#i feel to guilty
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maybe I'm comfortable with tumblr because I get to say things I don't usually tell anyone
#like how my day is? or what dumb stuff im doing lol#my “safe space” where i got to meet people somehow (and theyre very cool :3c)#well. im happy if i get to do it now#cmon nae! sympathy points wont do you any good !!#okay so. tumblr gets to be my little planner too cause i get to write things in the momoment#so im writing things im proud of!#brushed my teeth for more than two mins today#n i actually washed a lil! its embarrassing writing this here because i dont want anyone thinking im dirty.... since its gross#but anyways.. im getting better at putting my phone down at night!#that means fixing my sleep right? i just have to sort out the mornings since i lose track of time#and struggle to leave bed (its too comfyyyy >.<)#and oh. i want to start going on walks..#itll be hard since the house is getting done n stuff but. anytine if the day. i feel like taking walks woukd be better for me#just to keave the house. my eyes always hurts when i steo outside#n thats not good :<#those are my goals for now. i do wanna get closer to my friends. and actually make friends!#ive had no friendships for nearly a year at college lol#its just been 'oh well' but i have actually felt lonely... oh well-#i guess i wanna get closer to people?#and.. talk to ny old friends too#i feel to guilty#im not good with this stuff. it drains me#but anyways. baby steps right? who knows#maybe ill make a friend on the trip! or next year too! that sounds good#ik nobody'll probably read this cause its word vomit lol#but basically yay yippee im feelin kinds alright#<333#posts.nae/rambles
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I think so many people are so deeply alienated from themselves that they have no clue how to exercise their free will and autonomy. For some, this alienation runs so deep that they are afraid of their own autonomy and humanity. It is completely understandable why one would have those feelings, but it can be worrisome.
I want to help others who feel this way, so here are small things I have done to exercise my free will:
Add "guilty pleasure" songs to playlists and actually listen to them (I have a ton of late 1990s-early 2000s music I listen to now proudly that I never listened to in the past out of shame)
Getting the décor item, bath set, bed spread, ect. in the patterns you like, even if it's "childish" (I got a dinosaur-themed wastebasket from the kids' décor section and I adore it)
Taking a new route to get to a place you go to often
Eat dessert first
Celebrate well, and often
Collect things that are "odd" or don't seem like an "acceptable" thing to collect (somebody on my "for you" page collects dandelion crayola crayons and it was so cool!!!!!!)
Incorporate one new piece in an outfit you wear frequently (e.g., a new chain, a necklace, ribbons, bracelets, ect.). Challenge yourself to add onto the outfits if you feel up for it.
Sing along to songs without worrying that you sound "good" or your intonation is completely accurate
Read a book from a genre you weren't allowed to read as a kid (comics, thrillers, mysteries, anything!)
Walk without having a specific destination or goal
Pick up a new craft without expecting yourself to master it or to ever be "good" enough. Get your hands messy.
I don't want to shame anybody for not feeling as though they have free will or that they are exempt from exercising it. However, I wanted to give ideas so that you might read this list and find your own ways to express your intrinsic autonomy and will. You deserve to be a person, to feel alive, not just living. That is what our lives are for.
#mental health#mental health support#positivity#if anybody has ideas of their own definitely include them!#i just think being stuck with this feeling that you don't have autonomy and that you ultimately aren't an equal person or a person at all..#...in comparison to other people can be a really troubling and dangerous place to be in...#...and that isn't the person's fault for feeling that way. they didn't pluck those thoughts out of thin air...#...like i have felt that exact way all my LIFE because i have been abused for. probably 2/3s of my life...#...only within these past few years have i even FELT alive. frankly it's going to take a while to repair what i have been left with...#...so i know the feeling and i want to help others feel even a LITTLE bit alive. you deserve it...#...you deserve to take in a deep breath before slowly realizing 'oh my gd this is what it feels like to be alive' and SMILE about it#i want that for you even if it is brief. even if it is small. even if it is a whisper. i want you to feel alive#unironically getting rid of the idea of 'guilty pleasures' has made my life SO much better
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girl who constantly feels like they're in trouble and did something wrong
#omg kiera no one cares#the precursor to girl who needs reassurance but would rather die blah blah#anyway nothing happened im not in trouble I just feel guilty
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I know Vanessa regret saying this in the FNAF movie,,
#myart#chloesimagination#comic#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#vanessa afton#fnaf vanessa#vanessa shelly#mike schmidt#fnaf movie#fnaf fanart#I think about this scene in the movie like all the time#especially when I think about movie Vanessa#there muse of been so much on her mind at the time#like I know she said that to begin with because she wanted to protect Abby#she knows that Freddy’s is just overall dangerous for her#especially with her father who coukd appear anytime he likes..#she also let her own guard down and that must upset her#so all she could do in her mind to keep at least Abby away is threaten Mike#but I feel she regretted it#Mike is her first friend in a long time and she feels guilty over him#Poor Vanessa she had so much on her mind#just want that girl to be happy 😔🩵
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#I feel favoritism in this chillis tonight#and I'm guilty of it#welcome reddit migrants#here's a meme to light your way#196#reddit migration#reddit blackout
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you're in the habit of denying yourself things.
