#i don't feel like going more in depth rn because as much as i love it the ultimate infodump takes more energy than i currently have

[i3utterflyeffect]

Could you tell me a bit about rhythm doctor?

YES absolutely!

rhythm doctor is basically a game in a universe where you can defibrillate people in time to their hearbeat to regulate their pulse, and Middlesea hospital has taken advantage of this by making a musical program called the Rhythm Doctor initiative! Music is synced to a patient's heartbeat and you press the button in time with they rhythm to help regulate their heartbeat!

as time goes on, however, the medical staff running this hospital is slowly peeled away, and three doctors-- Ada, Ian, and The Intern (aka you!) are left in charge while you're pushed to meet more and more deadlines and improve the Rhythm Doctor program.

all the characters are extremely lovable and charming (my favorite is literally just a straight-up samurai. best dude. friends with literally everyone) and you end up getting a look into their personal lives and being part of a tight-knit community!

you also have to face the mysterious virus Connectifa Abortus, which keeps showing up at inconvenient times, and causing your connection (did i mention you're not at the hospital? you're remotely connected) to short out.

THEY ALSO HAVE EXTRA DIFFICULTY SETTINGS! you can select 'extra easy' or 'unmissable' if you have issues with your reflexes and they don't punish you! accessibility!!!!! HELL yes!!!!!

is this propaganda? absolutely! do i regret it? hell no. it's a great game

sadly it's only early access, but it's very fun and i could recommend! has great replayability too!!!! failing also gives you lots of dialogue so even if you do mess up you get lore in the process!

[sleepingdiaryzzz]

hold on,hold on,Yandere!Conner Kent x reader🙏🏻

(sorry for bothering😭)

U ain't a bother and if anybody tells you that u do, then, they gonna face my pinky, my thumb and my fist they gonna run. 😼🐺🧏🏽‍♀️ nobody messes with my first ever anon 😠👊

Anyways

The night has fallen quietly over Metropolis, the cityscape softened under a blanket of stars. The world feels smaller somehow, contained within the walls of your apartment where Connor sits, angled slightly toward you, his gaze unwavering yet serene. He has that brooding, intense look—a mix of steel and tenderness—that you’ve come to recognize as uniquely his. It’s as though he’s carrying a burden, one he won’t let you see, and yet you feel its weight as if he’s drawn you into his orbit without permission.

“Connor,” you say softly, trying to break the quiet, “you’ve been… around a lot more lately.”

His eyes flicker, something shadowy dancing behind them, a vulnerability he usually keeps hidden. He doesn’t answer right away, just lets his gaze travel over your features as if memorizing every detail. The room feels charged, the air between you like the fine thread of a spider’s web—delicate and unbreakable all at once.

Finally, he speaks, his voice hushed but firm. “I just want to make sure you’re safe. Is that so wrong?”

There’s a faint, haunting cadence in his words, something raw and possessive yet laced with an almost tragic reverence. You feel the intensity radiating off him, a barely restrained storm beneath his calm exterior.

“Nothing could happen to you,” he continues, almost to himself. “Not on my watch. I’d make sure of that.”

You’ve always known Connor’s protectiveness runs deep, but tonight, it feels like there’s something else lurking beneath the surface. An edge, a quiet desperation that clings to the room, thick as fog.

“Connor…” you say his name with a gentle tone, hoping it might pull him out of whatever dark place he’s retreating into. He’s so close now, leaning forward, his hand reaching out as if compelled by some invisible force. When his fingers graze your cheek, his touch is featherlight, as though he fears you’ll vanish.

“If I could keep you here,” he whispers, his tone taking on a dreamy, almost poetic quality, “locked away from the world… I would. Not because I want to take anything from you, but because I… I couldn’t bear it if anything happened to you.”

It’s a confession wrapped in longing, and you see the truth of it in his eyes, where constellations seem to burn just for you. There’s something about his gaze that feels eternal, as if the universe itself has handed him the task of guarding you.

“You mean a lot to me,” he says finally, each word slow and deliberate, as though he’s trying to etch them into your soul. “More than you know.”

In that moment, his love feels like an uncharted ocean—beautiful and terrifying, with depths you’re not sure you’re ready to explore. But his sincerity anchors you, and, despite the intensity of his words, you can’t help feeling safe, cocooned in the quiet power of his devotion.

(A/n: is it just me or do you guys also feel suspicious of how I could post every day despite saying I'm too lazy to do so... Maybe my laziness hasn't kicked in yet which is weird and scary considering I'm writing dis rn in front of my 10 homework activities, and yes I am doing it last minute but so what...? I'm too lazy to do all of em and rn I'm don't know what I am talking about... I love yapping but I'm a introvert does it make me a extrovert when i talk too much but not as loud? Guys I'm turning crazy, I need someone to talk to and all my best friends are busy idk why they've been busy since last week....my gf is not replying for like 20 minutes now...im going crazy. Also sorry for spamming the Batfamily tag even though it's not the content I posted, I just feel like it's more famous than the others and also idk how to tag... Though mainly because I'm scared of being a flop hehe...)

[cokou]

REDDIT POST

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r/girlfriends Greenjolyne

Hi reddit, IT'S MY GIRLS BDAY, what the fuck should I get her?

I know what she likes, her favorite food, and any of the other things that are her forte. But the thing is, IT DOESNT FEEL ENOUGH!!!! what the hell should I add? I only want the best for her and I don't know what I should get her, it's currently 12:08 AM rn, I ALREADY wished her a happy birthday and she's offline. I wanted to take her out to a restaurant but it doesn't seem enough at all [crying GIF]

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ghostlyporio 2h You should get her something that makes her happy :) | Greenjolyne 2h I DONT KNOW WHAT MAKES HER HAPPY!! yn.user 1h anything makes me happy jolyne :) | Greenjolyne 1h HOW DID YOU GET HERE??? 😥

r/water ilovewater.ff

(Photo of half emptied water)

Dont you guys just love water? It makes me angry when I see people wasting their water just for fun! 🤬 They make me wanna kill them! Water is so precious dont they know?!?!? @yn.user you would protect water with me right!?

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weatherrep 6h Couldn't agree more i guess? | ilovewater.ff 4h THANK YOU!!! yn.user 5h FF please put the phone down 😭😭 | ilovewater.ff 3h No! I love promoting water equality🙂😚 miramira 1h or you could mind your own business. | ilovewater.ff 37m how dare you threaten water!

r/galpal smack.ermes

I'm honestly new here, i wanna rant about my girl because shes so pretty.

Oh my goodness, where do I even begin? To describe the beauty of my girlfriend feels like trying to capture the infinite vastness of the ocean with a single drop of water. She’s beyond what words can express, but I’m going to try, because she deserves all the praise and admiration in the world, even if no combination of adjectives or metaphors can do her justice.

Let’s start with her smile. Her smile isn’t just a facial expression, it’s a force of nature. It’s like the sun breaking through a cloudy sky, or the first breath of fresh air after a storm. The way her lips curve upward—gently, yet with an undeniable warmth lights up everything around her, like a beacon in the dark. Every time she smiles at me, it feels like the entire universe pauses for just a moment, giving me the privilege of basking in that perfect, radiant glow. It’s a smile that has the power to melt the hardest of hearts, to soften the edges of even the most difficult days. I could spend forever just lost in the wonder of it.

And then there are her eyes. Oh, her eyes… they’re the most captivating thing I’ve ever seen. They’re deep, like pools of mystery that draw me in with every glance. The color shifts in different lighting—sometimes they’re a stormy grey, like clouds just before rain, and at other times, they’re a brilliant shade of green, sparkling with mischief and warmth. When she looks at me, it’s as if she sees straight through to my soul, but with so much kindness and understanding that it never feels invasive, only comforting. Her eyes, with all their beauty, hold a depth of emotion and intelligence that leaves me in awe. They can be playful one moment, intense the next, and every expression in them tells a story that I’m eager to be a part of.

