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LOVE ON THE COURT | 44 KISS ON THE COURT
SYNOPSIS | every college student has their struggles, but raising her younger brother has Y/N top of the list, struggling her way through college whilst balancing her academics and basketball captaincy is difficult no doubt and with Jaemin, her ex best friend and captain of the guys basketball team, and his growing one sided hatred towards her, it doesn't seem to be getting any easier
WARNINGS | swearing, sexual innuendos, kys/kms jokes
NOTES | and that's a wrap on LOTC ! thank you guys for reading ily all so much! I had a lot of fun writing this smau and I loved all your comments/reblogs/asks about it 🫶 I love LOTC and she's lwk my baby, being the 1st smau i wrote (and finished because im still distraught over cherry flavoured...) but I also think I've learnt a lot in the writing process and I'm pretty sure I can do better (or I hope so at least 😅) so stay tuned for a jeno smau otw !
more cute jaemy/n moments should follow in bonus chapters (if i write them...)! but this is the official end to lotc because I'm impatient and want it to be over 😭 thanks for reading ❤️
"You think we can win?"
Up until now, the room had been quiet, and a lingering sense of uncertainty that no one had spoken of was present.
But Heeseung had never been scared to speak his mind, not directing the question at anyone in specific.
Still all eyes undoubtedly fell to the two captains. Jaemin and Y/n, who sat beside each other, hands clasped together, fingers interlaced. It was only natural that at a time like this, the team would turn to the two of them, and they had no intention to disappoint.
As she looked up, Y/n lifted her head off Jaemin's shoulder, sucking in a breath before rising to her feet.
She refused to back down, standing tall despite the heat on her face, even though every part of her wanted nothing more than to be alone, curled away and to have kept to herself.
She had a team, and she owed it to them to stay strong. They had come so far, there was no way she would let this stop them from making it to the finals.
"I know we can win."
She reached behind herself, for the clipboard she had been messily scribbling notes on for the better half of the morning, until Jaemin had forced her away from strategising. "We have higher points than team B who we played last time, and we're tied for points with team C, so all we have to do is play our best," She smiles, looking at everyone in the room, and though no one mirrors her expression, the feeling of hope begins to rise from the dejected players, slowly, "There's no way we're losing our last game, and we're especially not going to let it be our first loss of the season."
Jaemin smiled, noticing the slightly concerned glint in her eyes, but not speaking much of it, only standing to his feet beside her with another even brighter smile. He wouldn't say it, but for a moment, the thought crossed his mind, maybe she was the better captain after all. That being said, he didn't care all that much about being better than her anymore, as long as he was with her, it would be enough.
"You haven't lost until you think you have," he speaks, remembering what he was intedning to do, "We're in a bad situation but we can always make the most of it. Let's play our best, and we'll walk out exactly how we planned." Jaemin nods, voice full of strength.
Still, the room feels cold, like the wind rushes past them, and happiness with it, low spirits and sighs of disbelief filling the room
Y/n let's her eyes meet Jaemin's beside her.
"We don't say it much" she starts off, "have to keep ourselves humble somehow don't we, but" she scans her eyes across the room, "you guys are some of the best players in the country, that has to count for something."
Jaemin chuckles, "I'd say it counts for a lot"
He hears the way Y/n gulps beside him, her eyes watering as she realises their words aren't being received as well as they'd hoped, his hand finding hers beside him. Though it's loose, his grip is comforting, motivating in the best of ways.
There's a moment of silence.
"Winning is a mindset." Y/n finally states, with perhaps the most rigidity she's ever presented in her voice, confident, and somewhat assertive, "You walk onto the court like you've already won and you will. That's what we’re going to do" she speaks with such certainty. It's almost hard not to believe, "We will win, it's just what we do."
"You're right" Isa stands up, triumphant "Losing is for losers."
"No shit" Chenle hums, sitting up from his previously slumped position, a couple others following as the quiet room begins to grow warmer, laughter echoing off the walls. Conversations follow, like usual pre game protocol, some tactics, some motivation. It doesn't take the room much longer to return to normal. Whatever normal was.
