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Twilight New Age
After inheriting her grandparents house in the Quileute reservation, La Push, Y/N moves to her home rez. Hoping to start a new life she is soon involved with what she thought were just old legends.
Paul Lahote x Reader
Romance | Fantasy | Drama | Angst
CHAPTER 3
<<CHP 2
The music was playing loud with the help of Embryâs subwoofer. Everyone was feeling the drinks as the group talked over one another. Only the older members sat around the bonfire. Consisting of Y/n, Quil, Kim, Emily, Leah, Sam, Embry, and Jared.
Leah and Embry sat beside y/n on either sides. Emily and Kim eventually found their way to their respective partners. Kim and Jared sat next to each other basically fondling one another. Emily and Sam were too absorbed with one another to even join the group conversation.
Almost an hour and a half had passed since Paul had left. Y/n still sat with her heart racing out of her chest as she barely finishing her first drink. Still nursing what was left in the can. Wondering anxiously when Paul would get back. Feelings in turmoil as she switched from feeling desperate to frustration at herself.
The three outside of y/n seemed to take no notice or care about the couples. It seemed that it was just something normal for the others. Y/n faded in and out of the conversation, thinking of him, then snapping into reality. She wondered if heâd even come back.
She was getting along with Leah, there were some qualities they shared, even some interests. Y/n was relieved to know she wasnât as scary as she thought. She was one of the most welcoming and generous people out of the group aside Emily.
âSo your grandma said youâre living all alone down at her old place?â
âYeah just me out there at the momentâ
âSeems a lot of work for one person. How are you handling it all?â Leah asked with serious concern. Y/n nervously laughed âIâm handling it so far yeah. Itâs true itâs a lot of work for me but not much besides the house I have to look after. Iâll worry about the yard once the snow is fully melted.â
âWell if you ever need any help I live nearby your place. Iâll give you my number in case of anything. Or if you just want to hang. Iâm sure you can handle but itâs still scary for a single girl to live alone there. Itâs a pretty isolated areaâ
âReally? I appreciate that itâll help. Iâve been worried about the recent wolf sightings in my area. Least I know youâre aroundâ
Leah fell silent after they exchanged numbers. Embry she enjoyed as well but y/n found it hard to befriend men most of the time. It never lasted long with her guy friends in the past. Besides she wasnât sure if she was wanting to just befriend him.
Other times sheâd be really enjoying herself. But after feeling that intense connection earlier from Paul she wasnât sure about much now. It didnât help the fact that Embry and Leah kept bickering with one another quite loudly.
âSo how are we feeling tonight y/n?â Embry asked catching her attention. He wore a soft smile on his face. âGreat. Howâs your night so far?â She asked earnestly with a smile as he leaned in closer. Her cheeks flushing at how close they were at the moment.
âSame here. Youâre not much of a drinker are youâ He asked looking down at her empty can. She shrugged her shoulders âUsuallyâ she said as he scoffed. âUsually? Why not tonight? I thought you were having a great nightâ he asked with a worried look.
âI mean I am butââ y/n trailed off nervously. Embry shook his head slightly. âBut?â Gazing into his eyes he gave off a unique Intense energy. An unsuspecting darkness was hidden inside him. He mustâve noticed from Leah and y/nâs reaction how he was behaving. Leaning back slightly away from her as Leah got up to leave.
âI justâŠâ Y/n trailed off trying to figure what to say. Explain that she somehow missed Paul even though they literally just met? She wasnât sure If one could even call that an introduction.
âLook, I get that youâre not used to being around people like us. We can come off how do I put it. A bit scary? Intense? I dunno but personally I hope you have a good time here with all of us. In the meantime can I get you a new drink?â He offered which made y/n smile.
âSure, thank youâ she answered as Embry stood up. But before he could leave she pulled onto the edge of his sleeve. âI just wanna say I am having fun. I donât wanna give off the impression Iâm not. Itâs just that I didnât realize how tired I am yâknow? But Iâm sure a drink will help with thatâ
He smiled slightly at her nodding in acknowledgment. Leaving to get a drink out of the cooler for her y/n sat in thought. Her heart beat was still pounding loudly. The lingering energy settled over her and her heart.
It wasnât as if she thought everyone was scary. They seemed interesting in a way she couldnât describe. A certain mystery that she wanted to unravel about all of them. They seemed so close and familiar. It made the feeling of being a new person all the more obvious.
The evening was great so far, but with how much time had passed, she wondered if Paul would return. Would she even cross paths with Paul again? She wanted to rid herself of this inner conflict she was going through already.
Maybe then she could actually focus on her surroundings. She kept getting flashbacks to her dreams. Running in the woods wildly, the light of the moon, with the sounds of howls echoing the valleys. Chills ran down her back all the way across her spine.
Embry came with her new drink in hand. She kept harshly blinking as to help with her vision, fading in and out of reality, then back to her place in her dreams. As she reached for the can she saw a flash of fierce piercing grey eyes in her mind. Making her gasp in surprise she almost dropped her drink.
The loud noise of truck pipes echoed as a black truck rolled up. Instantly catching the attention of everyone as the driver slammed into park. Y/n once again felt a wave of chills go through her. She knew there was only one person it could be.
Paul had returned with Seth by his side. He wore a completely different outfit than the one had a few hours ago she noticed. Glancing up he found her and locked eyes instantly. She was frozen in place as he made his way down to the area.
Sam rose to greet the two as Paul kept his eyes on y/n. The rest of the group eventually stood along with y/n. At this point all y/n felt she could do was look away and stare into the fire. Feeling his intense look baring down into the side of her neck.
âPaul you made itâ Sam said as he was almost instantly ignored. Embry stood beside y/n not bothered by his entrance. Paul was glaring at him, while y/n scanned Paul once more, looking upon his face closely.
âSoâ His voice was smooth but gruff. He had a slight smirk across his face standing in from of her. Y/n looked up as she breathed in regaining composure. All everyone else could do was watch and wait in anticipation.
âYouâre her arenât you?â Paul said in a tone that made her heart race. âHer?â She answered as he wore a stern expression. One that seemed like he wouldnât let up. His intensity was something y/n had never experienced before.
âThe one. Everyone has talked about you at least once a day since you cameâ He said making y/n lift an eyebrow, she felt he was somehow annoyed, at how much everyone was excited over her. âYeah well thatâs me. And you are?â She asked as he smiled slightly at her response.
âPaulâ he said causing a short pause between the two. For both it felt like an eternity fit into a second. Y/nâs eyes trailed from his eyes down to his lips. Down to his neck and chest focusing on his collarbone. She was too busy taking in his features to realize he was also.
âI never got your nameâ he said as she felt the warmth on her face spreading. âMy name is y/n⊠Not just the oneâ y/n bluntly corrected Paul. He smiled finally breaking the harsh exterior he held. âIâd hope notâ he said as y/n felt somehow more at ease now that he was back.
The rest of the guys broke the conversation by pulling Paul to the drinks. Catching both of the two by surprise. Everyone erupting into conversation as y/n caught her breath. Separating into their respective corners.
She felt her nerves calmly settling down. As her heart beat steadied she sat down clutching her chest. Embry took notice as he joined her side once more. âHey you okay?â He asked worried as she nodded her head.
âIâm fine itâs just a bit cold out here. Still getting used to it I guessâ she tried to assure while he shook his head. Embry wore a thick fleece lined flannel jacket which he was trying to take off.
Leah instantly as she seen the sight and got up to intervene. Knowing how the situation would bode with a certain someone. Paul was already shooting deathly eye glares from his corner. Leah rushed over with a blanket, wrapped up y/n, before Embry could place his jacket on her.
Y/n flushed red as Leah wrapped not only the blanket but her arms around her. âHereâ Leah said looking down at her, she could smell her scent waft past, which was a mix of rain and lavender. Embry frowned as he shuffled his jacket back on.
âEven from where I sat you could see how cold you areâ Leah smiled teasing y/n who was bashful. As Leah rubbed her shoulders for warmth before sitting back beside her. âThank you. Iâm not used to the weather here just yetâ y/n replied in a soft tone.
âIs it bad if I hope you donât?â Leah said as she peered in close to y/n. Gazing at her through her thick lashes y/n felt flustered. Noticing how close the distance was to the two. Jared and Kim sat with Paul who was sitting on the edge of his seat.
âNow why would you hope for that? You wish for me to be freezing all the time?â y/n answered trying to focus. But Leah had her own intensity to her that y/n struggled to match. Leah in the other hand couldnât but find her demeanour cute.
âBecause. Then I wouldnât be able to warm you up like thisâ Leah made y/n instantly blush heat spreading across her face. Leah sat with a sly but subtle smirk as she stifled a laugh. Quil on the other hand was sick of watching everyone fight over his cousin.
Everyone was acting different since she arrived he noticed. It was as if they all forgot how to act in the first place. When did everyone get so sweet? He rose from his seat eager to march right over. Paul determined to follow him but Sam whipped a glare to him.
The loud sound of a car arriving interrupted everyone. As they all shifted their heads to see who had pulled up. Y/n felt her heart drop into her gut in an awful way. Everything in her body told her she should flee. Instead her body froze stiff in place.
The men all stood up on alert before the truck could even fully park. Sensing something that y/n was somehow also reacting to. Paul whipped his head over to Quil then y/n. Embry left y/nâs side walking over to stand by Sam.
Quil marched over to y/n taking Embryâs place at her side. Y/n noticed Quilâs protective stance as everyone else stood up alert. Leah also rushed in front of y/n as if to block her from something.
Out from the truck was Jacob and the girl Renesmee. Y/n stiffened again as the two immediately locked eyes. Sam rushed up to meet with Jacob who walked with Renesmee in stride.
The two men began to talk in harsh but hush tones to each other. Renesmee kept her eyes on y/n who was trying to stray away from the girl. Looking down eager to avoid y/n felt utter chills throughout her body.
âHey there. Itâs me from the diner remember?â Renesmee beamed innocently with a bright smile. Strolling over past the two men and the rest of the group confidently over to y/n. Everyone eyed her with wild and fierce eyes shocked.
Y/n slightly gasped upon hearing her voice, seeing her coming over, she felt her self hesitate. Quil and Leah immediately closed ranks sliding close to one another. Shoulder to shoulder they blocked Renesmee from approaching further
âJust the other day was when we met. Iâm sure Quil remembers. I didnât think youâd be here what a nice surprise!â The girl continued as Quil nodded with a straight stern face. âYes itâs good to see you tooâ he tried to dismiss her. But to no avail as she peered over and in between the two to look at y/n.
âYes hi Renesââ
âJacobâ Paul called out in a serious tone as he hovered close by. Arms crossed as he showed obvious discontent. âRenesmeeâ Jacob called out making the girl look back concerned. In a brief moment she sighed and joined his side once more.
Y/n couldnât help but notice everyoneâs strange behaviour. How the energy shifted as soon as these two pulled up. But she wasnât quite sure how to react given the mood so far. Kim and Jared looked at one another before they separated.
âCâmon y/n I think we should go for a quick cruise. Leah come with us. Weâre almost out of drinksâ Kim chimed in as y/n looked back up at Renesmee. A sad look upon her face as she gazed into the fire. Kim quickly linked arms with y/n pulling her away from the area.
âEm you tooâ Leah spoke in a firm tone as Emily nodded. The four left together explaining theyâd be right back. Y/n didnât know what Kim meant by saying there were hardly drinks. When there were at least two coolers full still. She understood there was something weird going on they didnât want to say.
Whatever it was had to do with Renesmee somehow. Or at least Jacob she decided in her mind on the drive to the liquor store. Even the girls didnât dare bring the two of them up. Leah drove since she didnât have anything to drink.
As she parked the car y/n made the other two girls go inside. Wanting to sit alone with Leah for a moment. Y/n waited for Leah to light her cigarette. Watching as she exhaled her smoke into the air.
âSo that was Renesmee and Jacob huh? I remember Jacob but Iâm not sure who the girl isâ
Y/n tried to make her intentions discreet. Leah took a long drag, thinking of what to say, she took a moment before answering. âI thought she said you met at the dinerâ y/n agreed but quickly dismissed her.
âBut that was quick I barely spent a minute with herâ Leah nodded slightly. âYeah well that might be for the bestâ Leah answered as she took a drag. Her ash lighting up as she inhaled. She seemed so reserved y/n thought as she looked at her.
âFor the best? What do you mean by that?â Y/n peered curiously. Wondering what could be so wrong about Renesmee. âI hardly know the girl either. Just that her and Jacob have been gone for like 3-4 years until now. The girl can be a bit much at times from what I rememberâ Leah continued.
âAnd Jacob? Is that hisâŠâ y/n trailed off unsure whether to say it out loud or not. Leah glanced over with a small smirk. âHis what?â Leah questioned as y/n blushed. âI mean is that yâknow⊠His girlfriend?â Leah laughed slightly as she flicked her cigarette out the window.
âNo thatâs not his girlfriend. Theyâre close likeâŠâ she struggled to explain as y/n tried guessing. âHis little sister?â She answered as Leah agreed. âYeah⊠Yeah something like thatâŠâ Leah finished her cigarette putting it out. The two girls were coming out the store now with small bags.
Once they returned y/n noticed how they came with more bags of ice than anything. More so than the booze they were supposedly getting. She didnât want to question since no one needed to black out tonight. Hopefully these boys werenât black outs whoâd fight each other when wasted.
âGood to see Jacob back isnât it?â Kim brought up lightly, her and y/n sat in the back, as the other two sat quietly. âIt is yeahâŠâ Emily said drifting off onto something unrelated. The topic of Renesmee wasnât brought up in the slightest. It was like she didnât exist to these people.
Getting back to the beach Jacob and Renesmee were gone, everyone explained they just came for a bit, since Renesmee was supposedly tired. Jacob decided to bring her home instead. Explaining he wonât be able to make it back until another day.
Unadmittedly y/n was disappointed to know she was gone. There was something about her y/n felt she needed to uncover. Why does she keep haunting her dreams with her presence? It all wasnât making much sense to her. Figuring if she got to know her maybe itâd explain somethings.
Jacob as well she surprisingly missed. Sheâd cross paths with him as a child growing up. Since him and Quil were always close, she had hardly recognized him, not like she knew him that well anyways. But it was a missed opportunity she was hoping to get another day.
She tried not to focus on it too much and instead focused on visiting here. Tonight would most likely not be different than the rest. Renesmee would likely be awaiting for her in her dreams. As she went to sit down on the logs with the rest Paul came towards her.
She felt nervous as he stepped close, in his hands were a warm blanket, looking up at him he wore a stern expression. âHave thisâ he said bluntly making her quickly take it in her arms. âItâs cold out tonight. Youâll need it to stay warmâ he said very matter of fact. He smelt of firewood smoke and a faint smell of cologne.
âOh okayâŠThank youâ she said softly as he handed her a drink, the kind she was drinking before, instead it was a fresh one. Before he walked away satisfied back to his seat. Wrapping herself in the blanket she couldnât help but blush at the interaction. How thoughtful she thought as the rest watched closely.
The rest of the evening y/n spent with Kim and Emily. Despite y/nâs attempts hardly anyone spoke of Renesmee. The conversation always somehow leading back to Jacob. It bothered her since she was overly curious of the girl.
âSo y/n what do you usually like doing around here? Now that youâre fully moved back?â Emily had asked y/n. âI mean thereâs not much to do around here really. Well at least from what I rememberâ she said making everyone laugh.
âThatâs quite trueâ Emily said as she calmed down. Y/n couldnât help but feel a bit embarrassed for the comment. âI love going to the beach but itâs not warm out yet. Hiking too but again itâs so cold yet. Iâm mainly at home unless I travel out to the cityâ she said trying to shift the focus off of her somehow.
âWell how about sometime this week you come over for dinner? I usually cook big meals and weâd love to have someone new come by. I can show you what we do for fun hereâ Emily was sincere and kind which y/n was glad for. âYeah of course Iâll comeâ y/n said eagerly making the rest smile, except for Paul, who looked over to Sam and Emily concerned.
âJust let me know what kind of dishes you like. I can cook whatever itâs no issue. Since these guys hunt I usually have a variety of wild gameâ Emily insisted sweetly. Ignoring Paulâs glares and Samâs concerns.
âWow really? You guys hunt?â Y/n asked the rest of the men who were surprised by the sudden attention. âI mean yeah all the timeâ Embry said in a semi sarcastic tone that y/n caught. Y/n frowned slightly as she turned away. Soon as she did Paul elbowed Embryâs side harshly.
âI can bring by some meat to stock your freezer. I know you love elk meatâ Quil chimed in making y/n perk up. âReally? Iâd really appreciate that since I havenât eaten it in so longâ y/n said as Quil nodded.
âWait a minute. I knew I recognized you! But I wasnât sure from where. Youâre the cousin that Quil took to prom right? What was that? Junior or sophomore year?â Jared exclaimed as he finally remembered. Both Quil and y/nâs face flushed with embarrassment.
âYeah it was grade eleven I came out for the prom. It was a goodnightâ y/n explained much to Quilâs objections. âSorry I didnât remember sooner. But damn that was bugging me for a whileâ Jared said relieved.
Everyone got a rise out of that as they shared stories of that night. âI remember because everyone thought she was your girlfriend. Awe man most of the guys were so jealous until they knew she was your cousinâ Jared continued on.
It was starting to annoy Paul as much as Quil. âYeah well I had the prettiest girl on my arm that night thatâs all that matteredâ Quil defended his self while the boys continued to tease him.
âThatâs because you couldnât get a real dateâ Embry started as the two broke into rough housing one another. âFuck you, you didnât even show up with a date, at least I didâ he bickered as Embry tried choking him.
The conversation trailed off into what the guys wanted to show y/n. Once the two broke apart thanks to Paul. Which was just basically a variety of the sports they all played. She got along with Embry and Quil the most. Since they all had somewhat nerdy interests. Embryâs sarcastic humour was starting to rub off on her.
Y/n had started to notice Paulâs presence more with each passing moment. Eager to steal secret glances to look at him, but their eyes would meet each time, making her heart skip a beat. It was as if he was staring at her long before she could look at him.
It caught her off guard in some moments. Or how if she shifted her position and seat heâd find a way to sit directly across her. How he leaned in each time they spoke to one another so far. Just their few passing words was somehow enough for her to feel smitten.
The visit was cut short since Sam got a phone call. Apparently the majority of them work on as a type of security, for the community, Sam was one of the leadings officers. All eventually decided to leave and end the night.
