#i dont fucking know how to explain this. its just a collection of fucked things i like to write and headcanons? i guess?

[randomwriteronline]

The Lords could not be harmed, shifting mounds of nature that they were, shapes unclear and indestructible as they reached out to their traitorous subjects to submit them once more; above them they stood, colossal and sublime, casting long shadows upon them as they towered like pillars holding sky and ground apart, and on them were fixed six brilliant gazes of crystal and metal and flesh.

How those hands reached out for them! With such a longing awe, like children begging to be held, the living wide-eyed killing machines strained to join them, turning their backs to those who had believed to find in them friends and allies and soldiers against those who had torn their home apart so thoughtlessly to give themselves to the Lords wholly, completely, utterly, enamored and entranced by their elemental infinity, so ethereally solid that they could feel it in their palms already; and the Lords, magnanimous as they were (as they fancied themselves to be in their cruelty), reached out to them in turn, welcoming them as their impenetrable army of one, beckoning them closer, closer.

And with that closeness they saw, perhaps too late, the gleam in the glowing eyes; and with that closeness they realized, perhaps too late, that there was nothing childish within them if not for a turbulent hunger, vast and all-consuming, and something else so darkly bright, so blindingly obscure, that they could not put a word to it.

And those hands reached, and sank into them.

And the Lords screamed in anguish.

In a sudden focused frenzy the beasts curled their claws of protodermis and climbed the infinite bodies. They left marks of their passage - deep wounds bleeding copiously, reaching down to bones that long had been stripped away by divinity, tearing apart non-existent flesh with the ease of paper, their skeletal frames ravenous as they dug holes in the godly forms to take their essence for themseves, coating shining metal in fire, stone, earth, water, ice, air, like disgusting bugs carving their way through luxurious fabrics and woods and painting and statues, hungry, hungry, hungry, starving and yearning and needing - and the Lords shouted, the Lords wailed, the Lords cried, the Lords howled in unison with the mechanical men eating them alive, ascending higher, higher, not demanding audience anymore, only digging into their nerves with a staggering familiarity, a bloodied fondness.

Artificial faces at last before the divinely natural eyes, frightened gods cradled with such murderous tenderness in hand-crafted palms, an unnatural light sparked within crystalline matter: perhaps what they forced upon the Lords was a sarcastic pantomime, perhaps it was a genuine gesture carried on in the only violent manner a living weapon could muster, perhaps it was as new and frightening for them as it was so painfully horrifying for their destined misshapen mirrors; but their mechanical bodies strained with their thin muscles as air poured through vents so scalding and freezing and humid and dry and dusty and clear, as they crowed out for all the universe to hear the love bursting in fulminating sparks and horrid shrieks of cogs clashing in ways they were not built to do, and with something that could be considered akin only to a terrible kiss they sank into the sublime endlessness of the Elemental Lords, and tore them to shreds in an indescribably gruesome amorous spectacle.

Nothing was left of them - nothing but men, frightened mortal shells of flesh and bone, clawed free from their ineffability as their former people approached them cautiously, circled around them to bear witness to their descent from their gilded thrones.

Hunched over them stood still the living beings of metal and muscle, immoble, eyes aglow with energy, encased in their element as though it were their skin - fitting them so naturally, like it had never fit upon the Lords. Then something zapped, creaked, exhaled harshly: their irises flickered, sparks of color pulsing before giving in, and they collapsed upon the exhausted remains of their domains, as still as corpses yet with hearts still beating gently, calmly, sweetly, radiating spots of light upon but a spec of their slowly reawakening world like fireflies unaware of their own mortality.

[spaloonbabooguuscooties]

Okay now can we get a 200 paragraph slop description of Nina and Coco’s weird dynamic

grabbig you so hard white knuckle grip digging in nails.

okay so like to get into the two of them together i do have to explain my characterization for coco a bit because while i think with nina everyone has a sort of collective agreement for the most part abt her coco is a little bit more all over the place ? anyway

because my idea of coco is that shes NOT a good guy like crash is. bc i think that crash is genuinely good hearted and likes helping people! i think aku aku is a very positive influence for him and all he will always willingly help even his enemies and thats nice. but coco does not give a fuck about all of that. coco will help crash because she loves him but outside of that everything she does is for her own ends.

i read somewhere that canonically coco has the capability of being a full hero like crash is and could probably do it even better but she just doesnt Want to. and i think thats so good. shes got her own shit going on. i think that she isnt as outside of cortex's influence in her creation as she likes to think; like i think a lot of people are in agreement that she was made to be a general in his army, and cortex successfully made her incredibly intelligent, so it makes sense there would be some aspects of her personality that pull from that.

idk i stick to my thing about how tagteam racing coco is the best shes insane in it like please listen to the voicelines for her theyre so funny .

shes insanely overconfident, shes competitive, shes got a hair trigger temper, shes greedy and snappy. shes a little con artist and is constantly doing startup companies and scamming investors for money , like thats canon. and obviously shes still NICE for the most part she'll do the right thing when she needs to because its usually in her best interests anyway but it doesnt take away from the fact that theres a little rot in the core of her that never really left when she escaped that lab.

and outside of crash and crunch and like, tawna maybe, she doesnt have many friends and NO peers. so theres aspects of her socially where i think shes a freak and doesnt know how to act. never been in school probably has adhd because shes always just starting projects and shit and abandoning them. anyway

so i think! meeting nina is very important for her! like because now she has someone the same age as her with the same level of intellect (and theyre both girls ?? 🙊🙊) and she SUCKS and thinks shes better than her! so of course that kicks cocos lazy ass into gear . i think nina has such a talent for getting under cocos skin and making her insane . especially since coco hasnt had to deal with someone on the same level like that before. and i do think that coco is technically smarter but shes so impulsive, all she can think about is wanting to beat nina in whatever nina can challenge her with. it makes her brain really need to work to fight against her and prove her wrong and theres some awful little rush she gets from proving her wrong , making her Know how smart coco really is, which just makes nina fight harder to take her down.

and they think they hate each other so much but theyre actively seeking each other out to start these fights! as much as they hurt each other its fun for them in a way thats different than if it were anyone else. this snotty little girl that thinks shes SO cool with her dumb metal hands .

but theres still that inherent understanding there too. the way theyre both isolated in the way they are. coco lives on a remote island with people way older than her and nina goes to school sure but in public school everyone hates her! and even at madam amberlies she didnt actually have FRIENDS . coco is the only one who goes out of her way to talk to nina even if its just to tell her shes got a stupid big forhead. and nina calls her a feral rat and they continue their little games and rituals. they dont have to say thats why outright when they can feel it in the way they are so desperate and obsessed with each others attention.

and probably coco doesnt know how badly cortex treats Nina exactly . maybe she thinks shes cruel and nasty for the fun of it. but she knows how terrible cortex CAN be. knows that those hands arent for ninas benefit, that she may as well be an asset. maybe she feels a little pity for her there when she knows ninas being used and probably doesnt even realize that. when ninas smarter than cortex will ever be, when coco had NEVER felt the level of threat from cortex that she has from Nina . she knows shed be better off without him and theres a part of her that wants to see it i think. she likes the challenge, she craves it. it gives her something to do something to actually care about.

and i like the plotline in crash of the titans where coco gets kidnapped by her and forced to work on that machine because it makes me think so much about the dynamic there. like why does Nina NEED Coco? her intelligence probably, i also like to think that nina cant build things as effectively as coco can because of her hands getting in the way and breaking shit.

but theres this funny thing in COTT because ninas like mind controlling her to do this with some helmet but instead of just leaving the thing on her and not bothering with her otherwise nina is CONSTANTLY taking it off just to like. what! banter with her?? gloat?? like she finally has this girl forced to hang out with her and shes having the time of her life . and im not even gonna get into the way that they both fumble over insulting each other the whole time. whatever .

the titans games suck but that interaction gives a lot of potential for the idea of like. nina habitually stealing coco away under the guise of needing her hands . i like that 🫵 always making a big show of making coco her prisoner and forcing her to do her bidding because its weird for her to want to see her so often otherwise. and coco eventually just going along with it because helping nina with these plans makes it more challenging to beat her later on. like shes testing herself. and she likes it. theyre needling each other the whole time and yet that doesnt stop nina from eventually trusting coco enough to let her work with her without even keeping her in a cage. even if it gives coco the potential to double cross her . but she never does!

and of course being that close to your enemy leaves them both vulnerable. i think coco does start to understand the real nature of how cortex is to nina and it does make her feel bad. doesnt notice how little bite her insults are having after so long. how nina actively fights to try to touch her in a way thats Gentle when she brings her back to her lab. the way nina is getting more nervous. shed be stupid not to realize how close theyre getting after a while even when they say theyre enemies. when theyre laughing as they beat each other into the dirt a week later. idkk

and ninas so scared of it im sure. she doesnt make it obvious but i know shes self concious as fuck especially when it comes to coco. shes aware of how she Looks. how pretty coco is and how Good she thinks she is compared to her. not like coco would actually Like her like that. stupid nina with no friends almost no family and an uncle who cant even be bothered half the time. she cant actually TRUST anyone, and this little game she has going with coco has to fall apart eventually even if she's dreading it. dreading the day she actually wins like she says she wants to and coco's Gone.

and ideally coco could work with her like that forever. slap a helmet on her, who cares, shes EVIL right? but something about having coco all mindcontrolled and brainless by her side like she did before makes nina a little sick. even if it was nice just having a friend for a day.

i think even when coco does start trying to be closer to her - because it has to be coco initiating. her confidence is less fake than ninas is lmao - it scares nina at first . for many reasons; reasons like, maybe this is a trick. and shes scared of what cortex will do. and she could hurt coco so easily, just like every other poor little animal unlucky enough to be in her hands. and shes a bad person, and she doesn't deserve to be happy, and happiness is weakness anyway, and BESIDES. coco is so pretty and she could do better but also who could possibly be better than NINA- and its really very complicated. so i think nina pushes her away at first but coco is so stubborn and nina is so weird and they both cant stay away from each other for very long. nina sending Tiny Tiger to give coco a message like 'WHAT THE HELL DID YOU DO TO ME. NOW I FEEL STUPID AROUND YOU ALL THE TIME DID YOU POISON ME OR SOMETHING' like coco isnt thinking the same damn thing. like man i thought i hated you what happened. why do i like seeing your stupid little grin. fuck off...wait but dont..ahahhh

and i dont think they ever really like sit down and talk about whats going on between them. they just get closer and closer until they know too much about the other. until theyve let their hands linger too long. until ninas memorized how cocos fur feels on her skin and how much shes missed that. and how much emptier their lives are when the other isnt there to ruin their day. lmaoo. you know

i think they can be soft too. i think they deserve that. let themselves get tired out after all their arguing and spitting and they just look at each other. and its just them, alone together, and they kind of know that they arent going to get this with anyone else. and so i think they allow themselves to be soft with each other . when nina realizes she cant keep pushing coco away and lets her in and coco will kiss her and hold her and let her feel like that girl she was before cortex kind of ripped it all away. just for a little bit. because they know theyll be back after each other later on, they dont really know another way to be yet other than that. but they can have this too and no one else has to know or to get it.

also side note i think its funny how animals have an affinity for nina despite what cortex did to her . and like there is a part of nina that likes coco a lot because she is silly and fluffy and soft and cute and nina is actively working to kill that part of her while coco , Being An Animal, can kind of sense that about her too. i think she uses that against her a little bit . idkk . she thinks nina is cute even if you couldnt torture that fact out of her.

aa. holy fuck. anyway

[dear-ao3]

as some of u may know, my lovely roommate and fellow mod katya has been trying to get my into indy car. and by get me into indy car i mean, explain how the hell it works. because i have no idea. i just know its in america, the cars are pointy, and indianapolis is involved somehow.

as all of you dont know, his single approach to doing this has been to sit my down on our couch and say "here, this will help you understand the racing" and then proceed to put on screaming meals.

what the fuck is screaming meals? you might be asking.

fantastic question.

as far as i can tell it seems to have started as an instagram food review (?) account that later somehow evolved into a podcast series hosted by:

-a guy who aparently is french but im fairly certain has a british accent and is also usually at least a little tipsy. he seems to tell at least one story per episode about something insane that he did while drunk.