if someone asked you directly, you would say that you love a little treat. you like iced coffee and getting the cookie. you drink juice out of a fancy cup sometimes, and often do use your candles until they gutter out helplessly.
but you hesitate about buying the 20 dollar hand mixer because, like. you could just use your arms. you weren't raised rich. you don't get to just spend the 20 dollars (remember when that could cover lunch?), at least - you don't spend that without agonizing over it first, trying to figure out the cost-benefits like you are defending yourself in front of a jury. yes, this rice cooker could seriously help you. but you do know how to make stovetop rice and it really isn't that hard. how many pies or brownies would you actually make, in order to make that hand mixer worthwhile?
what's wild is that if the money was for a friend, it would already be spent. you'd fork over 40 without blinking an eye, just to make them happy. the difference is that it's for you, so you need to justify it.
and it sneaks in. you ration yourself without meaning to - you don't finish the pint of ice cream, even though you want to. the next time you go to the store, you say ah, i really shouldn't, and then you walk away. you save little bits of your precious things - just in case. sometimes you even go so far as putting that one thing in your shopping cart. and then just leaving it there, because maybe-one-day, but not right now, there's other stuff going on.
you do self-care, of course. but you don't do it more than like, 3 days in a row. after that it just feels a little bit over-the-edge. like. you can't live in decadence, the economy is so bad right now, kid.
so you don't buy the rice cooker. you can-and-will spend the time over the stove. you can withstand the little sorrows. denial and discipline are practically synonyms. and you're not spoiled.
it's just - it's not always a rice cooker. sometimes it is a person or a job or a hug. sometimes it is asking for help. sometimes it is the summer and your college degree. sometimes it is looking down at scabbed knees and feeling a strange kind of falling, like you can't even recognize the girl you used to be. sometimes it is your handprint looking unsteady.
sometimes it is tuesday, and you didn't get fired, and you want to celebrate. but what is it you like, even? you search around your little heart and come up empty. you're so used to denying that all your desires draw a blank.
oh fuck. see, this is the perfect opportunity. if you had a mixer, you'd make a cake.
#warm up#this isn't good#writeblr#this is complicated by the fact i can't stand up too long or i fuckken pass out and <3 hit my damn head <3#but i did take a deep breath and buy myself the stupid rice cooker#and!!! a very cheap sushi kit!!! i have been wanting to try making sushi for literally YEARS#the kit was only like 15 dollars!!!! and i haven't purchased it bc?!!??!?!?!?!!?#..... i didn't get the mixer tho that felt. like a lot. like too much.#on my list is a kitchenaid. one day when i get a check and i have paid off my student debt#and medical debt#i will put that first little bit of cash#into a kitchenaid 5qt stand mixer (with attachments)#i really do just go into their refurbished section and stare lustily at each option#but yeah i feel guilty about the rice cooker even tho i know for a fact this damn thing is gonna be a lifesaver#oh shit also fuck i forgot to mention . poached eggs
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brexit <3
#my art#guilty gear#guilty gear strive#ggst#bridget guilty gear#bridget#can you tell a shitload of feelings about trans pride went into this one :')#MAN I SHOULD'VE ADDED A LITTLE SHARK IN THE BACKGROUND PATTERNS
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obligatory “cool characterization, still murder” like I’m not excusing him but it does make him incredibly interesting
(*girl gender neutral edition)
#bill cipher#the book of bill spoilers#tbob spoilers#the book of bill#gravity falls#philip wittebane#<- him too (the grimwalker visions)#toh#the owl house#could bill NOT be feeling guilty and I’m reaching? maybe idk man#1k#2k#3k#i've gotten a few comments like 'ohh you/i can excuse them!' so i will clarify#i more mean that i don't want to act like they did nothing wrong because them BEING in the wrong is more interesting#like i don't want to woobify them you know????#it's far more exciting to NOT excuse them and analyze them through that lens for me personally#sometimes characters are complex AND they suck AND they're pathetic AND they're scary#they contain multitudes!
