#i dont think the blurring is too noticable tho

[iwakuraz]

sorry for the low quality pictures but I don't really know how to take pictures :P here's some of my traditional art!! I'll post more digital art soon but I wanted 2 share this in the mean time

[1onelypoet]

stuck by the glue pt4 || op81 smau

a/n: last part. im a little depressed abt it but im working on a (hopefully) much better smau with like writing (does that make sense?) sooo. again thank u guys sm for the love 💕 ALSO OSCAR NEW IG POST WAS SOSODOD

pairing: oscar piastri x singer!reader

fc: beabadoobe

warnings: cursing and the mildest of mild innuendo

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[piffany666]

Ok just one more punk progeny wont hurt ~

Chapter 9: differences

(Ftm Bright eyes - uses he/him pronouns)

(Lovely demi girl - uses they/she pronouns)

Tw: underage drinking

Lovely gave a hesitant knock on Bright's door.

A few seconds later Lovely was met with a very agitated looking Bright eyes.

"What is it?....you brought wine...?"

Bright's tone was initially very defensive, until his gase made its way down to the noticeably large and decadent bottle in Lovely's hands.

"Yeah I found it on one of the shelves in the hallway, its not doing any good being up there so i thought why not use it to celebrate you becoming part of the solair clan? I know you're technically not old enough to drink but hey! I think spending eternity being 19 is way too harsh of a punishment to do sober, so what do ya say?"

Bright eyes looked stunned, but nonetheless, he answered.

"I say mind the empty boxes and get your ass and that bottle in here!"

20 minutes later:

Let it never be said that Bright and Lovely weren't lightweights.

They were both sitting on the bed, pouring wine that was older than both of them combined into mugs Bright had brought up to his new room.

The blush on Bright's face was a shade of crimson against his skin. Lovely's was a deep pink.

They giggled between slurred words as they housed down the wine.

"Ok ok so- im sorry i-i have to ask"

Slurred Lovely.

"Yeah? Hic* whats up?"

Bright eyes answered, finding it increasingly difficult to sit up.

"You and Porter?"

Lovely didnt even finish before they both burst into a cascade of giggles, she didnt have to. Bright knew what she ment.

"Whaaat?"

Asked Bright eyes, as if Lovely was judging him for his taste in men.

"Nothing nothing! It's just hic* I heard from alexis that you where hehe~"

Lovely playfully nudged Bright's side, he giggled and pushed her away in response.

"Dont be gross!"

"Haha! What? I was just asking! I mean you've only known him like less than 20 minutes"

Bright couldn't help but smirk at this

"Uhh actually hehe we had already met, at a bar hic* the other day"

"Oooh! So this was like a reunion? Got it"

"Hehe yeeah, wait hic* how dose alexis know about that?"

Lovely began pouring another mug

"Oh she said she walked in on you two going at it in the hallway"

Bright eyes nudged Lovely with his mug, gesturing that hed like a refill

"Oooohh that explains why he dipped out on me"

Lovely began pouring another mug.

"He's probably waiting for YOU you know? I bumped into alexis on my way here so he's defiantly finished talking with her soooo"

Lovely was done with refilling his cup however he nudged her arm while she was pouring, indicating that he wanted more than what she was allowing him to have.

Lovely stumbled a bit because of this and for a second she worried that the wine would spill onto the bed and stain it.

"Yeeaah but I'll be damned if i wait around for a man for too long so hic* i left after he was gone for like hic* 1 minute...?"

Bright took the mug from her without any consideration that it could spill, and to Lovely's relief it didnt.

"What you gonna do if he shows up here?"

"Hic* I dunno probly turn him away"

"Heck Yeah!"

Lovely high fived the hand that didnt contain a mug full of wine.

"You know how much me and vincent hate Porter? I'm not judging you buuut"

Bright scoffed

"Why tho?"

"Hic* long story, I can already feel a headache forming"

Lovely grabbed at the skin between her forehead. Her vision was begining to blur. So was Bright's

"Damn how'd you manage to get a hangover BEFORE you're done drinking?"

"Oh piss off!"

Lovely playfully pushed him but due to his state he fell backwards instantly, the wine splashed as he fell

"OH SHI-"

Bright exploded with laughter, ignoring the wine he spilled over himself.

Thankfully he didn't get any on the bed sheet.

Once they had both calmed down, Lovely realized something.

"Wait- Wait.... Porter told us that he was talking a 'newborn' to the summit as his plus one"

Bright looked stunned, then his brows furrowed.

"Was he talking about you?!"

The question caused Bright's previous expression to change into one of suprise and confusion.

"I mean....he didn't SAY anything to me about it...?"

Lovely pushed herself up from the bed

"So you're telling me that asswhole said he was bringing you to the summit WITHOUT EVEN ASKING YOU FIRST?!"

Lovely recalled just how stressed Vincent was over inviting an additional vampire to the sumit, them being a newborn made things even more inconvenient, but the fact that the person he was inviting was not only already invited but they were the god damn guest of honour?!

Lovely was pissed, in more ways than one and it showed.

"Hey chill out! He probably didnt even mean ME i-im I was....just a one nighter i mean come on!"

"Dont play dumb! I saw how he looked at you today in that meeting, heee likes youuuu~"

He agressive tone from before had vanished and turned into a juvenile one, the kind youd expect to hear at a 12 year old's sleepover"

"Please stop"

They went back to laughing hysterically.

4 mugs of wine and 1 black out later:

"You know...I was a foster kid"

Bright was just coming to when he heard this.

"Really?....how did you know I was one too?"

"Vincent told me"

By this point they were both close to falling asleep at any moment, however, this was something Lovely had wanted to talk to Bright about since the moment Vincent had told her this piece of information, so she pulled herself together and took another sip, hoping it would keep her awake despite it being the thing causing her fatigue.

"Vincent told me that you told him"

"Oh Yeah, I remember"

Lovely once again was lost on how to continue this conversation.

"D-do you have any siblings?"

"Well-"

Bright hesitated.

"I don't know what it was like for you but in the homes i went to we all considered each other 'siblings' but biological? No. Not that I know of"

"Huh. Do you still keep contact with any of them?"

Lovely couldn't tell if he looked sad or just tired.

"I did. With one of them. But then she just...stopped"

"I'm really sorry"

For a moment they just layed there, quiet and still.

Until Bright got up and poured himself another, seemingly doing the same thing Lovely was attempting to do.

"What about you? Got any sibling?"

Lovely seemed to perk up at this.

"Yeah actually. Biological but they got adopted before me, the parents only wanted them"

Bright scowled.

"Tipical, honestly, they should do two for one deals with these sorts of things?!"

Lovely assumed he was joking due to the serious nature of the topic of discussion, so they laughed.

"Yeah Well, I was lucky enough to keep contact with them the whole time online, last year I got to meet them in person tho since I started going to damn and theyd been going there a little while before me"

Bright gave a warm smile. He seemed genuinely happy to hear that lovely was able to see their sibling again.

"They're doing good for themselves too, they have a nice boyfriend, a good friend group and they're so damn talented with magic!....I'm glad they ended up ok even without me"

Lovely gently touched his arm.

I'm hoping that even with your rough start, you can do the same"

His smile dropped as his lips parted in suprise, he didn't know how to respond. So he didn't.

He just clicked his mug with hers and continued to sip it.

The brim hiding his smile.

Vincent was still in shock in regards to what happend.

He would be lying if he said he hadn't seen Lovely angry before but this was....diffrent.

He also felt bad that Lovely had inadvertently made Sam feel like he needed to leave.

Vincent thought that the best thing to do would be to go and confront her.

But that was before he saw her and Bright laying on Bright's bed wasted.

"What the-?!"

"Ok ok so old wine....is good wine hic*"

Lovely didnt seem to notice Vincent standing gob smacked in the doorway.

"Yeah ok ok but hic* expensive wine....is good wine also-"

"What are you guys doing?"

Vincent finally got Lovely's attention.

"Oh hiiiii~ hey vinc hic* whats up?"

"A-are you drunk? Why are you drunk?!"

"Relax, I just thought we could use a drink is all"

Lovely was desperately trying to sit up, luckily her cup was empty so she didnt need to worry about spillage.

"We just established that Bright isn't old enough to even drink!"

"Oh chill out grandpa, Lovely here already got a headache"

Lovely, still stumbling over herself, pushing Bright eye's leg before falling over herself and eventually being caught by Vincent.

She looked up at him for a moment then smiled sweetly.

"Hi~"

She went to kiss him but she could barely keep herself up so she didnt succeed.

Vincent decided to excuse the absurdity of the situation and prioritise getting Lovely to bed before it got too light outside.

"Ok time to get you to bed, say bye to Bright"

"Byyee!~"

She waved lazily at him, he did the same.

Given Lovely's state, Vincent thought it was wise to ask Bright how he was holding up.

"Hey, you gonna be Ok?"

"Yeeeaah ill be fine"

Vincent trusted Bright not to do anything too stupid between now and night time.

"Alright then"

Vincent proceeded to carry Lovely into their bedroom a floor up.

Bright tried to sleep off the feeling swimming throught his head......But he couldn't.

Epilogue:

A knock on the door caused Bright eyes to jolt up from his bed.

He wasn't asleep, however he was still suprised by the sound, especially since the intoxicated state he was in amplified all sounds.

He groaned as he felt himself moving from his bed on the door.

"What?"

He slurred, voice thick with sleep.

He opened the door to Porter standing in front of him.

"I apologise for the late arrival~"

"Yeah? Why'd you run off before then? Cold feet?"

Bright had previously been told the answer to this question, however he still wanted to tease him, and see if he would tell the truth.

Porter winced at the implication that Bright had thought this entire time that Porter had left him due to "cold feet". Despite this, he coughed then gave a small slightly awkward laugh.

"N-no I do apologise for leaving its just....alexis saw us. I knew she would tell vincent and i really dont fancy having my head removed before I could get a chance to ask you something important, you understand?~"

Bright didnt answere, he did however share a kiss with Porter once he had finished apologising, he wasn't entirely sure who initiated it but he reciprocated nonetheless.

"Hmm~ may i come in?"

Bright could feel Porters breath against his lips.

Bright eyes smiled.

"No".

Then he closed the door to his room.

@darlin-collins thank you for proof reading as usual ♡

@anexistingexistence @you-think-i-care-mate

[too-many-tildes]

Too Many Tildes' Amazing Isekai Adventure, Chapter 1

(I'm going to regret this.)