-another guy who aparently regularly goes commando, unironically enjoys miley cyrus / hannah montana, and has the strangest collection of sunglasses ive ever seen.

-and a motorsport insurance salesman.

im pretty sure. that the entire thing consists of them all getting (usually) wine drunk and talking sometimes about cars (2 of them are drivers im decently sure) but mostly about weird nights out and the strangest lore. i have far more questions than answers and i definitely still dont know how indy car works. im also baffled as to why the tumblr girlies have not jumped on this train yet because it seems right up their alley

[idolomantises]

Have you watched Murder Drones, and if so what’s your opinion on it?

Also your art is great, keep it up.

Thank you!

And uh. Man. I may make an enemy out of another indie fandom because I don’t really like this show.

I actually loved the pilot and thought episodes 1-3 were incredible, if a bit too fast paced. But episode 4 was kind of a breaking point for me and I dropped off after that.

I don’t think it’s very funny. I think it relies too much on Bathos and it makes it hard to take its cast seriously. As a black comedy it mostly worked for episodes 1-3, but 4? No.

It does this thing I really despise in media where it has themes of genocide but like… heavily deprioritizes it and often portrays it like a comedy. It’s supposed to be funny when innocent characters are murdered because they’re just goofy side characters but when it’s a major character suddenly we have to care, and I don’t like that at all. The main character has a meltdown over finding out that murder drones are sent to kill her people at the end of the pilot, and then in episode 4 she’s murdering her classmates and crying because a boy she likes might think she’s weird. I actually find it pretty frustrating that the robots are portrayed as incredibly cowardly because they’re slowly dying off and scared to die and then they’re hanging out with V who casually murders random children and nobody reacts to it.

I actually do like the idea of a character who’s not reformed but is kind of forced to stick around but when I see her murder characters, traumatize children and then go “haha I just have mental problems” and everyone just… moves on, I just cannot bring myself to care. It causes such a massive dissonance and not in a fun way.

I think it’s very frustrating and unengaging when a story about people doing the right thing and trying to help others has no interest in helping those they’re trying to save.

I think the female cast is solid but I did kind of raise my eye a bit when the only major female character that was killed off was a victim of genocide while the other genocidal characters, two of which gleefully murdered her fucking parents, are just allowed to hang out with the rest of the cast. Uzi especially lost a lot of sympathy for me when she was more emotional about freaking out N than murdering her classmates. Like yeah, they weren’t the nicest to her but it’s weird to establish a character wants to end genocide and then… barely reacts when they also indulge in that genocide.

I don’t really like the characters at all. I don’t like Uzi, I found N irritating and boring (and gives me anime harem protagonist vibes), I thought V was a tryhard and I couldn’t really care for the rest of the cast. I liked Doll but lol, you know how that turned out.

It also has this problem of having an overloaded cast with very little breathing room. I really wish the show just had one, low stakes episode, so we can actually get to know these characters and collect their thoughts. It’s actually one of my concerns for TADC, because as much as I do like that show, I think “no filler” with constant story is going to make or break the show for me. It’s too fast paced and no, I don’t think it’s good that you have to rewatch an episode 4 times to understand what’s going on. I don’t watch indie shows to play where’s Waldo, information should be explained to the audience in a way that feels digestible and natural.

The animation is incredible and the stuff that came out from the finale was insane, but at times it just felt like jangling keys in my face. Like don’t pay attention to rushed story, underdeveloped characters and bizarre tonal whiplash, look at the cool fights. I dont think it does horror well either. In fact I kind of cringe a bit when characters a big wide grins and giggle evilly and it’s mean to be intimidating and it just. Doesn’t work. Feels a bit juvenile honestly.

And. This is a very personal thing. I don’t like the robot designs.

[kayyrandomposts]

(here are my Marcus Flint Headcanons,sorry if you all dont like it😭 hope you all like it)

1)

Hes russian,i dont know why but he just gives me russian vibes so i'll probabily do him russian in every post,i'll use google translator to translate the russian things he'll say so dont hate on me if the translate is wrong😭

2)

Hes a bottom (or maybe a switch) he just doesnt gives me a "top" vibe,everyone do him a top in every story,dont get me wrong,i love the stories but cmon,lets normalize Flint being a bottom,please,i'll probabily make him mostly a bottom in my posts so yeahh.

3)

Hes DEADLY afraid of all types of insects (like me). He just cant stand looking at them even tho he will NOT admit this fear (everyone knows it bc he makes it dead obvious),everytime he'll see an insect,this boy will scream and probabily hide behind whoever is near him for protection (its kinda funny now that i think abt it)

4)

This boy KNOWS how to cook,and knows it very well,i know he does knows it,thats all i have to say.

5)

Hes gay. His guy is the most homosexual boy on earth,even if he fucks and makes out with multiple girls,hes HOMOSEXUAL,he just does it w girls because hes probabily bored😭.

6)

Hes afraid of dentists. No need for an explaination.

7)

He likes books even tho he hates studying,his favourite books are probabily horror ones or dark romance ones.

8)

His favourite colors are dark green and black,even if he'll never admit it,he likes purple too.

9)

His favourite animals are snakes and cats,he has a pet snake in his house,his parents told him multiple times he couldnt have it but they gave up and gave him a pet snake for his 14th birthday,its a girl and her name its probabily Cherri.

10)

WALKING RED FLAG but when you get to know him and he opens up to you,he'll be a sweetheart (and probabily threaten you if you tell it to anyone)

11)

DADDY ISSUES. ABSOLUTELY MASSIVE DADDY ISSUES. His mother left his father for another man and since Marcus is IDENTICAL to his mother,his father hates him for looking so much like her.

12)

MASSIVE trust issues,this man wont open up to you so easily,it could take days,months or even a whole year for him to open up to you.

13)

His favourite foods are sandwiches,he cares about his health so he always eat sandwiches.

14)

He has scars all over his body,from fightes or quidditch practices or matches probabily left by bludgers.

15)

He has sleepy eyes and   has a DAMN SCARY death glare.

16)

He has earrings,he got them at 12 and always wears the damn same (black pearls) even if he has a collection of ALL BLACK earrings (and wears a lot of black rings,bracalets and necklaces too).

17)

His wardrobe is ALL BLACK even tho the only colored hoodies he has are from either Adrian Pucey or from Terence Higgs.

18)

He hates Snape and professor Sprout because Snape is too strict and he hates Sprout only because he hates herbology.

19)

His favourite subjects are flying lessons (of course.) And Defense Against Dark Arts.

20)

(LAST ONE FOR NOW.)

He (Strangely) LOVES stuffed animals,he has a snake stuffed animal (From Adrian) hidden in his room so no one can find it (his whole team knows it.) He probabily even sleeps with his snake stuffed animal.

(ALRIGHT THATS IT FOR NOW,IK ITS BAD SORRY,TELL ME IF YOU LIKE IT AND GIVE ME MORE IDEAS FOR OTHER HEADCANONS AND TELL ME MORE CHARACTERS TO DO,BYEE)

[crownedhades]

im having a killer sans and my own personality disorder fixation so i might as well talk about them both. and also share how my symptoms and love for killer overlap.

ill also be talking about color and swap sans.

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so for reference i have covert schizoid personality disorder. covert meaning that you would not initially expect me to be szpd upon first meeting me unless youre a psychologist that understands how my inner mind works.

anyway. szpd is also commonly compared to autism, depression, avoidant and anti-social personality disorders due to a variety of reasons and overlapping symptoms.

short comparison explanation to quickly dumb it down: autism? shared social ineptness. depression? chronic anhedonia. apd? we... avoid people. aspd? most schizoid's have limited or no empathy.

for a quick szpd description, read this brief mayo website. keep in mind, though, that while mayo clinic is mostly credible, they do reference the dsm-5. schizoid specialized psychologists are known for having beef with the dsm-5 and constantly shit on it in their introductions in schizoid related research papers.

as another thing, schizoid's have this thing called a "safety person." not all schizoid's have one, but its a clinical term used for when a schizoid trusts someone enough to rely on them for things. i guess. (similar to the term "favorite person" for bpd? but obviously not as extreme since we can easily cut our sp off if theyre deemed unsafe. we're not that attached.)

why am i explaining all of this? because i know damn well most people reading this have no idea what szpd is. from lengthy experience.

moving on!

what you have been all been waiting for... killer sans.

yeah, honestly, i love the dude. i kind of see him as a son more than anything, so outside of me projecting myself onto him, hes kind of like a son to me.

an adult son that i have not been able to kick out of the house for a millenia bc he spends all of his money on random shit that he collects and trophies in his room. type of vibe.

anyways, i know people usually headcanon killer as having aspd. and im not gonna take that away from anyone because honestly, i 45% agree with it. its not my cup of tea, but theres definitely some convincing signs.

but then do i headcanon him as having szpd, if not aspd? fuck to the fucking no. he is closer to aspd than szpd for sure, even if i dont fully support aspd killer.

but as someone with szpd, i do heavily relate to killer in quite a few things. such as the general emotional supression that comes with being a schizoid. the absolute indifference that embodies us. the lack of reaction. the lack of feeling. the lack of identity. having to mimic other people just to blend in and avoid confrontation because we dont want any kind of attention. good or bad attention.

sure, killer is much different than us when it comes to attention. honestly, from the looks of it, im pretty convinced he has periods of craving attention.

schizoids do not crave attention.

but on a lot of other things.... its easy to relate to him. its easy to see myself in him. its easy to pick apart his mind and psychoanalyze his character when you've already done half the work just by observing yourself.

a schizoids observation of the self can be described by this fellow tumblr user.

so its very easy to understand killer. stupidly easy. like a predictable animal under the influence of "classical conditioning."

classical conditioning... this does not help with my more cruel, angst-driven headcanons.

but anyway.

color sans in specific almost feels like a safety person to killer. because like... in order to be a safety person, you have to respect a schizoid's autonomy and independence. you cannot force us to rely on you. you cannot force us to open up to you.

so i make this comparison because i feel like thats exactly how it works between killer and color, too. they go at each others own pace. color only makes emotional demands when its important, but otherwise keeps a reasonable space as to not overwhelm or threaten killers autonomy. mutual respect and effort kind of thing.

i also make this comparison due to killer's absolute hatred for swap sans. how hes depicted to always be bullying or releasing his anger out on swap. and for what? because swap wants to help killer?

another trait that happens to relate to schizoid.

schizoids easily feel disgusted by reassurance and people going out of their way to "help them." mostly due to the schizoids innate superiority complex (but has a stable ego, uneffected by praise or criticism) and because schizoids "already know" what theyre being reassured on.

its like youre insulting our intelligence and logical reasoning, essentially, since we are not intune with our emotions enough to accept emotional reassurance.

which i think killer also feels when it comes to swap. swap's attitude feels more like an insult than anything, which is different from color's laid-back approach.

