#i hate to be so in love with a country
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i moved back to the netherlands last friday and i still really feel like someone is holding my throat closed and something heavy is sitting on my chest & i keep tearing up at the smallest things. it is only a temporary state as i am planning to permanently move to denmark in 2024 but holy shit the way my body is responding to being outside of it is shocking to me
#it feels like the covid period when denmark locked its borders and i felt the same feeling (but less) because i was unable to come in#i hate to be so in love with a country#especially one that is used by right wingers in NL as an example of how to deal with the migration issue#but there is something that just. makes me so Happy#but it scares me#because i put all my hope for my future in the hands of a country who is dedicated to making it More Difficult for me to even come in#and there are some things coming up on my path that are going to determine how easy my path will be#like the C1 level language test and getting accepted for a masters degree#But yeah anyway the thought of having to spend more than a year in the netherlands is absolutely crushing me#i wish i could be excited for the sake of my friends#but when one of my friends who i had not seen this year hugged me#i just felt.... deflated and empty#and i still do#although i am now on the flixbus to copenhagen and about 30km away<3#but eh i might be a bit emotionally unstable the next period#because you can add on top of that that i have also been unable to Relax on my own for almost two months#so i am highly strung and emotionally just a sad wet rat thrown back into the sewers#text#sorry this is incoherent#and there are worse things in the world
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Yeonjun about the strain he felt while preparing for his debut solo project ✙ "GGUM" MAKING FILM
#yeonjun#choi yeonjun#tomorrow x together#txt#ggum: making film#gifs#creations#userzaynab#useryeonbins#skyehi#rosieblr#megtag#hibiebear#heyiri#ultkpopnetwork#kpopccc#kpopco#this are like the rawest emotions we've seen from him... I feel... it's really sad to watch him like this#i mean I know they're under lots of pressure and stress#It's only natural when you work with so many people who you could potentially disappoint#and I know it was his choice to make this solo project happen now but i feel like the company could manage his schedule better#because why he films till 3 am and then right next day has a flight to another country for a concert...#and now we know from soobin they're super busy again#I'm worried his body will just say 'enough' one day and something bad will happen :(#and you have him work so hard and stress and then all this losers online whose biggest achievement is getting 100 likes on a post#writing the worst things about him for no reason... its not that hard to be kind and you dont need to have an opinion about everything :D#at the end of the day that celebrity you hate so much is still pretty and successful#and you're just a friendless jobless empty-headed rotten fool with likes on a post that mean nothing once you close the ap#I'm just glad all this is still fun for him and that he has such a great support system: his members family staff who care about him and us#all we can really do is support them and send them lots of love fr ;; you've done well my jjunie ily ♥
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universal healthcare is not broken and anyone trying to convince you it is is delusional and a dckrider for big health insurance. yes there are wait times but waiting for care is Not the same as being denied care.
in america your physician prescribes care and an insurer can still cuck you out of it because someone across the continent who has never met you can say: doesn’t seem medically necessary. Leaving you to handle a bill that is wildly inflated by the same insurers that just denied you.
let me drill it through your head you can pay thousands a year in premiums and still end up sick and financially burdened for years by One incident. no insurance company is Avoiding going broke by denying claims. theyre doing it to profit off your misfortune and your illness. Because healthcare fundamentally does not cost the amount that they claim it to be.
#delete later#out of pocket rant#i hate these god awful takes on universal health care#and i hate this oh he killed a father#how many fathers do you think uhc let die be real with me#oh 8 billion is only 6% profit margin#bitch it could be 2 percent it could be a negative loss#this is me saying oh i resold a shoe for $60 after buying it for $50 when i also made it for 80 cents#i have been denied things like chest xrays and lung exams#i btw have had a chronic cough for 4+ years#in canada i got this done on the same fking day and results back within a month#there are indeed horror stories and on both sides of know ppl who died due to delayed diagnosis#and ppl who died bc they didnt even want the diagnosis it would have cost them too much#but robbing someone of the choice in my opinion is the worse of the two#putting someone in an impossible position like that is evil#this country love god so much better start praying u stay healthy bc thats the most important thing#also like those horror stories of wait times in the er#im gonna be real if u have severe stomach pain are actively bleeding heart attack or stroke#you will be seen asap#yes if unfortunately everyone around u that day decided to have a stroke or heart attack ur appendicitis will be punted down the line#this is a resource issue NOT a cost issue#this is a they also cut funding to nursing school and limited the number of ppl who can pursue medical degrees issue#not a we dont have privatized health care issue#bc ultimately u need a doctor to see u#not someones sister who is taking stabs at it#and every doctor is bound by the concept of time???#u still have to wait in america ur Charged for it also#and yall it doesn’t even have to be a Big incident#ur local urgent care might just be closed after 8pm and at 9pm u need stitches#or have severe stomach pains and just want it checked
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Hindus are being gangraped, lynched, and having their property destroyed in Bangladesh rn. Amidst all the news coming out of there don't forget about the minority that always ends up dealing with the brunt of chaos. in 1971 most of the victims of the genocide were Bangladeshi Hindus and everyone conveniently leaves this detail out.
