#i do not live the character's life. but i do carry their energy and vibe so like that's basically the same thing we're essentially clones
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garvalhaminho · 2 months ago
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oooh fictional characters who are driven by academic validation and need to be reminded that they are needed and loved and not a nuisance and feel the need to be independent are the spectacular give me fourteen of them right now
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krisluxxee · 3 months ago
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HOW DOES YOUR PERSON FEEL ABOUT YOU? PICK-A-PILE ...
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Pile (1) : Cut The BS
Cards:  Hanged man (reversed), Knight of Swords (reversed), Five of Wands, Sun, Two of Cups. Seven of Cups (reversed), Queen of Swords – at the bottom of the deck.
I live for the energy like this!  “Your person” has some ego issues rooted from insecurity- unbeknownst to them. There is so much to be said about your person which leads me to my next point. Your person feels like you see right through them and & they’re feeling shooketh that you had the audacity to call them out on it- Judge Judy style. They are mad (5 of wands) because whatever charm, innocence, or victimhood energy they try to exude doesn’t effectively manipulate you- like it does for everyone else. Due to the Leo influence with the Sun, I feel like for some of you who picked this pile- this was someone you just met, or barley knew. This is someone you were dating or talking to, regardless, the energy is new or surface level. Now as we know, the majority of people wear mask 24/7, especially when it comes to who they are dating and or getting to know i.e. impress. Emphasis on “as we know”. “Your person” didn’t think you’d know or be aware that they were presenting themselves as someone they are not. This is someone who projected their lies upon you. They were not being honest about their past failed relationships or their current dating status and worse- their sexual history. Therefore, if you told them for example, you haven’t been dating- they didn’t believe you. For those rare folks, you told them you’ve been abstinent – and they didn’t believe you. If you told them, you are a homebody- they didn’t believe you. If you told them that you’re looking for a committed relationship- they believed this and had intentions of taking advantage of your desires. This person had intentions of carrying out a fling, a situationships- friends with benefits, if you will. Meanwhile, you were clear (Judge Judy vibes) about wanting something more committed. Underneath the 7 of Cups (reversed) and Queen of Swords cards therein lie the 4 of Wands and 7 of Swords. Personally, I view the 7 of Swords card as the Devil and 7 of Cups all in one. (they’re one of the same) Let’s think about something for a moment. Home should be a safe place, correct? Imagine being home and someone is lurking outside your home with intent on robbing you…
Of course, if this is unbeknownst to you- what do not know cannot hurt you, but does ignorance prevent/ protect you from a lurker who intends on following through to rob, steal, kill or abuse you? NO.  I presented that analogy to confirm your Judge Judy energy in relationships. You are cautious and refuse to be that unknowing person who allows people into your life, bed, home, heart, and legs (4 of wands energy) - who have bad intentions for you in which are hidden. Again, you know people walk around with masks, constantly playing a role- a character. It’s gotten so bad that people believe they are who they pretend to be. Amazingly, the Two of Swords and Page of Wands are underneath the 7 of Swords and 4 of Wands. “Your Person” thought you were oblivious, unknowing, and blind. (they may wear glasses which would be symbolic for this person being blind but projecting that onto others- anyway)
I pulled more cards from the Kipper Oracle deck and two cards appeared. “The Official Person” which is equivalent to the Emperor and “The Lovers Card” (reversed) came out.  “Your person” may be older than you and truly thought they had an advantage over you. They are used to dealing with other “pages”, and assumed you were just another one they had under control. This is where the jokes kick in because they underestimated you. They thought you were dumb, desperate for a relationship and willing to fight/ compete for their affection. (their Sun) Meanwhile, you are The Queen of Swords (man or woman). In English, you are intelligent as hell and knew exactly what kind of person they were. They exposed themselves, unknowingly. 
(I love it here!- GOTCHA ) But back to my analogy, this is like you being in the comfort of your home and whoever is lurking outside thinking they’re going to successfully rob you, actually ends up getting exposed at the last minute when they realize their being recorded or you have weapons or barking dogs. Some of you have a strong intuition or mind and see through the facades people portray.
(Now, to clarify though it’s not necessary because you already “peeped the scene”.)
 For laughs and giggles, let’s clarify the Hanged One (reversed) and the Knight of Swords (reversed) that’s hiding behind the Sun. Okay, the Eight of Wands, Queen of Pentacles, Ten of Wands, and the Queen of Wands came out. I think these Queens are one of the same. (not different people) For me, this means that this person was unaware (hanged one reversed) that a lot of you have been on a Self-Love (Queen of Pentacles) journey (Eight of Wands).  Another thing, they weren’t aware of (hanged one reversed) about you was that you’ve been through a lot (Ten of Wands) to become this strong, no nonsense and confident person (Queen of Wands- male or woman).
The joke continues because the King of Swords came out and the card is positioned looking at all the cards that I just clarified with the Queen of Wands and Queen of Pentacles. (The energy just abruptly stopped) The King of Swords is Aquarius energy and the abrupt stop in the reading indicates for me, someone who is dumbfounded. Imagine the face of someone who you just BEAT OR PROVED WRONG. They just sit there looking dumb, silent, and baffled. (This person (has realized that they LOST AT THEIR OWN GAME) The reading has finished, however, I’m not done dissecting this. I feel like you came across this person to teach them a lesson. According to Vedic Astrology, Saturn is in Aquarius, and this explains why this person came out as King of Swords with energy of abruptly stopping. Another reason I feel you came across this person was because this was a test for you. It feels like watching a play and then the scene cuts off. AND SCENE.
In conclusion, this person was just a person. They were never intended to be a permanent figure in your life. You taught them a multitude of things – like not everyone Is the same and shouldn’t be treated as such (whether they learned the lesson is solely on them) but you were tested on being able to stand your ground, remain confident and intellectually sharp but also on your ability to make accurate judgements on people’s character.  Energetically, I feel you passed your test especially if you’ve picked this pile.
There is Capricorn, Aquarius, Leo, Aries, Cancer, Libra, Taurus, Virgo, Scorpio, and Pisces energy present.
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Pile (2) : Self Sabotage
Cards:  Six of Pentacles (reversed), Eight of Wands (reversed), Three of Wands (reversed), King of Cups, Hanged One. King of Wands and Justice (reversed) – at the bottom of the deck.
I had to shuffle twice for this pile. The first spread that came out did not make any sense. I wasn’t surprised because the 8 of Swords appeared. Immediately, I knew I didn’t want to be bothered. So, I decided to shuffle for a new spread. This may be symbolic for how you are feeling, thinking and or moving at this time. If someone brings confusion, stress, or annoyance – you are throwing the entire situation away. ZERO TOLERANCE. (YASSSS, SLAY) But let’s get down to business.
(mind you, I’ve started shuffling now)
Your person views you as mature and they are currently in their thoughts about you. (I pulled two cards from the Kipper oracle deck and “Mature Woman/Man and “Thoughts” cards appeared) This pile may be a continuation to Pile 1. Anyway, your person is thinking about how mature you are. This is important because people only have this train of thoughts about a person when they, themselves, are immature. And or, they are used to dealing with immature people and you’re different. With much consideration of the King of Wands and Justice (reversed) at the bottom of the deck, I am led to believe that this person is immature.
This person is selfish, unfair, non-committal and emotionally unavailable. The Six of Pentacles (reversed), The Eight of Wands (reversed) and the Two of Wands (reversed) indicate that this person doesn’t give the same energy they take from others.  The situations they engage in especially in  relationships- never go the distance. The reason this person is thinking of you as mature is because you made it clear that you require someone who wants to “settle down”. You are the one who wants a long-term, committed, fair and peaceful relationship and they knew they weren’t going to offer that. They know you are not the type who will engage in flings which is exactly what they’re offering. I wanted to clarify the King of Cups and sadly, the 3 of Cups appeared. This person really is a player. I feel that there were three other men/ women in this person’s life that he may have hurt on a profound level with their non-committal behavior. Even if they were in a long-term relationship with these men/women- they refused to commit completely. An example would be like refusing to have children or get married etc. This person likes the IDEA of relationships but is never emotionally invested. ( they like to playhouse, emphasis on the word PLAY)
He/ She hurt the men or women he was in a long-term relationship with and he’s using the pain he inflicted upon them, AS HIS OWN- to justify why in the current moment he cannot commit to a relationship with you. At a core level, he using others pain to justify why he/she acts like a King of Wands w/ Justice (reversed) person. In English, act like an immature non-committal player from the Himalayas. The Queen of Swords, Six of Wands and the Knight of Cups appears for further clarification, and I feel like the Queen of Swords is the same “Mature Women/Man” that came out in the Kipper Oracle deck. Basically, “your person” knows you know. It’s like you’re a psychologist and you have dissected their behavior and concluded that they are “hurt” ( childhood wounding) and unfortunately, hurting others. They feel like you have judged them- accurately. They consider you a Tower moment. It reminds me of the energy in the beginning where things were confusing, and I felt that you refused to deal with anyone who brought confusion, annoyance, or stress to your life. You pretty much threw them away and this has caused them a Tower ( Ego Death). It’s like others tolerated their non-committal energy mainly due to their desperation, insecurity, or familiarity. Whereas, when you came along it was giving A STRONG HELL NO, BYE. They view you as the star card- DIFFERENT, AUTHENTIC AND UNWILLING TO TOLERATE BS. I wanted to see more about the cards Justice (reversed) and King of Wands, and the Ace of Cups appeared. This person is thinking about you, reflecting on their behavior, their past and realizing -FINALLY, that they need to heal. In other words, move on from the past and whatever cycle they keep repeating because of it. It’s like they are being disillusioned because of you, talk about a TOWER. Yup, the Nine of Wands is here. In conclusion, this pile is about someone who didn’t treat you right or give your situation a fair chance. They are realizing that they are still holding on to pain, fear, and insecurity. They also are coming to terms with how selfish they are because they were like this in their previous relationships, especially the more serious ones. “Your person” is experiencing a Tower in their life- thanks to you.
There is Capricorn, Scorpio, Cancer, Aries, Leo, Libra, Aquarius, Pisces, and Virgo energy present.
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Pile (3) : Divine Feminine / Divine Masculine
Cards: The World, Seven of Cups (reversed), Four of Cups, King of Wands, Four of Pentacles (reversed). Magician (reversed), The Ace of Swords and Seven of Pentacles- at the bottom of the deck.  
Your person feels powerless currently. There has been a disconnect and they feel like you’ve moved on. If you selected this pile, you may be a homebody and career oriented- I cannot tell if this is new energy, or you’ve always been this way. Nevertheless, a lot of you have moved on and redirected your focus on yourself- hobbies, passions, work but basically staying busy. Your person feels like they do not have your attention whatsoever, which makes me think that they’ve been trying to do things to get your attention. You are not reacting, responding, or reaching out to them.
Honestly, this person may have triggered you into some productive energy. It’s like you see the light about this person or about relationships in general and rather not focus on them at all. When you are genuinely disinterested in relationships and focused on yourself is when you are the most attractive and abundant. “ Your Person” wants to “come back” or try again. If you’ve been in this single and productive energy- I just see that you’re very attractive to others because you’re not interested or not paying attention.  I pulled more cards, and they further confirm that “ your person” is concerned because they know you are high quality and know others view you in the same manner. The last card out is The Star, period. In most cases, the only way to stay true to yourself is to remain by yourself and I see you in this energy strongly at this time.  Keep your standards high.
There is Aquarius, Leo, Libra, Gemini, Sagittarius, Aries, Virgo, Pisces, Capricorn and Cancerian energy present.
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syeren · 5 months ago
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HOW ARE THEY LIKE IN REAL LIFE? — JJK MEN & WOMEN.
SYEREN; mayhaps my 12 AM thoughts… but what if the characters from jjk get plopped down into the real world? whatcha think they might be like?
