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oh, and isn't he beautiful? a gradient hue of gratitude. a colorful whimper of desperation. kaleidoscope tinted control, that has adrenaline racing. her heart pumping. hands, mouth, lips, sealed to the envelopes of his flesh. the flip-book of his thighs. the please, please, please, of his position, structured and swollen and slipping down slopes of her creation. ... there's no doubt about it — sweat beaded, on-the-brink begging, strewn across the bedsheets like fine drapery to a rack — he's hers. always been hers. always will be, and you can place your bets on that.
"anything?" mari's tone is almost innocent, rounded corners and safety latches still clung to her teeth. soft against her gums. she latches her tongue to sensitive peaks, circles around star-seeking valleys, and paints the words i-love-you around his flesh. a giggle, muffled, reverberates through the task, before she rises: near iridescent gloss coating her lips. (hallucinogenic, and hypnotizing.) fingers trail themselves in, in, in, and up: nothing but slow silk, spun to consistent strokes. "let's make a deal." her tone lowers, almost a purr. "you keep yourself talking just like that—" another imprint of a bite births, and her smile widens. "—and i'll keep my mouth wherever you want, for as long as you want. besides—" her tongue dances, dips, and drowns between his thighs. "you look pretty like this— fucked out, and begging."
try again, and again, and again and again and— rescripting at her hallowed whim, at her behest. buoyed up by their proximity. ( the aching slackness of jesse’s jaw. the tremor in his knees. the haze that mantles his overactive mind, absolved of its ability to think about anything but now. right now. ) a staunch disciple, he adheres to mari’s commandments. how much it thrills her to maneuver him in whichever direction she deems fit, devise a disciplinary tactic, issue a warning. she’s always been a first-class strategist.
it isn’t new. it’s par for the course, so why does jesse twitch and thrash, laid bare like that before her? ( make it a banquet. a lawless body beautifully undone. term it an obstacle course, those periodic pins and needles, mari’s mouth, plush, perfect, closing in— and again, when she doesn't relent, vice-grips and ventures further, goads him on. behave. be good. ) he presses the pads of his fingers inward, nails leaving sickle-shaped nicks against her skin. groans, glutted with longing, clamoring for relief, and holds the marrow-piercing magnitude of her gaze. “ please? ” his voice lilts into an airy, wanton whimper. “ mari, mari, c’mon, i swear— hah, fuck— swear i’ll do anything. anything you say. ”
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#i feel like i should have made his ears a little bigger in th first pic. maybe ill go back and edit it later#GET WRINKLED IDIOT#i first thought of drawing him as a sphinx cat bc i looked at his third eye like hm... if he had wrinkles he could hide his eye#its also very fun imagining him wearing head coverings and hoods cause hes so fucking nakey#kinda makes me wanna draw him more... sphinxes are fun to draw. i kinda wanna make a sphinx design now <- loves designing characters#a thought i had while drawing this is that if only few had seen narinder before (like the lamb and previous vessels) then not many would#know what he looks like. since hes supposed to be death and the only time you see him is when you die and pass on i guess??#so i think it would be an interesting situation if the lamb just introduced narinder as some guy without telling anyone he is or used to be#the one who waits.. smth like a false idolatry situation so everyones like. oh wow our leader has been channeling the messages#of the one who waits for so long its almost like they have become death itself!! ^_^ and narinder is just. standing there#maybe if he gets enough power he can grow more eyes between his wrinkles like in his eldritch form. that would b cool#cult of the lamb#cotl#cotl narinder#cotl fanart#my art#myart#doodles#the one who waits
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at last....yakumo with CHIKEN
#i have finally achieved Goal. i drew yakumo with a happy chickcen#legitimately there were several moments of me redrawing yakumo's eyes and yelling#nO! THEY'RE NOT UWU ENOUGH (makes the irises bigger) WAIT . TOO UWU (makes irises more oblong)#WAIT!! NOT MONSTROUS ENOUGH (narrows the pupils) SHOULD NOT HAVE MORE EYELINER THAN FOXY GRANDPA (shrinks the lashes)#did u know that chickens like to sleep on tall things? the higher they are the safer they feel? (according to my cursory internet search)#so i imagine when yakumo finally grew taller than the chickens' roosting spots#some of them started just napping on yakumo any time he came to clean the coop#and he'd be so scared of waking them up that he'd try to do his chores in the tiniest movements ever#several hours later grandma checks in on him bc hmmm! he's taking longer than usual!#sees him covered in birds+bird poop and he's aaaallllmost done cleaning with his restrained broom sweeps#(birds don't stop pooping just cuz they're sleeping u see. how productive)#that's a cue for grandparents to move the roosts higher . bc yakumo doesn't have the heart to shoo the birds off him#he needs to get things done! becoming impromptu bird bed for 3 hours a day is not sustainable!#it's all for the good of chiken anyway. happy chicken happy life#nu carnival yakumo
