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heytheredeann · 4 years ago

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I was tagged by @ilosttrackofthings, thank you! I have. like. a thousand tag games that you guys have tagged me in, I will get to them eventually probably. I’ll try. sorry. but I figured that I should start somewhere and it’d be smart to avoid adding more to the pile LOL

All this disclaimer to say: if you’ve tagged me in something and I’ve liked the post, I saw it, I love you, and I will get to it, I’m just a bit of a disaster human sometimes, and especially when I have exams to worry about.

Aaaaanyway

1) Have you had a good day so far?

Yeah, no studying today because yesterday I passed an exam, which means that I Deserve A Lazy Day. So I did some writing in the morning and I filled my queue for tonight and now I’m hungry so I suppose that I’ll make myself some lunch as soon as I’m close enough to starving that it makes me want to get off the bed (it’s around 1 pm, though I’ll probably post this tonight).

2) What’s something you wish you could tell your younger self?

Depends, how young are we talking? I suppose any me younger than 17/18 would have benefited from ‘yo, you’re gay’, that might have shortened my identity crisis (.......though, knowing me? Possibly not by much, mistrusting myself sounds 10000% like me).

There are honestly a lot of things that I wish I had known and that are only starting to truly sink in now, but the thing that I probably would have needed the most was some guarantee that it does get better, it’s not just survival for the sake of it forever. “Keep your head up because things have to get better at some point” is like 90% of my coping strategy in life, but I would have needed to know that it was true for me specifically (this shit is cliché for a reason okay, it’s true LOL).

3) If you could share one song with someone for them to understand you, what would it be?

I’m going to need to think about this one... I’ve literally been listening to JUST The Amazing Devil for a month and a half now, since when I first discovered them, so THAT is probably telling already, all their songs speak to me, some more than others and depending on my mood.

If I had to choose one right now it’d probably be The Horror and The Wild, and I’m too lazy to go through my ipod and look for something that isn’t from The Amazing Devil, sorry XD

4) Do you have a song people wouldn’t expect you to like, but you do?

I think anyone who has asked me about my music taste has now accepted that it’s ‘literally everything except songs I don’t like’, I don’t know what would surprise them LOL.

5) Describe your go-to pair of shoes.

I have no idea what you guys call them in English, but in winter it’s this kind of boots, which I just wear out every year only to buy a new pair when they eventually fall apart on me, while in summer it’s just black or blue All Star/Converse, because I’ve had them for years and they don’t make my feet boil, so fine by me.

6) Do you have pictures/posters in your room? What of?

I just have a drawing of a big red fish that a friend gifted me for my birthday. It’s really cute!

7) Fave software?

I don’t know... like... what kind of software? A lot of things technically count as a software, right? I’m confused LOL.

8) Do you own nail polish/what’s your favourite color?

No, I used to in middle school for like a year but nah.

9) Do/can you lucid dream?

Nope.

10) Summer or winter?

Winter, please and thank you.

11) If you could re-live a day in your life, would you? When?

Assuming you mean “re-live” as in “not changing anything”, I would absolutely re-live the day I found out that I got into uni. Sure, there are a first few hours of maddening anxiety but then! the joy!

12) Favourite historical era?

Eeeeeh I don’t know, I’ve never seriously thought about it I guess. There are specific elements that fascinate me about history, and like history in general, but I wouldn’t say that I am particularly fixated on one era.

13) Common misunderstanding people seem to have about you?

I suppose I have been told a few times, these past few years, that I don’t seem particularly shy and/or introverted when making small talk, which means that I deserve a Oscar for my ability to Play It Cool because semi-strangers think that I don’t dread any kind of social situation.

Tagging: @im-the-punk-who @mysteryandnonstopfun @misscrazyfangirl321 @frankiebleu @mslyragw (if you want to, obviously)

#thanks for tagging me!#ilosttrackofthings #tag game #not spn #ely has shit to say

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voicesfromthelight · 5 years ago

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A Follow-up on The Attunement: A Warning on El Paso, And What It Taught Me About The Importance of Building Symbolic Vocabularies

Today’s post will be a follow-up on events that have transpired in the last 48 hours, since I received my energetic attunement from my guides. The last two days have been interesting, exhilarating, and intense. I’ve felt a very clear shift in my ability to receive information from Spirit, and the events I’ve experienced have helped me figure out some useful things about how this energy works. They have also emphasized to me the importance of working with your guides to both fine-tune and expand communicative vocabularies.

As a quick recap, in case readers don’t feel inclined to revisit the previous post: Two days ago, I woke up to the awareness that I had been a sent a clairvoyant image, for which I was also given claircognizant instructions on how to find it. The instructions quickly led me to the correct photograph of unrest in Hong Kong. When I went to channel later in the day, my guides confirmed that the image had been transmitted to me with the intention of bolstering my latent clairvoyant ability. After obtaining my consent, my guides then gifted me with a powerful energy attunement that they said would help me develop my clair-senses, quicken the manifestation of my goals, bring through new teachings, and also aid me in energy healing through allowing me to work together with a new healer spirit guide. This energy could be passed on to other people simply through intention and mutual agreement. The experience of the attunement was electrifying, and I was able to pass the energy on to three people by the end of the day, reactivating it at will. All of them reacted palpably and positively. The most important piece of advice I received was to be very intentional about where I directed the energy, and to take even more care than before to avoid manifesting my fears through worry.

Having sent this energy attunement to three people, now, here is what I have figured out, so far:

1. This energy will adapt itself to the needs of the individual receiving it. Salvador’s instruction to be intentional in how it is directed is aimed not only at me, but at the recipients. They will gain the most benefit from the energy of the attunement when they clearly define what they wish to use it for, before receiving it.

2. It seems that when the energy is passed on, the attunement may work in a way similar to a strong, one-off energy healing, geared towards the recipient’s needs. I do not yet know if the attunement can be passed on by people who receive it from me. I suspect that in many cases, it can, depending on the person, their proclivities, level of psychic development, and intentions.

3. The energy is passed on simply by saying an opening prayer, re-activating the energy through intention, receiving consent for the attunement, and then visualizing the energy pouring into the recipient. I find myself using sound in the the form of whistling to help transmit it. The process takes about two minutes, but the energy can reach the recipient with a slight delay.

4. For me, the attunement has definitely strengthened my clairvoyance, and for some reason, at the moment, this is currently manifesting as being tapped into events that make international news headlines. I seem to be open to new methods of communication, with new guides.

Aside from these considerations about the nature of the energy and how it works, the events that have happened since the attunement have given me much to process. One sequence of events in particular, while upsetting and linked to a great tragedy, has already taught me a valuable lesson about the importance of giving our guides a rich bank of knowledge, or vocabulary of symbols, to work with when transmitting information.

This post will meander somewhat, but I think it’s important that I document and share everything that has transpired so far.

In the hours that followed the attunement, I enjoyed a great sense of well-being. I felt peaceful, grounded as well as energetically “whole,” as if any energetic cords of tension or lack linking me to other people had dissolved, and all my personal energy had been restored. Then, in the evening, something unexpected happened.

I had come back to my home in Brooklyn after a long day of running errands in Manhattan, and was planning on visiting a friend. Before leaving the house, I plopped down on the sofa in my living-room - which is where I usually do my channeling work - and dozed off for what must have only been fifteen minutes.

Within that short period of time, I quickly fell into a dream. I found myself looking at a room with dusty, red curtains covering the wall, which felt a little similar to some of the Argentine tango salons I frequent. As in those salons, people were gathered near the walls, but somehow, the situation felt more like a family wake than a tango milonga. Some of the 20 or so people, of all different ages, genders and sizes, I knew were of Mexican descent. They didn’t seem to see me back. I was merely an onlooker. Only one man standing in the crowd - a dapper Mexican gentleman with distinctive, almond-shaped eyes and a moustache, wearing a suit and tie - turned his gaze to me momentarily, and nodded slightly, a strange, solemn look on his face.

And then, I knew, they were dead souls.

I didn’t know why I had been brought into the presence of this particular group, as I didn’t seem to have any personal connection to them, but they seemed to belong together in some way. Perhaps they were merely there because, for whatever reason, I happened to be seeing into their particular frequency band of the spirit world? Then, as my inner eyes scanned the crowd, they finally alighted on a sweet, familiar face. It was my friend from film school, Louie.*

Wait a minute. What was Louie doing in the middle of a group of dead souls?

What did I know about Louie, lately? He was young, recently married, and had a lot of life to look forward to. He was also of Mexican descent. Yes, he had had a health scare about a year ago, but had recuperated well. He lived far away, in Texas, and I hadn’t seen him in ten years. To suddenly see him standing there, surrounded by dead people, I thought, could only mean one thing. He had either suddenly passed, was about to, or was in mortal danger. As my concern mounted, my awareness inched towards a panicked lucidity. Something was terribly wrong. As my consciousness came hurtling out of the vision, I tried several times to physically call out Louie’s name, but no sound came out.

With my eyes still closed, but awake, now, through my eyelids, I could see and feel something that felt like a dense, red ball of energy, flashing with heat near my face, like a warning sign. It was as if it was broadcasting some kind of code containing all the emotional and intellectual information that was being transmitted to me in the dream. Every time it flashed, I felt the emotional response of terror flaring up. However, I knew the energy itself was not malicious. It was merely a semi-sentient package of information from Spirit - perhaps a thought form - very vigorously doing its job. It flashed a few times, and then, it was gone.

I opened my eyes, sat up, and tried to process what I had just experienced. It was a hot night. My fan was off. I sometimes have nightmares when I’m too hot. The inability to call out, and the feeling of the flashing ball of energy, surely were symptoms of sleep paralysis? On the other hand, after the morning’s very powerful developments, could my intuition be so off that I would dupe myself into thinking I had received a mediumistic communication of this caliber? That didn’t sit right, either.

I opened up my phone and looked up Louie’s Facebook page, half dreading to see a sudden outpouring of condolences on his wall. There were none.

Louie was safe and sound, in El Paso.

Over a late dinner, I hashed over everything that had happened with my friends, still not quite knowing what to think. Why had I seen Louie like that, when he was OK? Why couldn’t I shake the feeling that this was not just a vivid nightmare with some special effects added in for good measure, but a communication from Spirit?

