell at not hating. and that's only because he seems like he'd be enough of an emotionally/socially intelligent people-pleaser to actively try to get someone to like him, lol.

kinda salty about Johnny being called the gangs pet, wtf Ponyboy. not like he's one person's main reason to live, is SUCH fucking ride or die, later kills a man for Pony. but yeah, he's a pet. he tags along. what the fuck ever, man. if anything, Ponyboy (you know, the person that's mainly part of the gang bc he tags along with his older brothers, the BABY of the group, the quiet & sensitive one that doesn't have a single braincell outside of pure booksmarts) is the pet. like, sure, Johnny has trauma and is really quiet, but let's be so fr right now.

despite what is said in the book (bc it's Ponyboy's pov so we only get his perspective, obviously) I'm sure Darry gets after Soda too.

also, oldest children that become parental figures in some degree are allowed to be mean to their baby siblings. it's our right. as a 20-something year old with a young teen baby brother with common sense in the negatives, I am very biased in saying that Darry is always objectively 100% correct in every situation ever (heavily exaggerating, I just relate a lot).

forever mad that we don't get more Sylvia!!! my most random fav!!! so much love to her!!! she's basically an oc with how little we get of her and how many headcanons I have, I don't even really like the main fanon version of her either, but GOD she's my girl fr

NO BECAUSE WHEN I WAS 14 IF SOMEONE PULLED THEIR OWN KNIFE TO DO A DISSECTION THE WAY MY TONGUE WOULD BE DOWN THEIR THROAT. Ponyboy, babygirl, you did NOT deserve for that girl to hate on you like that. RUDE.

"Dallas deserves everything he gets, and should get worse, if you want the truth." agreed, that's my though process as I'm making the nastiest headcanons for him. my life's goal is to make this man suffer or make him into a loser, and all my hcs do both

breaks my heart so much how Ponyboy talks about Darry, leave my boy ALONE, dude!!!

my headcanons for Darry are usually the exact opposite of my hcs for Dally, I just want this guy to have the very best ong. I'll get so unrealistic with it too, bitch, YES I'll give you an absolutely stunning sugar mommy, babe!! just stop being stressed and stop having bad things happen for a few minutes!!! I almost struggle making in character, good headcanons for him because I just want to give him fluff and filler only and nothing else--

[appalachianapologies]

I don't want whatever the threat is. I dont eanna live in fear

Your ocs. Hand em over

OKAY i know it has been. weeks. months, even. however, I considered how I wanted to say this because too many characters too little time. but here we go:

A Penchant for the Ordinary

Jamie Caldwell is everyone's favorite character and by that I mean she's chaotic as hell, makes knee jerk reactions, definitely unknowingly has ADHD, extremely low self control, and her stress relief is punching people who (probably) deserve it. She's a gay mess in every sense of the word and has seriously tried so hard to get her life together and it's just. it's not working out for her. so, after accepting that fact, Jamie begins to embrace the chaotic and darker sides of herself. if her life is going to hell, she may as well take a free trip down as well and see what it's all about

Chloe and Gus together, because they're so codependent we quite literally never see them apart except for a single scene near the end where Gus hangs around to say one last thing before following her. As mentioned: codependent as hell. Not romantically involved but they know every single in and out of each other- moreso than most couples. While Jamie feels regret for her sudden reactions, Chloe basks in them and has never once wished she made a different decision. Gus typically has the braincell, but usually not for long- he's as much of an adrenaline junkie as everyone else.

Madison did not sign up for any of this shit. When my dad read my book, one of the things he told me was that it was so not necessary to put her through everything that I did. And although I agree, it was sadly necessary for Jamie's questionable character arc. Sorry Madison- but trust me, you're better off with a different girlfriend

Kat absolutely signed up for everything she gets herself into, even if she claims that she didn't. She goes around saying "I'm not involved with any of these people :|" and then actively hangs out with them and invites them to her apartment. for multiple days. She's the type of person that would claim to want to have a relaxing life but she literally chose not to. girl what

Davy tried his best. kind of. he could've done a hell of a lot better, but he also genuinely tried to do well to fix his mistakes. He's the type of person who will feel genuine regret for what he's done and try to rectify his mistakes, even if it takes uhhhhh a lot of time :)

Evelyn is a bastard. absolutely mad woman and in not a fun sexy hot way. Power hungry, unfazed by hurting anyone else in the process of getting what she wants, and yet she still sees herself as benevolent (she's not). Believes she's the main character of the book (she is not).