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Gojo — 五条 悟
in all honesty…
he’s givin frat
LMAOOOOOOOO
or a rich kid with really successful parents who are either a)
architects
or b)
business owners
he also gives me the vibe that if you ask him how rich he actually is, he’ll just respond with
“i’m living comfortably xx 🫶” 😭😭😭
complains about how his body reacts to things like pollen or how his eyes get too dry throughout the day— so, he carries eye drops, lozenges, and those ointments sniffer thingys.
he also gives me the type where he looks not so concerned about maintaining good grades in academics… but he’s just NATURALLY smart
does that make sense?
he’ll just chug energy drinks to pull 3 consecutive all nighters before a final exam, and BOOM… flying colours
decides to opt for his own business and annoys utahime with how much bank he’s making
love language slowly switched from words of affirmation to gift giving, thus showering his friends with lavish gifts
right now at this point in time, he’s just berating all his friends with how much money he has
Geto — 夏油 傑
minus the whole ordeal that happened
he looks the type who would ACTUALLY get his life together 😭😭
occasionally parties, still regularly studies and does his part in group projects
he would go for philanthropy or mayhaps sociology
gojo is his one and only best friend and classmate that he somehow ALWAYS gets stuck with in every class
after graduation, he’s taking a break for himself and is travelling the world
during one of his trips in thailand, he calls up gojo to ask why tf he’s bragging abt his wealth
Nanami — 七海 建人
he’s never escaping the business world i fear LMAOOOOO
he really DOES give business i’m sorry pookie 😞
BUT, his OWN business where he’s his own boss and doesn’t have to work under someone else
he would much prefer that either way
but yeah, working class adult, has a dozen pack of beer or sangria wine in his own personalized wine cellar
often competes with gojo’s business, but decides to make a partnership in the end due to gojo’s persuasion
he’s also stuck in his office currently, looking at his phone in bewilderment to screenshots of gojo’s bank acc that gojo himself sent
Yuji — 虎杖 悠仁
average teenager
he partakes in the track team at his school and likes to exercise ALOTTT
gym buddy in question? todo
i feel like his guilty pleasure is watching mukbangs to torture himself 😭😭
he ends up being megumi’s roommate after a long time of convincing.
he tries to keep his side clean and tidy but it always ends up being an organized mess
right now, he just came back home from the gym with todo and is in choso’s apartment watching a horror series
Yuta — 乙骨 憂太
would you look at that?! average college student
LMAOOOO
definitely majors in either a) science or b) math
NOOOO WAIT
or c) computer science
overall normal kid!
i have no other words, he is also living his life to his fullest, but is very stressed out due to some big projects and tests he has coming
performance anxiety 😞
Megumi — 伏黒 恵
also another average teenager
he’s a bit more toned down tho
lil’ meg over here gives me the vibe that he also knows what he’s doing and is very present in life
he’s on top of his hw, does his chores, has a comfortable room that’s neat enough for him…
he also gives me the vibe that he does NOT GAFFFF !!!!!
protect my own peace 🙏 kind of guy
in college he makes the silent regret of dorming with yuji, the complete OPPOSITE to his own tastes but thats twin 🤞
“yuji, could you take out the trash to the lobby? it’s garbage collection today.”
“what? why me?”
“because i have a meeting through zoom with my classmates”
“then do it after?”
“yuji, my zoom call is two hours, taking out the trash will take around five minutes."
"it's actually a five minute walk down to the lobby, and another five minutes back up... w-wait, why are you holding up your slipper?"
ANYWAYS, he’s havin a good time chilling with his friends 😋
Choso — 脹相
he’s for SURE in a biker club
rides a kawasaki ninja h2r with yuki from time to time
other than that, decided to work after hs and he works in a tattoo shop next door to mechamaru’s pub
big scary big brother vibes compared to golden retriever yuji 😞🙏
currently, he’s lounging in his apartment with yuki, yuji, todo, and megumi
Inumaki — 狗巻 棘
he's too busy spending time with me unfortunately <3
im kidding
maybe not
ANYWAYYYYYYY, i feel like inumaki would have a hobby in pc games.
he would absolutely ROCK valorant
whenever he plays horror games he FORCES the rest of the squad to play with him because he's a pussy scaredy-cat
in his spare time he likes to do track or go on long runs whenever he feels stressed out from uni
forgets to shower sometimes after he runs, so he fucking reeks the day after
he's majoring in comp-sci
speaking of runs, look at him go! he’s on one right now
Sukuna — 両面宿儺
the most annoying and narcissistic man
AND SO MEAN TOO?!
yknow those tiktok comments or ig reel comments you see? yeah, those ones.
that’s him. he’s the one making those actually.
very misogynistic, controlling AND argumentative
he swears on the history of the world wars and somehow always brings it up during conflict? 💀
believes mental health is fake and violence can solve everything
prolly wholeheartedly disagrees with women’s rights with his ancient ass mentality
he’s preparing for an argument stream against mahito 😭
Todo — 東堂 葵
GYMMM RATTTTT
ALWAYS HOGGING THE MACHINES NO MATTER WHATTTT
only talks about fitness and nutrition, girls, and what his plans are for the weekend.
“nah bro, i’m all natty rn,” “i don’t use creatine,” “what?! i’m not on roids dude! just the chicken breast and asparagus with rice”
he’s also the type to look at someone a little too long at the gym, or outside
or anywhere, in fact
studies kinesiology
hope i spelt that right 😁🤞
Mechamaru — 与 幸吉
in my reality, he and miwa would be a couple
THERE I SAID IT!
he would genuinely try to be a good boyfriend while bartending in a dingy pub just two blocks away from their shared apartment.
he would be the type to spam miwa msgs on his break
lowkey wants a tattoo done by choso so he could swipe that discount 😋
Mahito — 真人
he’s known on the internet for being a controversial streamer on twitch
he also has such a shitty mic that when he screams it cuts off the sound
ALWAYS has his shirt off during the stream 😭😭
he would say the most out of pocket statements and without context, it would be the most HORRIFIC thing
so, people would clip that and post it 😟 thus, he gained a large following bc of those statements
Miwa — 三輪 霞
raves about cats and dogs to her bf and after a long, agonizing wait… they finally adopted one from the pound and this is all she has been doing
taking care of her animal child, and man child that is mechamaru
I FEEL LIKE MIWA WOULD ABSOLUTELY LOVE ANIMALS SO THIS IS WHAT SHE DECIDES TO GO FOR IN COLLEGE
with a minor in marine biology too :3
Shoko — 家入 硝子
i would catch her at a pub or a bar somewhere either drinking gin and tonic on lighter day, and more heavier days she would go for whiskey
if NOT, then she’s in an back alley smoking before she needs to go back to her like… 20 hour shift as a nurse.
spends most of her time at home and scrolling on her amazon shopping cart to see what else she can buy to help her busy ass life
Maki — 禪院 真希
similar to todo, but she gives me the vibe that she would train in both calisthenics and mma as a hobby
like hobby: all that stuff, and the other half is dedicated to working towards her degree in either a science like forensics or history.
she lives her life to the fullest on her terms!! really mia from social media and is training real hard everyday
right now, she’s with nobara on a shopping trip to the mall
(she did NOT wanna go, but she likes spending time with her bestie anyway)
Mai — 禪院 真依
FASHION DESIGN I REPEAT FASHION DESIGN
when i first saw mai come on screen, i also did too jus a little bit
but her aura makes me imagine that she runs a tiktok account to post fit pics onto it, has so many pinterest boards dedicated to vintage or her new obsession— office siren outfits.
also has such a GOOD spread of pictures up on instagram, like she’s THAT girl
now, she’s currently studying fashion while scourging the internet for good statement pieces like red leather kitten heels to go along with her two-piece cropped blazer and mini skirt outfit.
Mei Mei — 冥冥
hmm… 😟
teacher vibes…
but like, those english teachers that only interact positively with the popular kids
PLSSS IM SORRY OKAY, THATS THE ONLY FACTOR ABOUT MEI MEI THAT REALLY CAUGHT ME OFF GUARDDDD
APART from that
actually good at her profession, and makes sure her class is fun
the type that does NAWT give two fucks abt late hw bc she complains that “the workload will double up on her anyway”
Utahime — 庵 歌姫
bc of her personality as well as her easily irritated anger tolerance with gojo…
def a head master of a boarding school or an instructor for flight attendants
occasionally goes out for drinks with shoko, but only rants abt gojo bc of his dumbass
very good at her job, and often sees her alumni if she has time in her schedule
right now, she’s currently cooped up in her office filing out different paperwork and silencing her phone from gojo’s numerous screenshots of his bank acc 😭
Nobara — 釘崎 野薔薇
the last of the bunch for average teenagers.
nobara DOES NOT give that much attention towards school, so she opts for a general of easier course— psychology being one, because everyone else is taking it so she thinks it’s easy. two, general studies.
you can find her ALWAYS OUT for some reason?!
she gains her energy by socializing and just being outside of the house in general 😭
says it’s a ‘waste of a day.’
she’s dragging around maki to push clothes into her arms that she deems acceptable and will look amazing on her
AN; SYEREN here! creds to @ kOmuuuug1xxx on x for the pic :3
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psychelis-new · 2 years ago
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pick a pile: "Past Life Triggers"
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take a breath and choose the photo/number that calls you the most to read a brief description of what may be some triggers (or the main trigger) that you carry with you possibly from a past life. the description will be accompanied by suggestion on how to deal with them/it and start the healing process. I believe that we may undergo similar events, or events that may trigger those feelings we experienced in our past lives, while in this life. so to be able to heal those traumas too.
don’t take the reading too seriously. only take what resonates with you and leave the rest. if you're not called by any pile, let this reading slid as it may not hold messages for you. if you're called by more than one, there may be messages in each of those piles. remember that is a general reading and some things may not resonate with you. energies can change and readings are based on present ones (as you read); you're always in charge of your life.
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pile 1 [main tw: childhood/emotional/physical abuse]
Your past life may have been revolving around being a worker child or not being able to actually have a free life. You either were a slave or indeed at the service of your family or a boss. Something prevented you to be able to actually decide for yourself. Maybe you have seen your dreams crashing down (for some it may have happened later on in your life: you were probably sold to someone rich kinda suddenly, either to work for them or to marry them or you had to work in some "pleasure house" for example) or you had to stay hidden (like mining or working somewhere underground), but anyway your life depended on someone else's decisions. It wasn't yours. And the realization of this fact hit you greatly.
I am totally getting Oliver Twist vibes. You were a pure soul that only wanted to enjoy their life but never really could, and for sure not on their own terms. All you did that you may not be proud of was for a reason and was to save yourself and live another day. You probably had to steal food or something like that. I think this character a bit introverted, shy, closed off, not fully able to trust others, and always on alert, is what you brought from that life in this.
You had friends, younger siblings or at least a few companions, but most of the times (and most of you) had to find ways to survive on your own and think about yourself first. You very likely tried to take care of them, when you could though, but you couldn't always save them. You're probably still a bit closed off though, shying away from connections even unconsciously. Maybe you had to work for your family and couldn't really get away from that/had no choice. Maybe your whole family was working as slaves somewhere. Or any of the other situations I mentioned above... the message here is kinda straight forward. And it involves you not being free or having the ability to be in control of your life in whatever way. Maybe at first you had to obey your father and then you got sold to another rich man when your family got poorer? Something like that too.
Whatever that was, the suggestion is to try and listen to your inner guidance. Not everyone is out to control you or take advantage of you, and you need to take control of your life as well. And you can. You're free. Even if it seems scary and uncomfortable (it's supposed to be so: you aren't used to that, your soul is still in that fearful place). Take baby steps, learn who to trust, and do it fully for once. Let go and live your present life, at any cost. You're here for that, remember. Others have their lives to enjoy already. Respect others, thank them for their interest in you if necessary but do what you want of your own life, you owe no explanation to anyone. And you can be seen and listened to. Don't hide away.
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pile 2 [main tw: blood/d3ath, gaslighting]
I think it may be something related with blood. Maybe a tragic death or a death of any type. Something you feel has dirtied you, or changed you and your life. I keep hearing "stain". You probably now may fear about being imperfect, flawed, not good enough or "staining" your imagine in any type of way, not looking so perfect and deserving as you'd like to be.