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things i’m going crazay about today: the illustrations in the he who drowned the world illumicrate cover
(artist is glassbearer on ig)
#what’s sending me into hysterics is wANG??? ultimate twinkification 😭😭#i only recognized from his trademark horrid lettuce gown & faggy peach signaling#the difference between how i imagine/draw him and this is so nebfjsjfkwrkjsj#like to me he’s a tired dude with permanent eye bags and a caffeine addiction that started at age 9#he’s barely 30 and looks 50 bc every day he wakes up in a torture nexus of his own making#being a straight faggot is hard work but someone has to do it#and is the other guy the third prince??? would make sense tbh but shouldn’t he be in his late teens#ig performative masculinity also ages you#(if i’m wrong and that’s esen PUT SOME BEEF ON MY MAN)#k rant over pushing this aside to tunnelvision on ZHU AND OUYANG#WHY ARE THEY DRAWN LIKE THEY’RE IN THE COVER OF A CAMPY ROMANCE NOVEL I LOVE IT#OUYANG SLUTTED OUT WHILE SUFFERING OH HES GETTING THE 15th CENTURY ART SAINT TREATMENT. AS HE SHOULD#love the benis metaphor of it all too he’s on his knees holding zhu’s sword i know what you are#zhu baby u look gorjus no notes#slay#anyway both /pos and /neg this sure is making me feel shrimp emotions lmfao#the radiant emperor#send post
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the dmen portion of the lockerroom is superior
edmonton oilers @ florida panthers game 2 | 6.10.24
#dmitry kulikov#niko mikkola#aaron ekblad#gustav forsling#florida panthers#2324#playoffs 24#you know in the movies when the protag is venturing through a forest and theres the sound of rushing water and they head towards it#and they move the leaves obscuring their view and then its a beautiful waterfall and a bunch of women giggling partaking in water activitie#and its like the pearly gates of heaven open up from the skies like this is a holy sight#so thats how i feel seeing the camera film the d portion of the lockerroom#like ooh i have stumbled upon something i cleary wasnt supposed to and i should cover my eyes#theyre all so beautiful#*leans on the wall* handling your sticks all by yourselves lads#heh polishing your sticks all by yoursel- *shots can be heard in the distance*#theyre all just standing there and theyre all just ridiculously hot to me
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sometimes looking at like Self Help Strategies lists for the symptoms I'm having is always just like:
thing that I already do
thing I have tried 10 times
thing I already do
thing that I don't have the money to do
thing I already do
thing I've been doing since I was 10yrs old to no avail
thing that is impossible given my situation
thing that doesn't apply to me
thing that I already do
thing I have already tried
hrmm, oh wait, maybe finally- OH, yeah.. okay. thing that I already do but it was just phrased slightly differently
thing I have already done
#I think maybe productivity tips help less if the reason you're unproductive is partially like.. physcial health and other extenral things#out of your control. rather than just like having trouble paying attention or spending too much time on tiktok or whatever#all the strategic to do lists in the world are not going to somehow prevent me from waking up with a debilitating migraine or whatever#or having external stressors or lacking resources and connections or other Productivity Essentials etc.#especially many tips involve stuff like 'cut off from social media' since thats the modern day time waster for so many poeple#and it's like.. lol.. i can hardly even maintain a blog even thuogh i actively WANT TO DO SO. 'shut off your smart phone!' already#done babey i fucking hate smart phones i shall never use an app unless i am forced to. 'delete tiktok' yep. already covered. tiktok and#all of those thinsg are my enemies. 'save money by cancelling some of your services' cool. already ahead of you.#who the fuck is out here paying for like 10 different subscription services. pirated videos uploaded to google drive and youtube to mp3#my beloved. etc. etc. and so on. 'socialize less' .........LOL.. if only you knew.. mr.writer of the article. i can barely muster#talking to friends more than once a month and even less if I'm actively sick (often occurence) etc. etc. ... hewoo#I think maybe instead of generic productivity tips I need more like.. how to refocus and be productive anyway even if you have a headache#or are nauseous or etc. Not that those are always things to ignore. and of course you should let your body rest and etc. But plenty of peop#e have mild physical symptoms and just work through them. Ithink something about the way my body/mind is SOO hyper attuned to all#sensory information just makes it like... constantly 'GRR well I cant focus on WRITING right now because my lef#t ear feels weird and my socks are too itchy and my back has a strange pressure and I'm vaguely warm and my eye feels some ssort of#way it doesnt normally feel and I'm hyperaware of my breathing and also nauseous for no reason' and like half of those things I#think '''normal''' people wouldnt even notice or at least would be able to just live through. but for me it's like.. nealry impossible to i#gnore and soooo distracting always. like 'wahh.. nooo we can't draw or get anything done.. my legs feel slightly heavy or something!!'