#but my whole November is booked now bc of work.

[audiovisualrecall]

This is a start, anyway. Lots of research and work ahead.

[zahri-melitor]

November Solicits:

Justice League Unlimited: look. I am unlikely to read this. But I'm glad to see they've got the satellite back.

Batman: I'm here for this (please let Eddie be having a good turn for a while, we are due for one)

Action Comics: between Waid and Tamaki I'm probably dropping back in to read this (and given Tamaki is doing a full set of Kara backups...is this the launch pad for a new Supergirl?)

Already planned to drop in on the new Catwoman and Nightwing runs and what's here sounds fine.

Birds of Prey: Very interested to see how Thompson keeps balancing this because she clearly wants to play with ALL THE TOYS.

Batgirl: I am excited, the premise sounds good. "Clutch your pearls" though...are we seeing the return of the bracelet????

Green Arrow: I know nothing about Chris Condon. I just hope he can pace a story better than Williamson (and realistically releases several of the characters back into the wild to focus a bit more tightly). Looking at his previous works it looks like he does horror? Which, hmmm, that would certainly be a tone pivot for GA as a book.

Flash: Irey's back getting attention, after Jai just had the whole last storyline!

Batman & Robin: PKJ definitely also looks to be pivoting this title and I'm not upset.

Black Lightning: oh I am definitely interested in this one, especially as it looks like they're finally going to actually do some work with the Pierce family again rather than just sort of handwaving that they're kinda sorta back where they were as of preboot.

JSA: ...goddammit I may actually be picking this up given the cast. Will at least test it.

Black Canary: yes of course I am reading it. I am trotting my ass down to my LCS and buying it and making considered decisions about what covers I want. It's a Dinah book, if I want DC to put out material that's actually about Dinah as a character not about Dinah-Ollie's-Girlfriend I have to support that. And as I said, it's already looking like it'll shape up to be middle of the road as far as BC solos go, so I don't know why everyone wants to cry so much; I'm getting a Dinah book and the premise doesn't include, so far as I can tell, "Musician" or "Let's Send Sin To A Monastery" (as she's actively being used in BOP) or "White Slavery In The Middle East Is Bad, Folks". It's got Dinah and Shiva in it. I just want to see my girls fight.

The Question: All Along the Watchtower: like everyone else I am currently staring at the "ad hoc support team" line and dreaming of the possibilities, 99% of which are so shatteringly unlikely.

Shazam: this remains looking so fun, the most reliably entertaining book being published by DC right now.

My Adventures with Superman: now I have only watched Season 1 so far and haven't made it through Season 2...but hah! Team 7! I called it! It made sense given the line up of opponents appearing!

Silent Knight: who let Goliath into this.

Jenny Sparks: want to talk about the ACTUAL Tom King title where I have no optimism and even the premise is awful? This is it.

The Nice House by the Sea: omgwtfbbq omg omg omg Max's group is encountering Walter's group omg omg omg god I am so hyped for this title you do not understand

[angst-in-space]

october '24 writing progress

words written: 11.5k

most words written in a day: 1,781

least words written in a day: 0

yearly total: 126.2k

projects worked on:

ya sci-fi book edits

planning adult sci-fi book

bsd regency au

sylvix week fic

published spy x vacation piece

planning alnst fics

works published in september:

mama bear (spy x family / gen)

october goals:

do some more edits on ya sci-fi book and send to friends!!

finish planning + draft most of sylvix week fic

finish ch 1 of bsd regency fic

post ch 4 of renga practice kissing fic (maybe chapter 5 too if i have time?)

work on other fic if i have time

november:

HAVE FUN IN JAPAN 🇯🇵

more ya sci-fi book edits, maybe send out to friends

finish draft of sylvix week fic

work on / plan other fics if i have time (i probably won't)

notes:

october was a bit all over the place for me. i was traveling for the first week-ish of the month and then the rest of the month... well, didn't get a lot done but that's partly because I'M GOING TO JAPAN IN THREE DAYS (!!!) so the last few weeks have been a lot of planning/preparing etc. plus stressed about...other things going on in the world, so i just did not have as much mental energy. but oh well that's ok!

i still did a bit more editing of my ya sci-fi book, mostly on One Chapter that has been a pain in my ass. but i think i am almost done with it now and hope to send it out to critique partners soon. i'm hoping i can also do a bit more general editing and be able to send the whole book out to some friends/fam to read for fun (maybe by end of the year at least)... feel like i need a positivity pass very badly lol.

also did a bit of planning on an adult sci-fi book idea i've been thinking about for like... a year-ish now. still am trying to figure out a lot of plot details, but i did at least sorta figure out the ending i think!

i got a fair amount of my sylvix week fic done (i think about 2.5k so far) but uhh not as much as i hoped. i'm nervous about getting it done on time bc i haven't even finished the first chapter (out of a planned 4 chapters) annddd i am gonna be in japan for half the month and have accepted i will not have time to write lol. plus there is thanksgiving and everything after that... 😅 but i will try my best o7

oh yeah i also fell very far down the alien stage rabbit hole (i sure do love that.. angst in space....hahaha) so that has basically consumed my entire brain for the past week. literally like a day after i finished watching all of it / consuming all the bonus content i started planning two fics immediately, one of which i've written like 3k words of notes for so errmmm. i'm not sure when i'll actually have time to write those, maybe if i can actually finish writing a thing or two by the end of the year lmao.

soooo yeah that's what was up with me this past month! november i'm just going to focus primarily on enjoying my trip, but i hope to get a bit done here and there too. happy november and manifesting that this month treats us all well 💖

[thatsnotbuddies]

g’s hrpf recs

okok this blog exists bc one day I clicked on a tknp fic in some random person’s bookmarks just because it seemed interesting and the rest is history

so it’s only right i make a list of my fave fics I’ve read since then

here goes

⭐ = ultimate faves

I’ve got about . 200 hrpf bookmarks on ao3 but these are the ones that I think about a lot/have re-read more than twice. there’s soo much more I could rec, if you want a list for a specific pairing lmk??

TKNP

colours i can't see (with anyone else) - (E, 7,357 words) ⭐

Travis gets the call about two weeks before he stands before the team, helmet dangling from his fingertips and heart beating against his chest like it wants to crack through his ribs.

“I’m moving to Toronto.”

The silence that washes through the locker room is deafening. No one says anything for a long 30 seconds. The only sound is that of skate guards squeaking against the floor.

Nolan is the one who breaks the silence. “What the fuck? They can’t trade you.”  And Travis winces and Nolan widens his eyes like a deer caught in headlights and someone to his left sighs. “Oh.”

Notes: The conversation in the second to last scene gets me Every Time 😭

vision trick - (E, 21,528 words)

Pat’s new house is haunted.

Notes: I’m an Interstellar (2014), Contact (1997), love-transcending-all-dimensions-including-time girlie so this is. everything. to me.

JOEL FARABEE/MORGAN FROST

letters from allentown (T, 4,539 words) ⭐

“Hahahah the flyers are shit,” Morgan tweets, sometime in early November of 2013. He's probably not expecting a pissy pre-teen from Cicero, New York to slide into his DMs and start up a four year argument over whether or not the Flyers suck, right up until Morgan turns eighteen and gets drafted by the Flyers himself.

Notes: This is THEE quintessential joel/morgan fic to me

in my defense, spring - (T, 2,764 words, Magical Realism) ⭐

Morgan gets called up a month into the season. He arrives in Philly with three suits, two duffle bags full of gear, and a very large potted basil plant.

Notes: I went on a magical realism bender for a bit and this is one of the faves. Frosty as a spring witch born into a winter witch family :’) Taking care of all his plants :’)

MCSTROME

The Next Next One (M, 71,275 words) ⭐

No, Dylan has not picked up a copy of the book, nor does he plan to anytime soon. No, he has not talked to Connor about it. He hasn’t talked to Connor about anything in a long time, but the media does not need to know that.