"how dare you tell me something i already know?" kind of thing.

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this is all for tonight. i might make a part 2 post tomorrow. its time for bed for me.

again tho i do not think killer is szpd. this is just a comparison for funsies.

edit: heres part 2

[villainsimpqueen]

Impimacy Things.

Adam x Imp! Reader

Adam doesnt eat Apples.

You didn't actually think anything of it, One morning you had woken up way before him and slipped out of his hold and out of his bed. Heading off to the kitchen where you collectively decieded to make a mess.

Aka try to suprise your current Situationship with a freshly made breakfast.

Your idea was to make fluffy baked apple pancakes with an apple filling, with some eggs and sausage.

So you set off to work on making them all, peeling and chopping up apples and tossing the bits in a bowl of cinnamon, sugar, nutmeg you started to work on the pancakes batter.

You hadn't heard Adam when he entered the kitchen, you simply went to turn and squealed as your heart dropped to your stomach almost falling from the kitchen chair you had brought into the kitchen to use as a glordified stool to see the gain man there.

His gaze didnt leave you, as he focused on the fruit in his hand, small compared to him but still his golden eyes locked on it.

You resettled and once you took noticed of his blabk expression you felt concern build in you.

"Adam?" You called watching as his eyes moved from the red fruit towards you.

"Whatcha making?" He questioned, simply leaning again the counter twirling the apple in his fingers.

"Oh! uh baked apple pancakes, I was gonna stuff with with filling n stuff as a suprise for breakfast!" You had excitedly explained to him, watching how he nodded along to your explanation.

"Sounds badass babes." He hummed out before moving and setting the apple down. "Can't eat it tho."

It made you do a double take, staring at him as he simply stared at you before you immediately caught on and started to panic.

"Oh fuck im so so so sorry, i didnt even put it toghether-" Your rambled apologies made him chuckle some as he moved to you pressing a kiss on top of your head.

"Its good babes." He says with a shrugg moving around you and deeper into the kitchen as he grabbed pancake mix, to make more batter.

"You can still do that, I just gonna make my own." He moved grabbing a bowl coming back beside you as he started making his own batter and you hesitantly went back to making your own. When you glanced back at him he was staring back at the apples again.

"I can throw them out." You said softly assuring him, you didnt want to be the reason he was uncomfortable. Yet Adam simply shook his head looking at you, his wings twitching slightly.

"Nah ya dont gotta do all that. Its just..." He paused, his eyes falling on his own hands.

its just

You moved placing a hand on one of his own, causing him to inhale before looking at you, a great war in his eyes as he debated. Whatever it was it seemed to end as he exhaled and spoke again.

"There were two kinds of apples." He simply spoke, a guilt forming on his face as he stared at you.

"When Eve was offered an apple from a tree, I had found her, I was so hurt and thought she too was leaving me...for that prick, like Lilith had...I snatched it from her, and took a large bite out of it, in spite....She didnt...." Hes voice grew shakey....

"She didnt even know...It wasnt even The Apple they gave her....But because of me taking the one from her hands she went and grabbed another from The Tree and bit into it......" Adam moved dragging hands across his face. He was starting to shake, his wings ruffling up with the feathers puffing up.

"They both were always fucking involving themselves around her...I didn't-I couldn't trust them with Eves safety...Not when they were always doing fucking shit that got Lilith fucking hurt, I didn't want them getting Eve hurt...and I thought...It was my fault that she ate that fucking Apple."

You moved reaching for his hands pulling them from his face, and he let you with ease, there you could see the raw guilt and grief that was built into his expression, tears that were hardly being held back. You knew this wound has been something He had open for so many years.

"It wasn't your fault." You whispered and you watched how he squeezed his eyes shut. You moved a hand against his cheek.

"It was." He said and you knew he told himself that all this time.

"You didn't know. You thought you took it from her, You thought they were trying to harm her, You thought they had stolen her from you. You thought they had hurt you once again. I dont think its your fault. And surely a place like this dont believe it was your fault because if it was, You wouldn't be up here, and they wouldn't be dowm there."

You knew you words of assurance would never heal the wound that was burried so deep into his heart.

But you did see how it made it just a little easier for him to breathe.

Small conversation, soft conversation is where you learned that ever since well The Apple Incident, Adam never could bite into another apple again. The taste of it alone, even the smell of apples would make him so utterly sick and wracked with grief and guilt. He avoided them like the plague.

You both moved on to finish up breakfast, You had simply moved away the apple mixture and apples entirely from the counter, you would bake with them another time and instead of your first plans you changed them to Fluffy Chocolate chip pancakes with eggs and sausage, snuggled up togther on the couch watching some morning show.

"You want to see it one day?" He suddenly spoke softly, quietly and it made you turn your head up to him to see this vulnerable soft look in his morning sun colored eyes.

"See what?" You asked softly, unsure of what he was trying to ask of you.

"My true home Eden."

You felt your self feel utterly supprised at him, you thought the whole spill about Eden was it was gone entirely after Adam and Eve had been banished.

"We can go see it?" You asked in wonder before pausing looking into those soft eyes of his. "Im allowed to see it?"

Adam simply moved kissing your forhead.

"Anywhere I can go, You can Go babes." He said softly, and you nuzzled into him feeling excitment growing in you and wonder.

"If you wish me to see it than i certain would be honored too Adam!" You chirped at him.

If only you saw how softly he looked at you, and then the ring on your finger.

[salad-006]

i'd really like to know the premises or any info you can spare abt the split personality matt AU (even tho i can already guess, i still wanna hear abt it), slime matt, shadow matt, ZMR, mattputer, the white mask, project m411, and the gingerbot AU

a very quick very short summary for each will be satisfactory, especially because i know i'm kind of asking a lot here. i just really love seeing matt get put through the ringer or into some wacky shit <3

@four-bastard-bustle

Split personality matt . Oh god

To put it bluntly, this ones bad . Like kinda just. abelist bad Out of nowhere Matt suddenly develops a condition where if he hits his head, he flies into a manic rage and starts trying to kill the first person he sees . There's apparently no reason he just does that now

Eventually we learn the 'evil matt' (later dubbed Ttam) is actually an alter ego. A.... split personality if you will.... I don't remember what his motives are, i guess he just likes killing people or some shit. Anyway Eventually ttam takes control long enough to escape the house, and when he returns he's got a mirror with the good matt trapped inside. Gulp !

Oh and then like because he's in control all the time he learns the concept of remorse and guilt for his actions and some shit idk it was dumb . Here's the only proper drawing i made of ttam

Numba 2 : slime matt

Slime matt was very much just an art experiment, so it doesn't have all too much lore to it. And when it does have lore, it's kinda subject to change. Generally though all thats really contained is that Matt is transformed into a fuckoff slime thing and he's miserable . The au was abandoned not very long into its existence because I learned that people turning into slime was a fetish , which made me too nervous to draw it lol

Speaking of which here's some of the original doodles

Shadow Matt is very much an enigma of a character. Simply put, I generally have no recollection of what he was, or why he existed. Looking back at old art he's a somewhat consistent regular when it comes to matt mega collection drawings, but. I dont know what he does. I dont even know his name. Sometimes its labled as ttam, sometimes he's shadow matt, and sometimes he's not named at all . I have no fucking clue what this guy is or when he came to exist

Ohh god zmr . Full name Zombeh Matts return . It was a comic I started that started as a simple 'zombie attack iv' concept and ended with utter madness. I had a decently long thing written out, howver im realizing just how long it got before i even finished 20 pages, so im keeping this one short.

Tldr, matt is kidnapped by the red army, and attacked by Zombie Matt who's come back from the past. A few days later they find zom has broken into the house, and ends up killing tom. Edd runs away like a coward, leaving him alone as a zombie apocalypse starts.

He calls up laurel who comes to visit, and together they go out to try and find Matt or Tom. In the end they find 'Matt', who's actually zom in disguise. He suggests they resurrect tom with the necronomicon, however on the way there they find the real matt, realizing it was a trick. By the time they get to the cemetery zom has the book, and turns himself into like a fuckoff demon thing. Immediately he decapitates matt and laurel, leaving edd to run away like a coward again

And this is only like. The first 20 pages. I'm realizing now that there's still sooo much to explain, including a good and bad ending. So if someone REALLY wants the rest of the zmr lore, let me know cause otherwise im moving on

Mattputer. Funnily enough the mattputer part of the au has like. No relevance in the story pretty quickly

The tale of tMat is probably the most ridiculous in the long run. It starts out simple: Matt died in a car crash, and unable to cope with the loss, Edd makes an ai chatbot of Matt to help him cope. (Not very well ages nowadays of course)

It's funny though because the chatbot part hardly matters overall. Gradually as the story goes on we learn Tords role in the story, how nervous and erratic he's been, how there's Something definitely haunting him specifically.

Eventually we come to learn the truth, which is that Tord was the one behind the wheel when Matt died. Now because of it Matts ghost (tMat) has been haunting him.

This is where it gets Dumb though . As the story progresses tMats appearance is changing. As it would turn out, as conveniently explained by Tord, ghosts brought up by hate will turn into demons 5 years after their death, at which point they'll have no memory of their past life and only exist to bring suffering. So Tord has to stop this, and to do so he calls apon the audience (it was an ask blog btw) to remind Matt of his life while he sets the fucked up ghost trap.

What ends up happening is this: Tord pulls the blue matt clone from spares out of the closet (apparently he just went braindead a little while after the events of the episode) and leaves him in the evil ghost circle. Then he lures tMat into the circle and gives a chant, which separates the demon half and ghost half from Matts soul. The ghost goes into the clone vessel, and the demon gets sucked into a mirror. Edd walks in and sees Matt's alive again. Happy ending.

But . Thats not where it ends. See we keep following tMat after he goes into the mirror, where he's in this like. Big void full of bubbles. Bubbles that lead into other universes. He's in the goddamn salad mutliverse.

After stumbling across me sleep at my desk (no joke) the ask blog was ultimately scrapped right as he came across a room full of "abandoned Matts." however my plan was to make an overarching multiverse story, where tMat became this looming figure in the background of all my storys until eventually, all the matts of the multiverse must band together and defeat the evil. You'll be sad to hear that plan never played out at all

The white mask is a fanfic i made for a Halloween contest a few years back. This one I'll also only explain partally, just because it's probably the longest fanfic i ever wrote single handedly . Once again if someone wants the full thing let me know

Matts gone missing. One day he went for a walk, and never came back. And at the same time, theres a killer on the loose. He's been killing people Edd and Tom know, making Tom question if it could be Tord

Edd is stressed about the whole thing, given his best friend is most likely dead in a ditch somewhere. He tries to continue life as normal, despite the killer on the loose. One night while he's driving to the store he spots the killer in an alleyway, watching him. Scary!