(And i know some mf will either no true scotsman this or say that it's all lies and that all the videos coming out are fake or propaganda from the BJP or something instead of another event in a long chain of violence. The Hindu population has crashed from 30% at independence to 9% today. Estimates say that in the next 30 years, Hindus will be extinct in Bangladesh)
#everyone loves supporting minorities and non-abrahamic belief systems until its hindus#then its silence from fucking everyone#bangladesh hating on india is lowk so funny like babe if it wasnt for their involvement in 1971 you people wouldn't even have your country#india#bangladesh#world news#hindu#indian tumblr#hinduism#hindublr#i want sheikh hasina back and not this fucking western puppet headass. fucking cold war shit
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the finnish food tasting segment finally dropped and there is quite literally nothing funnier than maffhew who desires the approval and opinion of his great beloved captain in what he considers him an expert in aka finland so honestly does his opinion really matter in the grand scheme of things if sasha doesnt like said food?
match made in terrible eating manner heaven, amen
#matthew tkachuk#aleksander barkov#florida panthers#2425#“what. am i having. here. some fish 🤖” you can tell he was the funny kid who did quirky voices in class huh#sashas proper “herRING” because eng is his third language meet maffhews drawly midwestern“HERRIN'”#“DUDE I ACTUALLY LIKE THAT BETTER!!! no joke 😯” “...im not a fan...” (backpedals in people pleasing) “...youre not a fan...?”#“i dont like that one...still love your country though!” like we had any inkling youd suddenly hate your husbands country because of mustard#“barky hates this one so i dont know maybe my judgements wrong” girl who will dog on her boyfriend for being picky#but also wait im having second thoughts 🥺🥺#god disgusting give us more of these interactions#sasha so terribly in love with maffhew and viceversa...#every new video that releases about the 1619 date the more of a date it becomes truly
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dear ea stop making all ur worlds so american like even the ones that are meant to be inspired by other parts of the world are so so american. bring us attached houses. cramped neighbourhoods. or just houses that dont have an entire football fields worth of space around it. awkward flats above shops and houses that are seperated by alleyways. no matter what my sims feel so fortunate to have such a huge plot of land even if their house is small like its so isolating
#here in england at least having a house thats seperated /detached is SUPER rare like ur either very fortunate or u live in the country#like a cute scottish cottage ugh i love those#but aside from those old buildings u will not find detached housing and thats what i hate abt the sims 4 worlds so much.i miss ts2 apartment
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a wip i suspect i won't finish in time before the trend quiets down: SEAsian miku in the nanyang style, specifically inspired by georgette chen!! i hope u like it c: please look forward to the completed piece! misc in-progress below:
#this is taking AGES but at least im having fun lol#hatsune miku#vocaloid#international miku#every country's miku#seasian#nanyang style#southeast asian miku#singaporean miku#brazilian miku#miku fanart#fanart#singapore#art#my art#painting#miku hatsune#artists on tumblr#vocaloid miku#vocaloid fanart#juni arts#IT'S OVER FOR MEEEE I WAITED TOO LONG TO WORK ON THIS AND IDK IF IT'S RELEVANT ANYMORE#tbf i had a false start w a smaller piece that I ended up hating so maybe that was why#i think tumblr ppl prob care a lil less about trends but still ough#anyway: RAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH I LOVE SEA ART HISTORY
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Look I was already critical of merlin with the whole having the kings ear and choosing arthur over protecting and saving his people, but seeing what my country is devolving into I can’t help but feel a bit more anger towards canon and merlin’s choices. I get it no victim blaming he grew up in fear blah blah blah but he had arthur’s fucking ear and all the power in the world and he couldn’t go “heyyyy lets talk about the antimagic laws for a moment yeah?” And just (at the very least) nudged arthur in the right direction??