âItâs not unusual for Sam and some of the guys to leave like this. It takes some getting used toâ Emily explained as she sighed. Trying to hide her obvious disappointment at her fiancĂ© leaving.
Y/n laid in bed that night tired and tipsy. Thinking back on what had happened. She was glad to have met everyone so far. But Paul stood out amongst the rest even against Renesmee. How intense she felt being near him, in some moments she felt her heart beating so loudly, thinking itâd run right out of her chest.
Paul made her feel things she never thought she could. Tossing and turning her mind was filled with Paul. Despite the erratic emotions she felt somehow at ease also. Each time she closed her eyes to sleep it was as if he was staring back at her.
A howl echoed in her mind as she was lulled to sleep. It was the first night she didnât have a weird terrible dream. Instead only remembering comfort that came in waves and the howl that echoed.
Y/n finally felt refreshed and rested after what felt like forever. The weird dreams were really messing with her quality of sleep. Thankfully not much happened last night to disturb her. The only thing she couldnât get her mind off was Paul. Somehow switching him for Renesmee in her mind.
It still freaked her out about the other day with Kim, how Renesmee was in the middle of the road, that she couldnât explain. In all honesty it messed with her confidence driving. Honestly her confidence in general.
She seemed so alluring and captivating. Despite only spending a few moments with her. Coming off as somehow hauntingly sweet. It wasnât so great thinking so much of her. Luckily she had the thought of Paul distracting her.
Getting ready for the day she continued with her chores. Continuing to clean and tend to the house. She gradually felt cooped up and uncomfortable, surrounded by chaotic mess, boxes and items left scattered everywhere. She texted Kim to see if she wanted to hang.
But after waiting a minute Kim didnât respond. Unusual since she always answered quickly. Deciding to just suck it up she wanted to go to the book store. Have a day to herself of shopping and being spoiled.
A chance to get over her nerves and get out. She finished what was left of her chores. Putting on her coat she grabbed her keys out of the bowl by the door. Once last look in the mirror she headed out.
Leaving the house she turned to lock the door. Only to hear a ruffling noise coming from the trees. Whipping her head quickly to see a huge gray wolf, shocked she dropped her keys, but for a brief second she made eye contact.
It was true there were wolves around here! Would it leap and attack her she thought? But the serene energy she felt told her otherwise. Holding the eye contact before the beast turned running into the forest.
She stood for a moment in disbelief. And also just to make sure there werenât anymore around. After realizing what just happened was real and not a dream she gathered herself. It was her first time seeing a real wolf. Picking up her keys and driving down the road.
The sight of the wolf made her wonder. In all seriousness y/n was spiritual especially with how she grew up. Wondering if this was the same wolf that plagued her dreams and thoughts. Her grandfather always said there was a power, a certain energy, to the wolf.
Overwhelmed y/n knew she needed to just focus on herself today. Everything since moving here was so weird and different so far. She just needed to do something normal and docile. Something that was familiar to her. Hopefully there wouldnât be any wolves on her way back.
Driving she listened to music to calm her nerves. Getting into a better mindset she got herself a coffee through a local cafe, going through the drive thru, before heading to the stores.
Shopping around a few clothing boutiques she wandered around. Finding a new small store she explored. Not realizing it was an indigenous owned store. There was a wall filled with jewellery. Different types of beaded, dentillium, shell earrings and jewelry.
Coming across a stunning pair of wolf earrings that were beaded. It was more intricate and detailed than what sheâd found. She was so taken by them the lady at the register even noticed.
âThose were all made by local artisans in the community. Every item bought a portion goes back to themâ
âReally? Do you happen to know the name of who made these?â She asked as the lady who looked at the earrings. âUsually these have a tag with their names and contact info of the artist. But this is missing oneâ she showed the other earrings with tags.
âIâll still get them if thatâs alrightâ y/n insisted as the lady happily rang them up. The earrings were too pretty to pass up. Especially after that encounter with that gray wolf. These ones had a gray wolf with an orange sunset coloured background.
Reaching the bookstore she noticed it was also indigenous owned. Something she wasnât used to where she lived with her parents. It made her excited since she needed more indigenous literature on her shelves.
The man at the counter greeted her as she entered. It was semi busy with people mingling around. Looking around she found a section dedicated to Quileute knowledge and history. Which immediately caught her interest as she went towards it.
Scanning through she found a book on Quileute myths and legends. It reminded her badly of her grandfather. Growing up when sheâd be at their house heâd always tell stories. Passing them down from his grandfather to her and her cousins.
Most were stories of his time as a child. Before diving into myths and stories he knew about. She and Quil spent the most time with him out of the grandkids. Heâd always take the time to explain what each story meant.
Skimming through she was entranced by the story she landed on. It reminded her of a certain story she had trouble remembering of his. Because he only told it maybe once in her lifetime. Reading the title of the chapter she began reading further.
âMyths and legends of the Quileute tribe
In times before the white man came to the country, the Quileute tribe have been a small but resilient people, with their own unique traditions and power. Recognized and respected by the surrounding communities as fierce warriors.
They are also recognized for their mysterious âgiftsâ and so called âblessingsâ. Some say they have multiple types of strong magic and power. One being their connection to the wolves. Accounts from other surrounding tribes speak of their unnatural abilities and ties.
The Makah people specifically, have certain accounts, and stories of such abilities. For when encountering them in battle, the Quileute owned what was believed to be direwolves, which are now extinct to the modern world. Theyâd send them out to assist during battle. Many believed they raised and trained them among their own. But thereâs no such evidence to support that.
The direwolves were said to be as big or even bigger than the average horse. A different breed of wolf that was uncommon in the Washington area. On the battlefield they would announce their arrival by howling. Sometimes striking so much fear into the enemy theyâd flee.
The Quileute people say otherwise about the direwolves. Claiming that they themselves were the direwolves. Denying that they ever raised such beasts, hence no evidence, but there was no proof to support their original claim.
As a tribe they were used to human threats. Other men trying to conquer their tribe and land. All until the arrival of the âcold onesâ, people that were made of hard stone, and an unnatural thirst for human blood.
Claiming that the reason they could shift into the powerful wolf, was to kill such horrific creatures, in order to best protect not only their people but humanity it self.â
It sounded like they were describing vampires y/n thought. She only had fuzzy faint memories of her grandfathers story. Surely she wouldâve remembered if he mentioned talk of vampires.
The thought of them sent shivers down her spine. How could vampires even be real? The way her people described them made her feel scared. How would they even come across one, let alone many, and also be able to kill them?
Just how big did these wolves get to be? What was shifting exactly like? It was almost describing a werewolf. Intrigued by the idea y/n continued further.
âThe cold ones were creatures born of the night. They are unnatural and forever ravenous. Wishing to only feed on human flesh, the Quileute describe them as cannibals, cursed to live forever for their sins of eating human flesh. They appeared as attractive and seductive. With cold solid skin that shimmered like the sun on the water.
Their ability to transform into wolves they say came from one man. Whose name was name was long forgotten. As was his bloodline, they say the last of his line, died honourably to save the tribe. He was named as the last shifter and last wolf of the tribe.
A cold one had strayed from his partner and the trail. Belonging to a group of French colonizers who were trapping. The man found the village first, coming across a band of women and children, bathing and washing by the river.
Legends say the last shifter had to sacrifice his self to save the tribe. Other say it was him and also his sons who died in battle. All the stories end the same way. Wth both of the cold ones being killed and burned to ash. Stating that the cold ones ate many women and children before the last wolf could stop him. Their bodies looked deflated, pale, and flat for they had no blood in their bodiesâ
An image was attached, a hand drawn depiction of the grimly scene, a woman being sucked at the neck with bodies surrounding. The cold oneâs eyes looked dark and ominous. Her eyes were piercingly light as she dressed in fine furs.
âFound yourself a good book I see?â A familiar voice chimed behind y/n surprising her out of her trance. It was Renesmee who stood with a sweet smile. Giggling slightly at y/nâs scared reaction.
âRenesmee! I didnât realize you were hereâ she replied as her nerves settled. âI seen you come in earlier but you looked interested in reading. I didnât want to disturb you but I wanted to say hi. I wasnât able to talk to you at the bonfire the other nightâ
âYeah sorry about that we thought the cruise wouldnât be so long. I was hoping to see you tooâ
âJacob ended up wanting to leave. I think he was too tired to be honest. But anyways I heard from Jacob you recently moved back here. Is that true?â She asked with eyes full of wonder. Y/n couldnât help but take notice of her ethereal beauty, how perfect her brown hair was, or how her skin glistened under the sunshine.
âI mean yeah but Iâm not new to the areaââ
âGreat to hear. That means I can show you around. Yâknow Iâve read this book before and itâs a great readâ she said as y/n clasped the book close. âY-Yeah it has been so far. I think Iâm going to buy it actually. I want to read it moreâ she said her hands covering the front of the book.
âWait⊠Iâm not sure this is the same one Iâve read actually. Can I check the cover?â Renesmee asked as she reached to flip the book over. âSureââ y/n replied before her hands touched her, as they did the air from her lungs sucked out, and her field view changed before her.
She was stuck in the middle of the forest again. The same exact spot she had been stuck in the past. Another flash and the sky was no longer night but day. With a blinding sun that shined down on her.
The next was the moon flashing in her face. With the same intensity as the sun somehow. The sound of heavy footsteps on soft earth intensely struck the ground. Shocked and scared she couldnât move not even a budge.
All she could see now, was a pair of eyes, glaring at her in the dark. Peering out through the darkness as it came forward. Gray eyes revealed to be the gray wolf once more. As he stepped out of the shadows to reveal itself.
Renesmeeâs grip loosened as y/n stumbled backwards. Air rushing back into her lungs. Dropping the book to the floor suddenly. A cold sweat was running down her back as she looked up at her. Renesmeeâs eyes fixed onto her neck, before looking back up at y/n, as she smiled Innocently.
âWhatâs wrong? I donât want the book *that* bad. I said I read it already *remember*?â she said with such a nonchalant tone. Y/n felt her stomach instantly turn into a big huge knot. Something was *off* and she *needed* to leave.
Picking up the book Renesmee helped her with it. âHere. You have to be carefulâ she said in a sweeter and much softer tone. But not enough for y/n to feel even slightly normal. Rushing to get up she felt her gut turning worser by the second. Her hand somehow brushed against hers once more.
Flashes of red filled her vision, similar to a strobe light, it made her stumble down again. âAre you sure youâre fine? You keep stumbling all over the store hereâ she said clutching y/nâs arm. Upon her touch she writhed away from Renesmeeâs grip.
Turning around immediately she slapped a large money bill on the counter. âThank you?â The man behind the register said as she practically ran out. Renesmee stood quiet as she watched her take off.
In a panic she ran down to her car. Only to be met with something in front of her stiff as concrete. âWoah there. You okay?â A voice said making her look up, it was Jacob his self, he held her shoulders as he helped her steady.
âY/n?â
âJacob?â
She asked bewildered by the encounter. âYeah Iâm okay you just surprised meâ y/n replied as he smiled. âMe too. You came out pretty quickly. Like a bat out of hell. You okay?ââ he tried asking again but it only triggered her flashbacks to the vision. She could see sharp teeth snapping down, the sound of growling and snarling, as the wolves ran beside each other.
Y/nâs face drained of its colour turning her pale. Jacob noticed as he furrowed his eyebrows. âWhatâs wrong?â He asked with a genuine concern. His face somehow reminded her of the weird visions she was plagued with.
Renesmee stepped out of the book store. Jacob turned and greeted her like normal. But y/n fled down the path way with no shame or warning. More focused on her and her own sanity.
Y/n hopped into her car and sped home. Hoping and praying she wouldnât come across Renesmee on the road. She so much as didnât even want to think or utter her name. For fear of somehow summoning her.
Her grip was tight on y/nâs hand but she felt warm. At least she was warm instead of having an unnatural coldness. It actually surprised y/n she was warm, but it didnât rid her of her suspicions, there was something about Renesmee that was different.
If she was a cold one, like she suspected, what could she even do? They were cannibals, literal blood sucking monsters, how could one defend themselves? They had to be just some stories elders told to keep kids inside.
Ridding the thought of her she hustled back home. It was raining outside, not as much as usual, it was more of a spit than anything. The smell was calming her down somewhat. Not as much as she wanted or hoped really.
There was no way she could think otherwise if she wanted to feel safe. That girl Renesmee just had to be a sweet normal human. And something else was plaguing the mind of y/n. For her to even experience something as this so often.
How far would these delusions go? It wasnât as if she was this fascinated by such fantasyâs. Vampires never interested her much. Werewolves also she never paid attention to any fiction such as that. It was a big question on why y/n kept having such delusions.
Flashes of what she experienced kept coming to her. How Renesmeeâs eyes although sweet were filled with a never ending darkness. Last she seen her eyes they were so dark. But this time they were a lighter color, a brown almost auburn, how could she never notice?
Her hands were practically shaking as she gripped the steering wheel. Driving fast she kept her eyes on the road. As the rain continued to pour down onto the ground. She could see something following her in the corner of her eye. But she dared not to look away from the road.
Although y/n wanted desperately to go back home, to her safe space, in her gut she knew it was a bad idea. Since Kim didnât want to answer she knew who she could rely upon. Her grandmother Molly, she was a great comfort to her, anytime she was in need she answered. Even now she answered her obscure call.
âGramma? Are you home?â She called out with clear desperation in her voice. âYes. Whats wrong?â Was all she said to make y/n melt into a child again. âNothing⊠Iâm just missing you and wondering if I would be able to sleep over?â Although y/n was trying to be discreet Grandma Molly could sense her true intentions.
âIâll be home my girl. Drive safe itâs raining outâ Grandma Molly knew sheâd arrive sooner than later. Y/n needed to grab clothes but she dreaded going back home. Pulling up to her driveway she sat in the car for a moment.
âShitâ y/n said out loud as she groaned. The anxious feeling churning deep in her. Itâll have to be quick but simple in and out. Stepping out she rushed to the door, still worried about the wolf from earlier, almost dropping her keys out of fear.
Getting inside the house it was quiet and undisturbed. Taking a second to pause and wait. A wave of peace fell over her in the moment. Debating if she wanted to stay and just visit her grandmother. Come home sometime later this evening. Itâd be great if she could truly relax.
All until she could hear creaking floorboards in the upstairs hallway. The sound of weight shifting around the floors. A sinking feeling made her stop in her tracks.
âWhat the fuck?â She thought frozen in place again, a familiar eerie feeling washed right over her, she knew it wasnât right to come here. A moment passed as she awaited for something she didnât know.
Pulling her courage from somewhere in her. She grabbed the baseball bat she left hidden by the door. Y/n marched right up the stairs into her room ready to face whatever it may be. She wasnât dumb enough to not have a weapon nearby. Especially as a young woman living alone.
Her bedroom window was open slightly with watery tracks everywhere. Nothing was taken or trashed but someone was inside. Only her bedroom was on the second floor. Who knew how to climb and then open her window?
After checking the house top to bottom with no intruder in sight. Y/n packed up a bag to go and see her grandmother. Locking every single window and door in sight before leaving.
Arriving at the house she felt relieved. This was the familiarity she has been searching for. Since y/n moved in the house her grandmother moved in with her sister Melissa. Everyone in the family called her âgrandma Millyâ. Who was Kimâs direct grandmother, since they were getting older, they decided it best to look after one another.
âMy girlâ Molly cooed as she hugged y/n tightly. Sinking into her arms she felt the comfort she needed. âWhatâs wrong?â She immediately asked y/n once they both let go. Shaking her head profusely âNothings wrong. I just miss you is allâ y/n answered.
Grandma Molly looked at her searching for dishonesty. Y/n didnât feel itâd be appropriate to tell everything so far. She would eventually but for now she just wanted peace. As if she knew grandma Molly didnât push any further. Instead bringing y/n inside for dinner.
âHow are you settling into the house? Are you feeding yourself? You look paleâ she fussed over y/n at the table. âIâve been feeding myself yesââ she tried to say before grandma Milly cut her off. âAre you sure? You look thinner than last I seen youâ
âIâve been adjusting to living alone. I donât think Iâve withered away that muchâ y/n joked but the two didnât let up. âHmâ was all Milly said as they finished dinner. Eventually she cleared everyoneâs dishes. The two could sense something was up with y/n very quickly.
Settling in the living room they spent the evening watching TV together. Checking her phone she wondered about Kim. It was unusual for her to not answer. Chalking it up to her being busy, she wished she would answer, she needed her support.
âIâm going to go rest. My meds are kicking inâ Milly said as she left the room. Bidding goodnight to the two girls. Y/n continued to watch tv as her grandma looked over at her with worry.
âMy girl are you sure youâre okay? I donât mind a surprise visit like this. Itâs just⊠You seemed panicked earlier when you calledâ Grandma Molly pushed her. Seeing it was just the two of them alone y/n sighed in defeat.
âI mean I am fine. Itâs just ever since I got here I just⊠I donât knowâ y/n struggled to find the words. âI love the house. Iâm very grateful for everything youâve given me so far. So I donât want come off as rudeâ
âI knew it! The house is too much work for you isnât it? I was worried this would happen but I figured you wanted your own space. Quil was so adamant you get the house when we talked about itââ
âNo no thatâs not the issue here. The housework I can handleâ y/n explained making her grandma sigh in relief. âItâs just ever since I moved in⊠a lot of stuff has been bothering meââ
âOh I know you loved your grandfather. Itâs a hard loss for everyone and a big adjustmentââ
âI mean like actually bothering meâ y/n almost spat out making Molly sit up. âWhat do you mean? I thought I told you to smudge the house after I left. You know itâs important especially since we cleared everything from there. You donât want something else moving inâ Milly explained as y/n sighed deeply. Figuring out the best way to explain.
âI did smudge with sweet grass even. What Iâm trying to get at is my dreams have been crazy lately. And I canât help but feel like theyâre trying to tell me something. Show me something anywaysâŠâ y/n trailed off unsure on what her grandmother would say.
Molly sat quiet for a moment as she looked at y/n. âWhat did you see?â She asked as y/n looked up into her eyes. âThe first couple of times Iâm lost in the woods. Iâm being chased or else Iâm running to find something. Iâm not sure reallyâ
âOh Iâm sure your dreams are just reflecting how you feel here. Iâm sure youâre feeling a little overwhelmed by everythingâ Molly tried to understand. But all y/n did was shake her head.
