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ting-tang · 11 hours ago

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There are NO WORDS when someone you love dies. Anything anyone said to me when I lost my daughter made me hate the situation even more. For instance : "im so sorry" they said. Ya me too I'm sorry to mad at God hated the world. I wanted to go with her my body tried I reached out Mt hand, my soul was like okay I'm going with you, a force holding me back ((a softness of incredible strength) "u cant" heavenly angels. I don't want to live and I don't want to die I JUST WANT MY BABY BACK. Screaming it at the top of my lungs walking down the road, in a car FUCK I HATED IT. Why would God take her from me. Some would well "u have others" "they need".

WE WILL ALL GO, they're strong to go on with out me I'd think to myself....

It's gonna be 6yrs in April and in November is when I realized even if they're strong enough going w/o me it definitely isn't fair to them as if only one mattered. My children know what they mean to me they feel my love they understand my pain and theirs too.

Finally, I've got a handle on the loss of my daughter. I don't want to set the world on fire with my mind, I don't hate everyone (the voi e in my head said yes I do) I don't scream. I have a very deep dark hole in my soul called sadness it shows up when it wants. I'stay calm rolling right thru it.

In closing the special ones, that have always got me thru whatever fresh hell I came about. They showed up at the right time. I way. s about to give up, not care, lay here, and die. Them special ones (the three wise men)have perfect timing. too.

“When someone is going through a storm, your silent presence is more powerful than a million, empty words.”

— Thema Davis

#fat joe #writing #original #words #thoughts #motor city machine guns #motorcycles #motivation #detroit #eminem #mean girls finish first

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ghost-inthe-hall · 1 year ago

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This motherfucker is in Eden

#i don't know if im strong enough for this #look at him #he looks terrified #maybe its the angle #the snake is powerful #she knows her angles #metal hammer #december issue #vessel #sleep token #vessel sleep token #sleep token vessel #the apple #the chains #the jewelry #pls sir #he's so pretty

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banditblvd · 6 months ago

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Uhhlittle bitty ethubs warmup I did a minute ago

An offering to the ethubsers

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bearinabandana · 1 year ago

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Twelve is sooo a cello girlie you have no idea

#i speak as a former cello player ☝️#that played for only a year #i want to make one of those for other doctors but i don't know if im strong enough #whoever wants to share their takes feel more than free #doctor who #the doctor #twelfth doctor #my art

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phosphoresccent · 2 months ago

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tragic, local man tried to watch old yogs content for nostalgia but Some Dickhead keeps showing up and ruining the vibes

#if you can think of one of them who sucks. this is about them.#i wanna watch some stuff but like!! go away!!!!!!!#voltz was more fine because no one terrible was there for more than like 20 seconds. i just moved on #but i wanted to watch project ozone and got jumpscared like 10 episodes in lmao.#tragic.#if you can tolerate them more power to you!! i just feel distinctly slimy #whalelords i know there is lore in you. but i don't know if im strong enough.

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bidaryl · 2 years ago

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admit it. you only came back to atlanta for the hat. don’t tell anybody.

#glenn literally risking his LIFE for the stupid hat. turning back for the HAT #then rick doing the same fucking thing. like. i love them so much #wanna cry over #glenn x rick #like i don't talk about them enough or honestly spiral over them enough but rick and glenns dynamic over the show? i miss it SO bad #twdedit #m #gifs #1.04 #wait also the way the hat also gets passed down to carl then judith like............. i dont even know what im feeling but its feelin STRONG #also beth that one time...................................... something bout the kids of the future somthing about passing things down #somehting bout how even when you're not there anymore.... you're still there #stupid hat. got me emo

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crazysodomite · 17 days ago

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its difficult. its a complex thing. there's a reason things end up like this

#not having an outlet to talk about real circumstances isn't good for me mentally probably #but finding that outlet. i don't even know how #i dont have it in me #im not strong enough #closes my eyes forever.

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loverboybrightsideghost · 3 months ago

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i'm being incredibly serious. when i die, someone needs to find a way to turn me into music.

