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Fuck it getting serious for a sec.

When I was a dumb shitty boy in highschool, I was... Well shitty.

I had a girlfriend (at the time, he transitioned so I'll be referring to him as a boy from here on but I feel the dynamic that I was a boy and he was a girl is sorta important here.)

He had low self esteem and poor communication skills. I had an undiagnosed case of hypersexuality and a lack of understanding around consent. My understand was that boys were supposed to pursue girls. That everyone my age wanted to try sex and girls were just scared cus it hurts.

Again I was a dumb and shitty teen. I had not been taught properly. These also weren't conscious and thought out beliefs. These were the sort of underlying misunderstandings that would breakdown if someone actually challenged them, but with how culture is, what you see in movies, tv, etc...

I pressured him into a lot of stuff. I was always touchy, he was never fully onboard.

One day, and I swear this was his idea, he wanted to try bondage. Sure. I found something I could tie him up with (didn't look anything up so these were not safe!) and I tried touching him. He never liked being touched down there. I assumed the whole point of this was to try anyway. I didn't do much, and I don't remember hearing the first "stop". But I did touch him.

Finally I heard him, untied him and our relationship was back to normal. Eventually he broke up with me, no big surprise. And 2 years later he sent me a message explaining how he now understood after therapy that I had raped him.

I'm sure to some of you that might be minor. We're not here to debate that. I was verbally and physically pushy the whole time. I was a dick and have since learned so much and gotten a much healthier outlook on sex and consent.

But you see when he sent me that message explaining how shitty I was I didn't know what to do. I told my mom and my (at the time) step-dad cus I felt like a fucking monster. I sent them the message. They read it. My stepdad agreed I was a monster. My mom didn't know what to say and just followed his lead. They didn't talk to me for a while after that. I tried to kill myself, not out of grief or anything, but because I legitimately thought it was the right thing to do.

I was scared though, so I lived. My older sibling eventually heard about it and talked to me. They managed to talk me down, understood that I didn't mean to hurt anyone and that I could learn and grow now. I did.

Now over 10 years after all that, I've had a chance to talk to my mom. She resents her ex-husband for his response and wishes she could have been there for me. Told me I wasn't a monster and that while I had made a huge mistake and done some major harm, that there wasn't something wrong with me. I'm not sure if it's fair to say it wasn't my fault, but at least there's more to it than just me being a dick.

I don't have contact with that boy anymore. I hope he's doing ok, genuinely. I have spoken to another SA survivor though who, of all people, told me that carrying around this guilt with me isn't helping. I believe her and I'm trying to heal. Trying to... Forgive myself I guess.

My older sibling is a child of rape. I don't know if I knew that back then but I wonder if my mom had sat me down and talked about all that to me, had explained to me that I'm not like the bastard who did that to her, because he didn't cry once he realized how much pain he had caused.... Sorry I'm... I'm sorta spiraling here.

I guess, I'll just keep trying to heal. Just keep moving forward.

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Mom walks in on you giving your big sis a blowjob, freezes in the door frame for a minute as the two of you start to panic, then leaves without a word. you're shocked, you're scared, you stare up into your big sis's eyes but they're just as frantic and terrified as yours, then you hear your mom come back. She tosses a pack of condoms to your big sis, saying "just don't get her pregnant.", then turns and leaves again. She'll never speak of what she saw again, though she will ask each of you regularly if you're "being safe with your girlfriend".

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little brothers were invented so u can help them aim when they pee but being held makes them so excited they suddenly can't get anything out at all

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little sisters were invented for wearing shorts that are so loose they slip to the side when you're hanging out and give you a peek and they don't even understand why you're staring

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Mom walks in on you giving your big sis a blowjob, freezes in the door frame for a minute as the two of you start to panic, then leaves without a word. you're shocked, you're scared, you stare up into your big sis's eyes but they're just as frantic and terrified as yours, then you hear your mom come back. She tosses a pack of condoms to your big sis, saying "just don't get her pregnant.", then turns and leaves again. She'll never speak of what she saw again, though she will ask each of you regularly if you're "being safe with your girlfriend".

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oh god I've thought about doing this to myself for years, though mostly cus i hate that fuckin guy sometimes

tgirl ensuring her own existence by bootstrap paradox murderfucking the boy she used to be in a way that forces him to realize what's supposed to happen

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hooking up with someone and leaving a small, secret camera behind, turned to just the spot where you know they love to get off. Maybe it was a one-night stand or meaningless fling to them, but to you it was acquisitions, a prize. A personal pornstar just for you. How many weeks, months, before you send them a clip out of the blue? a simple "thinking about you" or a "you sure like that new toy, hm?" and no other explanation.

