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you're like a celebrity to me. Is that weird? I put you on the same pedestal that actors and CEOs and stuff other people are put on. Am I normal? Am I normal, Spacie? I hope I'm not
AHAHAHAHHA??? im flattered! i dont think its weird per say, but i am definitely NOT famous. dont put me on that pedestal brah im literally like. just some guy shitting around on tumblr.com/dashboard
#spacie splains#i dont mind if people look up 2 me im just saying its a bad idea#i cant really uhhh change other peoples thoughts and or opinions of me but im wary of fame#i dont want people fawning over me. im not that interesting LMAO#also when you get too famous ppl stop viewing you as a person and moreso as an object and uh-#kind of dont want that. i am just some guy fr#on tumblr its different depending on what you get famous for. people here are a bit more down 2 earth than they are in other places#but still#you're not normal buddy anyone who follows me is . not normal at all.#well#sometimes normal people follow me 2 experience my level of crazy i wont deny#but your name has autism in it im willing 2 bet you've. got a bit of weirdness in ya
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back to thinking about quitting
#but for like. slightly more legitimate reasons this time#on one hand its like. sometimes my coworkers act like five year olds and fuck around and yell at each othet#customers csn see and hear us also just knock it the fuck off please just do your job if you’re going to be in the job area#other hand? fucking hate my new manager. why are you. as someone NEW TO THIS STORE AND ITS EMPLOYEES#why are you being passive aggressive when nothing is fucking wrong#rancid vibes like hes a decent dude but as a manager i am blowing you up with my mind#my first shift FIRST SHIFT working with him was the first time i nearly cried at work because of a coworker#ive heard he thinks people need to ‘earn their hours’ as in earn being scheduled and????? you’re the newest guy here number 1#number 2 what the FUCK are you on about genuinely that is DERANGED. we’re a fucking food store why do you think the fuckin#majority high schoolers i work with need to earn the right to work at a store that is usually busy. are you stupid#i need to look into other jobs at this rate bc if he’s as bad as he makes me feel i need to jump ship#earn hours the fuck are you talking abt. ive been here a year tf you mean i need to earn my hours.#no one should have to EARN being scheduled to work esp in this fuckin us economy. fuck off man i work for min wage#if you start giving me less hours for dumbass arbitrary reasons im out. i dont like work but i don’t mind it i want to work#is that weird???? a manager saying people will earn their hours??? that he halfway threatened a guy with less hours bc he was sitting
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i need to fuckign explode
#i need to talk tohim i need to talk to him i need to talk to him i need to tlak to him but i caaaaaaaaaaaaaaant bc im too scared of that lol#it was on my mind two months ago it was on my mind a month ago and its on my mind now and it is driving me insane#bjt k dont want to say what it is because thats a can of worms of potential for people to Know i dont want#so glad the guy in question is locked out of tumblr and the other guy involved barely looks at tumblr#only fucking place i can get this thought out even vaguely#i need to talk to both of them bt i cant because i feel like i will die trying to. heart attack on the spot#as much as i dont want him to i hope he gets a notif for this and asks me sbout it#even though theres no way hed knownim specificslly talking abt him#bc at leas that way it spares me the fucking nightmare kf bringing it up to someone#and its like. objectively not s problem#if i just used my words and talked it out it would be done so fast.but the problem is even though i talk to both of them so much#the thought of talking to them abt this specific thing scares me so bad that#i think if i sent a text about it i would close discord snd not open it for 2 years#sighghhggggghhghgghhhggh ive been rlly good abt not venting on tumblr lately bc i didnt like doing it in the first plsce but#there is literally nowhere else for me to complain about this in a spacethat i am comfortable complaining sbt it in#that does not include one of the affected guys#lycan howls
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#also god bless my friend who pointed out that im moving up and im going to be in a salon soon and will actually be doing something good with#my life vs the friend who did me this way pretending shes still in high school that freaks out and loses all her friends every 6 months#i wish it didnt bother me. and i know in 2 months im going to have brushed it off and move on like i always do when bad shit happens#but for the wound being fresh this shit just fucking sucks i hate it i hate it i hate it#i made a very very very vague post on reddit just asking for advice#and the more popular reply was someone more on my side who basically said i should tell her to go fuck herself pretty much#and the second one was someone who v obviously did not actually read the post who said it was all fluff and basically defended her even#when in my post i am saying i defended myself while still listening to the shit she says#and i fucking hate reddit bc people are so.....quick to be hateful and judge#and i knew to expect people being hateful but god DAMN like you yourself are basically saying theres not enough info (yes there was) and you#still are quicker to assume im in the wrong#meanwhile everyone who knows her is like bitch we told you to not forgive her last time and now look where you are#and i am not a perfect person i have flaws the same way everyone else does. literally everyone has said and done shit they regret#and i have fucked her over before because she lost her fucking mind on a campus manager and an educator and she told me to find my own ride#home because i didnt defend her losing her shit and screaming at everyone and ended up having to write an incident report (so did the other#girls who watched it happen so nOT just me) anyways now she uses that as an excuse for treating me like fucking trash because she finally#found out about the god damn incident report which made it so now anyone can say i said anything and she just believes it#its such a fucking joke to me because like ????? girl if we were in opposite positions you would have filled out the fuckin report too#granted it was a handwritten letter and not a report but it was basically the exact same thing as an incident report#my bad that a year ago i wrote a letter saying i was scared you know where i live and that youre mentally unstable. funny how a year later i#feel the same way all over again! except i dont because im not scared of her anymore shes a fucking theater kid who needs to get a grip#i cant wait to look at my self tag again in 2 years and be like DAMN REMEMBER WHEN THAT HAPPENED#every single person who knows her that isnt friends with her (i am basically refusing to text her friends bc i dont even want to know)#keeps telling me i didnt do anything wrong and ive given her too many chances and she fucks me each time#i just wish she would go get help bro there is something so wrong with her#self
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i really try to understand why my fellow progressives are so avoidant of actually introspecting on why they think its still cool to bully. im sorry but thats just an inherently conservative thing to want to do.
#ive had to actually introspect about it. i was never really a bully fr but i did. like everyone else. have judgemental thoughts about ppl#still. and i really had to ask myself. why does it matter that EYE judge this person? 1. im holding my own opinion of this other random#person i probably dont know as being the most important opinion when its like. who tf am i. 2. wtf did this person MORALLY do wrong#to deserve me internally insulting them for how they look or dress or whatever. and even if its someone whos a conservative.#how does me judging that person make the entire situation better at all? it really only just. makes me feel better about the lack of#power i have over that person to not be a dipshit. thats really it#insulting them isnt going to change their mind and LIKE IVE SAID A MILLION TIMES will ONLY make them dig their heels in more#im not saying go up to your local rwinger and give them a hug and validate them or whatever tf. thats not your job. all im asking is simply#shut your brain the entire fuck up when it wants to judge someone for something that they cant control or is morally neutral#charlie kirk having a small face is morally neutral. his politics? not so much! attack that. at least.#(not that the memes aren't funny- but we cant fool ourselves into thinking bullying him is gonna change him or his fans)#i just wanna know why you think your opinion on how someone looks or dresses or whatever is that important is all#the best motto anyone can adopt really is 'MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS' ffs#your opinion on their appearance really doesnt matter like at all! instead of feeling the urge to have an opinion on the way they look#simply let some things ~be~. have 0 opinion about how they look or if theyre weird and awkward. focus on the shit that ACTUALLY matters#you dont always have to sort things in boxes of 'good' and 'bad'. some things can just exist without you labeling them.#and also why do you NEED to label everything and who are you and why do you think your label is important enough to vocalize?#anyways.#and im not gonna act like ive been perfect about this but this is work that we're always gonna hafta do so long as we live in a#susciety that places value on other people and labels them on whether or not theyre good enough for whatever thing#competition outside of friendly sportsball will always be bad change my mind#if the sportsball gets to be unfriendly and too intense to the point that you hate someone you need to fuckin chill and leave the event#lmao. like you've gotta go and take a shower and think for a bit instead of continuing to funnel your rage into ppl who dont deserve it :|#i wanna be clear tho i dont think theres anything morally wrong w making fun of charlie kirk for how he looks. just recognize the reason ur#doing it. bc ur not doing it bc ur someone crusading against misinfo or whatever ur doing it bc u dont know how to convince#him to stop and are throwing spaghetti at the wall
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WANNA START WONYOUNGISM?