My name is Too Many Tildes. I have dark, navy blue plating with white eyes and light blue tildes underneath them (hence my name~) My gamer headset is shaped like cat ears and I wear a fluffy pink feather boa with a very fashionable cyan tank top and night-sky themed pants. My nail extensions are painted red just like my :3 face and my feet are shaped like high heels. This is the start of my story.

It was a cycle like any other. I was admiring my collection of Catboy Pebbles images (A.N. if u dont know who that is get da rubicon outta here!!!!) Suddenly my homosexual overseer alerted me to something funny happening outside. I looked through the feed and saw... A METEOR!!!?????? And it was SHAPED LIKE A TRAIN?!?!??!!? And it was headed STRAIT FOR MY CAN!!!!!1!1!1!111!!1!11! I gasped right before the train struck me, exploding me into one billion pieces!!!11!! The world was going dark around me as my chamber shattered and I fell down. The last thing I remember seeing was flames surrounding my structure and the bright, beautiful sky.

~ ~ ~

"Hey! Listen!"

I groaned and opened my eyes. Omg!!!! I'm alive?!!?!?? I glanced next to me and saw... my overseer????

"Get up, catboi," it said, turning all different colors of the rainbow. I decided to just lay there instead until its feelers tickled my face.

"Hey~ Stop that~" I said, shooing the overseer away with my hand, but it just teleported to the other side of me.

"You can't sleep on the dirt in the middle of the forest," it said firmly. Forest? I sat up and looked around. Sure enough, I was surrounded by trees!!! But I also noticed... MY CLOTHES WERE GONE!!!!!1!!!!1111! I wasnt naked tho, just wearing horrible peasant clothes. BUT I DIDN'T HAVE P[ATNS!! All I had on wad a plain white cloak. 

"Where da rubicon am I, oveseer~?" I asked. The overseer rolled its eye at me.

"Rude. I'm Ounce the Overseer. We're in the Iakesi forest," it explained. Iakesi forest? Id literally never heard of such a place. Though the name kinda sounded familiar...

My thoughts were interrupted by the rustling of the bishes. I stood up quicjkly, which was weird considering Id never stood on my legs before. It came so naturally to me for some reason. Three orange lizards emerged from the bushes, grinning at me. I hadnt realized until now how big they actually were.

"Oh shit, yellow lizards!" Ounce shouted and darted onto my shoulder. I thought they were ornage but whetever. They were wiggling their antennae s they approached me, and openned their mouths. Lizards weren't supposed to be this active, were they?

"Tildes you have to run the other way NOW!!!!!" Ounce yelled in my ear. I didn't know what tghe lizards would do to me but I wasn't going to stick around to find out. I turned tail and ran in the other direction. The leaves crunched underfoot and the trees blurred past me as I ran.

"This is just like that hit game PSMD!" Ounce said as I sprinted. I didn't know what the heck it was talkin about.

Suddenly I tripped and went tumbling down a slope I didn't even see. The foliage scraped against me as I flailed around. Then I collided with something metal with a loud BONK followed by an "oof!"

I locked up from my faceplant and saw purple?!??

"Ouch..." said the purple. I scrambled away and saw the purple was ANOTHER ITERATOR!!1!!!!111! I must have crashed into him and knocked him to the ground.

"Omigosh~! I'm sorry~!!! R u ok~???" I said quickly. The other iterator sat up and looked at me. He had funny asymetrical antennae and soft pastel eyes so beautiful I could get lost in them~

"I'm alright, I think..." He brushed some leaves off his rumpled dress. It was a really cute dress, tan with red rose patterning all over it and frills at the end of the sleeves. He was wearing an apron over it, with a cute little bow tied at the back.

"Stop staring," Ounce hissed in my ear. But where else would I look?

"What about you?" He asked. "You crashed right into me. Are you alright?" His voice sounded so soft and concerned.

"Um~! Ya~!! Just fell off a cliff running away from lizards haha~" I stuttered. The iterator gasped.

"Oh! Are you sure you aren't injured or anything?" He stood up and helped me stand as well. I blushed when he took my hand.

"I'm fine~ Just as fine as you~" I said smoothly, winking. One of Ounce's feelers slapped its eyeball. He seemed to freeze for a moment, eyes wide as he stared at me. No doubt flustered by my charming pick-up line.

"O-kay..." he said slowly, letting go of my hand quickly. He bent down and I noticed a woven basket tipped over on the ground. He must have dropped it when I crashed into him. Scattered all around it are... SHROOMS????? Omgosh, had I just bumped into a DRUG DEALER?!?1/!?!?

"Why do u have shrooms~!?" I blurted out. He flinched at my words, but looked up at me with confusion.

"W-what? Oh, I was gathering wild mushrooms. They grow around this time of year," he said, gingerly picking one up and placing it in the basket.

"They aren't drugs, Tildes, they're just mushrooms," Ounce whisper-yelled in my ear. I batted it away from my shoulder because it was being seriously annoying rn.

"Oh no~! I'm sorry I caused u to spill them~ Do u need help~?" I crouched down to help pick up the mushrooms but he quickly shook his head.

"No no, it's fine! It's okay!" He said. "It was an accident. I can get these by myself." Okay, well now I'm left feeling kinda awkward. I tried to think of something to break the tension as he placed the last of the mushrooms back in his basket.

"Hey~ I never got ur name~ I'm Too Many Tildes~" I said. He looked at me a little funny, but I couldn't figure out what he was feeling.

"I'm Nothing Well-Made," he said. "It's... nice to meet you... Too Many Tildes."

"U can just call me Tildes~" I responded.

"And I'm Ounce." the rainbow overseer appeared between us. Nothing startled backwards.

"Gah! A talking overseer?" he exclaimed.

"Uh~ ya~ dont ur overseers ever talk to u~?"

"No!"

"Please calm down," Ounce said gently. Nothing took a moment to compose himself, but he still looked totally freaked out by my talking overseer. "Nothing Well-Made, would you be willing to let Tildes spend the night at your shelter? She's lost, and has nowhere to go."

"Um..." Nothing glanced at me nervously. I was also reminded that UH HOW DID I GET HERE??!?!??? I THOUGHT I DIED TO A METEOR!!!!!!!!1!

"S-sure," he said, distracting me from my thoughts. Nothing beckoned for me to follow. "My cottage is this way."

The forest around us grew darker as we walked, probably from a combination of the oncoming rain clouds and night falling. Ounce stayed perched on my shoulder as Nothing led me through uneven terrain. He glanced behind every so often to make sure I was following. I liked that.

We finally came to a small copse in the woods. In it stood an run-down cottage shelter. It looked dirty, and it was covered in ivy and moss. A small, fenced-in garden was planted next to it, but I couldn't see anything planted in it at the moment. The cottage must have been very old to be in such a haphazard shape. Or maybe, it simply wasn't well-made. (A.N. see what I did there~? :3)

"You live here?" Ounce asked, zipping down next to Nothing. "How does this thing withstand the rain?"

"We put a magic seal on it that prevents the rain from damaging it," Nothing explained. "My boyfriend did most of the work though. He knows more about magic than I do."

I felt my heart sink down into the void sea. Nothing was already taken? Of course he is~ I thought. A cute boykisser like him would have trouble staying single~

Completely oblivious to my heartbreak, Nothing opened the cottage door wide and gestured for me to step inside. I entered with a lot less enthusiasm than I started with when I first met him. The inside of the shelter was small, but cozy. Everything was bathed in warm colors, and potted plants seemed to decorate every surface. A small love seat was positioned in front of an inactive fireplace, and the kitchen was so small that it would struggle to fit two people inside. I didn't see a bedroom anywhere, so I could only assume it was upstairs, seeing as there was a small staircase leading to a second story.

"Woah~ Ur place is so cute~" I said as Nothing followed inside and closed the door.

"Thank you," he responded nervously. "F-feel free to make yourself at home on the sofa. Is there anything I can get for you?"

"You got any water~?" I asked. I was getting pretty thirsty by that point.

"Of course! Ice or no ice?"

"No ice pls~"

Nothing walked into the kitchen to prepare the water as I went to have a seat on the sofa. It was a nice, soft sofa. I wondered how often Nothing and his boyfriend got to cuddle in front of a roaring fire. Must be nice~ I thought.

As I sat, I could hear Nothing and Ounce talking quietly in the kitchen. I couldn't make out anything they were saying though. I wondered if Ounce knew how strange it was for me to suddenly appear here, off my string. Nothing was also off the string, assuming he had one. Odd.

Nothing walked into the living room with two glasses of water and handed one to me. "It's filtered water," he said. He unplugged something from behind his head - some kind of long tube - and put the end of it in his glass. I suddenly realize I had no clue how to drink water.

"It's a water intake tube. You have one too," Ounce whispered to me. I put my hand behind my head and felt around until I brushed over something thicker than a wire. I pulled at it, and the end of the tube came loose. I put it in my glass of water and automatically started drinking, cooling me off.

"So~ Where's ur boyfriend, Nothing~?" I ask innocently. Nothing stiffens, and Ounce glares at me.

"Um," he stutters. "Well, he's not been home for a while. He's-"

Nothing is cut off by a knock on the door!!! OMG IS IT HIS BOYFRIEND!?!?!??!??! Find out next chapter!!1!!111!!1!1!

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[vamppqween]

first diary entry on here lol

November 16, 2024: 

holy fucking shit guys ome wattpad type shit happened. i was at this show last night, i was so fucked up i don’t even remember who was playing. they were probably hella popular with the faggots around here cuz the pit was wild. usually i would jump in, but there were too many crowdkilling fatasses… my friends dragged me there because their boyfriends are the faggots I was talking about. i was hella bored so i stepped out and hit my pen for a bit. i was already a little buzzed so the music was lowkey bothering me. i looked around to make sure nobody was looking at me so i could get my strawberry smirnoff out (it’s so good guys) cuz the venue doesn’t allow like drugs or alcohol or anything. then suddenly this guy walked out to light his cig. i couldn’t get a good look at him until he lit his lighter… he was so hot guys. he lowkey looked like that one guy from dinner in america. the hot one… idk his name. he stood against the wall for a bit until he saw my bottle. he sat down next to me on the curb and kinda just waited for a bit before he asked me for a sip. at first i was like fuck no who tf are you… but he was so hot so like… i gave in lol. lord knows where that mouth has been but i haven’t gotten sick yet so wtv lol. anyway … he kinds looks at me a little then says “nice shoes”... every older white guy who sees me wearing my fur boots says that… not complaining tho its sweet. then he asks me if i want a cig. i dont smoke cigs but i said yes cuz i didn’t wanna look like a pussy. i take it anf tell him im saving it for later. we talk a little and then my friends run out and pull me back in. the rest was a blur honestly. idek how i got home. but this morning when i was cleaning out my bag from the show, i notice a slip of paper. i pull it out… and its his number! anyway… im debating whether or not i should call it. im younger than he probably thought i was, so it might get weird. what do yall think?