The following morning, as I was going over the morning’s news headlines, I was reminded of the image I had been sent clairvoyantly as a prelude to my attunement. Despite its actually having been set in Hong Kong, when I had received it, I had mistakenly thought the scene was taking place in an Asian area of Russia. Now, instead of the Hong Kong protests, it was protests in Russia, in which hundreds of people had been arrested, that were making headlines. I wondered if the claircognizant information had been deliberately split to be relevant to both events: Russia and Asia? (This is how my guides’ verbally coded shorthand sometimes condenses information.) The question of how to process geographical information in Spirit communication was about to become more pressing.

I took the train into Manhattan with the intention of going to write in my customary café. It is worth mentioning that on the way there, another strange synchronicity happened, which I’m sure was orchestrated by my guides. I took a slightly different route than usual, and was serendipitously all but pulled off the street into an event where 25 shamanistic healers were conducting a group sound healing ceremony. I hadn’t been to a gathering like this for years, and the timing so soon after my attunement seemed perfect. (I had, in fact, been planning on attending events organized by the group behind it for over a year, but simply hadn’t gotten my act together.)

As I exited the event, I checked my phone. And that’s when I saw the headline: A mass shooting was taking place in El Paso, Texas. Where Louie lived. In fact, Louie was the only person I knew who lived there, and the first thing I would think of anytime anyone mentioned the city. Two possible suspects were still on the loose. The situation was still unfolding.

I quickly checked to see if Louie had posted anything online to let everyone know he was OK. Yes. He had posted a warning for people to stay away from the area of the shooting. Thank God, he was probably fine, and it was the proximity of the shooting that had triggered the warning I had received. I quickly messaged him, stumbling a bit over my wording, telling him to please stay safe. Then, I hoped for the best.

By the end of massacre, 20 people were dead, and at least 20 more, injured. I was haunted by the feeling of terror I had felt the night before, but Louie and his loved ones were safe. And that’s when I understood what had happened in the dream, and why.

The dream I had on my sofa was an authentic mediumistic communication. However, the reason I had seen Louie in the middle of the group of souls who were about to pass so tragically was not that he was to be among them, but because my strongest association with the city of El Paso, was Louie. Simply put, because of how my mind was wired to decode information, “Louie” was shorthand for “El Paso.”

This is where the lesson in this experience can be found.

It’s important to remember that Spirit will use the existing knowledge within the mind of the medium to give concrete form to intangible energy - which is why different mediums receive information in different ways. This is also why competent instructors of mediumship will encourage students to build up their knowledge of different subjects - and a bank of symbols for different concepts. If you memorize an entire book of baby names, Spirit won’t have to work as hard to get you to hear names in a mediumistic context. If you familiarize yourself with symbols associated with different faiths, you’ll know what a turban with a miniature dagger in it symbolizes, and what it does not. If you read up on the history of fashion, you might have an easier time pin-pointing the era and culture a spirit is hailing from.

…And if you familiarize yourself really thoroughly with geography and landmarks, well, Spirit won’t need to use your still-living buddy as a symbol for a city where a massacre is about to happen, scaring the crap out of you.

…And you will no longer confuse Moscow and Hong Kong.

Geeze!

This is an excellent takeaway.

I’ve heard stories of developing mediums who get so upset about receiving communications on tragedies, that they just say “Nope!” and shut down, sometimes for years. This experience was emotionally challenging, but didn’t make me want to reject the communication. So, last night, I sat down, and said to my guides: “Thank you for sending me this information. I do want to continue to receive truthful communication even when it’s unpleasant. But let’s make a deal. I’ll read up on landmarks, geography, and a whole bunch of other stuff, and you will use that new symbolic vocabulary to fine-tune your transmissions, so this kind of confusion doesn’t happen again, OK? Please make sure I don’t get scared that my friend is in mortal danger, unless it’s true and there is something I can do to help, or you at least know that hearing about it will soften the emotional blow.”

Now, it’s up to me to hold up my end of the deal. I am confident that they will hold up theirs.

What areas of knowledge do you think might help you with your Spirit communications? Do you have areas of expertise on which you find you will more readily receive specific information? What symbol systems work best with your communications? Think about how you can expand and develop them!

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*Name changed to protect privacy.

#attunements #energy healing #spirit guides #precognition #intution #mediumship #symbolism #channeled messages #spirit #spiritual #el paso shooting #psychic #psychic medium #clairvoyance #psychic development #sleep paralysis #dreams #prophetic dreams #lucid dreams

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headspacedad · 6 years ago

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note to self: thyroid edition

so every now and then my thyroid flips over to hyper again and I have to remedicate and lower my dosage. Things I really should notice to tip me off and never do so I’m going to write them down in case 1. they help anyone else and 2. I actually pay attention next time. Warning: I’m going to talk about psychical stuff and it might be TMI so avert your eyes.

1. super long growing strong nails. I spend two to three weeks amazed at how nice my normally peeling short nails suddenly look and How Damn Good My Hands Look with nice long nails before another symptom tips me off and I realize ‘oh - riiiiiihgt

2. dry skin. My face is always the first to go and a week or two later I start to notice it in my legs. But since I live in Florida with a sometimes fickle dry season I just associate it with the drier weather and slather on the facial cream until my legs start to tip me off it might be more.

3. boring ass dreams. Like I seriously wasted all my precious dreamtime last night in a parking lot looking for a place to put away my shopping cart. The night before I was out on a fabulous date - and ended up spending the entire dream helping this old B&B owner clean out his basement. I could have been a dragon or something instead but nooo I spent the night carefully picking up loose bolts off a dusty bookcase

4. the gagging kicks back in. Anything that gets me the least bit excited, stressed or nervous (and by excited I mean ‘makes me move even the slightest bit in a sudden way I wasn’t planning’) seems to make me end up gagging. Not coughing. Its just in my throat and I have to bite back gagging when I go to hug my nephew because he’s suddenly leaving the room

5. muscle strength drops to below nil on the ‘I’ve have a week long bad fever’ level if I exert past what I’m used to. Since I don’t usually exert past what I’m used to this only tips me off if I’m suddenly pelting down the street (potentially also gagging) or spinning one of those merry go round things for kids for an unexpectedly long time. Not a Reliable Indicator for its lack of showing up.

6. I might potentially write more and easier. Not sure if this is a side effect or unrelated because I haven’t paid attention before.

7. jag on worries. Something that would worry me usually and be able to be set aside ends up playing in loop in my head until it gets way bigger than it should and my brain keeps coming back to it even when I sidetrack it with distractions. Worries seem more important than they are and eat up more brain time than they should.

8. fuck sleep. Brain runs too fast to let me shut things off for the night. Not with actual thoughts because there’s often nothing going on, just a vague busy feeling like there’s a lot going on that isn’t. This is usually what tips me off because I am a very expert sleeper.

9. period schedule might change - still testing this one out and sweat smell might change or that might have been the medicine overload in my system bleeding out. Jury’s out on whether these two are actually tied in or not.

10. potential sleep cycle break. Instead of the usual six hours, I go for four, putz around in the dark for three or four hours and then light doze/semi-lucid dream it for another hour or so. Not sure if this is related either since I didn’t pay attention last time (but I’m kind of digging it)

anyway I’ll add more if I come up with them (or anyone with thyroid issues is free to add more as well). Don’t worry, this is normal since my lizard body needs adjusted medication depending on the cold or heat. Its just a matter of catching it when it starts to swing so I can pick up my other dosage instead of puttering along blithely for weeks before I finally realize what my body is doing.

#thyroid #nothing serious #but I was just thinking 'I should make a list so maybe the next time my dumb ass will notice sooner'#and then thought 'why not share the list in case anyone else with a funky thyroid notices something like this too'#so ta da!#thyroid stuff

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ts-autumns-world · 3 years ago

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Episode 4: “Tua supremacy babey” - Lily O

I GET TO REUNITE WITH JINX YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

me waking up to see that im in the new tribe: https://media.tenor.com/images/93212119a4887f9fa0ad945c7ae2a5d0/tenor.gif

tbh i expected the swap since like we have 14 rn so its a reasonable number to do a swap before the merge.. but like this swap sucks not only me being the only one from og eener but its also me having to be with these 4 whites ppl. you know i don't trust white ppl except mikki SDFSDFSDFSDF so this absolutely SUCKS. and geekoffilm is on another tribe too.

URGH i hope i can team up with jinx and jude. and joey and i used to play together in CoW so hopefully, i am able to make him want to work with me again.. but monty... monty is very skeptical cause like they could just vote me off now. BUT THEN, i know that either jinx or raffy has the idol for sure, so maybe i need to ask jinx for that. or i just ask the person who i'll be up against with in the tic tac toe to throw a challenge if they are the og eener too.

much to think about bestie booth. i wanna trust these ppl so bad but i have trust issues

https://youtu.be/JrXnnD5KU0I

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naur this is the plan if we go to council

imma be like joey

you are the only cis white man on the team

you have to go.

you wanna be an ally?

THIS IS HOW!!!

so im pushing for u FEWEJFEEFJEFEIFEFIJW

heS ALWAYS SAYING HE WANTS TO BE A BETTER ALLY

ALWAYS CALLING ME LIKE JINX IM SO SORRY

ILL BE LIKE FOR WHAT??

HE'S LIKE FOR BEING A WHITE CIS STRAIGHT MAN.

IF UR REALLY SORRY ULL LEAVE!

I have to start this out by saying Giraffez, I’m so sorry! I tried my best but too many people wanted to keep us comp strong and wanted Lily O to stay. I really wish we would have had the chance to play longer together but sometimes it’s just not in the cards.

As far as swap goes, I’m really happy about my team. We have a majority from my original group which is pretty wild. I wish Chips was here and I really hope he makes it work somehow but I’m ngl I’m a little worried about him.

I was so so thrilled to see Jinx on Tua with me. I also have started talking with Captain and Jude. They both seem super nice so as always I’m hoping to avoid tribal once again.

I’d like to the think that original Llih (was that how you spelled it?) will stay together but Giraffez told me that Lily O told her that she was voting for me. Now obviously we all voted Giraffez but I think Lily O knows I was plotting. So. I hope we can stick together. But. Yeah. Your girl is worried. And excited. She is excited cause this group seems cool. But nervous because yeah I’m not ready for another vote out. Mkay. Bye.

This swap went pretty well for me all things considered. I still have a bunch of people from my OG Tribe, and the new people seem active and really nice! So, I like my tribe. Blake offered to me today to work together closely in the game which I am down for. The semi-inactive people need to stick together and all that lmao. Other than that, I am straight Vibing

Swap time! honestly its time to kick it into high gear and win this immunity challenge! make some real allies!

