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yesssssss i am literally so happy you noticed this š„¹š„¹š„¹ š©·š©·š©· @zeldahime !
the arrangement is more what you'd call "guidelines" than actual rules...
part 4 of my ineffable kisses series - imagining some kisses throughout time that went decidedly better than That Kiss did...
<< start || part 2 || part 3 || part 4 - golden age of piracy || part 5 - ??
i personally don't believe aziraphale would be a naval officer in the golden age of piracy, but would instead adopt a kind of 'stede bonnet' approach to piracy that results in him being invariably captured and needing to be rescued several times over - that is, until crowley can physically pick him up and place him on land, under strict instructions never to board a ship ever again š©·
#when people figure out the dumb ideas i put in my art#i feel intensely validated#and thrilled#thankyouu#pirate omens#historical husbands#ineffable husbands#ineffable kiss series
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My two cents on how much of Mind!Varric is Rookās mind trying to fill the blank space and how much is Solas actively talking through a convenient blood magic paper doll of the mind: I think it's a mix of both, a truly collaborative psychosocial horrorshow if you would, but waaaay more towards the second. It feels too directed and tactical at times to be anything else. Rook's mind is willing to go along with the denial phase as far as it can fucking carry them to not have to face the grief and regret and does its part in papering over details that donāt make any sense, the way brains will strive to create coherent meaning even out of deeply confusing input, but to my understanding it's a collaborateur in how that plays out, not the instigator or control center. Solas is using it as a path to agency and to gather insight into Rook as a person unguarded as he can't count on in his own guise. (That stoic option that leads to him being like 'oh I see you're cautiously denying me access to your inner life. well. at least you still have Varric to talk to. y'know as an outlet :)'. You absolute BITCH Solas! That alone convinced me that he HAS to have an active hand in it on some level.)
My guess is that it takes considerable effort on Solasā part to make Mind!Varric do anything more involved or complicated than seeming to sit up in bed and give casual commentary, and thatās why he keeps having eerie five minute shallow pep talks with you before he announces he conveniently needs a nap aaanyway good luck kid you got this haha. When heās just spouting NPC lines from his bedrest, Iām ready to believe that could be Rookās mind being allowed to improv lines for him more freely because itās less about Solas trying to get something out of them or working an angle and more āStill here! Still totally alive and fine and the mentor figure you know and love and trust :) donāt even worry about it! Thankfully there is no war in Ba Sing Sei, as we all knowā upkeep work lol. Rookās mind is allowed to set the tone of Varric, the outlines, but not always the content.Ā
AND, on a (beautifully fucked up) character psychology level, I feel like Solas is indulging in actually getting to be the good supportive mentor figure to Rook with one hand to assuage the guilt he feels about what he's done -- and what he's going to do -- to them with the other. Same internal logic as he uses in Trespasser about the Qun. āAlmost everyone is going to die from the course of action Iām doggedly pursuing eventually. But at least I can make their last years happier and freer and kinder than they would have been otherwise. and that kind of makes up for it right. a little bit. doesn't it. doesn't that make it better at least. I need that to make it better)'. Did I really take your beloved mentor and friend from you if you donāt know yet that I did? Some philosophers would argue not really! So itās probably almost ok actually. Isnāt it even a little noble that Iām taking all this grief and guilt on myself and shielding you for now. With undertones that Iām not sure he would realize himself (and might be mortified by if he did) that he is so incredibly lonely, and even a dishonest and indirect emotional connection is more than nothing when youāre that desperate. In this setup he gets idk. Both the control he craves so incredibly badly in relationships and over himself, and the scraps, the fading afterimages, of intimacy and warmth and companionship, even second hand. The one thing Solas and Rook agree on deep deep down is that they really wish Varric weren't gone. They're handshake memeing this in the saddest and most creepy way possible.