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yn.user 23h MY BABY!! you are the sweetest i love you so much!! this is so adorable i can cry to sleep 😭😭 | smack.ermes 22h HOW DID YOU FIND MY ACCOUNT? THIS IS SO EMBARRASSING | yn.user 22h No it's not, it's so cute i love you so much Ermes !! (Liked by smack.ermes) GreenJolyne 20h I figured you'd be here after I saw you on your phone for 30 minutes straight just typing. (COMMENT WARNING) | smack.ermes 19h blocked.

r/adventures weatherrep

(picture of the sky)

It's pretty nice to go out and drive around with you. @yn.user

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yn.user 9h I enjoyed the view weather :) it's really cute, i also had lots and lots of pictures of us! i'm posting it >v< | weatherrep 8h i'm happy that you liked it. | yn.user 8h Next time i'm the one who's bringing you to dates! (Liked by weatherrep) Imsexy.ana 7h FUCK YOU TWO, YOU MADE ME A THIRD WHEEL AND A DRIVER?!?! HOW ABSURD! IM GONNA KILL YOU WEATHER. (COMMENT WARNING) | weatherrep 6h i hope you enjoyed the ride aswell.

r/girlfriends Imsexy.ana

My girlfriend is beautiful inside and out. Her smile lights up the room, and her eyes carry a depth that captivates me. Her hair flows effortlessly, adding to her natural grace. But it’s her kindness, empathy, and warmth that truly make her remarkable. She has a way of making everyone feel valued, and her love brings peace and joy to those around her. Her beauty isn’t just in how she looks, but in the way she makes the world feel brighter.

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yn.user 38m Is this your way of saying sorry to ME? | Imsexy.ana 37m Of course, i'm sorry. Please open the house door, it's getting cold out here. | yn.user 35m Fine, but say sorry to my face. | Imsexy.ana 34m WILL DO, thanks for letting me in. weatherrep 1h Shouldn't of let him in. | Imsexy.ana 37m FUCK YOU WEATHER YOU'RE JUST JEALOUS GET THE FUCK OUTTA HERE. (COMMENT WARNING)

·˚ ͟͟ ✉ an. HEHE, i hope you guys enjoyed LMAO. First updating after 3 months again lolsz:>

©Cokou 2024, all works belong to me.

[wanderersbelovedwife]

Rant about How Noor butchered Princess mononoke ( the core of the movie and the characters )

Before we start let's see why Noor chose to do princess mononoke or why she even made iaptbap

( these are from the QnA Noor hosted in her Quotev )

I need to know and I want Noor to go in depth how and why princess mononoke is problematic ( how is her writing in sen's arc fixing it )

Also bro calling ashitaka's character bland is crazy work we can also see how she doesn't really understand ashitaka's character even with this conversation of mc describing ashitaka with sen

Ashitaka is literally the person that sought out for San in the hopes of understanding both sides as the mediator, he's someone who understands her to the point of gaining her respects

That's why we have this quote

Ashitaka wants to understand and he does. He doesn't force san to accept humanity and leave the forest.

Ashitaka doesn't play as a hero , he's just a leader , someone who sees both sides without judgment even when he's feeling hatred. He wants these two sides to understand each other too.

Ashitaka is someone who's blunt and has a flat tone that doesn't mean he's bland , it's also kinda funny to see him talk to someone then not wait for them to reply and just go away.

How can MC be better than ashitaka? If anything they have many similar traits in a strong sense of justice and are willing to hear both sides. The difference is mc is more argumentative but ashitaka also says what he thinks , is it really because of his flat tone that it makes him bland? I just don't understand it.

Also I wanna add I don't think Noor even discussed in the sen's arc about WHY the women in lady eboshi's village are hunting for sen. I also don't really understand why all the women there are in love with lady eboshi ( nothing wrong with that but give the men in the princess mononoke some credit )

In the movie we do see why the women are hunting for San

They're taking revenge on San for having her wolfs kill their husband

While

San is taking revenge on humans for ruining the forest and Killing them

Another thing I wanna say is Noor misunderstanding ashitaka's relationship with kaya ( his now ex fiancee )

Let me provide a screenshot ( this is from sen's arc the 12th chapter )

From what I've known there's kaya being pregnant is not confirmed at all and even if it is

Saying that a woman being pregnant is the same as a man forcing another woman to be pregnant is crazy work

Are we fr seeing the same kaya rn??

The same girl who gave ashitaka a necklace because she was worried about him and it was the only thing she could give as one last chance.

From what I've known ashitaka and kaya's engagement is probably arranged but even with that these two still cared and respect each other a lot to the point of ashitaka caring and protecting her and kaya caring and protecting ashitaka in return, she even gave him a necklace. Ashitaka might not love kaya romantically and we don't know if kaya loves ashitaka romantically or not. We just know these two care for each other.

So writing kaya as a character that would leave ashitaka if they don't have a baby is so crazy , also Kano leaving the village didn't raise any questions to the people in his village or eboshi's village??

I did see that Noor didn't like that ashitaka gave kaya's gift to san

I get it but why didn't Noor just write Kano as a heartbroken fiancee that was worried about mc and show how upset he was that mc gave the necklace to another man

Show how upset he was so the readers can be sympathetic to Kano rather than Kano be seen as a creep.

Omg there's so much more I wanna talk about In iaptbap, I'm sorry if I say anything wrong I'm open for discussion

Thank you again for reading 🩷

[theallyandhisbeast]

You know what.

We have seen how nonchalant everyone in the firefam was about the break up, no? Like it's something that always happens (which, to be fair, buck always breaks up with his partners after a period that goes to 6-10 months). I'm not even thinking it's the wrong attitude. I mean, for them, they must think "we are gonna treat this break up just like his other ones, just cause Tommy is a dude there should be no difference".

(this without counting on the fact that Tommy was friends with everyone. But apparently the writers didn't so. I'm not gonna talk about that stupidity here rn)

Only. They don't get that it is different this time. And Buck, bless him, won't realize until someone spells it out to him without knowing.

What I'm thinking over is the whole Josh speech. Taking aside the glee of it all, when Josh asks Buck if he thinks he loves Tommy, Buck's reply is immediately like "whoa let's not go that far" but with every question Josh asks he's like "well...". Problem is, I don't think Buck realised he loves Tommy. What he takes from the convo is what goes down in his terrible speech to Tommy in the break up scene, and the way he was wording things is probably one of the reasons why Tommy felt the need to bolt like he did.

So Buck did know he wanted more from Tommy, but he's still nebulous on the why. He says he's comfortable with him, that he wants him to move in together, mentions marriage yes, but he still doesn't tell Tommy he loves him. If he knew he loved him, wouldn't it be logical for him to precede the speech with that? But he doesn't. So we must take from that is Buck hasn't realised the depth of his feelings for Tommy.

And this brings me to another point I want to make. Maddie is present for the entirety of Buck's conversation with Josh. So she knows how Buck dodged the "you love him" question and she knows he needed to be coached into seeing the situation from Tommy's perspective. And what does she take from it, after the break up? Buck probably wasn't in love with Tommy, so he's going to bounce back easily. And she probably shared this with Chim, who probably also told the 118 fam cause... He's Chim come on lmao

So we are at the situation where everyone thinks Buck isn't actually in love with Tommy so this is just temporary! Except Buck goes crazy into baking. Still tho everyone this is just one of Buck's quirks that will eventually die out.

Buck is also not clear on his feelings for Tommy! Because baking takes the need to call Tommy off his mind, which probably also means he's not doing any type of meaningful introspection about why this break up is leaving him so off.

