#i feel so nervous posting abt him like im doing something bad

[writingstoraes]

tour guide 🎥

pairing: charles leclerc/fem!actress!reader

type: instagram imagine, social media au

notes: saw the post abt apex filming at silverstone this week and got this idea lol lmk what u guys think! atp you already know who my fc is (it's hailee steinfeld 😝)

about: a well-known actress stars in a film that is set in the world of formula 1 and scuderia ferrari happens to be the leading team to guide the production team and its cast!

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yourusername Film prep starts now. Currently glad my parents forced me into getting my driver's license as early as I could as well as my brother introducing me to Formula 1 years ago 🏁

Beyond excited for this movie!

allhailyn WE LOVE U QUEEN WE CANT WAIT

filmthusiast this is such a new role for her im so excited

f1lover film + f1 is always going to be the biggest bestest combo ❤️

lecsluv LMAOOO NOT CHARLES LIKING THIS

zendayyn mans a fan norrisbaby Oh hes quick 😆

yourusername recently added to her instagram story!

yourusername recently added to her instagram story!

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yourusername 3/4 done with filming for First Gear 🤍 So much work has been done for this movie and it's been the good kind of overwhelming so far. I've learned so much and experienced so many new things.

Included the one and only charles_leclerc here because majority of the things I learned came from him. He's pretty nice except he was beyond nervous when I drove the car for the first time.

scuderiaferrari We're glad to know Charles was the best tour guide ever! ❤️

lecsmmylove NOT FERRARI STICKING WITH THE TOUR GUIDE DESCRIPTION???

hamilfilm charles leclerc making his way into y/n's official ig account is not something i have on my bingo card

popgirltay u guys r so cute <3 friendship goals!

livelovelecs no, dating announcement next LOLOL

charles_leclerc Why do I seem like the bad guy here, I taught you pretty well didn't I?

yourusername I didn't say you were a bad teacher 😕

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charles_leclerc Everyday's karting day 🚘

lecsferrari the red nails??? sir u aint slick who is that

sainzmclaren It's Y/N 😭 She posted karting pics today too

yourusername What do you have to say for yourself that you lost?

charles_leclerc I let you win, jolie 😁 Pretty. ferarrimercs HE CALLED HER PRETTY?????

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yourusername The student has become the teacher 😎

charles_leclerc Anyone would win if they were fighting kids on track

yourusername I sense sore loser 😝

leclercsyn TOO CUTE IM GONNA COMBUST

scuderiaferrari ❤️❤️❤️

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yourusername Feeling so emotional that filming for a movie that holds a special place in my heart has come to an end 🤍 I am so ecstatic for all of you to see First Gear because everyone involved put everything they had for this film. I hope you guys love this as much as I do, possibly more.

So many people to thank — the directors, producers, scriptwriters, my co-stars, everyone who's worked so hard to make this into reality, I owe you all so much.

But I also never thought I'd meet someone so special. Charles, this past year for us have been so crazy and I'm glad I got to spend it with you. If it helps, the moment they told me you would be giving me a tour of the paddock, I fell instantly 😝

leclercsyn MY PARENTS AAAAA IM SCREAMING

scuderiaferrari We are so proud of you, Y/N ❤️ The whole team is waiting for the movie!

charles_leclerc What do you mean if it helps, I was literally sweating while telling you what a pitwall is

lecslover HES SO FUNNYHTBHRHB

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charles_leclerc Most talented person I've come across. Watching you on set has become one of my favorite things to do; it reminds me of just how amazing you are. To more karting sessions with you ❤️

Sincerely,

Your paddock tour guide

lecshamilton hes owning the tour guide title, mad respect

sainzlove I AM MELTINGGGGG

f1luvr power couple me thinks?

yourusername Get ready to lose 🥱

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tagging: @slytherheign, @honethatty12, @siovhanroy

notes: why i take so much time making these ill never understand anyway i hope u guys like this hehehe thank you sm for reading <3

[paingoes]

Destroyer is afk

(Masterlist)

another sherbet colored update. i really love simulating internet speech in writing i think its so fun

(Content: death mention, past trauma, self loathing, comfort??)

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no posts in a month its over

they got him omg </3

Did indy fucking die?

RIP INDY

ndhakdvsnnd: can you guys stop saying that im dead  ndhakdvsnnd: also no more leaks until further notice. stop asking.

sunspot: Hey you don’t have to talk to us if you don’t want to but can you please give us some indication you’re still alive? 

sunspot: We’re really worried.

katkittykat: omg look at this video :3

katkittykat: have u ever seen a shark move like that in all ur life that shit is so crazy

katkittykat: hey where have u been lololol

katkittykat: are u mad at me :c

katkittykat: if its somethin i did can we talk abt it ??? 

katkittykat: okk ur making me nervous 

katkittykat: OH SHIT UR BACK

katkittykat: WTF

ndhakdvsnnd: hey sorry 

katkittykat: bro where did u go!!!! D:

ndhakdvsnnd: had to travel somewhere i couldnt bring my laptop

katkittykat: im rlly glad ur ok! 

ndhakdvsnnd: do you want me to send you the next batch

katkittykat: uhh yea only if ur up to it. whenever ur ready :3c

ndhakdvsnnd: i can do it now

katkittykat: ty sweetness

katkittykat: sunny wants u to answer him lol hes having an aneurysm xD

ndhakdvsnnd: okay

ndhakdvsnnd: hi

sunspot: Hey! 

ndhakdvsnnd: kitty said you wanted to talk to me

sunspot: Yes I wanted to know if you were okay because we hadn’t heard from you in a while

ndhakdvsnnd: obviously

sunspot: ?

sunspot: Why is that obvious?

ndhakdvsnnd: how would i be typing if i wasnt okay

sunspot: That doesn’t even make sense ?

sunspot: I assumed if you were offline for a month it was because you were either upset or in danger

ndhakdvsnnd: maybe i just have a day job to worry about

sunspot: In that case it would’ve been nice to receive some kind of warning so we wouldnt think you were hurt 

ndhakdvsnnd: i didnt have time

sunspot: You didn’t have time to type one sentence?

ndhakdvsnnd: okay im sorry

sunspot: Look I’m not trying to lecture you Im just saying we were concerned and I wanted to make sure you were alright.

ndhakdvsnnd: okay

sunspot: Everything’s really okay then? Nothing happened?

ndhakdvsnnd: i dont want to talk about it

sunspot: Alright.

sunspot: You know we care about you right?

ndhakdvsnnd: i didnt send a warning because i didnt know i was leaving until the last minute i didnt go by choice

ndhakdvsnnd: thanks for attacking me over it as soon as i got back though 

sunspot: Does it seem like I’m attacking you? 

ndhakdvsnnd: yes kind of

sunspot: I’m sorry then. I didn’t mean to.

ndhakdvsnnd: okay

sunspot: Are you sure you don’t want to talk about it?

ndhakdvsnnd: i am just sad okay i am already getting yelled at all the time  i dont need to get it from you too 

ndhakdvsnnd: sorry this is stupid ill shut up

sunspot: No it’s okay! If you’re upset you can tell me that’s what I was messaging you about in the first place I had the feeling something was wrong

ndhakdvsnnd: are you sure

sunspot: Yes positive

ndhakdvsnnd: i just dont like feeling like everyone is disappointed or mad at me all the time i dont know 

ndhakdvsnnd: it would be one thing if i deserved it but i dont know i have been really really trying lately and it doesnt work and it makes me feel bad

ndhakdvsnnd: but i kind of deserve to feel bad so i dont know 

ndhakdvsnnd: im tired

sunspot: Why do you think you deserve to feel bad?

ndhakdvsnnd: a lot of reasons 

sunspot: I don’t think you deserve it.

ndhakdvsnnd: you dont know me though

ndhakdvsnnd: you wouldnt like me if you knew me 

sunspot: Well what I do know about you now is that you are risking your life and sanity to provide us information to help people.

sunspot: Just based on that I don’t think you deserve to feel so bad about yourself.

sunspot: I think the people you’re around are probably really hard on you and its affecting the way you see yourself.

ndhakdvsnnd: im sorry

sunspot: Why are you saying that?

ndhakdvsnnd: i dont know

ndhakdvsnnd: is it okay if i go to bed now 

sunspot: Goodnight! We can talk later if you’re up for it?

ndhakdvsnnd: okay gn

[melon-colli]

Yapping about Inscryption

Just 'finished' (that's in quotes cause I'm not convinced that the games not DONE done) Inscryption and overall I really enjoyed it! I stopped live blogging after a certain point so heres a post to get those out.

!Spoilers for the whole game under the cut!

>I wasn't too sure about the art style change in Act 2 at first, and the fact that I was dog water at the new card mechanics didn't help, but it really grew on me and so did the new gameplay!

>The other scrybes were really interesting, there wasn't a single one I found boring. If I had to rank them I'd go Leshy<Grimora/P03<Magnificus. Grim and P03 only occupy the same space because I love them both equally.