James did not deserve any of that. I'm sorry dude. That being said, your coping mechanisms were a little subpar. Sorry we still don't know exactly how you died (it's not a spoiler okay it's happened like ten years ago).

Daniel and Edward are absolutely in love but neither of them realize it and it's not a standard love. think qpr. think: they've known each other since elementary school and have gone through all of life together. loyal to a fault but would change on a hat to keep the other safe.

Obligatory Did these characters interest you? Do you want to read a subpar book but support a young author? You can buy A Penchant for the Ordinary here! Thank you in advanced for your support :D

and now: Paradigm

Delilah's trying her best except she makes about a few wrong turns, which ends up shaping her life for the next decade. Surprisingly little self esteem for a person in her job market, though she acts the opposite. She doesn't have enough of a filter but manages to charm her way past a lot of things that should've ended badly. The queen at pushing things down and pretending it never happened. Is aware that she's pretty much trapped, but doesn't believe she can get out.

Charlotte is still Delilah, but she's determined to change into someone else. A new woman who's better, stronger, more confident than Delilah. She becomes the femme fetal that Marcus had wanted since day one, and embraces it. She likes being the bad guy, relishes the feeling of knowing she's in the wrong, and pretends that she doesn't have a nagging feeling that she is, in fact, in the wrong.

Taylor is still Delilah, and parts of Charlotte bleed through to her as well. A changed woman. Mature, who believes that she's seen so much of life that she's immune to anything else that could be thrown at her. Truly believes that she can't change and was created to be bad. Acts like she couldn't give a damn about other people when in fact the opposite is true and she's just afraid of having weaknesses. Aren't we all.

Marcus is pretty much the worst person you can imagine. Runs a cool home business called "assassins for hire :)" (paraphrased). Although he used to do the dirty work himself, he now has employees that he keeps on a tight leash to do everything. Always has multiple contingency plans in case something goes wrong and the authorities get wind of him. If any employee screws up, Marcus gives them zero chances to fix it, and will round up everyone who fucked up last quarter, shoot them, and give them a shallow grave in the Nevada desert. Has an insanely creepy infatuation with Delilah.

Sid is quite possibly the only employee of Marcus that is somewhat on the genuinely good spectrum. ...or at least the "not actively trying to do bad" one. Ex-military, classic "never really left [insert place of war]." Hates Delilah until he begrudgingly doesn't hate Delilah. He knows that everything Marcus is doing is screwed up, but Sid's just going through the motions of life at this point. What's one more life for one more paycheck?

Lainey's name is still pending, but it'll probably end up as Lainey. Smarter than anyone in the world gives her credit for, and is very calculating. She knows more than she lets on as well, and uses that to her advantage. She's probably more forgiving than she should be, but that makes Lainey who she is. Eventually, the only one who knows the most about Delilah (and that isn't just because she sleeps with her. oops)

Rebecca is the classic TV CIA agent except she's actually real. She has poorly controlled OCD but pretends like she has everything under control at all times. After spending over half of a decade attempting to track and take in Marcus, she's eventually promoted to a higher up position, where she gets to create her own team, to finally, once and for all, bring in Marcus. Is pretty much willing to sacrifice it all for the job with little hesitation.

Carter is somewhere between Rebecca's second hand man while also being the worst (affectionate) gay hopeless romantic there is. He thinks he can juggle a relationship and CIA work but let me tell you. He's never learned how to juggle. Keeps Rebecca sane in every way you can think of, and the two often spend nights at each others' places because that's just what they do. Like Rebecca, he's on thin fucking ice with every higher up in the CIA. However, unlike Rebecca, he's excellent at damage control with their supervisor.