This could be all a beautiful set up for Buck to actually realise he's in love already and needs to fight for the relationship, but at this point I'm not exactly confident the writers will handle this well so...

What I would love so much is someone, maybe Maddie since she's the one who was present at the Josh scene, to question Buck on why he's still hung up on Tommy months after the break up saying something on the lines of "you didn't even love him, I don't understand why you are still so hung up on him!" And Buck snapping right at that moment, fed up with all the meddling of his family about not contacting Tommy, without even thinking twice says "But I do love him, Maddie! I fucking love him and you all told me for months to let it go!"

And that's how Buck realises he's in love with Tommy and he goes to fight to get his man back 😌 in a perfect world we'd get this on our screen am I right

[uniquethingtastemaker]

Do you have an AO3 for your fics?

I like to bookmark my fav fics to keep them all in one place so I can reread them when it strikes my fancy… plus, it sounds like your next few fics are going to be multichaptered beasts and those are often easier to work with over on AO3!

And of course, it means more readers get to experience your awesome writing. I can’t WAIT for the dream world fic to come out 👀

Yes, yes, I do. I don't usually put twst stuff over there because most of the fandom is here on Tumblr. However, I'm more than willing to cross-post. I also love AO3. Usually, there are more character x character and slash fics over there, so I didn't even think about it. Idk how to properly link my ao3 profile, but it's kcase21. I don't have anything for twst up rn, but feel free to follow/bookmark the one fanfic I do have lol

I'm also excited to start releasing fanfics for the Dreaming of You fanfic series! I have to finish them, but I'm already done with Riddle and Azul's first dreams. Since you sent a question to my inbox, it's only fair to update you! Again, I love engaging with people. Please, tell me your thoughts about which fanfics you're looking forward to lol

The hefty Rook x Observant Reader fanfic has been slow. Honestly, I need some outside help and my friends/beta readers are busy. While I'm giving you an update, I might throw my dilemma out there. (usually, I wouldn't do this, but it's not overly descriptive and I need help. If you're here, congratulations. Now, you will truly understand the depth at which I'm writing this)

I've created a section where Rook and Reader watch one of Vil's movies together. The scene(s) are meant to bring the couple closer together while giving insight into Vil, Rook, and Neige (even though Rook isn't an actor in the film, a character clearly embodies him). The core idea is that both actors are playing their real personalities. There are only a few differences, and those differences are very slight. However, they have a high impact on how Vil acts in the film. I aim for it to be too close for comfort. I want to shake Rook up a little. My question is…… actually, I just talked to someone about it and I have solved my issue! I was going to ask if I should go with my gut and flesh out more movie scenes with commentary between Reader and Rook. I decided I should. I also figured out what Rook and Reader will talk about. That was tripping me up, so I’m glad I got that settled.

I’ve been working on Riddle’s Dreaming of You. I mentioned in this post some fun, teaser details. There isn’t much more on that front... I suppose I can reveal that I just wrote the section in the second dream where Riddle orders everyone to chase the “imposters.” I’ve decided the thing that pushes Riddle over the edge to command his military is that the two Deuces keep arguing about “No! You’re lying!” There are other logical reasons why Riddle commands their arrest, but Deuce is the trigger. I feel like it’s a very accurate representation of him. This could be subject to change, but I thought it was funny.

Azul’s Dreaming of You is similar. I’ve been working on it, but there isn’t much to tell. The latest detailed update is with the Riddle link above.

Ahhh, the newish one. Silver’s Dreaming of You. I have a lot of news and thoughts about this one. This one has already gone through several rewrites and overhauls. It's nowhere near complete. I'm treating this like the Rook x Observant Reader fanfic. I'm taking a holistic approach and fleshing out more than just Silver because I'd be doing a disservice if I didn't. Canon Chapter 7 is all about family and it's written phenomenally. I don't want to come in and slap some superficial romance. It doesn't feel right. I'm having to do a lot of research on Diasomnia. The more I know, the more I’ll change.

To do this, I'm introducing the Reader into Diasomnia’s family dynamic before Chapter 7. I have to go through each character and establish their relationship with the Reader and how it grows. That’s extremely important. (I need Lilia to approve lol… actually, there is a sweet scene with Reader and him. He tells them to take care of his son and the others, but particularly Silver. It happens where they’re alone and it’s before Lilia’s going-away party. The Reader doesn’t know the full context of what that means *sobs*)

For Sebek, I'm excited to write his character. At the moment, I want Reader to change his point of view of his heritage and how it represents what Lilia and Malleus want. They want peace between the fae and humans. Sebek is a physical representation of that type of healthy union. I'm really excited about his transformation. I planned to be mean about it because I had some good lines and I was irritated at our boy. However, it would be better served in his Dreaming of You fanfic. "You're worried about sullying Malleus and Lilia's name? You don't have to. You've already done it." *mic drop*

I'm not sure about Malleus, but he's a cutie pie so he'll get love and attention too.

That's all for now!

[sarascamander]

Ranking Parabatai! (bc I'm bored.) (Ps: this is just my opinion you don't need to share it).

1. Will and Jem

Come on, were you really expecting someone else? They are the hardest Parabatai to ever parabatai. They set THE standard. Honestly, their friendship ALWAYS makes my cry cause where the hell else can I find THAT level of devotion and pure love? Literally, even in other books, no other besties (or yk, a bit more than bestie *wink, wink*) can EVER top them in my mind. Pure, unadulterated love. And it's their friendships that made me don't mind the love triangle in the trilogy BC otherwise I can't stand love triangle (but is herongraystairs even a love triangle at this point? They're so in love with each other). Okay cutting off myself before I ramble too much.

2. Matthew and James

IM SO WEAK FOR THEM. THEY ARE MY POOKIE PATOOTIE. Again, such softness, unadulterated love and devotion they have for each other. They are like the less tragic version of Heronstairs. BUT THEY COULDN'T COMMUNICATE FOR SHIT. And that frustrates me a lot, actually because it felt like there is emotional distance between them with all these secrets or feelings they've been harbouring and not to mention that stupid love triangle 😭. I couldn't remember much from their trilogy but I do remember like Cordelia running to Paris with Matthew and I was like FUCK.

So yeah they frustrate me a lot but their love is still so strong and they love each other so damn much!!!!!!! I just wish there were less drama and more of them trying to help each other out on the things they've been through (this sounds vague bc again, I can't remember much of the trilogy).

3. Julian and Emma

Should I even count them here tho lmao. BUT they were Parabatai for a long time so it counts, okay. Emma and Jules are basically parents to the Blackthorns you can't argue with me, they've been co-parenting for years. They know each other so well and they even have fucking cute silent communication thing going on. And when they fell in love?? Good for them! I think every Parabatai should try this actually (but yk, without the whole risk of dying and everything).

I think when I read their Parabatai ceremony in Simon's book (the academy of something, I'm sorry it's been so long okay 😭), I cried. They were so little at that time but so utterly devoted to one another. They deserve the world.

4. Alec and Jace

When I first read the series i didn't really get their bromance ngl. I think maybe that's just me not understanding the concept of Parabatai yet or something but I don't think Jace and Alec even like each other that much (and I want to stress again it's been literal years since I read so maybe it's just me being disconnected from the series for so long) but this is how I feel about them rn.

But as the series progresses they grow on me a lot. But still, I think I love them as brothers more than as Parabatai. Like those scenes with the Lightwood all together and claiming things like "he's my brother" and shit. I ate it up EVERY TIME. I just love their family relationship because they'd be like "oh he is adopted fucked up asshole" about each other but in the same breath just defend and love each other so much if that makes sense. I still love them but I totally see them more as brothers than Parabatai.

