#i got orin then went back to see what he had to say

[wyllzel]

blacked out came to and i have beat both raphael and ansur over the past 6-7 hours lol. #gamer moment

[meanbossart]

Ask compilation: DU drow, Orin, Astarion, lore things and little fun facts.

Trying to make a dent in this dang inbox. As always, thank you so much everyone for your patience and curiosity! Sorry that it is straight up no longer possible for me to reply to everyone, but I will keep doing my best within reason. Enjoy!

Absolutely! I had a lot of requests for bottom Astarion on my patreon which is why I was kind of on a roll there for a minute.

Though, for the record - I am really not very invested in strict bedroom roles at all. Or clear and distinct dominant/submissive dynamics. So please don't overthink it whenever there's a switch, no pun intended.

You wanna know how often they smash? Man, I don't know, I guess fairly often considering their lifestyle post-game (very active, often on the road).

Assuming that everyone agrees that sex doesn't have to involve penetration, I'd say once every other day or less, really depends on the circumstances though. DU drow's libido is much higher than Astarion's, but he's not an animal and can hold off fine. Astarion is likely to be pickier in regards to location and how-recently-have-we-bathed status as well.

I keep meaning to draw him, but I have like... A million things I want to do 😂 so its rough!

BUT you will at least continue to see him in ANE! And I'm sure i'm bound to draw him again in the future.

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If you mean in his bhaalist "AU", where he has the red robe and the extra scars, I imagine he would have gotten it through killing Isobel.

I think as a changeling she probably has the ability to just... Transform her hair however she likes at will, right? And based on her attitude plus some lines we get from Sceleritas about her own former-butler, it sounds like she would be really opposed to being serviced in that way, to me at least.

I see her as pretty aggressively independent with the way she operates, which is another factor that sets her apart from DU drow, who really enjoyed lording over the other Bhaalists and making an errand boy out of Sceleritas, to the point where he practically depended on their help to function.

Neither! I wasn't willing to let anyone take either of my eyes in my first playthrough, LOL.

I have since always given the Volo eye to SOMEONE, usually Gale, but I don't consider that canonical. I don't think anyone was desperate enough to let mister frumpy-hat over there ice-pick their eyes out.

He did do them himself. It was a profoundly stupid display he got caught up in because of Gortash. Also, de-handment is kind of a theme in his life, at least inside his head.

I have a comic about it planned for the future ;)

What do you mean, that's canonical to the game and everything! He loves the cuck chair!

He is an angsty 29-year old in denial. Your interpretation is still perfectly accurate.

Hates the guy. Hates when Shadowheart Astarion people joke about him being the Drizzt of his generation. Hates the guy like literally any countercultural weirdo hates Taylor Swift or the Weeknd. If he saw him at the line in the grocery store DU drow would find a way to roll his eyes loudly just so he could notice being an asshole.

Stay tuned, I'm cooking 🧑‍🍳

If you're asking about game strats, badly, LOL. Pretty sure I died twice to her in my first run and it was a rough way of being thrown into "serious" DnD combat.

With the exception of a couple of encounters that just so happened to turn out SURPRISINGLY cinematic, I'm just realizing that I actually don't think too often about how most of the fights went in real-time! I imagine Autie Ethel's in particular wasn't one that DU drow went into of his own accord, probably rather at a companion's insistence. That's as deep as I've thought about that personally.

Now... Back to game strats. I personally try to get a surprise round on her however I can by sneaking and shooting an arrow or AOE in her general location, since she always stands on roughly the same spot while invisible. I have my companions spread about the arena so we can take her clones down as fast as possible, and as soon as I identify who the real Ethel is I just have the strongest martial characters wail on her until she begs to be let go. Hers is one of the few fights that is actually pretty dang easy at this point for me - and I SUCK at this game.

That would certainly take a while! But, Bhaalist DU drow does kind of have an end goal, actually.

That might also turn into a comic eventually, but it would a rough one.

He pretty swiftly disposed of her, DU drow doesn't like being talked down to, which Minthara very promptly does. Him (and I, by extension) had very limited exposure to her and she was just kind of a speck of dust in his story in particular. Though I have since grown to adore her character in my proceeding runs where I do recruit her!

I guess if he got an invitation and it wasn't particularly painful to arrive at the venue, sure! He would specially love to take Astarion to Gale's wedding ceremony and purposely upstage him at every at every opportunity, LOL.

Yes. He got pretty freaky with the pain-priest. This is gonna sound like a lie but I made him get naked for it without even knowing there was a buff to be gained (I didn't get it, unfortunately, I don't remember whether I failed a check or if I had camp clothes toggled on, so it didn't count as being truly nude). I wasn't taking the game very seriously and just doing dumb roleplay things to see what would happen, LOL.

And I consider that canonical. I think DU drow saw the opportunity to show off his physique And had a strange inkling that this was a practice he was... Somehow familiar with.

Imagine my joy when Astarion and Shadowheart start having a back-and-forth about my absurd display. That's when i knew those were my people, to be honest.

[animentality]

Idk if you've talked about this before, but how do you think the last time Gortash saw Durge before they got lobotomized went? Just something I've been thinking about for. A while.

I had an angsty idea...

Like what if they had an argument the last time they saw each other? Over something really stupid that neither of them could remember, amnesia aside. Gortash stormed off without saying goodbye. Durge went home to sulk. Maybe Orin is watching them because she's ready to make her move, and she correctly deduces that they must not have left on good terms...

So maybe Orin gets the drop on Durge by pretending to be Gortash, and acts like he's come to make amends? And Durge, who's been feeling frustrated and maybe a little lonely after a few days of not speaking with Gortash, is relieved that he's made the first step, and that's when she gets them.

When their guard is down.

And Gortash doesn't realize what's happened, he just think Durge is still mad at him. They don't talk for a full week, and he thinks they're just being childish. They don't reply to his ciphers, though, about the plan, and he starts to get worried.

And then at their next evil planning meeting, Orin shows up instead of them.

And then he knows something bad has happened, but she won't tell him what, just that they're gone now, forever.

And he's wracked with this horrible guilt, because he'll never get to apologize for being childish and petty. They won't be able to bicker or spat like children anymore. He doesn't get a chance to say goodbye. Their dreams are bitter and mangled now, and he has to work with Orin, someone he barely trusts.

And he is tormented by the idea that maybe Durge died, thinking he hated them.

So yes.

I've stewed on it.

I am haunted by the notion of Durgetash ending with a fight, because the Dark Urge he loved truly died that day, and never came back. And that Dark Urge never got to apologize, and neither did he...

And then, when they see each other again...

Ah.

It's gone, and Gortash tries desperately to pretend it isn't, that he can make amends now, and things can be the way they used to be.

But no.

No, it's gone, Gortash. You ruined it. You broke it together.

Bury it.

[galeorderbride]

Hey lovely!

I have a fluff / angst fic request if that’s OK.

Orin targets a companion at the Elfsong Tavern but luckily, it’s not Gale. F! Tav’s emotions are all over the place and Gale comforts her.

It’s pretty much a “What if she got you?” scenario.

Hope that’s OK 😊

Love this idea! Ask and you shall receive! I hope you like what I’ve put together for this request :)

Rating: T (Angst/fluff; Tav has a panic attack due to crowd claustrophobia + Orin’s antics)

Coupling: Gale x F!Tav

Words: 2.1k

Fic below the cut:

Orin’s Fourth Torment

Crowds are best for villains. Anonymous and clustered, both sheltered in the safety of many and isolated when targeted. Normally, the Elfsong Tavern was busy, but never crowded. Nights full of shouting regulars and barstools scraping against aged hardwood. Such a frequent occurrence that Tav grew used to the sounds after several stays in that shared room on the second floor.

Tonight was different. Tav, Gale, Karlach and Wyll returned from a long day of being harassed by Orin and her doppelgängers, drowning in stress and trying to hide their fear. All of them wanted a good, long rest. But upon arrival, Elfsong was flooded with city dwellers. Pouring all the way out the front entrance, throwing around coloured ribbons, the same ones hanging above doors and windows. A festival of some kind, a celebration important enough to attract a wider audience rather than the drunken faces that had grown familiar.

Tav would’ve just navigated the crowd and climbed the stairs to their room in any other circumstance. But after being tricked by Orin and assaulted by doppelgängers at a wine tasting, she was nothing short of anxious, impatient and irritated. Ready to cry at a moment’s notice as all the traumatic experiences of this months-long journey bubbled up from the pit of her stomach.

Gale, the saving grace to calm her soul at every turn, hooked his arm around hers. He inched close, saying in her ear, “Worry not, love. I’ve seen even bigger crowds than this at the Yawning Portal during Elient festivals. Gods, the cooking competitions are the worst for it! All we have to do is push through, it never lasts for as long as you may think.”

He was a beacon of light at the worst of times, quite literally as he illuminated the Shadow Cursed Lands on their first night together. When he confessed his love for her, they spent an evening shrouded in a poetic tapestry of stars, fresh air and intimacy. Tav locked into those thoughts, using them as a crutch to get through the bumbling crowd and up to their shared room.

“Come on soldiers!” Karlach exclaimed, “Follow me, I’ll break through the mob with these shoulders no problem. Nothin’ a little heat won't fix!”

Wyll’s brow raised in amusement before he followed her into the crowd. Gale went next, with Tav at the back, their hands entwined together to stay close. Left with standing room only, pushing through the flood of bodies who didn’t notice or care about them. The bar wasn’t all that large, Tav thought, she could see the top half of the steps from where they all stood.

Some steps in, a drunken man fell between Tav and Gale, splitting them up. Tav stumbled around for a moment, giving the man an obvious stink eye as they pushed past him with hard elbows. This frustration didn’t last long, though. In the corner of her eye was a woman, the familiar bloody, blonde braid swaying behind her as she slid the blade of a curved knife around her jaw. A malicious smile crept across her face, shifting from one part of the room to the next, like no one else noticed her but Tav. Panic and fear set in, her heartbeat loud in her ears, and time felt slow. None of her companions were close, all lost in the crowd, and Tav grew frantic.

Orin’s maniacal laugh boomed in Tav’s ears as she began to run, mumbling Gale’s name under her breath. The tavern felt miles long, impeded by the pilgrimage of party goers all trying to find the best place to enjoy the raucous music. Tav felt herself nearly float between bodies, hitching her ankle weirdly and falling backward. Vision tunnelled with panic and apprehension. Hardwood hit her back, head hitting the floor and looking up to see Karlach and Wyll hovering above.

“Hellsfire, Tav, are you alright?!” Wyll asked as he lowered his hand to her, helping her up. Upon standing, she realised she was at the steps, leading to the upper level.

“Gods, Tav, you look like you’ve seen a ghost!” Karlach pointed out.

“I’m not sure I haven’t,” Tav said, searching around the room for Orin to find nothing. Just the same crowd of party goers, blood red Bhaalspawn now nothing but a figment. Until she realised there was still a missing piece.

“Wait,” Tav continued, “Where’s Gale?”

He wasn’t standing with them, no poetic and lilted voice to lecture them on the importance of cohesion in a crowd. What frightened Tav the most was that, upon looking into the barrage of people, his glowing staff didn’t stick out. Charged with lightning magic that could be spotted from a mile away. Nothing. Tav stood on her toes, craning her neck to try and see across the entire room, but still, no Gale.

None of them saw him, Karlach using her height advantage but still came up with nothing. Tav felt the drum of her heartbeat once again, faster this time. Enough to kickstart a heart attack as the image of Orin’s violent smile fought back to the front of her mind. The last few times they saw her, she appeared in the body of her victim. Was this the final taunt from her? Taking the one Tav cared for most?

