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i was in the same room as my first human crush today after what seems forever.
#no she doesnt even know i exist#they called her name out and my head literally twisted in surprise#i saw her for the last time in 2019#damn small world huh#and the exam centre was above a bar for some reason#the staircase had advertisements of beer#weird day#and yes this was the person for whom i used to have breakdowns at midnight#and no she doesn't even know me#i did not forget about her but i dont have a crush on her anymore#i have 0 contacts with her#im just a ghost lol#oversharing on tumblr part unknown#<-new official rambling tag
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I would like to remind people that Chilchuck hasn't seen his wife in 4 years.
So he maybe wasn't there to see his daughters become adults, but he was there for the majority of their childhood.
When he left, Mayjack and Flertom were 12, and Puckpatty was 10. They reach adulthood at 14, so maybe yes, he was absent when they were still kids, but that doesn't mean he didn't maintained contact with them afterwards as far as I know. The thing he uses around his neck was a gift from Flertom, and he was using it when he met Laios's party.
#you can tell i love chilchuck#but yea#she left him for his daughters puberty#i know they're in good terms now. he and his daughters i mean#so its unlikely to me that he never contacted his daughters after wife left#its just me defending this old man's ass because he was there 70-80% of their childhood and left when they were no longer childs#they were all adolescents (10 and 12 in half-foot years must be like 14 and 16 i guess??? wich.. yea they joung but no childs literally)#it could have been better if he didnt leave but he's got 0 knowledge of why did wife left with the kids#and he assumes she doesnt wsnts him near the kids because they left with her#oooh#i love this old man#you can hate on him all you want but dont say he wasnt there for their childhood because he was. he had work yes but he was#dungeon meshi#chilchuck#dunmeshi#chilchuck tims#delicious in dungeon#fish rambles#my shit#maybe you were talking sarcasm or idk but i felt like doing a post to this tags so im sorry lol#dungeon meshi spoilers
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you know when you're going through a high stress situation that is prolonged and agonizing but you've put on a brave face and you think you've got this! 💪 and then a week into it you accidentally burn your quinoa and there's smoke and all of a sudden your skin is sloughing off and you feel like alice about to be swept away in a tide of her own tears? mmnnmm yeag.
#i cant fucking do this not at all actually im very scared and i have no idea what im gonna ddo for money and yeah i am. so scared#money isn't even scary if i can just find a job! but i need an apartment but i can't find an apartment unless i can pay for the rent#and i have to contact The Dude at some point but uh. hes mad. im scared.#augh delete later probably. im sitting on the stairs outside and smoking a cigarette which i really shouldn't do#did I tell you i was scared. i have these cruel nightmares of roaming the streets looking for nala and not finding her#and i wake up in a cold sweat in a panic not knowing where i am. everything is so unfamiliar !!!!#if things ever work out for me if i can find the money for deposit or get my investments back somehow i swear i will spend a month in compl#ete silence staring at the cieling just processing this#right now everything feels so GO GO GO and i am scared it might break me. i do not have the time for chronic ilness right now yk.#tummy ache. chewing on my cheek.#nothing to do than try to stay positive but man. this really fucking sucks and is really unfair#who knew being a people pleaser with 0 boundaries would come back to bite me in the ass.#/groan/
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The fact I honestly thought I'd pull off playing College Craze and being normal about it, and then less than a week later I've already played it multiple times, made a duel MC au, a Pinterest board, and recreated some of the PopMe pages, is genuinely not lost on me.