Notes: This is number one all time fave. It turns me inside out every time I read it. So well written down to the fake book snippets!!!! You could take this and make a movie adaptation of it and it would kill at the box office.

MATTDRAI

how lovely are thy branches (M, 5271 words) (also Tim Stutzle/Brady Tkachuk)

“What is it about my family that makes us so damn irresistible to you Germans?”

Notes: This is just such a laugh, I love it

JOEL FARABEE/CARTER HART (you know when you’re not that invested in a pairing but some of the writing for it is just so good? this is me with this)

pour some sugar on him and blame it on the rain - (T, 5,719 words, Magical Realism)

Carter is a witch working the convenience store night shift. Joel is a regular customer who just can’t seem to stop getting cursed. Morgan is mostly along for the ride.

Notes: Fun! Shenanigans!

You look so sweet in the heat of the summer (E, 5,319 words)

Carter's fed up with feeling like he’s wasting his summer, out of sync with his friends, watching the days dwindle down with nothing to show for it.

He’s not sure what he expects Joel to be able to do about that feeling, but at least he’s a promised distraction.

Notes: This is so great at capturing a Very Specific summer vibe. End notes changed my whole opinion on ‘Tis The Damn Season, lmao. I cry now.

[stargazinglesbian]

what is paper girl? and why do u like it so much?

OOH OK. so paper girls is like, two things- in like... 2022??? idk, amazon released a paper girls tv show that got cancelled after one season, which i have watched 5/8 episodes of, but before it was a tv show it was a comic series.

a really, really good comic series in my opinion.

the first issue was released in 2015, and the last was in 2019, with the entire series spanning 30 issues exactly. the way i initially read it was split into 6 volumes, and i now have a heavy ass complete collection of all the comics (my most prized possesion)

obviously, im a bigger fan of the comics than the show. i think the show generally has a bigger fandom, but the comics hold a special place in my heart, and by that i mean its the only thing left in my chest cavity.

plot wise its hard to explain without spoiling a bunch. a lot of people don't like paper girls bc its confusing or weird, or whatever. i remember when i first read through them all i did it in one night, at like 2 am, and by the end my brain felt like it was melting out of my ears, and it was the best feeling ever. i've been chasing the magic ever since.

the basic premise is that its a story about time travel initially set in 1988, following 4 girls, kj, mac, erin, and tiffany. all of them are 12 years old and work on delivering for their local newspaper, hence the name paper girls. on one morning (november 1st, dubbed 'hell morning' because its right after halloween and everyone is fucking crazy) they get caught up in some... really weird shit, and Plot happens.

i've read through the whole series like, 7 times now, so i am no longer confounded by the story, and it's prolly my favourite book/comic/piece of media, like, ever, because personally, i love weird and confusing sci-fi that i genuinely don't understand. it hits me in a certain part of my brain.

also, all of the characters are so likeable. their interactions and dynamics are hilarious to me, and i adore all of them so much. i think even for people who don't really like the main story, the characters can be a real high point of the comics.

also, art wise, it's fucking gorgeous. Matt Wilson and Cliff Chiang did such an incredible job with it, the colours and the linework are incredible. i recently took my physical copy of the comic to my art teacher just to gush about how pretty it is, and even a lot of the bad reviews for the series i've found say something along the lines of "i have no idea what happened, but it was really cool to look at,"

it can definitely be rough around the edges at times, with some homophobic, anti semitic and abelist slurs thrown in the mix (although these are always framed as being like, not good things to fucking say) but even with it's flaws, it will still forever have a hold on my brain.

ouaghhhh it makes me crazy. i am insane. paper girls made me crazy. i need to be sedated. fuck.

to round out my ramblings here's some of my favourite panels from the first few issues of the comics- enjoy

[cavewretch]

misdiagnoses fucking SUCK and are TRAUMATIC and i have nowhere else to TALK ABOUT IT as i process this Major Shift i’m experiencing so i’m going to put it here <3

in 2020 i was diagnosed w cirs (chronic inflammatory response syndrome) by a total shithead of a doctor who didn’t believe in covid. OBVIOUSLY i stopped going to him and i started seeing this other cirs specialist (telehealth only). she verified the cirs diagnosis and then we did the whole getting out of exposure thing. that took me a really long time to complete (DUH) bc being told you have to completely uproot your life, get rid of your belongings or at least stay away from them, and either move/do extensive renovation/live in a tent etc to escape exposure is IMPOSSIBLE to complete quickly. i have an old google doc laying out abandoned plans for living in a shed in my backyard. it took a year of a lot of my own research and advocacy til my parents renovated a part of our house for me to live closed off in. i still live there.

living in spaces where you know the air is potentially making you sick but you can’t do anything about it is traumatic and i don’t know when i’ll be able to actually fully process it bc i still don’t feel safe .

anyway. cut to like summer 2022 im still sick, i’ve gotten a Smidge better on these intensive medications and supplements for cirs and living out of this Room, but i still feel like shit and can’t drive or work and get debilitating migraines Very Often. my cirs doctor’s response is i gotta move out of my house or move to arizona or keep eliminating toxins (what toxins. she was telling me the naturally occurring things that our bodies shed were making me sick. ur insane. i’ve been in pure survival animal mode for years now) SO! in november i was like maybe i don’t even fucking have this . shoutout to my friend pointing me towards thebibliosphere on here and my physical therapist who’s an advocate for eds and was able to fr change my life lmao

fast forwarding thru finding new doctors and getting appointments now im diagnosed with eds pots & mcas (getting a bunch of blood work done but yeah mcas) and i’m like ok what do i do now? can i go open the boxes of my books and artwork and other belongings that i packed up in 2020? can i go in the rest of my house? do i have to avoid the majority of buildings bc of potential water damage? can i stop thoroughly cleaning my room of any semblance of dust every 1-2 weeks? do i have to monitor my room’s humidity levels to such a specific range?

i’m doing this like massive reframing of everything i know about myself and the world and my health all at the same time and when i’m not sitting here fully disassociated i’m going fucking CRAZY !!!!!! good GOD !!!!!!! IM SO MAD !!!!!!!!!!!

AND ! to make it all WORSE ! i get booted off my parents insurance in t minus 1 year and 3 months so i have to figure out medicaid and probably apply for disability benefits AGAIN which sucks cuz that’s such a fucking dehumanizing process

at least i have the brain space to make all these fucking ocs (i reach into my pocket and deposit a dozen pinterest boards and scribbled notes into ur hand)

[myfairkatiecat]

Katie, this Ask is going to be much less organized, so I'm very sorry. If you think I've forgotten something, don't hesitate to correct me. I believe the Ask for Bod's game was"

🥰/😂/😭/❓ And then 🤩 for Merlin because you said you're getting back into that!

😔/😍 And 📖 for "Rewriting Destiny", since I'm still working my way through it

I hope this one works out, and I hope you are doing well, my friend!! Happy Penultimate day of being the year you are <3 <3 <3

Thank you so much for resending this! *glares at tumblr* this app sometimes. Removing people’s blogs, deleting random drafts…

Anyway *ahem* thank you for the ask!

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🥰 a fluff WIP snippet

So. I don’t write enough fluff 😅, so I literally searched “TMBS” in my google docs and scanned through old fics and I found this thing I wrote when I was 12 about the books, and it’s surprisingly cute for something I wrote when I was twelve. (Warning: if you want to wear gen-goggles, the opposite of shipping-goggles, go ahead, because little Katie was a HUGE Kaynie shipper.) The characters are 17-18 bc little Katie felt so mature writing older teenagers.