LUKE CARDER INTERLUDE

>He's so quirky! Love him! Seriously though he was an endearing main character, truly creepypasta protag material. Seeing him get shot in the end really caught me off guard, and honestly shook me a little. Idk but why I didn't expect him to die, especially like that. Expected like a computer monster birthed from the old disk to get him, not for the GameFuna rep to cap him in the face. Had my chest tight for a second. Anyways rip bro, raising my mantis god to the sky.

>As for Act 3, I liked it! P03 is such a delightful dickhead, who I just know would be so annoying about Pokemon natures. Botopia was less immersive than Leshy's campaign, and I like what that says about P03's character, who cares way more about gameplay. This chapter's talking cards have my heart. Lonely Wizard specifically, but Angler was nice for the 5 minutes I knew him. (I traded him for another card specifically because he said 'choose me'. Sorry man I thought you had a plan)

>Obligatory Goobert Mention. Great guy, glad his pain was lessened by the tubes. Idk why you still want to go back to Magnificus, but I wont tell you what to do.

>The Uber bot bosses were still pretty interesting for a bot who supposedly doesn't care much abt crafting characters. I made my own special hell for the Make-your-own boss. Where for every dead card, another is drawn. P03 tried to stop me multiple times, but I was determined. For phase two I just chose leap bots for every dead card. Silly boss. Golly was also a sweetheart, loved the mole. As for the scribe Uberbot, the file deletion threat didn't get me nearly as bad since I came off of Kinitopet and knew the game couldn't actually do something like that and be on steam, but it still had me a little nervous lol (cause like what if it did?).

I got weirdly giddy at the prospect of finding the pelt man again. Idk why because I despised him in Act 1, Got a few pelts but never actually found him. Got scammed at the mart cause I thought buying the pelt would make him show up lol.

>Falling into the factory and seeing the 3 scribes just standing there scared me a little, thought they were gonna jump me.

>After that part, going back to P03 knowing what's going to happen, I felt a bit bad. At first. Sure P03's a smug jerk, but it just wanted to be free right? The walk back when it's reminiscing about the game amped this feeling up, but I love that the game yanked the rug from under me and went 'yeah no this puter just sucks' once it starts gloating. Lol. lmao. Also I didn't expect Leshy to just rip its head off wtf bro.

>Saying goodbye to everyone at the end was sad. Having one last game with the Scrybes was so bittersweet. Grimora's game was interesting, and its a crime we didn't have time for a boss battle. Leshy. Leshy I love you so much. I like that Magnificus wasn't going gentle into that good night at first, but his insistence to keep going lost him the chance to shake our hand. I was never super into his play style, but his game was really cool looking, even if im not super into that stuff. (I know the arm thing had something to do with Yugi-oh but I know nothing abt it sorry).

>The lead up to unzipping the Old Code was done so well. Grimora may have nuked the game to get rid of it, but Luke's curiosity still doomed him in the end. The totem lady's last words before we found it were quite unsettling. I don't know what was on that zip, but whatever it was clearly messed Luke up.

>I loved the ending of the game. Already talked about it in the Luke section, but it was so abrupt and final. Idk what I expected but I knew it was over when Luke opened the door for the Funa rep. Rip.

Overall, 10/10 game. There's still something called Kaycees mod for me to do, but all in all I really enjoyed it!

[real-odark]

25apcsb enjoyers listen to me talk about(/kind of review it for you? except not really because i will never say anything bad about this production) my favorite production of the show!

ever.

MAD theater i LOVE YOU.

i saw their production live (the first time ive ever seen this show live or a production by this company) and it was AMAZING. this is my favorite cast for this show hands down and let me show you some stuff and why you should love them, too !!

(IF YOU DO NOT WANT TO HEAR ME TALK ABOUT IT/WOULD RATHER SEE THE CAST, I HAVE PICTURES AND A VIDEO NEAR THE BOTTOM OF THE POST!!)

here are all of the spellers! arent they the cutest :3 they all portray their characters PERFECTLY, and im currently on a hunt to see all of them in more performances because WOW . i know the point of the show is for it to be obvious these arent preteens playing them but all three of the girls were so cute honestly id trust them if they said they were it was so good. im gonna talk about all of them too !;;

their leaf was obsessed with sonic (sporting a nice sonic cape), and had a very good dynamic with every character and audience member he interacted with ! he say by me when he was eliminated and we talked a bit, and met his actor after the show. ALSO, playing logainne's dad with his soda and being the soccer mom ever is 100% approved by me . the way he effortlessly exchanged between the two roles was . AH.

olive was PERFECT. i cried at the i love you song so bad her little pom poms and im just mhejkn, her fidgeting with the strings of her cat hoodie whenever she was nervous was a great detail just small things like that

CHIP. chip chip chip. boy scout of the year, and JESUS ON A SCOOTER. he was so sassy and his little shenanigans made this character so good hed bite his lip and do little faces like that all the time he never broke id trust this man with my life

barfee , so nerdy i cannot resist this guy. he looks like he smells like hamburger and you know what? perfect. meeting him afterwards, he said that his shoes (for magic foot) were glow up sketchers and both of them were supposed to glow but only ONE did (the other broke) a few nights before and what a champ because he just went with it and CHANGED THE FOOT HE WAS USING to match the one that glew. i wouldve had a breakdown but go richard brown. through the whole show his bad accent and wet dog looks intrigued me

marcy was literally perfection, she had ME stressin out for her. i was sitting by the actresses' grandma and she was so fond of her its so cute. her singing voice is AMAZING there is a clip online i know of its on the theatre's tiktok but to hear that in person when its the song that got me into the show was wow. i relate to her very much and she made this character so personal even with just being in bits and pieces of the show

and finally, logainne. god she was SO FUNNY. the interactions between her and her dads, as well as the other spellers, were hilarious but also so real feeling. her actress, taylor,'s dedication to this role really showed and it worked awesome in the character. her appearance and outfit is the BEST for logainne btw??? no ones talking bout that its so so her ...,

^ also since i mentioned leaf's water bottle, logainne had a pride one + barfee had a pokemon cup. i think olive had one but if she did it was in the bleachers so i couldn't see, but i love how all of their bottles (yes even something just SMALL LIKE THAT) represent their characters the details in this show are sjsjd

here is a picture with the adults too! ill talk abt those three next;;

rona. again, had me crying in the stands. she was adorable the whole show though, with her little quips and interchanges !! her + panch were so funny and also shes GORGEOUS?? but her soccer mom teacher type deal is exactly what i picture rona as.

panch reminded me very very much of ron swanson. he was so sarcastic and hes just such a big guy with all these kids it played off so well !! i love so many different interpretations of panch like twink panch and butch panch, but i think this burly panch with his soft, creepy side for rona was my favorite !

and now, lastly, mitch. HE KEPT BUSTING OUT AS THE SIDE CHARACTER WITH THE AMAZINF SINGING VOICE AND IT CAUGHT ME OFF GUARD EVERY TIME ??? mitch himself was so so awesome, the tattoos and drug apparell (i am struggling spelling that) fit so well. and also, he just looks so mitch mahoney doesnt he?? like. the character fits the actor so well id be shocked seeing anything else from them because mitch was the perfect role... again, his brief dynamic with all the kids is so goofy

the set;;

it was so cute and the details in the posters on the wall were so childish it made me giggle. they even advertised their theatre's next production, which will be urinetown!! they had seats ON the stage (which is where i sat, naturally), which i think makes for a fun and realistic effect !! when the spellers were eliminated, theyd sit there (they had reserved spots) :3

its evident that all of the cast members had very good relatioships and play off that REALLY well

a little photo dump of them!! on the MAD theatre social medias, they have more and clips of them, too!! id definitely reccomend checking them out because the show's closed :3

overall; i have so much love for this cast and MORE PEOPLE NEED TO AS WELL!!! so here you go 😊😊

[theclosetedskeleton]

tell me about the self-ish characters pleas😞i do not care how long the post is /nf

GRAJ ALRIGHTY

gotta mentally think about what im gonna say uhhh

SELF- + -ISH

Okay so I imagine them to have been these twins who got,, fused together? something like that. Occasionally one or the other will take control or whatever of the fused body, and that's usually able to be told by the colors that they wear and slight difference in appearance. Both of them wish to be "themselves again", however there isn't really a way for them to be that again. They are the only character that I DONT have a design OR a name/names for, so I'm just gonna refer to each side as their song counterparts. Self- is calm, quiet and more so the emotional one of the two. -Ish is arrogant, worrisome and quick to jump to conclusions. I haven't thought abt separate identities for the two, although (both of) their pronouns are they/them.

2012

okay i actually have a name for this oc so i gotta dig up my sketchbook rq

OKAY BACK

(STOP WHY DO THE PROPORTIONS LOOK LIKE TAHT )

2012's real name is Morana. She's a Theorist, mainly trying to solve some of the wackiest mysteries that the universe she lives in has to offer, but mainly her own. Morana is struck with some sort of unknown illness, one that progressively gets worse. She doesn't remember how she got it, but she remembers when (guys this is gonna be a really hard one to answer,,, hmmmmmmm

she got the illness around 2012).