[staweal]

Moves

pairing : lars x oona

note : lars is from this series full credit to the creator of the character (and the photos used below, both from s1 e1), I'm just making this cuz my pookie oona is into him and as the amazing friend I am I made this for her !

"If you don't talk to her today, I will." Kala said while rolling her eyes. "I need a good excuse to talk to her, Kala. I dont want to be a random stalkerish weirdo, I'm sure she gets enough of those." Lars said, his head resting in his hands. He'd been staring at her with his bright blue orbs for what felt like a while. He started to wonder how she hadn't noticed him yet or even how the teacher hadn't tried to pick on him even once. "Im sure she's also into you. Your mewing streak has been paying off, " Kela said in what she hoped was a reasuring tone. The bell rang, and everyone stood up to gather their things. It was their last class of the day, so everyone wanted to rush home.

Lars took his time packing his things, it's a bit hard to focus on even the simplest of things when she was breathing the same air as him. He managed to get out of the school after a bit, even tho what he saw outside made him wish he didn't. Kela was talking to Oona, the girl he couldn't stop thinking about.

He basically ran to them trying to hear what they were talking about "Hey, I'm sorry for interrupting but what are you guys talking about?"

"Oh we we're just talking about my garden. Kela said you admire it." Oona said. It was a little hard for him to register that she was talking to him, let alone what she even said. He managed to respond though, "You really work hard on it, it's difficult not to appreciate"

He swore he almost fainted when she smiled at him. The rest of the conversation was a blur to him. But now he was walking her home, so he guessed he managed to pull out his hidden w rizz.

"Hey Oona do you want to stop for a bit? There's a bench over there"

"Why do you want to stop? We're almost there"

"We still have some time before the sun sets"

She listened to him and sat next to him on the bench. "Does your foot hurt alot?" he asked. "It gets sore sometimes but doesn't hurt too much..i live with it" Oona said looking down at her bandaged up foot. Suddenly Lars crouched down in front of her "What are you doing? You'll get your pants dirty" She squeaked. "Don't worry about my pants. Can i take off your shoes?"

She nodded, and he took off her shoes. He started rubbing her bandaged up foot.

Does this guy have a foot fetish ? Do they end up making out ? What happens next ??? Stay tuned to find out !

@oonasvervain xoxo

[iliveforyouilongforyouvesuvia]

i wanna add more will wood's songs for julian because ig this is his kin artist now (i am SO NORMAL abt these songs and how it ties to julian's character)

cw for alcoholism, death, suicide

there will be mentions of his reversed ending too

Um, it's Kind of a Lot

"Oh, I love you so much it scares me half to death. the other half, I guess I'm giving to you"

"And I'm afraid you'll notice all my flaws. I'm afraid you already have, obviously"

"And I'm afraid I'll come on too strong, hold you too tight, and scare you too"

the last one is so julian i cant even

"But I never been afraid to wear my heart on my sleeve"

"At least to prove I'm weak, and if you cut me, I'll bleed"

i mean come on, look at that, its so perfectly julian i dont even have to explain

"I'll twist my words, a clever turn of phrase"

"Sorry, darling, please excuse my constant need to self-aggrandize. Coddling my narcissism"

we do not talk enough abt how julian also has that kind of like bravado but just not as bad as lucio's lmaoo

"So here's one last lyric to sum up these thoughts I struggled to come up with"

"To make me sound deep and smart, and then I promise I'll shut up"

"Wait, let me think, hold on, I got this"

"Anything but 'I'm in love with you'"

the third lyric is just the cherry on top, the unsure of it all and just kinda fumbling over your own words, its so julian

2012

"I was an existential criminal, so innocently cynical"

hes a fugitive!!

"Originally meant to live a God-damned miracle"

"Might've been metaphysical, but I think it was medical"

i think this could refer how he was literally dying from the plague and met the hanged man, so he was very close to dying or i think he did die and he came back with his mark (? idk tbh). well hes not dead now so it was a miracle but yk, julian is a skeptic so the line "but i think it was medical" fits him sooo much. hes a doctor! i'll take any medical related words and refs and align it with julian, ty.

"Testing my hypothesis"

"Never finding a theory"

i take back my last sentence. i'll take any science related words and refs and align it with julian, ty

"Did you lose yourself? It's always in the last place that you'd check"

julian talking to mc

"I might find myself by retracing my steps..."

"But I don't remember how I forgot myself"

"I don't remember, I don't remember 2012"

"Wow, the whole year's a blur!"

yea just change that to three years

"I think I bought into the comedy and brought a lot of oddity"

"An odyssey I thought to be consider a commodity"

"And not until anomaly abolished my monotony"

"Did I applaud autonomy and modify a lot of me"

i cant even break this one down tbh but the julian vibe is definitely there

"I heard the world would turn to hell"

"Compared to that, I'm doing well"

birblian cameo??!?! no but srsly i could see birblian going insane and gaslighting himself

The First Step

this is just an alcoholic song tbh...

"You could say I'm plastered, 'cause I hit the wall"

this is just a funny line tbh, not that deep, just julian hitting the wall like a cartoon

"I’d try to see the glass as half full"

"But I’d probably just a-drink that too!"

thats the alcoholic line. yk julian's a pessimistic, trying to see the glass half full instead of half empty but he'd probably drink that too

"Well I bet that a bottle of brandy so bitter’d be better than bitin’ the bullet and betterin’ myself"

"Sorry if I slur!"

if you listen to the song, will wood was actually slurring that first line. i have a hc that julian has two opposite talking mannerism. first one that he stutters (that part is canon) a lot and repeats his word. you get that or he slurs and talks so fast, theres no in between

"I’d try to see the glass as half full"

"Even when I'm empty, half-full"

"I’d try to see the glass as half full"

"But I’d probably just- AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!"

this is just a bonus. i just want to include it

Half-Decade Hangover

this song RUINED me actually so heres some angst (i avoid this song even tho i love it sm its such a banger but i cry everytime i listen to it. i really recommend listening to the song just so u can hear just the raw emotions. i also recommend going to the genius lyric page bc will wood himself actually annotate some of the lyrics im im im sorry im fanboying rn)

"Wonder how I didn’t die"

"This is not my life, I’m no survivor, I only happened to survive"

ooooof... again, with the dying theme, my god

"I was drunk when I made my bed"

"Now with a half-decade hangover I lay down in it"

"What have I done? Don't know what I've said"

ooooww yikes, that last line is kinda like a double whammy. julian not remembering his last 3 years bc of that amnesia OR in the reversed ending, "what have i done" but in a regretful way its so sad too bc after he made that deal with the devil all he did was drink himself to - well not death but yk.

"Give back my life, and if not"

"Take it, 'cause lately I been thinking maybe I could take it or leave it"

"If I can’t at least break even, then I’m leaving when"

"I been feelin' this awful since I hit bottom and"

"Said, 'Hand me my shovel, I’m going in!'"

that two first line is julian confronting to the devil. "take it (my life)" that line hits me like a train bc it has been hinted that julian have quite the suicidal tendencies and that was BEFORE shit went down. imagine how worse it got after the whole deal with the devil and him being cursed. he fought the devil so many times... it makes me wonder if he also did it, hoping he would die in the process. also the last line is a reference to one of will wood's song "Hand Me My Shovel, I'm Going In!" which a few ppl also recommend it for julian.

"Like it’s a good thing you said, 'You’ve got your whole life ahead'"

"Oh great, another half a century to live to regret"

"I’d rather be anybody else instead"

pretty forward with this one, this is depressing im sorry

"Please believe me when I say that I’ve poured my whole past down the drain"

thats pretty literally. he exchanged his memories of those three years for the healing mark

"Say that a second chance is a chance I can take"

"But I can’t make amends for things I can't remember"

"I can only say I'm sorry and occasionally pray"

he got a second chance to live, he no longer has the plague. also that second line, i mean julian traded the memories he didnt want so mustve thought he did something bad but now he cant really make amends bc he doesn't remember (not yet at least)

okay thats all, im sorry this was such a rollercoaster

@dandydanthelion :O the way you just broke down all those lyrics and fit them into his character, that was incredible and made so much sense!

It's not even a question at this point if they belong on the playlist (just added them) XD

Thank you for sending these friend! I always love to see your name pop up in my inbox ^.^

[plasmasimagination]

Genshin boys and unexpected confession

Summary-they confess unintentionally

Characters-xaio, diluc, scaramouche

Xiao

-confession would be only in a situtation where he had to act before thinking

You and xiao were friends, actually pretty close friends. You usually visited him or went on walks with him, he tho knew that he liked you more than other mortals he was unsure of how to approach it so he kept it in himself for a long time. Well until one time, you came to xiao to tell him about ur day as usually, he was listening to you while looking over liyue. Suddenly you got interrupted by a guy approaching you. The guy was really shy and red in the face. He stuttered something about taking you out for dinner. You quiet didnt hear him and when u were about to ask what he was saying xiao jumped in and snapped at the guy "theyre not interested you can leave". Xiao is very feared amongst the people of liyue so the guy dissapeard faster than my dad. You (still confused) turned to xiao and confusedly asked why he made that guy leave so quickly. He instantly just blurred out "bc i dont want anyone else to love you" or smth like that you were to shocked and flustered to hear anything anyways. After realizing what hes said he just dissapears u can tell him u love him too after he decides to show up again

Diluc

-would do it witbout even noticing at first

After the tavern closed, diluc usually lets you stay around because u always insist on helping him clean up. Today was no different, you guys were busy cleaning the whole time so u didnt talk a lot. After some time you were so tired, you litteraly sat on the first wooden chair u found and juzt wanted to fall asleep. Diluc walks by u and taps you on the shoulder, "you should go to sleep". You quickly stand up and shake ur head in disagreement, "noo dont worry about me ill help u finish it". Diluc takes the brrom next to the chair and starts sweeping "how can i not worry about you?" he asks sighing. You quickly say "why do u even care so much if im tired" in a teasing/cheerfull tone. He says "i care bc i like you and dont want you to overwork urself", he instantly looks at you trying to see if you heard him say that, he really didnt want to confess his feelings like this... But for his unluck( or luck?) you heard him loud and clear ;)

Scaramouche

-would be in a life ir death situation

Scaramouche never thought about confessing, like he didnt want to show his vulnerable side did he. So he denied his crush on u for damn ages, until one day you were on a mission with him, shneznaya is a cold place so you were partly freezing partly dying from the enemies. Scaramouche hates going on missions with you, like yes he loves spending tine with you and it helps him get closer to you but he hates the pressure of having to be a show off the whole entire time when ur around. Like bro is tryna prove that hes usefull in all possible ways he will litteraly randomyl start picking fights with people that look at you guys wrong just to show off hoa strong he is🙄. But this time the enemies were a lot more trained than the other basic hillichurs these were some well trained bandits. You guys were almost done with them, when in the corner of ur eye you see one bandit half bleeding swinging at scaramouche. You dont think any second and jump in to take a hit for him, then everything is dark. The only thing you can here next the 6th of the fstui harbingers holding u and yelling at you "YOU IDIOT,... hey hey dont you dare die dont die on me i love you alright?". That dumbass thought u were unconscious, hah.