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together in death
#this art saved me i had such an awful art block#kinda feeling guilty i had to stop working on comms yesterday cuz i felt really burnt out from them )--)0#god. i know i drew this but like minas face? it kills me#why did i do that#persona 3#ryomina#minato arisato#ryoji mochizuki#fanart#persona#my art#spoilers
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guilty gear lore pisses me off how am i this sad over a character thats just a guy in a bed named bedman
#like STOPPPP I FEEL SO STUPPID#i hate this little downvote man#guilty gear#guilty gear xrd#ggxrd#bedman#romeo f neumann#digital#fanart#my art
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amnesiac barry bluejeans is still one of the most existentially fucked up characters of all time to me. you wake up with a gaping hole in your memories, naked in a tank in a cave that screams "dark magic and horrific experiments." your own voice tells you you've lost more than you can imagine, and you sound like you know what you're talking about. you run away from that place, knowing you're on a death mission. wishing you didn't have to wonder what happened to you — how some nobody like you got caught up in something so terrifying and incomprehensible, something so much bigger than you.
and then, you die. and you realize it's the other way around. you are the terrifying, incomprehensible thing that the fate of the world has been caught in. and you've just failed. again.
#taz#taz balance#taz balance spoilers#barry bluejeans#everything is wrong with him!!!#“i would feel guilty being a citizen in a world that i... poisoned”#and then it all got worse and worse and worse from there!!
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happy unofficial birthday to my son!!! 🎂
wondering what’s in that box…. (genuinely don’t know) (i rushed this) (badly)
#watch one of you say his present was a gun. i mean you’re not wrong but i wouldn’t be surprised if someone would say that#will solace#will solace fanart#solangelo#solangelo fanart#id feel guilty bc im making his birthday about solangelo… but i did the same for nicos birthday with less effort so whatever#nico di angelo#nico di angelo fanart#pjo#pjo fanart#pjo hoo toa tsats#pjo hoo#pjo hoo toa#the trials of apollo#pjoverse#pjo fandom#rrverse#my art#percy jackon and the olympians#riordan verse#riordanverse#artists on tumblr
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How did Henry let William’s ideas pass in FNAF..
#myart#chloesimagination#comic#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#wiliam afton#henry emily#circus baby#sister location#fnaf fanart#this comic is unserious#but also I am genuinely curious how Henry just gave these ideas a pass#LIKE Henry is semi aware of the more questionable aspects to animatronics#he even says so in pizza sim how guilty he feels aiding in this#I JUST GOTTA believe he was half paying attention to whatever William was up to#didn’t think too hard about it and just wanted to make his robots#William must of been ecstatic that Henry agreed over and over#like dude lucked out BAHA
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Obi-wan very much regretting the decisions made tonight.
#obikin#i think obi-wan would feel extremely guilty if he ever got sexually or romantically involved with anakin#who wouldn't!#a small hours identity crisis#anakin: he's my daddy >;)#obi-wan: christ alive i'm his daddy DDDD:#star wars#obikin art#anakin skywalker#obi-wan kenobi#sw#my sw art#my art
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Every time Dick tries to have a serious conversation with Jason it gets shut down very quickly. If anyone asks the context imma just say they’re taking a small break on patrol and Jason took off his helmet to smoke.
#batman#dc comics#fanart#dc#batfam#batman fanart#digital arwork#jason todd#jason todd fanart#red hood#red hood fanart#dick grayson#digital art#digital drawing#dcu#dick grayson fanart#nightwing#nightwing fanart#batfamily#batkids#dick just wants to talk#dc fanart#dc universe#i have no idea if this conversation makes sense#i think it does#don’t quote me on that#dick Grayson feels guilty#Jason Todd is bad at emotions
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