Fun fact: little Katie googled common college application questions to write this fic. And now present Katie is literally answering that exact question for a college application. Time flies 😂

Here’s a snippet!

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“Miss Perumal said you’ve been up here all day,” Kate said in the doorway.

Reynie looked up when he heard her voice. “Oh! Yeah. That’s because I’m working on my applications. It’s quiet up here.”

“Oh, I get that,” Kate said, making her way over to his desk. “But… all day?”

“I have to submit them soon if I want to be considered for scholarships!”

“‘Soon’ being November. Which is two months away.” Kate crossed her arms. “You need to relax! It would be good for you.”

“Maybe you’re right.” Reynie sighed in defeat. “I’m not getting anywhere with this anyway. I can’t figure out how to word anything.”

“You have to be kidding!” Kate exclaimed. “You write more eloquently than anyone I know. Your letters are far more interesting than some classics I’ve read.”

“Then you must not have been reading the right classics,” Reynie said with a self deprecating laugh. “Or you just like me better than you like Charles Dickens.”

Kate laughed melodiously. “I do like you better than I like him,” she admitted. “But then again, there’s not many people I like more than you.”

Something about Kate’s smile made Reynie’s cheeks heat up, and he coughed. “That’s… high praise. Especially for someone who can’t figure out what to write about how I ‘contribute’ to society? I don’t have any good contributions.”

Kate blinked. “Are you serious?”

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Let me know if you think I should post the whole version. I know this fandom is very gen focused and that fic is very shippy, and also written by a middle schooler, even if that middle schooler was me 😅😅

😂 a funny or crack WIP snippet

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“This is what people in the future consider entertainment?”

“It makes me want to vomit,” Constance agreed, having very conflicting feelings about agreeing with Curtain on something.

“Specifically all the pink.” Curtain shuddered.

Constance gasped, affronted. “Take that back.”

Curtain looked over at her, momentarily surprised, before glancing at her outfit, which was in fact a very similar color scheme as the one this “Barbie” character preferred. “No, I don’t think I will.”

Constance narrows her eyes. “Yes, you will.”

Curtain held his ground, crossing his arms and saying, in true four year old fashion, “Or what?”

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I put my best angst one on bods’ ask, so check that out for angsty content!! So now onto…

🤩 a WIP snippet about or with dialogue from [Merlin]

So Sophie, I just want to say, I am SO HONORED that despite the fact that you aren’t even in the fandom, you actually like to read my writing for it 🥹🥹

My best Merlin dialogue is actually already published, so I’m bending the rules a little here!

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“...Arthur,” he whispered. “You know that I have called you the Once and Future King. That means… more than you realize. More than you possibly can realize. You truly are destined to be the greatest king this land has ever known,” he said quietly, the words Merlin had said so many times before taking on a new meaning. “It has been prophesied. You are the fulfillment of that prophecy.

“But there is another piece. The Once and Future King can not achieve this alone… he needs his other half. The other side of the coin. The greatest and most powerful sorcerer to ever live, who will walk beside the king as his protector. The druids call him Emrys.” Merlin took a deep breath. “But I prefer the name Merlin.”

Silence fell, even nature entirely still as though it sensed the gravity of this revelation. “I’m sorry,” Arthur choked out, “did I just hear you refer to yourself as the ‘greatest and most powerful sorcerer to ever live?’”

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Had to include Arthur’s reaction! It’s from my fic “you wouldn’t know a good liar if you saw one (that is, after all, the point)” (hyperlinks are FAILING ME)

And now for the ones MEANT for published works!

😔 published lines or section of a fic that was super sad, angsty or difficult to write?

Mhm. This is from a fic I wrote for a prompt from @mvshortcut’s ask game a while back, for @nobody33333333!!!

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“Who hurt you, Nathaniel, so that you would isolate yourself like this? Turn your back on the entire world, caring about it only to control it?” Nicholas said, so quietly it could have been a whisper, but here in this blindingly white room it echoed so loudly it could have been spoken into a microphone.

“I make my own choices, Nicky,” and oh he wishes he could reach out into the air and take the nickname back like it was something tangible, but he knew he couldn’t. He blamed Nicholas for calling him by his old name, calling him Nathaniel, a reminder of the child he once had been and had finally and gloriously escaped being.

“I know you do, Nathaniel, but I knew you. You made me presents on my birthday, and caught me whenever I had narcoleptic episodes and quietly punished the kid who knocked me out on Easter a few springs before we were separated and I look at you now and I know that someone else had to have done something because you didn’t get here on your own!”

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From “dont you ever wonder if I’m ok (after all you put me through)”!!!

😍 published lines or a section of a fic that you loved writing?

YES YES YES so I loved writing “SQ Comes Home” and this was my favorite part to write!!!

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“Now aren’t you glad I didn’t let you drive,” Rhonda was saying.

“If you hadn’t been there, none of this would have happened.”

“It sounds like none of this would have happened if you didn’t try to brainwash the world,” the boy muttered.

Rhonda and Nathaniel both turned to him in stunned silence. “I like you,” Rhonda said eventually, a smirk on her face.

“Oh. Sorry.”

“No, don’t apologize, it was very sassy and I loved it.”

“I didn’t,” Nathaniel muttered.

“Sorry,” he said again.

“Besides, even if you managed to avoid mentioning your villainous schemes, at some point you were going to have to tell your son you had narcolepsy,” Rhonda said to Nathaniel.

Your son.

Your son.

Your son.

SON?????

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And finally!

📖 a published snippet from [rewriting destiny]

Again, I CANNOT BELIEVE you like my writing so much that you care about my fics from fandoms you aren’t even in??? Star Wars AND Merlin! Do you know how happy that makes me?? IMMENSELY happy. I love you so much Sophie!!!

I didn’t want to spoil major plot points that are specific to the fic, so even though this is a major moment it’s the one thing you can always count on happening in ALL of my Merlin fics at some point or other: a magic reveal!

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“Ic þé wiþdrífe!” Anakin heard Merlin’s voice shout, and Ahsoka suddenly lost her balance before flying into a wall. Anakin looked up to see the golden glow still fading from Merlin’s eyes as he ran over to him. “Are you alright?’

“I’m fine,” Anakin said as he moved to his feet. He retrieved his lightsaber from where it laid on the ground a few feet away.

“I’m not going to lie, that was kind of epic,” Merlin said, almost apologetically. “I’ve just never seen you actually fight with your… your light-saber before.”

Anakin smiled. “It’s okay. I just…” he looked over at Ahsoka. “I wish it hadn’t been necessary,” he said softly.

Pity was in Merlin’s eyes. “I’m so sorry, Anakin,” he said quietly, pulling him into a hug.

“Thank you for using your magic,” Anakin said gratefully. “You saved me from getting killed by my own apprentice.”

A loud voice cleared his throat. Anakin and Merlin both turned to see the cause of the interruption - the distraction that had given Ahsoka an advantage. The people who had burst into the room.

“You,” Arthur declared, pointing at Merlin, “and you,” he added, his finger shifting over to point at Anakin, “have a whole hell of a lot of explaining to do.”

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Thank you so so much for the ask, and then for sending it AGAIN when tumblr made my life difficult. You’re the best!!!