Sorry, I know that focusing my attention on bbc’s however long old show is silly in comparison to whats actually happening but fandom is my little get away when shit gets tough and to hide away and see the same shit is fucking mental. I’m grabbing merlin by the throat and throttling him rn. Get ur act together fuckface. Love you 🫶 SAVE YOUR FUCKING PEOPLE
#bbc merlin#merlin emrys#arthur pendragon#I won’t tag my country + politics just bc I don’t want to put this post in that tag#bc thats??? stupid??#so I’ll just focus on fandom tags#lol#THIS ISNT ANTI MERLIN I LOVE HIM BUT GOD IS HE FUCKING STUPID I HATE HIM HES MY BBYGIRL I NEED TO BASH HIS HEAD INTO A WALL#merthur#merlin crit
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#I also think american exceptionalism and their bizarre cultural one-way street isolation plays a role#i think it's different if you actually see other countries as equals and see that they have female leaders and realise that it's#not going downhill it's not solving everything it's business as usual and it's just another boring fucking politician#and this makes the gender of the candidate LESS (not saying no) issue people obsess about or feel a need to discuss#(e.g. people laying into the appearance of female politicians? certainly misogyny. making jokes about cooking and shoes? definitely too#but I feel like that was more a 'gotta insult these fucking politicians' and gender being one of the targets when people want to do that)#but if you're the US and giant parts of the populace think they're the specialmost extra complicatedest country in this our planetworld#the fact that it works for so many other countries takes a much lower priority#because 'yeah sure a woman can govern a....'checks notes' Fineland and United Kingdom of England or Germanland'#but the US of freedom? we got a red button and what if she's on her period!!?! We are a REAL country!!'#not to mention how deeply entrenched the idea of the US as being CONSTANTLY under attack is and the president as the PROTECTOR#and that protector needs to be daddy of course#i also think the different attitude to leaders plays a role#because a part of misogyny is how much people love to HATE women - to sink their teeth into them and demonise them for every flaw#so any country that has some kind of weird worship of their leaders or sees them as some heroes or extra-class of person*#in my opinion might have a harder time to elect a woman because the moment a woman becomes a candidate#you just have to find the right flaw to go on and on about to make the population absolutely hate her or question her competency#meanwhile the general slack we cut men means they can do whatever but somehow still be compatible with that concept of leadership#(*not just the US ....though a lot of other countries with similar attitudes to their leaders are not standing out as democracies tbh)
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I love Catwin because you know that once Edwin gets acclimated to his antics, he most likely won't react as much, if at all, to the more revealing outfits the Cat King wears. Meanwhile, the likelihood of Thomas getting a nosebleed because he saw Edwin's forearms, ankle, or *gasp* god forbid his collarbone is extremely high.
#I love that for them#cat man almost faints from a kiss on the cheek#no way he doesn’t just go feral when edwin rolls up his sleeves#I love ships that compliment each other like that#thinking about them so I don't have to think about the current state of my country today#i fucking hate it here#edwin payne#cat king#the cat king#thomas the cat king#catwin#dead boy detectives#dead boy detective agency#dbda#save dead boy detectives
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and speaking in a similar vein––because i recently saw a few takes like these––i wonder if people realise that it takes great dignity, self-respect and love for oneself to be so firm in one’s ideals and morals to be willing to fight to death for them. wei wuxian, wen qing, wen ning were willing to give up their lives because that was the right course of action, that was what they believed in and doing any less would be an insult on their person, would be an act that would devalue their sense of self, than preserve it.
if you ever learn about freedom fighters... i kind of see it like that. those people fought against the system, knowing the stakes, and died years and years before their efforts would ever bear fruition. but that was their choice, their deliberate stand to respect their own belief system and fight for a whole.
this is how i see wei wuxian’s actions regarding the wens. this was a cause he wanted to put his all behind. it was a show of incredible respect for his ownself––for him to not be deterred by anyone who wanted him to stop. i think it makes perfect sense that he’d be offended, infact, if someone downplayed the importance of saving the wens or implied he should abandon them because for him, this is worth everything.