You probably still fear your inner darker parts, you see them as mistakes, as things that shouldn't be there. You may try obsessively or compulsively to clean yourself (I'm seeing someone trying hard to clean white clothes from blood stains), by trying to avoid considering those parts, or hiding them, fearing being judged. I feel in your past life you may have been considered guilty of something, like ending or ruining something. Could be a marriage, or even a life. Maybe you were considered a witch/sorcerer too, accused of bringing plagues or bad luck in your village.
I feel you bring within you this pain, this fear of being accused (which may have actually happened irl) also of things you have no control or power on, that don't depend (solely or at all) on you. And that you cannot make better cause again they do not depend on you. You may also have some control issues. You probably were lied to a lot (but mostly in this life). You are also probably scared of being wrong or making mistakes of any type and again not been considered as perfect/right all the times. You may also have problems with criticism and tend to take it personally, even when that's not the intention behind it. You may occasionally project on others too, to defend yourself in particular (or to ask for help, but in an indirect or unconscious way). You were probably gaslighted in your past too and learned to self gaslighting, and may have learned to be ligthly manipulative to defend yourself.
I think you are supposed to heal this trauma by stopping causing yourself this pain, hiding yourself or parts of yourself in fear of not being accepted or accused of things that you cannot control (people judge or project on you from their own trauma, it's not your fault and it won't be like this with everyone). Be you, learn to embrace also the darkest parts within, as we all are made of dark and light. And there's no shame in that. Bring love to yourself. Accept yourself first, so to allow yourself to be accepted by the people that you really deserve in your life (and not by those you may want but don't actually need). Take a breath and listen to the intentions behind others' words too. Again, not everyone is here to come after you and accuse you or make you feel any less of who you are. See your worth despite any stain you may want to wash away: to actually do that, you need to accept them first. To actually see those parts not as a problem as you were probably taught to, but as a part of your self solution. There's nothing wrong in you.
song: the worst | jhené aiko
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pile 3 [main tw: bullying, loneliness, suic*de]
There's sadness and loneliness in your past. A sense of never fitting in, of never being right or good enough. Of feeling oppressed, somehow. You were probably a studious or a researcher, a scientist, a nerd of any type (for some you probably were into healing herbs or something like that, but it's only a few tbh check pile 2 if you feel this resonates more), and you were never really able to be understood by "normal" people. Your quirks were not easy to be understood by everyone, but maybe you had a few friends (even if you weren't too aware of them). Some people may have bullied you though. It feels very heavy tbh. I'm sorry... Maybe you decided for the worst too in that life. Not sure if it happened when you were a child/teen or more as a grown up, it could be either.
Ofc this is what you're bringing in this life too, as if the present life wasn't enough complicated and relationships not hard enough for everyone. May it be your karma? Who knows (we prolly deserve, if so). You (your soul) may be taking revenge and rejoyce in people searching for you now, needing you and your knowledge, your help. I am seeing a smirk. I understand this comes from a lot of pain also in your past life, but remember that this is only effimeral, and not what you need nor are searching for. Don't let pain make you bitter, don't give people the power to let you down again: you don't need that type of people; focus on the few, even the only one, that value you for who you are. Be real with yourself: what do you want? Real deep relationships, I am sure. So try and create yours. I know it's not easy, but... give it a try?
Okay, you will probably still fail sometimes, you won't meet the right people right away and you will make mistakes at first, but it's fine. Just go out and try. Give yourself the chance to try and also to be wrong, to not finding your people yet. Rome wasn't buildt in a day. Take time, get accostumed. The more you try, the more you know yourself, who you are and what you can give (and deserve to get), the more the people that are willing to balance that part of you will be attracted in your life. Believe in this. Take control of your emotions and your mind. You are better than those who hurt you in any of your lives. Show them that.
Take control over your pain, and allow this internal change. It will probably pain you as well, but it is just the last step before things will get better. You're a very sensible soul, and that's so impressive seeing how harsh and hateful we're becoming as humans. Try to not let these emotions take you over though. Find your space, your place to distress. We need you here with us, even if sometimes things seem so unbearable... I know you can bear with them still, I can feel it. Find your own reasons to convince yourself. Ask for help, reach out for people (I'm here if you want, just don't be afraid that I or anyone else won't understand you or think you're a burden cause that's not true), talk, write or search for your personal signs to stay. Just take a look around, they're there. Take this reading as your sign that something better is ahead and it's gonna happen for sure. Try, okay?
song: stay alive (prod. suga) | jungkook
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pile 4 [main tw: abandonment issues, people pleasing]
You probably weren't able to express yourself freely in your past life. You had to shut up, to bring respect to your father and elders, to obey, to behave. You couldn't really rebel despite your mind, heart, soul and ideas were telling you differently. You were different from the rest. Kind of a rebel. And for this reason, you had to be taken care of, to be controlled, to be held back. Cause your words would have only brought you (and your family in particular) problems, and others (your community) would have judged you. Some type of bohemian hero/ine?
You were energetic, not afraid of the different and the new or to be perceived as a libertine, up to try anything, and didn't care about what others were thinking of you. The energy reminds me a bit of Jeanne D'Arc, but even more of Zelda Sayre Fitzgerald, Francis Scott Fitzgerald's wife (the guy who wrote "Tender is the night" and "The great Gatsby", eg. Not sure if you have seen the serie about her and how they met, but if so you may get what I mean). As her, you probably were interested in writing too. And you were good. You liked doing something that was new, or not seen as "good/standard" for your gender (if you even recognized yourself in any). Ofc you didn't care and just did whatever that was. But you also lost a lot in the process (probably people from your family or environment left you aside, and you pretended you didn't care), and got burned many times (I swear I don't mean this as a pun, also cause tbh Jeanne D'Arc came up on a second thought after I had already written this).
I think you're bringing this energy in your life as well. The will to take control of your life and dreams is still very strong, as the will to not stress too much but simply trying to enjoy and do your best. It feels like you already have a clear call. But there's this void still in you. This need to not be left out, to be appreciated, to not be left alone. To be supported. To feel love, any type of love, at no cost. To give love and receive love, unconditionally. Something inside still feels scared that if you really let it all out, if you let this energy take over and followed your call, you may end up being seen as someone that needs to be left aside, to be let down, as a bad influence... or crazy. Not understood. Especially from the people you want and need to be loved by the most. You fear being abandoned by your family, friends, lovers... on different levels. For different reasons. For not being enough, for not being as others, for not obeying some weird rules. But tbh, this should be the main reason why they shouldn't lose you. Still, you probably started people pleasing and do as they asked you without blinkin' an eye, so to not give others the chance to leave (spoiler, but you prob. know already: they leave anyway) and to feel loved, so to not feel their anger and disdain on you.
Whatever is the reason/trigger behind your actual fear of abandonment and reaction, the only suggestion is to try and remember your worth in any given moment; to work from a loving place (towards yourself too), to talk with them openly, to show them how much you want whatever you want and believe you can make it, to maybe find compromises with them (if you need to), to go slower than you probably did in your past life (you wanted it all and "now", very likely. You never really considered the possible consequences of your actions/decisions beforehands. Take time to enjoy each step, be steady but do not rush. Get accostumed, let others do the same). Don't be scared to stand up for yourself and disappoint others. Communicate your feelings, all of them. These fears in particular. Ask clearly to be supported instead of being criticized. And talk with yourself about this too. How much do you want that? "You have the key to it all".
song: sweet virginia | the rolling stones
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Family By Choice actors Hwang Inyeop, Jung Chaeyeon, and Bae Hyunsung’s Marie Claire Korea October 2024 Issue photoshoot and interview
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While they bickered throughout the shoot, the warmth they showed soon after made it clear that we don’t even need to ask about the chemistry between the three actors.
Bae Hyunsung: Earlier, during the last cut, noona (Jung Chaeyeon) was happily running ahead, and we followed her from behind. The drama set felt similar to that. Noona would lead the atmosphere, and we would just follow along, saying, “Yeah, let’s go.”
Jung Chaeyeon: I was like a ray of sunshine, hahaha.
Hwang Inyeop: When we were filming in Gyeongju during peak cherry blossom season, the blossoms fell quickly within a few days. I was lamenting how quickly spring passed, and Chaeyeon said, “Why are you sad? It's here right now,” with a laugh. She really was that kind of presence.
Jung Chaeyeon: I’m thankful that even when I made such bold comments, they were always well received. Maybe because the characters in the drama were affectionate, the set was really harmonious. (Everyone falls silent for a moment.) Wasn’t it?
Hwang Inyeop: Yes, it was. (laughs)
The word "harmonious" is typically used for families, but hearing it makes me realize it applies to colleagues as well.
Jung Chaeyeon: It really was like that. We clicked exceptionally well, so it felt comfortable.
This vibe seems to be reflected in the drama Family By Choice. From the preview, the relationships between the three characters seem warm and affectionate, like both family and friends.
Bae Hyunsung: Exactly. When I first read the script, it felt warm. Although each character has their own pain and sorrow, their efforts to overcome it also felt heartwarming.
Hwang Inyeop: While working on this project, I cried a lot and laughed a lot. All three characters are bright, but you can sense their sadness underneath. They live brightly, even though they carry sadness.
Bae Hyunsung: That’s how it is for everyone, right? Life can be tough, but when you're with someone you love, you're happy just being together, and you smile. But sometimes, when you look into each other’s eyes, you can feel sadness. We had a lot of scenes where we looked into each other’s eyes, and I often felt that emotion.
Jung Chaeyeon: I think I was drawn to this drama because of that warmth.
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How did each of you interpret and explore your characters—Sanha (Hwang Inyeop), Juwon (Jung Chaeyeon), and Haejun (Bae Hyunsung)?
Jung Chaeyeon: Juwon is a person full of energy and brightness, though there are underlying reasons for that. I tried to bring out the most positive and bright side of myself. When something happens, Juwon doesn’t try to look at things from the side or the back but approaches them in a straightforward and simple way. That’s her style, and I tried to think that way as well.
Bae Hyunsung: Unlike Sanha and Juwon, Haejun is, in a way, a character who is completely alone. He receives a lot of love and support from his friends and family, but at the same time, he feels burdened by it. I once lived with my uncle’s family for a short time during my childhood, and I remember feeling a strange sense of pressure then. I tried to recall that feeling while thinking about Haejun. Essentially, it was a process of suppressing sorrow and amplifying brightness.
Hwang Inyeop: Every time I play a new character, I try to get as close to them as possible, but I wonder if it’s ever possible to completely understand them. It’s hard enough to fully know oneself, right? So, I always approach characters without the assumption that I know them entirely. But interestingly, with Sanha, at some point, it felt less like I was interpreting and expressing him and more like I was absorbing him. It wasn’t about thinking, “Sanha is somewhere out there,” but more like, “What I’m doing is Sanha.” Compared to Juwon and Haejun, Sanha is quieter and more relaxed, but there are moments when he suddenly bursts out. I tried to express that without second-guessing myself, and I think it came through well when I watched the monitor. (laughs)
It sounds like the moment you felt fully immersed in your characters and the story was quite valuable. In a way, that could be the purpose of exploring and acting out these roles.
Hwang Inyeop: The process of the three of us becoming “us” in the story was similar to that. All of us are pretty shy in real life, but in the drama, we’re portrayed as friends who have been extremely close since childhood. I was worried about how we could quickly build up that chemistry, but once we started filming, we just naturally became “us.” There’s a scene where Haejun is playing basketball, and Sanha and Juwon are cheering him on. While shooting that scene, I found myself genuinely rooting for him. That was the day I felt, “Now we’ve really become ‘us.’”
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Now that filming is over, it seems none of you are ready to let go of your characters. What does Family By Choice mean to each of you?
Jung Chaeyeon: I’m not sure how the behind-the-scenes footage of the last filming day will turn out, but all three of us cried a lot. We cried so much that the director had to shoot other scenes first and save our trio’s scene for the last. It was especially hard to say goodbye to this project, so it will stay in my heart for a long time. When describing our drama, people use words like youth, romance, and warmth. For me, the few months of filming truly felt like my youth. I worked hard, I was passionate, I had fun, and I was really happy.
Bae Hyunsung: That’s right. Even after a long time has passed, I don’t think I’ll feel distant from it.