Things would be okay, whether they won or whether they didn't. But losing wasn't exactly one of their options tonight.
Y/n turns to Jaemin again, smiling with more conviction than earlier.
"You know, we make a good team" she looks down for a moment, "even after all that mess"
Jaemin let's his hand rests over her cheek, not specifically worried about who was watching, "Especially after all that mess"
Y/N and Jaemin stood at the centre of the court, the sound of the final buzzer still echoing in their ears. It was over.
The team had fought hard, each possession, each pass, each moment fraught with tension and determination.
The last few minutes of the game had felt like an eternity, with their opponents pressing them to the limit, but it was all over now. Just above, the scoreboard flashing the final score confirmed what they’d worked so tirelessly for—victory.
Jaemin, his chest heaving with each breath, looked over at Y/N. Clear in his eyes, triumph, and an unmasked sense of adoration. Everything he had once been so bitter for, so hurt over, it seemed like a small hurdle to pass, to finally be here today, watching Y/n smile his way with pride. The warmth in her smile, the passion, it was all he wanted to see, now, and for the days to come. This wasn't just winning a game. It was more than just state championships. It was knowing this was exactly where he wanted to be, going through the ups and the downs in life with her. The past seemed so small, so distant now, like all the struggles had never really been. But Jaemin wouldn't forget it, the pain, the heartache, and perhaps he preferred it that way, knowing just how much it took to get to being here, how much it meant. Because to Jaemin, Y/n was worth every struggle in the world.
The sweat on his forehead mixed with the tears that were starting to blur his vision. His eyes, usually full of confidence, were now wide with a slight disbelief and brimmed with joy.
Y/N, equally breathless, met Jaemin’s gaze. Their eyes locked, and for a moment, everything else faded into the background. The court was alive with celebration, the crowd shouting in exhilaration, but in that instant, it was just the two of them. Alone, like nothing else mattered.
Y/N's heart raced, not just from the adrenaline of the game, but from the raw emotion they had fought through together—every late-night practice, every setback, every moment where doubt had tried to creep in.
As they approached each other, Jaemin couldn’t help but pull Y/N into his arms, his hands pressing against her back as he held her close. “We did it,” he whispered, the words soft but full of meaning. Y/N laughed, the sound light but genuine. “You didn’t doubt us for a second, did you?” Y/N teased, lifting her face to look up at him, her hand gently brushing his cheek.
Jaemin smiled, brushing his lips against Y/N’s forehead, a kiss that was tender, full of everything they had been through and more. “Not when you’re by my side.” The words came out low and steady, carrying a depth that couldn't quite be fully explained. It didn't need to be.
Truly, they were in their own world, up until Jaemin heard his name being called from somewhere behind him, reluctantly pulling his eyes away from her.
"Jaemin, don't be a wuss give her a real kiss."
It was jeno shouting from the courtside bench, laughing at the way both of their cheeks flushed bright at his words along with Renjun.
That didn't sound so bad, Jaemin thought.
For a moment, he let his gaze meet Y/n's once again, "That alright with you peach?"
"More than alright."
When Jaemin pressed his lips to hers, soft, tender, and promising, Y/n couldn't help but smile. She hadn't expected to be doing this here, for everyone to see, her lips locked against his,but she didn't mind all that much, not when she was right where she wanted to be.
The arena around them was electric—teammates running to congratulate them, the crowd still roaring with excitement—but in the middle of it all, they found their moment of peace, a quiet connection amid the chaos. They had fought for this victory together, and it was theirs. Their love, their effort, had carried them here—through every tough game, every tough moment, and now, they had this championship to prove it, more importantly they had each other.
“Let’s go celebrate,” Y/N said, her voice soft but dripping with excitement, grabbing Jaemin's wrist.
He shot her a teasing smile, in true Jaemin fashion. “After we have a few more moments to ourselves?”
