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16, 25, 40 for the writers ask!!!!
16. how many fic ideas are you nurturing right now? share one of them?
i am not exactly sure what nurturing a fic idea means (a fic you're not writing? but have had an idea for???), so i'm just going to mention my main wips and hope for the best. anyway. i have three main wips at the moment, one of which is the bad kids hunger games au and the associated spinoffs, one of which is a naddpod bad endings for hardwon and moonshine concept i started back when i first listened to c1 but have recently found new inspo for, and a third that is a secret tool that will help us later (it's a surprise for someone who follows this blog and i don't want them to know what it is yet). but mostly i've been bouncing between those three rn!
25. what fic do you wish you got more of a response on?
ooooh! i really thought my wayne munson fic would do better since i wrote it during the middle of the st s4 hype, but i really wish my natalia cicero connie lee carter bajar fic had gotten more attention. i was soooooo proud of that fic and then brennan said a lot of stuff in canon that aligned with what i had said in the fic, and despite my mixed feelings about aso as a WHOLE, i really do cherish that fic.
40. if someone were to make fanart of your work, what fic or scene would you hope to see?
sticking just to work i have currently published, i think the moment where natalia is looking at her clone in the glass tube before she shatters it from i cut my tongue on the rust of a silver spoon would be really cool to see. the scene with plumbeline looking up at/burning the wedding portraits in you and i were made for a season has lived in my head rent free since i wrote it. the scene where snow white has dug herself out of her glass coffin and comes back to the cottage and sees herself in the mirror and realizes her body hasn't aged or matured at all in give me back my girlhood would be a really cool piece i think? i also have a lot of bits in unpublished fics i think would be really cool to see as fanart but all of those are kind of spoilers atm so maybe after those fics have been published i'll revisit this question
send me a fic writer ask!
#fic tag#ask tag#writing tag#i LOVED the fanart one. even if it was just ‘what scenes did you actually picture when writing and could see as fanart’ 😬#i don't. picture things. it's fine.
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DBFZ Yamcha and Ten cookies...done!!!
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Soo I've been on a mission to recreate the Yamcha and Ten cookies from dragon ball fighterz because they're adorable...and they're finally real!! :'D process and info below! (kind of long lol)
I saw someone share these screencaps from the game a while ago and as someone who never played DBFZ I was so charmed at how cute these things are. I wondered if anyone had ever made cookie cutters for them, did a quick search and didn't really find anything, so just kind of moved on.
A few months later I remembered them again and was like, man, I really would love to see these brought to life lol. And I searched again and actually found someone who made them!!... But they weren't selling them anymore. 😭💔
^Reddit post from user ShadowLord898.
So in the next few days I went into the DBFZ game files, figured out how to navigate them and locate/open the proprietary file types (took...a lot of googling), and eventually found the cookie textures!!! Which I then painstakingly traced over to create vectors.
I thought once I had the vectors, it would be easy to drop them into a 3D program and extrude them to make the cookie cutters. BOY WAS I WRONG!!! It's probably just my inexperience working with vectors in 3D programs, but I tried Blender, Fusion 360, and Tinkercad and had problems in each one before finally figuring out the right approach. (I really almost gave up 🤧 but I hadn't realized that your geometry/topology don't need to be perfect when 3D modeling for print as opposed to, like, something you plan to create a texture for.)
Tinkercad and its extremely user friendly interface, plus SVG import functionality, saved me.
Oh then I realized I forgot to reverse the design, which you have to do for a cookie cutter because of how they work. I thought I would need to flip all the vectors and re-import them, recreate the models... but thankfully there's a "flip" button in Tinkercad. Fixed.
I sent the files over to my friend @.theprocrastinatingengineer on Instagram, who has a 3D printing service, and he was able to print them out for me!
While I was waiting for them to ship I downloaded Cura ("slicer" program for preparing 3D files for print) just for fun. (I was really eager...)
And here's when I finally got them!!!
Despite choosing all the dimensions carefully, I was still surprised how dainty they were when I actually held them in my hand. I wasn't sure if they would work...
