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Just found out that the anxiety medication they’re putting me on will most likely cause weight gain. How about I just raw dog my mental illnesses

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“You’ll slim down to nothing doing that much cardio a day”

Yesssss pleaseeee wheeennnnn

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Cardio my old friend, you’ve never failed me😚😚

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I have two bites of something “unhealthy” yesterday and I feel so dirty and grimy. I won’t feel clean again until I’ve been 3mpty for a day or two ⭐️⭐️⭐️

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My fiancé wants to get a gym membership so we can workout together (our elliptical died yesterday RIP ol’ Bessie) and on one hand YES I need to get my cardio in. On the other, that means I have to work out in front of other people and I’d rather rip my skin off hahahahah

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Cardio + ⭐️ + ice water = the best feeling in the world

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Coming back to r3striction is like coming home. I feel so safe and happy

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I literally can’t stop thinking about the shaky feeling of being empty and how amazing that felt

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Hey guys! Sooooo I’m back*

I was really trying. Like really really trying. I wasn’t counting c@lories on an app or anything anymore. But my brain is unfortunately still a monster I don’t know how to tame and so every single thing I @te was translated into a number in my head. I can’t escape it, might as well embrace it.

*leaving tumblr doesn’t mean you leave the d1sord3r behind 😔

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Small update on life. Sorry it’s a little long

So like I said in my previous post, I’m doing a cardio challenge. I’m trying to walk 1,800 miles by my 25th birthday. So far so good and I’m on track! However, I’m burning a lot of excess calories and I’m starting to have some health issues.

My health issues started about a month ago and have only gotten worse. I’ve nearly passed out, been having terrible dizzy spells, and horrible brain fog. None of this made me think about recovering until i was 5 miles deep in walk/jogging and I had to lay down because black spots started appearing. But the thought of recovery is still terrifying. I’ve been trying to just e@t a little more and try to not worry about c@lories (which is impossible). It’s been so draining.

And I know an easy answer would be to stop the walking challenge so I can keep ⭐️ving. But the truth is this: I’m getting married next year. When that happens I’m getting my IUD out and my fiancé and I are going to start trying for kids. I can’t be like this and sustain a life. I have to start thinking about recovery seriously. I want to have children and I don’t want them to see me hating my body and let the cycle continue. I want to break that cycle and tech my future children to love their bodies.

I’m far from recovered and who knows if I’ll ever truly be. I still want to lose weight but I need to work my hardest to do it in a healthy way so I don’t fuck up my reproductive organs (really any of my organs). It’s going to be a long, long road until I’m to a point where I love my body. But I have to make those first steps now if I want a future where my fiancé and I can grow old together with our kids around us.

I’m going to be taking a step back from my blog for a while. I’m not sure if I’ll return. I just want to finish out by saying I really am wishing recovery and peace for you all. I may struggle to find it but it is deserved by all of us. We deserve to feel worthy in our own skin and I hope one day we all will.

Love,

Andi 🫶🏻

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Guys I figured out the ultimate motivation to do cardio! I’m walking to Mordor! Starting today I plan on walking 1,800 miles (by the time I turn 25!) Let’s go walking nerds!

(Definitely NOT partaking in second breakfast, sorry Merry and Pippin)

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Ooooookay maybe <300cal a day for a week straight isn’t the best idea for me. Woke up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom and my vision started going black. I’ve been feeling super dizzy all week and having to take multiple breaks at work. Also I work in a pharmacy and the brain fog is making it nearly impossible to do my job.

I hate e@ting and I hate the feeling of being ful1 but I’m definitely gonna have to e@t a little more than I have been if I want to keep my job and not pass out every time I go pee. And if I screw up at my job it could potentially cost someone their life so I really need to take care of myself so I can take care of my patients. Between 500-900 cal was working really well for me so I might go back to that and just one or two days of <300cal.

Thanks for reading my rambling!

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The worst part of being an overweight asthmatic is that people assume if I lose weight I’ll lose the asthma too. Sharon, I’ve had asthma since I was two years old, I’ve lost nearly 50 lbs, the asthma isn’t because of the f@t. It’s because of the shit lungs

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The fact that 100 people want to follow along my decent into the abyss is so sad but also kinda nice knowing I’m not suffering alone. I hope you can all recover and find peace loves xoxo

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Ah okay so my fiancé is starting massage therapy school today (free massages for the rest of my life!!) which means he won’t be home until super late. Which also means I can get on the elliptical and be on it for hours without anyone knowing! Today is going to be a good day!

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October 2023 (~237) vs June 2024 (~177)

Sorry for the weird scribbles. I have unique tattoos and don’t want anyone knowing it’s me hehe. This was the bridesmaid dress I wore for my friends wedding. It was hella tight back in October and now there’s so much room!!