He gets his stuff from the store and begins heading back home. However as he's driving, Edd realizes there's movement in the backseat. There's someone back there.

He tries to keep driving and park somewhere else, just to make sure this guy doesn't know his address, but its too late. As Edd drives past his house, the murderer pipes up, and reminds Edd that he went too far. So edd backs up, parks the car, and heads inside while leaving all the groceries inside.

And the next morning, the groceries are sitting on the counter waiting for him.

Project M411 started as another fanfic, which starts right after Tord blows up the house during the end. However this time Matts the one in the house instead of Tom, and he's the one that gets blown up

Edd rushes in to try and find Matt after Tord Also gets blown up. However apon unearthing him Edd discovers that Matts skin has been blown off on one side, and underneath is robotics . He's a machine!

After learning he's not a person, Matt gets kinda depressed and reclusive. One night Edd persuades him to come with him and Tom on a walk, only for them to get beamed up by aliens. The aliens from space face i forget what theyre called. Vanity fuckers idk

As it would turn out, Matt was actually a drone dropped off by the aliens to scope out the planet. However only a few years in they suddenly lost connection with him, and now they were finally back to retrieve their droid, and reset him back to default

Unfortunately this is kinda the point where my work on the concept tampered off, so im not 100% sure what else I had planned. I know i wanted to do something with alien bob ordering the factory reset Matt to execute Edd, only for the power of friendship to override Matts systems or something blah blah blah who care

Finally, gingerbot. This ironically is very similar to both car crash cyborgs and mattputer. It technically has two variants, however I'll probably just stick to the most current version. Just know that this started as the first version of the tally hall au, and it involved the mafia

One night, Edd and Matt get kidnapped while out driving. By whom ? The evil and dreaded bing and larry. They're held prisoner in bings basement, up until the point where Edd manages to pull free of his ropes. He tries to get them both free, however in his panic he changes his mind last second, and chooses to come back for Matt instead. So he leaves and runs all the way back home . Only to pass the fuck out immediately instead

Fearing the consequences of not immediately reporting the crime, Edd panics again and clamps up. No one knows where Matt went, and it stays that way until a year later when they find parts of his body in a dumpster. Oopsie

A few more years later, and Edd is met by an unexpected visitor: matt. However he's not quite the same. Not only does he hardly remember anything, but he's also a cyborg.

Tldr theres a lot of drama inbetween edd and matt. Once matt remembers who he is properly again he blows up on edd, finally revealing to the world what happened that night. Edd does what he can to try and fix the situation, and hopefully one day give Matt a reason to forgive him

But they're not quite out of the water yet because WHOAOA bing and larry are still on the hunt for their little science experiment. As it would turn out, Larry is essentially the prototype to Matt. A cyborg with a similar design, however he's considered a failure thanks to being resurrected completely devoid of emotion. I hope they dont find the gingerbot!

[feukt-42]

Yet another post about Leda

You know, its kind of funny, but I've been browsing ER fanfics and fancontent almost daily for a while now (pls help), and one thing I've noticed is that a lot of people just. do not want. to put Leda and the gang in their fanfics. The most out of all Miquella's followers I found was Ansbach with 68 fics on Ao3. Leda herself comes at second with 48 fics and the others just kind of fizzle out after that. By comparison, Messmer, another DLC character, already has 500 fics.

Now, I know that this in large part due to the Messmer horny. But still. There's been 1,372 fics released in the ER tag since the DLC released as of me writing this. That doesn't really explain it. A good explanation might be that souls fans like to dwell on the pre-canon lore era we don't get to see, but even then, I remain disappointed by the lack of Leda in those fics as well. I have read several Haligtree-or-adjacent-focused fics written post SotE and few of them feature Leda or the needle knights, which is honestly a shame because Miquella having his own order of knights (almost counterbalance to the cleanrots), is a very interesting idea, and I am starving for Leda interacting with literally any member of that cast, her whole deal is just so interesting. And its not like Miquella doesn't care about her and she's just a weird fanboy, he gave her a wholeass rune and shit.

"But OP," you might be asking, "why dont you just write your own fic then ?". And you see, that is an excellent point, but I am unfortunately a coward with no confidence in my writing skills. So instead, I decide to make this.

I hereby present :

My Leda facts/analysis/interpretation/theories collection !

I am making this mostly to gush about Leda to spark interest in her as a character and maybe give interested writers who have actual skill to use this to get some inspiration. By no means am I suggesting that this is a guide everyone should follow, this is mostly just my inane ramblings about a character i am obsessed with. Still, if it helps someone make something, that's a net positive in my book.

without further ado, let's get into it.

Part 1 : Miscellaneous Facts

Fact number 1 : Leda doesn't see grace (at least her character model implies so):

I don't remember where it was, but I remember seeing a post that had every SotE NPC's eye colour in it. And a cool thing about that was that only a few characters didn't have the grace of gold in their eyes. And I remember specifically getting to Leda, noble knight of Miquella, and finding out that her eyes do not have a single trace of gold in them. They are grey with a blood-red clouding.

And I just found that so interesting it made me make this post, because what does it mean ? How did she lose it ? Did she ever have it in the 1st place ? Some of you might be thinking it's because she follows Miquella and not the GO, but the funny part is that, again, most of the others have it !

Hornsent has it, Ansbach has it, Freyja has it, Ymir has it, Moore has it, even the fucking madding hand has it. So why doesnt Leda ? (this also goes for some of the other NPCs who don't have it but im not spinning them in my head like a microwave so too bad ig)

Fact number 2 : She definitely killed the other needle knights

Ok so I already talked about this somewhere but I don't remember where so let's just start over from the beginning. The description of the Retaliatory Crossed-Tree states there were once more Needle Knights but now there's only one left. Meanwhile, Leda's sword says it "still reeks with the stench of crusted blood that lingers from the cull of her knightly comrades". Love myself a good "can't wash away the blood" trope.

Anyways, I took those two facts together to mean that she killed the other Needle Knights and talked about it in that alleged prior conversation I mentioned, but someone else replied that her "knightly comrades" could very well mean Hornsent and Ansbach, whom she attempts to cull before you reach Enir-Ilim. And I wanted to disagree with that, but I didn't actually have any evidence except "it's funnier this way" so you know, fair's fair. Except ! No it isn't !

When you help kill Hornsent, she says this :

He never placed his full trust in me, even under the effect of Kindly Miquella's spell. He must've recognised something. The scent of the killer that slept within me. The stench of crusted blood.

Mind you, this is before killing Ansbach, and right after killing Hornsent. The crusted blood from the cull of her comrades cannot be theirs, meaning Leda did kill the other NKs.

Fact number 3 : She deadass just smells like blood the whole time we see her

As just stated, we have 2 items describing how Leda just smells like dried blood. This has endless comedic potential imo, hear me out :

You first meet this dignified, knightly woman in Mohgs arena. You don't notice anything wrong with her smell, because of course it smells like blood in here, have you seen the place ?

The next time you meet her is in Scadu Altus. You begin to think something does smell really bad here. It's still not her however, because the Hornsent and his canonically shitstained loincloth are standing like 10 meters away from you, likely overpowering the scent.

You only get to realize its her constantly smelling like blood after the charm is broken and Hornsent leaves, and that coincides perfectly with the reveal that she's just paranoid as fuck.

10/10 olfactive storytelling. I mostly just put this fact here in honor of that Bloodborne bosses ranked by smell post tbh, that shit lives rent-free in my brain.

Character analysis time ! This bit is more given to interpretation so feel free to disagree on this :

Shes really not that bloodthirsty you guys

Alright, so this one might be a bit surprising given we just went over the fact she smells like blood, but the popular interpretation of Leda doing this because she likes killing and shit is just dead wrong to me. I spoke about it before, but there are so many lines of dialogue that suggest otherwise. Hell, even the sword description says she tried her damnedest to get the blood to come off. Here are some of the most telling lines i found (from fextralife/the github with all the text from SotE) :

-Her describing herself as a "killer" in that line about hornsent and crusted blood earlier, she seems to be very blunt and honest about what she does, almost to a self-deprecating point.

-I know I shouldn't let myself... But I suppose it's only natural to feel the weight of one's deeds at times like these. There is plenty left to be done. And I will see to it. <- what else do i even add here

-I don't enjoy casting suspicion on anyone I've called a comrade. But it's a small sacrifice in the grand scheme of things. We must eradicate all doubt...

-None can deny Sir Ansbach was truly a great man. We can be proud, that we were the last opponents he ever faced.

-Sir Ansbach must have considered it an honourable end, being felled by your hand. After all, the good fellow held you in the highest regard. When we speak of it, we may speak with pride—that we were Sir Ansbach's final adversaries

Those lines seem to be alternate versions of the dialogue you get after helping her kill Ansbach. And oh my fucking goodness gracious, i fucking love the second one. Like ghhhhhh, the grief for a comrade and the guilt and the self-justification and the need to move forward and theres somehow even more blood on her sword that she can't ever wash off but she can't stop here, she has to keep doing this because its not about her for her, its not about her feelings or her guilt its all just for the greater purpose shes reaching towards arghhh its so good.

There's also a notable throughline of her shutting her emotions down more and more as she goes, whether its to better do her job or to follow in miquella's footsteps :

-Unruly emotions only lead to misfortune. All the more reason we need someone like Miquella the Kind.

-Man is a compassionate animal, for better or worse.

-So be it. If you insist upon facing Miquella the Kind, Then I will run you through, whoever you might be.

-A single betrayal, enough to turn the tides… Unfortunate, but I will leave you be, for now. 

-I expected things to end differently with you. What a pity

-I suppose it was Sir Ansbach who won you over. Fine. One more heart for my blade to skewer.

Side Note : Those three last ones also read like shes really salty about being betrayed, and that's really juicy because it feels like she trusted you. She trusted you a lot more than most of the others, so it really stings quite a bit to learn you were lying the entire time.

All in all, it really does feel like she has to shut herself down to be a better knight, a more efficient tool for Miquella to wield. It's also quite tragic because she seems to be a compassionate person at heart, she welcomes you into the club, she constantly tries to understand the reasonings for other people's actions, and she tries to find ways to let those she suspects off the hook :

-The hornsent, hmm. On one hand, he trusts Miquella the Kind to bring salvation to his people. With the enchantment lifted, his vengeful passions may once again ignite, but surely he'd be mindful of Kindly Miquella's promise... <- this reads like her trying to convince herself she doesn't have to kill him

It's also very interesting because despite that, she really doesn't seem to be much of a people person :

-But for this very reason, Thiollier is incapable of betrayal. St. Trina's love for Kind Miquella is boundless. She is, after all, his other half. Or perhaps her feelings go beyond even that. Even if she was left behind, I doubt her heart would waver. <- she's just deadass wrong about Thiollier and St Trina

-If you don't meet her before the charm breaks, she does a really awkward introduction and then immediately starts infodumping about her crippling paranoia and zealotry

-Ansbach straight up just tells you : So, you've taken Lady Leda's side. I'm glad she stands with an ally. She tends to overestimate the burden she might carry alone. This is straight up just "oh nice, you finally made a friend, im so glad for you". This implies that Ansbach didn't believe Leda really had anyone on her side before then, and she kinda doesn't tbh. No one is really here because of Leda in the final battle, Dane is here for Miquella, Freyja is here for Radahn, Moore is here to cope with existence, and Hornsent just has an (understandable) hate boner for everything Golden Order. She doesn't really have any friends.