#college craze#katie talks ifs and vns#i made psds for new contacts and calls too but didn't really have a use for them in this#also i just bs'd vidtok if it pops up I'll redo those but >.> i think you can tell who my favorite RO is so far okay (it's Pierce)#and then jay shaun ruby and trish also have me by the throat like if Trish has 0 fans I'm dead okay#I've known those characters literally like 4 days and I'd go to bat for all five of them already ok - my beloveds#anyway madeline mostly follows canon (the divergence is Ches exists and Ches is canonly the one fake!dating Shaun for Mad's tuition)#otherwise what the vn throws at Madeline she gets ok and then Ches breaks canon... so much it'd be probably too long for the tags#but this is what i get for being like 'this oc I've been writing for a decade+ would be down so bad for Pierce and Shaun lemme do a#playthrough with her and see what happens' - this happens apparently 😂 listen the vn helped me get through the entire time my mom was#in the hospital (she's home now) so tbh it was a really appreciated distraction <3#extremely long post#long post#edits:mine#college craze: ches#college craze: madeline#college craze: madeline x jay#college craze: ches x pierce#i had fun with these though like Madeline messaging Ches to ensure she isn’t going to come in and find Jay in the dorm#and Ches being like ‘yeah my vidtok is 100% Pierce’s fault’ yikes I need to sleep I’m excitedly tired rambling#sorry if this post is annoying (and for the lines under the categories breaking future me will fix that in further edits if I post more#those may be relegated to the shit post blog though we’ll see posting oc stuff makes me so anxious ngl)#im just hitting post I’ve been staring at this stressing it like two hours now jfc
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part of me really loves having friends and being in a community, and the other part feels exhausted from interacting with people and wants to ghost everyone and move cities
#maybe i should stop pushing myself to do things every day#also maybe things will feel better as the seasons change#i always have a really hard time over the summer#anyways :)#it's also probably from going from having 0 friends and not interacting with people for several years straight#and immediately going to having dozens of people knowing me and talking to me and asking for help with things because i know what im doing#i love them i love being able to do things and i am drained and exhausted#my work trips really cannot come soon enough#i thought some more about it#the part that's actually stressing me out is people from highschool reappearing in my life against my will#not just into my life in general#but the specific part that i have curated to myself and built community in#i stopped talking to people from highschool for a reason#there's literally only one person I'm in contact with and she went to a different school (i love her she's wonderful and im so proud of her)#it's not even anything bad it's just really weird and uncomfortable for me and part of my brain just wants to cease to exist
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Found a way to make darman and etian work as in canon for my clones r trans brainworms trans darman w phallo and etian just is daydreaming abt having kids so hard she accidentally uses the force to trans his gender even more
#repcomm#darman jacking it a week after they leave triple 0 like what the fuck im not supposed to ejaculate#after medical testing: HOW THE FUCK DO I HAVE A SPERM COUNT#etian didnt know and also it was not either lies or negligence on either of their parts#he learns abt etians pregnancy earlier bc he contacts her like HI WE FUCKED UP and shes like THANK GOD yeah im pregnant#i also dont think etian was like. shitty abt it in universe i think in canon she accidentally force overrode both of their BC implants#bc i cant picture darman being that stupid abt it or her lying/misleading abt it#not only bc i dont think thatd be in character also bc i dont think shed be able to lie abt it effectively#so in my heart it was. oh i want this VERY bad someday. [accidentally manifests in the force] Fuck#or just manifests force baby a la shmi maybe...#the alternate version is they r t4t and darman learns hes pregnant and goes AW FUCK and. idk actually itd be a shitshow
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someone really should be talking about how difficult it is to plan a wedding - a gay wedding - when both of your families fucking suck
#who is talking about this!!!! let me know#idk i have 0 expectations for my family but they still somehow always manage to let me down which#i was anticipating#and i didn’t think i would care because i have never cared before#but liiiiiike.#i wasn’t expecting to feel sad rofl but my family is so fucking flaky. again i KNOW THIS i know i cannot rely on any of them#it’s annoying when i have given them a year and a half to make plans and i have had so many people tell me they would be there#just to back out or ghost or come up with some excuse#like do you know how expensive weddings are 😭 JUST fucking be honest with me and rsvp no#anyway i was very intentional with the few family members i did invite#and specifically invited people i have a rapport with / had a good (ish lol) relationship with growing up#people i have bent over backwards trying to please!!! and dropping everything to help them out#and they can’t even be bothered to communicate with me lol it’s fine. like. i do feel like it’s internalized homophobia at this point#or maybe they have hated me this entire time which is totally plausible#but they KNOW how much ayesha means to me and knows that no one from her family is coming to our wedding#at the end of the day it’s going to be like. 5 people from my family 1 from ayesha’s (her brother) and like 30-40 friends#which i am so grateful for obviously#i sound like such a brat but it’s also like - watching your family continuously choose drugs/alcohol over showing up for you - lol#AGAIN i’m used to this and expected as much but i’m still feeling bad#just rsvp so i can move on with my life please. stop telling me you’re trying to make it work when we both know you aren’t#i have so much more to say but i’m going to sound crazy even though i knooooow it is homophobia like i Know it#i think there are certain people i will finally go no contact with for good after this#which is a freeing thought but i only invited v few family members to begin with. there’s abt to be no one left lmao#probably for the best#ugh whatever#again i can’t help but feel a certain way when they have done more/traveled further for relatives they hardly know#meanwhile i was forced to spend so much of my life living for these people and for them alone#AAAAAAAA i just want to scream#text