âI seen grandpa in one of themâ y/n said making the expression on Mollys face drop completely. âWhat happenedâ she asked with quite a serious tone. âIt was⊠strange to say the leastâ y/n shivered thinking back on it. Molly awaited for y/n to continue.
âEach time in my dream Iâm in the same spot in the forest. Confused and lost. All of a sudden, in this one dream, someone had asked me if I was lost. I looked up and it was grandpa. He laughed, went behind a tree, he came out as his younger selfâ hearing this made grandma Molly gasp. And tear up at the thought as she covered her mouth.
âAw well that tells me heâs doing well. Donât you think so?â She asked y/n who sat quietly. A solemn look on her face told Molly otherwise. Raising her eyebrows at her granddaughter y/n gave in.
âWhen he left he⊠he was⊠I swear he turned into a wolf and ran into the tree lineâ y/n finally confessed. Y/n expected her gramdma to chalk it up to some crazy dream. That stress had been affecting her and her sleep so of course sheâd dream crazy.
Instead grandma Molly sat quiet with a hand on her mouth. Staring off into the distance in deep thought. âGramma?â She peered curious thinking itâd snap her back to the conversation.
âHave you seen Kim lately? Did she or anyone else come talk to you yet?â She asked making y/n confused. âNo she didnât answer me. What do you mean talk to me yet?â Molly sat up and held y/nâs hand in comfort.
âYou must be tired. What with all your stress. For me the dream is just grandfather coming to visit you. You know how heâs always been attached to wolves and their spirit. Rest easy and have some peace of mindâ Was all Molly said as she basically dismissed the conversation. Feeling like there was a blockage y/n settled with just going to bed.
There was no dream or nightmare that night as well. Maybe it really was just stress y/n thought. Eating breakfast with her two grandmothers they discussed their day ahead.
âMe and Milly here have to attend a meeting today. Youâre welcome to stay here if you want while weâre gone. Fridge is stocked and the TV will be freeâ
Y/n knew her grandma Molly was a councillor. But grandma Milly wasnât, she questioned what meeting they would have together, but instead of being too nosey she let it slide. She wasnât quite sure what grandma Milly did to be honest. Besides bingo and chain smoke everywhere she went.
âYep youâre lucky my show isnât on todayâ grandma Milly teased her making the two chuckle. âNo thatâs okay grandma I think I ought to head home. Thereâs some things I left unfinishedâ y/n picked her fork around her breakfast. She wondered about Kim for some reason.
It was quite unusual for her not to answer y/n, especially since itâs been a whole day later, surely she wasnât upset at her? Or even worse she was in some danger? It seemed ridiculous but y/n knew Kim was never not on her phone. The ignorance from Kim seemed deliberate.
âWell youâre always welcome to stay again anytime. Me and this girl arenât usually this busy most daysâ
âIâm glad I came, I really needed this visit, thank you guysâ y/n smiled at the two. Finishing up their breakfast the three departed on their separate ways. Y/n wasnât lying about having a great visit. Itâs just she left with more questions than answers.
Would nothing explain these crazy delusions sheâd been having? Perhaps she needed to just focus on self care, cut out her stress somehow, to make it all stop. But it all didnât explain the possible intruder in her home.
It wasnât like she just dreamt up the wet muddy tracks in her room. But really what could she do about it? She lived alone and it wasnât like her grandmother could do anything. Sheâd tell Quil but what would he even say or do? Most likely just call her crazy and be bothered she made him check the house.
Getting back to the house she sat in the car for a moment. Her beloved childhood home was starting to feel different. She knew the energy would change once it was just her in the house. She didnât want to think it, but sadly, it was starting to feel unsafe.
With a deep sigh she stepped into the house. Pausing for a moment to hear anything. Doing a quick perimeter check there was no one around. In moments such as this she wish she had someone to rely on.
That evening she did what she could to cheer herself up. Deciding to clean up her room and area. Before doing a complete pampering routine, a hot bubble bath, fit with a sheet mask to keep her skin soft. Doing what she could to also make herself feel comfortable being here alone.
Watching reruns of her favourite tv shows, she kept all the TVs in the house on, as a way to fill the eerie silence. Cooking her favourite foods she settled in somewhat. Praying that her windows would stay shut tonight.
As she slept she had a very lucid dream that freaked her out. It started out with her in laying bed like usual. Opening her eyes a few times to her room like normal. Until in the corner stood a dark shadow, a woman with long hair stood, just out of sight. But y/n knew she was there watching.
As her vision faded in and out the woman eventually stepped out. The light from the window shined down on her. Only to reveal the one and only Renesmee, her eyes dark with a straight expression, her mouth slowly started to open wide.
Revealing small but sharp fangs it made y/n startle out of her sleep. As she sat up Renesmee wasnât in the room as she thought. Her window wasnât open and there werenât any tracks on the floor. But her heart was racing more than ever.
It was five am and y/n couldnât go back to sleep for the life of her. She was way too freaked out to even think of lying down. Instead she hyped her self up with many cups of coffee. She did message Quil to try and hang but no answer from that guy either.
She was already not trying to overthink about the bonfire. But now she was starting to wonder did she mess up somehow? Or maybe their friends didnât really care about her? She wasnât sure but it was unusual for those two to ignore her.
Everything so far was making her feel so isolated. Was it truly a good idea to come back to the rez? This was what she was trying to escape, being alone in isolation, but it seems it whatâs sheâs walked into. Maybe even a worser case now with the delusions.
All day she spent it on the couch, the heavy rain seemed to match her mood, as she anxiously awaited nightfall. What would await for her when she fell asleep? She didnât even want to fathom it. Listening to the rain pour down onto the house it calmed her slightly.
Watching the tv she began to slowly drift off to sleep. Feeling somehow safer on the couch with the dim light of the grey clouds. Eyes and body heavy as her eyes fluttered shut. Itâd be best to get sleep while she could. Hoping not to see Renesmee once more.
Suddenly someone was knocking and pounding on her door. In a very erratic and panicked manner it shocked her. Sitting up she checked her phone but there were no messages. No one called her either it confused her who would be there.
âPlease! Open up itâs me!â The girl begged as y/n recognized the voice. Rushing to open the door to reveal a rain soaked Kim. Standing there with tears streaming as she sobbed hard. âKim?â y/n asked worried and concerned. âI need youâ Kim sobbed out as she grabbed y/nâs shoulders.
Chapter 3 is finished đ€ Finally settled into my home after moving in a short while ago. Got caught up with writing more. I wanted to write more insight into an outsiders perspective. How shifters and vampires would look like to ordinary people. Especially the tribeâs over all insight. The next few chapters will be interestingđ€
#twilight#twilight renaissance#twilight saga#twilight pack#twilight wolves#twilight wolf pack#quileute#twilight fanfiction#paul lahote#paul lahote x y/n#paul lahote x you#paul lahote fanfic#Kim Conweller#sam uley#emily young#jaredcameron#embry call#quil ateara#leahclearwater#seth clearwater#jacob black#renesmee cullen#twilight imagine#twilight new age
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i have never written fanfiction in my entire life.
"work is the one redeeming thing that gives them purpose."
fuck me. here's something. i had to get it out of my system. i think about them. a lot.
âHe was wearing a green coat, not blue.â
A dark haired man sits in a worn out office chair, face illuminated by a flickering desk lamp. His shirt is half unbuttoned, tie hanging loosely on his neck, begging to be taken off. He fidgets with the knot absent mindedly, as if it brings him some sort of comfort. Maybe he can't bear the thought of it being taken off, the last facade of performative professionalism.
His partner is pacing around the desk heâs sitting in front of, slicking his hair back constantly. Itâs obvious that itâs a habit that has stuck around with him from his youth, back when his hair was fuller and eyes were brighter, and a small wink paired with a slight smile would be enough to end his night with a pretty chick in his bed. Tonight, there is no chick, and there is no bed. There is the sound of pen on paper as the man sitting by the desk crosses something off a list. Every single word on it is utterly illegible.
âBlue or green,â the man walking takes a break to light a cigarette. âIt was a winter coat, puffy, expensive, you don't see that shit often around these parts. The color is a distraction, Vicquemare.â
âYet she insisted it was sage green, didn't she? Who the fuck says that? She wouldn't have been so insistent if the color didn't matter, somehow.â
âSheâs a wolf, thatâs why. Itâs a con. She knew what she was doing.â
âAlright,â the dark haired man, Vicquemare, gets up lazily and holds his hand out for the pack of cigarettes. His partner hands it to him. âYouâre really speaking out of your ass now, Harry. What the fuck does that mean, âsheâs a wolfâ?â
âExtravagant eye makeup. Crimson red. You been to that bar called âPlume du PhĂ©nixâ? I went there last month with that journalist guy, what's his name-â
âPierre.â
âRight. Him, he told me it was the perfect place to get some connections. Meet people from the inside, if you catch my drift.â
âFucking hell. You blew off work to go to a fucking strip club, did you?â
âDidn't blow off work. We went to that stakeout after, don't you remember Vic?â
âOh yeah. You were complaining about your fucking headache the whole time.â
âCrimson makeup. They wear it there, itâs like their signature look. Blood of their former selves or whatever. Some new age bullshit. Theyâre dead fucking serious about it though. They don't let you in without it.â
âYou wore makeup?â
âEasy now. Don't get too excited.â
Harry walks over to the desk to ash his cigarette, but doesn't get back to his pacing. He stands next to Vicquemare, staring at the ground, lost in thought.
âI did. Pierre made me wear it. Theyâre fucking wild in there, man. You wouldn't believe it.â
âWhy didn't you invite me?â
âAre you jealous?â
âWeâre partners. If youâre going somewhere to âget connectionsâ, feel like I should be involved.â
âIâll keep that in mind next time. It really is a shame. You would look good in crimson.â
Vicquemare looks away from him for just a second, not enough to mean anything tangible, but enough for Harry to crack a slight smile. He puts a hand on his shoulder and keeps it there as he continues.
âThey have this thing against authority of any kind. They preach âanarchyâ or their performative version of it, which is where they get together in back alley bars and drink until they don't remember what they're there for. Then they wake up and do it all over again. Fucking idiots, the lot of them.â
âAnd this is good for connections, how?â
âThey're stupid but they're bonded together like a pack of wild wolves. They know everyone in the pack and protect each other like they're blood bound. Probably are too, the freaks.â
âSo she was protecting the guy? Cause she knew the coat was actually blue, but saying sage green specifically would make it seem like it would be impossible for it to be any other color?â
âLook at my boy, learning so fast under my coaching. Exactly, Vic. Sheâs misleading us.â
Vicquemare tugs on the knot of his tie even more insistently, as if an internal fight is going on in his head about whether or not keeping that piece of cloth there is as important as he seems to think it is. Instead of coming to a conclusion, he lights another cigarette and looks back over to the list.
âWish we talked with her sooner, then. This fucks over our entire theory now, doesn't it? We gotta start from fucking stratch. Find that blue-sage green coat guy. Whatever his name was.â
âWe can find him. We can find him, tomorrow.â
Harry reaches for a drawer in the desk and takes out a dark red bottle. He grins and holds it out for Vicquemare to read the label.
âAged merlot. Been saving it for a special occasion.â
âOh yeah? Whatâs the occasion tonight?â
âYou do not give me enough credit, Jean-y boy. You do not think I am a man of class, a superior officer who cares for his lieutenant.â
He takes out two glasses from the same drawer and pours two very generous servings.
âHappy birthday, Vicquemare. Hereâs to us surviving another year in this fucking shithole.â
Jean looks at his glass wordlessly, his hand still on his tie. Heâs stopped fidgeting with it now, as if heâs reached a conclusion but is too afraid, or too cautious to act on it. He smiles. It looks strange on his face, laborious, but genuine. It reaches his eyes and accentuates the wrinkles around them, too many for a man celebrating his thirtieth birthday.
âThank you, shitkid.â
And itâs clear he means it.
They drink one glass, then one more, then Harry procures another bottle of whiskey this time, which they also finish, and as Vicquemare digs in his jacket pocket for that pack of Astra Reds heâs sure he bought earlier that day, Harry bursts out laughing.
âTo think it would ever come to this, huh, Jean? Is this how you imagined entering your thirties?â
Jean finally finds the treasure heâs been looking for and takes a long drag of the cigarette. The ashtray is overflowing, which seems to bother neither of them as cigarette butts litter the desk and the floor. He stumbles over to Harry and smiles, a larger grin than the one before, but it doesn't reach his eyes. They look sad, desperate, and appropriately gray, as if any semblance of color on them would be a disservice to the way they look at the world. Harry sees himself in them, not sure if heâs imagining it or not, and not caring. Itâs hard to care, when itâs the only time his reflection doesn't terrify him to death.
Jean takes Harryâs hand and puts it on his tie, curling his fingers around it and tugging on it gently. Harry knows what it means. Heâs seen him do it time and time again, always in a different context, but always with the same intention. âYou take the first step, Harry. You make me believe that you want me, you allow me to pretend.â. Itâs his role, he knows it, and he unties the tie.
âI didn't imagine anything. I couldn't imagine anything. What is there to imagine? What is there to fucking want?â
Itâs a question that doesn't have an answer. It doesn't have an answer that can be spoken out loud. It doesn't have an answer that can be given without empty bottles clanging around on the desk, without the assurance of their blurred memories, without their hands trembling as they reach for each other, something to hold onto as if nothing else in the world matters. They have to keep moving, they have to keep reassuring each other that they still have this one thing. That the taste of smoke on each other's lips, the crumpled case files surrounding them, and Harryâs rough fingers on Jeanâs disheveled hair are enough to make them forget the emptiness that they both feel.
At the end of the day, they don't have anything else.
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falling (and i mean genuinely FALLING) for someone is crazy. i'm in my lovestruck cornball arc
#it's a wild thing hitting it off with someone instantly as though you've known them for years#having unconditional acceptance for one another and being uniquely attuned to each other's thoughts and feelings#i get why some people call their partner their other half now#i feel somewhat guilty saying this but my current relationship makes me realize my past ones lacked this kind of spark#and if things end up not panning out for whatever reason i have faith that our friendship won't go up in flames over it#god#i'm so glad that i've made it this far (and put in the work on myself!) to experience something like this#don't mind my rambling ik i don't talk much about myself on here but i just wanted to idk. string these thoughts together someplace
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i do love the idea of the wayne kids giving bernard shovel talks about taking care of tim and all that but also give me batfam who are just as protective of bernard as they are of each other.
give me bernard, attending his first wayne gala as tim's significant other. having a suit custom tailored and funded by bruce even if bernard insists it's not necessary because he already has one. arriving at the gala anxious because of course he is, it's a goddamn socialite event, but being protected from every side by the wayne kids even when tim is dragged away.
Socialite: Oh, and who might you be?
Bernard: Oh, um, hi. I'm Bernard Dowd, nice to meet you.
Socialite: Dowd? I've never heard of your family before. Who...?
Bernard: I'm not here with my family, miss, I'm here with my boyfriend.
Socialite: ... Boyfriend?
Bernard: Yeah, I'm here with Tim.
Socialite, frowning: Tim... as in Drake-Wayne? He has a boyfriend?
Dick, coming up next to Bernard: He sure does! Bernard here is practically one of ours now, aren't you? He matters to Timmy, so he matters to us.
Bernard: Dickâ
Dick: C'mon, let's get you back to Timmy. Farewell, Mrs!
Bernard: I could've handled that.
Dick: All the rules that apply to my siblings during galas apply to you too. I'm sure you could've, but you shouldn't have to. I've got your back too, now, yeah?
Bernard: ... Yeah. Thanks, Dick.
Jason, coming up to Bernard at the bar: Not to freak you out, kid, but there's a guy starin' at ya from the other side of the bar. Y'know him or should I encourage him to look away?
Bernard, startled: Huh? (looks around) Oh. No, I don't know him. Why... is he looking at me like that, actually?
Jason, scowling: 'S just how the slimy fuckers at these events are. Can't keep their eyes off anything that's small, young or pretty. Disgusting. I'll deal with himâ where's your annoying other half gone, inferior blondie?
Bernard: Tim? He got pulled away for quote; 'something important' by some lady. He said he'll meet me here after he's done, so I've been waiting.
Jason: Huh. If I see him I'll point him yer way. Hey, don't be 'fraid to ask any of us questions or for help if ya need it. We know the best how daunting this shit can be.
Bernard, genuinely touched: ... Thanks, Jason.
Jason: Yeah, yeah. Don't tell Timmers I said that, though, he'll call me a loser.
Bernard, laughing: I won't.
Bernard, being talked to by several people at once and a bit overwhelmed by the attention: Uhâ I'mâ
Damian, stepping between him and the socialites: Dowd. I require your assistance.
Bernard: Umâ hi, Damianâ with what?
Damian: You will see when we get there. Follow me, Drake's more tolerable half.
Bernard: Okay... so what do you need from me?
Damian: Nothing. You seemed to dislike the attention from all of the nosy adults over there. It was the most efficient way of extracting you from the situation.
Bernard: Oh. Thanks, Damian.
Damian: Tt, don't thank me yet, Dowd. I am still criticising your choice in romantic partners.
Bernard: Didn't you threaten me with a katana to not dampen Tim's mood in any way shape or form?
Damian: Slander. I said quote 'if you make Drake more annoying by breaking his heart I'm going to maim you.' I don't see how you got the message you did from that.
Bernard, grinning: Sure, Damian. Sure.
#batfam#dc comics#batman#tim drake#jason todd#dick grayson#damian wayne#bernard dowd#they give him shovel talks but when they're over it's basically 'our kid now'#he's theirs in a similar way to steph#he's not a vigilante but he's important to tim#so he's theirs#timbern#tim x bernard#timber
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(posting some old twitter threads here for posterity's sake)
Chrissy and Eddie breakup. She's a lesbian, apparently. Has finally come to terms with it. It's half a decade of Eddie's life in the dust. He... he doesn't exactly handle it well.
But Steve's there for him, offers Eddie a shoulder to cry on.
Theyâre drunk when Eddie says no oneâs ever been in love with him. Not really. So Steve kisses him.
But Eddieâs straight.
He always has been.