(Also shoutout to Ansbach for being concerned about the people trying to kill him, he really is the goat fr. Also: I've utterly failed you both... No wait grandpa its not your fault im so sorry)

--the funniest moment in the DLC imo : I've come to a realisation... There's ample evidence... Without Kindly Miquella's influence... I'm quite mistrustful of others...

Ah yes of course, the trust issues. Where do I even start.

This woman has nothing but contempt for mankind as a species. She is, as stated earlier, compassionate and tries to be nice to people but she constantly assumes the worst of everyone as a reflex. Her trying to find a way not to kill Hornsent is only because she wholeheartedly believe he will be the worst version of himself as a baseline, and thus thinks of him as a threat who must be dealt with.

-I'm afraid Sir Ansbach will have to be next. He claims he hasn't the spirit to take up his sword again, But in his day, he was the feared commander of the Pureblood Knights, who cleaved open Miquella the Kind with his blood blade. But I doubt it'll be very long... Before he recalls, as I have, the cascading sheets of blood. <- no trust at all

-her dialogue about you "turning on her" also feel like she's resigned about it, like someone who came in expecting failure and was still disappointed, like why did i even try, i should really know better.

-That aside, man is by nature a creature of conquest. They were never saints. They just happened to be on the losing side of a war. <- the classic. What else needs to be said. These are the words of someone who takes war, violence and hatred as a given.

And that leads me to my next point. I think Leda has had a very violent life overall. Some of the shit she says sounds too specific to just be a generalisation:

-But vengeance changes a man.

-Unruly emotions only lead to misfortune.

-Before he recalls, as I have, the cascading sheets of blood.

-One more heart for my blade to skewer.  

-The scent of the killer that slept within me.

This all sounds like she's talking from experience, and there's also her skills as a knight : she has the highest hp pools of the gank squad and can 2-3 shot most players. I know gameplay =/=lore but Freyja respects the hell out of her: Lady Leda and honourable Ansbach are of a special breed.

It's a very interesting combination of an extremely skilled knight who is very good at killing, has presumably been living a very violent existence and who trusts no one but herself, but who also hates having to kill and feels really guilty about it, despite having to do it for the sake of her cause.

And I believe that is the crux of her purpose, and why she is going through so much to fulfill it at any cost:

Leda believes intelligent beings are inherently flawed , and can never be trusted to do anything but make each other suffer. Leda is tired of inflicting and receiving violence, and sees little purpose in seeing the good in others. Leda would have probably made a terrific Lord of Frenzied Flame with how little hope she has.

But instead, she found Miquella. Miquella, who dreams of an age of compassion and who is in a position to achieve it, Miquella, who was raised in an order built and maintained through violence and grew to abhor it. Miquella, who Leda probably sees herself in, who Leda trusts blindly and unconditionally, for whom Leda is ready to commit any atrocity, no matter how it makes her feel, because he is her lifeline. He is her very last hope, the only solution short of complete annihilation she can see for mankind to reach pace.

So what if that peace is forced, is all of this suffering truly worth what little free will we can exert onto our world ? Leda has seen what mankind does with its free will, and she is tired of it.

She doesn't care if she lives to see it, she doesn't care if she has to kill every last part of herself in order for the world to see peace. No one will miss her anyway, she's nothing but a blood-soaked murderer. It doesn't matter if she likes these people, friendship and trust aren't worth all this senseless violence.

So she'll keep killing and killing and culling, until her blade is dull with crusted blood and every last obstacle to Miquella's age of compassion is gone. That's what a Needle knight does, is it not ? Kindly Miquella fashioned us as his needles to quell all, to ward away all.

And if Miquella doesn't understand her, it doesn't matter. He's far too good to understand the sacrifices necessary. She'll do what he can't. The other needle knights did not understand this, they were too naive to do what has to be done, so they were a liability. Don't think about their betrayed looks of terror, don't think about the cloying stench of blood sticking to your footsteps, this is your burden, this is what you deserve. You already knew you couldn't trust anyone, why would this be different ?

If Miquella must cast away parts of his very being to have this world then so can you. So sever that part of yourself that says you should be nice, that you should trust those willing to help, it only makes things worse. It will all be worth it in the end.

Phew, i kind of went apeshit while writing that last part. I hadn't really planned all that honestly.

To conclude this essay, I'd like to point out a really fun parallel to draw here. In this analysis, I have described my interpretation of Leda as a very skilled self-loathing blood-soaked knight who is tired of their endless crusade and yet is endlessly pushed forward by their utter devotion to their god, their salvation made flesh, whom they will shield for the atrocities committed in their name by being the sole person to blame. If that doesnt remind you of Messmer, then i think ill just curl up into a ball and yell very loudly.

Thanks for reading till the end of this absolutely nightmarishly long ramble, let me know if you liked it ! And don't hesitate to send any Leda fics you find or write along the way !

[jerrysghostwriter]

Show Me Those Pretty White Jaws

(Had to do this bc every II fic Ive read yall collectively decided to do him dirty)

Tw | biting

Nsfw/mdni

⋅•⋅⊰∙∘☽༓☾∘∙⊱⋅•⋅

II POV-

This is the fourth time today Vessel has caught me staring at him, more specifically his neck, the way he throws his head back when singing, his adams apple bobbing when he takes a sip of water, I just cant seem to look away.

"Ya' okay mate?" His smooth voice cut through my thoughts

Shaking my head i respond "Yeah, yeah I'm good, what were the lyrics you wanted to change?"

He delved off into explaining the lyrics he wanted to change or "fix" as he says, ever the perfectionist, though he always has been , before he is finished speaking im again drawn to his neck, the junction where his shoulder meets it, the hollow beneath his throat, I cant seem to stop, I know I should, i thought id gotten rather used to hiding my affections, longing looks and the way i flush or fidget when he gets too close. You'd have thought after all these years my feelings would of dissipated or that i could have just told him how i felt but I never seem to be able to get the words out or let go.

Vessels POV-

I know he is looking, lately my neck seems to be a weak spot, something else for me to exploit while I push him to the edge , I want him to break, show me the things he has been hiding and hold back. Upon noticing this yesterdays studio session Ive grown tired of waiting, he looks, longs, desires. I see it because Ive done the same, I cant remember a time I didnt want him in some capacity, romantically, sexually , just for him to finally give in. Truthfully, I think im tired of waiting.

"What is it you find so interesting about my neck?" I ask with a tilt of my head

"W-what?" He looks like a dear caught in headlights, eyes jumping from my face and right back to my neck

"This entire session you have done nothing but stare and try to hide the hard on you sport every time i walk into a room"

II pov-

Fuck, fuck, fuck, he knows. He knew this entire time, ive never felt so ashamed in my life.

"Look Ves, Im sorry its not-" I stumble, panic slowly setting in

"I didnt say i minded it" he said slowly walking towards me

" you dont?" Huh??

"Ive been waiting for you to make your move II , break the control you are so tightly wound in"

Something about his words seem to snap in my mind over and over, before he could get any closer id stood up and turned him around to pin against the couch beneath me.

"II what-"

"You knew this entire time? Yet you said nothing, while i suffered in silence? Too afraid to ruin our friendship" I spoke between kisses against his neck

"Why?" "Why not ever say anything?"

"I was afraid" he shyly said

"You forget ive known you this long ves" I tsked

"I want the truth"

"I wanted to see you crack, lose your composure, for me" he whined

"You get what you wished for" As i finished my sentence I smashed my lips into his , wrapping my hand around his neck like a collar or one of those pretty necklaces he distracts me with

"II please" he begs pushing his hips up into mine, attempting to find any friction he can wrapping his leg around my hip pulling me even further in

Truly losing my hold on myself at his words, the begging and small moans, i went for his belt buckle as he pulled on my shirt , reaching into his pants to pull him out  already leaking pre cum, stroking him lightly i lay open mouthed kisses and small bites down from his jaw to navel stopping to nip at the skin of waistline and hips

My hand slowly travels up his shaft putting more pressure at the tip causing him to buck into my hand "do you want to fuck my mouth dove?" I whisper out looking into his eyes "please" he replies barely over a whisper. I take him into my mouth until i feel his tip hitting the back of my throat

"Fuck II"  he lets out a drawn out moan soon cut off as i reach one hand up to wrap around his throat , lightly squeezing the sides causing him to twitch in my mouth, I let my spit drip down and wet his cock slowly and teasingly i start to bob my head up and down, sucking lightly, paying special attention to the vein running down the underside of him, letting off every time he twitches or pulses in my mouth

"II please I need more" he whined pulling my hair as I let off of his dick with a small pop and swirl of my tongue to his tip causing a whimper to fall from his lips, he looked down at me, flushed red from chest to cheeks, breathing heavily, nearly in tears , hips slightly moving beneath my weight

" what do you want darling?"

" I need you in me II, I cant wait any longer" he nearly cries, seeing as im on the edge myself I relieve him of the teasing, slowly lining up , looking down at him to watch each and every expression that crosses his face as i breach the rim of his ass, every hitch in his breath or groan he lets out leading my movements, taking my time as to not hurt him, nearly fully sheathed at 6 inches he starts to shift his hips seeking more movement

"Impatient are we?" I start to tease though i get moving all the same

"Oh gods II" he groans as i pick up my pace , shifting my hips to hit that perfect spot at every thrust , bending down to lean over him i nuzzle my face into the crook of his neck , my forearm resting above his head as he quickly gets louder with the change in position, his hands clawing at my back nearly drawing blood, screaming everything from my name to prayers to sleep himself, he moves to muffle his moans but I catch his wrist before he can, pinning it down to rest under my arms.

" You sing with that pretty voice all time doll, sing for me" i whisper in his ear

At my words he seems to let go, no longer caring of how vocal he is

"II fuck please don't stop I'm gonna cum" he cries

"A little longer dove" 

I pick up my pace once more, bringing one arm between us to stroke his dick, feeling myself about to go over that edge, pleasure building at the base of my spine , I bring my mouth to his neck and bite down as I come, hoping I leave marks behind to see tomorrow, It seems to be enough to throw vessel over the edge as well, cumming with a shout of my name and a hand digging into my side bucking into me uncontrollably

Once we have both come down from the highs of our orgasm we lie there breathing heavy, covered in each others mess

"Are you okay?" I ask finally getting the courage to move to clean us up, afraid of how things will change after our actions tonight.

"Im good, amazing actually, though i realized at the end there what you wanted my neck for" he chuckled seeming content

I moved to clean us up thinking that even if things do change between us it could only be for the better.

This is was written kind of short notice but hopefully someone enjoys it

[jellykyunnie]

//Kyunnie rambling like a madman over her fave charas

why must I grow to be so empathetic and easily attached to people who are so broken.

