#i feel so dumb and useless
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got hit with such a wave of sadness it knocked me straight upside the head so hard i got dizzy
#vall txt#having thoughts#i wanted to be an archeologist and then i loved my internship at the museum#i wish i could work at one for real some day#but let's be fr i'm so stupid on my dissertation lord knows i won't be a research any time soon#and like can't even get a job at a supermarket so lmao how the fuck am i getting one at a museum??#i feel so dumb and useless#i should not be a human being i should just be a fungi rooting on a tree
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Imagine coming home after a long day and they just hug you. They hug you in a way that melts all the tension from your muscles, and makes the stresses of the day fade into some distant memory. It’s one of those hugs you feel like you could fall asleep in, but you don’t want to because you want to savor every ounce of it even though you know you’ll get a million more of them
#post#I forgot what I was typing because my partner made me smile and all thoughts disappeared#why does my partner make me dumb 💀#I feel like someone in one of those Disney movies when they talk to their crush and their brain malfunctions 😂#so the words in this post aren’t exactly what I wanted to type but I can’t remember what it was 😂😭#wlw#wlw blog#wlw post#wlw textpost#wlw sapphic#wlw yearning#useless wlw#sapphic#sapphic blog#sapphic post#sapphic textpost#useless sapphic#sapphic yearning#lesbian#lesbian blog#nblw blog#nblw#wlw pride#lesbian post#useless lesbian#nblw post#nblw textpost
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Internet archive please come back alive i need to watch los simuladores with the subtitles
#los simuladores#gabriel medina#mario santos#emilio ravenna#i feel so dumb bc i tried to watch the ones w/o subtitles by understanding the context but the moment santos started rapping abt the#operation i just turned it off bc i understood nothing#useless gringa#my art
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Alright I feel like my problem with the Eustace Winner name (Sebastian my boy I'm so sorry) is that he's a really major character with depth and development.
From the start AA has had really stupid pun names and I loved them. April May, Redd White? I thought those were the best when I was playing ace attorney for the first time.
But characters who were actually important -- Phoenix, Maya, Edgeworth, von Karma, I could be wrong but their names aren't as stupid of puns as Redd White or my beloved Detective Detective Detective (love you gumshoe). I mean, Wright is literally just a play on right, but it's not a phrase, like I feel Eustace Winner (Useless Winner?) Is supposed to be. And Phoenix is a reference to his nature, how he "rises from the ashes", it's about his general overall character and doesn't feel like a mean joke. To me, naming Sebastian Eustace Winner is like if Edgeworth was named Meenin Evil so you know he's a bad guy when you meet him.
Poor Sebastian though, he has a LOT that happens (I never finished aai2 actually but I want to give him a hug and a mug of hot chocolate), hes a very important character, and it feels like they gave him a side character name? When he has a lot more importance to the story than just one case
#ace attorney#ace attorney investigations#sebastian debeste#sorry. not tagging him as eustace winner. it may be silly but this is a hill i will die on#I also feel like the name doesnt really understand the character well?#it feels like its a joke about “he thinks hes so great when actually he's a loser but he refuses to acknowledge it”#which is how hes characterized at first#but then later it turns out he struggles with his self esteem and self worth. a lot#so to me it feels like we're pointing at the kid who feels so absolutely dumb and useless#and going LOOK HES SO STUPID. HE THINKS HES SO GOOD#i mean this all fairly light hearted by the way. if you love the name Eustace Winner then by all means play the game and enjoy it
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Theodore and Raphael have it the worst. Both of them want just attention from their fathers 😭
Theodore has completely locked out his feelings, even his mind is telling him he is not kid anymore like that's just painful 😭 and Raphael having younger brother is so heartbreaking since his father is not paying attention to him like he does at Ul like dude it's so obvious pay attention to your children! These men are so oblivious and dumb in some ways 😭
#also there is gerhard and his child but at least that dude tried and he even took care of Raphael even though he was being tsundere about it#why are men so dumb is the question#I feel like they are completely useless when they have no wives#at least Dali Delico he is trying but dude you are still failing you have two kids not one#at least henrique is a good father#his daughters are just like his father <3#delico's nursery