STOP SEEKING APPROVAL You guys will be like "I wanna be confident" "How do I become confident" You'll watch countless videos and then repeat the same bad habits. You realize in order to be confident you have to actually be confident in more than just your appearance? Like your thoughts and ideas count too. STOP. SEEKING. APPROVAL. FROM. OTHERS. VALIDATE YOURSELF. "I wonder if they'll like this" STOP. "do you think this looks good on me?" STOP. ALSO not to mention oversharing about your personal life and EXPECTING VALIDATION once again STOP. Also!! Stop wanting, craving, looking for validation from MEN. HECK NO GET THAT OUTTA HERE. "I feel like I never get compliments from guys". Seriously. Compliment yourself. I don't care if it sound dumb. DO IT. its going to help you strip your mind from this messed up mentality of "do they like this" "do I look good enough" "WILL THEY LIKE ME?" NO.
2. IDGAF MINDSET STOP CARING. If your friend comes up to u and says "hey so recently blah blah has been talking about you." INSTEAD OF BEING LIKE "OMG! NOOO what she Say???" just say "ok". dont ask ab what she said. it dosent matter. Your life revolves around you and you only. Also when I say Idgaf mentality dont take this to the extreme and like self sabotage yourself. For instance being like "I have 3 days worth of homework but im gonna go to the movie theater because IDGAF"…. yeah, don't do that. Anyways know this, didn't really talk about how to specifically create a idgaf mindset I can make another post on it for you guys.
3. TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF
Take care of yourself ml 💝
create your ideal morning routine (i can make a post on how ) (not necessary) But If you can by some new soaps or skincare to make you feel more motivated to use them (and it can make you bathroom cute ) Shower daily or every other day. make sure your nails and ears are always clean Eat healthy and drink water. Start a new hobby
Basically become as respectfully self centered as possible. Always focus on your goals and happiness. Make sure you’re always put together and clean. Trust me the results are rewarding and you will feel amazing about yourself. Also this takes time and consistency. Adapt these good habits and stick with them. When you feel good physically your confidence instantly increase!
4. LEARN TO SAY NO
Let me say this one time you guys, if you dont wanna do something.. then DON’T. If you don’t want to go somewhere with your ‘friends’ then stay home. If someone is trying to make you do something you don’t want to do, say no. if you can’t give yourself that then how will you ever be confident?
Saying no to people can be very beneficial as it will prove to others that you aren’t a people pleaser. (reminder! it’s not about others) more people will start to respect you and will not take advantage of you.
If the person gets upset because you said no, they weren’t worth it anyway.
#becoming that girl#advice#girl blogging#it girl#it girl energy#mindset#that girl#wonyoungism#glow up#law of attraction#divine feminine#wonyoung
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They React To You Being Asexual
Dean, Sam, Castiel, Crowley, Rowena, Lucifer
(this is going to be a thing that I do regularly so request)
Dean Winchester
The both of you have been dating for almost a month now. You weren't oblivious to the fact that Dean was a very touchy guy. He would go to bars and pick up women all the time before you came around. Maybe that's why you had a pit in your stomach. You go to dean who was in the main room of the bunker and ask dean if you could talk to him in private.
He gets up and walks into your guys's room. "what's going on. Something happen?" he asks and you shake your head. "no not yet. Uh I just thought I should tell you something" He sits down on the bed and looks at you. :alright what's going on?" you take a deep breath in and speak all in one breath "Im asexual. I know that you like sex which is not a fault but I just know i'm not going to be able to give that to you"
He asks you to explain it to him and when you do he nods and its quiet for a moment before he speaks. "babe this isn't going to change anything between us. You don't want sex. that's fine i can take care of myself if i need to. Don't feel bad" when you sit beside him hs places his hand on your thigh and you rest your head on his shoulder.
Sam winchester
Your boyfriend was sitting on the bed reading when you entered the room. He looked so nice in the sweatshirt and sweatpants he was wearing. You were taking a moment to think about how you wanted to tell him that you were asexual.
Sam had never once made you feel as if you had to do anything you didn't want to do. If anything he was always cautious for first moves. your first kiss he leaned in slowly, making you close the gap. He also never really asked or initiated for the both of you to go any further beyond just kissing and cuddling. You had a feeling he knew which made you less nervous. "whets going on in that head of yours" he asks as he looks over at you.
You sit onto the bed beside him. "there's something I need to tell you" he puts his book down to give you his full attention before nodding. You take a breath before saying calmly "i'm asexual. I don't ever want to have sex with you. I should have told you sooner and i'm so sorry I didnt i was just waiting for the right time an-" You stop speaking because sam has placed both of his hands on the sides of your face and kisses your lips. "its okay honey, I have had a feeling that you might be and I still love you either way. Plus i have a lower sex drive than most people so you dont have to worry with me okay?" You nod and you cuddle up against him as he reads a little while longer.
Castiel
You were sitting on your bed just thinking about how you were to tell your boyfriend that you were asexual. Your boyfriend had never really said anything about wanting sex or anything like that but it still made you nervous. You knew Castiel wouldn't break up with you because of it. So once you calmed yourself down a bit you prayed for him. "castiel I need to speak with you"
Wasnt even 2 minutes later and hes standing in front of you. "Theres something on your mind?" he asks and you nod. "yes there is. I just needed to tell you that if we are going to continue our relationship..there will be no sexual acts. Kissing and everything is fine but just not sex."
He looks at you for a moment before he takes your hand in his "That is perfectly fine. Angels dont need to have sex." you lean in and kiss his cheek and hug him
Crowley
Crowley had been in one of his moods today. Your boyfriend was a very moody person. One thing could piss him off so because of this you were not looking forward to telling him about the fact that you are asexual. In fact you were thinking about not telling him. Not for a while anyways.
However when he walked into the room he could see the way you didnt come up to him to welcome him back like you always did. So he crossed his arms and looked at you. "what" you asked as you looked up at him. "What is going on? You arent acting normal" this caused you to roll your eyes at him. "when have I ever been normal" he shrugs but doesn't say anything else which makes you sigh.
You laid down onto the big bed you two shared. "Crowley I am asexual. That's why I haven't made a move to do anything more than kissing" He uncrossed his arms and lays down beside you. "really that's what's got you so weird?" nodding in response he rolls his eyes. "I'm a demon and have lived much longer than you have. You being asexual is the least of my problems. I want to be with you either way"
Rowena
Rowena was doing some of her witchy stuff looking beautiful while she focused. You knew you shouldn't interrupt her but this was eating you alive. Your friends had been talking about their partners and how they were great in bed and everything else. You loved your friends of course but its started to eat away at you. That you couldnt and wouldnt give that to Rowena.
She was a woman and many women want that part of the relationship. That kind if intimacy and you were feeling awful about it. Rowena deserved an explanation so before you could talk yourself out of it you walked up to the table and took a seat. "Rowena Love" She looked up at you and when she noticed how you looked she stopped what she was doing. "what's wrong dear"
You let out a long sigh before explaining to her about what you and your friends were talking about and then you pause for a moment before speaking again. "I know that you probably want that and I cant give it to you. How could you possibly be happy like this" She places both her hands on the sides of your cheeks and kisses your forehead then your lips. "I am happy with you. There has not been a moment where I doubted us or my feelings for you. You are the one that I want to be with for the rest of our time here" She pulls you into a soft hug
Lucifer
You had just walked back into your home and Your partner was sitting on his chair that he had claimed as like his "throne". He had been talking to a few other demons that worked for him and so you tried to walk quickly past them but he made you stop. "where do you think your going?" he wasn't angry he was just confused because you usually greet him when you come back home. You look at him "i'm going to our bedroom"
He could tell by the tone of your voice and your body language that something was wrong. So he quickly made the demons leave before turning to look back at you. "come here" you walked closer to him and he looked at you sitting up more on his chair. "what happened while you were out?" He was very protective over you and it was written all over his face. You knew he was going to find out anyways so you begin to tell him.