Her eyes appear abnormally, looking like black doll eyes. Many colorful cracks form on her skin eventually breaking to reveal her inner body. Its the worst on her face, with her having to cover it with a machine that allows her to see that kind of looks like a VR headset. The cracks and abnormalities will eventually lead to her death, and that's what Morana's trying to theorize about. She thinks that if nobody will know how she'll die, she'll figure it out herself before the time comes.

Bit of personality here -- Morana is a Talkative person, yet tends to be an anxious + nervous person. However, along with the Anxiety, she's driven by that (one of those people that are motivated BY anxiety). She's nonbinary, Bi, demisexual, and her pronouns are She/Her.

Cotards solution

Think abt that one friend in the friend group that's off the rails/pos

Loud, dramatic and forgetful a lot of the times, Cotards solution is yet a character shrouded with mystery. Resurrected by unknown forces, a man unknown by, well, everyone enters the scene. Cotards doesn't have a name (not bc I didn't think of one shhhh), mainly because nobody can put a name to the rotting face. He knows and believes he's dead, yet many people don't believe he is. He feels as if the body he has will be at peace if he's dead, because he already is, but everyone will believe he died just for the cause of it.

His body is translucent, and what shows underneath his skin are just his bones. Thats mainly because hes mainly a skeleton with magical counterparts giving him another life (he still has many human features though). Cotards dissociates a lot and tends to stop talking mid-sentence.

Cotards has a third eye. It tends to disappear and reappear, not necessarily with or without a reason. He constantly wears these red three-framed glasses for his eyes. Im not quite sure what else to add uhh. Cotards is gay and uses he/him pronouns.

Mr. Capgras

Mysterious, quiet, and a nervous wreck. Mr. Capgras, first name Victor, is probably the oldest of all of the SELF-iSH characters. Formerly an engineer, Victor struggles with visions and illusions of the sense. Consistently seeing ghosts and hearing voices, not to mention the everlasting fear of everyone being not who they say they are and that they're out to get him !? jesus christ,. someone go get him therapy NOW speaking emoji fire emoji!!!!

He's very paranoid, and will avoid almost any social interaction because of this. He also has really bad trust issues, not mainly bc of his fears, but also because once he gained this strange illness and paranoia, everyone in his life left him. He also gets visions of the same people (the same people in question turn out to be the other SELF-iSH ocs).

He has these blemishes and scars on his skin that don't heal, With beady black eyes like Morana's/2012's. They don't share the same canon illness, however (none of them do, minus one character that ill get to). He is constantly wearing those like. floral designed suits. or just suits in general. idk what's up with that. He's Agender, Panromantic, Grey asexual and uses He/Him pronouns.

The song with 5 names

Your average guy. except uhh we cant have that here, its fused with 4 people (or, more specifically, their minds) . Their original name is Vincent, but is barely called by that name anymore. The four people in question are Morana, Cotards, Victor and the character of "Hand me my shovel, I'm going in!" .

Constantly on edge, hyper and shakes way too much. It changes personalities FAST, Mainly because of the 4 different (mind) fusions. Vincent tends to talk to himself a lot, mainly because it tries to send messages to the 4 of them.

I JUST ACCIDENTALLY DELETED A PARAGRAPH OH MY GOD

Their body is covered in cracks, holes, patterns and abnormalities of the like. Along with this, the abnormalities are never fluid, and are constantly changing. Little physical fact - Vincent had heterochromia, and now thats developed into a cracked beady eye and A completely blank white eye. Vincent uses He/it/they pronouns, and is aroace + genderfluid.

Hand me my shovel, I'm going In!

Burned out + tired character of the ocs. Dawn is a conspiracist/ theorist who tried to find someone that hasn't ever existed. She looks for the answers to a solution of a problem that hasn't even been thought of, yet wont be denied that the person doesn't exist. The person was the love of dawns life, and needs to find an answer as to where they went.

Dawn occasionally sees ghosts from time to time and also experiences hallucinations. One could speculate that the "love of her life" WAS a ghost, but the evidence isn't enough to prove it yet (oh my god making references to the original songs its so fun ANYWAYS).

I imagine Dawn and Morana to be like theorist buddies. what if plot twist the love of her life in question WAS Morana BEFORE the illness?? Except she didnt know Morana changed??? hmmmmm muhahah

Dawn constantly wears suits. Like. you could be going to the motherfucking grocery store and BOOM suit and tie. not the point. Dawn has multiple scars on her face and hands, due to physical injuries. She has dark heavy eyebags, and is pale as a ghost due to malnourishment. Her pronouns are She/her and is a demigirl + lesbian.

Dr. Sunshine (is dead)

by far my most worked on character probably. Dr. Sunshine, Also known as William sunshine (Yes this IS a reference to WW's old work), has been at and through many places at a time. Working with all sorts of magic, the "good" or the "bad" kind, or the things that feel like magic (uhhh drugs), He'll get his hands on. From working as a "doctor" to A ringmaster (I'd go into depth into that but that's a verbal equinox territory), hes done almost all of it. He's done WAY too many bad deeds to be considered "wanted", yet nobody seems to know him.

Charming yet mysterious, It feels like he seems to know everyone. Maybe its because he actually does !!!

Plot twist grahh!!! hes been behind all of the "illness's" and "diseases", and fusions of the like. Yes, even Cotards resurrection. In fact what if i told you that Dr. Sunshine resurrected Cotards to be with him once more !!!! Diversity win! the ocs are gay!

WEHJAKSKS

GETTING OFF TOPIC!!!!! Yes, Dr. sunshine resurrected Cotards to not have to deal with the pain of forever losing him, and when that didnt (seem to) work, he tried fusing him (parts of his mind to be specific) with someone else, however accidentally fusing 3 other people in the process.

Physical features!!! Dr. Sunshine has that Iconic coat i always draw him in, but since there may be other people who read to the end of this, Dr. sunshine has a white doctors/lab coat with many stripes and patterns on it, with (human) eyes on one sleeve. Dr. Sunshine also has a Third eye, and markings/abnormalities covering his body. Dr. Sunshine may or may not be already dead, Its hard to tell as to how many times hes died. Lastly Dr. Sunshine's pronouns are He/him, and hes Bisexual.

CONCLUSION

OH MY GOD. this post is gonna be so fucking long. I hope whoever read this enjoyed reading it because this shit took me 2 hours GRAH

ALSO if this has any errors im sorry bc i wrote this at 4 am for anyone who stumbles across this post later

[chempack]

ok everypony it is now 11pm and i am less sleepy so i will chatter about my oc idea. also @mnikhowozu hi :)

so my working name for him rn is adam white (bonus points if u can figure out the origin of these names. hint: consider some of my other characters names) but i will likely change at least the given name. i’m considering lucas but not sure, i just generally want something Classic European bc i feel like that’s what two mfs named James and Catherine would name their kid (bonus points if it’s biblical). as i’ve said i’m making the character so i can do tale of two wastelands (hopefully. if i can figure out the mod. haven’t tried yet and dk how it works so it might be complicated…) so obviously he starts as the lone wanderer

to contrast charlie (who has always dealt with barely contained rage and loathes his dad, blaming james for all the shit he had to go thru in the wasteland), adam is more forgiving to him. not that he doesn’t also have conflicting and negative feelings abt james, he does, but he also sees him as ultimately a Good Man doing things for the Bettering of Humanity. adam never had much ambition in the vault and was just kinda drifting along as he grew up, was probably gonna be a maintenance worker or something “basic”. he didn’t learn medicine from james because james never bothered to teach him and he never thought to ask to learn. BUT! later in the wasteland — most pointedly after james dies — he takes it on himself to become something of a doctor because he wants to Continue his parents’ Legacy. etc etc

i also have it in mind for him to wear a mask while traveling (think along the lines of the blastmaster helmet. except i’m actually thinking of something from the pitt i just don’t remember the name.) so just imagine this nervous 20 year old in full armor with an assault rifle comes running up to you after you were brutally beaten by a raider or something, one year post-project purity, and he’s like TRUST ME LET ME HELP IM A DOCTOR meanwhile he looks like an overblown raider boss

at his core he is a Coward and, again, not ambitious. chronically indecisive. he Wants to help but he does Not want to risk himself (though of course he does since it’s. kind of the nature of the games if ur playing a mostly-good character). this then leads him to just going along with mr. house when he gets to vegas, because he doesn’t want to rock the boat and, honestly, probably won’t even think to kill house. he has his own opinions, for sure, and he’s not a saint — the choices he does make still are bad at times. but generally, he takes the road of “what is the most helpful at large but also the easiest for Me”

also, i think the followers of apocalypse have a university in california or smth? isn’t that mentioned once or twice in fnv? not sure need to research. and also i’m aware it generally doesn’t really Match for the courier to be the lw but obviously i’m ignoring that for the sake of the mod. but, depending on whatever is going on there, the followers’ university is what i’m currently thinking of for why he went west, and he… idk, gets roped into courier work for money or for a relatively easy way to Help or something, and ends up caught up in new vegas politics

if anyone read this whole thing i love you forever and ever i’m hugging you in my mind palace rn. and if you know anything about this supposed university that i might have just made up in my head then please let me know. okay thank you love you byeee

