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Okay I'm done
#i don't wanna do this anymore lol#i truly would trade every experience of the last 9 months to go back to when i was last happy#stupid med school#stupid fucking pathetic life#personal
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22 more images (with some saucy shenanigans and immature "seduction" tactics towards the end) below the cut:
Ryuk makes his grand return and is brought up to speed with Light and L's immoral union. The date seems pretty successful~.
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#drawn by me#my fanart#my fancomic#Death Note#The Chain#lawlight#Light Yagami#L#Ryuk#smooch#saucy shenanigans#suggestive dialogue#Ryuk third-wheeling~#L meets Light's quirky-deadly roommate#henh not much to say about this one. basically a continuation of the previous entry despite the absurd update gap.#I've lost the ability to keep anything brief anymore~#L seems a bit out of character with his willingness to go with the plan huh? And don't you think he'd have gotten used to Light's teasing b#now? Maybe it hits a little different knowing for a fact that it's coming from Kira's mouth directed towards him of all people~#Also the picture where Ryuk is saying he'll scram when things get heated is probably my favorite drawing of him that I've done!#he was so intimidating to draw especially over and over in comic form. such a far cry from my usual human style#but like all things I gradually became more and more comfortable drawing him. I'm very happy about that! :)#I have a dumb idea/headcanon concerning the nerds' first copulation attempt~.#if I decide to include it here I will definitely try to age restrict it even though it won't necessarily be graphic.#don't wanna get in trouble lol#I have more trouble drawing spicy scenes than I do with shinigami subjects XD#tw: food issues#they both eat the sketchy 'apple' to prove they're not cowards... despite it not being the smartest idea in the world. >_>
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Into the Landing
#you know that door when we walk out into the landing? yeah that. kinda.#i do kinda like this set but i gotta say it's kinda complicated#and it doesn't really precisely hit my spot after all so im not gonna pay more effort than this#also what is going on with warlock's set. even after i did this i still don't know how their clothes are composed#i don't even wanna color this anymore so let me cheat with backlight#even though i don't really know how to do backlight#uh actually the composition i though of has backlight from the very start. i just don't wanna add the underlying flat color anymore lol#destiny 2#destiny hunter#destiny titan#destiny warlock#destiny 2 art#my art
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Chapter 156 of the manhwa seems like they are finally taking the story seriously again, so that's good. Sorry I haven't seen your posts for months but you complained a lot about them diminishing the story for the sake of a few cheap laughs
yeah that's good! i'm glad for them, it only took them *checks notes* 3/4 of the plot to start taking the story seriously but at least they got there!
and yeah that's one of my biggest complaints, i don't enjoy the tone and humor lhm and khs decided to use for the adaptation, but honestly that has been seriously sidelined by the massive changes they've done to the plot. they don't really seem interested in being faithful to the novel, which is. a choice. but one they're completely allowed to make. just like my choice to no longer read the manhwa at all <3 for the sake of my mental health <33
still! glad manhwa enjoyers are having a good time! good luck to y'all!
#hey i got an ask#2enba2luka#sorry i'm not really interested in the manhwa anymore (/▽\)#i only care for ying's liveblogs about it and only because they filter out the worst parts of it lol#there *is* a reason i don't really post about it anymore. i don't have fun with it anymore and i don't wanna ruin the manhwa for someone#if they truly do enjoy it. that's not what i'm here for tbh
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finished dhes & kel's character pages so here are the lil edits i made for both of em :-)
#myedits#kelly#dhestyn#ik i posted kel’s already but now i am posting both pictures together#i have read through the bios so many times atp that i don't even know if they make sense anymore#i cannot look at them again#i'm just gonna say they're good enough#i might change some stuff here & there but for now#i am over it lol#i'll probably do the rest of the characters eventually..........#maybe...........#but idk. i only really post the boys here so like. yea. yk.#plus i still have the mbz character page to do#which. that has like. so many characters on it. it's a daunting task#i hope the boys' pages are at least somewhat coherent. i tried to be concise & to the point. uh. idk if i was successful in that#but. n e way. i have a few edits & writing things i wanna work on so. character pages are moving to the back burner#i may or may not finally start writing the 90sAU#which btw ty guys for being so nice on that edit???? the comments & tags were all so sweet?????#i really liked that one so i'm glad y'all liked it too
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rest {vil x reader}
Vil comforts you after a rough day.