[dayurno]

more than a woman is the ultimate kevin day song to me……. im so glad you agree…… i knew you would understand. i was listening to that playlist the other day and realized i HADNT added it yet and it felt like an oversight so i had to fix it immediately. it was very important to me the whole playlist wasn’t sad. i stsrted my kevin playlist in the height of me losing my mind about him last year in july (i read the books for the first time at the end of may!) but it only made me crazier so i held off making the jean one until november LOL. his is def a little more sad but i think a good portion of the songs are hopeful :-) and YEAH jean is soooo hozier to me. i gave myself a limit on how many hozier songs i could add. it will probably be broken eventually

UR PINTEREST BOARD that fic is going to kill me. im so excited every time you share something about it…. the dynamics seem so fun ^-^ also the richard siken tweet in there Took me Out. i own and have read crush by him so many times like it’s such a big part of who i am and relating that to kerejean makes me. sbdjebx. sweating. nauseous. so excited. the vibes are so good, it feels very nostalgic and warm already….. btw your jean playlist hit me over the head and gave me a.Concussion. i wanna get better???!?! under the table???? OOM SHA LA LA? that song changed my brain chemistry like three years ago and im going to associate it with him forever now. your kevjean playlist being so long is so very real too….. i need to sit down and listen to the full nine hours of it.

DBSIDBSID. the kandrew beef is Personal and it’s so funny. i am working on making them get closer it just takes a lot of time bc andrew simply does not like to stick around. he comes to a sort of truce with them at some point, mostly after he and jean have a Talk alone, but he still doesn’t like kevin for a while. there IS side andreil tho…. neil is 26 :3 he comes to visit kevjean in paris for a bit and immediately causes problems. but the problems help them get their shit together so it’s fine! andrew is of course intrigued. most of it happens in the background tho bc they like to disappear together…… but neil actually ends up in foster care and gets adopted by wymack when he’s around 13, which is around the same age andrew is adopted and meets jeremy, so they understand each other still :) they do a lot of sneaking around and do not want their relationship perceived at all vs jeremy knox head of the PDA committee and very happy for his own friend finding love.

the biting…….. jeremy falls somewhere in the middle of the spectrum but he does suffer from the most intense feelings of love anyone has ever felt and will latch on like a dog and not let go sometimes. it really depends on his mood and what they’re doing how hard he bites ^-^ jean almost never complains but kevin always does. as is how they are. and they really both love attacking kevin. sitting there biting at his neck and shoulders and jean in particular likes gnawing on the wrist bone. jeremy is only a few inches shorter than kevin but will not hesitate to push him around….. dreamy sigh. at first he’s very nervous about overstepping Anything around either of them but once he knows that they actually like him he becomes such a menace. it’s his life’s duty to make kevin day, his childhood celebrity crush, a little embarrassed and whiny. both he and jean are soooo happy to tease kevin and kevin complains constantly about being ganged up on. jeremy is actually still IN college too, he turns 23 toward the beginning of the fic (i. hc him as a cancer!) and he and andrew have their fifth year to get through so he’s really just some college kid nibbling on and picking on them and taking over their apartment. trust that jean gets teased too he wouldn’t want anyone left out!

JEANFO….. jean….. my apple strudel….. there is so much i could say about him but it feels hard to do him justice…… he really is so special. he’s a little more healed of course bc he’s 28 and has always had kevin keeping contact with him. kevin got out at 14 so jean was there for 6 years without him and it’s really. it’s not a good time for him. but kevin refuses to lose contact and even sneaks across state lines to see him at 16 when he gets his license (with 14yo neil). jean has always had something to hold onto and live for. so jean is doing okay……. he still struggles and he’s very stubborn so he would rather AVOID things and kevin isn’t the kind of person who’s going to push him to face them (kevin has his own things to avoid) but he gets a good push from jeremy. and he LOVESSSS keremy. it’s one of his greatest joys that the two people he loves most care about each other the way they do. he’s so obsessed with them and so excited to show them off when they get together with friends. he’s really a little bit of a clingy freak :-) ESPECIALLY if he gets drunk. he’s a very needy drunk and if someone doesn’t kiss him (or if he doesn’t get to bite) his whole night is ruined and they certainly can’t have that. he learns quickly he cannot keep up with jeremy Party Boy knox tho. he’s a silly guy <3 sooo bitchy to everyone outside of his boyfriends but tender with them…. they’re trusted with his girlish little heart. i could talk about him for ages but i fear tumblr will cut me off LOL our responses to each other are getting so long like we’re writing letters by candlelight to be sent post-haste…..

HELLO MY LOVE im sorry for the late reply my pc was out of commission and answering asks on mobile is terrible but i am back now as your penpal. I LOVED MORE THAN A WOMAN OFC i understand i think i've had so many kevin day playlists since i first read aftg in 2020 (which feels like such a lifetime ago!), so i try not to keep too much track of them and not to take them or myself too seriously either. in a way all the playlists i've made have been an abstract of my life at the time of making so i want to preserve them that way! which is why my kandrew playlist is 6 hours long. because i am preserving.

THANK YOU FOR LIKING MY PINBOARD i wanted this fic most of all to be an ode to friendship. in kandreil i think theres so much history and tension there that sometimes it's easy to forget that there are other reasons people can stay together, so i wanted to write a kerejean where they felt like they were genuinely friends before it ever started careening into romance!!!! i think it's working. Probably. it's a very joyful and warm fic (or at least i hope it is) and i've been having a lot of fun with dialogue specifically because so much of friendship is just talking! anyway ah i have to stop myself before i spoil anything so just know it's going to be fun. hopefully. and there's a scene where jean calls kevin the first flower of edgar allen (direct rip off from tlt but bear with me)

I LOVE THEM BOTH TEASING KEVIN!!!! is there anything more genuine than teasing your crush together.......... that's the kind of thing i live 4 in relationship dynamics................ ohhh i just know this fic will get me so bad if it ever sees the light of day (heh).... ALSO HE'S STILL IN COLLEGE KEVINNNNNNNNNNN kevin youre letting a man still in college boss you around youve been better and more dignified endings. AND I LOVE DRUNK JEAN THANK YOU especially needy aiyayayaya..... my favorite senseless hc is that jean is a lightweight and he cant keep up with neither jeremy nor kevin nor renee. he's drunk off of one glass while the other three compete to see who can get liver failure first. he has been consistently getting drinked under the table by kevin for years. our beautiful apple strudel....... our little cabbage as the french say. :-)

i hope my candlelight letter reaches YOU post-haste and ofc im sorry for the wait!

[kindaconfusingme]

Since it's the end of november, I thought I'd give an update on my reading for the Autumn Reading Challenge 2.0 :)

I am working on a few other prompts atm so I think I will be through kind of soon. I have decided to pick books I already own for all of these so I can use this challenge as motivation to reduce my tbr. I fear this post will be kind of long so be prepared :D

Number in the title: Million Girl Vol.1-3 by Kotori Momoyuki

I read the 1rst and 2nd volume of this years ago when I was a teenager and bought vol 3 secondhand for this challenge bc I always wanted to finish it. It’s about a girl at a very elite high school who finds out that her family owes a lot of money to the yakuza. To repay them, she enters the Money Game that is established at her school, which consists of multiple rounds of competing against different opponents in different challenges, cheating is allowed. While I enjoyed the atmosphere and the reading experience, I’m not the biggest fan of anything beyond the first volume. It gets a little absurd and one does not get the chance to solve the mysteries of the rounds alongside the protagonist, which I would’ve liked to try.

Book with riddles: Ready Player One by Ernest Cline

I love the movie, so I hoped to like the book as well. Sadly, I was disappointed :(

I think one of the problems with it was the pacing, because a lot of the moments that are essential for the plot and should be interesting to read are just really hard to transfer to written text (while looking cool on screen). It’s not that interesting to hear Wade talk about how he has to beat a Pacman-high score. Moments like these were either boring to listen to (audiobook) or skipped over by the author, the latter option being weird as well because some of these moments were quite important. I also found Wade to be pretty annoying and full of himself. I think he compensated a lot of his low self esteem by feeling like the absolute best at knowing niche pop culture details. I kind of relate to that bc my self-esteem is held up by similar things, but I would like to think that I am not as insufferable. Or maybe I am but nobody notices bc nobody can read my thoughts. And I had to listen to Wade’s through the whole book, which made me want to scream sometimes. Artemis was pretty cool, but I felt like a lot of her character was the way it was to make sure she’s the ideal girl that lonely gamer guys wish to meet somewhen (spoken in cliches, I don’t want to shame lonely gamer guys in general here). I guess you can read this book either as a homage to 80s pop culture and be happy about a virtual reality adventure or it reads as a slightly problematic self-insert. … Idk, the book had its moments but ultimately it was a bit of a letdown. I will stick to the movie. And I still love the premise of this story a lot.