REQUEST OPEN!!

Feedback, likes, reposts and comments are very appreciated <33

[little-pink-demon00]

Getting Yourself Killed

Steve Harrington x Hopper!Reader

Angst Fluff

Warning: Vecna

Summery: Hopper!Y/N beacons the next victim of Vecna

“Hey Y/N can you come with me for this one?” Max acked with very little confidence, almost sounding scared. Who wouldn't blame her the whole Vecna thing was scary even for Y/N. Especially when the party found out the symptoms for Vecna's Course, Nightmares, ever since her first encounter with the upside down Y/N has been having nightmares about it so that dont worry her too much, headackers, sure everyone has headaches from time to time, and nose bleeds, now that made Y/N worry. You see, recently she has been having nosebleeds and at first she didn't think anything of it, until now. Y/N should have known something was up the moment the nosebleeds started, with everything that heppened to her adopted sister El. All of this led to this moment now sitting in her boyfriend’s, Steve’s, car waiting for Max to deliver her last letter to her late step brother Billy. 

“Ya sure Max '' Y/N answered a little confused but went with Max anyway.  When Max and Y/N got to the grave Max finally spoke up. 

“I know” that's all Max needed to say for Y/N to understand what she was saying. Max knew that Y/N was the next victim to Vecna. “You don't have to say anything, I just wanted you to know that I know, '' Max said before sitting down next to Billy's grave and reading her letter out loud. 

The next few minutes went by in a flash, Max was hosted up in the air with her eyes rolled to the back of her head. Everyone was screaming Y/N, Dustin, Luscious, and Steve they were all scared of what would happen to their friend. The rest of what happened was a complete blur, the next thing that Y/N knew was that they were all sitting in the Wheeler basement contemplating their next moves. When they made up their minds they went to go find Eddie at Skull rock. 

While walking there Y/N had her headphones one listening to “the Chain '' by Fleetwood Mac. She was scared of what would happen to her. If it was true that she was cursed like Max then will the same thing happen to her? Her chain of thoughts were interrupted by the chiming of a clock. Y/N whipped her head around to see where the clock noise was coming from but saw nothing but trees. 

“Hey are you ok babe?” her boyfriend acked with a look of sympathy.

“Y-Ya I’m fine it's just the whole Vecna thing is making me a little paranoid, you know.” Y/N said trying to not make her boyfriend worry. That was until he noticed a little trickle of blood run from her nose. Steve reached out to wipe the blood off his girlfriend's face. 

“Your curses aren't you Y/N.” Steve said with a look of worry. 

“What no, I'm just really stressed out, you know that I have nosebleeds when I'm stressed Steve” Y/N said trying to get the attention off of her. 

“Y/N Stop lying, I know it's not a stress nosebleed” Steve was getting annoyed now, he didn't like how Y/N wasn't taking this whole situation seriously. 

“Are we really shocked tho, Y/N never really took anything siriusly” said a familiar voice from behind her. Y/N turned around to see the one person she thought she would never see, Her father, Jim Hopper. He looked just how she remembered him. 

“D-Daddy?” Y/N asked with a tear running down her face.

“You were never good enuff Y/N, that's why you always wished it was you instead of Sara right? Why you wanted to die instead of her, you were never good enuff. You always knew I loved Sara more than you.” Jim said while walking towards Y/N.

“That's not true, this is not real my father is dead” Y/N said while walking backwards “you can't trick me Vecna” Y/N yelled

All of a sudden everything changed. The sky turned red and the trees started to look more like tentacles instead of wood. The man standing in front of her changed from her father to a monster, Vecna!

“I knew you were a smart one Y/N” Vecna Said while stalking towards her. 

“Y-Ya I get that alot” Y/N said while backing into a tentacle thing. All of the sudden Y/N is hosted up into the air being pulled by the many tentacles around her

“H-hey you don't have to do this man! We can just talk this out, you know!” Y/N pleaded, but that didn't help Vecna just walked closer 

“You know I get it man, you're mad and you have to live in a place like this, all wet and smelly you know. I really don't blame you, but you know what you need! You just need a friend and you will be fine. Ya! You just need a friend, and I know deep down in those ocean blue eyes you are a good person. God, your eyes are really blue, has anyone told you you have really blue eyes? They're really pretty too. If you weren't all burnt and stuff you would be really handsome you know!” Y/N keep ranting. 

“You don't shut up do you?” Vecna asked annoyed 

“Only when i'm trying to stoll” Y/N said trying to wiggle out to the tentacles 

All of the sudden the sound of Fleetwood Mac was filling their ears. Behind Y/N she saw her friends yelling for her to come back while she hovered above them in the forest. 

“Thank god that took them a long infuff. Well I LOVED talking to you Vecna but I have to go. Bye” and with that Y/N was able to wiggle out of her bindes and ran as fast as she could to the light. 

The next thing she felt was falling to the ground with a loud thump. “Omg Y/N are you ok” Steve yelled while holding on to Y/N like his life depended on it 

“Ya im fine, it it wrong that I want to do that again, not the whole Vecna thing but falling from that height” Y/N said while looking at Steve

“You are going to get yourself killed” Steve said while rolling his eyes and kissing the top of Y/N’s head.

[jjksblackgf]

Jungkook imagine - interviewer says something racial about his girl

a/n: here you go, hun! i wish it was longer, but i have a hard time writing angst, i dont know why. let me know what you think, tho <3

“You got this, babe,” you said encouragingly, placing a quick peck to his lips. Jungkook was obviously nervous about this specific interview. It was the first one after releasing a statement making your relationship public. In that he explained how much he loved and cherished you, and asked for privacy as he steps into this next phase of his life. You’ve been a supportive girlfriend throughout the whole relationship and as the statement was released, he appreciated your support even more. After all, loving you was effortless and as natural as breathing. Jungkook only saw how blessed he truly was. Yes, at first, people were a pain in the ass about him dating a black woman, but Hybe was quick to shut down the haters. Despite telling Jungkook that the comments couldn’t really get to you — they were only from hurt people projecting their own insecurities — he became edgier by the minute, blaming himself for putting all this extra pressure onto your shoulders. He would eventually calm down with time. He felt like both of you were in the eye of the tornado, only able to see the chaos around. But first, he would need to go through the interview. You sit close to the makeup artists backstage, watching Jungkook fidget as he’s getting more and more nervous. At the beginning, everything goes smoothly as the members answer about the comeback and their plans overseas. At a round of personal questions, the interviewer asks ignorantly if black women are as angry as they seem and if you two have a lot of arguments. You audibly gasped and placed your hands over your mouth, shock washed through you and your sight got blurred. You only realized it was tears when you felt your fingertips get wet. You also heard comforting words from someone and two hands soothing you, but felt too embarrassed to turn around and see who. Jungkook was visibly upset by the question, he frowned and his tone of voice was ice cold when he answered “That’s a harmful stereotype. They’re not angry at all, and even if they were, I believe it would be with good reason. Black people suffer a lot all over the world. And no, me and my girlfriend do not fight a lot.” he says coldly, and the boys just nod in agreement. His tone was final and his glare was noticeable. The interviewer apologized for his ignorance, really embarrassed, and the interview moved forward. You didn’t know how, but a tissue was placed on your hands and more comforting words were said to you. You felt a bit better knowing BTS had a supportive staff. The interview finally ends and Jungkook rushes to your side, hugging you tightly as soon as he sees you. He would protect you from anything that gets in the way of your happiness and wanted you to know that. He’s expecting to be scolded by the manager, but relaxes as the words “I’m proud of how you defended her” get out of his mouth. “I’m always here for you, baby.” he whispers to your ear.

[henriiiii-1001old]

future me here: this is so long so if you dont wanna read it all then just please trust me that it is so puppet in every single fucking way omg-

gonna put everything under a keep reading now too bc its. so long CFVGBHN

okokokokokokokok so lemme put the translated lyrics so you guys can like. understand where i'm coming from (i ofc had to read them too LMAO im not fluent xddd)

the first few lines are just. IMMEDIATELY screaming puppet to me, growing up in a different environment (basically being raised by alternates) and "likes and dislikes" being reversed and all that.

the next thing that hit was the bridge. like it's him actually meeting ruth and talking to her for the first time. he's "confused" by actually trying to talk to someone thatcher knows while disguising as thatcher, but at the same time it feels nice "being normal".

first chorus would be him first thinking that he has some sort of weird "crush" on ruth but later he realizes that he actually "want[s] to love [ruth] unbearably" to act more human.

and the whole concept of not wanting "normal" love, possibly hinting at wanting an unhealthy relationship of some sort. in puppet's case, it would be more of him wanting control, and it would start with ruth.