You tell him about how your friends were asking about how you and your boyfriend was. Asking how the sex is going etc etc. Lucifer nodded and was actually letting you finish speaking. "when I told them that. We don't have sex because i'm asexual they started judging me and everything." He almost speaks up but you cut him off "why do you stay with me. Lucifer I know that you have had many demons and even other angels in your bed before. Why stay with the one who cant give you what you need"
Lucifer looks at you as if you just said something in a language he didn't understand. He uses his power to bring you closer to him and then he stops and holds his arms out for you. Silently telling you to sit with him and so you do. You sit on his lap and rest your head on his shoulder. "I may have had others share a bed with me. But none of them have had such a emotional hold on me before. You are the one that i fell in love with. Don't ever doubt me or my feelings towards you." he says the last part with such a serious tone and all you can do is nod and let him hold you.
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Twin au /e!42 Miles and e!1610 Miles
Warnings: reader is female & mentions of like fighting
inspo from: @moodysunflowerbaby
GO READ WHAT THEY MAKE BC WOOOWEEE I CANT STOP GIGGLING!
I AM SOOOO EASILY INFLUENCED I CANTTT
How did you meet?
middle school you have classes with the both of them but 42 neverrr shows up. So when he does and 1610 doesnt, youre going crasy!
“ hey miles! you got the braids you have been talking about done? I like em’ on you; suit your face well.”
he just looks at you sideways ”nah im not miles im Mylo, Miles is my identical twin”
you sit there mouth open “ but you look exactly the same its crazy!” he gives you a look like youre dumb ” yea… identical twins.”
after that you would bother them about twin stuff like crazyyy
“ ok miles whats he thinking?” “ getting new shoes” you look at Mylo “REALLY?” “No” they say in unison.
“ wait if you are the same then do you share everything?” you say out of pure curiosity. Mylo looks at you with the most annoyed fave he could muster” no i don’t let his musty self touch my stuff” miles looks at him “ we doin this here?” “ ill do it wherever hermano”
dating one while being friends with the other (42)
you spend a lot of times in your room bc if you try to leave rio makes you take Mikes with you HAHAHA
“ooo that sounds fun! take your brother” shes says walking away “ on second thought we just gonna stay here” Mylo says walking you back to his room.
MILES NEVER KNOCKS!!
You guys dont do anything you wouldnt do in front of his mom but when Miles walks in asking for shoes or jewelry Mylo still gets annoyed.
“ tomorrow night we should go to the mall and then get dinner at-“
“Hey can i borrow some dunks?”
“ hey can you take yourself out of MY room before I remove YOU myself? What I tell you bout nocking?”
“ my bad” he says walking out
(1610)
Mylo pays like 0 mind but it still shocks him that he can pull yk? Not that Mylo likes you but how can his little brother that 0 shocking things about him get a girl?? just shocking.
“ you know what I think bout?”
“hm”
“ that you got a girl acting and looking like that”
“ nigga what? WE LOOK THE SAME”
Miles is so annoying about having a gf i cant
“ Mylo, yk what i got that you don’t have?”
“what”
“ A GIRLFRIEND” ( insert crazy ugly laugh)
GAURD. DOGS.
I AM SCREAMING
Imagine like guys dont like you and its a dumb reason like you rejected them and people dont know yall are frinds so they talk MAD SMACK about you and Miles and Mylo they egg egg them on to beat you up at a said location but they show up instead and get put on a hospital bed HAHA
^ do as you wish with that but if u use it LMK I GOTTA READ IT
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hot, hotter, hottest
part 2 of this ! i actually fucking hate this but some people asked for a part two so I feel like i should post it anyways lol
super long and boring and no p in v happens plus the writing is just bad cause i was stoned to get thru it lmaooo
sorry guys ive never written smut before 🥲🥲send some smut requests so i can practice!!
“im gonna close the door”
you’re giddy, practically tripping over your own feet on the short walk to his bedroom door. you take a deep breath, your hand resting on the cheap flimsy wood. you hope to ground yourself so you can really remember this. whatever this is gonna be.
he’s trying to calm himself too, his hands running up and down his thighs, trying to focus his hands on the denim of his jeans. he leans back against his bed -still sitting on the floor- takes a deep breath, and watches you come back to him.
he adores your smile everyday, but even moreso now that theres a coy tilt of your neck, tilting your chin inward.
you’re not sure how to re-initiate a hot-and-heavy makeout session. you feel awkward and nervous but the way hes looking at you certainly helps. plus, its making you feel hot.
youre still standing while his face is at about waist level. youve been in this position before but this time hes not hiding how it makes him feel. hes looking up at you with a hungry, downright devilish look in his eyes. his hands come up your thighs, rubbing up and down the soft fabric of your pajama pants and stopping at your hips.
“i love you too, y’know”
his big brown eyes stare up into yours, crawling up into your brain and consuming your thoughts entirely. he wants, no, needs you to know he means it.
you run your hands through his hair, petting him like you’ve been dating forever. there are a million things your mind tells you to say, but you cant articulate anything, too caught up in the excitement of this moment.
you crawl onto the bed behind him. he follows you, laying on his stomach looking at you while you get comfortable (as comfortable as you can with the way your heart is pounding and youre in a cold sweat) with your arms wrapped around your knees, holding them close for comfort.
something he always liked about you is your cute little self-soothing behaviours. the way you try so hard to be present in every moment, to not miss a thing.
“you ok?” he touches your shin softly, rubbing on it comfortingly and then sliding his hand down to wrap around your ankle. hes always touchy like this, tries his best to make you feel loved and safe while also using it as an excuse to touch and love on you.
“yeah.. im fine, eds.” you smile, but it doesnt reach your ears. he frowns, in a overdramatic cartoony ‘i know youre lying’ kind of way. silly as he is.
“im just..” you sigh “i dunno.. i guess ive wanted this so long. dreamed about it, yanno?”
hes blushing, suddenly bashful.
“yeah, i know baby.. me too.” he doesnt want to admit to all the times hes thought about how you’d sound, how you’d feel under him, how you’d taste and what you’d be into. doesnt want to confess to touching himself staring at a model pretending its you, or imagining it was your hand wrapped around his cock. so all he says is me too.
“i just- what if.. what if im not good? what if i cant.” you struggle to say the words out loud
“what if i cant make you.. f-feel good and you change your mind?” your eyes bore into his, wide and shining with passion
his mouth feels dry as he stares back with an awestruck expression. he cant imagine a world where you’d be naked in front of him, and he’d do anything but worship you.
“baby..” he sits up, looking you in your eyes
“i- i dont want you for that, i love you.” he caresses your face, pinching your cheek lightly.
“I dont care about that stuff, y’know? and.. you know, im not-“ he laughs nervously
“Im not that.. well versed.” he clears his throat
your eyes widen “you mean..” you cant believe hes a virgin, looking like that?? being as sweet and charming and fucking sexy as him??
“N-no!! I mean ive had.. experiences, but.” hes all stuttery and nervous, you find it incredibly endearing. “I dont think they liked me all that much.. it was just embarrassing, honestly.”
you dont know what to say. you feel bad, but you dont think a pitied tone would really help him. you think it might emasculate him or whatever..