So I made the dough and everything, used some 5mm thick chopsticks as guides to roll out the dough to the thickness I wanted. I put plastic wrap over the dough to prevent the cutters from directly touching the dough due to food safety concerns. Here is my first attempt to use them:
After this my mindset quickly shifted from caring about food safety to "what's a little more plastic in my system?" / "I'm here for a good time, not a long time!!" / "welll the dough gets baked anyway so that kills the germs it should be fiiine" **I Do Not recommend others to be so careless... also important note: I was the only one eating these so I didn't have to worry about others' safety 🥴
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^The difference between using the cutters with and without the plastic wrap.
This first rolling out of the dough was actually a little too thick; in my design I hadn't accounted for the way the dough squishes up when you press the cutter into it. There wasn't enough vertical space at all, and the dough kept getting stuck in the cutter. It was a bad time!!! (didn't get a lot of photos of the failures here because my hands were covered in flour)
After lots of broken cookie cutouts, re-flouring the surface/cutters/rolling pin, and re-rolling the dough to be a bit thinner, I managed to get these out. I had to support Ten's head like a newborn when moving the dough onto the cookie sheet because the connection to the body was so delicate 😢
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AND HERE THEY ARE...fully baked and ready 🥹
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For the most part I was going to leave them undecorated like how they are in the game. But @.lamichicuenta made this really cute drawing of the cookies where Yamcha had chocolate decorations and Ten was a salty cracker, and I really wanted to try decorating some to resemble those!! Here are the photos of both versions of the cookies the next day once I was able to get some natural light for nicer pics.
(I meant to poke some holes in Ten's cookie to look more like a cracker but I forgot about it until they were already baking.)
They tasted fine...yamcha was better thanks to the chocolate. 🤭
If you read all this, thank you for following my cookie cutter journey... 😌🙏💖
Oh yeah and I made the vectors, 3D print files, and specs/info all available in a google drive folder here for anyone to use if they want! https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1hQ7uq3leYPK64pGgt3LhFw-70IZnkYzh?usp=drive_link
OH and one last thing, i ended up revising the 3D models to hopefully fix the issue of not enough vertical space. ...turns out I hit the maximum for photos and videos in this post, but you can see it on my twitter here! https://twitter.com/freezebobs/status/1875720926840680678
I didn't get to try these revised models, but they are the ones I put in the drive folder. 😊👍
#dragon ball#dbz#dragon ball z#dragon ball fighterz#dbfz#tenshinhan#yamcha#tien shinhan#tien#yamtien#tiencha#food#cookies#3d printing#I spent a long time writing and adding all the pictures and captions so if tumblr fudges up this post i will be very sad#I realized I forgot to mention a couple things like the cookie cutter design tutorial I was following#And the way I actually created the models#When making the vectors#Make the outline its own path. And the inner/embossed details separate from it#Export the outline and the inner details as separate svg files#Import them separately into 3d program so you can extrude them to different heights for cutting/embossing#It doesn't matter if they overlap a bit. Tinkercad doesn't mind and once you join everything you still get a fine STL export for print☺️#As for the tutorial I used. The main takeaways were that I kept the 3d printer nozzle width in mind when choosing dimensions#Friend with the 3d printer said that you don't really need to do that though#Also the “bridges” or the little cross that connects the parts that float/aren't connected to the rest of the design (eg eyes and mouth)#I followed many random tutorials and things throughout this whole process#Can you tell i luv to document... (sincere)
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naruto crack au where kakashi manages to successfully drill the "never abandon your comrades" thing into team seven's heads
so when sasuke deserts naruto and sakura immediately desert with him. like he gets to the village gates and they're just waiting for him bags packed like "what took u so long we doing this or what"
he tries to get them to go back bc of course he does. "no you losers this is about me i'm going to kill my brother. also i'll have to kill my best friend for the super sharingan and you two are like the only people i talk to". but they do not listen. teamwork sasuke we will defeat your brother (OUR brother #communism) with the power of teamwork. just like kakashi-sensei said
suddenly orochimaru has to deal with three horrible little goblins with an even more codependent relationship than his old team