(note, the black out word had 1) an incorrect translation i noticed and 2) a. a not too positive word in today's context so im just censoring it just in case at this point)

second verse now, and the lines about dancing and playing music seem like it would connect to his like. like it would be him adjusting to be more like other humans, learning dances, listening to music, maybe learning a few instruments along the way!

however, things probably start going sour as puppet reveals himself anyway to ruth and ultimately technically failed his mission. he should have "watched dramas and prepared for it", with "it" being human interaction specifically with people thatcher actually knows.

also funny thing that belladonna can mean both "beautiful lady" as well as the plant of nightshade. "giv[ing] belladonna to the person i like" could be some sort of metaphor for M.A.D. in this context.

i also hc that ruth actually planted nightshade in her yard as a weird precaution in case nightshade berries/leaves could work against alternates. yeah i looked it up and apparently it's illegal to do that, but it's fucking mandela county no one fucking cares LMAO

anyways, symptoms of belladonnas are (according to medliveplus.gov) "blurred vision, fever, fast heartbeat, inability to urinate or sweat, hallucinations, spasms, mental problems, convulsions, coma, and others." who knows? maybe ruth got a bit too cocky and tried to fool puppet and he ended up fooling her instead, causing her to fall sick and for him to have to take care of her? cool concept huh :) <- totally not giving xem ideas

i also just like the mention of hyde from "the strange case of dr jekyll and mr hyde" it's genuinely such a good fucking story man. i just think it's neat <3

it does kinda relate to how puppet is sometimes going around and fuckign with people as thatcher, but it's kinda the opposite of the short story's case. in the book, jekyll uses basically a fake identity w a potion to change his appearance in order to not put blame on him, but puppet wants to blame thatcher for his actions (though he honestly isn't the biggest fan of people taking credit for his "work", but he'll let it slide if it's to slander thatcher <3). idk, just smth to think abt :0

ok now onto the "octopus hold" that i corrected: it's wrestling move!! if you look it up, it does honestly look like the person is like. an octopus LMAO. its funny tho how octopi have 8 tentacles and spider have 8 legs :) i do think it could also been seen as him trying to have a sort of strong grip on those he wants to keep close, specifically with ruth here.

chorus is almost the same except it talks abt how you can't buy love with money. probably tries to buy it with manipulating his peers </3

(i forgot a fucking line at the bottom, but it's just "i am living freely" as the last line of the song after "i will live because of you". i'll analyze this later i prommy)

this last fucking part. O U G H

puppet is kind of an outcast compared to everyone else, but only later bc he doesn't reveal his true intentions w humanity until later on in the story. he becomes an outcast after ruth escapes because even those he called his friends (specifically the paranoia squad) are now turning on him.

the rhetorical question of "everyone is free, right?" just feels like he'd ask himself that and question his own humanity (if he even had any in the first place bc he barely got any LMAO) as well as how moral it would really be if he, a nonhuman, just started killing people. he will "live freely" regardless of "those who reject [him]."

the last chorus is the exact same except for the end, and i LOVE IT!!!!!!!

specifically with the lines "i will live because of you" and "i am living freely"- as opposed to all the other times the line was sung, where it was "i will live freely" in which it sounds more like a promise (and it definitely seems to have been kept at the end ;) )- it just. AUUGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

the "i will live because of you" is definitely something he says after ruth either escape or smth he says after a specific event i havent actually fully revealed yet. it's just such a hm line <333

AND THE "I AM LIVING FREELY" LINE!!!!! HE'S FREE OF GABRIEL'S CONTROL BUT LIKE. THERE IS CLEARLY SOMETHING THAT HINTS THAT SOMETHING IS NOT GOOD ABT THAT AND AUGH <333333

ITS ALL PUPPET I LOVE THIS SONG!!!!!!

anyways if you made it this far omg tysm for reading my insanity <333333

GUYS

GUYS

GUYS I

IM GOING INSANE OVER SYUDOU'S NEW SONG (アタシ) AND HOW IT SO FUCKING PERFECTLY IS PUPPET OMG

THE SONG IS ALSO INCREDIBLY GOOD PLEASE GO LISTEN TO IT

[lizandbo]

chubby crushes w/ hq bois pt 5

Warnings: cursing I haven’t done the warning because i forgot about it

Wakatoshi 

- Wakatoshi will want to flirt with you since you were right there cuz like: god damn it you were fucking pretty what can he say 

- welp i mean, he doesnt know how to flirt but like..he thinks that complementing you is fucking flirting so ;-;

- if someone is like either bullied or bullying you 

- he would try to make you happy but he just stared at you cuz you were absolutely stunning 

- “y/n, those scumbags dont matter right now or any time of day. All that matters is you and your metal health, do you want some food? Chocolate? I heard that it will help your endorphins raise and it makes you happy becuase it’s a certain chemical and a hormone”

- you kinda surmised that he said scumbags but didnt mentioned anything about it 

- “uhhh i kinda dont wanna look like a pig cuz ya know...I’m kinda already on-”

- “no you aren’t. You look like nothing like a pig, what are you talking about?”

- “well, its just a phrase waka”

- “ well your body fits nice in that uniform”

- he wanted to kill himself instantly cuz he obviously blurred out his true feelings out to you which made you both look like tomato’s

- not gonna lie, peeps say that he’s a thigh guy or whatever but personally u think that he is really into that soft pillowy belly..I’m sorry but he just is

- he loves the lil or big dent in your shirt 

- he just imagines him squishing the living crap out of your stomach cuz he likes squishy stuff

- “wakatoshi? Are you okay?”

- oop, he be staring at your beautiful plump body 

- “ yes I’m perfectly fine y/n”

- even tho he’s not perfectly fine, he’s tryin to figure out who’s and what the hell what to do in the future cuz he wants to squish you so bad and kiss you on the spot but he doesnt want to be labeled as a “pervert”

Asahi 

- ASAHI BABY LOVES YOU SO FUCKING MUCHHH

- anywayXD

- he actually tries to avoid you becuase he doesnt want to look like a tomato and a weirdo 

- asahi is so worried that he smells bad cuz every time you guys glance each other, it’s after practice 

- like, he just loves you for you.. your personality is like a rare gem to him 

- and yes of course he isn’t blind and loves your body too

- everything about you is his favorite part of you

- and each time you pass in the hallways, he always feel kinda left and the excitement in his heart is disappearing 

- whenever, and i do mean whenever you stretch and lift your shirt as well, he just wants to hug you so bad during that moment

- maybe just a lil sneak? No? Ok..

- he loves your lil chubby hands, THERE SO CUTEEEE

- he basically spills and vents all his feeling into the conversation with suga he’s having rn

- but you just be right behind him 

- suga has this devilish smirk on his face, he knows damn well your behind but never ever mentions it 

- and once he’s done suga goes “well looks like you just told her”

- “what? No i didnt I’m just saying it to you for now”

- “welllll you kinda just did” suga points over him

- and which you were smiling like crazy, euphoria spreading through your body 

- “Y/N  I- WHAT, WAIT NONO WAIT Y/N ITS NOT WHAT IT LOOKS LIKE ITS-NOT-THAT-I-LIKE-YOU- AHAHRG”

- he’s internally dying and preparing for rejection 

- until he sees your smile, he calms down a bit 

- a bit

- you goes in full panic mode again once you pecked his lips and giggles, while your chubby hands hold his hand 

- “i love you too asahi”

Tsukishima 

- tsuki- oh dear

- he has to clear his glasse twice cuz hot damn does he just love you soul 

- he turns his head around but once he hears your voice chit chatting with anyone this dickwad turns his fucked up head back around being a lil sneaky dick 

-  holy shit i really just cursed him out lol 

- but he really dies for you 

- speaking of dying, he dies inside becuase he cant just spill out any or every thing about his feeling towards you

- yams actually had to help this situation cuz he was having a metal heart attack seeing you in a new dress cuz you also happed to be in the food court when tsuki and yams were having a day together 

- he just wanted to have a day to get his shit together, and fucking breathe cuz he loves seeing ina dress, like..you the sun? No? How? What the actual fuck

- and then you went to bend down- ok lemme stop

- but he was like tryin really fuckin hard not to think about you 

- its not like he doesnt trust yamaguchi when he tries to say about his feelings 

- its just that he feels alomst afraid and spread that others will find out cuz we all know yams is like the most clumsy person. And the other peeps will just judge them for that 

- once you spot them in their seats, and of course tsuki is the first one to notice cuz he was starring at you the whole time

- you waved at them excitedly, strolling over to wherever you found them and started to blush and talk

- “hi, I’m sorry if I’m taking time off your day or something like that but i just noticed and i wanted to say hello”

- ok so you weren’t lookin normal becuase one, you got food on your face and second you were super blushy 

- tsuki had a heart squeeze (just like midoriya) you looked so pretty, hello?!?!

- “its ok-”

- “when did your dumbass get here?”

- “tsuki! Dont be so mean, i though you likes her?”

- “GODAMN IT”

- Yama ran to the bathroom cuz he doesnt want to ruin the moment but like..he kinda ruined tsuki’s plan

- he cant do jack shit because your their and there’s just awkward silence that you both managed to make

- “i like you too?” Fuck, you asked as like a question

- “...me too”

- you were smiling cuz like???YOUR CRUSH JUST REVEALED HIS MAGIC TRICK 

- you caught tsuki have his lil victory smirk 

[indomies]

omg how do u make ur gifs so crisp and sharp?! 😭

hello babe sorry it took me some time to answer bc i was trying to find the resources i could send you. pls i didnt ignore you! im sorry it took me days😔 everything is under the cut bc it’s pretty long!

1. hd videos

always always always try to find the most high quality videos you can find! it doesn’t have to be 4k, 1080 is enough. i rarely download 720p, it can make do but it won’t be as good. so try to find 1080p vids! the quality of the videos make the difference in the world!

for youtube, i just use youtube downloader lol, i think any would suffice.

for downloading movies/tv shows, you can either torrent or use direct download links. here’s a link full of websites to download movies/shows. my personal fave is snahp(.)it and i use jdownloader as well. jdownloader is a download manager, so you can download several videos in one go and just more organized i guess. also i think it can bypass the unnecessary advertisements and/or yk those websites when you click on the download button but takes you somewhere else djsnsk i hope you understand this.

also do have a strong ad block on your browser. i use ublock and adblock on chrome.

2. photoshop

i use photoshop for my gifs. you can use photopea i think but my friend has tried it and for her it didnt delivered the maximum quality you know. there’s a tutorial on how to use photopea tho somewhere on tumblr but i dont have the link sorry:( personally, i’m more comfortable with photoshop.

if you are using window, try to crack it with GenP. you could search for GenP and click on the reddit link. i used genp to crack, im very happy with it. have no trouble until now!

if you use mac, search for adobezii reddit or click here!

3. sharpening

now!!! this is important too!!! you need to sharpen your gifs but be careful to not oversharpen them!! i think i followed this tutorial but i tweaked it at the end. you could use my action here, it consists of double sharpening and a touch of gaussian blur to soften it a bit. play around with sharpening!! find the right way for you!!! i do suggest to use double sharpening, it makes the difference in the world!!

4. coloring

tbh i’m still learning to color my gifs until now. but i think the contrast and brightness play some parts too. i just notice if the gifs are wayyyyy too bright it’ll lose it’s quality, the same when it’s over saturated. so i guess find the balance!!!