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#sorry ignore this it’s post-election venting.#like just completely unproductive doomerism I need to get off my chest#ok real talk I have been feeling so hopeless and dead and depressed since the election.#I hate this country and I don’t think it can be fixed. not meaningfully in my lifetime.#I think I need to leave this place but im not financially able and im a transmasc person in a red state#with unsupportive parents.#I’ve given up hope on the idea that ‘ppl here are generally good and just misled into voting for the worse of the 2 evils’ and know just#feel these people are subhumanly stupid. beyond saving. no hope. they are voids. cesspits. empty headed useless ontologically evil braindead#soulless husks. it is useless to try to reason with them or inform them or convince them of anything. they are lost causes. it’s better#to leave this country while they rot in the dying empire They chose to make this bad.#they Want this. they Want fascism. they don’t care about other ppl#they are individualism poisoned Americans with no interest in a better future.#I hate them. I hate Americans. I hate my family. I hate my community.#none of it is worth fighting for anymore. they are lost causes.#the best course of action is to leave. but I can’t so im stuck with these fucking useless morons#so until then I have to rot with them. im stuck in this fucking tar pit of a country#with these fucking tar pits of ppl#illiterate fucking rednecks and functional alcoholic suburbanites. the fucking moldy white bread of humanity#I hope we all die. we deserve this.#useless fucking dnc allergic to winning.#barely coherent braindead voterbase. useless fucking male loneliness truther incels#the world would be better off if this country was fucking nuked off the map.#sorry silly fandom mutuals for being a whiny american. but things r materially going 2 get so much worse for me and my friends next year#project 2025 is terrifying and trump wants to put tariffs on everything which is going to cause prices of everything 2 skyrocket even more#and just knowing ppl are reveling in the ‘liberal tears’ aka ppl being upset that their lives r about 2 get worse makes my skin crawl#and makes me nauseous. these ppl are not human#they don’t care about Palestine they don’t care about Ukraine they don’t care about Sudan#and they don’t care about trans ppl gay ppl any racial minorities#some of them Are racial minorities and want 2 separate themselves from the ‘bad ones’#im just fucking disgusted by the ppl here voting against their own interests bc they r fucking dumb and misinformed.
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aaaannndd now people from other countries are diminishing how we may be feeling today. cool
#thanks for saying my fears and emotions are worthless#you know you can care about multiple things right??#i know the us is fucked ok i get it but surprisingly it can hurt when you see people#say that you should just be blown off the map because of things politicians do#so many of us are trying... sorry. this is dumb. im just feeling very hopeless and useless today lol#not to make everything about me or whatever of course but.... ok im done#/ negative#kenzie.txt
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Ok so spoilers for Percy Jackson The last Olympian but like I just realized Silena and Clarisse are a platonic version of Achilles and Patroclus. Oh.
#pjo fandom#pjo spoilers#percy jackon and the olympians#the last olympian#silena beauregard#clarisse la rue#like omg#each book represents a Greek hero and it’s obvi that this one is Achilles yk#but the whole *dressing as someone else that doesn’t wanna go into battle for prideful reason* IS SO OBVIOUS IM SO DUMB#LIKE. the whole part of the ares cabin not feeling appreciated and letting the war happen is sooo Achilles#I guess we know who was the best of Greeks#like if Chris and Charles weren’t a thing I swear to god Silena and clarisse would have dated#like the warrior and the one who helps on the sidelines???#the impulsive and powerful one that always needs to be in the limelight and the calm one who feels useless#I was so blind wtf
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Warning y’all in advance that I might have reached the end of my Fluffvember stuff :( Simply because idk if I’ll have time to write/draw anything else, I’ma lll ou of queued stuff. But it seems like some are still utilizing the prompts, so I hope everyone continues to have fun with it <3
#Just found out that my family is celebrating actual thanksgiving on actual thanksgiving#Which like#never happens???#Usually we do thanksgiving with extended family who we don’t really like but have to do it with#But this year it’s different??#Kind of weird#Not sure how I feel about it#Also I’m doing Friendsgiving which I’ve NEVER done before so that’s really fun too#Point is I probably won’t have time#Alcohol is making me way too chatty I need to SLEEP dang it#I feel compelled to say this every time I mention that I’m drinking on this site lol but:#To all my lovelies who are minors:#I promise I’m not drunk and I don’t advise you to use alcohol to get to that point as it’s dumb and useless#I’m just buzzed lol because I need to remind my body that I need to SLEEP#Even tho it’s def not the best way to do it#I’m going to shut up now#Anyway good night lovelies :)#But on a different note BOO that I can’t write/draw anything for all the LoZ game birthdays this month T-T#It’s my bday month and I love sharing it with Twi and Sky and Time and even Legend#But I can’t write anything for them ugh#I think those are the Blorbo bday this month at least#I know for sure it’s Sky and Legend but idk if it’s Time or Twi or both
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There r sooooo many games I wanna check out but I'd rather wait until I get a laptop instead of watching playthroughs!!