HELLO AUTUMNS WORLD!!!!!! So I have arrived in a swapped team with 3 of my old members! SOOO happy Mikki is here firstly since we can discuss basically anything. Blake and Raffy im also cool with but not like as close with them. Maybe a bit more with Blake. Of the new people my fav is Chris !! Already liking our chats and hope it can turn more strategic later maybe!! Ricky is also cool and funny and chips I was allies with him in Kili which is cool but probably the weakest connection of the new people so far!! It looks like we are gonna lose and if so its kinda hard like on one hand we have easy majority to vote off idk probably chips or maybe ricky or we could go against tribal linesI think Blake truly does wanna work with me tho but is just busy. Like going against tribal lines is kinda fun but maybe dumb. And chips being the 1 in a 4-2-1 swap sucks too!! Idk kind of evaluating the vibe with Mikki and will see what we think later if we lose… we would probs be safe regardless being protected by tribal lines on one side and having developed sorta good vibes with Chris and Ricky from the other side so probs wouldn’t be targeted from that angle either?? Hopefully… I did have kind of a delayed start with the new people cuz of irl stuff but yah we will see!

My opinion on swap was initially sad because I was missing out on Jinx/Jude/Joey/Captain BUT then I realize I like this tribe?? Im with Ricky still, Mikki probably is sitting at the cookout as we spesk, Chips is lowkey goody but I got my eye on him, Benj and I bond over Agatha Christie <3, Blake I knew from TDI so we have been goofin like a Goofy movie, Raffy I actually enjoy that we chat of the most mundane things, and that's everybody! I think I have a chance to survive on this tribe

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My thoughts are that I've got Ricky and Mikki at minimum. I know Mikki/Raffy got beef but I doubt they go for each other. Chips is like a level-headed Joey but I reckon one of him/Blake/Benj will be targeted if I had to guess. Nevertheless me and Captain talked during our matchup and exchanged info. My hope is me or Ricky are in Outhouse but I also hope not so we have higher odds to keep the goodies all goodie and safe

https://voca.ro/18WSqZznajDx

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I LOVE JUDE

so idk where my last confessional left off but i think it was before tribal. so after tribal, jinx’s manifestations came true, we swapped, i ended up on a tribe with no one i knew except chris, so that was kind of…nnng. but hey, gotta roll with the punches. me and jinx were paired up for the challenge which game me a bit of time to talk with them, and they gave me some insight on ppl i didn’t really know on my tribe, and also they gave me a tarot reading, and it basically said that while i’m probably gonna have to deal with some bullshit, i just have to use everything i’ve learned to get over any obstacles, and stay calm and collected through it all. i’m really really praying for this one, since we just lost immunity, and now chris is going to the outhouse, i’m afraid that i’m truly all alone now. and if there’s one thing that scares me it’s being alone. i really like mikki tho, and i heard benj was good ppl. maybe if i let them know that raffy might have the half idol then maybe they’d be more inclined to work with me, but i also really enjoy raffy’s presence, so i don’t really want him to be a target. blake and i have had a good amount of dialogue so i’m hoping that he’d be willing to work with me, to be honest. ughhhhh why why why tribal. WHY TRIBAL. in all my years of playing tumble survivor i’ve never been sent to like…and exile or redemption island ONCE. not once….ever…. please god let me get to the outhouse just one time.

First of all, lemme just say I'm so amused by how quickly my chances of no-votes went RIGHT out the door. But also thank god that it went off without a hitch! And right before a swap, no less New tribe is definitely iconic. LOVE Jinx, Captain and Jude are cool too, and then my Llih buddies are also v nice to have (shoutouts monty and joey)

Tua supremacy babey

https://youtu.be/oP7DWOnmt40

https://youtu.be/Z3_pyWTdRh8

https://youtu.be/UFshPYJ98z0

hello confessional booth... i'm here to give you um. something i hope!!!!

well since the swap, i feel like i've managed to fit in better than i expected cause ive been feeling under the weather and i don't rlly have energy to talk to anyone (which is so great that our tribe won this IC) but i rlly need to work on that more for sure..

joey wants to work with me.. like a lot. we worked together for a bit in CoW before he was voted out and he was a great ally to me back then so i think i can trust joey a little bit? and he rlly wants the pocs to go far so i think this is a good sign.

with jinx, we've been wanting to talk about the outhouse thing but jinx wants to call and i've been feeling sick so we haven't called but hopefully we can do that soon. i trust jinx a lot and i know they're gonna take care of me.

jude.. you know i like her since i saw her intro vid so yup gonna need to talk to her more!!!

lily c.. my fellow teacher pls SFSFSDFSD i enjoy our chat a lot like idt its much but every time we talk, with her, it just feels great and nice and like we just get to know each other so far so i hope we can talk game a bit more but we'll see

lily o.. we haven't talked since the day the swap happened. idk why. maybe she's busy or maybe i should dm her first so i think i'm gonna do that tmr my time if i have the energy.

and monty... PLEASE idk if i can trust monty or not. like he's a good friend of mine but my experience in orgs with them is that they tried to break the swp apart (which was smart but then mikki and i are both playing so gotta keep an eyes on them)

i'm just trying to feel good and hopefully recover soon cause i hate being sick. idk i'm scared of covid!!!!! but i haven't gone outside for a week or two methinks so we're gonna pray and see.

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missing mikki and hope she will be fine

Blake suggested starting an OG Eneer alliance to Mikki and Benj. They took them up on the offer so I guess I am in my first alliance of the game based on arbitrary reasons. In any case, they seem to want to vote out Chips which is a RIP. But whatever keeps me safe for one more round.

I don’t have an obsession with the Mr. Robinson’s Neighborhood sketch from SNL... No I clearly don’t... https://youtu.be/whfQf3Pd5bU

It’s my chronic overthinking in this swap that is going to do me in, I feel. It’s the pressure of having to actually think differently, and coming off of EVERYTHING I’ve seen in this community over the past 6 months, oh good Lord have mercy, I feel as though its so hard for me to want to not sacrifice my game, but at the same time... I feel all the pressure in the world to flip. I did have a lucid dream that if I got to a point where I consistently voted only white people at every Council, it would make my game look REALLY good by comparison, since I literally did everything I could, and no, I don’t want to hear anyone post season say this was rigged for Jinx, it’s not, we’re only going to go against each other down the road because of how this season has been set up, and it breaks my heart

https://photos.app.goo.gl/eSvSGkc4zmBfnYVP7

So here's some tea I suppose. I was a pretty big fan of the tribe swap because people talked more in general. This was particularly interesting considering their different timezones but continued ability to keep up conversation. It was pretty apparent that I was at a numbers deficit from my original tribe but my hope was that people didn't want to play like "that" and then if they did that my former tribe would throw it to keep the numbers. Apparently that is not true as Lily C went as hard as possible to win a challenge she could have convincingly thrown as an "accident" multiple times. At any rate, based on the total lack of communication with me concerning who I am voting it is evident that either the plan is to vote someone without telling me or that it is to vote me. This means that regardless of the situation I am in a terrible position and will be leaving sooner rather than later. I don't know that I've been swap screwed in the past (perhaps, I've been playing for too long) but it really stinks.

For the TL;DR watch this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dzftXB28gBE

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As I'm writing this, I have a big gulp from... you guessed it... 7/11. I need to flip on one of the three of Monty, Lily O, and Lily C. My best option is going to vote for Lily O, I need Monty and Lily C to know I'm only doing this because yanno, things look awfully awful, and the pressure of making the right move and yet making sure I don't lose relationships is starting to get to me.

I also need them as shields because theyre the only winners in this game, and I need them here as shields for down the road heading into a merge.

I can't even believe I found TWOA IDOLS! I had to think a lot about who to give it too but I decided to do what felt like the smartest thing to do. Jinx and Captain already trust me and I enjoy Ricky but he gives semi chaotic energy. With that in mind, I had to give it to Jude as a sign of faith. Not only am I wanting her to do well, but I want to prove to her I legit want to work with her come merge 😊

https://youtu.be/vOn8Zsi0njA

https://youtu.be/UWTB-LYjbu0

for Chips: https://youtu.be/lSeDZdSEl4o

#tsaw #episodes

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21, 24, 36?

ngl this it the first one of these ive actually gotten questions on XD

21: First celebrity crush? This ones actually hard cause I didn't really have one, I never really followed celebrities in general and never really got crushes on any. I guess as a kid I kinda liked Justin from Wizards of Waverly Place, but I didn't care about the actor himself or anything.

24: What have you learned about yourself? Rather non-specific question, so I'll just try and spitball- I'm bi, my hair is actually wavy/curly, and I often semi-lucid dream. Also I squeak a lot and my knees crack like an old man. no idea if that answers the question lmao

36: How many alarms do you have set? None, baybee! I'm living freeee! but during the school year I have like 4 and sometimes they don't even fucking work XD one time I slept through all my alarms and my phone was like 'hey you didn't wake up so we turned your alarms off for you' and I was like?????????? wtf is the point of having an alarm then???

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The Weekend Warrior Feb. 7, 2020 – BIRDS OF PREY: ETC. ETC.

Thank heavens that there’s only one new wide release this weekend, and just as thankfully, it’s a movie that could help revive an ailing box office that’s been all about Sony’s Bad Boys for Life, Universal’s 1917 and Dolittle for the past few weeks. I never got around to seeing last week’s Gretel and Hansel, and I might still if I have time, but The Rhythm Section wasn’t that bad, and it certainly shouldn’t have bombed as badly as it did, making less than $3 million in 3,000 theaters. Yup, last weekend wasn’t great, and it was only partially due to the Super Bowl.

Clearly, it’s time to move on to this week with the first “superhero” movie of the year, the follow-up to one of DC Entertainment’s biggest outings but also meant to be its own thing, which is BIRDS OF PREY: AND THE FANTABULOUS EMANCIPATION OF HARLEY QUINN (Warner Bros.). It stars recent Oscar nominee Margot Robbie reprising her role as Harley Quinn, the Joker’s girlfriend/therapist, who is branching out on her own with her own supergirl group, which includes Huntress (Mary Elizabeth Winsted), Black Canary (Jurnee Smollett-Bell), Renée Montoya (Rosie Perez) and Cassandra Cain (at one point, called Batgirl), played by Ella Jay Basco. Robbie first played the role in 2016’s Suicide Squad, which earned over $300 million domestic, which some might point to the popularity of Harley as a comic character, but you could also point to things like the fact it starred bonafide box office star Will Smith (whose most recent movie Bad Boys 2 is currently the biggest movie of the year. Birds of Prey also stars Ewan McGregor and Chris Messina, as two well-known Bat-villains, Black Mask and Victor Zsasz, making their big screen live action debuts.