#naruto#team seven#orochimaru's favorite is sakura bc she's smart and respectful and gives kabuto headaches#kabuto's favorite is naruto bc he thinks he's funny#nobody's favorite is sasuke. he's fine with that tho#also sakura can still summon slugs she made a bet with tsunade ahead of time for the right to make the contract#kakashi keeps trying to get his team back but keeps approaching them one on one#which always ends in whoever he's talking to going ''i can't abandon my teammates sensei wtf''#obito is watching all of this from the bushes and laughing his ass off#the sound five live bc. nobody bothered to tell tsunade team seven had left until it was way too late#orochimaru keeps her updated tho#every time kakashi tries to sneak in and steal his kids back oro sends him back with pictures of how they're doing#''little sakura-chan is making excellent progress with chakra scalpels! you must be so proud! oh wait''#she hopes he dies#oro tells naruto who his parents are to spite jiraiya#unfortunately he does this when they're all still annoying little thirteen-year-old shitheads#so sakura and sasuke are both furious and don't talk to either of them for a day#they don't even know what they're mad about they're just Mad#meanwhile sakura's parents are happy to hear she's doing well and hope she writes soon#they don't. they don't really get the treason thing#team hebi/taka still forms ofc#it's an absolute disaster#sakura's a little sad when they finally ditch orochimaru bc she'd actually really enjoyed learning from him#like yeah he was an absolutely horrible human being but. she learned a lot!#he comes back later ofc#there's sorta an awkward moment when naruto finds out gaara got abducted and demands to go after him#sasuke: ok have fun#sakura: we're going too#sasuke: fuck#orochimaru: tell sasori i said hiiiii~ <3
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longmire: season 2 episode 13 // euripides - anne carson // commission by negativesd09 // francesca - hozier // eurydice - sarah ruhl // pinterest // divider credits
My first attempt at a web weaving post :3
#ivy.txt#aged bourbon🐴#proship selfship#pro selfship#proselfship#proship#ngl I spent way too long overthinking what picture i should use for the horse spot#like that was the most difficult part of all this#and I still don't know if i like it totally???#okay it looks fine everything's fine I'm just gonna keep nitpicking at this and never post it#ivy makes things🎨
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(rant incoming)
#okay. let's process together#why did i feel so annoyed when my mom said that the pictures i was posting on insta looked a little boring?#(it's not like a picture of me it's just some book and crochet stuff(#but here's the thing. i have no idea how i'm supposed to do better than that#sometimes i'm actually enjoying myself on insta and othertimes i really feel like i am not cut out for it#cause if i'm taking a picture of something it's so people can see the thing i am taking a picture of#i 100 percent understand the mindset of wanting an aesthetic picture that looks really nice#but i usually don't know how to execute that#sometimes! but not always#usually not.#and like. in that case i would ask the people in my family who are actually good at this stuff for help?#but i want to be able to do it myself because i don't want them to have to do even more stuff for me#and yeah okay fine YES it is another taking up space thing#but like#ugh#i don't know how to fix this#instagram is kinda fun and cool but it's so not me when it comes to posts#i hate videos and pictures of myself#and visual art is not my thing#and i feel a little lost and confused and i just want people to read my book so i can make enough money that i don't have to get#a horrible normal job#and i don't want my stupid relatives to be right and i never wanted to do instagram in the first place#and the money i saved up from my old job is running out! and i'm a little scared!#and i have a wedding coming up#and stuff is just. ugh. it's not the worst but it sure ain't the best#probably i need to pray and ask God for help instead of posting on tumblr#(in my defense i wanted to process my emotions)#anyways if you made it this far pray for me?#i've been trying to not freak out about all of this for a while but it's kinda pushing its way out now#which i hate. it's just all a lot
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#family death tw#i have‚ still on my phone‚ a voicemail that my mother left me in 2009‚ after her mastectomy#she never got over the habit from the nokia days of feeling like she needed to shout on a cell phone#(you could hear her convos from three rooms away. you know the type.)#and there's a scratch in how she talks‚ presumably from a sore throat post-op#but she makes her voice light. 'it's MOM. i'm FINE. everyTHING WENT WELL.'#reassuring me‚ her teenager daughter living 4000 miles away#i'm in my thirties now#and one year ago today my mother stopped me after breakfast and said 'elizabeth i don't feel so well'#and died before lunch#i can try to tell you what i've learned this year: that you adjust to a new normal and then have to keep adjusting#how you spend a good chunk of your adult life being a caretaker and then have nothing to do with your hands#or how you never really stop mentally flagging things that you'd think they'd find interesting#or how strange it is to look at some family pictures and be the only living person in them#but mostly i'm so grateful i have that voicemail.#it's become one of the most precious things in the world to me.#'i'm feeLING PRETTY GOOD. quiT WORRYING. i'll be trying to call you laTER. LOVE YOU. BYE.'