Hwang Inyeop: I’m glad that the sincerity came through. I always try to be sincere, but that’s not always easy. It’s not necessarily bad when it isn’t. Sometimes, sticking to each person’s goals and desires leads to better results. But when everything aligns and feels right, that’s the best, because it’s rare and precious.
Jung Chaeyeon: This is the first time we’ve met after a month and a half since filming wrapped up. Usually, there’s a bit of hesitation or distance in those situations. But today, we started joking around right away, and I realized, “We really have become friends.” I think we’ll stay in touch for a long time.
Hwang Inyeop: Maybe it’s because we worked together on this project, but in some ways, the three of us seem alike. None of us get angry easily, and we’re all quite bright… or am I not? (laughs)
Jung Chaeyeon: You’re not dark. We are similar.
Earlier, when you all burst into laughter at the same time, I thought your cheerful energy was alike. You’ve definitely become friends. (laughs)
Bae Hyunsung: In the drama, we play family and best friends, and I think we’ve become something like that, too.
Hwang Inyeop: We all have bright personalities at the core. Each of us has a different vibe, though. Hyunsung is gentle, Chaeyeon is lively, and I… I don’t know. (laughs)
Jung Chaeyeon: You’re warm.
Bae Hyunsung: You’re warm-hearted.
Hwang Inyeop: That’s a good choice of words. Yes, I’ll take that. (laughs)
우리가 여름을 지나온 시간 | 황인엽, 정채연, 배현성 배우 화보와 인터뷰 | 마리끌레르 코리아 – 마리끌레르 코리아 | MarieclaireKorea
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You know looking back on it, rewatching some stuff, I don’t think stuff like the weird stuff Four was doing during Meme Factory and surrounding episodes was him necessarily relapsing because he was never not Like That. (Love him he is so character flaws but also full of silliness and care about friends but bad at friends)
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All this and also he way he treated the Leggys was so similar to whatever he was doing to the Toads at the start of what would become the whole IGBP fiasco
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This man has 2 objectives in life: make memes and love and protect his friends. He WILL forget which one is more important. Not sure he actually learned much from IGBP I think he’s just burdened with guilt without full understanding of what he actually did wrong.
I MEAN. Immediately after all that Mario invites Four to live with him! After Mar10 day!! With zero hesitation and so much excitement! Despite everything that just happened Mario is still so excited that his best friend will be staying with him! He hasn’t gotten to spend time with SMG4 in so long, and now they get to live together! (Mario is so good in this episode. The well intentioned silly guy!) But SMG4 is pretty quickly fed up with everything Mario does. (What was he expecting?)
He’s back at it. Four, this is Mario’s house and he’s minding his own business frankly. These are normal Mario activities. Yes there are noises but c’mon. Someone tell SMG4 to invest in some headphones for when he’s editing.
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You’d think, given the circumstances, Four would be a little more patient with what are pretty standard and honestly relatively tame Mario antics. But…
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Right back to the same kind of stuff. Brushing off and being grouchy with best friend who just wants to hang out with him so bad. Because doing his meme stuff is just so important. (Four you idiot you’re supposed to be doing the meme stuff WITH Mario, though, because that’s your Avatar and also Four making memes of Mario is shown to help stabilize him by like siphoning out excess meme energy or however it works. Like that’s a whole ‘nother layer to all this. Four is like Mario’s pharmacist and the meds is making memes of him. Utterly bizarre and screwed up situation)
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He has learned next to nothing I love that for him. Genuinely. Traumatic event of Eldritch Horrors does not erase character flaws of bad priorities and being unable to recognize how far is too far. SMG4 be niceys to Mario challenge (difficult but not impossible.) (He can be niceys sometimes)
More reasons Four shouldn’t bring things contaminated with Puzzles’ bad vibes and evil goop to the Showgrounds, which is also contaminated with Puzzles’ bad vibes though there is no confirmed evil goop.
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I keep bringing this up. But it’s just cause I’m very worried. And they’re yet to have a episode where they set up the new rides and stuff and so I’m just marinating this in my brain until something happens.
Just… the fact that the Showgrounds used to belong to Puzzles, and nothing much has come from that yet, aside from the implication that maybe it was his first (failed) attempt at an amusement park. And now Four’s bringing more Mr Puzzles stuff there when it’s explicitly shown that the demonic goop from IGBP is present in Puzzle Park… and there’s the fact that Four himself may or may not still be carrying it in some way.
And while he’s fine so long as meme-making/his channel isn’t in any sort of conflict with what his friends want or are doing , when they are he falls into old habits and often picks the wrong one as the bigger priority. He’s still doing the stuff that brought on the perfectionist goop horrors in the first place, all while bringing things afflicted by the goop to his home. (There’s also the matter of SMG4 Inside Out, where he displays character development when he is fairly polite and good to Mario who has interrupted his editing to demand milk, despite Four’s first thought being “Let’s murder this guy please” curtesy of his inner anger, Bob. Four is good to Mario until Mr Puzzles invades his brain. Is he still in there?) It can’t end well.
Well it can end well for us because maybe it can end in the parallels I won’t shut up about finally being acknowledged. Can’t end well for SMG4 though.
(Also with the Showgrounds becoming a proper fairgrounds with the addition of rides from Puzzle Park we get the opportunity for Puzzles to be like “That blue idiot is living MY dream!” When he eventually gets out of the institution. And Three could respond with like “Been there but at least I was never this pathetic about it” I dunno man.)
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ik this is a rarepair of a rarepair but impulsexjoel is stck in my hea, like they both had to deal with the entire pining saga of ethubs during double life, and now they're neighbours and everything
but anyways ty for considering my ask, and honesyly your writing is so good! i can't believe you have the energy to post everyday!
i know you said dealing with the ethubs pinning. i know you mentioned them being neighbours. but... 😔 the ideas were not ideaing. so i came up with something different. i hope you like it, even if it's not the vibes you were going for and thank you! ngl i dont have the energy, but im trying to build a habit of writing (almost) daily, so we do what we gotta! _____
📧 Day 37 -
Characters - Impulse/Joel Words - 963 Time - 45 mins Content - Zombie Apocalypse AU
Atop the skyscraper, Impulse finds Joel. He sees his back, the sun setting in front of him. All golden and warm, hell itself beautiful for a couple more minutes. It is a little cold where Joel’s shadow is casted, so he walks beside it, staying on the light to his side. There are no words spoken when he stops, side by side, the closest they have been in a while yet the furthest they have ever felt. He looks at the world below, the ruins of the city overtaken by greenery and abandoned toys. All metal and concrete, hard things meant to last now are mere decorations. 
The golden blanket becomes richer, darker as the last of the sun’s warmth slips from their fingers. 
There are few left. A handful that came back. And they are different people now, grown and changed. Impulse opens his mouth to say something, his words stolen by the wind, and he forgets they are on top of the world. He watches instead, to the only other by his side, a thousand things he could and should be saying, all stuck in his throat like something he cannot spit or swallow. 
Joel looks ahead to the horizon, the lines on his face almost invisible in what remains of the golden light. Suddenly, they are in their younger days—less scars, more people. A different time. Joel’s hair continues to be a mess, and he guesses that some things never change. Like the color of his eyes, rich soil with swirls of the sweetest honey. The shape of his lips, pressed into a thin line, the roundness of his face. His clothes are dirty and stained, nothing new to his eyes. Like a game, he tries to find differences, a thousand images of him flashing in his mind. 
Despite that, all his little game accomplishes is to remind him that time has passed. 
Then the night is here, the stars as their audience. Their witnesses. Impulse looks up to them, they blink back at him. The sky has never been clearer, the stars never been brighter. It is an odd feeling, warm yet wrong, almost funny in his stomach. 
The first words are spoken by Joel, nothing about them or the world they are in. No dreams or wishes—not even anger or disappointment, almost like an indifference settling deep in their bones. “Look at the fireworks,” Joel whispers, so loud in the desert of sound they are in. 
And Impulse does. Pries his eyes from him, looks at the horizon where Joel’s eyes are, and shortly after, the first trail of smoke. The whistle thins up, the sound carried all the way over to them, shooting up into the vastness of the sky. It blooms into a thousand stars, colorful like spring all those years ago. In between fields of blooming flowers, color and life everywhere they looked. It lights up the night like the sun for a couple seconds, something akin to hope in the darkest void. Then more explode, a light show to attract whatever remains of the ‘human’ zombies. 
Every six months the people gather to watch the fireworks—one night of their lives they are free to find shelter and not worry about the zombies. They will all be drawn to the light, to the sound, swarming the streets in hordes like moths to light. The government will deal with them, trap them in containment zones and douse them in flammable liquids, and they will burn as the world did all those years ago. 
But the shells explode and stars rain down, nothing to do but watch the beauty in duty. 
Reds like a bad sunburn during their summer days on the beach. Oranges like the sunset they just witnessed, one of many shared since forever ago. Yellows like sunflowers, like the first canaries telling them the world is healing, like spray-painted arrows leading them here. Greens like forests, the shade of the now faded streak in Joel’s hair. Blues like the sculk on the zombies’ skin, consuming every inch of muscle and brain until they are no longer human. Violet like the dog tags on their necks, inscribed with a name their lips no longer say. Silver like the hairs on their heads, white like stars that persist. 
Joel watches a life pass by in front of his eyes, on the face of the person who should have been the one. The one he comes back when he has sleepless nights, when his mind wanders and he wonders about another life—something nicer, maybe, where they do not need to fight to live; maybe a life where they get to be other people, one where they are not who they are, yet they stay together despite it all. Like now, he thinks idly as another white explosion flashes him—he finds his smile with tired eyes, silver hair and pain his eyes cannot see. 
“You’re not watching,” Impulse says briefly, blinking his eyes to him. They are young again, their whole lives ahead of them. Maybe this time they can choose to stay, maybe this time they will not return to each other with few. The last few, everyone they lost. But Impulse smiles despite it all, a joy or hope Joel fails to see. 
Whistles and explosions echo in the skies, under them the hoards walk. The numbers dwindle but it will stop soon. They did once, there will be a stand-still soon. Maybe then, they can change their minds and they can be other people. The same but different, side by side. 
Impulse takes the space between them and leans down. Joel closes his eyes, their foreheads bump. A difference in their temperatures, the slightest of differences and their lips part for something. Another day, maybe. 
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this is messy because brain scattered right now. i need to get my head in the game 🏀
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imjustavenuxwithaboomerang · 4 months ago
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rating rise of red songs in real time as i watch it
red by red, jack of diamonds, and guards: 6.75/10
i like the chorus but could do without the guards' parts. kylie sounded really good on the verses and the "red, red, red, red" parts but i don't know how i feel about the "set it off, go berserk" parts yet
so this is love by cinderella and king charming: 9/10
was sung for literally 30 seconds but brandy and paolo sounded good. the pacing of the song was a bit off to me, like i swear the song sped up at moments (SPECIFICALLY at the "so this is what makes life divine). it was a very pretty rendition though
love ain't it by red, queen of hearts, chloe, cinderella, and auradon citizens: 6/10
i like the beginning and the chorus but, at least to me, it's kinda messy. the rap parts were...okay but not where i thought the song was going. and i wasn't really vibing with the guards and citizens singing until it got to the choir-like part but it was slightly unnecessary
what's my name (reprise) by uma: 8/10
i know that it's technically red version but that's soundtrack only so i'm calling it a reprise. it was all going fine until the "no one's gonna stop us, soon the world will be ours" it's like...off. the "stop us" is way too fast and the whole line sounds like china was behind the music and they told her to speed up (which most likely isn't what happened but that's the energy it gave off) or like the producer spliced two recordings incorrectly
fight of our lives by red and chloe: 8.5/10
favorite so far if i ignore the rapping. i seriously need them to stop the rapping (they're not bad at it but it's happened way too much). the harmonies and layering are very good and nice to hear. malia and kylie's voices blend well together. (also not about the song but the way they put their foreheads together in supposed to be determination was very gay, very queer, very wlw of them)
life is sweeter by rise of red cast: 6.5/10
it's objectively good but not my cup of tea. the chorus really carries the song. i vibed with uliana, morgie, and hook's parts a lot. ruby's voice sounds very nice on this song (and also reminds me of someone else, same for morgie). i can't tell if i liked that the song acted as an intro for the characters
perfect revenge by uliana, hook, morgie, hades, and maleficent: 5/10
more rapping yay (dara actually pulls it off but i'm getting a little sick of it). i'm not really digging the melody of the chorus and post-chorus. it's really busy and layered so it makes it slightly worse. def my least favorite so far
shuffle of love by bridget: 8/10
it played for like 30 seconds but i really liked what i heard. idk why but i just really like the melody and the way it was sung. then again i only heard a little so it's not any higher than an 8 and there's a chance the rest of the song isn't as good
get your hands dirty by ella and chloe: 8.75/10
new favorite. absolutely love the songwriting and the melody. again the rapping was unnecessary but it was a bit better in this song so whatever. morgan and malia's voice really compliment each other and morgan sounds so good
life is sweeter (reprise) by red and queen of hearts: 7/10
rita and kylie sound great but i like the song in the original tempo. you're probably thinking 'but venux the original got a lower ranking', yeah well that's because i didn't like the verses whereas this has no verses
life is sweeter (remix) by rise of red cast: 6/10
objectively fine, not much to say so sorry. not always a fan of remixes
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TAGGED: TEN CHARACTERS YOU IDENTIFY WITH (&&&either add what you admire about each, or what it is that connects you to them!)