“Oh..” your eyes flicker between his lips and making eye contact. its selfish, but you enjoy the idea of being his first nice experience.. “come here.”
you open your knees so he can crawl between them, slotting himself there nice and snug as you grab his face and pull him in.
your eyes are already closed, mouth slightly open when his lips hit yours, and in seconds, its tongues clashing fighting for dominance as you both make quiet noises of pleasure
his hands move down, one on your hip holding you possesively, the other grazing your chest, timid. you grab his wrist and force his hand down, giving him complete permission, almost begging him.
his large hand squeezes gently, he groans immediately at the soft squish of your clothed boob.
he pulls back just to groan “fuck” and “you have no idea how long ive wanted to touch your pretty tits”
you giggle at his boyish slang, it makes you feel dirty but in a good way, like a teenage fantasy.
(and you were his, so…)
you tug at his shirt, staring up at him with doe eyes, looking innocent despite the way your thighs are already squeezing him. he smirks and wastes no time in ripping his lazy band tee off.
your breath shudders, eyes taking his lean torso in. you’ve seen him shirtless plenty of times - and yes of course you noticed when he suddenly had abs and a slender v line running down into his pants- but seeing him like this, his chest heaving in big adrenaline filled breaths, leaning over you with a nasty look in his eyes… it was almost too much
“like what you see?” he teases, ego beaming at the way you falter, eyes stuck drinking him in.
“so much.” your fingertips softly run up his abs, following up to grab the back of his neck to pull him in yet again, you just cant get enough of this thing youve been yearning for so long.
he chuckles against your lips, then gently takes your bottom lip between his teeth and pulls ever-so-gently.
you whine much to his delight, sounding absolutely wrecked and pathetic.
your hands roam around his neck, running up his head to get a nice handful of hair, pulling at it while he swipes his tongue across your teeth and you giggle
“you are a freak” you giggle and pull his head back, exposing that pretty neck of his
he groans, and almost whimpers and the sound is fucking delicious, goes directly between your thighs.
you latch onto his neck, sucking and nibbling gently, a touch of pain that you know he’ll like
and he does, blatantly, whining and sounding just as pathetic as you. (if not more)
he can feel you smirking against the wet skin you just defiled, and feels he needs to get some power back in this battle for dominance
he thumbs at the hem of your shirt
“can i take this off?” you crumble all over again at how sweet he is, how sweet you knew he’d be
“go for it, rockstar” you smile and he thinks you might be a siren sent to ruin his life
he pulls your cute fitted shirt up over your head and you thank the universe that you wore your good bra, the lilac one with the cute pattern sewn into it
he swallows, like a nervous cartoon and you fall even deeper for him
“h-holy shit” he mutters under his breath and you’re not sure if he even knows he did
“very romantic” you scoff, teasing him
“sorry, i mean.. holy shit”
you sit up, your knees in between his
“s’just a bra eds..” youre smiling in that way he almost never sees you smile and he thinks you enjoy tormenting him (you do, very much)
“wanna take it off?” you look up at him, innocent eyes right above the most sinfil smirk
he nods quickly, eyes wide to match his whole cartoon thing
he snakes his slender arms around you, and you feel his warm hands fumbling the clasp while his tongue sticks out in concentration
he looks entirely too nervous for your liking, getting more and more discouraged every second he cant get it off. he wants to be charming and smooth and sexy, not geeky and awkward and not able to take a fucking bra off
“s’okay baby” you kiss his cheek, your voice soft but stern
“no rush. you got it, try again” your encouraging words in that buttery sultry tone makes him wanna devote himself to you
he takes a deep breath and tries two more times, his eyes light up when he sees your straps fall down your arms
he bites his lips as a subconscious grounding technique as he pulls your bra down your arms and off your chest, he wants to remember every inch of you, just incase you change your mind and never wanna do this again
his lashes flutter the second your tits are exposed, his jaw going slack and you swear his eyes glaze over.
“God fucking damn, mama” his hands trail up your hips, the sides of your tummy, and tremble lightly as they feel you, finally
his eyes flicker to yours but he cant seem to maintain eye contact when your perfect tits are right in front of him, literally in his hands
in a total trance he follows his instincts on autopilot, leaning down to kiss his way to your nipple without even thinking
his kisses trail from the top of your chest down to the swell of your boob, his hand on your shoulder softly pushing you to lay on his pillows, propped up in the perfect position for him to lick and then latch his lips to your nipple, softly sucking
you gasp quietly, most guys just made out with you before sex, none have ever been interested in much foreplay - especially like this, his tongue circling your sensitive nipple, his hand squeezing your other boob and playing with that nipple too
your hands find his head quickly, running your fingers through his hair and gently massaging, making him moan the loudest yet
he’s practically slipping into sub space, completely entranced in the act of service while you pet his head like a good dog
he pulls off you with a *pop* , licking you a few more times for good measure before he’s looking up at you, completely wrecked
his hair is messy, face flushed, eyes lidded with heavy want, and his lips all bright pink
“will you please let me taste you?” his voice is lamblike, practically begging
your breath hitches as you continue gently scratching at his scalp
“o-okay” you’re entirely unsure, no one else had ever shown any interest in going down on you, too preoccupied with hitting and running without even asking if you got off, and the idea of him between your thighs like that is making you tremble
“thank you” he moans against your skin, kissing both tits, your tummy, above your fleecy pjs that cover your cunt
your eyelids flutter, the combination of his good manners and his face so close to your most sensitive and intimate place making you dizzy
his eyes meet yours, a giddy expression on his stupid face as he pulls your pjs down your hips but you stutter when he takes your panties between his fingers
“i-i..” he looks up at you with wide eyes
“do you not want me to? w-we dont have to..” he gently rubs your thigh
“n-i do, im just..” he smiles suddenly and you think its odd, but its just him reading you like a book as always
“no one’s ever done this before?” you blush and look down at your bare thighs, shaking your head
“look at me baby” you do. “thats a real shame. real fucking shame no ones ever kissed this pretty pussy” hes never seen your eyes this wide and it fuels his ego for this whole charming thing hes doing
“its gonna feel real good baby, what are you scared of?” hes direct but its clear in his face hes not judging you and you know he’d never pressure you into anything
“uh-i- uhm. just- just stop if its bad, ok?” you stop making eye contact
he cant think of a sophisticated and sweet thing to say so he opts for shutting you up
he adjusts his grip on your thighs and pulls you closer to him, his nose poking at your clothed clit
he smirks, absolutely giddy as he pulls your panties down gently, looking into your eyes for a second before he cant help staring as more of you is revealed
his entire demeanour changes once theyre off and you swear you hear him whisper some sort of prayer quietly
he wastes no time, his lips gently kissing your bare pussy trying to be as gentlemanly as he’d always fantasized but he cant help himself for more than a second before losing his composure and eating you like a madman
his tongue runs up and down your slit, exploring entirely for his own benefit, noting everything he feels in the folders of his memories. it licks up your cunt in a cupped position, scooping up the slick that was all all for him and savouring the taste of you in his mouth. he groans at the taste, then finally his tongue finds your clit and he knows its time to put all his time spent imagining this moment to use
he flicks up and down your knot of nerves, swirling his tongue around once, twice, three times while you whine before smothering your poor clit with his lips and sucking, causing you to practically wail, your hand flying to his hair as your mind fights between the urge to run away from the feeling and the urge to grind against his face
you cry his name as he pulls off with a satisfying pop, a sick smirk on his face as he licks his lips
“feel good?” he teases but youre beyond the point of embarrassment, entirely fucked out and in desperate need of orgasm. youve needed this far too long to be denied now
“god, yes, please, keep going” immediately he knows that you begging is the hottest thing he will ever hear.
his tongue licks up the seam of your pussy, circling around and around your clit while you keen, arching your back so you press into his face. he ventures his tongue down and up inside you, his nice big nose pressing into your clit deliciously. he’s absolutely ecstatic when you start grinding against him, soaking his face even more as his tongue squirms deeper inside you and his nose nudges your swollen clit.