Y/N felt her heart swell, her cheeks darkening.
"I love you, you know" she chuckles, "I think i could tell you i love you as many times as there are stars in the sky, and it still wouldn't be enough."
"I love you too peach, more than all the stars in the universe combined."
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⋆𐙚₊˚⊹♡ park sunghoon bf headcanons
a/n: maybe im just typical sunghoon bias but y'all cannot tell me he wouldn't be the most perfect bf ..... ANYWAYS i could probably do a pt2 of this just bc i have sooo many thoughts abt this man - or if u want hcs for any other members lmk too!
✦ such a responsible boy, like obviously he has all his own habits but he feels the need to keep them up especially around you
✦ for the first few months of your relationship he wouldn't kiss you first thing in the morning since he insisted his breath stank and would go to brush his teeth (though he grows too weak to your pleading, and gives in easily)
✦ it's this habit of taking care of himself that extends to you, he feels a sense of responsibility for your health and wellbeing
✦ "don't use your phone in the dark, it's not good for your eyes" - "make your bed first thing in the morning, it'll get messy otherwise" - "make sure to drink more water today, it's hot out,"
✦ they might sound like petty scolds or nagging to most but really they're just his way of making sure you're okay and showing that he cares about you, right down to the little things
✦ on that note, the type of boyfriend who is willing to go with you everywhere even if he's just trailing behind you - if it's to the supermarket or even around the block for your morning walk he's keen to come with
✦ a little clingy like that, though has enough self-awareness not to bother you, but he just wants to be around you lots !!
✦ i can definitely see him being an "acts of service" guy like he definitely does things for you without asking, and without even saying anything - like if he sees you struggling he'll help you silently, only turning to smile with satisfaction once he sees the grateful expression on your face
✦ admittedly at first he does do it a little bit so that he can show off in front of you - "they'll think i'm so tall and strong if i help them reach this shelf" is probably his thought process
✦ in that way he's really observant and attentive! like you might not think that he listens to all your rants or when you mention little things but he really takes it all in, also just the best listener ever
✦ tiny little things about your habits, foods you like or dislike or even your preferences when it comes to like what side of the bed to sleep on he learns and they become like second nature to him
✦ but if you ever point out how close he pays attention to you or any of the things he does for you he'll brush it off coolly with some excuse - "i'm only giving you the bigger piece because i'm not that hungry okay?" - even though you know far better
✦ this is because, despite how cool he might seem on the surface, he's not the most forward type, and things like pda or straightforward confessions make him flustered !!!
✦ like the few times he's grabbed your hand in public when you're walking together he physically cannot look at you while he does because he knows how red his face will get - but you can still notice the tips of his pale ears blushing pink
✦ whenever you're alone though he will go to absolutely any lengths to get you back for it and has a special talent of knowing just where to kiss you or what to whisper in your ear to get to you
✦ sometimes he tries reciting old cheesy romantic lines but he gets too shy or embarrassed to finish them
✦ like if you watch a romcom with him he'll be all sulky talking about how unrealistic it is and how corny the dialogue is, but give it a couple days and you'll notice him trying to act smooth like the main man
✦ also the kind of boyfriend who finds joy in teasing you lightly
✦ always saying things like "what would you do without me?" or "aren't you so lucky to have such a good boyfriend?" jokingly whenever he helps you out
✦ but if you were to ever try to get him back by saying something like "oh but you're so in love with me aren't you?" he'll just respond back slyly with "and what if i am?" or something and watch with a smirk as you take in his suddenly shameless words
✦ he's said it himself but he's really protective and possessive type (thinking about his reaction to the viral perilla leaf debate)
✦ though he's careful never to blame you for anything - because he isn't insecure about your relationship or how you feel, he's more worried about others having their eye on you
✦ really patient - definitely the kind of boyfriend who lets you do whatever you want like squish his face or bite his arm without even acknowledging it
✦ though he also definitely tests your patience once he gets comfortable enough and once he knows he can be weird around you - like he really is the loudest introvert if you give him the opportunity !!