No, not today. Not ever. Tav killed the avatars of gods. Slain shadow cursed monsters a century into their torment. That Bhaalist was nothing, and Tav promised to make her death slow when she caught up to her. Chosen or not, clearly she and her companions made short work of another. With those thoughts, Tav’s anger fuelled alongside anxiety. Driven to push herself back into the crowd and search for Gale, or Orin. Wyll and Karlach called for her to stop, but she ignored them.

Shoulders bumped and rutted into Tav’s upper body, from rib cage to neck depending on height. Bobbing back and forth between people, Tav became too small for the crowd. Trying to ignore her heavy breathing and tightening chest as she gazed into the crowd, calling for Gale. Every face in front of her blurring into one, large feature melting into one another. Loud voices shouting into her ears, some chiding at her in flirtatious drunk-talk that made things all the more overwhelming. But finding Gale was at the forefront, Tav had to push away all other discomfort.

She found her strength a little, adrenaline coursing through her system as she began to push forward. Hard, fast, using the entirety of her strength to get a look at every face that crossed her path.

“Gale?!” Tav called, turning her head back and forth. Nothing in that corner.

She moved to another corner, and cried out again, voice cracking with tears. “Gale?!”

Nothing.

“Gale?!” Tav screamed this time, carrying over the heads of the crowd.

Still nothing.

The entire tavern must’ve been covered, and Tav began to let the worst sink in. Her back hit the wall, close to the front doors. Tears fell down her face, following the nauseating sound of Orin’s laugh echoing in her ears. She was there, permeating the room with touchless torture.

Tav let her body slide down the wall, weakening in the fluctuation between rage and terror. Stuck in the little, empty corner of misery as the endless song of Orin slammed into her ears. Her face fell into her palms, wet tears staining skin, salty and humiliating. Images of what might happen to Gale under Orin’s capture spiralled in their mind. Forms of bleak, guttural violence that would deeply harm but never kill. Leverage, a way to lure Tav further into her clutches. Visions of blood and viscera, and the faded nightmare of his agonising screams, so vivid that Orin had to be putting that in her head.

In her state of dread, a hand wrapped around her wrist. Large and tight, Tav jumped out of panic and poised to strike the assailant. Fist up and ready to smack the arsehole who decided to grab her in a dumb, drunken stupor. Until she heard that voice.

“Tav, my dear, it’s me! Are you alright?”

Gale’s face appeared before her, big, brown eyes wide open with concern. Tav was frozen in place, questioning if she’d passed out and was hallucinating him in a hazy dream. Tears staining her face, the feeling of his grip on her wrist, the details of his expression. Orin’s laugh had ceased. This had to be real, he had to be there in front of her.

“G-Gale? Is that really you?” Tav asked, voice shaking with suspicion and social exhaustion.

“Yes, why wouldn’t it be me? I’m sorry we got separated, my love. When that man fell between us, I was pushed toward the kitchen. I couldn’t find you in the crowd so I went around the outside and came in through here,” Gale explained.

Tav didn’t speak, she just jumped into a full hug. Arms wrapped around Gale as they both sat on the floor, in the midst of a wild crowd. Cracking beer bottles and shouting voices. Words weren’t enough, Tav needed to be in his embrace. To remind herself that her one shelter from the horrid world was still with her. Gale could see she was struggling, locked in fear for his safety. His heart swelled with worry, wondering what happened for one of the strongest people he’d met to fall to the ground and cry.

“Come, love. Let’s go outside and take some air. Get some quiet,” he said, lifting her up and leading them outside of the tavern.

Moonlight softened the blow of chaos within the bar. Passersby still swayed in joyous excitement, chatting and running about. But compared to the inside of Elfsong, this was complete silence. Crickets chirped in the background, and Gale moved her to an empty bench just beside the entrance. He held her close, arm wrapped around her waist and free hand playing with the loose hairs around her neck.

“Tell me what happened, Tav. You’re safe with me, I promise,” he said, planting a small kiss on her cheek. Tav’s eyes closed, forcing back more tears filled with a mix of relief and upset.

Tav explained Orin appearing in the crowd, taunting her as she lost sight of their companions. Calling out for Gale, almost passing out from panic as Orin’s laugh vibrated through her. Gale listened intently, increasing horror in his eyes as he let Tav admit how afraid she was that he’d been taken somewhere horrible. The entire time, they held hands, Gale squeezing on and off to remind her he was still there, alive and well.

“I’m sorry,” Tav said, sniffling as a few tears lined her eyelids again, “I thought she’d taken you away. And I felt so powerless to do anything. If she had grabbed you, I wouldn’t even know where you’d be! And the awful things that would happen…gods, why am I even saying that?!”

Gale pulled her closer, rocking her back and forth as he peppered little kisses at the top of her head. “Shh, it’s alright, Tav. I’m here. None of that happened, I’m safe with you. And even if she had tried to take me away, I trust with my entire heart that you’d have rescued me in time. With the same zeal and ferociousness I’ve seen you be since the beginning of this journey.”

Fear began to settle into calm, Gale’s comfortable embrace like a warm drink on a cold, wintery day. Seated on that bench, hidden from the coarse noise of the inner tavern. Eventually, they’d have to go back in, but not now. For the moment, they could just enjoy each other’s presence. Taste the early night air and smell the salty brine from the nearby dockyard. Gale thought to himself that this was almost like Waterdeep. Near enough to memories of sitting outside the Yawning Portal and taking in the breeze, preparing to return home. One day, he hoped to bring Tav with him there. To experience all the beauty of his home city, danger free. To be as boring and overly affectionate as every other couple.

Gale lifted Tav’s chin up with his index finger, hovering his lips against hers with baited breath. They kissed softly, cuddled up together. Welcoming each other back to that safe space where, for a moment, no one could hurt them. Fingers locked together, the taste of spearmint lining the tip of Tav’s tongue. All the panic fading away, replaced by the desire to fall asleep in his arms.

He left the kiss to say, “You’ll have to try a lot harder to get rid of me. Not even a Bhaalspawn could pull me away from you.”

Tav chuckled, rubbing their nose against his flirtatiously. “I’d like to see her try.”

[roodllle]

Baldur's Gate 3 Act 3 spoilers under the cut

I have not seen anyone talk about these notes you find about Gortash so I'm going to post them!

So if you go to the Flymm store you'll meet Enver's parents and you can learn by using the tadpole that they sold him to a warlock. But it seems that as he got older he went into the smuggling business and was already showing how controlling he will become. Looks like someone tried to warn other smugglers, but clearly that failed horribly.

You find this note under Franc Peartree's house and I'm going to read way too deeply in this note lol

"Weapon distribution continues like a parent saving their drowning child: swimmingly"

Ugh ok when I read this I thought 'does he just think constantly about how his parents threw him to the wolves. is it a subconscious thing??' I wouldn't be surprised if he was the type to think that he wound up better off without his parents and that he may have actually choose this life anyway. But in the back of his head he may also wonder what life would've been like if he had loving parents ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ who knows

Then one of my fav lines:

"You are a treasure, and I should like to hold you in my arms and whisk you about! How you would laugh, Franc! Of course, people would say we're in love. And I do. I do love you, Franc. I love any man willing to birth a little more slithering, wet malice into the world. By sending out my weapons, putting them in groping, willing fingers, you've done just that."

Ok there are 3 things that came to my mind.

1. Queer Gortash? Is he being facetious?

2. Maybe Gortash is being chummy and him and Franc have known each other for awhile?

3. This is what really made me think though was that Gortash for all his tyranny has never been the type to revel in malice. Like ye he knows he's a tyrant but he wants slaves, he doesn't want more bloodshed in the streets nor does he usually talk so......poetically.

You know who does though? Orin. Especially since Franc ends up being a part of one of her assassinations. Get the guy to make more weapons then silence him?

Maybe? Maybe I've pegged Enver all wrong but who knows. I'm probably going to go back to Franc's house to see if my hypothesis is right.

And this last note I have has been my absolute fav that you can find when freeing Florrick. It's in one of the jail cells with a skeleton.

It was a very nice to initially refer to Enver as, Enver Flymm.

I don't know who Vance Farnol is but he seemed to know a crap ton about Gortash.

Farnol doesn't seem to know that at one point Enver was sold into warlock/demon slavery so maybe his POV is that he saw Enver as an urchin boy with his shitty parents.

Doesn't see him for awhile. Then sees him as a smuggler in the streets.

Enver joins a gang and that's when he changes his last name. Was it recommend as being a new member of the gang? Did people automatically think of the shoe shop when hearing Flymm? Was it more for Enver to distance himself from them?

He eventually becomes the Kingpin and seems to call himself an independent entrepreneur

Rivals? All my rivals are dead. I have not gotten to Gortash's boss fight yet but no one has to tell me this man can't actually fight. Is he probably good with a dagger and a fist fight? Possibly, but it's more likely he's good at weaseling out of situations and getting other people to do the dirty work.

Zhent's Days is Past, I missed that part in Act 1 where there's a sidequest to help those guys? So maybe I missed something in their hideout which would give their POV to this situation.

Then it seems he strikes a contract/deal with the god Bane and then strikes an Oath with Orin

"Not Even Everything is Enough" Someone never told Gortash that acquiring the world is never going to fill that empty black hole of a heart he has

And then we have him working with Kethric, getting the Gondians to serve him and then his most hammy line

Call me LORD Gortash

I love how there's so much depth to this character, makes me sad there aren't actually a lot more scenes with him. I know romancing him would be almost impossible but just having more scenes would be wonderful.

Anyways thanks for reading and share your thoughts!!

[serregon]

so Baldur’s Gate is overall really good, but not without criticism, and I’m kinda pissed about Halsin becoming irrelevant and the portrayal of his trauma.

I’ve seen some players calling Halsin’s story boring and two-dimensional, and I wish I could say I disagree with them, but I honestly can’t, and he deserved better than what we got.