#so yeah sometimes a character willing to die for something isn’t about esteem issues just a simple human condition called conviction#to love yourself so much you realise respecting your ideals with your life is the only way to live without being ashamed#yes this my take on ‘the whole wwx was suicidal and loved to take on huge risks coz he thought so little of himself’ stuff#i genuinely wonder if other ppl from previously colonized countries read wwx’s actions as brimming with self-dignity instead of self-hate#mdzs meta#mdzs fandom#mdzs#wei wuxian meta#wei wuxian#wen qing#wen ning#mo dao zu shi#wei wuxian appreciation
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Back on my bs!!! It’s been a hot second since I’ve painted anything but apparently jet lag is deeply inspiring cuz I’m out here painting on planes and having a great time. My tablet pen nib is so worn out there’s a hole in it but I was still like ‘oooough gotta draw’
#in this house we thank mx. gradient map for the tasty colors#thank you mx. gradient map#I’m so tired it’s like 6 am and I’ve hopped three countries in four days#posting this now so it’s out at a reasonable time in the US but it’s like 6am rn in Japan where I am#and I went to bed at 2am. press F#anyways hello I still love the Trickster#I really thought to myself ‘I’ll paint someone who is covered in stripes’#and I did and didn’t even hate it. wild#the Trickster’s beauty carries me through LOL#Trickster#Kooza#Cirque du Soleil#Cirque du Soleil Trickster#my art
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yeah, reverse 1999 2.2 is probably the worst patch this game had, about the way they represent the location i mean. I am kinda sad about how terrible this patch is, because even with anjo nala slowly becoming my favorite character of the game, this still is the worst chapter yet. I haven't finished yet, i am probably in the middle of the chapter, but shit, the way this chapter show brazil is so bad, so, so bad.
Anjo Nala is a great character, but she is not brazillian sadly (i would love if she was brazillian), she is the best character in this chapter and she is so cute, she acts like a cat. Despite being a Succubus, she is not only about sex, this is something new to a succubus character, often reduced to just sex, sex and sex. She is sexy, a lot, but she don't have sex as her personality, she is, to be honest, really, really cute, her interactions make her look so precious. And a bit tragic too.
Lopera i don't really know what to think about her, she is not bad, kinda the opposite, i am still in the middle in the chapter and her character still is being build. She is from colombia, she looks like a cool character, might pull for her because meta reasons and her design is cool.
Now Mr. Duncan, he makes me uncomfortable, he kinda represents everything wrong with this chapter, something clearly made with little to no study about brazil, about the events that happened here in history. His skin color is only a problem because they put him in that white savior bullshit, the white dude that saves the people from the favelas (that is usually represented as people of color, with is kinda accurate, sadly). The worst part of his character is that he is a veteran brazillian soldier. This decision was taken probably without knowing about the dictatorship that happened here in brazil leaded by the military 5 years before the events of the chapter. If not the white savior bullshit, it would be totally fine if he was white, his skin color is only a problem because of the choice they made with his character.
The way they represent são paulo, one of the biggest cities in the world, is terrible, the clothes of the npcs don't look like someone would use it in their daily lives anywhere in the entirety of latin america in the 90s. The setting of the chapter looks like they wanted to make it in mexico, but was too much offensive stereotypes together, so they put favelas on it and called Brazil and são paulo, without any study or thinking. And the fact that they keep talking about how ABSOLUTE SHIT IS TO LIVE IN THAT PLACE is worse, they made it worse.
I am disappointed with bluepoch and will put that on the survey, usually never do them, but this time i will, shit like this cannot happen again. I don't have plans to stop playing the game, it is one of my favorite gacha games that i play and i have no plans to stop playing because of 2.2, but i am disappointed, a lot, and i hope they never do this shit again, for the gods, please, i really hope they never do those mistakes again.
Also spoilers of 8TH-14. A chapter foccused in the military, on brazil, in the 90s is a shit ideia, after all, the connotations of a chapter focused on the military that happens only 5 years after the end of the military dictatorship could be terrible, but looks like Zeno are the villains in this chapter, with Igor being a villain and all, working with Manus, so it makes less bad, i will discover more as i read the rest of the chapter, in a hope to get out less angry, if the chapter give me enough of Anjo Nala i will probably end more happy than angry if they don't do something worst than they have done yet.