I think an important element too is that Solas needs Rook and their team to *succeed* āĀ up to a certain point. He needs someone to hold the two other elven mean girls off until he can get out of here. Ideally, in a perfect world, even do all the hard work of killing them so he can swoop in at the end and do his thing when both sides are exhausted and out of resources to stop him, and then Bobās your uncle! Same logic as he was using with Corypheus, and after that worked out so well, too! King of choosing to never learn from a single solitary mistake heās ever made even though i fully believe he could have the capacity to FenāHarel <3 The underlying idea isnāt flawed, you see, it was just unforeseen circumstances getting in the way. This time for sure itāll all work out the way I cleverly imagined it in my head beforehand. Cue By Talos this canāt be happening etc. in the form of a statue almost crushing him like a bug.Ā
So he's providing guidance and forging Rook into a leader from two angles: one Rook might not trust, and one they probably will. Shaping them into what he needs slowly and carefully. Heās helping you hone your team into their most effective state, as he might have done with his own agents back in the day, setting up his chess pieces even if he has to squint through two glimpsed realities to do it haha. Pincer maneuver of an insidious stealth mentor you never asked for. Alsoā¦ at one point mind Varric gives you a whole little monologue about how Solas' problem is that heās always seen his interpersonal connections as flaws and see where itās landed him, all alone and the worst part? it hasnāt even worked. itās all been for nothing heās back where he began with nothing to show for it but his mistakes. Like...that has such strong 'uh okay happy to play your therapist from two rooms away here what the fuck kind of traumadump is this' energy to me, Iām not sure Rook like. Thinks that much about Solas as a private person. So much of Solas' self-loathing and futile insights into his own flaws seem to shine through in Mind!Varric's dialogue all the time ā I just can't believe that there's no guiding hand behind it as it were.Ā
Most of all. I feel like people underestimate the degree to which Solas is incredibly funny. As in, he has a very consistent and recognizable sense of humour. Itās one of my very favourite things about him. We must remember ā it is crucial that we always keep in mind ā Orlesian accent and wig Solas from May The Dread Wolf Take You (my beloved, the explanation for why I love this dude even with the. All of the everything else. No one does it quite like him). He is not at all above doing things or adding little flourishes for his own obscure amusement, in fact that seems to me to be one of his most consistent traits. The Randy Dowager Quarterly comment Varric has? The āMaybe this is the Dread Wolfās revenge. Forcing us to house sit for himā thing? To Me this is 100% Solas amusing himself in his boring Fade jail surrounded by the screaming hellscape of all his regrets. Source: it came to me as divine revelation through pure vibes trust me broĀ
If nothing else I find it much more narratively interesting personally if the connection between Rook and Solas really is that defenselessly intimate and entwined (and so unbalanced!), and the sense of violation and invasion and betrayal afterwards consequently all the more nauseatingly intense. Even if you kept him at armās length in the open, heās been under your skin the whole time, looking around, gathering what he needs to destroy you, wearing the face of a friend. Regretfully, probably, but choosing to do it every step of the way anyway. (Sound familiar, Inquisitor? Solas doesnāt have that many tricks when you actually look at it, he keeps returning to old tried and true ones like a dog with a bone haha.) Maybe he even genuinely meant some of it as mercy, which only makes it so much worse. It makes his sin against his own core principles of autonomy and the freedom of all beings in mind, spirit and body so much more juicily grave if itās something he pursues actively and consistently, rather than it half-falling into his lap as a happy accident mainly orchestrated by Rookās own subconscious. Solas, too, is at his very lowest point, the closest to giving in and becoming his own antithesis fully that heās ever been, and it makes the choice of whether you still reach out your hand to him one last time or not all the more impactful and difficult.
#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#dragon age meta#solas#varric tethras#rook#I love what weeekes has managed to do with solas in this game honestly. both kinder and harsher reads on him?#completely supported by the text and completely valid. it really does come down to how you feel individually at the end of it all#there are good arguments to be made in every direction. sing o muse about a complicated man.#and also a motherfucker (affectionate *and* derogatory)#forgiveness isn't about him it's about you ultimately. do you find it in yourself or are there things that shouldn't be forgiven? up to you#he deserves both compassion and to be slam dunked straight into hell often with equal intensity. and i think that's beautiful#face in my hands. it keeps happening to me. I black out and I've written a whole thing and feel like I've been through a meat grinder#clearly my brain needs to Process things very badly but god I wish I could maybe control a bit more when and how intensely it does it lol#obligatory disclaimer that this is only my personal opinion and read on the game and characters involved etc. YMMV
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please reblog to increase sample size!