I really liked Halsin in acts 1 and 2, but it feels like he just doesn’t have much going for him in act 3. I get that he isn’t an origin character, so he isn’t going to have the same big arcs that the main six get, but it feels like the writers just didn’t know what to do with him after act 2. act 2 was pretty much the conclusion of his character arc, and act 3 is just him hitching along for the ride. the thing is, he isn’t even playable until you’re almost halfway into act 2. he’s only playable when his story is almost over.

the only quest Halsin gets in act 3 isn’t even exclusively his quest. he’s one of several characters who could be kidnapped by Orin. so odds are it isn’t going to be his story in your playthrough. that’s it for him. couldn’t he have a small sidequest, like maybe making amends with the tiefling refugees? what about a quest with Jaheira to find other druids in the city? or what about actually meeting those hastily tacked-on shadow druids? if he doesn’t have his own quest what’s the point of having him in my party anymore?

one thing we do get from act 3 is a new side of Halsin where he’s really uncomfortable about being in the city. he’s in an unfamiliar and overstimulating environment, and seeing the poor treatment of refugees makes him lose hope in humanity. it gets to the point that he actually starts to think that the shadow druids had a point. the character who’s always putting on a kind and brave face is starting to break. that’s a good set up for an arc! sure hope it goes somewhere.

eventually Halsin’s unease about staying in the city causes him to have a complete meltdown. he loses control over his bear form and injures Scratch. when he turns back into an elf, he’s panicking about how the city is making him both physically and mentally sick. he has lost all hope in this world, and he pulls out a dagger and holds it to his chest. that’s a really shocking and evocative scene! who doesn’t love watching the nice guy go apeshit? I’d love to see where this goes for his character.

except, that last scene wasn’t actually Halsin, that was Orin taking his form to taunt the player. so that scene went nowhere. I can’t help but feel like I was robbed. you thought Halsin would have a deep character moment, but you were wrong! it’s just like an “it was all just a dream” ending. and of course that scene only happens if Orin chooses to kidnap him over someone else so there’s a good chance you won’t even see this non-character development. so yeah my take is that that scene should have played out with the real Halsin.

we do get another piece of Halsin lore in act 3, but the way it’s handled is. Bad. very bad, even. and this is where I have to add a content warning for sexual abuse.

so when you get to the brothel, the player and their partner can sleep with these twin drow sex workers. if you ask Halsin to join you, he just drops “yeah I was raped by two drow before lol. they tied me to a bed for three years haha crazy right.” I can’t fault Halsin for using a somewhat jokey tone when talking about his abuse. I also can’t fault him for saying that he even sorta liked it at times, abuse survivors are allowed to have complex feelings about their abuse. the problem is, the story itself is not taking this seriously. as far as I could find, Halsin’s history of sexual abuse is brought up absolutely nowhere else in the game. it’s literally only brought up when Halsin makes that half joking reference to it. the player can’t even ask Halsin about it like “hey man that’s a pretty traumatic thing are you alright?” this whole side of his character is a missable one-off line. where does this hint of backstory lead? why can’t we confront him about this later? there’s a lot you could do with a character who hides how deeply something affected him, but it literally comes off like being raped for three years straight barely affected Halsin at all. it’s such a heavy topic that feels like it was tacked on at the last minute with little thought.

it’s also weird because the game handles Astarion’s trauma with so much more grace. they know how to write a male sexual abuse survivor with the respect he deserves, so why couldn’t they do the same for Halsin? it doesn’t even need to be a whole arc, just some camp dialogue or literally anything.

semi-related tangent: the brothel is a steaming pile of tired tropes. the incestuous sex workers? of course the sex workers are freaks, how original! and the murdered sex worker shoved in the fridge like she’s nothing? never seen that one before! the madam who doesn’t give a shit about the safety of said murdered employee? you really reinvented the wheel there!

idk man just. everything else about this game is really really good, but act 3’s flaws stick out like a sore thumb. Halsin and sex workers deserve better.

[johnandrasjaqobis]

Sooo I did say I needed to write up a summary of Joseph's ending (including screenshots for funsies and to break up the inevitable wall of text)

but of course to do that I need to set some Context (only the relevant parts, I swear) SO my idiot son, fresh off the Nautaloid, negative memories, +1 tadpole, and also somehow eldritch blast ??

(he was a fighter of some sort before, I think, I had been considering paladin for this run but it didn't make a whole lot of sense to have divine magic when you start out with Nothing, so I figured the desperation of that situation is the. perfect opportunity for some outside force to Help.)

and, of course, this will be long so UNDER A CUT IT GOES

He had zero idea what exactly was giving him the powers, but there was so much going on it wasn't really a priority to look into for the first good chunk of plot. Joseph just barreled his way through looking for literally anyone who would give him any fucking answers, and was legitimately kinda being dragged into being a halfway decent person with the party's influence (if there is one constant about this man, he is far easier to manipulate than he'd ever admit). Still used every tadpole they came across because there was the constant feeling of being so much weaker than he should be, and the tadpoles gave a not insignificant edge in combat. Thanks to the weird accidental connection to the zaith'isk, he was very good at it - and for a guy who feels like he's not very good at much of anything anymore, it was a lot.

(he also tried to pass the tadpole stuff off as warlock abilities, with marginal success, it did involve casting shatter centered on himself once and knocking himself out, that's not important)

all that to say when the Emperor offered the astral tadpole, there was some temptation; the main thing that made Joseph keep pushing back was the fact that Lae'zel hated the idea of it. but (and here is where I wave fondly to fully canon events as they pass by) good ol' Empy chose this time to try and press in on the fact that Joseph had already benefited so much from illithid powers. Moreso than he was fully aware, in fact. since the Emperor was technically his patron.

(sometimes you see this absolute feral little asshole of a man who, unfortunately, is a rather important part of your plan, and realize that he can't do shit anymore. so sometimes you gotta sigh heavily and give him a hand. or tentacle, perhaps.)

anyway when it came down to it the DC was 21, Lae'zel was pissed, and lo and behold

fast forward a bit. the Emperor is a bitch, they do not get along, but mostly mutual goals so whatever

and then we get to Baldur's Gate. Joseph has one (1) meeting with his ex, who is incidentally the first person who has actually given any actual answers, and every chance of some kind of redemption arc is immediately thrown out the window

because. yeah, remember that mention of being easy to manipulate? pre-tadpole Joseph wasn't much different in that regard. His loyalty is a character flaw at points, and his loyalty to Gortash was second only to Bhaal himself (and even that divide was being pushed at, which terrified him, obedient son that he was, forgive me father indeed)

he learned why every high ranking person in this dammed cult seemed to know him. Why the Absolute itself seemed to revere him. Why Stillmaker felt so familiar. And he fell right back into the old patterns and the old plan.

proceeded to lose multiple friends for it, too, there's only so long the whole "I'm just staying on his good side to get information" excuse is obviously, how you say, bullshit. Karlach and Wyll both left after they got Gale back from Orin. Shadowheart stuck around a little longer, but eventually having to help kill the little group of Gur after watching a ceremony that killed thousands just tipped things too far.

Joseph went into the finale with like. three friends: Astarion (freshly ascended), Minthara (delighted by the opportunity for power grabs), and Lae'zel (increasingly skeptical and disappointed by her idiot amnesiac boyfriend).

(and god the situation with Lae'zel hurt. Karlach definitely tried to warn her of how badly this was all going to go to shit before leaving. there was a moment with Shadowheart with the very weary "I do think he loves you. I just don't think that it's going to be enough." getting to watch as Joseph just fully clicked with this man he so obviously had history with. like give this girl a break.)

but again, that loyalty, which meant he definitely did get the Orphic hammer because he wasn't about to just turn his back on Lae'zel's whole mission, and also fuck the Emperor actually

however, speaking of the Emperor, that does require a bit of a backtrack because Joseph did have to kill his sister and then also said fuck you dad, it's your dream not mine, etc and was exsanguinated for his troubles. only to be pulled back again by the weird skeleton guy who refused to stop following them around.

See friends, I think there's something...a little extra, in being killed by a god, especially when it was the god who created you to begin with. Bhaal might have aimed a little poorly, only fully destroying the Urge side of things, but the god of murder murdering you holds weight. As does being pulled right back out of death by the now unemployed god of death.

That whole situation might have. Severed some connections. Formed some new ones.

Fast forward again.

Holy shit the brain is big.

but they had the plan, perhaps a little trickier now, but they'd get the brain back under control and split the stones again, Minthara can wield the third, Astarion can help run things with his own newfound powers, Lae'zel can use whatever resources from this plane she needs to go kill Vlaakith, there's a plan

and I mean. we all know how this part goes. Larian I just want to talk.

In a very fitting "dice telling a story" moment, after Gortash fell I rolled three consecutive 2's. (Minthara tried revivify immediately, of course she did, but maybe it was the splitting migraine they were all fighting through or maybe something the brain did, or maybe Bane himself wouldn't allow it, but nothing would take.) Joseph doesn't remember screaming, but by the time Empy yanked them into the prism, his throat was definitely damaged.

Joseph nearly passes out and does end up just staring at the body (because at least Empy was polite enough not to just leave Gortash there, god can you imagine) for. some amount of time.

of course he'd lose this, of course it's the one person who really knew him before, who was still perfectly willing to work with who he was now, who gave him a purpose that was more than just killing literally everyone, who appreciated the skills that came with said killing but appreciated the skills that had nothing to do with it, who Joseph trusted despite literally every bit of common sense

Fuck that, actually.

The Emperor snaps at him that they don't have this kind of time, Joseph snaps right back that they're in the fucking Astral Sea, time passes differently, they've got a moment.

He asks the others for a moment, just go regroup a bit, he'll catch up, and this has happened enough over their travels that they don't hesitate too much before leaving him alone

and then he starts calling for Withers. First just mentally, then out loud, then enough to make him taste a little blood again, because Jergal you fuck I know you can hear me

takes a moment, but. he does show up. just so casually stepping out from behind a rock, good ol' Peepaw, Withers, literally Jergal himself

and also Joseph's fairly recently self-appointed new patron

(he'd had suspicions for a bit, the fact that he and the Emperor had been at such odds recently, especially the fact that he could complete the whole "heist" from the House of Hope with absolutely no consequences, there was a pretty solid feeling. this just confirmed it.)

"Bring him back." "No."

but if warlocks are known for one thing, it's making deals. how invested are you in seeing this Absolute stopped, huh Jergal? In sticking it to the Dead Three? You've already yanked one of their Chosen back, what's one more?

"I could try -- do my godsdammed best -- to stop this thing for good. Just like you want. Or I could use these stones and burn down the fucking world."

and it's a good thing they're in the Astral Sea because the silence is long. but eventually there is. a very reluctant agreement.

after, of course. after the Absolute is destroyed (if you die in the process and it enacts the Grand Design, not much else will matter anyway, if you succumb to the temptation and take control, there's no bargain to be fulfilled).

So. Somehow, in fate's favorite sort of irony, the guy who pulled Joseph off of any sort of path toward redemption ended up being the reason that kind of forced his hand there anyway.

They destroy the brain. Astarion and Minthara are expectedly disappointed, but can kind of appreciate the impossible task that it would have been to control that thing indefinitely. The tadpoles are evaporated (Joseph is left with scarring because you can't tell me that level of change being stripped away so quickly leaves you without a mark). The city is saved.

And Enver Gortash gets to wake up, inexplicably, on the docks and go through seven stages of grief as he realizes what happened to his plan. (The plan got you fucking killed, you absolute dumbass.)

implications beyond that are mmmmmm many and complicated. but. hey, there's always the next plan.

[blackjackkent]

And more for the character meme to keep you occupied, haha. Pick whichever interest you.

Rasaad

Minsc

Shadowheart

Minthara

(“Send me a character” meme)

HOW ABOUT ALL OF THEM! \o/ :P

First impression

Rasaad: Once again, I'd first heard about him from @springagainafter 's posts about BG1/2 back in the day, so I already had good initial thoughts about him before actually meeting him for myself. My first encounter with him in-game, with Caden, was nice because he spends a lot of time talking about how he wants to bring light to people, which was good to hear after Caden had been having such a rough time of it with Gorion's death. He definitely struck me as a calm and measured sort of person with a level and meditative head.

Minsc: Pretty sure I loved Minsc instantly. :P In my BG1 liveblog I mentioned him being my favorite of the people Springy had talked about in her posts and I was very excited to get him and Dynaheir. He struck me as generally goofy and comic relief and I loved the way his dialogue was structured and how much character it gave him.

Shadowheart: As soon as I encountered her, a bunch of people commented on the liveblog post, "Oh yay you've met my wife!" So I knew there had to be something good there. :P She struck me as someone who was definitely hiding something, and seemed standoffish compared to Lae'zel's forthrightness, but I think I did like her right from the beginning and was curious to learn more about what her deal was.

Minthara: Lol I thought she was a scary bad guy and I was supposed to kill her, and so I did. :P I straight up didn't know there was another option until several weeks later; I was running Lab on stream last year and @morganaseren commented that she was gonna romance Minthara on an upcoming playthrough, and I went, "Wait, you mean the lady I just killed? You can do that?" XD

Impression now

Rasaad: He *is* level-headed and meditative... except when he's not, and then he's a mess. :P He's got a much more complex layer of darkness under the serious exterior, and he is capable of being super rash in pursuit of vengeance or self-sacrifice. I love him but he is definitely more of a chaos engine than he appears at first glance, and he needs a lot of hugs.