#i wanna play silent hill so fucking badly#and resident evil#other horror rpg games#sighhhhhhhh#i procrastinate too much i should start looking into all of this but it feels so complicated nd im dumb and dont know where to start!!!#overwhelming#you would think qith so many people ik being into software they could help but theyre all useless anyway ^-^
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food truck alley, midday, current time (no specific date) / @anchoragestarters
The remainding few pieces of xiaolongbao he'd ordered had been sat neglected on the bench table long enough that it had started to go cold, the soup having seeped out of one and into the polystyrene tray that held them. Although Kael had never been known for his appetite, it was not because he was not hungry that his lunch had gone ignored but rather that he was much too focused on other things; in particular, inspiration had hit and the most inconvenient moment and he was now stuck scrawling away on a pieces of scrap paper he'd found in his bag. The one he was on right now had been a flyer for something at some point, he hadn't bothered to flip over to check. Songwriting wasn't something with which Kael troubled himself quite as often these days; since he'd joined the band, those duties had fallen into hands besides his own. He harbored no ambitions of going solo but it felt nice to cling to old passions. Besides, the lyrics he penned were often personal and more occasionally, they were too vulnerable to be seen by anybody but Kael. He was fine with this. He might have even considered it a cheaper alternative to therapy. (Or was it more like keeping a diary?)
Of course it came as a shock, then, that a strong gust of wind came in just at that moment and whisked the papers right from under his pen. All Kael could muster as a response was a quiet grunt of surprise. The wind had calmed as quickly as it had picked up, as was the way of Anchorage's unpredictable weather. (He supposed he ought to have been used to that, given how much time he'd spent in London.) Most of the paper had gathered at the legs of another bench. Another occipied bench. Mostly under the bench. "Oh, fuck me sideways," he hissed under his breath, as he pulled himself to his feet and marched over, the gravel crunching noisily under the weight of his heavy New Rocks.
"Ey, if you don't mind moving for a bit, I need under here," said Kael, brusquely. Usually, he'd more polite than this. He wasn't a naturally rude person, but in times as frantic as these, he had a way of forgetting to filter himself. His gaze dropped to the bench table and his eyes widened as he finally noticed that a few sheets had landed squarely in this person's food. (He was so not reimbursing them for this.) Slowly but surely, eye contact was made. "Don't touch that."
#« 𝐤𝐚𝐞𝐥 » / 「 replies. 」#anchoragestarters#there is NO pressure to match length!! i just don't know how to set a scene in a snappy way <3#anyway this feels like such a dumb premise for an open i'm SORRY but i need more threads for kael hehe#and my brain was blanking on good ideas so...please accept this :pensive: my very best attempt in my time of uselessness#(my open for karam for the lottery will come later btw!)
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still thinking about that time a girl came to one of my band's shows, brought me flowers, asked if I wanted to hang out afterwards, and I, like the absolute genius I am, said no. I wanted to hang out with my band instead :) I didn't even realise what the chance was I literally thought she was just being nice. I am so fucking stupid.