I cant move on from Jinwoo's unspoken trauma, Aventurine's love of gambling because its the only aspect of him he has complete control over, and Wanderer who is driven by self-hatred and anger has grown as a puppet slowly learning to become empathetic and gentle despite his arrogant exterior and his supposed "Heartless" figure.

I hate how we are not given enough or even any deep dive into Jinwoo's overall psyche. I personally think this man hates himself so much that he actively throws himself in front of others. While yes he is kind as a default because he is the mc but god I love how you can possibly explain his altruism because of his low self-esteem. Being a laughingstock, mocked and shouldering the responsibilities of a patriarch must have broken him. We know for a fact that Jinwoo is driven simply by his love for his family. His actions are made for the benefit of Jin-ah and his mom. Being an E-ranker is brutal, we are shown that despite it not being heavily focused on its obvious Jinwoo struggles. His landlord even offered to extend rent which means Jinwoo is hell-deep into money scarcity. I think we can all agree how being broke can literally destroy someone. With Juhee scolding Jinwoo for his injuries I think we can interpret it as this man still going to work despite being heavily hurt. This man is desperate to make ends meet and it must have made a toll on him despite his calm and collected demeanour. I wish we could have been given more ample hints about Jinwoo's slow detachment more often than just slapping it on the table like what happened when he killed the older brother of Hwang Dong-soo. It was sudden, while cool as it may be I want to see more of his decline mentally so that I could have been more excited at his breaking point. The anime is thankfully being more open to showing how self-destructive Jinwoo can be. I mean, come in, the scene with cerberus? How stubborn and strong willed he is? It's beautiful. What I do appreciate is that Jinwoo for a fact is altruistic.Him willing to shoulder all the burdens of war and defending his earth from the itarim eushdhs qwq....

Dont even get me started with Aventurine. I was once a firm fan of Aventio but seeing how this man is watered down to nothing more than a hot twink bottom fuckable? God it gets on my nerves. It got so bad I have a lowkey hatred of Aventio not out of homophobia but because I find it so fucking infuriating that such a deep and well-written character is just reduced to his ship. Aventurine is obviously an extremely insecure man, have we all not learned anything from the penacony quest or is it because everyone probably skipped the dialogues? I bet it's the latter half. Kakavasha pointed out how nervous Aventurine was and none of us, the audience or even the npcs, expected that. It shows that Aventurine has perfected his mask of arrogance and suave do much so that he can fool everyone. Everyone but himself. And Kakavasha knew that because he and Aventurine are one in the same. Kakavasha is the little boy in Aventurine that he has hidden beneath this carefully built palace of lies. Everything about his attire and confidence is there to make you feel like you cannot see through this man. That instead of thinking of something else, the first thing that jumps on your mind is that he is arrogant and self-centered when he is not. He is anything but confident, he has a deep rooted sense of self-hatred and depression because of his broken past and he most likely blames himself for the death of his mother and sister. And you know what? I liked him because he of the way he presents himself. But once I discovered a deeper level of who Aventurine is? Mother I am gone. I became heavily invested in him, I loved how I'm able to get a glimpse of it. Slowly I started seeing less of "Aventurine the IPC ambassador who is a bastard" and more of the "Aventurine" that is hidden inside. I want to know more about him and less about this facade he has perfectly built up. I didn't trust him at first but now I can confidently say that out of all the hsr charas, I would trust him and Dan Heng the most with my heart. So when he supposedly died? It broke me. I could not shut up about it and my friends probs were tired of me. I was having active mental breakdowns because I did not want Aventurine to go away even though his plan was complete suicide. A gamble he took to end his sorry life. Gambling was the only thing that Aventurine had complete control over as well as how he wanted people to perceive him. I felt so wronged when i was fooled into thinking he is gone when the aventurine stone landed on the floor and lost its shimmer. I did not want his story to end. I wanted to know more about him. I wanted to see him succeed in his revenge on the people who took his family away.

Wanderer? He was an asshole, i didnt get the attraction to him at first. He was always sexualized and reduced to just a petty villain whose personality revolves around being toxic. But oh how all of that came crumbling down when I met "who" he really is. A broken, lonely and abandoned puppet who is desperate to have a heart. Discarded by his mother, lost a friend and another right after that. He was a child when Ei released him, he misunderstood her actions as to being that she found him of no use when really she just wanted to keep him away from the horrors that is reality, his second friend was also a misunderstanding. While I dont know the complete story of that part, I know its a huge miscommunication. The last betrayal that completely broke him? That one was of naivete. He was a child. He had the mind of a child. All of that turned into a web of confusion, hatred and sadness that created "Scaramouche". He became a weapon, a lab rat. All of that just because he wanted to fill the void in his empty heart where a gnosis should have sat. When the archon quest rolled in? I was so devastated with his desperation. He was absolutely broken. By the end of it, when he was under nahida he used to Irminsul to kill himself. How tragic is that, huh? I hate how people significantly forget about that side of him. That suicidal, depressed boy who had no guiding light. His only drive was to have the gnosis thinking that will take away all the pain and sadness in his heart when truly he just wanted to love and be loved. He wanted companions. In his story quest, his first appearance as Wanderer is I think is the closest we can get to who he actually used to be. Before the abandonment, the betrayals, the deaths. I think that is the closest glimpse we get in game about who he really was. It doesnt justify his cruelty, his mass murder, his crimes. Nothing justifies anything but I cant help but feel so sorry for his soul. And hence make me all the more hate blind people who reduce him to just arrogance. The last event showed that Wanderer for a fact can be extremely empathetic, he saved Durin and even allowed him to become his companion. Nahida points out he feels extremely happy despite his demeanour. This man just wants happiness and companionship because he spent most of his days dying of loneliness and drowning in depression. Wanderer is kind, he is healing. It is slow but the game doesn't hide that. We are shown time and time again how he is growing as a person despite being without a heart. I think Wanderer is very empathetic despite how he appears, he can understand you in a deep sense despite talking smack at you. He is gentle with his actions. Even animals are so attracted to him, animals only react to those with noble and gentle hearts. That should be enough to say what kind of person wanderer is these days.

Overall, these three just put me in so much emotional turmoil that I hate how I cant talk more about it. I love them a lot. I want to know more about them. I want to be able to immerse myself more. I want to know them more eidhehsjs mannnn,,,,,,

[ellabism]

ive come up with more plot for my lovers to enemies and then enemies to lovers ellabs fic idea. if you dont know what that is i talk about it here

i think that this would all take place on both their day ones when they see each other for the first time. i can envision abby being out on her run with mel and manny when the gunfire can be heard and they see the WLF chasing this girl and ordering her to be killed. manny would talk about how its the trespasser that everyone has been has been talking about, and how they're a kill on sight target. but when abby aims her weapon for a clear shot, thats when she realizes its her. her long lost girlfriend from when they were young teenagers that she was almost certain was already dead. ellie notices that its her too. they spend the moment in silence together, both bewildered. a gunshot rings, which would remind ellie where she is and what is happening, and thats when she takes that opening for her to escape.

the reason why i think it should happen on their day ones is because i think then abby's priority will shift from traveling across seattle to find owen to instead find ellie because what the fuck was that. why is my girlfriend from years ago that i just assumed died in a FEDRA attack is actually alive and why is she in seattle and why do the WLF want her dead? and when she gets back to the stadium from her patrol she sneaks out to go find her.

towards the end of seattle day 2 is when they finally run into each other and it would take place of the boat scene and instead ellie and abby will fuck in some random building bc i said so. ellie is just as bewildered that her ex is actually alive and not dead but she also can't help but be enthralled at her muscle growth and her build and things go one way and abbys fucking the shit out of ellie.(yes ellies a bottom in ellabs i dont make the rules) this would be so juicy to me because instead of the regular story of owen cheating on mel its ellie cheating on dina. and after waking up next to abby the next morning she realizes what the fuck she just did and she gets terrified and runs off, leaving abby to wake up alone, and she has to find her. again. is it just abby's thinking or did ellie get more stubborn the older she got?

ellies a fucking mess on her way back to the theater because she doesn't know what she did and why she did it because she has a pregnant girlfirend back at the theater waiting for her return. shes so distraught she can barley focus on getting back safely. but thats before tommy ends up running into her. tommy tells her all the intel he's collected on the WLF and shares leah's photocards he found and he points at a girl with a long blonde braid next to some man, explaining that that's the person who killed joel. and ellies eye's widened. abby. she did it. she killed joel. as if ellie's emotions weren't scattered around her brain now she's in a full out panic attack and feels sick and throws up. her girlfriend from years ago, one that she shared many laughs and dumb memories with, was the one to brutally murder joel.

abby's out looking for ellie once again, she's not letting ellie keep running away from her. especially not after what happened last night. on her journey she runs into manny. manny is asking her where the fuck she's been. the WLF have been looking for her, and isaac just assumed she went awol and became an enemy of theirs. but abby doesn't care. she wants to know why the girl they ran into on their run is shoot on sight. and that's when manny explains that these trespassers, who are not scars, have been hitting them hard. he tells her that these trespassers killed some of their closest friends. danny, leah, jordan, nora, owen and mel. (tommy ended up doing most, since ellie had other things going on, but she still contributed nonetheless). and now its abby's turn to feel sick. all this time she was out chasing for ellie to have some type of hopes of having her join them and be together again, finding out that she's here murdering her friends, but why?

abby, now seething, is still going to search for ellie. but not with the same idea she originally had in mind.

yall i need this fic to be picked up PLEASE. i cannot write series or develop characters to save my life. but i need to see this fic actually come to live its all i ask for PLEASE.

[wolpatinga]

HEART DID YOU FUCKING TAKE NOVELLA OUT OF THE HYDEMIND?

i *really* wish there was a way for me to handle this without seeming like a weirdo to my friends on here who've only met me (tor) and possibly the Lt.

whatever. only the strongest will survive

i will try to explain as clearly and completely as possible

im not *just* hyde. that seems obvious, but im not just hyde, and if i want to continue as a whole, i can't let any one part dominate. i only have so many social spoons, and i can't spend them all in a space that's going to reject 80% of me

however, this is a group that admin formed, and i get it. the hydemind is for hydes. i recognize that i can't function as a whole in a space where i must at all times be only one way

im sorry about the dramatic exit yesterday. heart didn't mean to scare anyone. but after leaving, we reached this conclusion *as a collective* - no one part is allowed to keep us in a space where others feel unsafe or unwanted. here's how we reached that decision - 

🎶 -

(tor's note: this is an album about completely breaking down after gaining a following. its a vote against rejoining the hydemind and expressing sympathy for heart)

📊 - There are quite a few projects I wanted to get around to doing. They're on hold at the moment, but that's fine. The activities the Hydemind let me work on were fun.

🐁 - hey, man, i've kinda got bigger problems at the moment than whatever *shenanigans* are going on here. like. the rats. can we - (tor's note: charlie then went on a long tangent about how he wants to play with the pet sugar gliders, which we did. he's abstaining)

🍻 - I like these kids. You know I like these kids. But we can help *from a distance* that keeps them away from the flaming wreck that is us. We can be supportive in separate messaging paths and not have to be in the "Not Hydes Keep Out" shack.