#like............. ok......... who cares. thats not even a PAIN sensation it's just something weird. but it's just like.. NO. constant#mental alerts about the 'heaviness' of your legs be upon ye. Though Imean like.. yes.. 70% of the time I am in genuine pain#or having some sort of actual ailment with trackable physical symptoms. but sometimes it's just like... we could totally be working right#now and ignoring this silly thing but my brain is fixated on it for no reason uncontrollably. etc. etc. I guess it's the same way that like#most people can go to a grocery store without the whole experience being so overwhelming and so much stuff going on at once#that they have to rest afterwards but like.. in my own HOME doing NOTHING i feel like I should be able to not get overwhelmed lol. ANYWAY#Rolling my bastard little rock up a dumbass hill and so on and so forth
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Well.
#(I'm back)#It was. Uhm. A chapter#First of all: I'm ENDLESSLY GRATEFUL to the person who sent me the translation basically as soon as the chapter came out.#I even did like 90% of typesetting but didn't finish it because I had to go out#(aka with my friends were literally knocking out at my room and I couldn't make it any more late lol)#Mixed feelings about it? Mostly because there's so much exposition... I'll need to reread it another three times before it sinks in#The color page is AMAZING 10000000000000/10 I love my sskks so much they're so cute I love them so much they're so cute.#Easily the best part of the chapter.#The color page was? Very very pretty too? Like a lot more than usual if you ask me! I can't wait for the volume cover 🥺🥺#It should come out soon shouldn't it? Usually color spreads / pages open the volume...#Akutagawa fake dying again is funny. Like it isssss but also. Idk it's a little lame how we're changing the pov from ss/kk again :/#I can't even tell if I'm being biased or if it's an actual storytelling critique. I don't care right now I just want to see Akutagawa–#being cool rather than. You know. Dead on the ground.#That said! It's also very funny and touches my sense of humor precisely.#Like yeah Akutagawa being like the second strongest pm member and overall one of the most powerful ability user in the world–#that everyone fears (and I know he is! He is indeed for real!)#And yet he always ends up face to the ground 😂😂😂 Like if we don't count the ss/kk fights he literally only ever won against Hawthorne.#And even then he failed to kill him and Mitchell. It's so funny to me. I love him. He's so pathetic#“Wow! Akutagawa is so cool and invincible now!” *ends up biting the dust not even two chapters later*#It's okay because I love him. He's very very powerful and he's also very very pathetic I love that for him#That said :/ I don't really care about Fukuzawa :/ Idk :/ Like :/#Don't get me wrong I LOVE Fukuzawa (I don't. I'm mostly neutral towards him) but this is the ss/kk moment man :/ Whatchu doin#That's about it. Let's see what the next chapter brings!#Everything accounted for I'm glad there wasn't like. A ss/kk kiss or any other big big ss/kk moment#(although Atsushi admiring Akutagawa and thinking about his eyes has its fair share of neatness to it!!)#Because with everything going on this evening I really would have been let down to miss it#But I keep hope for the next chapters!! Please...#random rambles#Had tons of fun typesetting! Even though I don't think there's a point in posting it now. But would love to do it again in the future!#bsd spoilers
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More familial posting. He's like a squeaky toy to me
(also the reference in the first doodle) ↓↓↓
#self insert#homestuck#dave strider#davesprite#my art#yomiel (sona)#thatse my favorite bird :] specialest guy in my heart#specialist bird who is neon orange fuck everyones eyes forever#this familial f/o shit is awesome now i understand my s/i mutuals i should do this more often /lh SDKLFMDKLS#indulgin a bit with some hcs(?) of mine related to the lil man. like the cut eyebrow and tired eyes (im very original)#i am not immune to funnie trope of character that has their eyes covered/hidden actually had pretty eyes all along#if you get the cinnamon thing i'll love you forever btw#character development or whatever the fuck 💥#im not gonna even pretend i can do the homestuck coloring ÑSDLKFJKLDS#that said coloring like this fun. gotta thank brogatory/turnstechgodhead for the inspo. watchin zir streams was nice#as well as bdhs blogs in general. i've known about them for ages but its cool to see there are still a thing to this day#also HS in spanish always felt different to me while reading it. it's a different fun vibe imo i wish i could make yall feel it how i do
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who is the scoundrel? I see you posting about them(it? Idk) all the time but I haven’t figured out who they are
my fallen london OC! i made them by accident a few months ago and as you can tell ive very quickly developed scoundrel brainrot. it's a terminal illness for which there is no cure and the symptoms are instead of brain there is scoundrel.