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Thinking nonstop and reflecting on my past and the people i have talked with whom i now hate. Badly
#Listen to my problems#this is a vent post ->#i cannot believe she had the gall to text me out of nowhere and then delete her text like girl now i am thinking of how much i dislike you#and how worthless you are. like ok. at least you knew to go away#like somewhere out there im certain you will be someones favourite person but i wish you were dead#theres always a word i use when talking about my least favourite person and it is worthless#crazy how a person in real life can have 0 redeeming qualities and not just negative rizz but also be pathetic beyond measure#do you ever think of people you talk to because of circumstance and you get kind of close and you have way more contact than you would like#and you end up hating them so much because you were kind of close. like yeah if we met in passing i would not have despised you#but now i know how its like to be your friend and it is the worst experience of my life#like if we really hadnt talked. if we hadnt shared minimum 2 interests that was a gateway to me learning about the rest of you that is#completely terrible. AND liking the things i like and making it bad is like 😟 how can you like this piece of media if you like it shittily#how do you like the same things as me but in a way completely divorced from the thing itself my god you dont even deserve to be gutted#i understand exile as a punishment now. like no way im using up my state’s resources and facilities for you just get out of here
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God I truly need to sleep
#please#pleeeeeeeeeeeease#why does my brain have to be loud af 24/7#there is so much noise inside my head even when I try to drown it out with other sounds#it's literally like those mashup videos of 3 songs playing at once except it's not fun :|#and there's constant crying#and nobody is having a good time ghfhshsd 0/10 do not recommend#(emeto tw) I threw up earlier and it sucked#it's probably mostly my thoughts and stress levels#like I also forgot to mention an ex coworker stole documents from us 🙃#she's still in my contacts and I felt so tempted to chew her out but it's not worthwhile#I'm just tired#I don't want to deal with anything ugh fuck
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i few like a lot of you have forgotten that the riptide pirates are in no way safe. the electrodon is dead but. like. there ship is also fucking dead and they have no way off or any way to call for help.
#especially Oli and Jay since their HP is just temporary and they most likely still have 0 HP#i have a theory that jay is going to get especially desperate and contact her old navy friend that I totally remeber the name of rn#that’s the only solution i can think of that’s not a damn deus ex machina#over the hills#(by contact i mean the message spell)#jrwi riptide spoilers
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Come out to my Mother as Nonbinary:
Not always great with the pronouns, but specifically went out of her way to get me an ungendered birthday card.
Come out to my Father as Nonbinary:
0 comments or questions, but a bright pink birthday card "For my Daughter"
#her: i don't really understand it but i don't have to i just have to support you however i can#him: yes but the terfs have some points#i swear if i did not need hos money i would go 0 contact with him again
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Here to go! Sorry for not making you art I’m tired lol
*SCREAMS*
OH MY STARS THANK YOU SO MUCH :0000
THIS HAS MADE MY DAY I LOVE HOW YOU DRAW THEM!!! TYSM!!!
:D
(edit: why do i ramble so much in tags lol. at least it's an awesome thing to ramble abt :D)
#artsy's woah#artsy's moot sillies#artsy's socks#artsy's chichi#artsy's chaaya#artsy's fabrication#artsy's dew#artsy's ocs#I DID NOT EXPECT THIS WHATSOEVER THANK YOU#HOW FAST DO YOU DRAW????#(btw u don't have to apologise for anything!! i'm not holding u at gunpoint to draw my blorbos - i'm just so happy u do in the first place!#(and the tiredness is a mood lmfao dw /gen)#(also i will draw uni today or during the weekend! my motivation and energy fluctuate and i am MUCH procrastination lol)#BUT ABOUT THE BEAUTIFUL ART I SEE BEFORE ME:#socks is so adorable in your style!! little weird plush that is probably not sentient. probably sentient. who knows. he is SO CUTE#i love the shape of his tentacles btw#chichi!! with their apply juice!! they look so cool!!!#(also i LOVE the freckles you gave it! it looks so cute with them!!)#CHAAYA. YHE EEPIEST OF EEPIES. SHE LOOKS LIKE ME EVERY SINGLE DAY UPON REALISING LIFE EXISTS OUTSIDE OF BED#also i have no idea if her glaring at socks is intentional or just happened to be where they were drawn but that is SO canon lmao#i mean she's 6yo so does get snappy if past her bedtime. plus socks is Not Liked by ppl apart from azzie so he is Prime Glaring Target lol#actually screw it i'm making it canon that whenever chaaya's overtired everyone can tell bc she glares at Socks for hours without breaks :)#dew picks her up for bed and she doesn't break eye contact. just glares until socks is gone#AND SPEAKING OF DEW. STARS HE LOOKS AMAZING#HIS POSE IS SO BRILLIANT HOW DO YOU DO IT#i really love how you drew her clothes!! especially the jacket and the jeans - they would 100% have most of their pairs ripped#(tho more likely from falling over rather than design lol. i have dyspraxia like her and can confirm half my clothes are in tatters ;-;)#(also side note the way you draw shoes is *chef's kiss*. stunning /gen)#you also got their personalities so well!! your art is so impressive :0#and their hair is so fluffy. i wish to pet it (they would all kill me and/or scream if i did such a thing. especially chichi)
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Tossing 🙉 back at u :3 (also 🤝)
How do they react to silence?