#park sunghoon#sunghoon x reader#sunghoon enhypen#sunghoon imagines#sunghoon fluff#sunghoon fic#sunghoon fanfic#sunghoon x you#enhypen#enhypen drabbles#enhypen x reader#enhypen x you#enha#sunghoon oneshot#park sunghoon x reader#park sunghoon imagines#park sunghoon fanfic#park sunghoon fluff#park sunghoon fic#park sunghoon x you#park sunghoon x y/n#sunghoon headcanons#park sunghoon headcanons#purinfelix#jet writes ★
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than copy-paste my ask w/out the stuff about his acting bc the rest of the stuff i said is still completly valid. i don't get why stans refuse to even admit that their fav is some times a bad person and call them out on their bullshit. you can still like him without ignoring or excusing his shitty behavoir
"not trying to start anything i really want to hear your and other ppls opinions. after seeing that redit video today abt the onset fight combined with other stuff glenn has said and done like the antivax stuff. im starting to really dislike glenn. he acts like a self obsessed tool all the time but so many stans baby him so much that they refuse to see or say anything about it [deleted] but maybe you or others have reasons to stan him pls share bc im clearly missing somthing. i dont want to not like him but hes making it very hard"
(the Reddit video being Rob talking about how Glenn freaked out during the filming of The Gang Saves the Day because he didn't feel comfortable getting "shot" in the scene with Dee killing all of them and threw a tantrum on set)
First of all, I don't think anyone refuses to admit Glenn is anything but perfect, and I also don't think anyone excuses his "shitty behaviour," but while you only may have just become aware of this moment, it was first brought to light in 2017, right before Glenn left the show "for good" and has kinda been hashed to death. If you're genuinely asking 'why is no one talking about Glenn's temper tantrums from 8+ years ago,' idk how to answer that question other than: why would we be? It's just not relevant
We know, from set stories and Glenn himself, that Glenn has gone through many ups and downs on the set of Sunny. He's spoken quite a bit about how his attitude has ruined the vibe and created a lot of tension in the writers room and on set before, and it's something he needed Rob to bring to his attention in Season 11 because he couldn't recognise it harmed other people (and that's what led him to realise he needed to walk away). I think it's not, like, a hidden or dismissed aspect of his personality that he's a diva, even today after righting his attitude and returning, he still tends to "method act" to a degree when he's playing Dennis and comes off a certain way
So yes, he's been "exposed" as a brat on set and a little entitled in general, and he's got some questionable views on health, for sure and I think that can make you dislike him and if that's so...that's fine. I don't think anyone in this fandom cares if you do or don't, honestly, but that works both ways.
People who post about Glenn in fond ways aren't going to disclose that they know he's entitled and centrist every time they post anything about him, but whenever something does happen/come out, people do criticise it in the moment. The Podcast brought a lot to light and it seemed like weekly we were scrutinizing something RCG said but, like, there's genuinely nothing Glenn has done in the past year that the fandom has chosen to ignore for the sake of excusing his shitty behaviour...? Are we supposed to rehash dead and buried RCG drama just because it was reposted to a different platform?
I get if you're just learning about him as a person now it can be weird to see most people who are actively talking about him seem to just be stanning him blindly, but that's really not true. The TASP days are just behind us, and Glenn's PR is very strong with his gay whiskey tour front and center (and you're asking me lol).
As to providing you with reasons for stanning him... just search "Glenn Howerton Interview" on Youtube.. or watch this one .. and if you don't get it, you probably just don't like him and that's fine, lol he'll probably get you eventually if you're around long enough
#i think its funny when i get asks like this lowkey like#what about me meeting him a dozen times makes you tihnk im gonna give an unbiased opinion#i mean. ill TRY#but you know once you're like. physically in his presence. and he smiles at you with that vampire grin. its game over.#glenn howerton does shots with you at nyc pride what are you gonna do.. say no? youre a bit of a cunt?#thats the appeal baby#call my body mind and soul bewitched#also yk. the fact that hes the queer one helps over here lol#ask#glenn howerton#discourse#ig idk
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This motherfucker is in Eden
#i don't know if im strong enough for this#look at him#he looks terrified#maybe its the angle#the snake is powerful#she knows her angles#metal hammer#december issue#vessel#sleep token#vessel sleep token#sleep token vessel#the apple#the chains#the jewelry#pls sir#he's so pretty
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I'm begging you, BioWare... Learn from the mistakes of Baldur's Gates past...