“Fuck, eds! m-more, please!” he smiles at your manners even while he’s tongue-deep inside you, but obliges, moving up to overstimulate your clit while slowly pressing a finger into you. You whine, your back arching and walls clenching around his prodding finger. he quickly adds another finger, moving them gently but firmly pressing into your sweet spot deep inside you. his fingers being longer than yours slipped your mind until they were massaging your insides.
his tongue flicking and fingers fucking eventually drive you to a high pitched orgasm as your thighs close around his head, your body twitching and clenching around his fingers. he licks you softly and fucks you sweet as you cum for him
once your peak hits and your breathing slows to an exhausted pant he gently pulls his fingers out, licking them clean while making sick eye contact with you. he pulls your pjs & underwear back up for you while you catch your breath.
“..Do you want me to return the favour?” you ask timidly after regaining your composure. He laughs nervously and shakes his head, looking down at your bed
“No need, sugar, im taken care of.” he sits up, cringing as he feels his cum sticking to him and his pants, warm but slowly cooling. he refuses to unscrunch his eyes, anticipating laughing and teasing
“fuck thats so hot”
#eddie munson#eddie munson x reader#eddie munson x y/n#stranger things#eddie the freak munson#eddie munson x you#eddie munson blurb#stranger things fic#eddie munson stranger things#eddie munson x female reader
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venus if she was awesome
speedpaint and more thoughts under the cut
venus has always been one of my favorite characters, though i feel her design is pretty underwhelming with a lot of wasted potential. this is kind of a redesign, kind of my own personal headcannon, and kind of how i imagined venus in my head as a kid.
this is supposed to be my version of g1 venus, more similar in facial features and keeping the straight hair. i absolutely love her new hair and face in g3 but im hesitant to call the new outfit an improvement. both g1s outfit and g3s outfit are bad in their own ways. i dont want it to seem like im shitting on the new design. again i think the face sculpts, hair, and body types of g3 are so awesome. its great to see more diversity being included in the designs. i just decided to go with g1 venuses look because thats the venus i grew up with
i definitely took some inspiration from g3s outfit for this design. i like the idea of it but the execution is just not great, not to say her original outfit is any better. i feel like out of all of tge original monsters she was the one with the most waisted potential. i love her personality and the abilities she has but the way she was styled has always bothered me.
in the movies shes described as “eco-punk” which is SUCH a cool style to go with a plant monster character. i just feel like the “punk” in “eco-punk” was never really represented in her outfits. i personally love punk music and clothing; ive been an active member in my local diy scene for many years and i love seeing all the outfits people put together.
i thought i would give her an outfit that shows off a couple of my personal favorite staples of punk style. big chunky leather boots with lots of straps and buckles. kept the shoe mouths from the original because they cool as hell. lots of leather, studs, spikes. i gave her denim cutoff shorts inspired by her gen 3 outfit, same with the torn black top. punk style has a big focus on comfort, practicality, and making things yourself. i imagine she cut a pair of old pants into shorts, roughly cut her “undead kennedys”band shirt tank into a crop top, and probably repurposed the remaining fabric. i also totally didnt draw this whole thing as an excuse to use that pun. i included asymmetrical leg accessories, with one fishnet stocking and one torn up sock. i also feel like she repurposed these, continuing to wear her old torn up socks instead of just throwing them out. i gave her a big chunky studded belt matching one of her cuffs with a recycling symbol belt buckle. i feel like it communicates an important aspect of her personality just at a glance, plus i just love big belt buckles. lastly i added piercings because 1. theyre cool and 2. i for some reason remembered her having an eyebrow piercing but i guess she never had one.
i mostly kept her body and hair the same. changed her ears and hair color slightly but thats just personal preference. i decided to make the vines on her body look more like tattoos instead of being 3d. i imagine she can make them grow into real vines, but when shes not using her powers theyre just flat against her skin. gave her a facial expression that made her look a little more unhinged. she might only do things for the good of the earth but she can still mind control people at will.
i wish i leaned a little bit more into the plant theming but im overall still super happy with how this came out. maybe ill made more monster high redesigns in the future
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I can think of a lot of reasons why I like and have gotten attached to tsukasa more than any other fictional character and i think if i had to keep it simple (or else id be rambling for hours) id say
1. He’s so interesting. I usually pick up the extremely mischaracterized blonde characters anyways but he gets my brain working real hard. its almost 2am and i cant think straight but theres something about his duality that keeps me glued to him and the amount of Layers he has and how removing even one layer or completely ignoring how both his huge ego and kindness + selflessness coexist can really mess up your perception of him. There was something quite short i wrote about how both sides make him. Well. Him. back when his colofes dropped since i was so annoyed at the people Not getting it (while most never even read the STORIES 😁) anf ive been screaming this for a year now Please. Also the way his dream and being a good big brother go hand in hand have captured me. I really like fictional siblings and they fill something personal i miss and Looove looking at the roots of characters. Discovering where this and that and connecting events to what started their behaviors or helped their personality bloom. So seeing saki and toya play such an important role in his life keeps me HOOOKEDDD. I took the bait like tiny fish. Dont regret it. Never will. I like my fictional characters like layered cake. Thats basically how i see them. I had a yummy chocolate cake with so mant layers the other day 🤤 but anyways. I also really like when characters have to learn and grow as people after making really bad mistakes or being straight up assholes so it really took a while even after mainstory but once i got to see more of him with saki and read dazzling i was like. This is the guyyy. Youre mine now lets go. I dont like perfect characters but.. you see.. when characters who have (sometimes way too much) confidence and are dramatic yet are shown to truly be good people who enjoy making others happy… alright.. now im listening… Sign me up…
But really he has almost everything I’ve ever looked for in a character. Starting with the fact that he’s a theatre kid. And blonde. Of course emu nene and rui + more fictional characters have made their way into my heart and ive gotten attached to them on very Very personal levels but when it comes to this Idiot who wants to be a star and reminds me of a dog its something that i dont even know how to explain sometimes. Why is he here? What are you doing inside of my head. Ill never have one solid answer because he takes up too much space in my mind and i become incoherent too often when talking about him.
2. Ignoring my first answer, He is ugly. My favorite punching bag. Cartoon character. Begins floating when he smells pie. I dont know anymore
3. he just like me fr (Which is terrible i dont like that)
#if any part of this doesnt make sense or isnt rightpleass correct me#This is what i mean by tsukasa makes me lose my mind#I really cannot think straight when it comes to this show freak#3. Is more of a complicated thing. I dont Actually hate relating to him im joking but uhh#idk how to explain this i mean theres still a Lot that makes us very VERY different uhh#i think sometimes its just a little bit of annoyance like Why him. Why is it always the egotistical blonde ones#also i wouldnt say relating to him as much as i do right now is that bad (although i am much more self aware than him so. Yeah sometimes#I get annoyed with myself as well) i think its just the way ive been treated like i AM him before because of how much i do#Like guys. Come on now i get seeing people as their pfps or fav characters but thats a bit much#And theres plenty of other characters i relate to#Anyways ignoring rant in tags#I need to sleep. Right now. I cant believe i stayed up just to talk about little freak Tsukasa Tenma#ramble#rant#might delete later#tsukasa tenma#tenma tsukasa#wxs tsukasa#pjsk#prsk#project sekai#idk what im yapping about#yapping#tsukasa pjsk#tsukasa#wxs#wonderlands x showtime#shouldve kept this in drafts AAHH!!!!!
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examples below the cut
op 1:
"no no you dont get it, if the free market has no restraints, then its just monopolies, and then were all fucked anyways, dumbass!"
"when the FUCK did I say anything about not penalising monopolies??"
"oh, I dont know, say, when you FUCKING RUN ONE????"
op 2:
"no, wilbur, we cannot have less trains because 'they make you sad'"
"have you considered that they make me sad."
op 3:
you know how they are, bring up a clip on youtube
op 4:
"techno isnt that dangerous, look at him! he sleeps with a stuffed animal!"
"yeah how bot you look me in my eyes- sorry, EYE, SINGULAR, when you say that?!"
op 5:
"did you seriously just forget our first kiss???"
"well im SORRY that I was too high on YOUR weed to remember!"
op 6:
"face it, Q! without me, you would have been dead meat!"