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do you make enough money from selling prints in etsy to sustain your life? how are you able to afford this beautiful house and time to crochet and go on walks and all of that? i’m not asking for nosiness but because i’m trying to figure out what i would need to do in order to make my life financially sustainable… is art an option… etc
short answer i mooch off my bf <333333333333333
#long answer part 1: i make enough off my etsy to afford my stuff (and i really don't buy much) and help out w th food bills where i can etc#i hvnt been able to do much of that OR save anything for the past couple months bc i hvnt been selling much BUT . things are beginning#to pick up again and i hve new stock to add when i get back from holidays :3#i have a smallish job lined up from my agent which is exciting! but hopefully i will make enough w her doing picture books etc to be able#to pay my keep / save more etc! i hve been anxious abt money this past months but thats just more so money for me to spend on small stuff :#i also dont drive so . i dont rlly hve many outwards expenses . im very lucky to have him hes very kind and lovely !!#if i wasnt w him and he didnt hve a house i would still b living w my mama which i did since i left uni!#long answer part 2: i always make time for goofing off during my work day. always!!!#part of the joys of being a freelancer! i can do what i want!!#i can share my routine in more detail if u guys want but i dont start work until abt 2pm-ish most days bc i dont rlly work well in the#mornings. when i hve more work that might change!! i have enough on to keep me busy but im not rlly hvin 2 manage my time u kno#im very very lucky to be in such a comfortable position :3 i hope one day u can be as comfy !!#oh also. i think once the agency work kicks in i will b fine financially ! and also u can absolutely make a living off etsy when its good#its very good for me ! i was very comfy financially around xmas last year i made a lot#u can do it u can do it !! art will always sell !!
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If anyone makes the argument in season 5 that Byler won't happen (bc they don't want it to) because Will has gotten over Mike so he doesn't reciprocate his feelings anymore, I will laugh my fucking ass off.
#i'm entertained now just thinking about it bc i can totally see jt#NO BUT THE TWO BOYS WON'T KISS SEE BECAUSE IT'S A ROMANTIC TRAGEDY ABOUT BAD TIMING#NO- NO- WILL GOT OVER MIKE BECAUSE IT'S BEEN SO LONG SO MIKE HAS FEELINGS FOR HIM NOW BUT WILL DOESN'T ANYMORE#MAYBE HE LIKES *ANY RANDOM* BOY INSTEAD OR MAYBE HE WILL WE DON'T KNOW#(this is about the homophobes not the milkvans ftr)#but it's the fact that i can totally see it and read the desperation for queer people not to be hapoy#as many queer people as you want fine but they are required to be miserable#'vickie dies and will gets over mike s5' like the vividness with which i can picture this argument#just speaks to how stupid the arguments are now#stranger things#byler
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sneeping with his legs up over his head for some reason... weird boye
#cats#love the second picture... skrungly sleepy well rested boye face...#since he's an elderly boy now sometimes when he wakes up from a nap he looks a bit scruffy and squinty eyed#Hard to beleive he's like 15 though.. he still looks like a kitten to me.. due to his giant round creature eyes and childlike demeanor#I think it's interesting that like... baby cats are babies. kittens are kittens. and you can tell a cat is like 'young adult' phase#looking from like a few months to maybe 1yr or 2yrs.. but after that they just always look the same to me#a 5 yr old cat is a 10 yr old cat is a 15 year old cat. unless the cat in question is particulalry aged or youthful#I still have so so little energy... it's been icy here this week. like not even FUN but just scary icy even thoguh i lOOOVE the cold#and its my favorite weather. I think it'd be okay actually if I had a woodburning stove/fireplace/hearth thing. literally thats my only#concern with the power going out. I genuinely don't mind stuff like having to go to the bathroom in buckets or cook over a fire or do other#less conveninet things. Its just that if eveyrhtng is electric then you have no way to cook and all of that. well.. and I literally need#background noise to go to sleep lest my ocd sprials become so loud I am slowly driven into maddness.. but a few battery packs or something#and a phone with one downloaded