EDIT: i definitely should have included some sort of āmultiple of theseā option, so if that applies, you can click āyes and [something else]ā!
EDIT 2: feel free to also include your location!
#disclaimer: i have a feeling this will have some intense sample bias! but iām still curious#and iām almost certain thereās been a poll like this before but again: Curious#i think online relationships are just as valid as offline relationships btw but i still think thereās a critical difference#do you live near any jews? do you interact with jewish communities in your local area? etc#yell.txt#polls#and im almost certain thereās been a poll like this before but again: Curious!
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sooooā¦ any news on the kyoshi warriors au?
The girls are fighting
#*cough*#That's Zuko actually#But you see what I mean#dema answers#atla#avatar the last airbender#zuko#atla fanart#atla art#prince zuko#kyoshi warriors#Kyoshi Warriors AU#Kyoshi Warrior Zuko#azula fanart#atla azula#princess azula#azula#zuko fanart#atla au#Kyoshi Warrior Ursa AU#Zuko looks weird because I don't tend to include his scar in lineart. Let's all pretend it's there shall we.#Anyway I love their dynamic so much#fire hazard siblings#They're a mess and they fight all the time but their relationship (while far from perfect) is much healthier than in canon#Azula is much more reserved in this AU. She doesn't truly feel like she belongs in Kyoshi Island. She still thinks of herself as a Princess.#But this...this isn't where she belongs (this isn't where she wants to belong)#She's awkward and bossy and intense. Her social skills are near The-Beach level of nonexistent. She also holds some resentment towards Ursa.#Meanwhile Zuko adapted to Kyoshi. Ursa tried to erase her past completely and thus became Noriko of Kyoshi wholeheartedly. Azula rejects it.#But Zuko accepted both parts of himself. He's in a better place than in canon. He's still angry and moody and recklessāhe's Zuko after all.#He had support and love and validation. Not everything is perfectāhe's a mess and doesn't love himself muchābut he also knows who he is.
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saw a post claiming mizu was a canonical trans man when mizu has 3 genders: man, woman, and unlovable monster, and unlovable monster always wins. like yeeeeessss mizu intentionally presents male for the freedom it affords him but was canonically 'happiest' as a woman. saying simply 'he's a trans man' is pretty reductive for a character who hates themselves so much they have no solid identity outside of 'monster,' and whose amorphous gender identity is a central aspect of the show
#esp. since i vaguely remember mizu being described by the creators as#'a woman who needs to present as a man due to the intense misogyny of her/his/their time' (feel free to fact check me here)#she's both the ronin and the bride! get realllllllllll#blue eye samurai#lake from infinity train is better 'trans man' rep and he doesn't even use those pronouns in the show#this is my honest opinion. trans masc mizu is as valid as butch mizu.#this is cassandra
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In case anyone needs to hear it, sometimes spellwork looks like this and that's okay.
Like seriously the whole spell I recently did I was sat with Loki, wrapped up in a blankie cocoon, sipping my coffee (which is a glorified caffeinated chocolate milkshake.)
Loki was SO EXCITED ABOUT THIS SPELL y'all. Was insistent that I didn't even have to do "part two" bc "part one" was powerful enough. They told me it was a really big spell, and I honestly felt it- this was some intense work.
Part one was typing with intent and channeling Loki's energy into my intent since Loki wanted to be the main energy source. Literally I looked like that^ the whole time. Spellwork can look cozy if you want it too.