Ilene Woods' Cinderella: I love how humble, fun-loving, and enduring she is. I identify with her concentrated efforts to put her best foot forward and to try to keep from succumbing to her environment. While she sometimes feels she falls short at leading by example, frayed from everyday wear, she ultimately triumphs against all odds, alighted by her sense of worth, her steadfast industriousness, and prospers in turning the tide and creating a successful counterculture, all of which is inspiring to me. Marcia Brady: The personification of Leo energy; every notable actress who's ever played her is a Leo, and for good reason. She's magnetic, radiant, moral- without being sanctimonious- and a natural leader. Adriana Caselotti's Snow White: Her buoyant joy, resiliency, and never-ending humor create a beacon of light wherever she goes. I love how much a complete individual she is and how resourceful she is in forging a new life for herself, even when she's left with nothing. She never allows her misfortunes to change who she is, and I wish I had more of her compassion, purity, strength, and unaffected kindness. Blanche Devereaux: Blanche turns the act of living into a performance. The simplest run at the grocery store or day at work is suddenly a gripping, page-turning adventure, complete with anticipation, glamour, and a glossy lexicon. She's riveting and, while she has the same insecurities that many of us do, I admire the way she shows up for her friends. Katrina Van Tassel: This character is pure vibes for me. I love how mysterious and to-herself she is, while very clearly exhibiting motivations, a personality, and wants and needs. She isn't gauche in any way, tasteful in everything, and she practically invented the word coquette. Gilda: I think most everyone has a lot of Gilda in them. Someone who's easy touched and still influenced by many of their past haunts, but does their best to keep it from surfacing and letting their emotions get the best of them. I love the glamour and energy that exudes from Gilda effortlessly, and how layered she is. Ethel Mertz: I always think about that quote, "Lucy threw pies while Ethel threw shade." I love Lucy, but Ethel was always the standout for me. Her comedic timing was impeccable, her singing voice was unreal, and she represented so much of what I love about the older women in my life. Her sense of self is fixed, she's comfortable about her place in the world and has discovered who she is. She's such a loyal friend and has the type of talent that comes only from a lifetime of concentrated effort. The Little Mermaid: Ariel's fire, passion, and complicated nature is something I've continued to revisit from the first time that I've met her. She's messy, flawed, but so vulnerable, authentic, and likable that you can't help but root for her. I think anyone who's LGBTQIA+ can identify with her struggles but, beyond that, I love how true to herself she is, refusing to be tainted by the prejudices of others. She's just generally a very active, restless character with so many ebbs and tides of thoughts, feelings, and desires. Rapunzel (from the original Brothers Grimm fairytale): Out of the fairytale princesses, Rapunzel always spoke to me the most. I always loved the princess in the tower archetype and her hair being such a central point of the plot- and harkening back to the sun- is a very Leo quality, in my opinion. I think the fairytale Rapunzel has a lot of the same spirit and energy that Aurora in the animated Sleeping Beauty carries. Mary Costa's Aurora: This character changed my life in so many ways. She brought my best friends to me, started me down the path of writing, and has enriched my life in so many ways. I'm mesmerized by her enchanted, romantic quality, the all-encompassing way she loves, her sense of duty, obligation, and loyalty to those around her, her keen sense of humor, how she wants to give the best of herself to everyone, the unending source of love that springs from her...I could go on forever.
tagged by: @drinksattheendoftheworld (thank you!!!)
tagging: everyone!! but, off the top of my head in no particular order other than alphabetical - @arthina @bettedavis @deforest @deliachase @disneydayandnight @gavillain @magistera @margotfonteyns @muzikalsiren @oozmart @peasantbarbie @princessnostalgia @royalhans @sparklejamesysparkle @the-blue-fairie
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bijoumikhawal · 1 year ago
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Thoughts on ds9 main cast as DnD classes
Sisko: Is it possible to be a warlock without being the initiating party? Actually scratch that, depending on how you interpret the whole thing with his mother and the prophets, he could be a sorcerer. I don't think he's a paladin because to me the defining feature of a paladin is the oath; Sisko is initally reluctant to being the Emissary and even tries to hand off the responsibility to someone else, partially out of genuine belief they might be better suited to the job. The fact that sorcerers don't chose their power is a defining characteristic, and not all sorcerers are from a bloodline. Some have a somewhat random awakening, like Sisko’s entering the wormhole. They don't learn new magic from books; they discover new abilities through the course of life, which reminds me of the episode with his visions.
Kira: Paladin. She becomes the person she is by dedicating herself to a cause wholly and completely, she never strays from it, and she's still devoted to it to this day, to the point where she gets chosen as a vessel for the prophets during the show down that wasn't. Alternatively: you could argue monk, and say her cloister was her terrorist cell, but I don't know it's as strong as the argument for paladin. That said, I am biased.
Dax: I struggled with her, not gonna lie. I feel like her massive jock energy is a known quantity, but she's also the science officer and clearly does a lot of research. I feel like you could most safely argue warlock- like I said for Sisko, sorcerers don't choose their path, and while joining could be similar to the outside influences in sorcerers, the process itself is a choice and ultimately similar to the mutually beneficial pacts warlocks carry out.
O'Brien: his face is next to the entry for "artificer". But if we were sticking to the core classes, I think his vibe is pretty close to those posts about Wizards as IT support technicians. You don't have to be a special guy to be a wizard, you just learn your trade.
Bashir: Sorcerer, but in a hypothetical DnD AU, not the usual way where your grandmother was a dragon fucker. More of in a horrible experiment way. However, he either intentionally multiclasses or pretends to be something else, and I think that's a ranger. From DnD beyond's single sentence summary: "(A ranger is) a warrior who combats threats on the edges of civilization". Now, the stuff in the rulebook isn't necessarily the best or only conceptualization of what a class is, but Julian does have that infamous line from the pilot. From a character analysis standpoint (though not an game mechanics one) you could argue disease is a favored enemy.
Worf: He's definitely a martial heavy class, not a primarily casting class. He doesn't fit as a barbarian at all, I don't think he's got a particular devotion that makes an oath for a paladin, and I don't believe he has a spiritual element to his character found with monks (admitting of course, that I'm not familiar with TNG). He does have the solitary style rangers are associated with in ds9, but not the nature association. You could argue that by serving in Starfleet, he, like Julian, is protecting a civilization from the outskirts as someone politically involved in the Klingon Empire. And even draw in his decision to live on the Defiant into this. You could also say he's a straightforward fighter.
Odo: I think you could make an argument for Odo as a paladin- his commitment to his idea of justice and fairness is very oath like, but I also find the read of paladins as cops kind of boring and not getting at the meat of what a paladin is. You could argue druid because of the shapeshifting and the idea of balance found in the class vs his idea of justice, but I feel like overall changelings focus more on a mastery over nature than being an extension of it, and that's pretty antithetical to druids when played as standard.
Quark: I do not think he is a rogue. To be fair, we see his failed schemes because those are the interesting ones, but Quark stans to my understanding like his middle aged fail babygirl vibe. I'm not sure what else he would be though... he's a decent negotiator and a good people person, so a high charisma class. That leads me towards bard, though Quark isn't much of an artist or speech maker.
Garak: hot take! Hot take alert from the known clown! Rogue/Paladin multiclass. Rogue is obvious- its a favorite for spy type characters. However- the third episode Garak is in, we learn about his sheer devotion to Cardassia, and how he classifies it as love. Paladins aren't the way they are because of religion (though that's often a big element), it's because of devotion. And that devotion can be deeply destructive. Plus- tell me, upon thinking about it, that afterimage isn't an oathbreaker level breakdown.
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givemeanaccountalready · 1 year ago
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Rambling about “My Children are Perfectly Fine” series:
First off, I need y’all to see the beautiful commissioned art @pumiih made. It just furthers my point that artists are actually witches in disguise. Pumiih took my ugly ass sketch and made this beauty:
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Like look at that! Look how handsome my son is!!! Best money ever spent. My pink son is named Haruma Todoroki. He is my fun parallel to Natsuo in my series. And by fun, I mean fun for me, not so much for the characters in the story.
Here is my attempt at drawing him again, this time with his name next to him. It’s incomplete because hair is hard.
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The kanji are crap, but essentially his name means “spring” “dance, wheel, flit”. Rei had agreed to carry one more child in hopes that she could free her existing children from Enji’s mad ambitions. When Rei was pregnant with him, there were two names settled on for him. Akito (“autumn” “move through/soar”) if he had been born with white hair or Haruma (“clear/sunlight” “protect”) if he had been born with red hair. She had hoped that Haruma would develop the fire based quirk with a self cooling ability that Enji wanted. Don’t yell at her, she was desperate to save her existing kids and decided that this was the best way to chew off one limb to save the others.
Of course, he was born with pink hair, and no one was sure what to do. Rei wanted Haruma but Touya and Fuyumi chose “spring” and “dance, wheel, flit” kanji instead of the ones she wanted. Both of them were aware of the ramifications of Haruma’s birth. Touya chose spring because this new brother was born in the fall but with cherry blossom petal looking hair (typically big brother bully moment) and Fuyumi chose the second kanji because she wanted her new brother to have a carefree, happy life. Natsuo was sulking because he swore that the pink hair meant fire and ice mixed to form water and he couldn’t think of a kanji that had the right pronunciation to sneak in. Shouto was just happy to vibe with his siblings for once. No one noticed for about two months, and Rei didn’t have the energy to go down to city hall to change it (her mental health was deteriorating) while Enji figured he’d change it if Haruma actually developed the power he wanted him to have.
Of course, Haruma’s Homeostasis came in and was deemed not good enough, so with Rei in the hospital and Enji not caring, no one changed it to the “right” kanji. Homeostasis is seen as a much weaker version of Half-Hot, Half-Cold by Enji, with the added flaw of Haruma’s Quirk tends to reverse from one end of the temperature equation to the other against his will. Shouto was stuck as Enji’s successor while Haruma is essentially raised by Fuyumi (and Touya when he still lived at home).
Similar to his siblings, he has a very strong sense of right and wrong, but because of the power dynamics in their family, Haruma feels powerless to do anything. In the presence of his parents, Haruma prefers to be invisible because his black and white views of right and wrong (he is 9-10), leads to a lot of upsetting cognitive dissonance where he can’t reconcile their words with their actions (mostly Rei since she does love him but is unnerved by how much he looks like Enji and his missing older brother (Natsuo), and she was in the mental hospital for as long as he can remember and doesn’t remember her good mom moments like his siblings).
Whereas Touya and Natsuo are about 4.5 years apart and had the opportunity to be close since Enji deemed them both as failed creations, Shouto and Haruma are about 4.75 years apart and haven’t been allowed to interact because of Enji’s rules. Touya relied on Natsuo emotionally and was close to him while Shouto decided to bear the weight of their family’s problems on his shoulders alone and pushed his younger brother away in an attempt to shield him. Both Haruma and Natsuo failed to succeed their older brothers like Enji had wanted them to. Because of their looks and Shouto’s status as the golden child, neither Haruma nor Natsuo had the chance to be close to their mother and relied on their older siblings to take care of them.