[susiehunsecker-remade]

i had a paul newman dream again. i was this heiress and/or wife of a rich important guy and we lived in this mansion that was part victorian haunted house and part HGTV beige nightmare. it didn't seem to end and everyone lived in rooms as close as possible to the main wing because people were scared of getting lost.

since i was a wealthy faildaughterwife with nothing better to do i'd just spend all day going through the house and at some point i find this quaint little bedroom in the scary victorian part of the house. i'm looking through it and there's some clothes and a nice looking radio but nothing special. then paul newman comes in and is like what the hell are you doing here? and i go oh my god i'm sorry i didn't think people actually lived here and he goes well i do. i cant remember if he was mad at me. i ask him what he does in the house and he's like i clean the pool, maam. the indoor pool

i go wtf do you mean the indoor pool where is that and he takes his radio and then walks me through this underground tunnel that leads into a garden and im like well this isnt a pool and hes like oh my god lady can't you just wait. and i'm offended but it doesn't last long because he starts leading me through this part of the garden i've never seen before and into this hotel lobby looking place with a couple of sofas and a fridge and a big glass door on the opposite side of the room. i go what's this place for? and he's like..? it's just a room lady, why do you keep asking me all these questions don't you know all the rooms in this house already and im like. um. no... and he looks at me like i'm an idiot.

then paul takes me past the big glass door and i see this gorgeous crystal clear glimmering pool and on the sides theres a bunch of beautiful ferns growing and theres glass ceiling that diffused the sunlight in a really pretty way. then i ask wow!!! can i swim here its so pretty and paul goes Are you stupid? you live here and also it's my job. but i think he starts feeling bad abt constantly being mean to me and goes out to find something I can wear to swim. when he comes back i change and fuck around in the pool for an hour while he listens to his radio, which he's had on him since we left his room. i tell him that he should swim too since he's already here, he goes your dad or husband wont approve of that and im like nahh hes not here most days anyway no harm. he looks at me weird but i convince him to go under the conditions that i take care of his radio for him. he's really obsessed with this radio. It mostly plays static noise which should have been suspicious to me in the dream but I was fucking stupid i guess and didn't realize it was a walkie talkie kind of radio until i hear the voice of my dad or husband talking on it. For the next hour I just sat there nervous while paul newman used our pool. I think he knew something was off bc at some point he just started staring at me which was terrifying bc his eyes are blue as fuck. Anyways the coherent part of the dream ended there, i woke up really sweaty and scared. I also fell asleep in the middle of making this post but I had no dreams there.

[nekioe]

More rambles from discord:

I wanna write a fic with just tiny moments with drunz post prison

Its from punz perspective and it could start on that shore right after the prison break.

Punz is waiting and is nervous and excited over finally seeing dream again. He is a little worried, but most of it is just excitement.

Then they meet and everything goes like it did in canon. There's so many feelings clashing into each other and its hard to actually stay focused and put toghter as they usally are and he leaves feeling relived because he didnt notice the scars and dream seemed fine.

And then the rest is just tiny moments they spend togheter where that relief slowly turns into something more like dread.

One time dream fliches when punz unexpectedly touches him

Another time he freezes completly when punz quickly brings out his axe to chop down a tree or something

He's more quiet than usual, more closed off. Their meatings are short and far in between, its like dream doesn't trust him as much anymore (DAMN U C!SAM I AM GOING TO DO SOMETHING DRASTIC)

The first time punz follows dream "home" to the prison.

Just small stuff like that. Leading up to punz figuring out what actually happened in the prison

Ugehudgshbdvdxjj

If only i could writeeeee

Just punz slowly realizing that the prison was more than they expected. That it did more damage, both physical and mental that neither of them expected.

Im pretty sure both of them knew the prison was gonna be bad. They're not stupid. (only a little). Dream did not expect Sam to betray him in that way, and Punz trusted Dream when he said it would be fine.

I dont think they thought it was gonna be for that long either.

Punz probably expected Dream to be hurt and probably a bit unstable after pandora, but he didn't expect *this*.

Thinking about this also reminded me of that scene where punz tries to convinse purpled to join dream when they destroy las nevadas.

I love the hc that Punz did that either without Dreams knowledge like "i know ur not gonna get your goddamn revenge on your own so im doing this for u >:(" or that Dream didn't really care about whatever happened to quackity but when punz found out abt the torture and he was like "we need to kill this bitch >:(" and dreams like "ughh fineeee" so the they go to purpled

PUNZ HAVING MOMENTS WHEN HE MISSES THE DREAM BEFORE PANDORA ONLY TO IMEDIATLEY FEEL GUILTY ABOUT IT

UHEUEUUEERRRHSU

I AM INSANE

THEYRE INSANE

I CANT HELP IT

[yuukei-yikes]

it makes me so glad u like my saeru post bc honestly i get so scared sharing my kagepro opinions in this cold world but like yeah it's makes zero sense whenever i see people try to view saeru the same way they view the other characters bc that's seriously not the point😭. saeru is like sad from an objective standpoint but in kagepro's narrative alone he's what is holding the characters back from developing and gaining happiness. like the only thing abt him is that he's a fabricated shallow version of what being human is like and even then hes only the horrible parts bc he was created from despair. he's meant to be azami's, and by extent all of the mkdn and co's trauma holding them back. if someone tries to find any understanding in his actions then it defeats the whole purpose of his character. a true saeru fan wouldnt try to find empathy in his character but that sounds a bit crazy uhm. anyway sorry for the long ask just kagepro's narrative is so special to me so it makes me a bit insane. *closes the door to my cage and locks it*

1. i totally get you. ive been into kagepro for almost 10 years, ive grown up with it but only started sharing my content when i made this blog (like 5 years ago) and while ive always been loud abt my opinions i think im only NOW like REAAAAAALLY letting loose. i know what it's like to be nervous abt sharing ur opinions lol but u should keep doing it even if u think no one is listening bc someone IS listening and even if someone isnt WHATEVER i love living in delusion talking to myself that's what i do best

2. EXACTLY EXACTLY IT IS SO SO REFRESHING TO SEE SOMEONE GET IT SO PERFECTLY AND PUT IT INTO WORDS SO PERFECTLY TOO like i barely have anything to add because u just say it so perfectly. saeru IS a tragic character in the way it is created from despair like u said but the fact is that since it cannot feel anything like love u can never truly feel bad for it when it dies... it never wanted to help kenjirou, or save hiyori, or give haruka his life back. its purpose through and through is to keep killing everyone precisely because it brings tragedy. like sure it wants to live forever etcetcetc but what it wants to do is bring misery bc that's what it is

i think ppl are generally bad with characters like these because they try to give everyone a humanity?? like with alien characters for example. like it's such a pet peeve to me that people always wanna apply human principles and feelings to characters that are not... human. and the whole point is that they don't understand it and have to learn it or they just understand it differently or like in this case are straight up incapable of it. like this is so interesting. it is so interesting to have a character u will NEVER truly understand fully precisely because of your existence as a human vs their fictional non human existence. THAT'S the kind of thing that's so fun and interesting abt fiction and writing stories and characters, i think. srry that's kind of an unrelated rant that could apply to dozens of characters but here specifically it's like... yeah. there is definitely something interesting in humanizing saeru and making it be one of these characters who learn what love is and etc but that comes at the expense of kagepro's message and the question is why do u even wanna do that so bad. saeru is not THAT lovable anyway fuck that guy fr

because in my professional kagepro experience and here i am about to get a little bitter, 90% of the time it comes from being horny over omg posessed sexy anime boy bc ive never seen ANYONE objectifying clearing when its in kenjirou's body‼️‼️‼️ personally, that's also why im so UGH EYE ROLL at ppl sympathizing saeru but that's more personal lmao. *shakes fist* like mamoru miyano was 1000% chosen as haruka's va thinking primarily of saeru, secondarily of konoha, and haruka as the oh well he's here too ig. i am so sure. i am so DAMN SURE. u got sexy anime voice guy???? are you SERIOUS??? AND THE FACT HE VOICES SAERU EVEN WHEN NOT POSESSING KONOHA AND SOUNDS...LIKE THAT... MAKES IT MORE THAN CLEAR. THEY WANTED PEOPLE TO OBJECTIFY SAERU SO BAD. AND THE WORST IS THAT IT WORKED AND I WILL ALWAYS HATE IT FOR IT.

