#i dont hold back anymore
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disgusted with how much fucking anger my tiny ass body can hold
#for years i was a crying mess#now im polar opposite#i dont hold back anymore#any issues i deal with directly#rather be a complete fuckin bitch than a crying mess#tbh no matter what emotion im portraying people dont ever listen#this month fucking sucks#next month is the anniversary#all this and im doing it alone#i feel so fucking sick#put me out of my misery#tysm
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ok poll time i need answers
#jrwi#just roll with it#jrwi show#guys if i add campaign tags will you be mad at me#promise you wont okay#hold my hand#promise you wont be mad#ok im doing it#jrwi riptide#jrwi pd#jrwi bitb#<- Hate that one. <- currently hyperfixated#jrwi apotheosis#bitch i cant spell apotheosis#jrwi fated#Does anyone even check the fated tag anymore....#sigh. feeling like shit just want bra'ad back#um#what am i missing#is there any point putting it in the judgement tag for the 3 total judgement fans#jrwi judgement#WONDERLUST OH SHIT#jrwi wonderlust#thats all of them i think.#not putting it in oneshot tags thats doing too much#polls#br'aad not bra'ad. dont fucking look at me
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this one goes out to all the kids who had their brain chemistry altered by werehog sonic growing up 💪💪💪
#aka me#I HAVE POSTED ABT THAT RIGHT. HOW WEREHOG SONIC CHANGED MY LIFE. HE TRANSED MY GENDER AND MADE ME A FURRY. THE POWER HE HOLDS.#i actually dont think i would really call myself a furry anymore?? like i super was in my pre and early teens but its sorta passed?? and#hasnt rlly come back#i do want to get back into drawing anthros and whatnot but ajgjhj#ok i was gonna jsut title this as “freedom” or smth but no#my art#dungeon meshi#dunmeshi#lycion#havent been able to stop thinking abt him. him and fleki specifically. love those two so much.
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I am once again knitting which means I'm back to the Nein rewatch and happened to be on Midnight Espionage, and truly INSANE episode. The egg dick, both break-ins, the Zauber Spire attack, and the first time a beacon is on screen in like four hours flat. Trent Ikithon is there. The episode ends with Liam and Marisha yelling, "TRUST THE PORN."
#they dont make 'em like this anymore folks#honestly if you think the start of c2 is slow I trust that you hold that opinion but i do NOT understand#like yeah okay alfield is just basic dnd shit but you need a little of that#for PACING#literally the sheer quantity of plot that happens in this episode alone is wild#also very fun watching liam physically back away from the table in his chair realizing Trent is there#re: the comment this week iirc that he did NOT expect caleb's backstory to be so central#do you think that precisely was the moment he knew he done fucked up#cuz my guess is yes lmao#ANYWAY i did have to figure out what spell they used to attack the tower and I'm pretty sure it was gravity sinkhole#honestly pretty good for a fourth level spell! rip that dunamancer whos for sure gonna come to in like. hupperdook in fifteen years#i will not stop asking about the absolute trauma involved#with dying in this kind of assault and coming to in the next life in your enemy's military contractor town#insane concepts.#ANYWAY#megs rewatches c2
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every time I come on this app, and there's no new post from you, I feel deprived, sad and deserted.
it has gone from questioning your sanity to questioning mine, but despite how unhinged you are, you are now my tumblr comfort person (or so I think).
thanks man
This is such a relief to hear because I often worry I'm posting too much and spamming everyone's feed 😭❤️
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‣ 2014 -> 2024
#i posted this and then it... disappeared? didnt post? oh well hopefully i dont accidentally double post now#but god i was standing at that spot when i realized it reminded me of something.... so had to take a new screen...#blondieeha isnt real he didnt even have the same name#theyre the same character but Not. yknow?#so much development from the original concept..... although the first screen is only a short while before i changed him#in a way that resembles current ieeha way more (even though i revamped a lot in 2021)#i cant play anymore without nostalgia and memories consuming me i think its the break that did it to me#where i was gone without PC for long enough that coming back felt like being hit by a truck emotionally#anyway..... sobs and cries and squeezes him and holds him#ffxiv#final fantasy xiv#ff14#final fantasy 14#midlander#hyur#ffxiv screenshot#gpose#ffxiv scholar#ffxiv gpose#warrior of light#wol#ffxiv oc#nabaath-areng#ieeha de verral#ieeha
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Im showing my bf the bond series from beginning to end because I have like, a thing, for the gentleman spy subgenre. And far be it for me of all people, whose double major was in cinema, to judge an older film outside of the standards it was made within or claim that they dont have any place or impact within the world, but it is downright perplexing what did and didn't fly in those movies. Such as having actual black people play black characters instead of doing blackface, which was still widely used at the time, but also just doing yellowface in that same movie. Masterfully done everybody.