👨🏼‍🦯 - DONT TAKE ME AWAY FROM THE OTHER HYDES AND JEKYLL

🖥️ - You have spent the past god-knows-how-long trying to be there 24-7 for these kids. Reprioritize and *go take care of those other tasks*. *I implore you, take care of the other tasks*. But also, given how the last friends Heart had suddenly abandoned it, and now Hyde's deliberately using all of the same in-jokes and trying to exactly recreate what Heart had in a space where Heart's been repeatedly bullied... I don't know. Seems like Heart wants to play nice, but everytime he thinks to, he sees those flashing letters of "YOU DON'T BELONG HERE". Seems hard to be normal when that's explicitly being told to you. But what do I know. I'm too old for this drama. So are you. There's laundry to be done. Heart needs its own friends, but as an adult with adult responsibilities we only have so much time to spend socially, and I agree the hydemind seems like a good place to spend it (though can we please spend more time with Bella???)

📖 - i still don't understand why hyde's a dad now, but mr moon seems *really upset*. um... (tor's note: lenore defaults to whatever the Lt. picks)

🏰 - MEIN KINDER, BITTE VERZEIHT MIR. JUNO, HURENSOHN, DU HAST AN MEIN MUZI EIN LEID GETAT. AAAAAAAAAA- (tor's note: princey votes to return and called juno/heart a bitch)

🫧 - heart, yer an idiot. those are kids and i dunna care if ye canna find friends of yer own. dunna take me away from them. get a hold of yerself. if yer gunna yell that yer not a kid, then STOP ACTIN LIKE ONE

💜 - i don't get it. i just... the waffle house thing was *my thing*. or... may's. every time i come out of the pit this happens. im sick of it. end this game. i don't want a pity "fine, you can come in here if you must, but i still detest you". i don't want to be screamed at every time i finally get control. im sick of being kicked around. when can this cycle end

So. that's two votes for never speaking to any of the hydemind again (💜🎶). that's four votes for return to the hydemind (🫧🏰👨🏼‍🦯📊). that's three votes for not ceasing contact but not being specifically in the no-hyde space (🖥️🍻📖). that's one vote for abstaining (🐁)

we don't hate anyone outside of the system. tensions are high between heart and hyde at the moment, but i think what heart's really asking for is permission to have friends. if you remember that poster we made a while back, that was heart. the other guys have all been adding to whatever hyde is on his own, but if hyde hates liars, he should hate lying about not needing the rest of us to function

i, tor, the arbiter of whatever the hell this is, say i can't neglect heart and expect to function properly. you all know we care about you deeply, but this is getting ridiculous

[enlighten3d]

okay, coin rant is NOW, apparently. edit: just finished typing this up, its really fucking long, ill throw in a readmore. its. i have so many thoughts about this guy

i fucking love him????

see, hes this annoying fucking warden guy, too egoistic and sure of himself at the start. bullying the fuck out of the miners for no reason, unnecessarily rude, i legit hated him at the start!

but. hes trapped like all of the miners are? hes trapped, under reddoons thumb, he cant leave, hes got his own quota to fill (both metaphorically and not). he knows that hes in a fucked position, is weak, but doesnt want the prisoners to see that bcs theyre meant to be afraid of him. so he puts on that persona. if hes loud and fucked up and rude thats him exercising power over everyone; they cant hurt him and overthrow him if hes a big mean guy who talks down to them (its a) the cycle of abuse, b) toxic masculinity)

he is TRAPPED, JUST LIKE THEM. but he cant see that because its that us vs them mentality that hes forced into at the start. he has to see himself as being on redds (and thus ashs) side even when he realistically is in the same position as the prisoners, because thats the only way to tolerate the manipulation and abuse. hes stuck there, in that position, that unending hell, the limbo of day in, day out, just as the miners are.

and this doesnt excuse the verbal abuse to the miners but it DOES explain it! hes exercising power that he supposedly has over these people. he has that power, yes, he was trusted with it! so hes using it to reinforce that position. that position of being in power while hes actually also a victim

have i mentioned that the invisible mafia is a cult. have i.

but then , along come parrot and wifies (and dean, i guess). they defy him, show him up, defy him. deny the power that hes meant to hold, prove that he cant actually use it, that it was never really real anyway. it was MEANT to be real, it is real, but. i dont know how to explain it. power is always an illusion? it only exists if the people the power is held over accept that person being in power, collectively. only if that power if held in place by something. coins power only exists bcs a) redd put him in that position, b) he reinforces it by tlaking down to the miners. so by resisting that, parrot is taking away like, half the equation. undermining that power, which is WHAT COIN IS SCARED OF. this fucking scares him. this is power that redd trusted him with, its power that he finally has for himself! power that he can wield and be strong and no one can deny nor hurt him!

and then parrot does just that. and it fucks shit up.

parrot and wifies (and dean) show up, do just... whatever. and coin can see his power falling the fuck apart. completely. but he still does his job, clings to the habits that have kept his authority in place. does his job (letting people go)

and redd shows up, berates him, tells him that he is NOT doing his job. when thats all that coin has been trying to do, because he WANTS this job he wants this power this control that he doesnt really have elsewhere. so he tries to crack down, follow the rules more, stick to those habits

and stuff keeps falling apart

and then the roulette thing happens and he CANT FULFILL A PART OF HIS JOB. he just cant.

and. sorry if this is getting incoherent my thought process is falling apart.

when he cant kill dean (i think it was dean?), i think that was a reality check for him. here he is, about to kill a guy because redd told him to. and he does what redd wants! because redd has power over him, because he listens to redd. he does what redd wants. but he cant.s o hes failed at his job. redds already demoted him, told him that hes bad at it, he knows tha this power is slipping away. and in this moment, he can see that this is fucked up, that hes failed already, that everyone can see that he cant do this, so- he lets it. go. his powers already gone, afterall.

and then parrot talks to him, gets info from him, and he gives it after being blackmailed. he was being blackmailed, yes, but i think he needed. a reason to give that info. i think he wanted to give the info but he needed a justification. his seat of powers already been ruined, but hes still trying to cling to it, keep up appearances even when its becoming INCREASINGLY obvious that he is also trapped. if only to himself, if only to redd.

they rob the vault, redd finds out, goes and... Talks with coin again... oh now this snaps coin back into fucking listen to redd mode. previously, redd wasnt there! redd wasnt there to see him fail at his job, lose his power. he was away from redd (the source of his power), and he no longer has the other thing giving him power (the people listening to him), so he was... drifitng, is the best way to put it. coming back down to an even playing field, relaxing a bit i guess. i dont know how to phrase this.

then comes along redd, shouts at him that hes failing, that hes bad at this, that hes done nothing right, and. he must listen to redd! thats his whole job! so he does. redd tells him to kill luigi and. we all saw that he critted luigi once when redd told him to. and then he couldnt. he just couldnt.

thats his breaking point

he failed redd on every level, this time in front of redd. and he watches redd do what he couldnt, and he watches redd fix his mistake.

and redd tells him that hes fired. personally i dont think its... POSSIBLE to be fired? coin was removed from his post, like, what, twice before this? its less firing and more you are being punished for disobeying me, not following orders. in the form of a demotion (less power in a place where he has none over himself), in the form of being told that that power over the miner group is being taken away. stripping him of that control, that power, reducing him to really being just another person trapped there

and now the playing field is even. he cant act up his bluster and be loud and mean and horrible because theres no power to affirm. hes failed, plain and simple.

and he comes back, because what else is he meant to do? and he comes back, because hes trapped too, isnt he? and he comes back and he helps because hes also a prisoner and now he can see a way out with these people that have already taken him down, and he wants out too. so he helps them. properly.

in conclusion, im just saying that coin is SUCH A FUCKING INTERESTING CHARACTER. he is probably one of the characters on uu with THE most character development. and in such a short time (for uu at least lol), too. his whole thing is holding onto power that he doesnt have because hes also trapped, its literally!! he is affirming weaker power in order to make himself feel like hes in control because he is not in control. and then that gets undermined and it all goes to shit.

i love him.

im sorry if this is incoherent im posting this without proofreading. just. i hope my thoughts are interesting lol. and coherent. they probably arent. im not sorry. i just needed to yap about him, hes SO interesting to me????

literally the cycle of abuse

[victorspindrop]

Music Artists I think the HOA Characters (Season 1 Specifically) would listen to!

Note: First head canon type thing I am putting on here (yay!). This is something I have thought a lot just myself in my lonesome so Id thought Id share it here! If you have any other ideas of what certain characters would listen to I would love to hear!

Nina

-> I think we as a fandom have collectively decided that Nina would 100% be a swiftie (and I agree). Her favorite album would be either Speak Now or Folklore, however, her fav song would probs be "London Boy" off of the Lover album though (for obvious reasons)

-> I can see her listening to some other softer artists like beabadobee, Clairo, and Boygenius (shes a softie at heart what can I say)

-> "All American Bitch" by Olivia Rodrigo is her confidence booster song for sure

-> Her and Amber have 2000-2010's pop music dance parties in their room together (which make annoy some of the housemates from them jumping around and dancing; also get in trouble with Victor about it but its worth it to them)

->Ok I need you guys to HEAR ME OUT with this one, but...Nina definitely is a little (just a little bit) of a theatre kid. I mean let's be real, she wrote an entire play for the school AND performed in it,,,my girl def is a little bit of a theatre girl. So with that being said, she listens to some show tunes from musicals (mostly Waitress and Mamma Mia)

Amber

-> She would so be a Y2k pop listening type of girl

-> Favorite songs would be "Rich Girl" by Gwen Stefani, "Just Dance" by Lady Gaga, HEAVY ON "Stars are Blind" by Paris Hilton!!!!!!

-> Lady Gaga, Katy Perry, Gwen Stefani, Beyonce, if its an iconic pop girl, she listens to them

-> Marina and the Diamonds. IDK IT JUST MAKES SO MUCH SENSE TO ME I CANNOT EXPLAIN. Some of her songs just give that "it girl" energy and if there is an "it girl" of the Anubis house its miss Amber Millington. "Bubblegum Bitch" is blasted in her car with the top down (because she def has a convertible and its pink)

-> Ariana Grande stan. Probably had a stroke when Ariana came out with a makeup line and bought ALL OF IT.

Fabian

-> Fabian def listens to alternative music old and new.

->LOVES THE SMITHS! Like its almost the only thing he listens to

-> Favorite songs by the Smiths include "There is a Light that Never Goes Out" and "Please, Please, Please, Let Me Get What I Want"

-> Listens to the Arctic Monkeys for sure

-> Some other artists he listens to are Radiohead, The Cranberries, The Red Hot Chili Peppers, and TV Girl.

-> Fabian is my favorite awkward loser boy... he listens to Weezer

Patricia

-> Didn't Alfie call her like a "Punk rock/goth vixen" or something like that? (I can't remember the quote or the episode it is in for the life of me)

-> Regardless of whatever the quote was, this is our punk rock alternative queen right here

-> PARAMORE SHE LIKES PARAMORE (has a crush on Hayley Williams because I said so)

-> Had a Panic At the Disco and FallOutBoy phase for sure

-> Listens to the Smiths a little bit (because Fabian showed her some songs)

-> Also listens to some metal rock, loves Poppy and always liked her weird concepts

Alfie

-> Alfie listens to anything and everything I feel like

-> alternative, pop, rock, jazz, electronic, DISCO, hell even fucking dubstep.