...........anyway. yes. i love long asks ty for writing to me and reading my tags and also for writing that awesome post (bow bow bow bow)🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

[snailfen]

(regarding the five pebbles and seven red suns ship) i feel like when it comes to the iterators either interpretation could be valid?? like some people interpret them as friends, some interpret them as family

like, lttm says "one of [pebble's] friends" when talking about suns, and then suns themselves says (paraphrasing a bit) "as a long time friend" on the pearl they send to him

in regards to the ancients calling themselves the iterators parents, i always felt like it was akin to the way some religious people say that everyone is a children of [insert god here] or something, like a metaphor

sorry for the anon jumpscare i'm a bit nervous, the last thing i want is to be called a pr/shitter- i just personally have always interpreted them as friends

no no youre good cus im not looking to cause shit myself! im just confused. if anything i was nervous to ask anything cus ive heard some people in the rw discord are quick to dispute this whenever its brought up about shipping the two and as someone whos been around fandom for a long time thats a preeeetty bad sign.

also same here abt seeing suns and pebs as just friends, its just that now that ive returned to rw a few years later and looked into the lore pearls again that i think its implied that iterators would see eachother as somewhat related perhaps?

i didnt think about the iterators being considered like "children of (godlike figure)" but in hindsight, thats also a possibility. In the lore pearl that this is brought up they also say that five pebbles is "their gift to the world" or something like that, and that seems to fit with that theme as well...

and yeah, when it comes to all forms of art, no interpretation is truly wrong. i think the main point that bothers me aside from the possibly siblings stuff is i feel like this isnt what people should be getting out of the iterators plotline? like shipping is fun. it is for fun. im not gonna go after people for that! but i also feel like people should be taking a step back and appreciating the characters for what they are and not for what they could be. if that makes sense?

about your second point, i have something to say about that but its MAJOR downpour spoilers, specifically for the rivulet and the spearmaster campaigns so im just gonna put it under a readmore

in the rivulets campaign, when asking the rivulet to do one last thing for him, pebbles calls moon "an old friend" himself (in fact thats what the achievement for finishing rivulet is called). moon very explicitly sees pebbles as a younger brother and expresses this at the end of the campaign. and in the spearmasters campaign theres those satellite things that show iterator logs when touched, and we get to see 2 iterators (from what i assume to be a neighboring group) gossiping about pebs, one of them brings up the fact that pebs was built near moon and the other asks "Isn't she his senior enough to the point where she calls herself 'Big Sis Moon'?". Its much more explicit that moon views her group as her younger siblings but pebs still calls her an old friend of his regardless!

last of all, someone said this in the tags of my post but looking at the lore pearl convo between pebbles and suns as well as the one between suns and wind really gives suns the impression of an older sibling, at least it does to me. also, back to those satellites in the spearmasters campaign, suns says that pebbles always looked up to them and they never took that lightly. srs is someone pebbles considers close because he looks up to him!

Their dynamic is something interesting to me now bc of downpour and im all about bullshitting and reading into things a little bit more for ships, but looking at SRS and FP.... how do i describe it. i dont really feel like theres SPACE for shipping in this case? like it wouldnt be necessarily invalid but its kinda missing the Point of the spearmasters campaign i feel. infact i feel like this is the only reason people see seven red suns as male despite none of the other iterators having specified genders (unless the dlc confirmed a gender for suns, then i missed that). anyways this last paragraph is just me rambling oops

[1d1195]

midnight memories has some different type of magic injected in it i swear because that album is perfect. you have great taste i absolutely adore both those albums <333

YOURE NOT STUPID !!!! like seriously don’t even worry abt it i don’t expect to remember everything we talk abt i just thought i might’ve mentioned a song that reminded me of him but i might have completely made that up in my head so who knows lol ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ also seriously you’re way too hard on yourself about these things because what you give us is ABSOLUTELY perfect. like. i don’t even know how to describe it but every time i see you’ve posted something i truly get sooooo happy. so be as original as you want or go over the same tropes and lines a million times, we’ll all love it and support you no matter what !!💞🫶 (also i think all of us here truly don’t mind if you do the same tropes/scenes with different characters i think all fanfic readers go over the same stuff again n again and we eat it up every time😂😂)

OMG YES THANK YOU FOR REMINDING ME !!! ofc i finished it haha i was literally stalking your page waiting for the last part😭 i canNOT tell you how much i loved it. i’ve literally reread it so many times THEYRE JUST SO CUTE. and i think i see myself a lot in that specific character because i was homeschooled like halfway through my schooling and all the people i used to know moved to a different state and so i just became like this awkward girl who didn’t understand parties, sucked at socializing, and would rather hangout in her room and read all night so i totally understand the feeling of not fitting in with people your age😭😭 NOT TO SOUND SAD AHAH I CAN PULL OUT THE EXTROVERT IN ME WHEN I NEED TOO BUT I JUST REALLY GET HER AND I LOVE HER SM SM SMMM I WANNA GIVE HER A HUG

her being a little nervous about their first time and worrying she’s gonna be bad in bed was SO real AND THE CAR RIDE THERE WHEN HE SAID SHE CANT TALK BECAUSE HE REALLY WANTS TO LISTEN BUT HE CANT LISTEN BECAUSE HE NEEDS TO MAKE SURE HE GETS HER THERE SAFELY UGHHH MY HEART MELTEDDD☹️🥺

another part i found funny was the “omg this is the perfect place for you to murder me 👀” and the way she laid out the whole plan JSDGHAAKKA just them💞💞💞💞💞💞 the fluff at the end was sooooo amazing and the way he was so reassuring about everything she was anxious about before. and them being a lil domestic and going grocery shopping together😭😭😭😭 loved seeing that little glimpse of how they work together alone. i can totally see them getting their own little apartment after graduation like if they decide to go to grad school or get internships or jobs or something idk but they’d be so cute living together officially

I AM SO SOOO SORRY THIS IS SO LONG BUT I ALWAYS ENJOY TALKING TO YOU AND I HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT DAY MWAH

~🎶

I find 1D’s discography is best listened to in certain seasons. So TMH is a summer album. Four is for Fall. Midnight Memories I have a hard time pinning sometimes but I’m a big fan of blasting Strong this time of year when the temp is warming up where I live. MITAM is a winter album to me but obviously I’m listening to them all year round 😂

I’m 😭 thank you for being so supportive it means the world to me. I feel so UNoriginal sometimes but I just love the idea of love and unfortunately there’s only so many ways I can make my couples say I love you hehehe

IM SO GLAD YOU LIKED IT!!! That’s so cool you were homeschooled! I’ll have about 10009 more questions for you but I need a moment to think about them and ask but I was NOT homeschooled and I feel the very same way about you. I’m a wicked introvert in an extroverted world so it’s ROUGH and WAS rough all throughout college. I still feel stupid most of the time in social situations.

Not to sound egotistical, but loved the little part in the car about getting her there safely 🥰🥰 and the serial killer part was just something to keep it a little funny 😂 so glad you enjoyed!!!

Thank you SO much for envisioning a life after college because now I have some ideas for follow ups!! 👀👀👀

NEVER apologize for long messages. It’s my entire life! I love it! Hope you’re having a good day too!

Xoxo

[pandapupremade]

Oghghg i forgot how much i loved shin-ah ...i went thru my blog collecting pics of him for my phone and i hghghg he deserves the world and I'd like to give it to him

[joskippy]

I am being haunted by carlos in the hit nightvale book It Devours!

[kyuala]

7 minutes in heaven with treasure

these are all assuming ur comfortable w it of course! a tiny bit suggestive in yedam's part but that's it. enjoy!

hyunsuk

no 'cause he was sure your name wasn't gonna come out and when it does he just stands there like 😬 bc he knows what's coming

takes the loooooongest time to walk into the damn closet 'cause he just can't believe this is happening and he's sure ur gonna back out any second now

so so so nervous once inside omg homeboy definitely fits the "scratching the back of his neck" cliche it's so cute

tries to change the subject constantly to create a distraction like oh this random old box sitting on a shelf is suddenly so interesting i wonder whats in there what do u think its in there and its like hyunsuk do u even know the purpose of this game

wont make a move and will not BELIEVE u when u do either. hes just staring at you mouth hanging open eyes the size of saucers when u start getting close to him but his hands instinctively go to ur waist hehe

keeps giggling into the kiss and going "sorry im so nervous" nooooooo

won't stop cheesing when he walks out even through all the teasing but just one look at the boys will get them acting straight <3

jihoon

his friends are teasing him but he's teasing YOU

literally has that dumbass smirk on his face the ENTIRE time from the moment your name is called out up until you are both inside that closet

no roundabouts he wants to jump straight into it LMAO

like he's Calm but he's still teasing you in a way that u know what he wants but also he lets u know yall dont have to do anything ur not comfortable with u know

which is code for I Am Here If You Want Me Too. like he's so insufferable he will not put his money where his mouth is and just make a fucking move, no he wants you to come to him 🙄

if u give him the satisfaction he'll be the smuggest mf on this planet. but also he'll match his pace to yours like u want some soft kissing and his fingers lightly caressing your hips? he's got that. you want his mouth to devour yours while his hand is all tangled up in your hair? he's definitely got that too

im feeling faint this is sickening

i will say this a lot throughout this post but he's the king of walking out w your hand in his feeling like a million bucks biggest smirk you have ever seen on his fucking face like he invented that

yoshi

soooo so so shy like he wont look u in the eyes from the moment it's decided you'll both go into the closet u will not catch sight of his eyeballs

probably stands outside until you have to INVITE him in. he's like a vampire

VERY awkward only speaks when you ask him a question or make a passing comment abt something. then he starts relaxing a little and even joking around a bit to calm down

if you make a move on him i mean he will not complain but if it's up to him he'll only kiss you when there's like 40 seconds left for you guys to go back into the living room 😭 then when jihoon bangs on the door he's like "wait already??" all clueless n shit 🤕

wont immediately sit down by your side when y'all walk out bc he doesnt want to seem clingy or scare you but u can surely feel him gravitating towards u for the rest of the night

literally most likely to text u after the night's over to let u know he enjoyed it a lot then locks his phone and throws it on his bed kicking his feet giggling etc etc

junkyu

when both of y'all names get called out he's just frozen in place with that one surprised smile on his face like 😃

tries to convince both of your friends that maybe he doesn't need to go through with this at all or there must've been a mistake when picking the names

has to be shoved into the closet with you and you'd think he doesn't want this but he just wants it too much and is freaking out about it (you can hear jihoon's "THANK ME LATER" through the door)

probably goes straight into apology mode for his friends' behavior bc he just assumes you don't want to be there and when ur like no seriously it's cool being stuck in a closet with you isn't so bad wink wink he's like Oh ?