#bluebird.txt #all my life i've felt such strong intense unreleasable emotions upon hearing music i love #not every song not every piece but it happens quite often ill find a piece/song i become temporarily obsessed with #and it fills me with an unsatisfiable feeling that i must become pure sound #so when i die im gonna put it in my fucking will or something genuinely i want to be turned into sound specifically music sound #do i mean my remains? i mean if you can find a way to do that please by all means fucking go for it #my only request is you better be successful if you do that #failing that i don't know how my life will go who i'll meet or if by the time i'm dead anyone will love me enough to do it #but if someone wrote a piece about me. not even about my life i don't know. just. turn me into music so people can hear it #and listen to it over and over and love it and feel it in their souls the way i feel music in my soul and heart and organs #is that prideful to ask? i kind of don't care. i'll be dead!#just turn me into music. just let me be something people can love forever i guess.

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which-qsmp-egg-would · 5 months ago

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I have so many drawing ideas for Poll and Tequilla but alas. My hands don't want to work with me.

#I have some storylines planned but I am struggling so hard #I want to draw Tequilla's parents. I want to protray how all of these events are affecting Poll.#Is this how the egg admins felt #I don't just want to make a blocky post about this stuff #i want to CREATE something to protray what I need #I just struggle so much with character design 😭 TQ's momma (the goat hybrid) is the only one I have a design for #I HAVEN'T EVEN NAMED HIS PARENTS YET o(-(#I shouldn't be trusted to name OCs. Look at the names of all my little blorbos. Poll. Tequilla Ibuprofen. Stardust.#uuuuuuuugh #I know it would be easier if I had more spoons right now. I'm completely out of them. Have been for days.#I blame work #okay im complaining too much now lmao #Just know that I AM cooking lore. It just may end up having to be in writing form rather than the drawings I want to do.#(I say.. procrastinating on my fitpac fic 💀)#honestly I might write out the scene I'm imagining because i cannot fathom doing a long comic for it. I'm not strong enough kkkkkkk #okay I'm done now I think #not a poll

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elizabeth-mitchells · 6 months ago

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JUST FINISHED WATCHING THE JULIET BURKE SCENES COMPILATION!!!! CRIED!!!!!!!

#THANK GOD I DIDN'T WATCH THE WHOLE SHOW #i still dont understand sooooooo much stuff lmao #what do you MEAN dylan minnette is her son????#i am going directly to ao3 to search for the kate/juliet tag thank you for asking <3 #but seriously though!! i actually loved this!! i didn't need to know more!! fully loved watched her so much!!#it's amazing because SO MUCH stuff happened!!! i watched her do so many things!!! we fr don't get enough with new shows that are only 8 eps #also yeah i did cry that wasn't an exaggeration #i dont have that many strong opinions because well i feel like im not allowed because I obviously dont know the whole thing #i still think she deserved so much better #and i think Elizabeth Mitchell is the greatest <333 #i AM curious about a few thing so i will. idk read the wikipedia page or something #but yeah this was a lot of fun and i will be doing it again <3 #also i will be annoying about it for a few days thanks for tuning in <33

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waitineedaname · 2 months ago

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zero clue why your in my follow list when I´m not even in the fandom you post about (or know what it´s about) but you seem chill! so just been silently following along. hope you have a nice day/night

I manifested in your follow list to bring you Good Vibes and Questionable Webnovels. glad you're enjoying your time here lol I hope you have a good day/night too!

#asks #anonymous #you should check out the things i post about <3 #oooh you wanna read svsss so bad oooooh it's a normal transmigration parody haha come closer #in all seriousness it makes me smile knowing youre following me despite not knowing what the hell im talking about lol #i know i post A Lot so it can be. a little much if you dont know the media #so people who withstand my nonsense are strong in my eyes #especially because i wouldve unfollowed at that point lmao #im glad my chill vibes are enough to make people stick around haha #i try to make this a pretty positive space #also if you don't remember why you followed me it was probably the creature talk post #a lot of people followed me for that for some reason

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hxlcyon · 7 months ago

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suddenly getting really into indie perfumes and it's so so cute how people on the reddit thread (? I don't use reddit or know what it's called) call different brands "houses"

#i want something sweet and floral but also #sometimes florals are too too much so #it's been fun doing casual research over the last couple of days into perfume while working #I'm kinda hesitant to dive right in despite knowing perfume scents and what i like and don't like #especially because i cant smell them from an purely online standpoint #but i really like the idea of rocking stronger and longer lasting perfumes! cause like designer ones i have either fade TOO fast or like #just simply aren't strong enough #and like i know the motif is to like.... have scented everything body lotion to clothes to have a smell #but like my skin is wayy too sensitive for that tbh though clothes smells i really should look into hm #anyway. people on the thread have different perfumes for different seasons and that's how im trying to be tbh that's adorable