#I just want to say it because i feel like the only model i had for spellwork as a baby witch was like#candles and spell jars and ingredients#and that type of spell is so valid! i love those spells#but this is the most intense spell I've done and it takes the form of a note document in my book of shadows#witchcraft#paganism#witchblr#pagan#pagan witch#witch community#deity work#paganblr#eclectic pagan#witch blog#spellwork#loki deity#loki devotee
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he's so important to me
#i guess i need to watch the anime but super's manga has just been a self-indulgent fever dream for me from start to finish#100000/10 absolutely perfect so validating so extremely catered to my tastes and headcanons and analyses and humor#so fucking funny and emotional and intense and goofy and beautifully drawn#my beautiful son getting to finally fucking see his HARD won character growth fucking shine and choose love and choose to be loved!!!!!!#Goku just being Goku Vegeta being Team Dad Piccolo being Team Grandpa Bulma being a fucking superstar keeping everybody organized and fed#god i love this squad i love this series i love these dumbasses and their struggles and their triumphs and their stupid childish bonding#I love that Toriyama just spent the last several years reminding the class that DB as a whole has always been an ACTION-COMEDY about LOVE#and I'm SO sad that the z anime really never did it justice in that sense because of having to fill time with dramatic tension but god. GOD#THE MANGA HAS ALWAYS BEEN SO CLEAR ON THAT THESIS.#Just all about Restorative Justice and Community and CARING even when you wish SO MUCH that you didn't care but yoU DO GODDAMMIT!!!#SUCH a great series I'm so sad it took losing mr t for me to finally read it but my god I needed to read it now and I'm so glad he wrote it#and i'm SO glad he wrote it Exactly Like This#once again rip to a legend i'm caught up and crying it's so perfect it's SO everything I've wanted to see onscreen and embedded in canon#and canon isn't everything but it still feels gREAT to be SO 1:1 on the same page with an author re: how you interpret your blorbo yknow???#been rotating this man in my head for 25 years and Mr Toriyama just mWAH kissed me on the forehead about it#anyway enough tag rambles I'm off again aklsjla#bonus for that kenpachi shit and letting him say 'sorry dude I can't be cold and numb anymore but this is still cathartic as fuck lol' like#mr t i hope you see the HIGHEST tier of heaven for that (and obviously for like everything all of it the whole life you led)#dbtag
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Hey blue or mayor- I got a question.
What's your favorite ice cream flavor? Mine is chocolate.
Also here have this *put flower crown on his head*
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#lego monkie kid#lego monkie kid fanart#monkie kid#monkie kid fanart#lmk#lmk fanart#lmk mayor#monkie kid mayor#lmk macaque#monkie kid macaque#blue and violet#I just remembered that there is actually a valid reason as to why I decided the Mayor would like pears#pear is a autumn/winter fruit#I'm so silly that I forgot that this was an actual reason for my logic behind this#mayor likes pear because its a winter fruit#and its a bit dull but the pears I have eatten are a little sweet so eh#citrus fruits are also winter fruits#this guy could probably eat a lemon whole and not even flinch#or maybe they would and their face would actually just scrunch up in the modt horrifying way#I don't know which one is funnier#anyways- the mayor likes pear flavoured ice cream/milk ice#I personally like chocolate flavoured ice cream too š#I actually just love icecream in general so I think I'm jusy projecting onto the Mayor at this point#they love ice cream/milk ice#Macaque has intense mixed feelings about this#he doesn't understand the appeal of a good pear other than the fact that its a good fruit to wash down something you just ate beforehand#he likes banana and banana flavoured ice cream#y'know its funny because people assume Mayor likes blueberries because its blue and Macaque likes plums because its purple
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i watched the original x-men movies when they first came out, but never bothered to watch the prequel/reboot movies. just randomly decided to watch first class and was reminded what i've always felt my whole life: *whispers* magneto was right
#charles was so self-righteous and annoying lmao#he was a rich intellectual with a need for control#erik TRULY knew suffering#how are you gonna attempt to police somebody who has lived through the horrors he has lived through?#how are you gonna try to reason away his extremely valid emotions? police how the oppressed should feel about their oppression?!#the man literally was in a concentration camp. he knew what othering and using people as political pawns looked like#the humans were clearly headed in that direction and PROVED it by attacking you the second you no longer served their purpose#professor x absolutely gives the judgy people who look down their nose at rioting or other violent forms of protest#that are in direct response to violence and discrimination against the oppressed#especially when you consider the lens that x-men was written to be a metaphor for black/jewish/queer people#people who society shunned simply for being born how they were born#so yeah i'm with magneto the humans gotta go āš¾š#and while i'm at it? killmonger and malcolm x were right too. they were just intense about it. i said what i said lol#mine#not bts