He freaks the fuck out. Bolts. Lets the calls go to voicemail. Heâd lost his partner and one of his best friends in the span of a week and itâs not fair and heâs pissed off beyond belief at Steve for doing it.Â
But heâs also confused. And he also canât stop thinking about it.Â
He stews on it for weeks. Avoids mutual friends like the plague. The band lets people know heâs alive, apparently. Between losing Chrissy and Steve, he feels like there are chunks of him missing. So he gets drunk. Hooks up with blondes who kiss him all wrong.Â
Heâs five whiskeys deep and when he finds himself banging at Steveâs door. Steve answers with his hair mussed and his voice sleep-rough. And Eddie tells him heâs really fucking pissed at him. And Steve apologizes again. And it should be enough but itâs just fucking not.Â
So Steve apologizes again and again and again, all blubbery and guilt-ridden. It's only making Eddie more angry. And he doesnât know why. And heâs too drunk for this shit.
So he shoves Steve against the door and kisses him stupid.Â
He wakes up in his own bed the next morning and he's sure he dreamt it. (Heâs been dreaming it a lot lately.) But his lips are all stubble-scrapped and his mouth is cotton but he remembers how his friend's tongue tasted and he just.. Wants to cry.
Cause heâs not gay. Heâs not. Other people are. Most of his friends are. And heâs fine with that! Heâs been a good ally.
Well, maybe not to Chrissy. But only cause it broke his goddamn heart. Only cause he loved her so much. Only cause he'd never felt that way about anyone before or anyone since.
Except wellâ Fuck. Shit fucking fuck.
So he calls her. Heâs kind of hoping itâll ring through but she picks up straight away, lets out a soft little hey. And it breaks his heart all over again to hear her voice. But he takes a breath and says, âI kissed Steve.â
And she pauses. âYou kissed Steve?"
And then he says, âWell, he kissed me first. But yeah. I got drunk. Jeez Chris, I got wasted. And then Iâ yeah, I kissed him.â
And she's quiet for a long time, just soft breathing and static. Then she says, âThank you for telling me, Eddie.â
And oh. Thatâs what it was, wasnât it?
So they talk about it. All of it. And he really listens to her this time. He couldnât the last time, couldnât hear over the sound of his heart fuckinâ shattering. Then heâs the one blubbering apologies cause his girl was going through all this shit totally alone and he is now way too familiar with how bad it sucks.
And then they talk about It. The big It. All the stuff her mama drilled into her brain since she was in diapers. All the names that got spat at him between hall shoves. Shit they couldnât be 'cause then theyâd be wrong, shit they couldnât be 'cause then theyâd be right.Â
And when theyâre done and the conversation turns into Howâs the band? and Is Marcel still driving you crazy? Eddie feels ten pounds lighter, almost whole again. Like he was but better, all glued together in gold. Well, almost altogether.
He really needs to talk to Steve.Â
He knocks on his door again that night. This time not at 1 AM, this time sober and remarkably dehydrated.
And Steve answers. This time put together, this time hair done and voice in its day pitch (Eddie kinda misses the sleep rasp). And he looks.. fuck. He looks perfect, doesnât he?
Eddieâs spent all day mulling this conversation over. But standing here now heâs coming up blank. He mutters, âI- I was an asshole.â
Steve opens his mouth but Eddie just trucks on.
ââyou were an asshole too, man. But me, uh, probably more?âÂ
And he ignores the way his stupid traitor eyes start to water, always do when the moment feels too big. ââSorry about that. Sorry that I freaked, sorry that I was pissed at you for the shit I was just pissed at myself for. Sorry for, uh. Yelling at you. Sorry, um. Yeah. Sorry for kissing you. That definitely wasnât cool. Itâs been uh... a confusing month. Shit. Iâm so sorry Steve.â
Steve just leans against the door. Normally he wore everything on his face. Couldn't win Texas Hold 'Em to save his life. Not now though. Now it feels like Steve could have a sleeve full of aces and Eddie wouldnât know a thing.
But then he says âEddieâ so quiet it sounds like he hadn't even meant to. Like it just slipped onto his tongue.
Eddie canât do anything but blink, âYeah?â
âLet me um-â Steve swallows, âLet me get this straight. Whereâd you land?â
God, this shit was humiliating, âNot that. Straight. Not straight.â
âOk. Cool.â
âYup.â
âAnd meââ Steve scratches at the back of his neck, âwhere did you land on me?â
Eddie feels like heâs gonna explode. But he canât bolt. Not again. Even though every bone in his body wants to. So he plants his feet, coughs, âWell, I pretty much assaulted you, didnât I?â
Steve rolls his eyes, snarks a laugh. âSure. Yeah. Iâve been totally gone on you since, I dunno, forever. You were straight. You were basically married to your high school sweetheart. All it took was one of those things no longer being true for me to totally nosedive. But sure, you threw yourself at me.â
This was. It was a lot.Â
âSteveââ
Steve waves a hand, stops him. ââNo oneâs ever been in love with you. Not really.â Thatâs what you said, dude. Meanwhile, shit, cards on the table here? Every relationship Iâve had in the last five years has been a pointless attempt to get over you. So yeah, it was weird to hear, Eddie.âÂ
Steve wonât look him in the eye. His neck is craned towards the ceiling.
Eddie whistles through his teeth, âMaybe, uh⊠maybe give me a bit more time?â
âOh.â Steve finally glances up. His poker face is all gone. He looks like a kicked puppy. âYeah, yeah, of course.â
âIâll probably just need a week or two? I mean, fuck man, thatâs a whole other, like Phylum of pornography Iâve been missing out on for the last 25 years. I gotta get myself acquainted before I can, you knowââ He reaches out, rubs at Steveâs bicep with a wink, âGet myself Acquainted.â
Steveâs whole body is shaking. Eddie can feel the relief flitting out of him. âJesus Christ, Munson.â
âThen Iâll take you out, Harrington! Show you the town.â
âDude, will your dick even work at that point?â
âOn the first date?â Eddie gasps, âLord Harrington, how improper!â
Steve just shrugs, âRules are different for guys.â
âWhat? Wait seven years and then hope you land a sexuality crisis?â Then Eddieâs leaning in, closing the space between them. Trying to ignore the pounding in his chest, thinks maybe he's never been so terrified.Â
Steve smiles into the kiss. âYeah, Munson. It's something like that.âÂ
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A Very Patient Man | LJH
Pairing: Lee Jihoon x AFAB!Reader
Rating: M đ; NSFW
Genre: F2L; FWB; smut; pwp
Warnings: cussing; breast play; fingering; cunnilingus; unprotected sex; PIV sex; riding; ass smacking; dirty talk; creampie
Word count: 4.6k words
Summary: Youâre frustrated because it takes you longer to reach an orgasm during sex. This has made you feel insecure, and you started to accept the fact youâd never meet someone patient enough to give you the attention you need. Your friend, Jihoon, casually offers a solution.
A/N: Idk. I slipped and fell onto my keyboard and all this horny word vomit spilled out. Thanks to @roaminginthenights for always enabling me in the DMs đ€Ł
This is also un-beta'd so...it is what it is.
Anyway! Hereâs something filthy to end the year! đ
It started innocently enough at Jihoonâs studio. You were sitting on his couch, venting about your dating life, and as always, he listened attentively just as you do when he shares his own experiences.
However, todayâs visit was different. Heâs letting you ramble on about a very specific topic.
âI feel like thereâs an invisible time limit on foreplay.â
Jihoonâs chair creaks as he leans back, laughing at your incredulous claim. âNo, there isnât!â
âBut I really think there is!â you argue. âMy last date got visibly impatient, even though I...â you inhale through your teeth, âclearly asked him for more time down there. Instead, he just said, âItâs been five minutes, itâs my turn now.ââ You huff in annoyance.
âWell, that sucks. Did you get rid of him?â
You grimace before replying. âPlease donât judge me. He was cute, so we still fucked. My vibrator finished the job,â you admit guiltily. âI blocked him on the app afterward though.â
He sighs, shaking his head in mild disappointment. âYou shouldnât compromise on your needs. If you want more time, say so and stick with it.â
You huffed wistfully. âI just take too long. I get all panicky when someoneâs been down there for longer than 5 minutes.â
âYou canât rush pleasure,â he comments.
âI know that, but now, it makes me thinkâhow long is too long before you come? Is there a play clock winding down on the field? Do I need to call out an audible?â
He doubles over again, laughing when you start using sports metaphors.
âHow can some women summon an orgasmââ you snap your fingers, âjust like that?â
His laughs subside, turning more serious now. âDonât do that. Donât compare yourself to other people. Everybodyâs different.â
âYes, thank you for reminding me,â you remark sarcastically.
He turns away to face his screen, adding more edits to a track heâs working on.
âI donât knowâŠâ you mumble, shrugging in defeat. âI guess my vibrator and I are destined to spend the rest of our lives together. Might as well reserve matching burial plots.â
Jihoon snorts. âYou just havenât found the right partner. A really patient one, I might add,â he says, half-joking.
You smack him on his bicep, and your hand stings from the unexpected firmness under his oversized shirt. Has his arm always been this solid? When was the last time you touched his bicep? Waitâwhy are you even thinking of his bicep?
You and Jihoon have been close friends since college, maintaining a purely platonic relationshipânever a hint of romance or sexual tension between you. On rare nights out, you even act as each otherâs wingman, helping one another find potential dates. You two simply click on a different levelâeasy and no complications.
He looked up from his mixing board, turning to you with a slight smirk. âI donât know if Iâve ever told you, but I happen to be very patient.â
The lilt in his voice was unmistakable. It was the kind of tone he used when chatting up potential conquests on your nights out.
You let out a short, humorless laugh. âDonât you dare use that Joey Tribbiani move on me.â
âItâs not a move.â He keeps his face serious, looking genuinely hurt by your comment. âYouâre my friend. I wouldnât do that to you,â he says softly. âIâm just saying, if you ever wanted to try, Iâm game.â He tilts his head, giving a casual shrug. âNo judgment.â
You stare at him, stunned, as his offer hangs in the air. You try to laugh it off, shifting uncomfortably in your seat.
Was he seriously proposing that you twoânope! You refuse to go there. Jihoon is a great friend, and although you trust him, youâre not sure youâd be comfortable with the idea of...
You shake your head. You canât even finish the thought. You glance at your watch for no reason at all.
âYou know, I think Iâm going to call it a night.â
âOh? I thought you wanted to grab dinner?â Heâs surprised and confused at your sudden change of plans.
âItâs getting late.â
Truthfully, it wasnât that late. You feel guilty lying to your friend, but you need to escape this conversationâand this situationâas quickly as possible.
âI just got a notification from work. I need to come in early, yada-yadaâŠYou know how it is.â
He looks disappointed but doesnât push. You gather your things, slipping your puffer jacket on, despite the room feeling several degrees warmer.
âAlright. If youâre sureââ
âYeah,â you cut him off. That came out more tersely than you initially intended. âIâm sure,â you add with a smile that doesnât reach your eyes to try and make up for it.
He rises from his seat when you do and moves in for a hugâjust like he usually does. But this time, the hug feels different; youâre suddenly hyperaware of his touch, your skin tingling all over. You return his hug stiffly, without your usual warmth, then hurry out of his studio and immediately tear off your too-hot jacket.
That night, your dreams were filled with visionsâhis hands tracing paths across your skin, his dark head dipping between your thighs, his intense gaze meeting yours as you hovered on the edge of unbridled pleasure. The dream felt so vivid you could have sworn you felt the warmth of his breath against your skin. It wasnât until your alarm began blaring, leaving you trembling and drenched in sweat, that reality came crashing back.
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A couple of days passed, and you couldnât stop thinking about Jihoon. This wasnât your usual âhope he remembered to eat lunchâ thoughts or impulse to send him funny memes that popped up on your algorithm.
After your NSFW dream about him, you started noticing little things about him youâd never paid attention to beforeâthe adorable way heâd scrunch up his nose while concentrating on work, how his muscles moved when he reached for something, or how the warm red studio lights perfectly highlighted his features.
You shake your head. Itâs not that deep. Jihoonâs suggestion was only practical. Thereâs no reason to go down this rabbit hole.
Still, you canât deny the growing curiosity gnawing at the back of your mind. You hadnât expected his offer to affect you this way, but it does.
After days of avoiding him, you decide to invite him to dinner at your place. Maybe if you discussed this with him, the dreams and inappropriate thoughts would stop.
The moment he walks through your door, everything falls apart. You become hyper-aware of his every move. You catch yourself stealing glances when you think he isnât looking, and you flinch whenever he gets too close.
Finally, heâs had enough.
âOkay,â he says firmly. âWhatâs with you? Why are you being weird?â
âIâm not being weird,â you lie, your heart racing. You reach for your drink and take a hefty gulp.
âHave I said or done something? Youâve flaked on me the last couple of times I asked you to go out, youâve left me on âreadâ more than youâve responded...â
You felt guilty for avoiding him, but you needed that space to sort out your thoughts. Though you wanted to have this conversation, you couldnât find the right moment to broach the topic.
âThen you invite me over, barely talkââ he continues to rant.
âItâs... itâs really more of a me-problem,â you stammer.
âJust talk to me! I can take it.â He throws his hands up in frustration.
You inwardly groan, before finally coming clean. âRemember the last time we were at your studio? I was whining about...something.â
He squinted for a bit, then you could see the recognition slowly dawning in his eyes before lowering his voice. âYou mean, how you take a long time to reach an orgasm?â
You shut your eyes, mortified when he articulates it. âYesâŠâ
âWhat about it?â
âItâs not exactly about that, but itâs more about what you said after. You knowâyour offer to help?â
His face visibly relaxes, prompting you to continue. âOkay.â
Your heart feels like itâs about to beat out of your chest, but you push through. âDid you mean it, or were you just messing with me?â
He stares at you for a moment before shaking his head, the corner of his lips quirking up. âThe offer still stands, if you want it.â
You sit there chewing the inside of your cheek, feeling torn. Your brain tells you to be carefulâfucking your best friend could make things weird. But your body has other ideas. The warmth pooling between your legs makes it harder to think straight.
âAre you considering it?â His voice is gentle, giving you space to choose.
You deflect, buying time to sort through your tumbling thoughts. âIâm curious... have you thought about this before? About us?â
âThe idea has crossed my mind from time to time.â
His candor sends butterflies fluttering in your stomach. âOh,â is all you can manage to say.
âWhat about you? Have you thought about us...doing things?â
You draw in a shaky breath, forcing yourself to be equally honest. âI never thought of us that way before you mentioned it. But now...â you trail off, unable to verbalize how his suggestion has shifted something between you.
He inches closer, but maintains enough distance to keep you comfortable. His expression grows serious, earnest. âListen, I would never pressure you into doing anything you donât want to. Youâre one of my best friends, and that matters more to me than anything else. If Iâm out of line, just say the word and we wonât talk about it ever again.â The sincerity in his voice, the genuine concern in his eyes makes your heart ache. Youâve always known him to be considerate of your feelings.
âYou werenât out of line.â Hearing you say this was a huge relief to him. âBut you canât really un-ring that bell,â you add wryly.
You also couldnât get past an earlier comment he made. âSoâŠyouâve thought about us before?â
He takes a moment before answering. âYeah. I mean, youâre beautiful. Who wouldnât want you?â
Your cheeks flush at his compliment.
Your best friend has always had this effortless way about himâyouâve seen firsthand how easily he charms people during your nights out together.
Your resolve crumbles, and honestly, youâre tired of fighting it. âHow are you so chill about all this?â
He laughs. âItâs sex, not rocket science.â
You groan, burying your face in your hands. âThings wonât get weird afterward, will they?â
âAfterward? So...youâre saying you want to have sex? With me?â His eyebrows raise slightly.
You already knew the answer to that question the moment you asked him to come over. âI guess I do,â you say softly with a nervous smile, âfor science?â
His sexy, throaty laugh echoes through the room.
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You sit nervously on your couch facing each other. Since this is completely new territory for both of you, you know you need to take things slow and make sure youâre both comfortable. Gathering up the courage to agree to this experiment is the easy part, but actually getting into it?
âJust to be clearâthis is a one-time thing, right?â
âOf course,â he confirms. âThis is purely for educational purposes. And your pleasure.â
You scrunch your nose in protest. âThat doesnât seem like a fair exchange.â The idea of him seeing this as one-sided doesnât sit right with you. âShouldnât this be mutually beneficial?â
âI never said I had to get something out of this. You want to experience an orgasm from foreplay alone, without mechanical assistance, right?â
You nod.
âOkay. So, let me focus on making that happen for you. You donât need to think about anything else.â
You didnât want to be selfish, but his offer was difficult to refuse.
âThis is about you, not me,â he insists. His decision is firm and he wasnât budging.
âOkay,â you relent. Fidgeting nervously with the hem of your shirt, you take in a deep breath and release it before muttering, âHow should we do this...â
When Jihoon doesnât immediately offer any suggestions, you think of the most natural way to start.
âMaybe we could start with kissing?â
âRight, good idea.â His voice wavers slightly, betraying that heâs just as nervous as you are despite his attempts to stay composed. Oddly, this puts you at easeâknowing youâre both on the same page, figuring this out as you go.
You both move in closer together, and time seems to slow as he leans in. Your eyes flutter shut, then his lips meet yours. Theyâre exactly as youâd imaginedâsoft, warm, and unexpectedly gentle. The kiss starts tentatively, but as your lips find their rhythm, everything feels natural.
When you break apart for a moment, you canât help but smile. âYouâre a good kisser.â You barely finish the sentence before being drawn back to his lips.
âYouâre not so bad yourself,â he hums, and you can feel his smile against your lips as you both laugh, the sounds melting into your kisses.
Your kisses grow more intense, your mouth sucking on his top lip while his tongue traces delicately along yours, building a warmth that spreads through your entire body. You fist at his shirt, bunching the fabric between your knuckles, while his hand cradles your neck, his thumb gently stroking along your pulse point.
Gradually, his kisses move from your lips, following a path along the curve of your jawline, down to the slope of your neck. You canât help but giggle at the sensation.
He instantly pulls back, a worried look on his face. âSorry, are you not into that?â
âNo, noâI meanâYes, I am into it. Iâm just a little bit ticklish there, thatâs all,â you explain.
âOh... okay. Do you want to keep going?â
You nod, and as he leans in for another kiss but pauses when you place a hand on his chest. âYou know, I didnât think Iâd enjoy this because weâve been friends for so long, but I have to admit that I like it.â
âYeah?â A smirk plays across his lips. âTell me what else you like.â He nips at your jawline. âOr show me.â
Desire spreads through you like wildfire. This was the point of no return. You take his hands and guide them under your shirt until they cup your breasts.
âWhat do you want me to do?â He murmurs through your lips.