#i still have her insta maybe i should message her and be like “hey lol remember when i was a fucking moron? yeah sorry bout that”#honestly i feel so bad for her that must have stung something fierce#and i wish i could say that was the only time i've been dismissive of a girl coming onto me cuz i don't realise it#man im so dumb#lesbian#lgbt#useless lesbian
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after all the "pre work" work I did, it's finally time to start writing the discussion of my thesis (aka actually analyse all the shit I said I was going to analyse and write "think pieces" on it) and Im gonna start pulling hair out
#I CANT FOCUS#I DO MAYBE 2 MIN OF WORK AND I REACH FOR MY PHONE OR OPEN A SECOND TAB#IVE OPENED TUMBLR LIKE 6 DIFFERENT TIMES NOW#PLEASE SAAAAVE MEEEEE#I need to at least start on one of the topics until friday so i can show my advisor and... well be advised on it#theres not enough coffee in the world capable of helping me#think i need to go old school and start doing cocaine (haha funny NOT haha weird)#funny how everytime i have to Sit Down and Work my brain ties itselt into a knot and I feel dumb and useless and unprofessional#I WANNA BE AN ACADEMIC#LIKE AN ACTUAL ACADEMIC CAREER WITH RESEARCH AND DOCTORADES AND SHIT#AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH#bi yearly reminder to get assesed for adhd cause THIS HAPPENS EVERYTIME WITH EVERYTHING#*takes a breath*#its okay my advisor said I write academic papers really good and I SHOULD pursue an academic career#its okay im fine#ill start going to college earlier so I can work in the library and get “judged” into actually working#love body doubling :-:#it actually works but it makes me feel like a child#like of course I need ADULT SUPERVISION to actually get any work done#accidental vent#like wow we got real personal on this one huh
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Authentic Story of the Shining Force - Saint Fencer Max - Chapter 4
Translation notes:
This is the last boob joke. We're free at last.
Here's the retranslation of every scene with the Spring of Recollection in the game. Overall, her speech here is fairly close to what she says in Waral in-game, with a few details from her final appearance sprinkled in, like her care for Cain. It does misses a few nuances though, like the Legacy being more than just Dark Dragon.
I don't think I've ever seen art of the Spring, but notably, she gets a portrait in the GBA version, and it looks a lot like the manga design, with the slightly wavy hair and especially the blank eyes.
Obviously, the manga rushes through the plot since it's short, thus a lot of places are skipped. I didn't even feel like pointing them out before. However I will point out Waral not being here this time, because Waral happens to not be in the beta map either, and it has very contradicting lore between the ASCII guide and the World Book, meaning it might have not been well developed. Besides, Chapter 5 is very weirdly structured. You get two ship battles that are basically the same, you get to Waral by accident, you advance the plot by going to Ring Reef for no reason and everyone telling you it's off-limits while letting you waltz in anyway, and hardly anything happens in the shrine besides you hearing about the Manual, which is not even a big deal because you get to Rudo by accident later (two ship accidents!! why repeat this plot point!!) and would go to Dragonia anyway to help Bleu. Basically, I obviously can't prove it, but it wouldn't surprise me if the ocean shrine was initially thought off as only a plot scene, and the battles/town added much later for gameplay reasons.
Perhaps worth mentioning, the GBA version also makes a point to mention that Max got lost in the shrine alone, and everyone was worried about him, which does remind me a lot of the ship scene here.
uh oh. i hit image limit for the first time and i don't wanna remove either of these pics. more notes on a reblog later.