5. Clary and Simon

I am very neutral about this because I don't mind that they became Parabatai but I just don't care either. I don't think it brings any more depth to their relationship since they're already besties. Actually, when I read about them becoming Parabatai in Simon's book, my first thought was "was this necessary?" But not in a hating way, just in a thought. I feel like not every bestie should be Parabatai but you do you I guess. If they're happy about it I don't care much.

6. Lucie and Cordelia

(again tlh is like a fever dream for me so I don't remember much) but I just can't see them as Parabatai. I DON'T want them to be Parabatai for some freaking reason.

Make no mistake, I ADORE their friendship, I've always wanted a relationship like theirs especially since it's going on strong even in long distance but again, like Simon and Clary, I just don't think every bestie needs to be Parabatai. I remember them postponing their ceremony and just crossing my fingers that they changed their mind. I just think, again the same problem with Jamie and Matthew, they don't communicate well. There are so many secrets between them that it creates emotional distance and idk, honestly. Maybe I just like the concept that people can change their mind about these things and not being Parabatai doesn't make their bond is weaker (I mean look at Emma and Christina). I also think at one point that I was rooting for Lucie and Grace's friendship more than Cordelia (but not like in the Parabatai way, I just think they communicate or spend more time? Or maybe they are just trauma bonded over Jesse lmao). I also can't remember much in depth scene between Daisy and Lucie so, Idk man. Maybe in concept it might be good but the execution was not?

Okay now to Parabatai could've-been:

1. George and Simon

WE. WERE. ROBBED. You don't know how much I adore these two THEIR FRIENDSHIP IS EVERYTHING. they should've been Parabatai, okay, I was rooting for them since day ONE. Every time I remember that George died and Simon took his last name I died a little inside. THE POTENTIAL THERE. THE SOULMATISM.

2. Emma and Christina

I know I said not all besties should be Parabatai but I just root for them. I think they work with each other really well and the potential there is unlimited!

3. Livvy and Kit

Livvy and Ty would've slapped so hard too but I remember Ty not wanting a Parabatai and only agreed to be one with Livvy by the end for reasons I can't remember and I think that Kit is right there! I know he and Livvy barely know each other but the potential there!

4. Clary and Izzy

I know that the show made them Parabatai...just no. I think I read in the book that Isabelle chose not to have any Parabatai because she prefers to be independent or something like that and I think that principle suits so well with her character that I just couldn't imagine her with one. Even Clary and Simon made more sense and despite Clary and Izzy friendships supremacy, I just dont think they do well as Parabatai.

I think I did miss some other Parabatai in the book . There is Isabelle's father and his Parabatai if I'm not mistaken? Where his Parabatai kissed him and Robert was so disgusted or whatever. Yeah, they have the last spot.

[aqua-dan]

hello!! Do you have any Garth comic recommendations for someone (me) who has never read a Garth comic outside of a handful of TT issues before?

Hi!! I definitely have some recommendations! This definitely isn't a comprehensive reading list by ANY means (although I do want to make one eventually!), but rather a small smattering of Garth centric comics that I think are fun or noteworthy! (These are also not in any particular order, just written out as they come into my brain lol)

Tempest (1996) - Obviously the Garth holy grail! There is no better Garth comic than this. It is peak and honestly one of the best books DC has ever put out. It's short, too (only 4 issues), so it's not too intensive of a read.

Adventure Comics #269 - "The Kid from Atlantis" - Garth's first appearance! Don't get too hung up on the lore here, as it changes later on, but it's a sweet issue and obviously important!

Adventure Comics #270 - "The Menace of Aqualad" - I love this issue for a multitude of reasons-- including the fully unintentional foreshadowing,-- but mainly I love it because it showcases what a sweet person Garth is and always has been.

World's Finest Comics #133 - "Aquaman's New Partner -- Aqua-girl" - Again, the lore needs to be disregarded, but this issue fascinates me as an early iteration of Garth's insecurity about where he stands with Arthur/feeling useful.

I probably shouldn't list everything individually so this post doesn't end up being a mile long, haha! So I'll start putting some groupings together:

Aquaman vol 1 #14, 18, 23, and #33

The Brave and the Bold #54

Teen Titans vol 1 #11 (not particularly Garth centric but just especially fun to me lol), #17, #19, #28, #29, #44-end of series. (Side note that @ttwasteland has a really good podcast covering volume 1 of Teen Titans! Actually, they have a lot of Teen Titans podcasts! Which is really useful for those who struggle to read Silver Age comics + I am immensely pleased with Hub's Aqualad enthusiasm!)

The Brave and the Bold (vol 3) #10

Death of a Prince (Technically, I recommend reading all of it, since it'll help you understand how things got to this point. But especially Adventure Comics #452 and the Aqualad stories in #453-455.)

Tales of the Teen Titans #85 & #86 + Teen Titans Spotlight #10

Teen Titans Spotlight #18

Teen Titans Spotlight #21

Aquaman vol 5 (Yes, all of it lol)

Showcase '96 #1

Teen Titans (Vol 3) #12-16

JLA/Titans

Titans (vol 1) At least the Devin Grayson portion, but I don't dislike the later stuff either!

There are also storylines that I think are fun or important that happen in across various books/stories (Obsidian Age, Aquaman vol 6, other (Teen) Titans stories, Blackest Night, CoIE, dare I even say Sword of Atlantis...), but I'll save those for a more in-depth reading list some other time! These ones are just popping up in my head rn.

If you want N52/Rebirth stuff, there are also a few stories that are pretty good. Sadly, they're pretty few and far between since canon changes and DC tossing their character bibles have left poor Garth in an odd, largely OoC limbo for years. Although I don't /love/ these stories as much as others, they still manage to vaguely pass the vibe check:

Nightwing & the Titans in Team Building (Robin 80th Anniversary 100 Page Super Spectacular) It's not super Garth centric, but it's fun!

Aquaman 80th Anniversary 100-Page Super Spectacular #1 - “It’s a Family Affair”

Aquaman 80th Anniversary 100-Page Super Spectacular #1 - “Lady in the Lake”

World's Finest: Teen Titans & DC's Spring Breakout "Relay for your Life" Garth's characterization in these... isn't right, but I feel like it has the spirit more than the vast majority of things published in recent years.

Titans (2023-) I... don't totally feel right putting this here, but I feel like slowly... extremely slowly... they are starting to fix Garth's characterization. We're not quite there yet-- and it is sadly written by Tom Taylor,-- but I feel like it's going to lead to something that's actually good for Garth again. (Aka so many hints towards a potential new Tempest mini-series or one-shot have been dropped lately, and I feel like this series will be context important.)

Ok, to try to finish this out: Also consider watching some stuff with Garth in it like Aquaman (1967) TV show / DC Super Hero Girls (2019), or reading some cute, non-canon series such as Tiny Titans! It's just good fun!!

Anyways, thank you so much for the ask!! I hope this helps!!! (And thank you for allowing me a chance to ramble lol!)

[thefangirlfever]

I needed to make a post about this because...well, the title says everything.

First of all I would like to say that I'm feeling a bit anxious sharing my thoughts about this. I don't know if I'm the most qualified to talk about this but it has been bugging me.

I know a lot of people have already discussed the way Miguel, a POC and a latino man out of all people, has been oversexualized to a point that it feels fetishy and a bit concerning sometimes. I think we can all acknowledge this and that already gives us a lot to think about.

But what I think is really interesting is that not only is Miguel an intentional thirst-trap, he is a thirst-trap created mainly by a team of male producers/ writers. From what I read, the people in charge of his character design were men (I want to say that I am by no mean attacking anyone who worked on this movie. They did an amazing job and I am just sharing my thoughts, not saying they are bad people for this choise or anything. Thank you).