Unlike Suicide Squad, Birds of Prey is Rated R as DC and Warner Bros. have seen the huge success of the recent Joker movie, as well as the two Deadpool movies as proof that R-rated comic book movies can still do well even without the teen and tween audiences that usually go to see them. Presumably, Birds of Prey will attract more women due to the characters, although I’m sure there will be some men who who are just as interested due to the connections to the DC Universe. I’m just not sure this will be as big a draw to men as some of those other movies. I’ll have my own review on the blog a little later today.

While I don’t think Birds of Prey will open as big as Joker– let’s face it, the characters therein just aren’t nearly as well known, even Harley – I do think it will do quite well, making somewhere in the $60 million range, maybe more if the reviews are as positive as the early raves that were posted last week. (Having seen the movie and with my review on the way, I don’t think it will fare that well among real critics. You can read my own REVIEW here.)

Either way, Birds of Prey will the weekend with relative ease, although we’ll have to see how Sunday’s Oscar celebration affects all the movies’ business towards the end of the weekend.

This week’s Top 10 should look something like this…

1. Birds of Prey, Etc. Etc (Warner Bros.) - $64.5 million N/A (up $1.9 million)*

2. Bad Boys for Life (Sony) - $9.7 million –45%

3. 1917 (Universal) - $6.3 million -35%

4. Dolittle (Universal) - $4.7 million -40%

5. Jumanji: The Next Level (Sony) - $3.7 million -38%

6. The Gentlemen (STXfilms) - $2.9 million -48%

7. Gretel and Hansel (U.A. Releasing) - $2.8 million -55%

8. Little Women (Sony) - $2 million -35%

9. Star Wars: The Rise of Skywalker (Lucasfilm/Disney) - $1.7 million -46%

10. The Turning (Universal) - $1.3 million -55%

* UPDATE: I lowered my prediction a bit after seeing the movie but seeing that reviews have mainly been positive, I think it will help the movie bring in more business before Sunday.

LIMITED RELEASES

Two genre films that have been playing on the genre festival for the last year or so will open in select cities, the first being COME TO DADDY (Saban Films), the directorial debut by horror producer Ant Timpson, who was responsible for horror anthologies, The ABCs of Death and The Field Guide to Evil, as well as popular genre flicks Turbo Kid and The Greasy Strangler. In the movie, Elijah Wood plays Norval Grenwood, a young man called to the remote cabin of his estranged father (Stephen McHattie) who he hasn’t seen in 30 years, since his father walked out on his mother when he was just five years old. Once he gets there, he learns that his father is an abusive alcoholic, and yet, nothing is really what it seems. I saw this at the Tribeca Film Festival and mostly enjoyed it, and I really like Timpsons’s sensibilities as a filmmaker but it really starts to go off the rails as it goes along. Some will definitely enjoy that.

Severin Fialla and Veronika Fanz, the Belgian filmmakers behind Goodnight Mommy, return with THE LODGE (NEON), a creepy thriller in which a couple kids (Lia McHugh, Jaeden Martell) go to a remote cabin near a lake for the Christmas holidays with their new stepmother (Riley Keough) after learning a lot more about her dark past before meeting their widowed father (Richard Armitage). There’s so much more to this movie than what you can see in the suitably eerie trailer, and I certainly will not spoiler any of the experience, although personally, I found this to be more of a downer than Hereditary, a movie that I absolutely loved. This one might take another viewing for me to really get behind it, but other than the performances, the overall look and eerie feel and the twists, it’s pretty dark and depressing, so I’m not 100% sure I’d really want to see it again or can recommend it wholeheartedly. Either way, both of these movies are opening at the Alamo Drafthouse in Brooklyn as well as other select cities.

Ben Cookson’s Waiting for Anya (Vertical), adapted from the novel by the same name from the author of War Horse, stars Noah Schnapp as Jo Lalande, a 13-yearold sheperd boy who joins with a reclusive widow (the amazing Anjelica Huston) to help smuggle Jewish children into Spain during World War II.

From Yash Raj Films comes this week’s Bollywood selection Mohit Suri’s Malang, starring Aditya Roy Kapoor as the introverted Advit, who visits Goa where he meets a free-spirited girl from London named Sara (Disha Patani), who has come to India to live like a vagabond or “Malang.” Something happens that changes as five years later, we meet a vigilante killer cop (Anil Kapoor) and a righteous cop (Kunal Kemmu)… And suddenly, I feel like I need to see this movie. It will probably open in 100 theaters or more.

STREAMING AND CABLE

Let’s start out with the Netflix offerings, beginning with the recent Sundance premiere, HORSE GIRL, the new film from Jeff Baena (The Little Hours, Life after Beth), co-written and starring Alison Brie as a socially awkward woman into horses and supernatural crime whose lucid dreams start infiltrating into her waking life. I haven’t seen it yet but I’m definitely interested in the premise, and I generally like Brie’s work.

I never really got into Joe Hill’s books/comics, but I’ll probably give the series LOCKE AND KEY a look when it debuts its first season on Friday. It involves three kids who move with their Mom to an ancestral estate where a series of keys unlock secrets and powers.

On Wednesday debuts the Netflix docuseries They’ve Gotta Have Us from Simon Frederick and Ava DuVernay’s ARRAY will premiere, looking at some of the important and iconic voices in Black Cinema.

If you haven’t had a chance to see DGA winner Alma Har’el’s Honey Boy, starring Shia LaBeouf, Lucas Hedges and Noah Jupe, based on Shia’s semi-autobiographical screenplay, then it will premiere on Amazon Prime this Friday.

Premiering on Hulu this Friday is Into the Dark: My Valentine, the latest horror feature from Blumhouse as part of this ongoing horror series, this one written and directed by Maggie Levin, who has directed a bunch of shorts. It involves a pop singer whose songs and identity are stolen by her manager ex-boyfriend and pasted on his new girlfriend, which comes to a head when they’re locked up in a small concert venue and things get violence.

REPERTORY

METROGRAPH (NYC):

If you went out to see Makoto Shinkai’s Weathering with You and enjoyed it but haven’t seen his previous movie Your Name (which is just as excellent) then you’re in luck cause the Metrograph is showing it a number of times starting Friday. Thursday might be your last chance to see the new 35mm print of Martin Scorsese’s 1977 film New York, New York unless it’s extended, but the Hal Hartley serieshas been extended through the weekend with reruns of Trust (1990), Simple Men (1992) and Amateur (1994), all good, but Trust is my favorite of those three. This week’s Welcome To Metrograph: Redux is a good one, Lars von Trier’s 1996 film Breaking the Waves, which will screen Saturday and Sunday nights.This week’s Late Nites at Metrograph is Orson Welles’ The Lady from Shanghai (1947), while the Playtime: Family Matinee sselection is Amy Heckerling’s classic Clueless (1995).

ALAMO DRAFTHOUSE BROOKLYN (NYC)

Wednesday might you can maybe get tickets for the “Weird Wednesday,” the Lone Wolf and Cub movie Shogun Assassin (1980) – I’ll be there for the 7pm screening. Thursday night is a screening of the 1932 Dorothy Arzner film Merrily We Go to Hell. On Monday, Video Vortex presents a J-Horror Bloodbath double feature of Demon Within and Biotherapy, both from 1985. ($5 admittance!) Next week’s “Terror Tuesday” is 1980’s Terror Train, starring Jamie Lee Curtis, and then next week’s “Weird Wednesday” is 1990’s White Palace, starring Susan Sarandon and James Spader, picked by Alamo programmer Christina Cacioppo, so you know it’s gotta be very weird! J

THE NEW BEVERLY (L.A.):

The Weds matinee is the musical The King and I (1956), starring Yul Brynner and Deborah Kerr. Weds. and Thurs. night are double features of the Safdies’ Uncut Gems with The Object of Beauty (1991), starring John Malkovich and Andie McDowell with the Safdies doing a QnA on Thursday. Friday’s matinee is the 1982 Paul Schrader Cat People remake, while that Friday’s midnight is True Romance, while Saturday’s midnight movie is 1975’s Aloha, Bobby and Rose. This weekend’s Kiddee Matinee is 2002’s Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets, continuing that series, as well as there being a Cartoon Club on Saturday and Sunday mornings. Monday’s matinee is Vincent Gallo’s Buffalo ’66while the Monday night double feature is Fear is the Key (1972) and Villain(1971). Tuesday’s Grindhouse double is Hot Potato (1976) and Golden Needles (1974)..

EGYPTIAN THEATRE (LA):

Mostly taking a break this week to air the Oscar-nominated shorts but Joseph Mankiewicz’s 1950 classic All About Eve will screen in 35mm as part of the “Sunday Print Edition.”

AERO (LA):

Elliot Gould will be on hand Friday to discuss M*A*S*H* airing as part of the “Antiwar Cinema,” then Friday, there will be a double feature of Grand Illusion(1937) and Merry Christmas, Mr. Lawrence (1983). On Friday, Aero will screen Masaki Kobayashi’s “The Human Condition” trilogy, three movies from 1959 through 1961, airing as a triple feature.

QUAD CINEMA (NYC): This Friday, the Quad begins screening Albert E. Lewin’s 1951 film Pandora and the Flying Dutchman, starring Ava Gardner and James Mason, restored from Martin Scorsese’s own 35mm print. Also starting Friday, the Quad will also be screening a series of Man Ray shorts from 1926 to 1929.

FILM FORUM (NYC):

The “Black Women” series continues this week with The Omega Man and Strange Days on Wednesday, Set It Off, Bright Road and Poetic Justice on Thursday and more over the weekend. It continues through Thursday, February 13. This weekend’s “Film Forum Jr.” is the recent movie-musicalDreamgirls.

MOMA (NYC):

Modern Matinees: Jack Lemmon continues this week on Weds with 1951’s Kotch, Thursday with Robert Altman’s 1993classic Short Cuts, and then on Friday, another screening of the 1960 Oscar winner The Apartment co-starring Shirley MacLaine.

FILM AT LINCOLN CENTER (NYC):

On Friday, FilmLinc starts a new one-week series called “Dreamed Paths: The Films of Angela Shanelec,” and I honestly have no idea who that is. It’s a pretty comprehensive retrospective of the German filmmaker’s work, so I’m shocked that I’ve never seen a single one of her movies. Besides her work, the filmmaker will also be showing a few hand-selected films like Manoel de Oliveira’s I’m Going Home (2001), the Korean film The Day After and Maurice Pialat’s 1972 film We Won’t Grow Old (1972).