Nostalgic read: Sieben Pfoten für Penny – Freiheit für einen Delfin by Thomas Brezina

This book is part of a large series of books about a teenage girl named Penny who gets involved in different stories with animals that usually need saving. Like Flipper 2, the dolphin this book is about – or rather: Should be about. The story of saving this dolphin would be enough to tell a compelling story, if it was detailed enough. Instead, a lot of different side plots get introduced and solved within a few scenes and everything just felt rushed, mismatched and weird. I wondered whether that was because I am reading this as an adult now or if it was because of the way it was written and I landed on the latter since I read plenty of children’s books as an adult that I enjoyed a lot.

Nonfiction: Interest and Investment in fictional Romances (van Monsjou & Mar, 2019)

I stumbled upon this study while researching for my thesis and downloaded it bc boy oh boy am I myself invested in fictional romances – so why not find out what science says about it. I will not go into detail here bc there are too many tiny findings for that, but I was expecting what the authors were expecting as well: That high involvement in fictional romances compensates one’s one loneliness/dissatisfaction with love life and correlates with attachment anxiety. Interestingly enough, the attachment anxiety part was more or less there (they listed some statistically insignificant findings as well though and I don’t remember whether this was one of them and I also don’t remember whether it was found in all studies that included the attachment anxiety measurement). The loneliness/dissatisfaction thing was not found, instead people who were more interested in fictional romances seemed to use those as an exploration for their own romantic wishes – which makes sense, I guess. It is to be said though that the sample was taken from people who were not very involved in fandom over all, only a slight number of participants read or wrote fanfiction for example. As well as the authors, I do think that in a sample that consists of people who are actually involved in shipping and stuff, the results could be more consistent with the expectations, because I do think there is a big difference in the reasons for enjoying the chemistry of a fictional couple casually and being extremely invested in a fictional couple to the point of obsession. Therefore, I’d like to read follow-up studies that have these samples; so far, I have not seen these anywhere.

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I posted 614 times in 2022

That's 472 more posts than 2021!

42 posts created (7%)

572 posts reblogged (93%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@serenityspiral

@roguelov

@secretstudentdragonblog

@souryogurt64

@ardwynna

I tagged 606 of my posts in 2022

Only 1% of my posts had no tags

#the sandman - 104 posts

#dream of the endless - 70 posts

#art - 56 posts

#fanart - 52 posts

#the beatles - 46 posts

#the sandman netflix - 45 posts

#humor - 36 posts

#cats - 29 posts

#original post - 29 posts

#funny - 26 posts

Longest Tag: 135 characters

#what's worse is i fear lot of bandom still defends him not just bc of the music but because he's one of the few bandom people to be out

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

There's one particular implication of the ending of The Sandman books that I really don't like... but at the same time the books are so literary and dense that it's possible I just don't "get it" and am wildly misinterpreting something so I just 🤷🏻‍♀️

8 notes - Posted December 7, 2022

#4

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: The Sandman (Comics), The Sandman (TV 2022) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Characters: Dream of the Endless | Morpheus, Death of the Endless Additional Tags: Crack, Crack Fic, Comedy, Explanations, Mundane Explanations, allergies suck, Humor Summary:

Many have commented on the Prince of Stories’ striking eyes, but few besides his sister know the truth…

***

@serenityspiral @duckland @roguelov I’ve posted my first completed Sandman fic!  Not smut, given that I currently have an injured hand and I wasn’t really up to typing out the end to one of those yet!  May as well post a gen humor short fic in the meantime haha

9 notes - Posted December 5, 2022

#3

Well, I made another playlist. The title is JUST FOR THE MEME I SWEAR (or do I?)

Fun fact, the, uh, description from track 6 is pretty much literal canon for Dream in the comics. Just ask Calliope. Or Nada.

tagging @serenityspiral because you might appreciate this

11 notes - Posted December 6, 2022

#2

Idk who needs to see this, but this is the best summary of NFTs and Crypto that I’ve yet seen.  What it is, how it works, its history... and the massive, terrifying problems with it.  Helpfully there’s also timestamps so that you don’t have to watch one whole feature-length video in one sitting!

Oh, and even if you aren’t interested in NFTs, this has one of the best explanations of the 2008 financial crash ever.

Somehow, the whole “burning down the rainforest” terrible environmental effects are far from the most horrifying thing about crypto.  Shit’s straight-up dystopian.

@serenityspiral if you haven’t seen this already, you might enjoy it

26 notes - Posted January 22, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Do you ever want to write fanfic, and then look at a fandom and go "oh man I am NOT good enough to write smut for them"? Like, the level of literary merit and hotness is just too far out of your league where you know your meager efforts won't do any good? That's where I am right now

34 notes - Posted November 26, 2022

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I posted 6,294 times in 2022

That's 1,818 more posts than 2021!

528 posts created (8%)

5,766 posts reblogged (92%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@scary-ivy

@thatscarletflycatcher

@queenlovett

@lilaviolet

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I tagged 1,350 of my posts in 2022

#maria watches - 186 posts

#me - 182 posts

#personal - 173 posts

#ysblf - 97 posts

#yo soy betty la fea - 87 posts

#la fea mas bella - 46 posts

#lfmb - 44 posts

#jane austen - 37 posts

#beny - 32 posts

#betty en ny - 32 posts

Longest Tag: 140 characters

#tbh i wish i watched more music vids i used to a lot when i was a teen but now i need captions of the lyrics so i can follow along to the so

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

honestly its very funny to see how similar Knightley and Emma are at times bc the scene where Frank Churchill bails on visiting Highbury again and Emma is like it’s a shame he didn’t come I bet u if he did he’d be the most charming, sensational, most wonderful guest and he’s like yea well I BET U HE’LL BE AN INSUFFERABLE C*NT is exactly like that scene where Jane’s gifted a pianoforte and Mrs. Weston is like OOHH I BET IT WAS MR. KNIGHTLEY WHAT IF HE’S SECRETLY IN LOVE WITH HER WHAT IF THEY MARRY and Emma is immediately like FIRST OFF KNIGHTLEY WILL NEVER MARRY BC IF HE DOES I’LL LITERALLY KILL EVERYONE IN THIS ROOM AND THEN MYSELF

272 notes - Posted April 17, 2022

#4

What I love about Northanger Abbey is that all of her other heroines had Something: Elinor was sensible, she was a great counselor, Marianne is passionate with talent in music and in the arts, Elizabeth is witty, has great humor and is strong-willed, Fanny is sweet, almost too good and giving to a fault, Emma is pretty, rich, her most unique heroine in that she purposely made her difficult to like, Anne is keenly observant, prides herself on how she improves her mind, is reliant

Meanwhile Jane wrote Catherine and was like she is literally just some girl there is absolutely nothing special about her and i think that's lovely

386 notes - Posted November 20, 2022

#3

Honestly I have to say I think the most attractive quality Darcy has is his loyalty. Like I know his friends say that's one of his best qualities as well and they always mention his loyalty to Bingley but you can clearly see his loyalty to Elizabeth early on too. Even when he's trying to repress how strongly he feels for her and he's simply "admiring her" like when she visits Jane at Bingley's. Caroline constantly puts her down and tries to make her look bad to Darcy. Liz arrives after walking 3 miles and Caroline is like ew Darcy do you see how sweaty and dirty and nasty she is? They see her taking her walks and she's sarcastically like do you think any painter could do her eyes justice lol. Does my man take the bait HELL NO ABSOLUTELY NOT he's like actually the exercise gives her a great complexion and makes her eyes look great, I actually think a painter could do an amazing job getting her eyelashes right and the way they look in the sun. Like eat SHIT Caroline Darcy has no time for your bullshit he's too busy considering his girl the epitome of perfection and none of ur tricks will work.