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ladespeinada · 1 year ago
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having finished watching the bear in the early hours of the morning, i have some thoughts rattling around in my head that i need to jot down because they keep distracting me from work, lmao. spoilers under the cut 
→ i had fun! it was emotional! it was stressful! i was entertained and then i had to suppress the feelings of familial relatability brought up in ep. 6!  → MARCUS!!! TINA!!! NAT!!! EBRA!!! RICHIEEEEEEE!!!!! All going through their own shit, changing, emotional, relentless, scared, nervous. I especially loved Richie this season and he had a speech in ep. 1 that broke my heart ("I'm 45, I've been here a long time, you feel me? I mean, you know what the fuck you're doing, you know. You love all this shit. It's fun for you. I don't have that. I'm afraid imma wake up and you guys are all just gonna cut—just drop this ass.")
→ Sydney, light of my life. Her fierce ambition, so obvious and strong in S1, got tempered by doubt and distrust in her partner, by the gradual recognition that she is doing so much, too much, by herself. I don’t think it bodes well that the last shots we get of her, she’s ralphing after opening night service—after an intense kitchen set-up that tests her limits and shows who she can and cannot trust. (Giving Carmy in NY, throwing up before service vibes). And honestly? I wouldn't be mad if she really, really starts doubting her partnership with Carmy and just dips. 
→ Anyway, I came back to add that Sydney, despite her doubts and not-unfounded fears, is such a positive source for those around her. We saw it in S1, when she gave Marcus a confidence boost, when Tina sought her approval after initially being very hesitant about her. And that faith in others just increased in this season, and god, to be around someone like that, who lifts others up no matter what, is so rare. I love her so much. (And her carrying around that book the whole season! Just holding onto courage and confidence, letting it shape her leadership.) 
→ I'm so happy Natalie wasn’t relegated to glimpses this time around. She's present and focused and involved in dismantling her family’s trauma and history, and I love that for her. I also love her and Syd's relationship (them almost being synchronised in saying Carmy Problem) and her interactions with Fak, lmao. 
→ Tina at culinary school! Tina with reservations about her place but thriving and finding inspiration. There's a moment where some of the people in her class all go out, and they invite her, and when she meets them at the bar, they've all got a nasty judgemental face (it's def an age thing) but then she EATS THEM UP at karaoke with a beautiful song in English & Spanish, TINA TE ADORO. 
→ I immediately re-watched Marcus's episode and I want a spin-off series where he stages at different world-renowned bakeries and lives his best patissier life. 
→ That Variety piece that said Carmy was the least interesting character in this show was RIGHT ("It’s no coincidence that these weaker points tend to involve Carmy, a character perfectly rendered by White who’s still the least interesting part of his own show.") 
→ Speaking of: the romance between Carmy and Claire (which we all unfortunately saw happening after the trailer, and is fucking annoying, and yes part of it is because I love Syd & Carmy together, but also because the showrunners pledged no romance in the show which would have been fine, too) is BORING. So boring. I know Claire is going to get a lot of hate and honestly, it's barely fair because she's just not developed as a character at all. Beyond being someone Carmy knew in his past, and who is now stealing his time and energy away from the restaurant, there's not much to her. She's written with so little dimension, and exists purely to be Carmy's lil girlfriend and it's disappointing. She could have at least been fucking interesting. 
→ Carmy's so angry around the time of the opening, and he projects it onto everyone else, and it's really his own fault that he's not aware of what's happening in the restaurant.  → Okay so another thing—Sydney talks about how much she wants a Michelin star, how it’ll make The Bear a true destination spot. And rudely, Carmy goes, “you really want one of these bullshit stars?” to which Syd says yes, I really do, and this fucking dickhead tells her: “you’re gonna to have to care about everything, more than anything” AND HE STILL LET HER DOWN!!!!!!!! The more I think about it, the more upset I get. 
→ Also, Michael doesn't haunt the narrative the way he did last season—his presence is so faint. There's moments, of course, but it just feels like something is missing or off. I had expected some sort of sentiment to come to the surface towards the end of the season at least, some sense of acknowledgement that maybe he would have loved The Bear, or hated it, or something, from literally anyone—Carmy, Nat, Richie, someone—but nope, nothing besides the cannoli.
→ Episode 6, man. Episode fucking six. Natalie Berzatto, you deserve peace. 
→ Anyway, overall there’s a sort of bite missing in this season. The looming threat of Cicero has been softened a lot and yes, obviously internal workings at The Bear are the new obstacles but it doesn’t feel quite the same. Maybe it's a lack of tension, or a lack of anxiety? I don't know how else to explain it.
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selfproclaimedunicorn · 18 days ago
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tell me your thonks on a relationship (of any kind) of aurynn mormont and... dealer's choice! 👀🫶🏻
Soft launch of upcoming characters from my fic because I can't not. We both have Mormont babes, & these are relatives, your honor:
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Whoever's in charge of Bear Island in this AU where they coexist doesn't matter, just know that Aurynn & Lara are cousins.
Lara is something like 9 or 10 years older than Aurynn, & she gets married at 16, so I don't think they'd have spent a lot of Lara's youth around each other, but with more relatives around for Aurynn with the inclusion of Cousin Jeor And His Household I think there'd be opportunities for her to come spend time with Lara at Runstone (hello baby's first crush on Shireen one-sided mommy issues yuri).
With bb!Aurynn hanging out at Runestone sometimes, I think she'd think of Lara as her cool older cousin. They're both fierce, capable, head-strong, bisexual bad bitches & I just think she'd think Lara is neat. Aurynn is definitely the more vivacious & lively one, with Lara being kind of stand-offish & having a major case of RBF. Howwver, they're both loyal & spirited, both super Northern™ & carrying a lot of influence from Bear Island being a little more egalitarian than other parts of Westeros & even The North in general. Also, Lara would have a soft spot for Aurynn because that's her little cousin & I do think she'd get to see her softer side like Aemon/her husband does. Like, overall there's just such good potential for a solid family relationship there.
Also, if I'm bringing bbg Aurynn to Runestone I have to mention the kids closer to her age that she'd be around when she's not trailing after Cool Older Cousin Lara. Aurynn is positioned kind of perfectly to integrate into either the group of older or younger kids.
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For Aurynn & Rhea, it's another "cool older girl" thing, because Rhea’s closer in age to Aemond. Aurynn would definitely pass her vibe check, I feel like, so she'd be willing to have her hang out with her & the older girls if she wanted to. She'd definitely bring Aurynn flying on her dragon if she wanted to (and maybe they kiss. Dont mind me, just collecting Pre-Marriage-To-Cregan girlfriends for Rhea lmal).
That said, not totally smooth sailing all the time. I think hered be a chance they both dig their heels in on opposing sides of an issue & they'd fight & it'd be pretty explosive & they wouldn't talk for a few days. Especially since Rhea is pretty quick to flair up & usually chooses violence, she can get talked back down pretty easily though if it's not something she deemed a grievous wound & she'd come apologize for arguing (& physically fighting).
Rhea's pretty outgoing & gregarious, but she's a little rougher around the edges. She gets on with people well & likes to have them feel welcome, she's a little unruly & stubborn. Which I think could provide a really interesting friendship dynamic with her & Aurynn.
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For the younger girls, they're all 14/15-to-13/14 so now it's Aurynn's turn to be the cool (slightly) older girl! I think she'd get along best with Myranda (top right) or Aerea (take your pick from the bottom).
Myranda is lively & friendly & she just wants to have fun, but she's a little judgy & very sassy. She's quick witted & girly & kind of bossy sometimes, but she'll chill if she gets called out. Aerea is a little dreamy & out there, but she's nice & definitely the most "rough and tumble" of the younger girls. Big horse girl energy. She's kind of sensitive & freaks out if she thinks someone has been hurt or is going to be in life-threatening danger, but so long as her twin sister is there to calm her down she'll be okay. She'd definitely ask Aurynn to let her practice braiding on her hair. Adrienne (take your pick from the bottom) is a litte more up-in-the-air. She's pretentious & matter-of-fact, she takes herself incredibly seriously. However, she's got a romantic streak a mile wide & she loves stories & poetry. She's very much her mother's daughter, & so even though she's Like This, she'd see a lot of what she enjoys in other people in Aurynn, & Adrienne would join in with the others in thinking that she's a cool older girl to be admired & ask to hang out so they can all be cool by association. So with this group of younger girls, I think that Aurynn would be flattered they all see her as someone to admire & she'd at the very least humor them.
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alyjojo · 6 months ago
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Family Ties ⛪️ - May 2024 - Aquarius
Overall Energy: King of Cups
Wow, yours is starting out as a doozy and I haven’t even clarified yet. First message is urgent but not for everyone 🚨 Or it’s different for everyone. There is a major betrayal in your family, could be karma you’re repeating or is somehow tied to you through a grandparent/ancestor that is with you very closely, every day, all of the time. This could also pertain to a child, if you have any, or any in the family. They’re trying to tell you something - they could be a water sign and show up as Queen of Cups, I can feeeeel their energy, much stronger than anyone else. Maybe seek out some of those mediums that do readings on social media, this woman wants to talk 💯 I personally like watching Michelle Medium on TikTok, sometimes, she goes live right at dinner time here so it’s kinda rare 🙃 but the ancestor message could just be telling me to tell you about her. I’m getting a frantic head nod and YES with that. Or someone like her, a medium. I do cards and some minor…whatever you call this, clairaudient, I get messages, and visions, but at like…maybe a 10-15% so far. Usually metaphors and such, for these purposes. She can actually connect with you & them at more like an 80%. See them, hear them, doesn’t get freaked out at all 👀
So, King of Cups, I assume the spouse of this Queen of Cups, neither of which is you in most cases. The King had deeply betrayed the Queen, 10 Swords in the back, The Devil, they were a miserly and greedy character that caused a lot of pain in this person’s life. If their relationship or dynamic, this painful betrayal somehow mirrors your own, and you could have some deep generational wounds you’re unconsciously living out & repeating. To heal. To do something differently. That would be a karmic contract - where your ancestry is concerned anyway. You know how The Bible says something like three generations will be cursed by the sins of the father…is it three? Or more? Something like that. That’s the vibe - it’s not your curse to bear, and yet it is. Take or leave the Bible part, I don’t judge or care, but I got it for a reason 🤷
Not everyone will resonate with that, but whoever does omg this woman wants to talk and you refuse to connect to her, she’s irritated 😆 Passed on obv.
For the rest of you, these could be your parents, still living, and the father is the betrayer. For others that are married or may as well be, it could be your divine match that’s the betrayer. It’s someone you’ve taken back, or wants to be taken back, and you’ve rejected. Same for your parents. This IS your/their person - if that’s the case. Shithead or no shithead, in all cases one person definitely has acted like one. This may be the definition of family to you in some way, whatever this drama is/was, it’s shaped the entire way you see family - or how everyone operates within it. Trauma does that. Whoever this Queen of Cups is, it’s insistent, they’ve come out twice and I just started. You may have been really close with this person, still are, you are this person…or somehow you’re carrying their karma/cross more like - that’s the strongest thing resonating. This ancestor is not the same as the grandparent showing up, it doesn’t have to be a grandma but for someone that’s very strong. You could have two grandmas that are polar opposites in personality.
Mother: The Moon rev & 6 Pentacles
Oracle: Riches 💰- Saturn Capricorn
79 Success
Enjoying your life and the unfolding of your creative abilities as much as possible is real success.