5. cropping/sizing

i always crop my gifs first before i sharpen them, i even crop them before i convert them to smart filter. idk but to me it’s better that way. follow the size that tumblr allows to ensure better quality!! since the beginning i set the width to be the tumblr size e.g. 540px with this setting of cropping and the height just kinda follows it. like i calculate what the height would be if i want the aspect ratio to be 3:2 or 5:4. gosh i hope this makes sense

6. exporting

ok so i dont really understand the science behind the option but this page goes into the great details between the difference settings. i almost exclusively use selective and diffusion with 100 dither and 256bit color. as always play around!! not every gif will be suitable with that setting or if you even like that setting.

7. screencapping

i dont really know if you screencap makes the quality better, but i do know it’s just easier to screencap than uh cutting the video in photoshop- especially when you try to gif a movie! i use potplayer (idk if it’s available on mac tho?)

this is my settings for screencap!

after you have your screenshoted scenes, load them onto photoshop like this!

and just do your usual giffing process.

this gif tutorial is incredibly detailed and i recommend to read it if you havent!

i think that’s it!! sorry if it’s so long and not really understandable fjsj ask me if you have questions!!!!

[sepialunaris]

The Brother=Owl Beast or Brother=Hooty theory

So after noticing from a post about how the Gravesfield symbol has a mirrored position from the Emperor's coven sigil from this post.

I think its pretty much confirmed that Belos is Phillip, and he may be symbolized by the main spread wings, the top half of the the emperor's coven sigil thats present in many imagery and even evoked in his mask.

The spread wings seems to metaphorically 'stab' the folded wings, which could hint at Belos betraying his brother. Meanwhile the gravesfield logo also frames the folded wing bird in a gravestone, which could hint at Belos' brother being dead. And Belos being in the bottom of the gravestone maybe to hint how he was seen to be lesser in the human world.

Meanwhile the season 1 message spells: "Two witches now alone, two hearts of stone. A curse of feathers and mud, a betrayal of blood"

In Belos and his brother's case, the sigil seems to confirm the betrayal, and a curse of mud, while Eda has the curse of feathers, but with Lilith cursing her. But its also a possibility that the brother got the feathers curse, and is connected with 2 avian characters that we know, the Owl beast or Hooty.

Owl Beast

The brother could be the original Owl Beast which was captured by the Collector, as it is a separated sentient being and is a way to link Eda to Belos without making them related. However the Owl Beast theory has a lots of cons

In the story the Owl Beast's origins seems to be linked more with Vee and the Basilisks or King and his species, with them being wiped out mysteriously before the new order.

Its even possible that they come from a different realm witht the horse skeleton titan, or just outside the boiling isles.

Lilith also houses the consciousness of the Owl Beast. And it seems like sharing the curse replicates it instead of splitting it and the owl beast's consciousness in half. With the hint that Hunter is this brother's clone I doubt they would add another 'clone'

As said, Hunter is a 90% certainly a clone, which requires the bone of ortet from the brother. If he became the Owl beast I dont think Belos would be able to acquire it

The brother is the blurred photo by Jacob is shown to be with a Cardinal, meanwhile the photo of the gravesfield sigil shows a sparrow or a corvid. (Also this is taking assumption that Belos is Phillip, the right statue, who has a coat that does not reach his boots) So I doubt there would be 3 birds to symbolize him.

Hooty

Hooty... is an aluminium foil theory, but the lack of information makes less cons than the Owl Beast theory. He is a Bug-type house demon, yet his origins are mostly mysterious, and the onky piece we know he said is that "It all started with a hunt. Blood red skies" from Understanding Willow. Plus he is ancient, Amity hints he is possibly at least thousands of years old (tho if he is the brother then be should be in hundreds) He has a bird sigil on his roof that we haven't seen really discussed much in show. And it could be too far but there is a gag of Hooty liking to play with mud, which may be a reference to the curse. Plus he is the titular character, and I always feel there is something that is in store about him.

But the highlight for me is that he is also very flesh-based which reminds me of artificial magic from Belos and Hunter, which makes a thought cross my mind that Belos may also be alike with Hooty, as we never see him leave the castle and he seems to have omniscience within the castle, able to remotely control doors in Agony of a Witch. I have no idea how the giant heart would make sense in this equation (him feeding on keratin from Palistrum wood seems to be more tied to the mud curse that is destroying his form). So Hooty may have received the feathers curse and got tied into the Owl House like Belos with his castle, and that curse may be the same one created by the Collector, as his retelling of his past is veryyyy similar to Eda's vision of the owl beast getting captured, a hunt with blood red skies.

The cons of this theory is that... its reallyyyy out there. We lack much info about Hooty for me to think that its valid, and there are a few assumptions for Belos, but the thought crossed my head lmaoo.

[aphrodite-would-be-proud]

I dont know if your accepting requests right now, but I love your kiddo headcannons. Could you do the Kiddo's reacting to Reiner asking you to marry him? I just really want to know who's going to get excited for the wedding, if any of the kids are going to be upset...your headcannons are just the best!!

Hey! Yes my requests are open, it's written in my bio tho i get it might be confusing. Imma make sure to also write it on the navigation post.

And by the name of persephone this the cutest most wholesome kiddo scenario! How did i not think of that? Just what realm of heaven are you living on Anon? Whatever it is thank you for blessing us with this thought💛

You're with Reiner, he wants to propose but his cousins overhear him.

{ Reiner x reader | tw:marriage tw:proposing tw:parental-neglect tw:heavy-angst | cartoony?, fluff, angst with comfort | modern }

{ The Lanterns, circa 1910 by Charles Courtney Curran 1861-1942 }

"And no opening the door to anyone no matter how sorry you feel for them, okay?" Colt said while adjusting the tie around his neck, making sure it's even as he takes one final look at himself in the mirror before putting on his coat.

"Okay" Falco replied, watching as his brother was getting frustrated with the too many buttons on his coat. "Do you need help?"

Nodding his head, Colt let Falco do his buttons while he reached for the cup of coffee he left on the table, quickly finishing it all. "And make sure to get to bed on time, no staying up reading comic books, you have school tomorrow."

"Don't worry I won't" Falco looked in concern at the empty coffee cup, "isn't this your third one today? I don't think you should be drinking this much..."

"You worry too much Falco, just take care of yourself okay?" Colt rubbed his brother's hair, before patting his head. "I'll text you to check on how you're doing so make sure to charge your phone."

And just like that, Colt wrapped a scarf around his neck, grabbed his keys, and left through the door. Leaving Falco standing there at the entrance, alone in the house.

Looking around the quiet room, Falco picked up the empty cup before washing it in the sink. Just as he was putting it away, the door bell rang.

'Did he forget something?' He thought, wondering if it's his the keys again. But looking at the table, he could see nothing was there.

Wait...Colt did take his keys before leaving, why would he be ringing the doorbell.

The ringing got more frequent, followed by aggressive knocking. Falco took a step back into the kitchen, thinking if he could dash upstairs to get his phone in time.

But he didn't want to trouble his brother...Think Falco think! What would captain america do in this scenario? But Reiner always told him he should think for himself...

And so he grabbed a knife, slowly inching towards the door but then he heard it, that fimilar sound.

"Falco? You in there? It's freezing open the door!"

"Gabi?!" Dropping the knife, Falco rushed to the door. Quickly unlocking it as a very cold looking Gabi stepped inside.

"What took you so long? I can't feel my fingers!" Rubbing her hands together to attempt to warm them up, Gabi glared at Falco.

"Sorry I thought you were a-" he looked away at the knife "uh..anyway let me get you a blanket" before he could rush up the stairs, Gabi pulled him back.

"No there's no time! We have to leave now." Holding his hand, Gabi dragged a very confused Falco out the door and they began making their way to the next destination.

-

Soon enough, the pair found themselves standing outside Udo's house, directly under his window.

"You still haven't told me why we're here." Falco watched as Gabi was looking for something on the ground, he stiffened when she smiled after picking up a small rock.

"I will tell you once Udo and Zofia are here, it's very important." She handed him the rock. "Now let's focus on getting Udo here, make sure to aim for his window because his mom is a really light sleeper."

"Wait if that's the case then why didn't we go to Zofia's house first? She lives right opposite of mine!" Falco whisper-shouted.

"Because! Neither of us can deal with a sleeping Zofia and you know that, only Udo knows how to wake her up." Gabi explained, crossing her arms while getting impatient. "So hurry up and throw the rock!"

Flaco looked at Udo's window, then at the rock. He looked at Gabi one last time before closing his eyes and throwing it, it made a sound as it hit the window....nothing happened

"Why am I the one throwing the rocks?" He looked anxiously at Udo's dark window, moving his weight from one leg to the other.

"I'm stronger. If i throw it, I'll break the window." Gabi was looking for another rock, having found one slightly bigger than the last. "Here try this one"

-

Having reunited again, the four of them were walking down the street to Reiner's house late at night. Gabi leading the group, Falco following her reluctantly, Udo keeping a still sleepy Zofia from walking into a wall while in her pajamas.

"This better be good Gabi, otherwise you can forget about copying my math homework for a month." The thought of just turning around and going back home to bed was still in the back of Zofia's mind.

Having almost reached Reiner's house, the four of them could see multiple cars parked outside of it, some of them they recognise.

"See! I told you all it'd be worth it. They're having a secret party without us! I heard Reiner talking about it on the phone with Zeke this morning when I was pretending to be asleep so I don't have to walk home." Gabi said as they sneaked to the side of the house.

"That's mister Zeke's car, miss Annie's and...even Porco's too.." Udo said as they climbed the house fence.

"They invited Porco but not us?" With that information, Zofia was fully awake.

"That's exactly what I've been telling you guys about! Here look!" Standing on her toes, Gabi looked through the window, between the curtains. Three heads joining her soon.

Looking inside, they could see the living room they were so fimilar with, looking really different. For once it wasn't a mess of pillows and candy wrappers! It was actually clean with various candles adding to the atmosphere.

Zeke and Pieck could be seen siting next to each other on the couch, drinking some wine while Colt is in the arm chair next to them with Porco pushing a drink in his hands.

Annie and Bertolt are leaning against the wall, she's holding a plate of donuts while he's talking about something.

Finally, you and Reiner are sitting on the couch opposite to Zeke and Pieck. His hand is around your shoulder and he keeps taking glances behind him at bertolt, while Zeke stares at him from the front.

If you focus, you can hear the muffled sound of music playing in the background.

The four kids watched as Reiner whispered something in your ear, before you noded, got up and headed towards the kitchen. The second you left, all of them crowded at the couch next to Reiner, Talking in hushed tones.