I think, from what I've seen of spaceships on good old doccy who, they are never quiet. Not just TARDISes (though Even would love that they are so. well. expressive.) space travel is just noisy in an ambient hum sort of way. A noisy ship is a good ship, a functional ship. A silent ship is bad. The only silent part of space travel is space.
And that's why Even would get so anxious if things were fully quiet around them. With their feet firmly on the ground, they'd get nervous if they couldn't hear anything. It's like a background check constantly running: Can I Hear Things Working: IF yes -> everything is fine. IF no -> we are all about to die.
How do they react to being touched by another person?
very dependent on the person! touch-starved even real and true, but touch-anxious(?) even! also very real! you must approach them like they are a spooked horse and you are the last horsegirl on the ranch who needs them to win the big horse race. treats are very helpful in this regard.
In all seriousness, it's all about trust. Once that's established, Even is. I hesitate to say cuddly. It's more like, they do not understand personal space, do not want to understand personal space, and will insinuate themself into whatever position puts them in the most contact with the person they want to touch. (And very appreciative of things that act as an extension of touch when it can't be supplied, such as getting to wear the Doctor's coat.) They warm up to Jack extremely quick because he's just Like That about casual physical touch, and they enjoy it very much. Once they've befriended Donna, they want to be holding her hand or leaning against her whenever she's nearby. Their first time round with the Doctor, they are constantly reaching for him or returning his touch, easily and happily.
And the second time round, they. aren't. They're skittish about letting him touch them, and they only allow it if they can initiate it and end it on their terms. Even then, it's never going to be an easy thing again, but it isn't unwanted. It will never be unwanted.
And then the Master is. at a certain point, and a lot of boundaries drawn, crossed, redrawn, crossed again, and then forgotten altogether on both sides, and way too much time spent in each other's pockets, it ends up that Even doesn't really register the Master touching them as another person touching them. or. maybe it'd be more accurate to say that the Master touching them doesn't feel to them like the Master touching someone else. That it's more akin to someone touching an object they own to make sure it's still there, or even scratching their own arm to make sure they can feel it. And in turn, Even has even fewer boundaries with them then they managed to develop for other people.
#they are deeply weird about each they really are#even will stick their hands under the master's clothes to put them against her skin. and the master will just let that happen at this point#and likewise even will just. let them put them in threatening positions. a hand on their throat or holding their arm in a position where#it would be easy to break it. and even will just stand there as she does. weirdly calm about it.#asakdljaljd sorry wait thought about the doctor and missy having an almost civil conversation that's interrupted by even sticking#their hand up missy's skirt to find her thigh. like. extremely casually. and when they're satisfied they get bored and move away again#the doctor is going 0-0 while missy doesn't react because this is just one of their weird little rituals.#missy will drag even over by the arm if he feels like it and start petting them like his own personal stim toy. and even will use missy to#seek out skin-to-skin contact if they think they need it because missy is there and available.#anyway. i should really be more focused here.#but im not so im going to keep rambling. this extends to the watch too. Tentoo's watch that Even keeps that the Doctor trusted them with.#that they will not let. anyone else. touch. or *see* most of the time. but the master is the main exception to that.#because she will just reach out and hold it and Even will let her.#deeply deeply weird about each other and the doctor's relationships to each other.#dw oc#ask
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Cabaret Club Thoughts
Hello, time for another round of me gathering my thoughts from Discord and editing them into a Tumblr post :)
Okay so, real talk, I have even more to say about Cabaret Club. I love it, don’t get me wrong, I’ve put HOURS into it (years of time management games prepared me for this), but there is a LOT of room for improvement. Here’s what I think they shoulda done:
- Because the Platinum Hostesses are the only ones who get to be Actual Characters with default identifiable outfits, they should be the only ones you cannot makeover. Maybe give em accessories, but give em differing stats that Cannot Be Changed. I only ever changed Yuki’s dress, but everyone else is so Recognisable why would I ever want to change them? (That and I rely on hair and outfits to be able to tell characters apart so I would Quickly Forget Who Is Who sdfcgvbhjnkml) That way ya can also give em varying body types and appearances and get a lil more diversity and creativity in their character designs
(okay yes I later learned they’re all based on Actual Real Life Women but I feel like RGG should have a go at designing more female characters without just...well, doing that. Just a suggestion.)