that's when his whole demeanor changes like you can actually see the gears turning in his head and he starts powering through his stuttering words to shyly flirt with you and it's the cutest thing in the whole world 😫

feel like making a move is 50/50 for junkyu. he waits for you to do it first but if you don't he will and thats a threat

his kisses are so soft and his hands never leave your waist or your cheek. probably doesn't want to go past that tho like he'll barely be able to breathe if ur hands start going down his body please dont do this to him rn 🤕

will not hear the end of thissss from his friends but his blushy cheeks n the smile that doesnt leave his face for the rest of the night tell u that maybe he doesn't want to

mashiho

super calm when he finds out it's going to be you but on the inside he's like FUCK YEAAAAAAA

a true Gentleman, opens the door for you and gestures for you to go inside first with a soft smile

honestlyyyy if mashi is already comfortable w you, he's going all in in no time 😶 like he'll really be talking about the coat hangers while simultaneously backing you up against the wall like it's nothing

if y'all are not that comfortable w each other yet he'll still be giving you The Eyes and The Smile and you'll know. You Will Know

type to sigh into the kiss, to smile against your lips, to squeeze your hips (or ass if you let him 😶‍🌫️) real tight, to get you out of breath, to wait for you to catch it while caressing your skin under your shirt and looking intently at your lips...... this man has got it ALL he makes me crazy in da head

also the type to be like wanna get out of this uncomfortable ass closet? and ur like ? we still got like 2 minutes tho and he's like idk about you but i plan on kissing you the whole night so we got a little bit longer than that, actually

so satisfied with himself when y'all walk out he can't even hear all the teasing it's like the comments bounce off of his puffed chest right onto the floor 'cause all that matters is you pressed up against his side

yea good luck surviving him 🥰

jaehyuk

probably pulls your name himself lmao this game is rigged and he doesnt even care to hide it

big hand on ur back kinda guy, guides you to the closet letting everybody know ur business and what's about to go down

probably doesn't go straight to the point, keeps his hands on your sides, fingers going in circular motions on ur skin, just talking to you to make sure you're comfortable with this. and teasing you a little bit too this is jaehyuk we're talking about

as soon as he gets the okay tho? boy is making MOVES

like seriously bro he will not let a single second of those seven minutes go to waste when making out with you in there, he'll devour you if you let him

type to bite ur lips and smile against your mouth but you did NOT hear it from me

walks out proudly with your hand in his and responds to every teasing comment with "yes and...?" like he's sure you'll get ur turn sometime jeongwoo u can sit down now

asahi

tell me why this is the most he's ever hated his friends

i feel like the ONLY reason he'd ever willingly go into that goddamn closet is so you don't get the wrong message and think he's not into you and get upset. 'cause we all know you cannot get hamada asahi to do something he doesn't want to

probably not as awkward as you'd think he'd be once inside. if the air's stuffy and you feel stiff then that's on you he's chilling

there is a certain tension in the air bc of the nature of your....situation but he will let you know it's cool to just hang out in silence for 7 minutes in a random dark closet if that's what you want

absolutely will not make a move on you but if you wanna try something he is opennnn

doesn't get past a couple kisses tho, he's not about to get freaky in the aforementioned random dark closet

tries his best to keep his mind blank when y'all finally have to walk out of there and face your friends and fails SPECTACULARLY you can see the blush in his cheeks and ears spreading all the way down to his neck and chest and it's super cute

yedam

God answers prayers and they're all yedam's

tries so hard to make it seem like he's chill but gestures for you to walk inside first just to then immediately do the same thing and bump into you bc his brain is malfunctioning

i feel like this is baseline for yedam but.... panicked AND confident? thats his brand.

has a certain nervousness about him but is able to put that down in like a minute or two, tops

will make a move LMFAO are we not being real here. but will make it seem 100% seamless and smooth with how he gets you talking and laughing and more relaxed before sneakily placing a hand on your waist and then ur like Oh .

i don't think he'd go in with the intention of taking this too much further like he's VERY okay with just some heated making out but if hands were to inevitably slip past hemlines.......... WHO is he to say no to you honestly

noooooo 'cause i have this very clear image of him walking out with either ur hand in his or his hands on ur hips and he's got this smug smile on his face but he's not an idiot about it and he feels on top of the world like that is so yedam.

doyoung

so surprised when ur name gets called out i can just imagine him going "oh my god??" out loud like in that one iconic fancall

all shy smiles and gentlemanliness like really the type to open the door to this dank ass cubicle and be like "after you (=^ω^=)"

kind of shy but not in a way that he clams up?

his main concern is making sure you feel respected and comfortable so his thoughts are all about it but also how does he convey to you that he's dts (down to smooch)

i also dont think he'd make a move like. at all. out of respect for you

even if he does keep complimenting you and making conversation to ease the tension

if u guys do end up kissing everything is so so soft w him like he truly TRULY is the type to break a kiss to giggle and u can still feel his lips so so close to yours and it tickles and that just makes u guys giggle even more i cant do this

tell me why i have this v clear image of him walking out of the closet first to protect u from the onslaught of teasing (hand holding optional) and while he takes it all with a coy smile on his face he just pumps his fist into the air in victory after like 5 seconds

haruto

no cause he'd be SO BASHFUL

literally doesnt look you in the eye and when u ask him if he wants to go in first or if u should his mouth does a keyboard smash irl cause his brain just cant comprehend

when ur like ok! i'll do it 😊 he thinks he falls in love. ruto sensitive guy agenda is alive and well

once inside i feel like it wouldn't be awkward but he'd just be quiet. kind of afraid of messing up (what he believes to be) his one shot with you u know? 😕

won't make a move 'cause he's too paralyzed by the way you look under the dim light like he seriously can't think this isnt a joke

probably keeps his arms at his sides once you go and kiss him LMFAO and it's super cute 'cause he just doesnt know what to do but u can tell he's slowly getting more confident by how smoother his kisses become and how firmer his grip on ur hips gets

when he walks out he can feel his whole face burning but as the night goes on you keep noticing how he tries to stay close to you and how he keeps teasing and annoying you as he becomes more comfortable in ur presence

jeongwoo

was praying so hard for this you could probably look over at him and catch him mouthing and chanting your name when jaehyuk's trying to bring a little suspense to the game and taking forever to pull the names out

sighs in relief when he hears it's you but then freezes in place 'cause oh my god did they just see me do that

doesnt even do anything once inside the closet tho LMFAO like ruto is right outside the door ear pressed up against it to catch any goss and he's like r yall alive????

honestly the chances of jeongwoo actually making any sort of move are so low bc he thinks staring at you non-stop already means the ball's in your court

will be sooooooo happy when u pull him in for the kiss though like oh my god you can see it in his face. his kisses are probably a lil clumsy at the beginning but he's a fast learner he'll get the hang of this soon enough

either stays quiet at his friends' teasing or says something dumb to defend the both of you but it's endearing bc it's jeongwoo and he's blushing and stuttering over his words and he's jeongwoo

u can tell he keeps eyeing you for the restttt of the night and he only looks away when you catch him like half the time

junghwan

speechless but cant stop smiling

so respectful with the space he keeps from you while walking into the closet you'd think he's still social distancing

barely says a word aside from like "our friends are......" and then a Sigh but he's v v open to whatever you wanna talk about

so immersed in the chit chat he doesn't even think about the situation u guys are in until there's a silence and he Remembers

also won't make a move like he won't even hold your hand unless you reach out first

i feel like junghwan's heart can rly only handle 1 (One) shy kiss like the rest of the time will be spent holding hands and idly making conversation even though all he can think about is how he wants to kiss you again so bad

stays silent when u walk out of the closet even if there's teasing and he's barely able to look you in the eyes for the rest of the night

blushes whenever he speaks to you again

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[hwangsies]

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seo changbin x afab reader

warnings: piercer/tattooartist!changbin, descriptions of piercings, pain and needles, also boobs and bad flirting

2.4k words

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a/n: im not a piercing specialist and dont have nipple piercings myself so forgive me if some things dont add up lol

a/n2: found this in my drafts, idk why i never posted it, ig i didnt like something abt it but i’ll just post it before i remember what it was :)))

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A little bell jingles when you step foot into the tattoo and piercing studio, your hands rubbing against each other nervously.