Mom has her shit together, even if she doesn’t. For some, Mom left Dad, maybe due to immature behavior or - I keep hearing “unreliable” from him. Her energy is very earthy 🌺 , so is the grandparent here, I assume this is her mother. Either Mom is the very image of responsibility, or through your childhood it could be being shown that she was away for quite awhile, trying to build that for herself, and Grandma may have had a heavy hand in raising you. She may have needed a lot of help, 6 Pentacles shows generosity, charity, others extending their hands to assist her - but she’s lucky to have that too. If not, then you may be the one that needs a lot of help, you could come off as unreliable - or things have a way of not working out for you recently - nothing is stable for you yet. You could be working to build your own future and in the meantime, Mom helps out a lot. Probably financially. Success and Riches both show a hard work ethic, a responsible and practical outlook, and inevitable success even through a struggle, she may be quick to help get you out of your own tough binds because of her experience in early years. Mom is the MVP ⭐️
Father: The Lovers rev, 8 Swords, The Magician
Oracle: Resistance 😤 - Mercury Taurus
62 Delay
Confront the natural tendency to delay the finishing of a creative endeavor.
Dad could be a late bloomer, or may have started really living his life later on in life, maybe just having kids at all later, he may be older than your average dad - compared to friends & peers. All three of his cards show Gemini energy, and Taurus is heavily described as well, that could describe him/signs. Specifically Taurus. IMMOVABLE. Stubborn. Whatever this man has decided his comfort zone is, it’s going to be that until he dies - he is not open to new ideas *whatsoever* that do not align with his way of doing things. The Magician shows he has every tool in his hand at all times, to make a change, to possibly find someone else (if your parents are split), to make his life whatever he wants it to be. Maybe even to have a relationship with you, it doesn’t say whether he does or doesn’t. But he doesn’t, he makes no effort, progress, he lives in stagnancy where things don’t change.
Why, could be reasons, they’re not shown, he could feel victimized by this separation from your mom, if that applies, or even by his own parents - if this betrayal couple is them, it could have affected him on a very deep level to the point of not really knowing how to branch out, change, be open to new ideas. Love? What works will work forever, if it ain’t broke don’t fix it, and if it’s broke, it’s their fault and I’m not fixing shit. Black/white, very narrow-minded. Whatever the connection with you, it will probably always be exactly the same, which has its’ own positives. He may sabotage his relationships with this behavior, with The Lovers rev next to 8 Swords. If he’s not open, what does he expect? Everyone else will change? If a split was recent, he may be feeling victimized by that, or if you don’t have the closest relationship with him - and he does not do a damn thing to fix it - you could be the one feeling that way.
Siblings: 10 Wands & 5 Swords rev
Oracle: Vision 👁️ - Sun Pisces
72 Nature
Go out in Nature as much as you can, for its pure creativity can teach you everything you need to know.
I chuckled. You’re not particularly close. You’re an or have strong Aquarius so, not surprising. They could have a hard time dealing with you being all hoojie boojie, into tarot cards & spiritual stuff (because you’re here obv.,) or on some level that’s switched, but not spiritual. The differences are pronounced, one is more spiritual/intuitive and the other one is not even a little. Could be more than one, same dynamic though, or they’re just focusing on one. One is a champion for animal rights (I’m looking at the bird on this 9 Pentacles with the Nature Oracle), and the other makes great money working for a corporation that dumps oil into the ocean - like, it’s very different between you. Different ideologies & belief systems. But that’s life, right? Because they’re a sibling, you feel intense pressure to get along, or they do, and you both try to keep your mouths shut about the differences and enjoy whatever time you spend together, when you do. Someone could be very hippie-like, very well could be you, it’s an Aquarian/Piscean stereotype, both are here, and what better challenge from Spirit than to put you in a family with “the man”, right? 😆 Or that can be switched, you could be more of the career-focused “this is the right way” type and they’re the ones writing poetry & saving dolphins - everyone is useful to the world in some way, yeah? All gifts are needed somewhere 🙏 Separately from that story, your own beliefs & ideology could pressure you to “forgive” them for being an asshole, or otherwise you’d be a hypocrite - it could just be saying that. Maybe you don’t get along at all, but you follow this deeply intuitive lifestyle and you stubbornly “love & light” at them even though you’d like to thump them over the head. The last story is that - if your parents fought a lot, or they fought with a parent, your sibling may have exited stage left and never really came back - they’re good on their own, and that’s the reason you’re not that close, they could also be significantly older, 5+ years. Or switch it.
Grandparents: The Empress rev & Queen of Pentacles rev
Oracle: Seduction 💋 - Jupiter Pisces
69 Precision
The desire to do things precisely is useful as long as it does not devolve into rigidity.
There’s definitely a sexual overtime with Grandma, idk who wants to hear that 🤣 I don’t get her being connected with this Queen of Cups story - she’s separate from that. You, your baby mama if you have one, or your own mother - may have had a baby unexpectedly. There is an energy of feeling “used”, as in a one night thing got them pregnant and life was forever changed. Not everyone.
Besides that, this person isn’t at all mothering, nurturing, soft - no. She’s a hardass that loves conditionally based on what you’re providing for her; whether it’s chores, expectations, good grades, you have to meet these set standards in order to “earn” - not love, not affection, but pride. She’ll tell all of her friends how great you’re doing, because your success definitely reflects on her, but your failures are your own fault - type of personality. Yeesh. That could be towards one of parents too, not even you. If it’s Mom’s parent, then it’s probably directed towards her. If it’s Dad’s parent, they don’t like Mom, or having to help her out maybe, this is a stingy, critical, very possessive and judgy sort of person. If someone isn’t great with money, they probably ride that person’s ass about it, which…could be her own kid. Everyone has a different story - if it applies. Not very warm, but at the same time, likes to be *seen* as someone who’s super kind, giving, charitable, a bit of a savior complex tbh. IF they are in fact being used, they’re aware of it and spiteful, which is totally fair, I’m not here to judge them. They could definitely use some cups in their life, probably very critical and nitpicky.
Spiritual Ancestors/Guides: 7 Swords rev & Page of Pentacles
Oracle: Ostentation - Saturn Taurus
34 Stuck
You may be stuck because you are overly attached to a method or piece.
33 Perfectionism
Be content to know perfection as a distant utopian goal to which we journey but never arrive.
The feminine that was deeply betrayed is probably passed on, but if they’re not, then they’re someone in the family that’s been deeply judged - or is the person that deeply judges others because of their experience. 7 Swords rev is a confession, laying all cards on the table, it’s saying “you know everything” about this in order to judge correctly - maybe not based on what other people say or think. This was probably someone you were very close to. If someone stayed away or separated from the family, it may have been because of feeling judged, knowing they would be. This may be saying to show a little forgiveness to someone who has made mistakes - even if you don’t reunite with them, because 3 Cups rev and 10 Cups rev both don’t show reconciliation, especially if they’re not here anymore. But you can forgive, maybe be the Devil’s Advocate for a perspective only you can see, and from a loving place you know…when someone has some snide shit to say about Grandma June, you can be like “hey, she went through xyz, you do it”, you know? It’s that vibe. There’s a grandmother and a father figure here that may have taught you some level of perfectionism and rigidity, and then there’s this other one coming in with emotion, love, forgiveness, actual nurturing. They’re saying you need more of that balance, you don’t just come from one side, and no one is necessarily “right”, just different 💙 And more importantly, you may resonate more deeply with that side of the family or that person than the others, which is why this message would come out for you. You understand “black sheep” 🐑 even if you’re not one. If you are the one that’s been deeply judged, then this has all been made very clear to you via the words and actions of others, and you’re meant to be a kind & loving individual regardless, or you have one that’s around you and supports your decisions in these cases - this is showing that these people will get their karma or Judgment, and you’re the one that determines whether you can forgive them or not, how you interact with them at all - if you do. It errs towards not, but there’s no pressure either way. Don’t feel guilty, just see things for what they are, some judgments being shown are too harsh, with all this narrow-minded stuck & judgy energy, forgiveness is shown clearly for someone - probably a sibling, who has the actual forgiveness card on their side. Or the parent you have in common even.
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sins-of-the-dragon · 7 months ago
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Catharsis: Nightmare Fading - Short DA2 Fic (Reader Comfort) 1,642 Words
This is a re-imagining of a short fic piece I wrote for BG3. It's not really a fic story as much as it is a way to cope with traumatic memories through the medium of fiction and reframing memories/reality into something less painful. It's written in second person (you/your) with a non-descript gender neutral reader character. So this is your CONTENT WARNING - There is discussion of a traumatic incident. It is vague, there are no details of anything happening besides it being an incident with one or more people involved. The premise, in short, is that the characters of Dragon Age 2 have found a way to our world through The Fade and are turning up at the moment the reader needs them most. The hurt is vague but the comfort is the focus, with a view of "what would the characters say and do in this situation".
The original piece, Catharsis: Rewriting History (based on the characters from Baldur's Gate 3) is on AO3 here and has a very similar premise and vibe to it. This one isn't on AO3 yet, I'm still deciding whether I make a pseud for my account to write more Dragon Age or if I stick to may main fandom fics for now and just post a few odd DA musings here with a minific or two. Let me know, really, if you'd like more of my DA works~
Anyway, full fic below the cut. --- ---
Catharsis: Nightmare Fading It wasn’t fair. Life never was, perhaps, that you would come to know experiences like this. Pain you wished you couldn’t imagine - in your body or your soul, you couldn’t even tell. Perhaps it was both, your entire consciousness dissolving beyond physical and emotional agony to just focus on one thing and one thing alone. Live.
The air shimmered and crackled behind you, but with everything in front of you your mind was already seeking an escape from reality. You didn’t notice a thing until there was a short and muscular man carrying an impossibly large crossbow standing in front of you. “Sorry I’m not good at this kind of thing. But I’m here, and so are the rest of them. We can talk later.” He glanced back, the soft hint of a smile crossing his features before he turned back to the source of your pain. 
You blinked, unsure of what you’d seen, when you felt strong arms scoop you up, holding you tight against a broad chest. “Sorry I’m late, it’s not easy to navigate the Fade to cross worlds.” 
“They don’t need to worry about all that right now - are they alright?” A feminine voice this time. Chancing a glance at their faces, you saw they had to be related, maybe even twins. Even the red stripe of what you hoped was makeup across the bridge of their noses matched - they really were like two versions of the same person.
A woman in heavy armour stepped past the three of you, her face kind but hardened, ginger hair tied back in a neat but loose braid falling over her shoulder. “They will be.” She addressed you directly next, voice softening. “This won’t make sense right now, but someday it will. You can trust us, and don’t let anyone tell you to turn the page before you’re ready.” The woman turned away again, gripping her sword more tightly and striding forwards. 
Before you could gain your bearings again, you felt a wave of energy wash through you. Cooling, soothing, your body felt…better than it had in a very long time. “There you are.” A new voice, light and almost musical but with the edge of a weight behind it that told you he carried burdens of his own. “I’m so sorry, I should’ve…we should’ve been here.”
“We are here, or have you taken leave of the last of your senses in the Fade?” A gruffer voice spoke up, both men coming into view now. Something about them was familiar, tugging at your heart, pulling threads of memories that had yet to form. They looked at each other with animosity, but when they turned back to you… “Venhedis… You need to leave. What comes next is not for you to witness.” The tanned man was covered in lines of white tattoos that were beginning to faintly glow blue.
“Perhaps mercy might be an option?” The one holding you spoke again, but his words spurred a simple and wordless response. You shook your head. He squeezed you just slightly in his embrace as he acknowledged your decision. “Maybe not then. They’ve made their choice.”
You almost recoiled as the sharp edges of the tattooed man’s gauntlet reached towards you, but the pained look in his eyes mirrored your own. Perhaps if roles were reversed… The metal was cold, but his touch against your cheek was surprisingly gentle. “I will be back for you, when it’s over.” With that, he turned to leave, the light emanating from his tattoos glowing even through his armour. 
“You never deserved this. Not a single moment.” The other man who had been beside the tattooed warrior bent towards you, long blonde hair almost completely veiling your vision for a moment as he kissed your forehead. “I can’t promise you peace…” His voice seemed to change, taking on a slightly different tone as a subtle lightning crackled around his eyes. “But I can promise you Justice.” 
As he turned to leave, sparks playing around his fingertips with his raised hand, the man holding you turned too. The woman with you gestured towards a shimmering hole in reality, a green tinted world beyond, and a man in white armour with vivid red hair and bright blue eyes standing beside it. “It’s time to leave.”