And I find this very telling. Because when I first saw this headline, I thought "Oh finally, women have been given the chance to freely thirst over a male character the same way men do." And I think it was a big mistake from me to think this way. (First of all, there are also men and non-binary simping over him). Because, let's be real for one second there, do we really want to thirst over characters the way men do? I have been an anime fan for years and let me tell you, the way a lot of men/ fanboys view female characters is simply gross (I know, I know, not all men). It's also something I noticed in comics and video games. Like, have you seen the outrage when a video game studio wants to propose female characters who do not look like what some p*rn addicts imagines women are?

My point is that Miguel has been created not with the female gaze in mind, but with the male gaze (and it hurts to say this). That's what I got from reading the part of the interview. The emphasis on his butt, the overly masculine, muscular body... Miguel was created not by following what women like in men but by what men imagine that women like in men.

This is also something we can see a lot in various medias over the last years, especially in the romance genre. The way some "desirable" men are depicted do not fit what women seek in a partner but what men imagine women want (ofc every woman has different criteria when it comes to this). I think it's very blatant when you compare medias written by and for women like Shonda Rhimes's shows, Bridgerton, Outlander... and medias written by men. So, in the end, I think that Miguel has been created with that in mind "Let's make a big, tall, dark and broody, muscular matcho man. That's what the female public wants." (ofc it's never as simple as that but you get the idea).

So... does this mean that it's bad to simp/ thirst over this character? Surprisingly I'm going to say no and I even think that it's important that the women in this fandom keep making content around Miguel! Because when we write fanfictions, draw fanarts of him... we are now picturing him with a real female gaze and that's what brings even more complexity and depth to this character.

I have seen so many interpretations of this character since I joined this fandom and a lot of them were really cool/ beautiful, showing just how much people love this character. When you think about it, it's crazy that a character who only got 15 minutes of screen time can have such a strong effect on a fandom, meaning that he is more than just a thirst trap. I genuinely think that the content created by the fans gives this character his humanity back (because, yes, being sexualized to no end deshumanizes a person. Go argue with a wall, thank you very much). I've seen so many tender, soft but also funny depictions of him making him more than just some ass shots on the big screen. And even on the NSFW corner of the fandom, some people out there are really making him more than just this "feral beast" that we have been sold by giving him back his tenderness, his sensuality...

So, yeah, take this headline with care and think what you want of it. Those were just my thoughts. Feel free to disagree, tell me if I got something wrong or just leave your thoughts under this post because I'm genuinely curious of seeing other fan's opinions. I apologize for the mess of this take.

And now I'm going back to sleep.

[vinbitism]

your post abt sexualizing the emh characters and actors was based but lets be real we all skipped the princeton tapes anyway

Im going to be so upfront rn. and don't take any offense I'm not mad or anything but I'm definitely gonna get heated HELP.

I listen to the Princeton tapes almost everyday, I revisit the transcripts often when I want easy access to the dialogue. The Princeton tapes might actually be my favorite part of the everymanHYBRID lore. It's so important to everything you need to know for the whole series and it helps explain so much, especially when it comes to vinnie as character.

the Princeton tapes have so much to offer and I think it's such a shame that this fandom chooses to ignore all the effort that the everymanHYBRID guys put into this series. The Princeton tapes has never failed to make me emotional HELP. it's beautiful shit. So I'm so sorry anon I literally cannot agree with this at all because the Princeton tapes are my absolute everything. I genuinely relate to Princeton Vinnie (& also Roger) more than I might relate to anyone on the channel. They're so real, and I wish more than anything they were more than tapes but at the same time I love it so much it's so perfect.

Also while during my most recent rewatch I've realized that in the series HABIT himself will use quote's and shit that Princeton Vinnie himself has said.

This one always sticks out to me, because it feels like habit pulled those words RIGHT out of Vinnies mouth only to in turn use them on him. Of course the Lexi video predates when the tapes came out, but canonically the tapes happened WAYYYYY before this, considering it takes place in the late 80s.

this goes with my idea that HABIT himself has probably had access to those tapes (atleast at some point) and he did he's research on Mr everyman here. but that one is just my personal opinion and I don't expect people to agree.

While people think that the Princeton tapes are daunting and take too long, they're literally shorter than emh as a whole series if ur watching the right shit.

these videos are basically the full in depth EMH lore and it has videos in it that long since been deleted.

If you're getting into everymanHYBRID and you're not getting into all the lore and then you're gonna go an act like you know everything it's genuinely so??? because you're literally missing out on KEY information.

like did you guys know habit IS in the tapes 😱😱⁉️⁉️⁉️ did you WATCH finding fairmount all the way through????

did you know Evan and Jeff are there ⁉️⁉️⁉️

ALSO ??? PATRICK FROM MLANDERSEN0?????? DUDE???? HES IN THERE. THE RAKE FUCKING TALKS TO VINNIE IN THERE.

IT HAS SO MUCH INFO. YOU LEARN WAY MORE SHIT ABOUT FAIRMOUNT AND THE MINETOWN FOUR IN IT. IM GENUINELY SO AT A LOSS RN. HELP IM TOO AUTISTIC FOR THIS ASK. BECAUSE IN NO WORLD WOULD I EVER DREAM OF SKIPPING THE TAPES.

[rileys-battlecats]

Yes this is the same person sending several asks in a row btw. I just have a lot to ask and don’t wanna make some huge mega-ask haha. Plus then you’re more able to answer what you want when you want instead of all at once if you want yk. Anyways

Can you tell us some details on how Minare and Vaitus met? I know Vaitus snuck out and hung out with some commoners while disguised but I would loveee to know some more details. Like how did they start talking? What about? What kind of location? Were they like instant friends or did they see each other around a few times before that happened?

Also is MaVst ever gonna get its story told more in depth like Mudpaw’s story is or is it more of just a side thing? I see it as it’s still developing and there’s more focus on Mudpaw’s story rn so MaVst is gonna be more of a focus later on, but idk if that’s actually what’s happening or if I just made that up haha

anon I am casting 1000 protection spells over you. mwah mwah mwah I love you thank you for giving me the opportunity to talk about these guys. This took a long time to answer because I decided to make art to go along with it <3

I'm still ironing out details for their story, but the basic premise is this (under a cut cause it got Long):

Vaitus sneaks out of the palace for the first time on a festival evening, after making his Single Required Moment Of Public Appearance for the nobles that are celebrating in the palace. He's been planning this for years. He's figured out the guard rotation, mapped all the routes into and out of the palace (including some secret passageways he's found), and planned to specifically sneak out on a festival night, so that he can blend in with the crowds of visitors in the city. He puts on his Commoner Cosplay (which he doesn't know won't hold up under close scrutiny; the fabric is too fine, the weave too uniform, to be anything other than expensive), and then makes his grand escape.

For a while, it's incredible. The adrenaline of Doing Something Against The Rules has him wired. No one gives him a second glance, and he weaves through the streets, taking in the sights and sounds. But he didn't account for just how much everything would be. When he finds himself in an especially busy part of the city, he suddenly realizes Oh no, this is a LOT of sounds and smells and people and I don't know where I am and I don't know what I'm doing and it's very crowded and people are touching me get away get away get away—

And he is wayyyy overstimulated. He crams himself into a dark corner, and basically checks out. full shutdown. being a person is Too Much Right Now, Please Come Back Later.

Meanwhile, Minare has just finished passing along a message to a supplier for her group, and is out enjoying the festival. As she's checking out a food stall, she notices a weirdly person-shaped lump in a dark corner.

Minare, who regularly does random sidequests for people in the city, sees this clearly-overwhelmed-stranger and immediately enters Fix It Mode. She tries getting his attention, waving her hands in front of his face and, when that fails, gently taking his arm and manually leading him away from the crowds.