video I could play on repeat is fine for that. I dont need internet. ANYWAY.. so so sad that my fav#orite season ever (winter) is here. and the first cold of the winter is like... just an ice storm that you cant even walk in. I#love like 4 feet of snow where you can play in it and stuff. But just a thin flat sheet of a few inches of ice over every imaginable surfac#is not really playable. the wind speeds are so high and so many trees fall it's actually not that safe to go hang out outside anyway unless#you were in a totally clear open field. which is SAD also because i love ice and high winds. i love to stand out there and get whipped in t#he face with ice crystals and feel like I'm in some dramatic movie or something. but alas.. the threat of being attacked by a falling tree.#I did go out some but again it's like. literallyyou cant walk on it. so I just squatted and dragged myself along the ground lol#One of my stories has a whole section where the main characters are trapped in a deadly cold environment for a week and have to use magic#to survive and etc. etc. so I'm always like.. ouuu.. I should go in the ice.. it's Writing Research actually.. *foolishly gets frostbite*#THOUGH yesterday I went on a harrowing evil journey down a bunch of icy hilly roads to go check on some person's cat because the cat#had been left in the house for like 5 days at that point with nobody to check on them and nobody else seemed to want to do anything#about it (like call all of the neighbors or try to get someone out there) so I just went myself with a roommate who agreed to drive me.#It seemed acting totally normal and I gave it more food and water but.. I am still worried about it.. Apparently the person will be able#to get back to their house tomorrow but.. I dont trust them. But I couldnt take the cat with me because it's like.. a stranger's cat#basically and also no carrier + very skittish.. so I feared if I just tried to carry them bare handed they'd definitely leap from my grasp#and then it'd be like.. sliding on a sheet of ice chasing a cat and so on.. I still think they need to be watched for health issues tho >:|#ANYWAY.... many cat adventures lately... and strange weather... I wish for a normal week without always so many Things Happening.. augh
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XIII▸ Hello. I have just returned from maintenance on my mech, the M1 Leatherback, and thought in keeping with the goal of this account being the development of my social capacity I would try one of the suggested activities given to me: sharing things about myself.
XIII▸ attached file: [lthrbck_mnt]
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XIII▸ That's all. Look at Them :}
#◂▸ they got me to take the picture for them. they love that thing :]#◂▸ I'll be activating ECHO just so we don't get snoops later but. this post is fine otherwise. let HA tech see the mech ig they know it#echo.exe#turtleshell.dox#//ooc I am Not really a mech artist but I have an inordinate amount of love for the turtle lannie concept I HAD to try and colour it#lancer rp#lancer ttrpg
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Have a rare Rood x Iel fanart, by yours truly!
Based on the friendzone meme!
#black haze#fanart#rood#iel#my art#my post#For those don't know the friendzone meme:#two people are told to pose together for a picture and they do two entirely different things with their hands#because they each have a very different perception about what their relationship together is about#dunno which I find more hilarious#Iel who has made less progress in her relationship with her love interest in 200 chapters than a bunch of guys#or Rood who has yet to even realise he even has love interest after 200 chapters#Us: Uh... MC you might need some help with your relationships there#MC: Why?? I can handle my relationships just fine.#Also MC:
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I always thought I might be bad
Now I'm sure that it's true
'Cause I think you're so good
And I'm nothing like you
Look at you go
I just adore you
I wish that I knew
What makes you think I'm so special
If I could begin to do
Something that does right by you
I would do about anything
I would even learn how to love
#Wish Anon#Lore(Kinda)#I would add a picture but I currently do not have a physical form#So I cannot add context.#If anyone would like to help me make a physical form that would be fantastic!#but the things it requires are something I don't want to make anyone get.#on second thought I'm fine to be without a physical form.