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characters: vil
reader: gn
cw: none!
The Pomefiore lounge was only half-lit, a shadowed hallway leading to the far wall where Vil sat on one of the plush purple couches. The flickering candles cast him in a warm glow, bright enough to illuminate the papers on his lap so he wouldn’t have to strain his eyes to read. The scarce lighting, you knew, was meant to accommodate you; after so long of complaining about a persistent headache, even the densest of your companions (ahem, Grim) caught on.
Vil looked up from his papers and uncrossed his legs, though he made no move to stand. “Hello, sweet potato.”
“Hey,” you answered, barely stopping yourself from diving onto the couch. Still, you fell with little ceremony, laying across the cushions and resting your head on Vil’s lap. He scoffed, amused at your audacity, but didn’t say anything else about your manners.
“You’ve been making yourself scarce these days,” He commented, not unkindly. His voice lacked the usual firm and severe tone he used throughout the day, though anybody on campus could tell that he usually spoke softer around you. Still, this time he kept volume down to something soft and tender, wrapping around you, sound and snug.
“Headache.” You felt on of his hands gently rest on our head for a moment, carding through your hair and drawing soothing lines down your shoulder. “I was getting sick of being alone, though.”
“Forgive me for not offering a more thrilling activity.”
“This is perfect.” You didn’t think you could take any more than resting in a different spot, anyway. “I’m...sorry I haven’t been...much, lately.”
Vil stopped moving his hand, and you could practically hear the unimpressed expression he was giving you. Picturing that small, perfect scowl and the way he was arching an eyebrow, you almost laughed.
“You haven’t been much? Much of what?”
You shrugged. “Much of anything.”
Vil sighed before resuming the comforting pets he was giving you. “That’s simply not true. You’ve been recovering. And before that, you were going through a lot. Perhaps you still are. How are you feeling?”
After a pause, you shrugged and gave him a noncommittal hum. Those types of answers were never enough for him, though. “Better. Kind of. More manageable, at least. I’ll be back on my feet soon.”
Vil chuckled. “You don’t have to make promises to me. It’s important to take care of yourself. Take the time you need. I’m thankful that I got to spend some time with you at all today.”
You took a deep breath, holding it in for a few seconds and trying to focus on anything but the pounding pain in your head: his fingers running through your hair, the warmth of his leg beneath your cheek, the raised seam of the cushion digging into your hip, all of it. Slowly exhaling, you hummed again.
“Yeah. I am, too.”
#this is kind of a spiritual successor to my last post (sit with me with leona)#i don't get super personal on here most of the time because. i don't want to LOL#but if you were curious i am doing better. i talked to my doctor and i started on antidepressants#that was the inspiration i only just got over my four day headache adjusting to it LMAO#so you know. i'm just a stranger on the internet but if you're having mental health issues consider talking to your primary care doctor!#i cried in her office telling her my symptoms lol it kinda sucks but it's worth it to be better#anyway i talked too long in the tags idk if this is even going to show up in them anymore. daily reminder to reblog please :3#twisted wonderland#vil schoenheit x reader#twst#twisted wonderland x reader#twst x reader#vil schoenheit#vil x reader#also i just wrote this. randomly. there's not a lot of deeper meaning i just wanna. sit
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Twin Fantasy
(alt + details)
#head in hands please do not zoom in on this just look at the details i chose to hilight LOL. Anyway Uhm.#kiyotaka ishimaru#kiyondo ishida#danganronpa#danganronpa trigger happy havoc#sdr#mine#hey victor. yr choosing to do a piece with a lot of harsh angles. yr gonna switch from your usual thick crayony brush right? Right Victor?#LOLLLL UHM. anywya i never post my art ESPECIALLY not for dr but. uhm. i liked this one.#something something system metaphor something something ishida as takas protector something something takas pushing down his regrets and#weaknesses and becoming someone who's so far in denial he's never experienced grief yada yada you get the idea.#i can make a system metaphor out of any poorly written character. And I Will.#.....car seat headrest title AND a danganronpa character.....🫣.....#I don't even consider this done i just dont wanna look at it anymore LOLLL TT__TT
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make me choose @maya-matlin asked Craig/Ashley or JT/Liberty