ANTHOLOGY FILM ARCHIVES (NYC):

The Anthology’s “The Devil Probably: A Century of Satanic Panic” continues this weekend with Edgar J. Ulmer’s The Black Cat (1934) on Wednesday, Sidney Hayers’ Burn Witch Burn (1962), Terence Fisher’s The Devil Rides Out (1968), Roman Polanski’s Rosemary’s Baby (1968) and more screening over the next week.

NITEHAWK CINEMA (NYC):

Not to be outdown by the Roxy, Brooklyn’s Nitehawk is getting on the Nicolas Cage love-a-thon with the Williamsburg doing an “Uncaged” series starting with Cage’s latest Color Out of Spaceat midnight on Friday, and then Peggy Sue Got Married (1986) on Tuesday. (The latter is sold out.) Williamsburg is also screening Tony Scott’s True Romance (1993) on Saturday afternoon.Prospect Park is showing Barry Jenkins’ Schmoonlight Saturday to kick off its Valentine’s Day series.

IFC CENTER (NYC)

Weekend Classics: Luis Buñuel is taking another weekend off for no obvious reason – it’ll be back next week -- but Waverly Midnights: Hindsight is 2020s will screen the 1973 sci-fi classic Soylent Green and Late Night Favorites: Winter 2020 is going with the 4k restoration of David Lynch’s Blue Velvet.

BAM CINEMATEK (NYC):

Starting Friday at BAM is Horace Jenkins 1982 film Cane River, starring Richard Romain and Tommye Myrick (both doing QnAs over the weekend), and the actors and relatives of Jenkins will be appearing at a number of screenings this weekend.

MUSEUM OF THE MOVING IMAGE (NYC):

2001: A Space Odyssey will once again screen as a Saturday matinee in conjunction with MOMI’s exhibit.

ROXY CINEMA (NYC)

The Nicolas Cage love continues with two of his movies from 2003: Charlie Kaufman’s Adaptation (2003) on Wednesday and Disney’s National Treasure on Thursday.

LANDMARK THEATRES NUART (LA):

Not to be outdown by the IFC Center, the Nuart’s Friday midnight movie is Dario Argento’s Suspiriafrom 1977.

Next week is Presidents Day weekend, another four-day holiday weekend, but it’s also Valentine’s Day Friday, so we’ll get kiddie movies like Sonic the Hedgehog (Paramount), romantic movies like The Photograph (Universal) and horror movies like Fantasy Island (Sony).

#TheWeekendWarrior ComeToDaddy BirdsOfPrey TheLodge BirdsOfPrey Movies Reviews

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annamaetion · 7 years ago

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Semi-Lucid Milo Murphy's Law Dreams

Okay so, I rewatched all the available Milo Murphy's Law and then set up my iPad to play some music that supposed to help with lucid dreaming. I've done this for other shows before, and it works very well on me. It might have worked a BIT TOO WELL this time. I have a lot of new ideas and theories, so buckle up. 1) Milo will plan/actually have to purposefully destroy some pistachios in the hopes of getting into contact with Cavendish and Dakota [Probably in an emergency] I touched on this idea before with my idea about a special case with a bag of pistachios [In case of emergency: Burn Pistachios]. It I really think it is very plausible as a thing we'll see in the show. 2) Bradley will have to be saved by Milo during the course of the yacht episode. [maybe he throws him a life ring from his backpack] And we'll be seeing Milo pull yet another giant inflatable from his backpack [Still not the raft, that's getting yet further repairs] 3) The adults being kids is going to be in an episode with the subplot where Milo, Melissa, Zack etc. assigned to one of those 'care for this flower sack like it's a baby' home economics assignments and Melissa forgets the flower sack somewhere. Melissa then becomes convinced she'll make a terrible parent...so of course she's put in charge of the kid-ified adults. 4) The high-tech company that they tour, the one that will have a run away robot? Two words: Rouge AI. Also I think this is the episode that the 'Government Agents' make their grand return. [remember? The unmarked helicopter suit-guys] 5) Brick and Savannah...we have most definitely not seen the last of them this season, if I'm right. They're going to corner Milo, and they're going to learn about Murphy's Law and reporting to the bureau that the Murphy family is behind the sort of disasters that they're trying to prevent. [Basically my Mission: Murphy FanFiction]

#mml #milo murphy's law #brick and savannah #bradley nicholson #mort schaeffer #milo murphy #balthazar cavendish #vinnie dakota #pistachio protectors #mml theory #mml headcannon

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stephaniemarlowftw · 4 years ago

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BLACK WING (DAN BARRETT / HAVE A NICE LIFE) PREMIERES “CHOIR OF ASSHOLES”

Listen to the anthemic new track alongside a Q&A with Dan Barrett. // No Moon will be released December 11th on The Flenser.

Dan Barrett— the man behind Have A Nice Life, Giles Corey, and Enemies List Home Recordings— is preparing for the release of his sophomore album as the electronic project Black Wing. Due out December 11th on The Flenser, No Moon is a gorgeous chillwave/post-punk record with nine new bleak yet blissful songs.

Listen to “Choir Of Assholes / You Think It’ll Make You Happy But It Won’t” and read a new interview with Dan today via FLOOD Magazine (or share from YouTube).

Written over the course of the last few years, with about half of the songs penned over the last six months (mostly due to pandemic “free time”), No Moon is a heart-wrenchingly honest outpour of emotion. Throughout the writing process, Barrett was having recurring dreams and felt a strange sense of timelessness — that, combined with quarantine is what he simply describes as “a weird experience.” Barrett explains, “Quarantine was profoundly isolating. With writing this record, more than anything I just wanted to prove to myself that I could make something out of it. That ended up being a lot of songs about feeling isolated, a lot of ‘trapped in my own head’ moments. I think that was a lot of people’s experience as well.”

Barrett formed Black Wing in the mid-2010’s as an opposite to his project Giles Corey; where Giles started as ‘only acoustic instruments allowed,’ Black Wing started with only digital instruments. In 2015, Black Wing released its first proper full length, …Is Doomed, which arose after some heart problems that Barrett discovered he had. But this time around, Barrett was diagnosed with sleep apnea, which led to "...incredibly disrupted sleep (and potentially some of the semi-lucid dreaming I experienced)," he says.

Much like ...Is Doomed, No Moon bubbles with electronica and indie-pop with earworm melodies and affecting lyrics. But No Moon is a transitional change from Black Wing’s debut; the songs here are a bit more experimental and there’s a significantly wider emotional range to them. The lyrics are haunting and personal and resonate deeply with the listener, and the imagery in the album's artwork is from a recurring series of dreams that Barrett had when the pandemic started (same with the writing inside the packaging).

Look for No Moon to be available on December 11th from The Flenser and pre-order the album here.

No Moon, track listing:

1. Bollywood Apologetics

2. Ominous 80’s

3. Always a Last Time

4. Is This Real Life, Jesus Christ

5. Always Hurt

6. Vulnerable

7. Sleep Apneac

8. Choir of Assholes

9. Twinkling

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paranoid-fighter · 7 years ago

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:0 all of them if you'd like!

So, I did answer all of them. However, there are some dark and heavy things in some of the questions, so I left those blank. Since it’s so long, the answers are under the cut.

1: Talk about the first time you watched your favorite movie.I remember seeing snippits of it on the television in the hotel in Washington DC years and years ago. I wanted to know the name of the movie, but we didn't have time for me to find the TV Guide channel. Years passed by and then I saw the movie again. I watched more of it, but I missed the first half.

I think it took me a few years to finally see the whole thing. I should watch it again - haven't seen it in over four years. (The Birdcage is a wonderful movie.)

2: Talk about your first kiss.I was in 9th grade and I was out on some sort of hiking trip with some other people at my church. A guy I had been kinda flirting with a bit pulled me aside and kissed me. I had the brilliant idea to pretend to faint afterwards. I fell to the ground and didn't move. As he began to panic, I stood up, pointed and laughed at him.

Yeah, I don't know either.

3: Talk about the person you've had the most intense romantic feelings for.My former best friend, I think. She was the one that got me into writing all those years ago. I flew to Japan to meet her and then, a few years later, she came to the US while on military leave. I had a whole week planned for us and, I must say, it was incredibly romantic.

And then I saw her in person and realized how much she had changed in the two years after our first meeting. It quickly killed any and all feelings I had.

4: Talk about the thing you regret most so far.I try to live in a way that eliminates regrets - I do not do things that I think will cause me to feel regret. However, there are plenty of embarrassing incidents in my past that make me feel emotions akin to regret.

5: Talk about the best birthday you've had.My 24th was probably the best. I spent the entire day alone in my old apartment, not talking to anyone for more than about ten minutes (tops) and it was all over the phone. I made myself some cupcakes and mulled wine and I spent the day lying on the couch, listening to music as I ate and drank in happy solitude.

6: Talk about the worst birthday you've had.I had just turned 22 and was at my parents' house with none of my friends around. That morning, I was told that I was showing lesions, potentially cancerous, in my liver. I was so violently ill that I dropped fifteen pounds in less than three weeks and had lacerations in most of my lower GI tract. I was in so much pain and was so fatigued that I could barely get out of bed. My at-the-time boyfriend was accusing me of faking my pain and sickness so that I didn't have to go see him. When I told my best friend of 12 years what was happening, she signed offline and didn't talk to me again for about three months. That night, I was looking up things I wanted to do, in case it was cancer, and that's when I found out that my life-long dream of being a pilot would never happen because you can't get your pilot's license when you have vertigo...

7: Talk about your biggest insecurity.Either my physical appearance, my intelligence or my writing. They're all major insecurities, but they take turns jockeying for the number one spot.

8: Talk about the thing you are most proud of.I'm still alive.

9: Talk about little things on your body that you like the most.I have a little freckle in each of my eyes, near the brown ring around my iris. The overall colour of my eye can be described as hazel, but it's more of a grey/green colour than a brown - aside from the aforementioned ring.

I also like my tattoos. I have three at this point and each represents a milestone in my life. Tattoos: the first one was done in Japan, while meeting my (at the time) best friend of 10+ years. The second is a : ) on my left hand, near the thumb. It was how I celebrated a first year of post-college employment (I drew the smile on my hand all during college, as a reminder to smile.) The third is the grey muslin moth on my foot, to celebrate a milestone in my life.

10: Talk about the biggest fight you've ever had.All I will say is that I was 18 and it was between my father and older brother. It went on for hours and the relationships are forever altered.