Minsc: My booooooy and his hamster. I love Minsc even more than I did previously; his relationship with Jaheira is wonderful and touching and both of them bring out interesting angles in each other. I love his enthusiasm and how much energy he brings into the party, and I am fascinated by the implications of his experience having been petrified for a century.

Shadowheart: A woman who has gone through a terrible process of systematic erasure of self and yet still manages to cling onto bits of herself regardless. The longer you talk to her the more you start to see bits of that true self poking through, and it's a person I very much like.

Minthara: Absolutely fascinating take on the tough soldier woman trope. I am deeply invested in the way that no matter how badass she seems, basically everything about her and how she operates is rooted in deep, visceral fear. I can't wait to do a romance run with her because I really want to know more about what's going on in her head.

Favorite moment

Rasaad: Hm. Probably the moment when he SHOUTS down Alorgoth in his personal quest in BG2. It's wonderfully voiced and a real moment of power after he's been doing a lot of soul-searching in the time leading up to it.

Minsc: Oh, man, this is a tough choice. :P I gotta say watching him crawl out of the mimic he kills from the inside with his bare hands in BG3 has got to be a high point. :P

Shadowheart: The night orchids! She has a lot of great moments, don't get me wrong, and this one seems like a small one, but I love how it displays her sentimentality and sense of humor in a way that can definitely take the PC by surprise, particularly if you get it in Act 2.

Minthara: "You see through my Minthara-mask, pretty little flesh thing. A joke - I am no more Orin than you are." My friend Minthara is the funniest person I know. ;)

Idea for a story

Rasaad: Once again I have about a billion random little ideas stored up regarding my ship between him and Jaheira. Off the top of my head - I wanna write something about him taking care of her after she comes back from a Harper mission all beat up. :)

Minsc: I think there is a lot to explore about his experience of being petrified, coming out of the petrification, reuniting with Jaheira, and any lingering aftereffects of the whole experience. There's no way it was completely without any effect on him, even though he certainly acts like he just shook it off.

Shadowheart: I have Thoughts drifting around about Shadowzel and what their first manifestations of "gentleness" in their relationship look like. I haven't exactly articulated a plan for them yet but I think there's a lot there to explore.

Minthara: Hm. Haven't actually considered much Minthara writing yet. I think ultimately she and Rakha might come to blows which could be very fun to write. XD

Unpopular opinion

Rasaad: I really don't know what qualifies as popular and unpopular when it comes to Rasaad bc I have not encountered anyone who talks about him besides me and Springy. XD Maybe the fact that I think he does loosen up a little and start learning (awkwardly) how to joke by the time he and Jaheira are old together. XD IDK.

Minsc: I am of the general opinion that Minsc also has a lot more depth than he lets on. I think his usual jovial ferocity is completely sincere - but he definitely has his moments of wisdom when the situation calls for it, he's devastatingly loyal, and I think he does a lot more thinking (albeit via discussion with Boo) than one would assume.

Shadowheart: Honestly not sure about this one? IDK that any of my opinions about her are particularly off the beaten path. Maybe that I don't think she should be friends with Scratch and Buddy (the owlbear) right off the bat since they are wolf-adjacent and might make her nervous?

Minthara: Again, not really sure I stray too far off the beaten path with her. Honestly having a lot of trouble coming up with anything here. (Presumably I'll think of something after I post. XD )

Favorite relationship

Rasaad: Jaheira! My rarepair. <3 I also really loved him and Minsc and Khalid and Caden being a buddy group during BG1 and SoD.

Minsc: His friendship with Jaheira gives me life. And I love his wychlaran relationship with Aerie. Honestly, though, I think no one has ever fully equaled Dynaheir in his eyes, nor ever will. I don't really have a romantic ship for him; I think he certainly knows what sex and romance is and is glad for his friends who are happy together but it just isn't really top of mind for himself. He bonds with people in other ways.

Shadowheart: Once again - yeah, yeah, I'm a Shadowzel simp. :P I really just think their stories parallel and contrast each other so well compared to any other possible pairing for them.

Minthara: Hm. With my Tav who I'll eventually do an evil run with. XD Of the canon characters... idk, I heard someone talk about Minthara/Karlach in the past and I was mildly intrigued by it. Karlach is basically the only companion Minthara speaks highly of right from the beginning, and I think Karlach could teach her a lot about living in the moment and moving past her fear of obsolescence and death. And Karlach does deserve a lover who would rip throats out like a guard dog for her. :P

Favorite headcanon

Rasaad: Hm. I've developed a lot of headcanons for him in recent months (wonder who's responsible for helping with that :P ). Hard to pick one. I do enjoy the stuff we came up with around his wedding with Jaheira - super sweet Selunite ceremony under the stars, followed by all of their friends getting turnt while they slip off for their own time. XD

Minsc: Minsc gets released from his wychlaran pact with Aerie when she and Caden go to settle down in Faenya-Dail, but he still feels himself very attached to her (I don't think he ever fully believes the bond can go away completely) and is similarly attached to Quayle as Aerie (and Caden)'s kid. He always brings a gift for Quayle when he comes to Faenya-Dail (and Quayle is devastated when for stone-related reasons he stops coming, and delighted to learn he's still alive many years later).

Shadowheart: I think Shadowheart never becomes a fully committed Selunite no matter what the outcomes of her personal quest. I think there's a lot of value in the fact that she has the freedom to choose her own course after breaking from Shar, and while I think she values elements of the Selunite faith (and explores many others), her spirituality going forward is a lot more nuanced and never reaches the same level of fervor again.

Minthara: I haven't spent a lot of time headcanoning about Minthara. But let's see. She has a number of lines indicating that she actually really likes Scratch, so I think secretly when no one is looking she plays fetch with him in the middle of the night, when it's dark and comfortable for her.

[bones-and-bondage]

The first time I cleared Act 3 of BG3, I was playing as the Dark Urge and I went into it totally blind. I went in with 0 spoilers, no interaction with the community at all, no looking up resources or guides, nothing.

Because of this, I had some really weird holes in my experience and my already simmering distaste for how flippant the party was about the Dark Urge and their actions and struggle full blossomed into rage.

My first Durge never got the Coronation scene with Gortash. I got to Wyrm's Rock Fortress and the Steel Watchers were all saying to go to the Coronation chamber and immediately all my alarm bells were going off. THIS IS A TRAP.

It felt so much like Irenicus leading us into the prison of the Cowled Wizards to continue his experiments. I was convinced that I was going to be ambushed or thrust into combat with one of the BBEGs that I was in no way prepared for so early into Act 3.

And so I walked my ass straight through that bridge and out the other side and didn't ascend to see the Coronation. I had no clue about what Gortash says and does in that scene, and being that it was a first playthrough and I was flying through it in a stumbling haze and not scouring for everything, I had no clue about the Durge's involvement in the plot, in their connection to anything, any of it.

By that point, before the big reveal dream with Bhaal, I had figured out that the Durge was at the very least Bhaalspawn. I love the original games too much and spotted those signs early on. But beyond that, I was in the dark.

So I, hyperfocused on the fact that Bhaal wanted the Durge to reclaim their temple, of which they were long standing high priest, I waltzed my happy ass to the Steel Watch Foundry and disabled them. Fought my way back into the Wyrm Rock Fortress since everyone is aggro at that point and obliterated Gortash in the coronation hall without a single bit of dialogue triggering. No fanfare or commentary from my party. Karlach said she was pissed she wasn't there for it, but would be fine if I just took her to see the body.

And then I did the Murder Tribunal-- shocked to see all the faces of the people I had to kill in Throne of Bhaal staring back at me, not to mention Saravok, whom I obliterated in the original Baldur's Gate, and then ABSOLUTELY REFUSED TO BRING BACK when the option was given in Throne of Bhaal because absolutely not (my Gorion's Ward was a Paladin struggling with nature vs nurture, which back in 2E days was a human and lawful good by requirements). I learned more about Orin, sacrificed Valeria, and moved on to the temple.

Orin's transformation into him, the face of my Durge, his voice, telling me all about Durge's roll in the Absolute plot, was the first I had heard of any of this, and as such, was the first time any of my companions had heard of it. It was just revealed to all of them that the Durge was born of Bhaal, that he was the head of the Bhaal Temple, that he was to blame for them all having tadpoles and this whole messy war on multiple fronts, and that he was here to reclaim his place as Bhaal's Chosen, not just to take Orin down.

Up to this point, everyone had just brushed off his murder of Alfira like it was nothing. They hadn't commented on his murder of Isobel and the destruction of Last Light. They didn't have much to say about him becoming the Slayer. None of them pushed him to struggle, to fight against it, to do better, be better. They just kept following him into the dark, and so by my reasoning, why would he struggle? It's his nature, after all, and no one has seen anything wrong with it, or at least hasn't voiced such discomfort to his face.

And with all that revealed? Did they have any commentary on it?

No. They didn't say a word.

No one had anything to say about it, and it was the singular point that absolutely broke my experience. It was the thing that made me pick up a notebook and seriously start writing again, after almost 10 years of not writing. I was so angry I wanted to do it right, to do it justice, BECAUSE NO ONE IN THEIR RIGHT MIND WOULD JUST STAND THERE WHEN THE VILLAIN OF THEIR CURRENT ENTIRE EXISTENCE WAS JUT REVEALED TO HAVE BEEN SLEEPING FEET AWAY FROM THEM AND BREAKING BREAD WITH THEM EVERY NIGHT FOR THE PAST MONTH.

I have since done other Durge runs. I have gone through the coronation. I've picked up the broken pieces of them scattered across the Shadowed Lands to the crypts of Baldur's Gate and still, AND STILL, the lack of reaction, the lack of care, it gets to me.

This could have been so much better.

[sugoiney-weaver]

I finally finished my first playthrough of BG3 last night, and it's maybe the worst/most depressing playthrough possible. I went into the game mostly blind, and tried not to savescum any major decisions or events. Spoilers below the cut

I accidentally killed the Owlbear mama. Without Speak with Animals, I got the gist that she wanted me to leave and not come back. I found a potion of animal speaking, and she was serious about the not coming back part.

I did not free the owlbear cub from the goblin camp, but it showed up at my camp later. It was only there for a few days before I accidentally made its hurt paw worse and it ran away, never came back

I didn't know Minthara would be a companion until after I killed her

I completely missed Halsin until after I killed all the goblins and saved the tieflings

I misunderstood/misclicked the levers at the windmill and sent Barcus flying

At Waukeen's Rest, I saved the guy upstairs, not realizing there was anyone else to save. I then went and found the Zhentarim hideout and didn't come back for a while. The other person (people?) died. Could I have saved the Duke there? IDK.

I saved Baelen by yeeting a healing potion at him, but he triggered the Bibberbang field so I didn't get the Noblestalk

I didn't realize that the world moves on and events resolve themselves without you, so Nere died behind the cave-in. I was trying that fight over and over, kept dying, so I went and explored the rest of the area and came back after a couple long rests. I had been drinking so I was very confused. I KNOW I didn't kill EVERYONE here, but where the fuck are they?

I explored the Grymforge but didn't actually use it. I thought for sure that I would find something that would explain how to use it, but I didn't. I refused to look up walkthroughs so I missed a lot of content because I didn't immediately understand what I was doing

When I first got to Last Light Inn, I missed Dammon. I failed to rescue Isobel and reloaded when I saw Zombie!Dammon. I then went and talked to Dammon to fix Karlach's heart, tried again to save Isobel, failed, and killed ALL the Tieflings and Harpers

Jaheira died on the front steps of Moonrise Towers. Because she wasn't actually in my party, I couldn't revive her.