âPlay with them.â
His lips capture yours again as he squeezes your breast gently.
He eases you down onto the couch, his lips trailing from yours down your neck to your sternum. When he lifts your shirt to your chest, you feel constrained and pull it off completely, tossing it aside. He follows your lead, removing his own shirt.
His skilled fingers unhook your bra and takes a nipple into his mouth while his thumb teases the other, drawing a sharp breath from you.
You run your fingers through his hair as his kisses trace down your stomach, making your back arch at the sensation against your skin.
His hands glide down your sides until they reach your jeans, where he carefully undoes the button. You hook your fingers into your waistband and start pushing your bottoms down. He helps slide them off, his touch remaining gentle but with a hint of urgency as he pulls the fabric from your legs. As the last piece of clothing falls away, the cool air against your newly exposed skin makes you shiver.
One of his hands pushed between your legs, making them fall open shamelessly. His other hand continued to massage your breasts, making them unbearably sensitive. You canât believe how slick youâd gotten in a short span of time. To think he hadnât done much to you yet, apart from kissing you and squeezing your tits.
His gaze traveled down your body, lingering where his fingertips teased your sensitive folds. His feather-light touches made your inner walls clench with need. This only heightened your arousal, making you squirm beneath him, silently begging for more.
He slid one finger carefully into you. Your eyes closed against the unbearable vulnerability of being spread out naked and fingered by your friend, kneeling on the floor beside you. âDonât thinkâŠjust feel.â You keened as Jihoon pulled out and thrust gently back into you with two fingers. You couldnât hold back a moan.
Itâs probably been a few minutes now, youâre not sure as youâve completely lost track of time. You blink furiously in a mild panic and stare down at him, still leisurely finger-fucking you. What he was doing felt so good, but you werenât even halfway to your peak yet. By this point, other partners would be coming up for air, wanting you to return the favor or just ready to stick their cock in to get their fill.
âRelax...â he cooed, pressing a kiss against your inner thigh. Each deliberate dip and languid curl of his skilled fingers inside you made you wetter, gradually coaxing your muscles to yield. âItâs not a race,â he reassured you softly, his voice thick with desire. âIâll keep going until you come.â
His words of encouragement sent waves of arousal coursing through you, making your breath catch in your throat.
âKiss me,â you choked out, needing to feel his lips against yours. Without hesitation, he obliged, sealing his mouth over yours in a deep kiss that made you dizzy.
Your fingers clutched desperately at the edges of your cushions, knuckles turning white from your grip as you felt that familiar sensation between your legs. âRight there. Donât stop,â you gasped between heavy breaths, your hips bucking against his steadily thrusting fingers. The pleasure was building to an unbearable level, making you feel like you might shatter to pieces if he didnât push you over the edge soon.
He continued to whisper the filthiest thingsâwords youâd never heard him say to you. They revealed previously unspoken fantasies that ignited your body and overwhelmed your senses. A fleeting thought crossed your mind, wondering if this was his usual bedroom talk. But that thought slipped away as his words and actions consumed you completely. Before you realized it, you were peaking.
âI want to see what you look like when you come,â he purred. âDo you look as pretty as you do right now?â Everything tightened in your core while he kept up his ministrations in a steady, unhurried rhythm.
âOh fuck, Iâm comingâŠâ
âDonât hold back. Let me hear you,â he urged.
You let out a strangled cry, your mind far beyond the depths of euphoria to care about being quiet or demure about this. He was mesmerized, unable to look away at the sheer pleasure that washed over you. Before you could even process what just happened, heâd already hooked your leg over the back of the couch and covered your cleft with his mouth.
He stroked your clit with his tongue, fluttering over it, building your hunger back up again. He teased your slick folds, taunting you with the promise of another orgasmâsomething you thought impossible to achieve so soon, yet your body responded eagerly. When his fingers pushed inside you at the same time, you had to bite your lip to stifle a scream.
You came again, your thighs trembling, tender muscles pulsing around his touch. His growl vibrated through you. You didnât have the strength to push him away when he returned to your clit and sucked softlyâŠtirelesslyâŠbut now you wanted more. You needed to feel him.
You manage to sit up and squeeze his shoulder to get his attention. He peers up at you from between your thighs.
âI want you to fuck me.â
âAlready?â He smiles, teasing you with painfully slow strokes of his fingers. âPretty sure I can get another one out of you,â he says cockily.
âLee JihoonâI. Am asking you. To fuck. Me,â you punctuated. âWill you do it or not?â
He sits up, turning sheepish all of a sudden. âI, uhmâŠdidnât expect us to be doing this, so I didnât bring any condoms.â
Itâs not like he was some random guy. Although you appreciated his caution, you just wanted him inside you. âI trust you,â you tell him before pressing a kiss to him.
After he settles on the couch, you shift unsteadily to straddle his hips, pressing your bodies together. Reaching between you, you fumble with his jeans until he helps, lifting his hips in a fluid motion to pull them down just enough to free himself. Bracing yourself, you let him guide you as you slowly sink down onto him. Your lips part with an involuntary sigh that turns into a soft moan as he fills you completely, stretching you in the most delicious way.
When you begin to roll your hips, the friction sends sparks of pleasure through your core.
âFuck, your pussy feels good,â he breathes out roughly, his fingers digging into your hips before worry suddenly crosses his face. His cheeks flush as he stammers, âS-sorry, I didnât mean to say that out loud.â
You giggle at his compliment, causing your muscles to clamp around his length. âIâm not mad at it,â you reassure him. âYou make me feel really good, too.â
âYeah?â His brow quirks. âYou like when I fuck you?â
âYes,â you moan, dipping your head to his lips in another kiss as you find your rhythm together.
His hands roam your back, pulling you closer as you rock against him with increasing urgency. Before this, youâve resigned yourself to never experiencing an orgasm from penetrative sex, and yet here was another brewing and there was nothing you could do but let it happen.
You gasp as his hand makes sudden contact with your ass, the unexpected sting making you freeze in place. You stare at him dumbfounded.
âWhat are you going to do about it?â he challenges. Before you can answer, his hand comes down again with another firm smack that rings through the room. âWhat?â The sound of provocation in his voice makes your pulse quicken.
You hover over him, eyes narrowing as you lean closer. Through gritted teeth, your voice emerges as a heated whisper. âHarder.â
âI thought so.â He smiles slyly before your lips crash in a fierce kiss that leaves you both breathless.
With a firm grip, he holds your hips still as he thrusts into you with deliberate, measured strokes. You clutch at him, the rhythmic sounds of skin slapping against skin filling the room. Jihoon buries his face between your breasts, his rough groans reverberating against your flesh.
You whine helplessly, overwhelmed by the building pressure as the familiar coil of tension in your belly winds impossibly tight. Your thighs burn as you teeter on the edge of release.
âYes...d-donât...stop...hm...so close,â you pant.
He slows his movements to an agonizing pace, drawing out each thrust to drive you insane. He pulls out completely before sinking back into you with one deep thrust that makes you see stars. Your jaw drops, unintelligible sounds tumbling out your mouth as you come hard.
You hold onto him for dear life, your nails leaving a trail of crescent marks on his skin as he picks up the pace once again, his own rhythm becoming more erratic as he chases his own orgasm. A deep groan rumbles from his chest as your walls pulse and clench around him.
âIâm close,â he warns, his usually calm and collected face now twisted with agonizing need.
âDonât pull out,â you manage to choke out between strained, ragged breaths.
âYouâŠs-sureâŠ?â
You nod eagerly. With your permission, he thrusts deeper and harder, making your neck loll in ecstasy. He draws you back into a rough, hungry kiss that muffles your shared moans as he reaches the end of his rope, his hips jerking against yours while he spurts inside.
Pressing your sweat-slicked forehead against his, you wait for your heart rate to return to normal. Thereâs no doubt in your mindâno previous partner could compare to Jihoon.
âOh my fucking god,â you sigh. âWeâve been missing out all this time.â
He laughs softly, pressing a tender kiss to your lips. âIt was worth the wait though!â
********
After a quick shower and a necessary trip to the pharmacy down the block, you and Jihoon return to your apartment with bags of late-night snacks. All that sexual activity had certainly worked up an appetite, and you found yourself craving something sweet. An ice cream waffle cone hit the spot for you.
âAre you okay?â
You smile, endeared at his worrying. âYou know, youâve asked me that same question multiple times now, and Iâll keep giving you the same answerâIâm fine. Great, actually!â
âI know, I know,â he responds sheepishly. âI just hope this doesnât make things awkward between us.â
âTrust me, I donât feel awkward about any of this at all,â you respond with complete sincerity before facing him to find out if he felt the same way you did. âDo you?â
He shakes his head, tilting the bag of Skittles into his mouth. âNope,â he answers between chews. âTo be honest, I thought that was fucking mind-blowing!â
You inhale sharply at his candid comment, nodding in agreement. âSame. Absolutely no complaints from me!â
He gets up from the couch, takes out a small box from the shopping bag to set it aside, and stuffs your discarded candy wrappers into it before heading to the kitchen to throw them away.
When he returns from the kitchen, your eyes linger on him. âThanks, Jihoonie,â you whisper. âForâŠeverything.â
âYouâre welcome,â he replies with a wink before sinking back into the couch beside you.
This turned out to be the complete opposite of your initial fears. Not only did this one-off experiment exceed all your expectations, but it seems your friendship remained the same. Though you never would have guessed that your best friend would end up giving you the best orgasms of your life.
As you continue to enjoy your treat, you notice Jihoonâs eyes fixed on your tongue as it swirls around the chocolate ice cream. His dark eyes watching you with the same intensity as when you came undone with his touch earlier.
âWhat?â
âNothing.â
You arched an eyebrow at him. âQuit staring at me like that,â you cautioned, though your tone suggested otherwise.
âThen donât ever eat an ice cream cone in front of me,â he responds with a chuckle as he subtly adjusts himself beneath his pants.
You bite your lip, feeling a warmth between your legs again. âYou know...â you clear your throat, reaching for the box of condoms he left on the coffee table, âI wonder if these things really live up to the ârawâ feel.â
He clicks his teeth dismissively before responding. âI think itâs false advertising.â
âYou think so?â
He takes the box from you, examining the label. âI mean, we do have a perfect point of comparison,â he reasons, a smile ghosting his lips. âShould we find out?â
You stare at each other for a moment before breaking into grins and exclaiming in unison, âFor science!â
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â°se-mi x fem!reader / ~3k
â°deciding to pair up with se-mi unaware what you're getting into
â°warnings: blood, suggestive, +18
"do you trust that guy?"
leaning on the comically big bunk bed far enough from the loud crowd, you stared at the plastic pig hanging in the air. filled with money, presumably real money.
maybe if you get everybody to climb on each other and take that thing down you could get out of this shithole you regret agreeing to.
some guy went on rambling about how he's been here before and you're too caught up in your thoughts to hear what he has to say.
what's his number? 456?
maybe you should spare him a chance. judging by the way he helped out. but maybe he's also full of shit, just like the rest of people here. you saw the field full of bodies and blood. if anything, he's a good entertainer judging by the green and greedy crowd he gathered around for the second time.
too lost to hear, but not to feel someone giving you a punch in the shoulder. quite a strong one. here we go, you thought. bribes, violence, torment, bed and food exchange just like in those world ending movies.Â
not having any partners in crime or knowing what any of these people are like you have to be wary. it's all about the money as the end goal for over 300 people here, which is a scary thought.Â
with annoyance and half-baked comeback, you turned your attention to whatever smartass that spawned next to you.
let's just say they sure did not disappoint. looks wise, of course.
but it's not time or place for that right now. right? besides, you saw a couple of sparks early on between players but surely surfaced level ones. the type formed in the span of one day of being here is not that romantic. more like a good distraction. but you can't blame them, maybe the next game is their last one so why not go out with a good makeout or something?
"what?"
"i asked you something." the girl spoke confidently, holding a strong gaze over you for some reason. she had her arms crossed, mimicking your pose on the opposite frame while you were gripped by uncertainty, she seemed more carefree and unbothered. it was almost reassuring, somehow.Â
you felt exposed and this time not by the debts unpaid and calls from the bank but whoever was in front of you.
with hard to miss piercings, silver rings that slipped passed the guards somehow and a discreet grin escaping her collected persona left the reply hanging in the air and led you to stare for longer than you should have.
you don't even know her but a recent memory surfaced. that thanos guy being rejected by her and making a fuss about it in front of everybody. you never even heard of him before. one hit wonder probably.
"oh, yeah. sorry, i was just thinking i guess," you muttered, rubbing your temple with a sigh.
"about?"
"nothing important," you replied flatly, regretting how it came off as.
"right, right. no biggie, thinking about if you'll be alive in the next 2 hours. a daily routine," she said in a sarcastic tone, causing you to roll your eyes.Â
the presence next to you made you somehow feel smaller than the weight of bunk beds and entire room already did.
"do you need something?" you dragged the question out, looking down at the wrinkled fabric of the number trapped between her folded arms, "380?"
"se-mi," she tucked her head to the side and half smiled, still done in nonchalant manner. "and yeah, actually. wanna pair up?"Â
you stared at her. if whatever this is goes right, and you're not being manipulated by a pretty figure facing you, although you don't mind at all, you must track down where this cocky confidence comes from. if it's normal and "i used to be in the army" story and not "i was a hitman" you will keep her close.
"aren't you with those guys?" you nodded your head towards the obvious purple hair guy and his crew amongst the mass.Â
"that self proclaimed rapper? nah, i don't really swing that way," she played with her lip piercing before shifting her attention towards you once again.
"oh, you don't really swing that way? or did i get that wrong?"Â Â she chuckled at your teasing tone and raised brows, "well, what can i say. it's kinda obvious. at least i hope so."
you squinted, amused and engaged. everything about her look screams the already mentioned but why not toy around more when there's nothing to lose. "obvious, huh? sure, whatever helps you sleep at night se-mi."
se-mi shrugged, took a quick glance as if someone's around. "i think i'm pretty clear about it. but since you're not convincedâŠ" she leaned in slightly, dropping her voice just enough for only you to hear.Â
"stick around and i'll prove it."
your stomach did the weird thing, the one you wouldn't let herâor anyone know about.
fixing your weight against the metal bed frame, you scoffed. "right. because this place is swarming with opportunities to show off."
grinning, she pushed off the frame and cut the distance between you to down to a cruel and agonizing one. strands of her hair naturally fell over her eyes but it did not do a good a job hiding the intimidating gaze. crowd blended into silence and you could not pick whether to blame yourself for being so weak in the matter of seconds or her for playing dumb games.
you're were not that easy to impress just a week ago.
so she spoke, lip ring somehow reflecting off the dim lighting this chamber has.
"i'm pretty good at getting what i want."
you bit back a nervous laugh, trying not to let her and this proximity overcome you. "and what is it that you want?"
your desperate attempt to sound civilized and composed was shitty, and se-mi read easily through it.
"say yes and you'll see."
her eyes flicked to yours, lingering just long enough to make you feel like you lost the high ground. then swiftly she stepped back, taking all the tension with her. finally you could let out a breath you held unaware.
but before you could respond, a voice tear through the room.
"players, prepare for the next game. you have 30 minutes."
the announcement sent a wave through the busy crowd. voices hushed, movements quickened and panic was apparent. your chest tightened, probably the worst thing about this is not knowing what's next. if you ever get out, announcement lady is on the top of the list.
se-mi looked at the speaker in the corner. you wanted to ask her what's on her mind but devil works faster.
"time's running out, sweetheart. hope you're skilled with decision making."
"and if i say no?" you knew damn well that's not an option.
se-mi slipped her hands into her pockets, cocked her head to the side with that damn grin. slow on her feet she walked backwards, leaving you more and more with each step and it stinged.
"loss for both of us. and my bed is that way, by the way."
you watched her disappear in the crowd that rushed on the steps and just as quickly you were surrounded too. maybe, just maybe this is more challenging than the money winning itself.
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the game already morphed into a hazy fever dream of adrenaline and blood. it was oddly silent, compared to just a few hours ago when the main floor was brimming with "life". or better, those alive. now everyone that came back scattered around the room.
you weren't sure who's blood was blending with your shoes or who's splatter stained your jacket.
and neither was se-mi. however, she didn't seem shaken up, as per usual.
she followed you close behind, making a beeline towards the bathroom. the air inside felt much colder than the outside and the contact with the freezing sink proved it. in the mirror you caught a sight of se-mi leaning against the tiles, bloodied but stoic.
top to bottom, covered in blood with a cut on her face that she smudged further. she ran her hand through the hair in attempt to fix it, stretching her neck in the process.
quiet whimpers escaped past her lips. she unzipped her jacket, looked at the mess made. floor. room. and back at you again.Â
you admit you did look at her like a man starved. just blame it on the adrenaline. it's easier that way.
she clicked her tongue in fake disapproval, "no manners."
what a jerk.
"you're all bloody." you stated, hands working faster than your mind, already reaching for the paper.
"really?" she pretended to be puzzled. it made you sigh. "let's go in the stall."
"you don'tâi can do it too, you know," now she felt slightly bad for making you more worried than you already are. Â
she sat down on the toilet with a loud thump, no protests or fight. her muscles aching but you were no better. you closed the door behind you, this place making you more paranoid than ever. borrowing a second of your shared free time to look at the piece of work across you.
with each second passing you realized this silence, comfort and unspoken longing became a luxury here. se-mi took a note of it too.
deep inside she blames the gods for meeting a pretty girl in a state like this, desperate for money, careless about debts, bloody and tired in this awful bathroom. you're no better though. and it made her feel a bit better. Â Â "what? do i look that bad?"
you snorted, shook your head no. slightly kneeled, you took the wet paper you gathered in one hand while holding the back of hear head with another. leaning in, you observed the cut on her face. a knife? no, unless someone smuggled it. you didn't see her in fight either.
a lack of self control let loose and your finger delicately ran across her cheek. blame it on just wanting to see how bad it hurts but she was no fool.
entire time she maintained eye contact. this is the closest she ever was. it's a funny thing to notice, she's not that hopeless. not in a outside world. actually, she doesn't wanna remember.Â
your hand was cold but it felt right. the stall seemed to shrink with you in front of her.Â
se-mi swore she could smell your perfume that still withstand these conditions. must be an expensive one. that's fine, 45.6 billion will cover it.
"you're shaking," her voice dropped and she teased. turning her head to the side, bemused.