#im not making a moral argument against the 007 franchise here btw#being a product of their time does not make them morally wrong to watch or continue to distribute#connerys weirdo views also dont hold much water since hes yknow. dead.#i think we can have legitimate discussions about these things without needing to insist that others cant watch them for pleasure as well#like i could make many posts about the misogyny of the bond girls without completely scrubbing out my personal deep enjoyment of the series#for those who dont know i was a bond blog back in high school so. when i say i like them. i like thwm#but i can also recognize that weve uh. acknowledged a few things arent the best choices to make anymore#the series is so old that in from russia with love it still shows the old canadian national flag#the one that has a union jack on it#so take that as you will and watch accordingly#james bond#007#ramblings
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happy first ekky goal of the 2425 season AND its unassisted as the double whammy!!! and how due is ekky for a goal?
VERY. VERY VERY DUE. ITS INSANE CONSIDERING HE HAS 12 ASSISTS ON THE SEASON.
wall of love and yearning gus and ekky love IS so real and so true catmin <3
carolina hurricanes @ florida panthers | 11.30.24 (x)(x)(x)(x)
#aaron ekblad#gustav forsling#florida panthers#2425#reino is so tired of their shit im so sorry king that you have to see it EVERY single time#“LETSGO” ekky says to reino before he immediately abadons him to lovingly look at forsy and expect him in his arms#id just hack him in the legs and grumble to the bench like reino is so much stronger than i am#delicate waist holding#i know forsy has talked about it before. how he immediately has to take out his mouthguard for cellies.#but him putting it back in while staring at ekky and then proceeding to stick his tongue out MAKES ME FEEL SO FAINT#DONT TEASE EKKY LIKE THAT#WHY ARE YOU-#hes miming what ekkys gonna look like at the end of the night you know panting like a-#anyways :)#ekkys expectant face... the way it absolutely lights up when he turns to see forsy trucking towards him...#forsy tapping his stick NEXT TO EKKYS A#I NEED A MINUTE#forsy following after ekky for the bumpie line :((#CAMEO OF BOQY SO EXCITED FOR EKKY IM GONNA SOBBBB#the curse is lifted with the power of love congrats ekky you're not haunted anymore#funnily enough his first goal last season after returning from rehab early nov was on dec 27#so he didnt have to wait too long this time lmao#or i guess he HAD to considering he started the season healthy#1 month 10 days vs 1 month 22 days#pick your poison#now thats what i call consistency?
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ah, the trials and tribulations of alan alda's face
immediately get the nose right
meanwhile i am dying a slow death with this eyeball of his and the eyelashes thereupon
just so you know the equivalent for mike farrell is his eyes [easy] vs his lips [pain]
i do other art yes but i suffer from chronic 'cant accept putting real ppl in my cartoony style' so here we are gamers
#mash#mash 4077#bj hunnicutt#hawkeye pierce#mash fanart#mashblogging#mash art#work in progress#alan alda#mike farrell#m*a*s*h#its to the point where i am modelling my own damn eyes for these eyelashes man#i have similar colour and shape to mr. alda here so im voguing in my bathroom trying to get this shit done#i got longer lashes than he has though so either i'll fix that at the end or he'll be serving extra#unfortunately i dont have a mustache or else id be doing the same for monsieur farrell#my back pain is gone tho so i got that going for me#listening to chappell roan painting these idiots gazing heterosexually into eachotheres eyes#holding a human heart together. besties <3#update; bj and hawkeye just get to have beautiful fucking eyelashes this time#ive been here too long im not struggling anymore. they just get to be beautiful with their 50 lashes
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@kiisuuumii (excerpt from [a former anorexic eating and a heavy sleeper waking])
#poeticstories#bitsofstarglow#twcpoetry#writerscreed#recognizingthevoiceless#poets community#poem#poetry#original poem#original poetry#feeling 👎 this morning#the anxiety that im falling back into bad habits has me paralyzed#even though /i know/ im doing just fine#maybe eventually i'll post the full poem#bc theres a lot of emotion in it that i dont wanna hold in me anymore#its just incredibly long lmao#kiisuuumii#☆
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guys help how do i get to lesson 41 really fast no glue no borax
#im aiming for world record pace /j#im on lesson 18 btw in case u were wondering. all my cards are js not enough like i cant skip my way through these fucking battles anymore#im stuck in the obey me limbo where i dont play the actual story and do everything else#i did this in regular obey me too and they got to lesson 80 before i even started lesson 21 like idk im a hardcore procrastinator#might be the LACK OF RED CARDS IM GETTING HOLDING ME BACK#anyways if u have any gamer tips let me know please please please#obey me#obey me shall we date#obey me swd#omswd#obey me nightbringer#obey me nb#om nb#carys.txt
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i think the not knowing is the worse part.