I remember seeing some stairs that probably led to where the rest of the Tieflings were being kept, but I forgot to check it out before I moved on. I assume they're still there.

I decided not to give a fuck about Halsin's quest, so he was very sad that I did not lift the Shadow Curse

When I found Mizora at Moonrise Towers, I correctly translated the button that said "Unleash" and assumed it meant "unleash the Illithid." I failed to translate the one that apparently says "annihilate," so I pushed that one. Mizora and Wyll went WOOSH and Karlach was pissed

I didn't know that Isobel was saveable so I killed her.

Gale got kidnapped by Orin in Act 3, before I had a chance to take him to Sorcerous Sundries

Because I didn't need him (I was already a wizard) I took my sweet time rescuing him. I think I accidentally killed him on the altar with a Fireball. He wasn't technically in my party so Spell Sculpting didn't help?

I completely skipped Cazador's Palace for the sake of finishing the game. I hadn't taken Astarion out of camp since act 1 so he was only level 4 the whole time lol.

At the end, I turned Karlach into a Mind Flayer, released Orpheus, fought the Emperor.

I crit failed my attempt to convince Laezel to stay with us

That's pretty much it lol. I also abandoned so many quests that I probably could have gotten an extra 60 hours out of this playthrough. I ended at 129 hours though!

[fruityhooliga]

I got bored,so more info on the YJ as Batkids AU

It started with Conner, he was crying after another …encounter with Superman. Batman has watched it all go down,and he instantly decided, ‘I’m gonna adopt that boy.’ and that’s that,he comforted Conner,and then asked him the million dollar question, “Can I adopt you?” And Conner was quick to say yes.

Next Batkid was Kaldur,surprisingly. Kaldur had an argument with Orin and Mera, it was about his father. Of course it was. It ended with him crying and Zeta beaming to Mount Justice. Thankfully no one was there,he settled down on the couch and just let it out. He was sobbing for a solid 30 minutes. Near the end of his meltdown,he felt a hand on his shoulder. It was none other than the big bat himself. He got defensive but Batman instantly comforted him,he broke down again,ended up crying in Batman’s arms. After a while,Kaldur calmed down,and now he was sleepy,before he fell asleep, Batman asked him, “Would you like to be my son instead?” A nod of the head and Kaldur was knocked out.

Third one was Wally, after a fight with Flash,he stormed off and went to Mount Justice. He wanted to go to the training room to let the anger out but he was intercepted by Batman. He asked him what was wrong, and best believe the flood gates broke. He ended up venting,after he was done he got offered water and adoption.

Artemis was next up. She took it as a joke when the big bad Batman asked her to be his first daughter. She said yes,mainly because GA pissed her off earlier that day. She soon realizes it was not a joke,too late to back out now. At least some team members were there with her.

M’gann knew it was bound to happen,she accepted it easily,she had gotten into a fight with MM,she was sad and low key depressed. She tried to cry in silence,but Batman was not letting that slide,he ended up guiding her through it,she did not hesitate to say yes when he asked “Can I adopt you?”

Zatanna and Raquel actually got adopted at the same time. A mission went haywire,they were trying to comfort each other,but it wasn’t enough. Suddenly Batman was there,he was the anchor they both needed. Batman didn’t even get the chance to ask before they both said, “Could you adopt us?”

That’s how the adopting went,now their rooms at the Mansion.

Conner’s bed has a bunch of pillows and blankets,he replaced all his Superman merch with Batman,he has posters,drawing,figures and so on…

Kaldur’s room has its own personal pool,walk in closet, a desk, and a king sized bed,this fish boy was living the dream. He has a bookshelf full of trinkets,pictures,books and other random stuff, and a bunch of doodles on his walls.

Wally’s room still has some Flash merch but it’s all practically taken over by Batman posters everywhere. He also has a wall dedicated to pictures of the team,he also has his own bathroom.

Artemis’s room was somewhat normal. (She has a Zatanna shrine in her closet.) Moon lights all over the room. And a massive vanity,she has the room with the biggest window.

M’gann’s room is really bright,curtain lights everywhere,pink bedsheets,baby blue walls,and she has LED lights,she has a big mirror taking up half of a wall

Zatanna’s room is. Chaotic to say the least. She has those glow in the dark star stickers on her roof, the most normal thing. Two posters of Houdini. On different walls. A tapestry of Shrek standing in front of the bisexual flag. A million fans everywhere. Cold asf in there. She also painted half a wall Neon Green. Not even the whole wall.

Raquel as I said before,obsessed with butterflies, Butterfly posters,butterfly bedsheets,she even had her walls painted with butterflies. Anytime Bruce sees something butterfly themed he instantly gets it for her.

Sibling bonding time :)

Movie night,they were watching The Little Mermaid to troll tf out of Kaldur,who was not amused. Like 40 minutes into the movie everyone was asleep, Kaldur in the middle and somehow everyone was physically touching him. Bruce walked in,took a few pictures,turned off the tv and threw a blanket over the pile of Bats on the couch.

[imageingrunge]

So um got to that scene w asatrion,……….its a whole thing

so like an immense sense of guilt followed me thru the durge playthrough cuz of what happened in last light inn, which I wouldn't have even felt THAT bad abt if I hadn't tried really hard to save Jahiera and the nightsong. Like I am the reason she had to kill her girlfriend n I feel so bad about that I don’t even go near her side of camp……..sheesh n don’t get me started on jahiera like she deserved a warriors death I literally obliterated the harpers n then I take her w me to baldur's gate n orin wipes out the rest like I am her Judas

THEN we get to the murder tribunal  that’s  when I found out what happens to a bhaal spawn when they die; they become servants of their lord and technically their souls go back into bhaal so he is resurrected- and that durge is a being born from an immaculate conception, an antichrist like figure- this has been in the back of my mind while playing like damn when we die we are NOT seeing those pearly gates.

And then we went to cazador- I got this dialogue with him, since I romanced him n was like no, no we arent going to let him ascend this time its an insane choice! This 'to care is to live again' would not have hit the same if I wasn’t playing durge!! It in perfectly incapsulates my entire experience its why Rhena didn’t fuck everyone over to be the last woman alive to rule over a dead world- as Amelyssan (Bhaal's former priestess) would've done like damn w an evil durge ending Rhena could've become a messiah like figure in the bhaal cult- the power she couldve received from it, makes a nice parallel with Astarion n Cazador- was it worth it? I am HAUNTED BY consequences astarion shouldn’t be!! its like they say you may start the walk towards power as a person of dignity but ultimately you end it as a gnat

Also the way he FUCKING CRIES IM DEAD AAAAA

[pensola]

Just because I am bored, here are my various characters that I have played, am currently playing or plan to play:

Siova Tav

My first character, she was made pretty much just because I found it very funny to have a devil-looking character get powers from a god, so I chose the most good-oriented-sounding god from the cleric list... and somehow I ended up falling in love with her.

She grew up in the Open Hand Temple after her father was murdered and her mother left her there and never came back. I imagined her to be a lot like Tohru Honda from the "Fruits Basket" manga/anime, where she is not book-smart but has a lot of wisdom and kindness that makes people like her and feel safe around her. She has her long hair in a braid because her mother's family used to do that as part of a tradition, she dislikes having the hair free. Her eyes are also naturally darker, but got a glow after Ilmater accepted her as his cleric. She loves meeting people belonging to different gods and to learn from their point of view the world, but over time she is not afraid to stand by her own views of the world, life and divinity, which lead to quite a few arguments between her and especially Wyll, Gale and Astarion.

She romanced Wyll and followed him to Avernus to take down Mizora, although she does not want to adventure forever. Because I want the best for her, in my head she convinced/Command'ed the two opposing Prism-prisoners to cooperate, and used her Divine Intervention to save Karlach since I never had to use it in the story.

She is my main Tav, the other characters are there more for fun to make slightly different choices.

The Sad Surge

This is the Dark Urge of Siova's story. Technically she does not have a name, but because all my characters accidentally ended up having "S" first in their names, I call her Surge. She has selective eidetic memory with anything to do with death and blood (for example she can easily recall murdering Siova's father in all its gory details from a random urge to kill, but otherwise her memory is very blurry).

Surge and Siova never meet; while Siova was busy with helping people around her, Surge ran past it all in order to get to Baldur's Gate and take back her birthright. She was killed by Orin, and Siova found her corpse after defeating Orin.

I am making an "alternative" story for her where she does follow the regular Dark Urge-playthrough with companions and such, but still waiting to see where that goes. Apparently elves have a child name until they are considered adults in their 100's, so the idea then would be that she would finally make a true name for herself, if she went with a redemption story.

Sharin

The bard, a lover of colour, fun and freedom, Sharin is willing to help others around her, and takes everything with a laugh most of the time. Seems to be unbothered by almost anything with the exception of other people claiming her in any shape of form; she romances Astarion but him flirting by saying "tonight you're all mine and I'm all yours" was a big turn-off even if she knew what he meant. As such, she hates Raphael and uses every opportunity to make fun of him and insult him, because she was very provoked by the idea of selling her soul to him. Unlike Siova Tav who happily shares her past if asked, Sharin hardly ever alludes to it even if there are hints that there are more to her than it seems; she is a drow who has lived on the surface for a long time, she carries a lot of Lolth-sworn knowledge but has the look of a Seldarine, and sometimes has the bearings of a noble as well as an entertainer. She often jokes that she might embark on her own journey of growth when the Absolute is taken care of alongside Astarion.

Sharin angered the Emperor and was forced to take Raphael's offer, putting her soul on the line to save the world. Knowing this and her hatred of being owned, she asked to be made an illithid, and had Gale gather the Crown of Karsus before having Orpheus complete her transformation and killing her; the idea was that ceremorphosis destroys the mortal soul, meaning there would be no soul for Raphael to claim when she failed to give him the Crown. Thus she would save the world, free an old prisoner and give the finger to Raphael one last time (she never went to House of Hope, she had no idea it was there).

That is, that WAS the plan, but then Patch 5 arrived and Withers revealed that for some reason she still had her soul after the ceremorphosis, and she was met by a very angry Raphael.

Sissi

Sissi is a Paladin with the Oath of Vengeance. Having grown up as an urchin, then taken in by some noble people far away from Baldur's Gate that since were killed by and with their killeds in an explosive robbery, Sissi vowed to help give vengeance for those that deserved it. She is a "do unto others" and "ride and die by her friends" kind of gal; if someone is kind of her, she will be kind back, but if she has a reason to begrudge, she will carry that forever; only reason Wyll survived trying to attack Karlach was because Karlach vouched for him and Sissi would easier keep an eye on him, otherwise she would have killed him.

With her, I made her mostly for fun because I wanted an all-girl group (with the exception of Wyll because I am weak and Halsin because Sissi romances him; they are never allowed to be used), who were all tanks. Karlach and Lae'zel stay as their classes, same with Jaheira except she is constantly in owlbear mode if I need her, and Shadowheart was respecced to War Domain Cleric. She was also made a half-orc more because I wanted the colour differences. I am still playing Sissi, but with her I am actually thinking about having her attack Gortash first chance we get, just to see what happens and if I will be able to defeat him, the guards and the Steel Watchers, because again, ride or die, and Karlach wants him dead? That's reason enough to blast the ceremony. Also at first I thought to have her romanze Lae'zel or Karlack, but I read somewhere that half-orcs have a shorter lifespan, so I found it funny if she was only 30 but mentally 45 or the like, or at least that she was mentally the same place as Halsin, even though she does not have the same life experience, and so they ended up together.