#please accept this low effort meme while i work on Emmrich-inspired creative pursuits#hoping and praying and sobbing and crying#BioWare i'm on my hands and knees begging you to GIVE THE SWEET NECROMANCER A SOFT TUMMY#emmrich volkarin#dragon age emmrich#okay now im gonna start complaining in the tags so this is your warning#i just don't think im strong enough to withstand ANOTHER RPG with companions that Should Not Fucking Have Abs#like sure i could MAYBE suspend my disbelief that the vain wizard would use some illusion magic to give himself abs (still cringe)#or MAYBE he got really into crunches while he was depressed for a year (HIGHLY doubtful)#BUT THE EMACIATED VAMPIRE!?#like come on bestie#did cazador have some really rigorous workout routines that were conveniently never brought up???#im going insane sorry#i just have a lot of opinions on diverse body types in video games#and dont want them to do my man dirty like that#[insert joke about how getting down and dirty with him is my job]#okay sorry i think i got it all out of my system#if anyone actually read this far please know i love you with my entire serpentine heart
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Uhhlittle bitty ethubs warmup I did a minute ago
An offering to the ethubsers
#bandit's doodles#ethubs#uh platonic#do I tag that as hermit shipping#i wont tag their individual ones just in case??#sorry for not posting much lately btw#Im on that new hyperfixation kick#you know the drill#but don't worry the hermicraft perma-fixation is going strong and will be forever#having 2 hyperfixations at the same time is like when a stray cat finally lets you pet it after months of feeding and talking to it#like it's so :D#and also my chest is explodingand my heart rate spikes whenever I think about it#happy#overjoyed even#and then incapacitated#We'll just have to wait it out probably#I'll still draw the hermits ofc#Just posting less frequently??#lest we get non hermit/traffic on here#Theres already enough of that in my likes/reblogs#its my destiny to post hermitcraft art actually
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Twelve is sooo a cello girlie you have no idea
#i speak as a former cello player ☝️#that played for only a year#i want to make one of those for other doctors but i don't know if im strong enough#whoever wants to share their takes feel more than free#doctor who#the doctor#twelfth doctor#my art
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ocs as patron saints
i was tagged by @katsigian and @ecofear to take this quiz for some of my ocs, thank you both so much!!! loved doing this sm, two things i love obsessing over: saints and ocs <3
patron saint of relics. patron saint of remembering. patron saint of holding something close. patron saint of holding on for too long. for a saint, a relic is often a part of the body, kept for some physical memento of their holiness. they are all in your hands, now: does it feel like remembrance? does it feel sanctified? are the dust and blood as precious as they're supposed to be?
patron saint of bones. patron saint of frameworks. of structures. of solidity. patron saint of things that break. patron saint of things that are left behind. the bones survive long after the body, the building: what is there left for them, when the rest has gone? what do bones do, with nothing to hold around them? who holds the bones?
patron saint of heartbreak. not of comfort. not of condolences. there is a heart and there is a fissure, a fracture, something that starts to splinter and break open. you're the patron saint of the way a heart is rent open. the way it tears itself apart. patron saint of the rift. patron saint of the gash. when they say to "open your heart" to somebody, you are the patron saint of bleeding out.
tagging (under the cut!):
@marictheirins @mojaves @ruvviks @devilbrakers @dragonaqe
@pinkfey @aezyrraeshh @shadowglens @risingsh0t @ncytiri
@baelavelaryon @kibellah @pawnguild @roguette @hexmaturgy
@tethrras @lucaanis @auricfog @thedeadthree
and anyone else who wants to do it!!