"oh," you backed away lightly. "apologies. wasn't aware you graduated in body language." se-mi enjoyed this too much.
you took a deep breath and continued clearing her face. terrible at avoiding her gaze. "are you a hitman or something?" you started, truly curious.
"guessed it on the first try." Â Â "sooo you're not? good."
"i'd definitely make everybody pay me big if i was and wouldn't end up here. why?"Â
of course the smartass answer.Â
"just wondering how the hell nothing about this seems to bother you. people dying, not knowing who's next, guards just headshoting everybodyâŠ" you carefully moved her face to the side, causing her to shudder shyly.Â
"it was at first but there's a prize at the end. i think it's worth it. at least to get to the half of it. that was before iâwhatever."
"yeah?" she watched you change positions and kneel down, all done with an innocent look boring through her. she doesn't know if it's on purpose or you're tired.
someone entered the bathroom and se-mi cursed them internally for distracting you but it also gave her spare time to stare.Â
swallowing harshly, se-mi did not let her mind flatter now.
doors closed. losing the advantage she convinced herself she has, with a heavy sigh and a fuck it, she looked away and closed her eyes. "we're paired up now. soâŠyeah. i guess i kinda have things to lose."
feeling your movements halt, se-mi opened her eyes. maybe that was too far.Â
"yeah, i-uh. same here."Â
you felt her eyes boring holes as you sloppily cleaned up the papers and threw them away, feeling your body burning.Â
everything about this was shitty. games, people, loneliness, food, voting. everything except this. yeah, she might look a little beat up with tired bags under her eyes but it was hopeful.
your shadow fell over her. the height difference meant nothing right now. neither of you moved. things unspoken seemed so, so obvious to both of you it was suffocating. she just hopes you don't treat this as a distraction.
"iâ" se-mi did not let you finish. instead she got up with a newfound boldness, licked her lips and pondered. making you wonder what else is playing in her mind.
"thank you." it was sincere, raw. she took barely half a step closer in this cramped stall with dozen of obstacles around. you could feel the heat rising and hell if you weren't red yourself.Â
"you know, you also got blood on your face."Â
"do i?" not really, you checked yourself in the mirror. no?
"mhm," she confirmed and you almost missed it. again, se-mi closed the distance further. raised her hand to wipe the "blood" suspiciously close to your lips.
no, you definitely didn't have it.
"there." she barely smiled and your breath hitched. she picked up on it.
you felt drunk looking down at her lips. and you know what? you might die tomorrow for all you know.
"oh fuck you."Â
it sounded and felt desperate, muffled by the four walls; the way you pulled her by the jacket and kissed her. metallic taste absorbing you whole and the chapped lips mixed with her metallic piercing. you're done for.Â
se-mi smirked proudly against your lips, like her plan finally worked. too busy for good to answer her antics but enough to crush one of her plans which was her hungry grip around your waist. so she caged you with her arms around between the door and her body as you kept pulling her back in. no need because she already made up her mind she's not leaving anytime soon.
you traced your hands under her unzipped jacket that made her gasp. still feeling like she keeps her cool persona intact even now.
you took it as a chance to put your tongue to use. you weren't so experienced per se but it's natural talent. her on the other handâŠ
both of breaths blended into one and it felt hot, almost wrong. making you weak in your legs, forcing you to find a support behind her head. intertwining your fingers together, drawing her even further if possible clearly left no more gap present.
your bodies connected fully, se-mi was so lost yet too aware of everything you did. your touch was setting her on fire everywhere at once, teeth bumping in rush, small noises you made and she doesn't recall last time she took a full breath.
out of nowhere you felt a knee pressing between your legs, making you to throw your head back harshly and let out a moan that se-mi had to cut short. unfortunately.
there was too much going for the door to handle and keep it low-key.
"come here, you're too loud." se-mi whispered, catching up her breath as she sat back down again.Â
"and that's my fault?" you regret saying that because you weren't sure if she even understood you.
gasping and impatient was the sight of se-mi, lazily sprawled and hair messy. a genuine thought of staying here until guards have to break down the doors sounded pleasing.
each leg on her side, her hands instantly wrapped around you and lips chased for more. she's just as hopeless as you in the end. your body flinched upon feeling her hands sneak under your shirt. making a tour, stopping at your waistband. it was attentive, studying your reactions carefully, less in rush now. she was in control.
se-mi left your lips for a while, kissing path down your jaw to focus on your neck. she's glad you can't read minds.
your hand found hers buried under your shirt, hinting at whatever she has in mind to make it true. "we might be in a bathroom stall but i'm still a gentleman." you felt her hot whisper hit your ear.
"w-what?"
"can i?" she looked at you with a darkened gaze, twisting a knot in your stomach. at this point you had no energy but to groan and nod yes, letting your head fall on her shoulder if it wasn't for her grabbing your jaw and making you lock eyes.Â
what you said about her demeanor, you take it back.
"no, no. speak." briskly she nestled in the crook of your neck and licked a stripe there.Â
"iâŠyou're a tease." the answer was transparent.
chatter from the outside made you freeze vaguely, se-mi kept her pace on. "you gotta be quiet now."
her fingers slipped past the tight band, further and further. cold metal of her rings added to the feeling. you whined but se-mi shut you up with a kiss. she leaned her forehead against yours, a smug look on her face since she's leading the game.
her fingers made contact with your core, maybe if you just let out a scream right now you'd scare those women away.
"it's okay, you can do it." it did not help.
"please se-mi, i can'tâ"Â
the second doors closed, she wasted no time slipping her fingers into you. you held onto her collar like a lifeline, head thrown back and air knocked out.
se-mi was mesmerized. wished it was a club rather than a place you have to get knocked out and drugged to be taken to. she will get you two outta here any means.
hitting all the right spots, distracting you with kisses and wandering hand you're about to collapse. "i'm-i'm closeâ"
"i know, i know," so she sped up, watching you fall apart, hitched breath in her ear so addicting, soft pleas she can't answer and oblige right now, hands gripping her hair. she'd take her time if she had one, hoping these cameras have decency so she can save you only for herself.
the least she can do in this short time is fix your shirt and jacket and pray you're coherent. "no worries, i don't leave a lady just like that but we gotta get out."
"hmm? sure, just give me a moment."
she chuckled, "not in that way. i'll tell you when we get back."
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Watching you.
Information and warnings â Creepy Donnie, stalker, talks of masturbation, virginity, sex, I donât know if this is intense enough to warrant a âDead Dove Do Not Eatâ but itâs in that realm so be advised, match his freak? (his freak is criminal behavior).
Donnie Darko was a boy you didnât really know, you were aware of his existence, yes, but you didnât really know anything about him except he had terrible handwriting. The two of you sat shoulder partner style in English class. You never really interacted other than the few times you would be missing notes from the day you were absent prior and you had asked permission to copy off of him.
This exchange meant nothing to you, it was to you a simple transaction, nothing more than an easy opportunity to cheat on the next quiz. Yet to Donnie, this was the start of a new life for him.
Donnie had a tendency to get obsessed with things, ever since he was little. When he was younger, he was obsessed with war movies, he would rewind the tape just to watch the bomb scene again and again. Destruction was only the start of his concerning interests. As he grew up, so did the obsessions, a few years prior he was stuck on guns. He passed it off as an interest in fighting for his country, drawing back to the war films, but in reality it was the power of destruction held just by his finger on a trigger.
Now a new one had formed. You see, what you had believed was simply copying notes, was to Donnie; an invitation to a new obsession. He began watching your every move, he knew every tic you had, every nervous habit, every scab that you didnât know how to leave alone.
Donnie watched you like it was his job, and you didnât notice it at all.
Donnie was great at that, really. If he was ever called out on his creepy behavior, he easily passed the blame on to his hallucinations, he would pretend to break down and explain that he didnât want to be a bad guy! It was the people in his head! You have to believe him, sir!
Be it the hallucinations didnât help his creepy behavior, but they definitely werenât the only cause of it. Donnie knew he was concerning, and it was a thrill to him.
Yet, you knew nothing about it, you didnât even notice him.
A part of him resented you for it, he hated you for it. Why wonât you look at him? Why wonât you give him what he desperately craves?
The other part of him, though, loved it. Donnie could stare at you for hours, and you didnât even notice. You were so oblivious, it was so cute. Donnie thought about the danger you could get yourself into being this unaware, how some terrible person could hurt you, and you wouldnât even know why!
You should thank him really, if it werenât for Donnie following you, you couldâve ended up with a real nutcase as a stalker!
The thought of someone else watching you the way Donnie did made him violent, he wondered if any other guys or girls at Middlesex thought about you the way he did. He knew he would take care of them if they even thought about making a move on you, you were his! You just didnât know it yet, but you didnât know a lot of things really.
The stalking started out tame, heâd follow you around school, memorize your schedule, take notice of all your stupid friends who werenât half as interesting as you were. It made him angry, you hung around such stupid people. Why did you spend so much time with these idiots when you could be with him, loving him, taking care of him.
You would soon, he just had to teach you!
The stalking evolved over the next few weeks. He just wanted to make sure you got home safe! Oh, and of course he wanted to know your favorite drink from the gas station! Itâs his job to know this, silly!
You know, itâs really dangerous to keep your blinds open, you should invest in curtains! What if a sicko wanted to watch you get changed.
Donnie wasnât a sicko though, so it was okay for him. It was just to learn about you more, he loved learning about you! He loved learning that you still wore superhero underwear, and how you had all your favorite bands on your wall. On his walk home, he bought a tape from one of your favorites, and hoped you didnât miss the pair of underwear he took.
Donnie used the pair he took to masturbate frequently. He thought about you when you would listen to your walkman and dance around your room in nothing but a tank top and boxers, or how when you would masturbate yourself you would get really embarrassed after you finished.
He wondered about your virginity, had you slutted yourself out to one of the Middlesex losers, or if you were waiting for the perfect guy such as himself to take it from you.
Sex with you is what he thought about oh so frequently. Sometimes he thought about taking you out to a really nice restaurant, and bringing you home to meet his family, and then make love to you. Other times he would think about opening your window and going from there.
Donnie didnât want to hurt you, well he did, but only if you would let him! He would never do something you didnât want, that you knew of.
He just wanted you to notice him, for you to be as in love with him as he is with you! You were Donnieâs whole world, he told his therapist about you every session. Under hypnosis, he told Dr. Thurman he wanted to have sex with you, and she had to wake him up before he could continue his thoughts.
The lack of attention was starting to annoy him more than ever. You didnât understand. He was perfect for you. Did he have to spell everything out for you? He knew he wasnât in love with someone dumb. So he began to talk to you more and more to show you how much you really did need him.
You thought he was sweet, he was attentive when you spoke like every word that came out of your mouth was the most interesting thing he had ever heard, and he would leave you little notes in your bag when you were leaving class.
It was only a week of talking before the boy asked you to go with him, and you thought it was the cutest thing. You told him about your favorite bands, and movies, and he smiled and said the two of you should watch them together sometime.
Silly you, he already knew all this. You didnât have to find that out though! You were his now! It didnât matter how you got to this point..
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SCENE 1 :: YOU TORE ME RIGHT APART âł you were never not mine â carlos sainz àŒâ§âËâ§
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 : genre :: angst; fluff separated by a hidden emotional turmoil, carlos and y/n navigate the complexities of co-parenting their twins amidst the high-stakes f1 world. amidst paddock visits and personal healing, will they go further apart or find their way back to each other? â
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wake up and smell the ozone, guys
[ Sebek and internalized racism / Sebek and his place in the Diasomnia found family / Sebek and his capacity to love / Sebek and the love of literature ]
wake up Wake Up WAKE UP
DO YOU REALIZE WHAT'S GOING ON??? ? ? ?? ? ? ? ? ? ? BECAUSE I'LL TELL YOU, I'LL TELL YOIU WHAT 'S GOING O N
Do you remember... Lilia's farewell party????? In 7-34, he takes us aside and says this: "Then if you truly wish to repay me, would you indulge a little request of mine? There's a freshman in our dorm, Sebek Zigvolt... It's been half a year since he started here, but I have yet to see him make any friends in the freshmen class. [...] I wouldn't ask [you to be friends with him]. Just... If you notice he's ever stuck at some point during your time here... I would ask that you card soldiers give him a little nudge."
When Sebek runs over shortly after with berry juice for Lilia, Lilia invites him to toast with his fellow first years (Ortho included): "These people will be your rivals and classmates until you graduate. You should take this chance to bond with some students from other dorms."
Of course, Sebek adamantly refuses to do so at that point in the story. "While I appreciate your consideration, I haven't the slightest intention of being friendly with these shallow people. [...] I already have more than enough training partners between Silver and our fellow Diasomnia students. Feeble humans are naught by deadweight! There's no need to be chummy with them!"
We are now well into book 7's Heartslabyul update and it is only now that I realize WE'RE FULFILLING LILIA'S REQUEST FROM ALL THE WAY BACK THEN IN 7-34.
Firstly, Sebek is already having his entire worldview shaken because he is exposed to the terror hie liege, his idol, Malleus, has brought about. The person he dedicated his life to and worked so hard to better himself for is misusing his powers to force his will upon others, including his own retainers. And then Sebek is given a taste of his own medicine when he meets a younger version of his grandfather in Lilia's dream. Baur calls his own grandson "human" and acts suspiciously towards him because of Sebek's race (refusing to trust him, refusing to eat food he prepared, etc.). Sebek, who is hateful and others non-fae, is now the one receiving hate and being othered by the grandfather that he loves and admires. He is experiencing the discomfort with being the target of the behaviors that he himself engages in irl. These two events are challenging Sebek's beliefs and how he sees the world. He's being forced to recognize that Malleus isn't perfect, and how it feels to be persecuted and rejected on the basis of one's race.
Sebek is taken aback by the attitude of dream!Baur and doesn't exactly know how to react (though he continues to act in ways to try and earn his grandfather's praise). Silver has to intervene and remind Sebek that, in real life, Baur doesn't despise him and to not let this get to him--but it's clear that this experience still bothers Sebek, as he grumpily responds with the usual DONT BELITTLE ME, OF COURSE I KNOW THAT tsundere response. Many of the other events Sebek experiences in Lilia's dream also call into question the nature of racial relationships, and, at times, puts Sebek in the shoes of the one defending the partnership between humans and fae. For example, some Silver Owls demand to know why we're siding with the fae, and Sebek declares back that whether human or fae, it doesn't matter because at the end of the day, they fight against those with bad intentions.
When we finally transition into the dream hopping segment of book 7, I noticed that Sebek has very targeted interactions with specifically the first-year characters--the very same group that Lilia asked to help him out if he ever gets stuck. For example:
Sebek spends a prolonged period of time in Lilia's dream with Silver (a human he does like), Yuu, and Grim (two newcomers that he has to get adjusted to). Together with them, he unravels an unspoken about part of his country's history. It's kind of like traumabonding/j
Sebek relies on the technomantic support of Idia and especially Ortho (who helps them navigate to new dreams in combination with Silver's UM). He has to acknowledge that this is a specialty of Ignihyde and not something that he, a student of Diasomnia and a first year, could achieve on his own. It humbles Sebek and forces him to depend on others instead of trying to brute force the task by himself. He's physically INCAPABLE of doing so.
In Epel's dream, he appears very tall and muscular. However, Sebek chides Epel and recalls that, at Lilia's farewell party, Epel was praising Lilia because although Lilia has a similarly small stature, he never once failed to be at Malleus's side. Back then, Lilia had told Epel that physical prowess has nothing to do with a mage's strength. Later on, Sebek even praises Epel's style of fighting despite Epel being a first year. Moreover, Epel has a 70-80% success rate at casting his UM--which shocks Sebek, who has not yet mastered his own. Here, he is learning that humans that present as small and weak can actually be formidable fighters with skill that surpasses his own. This is notable because Sebek often pushes himself to train hard physically and mentally to be the best possible retainer and may have insecurities about being a magical late bloomer.
In Jack's dream, Sebek makes a big fuss about the injustices Diasomnia suffered back in book 2 due to Savanaclaw's nasty plot. He makes it clear that he won't forgive them even now--but then Jack says it's understandable given that his dorm members were playing so dirty. Sebek expresses surprise that "there are people like Jack" in Savanaclaw. He's acknowledging that even in a dormitory that Sebek had previously pegged as all underhanded ruffians, there are people who have a moral compass and go against the grain. After all, Jack was the whistleblower in that incident and still to this day realizes their actions were wrong. This shows Sebek that not all members belonging to a group are the same.
In Deuce's dream, Sebek and Deuce bond over books. Deuce shares happy memories that he has with a popular children's book from the Queendom, and this inspires Sebek to want to read the book irl. He also suggests that Deuce pick out or recommend a book for Yuu and Grim, which is similar to what Sebek does for his own loved ones (like Silver). Here, he is sharing his interests with a non-fae in a sort of cultural exchange.
So if that's the case... Iâm anticipating an interaction between Sebek and Ace that brings this full circle in Aceâs dream đïž or at least before the end of book 7!! I'll be keeping my eyes peeled for that!
I know I've critiqued the pacing of book 7 a lot (particularly when it comes to the dream segments), but I find it really ironic that, of all characters, Sebek is the one with the most spread-out character arc... Lilia's and Silver's arcs were mainly crammed into Lilia's dream, we haven't seen Malleus for several tends of chapters now (so he only ends up being present in the beginning and end of the book), and then you have Sebek pacing himself in this marathon đ€Ą even though Sebek is also the one in Diasomnia that's the most in a rush to "grow up" and "be better" (so much so that even his UM is associated with wanting to quickly rush to someone and/or to be immediately stronger).
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Atsumu put his tray down beside Suna, sighing dramatically in a typical Miya manner while sitting down along with his brother. âI just heard a rumour that your better half is single.â
Suna did his best to maintain his usual poker face, hand clutching the phone he was previously scrolling on. The thought made him sick, even if he already knew of the rumour.
âNo oneâs seen you two together in a week,â Osamu added, looking more worried than his twin. âObviously youâre the one who should apologise, why not get it over with?â
Okay, so you and Suna had a fight and were both too stubborn to back down and apologise first. Typical scenario, unfortunately, but because you were still in high school, people stuck their noses in other peopleâs business. This might be the time Suna realised that dating his gorgeous partner was more of a flex than he already saw it as because men and women alike were just waiting to see him back away so they could take their chance with you.