#degrassi#tng#degrassi tng#mmc#otp: i don't wanna lie anymore; i still love you#otp: i love you jt and whatever you do i'm fine with it#otp: see you around rebel#jiberty#jt x liberty#Liberty x JT#my gifs#my stuff#het ship#the choice was easy af to make lol#still my roman empire#and now i'm emo over them again#the scene where JT dies made me cry real tears no joke#and I feel like sobbing again#JT LOVED Liberty and if he hadn't died they would've been endgameeee
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We're at one of my favorite parts of the story (and probably one of Vash's least favorite parts 😬😬), where we get to see how much Vash's family means to him
In book 1 of trimax, the Doc tells Brad that Vash's concept of family extends to the entirety of the human race
...So a Man revenge-killing a murderer isn't just 2 humans committing various levels of violence against each other (at differing levels of justifiable), it's 2 families members hurting each other and Vash can't bring himself to not try and stop it. Even if you understand *why* they fight, you probably wouldn't want your cousins to kill each other in front of you, right? And Vash struggles with it, because some of these people he's saving really do deserve the bullet reserved for them; but at the end of the day he still doesn't want to watch them to die.
And over the course of volume 1 and 2 of trimax, the story repeatedly brings up the question (either overtly or through subtext) "What would you do if you your family was in danger? What lengths would you go?"
Which leads us to the first big fight for this question when Vash's actual, closest living thing to a loving family is under attack. His anguish is palpable to everyone alive in the room with him, his wrath is close to deadly, and every new room he finds with more puppets just hurts him further. But even when he's faced with a monster that has destroyed his one vestige of safety in the world, even if that monster has talked about how he wants to do the same to him, he still can't bring himself to kill him! He even goes so far to try and spare him!
Not because of any specific moral reasoning (even though he's given one to Dominique before), but because before he was Leonof the Puppetmaster, he was a little boy named Emilio that loved his father's bread and had a crush on a girl named Isabel. He was someone that Vash knew, someone he recognized, and someone he undoubtedly cared for greatly at one point. And even if he couldn't save him, he at least had to try, because he was family at one point too.
And of course, it's not all pain and suffering for Vash, because when he wakes up in the hospital ready to blame himself for not being able to save everyone, Luida cuts him off: He did the best he could, he saved lives despite the losses, and at the end of the day he's still family to them, too. Even if the rest of humanity views him as a menace, there's still someone out there who reciprocates his love in a way that doesn't hurt him.
And boy, you can see how much of a relief (and source of stress it is for him) on his face lmao
#trigunbookclub#trigun#trigun spoilers#nobody else talked about the family stuff yet so I guess that I will lmao#Also it is Not A Coincidence that the chapter titled 'families' where Vash's love is reaffirmed has Knives on the title page#but I can't talk about that yet because I have no idea how to approach that topic yet without dropping massive spoilers lmao#It's such a good volume and it hurts so much anyways Luida please marry me I'll leave my resume on your desk thanks#Vash is the most tired sopping wet cat on the ship despite his better efforts to pretend otherwise#was gonna drop a song here because it fits imo but I'm saving it for a later volume because it fits there too lol#(really it's a good song)#(I'd post it all 3 times I think it fits but I don't wanna tagspam anymore then I'm doing now so I'll post it later)#shoutout to the overhaul project <3
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i will be so real i'm so thankful to have a job but the amount i want to grill myself on a bbq has increased like 20% lol
#i genuinely feel like a trapped animal and i'm so anxious thinking about it#esp bc it's like a High Importance job with some Confidential elements#i just don't wanna fuck anything up and get anyone in trouble like i really really don't#and it's really exhausting. and i've only worked here like 2 weeks lol!!!!!!!!!#aaaaa!!!!#i'm trying to be good about it and normal about it because i will literally only have to work#2 shifts a week for most of the summer and then 1 shift a week for the school year like#worrying about it is making me such a huge baby. but also. i'm so fucking scared lol#i wish my brain would let me have a mental breakdown but i care so little abt myself#that i can't even do that anymore#my body is fully like no one will care or sympathize with you if you show any emotion at all whatsoever#so why bother#and it's like well true!#that's a good point!#anyway hope i die actually i can't do this lol#maia.txt
