#i do not have object permanence
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I forgot I had a Tumblr sorry here's some art of my demisexual disaster cowboy
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internalized biphobia is crazy "Maybe I'm just faking it, I really do like guys what if I'm straight" I dated a woman for three years. that's not "faking it for attention" behavior
#as much as I hate it when people act like a bi person is either gay or straight depending on their partner#and sexuality is a switch going from gay to straight at any given moment#that is exactly how i think of my own sexuality#dating a woman?#what if I'm a lesbian I really do love this girl#oops we broke up now I have a crush on a guy what will i do if it was all a phase and I'm straight???#peekaboo thought process#no object permanence#internalized homophobia
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The body positive/plus size art has been great! But you can’t expect people to think there isn’t a discrepancy when you talk about being that, and then posting the pictures you do. You’re allowed to be average, especially now after the reduction. Super skinny people also have a different experience too. It’s just that you talk about being plus sized and people relate to that and the art and then look at pictures of you, and suddenly feel dysmorphic?
Me when I'm Average and Thin
Me when I'm so so skinny 🧡🧡🧡
#do you have object permanence. are you really this stupid. are you actually a dumbass.#do I need to call your mom to pick you up?#sergle answers#did you dumb cunts forget that the majority of my art is self portraiture.#do you know how stupid you sound when you act like there's a discrepancy between my art and my body#when my art is literally referenced off my body as the model#sometimes practically 1-1 with a photo reference I took myself?#are you really really really this stupid?
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I get a lot of people telling me Helluva Boss is gonna get better or that’s it’s all leading to some big something. If that does happen, I think we gotta understand what that means.
At this point, at least to me, the current ideology is so baked into the show that any sudden deviation would feel like a Twilight Zone-level twist. We’re talking WORLD SHATTERING!
So much time has been spent setting up a very specific toxic environment. To say it was all a ploy and in actuality the show was against these things the entire time would not only be incongruous with everything we’ve seen up to now, but it would also be just like so insulting to the audience.
It’s not a new trick. We’ve all seen some sort of media that, for instance, sexualizes a character and then says that you, the audience, are bad for sexualizing them. No my dude: YOU’RE the one that presented this to us. You can’t critique the male gaze by just giving in completely to the male gaze. We’re not children. You can’t treat us like that.
It’s lampshading but the lamp is on fire (I think that’s a song?)
Point is, you can’t just switch your narrative at the end like that. You made Blitzi and Stolas’s relationship this way. You don’t get to get out of it that easily. See your choices through 💯
#helluva boss#madeline maye#hazbin hotel#vivziepop#hazbin hotel criticism#helluva boss criticism#media#I have object permanence#you can either have the cake or steal someone else’s to eat it but you can’t also own it. wait that doesn’t make sense I’m sorry#someday I’ll make a show that would be fun cause then I can just do that and have happiness I guess hahaha ffff
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Do you picture Luke or young!Eric when you write young!Daniel? Inquiring minds are desperate to know
i do picture luke but specifically this picture.
i can’t express how much this picture has affected my psyche in the way i view them. this picture has shaped the entire dm relationship in the 70s and 80s in my mind. this pictureeeeeeee
i do know that in the 90s onward i imagine eric. the only time i’ve explicitly written the mid 80s/night island era is in my new yuri wip which is a whole different beast entirely. but honestly by then i probably imagine eric too?
#asks#writing tag#devil's minion#i feel like i still have object permanence with luke. i love him like my son however#anyway can we all look at that picture again. good god.#like for example my cinema scene in my fic was entirely based off of this picture. and me being like fuuuck i need them#to do nasty things together
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You really can’t make this shit up
#I need this man GONE!!!!!!!!!!#xbox fire him and hire me as head of xbox I don’t have the relevant qualifications but what I do have is a fucking brain#and object permanence stronger than a 3 month old baby#GO TO HELL!!!!#talking#hi fi rush
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Combing those longfic docs and going I swear I’m missing things, I remember having so much more about this part in particular, I would not have culled that—
I fucking forgot about google docs.