in terms of actual character rundowns, their full moniker is The Bandaged Scoundrel, though i tend to call them "the scoundrel" for short. their real name is D█████, but they'd sooner die permanently than respond to or even acknowledge its existence.
they are! a bastard! a rat! a son of a b___! a motherf______! they are vain beyond your wildest imagination and they think they're the most infallible perfect being in all of existence and they have the exact attitude of a saturday morning power-hungry cartoon supervillain on cocaine.
and also, perhaps most importantly, they're Really Fucking Stupid. because of course they are.
they are resplendently awful. they are inevitably going to cause their own demise in an act of pure karmic retribution. they are a speck of dust in history that desperately keeps trying to insist they're actually a tornado. i love them dearly.
in loose conclusion while also acknowledging ive explained literally nothing; my goofy silly victorian london browser game player character that deserves to get timetraveled against their will to the 21st century specifically so they can get hit by a truck
#also their pronouns and gender are whatever you feel like that day#i usually use they/them or it/its for simplicites sake#ask#fallen london#im not gonna do the rundown on what FL is again bc ive answered asks abt it like twice already so you can look in the tag on my blog#all you need to know for the purposes of The Scoundrel is that it's an oc creation simulator with a few extra steps#i used to have an oc directionary post.. i should probably make a new one at some point. i post a ton about the fuckers anyway#other scoundrel trivia facts im not including in this post so it doesnt clog dashboards forever:#-their ethnicity is unknown but likely german or french#-they get comical levels of seasick on boats and absolutely despise zailing despite loving the profits of being a pirate#-they probably pay absurd amounts of money just to get the flowers in their hair from the surface#-the bandages cover every single part of their body except their face. they hate covering their face. they want everyone to admire them#they wear bandages all the time in such vast quantities for Other Reasons.#probably ranging from 'got sent to the tomb colonies so much they dont bother taking it all off' to 'wrote correspondence on their arm'#-their eyes are violant because they dipped them. In It. so they wouldn't forget a certain... Event involving cricket#they're really really normal.#also yes i doodled this chibi just for this ask bc im insane#if you ever wanna know more/get a proper answer just ask. im always foaming at the mouth to discuss my ocs#scoundrelventures
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#music hot take for the day#I’m not overly fond of ‘the other perspective’ covers of songs#like when a YouTube or TikTok singer sings a response to a popular song from the ‘girls’ perspective or from whoever else’s perspective#I feel like a commonish example is ‘Jolene’s perspective’ in response to Dolly Partons absolute hit#the one that spurred these tags was a response to Hoziers ‘Too Sweet’ from ‘the girls perspective’#huge eye roll tbh#maybe I’m just too much of a fan or something#and maybe I should shut up cause I actually didn’t watch the whole video#but it just places the narrator of Too Sweet or Jolene or whatever in such an out of context and simultaneously absolute picture#and if it floats other people’s boats then don’t listen to me#i will concede that it is a cool creative project from a writing pov#but this is all to say#not my thing#slav#slav every day#voltron
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eye doctor was trying not to scare me today bc i have a sight threatening condition 🥲 it's probably treatable but i need to go to a specialist
#havent been to the eye doctor in six years but i was like okay i need to update my prescription my headaches are getting really bad#and my prescription barely changed so the doctor said it wasnt that#also this other condition doesn't cause headaches either so treating it wont even help :(#tho it does make me light sensitive which is a trigger ao maybe it will help a little i hope#but mostly i hope its treatable#also i have no health insurance so hopefully its not expensive lol#but at least the job search is going well so maybe i can handle the treatment myself#but since i will go blind if its untreated my parents will definitely cover it if i cant i just feel bad#they paid for my appt to get the new prescription today too but that wasn't very much i didn't even get the new glasses#but seeing a cornea specialist regularly to treat a scary condition is going to be expensive 😭#i dont even know how expensive yet tho#maybe i should make a gofundme or something#this has been a shitpost#im not 100% sure my parentsncan afford it if its expensive#probably depends how far its progressing and how fast andnwhat the cause is and a million other things#but i know it can be difficult and resist treatment 😰#and its not early for catching it at all
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save me old flipnote studio MVs.......