"wilbur, im not getting you another co- WHOA WHOA WHOA YOU MEAN POGTOPIA??? YOU WANT A FUCKING FIGHT??? ILL GIVE YOU A FUCKING-"
op 7
"no, I'm not just like you, because I'm not going to make your mistakes!"
op 8
"just do the damn taxes wil."
"darling. you run, the government. cant you just tell me how much we owe?"
if anyone else has examples, please share! (please please I have a wife and kids and please)
#tntblr#tntduo#c!wilbur#dsmp#dsmp polls#quackbur#tntduo polls#cwilbur#c!quackity#cquackity#tntduo headcanons#tnt duo#dsmp wilbur#dsmpblr#dsmp quackity#dsmp tntduo
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Chishiya x Reader
1) I could kiss you right now
AU - College AU - SFW -
It was 2am when your cellphone started to make call noises. You opened your eyes and almost fell from the bed seeing who was calling you.
Chishiya
Your classmate and best friend (who you had a crush on) was calling you at 2 am....
You quickly got the phone and responded to it, nothing but loud music sounded in the background so you assumed Kuina had pushed him into a Party.
"Chi?" You asked just in case he had marked you by mistake
"Yyou know I love when you call me Chi"
His voice sounded blurry and honestly, drunk. Too drunk. Usually he was good and keeping his alcohol in check so you wonder if Kuina had let him free or if something had happened.
"Chishiya where are you? Are you alright?"
"Where Im?" There was a pause as he was taking a look around.
"Outside your door"
You sprinted to it, not caring of your night clothes or messy hair. You opened the door and sure, there he was Chishiya. He smelled like bad alcohol and weed.
"What and how in hell did you get here?" You looked out but saw no signal of a car.
"Got a taxi, payed by card" he simple say, letting himself fall in your sofa.
You went to get him some water, when you returned he was already sleeping. He once said your sofa was too comfortable.
You stood there, seeing him sleep. His chest went up and down slowly, his mouth was slighty open. He looked like any other drunk college student. But to you it was beautiful.
Still....you moved him to awake him up so he could get some water. He gave a sleepy look that almost looked offended but drank the water anyways. He then kept looking at you, and you, you took a look at yourself and blushed seeing how you were dressed.
"Dont say a thing, its 2am-" you were going to keep scolding him but he interrumped you.
"I could kiss you right now, you look beautiful".
Your mind went black, you could not believe what you had listened and blamed it to the alcohol.
"Dont say things like that being drunk" you responded "People will take it seriously".
Chishiya moved himself to get closer to you, the alcohol hitting your nose.
"Im drunk, but im saying the true, I want to kiss you so badly"
You blushed at his proximity and as much as you wanted to kiss him too you pushed him.
"Tomorrow, tell me again tomorrow"
You gave him some blankets and went to your room. You got a text from Kuina asking for Chishiya and you returned it by saying he was with you.
Her reply: ;)
When morning came you did your routine trying to ignore the nerves you were feeling.
When you went into your living room you saw Chishiya taking some coffee (there was another one for you) and eating some eggs.
"Morning" he simple said starting at the TV
You sat besides him going to take your cup till Chishiya talk almost making you let your cup fall.
"Can I kiss you now?" He was looking at you with knowing eyes and a smirk.
Good looking bastard
#alice in borderland#chishiya#aib imagine#aib#aib imagines#chishiya x reader#alice in borderland x reader
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⊙ ἀγάπη
" Unable to perceive the shape of You, I find You all around me. Your presence fills my eyes with Your love, It humbles my heart, For You are everywhere. "
⊙ Welcome to this Shape of Water love reading, yes I finaly took my balls and make a love pac hehehe this reading isn’t truly a prediction its more of an assumption about what your ideal partner would be based on your present self but you can technically see this reading as a way to confirm who your next partner would be y’know. It was supposed to be longer but I decided to do it chill since im still a bit rusted lol but I really miss being active on tumblr. For more explaination, the ”core card” is found by additioning the numbers of the cards you picked with Lenormand, for me its a card that show the core/hidden part of a reading but you can use this method in other ways.
◇ Deck used : Rider Waite (only court cards), Lenormand
Masterlist ⊙
🜄 Pile 1
♤ Key, book, ship 【core : coffin】
Court card : king of cups
They seem like someone who’s heart and mind are often clashing but despite it they are quite emotional intelligent, by this I mean that they might be very emotional by nature but they did learn to manage their emotions OR they take an intellectual approach to their feelings, is it a good thing or not ? Well its up to them because this kind of behavior can become toxic for themselves but i got a lot of cards who refer to them being very intelligent. They probably follow a specific philosophy or are into litterature in general, there is this dark academia vibe to them. Very hardworking, full of knowledge but never got enough at the same time, they got bof ”personal intelligence” and academic intelligence, talking to them about various subject must be a great experience for sure. Their intelligence and serious aspect make them quite sensual people might often look at them even if they dont seem to care about other’s look they seem introverted to me. Its like if someone stopped them to compliments them they would be a bit awkward like ”uh? Thank you I guess?”. Very INTP vibe. To be honest I was persuaded that I'll pick the King of Swords to them because of their vibe but not, its the King of cups with the Coffin as the core card so we got someone who have a cold exterior and keep their good side to themselves and to a very close group of people. They have been through tuff situation in their life, would I dare say that they might have experienced depression ? I see them as a melancholic King of cups, imagine an King alone on a cliff looking at the sea, so many thoughts are passing by from a strange theory about a myth to a sad realisation that they are indeed, a hopeless lover. Seems like someone needs to go under that shell to see their true self and heart (but not in a savior way, y’know).
🜄 Pile 2
♤ Mouse, whip, house, 【core ; whip】
Court card : queen of pentacles
Your ideal partner seem to be... interesting for sure, when I took the first cards I was a bit worried but the last one put the pieces togheter. Basically you got someone who ready to risk it all just to have a quiet and comfy life in their house (the house can also symbolise your relationship), listen to Faith from Karen Aoki the lyrics match them but most importantly for the one who get the reference from where the song come from you might understand the reading in a quite twisted way haha. The character who’s listening to this song is a pretty bad person with a very clean and kind exterior. Of course im not saying that your ideal partner is 100% this character but they remind me of him because he goes as far as killing people to have his quiet life but your reading is LESS extreme haha it just reminded me of him a lot in a softer way. Your ideal partner might even had broken many hearts because they know what they worth and what they want in life and in love, probably even in work and we got an other hopeless lover. They are so focused on perfection that sadly, they became pessimistic wether its because things are too slow, they are faaar from their ideal life or just sometimes they ask themselves if they are good enough or ask for too much in the end but it doesn’t last long since they will quickly get a reminder to not make the bar lower. However when they finally get something wether its a person an animal or an object they take extremely good care of ”it” they are very nurturing and caring, probably got a sweet voice (and touch ?). Once they settle its for the long run, I get something that they might need a reminder of not being too possessive with their partner because of course a partner is an other human being you can’t predict everything they would do, its the sad truth even the most loving wife can turn into a backstaber (that’s an exemple of course) they are probably terrified of the idea of being cheated on. Especially since they seek their ideal life it probably attract people with the intention to take and disappear. They need a big hug if you want my opinion they probably got some hard time with family and people while growing up. They need love and they know it.