- Instead, make it so I can makeover ALL THE OTHER HOSTESSES as much as I please! I can fiddle with their stats for different customer bases, and that way it'll be less noticeable that they all need the same/similar body types to make asset swapping easier. AND that means there'll be even MORE girls to makeover and therefore have fun mixing and matching looks!
- Specifically, I think the Gold Hostesses (Etsuko, Dolly, Erranda etc, basically they’re all ones you get from substory completion aside from like, 2 you get from exchanging points at the Shrine) should get like, 4 or 5 Unique Outfits you can switch between them, different but suited to them. Seeing as they also are established characters, but not as much as the Platinums, they can be both customisable to a degree whilst still recognisable. Also I want to buy Dolly pretty clothes
- That leaves ya the Silvers and Bronzes who really can be, in the nicest way, treated as dress-up dolls. Like that’s what they should be there for, something for me to have fun prettying up and having on my roster whenever my Platinums need a break. A reductive role sure but imo more than what they were actually given. Besides, it didn’t stop me from getting attached to them either way, did it?
Again, these are just my thoughts on it, but I feel strongly about it because of course I focus on the shit that doesn’t matter lmaooooo
#smol speaks#long post#yakuza 0#cabaret club czar#there is no universe i give Saki blue hair and red contact lenses. but someone like Shizuka or Hiroko? hell yeah go crazy go stupid!!!!#especially since their outfits and hairstyles have a couple of repeats between them why not let me have my fun with it?#@ RGG hire me and implement this next time you put it in the games. also make Goromi a Platinum hostess and let me talk to her#and therefore learn more about Majima's past because she's more open about it when she can hide behind the persona and also I MISS HER
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my male coworkers are fucking crazy it’s so funny this dude asked me what my plans for the day were and i was either knocking out or going to the movies and he’s like oh shit lemme hop on so i was like sure and we tried inviting our other coworker but blah blah im like we can plan for next week if it doesn’t work for her and he’s like nah we’ll just go then texts me while i’m driving home like actually i can’t see a movie alone with u it would need to be a group for my gf to approve HELP?
#personal#it was just so funny to me bc he asked to come with!!!#i was the one pushing for our coworker!!!#it was like all that for what??????#anyway that and my other coworker being like yeah no i can’t take ur number my gf would go insane#straight relationship boundaries are so fuckin crazy#or maybe it’s just me but still both times i was like :0#to be clear it wasn’t even in that sense i was getting my other coworkers info bc she was gonna take a nap and i was gonna call if she o#overslept through lunch and i offered if he wanted to get in my contacts too then he detailed his situation but like holy fuck that’s funny#all my coworkers that i hang with are a little qookie like the other day one of them straight admitted to stealing shit at some stores#and everyone including our trainer was like right. never say that at work again.#and then today i held a funeral for a baby bird while detailing MY situation with audrey and gg#yes they’re my partners we’re gonna spend the rest of our lives together#no we’re not sexually or romantically involed but honestly there’s a lot of tension and grey areas but we’re cool with it#they come first in my life but we’re allowed to get partners since we ain’t actually u know#and i didn’t mention but when going over it it’s like well fuck i need another partner for anyway i have them but that’s TOO faggy#inspired by my coworker who always talks about her wife letting us know it’s not a legal situation but of the heart and everyone was like#:0. also so funny she made a cutting joke no one got but me and we had like 30 seconds of non sensical laughing and screaming while#discreetly show scars and no one knew what was happening it was pretty funny
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anyone else have/need like. a social crutch when going out, especially in large groups or new interactions? said crutch is either a person (most often) or an item like a fidget toy something to ground you in the convo etc
#we had a big family dinner including my cousins and their wives#and i realised when its not ppl im 100% comfy with i lose track of. social cues?#i suddenly dont know where to look in a conversation drown out words etc#and the only reason i could shift back into the convo is bc i sat beside my sister who we r super close with#so i kinda mimicked her in gestures and esp eye contact and could bounce off of what she said to get in the convo#and she left early and suddenly i was so lost??? as if i had 0 clue how to communicate#and i realised i always have a social crutch#when im w my best friends i dont need it bc i dont need to force social norms#but w others ill take the person im closest to and bounce off of them#and if its one to one chats im v good at shifting tone and expression to match them#or ill use the 'customer service' approach lmao#idk WHY it all just clicked today and right now#literally stopped halfway thru brushing my teeth to write this#anyway yeah idk and i dont wanna think of what this says or means#burrito talks#delete later#social norms
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