From Vaitus's pov, by the time Minare has approaches to help, he doesn't really have the presence of mind to be suspicious, or even cautious at all. His brain feels like it's been wrapped in wool and then smacked around with a big stick, so he just sort of goes along with her when she starts leading him away. By the time his mind has cleared enough for him to realize what's going on around him, he's sitting on the edge of a fountain in a different part of town, with a stranger sitting beside him and a festival snack in his hand.

She's speaking softly to him. The words are less important than the tone she's speaking in; it's small talk, about the festival, the food, how nice it is to be somewhere quieter, but the tone she speaks in says, 'Everything's okay. There's nothing to be afraid of. I'm relaxed, so it's okay for you to relax, too'. She looks at him without an ounce judgment or derision, and Vaitus can't remember the last time someone looked at him like that after one of his... episodes.

Once she notices that Vaitus's eyes have lost that faraway look, she starts asking questions. Simple things: is he feeling any better, is he visiting town, did he get to try any of the food yet?

Despite coming down from the worst of it, Vaitus still can't get himself to respond to anything the stranger says to him. He wants to, but he can't get his jaw to unclench enough to where he can speak. It's happened to him before, suddenly not being able to form words, but this might be one of the most inconvenient times it's happened in recent memory. He can't answer a single question, can barely get himself to nod or shake his head in response.

Minare realizes that her new acquaintance can't talk, and just rolls with it. She figures he must be a visitor to the city (or, perhaps, is a noble that's never visited the lower levels before; a cloak like that? Even with a simple cut, it practically screams money. The stranger certainly isn't from her part of town), and she offers to walk him through the festival, show him the quieter parts of town, and where to find the best food stalls. She's not doing anything else for the rest of the evening, after all. And, being honest with herself? She's a little afraid that the stranger is going to get mugged. He's clearly out of his depth. At this point, she wouldn't be able to sleep at night if she left him to fend for himself.

The stranger nods, a little apprehensively, agreeing to let her show him around. Despite his apprehension, he looks relieved to have guidance. She introduces herself, giving him her name, and following up with "but everyone calls me Mina!" She watches the stranger's jaw muscles twitch a bit, before he manages to open his mouth and say what she's pretty sure is "Vai".

Vai sticks to her like glue for the rest of the evening, and Minare gets to do one of her favorite things in the world; talk about her city. Maybe it's a bit mean to treat him like a captive audience when she's ostensibly helping him enjoy the festival, but in her defense, he listens just a raptly when she talks about the cistern on the lower levels of the city as he does when she talks about the food vendors on a given street. Another mental tally toward her 'hopelessly lost noble' theory; a lot of what she explains to him is common knowledge to a Warrens resident, but from his expression, it seems like a majority of it is completely new information to him.

By the end of the evening, she sees him off, ensuring he knows where he is and only feeling reassured when he makes it clear that he knows how to get home. She ends the night feeling pleasantly refreshed, if a bit tired. Vai had been good company, and the festival had been fun.

Meanwhile, Vaitus is quietly undergoing a Paradigm Shift. He was fully prepared for this commoner girl, Minare, to leave him to fend for himself as soon as she noticed him acting strange. He was NOT prepared for her to treat his behavior as if it were totally unremarkable. He was even LESS prepared for her to offer to show him around. Are all commoners this nice??

He tries to give her space when they walk, but when the crowds start pressing in, he finds himself following Mina closely as she cuts between people, weaving along in her wake. She talks to him, too, in a way no one's talked to him since... ever, maybe? Casual, like he's an actual person. Everyone at the palace treats him like his title, like something not human. At one point, when they encounter an especially crowded area, Mina offers him her hand. He panics a bit, but she's patient and lets him decide what he wants. After a few moments of her holding her hand out, he tugs on his gloves to make sure they're on firmly, and tentatively holds her hand. Minare gives him a smile and gives his hand a reassuring squeeze, and when the world doesn't end, Vaitus squeezes back. He spends the rest of the night looking at their locked hands in wonder.

By the end of the evening, after Mina has said goodbye and he's snuck back into the palace, he crawls into bed. He's exhausted, but he can't sleep. He spends the entire night wide awake, holding his own hand and staring at the ceiling, with the taste of festival food lingering in his mouth. He thinks of nothing else aside from the girl he met.

ANYWAY. yeah that's what I've got for their first meeting, so far :D After this Vaitus goes back out into the city with the vague hope that he'll see Minare again, and wouldn't you know it, they run into each other again! It becomes a more regular thing, and they become friends.

As for how their story will be told, I'm not sure where MaVst is gonna end up going! I'd love to make some videos with the characters in the same way I've done with Mudpaw and co, but I'm not sure if I'll be able to get their full story across that way. Mostly, they exist because my brain loves coming up with little characters and storylines when im not thinking of anything else, and Minare and Vaitus gave me enough brainworms to make me want to make them a reality :P Their story is still in its early development stages, so I'm mostly just having fun worldbuilding and brainstorming about characters for now!

THANK YOU FOR THE QUESTION I HAD FUN ANSWERING IT <3 <3 <3

[starzzmissthesun]

i think you should totally drop whatever hc/ideas you have lying around honestly...i would love to see more into ur brain...pls <33

:DD

Hi!!!! Sorry this is a little late, I got so distracted with an animatic im working on(😈) and then a stupid essay😭😭 being honest rn... Almost all of what I've been thinking about is my fic.. 😔

But!! I can still go a little into that without spoilers. I've finally figured out The Perfect ending for this story that I feel fits with the overarching themes I wanted to tell. I've been making sure that every little detail fits with the themes I wanted to show, I wanted it to overlap Regulus and barty's characters and their overarching themes with PD. I also didn't want to just replicate PD cause I feel like that doesnt have the depth or commentary I want to out into it. Idk ive always thought it's super fun to put everything as some sort of symbol or metaphor or foreshadowing. I'm like literally so close to being done drafting and then I can actually talk about it a little more😭

Anyways! I've also been thinking about barty post regs death 😔(when am I not) But more specifically how every memory he had would almost be tainted, everything now would have an air of questioning and unsureness. Even memories where Regulus isn't there, just wondering where was he? What was he thinking? Am I remembering this right? What could've I changed? What was the domino that caused all of this to happen? Eventually finding it hard to accept the way it really was, having the "I guess it was" and feeling it, but overintellectualizing it. His logic and reasoning is his downfall in this situation, that's what makes him go crazy. (Side note I NEED to make a little post about his intersection between intelligence and madness) Hes doing a complicated version of when there's a task that seems so simple that you think it's a trick, but it's not, it's just that. What happened with Regulus was just that.

Also, I've recently self reflected and realized that a lot of my barty characterization is similar to how I think of Leonard Cohen's art(who I LOVE LOVE LOVE) Idk if you've listened to him or read any of his work, but I HIGHLY suggest it, it's perfect for fall. Anyways, a lot of his songs and poems carry themes of having a twisted self image, not completely self deprication though it may seem, but something else. It's closer to understanding and knowing that you are. Different. And unconventional. It's an uncomfortablility he has with himself. Being soemthig twisted from what you should've been. A lot of his stuff is also to do with tragically losing someone, out of their own choice, and still feeling very loyal yet bitter. Also of loving something so much that it turns dark, or it goes too quick, it spirals. Also his love songs are very barty's perspective on bartylus to me. And like, obvious war mentions. I could give some specific recs similar to barty or them if you'd like.

Another thing is of Regulus and his relationship with his dad. Though I see it completely reasonable if his dad was just kind of, not there and neglectful, it could give very interesting implications to his character, I like it the other way around. Orion seeing what a more carefree attempt at raising a child does and keeping Regulus even closer than he did before. I think Orion always liked Regulus more, despite him being the second, because he was a model son. I don't think he wanted this life or even to have kids, so Regulus being so complacent and in line with what he was supposed to be as a pure blood made him the decided favourite(as much as he could have one). He was always keeping a close eye on Regulus and he could feel it, but he didn't do anything out of place anyways. Orion could tell when he was even thinking something he wasn't supposed to. I believe that, no matter how much she tried, walpurga was too caught in her own head about her duty as a mother to see S+R as anything other than Her Kids, as property that she was supposed to care for and tend to, she obviously loved them, but couldn't see through them. But Orion was there around every corner looking through regulus' eyes into his soul to search for any thing out of his perfect kid.