430 notes - Posted April 24, 2022

#2

one last thing before I fuck off for a while again to write is when u think about it the whole "we're worse than exes, we're friends" thing REALLY misses the whole FUCKING POINT OF THE BOOK

HELLO ANNE IS AWARE SHE BROKE HIS HEART SHE IS AWARE OF WHY HE IS AVOIDANT AND AT TIMES CRUEL TO HER THEY WERE ENGAGED THEY WERE IN LOVE AND HER FAMILY AND FRIENDS CAME BETWEEN THEM SHE IS AWARE HE HARBORS ILL FEELINGS THE WHOLE POINT IS THAT SHE HOPES HE CAN FORGIVE HER THIS BOOK IS ABOUT THEM HAVING A SECOND CHANCE AND NOT ONLY THAT THIS QUOTE MISSES THE ENTIRE FUCKING POINT IN THAT SHE MISSES HIS COMPANIONSHIP SHE LONGS FOR THE DAYS WHERE THEY HAD AN INTIMATE CONNECTION LITERALLY WHAT IN THE FUCK DID THEY DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

2,177 notes - Posted June 14, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

it's not needed but if they ever make another p+p adaption they really need to finally add in the part after darcy's second proposal where they discuss his letter it's so underrated and it's left out of every adaption especially since I think we all need to see that scene where it's like after they talk and clear the air Liz starts feeling like herself again and immediately starts teasing darcy and shes like so :D when did u start liking me huh huh :D what was it and Mr. Cool over here wants to be all smooth and go I cannot fix on the hour, or the spot, or the look or the words, which laid the foundation. It is too long ago. I was in the middle before I knew that I had begun. and shes like *snorts* LAAAAAAAAMEEEEEE you liked me bc I'm the only girl that wouldn't take ur shit and he's like......... ok yes

3,136 notes - Posted June 30, 2022

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[mostlymalena]

November 21st 2024 11:39pm

I am running on fumes tbh. I need to write so fucking much and it's only been a couple days! Long one ahead stay with me. I'll be following the list.

Current Listens:

Taxi Man: We went on vacation to Brazil and Paraguay to see the waterfalls; where you can hear the earth breathe. I did hear her breathe and it was good and sounded like the lungs of everyone I have ever known and loved. It sounded like me. Tia hired a taxi driver who was a couple months older than me. I don't have a picture of him but he had a lot of tattoos and a throat tattoo that was cool. I (and my family) noticed he was taken with me. On the very last day we were there he asked me to hang out and I said yes. He brought me a Stella beer and we went to this cliff that overlooked a big river with a road that winded up and down it. There was a bridge in the distance that was all lit up and it was fucking beautiful. A huge rush of thoughts came at me the 45 minutes I was with him.

First I think he just wanted to makeout a whole bunch lmao so he was probably disappointed that I asked him a thousand questions about his life, growing up here, his parents, his sister. He works all day and bullfights. ok. He never finished high school and he is trying to do that now at 26. I don't think anyone in his family has ever received a higher education than highschool if even that. He said he never thought getting an education was worth it. It makes sense, even those who are educated to some level still work day and night for little pay. Like usual I was reminded of my extreme privilege. Even America's poverty is rich to those in other countries. Wild. He was amazed how educated I am which surprised me since I feel uneducated. Ive always wanted to go back to school but havent had the chance and I might just force the chance.

Being privileged to have the time to be curious is something I never realized. I can just do whatever I want, I have the time, the money, the will. He works from 5am to midnight every single day. I complain about having too many online meetings on a Wednesday. God I am such a bitch.

My broken spanish and his nonexistent English created a forced silence. There is something nice about forced silence and other moments like it.

Not to sound prude (which I am clearly) but I really do mean this in a kind way. He was very beautiful and very suave and if I was raised in Argentina I could imagine myself romancing a life with him. I have no desire to be with someone who does not want to further themselves via education. I thought about this for some time because admitting that to myself felt wrong, there was something unrounded about the thought. After fleshing it out I came to this conclusion: When I say education I mean it in every sense. Emotional, physiological, street, book, worldly, culturally. There is a kindness in education that does not discriminate. I think education in any form thirst for us as we thirst for it.

I think I am unimpressed with the lackluster of lust for wanting more for anything ever. Am I making sense.

This is why women need to be educated in something. In anything I'm begging. If not, then any man will be impressive to you. Minds are meant to expand to great depths and you will only go as far in life as the people who are in yours tell you is possible.

You are meant for everything and you can have it by wanting anything more than what you are right in this very moment.

Anyways thanks to Gonzalo for an uneventful night but an eventful journal entry. Thank you for helping me realize I want to be a teacher.

The waterfalls: aka photodump I will prob do a part 2 bc I have so many pics and only can have 30 per post lmao

Here is some pics of our hotel and misc:

[happy2chat]

November 17, 2024

Hi chatters!

It's been some time... we have been busy with the Orange Bench Radio project with CHLY Nanaimo (101.7 FM).

In many ways, it's this blog (and future book, The Healing Algorithm) in a podcast format... we will continue to help with the hope and healing with that for now.

I have had many cool reflections with the process... including what is happening in the world and how to interpret and stay sane in the insanity...

The 3 C's of your character, competence and contribution can sum up if you are part of the problem or part of the solution.

And reflection on M in MANGO (https://www.tumblr.com/happy2chat/745128940803424256/031124-happy-monday-the-mango-algorithm-has?source=share)... Music/Media or Mantra... some empowering Mantras that are swirling in the mind these days are:

"Internal peace before world peace."

"(healthy) Relationships heal."

"You got to name it to tame it."

"Behaviour is a language."

"Reframe is the name of the game."

"Perfer et obdura dolor hic tibi proderit olim (Someday this pain will be useful to me.")."

"Lessons lessen the pain."

"Comfort follows discomfort."

"Esto curiosus (stay curious)."

"What's my goal(s) again?"

"Sometimes muddling through is the best thing to do."

"Remember my roots."

"We are all in this together!"

"Family is Medicine (Food and Exercise too!)."

"It gets better."

Asking Chat GPT re: Mantras or Axions:

The CBT technique involving mantras or axioms is often referred to as positive self-talk or cognitive restructuring (CR). In this approach, individuals create and repeat affirming phrases or statements to challenge and replace negative or distorted thoughts. These mantras help reinforce healthier thinking patterns and emotional responses.

Examples of CBT Mantras or Axioms:

1) Cognitive Reframing:

Replace "I can't handle this" with "I can face this one step at a time."

Swap "I'm a failure" with "Mistakes are part of learning and growing."

2) Grounding Statements (for anxiety or distress):

"This feeling is temporary, and I’ve handled tough moments before."

"I am safe, and I can focus on the present moment."

3) Values-Based Affirmations:

"I choose progress, not perfection."

"I am worthy of love and compassion."

4) Self-Compassion Phrases:

"It’s okay to feel this way; I’m doing my best."

"I am enough, just as I am."

5) Behavioral Activation Encouragement:

"Action precedes motivation—just start small and keep going."

"I can try again tomorrow if today didn’t go as planned."