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one thing i really deeply wish is that i'd had access as a kid to the plural community and information that are more easily available today, instead of my first experience with plural community which both took it seriously and was nonjudgmental having been 10's era tul/pa.info lmao
#moogletalks#in some ways it was a wonderful community; and it taught me a lot of really helpful things#and made me feel validated and hopeful that This is a Thing That You Can Continue to Be and Develop in an Adult Life#instead of feeling like there was a time limit for when plurality stopped being Childlike Imagination and started being Craziness(tm)#(lots to unpack there lol)#.....in other ways not only was there Some Real Fuckery going on in the community in general; on an interpersonal basis#but i cannot overstate how horrifically toxic and damaging some of the things it taught me about plurality were#and how when i entered the phase of young adulthood where i realized the approach it had demanded of me was unsustainable to my survival#instead of having other perspectives on hand to go 'hey yeah you're not torturing your parts to death out of laziness if they go dormant'#'and/or if you don't spend hours of extremely grueling intensive work at minimum into maintaining them every single day of your life'#'and that if they dissolve into nothing because you Didn't Pay Them Enough Attention and you try to recreate them it won't be the same one'#'and if they DO actually come back as themselves they'll be horribly broken and traumatized and probably hate you forever'#'who the fuck told you that. oh my god?'#all i had to go on was 'either you're plural or you live an actual functional life in the real world; and i can't not do the latter atp'#and the result was repressing myself in an incredibly traumatic way i have just never fully recovered from even now#the fun cherry on top was that later when i *did* try to ask (very kind and well-meaning) plural ppl from another mental health community#if anything i described sounded familiar to their own experiences; or ones they had heard from other people#their response was pretty much 'idk that doesn't sound plural to me; i'm sorry; it's something where if you have it you know :('#me crying my eyes out for days afterward: obviously this reaction is bc i want to appropriate plurality to feel special#and am throwing tantrums at having the bubble broken by Reality#anyway. it's been a lot and yeah i really wish i'd had literally any other affirming plural community as a kid lol#ableism cw#internalized ableism cw#pluralitag#traumatag#adventures in mental illness#disabilitag
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TOP OF THE GRADE FUCK YES
#SGSHDHFHFHDGSGST#genuinely didn't think i could do it this year#This is NOT helping my intense need for academic validation but fuck it feels good
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also another thing. idk if uve read batman year one (which incidentally is also written by frank miller. this man gets around i tell ya) but it's really good. and like. first time we see bruce in the batsuit he fucks up and gets his ass beat. he consistently is portrayed as uniquely fallible and needs to snatch victory out of the jaws on defeat with tricks and cunning. in absolute batman (where he is supposedly operating with LESS RESOURCES) he just. he just wins. this is not young bruce who is incredibly smart and quick on his feet but lacks experience with his back against the wall and escaping by the skin of his teeth and winning back ground with well planned theatrical illusions this is. idk. it's something else
(READ BATMAN YEAR ONE ITS REALLY GOOD. IF UVE ALREADY READ IT READ IT AGAIN. (also we don't hate absolute batman by any means we just go insane sometimes)
HEHEHEHEHOHOHOHOHO >:333
#I AGREE I AGREE ITS SUCH A GOOD DEPICTION OF YOUNG BRUCE#His intensity#However much i can.. Dislike frank miller he is amazing at describing bruce's feelings about gotham#Anyway yeah this specific comic book (along with several others) hold a lot of sentimental value#Cos my a level tutor gave them to me. And he was one of the only people at school who seemed to fully validate my mental struggles and#Believed me when i said i might be autistic#I NEED to reread it but for now i have other comics to read š¤#Asks
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coming down with terminal post-fic disease (refreshing ao3 inbox page every five minutes) (i need to be put down like a dog)