Anyways.... That's all I can think of rn😭 but if you have questions about ANY of them lmk!!! I love yapping about my little thoughts 😁😁

[cringefailvox]

there are a lot of (warranted) takes going around rn about why you should leave AO3 comments. I want to expand upon that conversation and ask, how do you respond to a comment? You leave really detailed responses when commenters ask you questions, and I see you making an effort to respond to even short comments with just emojis — and as someone who (as you know lol) is terrible at responding to comments on my own work, what advice would you give to an author who IS receiving comments but doesn’t know how to follow up with them?

!!! okay so the truth is that i used to be SO intimidated by comments, not because i didn't enjoy the very kind feedback, but because i really wanted to communicate the depth of my appreciation in a way that was equivalent to how they made me feel, and that always felt impossible. but over time i worked out a script for answering people (the same way i do irl LMFAO) that i now use every time because it makes my life so much easier

for short comments that don't ask questions or remark very much on the story itself: a simple thank you + some kind of followup about how you're happy they liked the story, you're so flattered, etc (or sometimes just heart emojis if that's what the comment entails)

for medium-length comments that contain more particulars: pick one or two of what they've picked out and riff on it like you would with a friend, followed up by thanking them

for very long comments with a lot of questions or commentary: same method as medium, but this time don't be afraid to go into depth! take this as an opportunity to infodump about your work - how you wanted people to feel when they read such & such, your intentions for characterization, your craft! most people who are willing to break the character limit in ao3 will be delighted that you've spilled your guts in kind. and from the commenter's perspective, it's so much fun to get a glimpse behind a writer's curtain, and it's never annoying or overwhelming

and beyond all this, my number one tip would be to match their energy! this can sometimes be difficult for very long, effusive comments, which is why i occasionally take weeks to respond to those (sorry!!) but it's really just because i want to give them the measured, thoughtful response they deserve. i love each and every one of you who've commented on my work and i will always reply to you eventually :] <3

[allwormdiet]

Tangle 6.9

I don't wanna deal with this parrrrrrrrrt

Taylor. Taylor. I know you're getting desperate but come on. You can't write an email to the hero you and your friends publicly bodied on the same night that you did the bodying.

Nobody's checking her on her shit. Nobody who she should theoretically be able to go to for advice is equipped for this, or even inclined to help her. Danny would try, I'm certain, but he'd be out of his depth. Emma might have been a grounding influence for Taylor once upon a time but, haha, that is no longer an option. School is worthless to her, and her new (only) friends are the ones who are doing the crimes she's involving herself in, not to mention that she became their friend with the intent to backstab them.

...I wish she'd just talk to her dad about this shit. Her refusal to even try and explain it to him feels like it's tangled up in something she can't even name or describe. He's the closest confidant she has at this point, and that's not saying much, but for fuck's sake it should be saying something.

Fuck.

Fucky fucker fucking fuck.

You can't lie to someone you live with for that long about something that can be so easily fact-checked and expect to never get caught out. It's just not feasible.

God this is so hard. She's trying to spare his feelings, she's trying to not pin any of this on him, and it's not working. The fact that she feels like she can't trust him means that he failed to be trustworthy to her, somewhere along the way, and she won't even acknowledge that. She won't even sit across the table from him to talk about this.

Here's where Danny scuffs it, honestly. I'm not going to say he was even wrong to anticipate Taylor's avoidance, but hemming her in like this is only going to rile her up worse. I don't know what the right answer is. Breaks my heart.

I don't think it's fair of Taylor to lump her dad in with the others who've hurt her, in no small part because. This hurt that Danny's feeling, the pain that makes her twist with guilt and frustration, was damage she caused by lying to him, by pushing him away. She's been so lonely for so long and the one person who could've been an ally, even an ineffectual one, is the one she's kept at arm's length throughout all of it.

Even the violence, even the kicking and the breaking, is just a way to avoid telling him anything.

Just pull the bandage off, Taylor, please. Maybe the worst-case scenario happens but then you don't have to keep that poisonous cold lump inside of you. There's other reactions he could have, better ones. I don't think his love for you is conditional. I don't think

Okay so this is almost the right decision she's making, here

Yes! Be with your friends, make bonds that last, admit to yourself what you actually want

God fucking dammit

Straight up crying in the club rn

Tell him! Oh my god please just tell him. Taylor for the love of god please just tell him

Fuck

Lisa's just a kid, too. As much as she pretends otherwise, as much as Danny wants to believe her.

So. Fucking sad.

Current Thoughts

The Heberts break my goddamn heart.

Danny tried, but he pushed too hard when Taylor was already raw and accidentally put her in a defensive mindset, made her feel cornered, unsafe. And then when it came down to it, he still let her walk away. He let Lisa take her from him.

And Taylor. God. I wish she'd just let Danny support her. Even if he doesn't solve her problems, if she could just lean on him during the low times that could make such a difference. I think he could understand, maybe given time. He'd side with her before he'd side against her, no matter who was on the other side.

Another point of proof, I guess. Taylor's fate wasn't sealed from the beginning. It doesn't have to go the way that it goes. There were options, much as she can't see them.

And the roads not taken just make it hurt that much more.

Interlude next.

*sigh*

[my-castles-crumbling]

Anon Advice Asks - April 30

outlet anon, hit anon (new), androgynous anon, masking anon, @teasiswriter

outlet anon

Hey Cas, Outlet anon here.

I've got finals the next two/three weeks so I'm busy as all fucking hell rn and really I don't have time to be on tumblr, let alone sending you an ask, but I feel this is important enough that it warrants some of my nonexistent time.

I have at least twenty things due over the next three days, but when all that's said and done, I'll come back and give you a more in-depth update on me and the shit I've gotten myself into.

Okay so.

My friend, I'll just call her Doll, is AutismTM and has a lot of anxiety and self-worth issues and shit like that. She has a lot of trouble asking for help when she needs it because I think she doesn't want to be a burden or bother people and/or just doesn't think anyone would want to help her in the first place. I love her to death but ohmygoodness She Doesn't Do Emotions and it's painful cuz I understand but also I wish she'd tell me shit.

Doll also physically cannot record herself for anything and literally hates phone calls.

Well, this semester she's in an online class where one of the assignments every single fucking week involves filming a video about that week's topic.

A couple months in, she sends me a text asking if she should ask for help because she doesn't want to seem like a pussy or get laughed at or anything. She didn't even send the message as a text; she put it in her notes app then sent me a screenshot of that. Not gonna type the whole thing, but she started with "hey ik this might sound stupid of me but do u think I should ask for help".

I said yes and told her needing help isn't pathetic. Long story short, she tried a couple times, but either just went "forget it" or got laughed at (which. like. I KNOW the people she asked - we used to go to highschool together - and I would've punted their asses if I was still seeing them). So she didn't end up getting help until literally this past Wednesday (I'm sending this Saturday night) when she told me she was gonna get dropped if she didn't get her grade up to passing by Sunday (tomorrow/technically today b/c it's 1am) night.

