#i hate drawing myself but anything for the bit

[twost3ps]

So I’ve been pretty absent for a bit and would like to take a formal announcement that I am on a hiatus or ateast be dipping in and out very quickly

I just… I just can’t right now. I can’t draw or be happy or anything. I’ve drawn like maybe a couple of times and I hate everything. Absolutely and fully I just can’t.

I keep on telling myself self that next week will be my week or I’ll finally finish what I’ve started but I can’t. All I can do is mope on my bed after a long day and I can’t even enjoy my moots content in full because I can’t will myself to look. And all I do is feel bad, sick, and annoyed. So I’ve just been off socials for a bit. And I feel incredibly guilty for not being able to look or interact with my moots posts or respond to something. Tbh this particularly makes me feel incredibly guilty.

With Abel being announced I thought I would be able to come back but I still can’t do what I want. My fingers shake with my pen and I get so mad with every drawing I do. I can’t even enjoy the content i like or be bothered to look for anything revolving around it. I occasionally look at my notifs but I don’t really anymore. I physically hate it. All of it. I’m chalking it up to seasonal depression and the overall stress I’ve been having for over winter- holidays and family life. I get into a slump this time of the year most of the time but right now it’s the worst it’s been.

I just feel I’ve been letting so many people down all at once and i just can’t bring myself to function

So I’m formally announcing some time off. I’m sorry to my moots that I told I was going to give presets for… I’m sorry it’s going to take way longer than I thought it was going to be. Might even bleed to February and I’m so so sorry. I hope this hiatus doesn’t turn permanent though, because this happened before with one of my old socials and I couldn’t commit any longer and left. If it does happen my accounts will stay up though. I know I really shouldn’t be but I feel so incredibly guilty, like I’ve been neglecting this account, my moots and followers too. Idk qwq

I’m so sorry for dumping here but I feels good to say it and I want you guys to know why I’m not gonna be here for a bit longer. It’s not forever but for a while

So bye for now!! Love you guys and thank you 💖 i hope you all had a happy holidays and a happy new year!!

[personishfive]

in which: april 1st special

[dykedvonte]

I keep seeing fanarts of ppl's OC's being on the ship, so do you think that if there was 6st crewmember (specifically, another woman) Anya would've been more safe? Like, someone to actually call Jimmy's begaviour out, someone Anya might wanna trust? Is there a possibility something might have changed (even if a little) or it would not have mattered at all?

-💀

I feel like the game would make it part of the commentary on where she would believe and help Anya but still be sort of dismissive? Like the whole “don’t waste time crying and being scared keep going and move on, don’t let him win”. It’s supposed to be positive and reinforcing but sometimes it does more damage in those times of mourning and grief, it feels patronizing, like you don’t understand what you’re going through but they do. Even if they did call out his behavior it’s still on Curly to act and while another voice would help, it’s still 4 against 2 on guys that don’t get it until they have to vs women who always have to.

I don’t mind mouthwashing OCs but I do get a bit bored as they tend to be borderline saviors or like Jimmy aligned. They are either more complicit than Curly or just Jimmy haters for no reason, outside of what the creators know about what he did to Anya. I am never irked by OCs but in a story like mouthwashing you really need to think about what your character adds to the commentary, especially if they are there during the crash. It’s nice to have like characters on Anya’s side more whole heartedly and interesting to see characters who placate Jimmy but sometimes it’s one note.

I can’t and don’t want to police peoples OCs it’s never my intention when I comment on trends I notice, but I do feel like the way people make their OCs interact with these two characters and especially Curly, really show a grave misunderstanding of the narrative and these characters as people vs roles in the story. Still, I know people just make up characters for fun and that’s fine. Great even, but I guys I’m focusing more on OCs that are supposed to have those serious dynamics. My favs tend to be pretty-Tulpar or post-Tulpar au OCs.

The inevitably of the crash is on Jimmy. He did that not because he wasn’t stopped but because all his means to kill Anya were taken. The gun, the axe. Even if Curly did strip him of his co-pilot privileges and try to keep him contained there’s only so many people. An extra body helps but they have jobs they have to do, he’s the only one steering the whole ship and Jimmy would likely have an out: food, bathroom, etc. He’s not new and if he couldn’t crash the ship directly, who’s to say he wouldn’t sabotage something else? A clunker like the Tulpar wouldn’t take much. An extra person helps but it’s just another thing that prolongs what a person like Jimmy is willing to do to shirk responsibility.

It’s more than just needing someone to stand up to him and think that’s what is missing when it comes to inserting a character into the mouthwashing setting.

[puppppppppy]

its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously

[8nigiris-spam]

I CAN ONLY DRAW PADPARADSCHA PLAYING VIDEOGAMES NOW??? I LITERALLY CAN'T DRAW ANYTHING ELSE ANYMORE???

[heynhay]

How draw like you T^T

Do you have any advice for learning to draw better? Like, resources or practices or anything?

Time. and referencing. No way around it but to put in the hours.

[nonsensechemicals]

crying whenever i talk about Cookie9 because all my friends have these interesting and unique theories on them while i take everything too literally and they all just stare at me like “dude… uuugh we r TIRED” <-they dont actually say this they are very kind to me but i can Feel It

[buttercupshands]

I just managed to get off mha hyperfixation

And now it's happening again... Oh no

Helps with upcoming MHUI LoV event tho, it was a long time since last one happened I wonder what would happen in a new filler story part

Basically this and couple of pages of mid-final arc chapters + recent episode and next one being The Dabi episode was just too much not to get excited again

But! Important thing - I need to reread the last arc before I make anything new, if possible without finishing it to the 419 chapter and everything after, it took 2 months to really recover from the damage that chapter did

Anyway am I ready for the new event? Kinda! Do I have enough gems to get new Tomura? No! I'm not sure he'll even show up this time, because other ones were and still are really stubborn

Also Steampunk recruit took like 120 pulls in a step-up recruit and in the usual one combined

Not the best time to get LoV involved, it's cruel even

Also that one part of the page I added at the beginning was so interesting to look at and them I joked about 236 being similar. The only good thing with final arc being over is that I can say that Izuku didn't draw the parallel of seeing everyone hurt and seeing Tenko react on Mon's death

Understandable why, but it's funny to just look at them and be like, "wow Horikoshi traumatized them both"

[prick-love-for-arting]

... Mhm

[francy-sketches]

I'm gonna have to work on my final project non stop for like a month straight bc I procrastinated on it too much fuck my stupid baka life

[zoppzoop]

GAAHAHHHHH

[plugnuts]

I must be a masochist or smth with the designs I’ve come up with for these digital boys

[mementoasts]

oouughgh i'm suffering so many ideas can't draw anything oouguugughhgh

[skrunksthatwunk]

damnnn that manga about making manga got me acting funny (making 5 year plans)

[fingertipsmp3]

If anyone here keeps a reading/book journal what do you dooo. I feel like I’ve tried multiple options and none of them have really been perfect

[cherrysnax]

i want to see my little freaks interact and save their city and grow into teachers and engineers and Pulitzer Prize winners and actual doctors and real superheroes and beat up middle aged petty Italian niggas but I need to put a pen to fucking paper (metaphorically) and draw. But I can’t. how can I make something about coming out of horrible circumstances a better, stronger person if my body is shutting down on me?

how can i draw people beating the odds if I can barely brush my teeth or shower or lay down without immense pain?