#is he really in a lot of pain? could he keep going for a bit longer? is it just tiring to hold his back legs up anymore or does it hurt?#it sucks bc hes changed even from like a week ago. this fucking sucks dude#and the vet never called back so we have to call again tmrw. which means ill come back out tmrw or whenever theyre available.#which we dont KNOW when theyre available yet BC THEY HAVENT CALLED BACK#this fucking SUCKS dude I HATE THIS!#im gonna cry again when i get home bc i just cant fucking help it#talk tag#delete later
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Do you think Erik would be more of a vampire or a werewolf (in a AU I guess) (and also what do you think Charles would be?) I lowkey imagine Charles as little red riding hood if Erik was a werewolf.
i feel like they're both pretty vampire coded...... if we must assign them vampire or werewolf......
#snap chats#i mean did charles not isolate himself in his estate for years after korea..... og 60s interpretation anyway..... vampire shit i tell you..#also Some vampires can have telepathy/mind control..#wait on that note i was reading X-Men Adventures or w/e and magneto being all#'i can twist the metal in your brain to do whatever i want' i lit yelled 'shut the fuck up' LMAO IM SICK OF THIS MAN AND HIS POWERS#i think werewolves are too 'wild' for either charles or erik- even erik during his worst years#erik has too much of a type of 'elegant' air to him. plus he loves his castles jvALEVJAKLJ#like i really cant. justify attributing werewolves to either charles or erik...#when i think of werewolves i think of a loss of control and brutish power- things i cant see with charles/erik#i feel like i always equate shame with werewolves too for some reason.. maybe the whole 'dont look at me/stay away' thing#or at least shame-until-given-a-reason-to-not-hold-back-anymore yk but not important#a point could be made for charles when he was self isolating but that was more so. post-war/My-Legs-Just-Got-Broken depression vJELKVJEVLK#i mean charles exercises RESTRAINT with his powers and knows people dont like his powers but he's not exactly. ASHAMED yk what i mean#i could prob make more vampire comparisons if i sit here long enuogh but ive rambled too much TL;DR they're both vampires
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Incorrect Shiki (OC) quotes
(Context: she's the coffee barista OC that Kudo saved and joined the Resistance)
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Shiki: Time sensitive question how flirt boy.
Bruce: Throw rocks at he.
Yoichi: Hot Dogs.
Kudo: Kill him.
Shiki: Thanks guys.
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Bruce: I’ve only ever said ‘I love you’ to two people in my entire life: Shiki, and Leader in an alleyway who I mistook for Shiki.
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All For One: I have one of your friends.
Shiki: Which one? I have seven.
All For One: The self-sacrificial, no sense of self-preservation one, that'd kill themselves for a slice of pizza.
Shiki: Which one? I have seven.
Kudo, from AFO's vestige world: HEY!!!
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Kudo: I would do anything for Yoichi.
*Later*
Kudo, atop a pile of dead bodies, choking on his own blood: THE STATEMENT STILL STANDS.
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All For One: So, you’ve finally arrived-
All For One: Here to continue our-
All For One: I’ve been waiting for this chance-
All For One: Stop skipping my dialogue-
All For One: Seriously, stop-
All For One: INSOLENT CUR-
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Bruce: Do you want to explain the text you sent me yesterday?
Shiki: It was autocorrect.
Bruce: Autocorrect wrote "You're so hot. Please step on me."?
Shiki: Yes.
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Yoichi: Why is everyone so obsessed with top or bottom? Honestly, I’d just be excited to have a bunk bed!
Bruce:
Bruce: I'm gonna tell him.
Shiki: Don't you dare.
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Kudo: What's wrong?
Yoichi, crying: It's just the onions.
Kudo: *picks up an onion* What the fuck did you say to Yoichi?
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Shiki: Leader, we're running low on rations.
Kudo, eating a bowl of microwaved ketchup: What makes you think that?
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Bruce: How long do you think it’ll be until Shiki finally snaps and murders someone?
Kudo: I assume it already happened and no one managed to trace it back to her.
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Kudo: ARE YOU-
Banjo: Fucking.
Kudo: KIDDING ME?! YOU-
Banjo: Fucking.
Kudo: IDIOT!
Nana: ... What was that?
Yoichi: Shiki-san banned Kudo from swearing, so Banjo-kun is helping him out.
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Shinomori: I'm sorry for interrupting your date
Shiki: We aren't on a date?
Shinomori:
Shinomori: *turns to Bruce*
Shinomori: I'm sorry she's too stupid to realize she's on a date with you.
Shiki: What- What does that mean? Is this a date?
Bruce: I was kinda hoping it was, yeah.
*20+ years ago*
Kudo: Have fun on your date.