#tag games#loveeeed doing this reminded me of the tumblr golden age of quizzes and picrews for ocs we need to go back to that#also i need to get a taglist so bad so i know im not bothering ppl with tags lmao#oc: vesper#oc: fenix#oc: violante#now i will lose my mind about the results if u don't mind ->#vio getting heartbreak is beautifully perfect for her also bc i love the mental image of it#vesper getting relics is kinda funny innit lmao. johnny and all huh. which i can also see bc girl never learned how to let go one single#thing in her life (both regrets and mistakes and things others did to her). NOW THE REAL CAKE HERE IS FENIX.....unexpected..#'patron saint of things that get left behind'..what if i went insane tbh#cant put into words what im feeling (<said about my own ocs) but what has me shaking is the solidity>things that break>things left behind#progression here like. yea no matter what you will stand tall you will stay strong and firm even when everything else inside you and around#will break and you will turn hollow but you will Stay. you will be immovable and you will be alone and you'll only know loss#and grief but you're still here right? isn't that enough? maybe not. like what if i went insane ok bye#unrelated but i loved this and did it for me self and got patron saint of obession (devotion. dedication. passion. holding it tight until#it bleeds. pushing it too far. etc etc) which is yeah lmao when will i get this freaky sainthood fr
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preparation
#i don't feel particularly strong about them now but back then i REALLY REALLY want to pair them together#they/them hunters#i think i just dragged my ideas about them for too long tbh i even wanted them to fu#i. i mean. have fun. hunting#why do i wanna draw r34 for literally every character i see what the actual fuck#oh i know why#ramble time#i fucked up my meeting and i am even more depressed than ever and i was struggling between drawing more tyrael r34 or finish this sketch#idk if i'll spam drawing later but theres one thing i know#im gonna buy fried chicken for night snack#thats it this is tumblr tbh i should've been complaining about my life on plurk instead#okay i guess i already did that this whole fucking day but apparently that's not enough#i have zero stress resistance#apex legends#apex bloodhound#bloodhound#bloodhound apex#borderlands 3#fl4k#borderlands fl4k#my art
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tragic, local man tried to watch old yogs content for nostalgia but Some Dickhead keeps showing up and ruining the vibes
#if you can think of one of them who sucks. this is about them.#i wanna watch some stuff but like!! go away!!!!!!!#voltz was more fine because no one terrible was there for more than like 20 seconds. i just moved on#but i wanted to watch project ozone and got jumpscared like 10 episodes in lmao.#tragic.#if you can tolerate them more power to you!! i just feel distinctly slimy#whalelords i know there is lore in you. but i don't know if im strong enough.
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admit it. you only came back to atlanta for the hat. don’t tell anybody.
#glenn literally risking his LIFE for the stupid hat. turning back for the HAT#then rick doing the same fucking thing. like. i love them so much#wanna cry over#glenn x rick#like i don't talk about them enough or honestly spiral over them enough but rick and glenns dynamic over the show? i miss it SO bad#twdedit#m#gifs#1.04#wait also the way the hat also gets passed down to carl then judith like............. i dont even know what im feeling but its feelin STRONG#also beth that one time...................................... something bout the kids of the future somthing about passing things down#somehting bout how even when you're not there anymore.... you're still there#stupid hat. got me emo
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happy to report the agony is starting to fade a little !!
#praise God............hopefully it continues in this pattern#i havent lived very many years on this earth but ive wasted enough time weeping and agonizing over certain young men#if you dont want me then you're not the one etc etc. also good golly they DO make it clear when they don't want you#also i CAN do it with a broken heart until my heart isn't broken anymore! i know i can!#i DO know i'm strong enough to withstand the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune#and i'm determined to for the sake of my own sanity and dignity and also the fact#that God created us to do more than writhe in anguish over clueless young men lol. so there. i think.#will it be a cruel summer? a sad girl summer? maybe. but dangit i fought hard to find joy in living#im not about to give all that up over one (1) tall curly haired boy with a smile like the sun and a heart the size of australia
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i'm being incredibly serious. when i die, someone needs to find a way to turn me into music.