Unnamed Classic Hacker Character is still unnamed because no name has truly suited or worked with her. Trusts literally no one, especially not Taylor. Hates her guts, actually. Probably the only one who's actually confident about things, though she knows the least at any given time because she's a junior agent. Rebecca immediately was like "I want her" despite the fact that she graduated worst in her class. Opinionated and full of spite, in the way that every person in a fandom would fucking hate. Absolutely, without a doubt, a character I would love to write an 11 book series spin-off with

finally: Lou is for Lavender

Lou, originally Louisa, is going through it. The book is a journey on her life- or rather, the three months after escaping somewhere between an abusive boyfriend and being trafficked. With little identity, she finds herself constantly trying to figure out who she is, who she should be, and if there even exists a woman beyond the girl she used to be. She's genuinely trying her best, but fuck if it isn't hard. I love her. I love her so much. She is so lost but she's trying so hard to find her way back on a path. I could write five more paragraphs about her at any given time.

Maria is a six year old with far too much energy for someone her size. Absolutely infatuated with her grandmother and the way she used to read to Maria every single day and night, Maria begged her grandmother and Dana to teach her how to read by herself, which quickly morphed into writing. She'll write pages of six year old nonsense for hours without getting bored, and is absolutely thrilled to have a new friend around the house! never mind that she's an adult- Maria sees Lou as a built-in summer friend.

Dana has been putting on the best face for nearly five years. Although it wasn't her intention, after her mom got sick, she moved back to her family's ranch along with her three kids- Maria and two older boys. After her mom passed, she stayed, unable to bear the idea of leaving once more for good, but she's great at hiding that fact. The youngest of seven, Dana is caught somewhere between constantly feeling the need to prove herself while also knowing that no one's waiting and watching for her to grow anymore. Six kids came before her, and Dana genuinely believes that she simply slipped under the attention of everyone.

The Flowers are how Lou refers to the other women she met along the way. The girls who all had an intimate understanding of what she was going through, and yet nothing at all. The flowers are constantly living inside of Lou, always on the edges of her thoughts, nearly controlling her at some points. They stay with Lou, sometimes causing guilt, sometimes causing pain, sometimes just to remind Lou of the dandelions that used to sprout up in between cracks in the sidewalk.

The Journal that Maria gives Lou (after declaring them best friends forever), isn't technically a living character, but it may as well be. It's where Lou's thoughts reside. Where her fears and regrets and memories live so they don't have to live in her head. The journal is an extension of Lou, and the scariest thing she could think of is losing it, but the journal was never meant to stay against her chest for the rest of its life.

Anyhow, if you'd like to support some of my original work, I have a Ko-Fi! Covers are expensive as h e c k - But also, reblogs support me as well :D a chaotic way to spread the chaotic characters 'round these parts

[onlyjaeyun]

coming back here almost a day later after reading the epilogue cuz i am not okay. i’ve been thinking about it the whole entire day just trying to come into terms & process & accept the fact that poison is truly done now (sure we’ll have a few bonus chapters here and there but u get what i mean) and honestly it’s making me feel emotional cuz it’s been a few months and we’ve all been on this rollercoaster of a journey but just DAMN how everything came together perfectly at the end with hee&yn being a girl dad (which is so real btw) and all of that is so cute. i personally (am heartbroken🙍🏻‍♀️) am really happy at the incredible ending you wrote for poison and speaking of ur writings u seriously never fail to impress me 🙏🏼 like the way ur braincells connect to form a thought is truly fascinating (i just cant say you’re a genius like a normal person and move on, don’t mind me.) like truly you’re one of the main writers i admire & look up to like you’re in the top fr fr onlyjaeyun 🔛🔝 ong 💯 BUT ANYWHO before i start crying again i love you so much i hope u have a nice lil mini break and take care of urself and ur health <33 and i can’t wait to see everything that’ll happen in strictly business 🤭 sending u lots of kisses & hugs <3

- ⁉️

BABY 🥺 you're really going to make me cry again I SHED ALL MY TEARS YESTERDADY ALREADY 😭😭😭 but thank you SO much. you know i always look forward to your little rambles snd the fact you take the time out of your day to send me them makes me feel so loved i can't thanknyou enough. sending you so much love rn 🥺💞💘🩷💓💕

[rhynerd]

"You know how this works, I can't go and handle that for you if you keep grabbing on to me like that," I mutter out with the 10% of energy I have from being woken up in whatever hour this is.