Su'zan

This is Su'zan, who's bakground I am still not quite sure about since I have just started her. She is the Sorcerer of my characters, specifically a Wild Magic sorcerer; her hair, scar and eyes are results of Wild Magic Surges. She is going to romance Karlach, who will be a Wild Magic Barbarian. More than that I am not sure, I look forward to learning more about githyanki through her!

[animentality]

Sorry if this has been asked before, but I'm curious. How much of a part do you think ketheric played in durge's downfall? I recently replayed moonrise and ketheric is smirking and gloating and the narrator even mentions he knows exactly who you are but will never tell. Gortash's memoirs indicate that they learned about the elder brain after visiting moonrise, and the warden says that durge only ever visited once and never left. Maybe durge and Gortash learned about the brain then just ran off to conspire together, giggling and plotting, and ketheric was just done? Especially since Durge and Gortash came up with the plan without him - leaving ketheric out while in his own domain. Plus, how did orin know they were even there? I can't see durge telling their underling about their plans. Did ketheric somehow find out about her and contact her like "I know how you can remove durge. Btw pretend to be Gortash, trust me"? She had no reason to be there. Plus the way ketheric smirks at durge, commenting "treat me like you would any other chosen" when it had been just him, durge, and Gortash previously, which is basically him saying to give him the respect durge gave Gortash. I feel like ketheric probably played a major role in it and I'm interested in your take on it. Thanks so much!

I never considered the double entendre of "treat me like you would any other chosen" and that was DEFINITELY Ketheric being a little cunty elf, like ok queen, I see you, I hear you, I feel that.

EDIT: Ok, I just checked, and he apparently says, "Obey me like you would any other chosen."

Which is less iconic. But still. Have a cookie for writing that little double entendre better than Larian.

Not so sure on the "obey" part in terms of durgetash though. I highly doubt the Dark Urge ever "obeyed" Gortash just, without question.

But as for if Ketheric was involved...I don't know.

He didn't seem particularly happy to have Orin on board. The plan really started unraveling when the Dark Urge was deposed too. I doubt he liked the power struggle. I don't think he really had a huge issue with the Dark Urge, all my joking aside, only because the plan was going along well when the three of them were working together.

Him smiling and being coy could just be him being amused at their state, since he's an asshole, and the last time the Dark Urge was at Moonrise, he was mad at them about something...

Although...to be fair...I guess we never did know why he was angry at them.

The Dark Urge specific scene says that the Dark Urge was "demanding" something from Ketheric.

But I don't think we ever really know what?

Like they were working together on their brain thing...the fuck were they annoyed about? What were they demanding?

Also...in the timeline where the Dark Urge just dies...Orin hikes their body all the way back to Baldur's Gate, fully intact?

She went all the way to Moonrise, then lugged it back?

I guess that's just nitpicking, but it doesn't totally make sense to me because, first off, I don't understand if Orin tadpoled Durge at moonrise or somewhere else. secondly, I just don't see why Ketheric would support an usuper instead of the Dark Urge.

Ketheric being a smug little bitch only because he hates you on principle would make SENSE. Because he definitely knew you got fucked, since Balthazar is his advisor, and he knows what happened to you. There's no way Balthy wouldn't have told Ketheric, right? So Ketheric just straight up didn't tell Gortash because he's an ass.

And he smirks at you because he's remembering how annoying you are, and he's glad to see that arrogant bhaalspawn put in their proper place.

But the story in terms of how/when the Dark Urge got tadpoled is very scattered! I am not the only person who's noted this. It's a MESS in terms of timelines. Especially where the Dark Urge is concerned.

I really don't know how involved Orin was in the Absolute Plan before she usurped the Dark Urge.

Was she their right hand, and thus, well known? It might make sense for Ketheric to hear her out...but again, I don't think he'd be fond of a power struggle?

Also.

You get tadpoled in the opening...but the Dark Urge is the first tadpole victim.

So I guess you had the misfortune of being tadpoled twice (ahaha, just kidding, this is a nitpick, I know it's the same for everyone).

More seriously though...so the Dark Urge seems to know Enver Gortash is the Chosen of Bane BEFORE they did their little Hall of Wonders date.

But Gortash says that their gods came to them in a dream? And named them as Chosens together, and to seek out Ketheric Thorm?

But then...then they didn't come up with the plan...they got sent to Moonrise...

"Together?"

But...the Dark Urge only went to Moonrise ONCE?

So????

It's CONFLICTING information! It gets even worse when you realize ok, so they went to Moonrise together (maybe?), found the mindflayer colony, realized they could enslave an Elder Brain, then decided to seek out Helsik to steal the Crown...but when they stole it, it's mentioned by Gortash that they "crowned" the Brain and THEN started the cult of the Absolute?

So the Dark Urge would be running through the streets murdering people????

So...where in the plan did the Dark Urge go missing?

So in short.

I really don't think Ketheric was involved in the Dark Urge disappearing...and insofar as, when and how did Orin kill them...

I don't know, but their body is literally in her bedroom if the Dark Urge dies in that timeline.

So...she never tadpoled them...then...who was the first victim?

And also. WHEN DID SHE DO IT?

AAAAARGH.

Anyway.

The wiki conflicts with info in the game, Gortash is a lying slut, the Dark Urge only has three notes and two of them are just thirsting over Gortash, and the other is inviting Orin to split their skull open...

We don't have any correspondence with Ketheric on the Absolute Plan because it's too early to find that out in act 2...

It's a mess, my guy (gn).

I don't even try to piece it together most of the time.

If anyone knows...dm or anon me, and we'll figure this out.

[sanktalucrezias]

Just finished Baldur's Gate 3...

Here's my thoughts:

SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT

PRELIMINARY INFO:

My character was a Tiefling Selunite Cleric & I romanced Shadowheart.

My 'main' party consisted of Karlach, Lae'zel, & Shadowheart. ( A win for the girls! )

By Act Three, I had acquired the secondary companions of Halsin, Jaheira, and Minsc.

I made the decision to become a mindflayer & my ending was that I go with Karlach to Avernus.

I completed every companions' quest sans Gale because he was sacrificed by Orin. Here are the choices I made concerning my companions in my playthrough:

Lae'zel: Freed her, Went to crèche, Did not give vlakkiith the orb, Sided with voss, Stole orphic hammer from raphael, Freed orpheus, She leaves w/ him

Shadowheart: Saved her on nautiloid, found nightsong, spared nightsong, sacrificed her parents

Astarion: Recruited him, Let him bite me, Did not romance so learned of scars later, Evaded Raphael, killed Cazador, & did not let him ascend

Wyll: Recruited him, Did not kill Karlach, attempted to bargain with Mizora, Saved Mizora from pod, Did not save Grand Duke, Wyll made a deal to go to Avernus & resurrect his dad

Karlach: Recruited Karlach, Got first upgrade, Destroyed Steel Watcher base & got a bunch of Infernal Iron, Dammon says no more upgrades so we killed Gortash, She goes back to Avernus ( w/ me! )

Gale: Rescued him, Gave him boots, Got Elminster, Did not use Netherese Orb, Visited Sorcerous Sundries, RIP Gale of Waterdeep

Halsin: Saved Halsin, Broke Shadow Curse, Rescued Thaniel

Jaheira: Saved Harper's, Defeated Ketheric Thorm, Found Minsc & Boo, Found her Family

Minsc: Rescued him & Boo

Anyways, I loved the game. It was beautiful & I loved all my companions as I played with all of them at least once in my party. I'm saddened to see that Shadowheart and my Tav didn't last, but it makes sense due to the final choice. I wish that I could have seen a post-credits scene with Shadowheart comforting/healing Astarion or Jaheira and Minsc looking out at Baldur's Gate again. I'm not sure what Halsin would do, but he'd do something. I'm happy that Karlach has company in the form of Wyll and I as she seems less miserable there. Wyll seems at peace with his choice to save his father. I cannot think of what Shadowheart would do. Maybe join up with Aylin & Isobel, worship Selune? Whatever. I probably will play again. My one regret is not getting that cute-ass owlbear. Darn Animal Handling skills.

[redemption-lies-plainly-in-truth]

Tried for the thorn that's at the toll house. She killed me so quick… I tried after finding the tiefling girl that was about to get bit by the Kagha’s snake. Arabela? I got her to the camp and dealt with the shadows at the stonemasons guild..leveled up and went back to the toll house. Didn't have enough Gold to get the smell so I fought her again. Forgot the mechanic. Kill the skulls and weaken her.

After that I grabbed Roland after talking to his siblings about him going to rescue them. Sent him home and talked to everyone I missed. Wulbren was interesting. Felt bad for Barcus.

I got to the point I could talk to Isobel and get attacked. Minthara was on the bottom floor and everyone else was up top with me. Shadowheart and Karlach. I also had a minor summon. Flame dwarf looking thing. Used laughter to hold down Marcus. Used Shadowheart and Minthara to handle the ghouls and when everything was ready I killed Marcus.

I also had Halsin there because I started his quest line to have him present before looking for the spirit and pulling his other self out of a portal. I learned Spirit guardian was very useful. Stopped the crows and a lot of enemies. Also, Halsin is bear form during cutscene is very funny.

After completing mostly what I could, I did the shar trials. Some I remembered. Like the one where you fight your doubles. My friends and I went in after removing our weapons and armor, but then I saw I was the only one who didn't sell their underwear. I got Spartan kicked off the side by my friends naked gith double… we paused and laughed.

I would say the hardest part was the invisible platforms had to save Everytime I made progress. It was stressful and I suck at those puzzles. When I got to the other side and got the item, i jumped off and used a scroll to bring me back. I killed Baltazar and his brother because I really didn't want to deal with him near the night song.

I freed the demon that Raphael had trapped with a song. Shadowhearts guardian really helped with those rats man.

I grabbed the night song after letting a shadow heart choose and falling into the void a few times. So on to fight Kethric. Still a pain but I didn't need to deal with Krell. So much better.

I fought Kethric and used what we read to get in his head. Felt bad but had to deal with him. I dealt with what I could and knocked him to the point he went to the lower levels.

I followed, but unfortunately I didn't have will because I thought I would need a lot of radiant damage.

I freed who I could, but unfortunately I couldn't get “US”. They died on the ship so they couldn't pop up in act two.

I did the brain puzzle and got the gith brain to learn mental fortification. Confronted Kethric and got smacked around so much. I sent Minthara to get Dame Aylin so I could focus on damage. Karlach, Minthara and Dame Aylin carried the fight.

A friend has told me that Kethric was originally going to be someone we could bring to camp. Not sure if it was true but it seemed like a cool idea, and I did give Karlach her heart upgrades don't worry.

Minthara sat on Kethric’s throne, I praised her and she told me I could be hers instead of Karlach and I said no. She took it well enough and she became a friend.

All that was left was to start act three.

Act three was different from the other acts. Not many of the NPC have responses and the area is a lot more dense.

I visited the carnival. I talked to the dryad that's Orin in disguise. I tried to see how the scene played with other people based on how they viewed me. Mostly everyone has the same response when the dryad says, this is not your true love. Close your eyes and see them before you.

Redhead Orin pops up. I'm not sure if that was intended of it that a thing that the Xbox port had due to the game needing to run on the X and S versions.

I got the strange cow and brought it to baldur's gate. Sent Karlach to dribbles but I made sure the dinosaur was feed and I let the displacer beast out. So I only had to deal with the changelings.