I must’ve started using scrivener around then and just never fucking finished putting everything in one place
Oh my god. there is so much in my gdocs. So many notes. Dozens of half done fics or fic-seeds I don’t even remember writing. I am screaming
#what the FUCK past me#time to hyperventilate while I wade through this Jesus fucking fuck#sol writes#and then FORGETS#do I laugh or do I cry oh my god#I MISS REAL COMPUTERS WITH REAL STORAGE IS ALL IM SAYING#not that I can afford a real computer anymore but like#FILES SHOULD LIVE IN MY FUCKING FILES#or APPARENTLY I lose all object permanence!!#ignore me I’m having a Moment lmfao#this is insane what the fuck me
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Why is the worldbuilding in ATLA more cohesive than in TDP?
because the writers actually remember it as a context for its story and characters.
........... ok more elaboration.
the worldbuilding in ATLA and TDP is very similar in the respect that they have color-coded elements where each "nation" has each element. in both series the color-coding exists to make each group obviously and immediately different.
in ATLA the cultures deeply matter to the characters and story. as early as the first episode you see hints about the culture of the water tribe from katara and sokka. you know sokka has put this immense pressure on himself to be a Warrior and his sexism is partially an outgrowth of that. katara is fascinated by waterbending and her culture but there are no resources for her to learn because of the war, and you immediately get the idea she's also hoisted on a "mom role" from a very early age. all of this reinforces the patriarchal standards of water tribe culture and also the fact that they're impoverished thanks to the war. the characters would not be the same if you transported them to a different setting.
like some of the dialogue can be clunky and the entire conceit of the world is obviously kiddish ("fire nation" "water tribe" "earth kingdom" "air nomads" is not going to win any realism of the year awards.) but it's a very effective introduction to these characters and ties them explicitly to the setting.
in tdp it matters fuck-all. rayla is a moonshadow elf and the effects of their honor culture are clear on her. out of all the characters i'd say her, runaan, and ethari are probably the most developed in the aspect of "the setting should inform the characters." yes runaan and ethari are shitty parents but honestly like what would you expect from an honor culture society where one party is an assassin who allowed rayla to become one thanks to her guilt complex, even when ethari expressed doubts?
this is basically thrown away to tell her "oh dw all your parents (dads + bio parents) are all Good and Did Nothing Wrong." they also scrub away all of her flaws that she exhibited in the first season, or really anything that might make her seem like a "bad person." the moonshadow elves are just scrubbed to be Vaguely Good Guys With No Problems And Whose Choice to Ghost a Teenager Must be Respected (finger wag from the writers.) this could have been genuinely compelling drama for rayla. the setup is there. but they just forget about this stuff i guess.
how about callum and ezran? how does the culture of katolis or indeed any of the human kingdoms rub off on them? does their culture actually inform anything they do? i mean besides the fact that the human kingdoms aren't magical because of dark mage lords eating magic or whatever, which, by the way, the idea of dark mage lords doing this is like. in supplementary material and there is 0 indication of it happening in the actual show. do they have a particular culture or perspective at all? does even something as simple as the fact that they are princes and might have some differences with the common people ever come up? no. they're just bland POV characters who are high-minded to a kind of absurd degree. their context is very clearly supposed to be "Normal." which isn't a context at all because nobody's context is actually Normal. it should be normal to the character, but a grave mistake for the writer to treat it as such.
with the elves it's a little better but still not great. they have at least thematic set-up but moonshadow elf culture is the best of them, which isn't saying a whole lot. what exactly is the relationship between the dragons and the elves for example? who knows!
the writers frequently forget that their characters are situated in a particular situation in a particular world. i mean my favorite example to throw around is the time one of the writers said (on twitter) that khessa's comment to janai ("have fun with your pet") was meant to be a tease about their relationship. and that's insane to me. "have fun with your pet" does not work as a cheeky little tease when you are talking about a pow who's afraid for her life and you are a cruel monarch that tortures people for funsies? like this is khessa endorsing SA if you decide to take the show's context with any level of seriousness. this isn't a coffee shop au? this isn't a high school au? this is supposed to be a high fantasy with actual stakes that addresses Deep Themes? the context to a situation that these hacks themselves wrote should matter?
etc. etc. xadia does not feel like a real place because the setting is completely disconnected from the characters, and only matters to the story insofar as "wow look at this Cool Place you will find your Macguffin in!" It's just about worse in every way even if on the surface it may appear to contain """nuance."""