You look around, the interior is chic and simple in mostly grey and black with pictures of big tattoo artpieces hanging here and there as decoration.

"hey" a male voice shifts your attention to the front desk "you're y/n?" one of his hands is holding a computer mouse as he looks at you expectantly.

He's wearing a simple black tshirt that fits his broad frame perfectly, his muscular arms are almost completely decorated in tattoos.

The black ink crawling up his neck on one side.

You realize you've been staring and clear your throat "yea, sorry"

He grins, his plump lips revealing perfeclty straight teeth and a beautiful smile as his eyes form into crescents.

"its fine, people usually come in here with the jitters" he chuckles as he clicks on some stuff on the computer.

"can i see some id please?" he turn back to you.

"Oh, yea" you quickly pull out your wallet from your purse before handing him your id.

You hope he doesnt spend too much time looking at that god awful picture, but he just nods "alright" before handing it back to you.

"you're here for nipple piercings correct?" he looks at you to confirm.

"Yes" you answer shortly.

"Okay" he smiles "i'm Changbin by the way, and i'll be piercing you today"

Your face falters a little "oh, i - was told, uhm...a yeji would pierce me on the phone" you recall your telephone conversation a few days back with a very nice girl that worked here.

"Yea, she had a family emergency so im filling in as much as i can but if you're uncomfortable with me doing it we can rescedule, no problem" he explains, you're happy he didnt take it personally since you obviously didnt want to offend him.

Would you have preferred if a girl did it? yea

Are you scared to show the hot guy your boobs? yea

But you came all this way and dont want your adrenaline to go to waste. Plus you're not sure you're gonna go through with it if you reschedule now so you quickly shake your head.

"Oh im sorry to hear that" you refer to her family emergency "but its fine, we dont have to reschedule"

"Great" he smiles "you can hang your jacket and bag over there" he points to a little wardrobe built into the wall.

"I'm gonna lock the door too so nothing will get stolen" he says, fishing out a pair of keys from a drawer before walking around the desk towards the door.

"Oh, I'm the last one for today?" you inquire as you hang up your jacket and handbag.

"Yea" he nods as he turns the key "lets hope you dont keep me for too long" he jokes, winking.

You feel warmth creeping up your neck but he doesnt notice, quickly walking back to drop the keys back into the drawer.

"alright follow me" he announces, grinning when you walk towards him hesitantly.

"m'lady" he holds the first black courtain of many in that hall open for you.

A small window is in the large cabinet but changbin turns on the lights, which almost burn off your cornea.

"sorry" he giggles when he sees you squint "i know they're bright but we gotta see everything" he explains and you nod slowly.

Great, you think. That doesnt make it even more nerve racking, no.

"You can sit down" he gestures towards the black leather seat.

"okay" you mumble as he begins to unpack sterile needles and lays out cotton pads.

"Do you already have some piercings? Other than your ears?" he asks, making conversation since he can probably tell how nervous you are.

"Uh, no" you shake your head, watching as he pulls a black latex glove over his right hand.

"So, why nipple piercings hm?" He grins as he pulls one over his left hand.

"uh, i dont know it was either this or get a boob job" you confess at which he raises his brows.

"Hows that?" He chuckles at which you loosen up a little, smiling yourself.

"Uh-i just dont really like the way my nipples look so i thought id try this" you shrug your shoulders "plus my friend got it done recently and it looks really hot"

"It is hot" he agrees, pulling a little stool on wheels towards him before sitting down on it and adjusting the height.

You press your lips together when he sits right across from you.

"you ready?" he asks, cocking up one brow. At which you nod "mhm".

"Okay" he laughs "take off your shirt, please"

"right" you chuckle awkwardly as you grab the hem of your shirt and pull it over your head.

"dont worry, you wouldnt believe the amount of boobs, balls and penisses ive seen in these walls" he chuckles when you place your shirt on a bystanding chair.

"people pierce their balls?" you laugh incredulously as you reach back to unclasp your bra.

"well, actually the scrotum, but i'll spare you the details" he huffs.

"thanks" you joke at which he laughs again.

Quickly, you unhook the clasps on your bra and pull it off.

Your nipples instantly hardening at the lack of warmth around them.

"alright" chabgbin barely bats an eye at your exposed tits and grabs the bottle of alcohol and pours some on a cotton pad.

"m'gonna touch you now okay?" he quickly glances up at you, at which you nod.

One of his hand gently holds just above your right breast to stabilize as the other swipes the damp cotton pad over your right nipple.

"You definetly dont need a boob job" he mumbles "i know its none of my buisness but- you're- uh" he swallows as he throws away the cotton pad "you're good" he nods.

"oh...thanks?" you press your lips together, was that a normal thing for him to say to clients? He was probably just trying to get you more comfortable, right?

"how badly does it hurt?" You ask when he picks up something you're guessing to be a clamp of some sort, also to eliminate the awkward silence.

"Its bad, but only for like two seconds, i promise" you lock eyes and you nod, somehow having no doubt that he wouldnt lie to you.

He sterilizes a needle before placing the clamp with his other hand.

"Okay, this is it, you ready?" he grins.

"No" you mewl at which he chuckles.

"You can close your eyes, if you want and i'll count down" you nod at his suggestion.

"okay, relax" you listen to his voice "deep breath in for me, alright?"

You nod and breath in deeply "okay, one" he starts "two" and before he even finishes saying two he pushes the needle through.

A sharp pain stealing away your breath and heating up your nipple immensly.

"fucking shit" you only exhale after he pushed through the metal bar.

Opening your eyes, you see changbin grinning as he puts down the needle.

"good job" he grins at you as he takes another cotton pad "its not as bad when you dont expect it"

Your cheeks heat up at his praise but you hope he just thinks its because of the pain.

You feel like the second one hurts even worse, maybe because you let your guard down but you're not sure.

"looks great" changbin grins as he takes off his gloves.

"you think?" you look down and he chuckles "hell yea, look in the mirror if you dont believe me" he cocks up one of his brows.

"okay" you smile timidly.

Changbin tidies up his working space as you step in front of the big mirror hanging in the back of the room.

"wow" you say, leaning fowards to get a better look.

"you like it?" he comes up behind you.

"yea" you nod "its different but i really like it, thank you" you smile.

"im glad" he grins "dont worry the swelling will go down"

You smile and nod "okay"

"so, uhm get dressed and i'll wait for you out front okay?"

"yea, sure" you agree, your face getting hot when you realise that you are still topless.

-

"so, uhm we-we could schedule a follow up appointment if-...you like" changbin stutters as he puts the money you just payed him into a little black register.

"oh i didnt know i needed one" you push some hair behind your ear before closing your purse.

"well, no you dont uh" changbins cheeks flush when you lock eyes again "i thought i could uhm you know, check up on you maybe over dinner or something" he scratches his head.

"oh you're asking me on a date?" you ask, your tone sounding a little too incredulously.

“is that so crazy?” he asks, a little more timidly now,making you feel bad.

“no-no, i’m just not really looking for anything serious right now i guess” you mumble, scratching your head before you lock eyes “you know, my ex was a handful, i-”

“its alright” he smiles, somewhat disappointed but still friendly as he walks around the front desk and escorts you to the door; holding it open for you.

“if you change your mind, you know where to find me” he smiles before you say your goodbyes.

-

You take a deep breath before pressing down the handle of the tattoo studios door three weeks later.

Part of you feels pathetic to schedule an appointment just to see changbin again but you couldnt get him out of your head, especially not after your friends went furious when they heard that you rejected the sweet handsome stranger.

So here you are.

This time its busy inside, a few people sitting in the louge area and looking at tattoo motives, and two different employees standing behind the reception.

The guy is talking to a young man when the young woman calls you over to her.

"hey, im yeji, welcome to Dark Ink Studios" she grins.

"hey, um i have an appointment for a helix piercing at" you check your phone to see the time "uh right now" you look back up.

She giggles "alright, y/n is it?" she looks up from the computer.

"yes" you smile.

"okay it says here that you asked for changbin, he's still with a client right now but he should be done in 10" yeji clicks on the mouse before smiling at you.

"uh yea, okay i'll wait" your hands get sweaty, you didnt know they would put that in the system...damn thats embarrassing.

"great, you can just take a seat over there" she points to a big leather couch.

You look around the first few minutes you're seated before taking out your phone and texting back some friends.

When you look up, you see changbin stand at the reception, talking to yeji.

He grins and looks over to you when yeji, very indiscretely points at you.

Your face gets hot instantly when you lock eyes. He wraps up the conversation with his collegue before walking over to you.

"you're back" he grins when you get up from your seat.

"yea- uh you were really good and i've wanted a helix for a while so i thought why not" you ramble, making him grin before he starts walking, signalling you to follow him.