The fight did almost kill me, but I survived.

By this point I started just going over where my group left off. Found the mindflyer in. The windmill, found the vampire hunters, found Orin again and returned the possessed amulet that had the monk cursed with laughter. Took in the laughter to save the spirit. I took a hit in wisdom.

I started walking around and wanted to have a kobold at camp and then I remembered something. Since I went through grymforge to get to the shadow lands, I missed the hyena I could save if I took the mountain pass route. There's a hyena the goblins are training and if you have talk with animals, you could convince them to leave. I wish I could send them to camp.

Looked around the carnival and found the djinn with the roulette wheel. I thought it was going to be like Stardew valley, but I realized it wasn't I'm glad I saved. I looked up how they were cheating, and I chose to leave them alone. Even if I stole the item used to cheat, I didn't think I would be able to get out of the world they send me to and collect the legendary Trident.

I crossed the bridge that lead to the wyrm crossing that helped me complete stuff for Jaheira and I was able to meet Astarion's siblings.

I went to the brothel found Voss, and saw Raphael. I avoided them and talked to the flying elephant about the murder in the church and showed Gale his friend was stealing the letters when she killed the pigeons. I didn't get the letters back, so the post office manager was upset.

I went into the dog canal and found the lady that messed with scratch. I killed her and let the dogs go. Scratch isn't a thing.

I spoke to the drow twins and learned that I could just talk to them or just hear a story if I wanted to. It was nice.

I went forward to get to Gortash and his coronation? I ended up talking to Mizora about it and making Wyll the blade of Avernus later on. The submarine and getting everyone out was a pain. I ended up using Wyll, Gale, Shadowheart with a few summons to deal with the fish people. I was told doing the mermaid quest could remove the fish people from the area but it wasn't so.

I also learned that the imps travel with their host when they get back to the submarine.

The robots were a pain to deal with when going into the foundry. I saved everyone and Barcus became the new leader of the iron hands.

Back to wyrms crossing, I went to the prison to get the lady we saved from the burning building in act one out. Tried sneaking out, but it never worked. Ended up fighting the flaming fist and stealing all their loot to sell later. Never did…

I came back for the wyrm quest where you would need to find the dragon underground to help protect Baldur's Gate. The guards were still down there since I didn't kill them, but they were just standing there. I knocked them out, but I was unsure if it had anything to do with taking all their guards beforehand. I tried to share the lives of everyone uptop, but I realized it would be problematic to fight them again so I killed them.

I found the wyrm and does because I didn't know how to deal with him at first. I saw the helmet and gave it to Lae'zel and started the fight again. Got rid of the summons, Wyll had a ring to give him health every turn, and Shadowheart tried keeping us up. I gave her the mace from the temple but it's affects didn't really do much to the dragon.

Ended up killing him and got back.

Baldur's Gate was very dense and had a lot of back tracking. I met Minsc and saved him. Gave him a drum to play and started giving everyone an instrument. Met Jaheira’s family and got her sword back from her underground base.

Talked to the kids for a bit. Loved that when talking to the half orc, I was able to make Jaheira proud of me and have a bit of fun with her son.

I did Shadowhearts quest. I brought Minsc and Jaheira because they new the revered mother, Viconia. A few people were upset with how her story went in the third game. I guess people wanted a better ending for her, but unless you romanced her she still has her issues.

Misnc was a ranger and I used his ability to create thorns that or it was Shadowheart since she was part druid at this point for me. Made it hard for them to move while Minsc and his wolf dealt with the sides. Jaheira turned into an owlbear, jumping and scaring everyone. Shadowheart stayed in the back after casting flame sphere and I was there for counter spells.

It took some time but I was able to get through it. I killed Viconia since I didn't want Shadowheart getting harassed. I freed her parents spirits and found her old hiding spot. Found her childhood friend and we left. I gave her a hug after a long rest. Thank you Larian.

I was maxed out by this point and had to do dude quests. I killed the hag a for a second time and saved the kid. Funny how one person wearing the mask was allowed to leave again. Really wish I could help those people…

I killed the mummy guy after I talked to the zombies walking around. Annoying at first, but I place a flame sphere in the doorway and just wait for them to group up to deal with them. Saved the artist, stopped the murders, met the thieves guild, saved my reputation in Baldur's gate at the printing press.

I went to fight seravok. I thought about fighting him with Jaheira and Minsc but decided against it and brought Shadowheart, Karlach and Astarion. Took care of the knights, then attacked the big guy. Didn't realize the three women next to him buff him on his death. Ended up using globe of invulnerable on Karlach. Placed her on the border since he was focusing her. Everyone attacked him and we won. Went on to Orin and that was a pain. Tried it when I was level ten. Died the first time because of the Bahaal buff I think. The second time I had a flame summon that went all the way around from the left to where the guy doing the ritual was. Interrupted him and killed him and just crossed when I could.

Fighting Orin was easier than the side quests but I ended up using up my invisibility potions to have Astarion pick everyone up since her assassins attacked after I killed her. Had to use a scroll to redirect my main character because the drow that takes your blood, I allowed her to make my blood volatile. Astarion with Ranger and thief was able to take out most of her unstoppables.

Found the dark urge on the floor and felt bad for him.

Originally before most of this, I tried house of Hope. Learned that I didn't know what I was doing and was glad I had a save before going in there. I don't know if I'll be able to save hope. Tried using some, but the demon you help out in act 2 even though he was on my side, because all of Rachel's demons were near me, he blasted me out of dome and caused issues. It also didn't help that radiant damage was reflected back to everyone who cast it.

I have also finished the quest where I fight the mage in his tower with Dame and Roland. The first time I didn't know about his magic reflect. The second time I killed him, but Roland knocked one of his summons over the edge and it went in invisible. Had to restart again. The third time her knocked them off again but the summon flew back up this time.

So for now, house of Hope may be the last thing I do, but seeing as it's tied to Lae'zel's companion quest…I don't know…

So I have Astarion's and Gale's left. At least I think that's all the companion quests left.

All in all it's been rather fun and frustrating. Some friends on discord finally heard me confused and upset at parts, which they found entertaining.

Not sure if this is too long for ab ask, but I had fun typing most of it. Tried trimming a lot of the fat related to Baldur's gate. It's been the game taking up October for me so, yeah.

As for myself, I'm okay. My sister has been wondering what I've been typing on my phone all this time. Told her not to worry.

As for the music you sent me, it was interesting. I would need to listen to it a few more times, but thanks for sharing. As for my own tastes, I most go with what YouTube recommends after listening to stuff, but they do shift everytime I reset YouTube. Shows I haven't really been watching much. Mostly clips. I have been rewatching Vinland saga. It was nice since I still need to pick up where I left off on the manga. I've also been looking at artwork and sninstim people make regarding characters they like or make. I'll look for some and show you later if you like.

As for the eating well, mostly been eating junk food like pizza or burgers, that or not eating. Just drinking coffee. Sleep had been fine. Four hours or so then my body crashes, but that's been a common thing for me.

The isolating thing, I have talked to friends but I normally stay out of their way until they invite me for something, but to be fair I've been playing Baldur's gate mostly, but I have been talking to a few discord friends when they need someone to talk to or just need some company.

Thank you for the concern, August. I love you and appreciate that you do. Eat well, sleep well, drink well, and I hope you get better. Stay safe and I hope you have a happy Halloween with your pumpkin nieces.

Oh before I forget, do you want my steam friend code? It's related to me asking if you'd like to get a game as a late birthday present or early Christmas present that I asked in the last large ask.

I received the letter! Yay! Wrote it down on the Calendar.

Okay, so the steam Autumn Sale is actually on the 27 of November, not this month :( So it's gonna be a whole month of waiting, but who cares.

I hope lolipop Chainsaw gets on sale, at least! The remake version. It's like extremely fitting for Halloween.

Anyway I got banana milk, I feel...eh today. But the milk is delicious, I fucking adore milk did you know? Would even drink the normal bland one, tasty with ice.

Yesterday was draining, extremely fun but draining. I got new pants! Pastel Pink ones, and also a black pair. I also watched the new Venom movie with my parent, and it was super fun. Gosh, they had a lot of wedding imagery in it. It's easy to overlook, but at its core, these movies are really a love story between Eddie and Venom.

I also thought about what it would be like getting my own symbiote! Mostly what colour I want—Yellow/Gold is the one I ended up picking.

And there was in fact a gold symbiote in the movie, but they didn't tranform, so I only saw them in a test tube.

I think I'd go crazy with the constant presence of another soul overlooking my shoulder at all hours of the day—if the intrusive feeling of hosting a parasite that could reshape your body at will wouldn't make me claw my skin off first, yikes, like a thought bugs crawling on you.

Watching porn would be awkward, so is doing anything cringe. The good thing about human interaction is that you can nope out of it at any given moment and have some peace, with an alien symbiote, you cannot.

I still want the gold one tho. Or maybe a deep blue? Like an ocean at night blue.

At least on the positive side you won't need any friends like ever, since you'll have a best friend living inside your brain at all times. At least, that's the best case scenario. The worst case wouldn't be having a symbiote you hate, but one you're merely an awkward acquaintance with. Like being stuck with a coworker in an elevator for eternity, and they have to watch you go to the bathroom every no and then.

What do you think? How would you deal with the constant presence of another person intruding all the time? What about the brains diet? Gonna become a vigilante? At least my sweet tooth and mostly chocolate diet will come in handy to keeping this little parasite at bay.

Most importantly...which colour?

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but then I saw I was the only one who didn't sell their underwear.

I choked ofjwodjsk I CAN'T

I really didn't want to deal with him near the night song.

Boo! I actually purposely let him live until then each time because I deeply enjoyed the challenging cinematic fight.

Karlach, Minthara and Dame Aylin carried the fight.

Paladins, man, I tell you, they're a force of nature.

Minthara sat on Kethric’s throne, I praised her and she told me I could be hers instead of Karlach and I said no.

It should've been ME!!! MINTHY I WILL TREAT YOU RIGHT!

I visited the carnival. I talked to the dryad that's Orin in disguise. I tried to see how the scene played with other people based on how they viewed me. Mostly everyone has the same response when the dryad says, this is not your true love. Close your eyes and see them before you.

I've actually never known the dryad could be an Orin disguise up until recently. There were so many playthroughs, and not once was the Dryad an Orin... always a normal Dryad to me.

You can get the real love tests done btw, and actually get your one true love. They're very sweet.

I read that the dryad being an orin depends on if you exposed Orin's previous two disguises or not.

There's a hyena the goblins are training and if you have talk with animals, you could convince them to leave. I wish I could send them to camp.

Said like a true ranger.

Looked around the carnival and found the djinn with the roulette wheel. I thought it was going to be like Stardew valley, but I realized it wasn't I'm glad I saved. I looked up how they were cheating, and I chose to leave them alone. Even if I stole the item used to cheat, I didn't think I would be able to get out of the world they send me to and collect the legendary Trident.

In my first encounter, I won the jackpot by stealing the item he was cheating with. Not because I knew he used it to cheat, but because I am an asshole who robbed eveyone I crossed paths with no exceptions before even talking to them. Yes even the face paint mummy, I robbed her too.

After I finish stealing from the person, I approach them.

So that was a happy coincidence. See! It pays to be a greedy selfish bastard in life.

I went into the dog canal and found the lady that messed with scratch. I killed her and let the dogs go. Scratch isn't a thing.

Good.