These mantras work by:

Replacing automatic negative thoughts with constructive ones.

Encouraging a calmer, more rational perspective during stress.

Boosting resilience by reinforcing self-efficacy and positive beliefs.

Mantras should be personalized and practiced regularly for maximum effect.

CR(y) baby!!! ;)

That's a whole new post on how humour is truly a healer... TOOL J really is a super power!!

Peace out!

Dr.P

[mattanaministry]

Mattana Ministry Welcomes You To

Sunday Sermon: 3 November 2024

Theme: Job and His Friends & Communion

Music:

https://youtu.be/I_d7f-95Owk?list=RDI_d7f-95Owk

https://youtu.be/5dwNdZT_f-o

Communion Music

https://youtu.be/9oCNwIA6xLc

Communion.

We are going to use the Communion now, and here every person can please use their preferred elements for the grape juice and the bread.

Communion Scripture: Matt. 26: 26-28

And as they were eating, Jesus took bread, and blessed it, and brake it, and gave it to the disciples, and said, Take, eat; this is my body.

And he took the cup, and gave thanks, and gave it to them, saying, Drink ye all of it;

For this is my blood of the new testament, which is shed for many for the remission of sins.

Symbolic:

Bread that is broken - Jesus’ Body on the Cross for our sins.

Grape Juice - Jesus’ Blood that wash us clean from our sins, for us to stand clean before God.

(Parents with little children, explain carefully to the children the seriousness of the Communion, Jesus died on the Cross for our sins, and every time that we use the Communion we remember that there was a Cross and that Jesus died for our sins. We use the Communion to give thanks to Jesus and to always remember that He had died for our sins.

Every parent knows how much their children do understand about the Cross Death, and how to explain it to them. I would however invite everyone to allow their children to make use of the Communion, even if the little child only understand that there must be prayed and that there must be an atmosphere of respect)

Scripture:

Message:

We have been looking at Job and his friends for the past few weeks. We got to know them a little bit and did a bit of a character study of each of the characters in the Book of Job. Today we are going to see how it applies to our lives.

We all know the story of Job. Job is this righteous, God-fearing man, and Satan asks God if Satan can test him and see if his faith will stand. The story takes place around 1635 BC in Edom. Job lived in Uz, southeast of the Dead Sea. Job had seven sons, three daughters, 7,000 flocks, 3000 camels, 500 pairs of cattle, 500 donkeys, and many slaves in the beginning of the story. So Job was a rich man.

Job also had three very good friends: Eliphaz, the Temanite; Bildad, the Suhiel; and Zofar, the Naamanite. During the story, all three of them get a chance to talk to Job about his circumstances and about God.

Last week, we got to know Elihu, who we first heard speaking in Job 32.

Let's see how Job and his friends apply to our lives:

Job:

We see that Job went through the whole process of mourning:

He mourns his children and his wealth.

He addresses his wife about her fighting with him over his faith in the midst of their hardships.

Job begins to fall into depression and feels discouraged.

He wants to complain about his hardships; he feels disgusted and ridiculous.

He rebukes his friends and rejects their comfort.

Job appeals to God and reproaches his friends.

Job is in denial.

Job recognizes and acknowledges that God is his redeemer, though he doesn't know where God is in his troubles.

Job thinks about his happy past, where he had his children and his wealth.

Job doubts God's righteousness

Job confesses his guilt.

What is very noteworthy, however, is that even though Job went through the entire grieving process, he still held on to his faith.

Eliphaz

Job's friends were loyal and came right when Job needed them. They mourned and wept with Job.

Eliphaz marvels at Job's discouragement.

He says that Job must trust in his piety and everything will be all right. He reminds Job of his piety and that he must hold fast to it.

He asks Job if there is anyone who can stand righteously before God.

He sends Job back to God.

He says God is good and that Job must take the hardship because everything will work out for the better.

He questions the wisdom of breaking down godliness with words and whether there is anyone who may address God as Job addressed God.

He corrects Job by saying that the wicked are not righteous, as Job claims.

He claims that God has no interest in Job's sorrows, that God cannot rebuke him for his godliness, and that Job's sin is the reason for his misery.

He says Job's first sin is his harshness toward his neighbor and that Job sinned further to suggest that God has no knowledge.

He encourages Job to seek a friendship with God again so that he can be blessed.

Eliphaz was loyal; he sympathized and empathized with Job. He advises Job to do some self-examination and see where he has gone wrong. He points out his mistakes to Job and sends Job back to God and God's friendship.

Bildad

Bildad is also presented as a friend with sympathy and compassion for Job in his sad time.

Bildad points out to Job that if his children have sinned, their death is justified.

Bildad also tells Job that Job must admit his mistakes and he will be fine again. So he encourages Job to do some self-examination.

He points out to Job that history has taught that the people who have left God will perish.

He reproaches Job because he says that Job thinks they are stupid.

He points out to Job that the sinner is not prosperous but that he has a path full of danger and mischief. He also says that in his death, the evildoer will be dishonored and forgotten.

He wants to be with Job; how can one be righteous before God?

Bildad's speaking turn is shorter than Elifas' speaking turn. We can also see that Bildad is talking to Job more down-to-earth. He sounds like someone who can be a proud person and quickly feel offended by a comment.

Zophar

Zophar sympathizes, has compassion, and empathizes with Job in his difficult circumstances.

In Job 11, we can see that he sends Job back to God again and again to seek answers.

Zophar also says that no sin is hidden from God.

Zophar is in a hurry to answer Job.

Zophar corrects Job, saying that the happiness of the wicked is short-lived and that the stolen goods provide them no benefit.

Zophar's speaking turn is considerably shorter than Eliphaz and Bildad's proverbial turn. He also appears to be more down on the man, and he is also in a hurry to reply.

Elihu

Elíhu is a big surprise; he is younger than the other friends, and he is not even mentioned in the beginning.

He chooses his words deliberately and carefully.

He corrects Job by saying that God is not Job's enemy and that Job can learn from the sad circumstances.

He also replies that God does answer man in his dreams and infirmities.

He says that God is just and that wickedness affects only men.

He says that the people pray with pride and that the trials should be a warning to the people, and that Job should take advantage of the trials.

Yet, are we like Job, going through our grieving process but still holding on to our faith? When the world gets hard for us, do we still look for God, or do we stray from the path?

When our friends go through a grieving process, like one of Job's friends, we are:

Eliphaz, who has loyalty, sympathy, and empathy. Who recommends our friends in distress and grief to do some self-examination and point out their mistakes?

Bildad, who is proud, quickly feels offended by our friends in distress and sorrow's words and asceticism, straight and down to the man.

Zophar, who has few words, is straightforward and hasty to answer.

Elíhu, who remains respectful, sincere, and honest. Who sees in every trial a warning and a lesson?

Do we have friends like these four in our lives? Do our friends have a positive influence on our lives?

If we are the friends, do we, like Job's friends, have a positive influence on their lives? Can we stand strong when the storms of life rage around us? Do we always hold on to our faith, and do we seek God in everything that happens in our lives? Do we only see the negatives in the storm, or do we see the warnings and lessons in the trials?