Getting dropped from a class isn't a huge deal normally, but we're on a special glorified scholarship thing, so she'd be in more than one world of shit if she failed a class. I was like "no that's not happening, I'll take care of it, give me your login" and she literally didn't believe I wanted to help. (You'll get more detail abt this part in my next ask)

Basically the point of this is like... I want to tell her to her face that it's okay for her to ask me for help. Like, she didn't think I would help until I said it at least five times. And. I just. That's not the friend I thought I was, nor is that the friend I want to be. I thought I was an easy person to talk to about serious shit. I want to be an easy person to talk to. I'm AutismTM too, so emotions don't come easily, but I do try. I try so fucking hard. Advice?

I'm supposed to be seeing her for a little bit on Monday, so I'm going to try to talk to her about it and basically be like "You don't have to wait for me to offer. You're allowed to be selfish and take things for yourself. You're worth so much. I care about you and will happily do everything in my power for you if you need it. But I need you to be able to ask me, okay? In whatever way you can. Okay?"

I doubt you're going to get to this ask before then, but I still would like feedback if you don't mind. Is there something else I should say or do? Is bringing it up a bad idea? Your opinion on the situation?

Thanks. Best wishes to you and your wife and congratulations on reaching your word goal <3

Hi! I definitely do think you should talk to her about it, but you should also know that this likely isn't personal. A lot of people REALLY struggle asking for help, because they feel like asking for help is admitting weakness (it isn't, but it's how they feel). The best thing you can do is remind her it's okay to ask, and you're proud of her for asking, and KEEP reminding her. Because it takes time for someone to believe that. But yeah. it's not personal <3

PS. For your other ask-Um remember that it is actually possible to have super negative and/or deadly side effects from too much caffeine! Be careful!

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hit anon

Hey uh so a car just hit me. I'm really okay but a bit shaken

I was walking in a hurry because me and my closest best friend were gonna meet up and her parents were going to take us to a different place and we were gonna look for mother’s day presents

Anyways so this sidewalk was very crowded and there were cars parked on one lane on a two lane road (I learned that there was an exam at that school) so I thought that maybe the entire road was closed and started running and I heard a car honking and saw that a car was coming towards me and I panicked and ran in the opposite direction but I wasn't fast enough so the car hit my thigh, the crowd an the police there ushered me to the hospital but it doesn't even hurt rn

What im upset about is that the friend I was gonna meet up with didn't wanna come see me. She was very worried. She called me and texted me and after I got everything checked my mom told me I couldn't go out today

I asked her if she could come to my house but she said she wanted to get out of her own house and coming to mine wasn't any different

I said “well go out with [her other close friend]” and she got really defensive and I said “didn't you wanna go out?” And she responded “im not going out with [friend] im going out with my mom”

Am I too entitled? I played it cool to everyone but I wanted her to be with me after what happened. I could've died today and she is now out, shopping with her mom

Holy shit! I'm so glad you're okay!

I don't think you're entitled. I think if I was in that situation, I would also be hurt. I mean if she didn't have transportation or something, that would be understandable, but that doesn't seem to be the problem. Did you try telling her that you feel upset? Like don't go "OMG why didn't you come to see me I almost died!" Be like "Hey, I felt a little upset when you chose not to come to see me. I couldn;t control being his by a car, and I was looking forward to seeing you. I felt like you were blowing me off for something out of my hands. I know it's frustrating that the plans changed, but I had been hoping for some more empathy."

But yeah I would be sad, too!

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androgynous anon

Hope you're well! I've been doing some soul searching (oh my gosh so cheesy) and I'm now quite a bit more confident and comfortable with my non-binaryness (?), your advice really helped I think I may just have been stuck in that sort of mindset or something idk. I've started changing some of my pronouns to she/they online and I was chatting with a friend about it too! (They also have gender stuff! And use all pronouns!) I'm planning on talking to another friend (whom I talked with before I really knew) about pronouns and he/him cos idk I'm a female and stuff so I've never been called he/him so idk if I'm comfortable with it or what.

Have a good time zone! And thank you again!

Hi! I'm so glad you've been doing some soul searching! That's not always easy, but it's usually worth it. I'm so glad you're feeling more confident in yourself! AND I'm glad you're talking to friends about it, too, that's wonderful! Remember, it's okay to be unsure

<3

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masking anon

Hi!

It sounds like you feel like people aren't putting you first or taking time to understand and appreciate you, and that makes sense, given the things you're dealing with. I hope you know, though, that you don't deserve to feel that way. You DO deserve to have people who are accommodating to you and who don't make fun of your needs and values.

You say you don't have helpful adults, but could you confide in your senseis? It sounds like you really care about and respect them. Just a thought!

And DON'T be sorry about the long message, you're always welcome to vent here!

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@teasiswriter

ello!

Thank you for answering my asks, I really appreciate it. I don’t really have anyone to go to, I can’t tell my friends (because I’ve never had a friendship where stuff like that is talked about without being a joke and stuff), I can’t tell my parents (at all) and my school counselor is nice, but I can’t really tell her about serious stuff

I had another foggy/bad day again, there wasn’t much I could do about it because I had to do homework (and even then I didn’t get to finish all the stuff I wanted to go above and beyond for, like all my job applications, my personal to do list, etc). I just wished it would end, and it’s not fully over yet, but it nearly is. Now I just gotta eat dinner and go to bed after a while.

Also, can you try out the name Oliver on me? And he/she/they pronouns please?

Also what does it mean to like your name? Like, do most people also hate their names being said out loud? I hate saying my full legal name. It hurts when others say it too. My other first name is more tolerable but it kinda sucks. And I’ve never had a name that fit. I’m not sure if Oliver fits but I’d like to try :D

Also also, I wasn’t sure how to send you the link to the book but I have a copy of the google doc if you ever wanted to read it! It’s my first ever book, and it’s kinda amateurish but I’m trying my best 😅

Hi Oliver!

I think 'liking' you name doesn't necessarily mean you like think it's the most beautiful name in the world. It's more like...it feels like you. Like when someone says. "Oh yeah, Oliver? He's so cool, she likes to write and is even writing their first book." does that name feel like it matches you? Like...my real name...I probably wouldn't have picked it for myself, but the nickname version of it, I'm cool with it. I think it matches my vibe. I also like the name Cas, and I feel like it matches my vibe. But if someone called me...idk...Anabella? That feels NOT like me. Too girly. So I wouldn't want that name.

(Not that it's a bad name, I think it's really pretty! I just don't want it for me!)

Also I opened the link to your book! I probably won't get a chance to look at it for a bit, but I have it open so I don't forget to look!

[fevers-and-emeto-oh-my]

i will literally never get over Wesley Wyndam-Pryce as a character. Ever. I don't think I've ever seen such a drastic character arc since Wesley's. The man has the odds stacked against him time and time again and no support from anyone he loves and he makes the decision he thinks is right anyway. Trying to save Connor cost him everything and I know in my soul he would do it all over again if he had to.

I HATED Wesley on Buffy. He came onto the show and I would regularly tell my mother as we were watching how much he annoyed me and how much I did not like him. I still didn't like him by the time he left Buffy and was not excited to see him on Angel. And then he started growing and changing and getting all this depth and I loved him. He was suddenly my favorite character of the Buffyverse (with Spike a close second--and I had similarly gone from hating Spike to loving him) and I fell to pieces when he died. It's been probably ten years since I saw that scene and I can still vividly remember being curled in the armchair in my living room sobbing. The only other character death that got to me that badly was Tony Stark. (Spike's death I unfortunately had spoiled, so while it did make me sad, it didn't hit me the same way.)

But now??? Starting a rewatch at 23?? I cannot WAIT to see Wes. I'm only on Buffy s1 rn and I'm literally counting down eps until I see Spike and Wes. And I think Wesley's arc is actually going to hit me even harder now. As a tween/young teen I didn't have any trauma; as a young adult I have plenty, and I just know his arc is going to captivate and hurt and heal me even more now because it's going to feel so much more real

legit my number one husband, it's been probably ten or eleven years at this point and I still would drop any other fictional man for him

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