"What...are they doing?" Udo watched as Reiner took out a small red box from his pocket, hands shaking while the people around him leaned in to see what's inside as he opened it.

Quiet gasps and awws followed after as the ring inside came into view, glittering in the dark by the candlelight. Although that only seemed to fluster Reiner even more.

The four of them looked at each other with wide eyes, then back at the ring as Reiner reached out to hold it delicately in his hand for a few seconds as if he's offering it up to the air in front of him, the room got quiet, everyone holding their breaths.

"Oh " Falco said, "i...think i know what's going on." Both Udo and Zofia noded.

"What?" Gabi knitted her eyebrows, tilting her head, "what's going on?"

Before any of them could answer, Zofia told them to keep quiet when she noticed you walking back in the room, the ring back in the box inside Reiner's pocket.

Everyone was now standing, smiles on their faces, even Annie showing one of her rare ones. You were holding a new plate of donuts when you noticed them, with Reiner in the middle, nervous eyes staring right at yours.

Stepping towards you, Annie took the plate before going back to her spot. A few chuckles from Zeke, Bertolt and Pieck followed while Reiner shock his head.

Still outside, the kids saw Reiner start talking about something. Whatever it is, it must have been emotional because everyone in the room was listening with anticipation.

"I can't hear anything" unlocking the window, Gabi opened it just slighly. The muffled sound of music becoming clear as Reiner was finishing his speech.

"And you'd make me the happiest man in the world" he got on one knee, hand taking something out of his pocket. "If we could spend the rest of our lives together and I'll cherish every single moment you're by my side."

He opened the red box, holding the ring in front of you, eyes pleading. "Will you please marry me?"

The second you said yes, Reiner pulled you in the tightest most loving hug in your life, muttering "thank you"s under his breath. You could taste saltiness of his tears when he kissed your lips, still not letting go.

"He's crying" Udo said, feeling his own glasses getting a bit blurred.

"They're kissing." Falco's face was as red as a tomato, covering his blushing face with his hand but looking through his fingers.

"Annie finished all the donuts" was Zofia's comment with a pout.

Gabi's hold on the window got tighter, her lips quivering. "We have to stop them. They can't get married!" And like that, she slammed the window open before climbing inside.

"Gabi! Wait!" Falco tried grabbing her sleeve but was too slow, so he climbed after her into the room.

As expected from two children suddenly breaking in the room through the window, everyone's eyes were on them with surprised expressions.

Looking straight at Reiner, Gabi pulled you away from him before snatching the ring box from his hand. "NO! no one is marrying anyone" with all her might, she threw the box to Falco before telling him to run away.

Having been dragged into the middle of this, Falco looked at Colt's concerned expression, Reiner's confused face and Pieck's amused one. Stepping near Colt, he was about to give him the ring when he saw Gabi's face, making his stop midway.

"Run Falco! Just go!" She yelled, tears streaming down her face, legs shaking. "They can't leave us! Not like our parents did..."

Falco felt his chest tightening, recalling how empty the house feels with just him and Colt being away for work most of the time. How cold it is, unlike the warmth he feels whenever they stay over at your house.

He began tearing up too, holding the box so tightly to his chest.

It was Reiner who made the first move, while everyone was stunned looking at the two crying children. Pulling the both of them to his chest as they sobbed, he wrapped his arm safely around them. He looked at you and you followed in his steps.

-

After some time and explaining, Colt was comforting Falco while on the couch with Pieck doing the same on his other side. You had Zofia on your lap while she ate some Donuts you stashed away from Annie. Gabi was still clutching to Reiner with Udo on his other side doing the same.

Gabi would take a bite out of a donut, cry a bit then take another bite. Sometimes glancing at the red box on the table.

With time, reassuring words and Zeke making the kids laugh, things slowly got better. Reiner and you completely reassured them that you're never leaving, you love them more than anything in this world. That getting marriage is going to get you even more closer together than anything.

Hearing those words calmed Gabi down, each of them made you make a pinky promise to not replace them ever, same thing to Reiner.

That's when Bertolt brought up the fact you still haven't worn the ring, and it might make them feel better if they were the one to place it on your hand. And that seemed to grab their attention as they began arguing between themselves which one of them should do the honour.

{ The Lanterns, circa 1910 by Charles Courtney Curran 1861-1942 }

Headcanons

Strap in because boi are we in for a ride. These kids went through a lot even in a modern non-war world

They all have an altered negative view on marriage, especially Gabi and Falco.

Both of Falco's parents are deceased, he lives alone with Colt who's trying his hardest to work and take care of both of them, of course Zeke and Pieck help a lot too and try to be his stand in parents.

He knows about love and how good it is, he just thinks marriage would mean you and Reiner might also go away.

Gabi's parents are alive and well, they're just rarely in her life. She's an alone child with no siblings, so far Reiner has been her only relative that she counts as family.

Her parents often leave her at her aunt's house whenever they go on a trip away, or as she started getting older, alone in the house. It gave her a lot of freedom but also a misguided and neglectful life.

Reiner has been trying to fill both roles of her parents for her, and when you came along it was like a dream coming true, she suddenly has someone who truly cares for her being and loves her unconditionally.

So when she heard you were getting married, something in her snapped and fears about you both leaving her too just like her parents clouded her mind.

Udo and Zofia both have their moms only, they bond over it. In Udo's case it was after his father passed away in an accident that his mother became really overprotective and Borderline overbearing.

She's worried about everything, he feels like it's his fault somehow and can't help but copy her anxiety and paranoia.

When he heard about you getting married, he felt a sting of pain and guilt, like he's getting in the way and it never was his real family to begin with.

Zofia's mom is another case, her dad left them when she was younger without a word. Her mother lost trust in anyone after that and was emotionally unavailable.

She saw how hurt her mother was over her dad, she wanted to be strong for her mom and never have to depend on anyone.

So when she heard you were getting married, a sense of dread filled her at realising one of you will hurt the other somehow and she will have to be strong on her own again.

The four of them looked up to you both, were loved and cherished by you both like they've longed for so long.

They fear losing you, they fear losing the warmth, love and care you showed them.

So take it slow with them please, they've been hurt a lot. They don't mean to be ungrateful or rude they're just kids who are terrfied.

Be paitent and slowly introduce them to marriage in a new light, let them grief over their own parents in a healthy way while comforting them. Make them feel included in the planning and wedding and everything and I promise you they'll be fighting for the flower girl spot at the wedding if you just take it slow and gentle.

Yes even Falco and Udo want to be the flower girl.

[miraeluc]

you’re suffering alone

prompt: “kageyama knows you as his little ray of sunshine, but what does he do when he finds out how you really feel?”

pairing: kageyama x female! reader 

word count: 3k

warnings: MAJOR tw!!! depression, again major tw self harm, reader cries a lot when kageyama finds out, reader’s mom is dead lol i went all out 

genre: fluff, angst

you were always their little ray of sunshine

when you first joined the school a year ago and introduced yourself all excitedly

hinata ran to tanaka after that class

“we need to convince her to be our manager!!!!”

tanaka was down lol

it didn’t take long to convince you, you were looking for extracurricular activities to engage in anyway 

the conversation went a bit like this

“y/n-san! do you want to be karasuno’s volleyball team manager?”

“sure!”

“we swear it- did you just say yes?”

“...yes”

cue tanaka and hinata screaming 

after you became their manager it didn’t take you and kageyama too long to fall in love either 

he adored the good vibes you brought with in any room you stepped in and you enjoyed the calmness that came with him (except when hinata’s around to annoy him, pretty boy radiates ᵃⁿᵍʸ energy then lol)

poor boy didn’t know that what he felt towards you until he had the whole team screaming at him to ask you out 

so he did 

and so you ended up here, 10 months into dating kageyama and 12 months into being karasuno’s manager along with kiyoko and hitoka 

everyone found it a little weird that you were always the one to stay the longest out of everyone, but everyone assumed it was just because you genuinely enjoyed being there

which you did, don’t get me wrong

that just wasn’t the only reason.

no one actually knew why you had changed schools in the middle of the year

every time someone asked you pushed it off, claiming your old school just wasn’t working out and started babbling about how much you love being at this school and how glad you are to have found real friends like them

“time for a break, i brought food!!”

you held the bags of food up, getting tackled in a gross sweaty hug by nishinoya 

“it’s like you heard my stomach calling out for you, y/n!!! you’re my saviour!!!”

you immediately laughed 

“i know, noya, now get off, you’re sweaty” you cringed a little and he got off, a little offended but he quickly forgot about it and snatched the bags 

you were all sat on the ground, everyone eating quietly when hinata started complaining about his mother nagging him to focus a little more on studying 

that’s how everyone started talking about their mothers, somehow everyone having a little to complain about 

“what ‘bout you, y/n? you have nothing to remark about your mom like our little crybabies here?” daichi looked at you

everyone whined at that,, “we’re not babies!!”

you tensed up at the question before relaxing and smiling 

“nope! my mom is perfect.” you giggled

“woah, i wish!! you need to introduce me to your mom, y/n!!” 

noya was very invested in your mom being perfect, lol

you see

kageyama here is very observant, whether it be on the court or just, well, people in general

he saw you tense up for that split-second, not pressing it further 

he knows you most likely aren’t ready to talk about it 

now that he thinks about it, you never talk about your family

he’d love to know but he understands that you’ll come to him when you’re ready to tell him and he doesn’t want to make you uncomfortable by nagging you about it

“i’ll introduce you to her, noya” you giggled

his face lit up and he nodded before the topic changed again and you could now also speak to them about how annoying and hard math class is

fr tho i hate math 

after they were done eating no one could move anymore, let alone practice

hinata tried

keyword tried 

he threw up....

no one else even wanted to practice after that - opting to clean up and end practice for today instead

“kageyama, ill head out a bit early today, i’ve got some stuff to do” you said

you startled the shit out of him because he was just bringing the last volleyball to the cart

“HO- oh.” he stopped himself from screaming and turned to you 

“alright, just take care..” he mumbled, ruffling your hair which made you whine and fix it 

you hate when he does that 

he thinks your reaction is adorable

you scoffed and pulled him down to your height to plant a little kiss on his cheek 

he blushed, pda isnt for him

you loved his soft side so much 

nonetheless he smiled at you and straightened up again 

“call me if anything happens” he cleared his throat 

baby was a little awkward with stuff like this 

you didn’t mind though

you nodded and smiled “will do!”

and off you were lol 

hinata then popped up infront of kageyama 

“what’d you do to her!?!?!?! she never leaves early!!!!!!!”

kageyama pushed him away by the head 

“she just has stuff to do, shut up.”