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🐺🫧: I was gonna send u this... hahaha
#m.bubble#chan#no one .#say a thing#it's fine#ITS FINE . DO NOT SAY A THING#i .#. ?..8-9-9..#i don't know where to focus .#my eyes jsut teared up . not from . sadness or happiness . there's another emotion but it's fine#i cant look at this picture#anymore#it's . fine#i'm fine#i literally#i#i just#i'm#it's#i m#uh#um#the#uh .. uh um . uh m um#i . i want#i'm not sure what i want . but i want...
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sorry for how slow and sparse I've been getting around to everyone. I'm doing my best but genuinely rn I desperately need to take care of myself instead of always putting others first.
#I've been. not okay mentally or emotionally for a few weeks now.#and I'm eternally grateful for the. like. 2 people that know that and have been so kind and patient with me.#and I feel bad for not giving as much as I want to be to /everyone/ right now and how much I feel like I'm falling behind.#but I don't have the energy or the will rn and I need to be shaken and forced to rest.#I'm so depressed and stressed out and anxious over every little thing rn.#my sense of self-worth is fucking shot and I'm trying so hard to be brave and remind myself people really do care about me.#that I'm not nuisance that I'm not causing problems and ruining everything that it's not better for everyone if I just wasn't in the picture#idk this isn't like. I want to be swarmed with reassurances right now.#it's more of just. I'm sorry. I know my mood is fluctuating and I'm very slow lately.#I promise I'm not ignoring anyone.#I'm just in a not great spot and it's taking a bad toll on me especially when I know how I am trying to appease others.#while giving up my own well-being giving up my own heart.#I just need to rest and take it easy for a bit. I promise everything is fine.#rambling#maybe delete later
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saw a quote from someone on how Fiction These Days doesn't do interiority anymore, even though that's where all the IMPORTANT STUFF is, in the characters' heads, everything is written like a tv show or a movie, it's all visual, etc, and was instantly reminded of reading an anthology of indigenous american scifi/fantasy (iirc) where the editor was like. actually western literature sucks because of all the attention paid to the thoughts and feelings of the characters. they don't let the characters' actions speak for themselves, it's all about thoughts and interior monologues.
so, as usual, the Great Answer is: you can do whatever you want forever, for free. there are no Correct Paths to take. you CAN end up writing things badly but not because you broke any rules, or because you didn't pick the correct Notable Author to follow, but because you didn't tell the story in the way that communicates what you're trying to communicate. and even then your stories have every chance of resonating with at least a few people, because people find meaning in the empty spaces and fault lines all the time. and, importantly, at least one Notable Author is going to have nasty things to say about the style you write in, which doesn't matter, because Notable Authors are just people who tricked other people into believing their personal preferences are more Correct than anyone else's, even though their preferences clash all the time.
you can do whatever you want forever, for free.
#shrug emoji#got my feelings a little hurt because i am extremely proud of my visual understanding of storytelling#i LIKE being able to picture things clearly. i like expressions and body language. i like writing those things.#but i guess that's not good literature after all so how am i going to change my entire literary voice to be more Literary?#and then i was like. lmao. i literally don't care or have a reason to respect this guy's opinion at all. i'm fine#sorry not sorry to the Notable Author or Critic or whoever it was. whine all you want. i do whatever i want forever#aster chat
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Ofc my car's battery decides to give out on me in the middle of my 2nd major hurricane in as many weeks. But hey, I thought it was the starter for a hot second so it could be a lot worse.
Anyways if you know anything about car batteries hit me up cuz I know jack shit and fuck all-
#That's mostly a joke I have a picture of what I'm meant to get#staircase rambles#My florida native ass is not loving the weather rn if u can't tell#My apartment is about to be underwater bro#Like not to bitch on main but the storm just went BACK UP TO A CAT 5 WHICH LIKE HELLO WHAT WHY???#It was meant to make landfall as a threeeeee#This storm is literally hitting the threshold of what's mathmatically possible for a hurricane#Normally hurricanes aint shit but this is insaneeeee#And like for the record I'm fully evacuated and safe but I'm still pretty worried about some things#vent#knida#idk man just in case someone isn't about reading all this lmao#Like I'm fine just mildly stressed#At least I don't have to worry about classes or work for a while that's nice#Might use the extra time to watch Arcane
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