My demon, Vespera, nods and lets go, shuffling as far back to the edge of the bed as they can in the process. They may be about two feet taller than me and a wiry mess of black hair and static, but they manage to curl up enough to resemble a toddler.

I roll to grab my bat from under the bed and use the nightstand to make sure I don't keep rolling right onto the floor as I get up. It's a small shamble up to the closet when I open it. The first thing I notice is a pair of glowing eyes looking right at mine. They don't give off that much light but right now they might as well have been my overwatted bathroom light right in my face. The reactionary "fuck" I give as I cover my eyes scares them into a retreat behind one of my plaid shirts. I hear a hanger fall off the bar and a nasally squeak before I look back. My shirt is now tangled around a corpse-pale imp slightly larger than your average pharaoh cat and just about as dashing. I utter some apologies and get him free of the shirt.

"Travis, what are you doing in the closet?" I ask the imp.

"There's something under the bed," he replies.

I pick the bat back up.

"Well, can't be anything too dangerous if it let me grab this. Give me a moment."

After waiting a bit for my eyes to readjust to the darkness, I stick my head under the bed. Right in Travis's usual place is a child. Well, maybe not exactly a child, but they look like one. Kind of like the neighbor's kid, but there's something off. It hard to describe the exact kind of off without the help of braincells that don't wake up until 10 AM, I can tell I'm not looking at a human. Hopefully 10 AM is just four hours off instead of how far away I think it is.

I call out to them. "Hello?"

They scootch away.

"Hey, hey, it's okay," I say as I let go of the bat and try to roll it away. I did not get a good carpet for rolling things on, but hopefully it makes the message clear I'm not going to hurt them. "My name is David, is there something I can call you?"

"F-Fl-Florence," they stammer out. I'm not sure if they wanted me to actually hear them or not. Maybe it's because it's the same name as the neighbor's kid.

I finally go to look at the clock. 4:17 AM. I should be mad, am probably am, but at least I was wrong about it being 3 AM.

"Well Florence, I'm going to get something to drink. If you want I can get you something too but I'll probably need your help finding what you want."

I extend a hand out to them. Florence takes it and I help them out from under my bed. Vespera and Travis have both taken cover on top of the bed at this point.

"Alright. Everything's fine now. You two can head back to sleep if you want," I tell them just before I leave the bedroom to guide Florence to the kitchen.

They ask for a glass of fruit juice. I make myself some coffee. They sit at the table and take very small sips while I do this. They're not even halfway through the glass by the time I sit down with my first cup.

"Y'know, there's a Florence next door who looks a lot like you. Do you happen to know her?"

They nod.

"She a friend of yours?"

They nod again. I take a big sip of my coffee.

"Your parents must really like her too, I guess?"

They don't nod, but that distressed look on their face may as well be another yes.

"I'm sorry I asked."

"You're not going to tell them, are you?"

"Your parents or the other Florence's?"

"Mine."

"I won't."

"Thank you."

"Don't mention it. You're not the first changeling to run from home around here."

The fae Florence turns their head in a quizzical manner.

"Yeah, happened to the Terrance family a couple floors down. Took some work, but now they have two kids."

Florence's eyes light up at that.

"Do you think that could happen to me too?"

"I'd have to ask Hailey about that. She'll probably be up in a couple of hours. For now though, I'm gonna need another cup of coffee."

I stand up to get back to coffee pot. As I do, I look towards the bedroom. Vespera's curled around the doorframe, staring at us. I give them a smile and a wave. They slink back inside.

Considering everything I'll probably be seeing them this afternoon, but for now I have work to do. Also, work to call out of, now that I think of it.

It'll work out. If I can make things work out between me, Vespera, and Travis, I can find a way to help out the Florences too.

You wake up to find your sleep paralysis demon holding you tight in fear, tears in eyes. “There’s a monster in the closet”, it says.

[tumbling-down-the-hall]

Am I the villain in my story?

I throw things when I get frustrated and can't use my words.

Why do I have issues with him?

Alcohol (obviously)

He makes stupid choices.

Is the definition of yolo.