#bluebird.txt#all my life i've felt such strong intense unreleasable emotions upon hearing music i love#not every song not every piece but it happens quite often ill find a piece/song i become temporarily obsessed with#and it fills me with an unsatisfiable feeling that i must become pure sound#so when i die im gonna put it in my fucking will or something genuinely i want to be turned into sound specifically music sound#do i mean my remains? i mean if you can find a way to do that please by all means fucking go for it#my only request is you better be successful if you do that#failing that i don't know how my life will go who i'll meet or if by the time i'm dead anyone will love me enough to do it#but if someone wrote a piece about me. not even about my life i don't know. just. turn me into music so people can hear it#and listen to it over and over and love it and feel it in their souls the way i feel music in my soul and heart and organs#is that prideful to ask? i kind of don't care. i'll be dead!#just turn me into music. just let me be something people can love forever i guess.
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I have so many drawing ideas for Poll and Tequilla but alas. My hands don't want to work with me.
#I have some storylines planned but I am struggling so hard#I want to draw Tequilla's parents. I want to protray how all of these events are affecting Poll.#Is this how the egg admins felt#I don't just want to make a blocky post about this stuff#i want to CREATE something to protray what I need#I just struggle so much with character design 😭 TQ's momma (the goat hybrid) is the only one I have a design for#I HAVEN'T EVEN NAMED HIS PARENTS YET o(-(#I shouldn't be trusted to name OCs. Look at the names of all my little blorbos. Poll. Tequilla Ibuprofen. Stardust.#uuuuuuuugh#I know it would be easier if I had more spoons right now. I'm completely out of them. Have been for days.#I blame work#okay im complaining too much now lmao#Just know that I AM cooking lore. It just may end up having to be in writing form rather than the drawings I want to do.#(I say.. procrastinating on my fitpac fic 💀)#honestly I might write out the scene I'm imagining because i cannot fathom doing a long comic for it. I'm not strong enough kkkkkkk#okay I'm done now I think#not a poll
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JUST FINISHED WATCHING THE JULIET BURKE SCENES COMPILATION!!!! CRIED!!!!!!!
#THANK GOD I DIDN'T WATCH THE WHOLE SHOW#i still dont understand sooooooo much stuff lmao#what do you MEAN dylan minnette is her son????#i am going directly to ao3 to search for the kate/juliet tag thank you for asking <3#but seriously though!! i actually loved this!! i didn't need to know more!! fully loved watched her so much!!#it's amazing because SO MUCH stuff happened!!! i watched her do so many things!!! we fr don't get enough with new shows that are only 8 eps#also yeah i did cry that wasn't an exaggeration#i dont have that many strong opinions because well i feel like im not allowed because I obviously dont know the whole thing#i still think she deserved so much better#and i think Elizabeth Mitchell is the greatest <333#i AM curious about a few thing so i will. idk read the wikipedia page or something#but yeah this was a lot of fun and i will be doing it again <3#also i will be annoying about it for a few days thanks for tuning in <33
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On this fine sunday morning, I am, once again, going feral over Annie Leonhart
i won't elaborate
it should be obvious
#annie#annie leonhart#i mean she looks very tough and cool and she IS tough and cool#but at the same time she has the saddest poutty puppy-eyes in the universe#her thigh are probably 🔥🔥🔥 and she has the cutest butt! whether you put her in pants or a formal skirt#teeeeeny tiny feet that kick around and tap against the ground from her chair because they don't 100% reach the floor#Armin-- Armin my guy i'm gonna need you to get strong enough to pick her up ok it can't be that hard#Im counting on you to get us every little sound that pretty mouth of her has to offer#i know she LOOKS fucking tough and cool but girl is a whiner and she's very sensitive and I wanna eat her up whole#k bye
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