#im going thru old flipnotes i used to watch years ago and ouggghhg so many good ones#is twenty one pilots still popular.... do people still remember the TRNDSTTER and marble soda meme.........#its like im unlocking some sort of primal part of my brain and everything is coming back to me. one of my biggest inspirations as a kid#i still remember thinking the final transmission lyrics were the coolest thing and watching =TopHat= Bee and Melissa over and over#theres a very specific feeling of longing and nostalgia looking back and watching these again years later#especially when there isnt anything genshin or mcyt and instead its either fnaf undertale eddsworld or another obscure#interest... and not even fnaf sister location its like fnaf 3 and 2. its THAT old. and a lot of oc MVs especially pokemon ocs and furries..#god but they were so creative u know. i still find it amazing ppl took this little lightbox animation on the fucking NINTENDO DS and#cranked it all the way to 11.. like if u look at the transitions and movement its so fucking fluid its insane..!! HOW DO YOU MAKE THE#CHARACTERS SPIN??? AND CHANGING CAMERA ANGLES??? and keep in mind youre doing this all with a shitty stylus#on a THREE BY TWO INCH SCREEN. you only get two layers you can go up to 29FPS and you only have 999 slides to work with#and 24FPS eats up a lot of that. absolutely insane it literally boggles my mind every time i think about it. AND SOME ARE EVEN FULL COLOR#i forgot how popular EDM was back then too...they were really good for timing beats though so you get a lot of MVs with#strobe last and marble soda. porter robinsons goodbye to a world was also popular with undertale and oc MVs. also a lot of vocaloid#someone made a flipnote abt the warner bros fnaf movie being announced EIGHT FUCKING YEARS AGO. it even used the stay calm audio from#the office.... i wonder how theyre doing now... i love you shitty grainy MV audio.. but i have mixed feelings abt the flashing colors#ppl LOVED animating the sans vs frisk fight. aishite and primadonna were also big ones they were SICK AS FUCK#lots of these inspired my old oc designs.. a lot of my characters had side bangs with one eye covered. animal ears and simple eyes too#now i kinda wanna try my hand at the marble soda meme cause i loved it as a kid lol.. i wonder if i should compare my old and new art here#UGHHHH IM SO NORMAL ABOUT NOSTALGIA. IM SO NORMAL ABT MY SCHOOL BOOK DRAWINGS WITH SHIBA BROWS#yapping#nostalgia
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This is a start, anyway. Lots of research and work ahead.