Does not use his one braincell

Says he cares but doesn't

My issue is that I overthink

My issue is that he doesn't understand me

My issue is that I don't understand him. I feel like we are too different for each other. It didn't feel that way at the beginning but it is.

My issue is that I complain too much. Though I don't complain about work to him anymore.

My issue is that it feels like we are roommates more than a couple. Which I know sucks.

My issue is that I have anger problems probably because of my autism.

He got me a faygo today and I was like why that one. Because it was the only one they had and I thought of you and knew you drank blue faygo. Cute gesture but because I "shit on it" he wasn't happy.

He said to give him a goal for one or two months. Because I feel like he doesn't help around the apartment (fuck i barely do shit in the apartment but I try to keep the sink empty because I was over having to wash a lot of dishes and that has lessened one of my triggers)

Goals I could give him

Limit visits to the local pizza place

Start walking with me?

(because I was angry) use the braincell you have

(one that could actually work) keep track of how much you spend on beer.

I say this last one because I told him that he spent more on beer than he did on me and he was like I don't spend $500 on beer. (I think he does but maybe forcing him to keep track of it will make him realize how much he spends on it)

I know I spend a stupid amount at work for cheese, cracker, and grape trays and energy drinks. Which I can buy elsewhere. For cheaper but I choose not too. Most of what I buy is food. And I feel like that statement always stands.

I need to try to go back to my Americorps days and spend less. (though I feel like I have always had this issue? Idk maybe not) I need to save more. For emergencies (and or if whatever I think will happen happens...)

I got mad at him because we talked about getting ice cream after he got back from dinner (I wasn't hungry) and he was gonna text me and that didn't happen he just came up stairs. I didn't want to drive and I didn't want him driving even though he only had 2 beers. And he was like you are upset because you don't want ice cream anymore. No I'm upset because I don't want to drive to get ice cream and I don't want you to drive to get soft serve. I didn't want ice cream I could get from the corner store because I wanted a frosty or a jamocha shake. And I think I'm back to little things trigger me. Why am I wound up so tight? Because I don't feel loved?

Apparently my thought process is wrong. He was doing a stupid thing on my shoulder and I made a comment about wanting to injury him (like headbutt or shove my shoulder into him) and he backed off and was like uhh what? And when he was at the foot of the bed he decided to play with my feet. Where I could actually kick him. I don't understand that thought process.

And then I made a comment of I'm glad you bring yourself joy and he was like yeah. Somebody has to.

Am I the issue in this relationship?

Because it's starting to feel like it when he doesn't see that he does anything wrong. Am I dating a narcissist? Who is gaslighting me into believing that I'm the wrong one.

If I am the issue in the relationship, then why do you stay. You can't joke that it's my body anymore. You barely get that. We barely do anything because I don't feel appreciated in this relationship. I'm just here. You say you love me but do you?

You make sure I eat (not necessarily true, I know there are specific days of the week when I do not eat and you are around.)

You make sure I drink enough water (again do you?)

If I ask you to do something you do it. I don't think I have ever heard you say no to me.

Asked to cut my steak because I didn't want to wield the knife

Asked to do XYZ things when I'm sick

Or to grab my water when I forgot it in the living room or various other things that I have forgotten.

Orange theory works for you but it feels like that is the only thing that works.

I don't feel appreciated in this relationship which is why I'm not intimate. I know he wants me to be more intimate but if I don't feel appreciated I'm not going to give you what you want.

I'm not going to the pizza place tomorrow for the Superbowl. I don't care that he wants me to. I don't want to drink and I don't want to be around those people.

[blackbat05]

Complete Faith

Steven Grant x Reader

A/N: I foresee more of these fics to cope🙂 but I hope it brings you comfort too in tough times. Steven being a sweetheart as always💞

Genre: PG-13

Warnings: Self-doubt, insecurity. Only my two braincells writing this.

***

You ambled into the room, carefully placing your bag at the side before settling on the swivel chair.

Steven who is on the bed, puts a bookmark in his novel, turning his attention to you.

“Bad day?”

“Nah, just exhausted.” You smiled weakly. It was only a few weeks in but somehow, you found yourself easily overwhelmed.