“hey, mom..” you smiled lightly as you sat down 

“nishinoya is really looking forward to meeting you! the whole team asked about you today.. today was an ok day, i was pretty distracted all day so i didn’t have the time to feel sad again.”

...

you sighed

“but, you know, it’s been getting harder lately. it seems that getting out of bed to get to school is getting harder.. i love making everyone happy, but it’s hard being the provider and never getting something in return. sometimes, when things get hard, i just want to drop everything. i want to stop acting so bubbly and happy, but i know you wouldn’t want me to lose my smile.”

you stood up 

“i’ll get going then, i love you.”

you placed the flowers down on the grave before you, staring down at it with a sad smile before making your way home, yet again 

the next day you showed up to school as you usually did, taking your seat next to kageyama after greeting him like usual 

you were having a conversation with hinata

it was too early for kageyama to speak 

everyone was confused when you didn’t show up to practice that day

kags(｡◝‿◜｡) , 2:47pm: are you not coming to practice?

y/n, 2:49pm: no baby, i’m sorry :( i really can’t tODAY, im so upset over it 

kags(｡◝‿◜｡), 2:50pm: did something happen?

kags(｡◝‿◜｡), 2:53pm: y/n?

y/n, 3.26pm: nope, i just have some stuff to do at home  (╥﹏╥)

the next day you showed up like usual again, this time attending practice too

just like that the days seemed to go by in a blur for you 

day by day you felt yourself breaking more 

day by day the scars on your hips multiplied 

and day by day it got a little harder to make the room light up when you stepped inside 

it was after practice and it was only you, nishinoya and kageyama left 

“hey, y/n, can i finally meet your mom today??”

he was pressing around so much about it 

you smiled and shrugged,

“sure, i bet she doesn’t mind a visit”

“can i come too?” kageyama asked timidly and you nodded 

“of course.. it’s about time.” you smiled 

your eyes were a little glassy 

he frowned

nishinoya was too busy getting excited over meeting the first ever perfect mother to notice and he began dragging you out “let’s go then!”

he was pulling you to the direction of your place before you abruptly stopped

“ah-ah, i didn’t say i still live with her, did I?”

you had both boys confused now and you started walking into the right direction

you intertwined your fingers with kageyama’s

he squeezed your hand a little 

he knew you needed a little support 

only did he not expect you to lead them to the cemetery

nishinoya’s smile dropped when you actually entered the cemetery 

he saw it but he expected you to walk past 

you stopped in front of your mothers grave 

“there she is.” you let out a sigh 

kageyama felt his heart drop 

“wait, y/n, i’m so sorry for pressing this so mu-”

kageyama pulled you in a tight hug, shaking his head at the boy, who now went quiet 

he felt so horrible

you were trying so hard to hold your tears back, looking at noya

“don’t worry, you didn’t know.” 

you still smiled at him 

kageyama then spoke 

“it’s best if you go home, don’t you think?”

he didn’t even sound angry at this point 

nishinoya nodded and left 

he really felt so bad 

you couldn’t hold back and broke out in tears after

this was the first time you cried in front of your boyfriend 

he didn’t expect it to hurt this much 

hearing your little sobs break through you 

he could feel his own heart breaking as he tightened the hug 

neither of you said anything

he just let you cry into his chest 

he didn’t need to tell you he was there for you with words

he told you through gently patting your back as you cried

he told you through not judging you when you cried like this 

even when it started raining and the rain was slowly seeping through both of your clothes he didnt loosen his grip on you 

he let you finish crying 

however long it took 

and when you finally looked up at him, only the moon’s light illuminating your face, he felt his heart break, again, at the sight of your puffy eyes and red nose

he wanted to protect you from all bad things, forever.

“gosh, i’m sorry, it took me so long to stop crying..” 

he shook his head and pecked your forehead quickly “no. you didn’t.”

“..is this why you always avoided talking about your mother?”

you nodded, looking down at her grave, the flowers you placed there two days ago already droopy

you then looked up at him again 

“thank you, for.. supporting me..”

nishinoya apologised about 27 times when he saw you 

you kept reassuring him that it was alright but he felt so bad 

he felt so bad he couldn’t even properly play that day 

daichi sent him home early

“come back when you dont have two left legs!!!”

practice ended soon after that anyway 

you sat on a bench, filling out the last bits of your homework so you didnt have to do it at home, not even noticing that it was just you and kageyama left until he called out to you 

“hey, y/n, mind throwing me some balls? i’m not tired yet and i want to keep practicing”

you happily helped

you admired his determination to get better daily

it was refreshing, seeing him so passionate about volleyball 

how couldn’t you help when he asked like that

that’s how he was now practicing as you were talking 

“can you come over tonight?”

you furrowed your brows

“but it’s a school night?”

he shrugged “i don’t care. you haven’t been at my place for three entire weeks! i only see you at school, i miss you.” he was honest

he really missed you and he wanted to know what was up with your lame excuses every time he asked 

you then nodded 

“alright then, i’ll come.”

whilst he was busy drinking water you tried ‘passing’ the ball (at which you horribly failed)

“look, i’m a better setter than you!”

he chased you down lol 

you took him by surprise when he finally caught you, grabbing onto your hips, followed by a loud intake of breath and a wince from you

fuck

well

he obviously immediately let go

“y/n. what’s wrong?”

you sighed and turned towards him

“um.. i.. hit my hip earlier today..?” you trailed off and he immediately knew that you were lying 

honestly, he kind of had an idea of what it was 

he just didn’t want to think of that possibility

he might be a bit slow, but he’s not stupid 

he has a slight idea why you haven’t been coming over

he notices how the circles under your eyes have gotten darker 

he notices how you sleep in classes, which is something you never do 

and he’s so, so worried 

but he’s scared to approach you 

he’s scared to confirm his worst fears 

he shook his head at you “don’t lie.”

you sighed softly “kageyama, it’s nothing.”

you avoided his gaze and he shook his head again, now unable to hold back from speaking 

“no, y/n. you’re not okay, i know you’re not. i know that you struggle every day and i know you don’t like speaking about it, but i just can’t keep watching you suffer in silence, i do give you your space, but not when it truly concerns your well-being to the point i cant touch you or see you as often as i’d like to!” 

he stopped and took a deep breath, shaking his head 

“let’s go home first, i want to talk about this in a place i can do more for you.”

you were speechless

you never had expected him to notice anything, let alone speak up about it 

you were so lost in thought you let him drag you to his room quietly 

you snapped back to reality when he was unlocking his door, walking inside when it was open - you following 

you sat on his bed, still not knowing what to say

how the tables turn, usually its kageyama being the quiet one and you being the one to fill the silence with unnecessary babbling lol 

he looked at you, uncertainty swimming in his eyes

“can i see?”

you immediately knew what he was talking about, looking down 

you pondered over it a little before nodding

he crouched down before you, looking up at you 

“you know you can trust me, right?”

you furrowed your brows “of course”

“you don’t need to hide your feelings from me, baby, i love you through all of your emotional states, i love seeing you happy but i like comforting you when you feel sad too, you mustn’t hide your feelings.”

your eyes filled with tears at that one sentence

i love you through all of your emotional states

“thank you..” you sniffled

“i mean it. it hurts me when you hide it, it makes me feel so helpless, i don’t want to watch you crumble before my eyes, please, talk to me..”

“i just feel so hopeless, kags.. my heart feels so dull lately.”

you finally let in

“it feels like every single day repeats itself and all of my responsibilities are so hard to fulfill..it’s so hard turning up to school, bringing positive energy with me when all i feel is my sadness taking over my entire self bit by bit.”

he was listening, now sat on the floor before you, chin resting on your knee as you spoke

“but you’re not responsible for anyone’s happiness except yours. i don’t like when you prioritise others before yourself, y/n.. i don’t say it often but you’re truly so important to me and i don’t want you to lose yourself only because you try to make others happy.. it isn’t worth it, we love you for you, i can assure you, no one from our group would judge you for feeling down, we all have bad days, gosh, we all have bad weeks or even months! hiding these feelings will only worsen your pain and lead you to.. do irrational things..” he said, fingertips tracing over your hip gently

“let me see first and then we’ll talk about how we’re fixing this, ok?”

you sniffled and nodded, letting him pull the side of your pants down enough to reveal to him what he feared most 

seeing the cuts scattered on your skin broke him, truly.

he gulped and stood up, leaving to get you a pair of his shorts

“put these on, this way i can tend to them better.” he said, wanting to clean it up first before telling you his thoughts about it 

you nodded and changed into the shorts, him trying not to break down there and then as he left to get some stuff

when he came back you were patiently waiting for him and let him clean the cuts with some alcohol (not without complaining at the stings) before he bandaged them up as best as he could

he then laid down and pulled you with him, hugging you

“oh my precious y/n..” he mumbled

he was hugging your head to his chest to hide the fact that he was tearing up 

he wanted to help you so bad but he knew exactly that he couldn’t just end your suffering and it hurt him 

“but why? why do you do that to yourself?”

his voice cracked when he asked and you looked up, realisation hitting you 

you hurt him so bad by doing this.

the person you loved and cherished most 

“it felt like the only escape”

he caressed the top of your head

“pressuring you into stopping won’t help and isn’t worth it, but please, when you feel like.. doing that, call me instead. i’ll be at your place in no time and- even if you don’t want to talk i can just hug you and keep you company-”

you cut him off by pressing your lips against his

“i will, baby. i’ll call you whenever i feel down from now on”

he nodded “thank you”

he was thanking you as if he wasn’t the one helping you right now

you now hugged him back, “i’m sorry for not saying earlier..”

he hummed “lets just lay here. you’ll get better, i promise.”

he kept his promise

ever since that day, he’s been calling you morning and night, making sure you felt good waking up and going to bed 

he often called you through entire nights

he made you slowly start to understand that your purpose wasn’t to make anyone happy but yourself

he made you realise you were more than a mere person that’s always happy

and he made you understand that showing your feelings wasnt something to be embarrassed about 

(the entire team was very supportive too when they found out you were struggling! kageyama didn’t explain the details though)

so yep.

you had kageyama and a bunch of friends that were supporting you 

and for the first time, you felt hopeful for the future, your mother watching over you proudly after years of struggling and even having to move schools for a fresh start

she could now rest easily, knowing your guardian angel found his way to you and won’t ever leave you.

a/n: YALL I MADE MYSELF EMO WITH THIS ONE:( i hope you enjoyed it & please leave comments about it!