Prayer:

Thank you, Father, for allowing us to learn these lessons from the story of Job. Thank God that we can come and sit with You at the end of the week and take in Your Word. Thank God for the rain we have received and will continue to receive. Father, help us to please give our best this week, to know and magnify You in everything. Jesus, please forgive us when we make mistakes, and please keep us from evil. Holy Spirit, when the words are missing, please intercede for us and lead us on the right path, please. Father, please make us servants to Your will and help us to please dispose of Your will. In Jesus Name, Amen

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[monkberryfields]

wow, godspeed with the 20 page paper!! what are you writing on? i saw that you study history, so do you have any particular time period or anything that you specialize in? it's always so interesting hearing the details of what other people study, it's like a whole other world! :)

i'm an english major so i read a lot for class and unfortunately don't have a whole lot of extra time to read for pleasure. i just finished a book called the hungry tide by amitav ghosh for class, and it was really interesting! it took me a little bit to get used to the writing style, but once i did i didn't want to put it down! i've been slowly working my way through queen in cornwall by rupert white, which looks at queen drummer roger taylor's early bands in cornwall and how queen returned there (to capitalize off his earlier success) for some of their early tours, and i've also started michael nesmith's autobiography, which is a quick read so far bc he's a wonderful writer. it's really impressive to me that you find time to read so many books for pleasure, and the beatles books are definitely something exciting to look forward to! what are some of your favorite books you've read so far this year?

if i could travel back in time, i would definitely go to queen's november 1974 concert at the rainbow in london! i have it on dvd, and the energy in the room seems so amazing, plus their earlier albums are my favorites, so the set list is a total dream for me!! what about you??

bye for now, i hope you have a great weekend and that your end of the semester is going well!! -🦋

I'm currently writing a paper for a class all about food history which I didn't expect to like so much, and I decided to write about the Irish potato famine which I've researched before in depth. I like to study modern European history for the most part with specialization in Western Europe/British/Irish history. Anything from the 18th century to the modern day I like, and I really like studying obscure things in history, too, so I'm sort of a jack of all trades. Although, I was talking with one of my professors recently and they suggested I try to do music history since I (obviously) have a passion for it. I may take their advice!

I have an English degree under my belt, too! I loved learning about British literature after 1800, and I read some cool books in another class all about fiction throughout history which was fun. I also took a class on horror and sci-fi literature which was neat. Also, those books sound awesome! I'm always looking to branch out in terms of reading stuff about other bands, so let me know how you like the books! So far this year, my top book is Britney Spears' memoir. I can't recommend it enough!!! I also read Man on the Run by Tom Doyle which is about Paul during the time of Wings and a little bit afterwards, and I thought it was super neat! I really liked that one a lot.

That would be a neat thing to go back to! :) I like Queen a lot and I think that would be so cool to see them perform live. I think I would be with you in the same boat, I would like to either time travel back to a concert or go back in time to see how things were in a specific time. I want to see Wings perform live during their Wings Across America tour or see the Talking Heads perform live in the 80s just to see David Byrne in his big suit doing his thing. But if I were just to go back in time and observe a place, I want to see how things were in Swinging Sixties London for the bright colors and fashion.

And I am having a great weekend so far! Thank you!! :)) I'm rooting for the both of us to do well in these final weeks/days of the semester! We got this!! I believe in us!! Have a great day, santa!

[cielospeaks]

ive done year in reviews for gacha games before but tbh i want to do one this time for my stories/ideas/ect

brief summary of story content in 2022:

january: seidjarn christmas carol (feh) written. got changed a little from earlier drafts bc of some canon things but good news is bc of that sola got added! the sola + otr friendship is like one of my favorite things in the kasumiverse tbh.

january: case files rerun. heavily underdeveloped lol. tbh i headcanon that the cfr is just like. the “recap of earlier story arc” episode in the anime. well plus ashlynn + vee friendship and treblesal blondel de nesle style but screaming about m c u movies.

winter-???: aime tachi returns to my focus! speaking of mcu movies lol. the reason is in no small part bc of both nwh and a friend who was encouraging of this au. i think this year’s focus saw a lot more development and the addition of nwh led to a more solidified smtm (and a1) part from at2. i also finished writing the prologue yea! but aside from that nothing much was done lol. but it was brainstormed! and ill take that as a win

golden week 2022: escape the riyoverse! again influenced by movies slightly but ill give it that since the whole thing has a hollywood vibe lol. like most fgo stories its not solidified but its a super big crossover of all of the gw crossover characters (+ into the fics) leading up into it. it also answered a lot of storybuilding questions/ect. (what happens to the allegrofaces, as we saw anda and coda in idolgers, but due to some worlds being erased from existence their allegros’ fates are unknown. as well as why aime’s keyblade is melodic feathers ie allegros keyblade, mostly just those plot points lol)

???: “fallen angel kisumi” storyline. well its literally just an idea at this point. but it has merit. basically kisumi finally gives up after witnessing the crew be awful for too long when it also takes bel’s life, and kisumi absorbs his powers and uses them to recruit underutilized final event bosses who deserved better. aside from this the “school au” kisumi, who has like. no canon anything but definitely exists as school bel’s penpal and long distance friend. possibly if fallen angel kisumi goes after school bel, its up to school kisumi to save him. lol. idk.

november-???: twsty au! oh gosh i wasnt expecting to even like this game but i did. i am not immune to idiot bird principal and platonic dumbass boys. the au includes idolger buddies lieven and jaeger, but also introduces new faces like norytx, wesley, and danry, as well as the obligatory treble insert (who actually is very cool not to be punny lol.) and it gave me somewhat of a version of those characters who i wont mention specifically that i can actually like. shoutout to more side characters (alfe maybe?, the vice principal, magic hat sensei, elias, and annand) bc u are also cool.

 january-december: heroesverse book 6! again managed to finish it! it was a wild ride but it got done. sufficiently harder than before bc my guy elm was given like. nothing. in canon. so i had to ~improvise~ but a lot of the story was around em and the main squad anyways lol. idk. it works for what b6 was but i at least know what i want to do differently for b7!

and since thats mostly done on to the specifics!

best new character: i think im gonna give it to em! she gets fleshed out in story and has a nice little character arc. i like that she’s both a foil to kasumi and someone for her to help/to be helped by. shes also on a side note a big spiderman fan so that gets a big thumbs up from me.

best returning character: i think ill give it to aime! that doesnt count bc shes a self insert but idk. i feel like more shes a tribute to my childhood and coping with stuff but idk. mixed bag. i love her character arc from marvel arc to nwh, with coping with losing someone while she was out of their life, as well as growing to overcome old grudges (both of which are very relatable to me now/hit too hard for me personally), and on the positive side learning to feel again and care again after having to harden herself emotionally to get through life (again, same hat). it is just also like. magically self indulgent to be able to put essentially my insert/the cooler, more in universe me next to my favorite characters from different franchises and tldr i highly recommend kh aus -pacha meme-

best dynamic: listen i am always weak for idolgers and vore musical trio. the anda and mokou dynamic specifically is just. soul healing. and vmt is sorta that cliched “jaded dad doesnt want to have to care again but damnit someones gotta take care of these children” but i live for this iteration specifically, as the jaded dad is a dead murderer and these children are a lab experiment and a space plant. kisumi + kasumi also has nwh spiderman pointing meme vibes and is soul healing so im putting it here too.

biggest criticism: i feel like (esp in kasumiverse) i need to work on balancing serious/comedic, writing shorter, and having more fun writing. idk it just kinda feels like a chore, and that im just checking for plotholes instead of having fun. i also need to just flippin sit down and actually write the aimeverse stuff tbh. i go on abt how fun it is but i never actually write it ohmygosh

hope for the next year: idk. i think in general its just for me to have fun writing! i think i had fun writing the marvel arc so like. more of that please.

a story id like to write: itd be nice to actually write the “ghosts take scrooge to his past/present/future” part of the seidjarn christmas carol, but idk. since otrs past isnt too developed idk.

and speaking of acc id like to write that. it seems self contained (lol) so i feel like it might be easier (double lol)

i think itd also be nice to write more treblesal and trebleizou, just for fun. as a treat. treblenizou too. and since antonio has writing now trebletonio (or andrea/antonio with treble cesario-ing hard in the background. like ofc i want characters like dolores or miles but pls andrea survivor now!)