Taking a deep breath, you composed yourself mentally. Before Steven can ask you further, you decide to interject, asking about the novel in his hand - a book about old Egyptian times.

Steven shares, and his enthusiasm is what you need to momentarily keep your mind away from whatever is going on.

“Enough about me,” he shifts his position, swinging his legs off the bed. “Anything you want to share with me?”

Steven was so genuine, so caring. How could you deny him the right to know what was buzzing in your head?

He was a great source of support ever since you met him in the museum while you were taking a break from work. He deserves to know.

“It’s crazy. It hasn’t been a month yet and I’m already feeling all sorts of things. I must be mad.” You attempt to laugh it off, only to see the browns of his eyes soften.

“Love, you’re literally talking to me. I think I’ll decide what’s mad.” Steven takes your hands into his.

“What kind of things?”

You don’t know where to start, but Steven doesn’t rush you to tell him.

“Well, for starters I feel like I’m a twenty-four seven klutz. Can’t do anything right.” You suddenly find yourself focusing on twiddling your thumbs. There, you got it out.

Steven takes some time to process the information. He doesn’t want to cut you off immediately. He knows there’s more. Silence can be powerful when used correctly.

“And I know I shouldn’t be complaining when other people have it way much tougher,” you sighed. “But my emotions are all over the place more than usual.” You look at him, a non-verbal signal for Steven that it was ok for him to speak now.

Steven always chooses his words carefully, and this time it’s no different.

“We all have different thresholds for stress love, I’m just glad you told me.” He says quietly, waiting for your reaction.

You had so much affection for this man in front of you, and now it only increased by tenfold.

“How are you so rational?”

“Takes a lot of practice.” Steven holds your hands gently, telling you to relax your body.

“Don’t be too hard on yourself, love. You’re only just starting out - if there’s anytime to make mistakes, it’s now.” Hazel eyes oozing sincerity, he made you forget your worries in that moment.

“Thank you, I mean it. I know that I shouldn’t beat myself up but it’s easier said than done.” You sighed, internally blaming your mind’s tendency to go into overdrive.

“Then I’ll be there to remind you at every step of the way.”

A minute of silence passes between the two of you and in typical fashion, your stomach growls, bringing it to both of your attention. Steven chuckles.

“Hungry?”

And that’s how the two of you end up at the marbled counter top with a shared pot of piping hot ramen. Slurping the noodles from your bowl greedily, you were grateful for the spiciness.

“So, its the weekend. Anything we could do?” You knew Steven had meant well but you felt that he had already done so much.

“That’s alright Steven, you must be tired too.”

“Nah, we could do something else instead.” Steven thinks carefully. “How about that newly renovated library? Then we could get some lunch at the food court.”

He truly knew you inside out.

“I’ll love that.”

As the bowl of soup started to decrease in level, you felt oddly warm in a good way. Steven seems to be able to read your mind, as he starts to clear the dishes.

The two of you moved like clockwork, and you find yourself back in bed, more relaxed than you were. Curtains drawn, you find yourself staring at the tiny street light that found its way into your house.

“Hey Steven?”

“Hm?”

“Thank you.” You rolled over to face him, nuzzling your nose into the crook of his neck.

He can’t help but to smile serenely, patting the back of your head. Steven knows that even though he can’t make all your problems disappear, he was willing to do whatever it took to make your load lighter.

But one thing he was damn sure about - he had complete faith that you could do it. And he was going to be there every step of the way.

[hollowsart]

Concept: I get yeeted to the TSSM-verse and have a heck of a time trying to figure out how to get back with Peter's help while processing my overall mental state in realizing I'm not in my world anymore and actively fighting my emotional health when I encounter the Sinister Six, especially Doc Ock, Vulture, and Mysterio. Especially Mysterio (cuz he looks n acts so much like my own, even tho the Mysterio costume is different, man they do share a lot in common).

And poor Peter has to deal with my grown adult butt and drag me away from attempting to befriend/rationalize with his rogues gallery and potentially getting my stupid butt hurt.

I'm sorry for the way that I am, Peter 😔

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Peter, coming to the realization that I only have 1 braincell to my name: ..How are you fighting crime against these super genius super villains when you don't even know basic computer science, chemistry, and math??