"thats nice, its not often people ask for me by name" he comments.

"really?" you ask, dumb question, why would he lie?

"yea, especially not pretty girls that rejected my advances" he grins as he holds open the black curtain for you to walk through.

You swallow at his flirting, cmon y/n, be witty, say something.

"well- you were cool, so..." you say as you walk inside the small room, very witty y/n, good job.

He laughs softly "thanks, uhm, take a seat” he points to the same chair you sat on a few weeks back.

You sit down and watch as he pulls his material together, he’s not wearing a tshirt today unfortunately. But the tight turtleneck sweater he is wearing, doesnt leave less to the imagination than the tshirt did.

“so” he picks up the conversation, slightly turning around to you and probably catching you staring at his arms “how are the nips?” he grins when you visibly cringe at his choice of words.

“ew” you laugh “why would you ask it like that”

“sorry” he giggles “i wanted to sound cool, like i said, not alot of pretty girls come back just for me”

“i didnt come back just for you” you counter playfully, even though you know deep down, its a lie.

“hm” he turns around fully, leaning back against the wall next to his tray and crossing his arms, biceps bulging.

“you know, today was my day off and i only came in because yeji told me that you asked for me specifically” he grins somewhat embarrassedly.

You open your mouth to reply, even though you’re not really sure what to say but he beats you to it.

“well, actually thats not true she said someone asked for me by name and i said i dont care i need my fucking day off” he chuckles, making you huff “but then she said your name and...well here i am”

He bounces one of his legs as if he’s nervous, which makes you giddy because does he not know what he looks like? How could he be nervous in your presence?

But you’re not complaining, just blinking at him and processing what he just told you.

“okay, truth be told i dont really want this piercing that much” you blurt out, at which changbin lens back his head against the wall in laughter.

“I just hated myself for saying no to going out with you since i got home that night because i thought you were really sweet and well...hot ” you can physically feel your palms sweat as you’re saying the words.

“-still think” you correct yourself when he comes to stand in front of you, holding out one hand for you to take.

You take it and stand up to face him.

“thank god you said that” he grins “Imagine what a fool i wouldve made of myself” you chuckle.

“yea, same” you huff, and you’re pretty sure he can feel your heartbeat in your fingertips.

“so i can take you out on a date some time then?” he asks, grinning confidently now.

“yea, i would like that” you smile back, biting at the rosy flesh of your lower lip when his eyes flicker to your lips.

“can i kiss you?” you hear yourself say and can barely believe such a confident sentence just left your lips, ready to run incase he says no; but he just grins even bigger and presses his lips against yours.

[leossmoonn]

okay okay back to regular scheduled programming

god forbid you ask matt to take care of the kids bc you know for a fact that this man will do literally ANYTHING they ask

"daddy we should go get ice cream!"

"daddy can we go to the pool even though it's 40° outside and it's closed?"

"daddy can we eat from that fancy restaurant you took mommy that one time?"

literally the two of them cld ask for the moon and he wld figure out a way to get them the moon (which i guess isnt a bad thing but it's not a good thing either)

tldr matt spoils the kids bc theyre too smart for their own good and you eventually have to put a hold on your credit cards bc of it😭

Matt and Jack Pearson have the same energy

Matt cannot stand the kids being disappointed. Especially his little princess Jackie. She’s the reason why Percy and her get anything they want.

And you know abt Matt’s soft spot but you two don’t want to pay for a sitter and plus, Matt wants to spend time with the kids. You just have to hope that you still have money in your account and your husband comes back the same way you left him lmao.

Omg imagine the kids ask him to go to the humane society and adopt a cat🌝. This might end up being a very important concept post as I might add another member to the murdock family hehe

Matt is kinda on the fence abt this. You guys don’t live in an apartment anymore since you have a family now, but he’s not sure of your stance on cats + he doesn’t know if Buddy will like it

But again, he hears the sadness in Jackie’s voice and he can’t stand his little girl being sad, especially if he was the cause

So he takes them to the humane society or like a nearby shelter.

“Hi, are you looking to adopt?” The woman at the front desk asks

“Um maybe. My kids just wanted to look at the cats. We probably won’t adopt anything since my wife isn’t there.”

“Alright, no problem. Here are our cats.”

She leads them to the cages where the cats are and OMG THEYRE SO CUTE. Most of them are like almost a year old and there are some that are like 8 and just two months.

“See any you like?” Matt asks.

“This one!” Jackie exclaims. “What does it look like baby?” Matt asks.

“It’s an orange tabby with green eyes!”

He can hear the excitement in his daughter’s voice and he grows afraid he won’t be able to say no

“How old is it?”

“She’s about seven months old. She’s litter box trained, too,” the woman said.

“Can we hold her?” Percy asks. “If it’s alright with your dad,” the woman says.

“Yeah, that’s fine.” Lmao Matt is diggin himself into a hole

The woman lets the two hold the cat and he can just tell that Jackie is falling in love

Also I just wanna say, I feel like Buddy is more Percy’s dog in terms of which child bonded and takes care of him more. Jackie adores Buddy, but she just feels like he’s more of everyone else’s dog and she wants a pet for herself. Anyways

“Wanna hold her, dad?” Jackie asks.

“Um, sure.” He holds his hand out, first petting the kitten. Ugh her fur is SO. SOFT. He then holds her and the kitten curls up in his arms and starts to purr suuuper loudly. He himself cannot take the cuteness

“What’s her name?” Matt asks.

“The shelter calls her Baby, but you can name her something different.”

“Baby, huh? I can see why,” Matt chuckled as the cat is literally clinging to Matt and rubbing her scent glands on his clothes.

“Would you like to change it to something else?”

“Oh, Im not sure if we are getting —"

“NO DAD PLEASEEEEEEE!” Jackie exclaims. “Jackie, use your indoor voice,” Matt says.

She’s like 🥺🥺🥺🥺 “please dad. I promise I’ll take care of her. She’ll be my baby.”

He knows she’s not lying but he’s so scared you’re gonna kill him…. But ah what the hell. You only live once right

“We’ll take her,” Matt smiles.

Jackie is so excited.

Okay but Matt is nervous when he gets home. He literally cleans the kitchen like 2 times and your guys’s bedroom. He makes Percy clean the living room and he has Percy and Jackie help him with making dinner 😭

You come home, pleasantly surprised. “What’s the special occasion?”

“Oh, nothing. Just wanted to show you how much we love you and appreciate you,” Matt says as he kisses you.

“Mmm,” you hum happily into the kiss. “Well, thank you. I love you all, too.”

“We have something to show you!” Percy exclaims

Matt is ready to throw himself and Percy out the window lmao

“Oh, really?” You raise your brows. “Percy is just kidding,” Matt laughs.

“What?”

“W-Well, he’s not. But we can show you later. Are you hungry? We made your favorite and —”

Then you spot the little tabby cat roaming around the floor. Jackie is trying to catch her lol

“What the hell?” You frown.

Matt looks at you helplessly. “I’m sorry. The kids wanted to see the animals, and Jackie wanted the cat, and I just couldn’t…”

“Couldn’t say no, yeah, I know,” you roll your eyes. You put your coat and shoes by the door, walking over to the cat and successfully catching it. “What’s it’s name?”

“Her name is Baby,” Jackie smiles. Lowk Jackie isn’t even that scared bc she knows this is technically her dads fault (😭😭😭)

You hold the cat up like Simba in The Lion King and study it. “Well, she’s cute.”

“You think?” Matt smiles, hoping you won’t kill him.

“Yeah,” you nod. You bring Baby to your chest and you can’t help but smile as she melts into you. “So, who is taking care of it?”

“Me!” Jackie grins. “Okay. Well, you’re eleven so, I guess you’re old enough,” you say and hand the cat back to her.

“So you’re not mad?” Matt asks.

“No! Not at all!” You laugh.

Yep you’re mad.

Matt nervously eats dinner and when you guys kiss the kids and the pets goodnight, you have a talk w Matt.

“You let her get a cat?”

“I-I —”

“That’s a big responsibility! She doesn’t even do her own laundry!”

“Babe, I know, but —”

“I’m putting a hold on your credit card.”

“What?!”

“You heard me. You or the kids want to buy something, you’ll have to run it by me first.”

“Sweetheart, I’m sorry.”

You sigh and you can tell he is. And you know he’s just trying to be a good dad and give his kids everything because, well, he didn’t get that luxury when he was a kid. You walk over to him and hug him, kissing his cheek softly.

“I know you are. I’m not terribly mad. Honestly, this could’ve been worse. But next time if we want to add another member to the family, or you want to take the kids to the zoo and buy a shit ton of animal plushies, please just wait for me to come home and let me know. I won’t always say no.”

“Yeah,” he nods. “I know.”

You smile and kiss him again. “You’re a great dad, Matt. You have a generous heart. That’s what I love about you.”

He smiles, “I’m glad.”

“But just know, if the cat pisses on our bed or gets into the food, you’re cleaning it up,” you say.

He laughs, “Already was prepared to do those things.”