-> If he likes it, that's all that matters to him. He doesn't care about the genre or style of music it is

-> I feel he would listen to a lot of artists from the 70s and 80s (idk if that's because of Jeromes quote about him being stuck in the 80s but it would make sense!)

->Loves ABBA, BeesGees, Earth Wind and Fire, and WHAM

-> When "Lets Groove" by Earth Wind and Fire was trending on tiktok, he played it every chance he could. That song has been banned from the house since.

Jerome

-> Like Fabian, he's an Arctic Monkeys fan

-> ADVID LISTENER OF I DONT KNOW HOW BUT THEY FOUND ME

-> Favorite song by IDKHBTFM is Choke

-> I feel like he would also love Childish Gambino idk why I just feels right

-> Secretly listens to Mitski. That boy has been traumatized even BEFORE he was at Anubis, he deserves to cry to Mitski

-> The Neighborhood is a favorite of his (especially their song Daddy Issues because of,,, obvious reasons) Second favorite song of theirs would be Single (if you haven't heard that song highly recommend)

-> Hozier feels right for him idk

Joy

-> I think as a fandom we have concluded that she is also a swiftie. Her favorite album is Midnights and Reputation imo

-> HEAVY ON OLIVIA RODRIGO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-> The Sour album was life changing for her (same can be said for Guts)

-> Literally her top songs of the year were all from the album. Jealously Jealousy, Favorite Crime, Hope You're Happy, Good for You to be specific

-> I can see her being a Harry fan

-> Definitely forced Patricia to go to Love on Tour (Patricia liked it, but she definitely won't tell you that)

-> She was a One Directioner so naturally, the love carried on into the members solo careers (had to miss class when Zayn left)

Mara

-> LAUFEY LAUFEY LAUFEY LAUFEY LAUFEY!!!!!!!

-> Also just listens to old Frank Sinatra, Doris Day, Dean Martin

-> Listened to 5SOS during her brief "bad girl" era to help prove her point but she actually ended up really liking them!

Mick

-> Ed Sheeran and Jojo Siwa

*AUTHOR NOTE* I really hope you guys enjoyed this! Tbh it took a while because a few were tricky for me. Please fell free let me know if you have any you would add. Sorry some descriptions are longer than others

[istherewifiinhell]

and what is tf without its duplicitous little guys...

[ID: Starscream framed in the doors of the decepticon base, others looking on. Caption boxes: As Starscream departs, his fellow decepticons look on many thoughts pass through their minds… Thoughts that go unsaid for now, thoughts that will smoulder, thoughts that say Starscream was right... Treacherous thoughts! And Starscream smiles! END]

its tfuk storyline THE ENEMY WITHIN, which spans from no 13 to 17! dang. spring 1985. this posts a bit beefy but also deeply silly :D 👍

Script: Simon Furman art: John Ridgeway (13) Mike Collins (14-17) Colours: Gina Hart Letters: Richard Starkings Editor: Sheila Cranna Original Series Edits by Shelia Cranna and Ian Rimmer, editorial notes and assistance by James Roberts, Collection Edits by Justin Eisinger and Alonzo Simon, Collection Design by Shawn Lee

Well. its time i enter the den of that snake who haunts my tf experience, simon furman. and as i still dont have digital remastering to complain about. may i just say. i cannot stand getting so much preamble about how great these comics are, how legendary this writer, how influential this run is, etc etc before youve even let me see a single line he wrote. and i find this a perfectly tf fan style behaviour... that and gushing rapid fire and at length about future plot points, that i, as first time reader. HAVE NO FUCKING CONTEXT FOR. keep it real tf fandom.

context, production and continuity notes only please, if there was any interesting quotes from creatives, process notes, art details and lore fuckery to be explained, might i suggest. AFTER THE FUCKING COMIC.

[i walk off stage grumbling] turtles wouldnt treat me like this-- ALRIGHT START THE SLIDE SHOW

[ID: Megatron and Starscream yelling at each other. Megatron: My orders will be obeyed without question, Starscream. I will not tolerate these attempts to usurp my authority… Starscream: Ha! There comes a time when even the mightiest rulers must be challenged. Megatron. Your plan to wait and observe is both weak and stupid… We must strike now and destroy utterly our enemies, the Autobots! END]

calibration check: COMPLETE

[ID: Ravage skidding to a stop, outside the Decepticon base. Its a graceless and very cat like pose. He's thinking "...Outside! A barren, featureless desert and I'm being chased by someone who can become a fighter jet! This may call for a major reassessment of my loyalties!" END]

god SOMETIMES hes a funny cat....

[ID: Action panel, Starscream streaking low. Trailing end of his sentence "...Gone?" Ravage is popping out from ground calls out "Surprise, SUCKER!" END]

and hes got JOKES?

[ID: Starscream standing on a rocky cliff, facing away, musing to himself "Hmm, a pity. Ravage would have made an excellent ally. Still, I must thank him for one thing..." END]

this is just here cause...damn if i cant hear that in perfect screamer voice. 👍

anyway brawns been in a workplace accident

[ID: Pov shot, in a wobbly line style, as if the viewer, Brawn's, vision is swimming. Prowl, Windcharger and Bee are standing over him. Bee: Brawn..? Brawn? Look! He's opening his eyes. He's all right. Soon have him back to work! END]

shaking my head. someone get the union rep. also i just realised that isnt prowls torso. thats windcharger??? whys he uncoloured lol.

and he nearly kills a coworker and gets outta dodge

[ID: A hole in a metal wall, warped and torn. Brawn silhouette seen walking out of it, to the wilderness outside. His unusual and blocky toy model shape adds to this tableau. END]

this image. is so beautiful. your laughing, he almost killed someone and your laughing? i am... im imagining the little asscheeks, u know like the meme?

end disc 1. (no 14)

[ID: Large dramatic illustration of Ravage, crawling through the desert, one injured leg leaving a trail behind him. He yells "STARSCREAM! I'll see you destroyed for this! I'll make you suffer for daring to attack me and for not making sure that you'd finished me off!" END]

HOT CAT. special delivery did anyone order the image of the hot cat.

[ID: Megatron appearing before Ravage, wreathed in a beam of light. Ravage looks up and is stunned in the corner. "M-Megatron?" Megatron: We have returned just in time-quickly, Ravage, which Autobot did this to you? Ravage: N-not… Autobot… was… END]

i love this panel. its like hes the patron saint of furries. mother megsy comes to me. WHO DID THIS TO U. booktok ass.

anyway we got two bots on a rampage

[ID: Caption box: The traffic cop fled, but already Brawn had turned his attention to the car. Brawn speaks to the car "Well? You're free! Off you go, then…" A beat panel, as the car obviously does nothing. A close on Brawn's clenched fist, which is very simple/abstract. He rages "You ungrateful imbecile! If you won't take that brand of freedom…" Driving his fist down into the car, crumpling it. "TAKE THIS!" END]

damn king. okay. i love his little fist. i love they drew the fuck outta this fucking THING

[ID: A stylish illustrated panel on a human fighter pilot, completely obscured by the large visor and oxygen mask on their helmet. Outside the cockpit glass, and reflected in their visor Starscream is flying pass, seeking missiles trailing him. The pilot screams "NOOO!" END]

GOD DAMN. also. [pattern recognition activates] fdghjd the way only three fingers are visible on that hand, and how thick they are. turtle hand.

(no 15) oh rampage over. bummer!

[ID: Caption box: …Plunging the unprepared Starscream into a wild tail spin! Over the desert, he's spiraling downwards, tail wings on fire, streaking smoke behind him. He yells "Screee! S-sensory overload! C-can't handle it!" END]

cheers mate.

[ID: A sleek silver robot, the ancient Cybertronian "Tornado". The design has a mix of boxy transformer legs, hips and chest, but shapely arms, waist and calfs. He's on the ground, propped up on his arms, twisted at the waist, and legs stretched across the page, very vintage scifi cover style. END]

HEY WHOS THIS LEGGY NOBODY. WHAT. WHYD YOU DRAW HIM LIKE THAT

[ID: Megatron on the video screen at the Autobot base. Megatron: So you see, it seems we have a mutual problem… Do you not agree with the simplicity and neatness of my solution? Optimus: Perhaps, but it remains to be seen if Brawn is willing to participate in such a trial… END]

what the fuck is wrong with you two... skype ur enemies!!! i do like that toy model oppie looks like hes permanently squinting in suspicion

theyre pitting their loose canons against each other... (hmm. phrasing.) anyway brawn is healed of his work place accident rage imbalance but they dont. trust him now? and megs just wants screamer dead lol. this optimus is a lot more... cryptic, or. not harsh persay. just cuts the bullshit. interrupts people. gives orders. the fact that he becomes less friendly and chatty when not usamerican... IS. pretty funny.

(no 16) normal duel to the death things

[ID: Brawn taking cover in the desert, as Starscream flies above. Brawn thinks "What does it take? I'm running out of ideas and stamina - If i don't finish this soon, he'll nail me for sure!" END]

mm hmm. have you tried switching positions

[ID: Brawn collapsed on his front, propped up on his arms, at the mouth of a cave. Starscream flying above calls out "And now I have the pleasure of finishing you off!" END]

oh! okay looked like it worked

(no 17) happy endings for everyone (?)

[ID: Caption box: But no hint of emotion is shown by Optimus Prime - His expression is unfathomable. Dark and moody close-up on Optimus, who, naturally, doesn't have much of a face to emote with anyway. END]

i mean... i should think so. ive always said that about him

[ID: 1. Starscream goes down in fire and smoke, Ravage, in the small bottom corner, thinks "HA! 'Highflier!'" 2. Megatron laughing heartily, eyes closed and grinning widely, "Hahaha's" written behind him. He says "Forgive my exuberance, Ravage but this little episode has resolved itself so neatly. We have destroyed an Autobot; taught Starscream the error of his ways, and given you your revenge on him." END]

and hes STILL got jokes. you know what. this is a beautiful friendship they crafted. the ruler and his loyal spy. a spy who tells shitty jokes and the jovial plotter. okay. cute. fun. extremely funny that sounders isnt relevant to it in the slightest, also.

[ID: 1. Mirage and Brawn propped in a doorway, at the Autobot base. Mirage holds up Brawn by an arms and around the back, Brawn leaning on the doorway. Two Autobots in the fore are in shock, one asks "B-but Brawn? We saw..?" Mirage replies "You lot going to stand there stammering, or are you going to give us a hand?" 2. Brawn now seated, leaning back, Mirage leaning forward, a hands tenderly resting on Brawn, as they look at each other. Various Autobots looking on. END

gee mirage how come u get all the minibot baddies... why the fuck is this so tender......

anyway this is a little. meandering. and strange. probably not as. completely off the wall out of no where evocative moody dream like emotional drama. as man of iron. but still leagues better than 1-4. lol. and they gave me a lot of vectors for robot yaoi. apparently.