Me: ..Usually I would have Otto's help.. so..

Peter:

Peter:

Peter: Wait a minute, Otto? As in Otto Octavius? As in Doc Ock?

Me, nodding: mhm.. yeah?

Peter: Isn't.. he like.. your mortal enemy, though? Wanting you dead and all?

Me: ? Why would he be? He's a really sweet man. He's also my partner.

Peter, getting flashbacks of his encounters with his Doc Ock: ..Did you just say 'sweet'? ..Now I'm starting to wonder just how different your world is from my own.

Me: I could say the same for yours. There's so much different, but still some things remain mostly the same.. or at least similar enough.

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Mysterio: -spewing Latin and dishing out a funny quip back at Peter-

Me: -trying and failing to hold back laughter, basically interrupting the fight unintentionally-

Peter: Will you please, stop laughing! It's really distracting!!

Me: I'm sorry!! I'm trying!! I can't help it that you and him keep saying the funniest things!!

Mysterio: no, no, do continue, it's helping me out a ton :)

Me: H--

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Me: You never tried to talk to them about their problems? To get them to calm down and stop?

Peter: No one ever listens to me!! I try to get one word in and already I'm nearly being squashed or I'm being thrown around like a hackey sack!

Me: ah.. I'm sorry. I feel that, though. Being ignored. Sucks.

[afreakingdork]

Ok, so I had a lot of catching up to do! Don’t ask me how I did it because I myself don’t even know, but I missed chapter 19.😭 anyways, I just finished chapter 20, and I must say the only reaction is HDNJDNDJDJJISJS! IT’S PERFECT! GOD, I’M SO IN LOVE WITH YOUR WRITING! YOU’RE AN AMAZING HUMAN!

I’m sad to see it’s ending in two chapters, but I can’t thank you enough for the story! Not to get too personal, but crush too much started right as I was beginning therapy, and I had some impeccable luck to stumble across it a few days after you posted the first chapter! Your writing has helped me through some hard times, and has brought hundreds of smiles to my face! After it ends I can’t wait to see what else you have in store, and I’ll continue to stick around!

Also did I spy something about a Tactical! Donnie part 2, or has college finally managed to kill my last braincell and I’m the process of losing my mind? 👀👀👀👀

But on another note! I think maybe we should make a discord server with all the people who sent in asks! Even with people who didn’t! who just wanna be apart of it! It’s been fun reading everyone’s thoughts, and seeing everyone banter with each other! I would hate to lose that!

Now enough with my ranting! Hope you’re having a good night, dork! Take some time for yourself, and make sure you are taking great care of yourself! You deserve all the love the world has to offer! Much love! ❤️🥰 -❄️

Flake, D-did you make a meme of me? LIKE A MEME OF/FOR ME!?!?!?! i'M SCREAMING!? I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!? WHAT A FIRST!! I am TRULY HONORED!!

AND THEN YOU FOLLOW UP THIS GREAT HONOR WITH YOUR INCREDIBLE STORY!!?!!? Come on now!! I was already crying and now I'm sobbing!!! I can't believe I helped you! I'm so glad to have even done an iota of anything that could bring you joy!

TRIPLE WHAMMY YOU'RE COMFORTING ME ABOUT MY WORRIES OF PEOPLE LEAVING?! Y'ALL GOTTA STOP BEING SO NICE TO ME! i CAN'T BELIEVE I DESERVE IT!!! I FEEL BAD!!! IMPOSTER SYNDROME FOR TEN LIFETIMES!!!

All that aside, saying 'thank you' doesn't feel like near enough for all that you've given me in this single ask. You are the incredible, wonderful person. That is without question.

You did indeed spy correctly! Dork's Tactical Donnie 2: Electric Boogaloo (yes I've made this joke before) is half written, but I really want to get it out asap. I'm so close✊

A discord server? I mean I'm game, but I am truly tragic when it comes to operating discord. Would anyone else like that? I was asking about a Rise discord a while back, but no one seemed to know of one?

You have a wonderful night as well! I'm surely drowning in love so I can't imagine asking for more! Have the very best for yourself!