You leaned more against the one carrying you, his ‘twin’ staying close and occasionally putting a hand on your shoulder. Risking a glance at the strange world around you, there were two women standing nearby waiting for your arrival. “Telanadas, ma vhenan. Come, with us.” The tattoos across her face were almost as endearing as her smile as she began to lead the way.
“Maybe you should leave the navigation to someone with a better compass.” The other woman turned her by the shoulders to face another pass. “Would you two mind being a bit quicker? This place is creepy…” 
A short time later you were in an unfamiliar room, a fireplace heating the area and lighting it with a welcoming glow. It was clearly a part of some large mansion, and though you’d never seen it before, there was something about it that felt like…home. The group with you sat you down on a large plush couch near the hearth, giving you a steaming mug of something that tasted smooth and soothing. They were a strange group. By the time the others joined. They told you stories - ones that you wouldn’t remember, but each word drove back the dark shadows trying to crowd into your mind. Softened the edges of the memories already trying to claw at you every time you blinked… 
Listening to them, watching them together, it was hard to understand what brought them all to the same place, the same cause. But the pair sat either side of you seemed like the common thread…or was it you? The shorter blonde man, who kept his crossbow close even while relaxing, was the best storyteller by far - if you were to rank them. He spoke of worlds, people, things you could hardly imagine. He also had a good many jokes, humour and wit shared by several of the others in the room. It felt like you knew them, their past, present, and futures all blending in your mind but never quite clear - it was like an impressionist painting, a mosaic half faded… The other blonde talked about cats a lot. You could almost imagine him with little cat ears on his head, but every now and then his voice sounded more serious as he spoke with you. More sincere as he asked deeper questions, a little blue lightning sparking in the depths of his eyes when he tried to comfort you with talk of what was right and just. There was little justice in the reality you left, but here…here you could almost believe him when he said he would move the stars in the sky to change your world if he could. 
Despite their arguing before, the white haired man with the tattoos over his body agreed on that point alone. His support held an anger to it, a ferocity that would have scared you had it not been abundantly clear that he meant it all to be protective. Not exactly the knight in shining armour that the fairy tales spoke of, but he understood…he had seen…he was not without sympathy for your tears. Even if his solutions leaned towards the violent. 
The dark haired woman with the tattoos on her face brought you some food, things you’d never tasted before, sweet and comforting. Every time you thanked her she almost glowed at the praise, her demeanour nothing short of adorable. When she asked if she could hug you, you worried for a moment that she might never let go as her grip was so tight and warm around you. One of the other women chided her though, reminding her to let you breathe.
All of their names escaped you, as if there were a layer between you that you couldn’t quite break down, but it didn’t seem to matter. While one told you tales of a wild and exciting life at sea, another told you of her dreams to settle down peacefully with someone she loved. The red haired man with his piercing blue eyes seemed most unsure of himself, but he was clear that no matter what path you chose to walk he would support it. 
For those hours, everything melted away. Fear, pain, every darkness of the world you left was chased away by the light around you, the warmth that closed in around you like a blanket. The last thing you heard before sleep claimed you was two voices speaking almost as one person. 
“Someday you’ll be making a lot of hard decisions for us…for me… They’re too hard for me to make alone, and Maker knows I’d rather not have to choose some of them at all. But I know…I know you will guide me in the best way you know how. That you will tell my story, and my companions’ too, that none of us will be alone with you watching over us. So, until you meet us all again, that’s what we will do for you.” 
Even their faces were blurring together as one in your mind, the slight pressure of their arms around you from either side melding into the feeling of the tangled sheets and blankets of your bed as the last of their words faded into a soft echo. 
“When the shadows are dark and the nights are long, we will be your light.” “When the fear from the past comes to claim you, we will fight it.” 
“When all hope seems to be out of reach, we will help you find it.” “Better days will come. Hold on, you’re not alone.”
— --- ENDING NOTES --- --- This one goes out to everyone who can in any way relate. We can try to reframe our memories into something less painful, to bring our minds back from the edge of a spiral or flashback in whatever ways work for us. Please always remember, loves, that you have survived all of your worst days up to now. Get through one moment at a time if you need to, and things will get better again. And even whilst they are awful in the moment, Hawke was right: You're not alone.
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satohqbanana · 7 months ago
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Here's another attempt on how I will tackle AV2 characters in my story, "The Prince and the Witch", which is a slight AU sequel to the events of Ean's Quest. While the story focuses on Nicolas and an OC, but this post details the way I will handle the main party!
IMPORTANT NOTE: I'm aware that the AV universe is supposed to have a feminist and matriarchal flavor to it. However, there are still integral parts of it that make me feel like it wasn't able to completely discard some male-dominant views. Since certain gimmicks and characterizations do rely on it, here I chose to still consider that side of AV.
Ean
He's just a Regular Guy TM in the Vale. He's had a pretty average life with the simple dream of carrying on everyday with his loved ones and watching them succeed with their own things.
Sometimes, he cares too much, and that's a problem.
He's not afraid to speak his mind, call people out, and demand responsibility from others. He also regularly establishes boundaries when he can. He's willing to back off in the face of a perceived bigger threat, but tries to find loopholes to get his desired outcome.
On that note, Ean could bottle up his rage and frustrations pretty well. He can summon them again in battle and can be scary when he needs to be.
As an elf from the Vale, he probably gets Problem Sense Tingles a la Spidey Sense whenever something in the Land of Man doesn't feel right.
He's a little shy with his romantic feelings for Iya.
He is very nurturing. He tries so hard to understand his party members, but majority of his focus is on Iya.
Among the party members, Rye is his best buddy and also serves as his teacher in battle.
He lets Ava take lead sometimes, and he is very accommodating to everyone else who offers to join them in his quest.
Iya
As someone who was born with potential and raised with praises, all she wants is validation, acceptance, and assurance. She likes doing things for others, if it will make them like her.
Her memories as old Iya are still fuzzy, partly from having her soul ripped apart, partly from being treated poorly by her family.
Song magic does rely on her voice, so she developed the habit of not saying much, until her anxiety gets the better of her.
She often sticks to Ean's side and opinions since she feels the safest next to him. She acts cutesy with him to win his affections and attention. She's always had a crush on him, though prior to her kidnapping she was too focused on pleasing her family to ever act on her feelings.
Thanks to her time in Shaenlir, she has quickly mastered the diplomatic smile. She is also very mindful of rules and would not like to break them or even go around them.
She's not as fond of anyone else in the party, but she's willing to be civil since that's what Ean wants. Emma and Gavin in particular make her a bit uncomfortable.
Rye
There's a specific type of girl he hates and it's the ones who dream of rose-colored lives with rich men saving them from a life of cold, hard manual labor. (He's good with women who he considers are rough and tough, like Emma and Ava.) This is heavily influenced by local girls, especially his older sisters.
He knows he's not as smart and he's insecure about it.
He likes to talk. A lot. He needs to spend energy talking or he'll end up very annoyed and unwilling to cooperate.
As a hunter and a farmer, he is the brawn of the party. He also serves as their cook and initially carried most of their stuff.
He utterly hates Iya and her perceived vulnerability and dependence on Ean.
He thinks what he feels for Emma is something akin to romance, because he genuinely wants to support a hardworking person like her (and Ean).
He respects Ava and Gavin as established people in their respective fields, but hates and envies Nicolas for being so privileged.
Though initially wary of Jack, they vibe together so Rye is willing to overlook the whole criminal thing.
Emma
Having grown in a kingdom obsessed with romantic love, she swore to stand out and be not like other girls for real. She delights in gross and ugly things mostly to make people leave her alone.
That said, she hates being bossed around. She will use the volume of her voice and change her posture to appear bigger.
Whatever she puts her mind to, she is good at it. The only things she would avoid delving in are romantic relationships and kids.
She wasn't too fortunate as a young girl, so as an adult, she promised to always get what she wants.
She isn't romantically interested in Rye, but she thinks he's twice as better as the other available candidates for a spouse since he has similar views on romance and wouldn't be a nuisance about it.
To deal with Nicolas, she plays dumb about his requests so he'd think she's too incompetent to be bossed around.
She likes having Ean as a leader since he allows her to do whatever as long as she's done with her part of the thing. She's less enthused with Ava around since she finds Ava a bit strict for her taste.
She likes to hang with Gavin because he's cool and they have the best banter together (after Rye).
She also likes to bully Iya a bit, because she thinks Iya should grow a spine.
As an occasional thief and mischief maker, she respects Jack's hustle; even asks him for his tips and tricks.
Nicolas
His mother is his father's second wife, thus the big age gap between him and Uthar. He was essentially a rainbow baby so Guevene spoiled him a lot.
The Uthar he met is more prim and proper, a dependable guy with a knack for pranks and fun times. He looks up to his brother and considers Uthar's word as law, so Nicolas will do the dirty work if Uthar tells him so.
Hard pass if it means he has to listen to someone else, though. He will do things when he feels like doing it.
He loves to be pampered. He feels entitled to other people's service. He does not care if they like him or hate him, as long as it does not inconvenience him.
He is very untrustworthy towards people who do not look attractive or "clean" to him, like the witches. He was taught that all these kinds of people would take advantage of him.
He initially only likes Iya among the party members because she knows how to act like a proper lady. He doesn't know she doesn't exactly like him.
He initially doesn't respect Ava and doesn't believe Uthar is friends with her.
He doubts Ean's leadership, but as long as Nicolas fulfills Uthar's request of him, he will see the end of the quest.
Ava
Her real name is Evangeline Harper. She became an outlaw because she hated her origin country's government. She eventually snuck out to sea, made her own name from befriending other runaways, and established her own crew. They use seemingly derogatory codenames to appear unserious and unalarming.
Her ship is called "Freowright". She got stuck in Seri for a bit after the Snow Queen deployed soldiers in the mainland; now Ava has two ships. The other ship, built during the resistance against the Snow Queen, she's nicknamed "The Commissioner".
Ava grew on tough love and thus shows it as well to put people in place. As both a disciplinarian, the oldest, and the most experienced of the party, Ean assigned her as second-in-command.
Unlike Ean who's happy enough to have everyone help in battle or solve mysteries with him, she sees to it that everyone does their share of the work before slacking off.
Ava once wanted to settle down, but things didn't work out. Eventually she started pushing away other potential partners in fear of having to deal with heartbreak again. It doesn't help that she willingly stripped herself of her personal sense of femininity in an effort to look powerful when she was starting out.
She doesn't like to tell her personal stories to everyone, but when she does, it's a sign that the person she's telling it to has earned her trust. The only exception is Iya, who needs much guidance as an amnesiac and lost dreamer.
Gavin
As someone who grew up in a matriarchal society, he unabashedly calls women pet names the way a clique of girls do.
His upbringing doesn't prevent him from trying to actually flirt with girls. He loves women and the company of women. And it doesn't help that he's been so used to the attention of women as a warlock who grew up surrounded by them.
He is essentially a communist who's against excessive hoarding of wealth and thus abhors nobility and royalty alike. He immediately signs up to be the party's provisions manager.
Since he's a warlock, he doesn't really see "ugliness" as an insult. It's part of the charm.
Iya is among the girls he's backed away from, mostly because she and Ean hover around each other too much. Gavin's charms did at one point work on Emma, but they decided that being friends who occasionally "flirt" was way better.
He actually wasn't as romantically interested in Ava, but his witch's nature demand that he annoy her for a bit. When Gavin notices she responds quite favorably with very feminine nicknames and monikers, this interests him because it creates a contrast from the image she portrays. It's this part of her that he likes to try and bring out more.
Jack
He tries not to get too close to anyone because as a criminal, most of his bonds are very shaky and temporary.
He's quite lazy and would rather spend time having fun with friends and what money he has in his pockets.
He has a lot of comments about how to do things. Too bad a lot of them is also outdated.
He likes to get on people's nerves to see how much he could get away with. Only Rye and Emma have "passed" this test. Jack has also learned not to cross Ean too much because Ean's wrath is something else, and that Ava hates hearing her name being lengthened, but won't try to do anything against him for it.
Aside from being the party's resident menace, he also scouts ahead with Rye.
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