#i get really intense about comments on these fics because in my mind i stress and fret and cry about word choice for months on end#for something that five people will read (at best) so i feel somehow like i'm entitled to like instant validation from these five or so ppl#and even then no matter how nice my friends are about the fic i've built up their response for so long in my head that whatever#they do say feels a little bit like a letdown#which. to be clear. is totally not their fault HAHA i'm so glad that people even read and/or like these things at all#im just neurotic. and insane#girl help im tying up my worth as a person to the quality of my writing again#girl help im refreshing my ao3 inbox agaib#girl help someone PUT ME OUT OF MY MISERY ššššššššš
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My therapist hasn't killed me yet š
#unfortunately i actually. like i had so much to say that i couldn't get an in-depth response#sometimes that happens.#so like. not a negative 'oh you are going to die badly if this continues' reaction. just very thoughtful like#'oh... yeah... that's heavy. but it makes sense' response. which is. honestly. i feel better#even just w that. like. coming from the insane paranoia jumping to conclusions thought crime religion#one million guilt one million years. and also something Wrong w you. die. one thousand deaths#like. it's maybe gonna be okay. maybe i can explore heavier topics w care and consideration#without being shot on sight. or at v least knowing that if i am. i'm not necessarily The Problem here#feels. like an oversimplification. but you know. you know how it can be.#never ever ever wanna get into discourse though. ever. idk if it's irrational but i have always had an intense fear#that someday i'm gonna post something and then get lolcow'd to death.#like. it's not just my upbringing i don't think. it's the whole culture surrounding certain fandom spaces#which is honestly why i don't even consider myself a fandom blog. i'm an autism blog.#you get whatever i'm fixated on. forever. and nearly 100% of the time it's askr siblings#idk i also just think it sucks. that you need to have 'valid' reasons to explore certain subjects#which firstly require you to be a victim and secondly requires you to be a perfect victim.#which puts people in terrible spots where like. what is this a confession booth. i wasn't even cathlolic. get OUT of here!!!!#sorry i still have a lot of Feelings. about it. and ultimately that's what it is. i have a lot of very intense Feelings#they are my own. to protect. to process. i don't want to get confrontational about it. that's stupid.#already this feels like a confession of guilt. is it the christianity? is it the way some online spaces just Are?#i don't know. all i know is i want to make art. it means so much to me. to say what i need to say.#and to be heard. that's been the craziest part. all these things i've been terrified of. but sometimes. i'm heard.#idk idk idk. no more emotional vulnerability. ass hurt. done.
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asexual/gray sexual Dick Grayson is very important to me. yk?
#idk#itās weird cause Iāve headcanonned others as are and/or ace#like I am#but this time it FEELS like. idk. proper connection? properā¦ smth???#love the idea he can love so widely and/or intensely#thatās heās conventially and almost quite literally objectively (according to in universe DC) attractive#but. doesnāt want or care about sex.#nope.#none at all.#just feels. cuddles.#it feels so much moreā¦ wholesome?? if that makes sense?#like donāt get me wrong Sex is very much a valid way to show love but like.#ugh idk.#look ace dick is very important to me and I love it ok#thank you š#dick grayson#nightwing
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if anyone is willing to talk to me abt possible system stuff that would b great btw i have zero ppl to talk to abt it lol
(or if i can be guided to like. idk. server that helps w figuring this shit out)
#askin some hard questions rn WOOOOO#mainly .#fr context i realized i was a system at like 13ish#do not have the trauma to qualify for a diagnosis#and have been off and on about thinking of myself as a system or not#primarily bc my identity was in a period of upheaval throughout my teen years thanks to abuse#i definitely have experiences that i think are having alters#even if i AM able to block it out hardcore and ignore it for the most part#i guess it is like a conscious sticking my head in the sand thing#bc honestly. dealing w processing trauma has been hard enough by itself#and there is in fact an actual goal the entire system holds itself to#sighs.#the way im talking sure is yelling the answer at me#ig im just like. lays on floor#i need validation lol#on whether or not what im experiencing is a thing or not#or if its possibly my psychosis acting up again#bc i am legit never sure abt that one#granted i havent had any of my other psychosis symptoms#(i think)#and i feel . fine?#so it PROBABLY isnt that#but it wouldnt be the first time ive had a rlly intense delusion thats altered my identity#and i am in fact really gullible#but also it Does feel weird to refer to alters as kintypes . bc theyre so fleshed out and Not That#sits.#and i also do dissociate like crazy#i hate it when things get complex lol#in reference to psychosis. no what i consider alters are not hallucinations#theyre WAY too fleshed out for that
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