Back to wyrms crossing, I went to the prison to get the lady we saved from the burning building in act one out. Tried sneaking out, but it never worked. Ended up fighting the flaming fist and stealing all their loot to sell later. Never did…

I just cast twin invisibility on her & myself and walked out of there normally

And that's the difference between a wizard and a sorcerer <3

Not sure if this is too long for ab ask, but I had fun typing most of it. Tried trimming a lot of the fat related to Baldur's gate. It's been the game taking up October for me so, yeah.

I'm glad you enjoyed the game and had fun through your own experience with it! That's what I love about bg3. Literally, every playthrough is different for each person. The many small yet significant choices add up to create a whole new experience based on the person playing it.

The creativity as well, how to utilise skills, even what you prioritise in goals, can affect things. For me I immediately went to the house of hope first thing first after reaching the city because I was dying to see the end of this plotline and I'd be damned if I waited any longer on some trivial personal quest. While you saved it for last, like saving the strawberry topping on a piece of cake to eat later.

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As for myself, I'm okay. My sister has been wondering what I've been typing on my phone all this time. Told her not to worry.

Say you're a writer now and working on a new chapter in your novel!

Correspondence are a form of writing after all, weren't letters considered a form of art before? The many guides on how to articulate them, to begin with formalities and end it with wishes of good health, how to address the recipient depending on how close you are.

And you did just tell me a story about your adventures through bg3, it was a fun tale that I enjoyed listening to.

You'd make a good writer.

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I'll look for some and show you later if you like.

I would like that actually. I'm interested in the things you deem interesting, I'd like to see your reflection in them.

For a song, this one stuck with me since I heard it in the venom movie. A song about an astronaut. I wanted to be one when I was a kid. I wanted to study the stars.

Space Oddity! I like this cover more than the original.

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As for the eating well, mostly been eating junk food like pizza or burgers, that or not eating. Just drinking coffee. Sleep had been fine. Four hours or so then my body crashes, but that's been a common thing for me.

I know I should disagree and remind you of how we need 3 meals a day with actually food. I know I should be a good friend and urge you to eat better, I know what I'm supposed to say in these situations.

But the call is coming from inside the house. My eating habits are like yours, if not worse. I just eat junk food or canned food, cooking is too exhausting. Some days I just survive on candy bars and soda, borrowing from my future's health.

I know it's bad, unhealthy, and that I should take better care of myself. But sometimes you have bigger problems, when you contemplate death, suicide, or else, what to eat or when to shower became very trivial in comparison.

On some days, food tastes disgusting. On others, I don't feel like I deserve food, so I don't eat.

I wish I could tell you to eat better, I wish I could eat better. But I know it's not that simple. So at least just stay alive, I ask only that of you. Anything else is a plus. Junk food is better than no food, soda is better than no water,

Some sleep is better than no sleep.

However if you find yourself dizzy, exhausted, or just not in the mood for anything. You know the reason. We get so used to funciationing on the bare minimum, constantly hearing the alarm, that we forget what having high energy feels like. That vitamin pills do actually work for us.

I don't have many reasons for energy, but I'll be damned if I miss my niece pumpkin costume in the Halloween event this friday, so I'll shove food down my throat if I have to, just to make sure I have the energy to attend.

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The isolating thing, I have talked to friends but I normally stay out of their way until they invite me for something, but to be fair I've been playing Baldur's gate mostly, but I have been talking to a few discord friends when they need someone to talk to or just need some company.

That sounds delightful, to have company. Still, it's a little concerning that you feel like you need to be specifically invited bt your friends in order to show up.

I don't know your friends, I don't know how deep your friendships go, if you ever entrust each other with moments of vulnerability, or if you just laugh together at memes, maybe you play videogames and that's the extent of it.

All of these options are good. Friends take many shapes and forms. A friend that's only there to share your joy with is as equally important as a friend who's only there to comfort you. We need both.

And I have neither. It's bittersweet. I love being by myself, but oh boi do isolation lead to some...very interesting breakdowns. You learn to talk to yourself a lot, tell jokes, imagine scenarios. Rarely do I ever have to explain my thoughts to someone else, so it feels exhausting whenever I do.

Like here. I have to put in effort for you to understand me, while I can just...understand my own thoughts by thinking them. Communicating with myself is much easier and faster.

But it's redundant. My opinions, input, and comments. I want something new, someone's new opinions.

Which is why I ask for yours a lot. I want to see your perspective, hear about your experience.

It's hard to deal with isolation, it's harder when the depression and agitation sets in. But I much prefer this than keeping friends I dislike. Or god forbid, I like my friends too much and the paranoia and fear of abandonment sets in.

One time I counted the seconds between each one of their replies to construct a pattern because I was sure they were texting someone else while talking to me and that I came second priority.

Or seeing a friend change their pfp to a matching one of a pair, and wonder why it couldn't be me. How come they never include me in this fun stuff?

Or when they don't reply with the same enthusiasm when I talk about something I'm passionate about. Or when they don't ask how I am or how my day was despite me literally asking them.

So resentment builds up.

And I start to hate them.

But even when they do everything right, even when they are considerate and nice and selfless, even when they're sweet and thoughtful, something eventually snaps.

Be it an argument they kept avoiding or a promise they broke.

The opposite of love isn't hate. I have no problem with anger in friendships. If you have a problem, then let me know, and we will fix it together

My problem, is apathy.

When they stop caring, when they lose interest, when they take me for granted, when they see dealing with me as another chore.

Yet never have the balls to leave. No, they just slowly pull away like cowards and always deflect whenever I ask what's wrong.

So I'm the one to burn the bridge. If you wanted to leave, just say so. If you wanted to stay, then put in the damn work because I have been. I never stopped.

Maybe I'm just not built for friendship, maybe it's some cruel joke. Maybe my kinda decent writing skills come at the cost of isolation.

Or so I tell myself so I'd feel better.

Because the alternative, that I could have both the talent, passion, AND friends? Sounds made-up.

I'm aware dude. I know I'm mentally ill. Bpd is brutal. I'm at my most healthiest in life when I'm isolated, I'm safe. The second I get attached to someone, I forget myself, I slowly spiral when they eventually fail to meet the impossible criteria that I haven't met myself.

I'm getting better tho, kinda. At dealing with this. Forgiving people and realising everyone makes mistake. That no, a late text isn't abandonment.

But it feels like a slippery-slope. Between being a demanding monarch or a stepping doormat. How would I be able to tell if I'm overacting or if this friend is actually being neglectful and hurtful?

If my heart is hurt by anything and everything then how am I supposed to determine what's actually dangerous and what's not?

What do you do when the whole floor is eggshells?

I don't know. So I stay alone. I have friendly interactions occasionally, people in videogames I help. People online who like my writing. Friendly strangers are the best for my being.

But I make sure nothing more becomes of it. That I don't reply to the dms they send me. That I don't accept the duo game invite they offer me. That I don't let them get too close because I know myself and I don't want to hurt them or ruin the beautiful facade. They don't actually want to know me, they're just being nice and friendly, I'm the one with too much expectations.

Cherish your friends, Michael. As they should cherish you.

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Thank you for the concern, August. I love you and appreciate that you do. Eat well, sleep well, drink well, and I hope you get better. Stay safe and I hope you have a happy Halloween with your pumpkin nieces.

I love you too. You make my days brighter.

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Oh before I forget, do you want my steam friend code? It's related to me asking if you'd like to get a game as a late birthday present or early Christmas present that I asked in the last large ask.

That feels like a big step, ngl. The only people I have added to my steam account are my mom, dad, and brother.

I never added any of the friends I used to have. Only my ex that one time when we were dating, but never anyone again. Even the rest of my brothers I don't have added.

And oh god you want us to be friends there! On steam? Where you can get notfied every time I open a game and look at what I'm playing!?

Isn't that too intimate? It feels intimate and close. You'd know I always open Sky game at 10am because that's when the daily quests reset. You'd see me stay online in a game for 14+ hours and realise I fell asleep while playing gem craft again and left the game open.

Or see me reopen DA:I multiple times in a row and you'll figure out it's because of a mod disfunction that I'm trying to fix.

What about that joke review I left on a gay porn game! You can't see that. I was being funny! I thought I was funny...Listen my parents do not use their accounts, they don't know how steam works. i made the accounts for them so they can play their games and I basically handle all the rest.

And it's fine if my brother sees it, his degenerate pfp is more embarrassing.

BUT YOU! MICHAEL! YOU CANNOT! YOU MAY NOT! IT'S TOO EMBARRASSING. TOO INTIMATE. I'M NOT READY FOR A STEP THIS BIG.

ugh but fuck I want it so bad, I wanna rush this and be friends on steam. Omfg Steam has a text chat. What if I send a text and you do too, what If I send a sticker and we send stickers back and fourth, what if we end up in the same lobby in helldivers and I impress you with my amazing totally not shit aim.

What if I hate how your profile theme looks...what if I love it? What if you hate mine! It's neon pink, it's themed after the darkest dungeon jester.

MY PINNED ACHIEVEMENTS ARE FROM THE FROG DETECTIVE GAME A GAME WHERE YOU ARE A FROG WHO IS ALSO A DETECTIVE AND YOU SOLVE ANIMAL KINGDOM CRIMES THERE IS ALSO A LOBSTER.

I can't, Michael. You might have as well been asking for my liver. I want to be so bad, but it's not time. It might be a casual thing for you to add friends on steam, but to me, it's unbelievably intimate.

And

I'll see you playing with your friends.

and wonder why you never asked to play with me

and feel sad.

You said it yourself that you wait for your friends to invite you, that you don't seek them out by your own will. That you won't seek me out by your own will. That I'll have to be the one to ask you to play time after time, that it will sting more and more each time as I wonder why do you never ask me, do you not enjoy playing with me? Do you just tolerate me? Would you even miss me if I stopped inviting you to play?

It's a recipe for disaster. I don't want to lose you, I don't want to resent you. I don't want to seem needy.

And do you actually even want to be friends on steam or is it just an easier way to gift games? Did you consider this or simply wanted to avoid jumping through hoops with little care for else. For what this would make me feel.

Either way.

I don't feel comfortable receiving a gift, I'm sorry. Not unless I can give you one back, otherwise it feels too selfish. Only to take and never give back.

Even if you say it's fine, I refuse, I feel too guilty. Like I'm taking advantage of you, of our friendship. I never accepted gifts from my friends in the past—well never ones that cost actual money, since broke teens and all. But I did buy them a thing or two, when we got close, when they wanted something they couldn't afford. Nothing major.

And each time after I bought them the thing, our friendship would fall shortly. Correlation is not causation, I know, but I think I was subconsciously attempting to reel them back in with a gift, to calm the waters and mend what's broken. Clearly something was wrong, but they wouldn't tell me, so a gift should cheer them up, but it doesn't, and things shatter even faster.

I'm an adult now with adult money, not much, but enough to get by.

And I'm not abandoning you, Michael, you don't have to reel me back in with a gift. If I had a problem I would tell you, I promise.

A gift from you would only make me feel guilty, undeserving, and ashamed that I can't pay it currently. That I have to wait for my paycheck, that I wouldn't be able to get you something expensive, it makes me feel cheap not to give you all of my money.

It should be fine, I'm still 21, people my age do not have much money. But it doesn't feel fine, I need to do better, a true friend would.

Whatever gift you were planning to give me, how about you give it to your sister instead? I'd consider it my gift and I'd feel very happy! I'm sure she'd appreciate it and adore a gift from you. That I'm willing to count as my birthday gift.

And if it's a specific game you wanted to give so I'd play it, in case you wanted to share your interest or simply talk about it, then just tell me the name of the game and I'll make sure to buy it in the near future.

Take care of yourself, I hope you enjoy Christmas and celebrating it when it arrives.