🜄 Pile 3
♤ Sun, cross, Fox, 【core ; bouquet】
Court card ; King of wands
Alright you got the incarnation of the sun here, a golden person ! Very charismatic (and they know it) they make the room light up and when they smile the world is illuminated (I'll stop give it to their ego now). Your ideal partner’s personality remind me of Giorno from jjba. The big light of the sun is balanced by the cross and the fox who add some shade in a good way. Life have been hard on them and so they had to be a fox to survive, sneak their way into situation maybe even got to have jobs that they hated just to get enough money to escape their nasty place. Despite still having a hard time in life they keep up and seem to be always in all of their glory, they are a true born leader and dont mess around. I think if you try to trick them you'll fall from high ground since they are used to hardship nothing can stop them and their heart of gold will always feed their inner flame ! Like the sun they shine bright but alone, despite being great leaders they also do well alone and seem to value those hermit period. People might always say that they are about to fail or that their situation look doomed but you know what ? Even if its need to have some failed attempt they always end up wining, like I said they are very determined and probably stubborn about their goal. Its someone that you can trust. They got the vibe of the movie Fantastic Mr.Fox, maybe they put a lot of effort into being impressive for ”the public”? Like if someone tell them they can’t do something they will be like ”oh really?” and end up doing this thing better than necessary. Its nice, its amazing but they need some rest and to stop feeling the need to show off all the time haha they know their limit and their worth so they know how to chose their battles, simply because of those things it look like they are always wining.
#tumblr did everything in its power to stop me from posting it#pick a card#gryphis#pick a pile#love pick a card#ideal partner
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Hanako,Sakura,Teru,Tsukasa & Kou seeing Darling‘s SH scars for the first time
Tw: self harm ofc,scars mentioning,basically dark topic
An:yeah it wasnt requested,i wrote that because…why not?Enjoy NOT PROOF READ
please do not self harm yourself. And im sorry to those who already done it or ho though it. Stay strong and don’t give up. Ily all
You were cleaning the bathroom today because yashiro was sick today and kou had to leave early
Not that you minded. You still have company and that is hanako and those little adorable mokke‘s.
This is a lot better than going home and just lying in bed doing nothing or homework.
„say s/o-chan/kun, how come you agreed to clean the bathroom? Most people would decline it you know, GASP don’t tell me you enjoy my company~“
„Oh sush will ya? Im doing this cause i feel bad for yashiro…but i suppose you are correct about me enjoying your company“
Hanako smirked, happy at the response you gave him
„Now tell me where is the sponge and gloves so that i can start cleaning the toilet“
„Oh!- its over there“
Hanako pointed to the left corner
„I’ll bring them to you :D“
Hanako decided to spare you these 5 steps and decided to bring them to you
But just as he turned around he saw you pulling your sleeves up so that you wont get your sweater dirty
You reached out your hand to take it but before hanako gave it to you he
He noticed scars?
This boy stared in shock at your wrist
„Uhm…hanako? Can you give me the gloves already?“
Suddenly you are being grabbed against dour wrist
„S-S/O YOUR ARM I- WHAT HAPPEND ?!! WHO DID THIS?!?? DOES IT STILL HURT??!!“
It took you a second to understand that he is talking about you scars
„O-oh! I totally forgot i had them“
You laughed a little seeing hanako‘s worried expression
„DONT LAUGH! YOU ARE HURT“
Just before he could go to grab some bandages you gently grabbed his hand
„Pft Hanako…im okay.“
You sat down with the ghost
„Im sorry for laughing i guess heh, your worried expression was pretty cute tho~“
Hanako flushed at that but you could still he his concerned look
„To answer your questions. I self harmed. I did that to myself. And no they do not hurt anymore because i quitted“
You smiled gently hoping it will relax the poor boy for a bit
But i think you only did worse
„Yourself??? Why??? Dont tell me someone forced you to do it to yourself. When did you quit???“
„Geez give me a break dude haha….i had a very hard time back then where i thought doing this is the only way to release stress.i had big family issues at that time but now everything is doing well.and to answer your last question i did about 2 years ago. So again do.not.worry“
Hanako blinked processing every word you just said
„I see“
Suddenly he stands up reaching out a pair of gloves
„Well ready to continue cleaning?~“
You and Sakura were sitting in the broadcasting room enjoying some cup of tea while reading books
„Hm“
„Is there something wrong?“
Sakura asked without taking her eyes from her book
„No not at all. I just got really invested in the book you gave me its very interesting i like it! Thank you by the way“
Sakura smiled to herself hearing that and went back to reading her book
Suddenly instead of reaching her cup, Sakura accidentally spilled her cup of tea with her elbow all over your pretty white gloves
„Ow ow ow ow ow hot hot hot!“
„Oh no dear- im sorry i didnt mean to do that, it was an accident“
You slowly take off the glove
„It’s alright don’t worry hah! Everyone doesn’t mistakes“
Sakura couldn’t help but let a slight sigh of relief hearing that
Thought that relaxed aura she just had disappeared right this instant after seeing your wrist
You stared at her in confusion
„…..S-sakura?“
Sakura stared at your wrist realising those are old scars and coming to a conclusion that you stopped this awful habit
…but just in case-
„You don’t do this anymore. Right?“
„Eh? Oh! Nono don’t worry i quitted. Im okay now :D“
„Understood“
Sakura grabbed gently both of your hands
„I’ll go get you new gloves“
„Oh don’t worry it’s okaaaaaaand she is already on her way„
“Hey s/o.”
You saw Teru sitting next to you
“How come you always wear a sweater under your uniform? I mean its summer. Aren’t you like sweating under there?”
“Ah hello Minamoto-kun. No im not sweating under it. And i wear it because its my favourite sweater! Ofc i wouldn’t wear it if it was that hot for me, i dont like it that much to the point i would sweat under it”
“Well nothing i can do. Also i told you, you can use my first name”
“Yeah yeah okay prince minamoto (¬_¬) “
Boink
“Whaaa what was that for T-T“
“you know exactly why :)“
“say... Wanna go out tomorrow like i dunno swimming? I heard it is going to be very hot tomorrow”
“Hmmm…yeah sure! Im free tomorrow so i don’t mind”
“Great! I’ll meet you there”
And just like that the bell rang and you went your ways
𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚗𝚎𝚡𝚝 𝚍𝚊𝚢 | (• ◡•)|
You were waiting for teru at the beach for about 10 minutes already
“Phew, he sure didn’t lie about it being hot today”
You took off your favourite sweater and wrapped it around your torso(or hips idk)
“S/o!”
“Speak of the devil”
You turn around to see none other than Teru Minamoto
“Hey Min- Teru… well where do you wanna go first?”
“Hm how abouuutttt…some ice cream?”
“Sounds great to me!”
And just like that you guys went to get something to refresh youself
And while you two eat you remembered that you need to apply some sunscreen
“Teruuuuuu~”
“Yeah?”
After teru saw s/o holding the sunscreen he without any hesitation sat down allowing s/o to put suncream on him
“In return I get to put sunscreen on you correct?”
“Hmmmmmm alright alright”
After some minutes s/o finished and took off her clothes revealing herself only in a bikini
Teru slightly blushed after seeing s/o in such clothes but stayed respectful non then less
That is until he saw s/o do a ponytail revealing scars on their shoulders
“S-s/o…”
S/o sat down signalling teru to put the sunscreen on their back
“Teru? Is something wrong?”
“What…happened to your shoulders?”
“O-oh… well you see back when i was *insert younger self* i had fallen into pretty deep rabbit hole after loosing something/someone important to me….”
Teru couldn’t tell if you finished talking or want to add something more
“But…”
S/o shows their left/right arm to show more scars
Woah!How did he not notice them before?
“I was only getting more and more let down with each day. To the point i started to let out my anger on myself”
Teru looked at your expression seeing that you were uncomfortable with the topic so he put the cold sunscream without saying anything on your spine
„C-COLD you jerk!!!!“
„Haha. Im sorry we don’t want you get burned right?…Also promise to quit what you are d-„
„I already have don’t worry, these scars are like from 2-4 years ago“
„Oh! Well if you feel like doing it again let me know and I’ll be there gor you“
„pft You sure are cheesy today“
„Well what can i say? Im spending time with the most beautiful person right now“
„Oh my~“
„S/O S/O S/O S/O S/O S/O S/OOOOOOOOOO“
„Sigh what is it tsukasa.“
„Let’s go find some supernaturals to smash!“
„Heh yeah-no not today im very tired right now“
„Awh :(„
„Don’t give me that look“
:(((((
…
„Fine just not for too long…“
„YAAAAAY“
‚i don’t think we will find a supernatural anyway‘ i thought
When out of nowhere i heard some noise
But that was probably just my imagination
„OHHH A MOKKE“
„W-wait tsukasa don’t run away!….great now im alone“
Suddenly i heart the same noise again but this time it sounded like someone was…growling?