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mom who is frustrated that she can’t sleep so she drugs you with sedatives and drags you to her bed when you get all sleepy <3 telling you that she’ll take care of you, just curl up in her bed and it’ll all be okay <3 just to wait until you’re sleeping deep to undress you so, so gently, whispering praise to you the whole time even though you can’t hear it. prepping your hole for a while, making sure you can take her without issue <33 slipping inside you with a sigh, telling you how Good you are, how much she needs this, and how much you need this. what a good daughter she has, to take this, to be such a good toy whenever mom needs to tire herself out <3 going faster and faster, moaning and panting into your ear as she gets closer n finally cums deep inside of you <3 maneuvering you so she can spoon you, still buried inside, finally sleepy <3 she’ll deal with the repercussions of this tomorrow. after all, it’s not the first time <3

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If you're not sure if you're into somnophilia, don't worry! You don't need to make a decision today.

Go home and sleep on it.

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i really like the idea of someone getting bred hard in a noncon style by a monster and ending up corrupted and only able to get off from monsters anymore

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Imagine you ask to sleep in your moms bed cus of a nightmare or something you come in just a long shirt and panties. You snuggle up to your mom and fall asleep.

You wake up the next morning feeling... really good actually. You're refreshed. You're also absolutely soaked between your legs. Your mom smiles at you strangely, but she serves you breakfast as normal. She keeps staring at you though. You dont remember anything but you can't shake the feeling something happened while you were asleep

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Coulda worked if he just said daughter.

Don't be like this guy

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I love somno so fucking much my god.

I'll start by just touching his ass. (This only really works if hes on his side facing away from me. Spoonable.) A real gentle touch that I've trained his body to know means it's time to get ready for me.

I'll reach between his legs. I love touching my boyfriend somewhere so private while hes asleep. He'll snore or maybe let out a small grunt. He might shift a bit, unconsciously trying to give me better access to his sleeping body. It's so easy to get him wet like this. His little t-dick is almost always half-erect in his sleep so I just tease that then use the slick pouring out of his hole to get that whole area nice and ready for me.

And sometimes I just touch him; get him off in his sleep. He tenses up when hes close, unconscious anticipation taking over every muscle as his body realizes it's completely at my mercy. Right as orgasm takes him he wakes up, every time. It's too much to sleep through. He'll reach behind him and grab whatever part of me can as he just gushes out pretty little tboy cum.

OR I'll decide I need to get off too. Once he's wet enough I'll try to angle myself inside him. It's not easy, I'll admit I'm a small girl after estrogen. That's ok though, he barely notices if I shift his legs open or move his ass around.

His entrance is always so loose but deeper inside hes tighter than he ever is awake. I'll admit, it's hard for me to make him cum like this because I just want to fuck him senseless, and I'll usually wake him.

God sorry I'm getting too horny to write brb gonna ask if my boyfriend needs a nap

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god i love love love when someone is obsessed with me in like, a predator way. Like, what do you MEAN you fantasize about biting my tits. Oh you're getting hard just thinking about the noises I make? Do you want my home address? That's crazy, you're really thinking about fucking me while I'm in tears and begging for you to stop??? I'm swooning. Jesus christ.

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have you ever fucked a cis girl irl...? >///<

Of course I have! The first time was very fun, she was so vocal and it felt like the harder I pounded her cunt the more paralysed she was. They always like to say that they're responsible and all that, but she wanted my raw dick so badly. Fucking her while the unopened condom wrapper is on the desk next to the bed is a really hot right that I would recommend to anyone out there

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Domming, at it's best, is a performance

More specifically it's like standup comedy; you have to manage tension carefully, you need to fully commit to your bits, and if you loose your crowd it becomes super cringe.

If you're safe, if you believe in safety first and you're not a danger to your partner and they know this deeply and truly; then neither of you actually believes that you'll, for example, break their nose. Even if you both want it, even if it would be so hot; you're still not gonna do it really, it's above both of your thresholds for risk. And so during a scene you're fighting an uphill battle to scare them and make them believe for even a moment that you might.

So you sit on their chest and you pin their head between your knees and you grab them by the hair and you put your fist right up against their nose. You explain that it's actually the cartilage you'll be breaking not the bone, you tell them about how a nose is surprisingly resilient to hits straight on so you'll be hitting them at an angle, you tell them how the biggest risk with hits to the head is actually damaging the neck which is why you have their head held so very carefully, and you explain how after you fuck their ass using the blood gushing from their broken nose as lube you're going to have to take them to the hospital and they might need surgery immediately if they ever want to breath properly again. And if they giggle nervously you smile back with sadism in your eyes, and if they accuse you of lying you raise your ebrows slightly with all the derision you can muster. Then you ask them if they're ready, you look them in the eyes, and you pull your arm back fast as though you really intend to hit them. And if you've done it properly, if you've had a successful performance; for just one glorious moment they'll believe you're really going to break their nose.