#i have a lot going on rn so im gonna take my time with this and i dont expect daily updates

[cathalbravecog]

first thing i drew on my new tablet to test it out is the tv beast themselves

[toastsnaffler]

sometimes I wish I was a more interesting + charismatic person just so I could keep conversations going bc I like sharing space with other ppl but they routinely lose all interest and leave once I run out of things to say/start talking abt things that don't concern them :-(

[the-himawari]

A3! Troupe Event Translation - Sunny Blanc (1/11)

*Please read disclaimer on blog; default name set as Izumi

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*door opens*

Guy: We’re home.

Hisoka: I’m beat…

Izumi: Welcome back! That’s a pretty bouquet you have there!

Azuma: Indeed it is. Why do you have those flowers?

Guy: A regular said they started a mobile flower shop recently, so they shared them with me. We discussed a lot before they opened for business, so it appears it was thanks for that.

Tsumugi: You aren’t going to display them in your store?

Guy: That thought did cross my mind. But I thought you would like them, Tsukioka.

Tsumugi: Sorry for going out of your way for me. I would drop by your store anytime to have a look as long as you let me know. Thank you though. I happened to buy a new flower vase recently, so I’ll arrange the flowers in that.

Izumi: I’m sure the lounge will brighten up if you display them here.

Homare: Mhm. Life with flowers adds a dash of colour. It is a wonderful thing. ….HA! A poem has come to me!

-pause-

Tsumugi: I suppose this area still doesn’t need any fertilizer… I’m glad both the tulips and the hyacinths look like they’re doing well.

Hisoka: *Nom*… *munch, munch*. How are the daffodils from before?

Tsumugi: The daffodils are growing well too. …Fufu. We’ve been doing things like this more often since our 8th performance.

Hisoka: Yeah. We were doing the opposite during that time.

Tsumugi: We were aiming to get to know each other for our roles as partners, after all.

Hisoka: *Yaaawn*… I’m sleepy…

Tsumugi: Your clothes will get soiled by the dirt if you sleep here. It would be better to sleep on the bench.

Hisoka: Mm… Zzz, zzz…

*dream starts*

August: These will dry by the afternoon in this weather. It’s nice and warm.

Hisoka: ?

August: Look, you can smell the nice scent of the sun from the sheets.

Hisoka: The scent of the sun… (It’s a nice and warm smell…)

August: It kind of makes you want to take a nap, doesn’t it? I guess I’ll catch some shut-eye too. Goodnight.

Hisoka: Goodnight…

*dream ends*

Hisoka: …Ngh.

Izumi: Hisoka-san? Great timing. I was just about to wake you—.

Hisoka: …I smell the sun.

Izumi: The sun? Ahh, you mean this laundry here?

Hisoka: (I had a nostalgic dream about August… Maybe it’s because I smelled this while I was asleep…)

Izumi: You have a happy look on your face.

Hisoka: …August appeared in my dream.

Izumi: Oh, I see. It must’ve been a pleasant dream.

Hisoka: (Back then, I thought I would remember such a happy moment for the rest of my life. But I totally forgot about it before I knew it…)

Izumi: You know, maybe August-san was nearby and came to check up on you…

Hisoka: …August?

Izumi: Maybe he was wondering if you’re doing your best as an actor, or… um, that was a bit insensitive of me to say, huh? I’m sorry.

Hisoka: It’s okay. That sounds like something August would think, so I’m sure that’s true. They way you and August think are similar…

Izumi: If possible, I would have loved to meet August-san too.

Hisoka: You guys could meet if you could enter my dreams…

Izumi: Ahaha, I guess so.

Hisoka: …Oh yeah, where’s Tsumugi?

Izumi: Ah, Tsumugi-san was the one who draped that blanket over you. He went back to his family’s home in a rush earlier. He said he would explain the situation later. But I’m a little worried since it’s rare to see Tsumugi-san in that sort of state.

Hisoka: I wonder if something happened…

Izumi: We’ll just have to wait for Tsumugi-san to contact us for the time being.

-pause-

*door opens*

Tsumugi: I’m home.

Izumi: Ah, welcome back! How did it go back home?

Tsumugi: So you see, I rushed home since got a call from my mom saying my grandmother’s health wasn’t doing well… But it was just a cold according to the results from the clinic. I went home without listening properly, so my mom was surprised and told me I was in too much of a hurry. My grandmother also said it wasn’t a big deal. But considering her age, we can’t let our guard down even though it’s a common cold… My mom has her job as a nurse, and my dad is working in another city, so I’m thinking I’ll go home for a few days to take care of her starting tomorrow. I’m so sorry. I know we’re supposed to discuss Winter troupe’s play around this time.