11: Talk about the best dream you've ever had.I... don't really remember my dreams. I suppose the best one I had was a semi-lucid dream where a very dear friend knelt down beside my bed a few days after breaking up with the aforementioned boyfriend. He told me "I know it's hard now, but you're going to be okay. I promise." Either that, or the one night I finally beat the night terrors that I had been having for over 12 years. True, I tore the muscles in my shoulders because I literally fought off the dream and was in a sling for six weeks, but it was worth it.

12: Talk about the worst dream you've ever had.Any of the night terrors that I had at least monthly for over 12 years. They would always include the same themes, but in different orders, and would always result in me dying.

13: Talk about the first time you had sex/how you imagine your first time.I’m sorry, but no. I prefer not to think about that time.

14: Talk about a vacation.I spent a week alone in my old apartment, drinking mulled wine and mead, eating good food and watching the snow falling. I'd go out in the mornings for a long walk on the snowy trails by the river, sometimes with a cigar, and I'd watch the ducks swimming in the river. It was quiet.

15: Talk about the time you were most content in life.I did a post about this a while ago, in more detail, but it was a night that I was sitting with one of my very best friends in the office of the brewery. It was raining and we could hear it on the metal roof. We sat together, he was rubbing my feet for a bit, and we were just talking for hours. We left after the brewery closed for the night, then we stood outside in the parking lot. We held each other for a long time before we drove our separate ways. His car followed mine for as long as he could.

16: Talk about the best party you've ever been to.I wouldn't really call it a party in the sense that invitations were sent out, but there was one night in college that my roommate/best friend was in my room with me. We were drinking together and we just talked honestly to one another. We talked about our pasts, our families, our fears, our hopes and dreams. We spent the night like that, talking until our voices were hoarse.

17: Talk about someone you want to be friends with.Someone that likes to sit back and talk about life, the universe and everything. The late night conversations where you sit in the comfortable darkness and just ask the questions you're too afraid to say during the day. Someone I can trust, who understands my boundaries and my own needs, who I can turn to at any time.

18: Talk about something that happened in elementary school.Second grade, my teachers found out I was reading on a college level and I was the furthest ahead in multiplication knowledge - it was the only time I was ever good at math.

19: Talk about something that happened in middle school.I found a book in my brother's room that took me to a fansite online, which then sparked my interest in writing.

20: Talk about something that happened in high school.I was given a medal by my English teacher. I can't remember what it was for, or why I was given it, but I remembered being proud of it. Especially because it was the one medal that wasn't given to the daughter of the school's guidance councilor/administrator.

21: Talk about a time you had to turn someone down.Someone in college asked me out with a very sweet poem that he left on my door. I showed it to another friend, who then told me that the guy was a drug addict with a possible sexual assault charge. I wrote a note on his door, politely declining his offer.

I still like the phrase "let me be your afternoon delight," though.

22: Talk about your worst fear.Honestly? Being forced to stay alive on life support.

23: Talk about a time someone turned you down.He was a coworker at my former job. I had a crush on him. He didn't have one on me. He came over for a farewell drink before I moved away. He left soon after.

24: Talk about something someone told you that meant a lot."I have learned so much about people from you. You have had all these things happen to you, but you keep on going and you keep smiling. I want to be like you." - My therapist, during one of our sessions.

25: Talk about an ex-best friend.I called him "Big Brother," because he was everything I wanted in a brother. He and I met and it was almost like meeting someone from a previous life. We clicked instantly and were inseparable. Even when he moved away, we kept in touch. He'd call me every day after he got off work. We'd play video games together almost every single night.

His fiance told him "it's him or me."

He got married two years ago.

It ended with "I love you, Big Brother." "I love you too, Little Brother."

It was the first and last time he ever called me that.

26: Talk about things you do when you're sick.If I'm physically sick, then I will generally make eggdrop soup and sip on that. If it's mental sickness, then I clean. And clean. And clean.

27: Talk about your favorite part of someone else's body.Their hair - if it's clean and well-kept.

28: Talk about your fetishes.Yeah, no.

29: Talk about what turns you on.Kindness, showing general interest in something I enjoy, kindness, good hygiene...

30: Talk about what turns you off.Rudeness, telling me you don't care about something I do, rudeness, poor hygiene...

31: Talk about what you think death is like.An ending.

32: Talk about a place you remember from your childhood.The bathroom window, overlooking the woods just a few yards away. I'd spend a very long time staring out of the window, watching the birds and the trees. And then, on some nights, I'd watch the moon and the stars.

33: Talk about what you do when you are sad.I sit and stew for awhile, usually alone and completely offline. I try to distract myself and I usually end up cleaning. And cleaning. And cleaning. Until exhaustion claims me. After some time, guilt overrides my sadness and I come back online again.

34: Talk about the worst physical pain you've endured.Having cysts rupture. I have a high pain tolerance which has been proven time and time again, but this left me gasping and literally screaming for God to kill me for over five hours, each and every time. It happened four times in three months. I do not think I will forget it.

35: Talk about things you wish you could stop doing.Being so damned focused on "doing." I must always be doing something, always, always. It's a problem. I make myself lists of things to do and I make them in a way that takes almost all day to do, leaving me no time at the end for myself.

36: Talk about your guilty pleasures.Cookie dough ice cream. Soft bedding. Fuzzy things. Some music I won't readily admit to. I don't know if these count as guilty pleasures, though, but I'm drawing a blank on what actually would be a guilty pleasure of mine.

37: Talk about someone you thought you were in love with.She was my best friend in high school. I thought I loved her. She made me happy to be around. We grew apart when she started dating other men, but she'd always come back to be my friend when they left. I was always there for her. I liked being her support. But... we grew apart when she started dating her now-husband. We grew apart and we both never reached out to the other again.

38: Talk about songs that remind you of certain people."Outside" by Hollywood Undead reminds me of my "Big Brother." I listened to the song on repeat for hours after our farewell - it was his favourite band."Snow" by Red Hot Chili Peppers reminds me of my brother - it's one of his favourite songs. ...Truthfully, most songs I can think of remind me of OCs or other characters, not really people in the physical sense.

39: Talk about things you wish you'd known earlier.How to change a flat tire, how to jumpstart a dead car, how to properly talk to your boss, to how get the most out of a doctor's appointment, how to ask for a second opinion, how to know when people are flirting (still need to know this one, truthfully)...

40: Talk about the end of something in your life.About seventeen months ago, I gave up almost all of my possessions, packed what I could into my car, moved fifteen hours away from where I had been living, found a new place to live within three days and then started a new job within a week and a half of leaving my old one. It was a whirlwind and it took me over a year to finally feel settled in my new residence.

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angelchonakamura-blog · 7 years ago

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What would your oc prefer?

The Nakamura Brothers Edition

1. Pancakes or waffles?

“Pancakes and waffles are bad for you! Eat something healthier! Like fruit, and or whole wheat bread.”

“I LOVE BOTH! GIVE ME BOTH!”

2. Cereal with milk or cereal without milk?

“MILK OF COURSE, whole or 2% is fine.”

“Lactose free milk and make sure the cereal is made with whole grain.”

3. Comedy or tragedy?

“No tragedy, please, comedy’s fine.”

“I prefer Horror.”

4. Sleep in goofy pajamas or nude?

“I might sleep with no undies on....” ...... “Just kidding, goofy pajamas.”

“Why those options? They’re both stupid!” .... he secretly likes the goofy pajamas though.

5. Camping or hotel?

“If I’m able to build shields while both in hotels and while camping then we’ll be fine. If not, then neither option is safe. Though before all this trouble started, my brother and I used to go camping a lot.”

“Chibi said it already. Neither is safe if it can’t be shielded.”

6. Sweet or sour candy?

“Give me all the candies! GIVE ME!!!!”

“ ..... I don’t eat candy.”

7. Walking or biking?

“Both are fun, yeah.” Even though he mostly walks and teleports to places.

“Both is fine.” Also walks and teleports pretty much everywhere. EVERYWHERE.

8. Fire abilities or ice abilities?

“FIRE”

“ICE”

9. Wooden pencil or mechanical pencil?

“Both please.” is amused by these options... Has no idea what the point is.

“Pencils are useless, give me a pen.”

10. Hats or no hats?

he puts on a hat... “HATS ARE COOL!!!” makes peace sign.

is distracted by something.... Doesn’t answer the question.

11. Modest clothing or flashy clothing?

“Flashy, yet elegant.” He knows he looks good.

“Just make sure you wear clothing ok? Don’t want to have nightmares.”

12. Finger-snapping or whistling?

“Is that like to call a dog? Because if you use that on people it’s very rude.”

“Are you a dog? I mean if that’s how you want to be called, then I’ll make an exception just for you.”

13. Long hikes or long car rides?

“Nope... Neither.” .... Seriously neither. He’s never been into cars thanks to his abilities, and he never hikes, since he knows that’s where all the enemies dwell. “I mean, the woods or the mountains are never safe. And well neither are cars for that matter.”

“I feel like I already answered this question.”

14. Long car rides or travel by plane?

“There was this one time my brother and I took a plane to the U.S. erm... Never again.”

“Yeah that was horrible. Scary as all hell.... literally.”

15. Stormy night or sunny day?

“Sunny DAY!” Offers you a balloon... Just cause he can.

“Stormy nights relax me.”

16. Summer or winter?

“Summer!”

“I like both, actually. Summer makes my job easier, and winter lets me cuddle with my loved ones to keep them warm.”

17. Game night with their family or movie night with their friends?

“I do both actually! With family and with my significant others.”

“I do both as well. But they’re funner when it’s with Chibi, because he’s always so excited about everything, games and movies.”

18. Chewy candy or hard candy?

“All the candy please!”

“I feel like I’m on a loop here. I hate candy. Go away with your candy.”

19. Band or football?

“How do band and sports compare?” already sidetracked by that.

............................................................................................

20. Lucid dreaming or never having to sleep?

“I’m starting to think that every thing that happens to me during my semi sleep must be hallucinations, because I usually don’t sleep too deeply.”

“I always just want to sleep. I don’t care if my dreams are insanely lucid.”

The End...

Questions come from this POST.

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mebeingserious · 8 years ago

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(c.) End 2012 - Early 2013

- - #1

#Based On A You Story. Blinking cursor.

Peep my Doogie Howser blue screen. Peep my blue light. No bloc festivities, streamers, or tails to pin anything on. Pin that shit on yourself, B. Take responsibility.