Shiki: It's not a date, dude. Bruce just asked if I wanted to go to the museum with him.
Kudo: *turns to Bruce*
Kudo: Are you sure about this one? She's dumb as fuck.
#bruce pines yes but hes been like that since forever so his behavior is just normalized#and hes too scared to say it outright. meanwhile shes also a workaholic and thus never takes a second look at his behavior#shiki bruce and kudo come from a designated safe zone that tried to hold onto old society and fell#so yeah they had a museum and rent to worry about once#meanwhile japan outside the fence is shambling and smoking and theyre all hiding the fact theyre metas from everyone and each other#ppl banded together back then for safety. so some can have safezones they claim and gather in. as a treat (before AFO kicks them all down)#edit: another draft im getting rid of here u go#bnha is over now so i dont think anyones gonna really read these anymore#kudo#bruce#ofa#yoichi shigaraki#afo#all for one#one for all#incorrect quotes#oc#fic#fanfic#fanfiction#i probably said something in the past about not talking about bnha fics anymore but i wanna get this gone#and maybe someone will enjoy it#love shikis ability but i also love the fic i made where kudo is shit at parenting and almost got a baby run over by a car#all in attempted goodwill too
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the masculine urge to take a saucepan off thr draining board and bash myself repeatedly over the head with it until I pass out and no longer have to experience feeling Bad 😍
#struggling to tolerate this one ngl its fucking dire this weekend. i just cant do this man#thr things i would fucking do for attention please. just one person to notice and care in the slighest i feel like im losing my fucking#mind out here how does every single person who has ever mattered to me in my lifr see me in distress and choose to ignore it or maybe they#dont even recognise im ij distress in the first place i dont know whats worse i dont think i hide it well at all im just so done#listen like ultimately its fucking fine. i will get myself through it like ive gotten myself through everything else in my fuckijg life#i dont even feel bad that often these days im doing so so so much better and its so much more tolerable to only have to deal with this#once or twice a week instead of it being a struggle every single day like i dont think i could go back to feeling like that again ever i#dont know how i managed to get througyh it before jesus fucking christ. but i can deal with it i can deal with this#ik ill feel fine tomorrow. its just thr fact im so desperately fucking alone with it that makes it so much worse than it has to be#i fucking hate repression i hate being so incapable of expressing myself that its easier for me to injure myself than it is to talk about#how i feel to anyone i hate being trapped in this stupif fucking torture labyrinth and not knowing how to get out of it and never being#given a single avenue anything to hold onto i hate having to do it alone every single fucking time and when i do try i just freeze out#entirely i cant form a coherent thought my brain enters total fucking shutdown pure static white noise fuzz and i dont know why please#its so unfair i dont think its that much to want a little comfort. just once just for someone to stay with me while i cry it doesnt have#to be more than that i just dont want to be alone like this i just want to feel safe around someone just close to someone just once#and well ill survive without it bc i always have i guess. so far at least. and there are many things im grateful for and i do in general#feel pretty okay my life is pretty good at times even. i feel so pathetic and stupid and ashamed for even feeling like this#but do i have to go my entire life without ever experiencing any kind of real intimacy with another person emotionally that is#i mean physical is nice too and they go hand in hand in some ways but i just want to feel seen and safe over anything.im tired#i feel like i try.but not hard enough i know its all my fault really but i dont know how to try any harder but nothing will ever change if#i dont i cant expect anyone to do anything if i cant rven communicate in thr first place. oh i dont want to think about it anymore#i have a headache from crhing and its not even 8pm ugh. okay. well it is what it is.#ill breathe until i calm down and then tidy up whatever i left in the kitchen and get my work stuff ready for tmr#and polish my boots maybe. and read and go to bed at 9:30 i think. and ill feel fine in the morning#my fault for thinking about it earlier i know i shouldve nipped it earlier on its such an easy spiral to fall into i need to get better#it happens. okay anyway. no cause for concern im good guys. weakly thumbs up at the camera all covered in blood#my period is late actually thats probably all this is lmao. makes sense thinking abt it#cant wait for it to finally start and all earthly desire to leave my body so i never experience pain again amen#.vent#ignore this sorry for being mentally ill im not even that mentally ill anymore so no excuse rly ummmm. bit embarrassing innit.
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hi a while ago i read through your slay the savior au and really loved it!! and with the release of pristine cut and revisiting 100% of the game again i might do the same for your au!!! its really good!!! :D
ah gosh thank you!!!!! if you do go back for a reread, i hope you enjoy it!!!!!! its the first time ive finished a series like that ever so it holds a really special place in my heart. it makes me happy to know people like it :}
#basil answers#asks#transflynnscifo#holding myself back from writing anything pristine cut related for it. i told the story i set out to i dont need to do anymore.#if i do any more dont. look at me.#my will is only so strong.
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