Just as i turned around i saw a big supernatural right behind me
I barely managed to dodge his attack but in the process it ripped off my sleeve
„TSUKASA??!?!?!NOW IS A GREAT TIME TO SMASH A SUPERNATURAL“
You closed your eyes ready to take the supernaturals attack
….but nothing came
In fact you heard some…unpleasant noises
You opened your eyes just to see tsukasa smashing the supernaturals face against the floor
You stood up glad that you didn’t get hurt and went up to tsukasa
„Hey…tsukasa thats enough“
„It hurted you…“
„Hm? No it didn’t don’t worry so lets just g-„
„Your arm“
You looked at your arm confused since you don’t feel any pain on it
„Oh! Tsukasa those scars are old its okay it wasn’t the supernatural that did it!“
„There are others that hurt you?…“
Tsukasa stood up and placed his hands on your shoulders
„Tell me who“
His dark aura made you kinda nervous
„Well how do i explain this to you…the one that caused these scars was me“
„S/o is hurting themselves???!!! (」°ロ°)」 „
„No! I mean- it was a long time ago…so do not worry i am not being hurt and im not hurting myself“
Tsukasa didnt quite fully understand why you did that in the first place but hearing you being safe is all that matterd to him.
„well then…LETS GO FIND MORE TO SMASH“
„NO-„
You and kou had teamed up at school to be partners in cooking class
‚They probably teamed up with me cuz they struggle with cooking‘
‚i teamed up with him to spend more time with him‘
Yeaaaaahhhh cooking sure was something
Honestly he didn’t even notice your scars right away after you rolled up your sleeves
He noticed it when he told you to cut the cucumber
„Ow! Stupid knife(╥_╥)“
„S-s/o are you okay?“
„Yeah just a tiny scar on my finger heh“
„Wait let me see- S/O YOUR AR-„
You quickly put your hand against his mouth
„is everything okay here you two?“
„Y-yes mr. (Teachers name)“
That was close
You shouted with a whispering voice
„What was that you idiot???we almost got in trouble“
„your arm its full of scars!!!!“
„Yeah??? So what“
„What do you mean so what???? I got concerned and-“
„You two! Out.now“
…
„.:…Promise to not tell nii-chan that i got into trouble“
„I promise-„
„OH RIGHT your ar-„
„Sighhhh you still on about that?“
„Ofc! What happened??? Who did this???How did it happen???Does it still hurt??? Should i bring anything????“
You let out a small laugh. You hate to admit it but kou being so worried is so cute to you
„Its alright kou. Those are my old selfharm scars“
„huh- but-but why would you hurt yourself?“
„Sometimes people do harm themselves. Some stay up late. Some stop eating and well…“
You looked at your wrist
„Some people harm themselves physically“
Kou grabbed both of your hands
„I might not have a right to say anything about this but please don’t ever do this again! You matter so much to me…the last thing i want is to see my friend/bf/gf/partner suffer while i dont do anything!!! I will do everything and anything you want just please…“
Hearing that made your eyes form up some tears
„D-don’t cry!!! Did i say something wrong??!!!?“
„Oh kou… i promise. Those are old ones so dont worry I’ve stopped…it’s just…hearing this i-„
You hugged Kou tightly which startled the exorcist
„Thank you“
…
Kou hugged you back tightly
„You’re welcome“
Hope i left you satisfied. Stay safe you all and don’t do stupid stuff
#sh awareness#tbhk sakura#tbhk teru#tbhk#tbhk tsukasa#tbhk hanako#jshk hanako#jshk sakura#jshk teru#tbhk kou#jshk kou#tbhk x reader#kou x reader#hanako x reader#tsukasa x reader#teru x reader#sakura x reader#jshk x reader#jshk x y/n#anime#fanfic
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Peridot and Unlearning (Internalized & Externalized) Homophobia
i.e., here's why peridot's redemption arc is partially (a metaphor?) about unlearning homophobia
the title sounds crazy but bear with me here.
let's start off with saying NO, fusion does not = romantic love. that's an age old discourse and it can be so easily solved by stating there are many different forms of love, and sometimes fusion is just for power (which is a form of love in-of itself, albeit fucked; the love for power or toxic love) HOWEVER, in many cases, such as Garnet's, it most certainly is about romantic love. so to keep it as brief as possible, thats what we have in mind in this post. it's gay love okay.
now, let's talk about the scene i just captioned. this is from the episode "too far," which is an episode about developing a crush and accidentally hurting them in the process of trying to impress them. (however you want to look at it, but thats how i interpret it) the fact it starts off with casual homophobia is important, coz it shows peridot still has a lot of prejudices despite recently becoming part of the team, which is full of gay people, undeniably.
peridot's redemption arc is partially about coming to terms with your sexuality, retraining your mind from internalized homophobia after being raised in such a homophobic society/household, and becoming proud of your sexuality / identity.
OBSERVE:
"you dont understand! im protecting a planet i was once trying to destroy! i used to follow every order - every rule!"
"now im a traitor! a rebel!"
"A CRYSTAL QUEEEEEER"
sorry i had that joke stored for this analysis since 2019. anyways
i'm going to try to keep this short, but more under the cut.
IM SO BAD at organizing my words so this post is rly hard to make so im gonna do it like this.
MORE EVIDENCE THAT PERIDOT'S REDEMPTION ARC IS COMING TO TERMS WITH BEING GAY / UNLEARNING HOMOPHOBIA:
being frustrated about joining a lesbian/gay gang
coming from a society where homosexuality is forbidden
telling off your mom by saying youre joining some rebel lesbians/gays to fight her oppressive society
wearing pride flags (stars) everywhere after coming out
looking up to experienced lesbians (Garnet)
the scissoring joke (from "too far." if you know you know)
furthermore, i thought it'd be fair to include peridot learning how to respect how people identify in other ways, such as names / how they prefer to be addressed. this, most of the time, goes hand-in-hand with homophobia.
peridot, narrating: "he also said he wanted me to stop calling him "the" steven." steven: "its just, steven!" peridot: "i told him i'd call him whatever i want!" [hiss] peridot: "he told me that was rude."
(from the episode "log date 7 15 2")
peridot learns how to respect how people identify. lgbt win
i should add she also eventually learns how to respect Garnet's whole deal in the same episode (log date 7 15 2) which was also a huge moment in her unlearning homophobia. which, btw if you dont know or dont remember, Garnet does by comparing herself to peridot's (assuming) gay ship between Percy and Pierre from Camp Pining Hearts, saying she was the optimized version of herself (the reason peridot "ships" them; theyre the best team logically according to her analysis ship chart)
anyways, now the biggest most obvious point is the fact that peridot actually is gay. i've referred to this episode a few times now, but thats becoz it really is a huge point in proving my 'thesis';
in the episode "too far," peridot is shown to get obsessed with impressing amethyst. peridot experiences something they havent yet up until this point: a crush. i mean, you can interpret it as you wish, but thats how i saw it. the butterflies, the obsession with making someone laugh, the fact peridot states amethyst is objectively the best gem of the crystal gems and emphasizes "damaging her standing with the best gem here" with their apology to amethyst after hurting her feelings.
and um, this.
🌈yeag
sorry im losing any professionalism i started this post with. also this is focusing on early-season / redemption arc peridot which is why its kind of short and is missing stuff from later seasons. i hope this was at least somewhat concise and easy to understand, and i hope yall see my point of view here! feel free to add on (theres SO MUCH its easy for it to skip my mind) if you have any other points youd like to make to support my cause and uprising. love you
#peridot#su#steven universe#q slur#idc abt the discourse w tagging it as that im doing it for a friend. love and light#im so sorry for the bad formatting im off my meds#peridot analysis#tagging that for personal ref ok bye
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