#reverse 1999#2.2#this chapter is so bad#in the way they show brazil#it could be such an amazing chapter#it could atract so many brazillians to play this game#we kinda love when our country is represented in a cool way#by foreign works#but no#they messed up so bad#so#bad#this game is probably hated now by a lot of brazillians#i am really sad and angry#i don't hate reverse 1999#but i am angry with bluepoch right now#Anjo nala is the best thing in this chapter#she is so lovely#and amazing#and cute#but i am angry
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I AM SO SICK OF HAVING CHRISTIANITY SHOVED DOWN MY THROAT WHO GIVES A FUCK
#WHY DO /I/ HAVE TO ABIDE BY /YOUR/ RELIGION#this isn’t even just about gay marriage like in GENERAL#i am so SICK of the religious (christian lmfao) hard pivot this country seems to be taking over the last whatever years#holy FUCK#there is no love like christian hate and indoctrination !
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Vanha Kauppahalli date: en full, a 2 minute 50 second masterpiece...
Primetime Panthers | 11.6.24 (x)
#aleksander barkov#matthew tkachuk#florida panthers#2425#the global series is a gift#“alright talk to me what do we got?” with the camera following behind them makes it seems like theyre spies doing reconnaissance#the start to a thriller where they got sent to finland stake out for intelligence#maffhew not even waiting for sasha to answer before hes asks about chocolate#“the purple one you always bring” maffhew has been charmed by sashas leaving choco in stalls as gifts when he comes back from finland huh#you can tell he says that with depravity of a man who finally realises he doesnt need to rely on his supplier he can get it himself now#“uh oh [laughs] okay... what is this?” maffhew was not prepared for all the food to already be ready for him he just hopped off a plane and#expected to have to wait more and did not and absolutely does not trust the situation in the same way you get romantic candlelit-dinnered#and youre like alright whats all this then whats your angle what are you doing#“this is salmon and rye bread 😄” “(with the eagerness to prove hes smart and engaged) so is that 👉” “(charmed) and so is that 🫱”#“ill try your favourite first” GURL RELAX OKAY SETTLE DOWN YOURE IN A NEW COUNTRY JUST CHILL MAN#“salmon and rye bread—thats the famous one 🤓” [sasha nodding along because he has to reassure maffhew but also hes in the middle of eating]#maffhew choosing the most inopportune time and you can TELL sasha is like [swallows quickly] because he wants to answer but also BIG BITE#“herring” “herrin' 🤠?” “eating all this her-RING” no notes#“is this just another salmon on rye bread” he says with hope because he likes salmon but also disappointment (he wants to try more foods)#“different salmon? smoked?” the amount of questions hes askijg because hes so terribly engaged he wants to know and sashas like [shrug]#he has to get an A+ in experiencing finland which is normal to want and possible to achieve#“i still love your country though” and sasha explodes into the mirthful grin ive seen in my life like he just won the damn jackpot#he speaks at 100 mph like please take a deep breath sweetheart youre excitement is papable but PLEASE#THE WAY HE GETS SO UNSURE WHEN HE MENTIONS BARKY HATES THAT FOOD WHEN HE LIKED IT SO MUCH#MAFFHEW YOU CAN GET A PASSING GRADE IN EXPERIENCING FINLAND IF YOU STICK TO YOUR GUNS I PROMISE#SASHA HELP A GUY OUT HERE MAN THROW HIM A BONE#SASHA ONLY LAUGHS AS MAFFHEW THROWS HIMSELF INTO A TIZZY OVER THIS YOU ARE SOOOOOO#the chuckle when sasha mentions he had runebergin torttu in school... id like to know what was funny there#we call out sasha for being too lovesick and laughing at all of maffhews “jokes” BUT HES JUST AS BAD???#“what the hell do i do with this thing?” MAFFHEW HAVE YOU NEVER SEEN MERENGUE IN YOUR LIFE???
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Disorderly Knights, Part 3, Terzetto, Played Without Rests
Francis... just let people love you. Let them help you like they know you need it.
Kate, absolute legend.
I think the latter half of Disorderly Knights is nigh on perfect - the dramatic climax hits and then just keeps going breathlessly all the way to the end. I always feel like this point is approaching endgame, when it's barely over halfway!
#francis crawford#beautiful messed up traumatised clever boy desperately trying to hold it together on his own#i freaking love the somervilles#at this point i feel that kate is the only person in the world - bar Sybilla - who Gets Francis#she knows he loves music and respects women and loves his country and is honourable and good#when everyone else believes he's a drunken raping mercenary lout#and philippa hates him#kate sees him and gets him and loves him#omg i love them all so much#what an absolute ride this book is#disorderly knights#lymond chronicles#dorothy dunnett
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