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well that was a shortlived good feeling about my job
#maybe i should just become unemployed. maybe i should just suffer!#recap of todays further events .#that supervisor? who i kinda didnt already like but now absolutely hate?#she came down to confirm that i wasnt leaving. okay . and then she fucking tells me#oh we're going to get another person to help out from this other company. we were going to do that bc we thought you were leaving#but she thinks that even if im staying there should be another person on this floor. bc apparently more has to be done#and there are 'constant complaints' abt this floor . which doesnt make sense to me bc there shouldnt be#and so we're waiting to see what the manager decides but hes on fucking vacation and wont get back until. next week??#she said she was gonna email him and like right after she left i emailed and texted him explaining everything#and trying to very nicely say hey what the fuck are you doing you don't need to hire anyone else#and if im doing a bad job fucking tell me so i can do it better. bitch#and she had the nerve to fucking tell me when she was talking to me#that i wont find an easier job than this one#well if its so fucking easy why are we hiring someone else#by the way getting that extra person from this other company doesnt cost them anything which is why theyre doing it i think#which is making me not feel good abt my own future lmao. like why would they keep paying me when they can get someone for free#and she was saying all this stuff like oh you have it so good here we dont write you up i do all this stuff to help you like . ok#i didnt ask you to come downstairs w the coffee order and if you wanted me to i would come up . god#but the thing of me not being able to find a better job like wow! what if i killed you. for saying that to my face#and she talks abt how shes been w the company 20 years ok and that doesnt give you an excuse to treat me like a child. jesus#anyway im very pissed off and not enjoying my work situation lol. i dont wanna do this anymore#but looking at other jobs im so unemployable. sigh
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I received an anon a lil’ bit ago asking to download a female sim, and in true me fashion, I went overboard and made three instead.
Gotta give the people options, right~
I figured this was a great opportunity to express my gratitude for the kindness, generosity, and undying support this community has continually shown me over the years (especially recently), and though a sim dump isn’t much, hopefully it conveys my love and appreciation, even just a little.
DL on Mediafire (ad-free): Raven | Jessica | Bea
All credits go to the CC creators who helped bring these lovely ladies to life!
Each of their downloads includes a singular everyday outfit, and is roughly averaging around 500 mb+ each (I warned y’all that I have no self-control in CAS), so I would definitely consider the limits of your PC/laptop before hitting that download button.
Otherwise, there are no limitations as to what you can do with these sims. They are, by all intents and purposes, base sims, and I made them with the intention of being molded and shaped by every individual to fit their needs. However, if you like them how they are, that’s cool, too!
I can’t wait to see what you guys do with them! Feel free to tag me @cautiously0ptimistic so I can see whatever shenanigans they’re up to in your games! Happy simming!💛
#ts4#ts4 sims#ts4 sim dump#sim dump#sim download#alpha sim dump#ts4 alpha#my sims#i tried my best to clean up my cc prior to this but i'm p sure some merged packages are still trapped in there#i apologize lol#but they're also just chock full of presets and sliders and alpha everything so#don't ever underestimate my ability to overdo it lmao#anyway#I hope you guys like them!#I don't often make new sims for leisure anymore#but i had a ton of fun making them#let me know if there are any issues with them#I have NOT updated for the infants patch so...do with that information what you will#might wanna run them through some batch fixes before you throw their cc in your game
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okay who do i need to follow so my dash is active when i get ready for work ???
#like. who's awake rn????#i do wanna follow more creators i feel like i don't see enough on my dash anymore since i started following sfw blogs back lol#anyway#angel rambles
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Starting to think computers are actually the work of a dark and twisted demonic force.