Suna didnât respond to the twins yet, slowly moving his gaze from his reflection in his phone screen to where you sat across the canteen, laughing with your friends. Then he saw how when people passed by, they would turn and look over their shoulder at you. Some would turn back around to find Sunaâs hard glare. If he could, he would have just gotten up and skipped lunch, but he couldnât stop himself from wanting to stay close to you whenever he could.
So he went back to his phone, sending off a message asking you to meet him before your next class. The Miya twins huffed at the lack of response and switched topics, making the lunch period move even slower than Suna wanted it to with their braindead arguments.
âYouâre so freaking stubborn,â he complained when he saw you. Heâs walking over with his hands in his pockets. You were standing outside your classroom, just like he asked.
âAnd youâre just an angel, arenât you?â you responded sarcastically. You were still hurt by how Suna disregarded your feelings last weekend, but you would be lying if you said you didnât miss him. You heard how people gossiped about it.
Suna had to hold back from chuckling at your comeback and remain serious. It almost never happens, but Osamu was right this time. Heâs the one who should apologise. âIâm sorry for what I said. Youâre right, it wasnât cool. But next time, canât you just tell me in the moment?â he said honestly, sighing in between so he wouldnât lose his whole image of being totally cool. âIâm so used to us throwing out comments like that,â he said, both because it explained what happened and also because he missed it now. A whole school week without your retorts to his quips.
You looked at him with a stubborn frown, crossing your arms and stepping a little closer to him. He knew this was you starting to give in because you always kept your distance when you were angry. âThank you. Iâm sorry that I didnât tell you, but you really made me feel stupid in front of your friends,â you said, still standing your ground. He had made the mistake of making a comment about you in front of his friends, and while that would usually be funny when it was just the two of you, you already had a bad day and ended up just feeling quite stupid. âSometimes I have bad days and donât want to be called stinky in front of people who might believe it.â
âI should have realised when you didnât respond,â he admitted, nodding his head as if confirming that this was something he had thought about. You finally smile and it instantly warmed up Sunaâs heart.
âI missed you. The people in my class kept asking if we broke up,â you mumbled, stepping close to him and adjusting his tie a bit.
âI missed you too, lunch with the Miya twins is just as youâd expect.â Suna could see how the people in your class looked at you two from over your shoulder, so he snuck a hand around your waist and pulled you in for a deep kiss right as the bell rang, signalling classes starting. When he pulled away, he couldnât stop the small smile on his face. âI should go, see you after school.â
âI hate you,â you joked while Suna backed away, a wide grin and light blush on your face showing him you meant the opposite.
âI hate you more!â he cooed back, holding up a stupid finger heart before jogging off down the hall. Letâs just hope heâs not too late for class now.
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hiii can i request a percy x reader fic where the get into an argument over something and you can decide if its hurt/comfort or js hurt lol
Growing Up - Percy Jackson x Fem!Reader
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warnings: hurt feelings, idk it's sad that's my warning
genre: angst
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y/n looked at her boyfriend longingly from across the campfire. odd, wasn't it? a couple not sitting next to each-other at the campfire? but, this had become the normal in their relationship. so far, but so close at the same time.
she watched as he laughed and intently listened to the beautiful curly-haired blonde next to him. she watched as he put his arm around her, playfully, of course. she watched as they argued like an old married couple. she just watched, because for some reason, she couldn't move.
it had happened every campfire for a year now. at first it was every friday, then every other day, then it just became everyday. and every time, she stayed glued in her spot, watching them from afar through the flames.
she never understood where the distance between them had come from. they'd been best friends ever since he'd gotten to camp. y/n felt a faint smile on her lips as she recalled their younger days. the days where they caused a water-balloon fight so intense, both of them spent the whole night cleaning up their mess. they laughed and inevitably, threw more water-balloons. the days where she and percy would "sneak out" of their cabins, but really, they were just stargazing by the lake. the days where they would climb trees all day long and try to find spots to build secret hide outs. the days where they were partners in crime, attached at the hip, ready to die and kill for each-other. when they were them.
what had happened? annabeth and percy had never really gotten along; the whole camp thought they hated each-other at one point. they were always arguing and bickering. annabeth was always a little standoffish, no matter how much percy and y/n tried to befriend her. when three of them went on a quest, it was clear percy and y/n had the better chemistry. they thought as one, acted as one, and were one. y/n had always tried to include annabeth, but she was stubborn, she was young.
had they just grown up? is this what age did to people? percy was her best friend, she felt like she could tell him anything, and now, she felt like everything had changed.
lost in her thoughts, y/n didn't realize when the campfire had ended and when everyone began walking back to their cabins (or around camp). it was almost curfew.
"y/n." percy's voice called out.
"coming." she said, getting up, and joining percy as he walked annabeth back to her cabin.
to be honest, y/n felt like she was interrupting something. like she was third-wheeling. percy hugged annabeth goodnight, and that's when y/n couldn't do it anymore. she couldn't stand how he gently placed his arms around her and held her tight. she couldn't stand how they both smiled. she couldn't stand how he had lifted an inch off the ground. they said their goodbyes, and y/n said goodnight, before continuing to walk. this time, ahead of percy instead of next to him.
she felt the tears well up as she remembered the days from when they were eleven. how they stood up for one-another to older, meaner campers. how they made friendship bracelets for each-other. y/n looked down at her wrist, knowing she still wore the bracelets they made six years ago. how they would on purposely get in trouble to get kitchen duty, and then make blue food. how she desperately wanted to be a kid again.
she felt a grip on her arm, suddenly forcing her to turn around.
"why are you walking away from me?" percy asked, looking at her.
the moonlight illuminated half of his face, and shone some dim light on the other half.
"i'm tired, i want to go to bed." she said briefly.
"you always do this after the fire." he said, aggravated. "you always keep silent, walk away, and when i ask you why, you're 'tired.'"
"i'll do better." she said quietly, wanting to leave his grip so she could go back to her bed and cry.
"it's a great night, 'till i'm walking back with you." he said, through gritted teeth.
"then don't walk back with me anymore." she whispered, wondering how much he really meant that sentence. "you don't have to."
"yeah." he scoffed. "what's your problem?"
"nothing." she said, still wondering if he really was going to completely abandon her during bonfires. "nothing, i just don't want you to do something you don't want to."
"y/n!" he exclaimed, annoyance visible on his face. "you always do this, you're always ready to ruin a good night."
she looked into his sea green eyes.
"it's you." she sighed.
"what did i do?" he chuckled.
"you always sit with annabeth. every night." she admitted. "and i know she told you she felt like she had no one to sit with, but i invited her to sit with us. but you just took the first chance you got to not sit with me."
"that's not true-"
"you don't even ask me how my day went or anything. you don't even say hi to me, not a kiss, not a wave, not an eyebrow raise, nothing. you ignore me until annabeth's back at her cabin." she said, feeling everything spill out like a waterfall. "you don't care about me when she's with you. and then you wonder why i don't want to talk to you? it's because i feel like i can't. how can i? when my boyfriend is acting like someone else's husband. and the way you hug her, it's like two long-lost lovers that have reunited after four world wars-"
"what? you want me to stop sitting with her? and lose a friend, are you out of your mind?" he asked.
"this is why i can't talk to you." she said, turning away.
he pulled her back, pinning her up against the cold exterior wall of cabin three.
"yeah, well then, what do you want me to do?" he asked angrily.
"to sit with me. to talk to me. to hug me." she pleaded. "to treat me like your girlfriend, who's been your best friend for six years, instead of the next best thing."
"i never thought you to be the jealous type."
"well i am!" she confessed. "i don't get it percy, you and annabeth have never gotten along the way you and i do. i mean we were partners in crime, we did everything together. we used to get in trouble together to get chores together so we could get into more trouble. we used to make friendship bracelets for-" she paused, looking at his wrist.
the bracelets weren't there. that's when it hit her.
their friendship wasn't there.
they weren't there.
whatever had happened between the two of them was a tale of the past, because they aren't who they used to be. something had changed, because while y/n thought of him the same way, he didn't. and it was clear now. he doesn't think of her as his best friend, he thinks of her as his second best-friend. he doesn't think of her as his "partner in crime," he thinks of her as his crime. he doesn't think of her, he thinks of her. he thinks of annabeth. annabeth was now who she used to be for him.
it made sense now. all the nights she watched them from across the dancing flames. all the days she watched them sneak off to the lake or the forest. all they days he walked her back to her cabin. it made so much sense. he had grown out of y/n, and grown into annabeth.
he noticed her silence and the hurtful stare on his wrist.
"i kept mine." she said, her voice breaking as she lifted her wrist to show him. "i kept them."
"y/n-"
"we're not who we used be." she said, a tear grazing her cheek. "you've grown out of me."
"don't be like that, you know that's not true." he said, reaching his arm out but she was quick to back away.
"my best friend for six years, my first real friend at camp, my boyfriend, my partner in crime, the one person i trust, the one person i love has moved on from me. and i don't know why."
she had to leave. she had to go before she exploded with gut-wrenching tears in front of him.
"y/n." he called out once again.
her fingers were lightly pressed on her mouth, blocking the violent sobs that were begging to be released.
"please don't follow me." she said, with the few pieces of composure she had in her. "goodbye, percy."
percy stood there, watching her as she left. she trailed into the dark woods and found a tall, beautiful tree. she climbed up to one of the medium-sized branches. they used to climb trees together all the time. they used to.
she held her hand over her mouth as she hysterically wept over the death of a companion who hadn't died.
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â° mattheo riddle
- it's late at night and you can't sleep so you head down to the common room to sit by the fireplace
- mattheo is already there and you don't notice it's him at first. you turn to go back to your dorm because you don't want to bother whoever is already sitting by the fire.
- mattheo hears you turning to leave and calls out to you, telling you to come sit with him.
- you spend hours talking, getting more and more comfortable with each other as each minute and topic passes on.
- it's nearly daybreak when you tell him you need to get some rest, he stops you as you get up to leave.
- "i've missed my chance all night, and i have to tell you now," he comes right out and tells you about his feelings, "i've always had something for you, and i just needed to tell you because after tonight i couldn't keep it to myself any longer. i understand if you don't feel the same way, but you just needed to know."
- you're shocked to say the least. you're surprised that he would have feelings for you because of his notorious playboy attitude he's flaunted for years.
- you tell him you also have feelings for him, but you're not sure about anything because of said persona.
- he pleads with you, "i promise i'm not playing with you, if you give me a chance, i promise i will be the best partner possible."
- and of course you give him a chance and of course he keeps his promise.
â° theodore nott
- one night you and your friends were playing a game of 7 minutes in heaven when you were sent to a closet with theo
- he's been your crush since 3rd year and to say you were flustered is an understatement. he had also had a crush on you for years and wasn't in any better position.
- the closet was small and the two of you sat across from each other on the floor, your knees just barely brushing up against the others.
- theo had a watch on his left wrist he kept continuously checking, because why would he want to be stuck in a closet with you?
- you looked away from him into the darkness of the closet when you heard him speak softly, "we don't have to do anything, we can just talk."
- "about?"
- he didn't want his feelings to come out like this but when else would he get to be alone with you like this?
- "i have something to say,"
- you braced yourself for the worst. "i don't want to just sit here, y/n. because i really really like you, and have for a while now."
- oh wow. you did not expect that one.
- you lean in closer to him, pressing your lips against his. safe to say the both of you were satisfied.
â° lorenzo berkshire
- he honestly would just come right out and tell you whenever he felt it was right
- he had been pining over you for two years and never found the right time to tell you. you were either all in a group or just never alone together in a place where he felt it was right.
- he'd rejected the advances of half of the school for two years waiting for you. no matter what he did, it just seemed like you weren't interested, which couldn't be farther from the truth.
- one night the two of you were smoking atop the astronomy tower, alone. the scene felt intimate and enzo knew it was the right time to tell you.
- he looked over to you blowing smoke out, the wind brushing through your hair, "you're so beautiful," he whispered towards you.
- you rolled your eyes at him, "enzo, stop, you don't mean that." Enzo is a flirty person, he's constantly saying things he doesn't mean to people all over campus
- "i do,"
- "enzo-"
- "baby. of course i mean it, why do you think i haven't been with anyone for the past two years? because i want you. every part of you,"
- he left you speechless
- "so if you would please give me a chance and let me kiss you, i could show you what you mean to me,"
- the kiss was electric and god, he really showed you what your meant to him.
â° blaise zabini
- he would say something previously about liking you, but you thought he had been joking so you didn't respond with anything except a laugh
- for the next couple days he avoided you at all costs.
- he didn't say anything else until you cornered him forced it out of him.
- "why have you been avoiding me?"
- "right, like you'd want to see me,"
- "what are you talking about?"
- "i confessed my feelings to you and you laughed at me! like you actually laughed me!"
- what? when did he..? and then that's when it hit you.
-"you were serious? blaise i thought you were joking,"
- "why would i be joking, y/n? you're quite literally perfect and all consuming and any guy would be lucky to have you, i just thought i'd be that lucky guy, but then you laughed and i-"
- you cut him off with a kiss, there was nothing you hated more than miscommunication and making your friends feel less than they were. but the way blaise expressed his feelings to you, you could jump his bones right there in the common room.
â° draco malfoy
- he would not be ready to tell you when it slipped out. you, him, and blaise were sitting together at the three broomsticks.
- it was a normal hang out that the three of you had. you started these a couple months ago when you needed a study break, and it because a monthly encounter - during these months draco had developed a small crush on you - blaise was the only one who knew.
- you were sitting beside draco, blaise across from you. the two of them held a joking banter, talking about who knows what, when you heard you name.
- "i'm not the one that's in love with y/n!"
- everyone froze. blaise's eyes widened and draco's face had turned a blushed pink. you were just confused.
- "i'm going to go refill my butter beer," blaise stood abruptly, leaving you with draco.
- draco turned to you, "listen, i'm not in love with you, i just like you, i guess, like really like you, and i didn't want to tell you because we've only been hanging out for a little while and-" he rambled on and on.
- "draco stop," he looked up at you partially afraid, "i like you too, and i'd love to go out with you, if you'd want to?"
- "yeah, yeah, i'd like that a lot,"
- "good," you scooted closer to him and pressed a chaste kiss to his cheek and laying your head on his shoulder.
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I Want A Divorce! Shanks (OPLA)
You get ill and Shanks offers to do your jobs around the ship, but he gets distracted easily and wants your praise. You love the man-child, but sometimes you have to tell him to actually like his age. Shanks x Reader FLUFF!
'You have a high fever so I'm going to recommend bed rest until it breaks, can't have you getting any worse,' Hongo states, placing a cold cloth on your forehead which was nice in your current state.
You cough, 'I guess I can take it easy Hongo.'
Over Hongo's shoulder, you notice Shanks watching and listening intently to the doctor's orders, 'I'm going to do all your jobs so you just rest up.'
You and Hongo snicker sharing a moment, both of you knowing Shanks wouldn't be able to cope with all that you did around the ship without complaining. Hongo pats your shoulder as he gets up from the bed. Shanks immediately takes his spot, tucking you in. You were the fourth crew member to join and the only female, and had been charmed into dating the notorious red-haired pirate.
'I love you darling but you don't even know half of what I do around here,' you whisper, throat sore.
Shanks puffs out his chest proudly, 'I'm going to make you proud, I'm going to do so good everyone will be begging me to do your jobs instead.'
You smile as he leans down and kisses the cold cloth.
TWO DAYS LATER
Shanks bursts through the doors of his quarters which you shared and throws himself on the bed next to you burying his face in a pillow. He could be an overdramatic diva at times but he was your diva. Before you can say anything Lucky walks in holding a tray of food that makes your mouth water and forget your partner.
'How are you feeling? Hongo said you should eat more fruit so I made you a fruit salad for after your soup.'
Ignoring Shanks who was now mumbling into the pillow you sit up and accept the tray of food and glass of water, 'You're all too good to me Lucky. How are the new guys?'
Lucky shrugs his shoulders, 'confused and maybe a little scared because they follow your instructions which makes captain grumpy.'
You nod, 'I'll talk to him. Thanks for the update.'
Lucky leaves and closes the door behind him. Shanks rolls onto his side and reaches for the fruit salad but you swat his hand away, 'My fruit salad captain.'
Shanks pouts, sticking out his bottom lip and shooting you his best puppy dog eyes, 'Why didn't you tell me what you did? I wouldn't have agreed otherwise. I love you, but dealing with the new crew is tedious.'
Just wait until he found out all the other odd jobs you did to help out the rest of the crew, there was a reason people called you mother hen. You pop a slice of apple in your mouth and sigh, 'What do you want me to do darling? Give you a pat on the back? Feed you a treat, give you a belly rub and call you a good boy? It's not easy but you never back down from a challenge. I know you'll give it your all until I get better.'
Shanks sits up and stops pouting, a look of determination in his eyes, 'You're right I can do this. I'm going to make you proud.'
You scoff as he steals some grapes and jumps off the bed with a new lease of life, you really did have him wrapped around your little finger.
FOUR DAYS LATER
Your fever had come down and you didn't feel like death anymore, but Hongo insisted you stay in bed for a few more days. The crew had bets on Shanks he didn't know about, he'd gotten better at doing your jobs but wasn't great. You promised to stay in bed so the crew could make some money off your partner.
THREE DAYS LATER
You were sat up in bed reading the newspaper feeling much better and enjoying relaxing for once. Shanks walks in and climbs on top of you, lying on you with his full weight, 'I know your secret babe,' he chuckles, head now resting on your chest, eyes locked with yours but he doesn't look upset.
You put the paper down and start running your fingers through his hair, 'Hongo asked me to stay in bed longer, I actually enjoyed not having as many responsibilities, makes a nice change. I'm sorry for deceiving you, Shanks.'
Shanks nuzzles into your hands more enjoying the massage, 'Now I know how much you do I want you to slow down. I'll try and help more when I can, and the crew promised to fix their own problems before coming to you for help babe.'
'Thank you. However, you lying on top of me is making parts of my body fall asleep.'
Shanks smirks, 'I'll wake them up when I need them.'
You throw your head back and laugh at his playful and flirty antics, 'I want a divorce.'
Shanks matches your laughter, 'I'm never letting you go, you mean too much to me. Maybe a few years after the marriage you can talk about a divorce.'
For all the years the two of you had been together you weren't engaged, everyone assumed you were married and the two of you kind of went with the flow. Little did you know Shanks wasn't joking about marriage this time around.