#tdp#tdp critical#asks#anon#settings feel cohesive when they can't be neatly separated from the characters#when it feels like things have causes and effects.#which i understand is very hard for tdp to wrap its head around. object permanence is difficult.#anyways i'm not watching s5. so sorry to any asks that reference things in it. I simply Do Not Care#people should ask me about how great the Flash is or a hot take on Casablanca or something.
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Six Sentences Some(mon)day
Rules: post six sentences of your WIP
Tagged by: @emyn-arnens - thank you!! :D I love being tagged in these. It motivates me to keep writing my WIPs so I have something to share haha.
From Beneath a Boundless Sky:
Anyone who wasn’t a thane was hungry, and thanes still had stomachs; they too would starve if the food finally ran out. Unless one of them had some new and magical way to cure their barren fields, aid from their neighbors was their only option, and all of their close neighbors were elves. The þulir had been muttering over those fields for five years to no avail. The yield remained low every season. They said there was a sickness in it, some malice that rotted the crops or else stunted their growth. Many seiðmaðr theorized there were evil spirits devouring plants before they even had a chance to sprout.
From To Partake:
Beloved Tyelpe, I apologize that I do not have much time to communicate! But I wanted to pen you a letter and tell you all of the comings-and-goings thus far of my time here in Mithlond. Many things have happened since last we spoke. Before you worry, know that the King has been good to me. I am happy. I am even making new friends…or at least, I am finding friendly faces. So is Erestor, it seems.
No pressure tags for: @jaz-the-bard @niennawept @polutrope and anyone else who would like to share. Just say I tagged you :)
#two very different moods here haha#to partake#beneath a boundless sky#sorry that I do not often tag a bunch of people#i have zero object permanence and urls fall out of my brain#so every time I'm tagged in this I immediately forget who is writing a WIP and who isn't#but I genuinely like reading snippets so if you have something to share please do!
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#okay so now that I’m almost a year out from surgery and I kind of (?) reliably have energy/don’t get winded and nauseous going up the stairs#this upcoming year I realllllly need to focus on developing a workout routine in my apartment#and I fear that a laughably big obstacle to this is that I need my workout stuff visible#so now I should probably like. focus on making space for my stuff in the living room instead of the closet#(much like a baby I struggle with object permanence)#hmmmm okie I am going to do that now actually so I can do a workout tomorrow. I miss being able to move my body like I did in college#should I have been doing this more intentionally for months now? yes. but consider: I am a baby and it has been fatiguing just to exist#sighhhhhh I miss being able to use my brother’s home gym setup but I don’t live down the street from him anymore grrrr#my stuff#ignore me i’m just rambling#UPDATE:#I found places for most stuff (my lil stepper is just on its own next to the coffee table bc I don’t have anywhere to tuck it)#BUT! sadly I have no idea where my boxing gloves are. deeply upsetting but whatever I can shadow without them but I like the added weight#they’re probably in the attic at my parents’ house butttttt I would like them to be HERE please
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.... I am going to run out of Sharena quotes in my queue 🧍
#god DAMNIT.#i'm like halfsies on if i wanna add more or if i'm just. getting too tired tonight.#this has been SO fun like ENRICHMENT.... excuse to infodump at a moment's notice... i get to see my sweetie pees...#i would like to do it tomorrow. but. company. 🧍#idk idk.#man i should really. answer asks. too. like. i only have a few but like. i feel so bad.#i get SO excited to see stuff in my inbox but i have NO object permanence about it.#i get so excited i need time to think so i can talk and then. i just. forget. gone. already doing 1000 other things.#sad ...