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officialpenisenvy · 5 months ago

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armand x G.U.Y. edit

#i don't need to be 🔛🔝 to know im worth it cause im strong enough to know the truth 🙏🙏🙏

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dangoulains-devotion · 6 months ago

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yuffie has many interesting elements to her but people refuse to move past "i find energetic kids annoying" and it makes me sad

#first of all...... treat kids with the grace + patience you wish you had been given when you were one. just. in general #second.....#god forbid a 16 year old have flaws...! especially when part of the boisterous energy is because she is masking #she has a very strong love for her home to the point she's gone into unknown territory #entirely in over her head! but she refuses to give up #it's an interesting way to look at how patriotism can affect a person when you look at the differing views of protecting wutai that her and #godo have. i'm so interested to see how 'a miserable daughter's homecoming' is gonna go in remake pt 3 #given that we know they want to expand on wutai more than they could in the OG #remake intermission as well has been rolling around in my head bc i think its interesting that sonon still wants godo to be respected but #yuffie very much is like. nah fuck that old drunkard idgaf. at least thats how it comes across #i've always felt like the kleptomania was allowed to bloom because she didn't receive enough care or support on top of the patriotism from #young age... so the intermission dialogue makes me wonder if we'll delve into that potentially being the truth in part 3 #anyway... rebirth gave such good yuffie + party sibling moments im excited to get more in part 3 #especially with vincent because they're one of the funniest not-quite uncle and niece combos #yuffie ringing vincent post-AC and then he goes to cloud like 'tell her that's illegal' instead of just replying to her normally 💀funny af #pettiness off the charts. i adore their 'i do care about you greatly but i'd also sell you to satan for one (1) corn chip' dynamic #ultimately you like and dislike whatever characters #but its always worth looking past the surface level. you may discover that the layers have a unique charm to them #and if the charms don't appeal after that? well at least you now have a better understanding of the character. win/win #god knows i've tried to like characters and came out of diving into their facets -still- not liking them. but more often than not it #gives me some new appreciation of the character. because the depth is there you just have to put the effort in to connect the dots #(this was spurred on by brainless takes i saw in general chat of a public discord. yes i know. my own fault for looking in a godless place)#these tags are 2 short to add proper nuance to my thoughts but you get the idea. this has been my once in a blue moon ramble post o7 #might delete later i just wanted the thoughts expelled teehee <3

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sunshinereddie · 2 years ago

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how come on the day that i decided i would be productive and actually study for my finals. i open tumblr and i see all these “writing prompt asks” that i want to write ficlets for. GRRRRRRR

#I WAS READING THE PROMPT LIST AND IM LIKE 'oh i love reddie in that.' 'ohh i can imagine reddie doing that!' 'let me write reddie in this'#SJHDFKBSHFGSDFBHG #i need to hold out until after finals but lord i don't know if im strong enough

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stcries · 10 months ago

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TIME FOR MY HSR GRIND TO GO INTO OVERDRIVE.

for a short summary: i haven't been able to play honkai star rail for the longest time due to storage problems. my ipad has never had enough space thanks to other apps, same with my phone, and with it not being on ps4, i cannot play it there either. my pc, being a mac, cannot run hsr without a windows emulator, and i don't trust any enough to download them.

recently, i replaced genshin on my ipad with hsr, and i've been enjoying it so far. but with my storage once again nearing ful capacity, i'm SO scared i'll run out of space before i get to boothill's banner. i need 9k more jades before i have 180 pulls, so i'm RACING to continue with the main story, finish events, and do as much as i can before my storage eventually gives out and i have to uninstall.

but if i remove the game after i get boothill? that is a reality i can live with. I JUST NEED TO GET ENOUGH JADES BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE LMAO.

#・ ˖ ✦ ⋄ . AUTHOR OF THE STARS ❝ ooc. ❞#you guys don't know the lengths i will go to secure this man #i may have to give my account to a friend to pull for me in the worst case scenario but!! im fine w that #I JUST NEED TO SECURE THIS MAN....#i'm in the middle of the xianzhou storyline rn i just beat the deer boss so i've got a lot more to grind still #i just hope my team is strong enough to continue ;w;

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