#still unsure what i can do when adhd brain doesnt let me do my hobbies in the little free time i have#but in the other hand if i can be sure that if i got a health insurance plan thru the ACA on the state market#that it would still cover me even if the ACA gets slashed - including thru the following enrollment period (that they wont be able to drop#me due to 'preexisting condition'. then i can leave my job and have a lot more time to be active and involved with this stuff.)#like I'm gonna do what i can anywY and I'm not gonna assume i cant do anything bc i have a strong motivation w this so adhd brain might be#chill w letting me do something#it feels like theres no time left tho but I'm trying to ignore that#but i just got my work schedule for Thanksgiving week and between the wk before and wk of I'm working 7 days straight. bc I'm dumb and#volunteered to be the one to work on Thanksgiving Day (why. bc i didnt want to make the 60+ yr old do 7+ days in a row or the 20-yr old.)#(shouldve asked if the kid was willing tho tbh. I'm gonna be burned tf out so badly.)#and i shouldve asked for the rest of the week off tbh but only got the 29th and 30th off. boo.#anyway abd then its december and we're gonna be busy busy with stupid Xmas stuff plants decor etc...#I'm just. worried I'll blink and itll be january.#but lets try lets do..something somehow#id like to find a way to squeeze the eye dr. vaccines. and dental extractions and healing time in before January#as well as getting involved in this stuff#and trying to overcome my intense social anxiety to do so#and looking into health insurance stuff#and RESTING too. need to do that. somehow.#but my whole November is booked now bc of work.#id love a 4 day workweek instead of 5 at least tbh but cant be floral specialist if I'm not full time amd cant stay on the insurance thru#work if I'm not fulltime either#and somehwere in the midst is...thanksgiving hah. and hanukkah which is Very important especially noe#now*#one story of hanukkah is of a small group fighting back against oppressors and succeeding#so.#idk where I'm going with this. but this day off is half over and.. i did this list thing yesterday actually but added to it today.#today ive also...devoured all current pages of a miraculous ladybug fancomic. put up one load of laundry. and opened the door#dor some fresh air and commection grounding etc..#i should call the eye dr guy so i can get a basic eye exam sooner than later and get new lenses ordered bc my glasses are at least 2 yrs ood
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I was just trying to read a book, not have the course of my life change in irreparable ways
#🤠🤠🤠🤠 my guys you ever read a book that hits you in the guts then hits you again and then just in case hits you once more#because I do#guys someone please read ziggy stardust & me haha I need to talk to someone haha#I am ngl besties I was trying to hold it together throughout and I thought I was doing great and then ziggy talked with his father in that#last chapter and now I am here bawling my eyes out haha aah noo too close#anyWAYS GUYS READ IT SOMEONE TALK WITH ME ABOUT ZIGGY AND WEB AND THE STARS AND SPACE AND WHATEVER HAHA#What a beautiful authors note too I learned a lot reading this book and I love leaving a reading experience feeling like I gained something#valuable and I think yall should too❤️#just in case tho if anyone does read it I recommend reading the trigger warnings because some very strong topics and situations are covered#ziggy stardust & me#book
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seven lawless from infamous if you are so important to me
#*#the newest pov chapt.................. end my suffering#OUGH.#PEEKING INTO THEIR MIND FEELS LIKE.#SO GOOD RIGHT? BUT AT THE SAME TIME.#i feel like i should cover my eyes shy maiden like.#im not supposed to be in here but i shall peek behind a fan
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see the reality is i post on my rps usually when nobodys been there a bit and nobody is probably online, but the mental illness in me keeps saying its bc everyone secretly hates me and i dont deserve love, and when i tell a gov doctor that, they basically just say ‘take your antidepressant’s and shut up’ which is also funny when said gov doctor wont refill my fucking antidepressants in the first place
#what i need is smthn for my anxiety and PROBABLY the obviously worsening ocd#but anxiety meds and antidepressants dont mix well#just like adhd meds and anything else dont mix well#which is why i just have a redbull if i need to focus bx it works for a few hours and then i pass out#which isnt healthy but its better than going through the diagnosis process AGAIN bc they dont have my info anymore#its early sad times rn w brina who hasnt gotten an ounce of treatment at all hi#see the other thing is#if i talk about my mental health at all#people will either hate me for being annoying which is what my brain will pinpoint#or feel sorry for me which i also dont want#all i rly wanna do is vent but thats never really an option at all#like yes i know its not normal to want to have a breakdown and cry bc your fucking pillow isnt the correct fluff and wont dluff#i know its not normal to feel like you should die because something wasnt in fhe spot you put it in and was moved slightly#im aware. and the reality is nobody who can do anything about it cares#i have to get an authorization to see a therapist or get meds at all even tho the card claims i dont have to#and the doc tbey gave me wont give me one#they dont allow email so i cant leave a paper trail when bitching at them and my calls go ignored#im losing my mind steadily#and thats not even onto the physical problems#but also the sheer fucking audacity of the website being all ‘oh just go to ERs and UC snd we’ll cover it’ vs hospitals specifically saying#‘we will refuse you if you have Gov Ins unless you have the money to pay out of pocket#if youre on gov insurance you dont have fucking money thats the entire fucking point. you creedy fucknuts go shove tour nepotism in your#fucking eyes and die if anyone doesnt deserve to fuck its you fuckfaces#sometimes i just want to scream esp when this doesnt seem to be most other ppls issues#but then i talk to other women and it is#it just doesnt make sense and i hate it#but i never rly got help on private insurance either so#tbd#depression cw
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