#trying to trouble shoot a pc problem and we've gotten to the point wherein i am considering just ignoring it and hoping it solves itself orz#everything i try just makes things worse!!#i cleared my site data instead of just the temporary files in firefox and now nothing loads so im restarting the damn pc#but its taking. FOREVER. which is always a great sign. if this doesn't fix the page load times (not even the original problem!) im going to#freak out. just completely. because now i have to fix two things tomorrow... i wanna go to bed i don't want to do tech support anymore#im just frustrated and doing things impulsively that are not very helpful. so now i have to sadly sign back into every website on earth#which is very slow and painful because SOMEONE is hogging all my disk#everyone stop hogging all my disk and let firefox load challenge difficulty level impossible#but hey. restarting it did make the pages actually load now. i started this post on my phone and am now editing it on my working pc -w-)b#i am going to have 500 security alerts in my inbox tomorrow lol.#snow blogging
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oh yeah I forgot I still followed all those ed tags
time to spend thirty minutes unfollowing them all /srs
#uh real fast can i be super happy for myself because fucking hell I beat anorexia ???#like wtff how did I do that howww#I'm eating meals again ??? snacking ????#like when did this happen-#so uh yay :)#it's fucking crazy to me lol#just like remembering “oh yeah i am eating and i'm okay with it and actually liking myself again wow”#so it's probably time to unfollow those tags#even if I don't get triggered that easily anymore- i still wanna just not lol#but yay it's possible to beat anorexia and love yourself after all :3#val's little hellhole
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genuinely always so shocked to see mirei hate. like literally god forbid women do anything.
#y5 haters in general... does playable haruka mean nothing to you...#DOES SHINADA TATSUO MEAN NOTHING TO YOU...#for legal reasons this is a joke people are allowed to feel however they want about whatever it's just viddy games#and i fully acknowledge y5 and its litany of flaws#of which there are certainly enough for any given individual to justifiably dislike/hate its entirety but I AM A Y5 LOVER THRU AND THRU#saejima's arc is just an arguably less interesting rehash of the one he had in 4?#(jail; jailbreak; betrayed by his lil buddy guy#but now we're sans the interesting character stuff of his feelings regarding the hit. & also i miss his hair.#& that's not even to say i think saejima is boring in y5 i think there's some interesting subtext to take away from his character#unique to this entry but it's pretty hard to deny how much is literally just y4 again but now he's bald)#BUT WHO GAFS he got buffed to hell gameplay-wise and punches bears now#and also baba's a great character and he doesn't have to do a whole chase minigame if a cop sees him anymore#bloated/unfocused feeling in general to the game?#WELL THAT'S JUST MORE CONTENT BABY!!! only a real issue if you're a completionist imo#+ are u telling me you don't wanna drive a taxi? u don't wanna play a video game in which the goal is to drive as normally as possible?#and i loveeeee multiple protagonists yay <3 y0 y4 and y5 are my favs so far lol (up to y6)#kiryu's inclusion in y5 also feels way more justified than in y4. he was so tacked on there i'm trying to remember what he even really did#other than tiger dropping as a boss fight before instantly forgetting how to tiger drop the second he became playable#and losing track of yasuko and getting tag-teamed by akiyama and tanimura (cough) and beating up daigo#but in exchange akiyama becomes the protag that feels kinda tacked on in y5. way less so than kiryu in y4 tho for sure#anyway. weird/strangely justified plot beats? WELL THAT'S JUST EVERY YAKUZA GAME#an arguably strange/poor writing choice for majima especially given how he ended up being written in y0?#well honestly other than the age thing i think it makes him more interesting... he's kinda fucked up!#but i do get why people are /really/ not a fan of it. ik i just said i think it makes him more interesting but if it gets retconned#or even just never mentioned again i wouldn't be surprised tbh and i wouldn't say that i'd mind either#but additionally he's not even a major character in y5 so it feels like it's not really a significant complaint imo#anyway anyone can do this ('this' being acknowledging the flaws of a thing and then letting how much they otherwise enjoy#said thing determine how much they let said flaws influence their overall opinion) ...such is the beauty of subjectivity... i love you.#contra.txt#yakuza
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