“Pin The Tail” had a Max B verse on the original. Do with that knowledge what you will if what you will do is reimburse me for my strong miscellany-fact-brain game. I refined it through the arthritis of those on my personal Mt. Rushmore.

I’m unknowable, really. You should get to un-know me.

And it was an inside job, btw. Egged on by the peanut gallery, flipped the switch, gave you a parachute and some mumble-mumble about how the chlorophyll’s gonna be stunning.

I’m just another human cat, word to Grass Green. Don’t treat me like the grassy knoll. Leave them stones turnt all the way down.

But that “you” isn’t you, that’s you’s on you’s on you’s. UUU, if you will. Gotta not have it.

New swatch alert. Here. Peep the texture and the hues. That’s the interior.

Cam’ron in a Utah Jazz throwback staring back at me through a phone’s reflection. [||]. You right, you right.

Captain Quirk but the Captain Crunch Dog at the same damn time. Pretend it’s two months ago, though.

Your last.fm recent plays leave you vulnerable, if you think about it. I thought about it.

I need to remind myself I don’t do this for the little or the big dunns. Everyone needs to get their Lex Luger on from time to time. B.Y. Before Yokozuna.

So I say that to say this: “Can’t call it, might spoil it”

Performing tune-ups with some VBRs and possibly, 192s. You can only crash so many planes before you start frisking yourself in the airport.

Further and farther are in full effect. But then I remember “that’s when the money starts running” and Stoicism, and put it in hands I once knocked down.

- - #2

Spot ‘em, got ‘em. I got dirt on you, doggie.

But God made dirt and dirt bust your ass.

Or my ass. I know too much. Internal Spy vs. Spy.

I saw those stars. Had my radars up. Tangible air.

One minute it’s in the constellations, the next sixty-seconds it’s a “Superthug” if.

Hella.

No, not you. The other. But you? You’re putting together a 150-piece in the dark.

Me? S.O.L. S.O.S. But I’m like Private Ryan. So you can save that.

Oh wait, I forgot that motherfucker survived.

Anyways, haardships.

My window’s been closed but at least I have a window. But it’s lowkey amazing that a window is even a thing.

I just did what Game did with the coaching of the fat producer on ironing Dickies. But you don’t hear me, doe.

Do you hear me, doe? This is the Gawd.

He doesn’t take requests but he’ll play me, though.

But really, I did that. Sorta like what Kane said on “The Symphony.”

Anyways, indecision.

He who hesitates in peace is even worse.

The pyramids didn’t get built by throwing stones or sitting on them. But I fucked up when I entertained the E.T. theory.

I’m the man now, dog. But really, without the seven you’re not Sean Connery. You’re just…

Anyways, alternate universes. That exist in shared thought bubbles.

But that’s the only place they ever existed, nah?

But let’s thought experiment. Does that outcome satisfy?

Or is it just better than hearing a single echo against drywall?

I can give you advice on farther but my track record is a stumble out the blocks paired with a horizontal starting gun, finished off with a somersault. 1.0 - 1.0 - 1.0

Got gotted and spotted.

Need is whatever you think it is.

But try to take my arm and leg and I might be that shoe with the band between the big toe.

You can have a symphony composed of c-notes in that porcelain but if you don’t embrace that internal Hammer … well. Basslines don’t come across well in sign.

You can go on and be Big L’s Rocafella debut, but you don’t know voodoo.

But tangible is good. I mean, Tough Luv holds up pretty well eight years later.

I guess I misunderstood that originally. Or I tried to understand too soon. He was right when he said “…or rather me.”

- - #3

The last verse on “Pyramids” without the sonic context.

Strikes Back. In the Empire. They say it’s their favorite flick.

Swore my hand waved to me as it fell, in that “Hi, Hater” motion.

Took off that mask and it was a mirror. No disrespect but there’s truth to it.

Anton Chigurh in the guidance counselor’s office basically saying “heads or tails.”

Saw it with the old man. In the alt. section of the universe it was Batman Returns.

Trying to lucid dream about the Northwest in 1996, but I’m better off sleeping. And peeping those trees with the date emblazoned in a reddish orange beneath their stumps.

Subsidized Napoleon complex had me fighting on the wrong side. Got did like Waterloo.

Manila envelopes addressed to that British newspaper. Don’t you know this is the Empire?

Telepathy returned to sender.

Heard “boo” from that pocket-sized frame.

But ghosts only come for your wig when you turn your back.

“Whoa” ain’t me, that’s Black Rob.

Speaking of that song…

Come to terms with endearment.

You chose the ball and you joined me in breadth.

Another one chewing dead skin, dirt particles and textile fibers.

Carly Simon. Bet.

What came first, the wound or the egg that provided the shells that were stuck in the soles?

South West here like Northern OH. Something something “talent.”

Indecisive travel agent that forgot to build a plane.

I saw the white plates, the blue plates, and now they’re yellow. i.e. I’ve seen the Empire crumble.

Let an ocean talk for me.

What the fuck is portamento? Not worth it.

Waking up to a foreign vocabulary test. Appealing. No comprende.

Opted-in because I was loyal to the wrong things. Minus the fuckboy-isms.

He was the Pookie of venlafaxine.

Caesar: Judas.

Conversational anesthesia. Was on that Freud shit.

Liked the yellow yoshi that stomped and the one with wings.

And you can tell a lot about a man by how he uses a warp whistle. Button on the VCR.

Meant to hear Tiến Quân Ca in person but couldn’t. If he saw the inland, I wouldn’t.

Lucas Arts revisionist tip. Script = flipped. And now…

Telling the emperor “We don’t need to see all that.” I’ll say it.

And maybe worth it. But no capitulation. The sign fixed.

- Carly.

“You, Me, Him and Her” gets played twice.

The first one’s near Luxor, prolly.

Gut snitched.

Us couldn’t stop dreaming, then I couldn’t get to sleep. Both.

“I fuck around and have you sleeping underneath something”

But that last verse, though.

- - #4

Pop culture hustling and cocaine references are the way to my heart. My heart is sullen and abandoned; full of un-shatterable Pyrex-brand measuring cups.

Or is it. Racially ambiguous inquisition. Internal. In-terminal, I keep ticking. So, maybe occupied.

Don’t knock it. I’m taking out this time. To compose choppy sentences that stop before they start because I’m so non-fiction I might call myself Tumblr Game Tom Wolfe.

Looking back, YN really inspired me with his Letters From The Editor. But nah to that “Ha!”

Flirting with disaster because she sent me a flick. Y’all are too literal. Down to the ‘I’m so crazy.’

Meanings on top of meanings. Princess and the Pea. That now archaic Jay-Z and Kanye interplay. References need a new hard drive. They’re making that grindin’, too busy to stay up-to-date sound.

I’m not looking at your dues, I’m looking past you. Why are ghosts see-through but you can’t see through what you can see.

Peter Piper was too fucking picky. End of story. Citing Antwan Patton in MLA style. If you want the references, you gotta pay for this. I accept Juelz. Pay the pause forward.

Subtle is my subtitle. You can read or watch. An internet quiz will tell you what that means for you and your personality.

John on the run eating. But wasn’t gaining.

Acting like shenanigans in loosie, but there was no explaining.

No, no, no. I’m not you, rapper.

Jesus H. Pylori. The church of disrupted insulin function and latter day faints.

Glue where the flex be. Vampires that never heard about the smallpox blankets. Paul’s Boutique sample count. Dust, brother. Trying not to bite down.

That admittance, and the small BIC. Alluhdat.

Three letters. Now I feel alluhdat.

Maybe knowing in retrospect is the win. Like when they extend those legs and and hold their hands in a state-enforced half-hearted semi-prayer position saying “I hope this provides closure for your family.”

A & B convos. Split-tests. More like a two and eight.

Good things surface for those that hold elevators. Or something.

Lost the top about fitty-leven times. No lojack. Find it, then repeat. Dementia. Kojack.

No lolli. Point the finger, no Rollie. No handle, no bars. Just folly.

Was on that “If I die, I die.” Life Game Ivan Drago.

Try to be a fatalist. Unexciting Mortal Kombat finishers.

Marcus Aurelius darts onto the screen to kill the opponent with mercy.

No hip hop genius to help you. Y’all Nah Right sidebar. Newsy. Your quotient can’t save thee. Or thou. Or you. Let’s say you.

Because I’m like Jason Bourne asking himself about that one birthday party when he was an age that gets spelled out by the Associated Press. Hope unseen sequels don’t kill my simile.

We’re all trying to live facsimile’s meaning if you said it quick. Gender neutral, though.

Don’t, doe.

Because reflection requires dedication. Three’s ain’t always charming. There’s precedent. See the millionaire trying to kickflip.

I’m not a walking version of the back of the teacher’s edition history/sociology/psychology combo cost-saving textbook.

Slight of hand. Converse with it.

Phonte’s monologues on the last two from Get Back.

That’s the point. Nipsey Russell.

#writing #1-4

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biofunmy · 5 years ago

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The Work Diary of an Audio Erotica C.E.O.

Gina Gutierrez gets a lot of blank stares when explaining her start-up to people: It’s called Dipsea, and it sells subscriptions to immersive, short-form audio erotica. Venture capitalists, though, get it. They want to capitalize on dual booms in digital audio and sexual wellness, and some view Dipsea as the next Calm or Headspace. The start-up has raised $5.5 million in funding.

Ms. Gutierrez, 29, and her co-founder, Faye Keegan, created Dipsea when they realized that while there were plenty of companies offering tech-enabled vibrators, no one seemed to be addressing the mental aspect of female sexuality. In December 2018, Dipsea began publishing erotica podcasts, saying, “We think it’s downright powerful for people to discover the most turned-on versions of themselves.” The company charges subscribers $9 a month or $48 a year for access to a library of 10- to 15-minute stories in categories like “open relationship,” “hookup,” “crush” and “voyeurism.” Dipsea’s app also offers guides and exercises that can be done alone (“self love sesh”) or with a partner (“erotic meditation”).

Now the company, based in San Francisco, has 16 employees, 180 stories and 300,000 downloads. Ms. Gutierrez boomerangs between “I’ve never done this before” moments, she said, while juggling investor meetings, podcast appearances, script edits, Instagram caption-writing sessions and “Sacred Planning” meetings. She also has to deal with borderline puritanical rules from the big tech platforms while brainstorming about hunks, discerning what a hug sounds like, and puzzling over why people are so into stories about threesomes.

Monday

6:30 a.m. I hate the notion that the most successful people are up at 4:30. No thanks. I work on the couch for an hour before heading into the office.