#shining series#shining force#saint fencer max#saint fencer max translation#sfm max#sf cain#so. gamers. fans. friends and followers. are we good? are we normal? are we normal about the last pages? i'm not#unfortunately my typesetting does not do it justice but at least i put up a fight#those unending creaking noises mess me up so good#it's just. so good. all of this#why did the gba version wasted time with boring villain epilogues#when it could be giving me the Good Stuff (angst of a long haired anime man)#also is his hair dyed? the eyebrows kinda imply that. i'm not sure i like that but i'm not sure i dislike that either#his hair is so good tho#anyway i could talk about him forever and i will but i gotta talk about the spring too#i really like the sword of light being here. it works aesthetically at least. the mishaela plot is very dumb#i had a whole thing about the sword of light typed but i took it out for later cause it doesn't have much to do with the manga#will probably come though! the three max cain plots are the same basically but there have some difference in the details#that has mashed together in my brain#so i wanna pick that apart at some point#anyway back to the mango. i dearly miss the nuance about the legacy even though it took me a while to notice it in the game#between this and the pseudo-magic introduction the manga does suck a bit at portraying the ancients#but i like how despite the weird pacing of the manga this part kinda flows better#with the spring's revelations all here in the middle#instead of popping in manarina like 'yeah boy you're hero of fate wait three chapter until we elaborate on that though'#naturally the game has good battle content to keep you happy through it#but the manarina scene feels kinda useless to me#anyway i probably had more to say about this while translating but i'm very sleepy#i will never shut up about this chapter though. mark my words
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serious talk real quick, sorry about this,,,,,
I keep getting asks asking for help with gofunmes and stuff as you might see me post. do no have the capacity to research and see if it's real. am dealing with health and family and work and life and friend issues and severe burnout on top. just want to occasionally come here to look at some silly lil guys and art to get some feel-good brain hormones for a second or whatever brains do. made this as a place to disconnect from the world for a bit and focus on myself and what I like and need.
but also have a feel-bad brain problem where I feel like the worst person alive if I can't help EVERYONE ON EARTH and it's pointed out to me all the time that i dont help anyone enough. the first one I got I posted and said I can't do much to help but i'll share and hope my followers can help and the person sent another saying "you have to donate or i'll die" basically, like their and their family's life is all in MY hands alone when I can't even get my own life together. and that was such a Brain Feel Bad and caused severe anxiety and panic attack....because it reminds me of irl experiences of homeless people grabbing onto me and trying to drag me away screaming only I can save them and feed their dying starving children, god sent ME to them so it's my duty, when I literally couldn't do anything but dissociate and now have no memory of what happened after that or how i got out of their grips....so i've not been here as much as usual because I keep getting these asks now and it makes me so anxious every time and THAT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE A HORRIBLE PERSON. I know i'm horrible for not helping and instead getting severe anxiety when someone asks!!!! but idk how to stop it!! I can't even get the help I need and have been struggling alone for years!!!!
so I post these in case they're real and maybe one of my 5 active followers can help or something idk. it's all I can do even if it's useless. feel free to ignore them, that's up to you. i'm falling apart at the seams of my existence but war is worse than my dumb pointless problems and I can't help anyone so all I can do is publish asks and let other people maybe help if it's real. idk. let me just look at lil guys and art in peace i'm sorry i'm not abled and rich and useful 😭
is it ok to ignore these asks and leave them unanswered? or am I a bad person because i'm not helping and ignoring someone in need? since I don't have the spoons to research and verify every ask I get, is it better to ignore and not publish them to avoid a potential scam being posted and shared???? I don't know how this works but just saw a post saying many of them are scams preying on this horrible situation so you should always verify each one before sharing. but I cannot i'm sorry 😭😭😭😭 I know i'm a bad person for not being able to help and do this small thing, but i'm now worried i'm possibly causing harm unintentionally 😭😭 what do???
#lee is burnt out from personal life#but also has a brain that makes lee feel bad for not being able to solve the problems of EVERYONE IN THE WORLD#very guilty conscience and being absolutely useless!!!!!!!#wheres the line between helping others and helping yourself because i grew up being taught always put everyone else first#everyone goes above yourself#but thats just made me unable to exist correctly at all and cant even do bare minimum 😭😭😭😭😭#sorry im dumb and useless and making my pointless struggles seem more important than ACTUAL WAR 😭😭😭#sorry if typos and sruff. too tired to word right#im a tiny blog with like 5 active followers so am i doing anytbing by posting these?????
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Blackthorne in the book definitely develops more facility with Japanese than in the show. Partly because the FX show sort of cut out the months long period on Anjiro, at least kinda.
#Musings#John Blackthorne#FX Shogun#Shogun#Can't help but compare the two as I reread the books#Love both#Show is better#but there are a few places where I feel like they... dumbed down Blackthorne too much?#like I liked that they recentered the story on the Japanese characters and dialed back the pseudo-white savior elements of the character#I say pseudo because even in the book I wouldn't say he's full on white savior#but in doing so I feel like they went too far in making him a bit useless#not entirely#but a touch too much
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