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tdov was like a week ago already but I just wanna say when I came over to vacation slash help my sworn brother move flat he told me, "ever since you said you wanted to get top surgery I've been thinking about it. it's straight up number two on my bucket list"
#bakuspeech#number one is a house bc obviously. if u can own a house wouldnt u#he was very drunk at that time of the evening. I was not bc I have the constitution of a hot air balloon and any stimulant will blow me up#(relatively new development. france fucked me up big time turns out)#we held hand on his bed for like the whole evening. it was honestly very funny in hindsight but we were extremely earnest in the moment#and Im like. working on this thing as well. I dont got meds or therapy lmao Im bootstrappin here#but yeah early last year his bf offered to get me meds and I... turned it down... I think I was worried abt like. idk. something#but one year past looking back Im fully like that was a stupid move you shouldve gotten meds. youve once again fucked urself baku#but yeah with that kinda realization Ive also come to realized I've somewhat? accepted. that I'm just gonna be. like this#this in light of a number of likely chronic stuff too (hence my balloon-like constitution lmao) and#that's kinda bled into the rest of me without me really noticing#but him bringing that up fully unprompted... kinda jolted me out of it#its just. really incredibly sweet. that someone doesn't want me to settle for what I make do with#and like. preps for that work. just kinda held my hand and told me it's possible to do this actually#I didn't really express how I felt very well in that moment I think my brain is very bad and I process emotions with like a day of delay#but. well. Im thinking abt it Right Now. so yknow thats the kind of impact that had on me lol#not super sure why I wrote all this down here really. I think I just want a good n nice reminder that object permanence is real#and I exist in my friends' life even when Im going insane in a hole by myself#and with the power of friendship we can alter the universe's plan for ourselves and also kill god#that's that. anyways I eat lunch now and then pass out probably. last night was... eventful lmao#but!! very good things on the horizon hopefully. well manifestly we hold hammers and we use them#have a good day lads. let's go out and slay monsters under a highway
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New month, new budget!
I'm trying to act all ironic, boo, boring, but I actually find it so satisfying to add every single transaction to my little list. It's so orderly and pleasing.
#autistic adult#actually autistic#autism#it also helps my complete lack of object permanence#how much money do i have? idk#i also know how much money i have to save for food so i stop spending it on gay little books#although i do love a gay little book#they just have to be within budget
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I love making jokes about shitty object permanence and being forgetful but it’s also genuinely so fucking annoying
#object permanence#shitpost#the other day I accidentally left a candle burning all day because I straight up forgot I lit it#I forget what I’m doing mid task if there’s more than one in a row#I forgot!!! to put the food I prepped away from lunch!!#it’s been sitting twice as long as is considered food safe!!!#and I have cibophobia!! that’s gonna fuck me up mentally!!!!#im constantly paranoid I’m missing or forgetting something#grrrrrrrrr#I dislike this
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#pokemon#limited palette#pokemon b2w2#curtis#well it didn't feel fair if i only did yancy so#been working on and off on this for like a week so uh. it ffeels like I spent way too much time on this#also fellas I absolutely forgot that I still have other art to do like bruh do I got no object permanence with this stuff
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Shen Qingqiu at pretty much all times:
#world's most self-effacing narrator#like this isn't necessarily a low-self-esteem thing? I don't think?#he literally will just do anything to be Not Perceived#see my prev post about how reaching for a fan to hide his face is THEE very first thing he does when waking up in his new life#even BEFORE he realizes where and who he is#he haaaaates having attention on him#(which makes the fact that he's basically the center of Luo Binghe's universe a source of profound ongoing discomfort)#it's not that he thinks everyone hates him he just doesn't realize other people think of him at all#he has no sense of object permanence SPECIFICALLY regarding his own self in other people's minds#like this is the man who made 'I'll fake my death and that will surely not bother my loved ones at all!' his PLAN A
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