9:35 a.m. My adrenaline surges when our social media and content manager, who started less than two weeks ago, Slacks me to say she has an urgent personal update. That’s never good.

She tells me she’s accepted another role. I’m shocked. We care so much about Dipsea being a great place to work, and have had zero attrition. So, 35 minutes into my workweek I’m dealing with my first “I’ve never done this before.”

The idea of kicking up the hiring process again so quickly after we’ve ended it makes my head spin. I spend the morning figuring out the transition plan. I really don’t want to go back to writing Instagram captions in the back of Lyfts between meetings.

2:30 p.m. I owe my editing team the final signoff on this week’s scripts before they pass them to the producers for recording. A section of dialogue on this one reminds me of a part from “A Star Is Born.” I send the movie scene to the team as an awesome example of realistic dialogue.

4 p.m. I hole up in a room with Faye and two other executives to brainstorm. We block 30 minutes per idea, throw out thoughts, sketch out designs, argue trade-offs. One idea we come up with is so good, I stand up to dance.

6:45 p.m. I debate bailing on plans to see “Hustlers” with some colleagues because I’m so behind. But I go. It’s an important piece of content for women right now, for God’s sake! I’m back at my computer on the couch by 9:45.

11 p.m. Quick Slack to Faye about a lead for the social media manager role before I shut my computer. I’m tired. When’s the last time I had a sip of water? Did I eat lunch today?

Tuesday

10 a.m. I talk with our audio production team about an article on aftercare, which is essentially affection and communication after sex. It’s the default in the BDSM community, but a good ideal to aspire to in all sexual encounters. We talk about not ending our stories too abruptly.

11 a.m. We have a monthly meeting called “Postpartum” where we discuss what we learned from our last month of stories and how people reacted. Most of our narratives are crafted so a female listener can identify with the woman, but one of our recent stories is about three men at a gay club, and we discuss whether listeners identify with one character, or if they’re more of a voyeur, excited to have eyes into the whole relational dynamic.

1:15 p.m. Over tacos I get book recommendations for my upcoming vacation — the first real one I’ve taken since starting Dipsea — from our content editor and writer. The whole team is voracious. Books lie in stacks around the office, especially Dipsea-relevant reads like “Conversations With Friends,” and “A Billion Wicked Thoughts.”

2:50 p.m. A construction company works in our building and I chat with one of the workers in the elevator. The contrast between their mostly male, neon-vest-wearing crew with our almost all-female team of erotic content creators is funny, but we’re strangely symbiotic.

Wednesday

9 a.m. I get coffee with an investor that we’ve been talking to since our seed round. Meetings like this are a mutual way to keep the relationship warm even when we’re not actively raising.

10 a.m. At the office, Mel Scott, our head of growth, tells me she’s spoken to a few podcast hosts who are going to run our ads. This is exciting. Facebook makes it very challenging for us to advertise as a sexual wellness business, and it’s frustrating. Sometimes our ads perform really well; other times we discover something was disconnected. Ads that were approved mysteriously get disapproved, and we’re left guessing why.

10:05 a.m. Faye and I have a weekly one-on-one meeting we call “Sacred Planning” to remind ourselves never to book another meeting over it.

11 a.m. The founders of an A.S.M.R. app visit our office to learn about how we create our content. I’m curious to learn about their work, too. One of them says the most polarizing A.S.M.R. sound is “mouth sounds.” I tell him mouth sounds can be tough for Dipsea listeners, too.

2 p.m. Our editorial team presents a plan for a new process of developing scripts. No one has ever made exactly what we’re making, so it’s a constant learning game with no instruction manual.

3 p.m. I sit in on a “Hooked on Sonics” meeting, where our storytelling lead and one of our producers talk to the rest of the team. This one covers what feelings sound like: A hug being akin to the sonic experience of going underwater, or anxiety as a high-pitched ring.

6:30 p.m. The entire company goes to a breath-work class at Chorus Meditation. You breathe in a fast, rhythmic way that oxygenates your brain, activating your parasympathetic nervous system and relaxing you. The crazy part is, it can also have effects like tingling, visual experiences or semi-lucid dreams.

I wake up in a jolt, even though I feel mentally present: An hour has passed and it felt like 20 minutes. My body feels amazing, slow and quiet. We all eye each other, while the instructor wraps up, mouthing, “Cool, right?”

10:25 p.m. Faye texts me asking to borrow a shirt. I wonder how many other co-founders sign off with a “Night love you.”

Thursday

10 a.m. All-hands meeting. As our analyst presents which story tags performed the best, the team debates the underlying reasons. We know stories tagged as “group” or “threesome” are highly rated, but we don’t necessarily know why. The novelty? The explicitness? What are the creative differences between “crush” and “hookup” stories? They seem to overlap a lot, so what makes one more successful than the other?

1:45 p.m. I take a call with an investor who’s been persistent. He describes Dipsea as part of the “N.S.F.W. space,” which tells me I have to take a step back and explain our perspective on sexuality: We’re not interested in creating an erotic utility, we’re interested in empowering women with content designed for their pleasure. To his credit, he understands the difference.

4 p.m. “Hunks Brainstorm” session. The editorial team discusses stereotypes about attractive men that still feel relevant, or that we can modernize. A college athlete isn’t necessarily interesting without some other underlying reason. (Ah! Maybe they’re fed up with the extortive system they’re a part of and lean on a female confidante. She sees his depth in a way that her peers don’t get to. Write that down!)

We talk about the way that passionate people are attractive, and especially so if they’re a bit unattainable because of their focus.

Every “Fireman!” is met with an, “O.K., but why?”

5 p.m. I join Faye and Mel to figure out how to meet our greater goals for the quarter. Five hundred Post-its and two hours later, we take a step back to admire our work.

Friday

12 p.m. I meet with Mel to review the past week: how we spent marketing dollars, where it’s working best, trends we’re not sure what to do with yet. There’s one international market that’s going gangbusters.

12:45 p.m. We always order in and eat Friday lunch together.

5 p.m. I find a quiet booth for an interview with Tristan Taormino, host of the podcast Sex Out Loud, which I just found out is airing live. The host, a sex educator who really knows her stuff, gives us advice on creating content for older listeners, shares her favorite story (“Virgo Season”), and asks how I deal with running a women-focused company while also navigating the world of venture capital. I say it took me some time to realize I was more than one thing in different contexts, and that that’s O.K.

6:50 p.m. I find myself alone at Bamboo Hut, a tiki bar, with a blue salt rim mai tai in front of me. I’m evaluating whether this bar will fit our loose holiday party theme of “dive bar fancy.” The bartender tells me that yes, the lamps over the bar are real taxidermied puffer fish.

7 p.m. A friend texts, “‘Blue Salt Rim’ should be the name of a Dipsea story!” It’s a joke I probably hear once or twice a week but still haven’t gotten tired of.

Interviews are conducted by email, text and phone, then condensed and edited.

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astralsecrets · 6 years ago

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Log 1324 - Driving and Beach Fun DEILDs and Other Assorted Stories

Created Thursday 13 December 2018 Got a WILD and various non-lucid things to note. Scrap Group 1 At a beach during a windy, cloudy day. Spectator mode. Dragon Ball Z characters appeared, a battle involving Frieza and King Cold vs. Goku and Vegeta. Cold tricks Vegeta into letting his guard down, after which he blasted him head on. But, Vegeta easily resists the attack, then retaliates. Dream 1 - Water Plant Park The visuals were a bit blurred. I was driving to and from an airport at daytime. I'd charge of a teenage girl with blonde hair. Later, we go to a hybrid water plant/water park, going straight to the biggest ride. To get to the top, we had to go up a shifty rope ladder. After a difficult climb, we're given safety instructions by a lifeguard, who happened to be René Balcer. We had to climb yet another set of ladders, this time made of steel. I slip up, and almost fell off the place. The lifeguard grabbed on, frustrated, as if she dealt with this plenty of times before, and both her and the girl helped hoist me back up. After than, we all got on a random discussion on a fictional painting software which supported a likewise made up file extension, '.ZAD'. And then, I had a spontaneous revelation. Dizzy from Guilty Gear was actually real, and happened to unlock the potential of people that believed in her. As further proof, I claimed that the girl, who happened to be Bridgette from the game (despite that character being a dude in-series), was a recipient of such a blessing. Seconds later, I spotted a giant, rustled yellow feather floating down a stream. The others didn't seem as concerned as I was. Don't recall how this ended. Dream 2 - Driving and Beach Fun DEILD Scene 1 - Driving Accident Awareness The visuals were slightly blurred. I was wandering around in a shopping center during daytime. I walk up some steps, when I spot some shady figures hanging around. Indeed, another passerby chased one such hood, shouting of how they'd stolen his wallet. Made some precaution to keep my hands in my pockets. At the parking lots, an unkempt and clearly deranged man in a bicycle was hurling out insults at random. An out-of-place couple took him at face value, and got in an argument. Things looked like they were gonna get ugly. I promptly got in my vehicle and left to home. A minute later, I ended up in a T-section. A BJ's across the street. The left would take me to a long bridge through a bay. Not sure about the right. "Figured" I took a wrong turn; either way but back would take me far from my destination. I tried making a U-turn, but overshot by a large margin. The vehicle suddenly spun out of control. If this went on, I would've certainly plummet into a ditch of briars and sand, possibly even the bay just behind. I calmed down, and realized the absurdity. Cue awareness. Either way, I took a hands-off approach. Whatever happens, happens. Brief awakening. DEILD seconds later. Scene 2 - Flying Dune Ride The visuals were glared. I was riding a vehicle through a hilly beach during a bright blue day. Started semi-aware (I thought I was just having a dreamlet). I race over a mound, to find that I was literally sent flying. Such flight sustained for half a minute before I was forced to the ground. It was a rough landing, but I made it intact. The impact made me realize this was a legit LD. Still, I only repeated as above a few more times before the dream collapsed. DEILD attempt, but I lost awareness. Scene 3 - Big Fowl The visuals were clear. I was walking in a lake-side subtropical forest, a site undisturbed by civilization. Sunlight peeked in from a canopy above. Several astonishingly large fowl were swimming in the water, brown feathered geese, if not swans. A few stepped on land, but were quickly frightened off by my presence. Brief awakening. DEILD. Scene 4 - Insert Lenny Face Here The visuals were glared. I was in a blue void colored as a clear afternoon sky. Soon, I imagined myself as a shrunken figure on a beach. Antics ensued. Nothing more than PG-13, but still... ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

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