Izumi: Don’t even worry about that! Please stay by your grandmother’s side until she’s feeling better.

Tsumugi: Thank you. I will talk with the rest of Winter troupe too. —.

Izumi: A-are you alright?

Tsumugi: Ahaha… I just stumbled for a second.

*bumps*

Izumi: (Uh, and now he’s hit his head against the door… it looks like this has really shaken Tsumugi-san.) (I wonder if he’ll be alright taking care of his grandmother by himself…)

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[waywardsalt]

i made this a few months ago for a discord and i figured i might as well share it here too

[dockaspbrak]

A big thank you to my mutuals who like my nervous breakdown 2-4am posts. You're the backbone of my blog

[diecishet]

official announcement to all my mutuals: I apologize and warn u in advance that I'm off my meds and will not stop fucking rambling sorry for the literal paragraphs I'm leaving in ur replies I just can't shut up okay love u bye

[guinevereslancelot]

i need someone to hold a gun to my head every time i consider an unnecessary purchase fr 🤡

[notahorseindisguise]

why are purchases so expensive shouldnt i just get htings

[izzy-b-hands]

finally convinced myself to apply for the Folx fund help since otherwise im just. not making enough to cover regular doc visits and T rn.

(more venting abt this stuff below the cut feel free to skip)

And as of tonight im out of the vial my housemate generously offered since ae is changing up T methods rn anyway (tho i did try to get out any leftover T from previous syringes in my sharps box into the current vial, in an attempt to save any i could, but it didn't work as well as i wanted it to unfortunately)

I don't want to detransition. I'm genuinely terrified of it bc even just my period returning these last months has sent me spiraling each time. I'm the happiest I've ever been since transitioning (despite any additional Life Horrors occurring alongside it) and i just. I don't want to go back. but I'm not going to rely on my friends and family to bankroll this too while i try and get back on my feet

im nervous to have applied and tbh don't anticipate getting it simply bc goodness knows there's a fuck ton of us in need of help like this, and im just one of many. but holy fucking shit a year of paid for care would make a huge difference. one less expense to weigh on me for at least a little bit, enough time to hopefully get into a better more consistently paying job so i could just afford the usual Folx membership as I would like to rn if it wasn't $89/mo (and even switch back to gel to have a break from the injections for a bit, but that's an extra $50, so nearly $150 for that which rn is Ouch and just not possible to give out monthly which makes me feel so pathetic and shit but i just. Don't have it at a consistent rate rn with the polling center job fuckery and my anxiety with the job)

I don't want to be taking help from someone who needs it more, but if they can spare a spot for me i would be in their debt for the rest of my life and beyond grateful

[bistaxx]

Honestly, knowing this event is (presumably) ending on my birthday is already the best gift I could ever get

[scarletiswailing347]

you can really tell i mellowed out about zam cause i draw him about as much as i do my other blorbos now aka never lol jk

[ladysophiebeckett]

now that it's the next day and im less annoyed, two things i thought was interesting in the mexican adaptation--

when the gaslighting arc starts, lety's like 'yeah we should go back to omar's place' and fernando, instead of being excited about it, he's scared bc she had told him various times she didn't want to bc of 'guilt'. so he's in the bathroom pacing, worried bc 'this isn't like her'. which i thought was funny.

when they go to the event and she tells him she needs to leave bc someone came to get her, he assumes its her dad and he immediately is like 'i'll talk to him' and she says 'no , it's tomas' and he grabs her hands and she pulls back and says 'ppl can see' and he says 'i dont care'. she insists she's leaving and he can't make her stay bc they're not at work. but he doesn't care and drags her away.

that is as 'dark' as the scene gets. bc the next scene its back to light hearted comedy where he's flirting with her again. they really don't want to go there with him (making him crazy), which is disappointing.

[crest-of-gautier]

i recorded the tricolor matches i played with a friend- so i edited it down into a highlights format for fun!! happy anniversary splatoon 3~

[orcelito]

Well I did my best to contain the leak, banged on the walls until my hands started to hurt, rambled with increasing hysteria about how fucking Bullshit this is, and Now I think I'm gonna go back to sleep.

Because it's 6 Goddamned am. Not even dawn yet. And I have to work in a few hours :)

[skittlewaffle]

Christmas gift for @madame-mongoose !!! ✨