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motive â lee dokyeom
tags. exes to ??. ex-fwb. hate sex (started off atleast, these bitches are idiots). fingering. rough sex. penetrative sex (vaginal). degradation. objectification. unresolved romantic tension.
synopsis. there aren't a lot of things that can get the Lee Seokmin angry. He's seen a lot in his career as the district attorney, has lived through a lot but goddammit did you know how to get under his skin better and faster than anyone with the infuriating smirk of yours.
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If someone were to ask about what sort of person Lee Seokmin is, the first thing that would pop up in peopleâs heads is kind or a saint or some other iteration of it.
The man had built his career from these very acts, pro bono cases ( despite being very broke straight out of university ) to tackling big public figuresâ politicians, businessmen and women, none were safe from Lee Seokmin and his silver tongueâ to now, having been elected the district attorney, the youngest in the countryâs history.
You call bullshit.
The Lee Seokmin you know is all teeth, bruising grip and unforgiving mouth.
You remember the man as clear as day, even though it has been almost half a decade since the two of you last crossed pathsâ a hurried conversation, the crack in your heart, the coldness in his eyes-
You remember the man, the way he spun arguments in his favour no matter how bad the odds were, the way he brought the roomâs attention to himself so irrevocably, so effortlessly with that bright smile of his, the very same smile that turned sharp and sharklike behind closed door, having you shaking in your knees and your cheeks stained with tears as he denied you the high.
He was kind yes, but not a saint.
Lee Seokmin was the farthest thing from a saint.
Maybe that was why wherever you get the chance, you try to get under his skin and show the world the cruel thing that lay behind their saint. That this-this whole kindness, this love, this care that he shows are all a carefully done facade.
So, you were on the witness stand, repeating the oath as a smirk played on your lips with your eyes not leaving Seokminâs form. He looked tense, jaw clenched, knuckles white and eyebrows set.
The man looked far tenser than he did when had introduced the case, a hard look on his face but eyes still infuriatingly kind, the opening a carefully curated string of words that had the audienceâ judge, jury, defendant, everyone entranced, the words spoken in that soft, sweet voice of his already swaying the jury.
The case had been against one of your former business partners, you having been brought in as a witness or said man to use against Seokminâs arguments and even though the man you had worked with could be described as scum, you played up the act. Doing your part to convince the jury that the accusations were baseless and the prosecution was simply trying to bring down a good man (and if you threw in jabs against Seokmin in between your words, well that was between you and him).
Which brought you this very momentâ you sitting in one of your office chairs after hours, the plush material soft against your back as you lift the glass of bourbon to your lips, the smile on your lips smug as you stare down Seokmin, the glass you had offered him sitting untouched.
âDidnât know you had a thing for humiliation,â Your words are sharp as they fall from your lips, mocking. âYou think you know a person.â
Seokmin doesnât rise to the bait, instead, he looks at you, something angry, something resigned in his gaze that makes your skin itch. âWhy?â
âWhat?â
âWhy?â Seokmin repeats himself, a sigh falling from his lips as he finally picks up the glass of alcohol, staring at the amber liquid. âWhy go out of your way to defend him?â
You scoff at his audacity to question you after everything he has done. âWhat do you mean, why? Heâs my business partner, we worked together and Iââ
âBullshit.â Seokmin snaps, his eyes hard as he glares at you, his grip on the glass now white-knuckled. âThat's bullshit and we both know that. He is a murdââ
âYou donât know me Lee Seokmin,â You interrupt him, setting the glass with a hard clang as you narrow your eyes at him. âSo donât barge your way in here and give me a fucking lecture on morality.â
âYou're right,â Seokmin sighs, taking a large gulp of bourbon and your eyes canât help but trace the way his adamâs apple bobs as he swallows. âI donât know you, the version of you that I knew is-is gone and...â a sharp laugh falls from his lips as he sets the glass back down. His eyes turn cold, lips twisting into a cruel little smile as he tilts his head. âWhatâs left of you is an empty shell filled with nothing but greed andââ
You are out of your chair before he finishes speaking, pushing his shoulders harshly as you glare down at him. Your breath comes out in harsh pants, jaw clenched and nails digging into the muscle of his shoulder, âFuck you.â
Seokmin stares back, his eyes not leaving yours and he keeps staring and staring andâ
His lips find themselves on your, hand cradling your jaw as the other tangles with your hair. You freeze for a minute, eyes wide at the unexpected course of action and it takes a minute for your brain to reboot before you find yourself kissing him back, your tongue licking across his seam, his tongue tangling with yours, mapping your mouth.
He stands up, lips still moving against yours as he gently pushes your backwards until the small of your back hits the desk, his body pressing against yours andâ fuck, you hate how this has your hold body burning, heat settling in your bones and turning you to putty.
He pulls away, panting as his forehead rests against yours. His grip on your jaw doesnât loosen, neither does his hold on your hair and it sends a jolt of pleasure down your spine.
âSeokmin,â You breathe out, eyes on his face, the sharp contours of his face, the slope of his jaw, the moles shattered on his cheeks, all of which as like familiar in a way a book you had read years ago is. âSeokmin whatââ
âShut up,â Seokmin mumbles against your lips, pulling them back in and in one fell swoop, he has you lifted onto your desk, settling in between your legs and the casual display of strength has wetness pooling in your panties. You knew Seokmin had filled out, the muscles on his body no longer lithe the way it had been in universityâ not from the way his shirts and suits hugged his body, almost tearing at the seams due to the stretch with each contraction.
His hand trails down from your hair, moving down until theyâre at the buttons of your shirt, fingers undoing them and pulling it off, the fabric pooling near your hips and your shiver as the cold air of room brushes against your skin. Your grip on his shirt tightens, the fabric crinkling as you try to bring him closer than he already is, seeking out the wet heat of his mouth with a fervent need.
He pulls away for a second, breathing harshly, âDo you want to stop?â
You stare at him, the words taking a moment to skin in and when they do, you shake your head, âNo,â the word falls off your lips without a beat of hesitation.
âStill the slut I know.â The words fall off Seokminâs lips accompanied by a small laugh, a deeper, darker sort of under that makes molten heat course through your veins despite the humiliation that burns in you. âMaybe not everything has changed.â
You ignore the way his words sound wistful by the end, tugging him back down to meet your mouth, moaning at the way he bites your bottom lips, thighs pushing against your core. A beat later, his mouth starts trailing down, from your lips to your jaw, biting and licking and tugging at the skin of your jaw to your neck to your shoulder and then down to your tits.
One of his hands moves to unhook your bra while the other moves the garment. His mouth settles on one of the nubs, the teeth sinking into the flesh sending a flash of pleasure that has you gasping, back arching as you push yourself more onto him. His hand cups the other breast, fingers digging into the soft mound and as he tugs and tugs the abused nipple before moving onto the other.
All the while youâve turned into a mess of pants and moans, your eyes rolling the the back of your head as Seokmin works his way through your body, taking you as he pleases, however he wants, wherever he wantsâ uncaring of what you have to say.
It makes you feel like an object to use for his pleasure.
It makes your core throb.
âPretty,â Seokmin mumbles against your skin, his breath warm and making you shiver. âMy pretty girl.â
You burn at the praise, at being called his and you hate how it makes you feel.
âFuck me already,â You snap instead, distracting yourself from whatever's starting to take root in you.
Seokminâs eyes snap up to yours, eyebrows scrunching as he takes in a sharp breath. His hand trailed from your waist to your neck, fingers curling around the base of it and giving a light squeeze, making your breath hitch. âIâll do whatever the fuck I want,â He grits out, his words sharp and syllables coated in warning. âBehave.â
You swallow and nod. âOkay,â your next breath is shaky as you look at him. He stares at you for a second, before nodding.
âBe a good girl for me, baby,â Seokmin says, kissing you again as his hands start moving down. He unbuckles your belt, undoing the button and taking off your pants and underwear together, dropping them to the floor.
âSo wet for me,â Seokmin mumbles, running a finger through your fold, wetness gathering on his finger making you moan, his mouth swallowing the sound. Two fingers slip into your hole easily, Seokmin groaning at the smooth motion and the subsequent tightening around the digits. His thumb settles against your cilt, rubbing circles as he starts fucking you rough and fast with his fingers.
He pulls away from you slightly, lips a breath away as he says: âHow many times can I make you cum before you start sobbing?â He grins against your lips as you can only reply with a moan. âI remember it being four before you started whriting and sobbing as you begged me to stop.â
âSeokââ You gasp out as he presses against your cilt harder, your whole body tensing as you get closer and closer to the edge, your whole body tight as a coil.
âHas it gone back to one?â Seokmin keeps the conversation going nonchalantly as if you werenât seconds away from crumbling to the ground. âNo oneâs been able to fuck you as well as I did to keep up?â
The coil in you snaps, as you clench around his fingers, your eyes rolling to the back of your head as you let out a long, drawn-out moan; your orgasm washing over you.
âOne.â Seokmin counts, his thumb still working away at your cilt and your body starts to tighten again, limbs locking up and youâre sure the only reason you're still upright is due to the hold Seokmin has on you. His fingers still piston in and out of you and within a few breaths youâre being pushed to the edge again, body coiling and coiling andâ
âSeokmin,â You canât help but sob out when the second orgasm washes over you and Seokmin still keeps going, thumb working and working and working away at your cilt. âCanât, please, Seokâ Seokmin.â
Seokmin stops, his fingers pulling out as he ticks an eyebrow, âJust two?â
You take in a shaky breath, your whole body shuddering as you nod. âI... Iâm sorry,â you find yourself saying, despite the embarrassment stelling into your bonesâ you donât even know why.
âItâs okay, baby.â He presses a sweet kiss to your lips, soft and warm and a complete juxtaposition to his demeanour a beat ago. âYou did good, sweetheart.â
You find yourself nodding, letting him completely overwhelm your senses. His hands caging your body, clothed thigh pressed against your dripping core, mouth moving against yours, soft, wet warm and grounding.
âLay back,â Seokmin orders softly once he pulls away and you do, your back settling on the cool surface of the glass as you hear the buckle of his belt hit the floor. A moan falls from your lips as you feel his head against your folds, moving to collect the wetness on the dull nub. Your whole body arches, mouth falling open as he pushes in, the thick length of his stretches you to your absolute limits, and despite the wetness from his ministrations and two orgasms, it still takes a bit of effort to fully seath himself inside.
Good god, youâd forgotten how big he was.
No wonder anyone who came after could never fully make you feel half of what he did.
âFuck,â Seokmin pants, his body leaning over yours, âMy perfect little toy,â Seokmin moans out as he starts moving, a slow drag followed by a snap that has you arching. With each thrust, he picks up his pace, playing with your cilt every once in a while to bring you closer to your orgasm as he fucks you fast and rough and hard enough to leave you aching for days.
Your body is putty by the time his pace grows erratic, hips snapping against yours as he fucks you, pistoning in and out and in and you feel your body tightening, his own breaths coming out sharp and short and a few thrusts later, you're coming around his cock, tightening around his thick girth and that seems to push him over the edge as well as he quickly pulls out and paints your stomach white.
It takes a minute for you to catch your breath, your senses slowly rewriting itself from having been fried. You push yourself to sit up despite the exhaustion settling in your body as you stare at Seokmin, hair damp from sweat, skin flushed with the effect of sex and he looks just as breathtaking as the first day you saw him.
A heaviness settles in your chest the longer you look.
You missed him.
You hate yourself for thinking that.
note. i have a part two for it that is more plot than smut, so lemme know if anyone's interested
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PAY ATTENTION â Older brother Suguru & Younger sibling!Reader
what happens when suguru's cute younger sibling, who'd usually talk his ear off and cling to him, suddenly starts to... do their own thing?
Pairings: Platonic Suguru Geto x Younger sibling!Reader
As we know, Suguru is a rather mature teenager
He carries this air of elegance, always putting on a polite smile and spilling pleasantries past his lips like sweetened lies
But we also know that Suguru can be childish around the right people
So it's not a surprise to anyone close to him that when his younger sibling, you, stops following around like a lost puppy, Suguru immediately starts to sulk
You're only three years younger than Suguru, fourteen to his seventeen
You two always had a close relationship, closer than most siblings tend to have
Suguru loves spending time with you, to him, you're easily the funniest kid he knows
It's hard for him to ever calm down completely since he's constantly stressed with the sorcerer world
But every day when he goes home and you're in the living room or in your room, it's like he can finally breathe
Because before Satoru, you were Suguru's only friend
His little mini-me, partner in crime, best friend
You two clicked and moved like one, so in tune with each other he always marveled at how most siblings tend to hate each other
Of course, the two of you do fight sometimes
Over who gets to take a shower first, who ate the leftovers, who gets to watch what on TV
"Did you use my shampoo?"
"The one you keep hiding from me? Yeah."
"You littleâ That's expensive."
"That's why I used it, Suguru."
You two are siblings after all, what kind of siblings never fight?
But he never felt the kind of animosity and distrust so many brothers and sisters feel around each other, the kind that made them roll their eyes whenever they even got close to their siblings
To Suguru, you're his little sunshine, someone he'll protect until the day he keels over and dies
Not that he'll ever tell you that
(number one rule of siblingship: Never be too touchy-feely)
So imagine his surprise when the little punk who usually follows his every step, always under his elbow, asking him to hang out or help with homework, stays glued to the phone even when he sits in the same room
Like.... what?
You barely greet him, a half hearted "Hey, you're home." falling from your lips without even looking at him, and he's offended and hurt at the same time
You're fourteen, sure
He knows you'd start pulling away from him now that you have more than a couple of friends, more subjects to study, and... uh..
Puberty
But he thought it'd go away after a bit, that you'd go back to being his cute little sibling once you realized he is so much cooler than the kids your age
He'd walk past your open door multiple times a day after coming home, trying to see if you were going to invite him to hang out
He'd make tea with a mouthwatering fragrance, put on your favorite show, talk to your parents about going to a very trendy and fun place you'd surely want to go with
Damn, at some point he'd probably even talk to Satoru on the phone, loudly, because he knows you're curious about the pretty white haired teen who always teases you whenever he sees you around Suguru's home
But even then, nothing
Nothing at all
Suguru feels like he's watching the baby he helped learn how to walk turn into an adult and leave him behind
And as a big brother, he's upset, a little petty, and worst of all;
Sulky
Of course, Satoru and Shoko definitely notice, because although Suguru is quiet, he's not staying in a corner looking out of the window while listening to sad music and reminiscing quiet
And of course, they both make fun of him when he explains the situation
"And here I thought Gojo was the unreasonable one."
"Hahaha! Iâ I can't believe! You're sulking because the little brat isn't talking to you?!"
"Shut up, Satoru, and don't call my baby sibling a brat."
"Hah! You're such a loser, Suguru!"
Needless to say, when Suguru comes home and you're still glued to your phone in the living room, he's not in the greatest of moods
You barely look up when he drops his bag on the table
"Welcome back, Susu."
And because no one ever made a law saying Suguru can't act like Satoru sometimes, the teen flops on the couch and hugs a pillow, not answering you
That, you notice
Your brother always talks to you when he comes back home, even when he is all banged up from whatever they do at school
The sight that greets you is... something
Embarrassing, endearing, definitely pathetic for your big brother
Suguru is pouting, looking down at the pillow his strangling to his chest, his knees pulled up to make himself smaller
Not that it works, he's built like a bean pole
His shoulders brush yours, because even though he's mad, he still misses his cuteâ annoying little sibling
"Suguru?"
...
"Mr. Suguruuuu....?"
...
"Hey, what's wrong?"
He turns his face away, his hair slapping your face, and pushes more of his body against yours
"What theâ Dude, you're squashing me! Suguru, what's wrong with you?!"
Suguru still says nothing, silently letting more and more of his weight to lower on top of you until you're smushed against the couch
Once you're a baby sibling pancake, Suguru finally opens his mouth
"So now you're paying attention to me, huh?"
... Huh?
"Huh?"
Suguru huffs, his hair all over your face, body much bigger and heavier than yours not allowing you to move an inch even though you struggle, and squeezes his pillow
"No, it's fine. Go ahead, ignore your big brother all you want. It's not like I helped mom and dad raise you."
"... Are you kiddiâ"
"Yeah, keep your eyes glued to your phone, don't need to talk to me or don't hang out with meâ actually, don't even look at me at all, since I'm sure you'd much rather look at your phone."
"You're being such a chilâ"
"No, no, by all means! It's not like I miss you or anything."
You sighed with some effort, because Suguru is still on top of you and he's not a lightweight, and thump your head against the soft couch
Sure, you know you've been a little distant from your big brother
But, hey, you're fourteen now!
You have your friends and stuff you wanna do without your brother around
And, really, Suguru is a hypocrite
Ever since he started high school he wouldn't stop talking about the white haired cutie
Which you understood, if only visually because Satoru would often call you pint-sized Suguru
But he also spends time with other people!
"You do know I have other friends."
"So I don't matter to you anymore, is that it?"
"No, I'm just not gonna hang out with you all the time!"
"Well, you haven't been hanging out with me at all."
"Urgh!"
"Yeah, urgh."
God, you really wish more people knew about how pouty and clingy your big bro can get
Maybe they'd stop thinking he was this mature and chill guy
You groan against the couch and your brother presses his back down, pushing the air out of your lungs
"You're so annoying!"
"You used to say you wanted to be just like me when you grew up."
This guy...
You sigh, relaxing and surrendering
You're supposed to meet up your friends this weekend to watch a movie, but two of them can't make it so everyone gave up on it
Might as well use the opportunity
"Fineâ I'm sorry, okay? Doâ Do you wanna watch a movie this weekend? The one that just came out?"
Suguru stops for a second, letting some of his weight off of you and allowing you to breathe properly
He mutters the name of the movie and you confirm it
"Hmm..."
You can hear the smile on his face and you scoff, the exact same smile pulling at your lips too
"If you promise you'll pay more attention to your neglected older brother, then yeah."
Oh, you so want to take it back
But then again, now that he brought it up, you also miss him
If only a little
Like, a smidge
"Fine, I won't ignore you anymore. Happy?"
Suguru took a moment to answer before turning around to press a loud and gross older brother kiss on the back of your head
Now you have to take a shower
"Very happy."
He sounds smug and satisfied, finally a little more relaxed
He really did miss you so much
You're his baby, okay? Growing up too fast will only give him heartaches
And now Suguru can tell Satoru that you don't hate him
Everyone wins
...
"Hey, can you get off now?"
"Hmmm, no, I'm comfortable."
"Well, I'm not! Get off, Suguru!"
"Don't feel like it."
"Suguru!"
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