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The thing I love the most about Cryland: it is tragic and doomed to fail.
The thing I hate the most about Cryland: it is tragic and doomed to fail.
#dead boy dectetives#crystal palace#charles rowland#cryland#wurds#i do love angst but it hates me#girl i wanna die
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Dan/Danny/Dani 2/5
Dan raising Ellie and Danny in Central City
Due to the GIW interfering and almost killing everyone, Danielle was destabilized and Danny was almost completely ended.
Dan, who had been doing community service with Clockwork, was now saddled with his younger self who was now a baby, and his younger selfâs clone, who was now a toddler, both of whom had very little memories of before.
Due to Vlad and the GIW, being dicks, it wasnât safe for Danny or Ellie to remain in Amity while the fighting was going on. So, clockwork decided that Dan, for the rest of his parole, was going to raise both halfas in the immortal world, since staying in the infinite realms was not good for them.
Thankfully, clockwork and Tucker created a fake identity. He was now Dante times, a single father of a girl named Eleanor and a boy named Danny. Clock work even lined up a job for him as a mechanic at a shop in Central city.
He even had a slightly odd friendship with a guy named Roy, a single dad who lived in Central City due to some problems with his father, and had an adorable little girl named Lian.(Ellie and Lian were best friends from the moment they met, and both girls doted on baby Danny.)
Wally hadnât expected much when he found out Roy was living in Central city. It was a well-known fact that he had been feuding with Green Arrow for a while, and the Flash Family had agreed to let Roy hide out here. What he wasnât expecting to see was the guy who Bart had warned them all about, the guy that had taken out all the heroes, including Batman, in his nightmare future, talking to Roy over coffee while a girl who looked exactly like him play dolls with Lian. He especially wasnât expecting to see the man Bart described as a sadistic monster soothe a crying baby boy who looked almost exactly like him.
Wally got the feeling they would have to have a Flash Family meeting soon, and started debating on bringing Roy.ďżź
#dc x dp#dcxdp#de aged danny#de aged ellie#Dan is now a reluctant father#Bart has trauma#all of the flashes are worried#Roy loves his single dad friend#but he can tell something is off#The other flashes meet Dan at his job#and definitely eavesdrop on a convo with Jazz that gets wildly misinterpreted#Bart knows Dan didnât have any family in the future#Bonus points if one of the flashes eavesdrop and hear Dan crying about how he hates that he can feel Vlad#Dan means it as an âI was originally without him and I hate him but he helped make me.â#the flashes do not have that context#assumed sa#tw sa implied#misunderstandings#funny#angst
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C1E60 || C3E88
#critical role#criticalroleedit#vex'ahlia#imogen temult#laura bailey#gifs#*#*cr#*parallel#cr1#cr3#vex'ahlia cr#syldor vessar#liliana temult#r: vex x imogen#angst tag#*meta#cr meta#47m c1e60#3h12m c3e88#laura bailey said it's all about the blood of you mixed into the blood of me whether i like it or not and what does that mean#because it certainly doesn't seem to mean that you love me.#and how can i love you when you were supposed to raise me and protect me and care for me and you didn't#how can i love you when you were supposed to teach me what love is and instead you only taught me hate and loneliness#and why is there a part of me that still desperately hopes that you do love me? that you could bring yourself to love me?#and then the part that makes me go even more batshit crazy: THEY HAVE /MET/ EACH OTHER. THESE TWO WOMEN HAVE M E T#*SCREAMS FOR SEVEN THOUSAND HOURS STRAIGHT*
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i can't stop thinking about this scene.
it was so light-hearted. sheng wang was all-smiley after finishing (perhaps multiple rounds) of revising and studying. but the lively atmosphere simmers down into this thick and stifling tension once jiang tian opens his closet.
honestly, if i were sheng wang, i would have so many questions too. why is he packing? is he going somewhere? but where? so, whatever sheng wang is thinking or feeling at the moment is valid (to me, at least, it is.)
i think it has so much to do with sheng wang's expression here (liu dong qin, the actor you are) that breaks my heart into tiny, million pieces.
it's in the way his eyes follows every movement of jiang tian, but particularly directed at the opened luggage, that has me thinking of sheng wang's fear of separation. the trauma he experienced when he was just a little boy.
i can't imagine how he felt when he saw his beloved mother collapsing to the groundâat the age so little to grasp the situationâto comprehend the meaning of sadness and grief and death.
he was broken. he was devastated. but those feelings as a child were just feelings. but the adult sheng wang now understood that those feelings come with bitter memories and realisations that death is inevitable, and death is permanent. his mother won't come back to him no matter how frequently she visits him in his dreams (and wake).
his heavy breathing. his fixated stare. that feeling of abandonment is washing over him again. they're coming in slow, steady and destructive.
so when jiang tian approaches him with the said book that has more extensive questions, he still can't look away. not until jiang tian realises that sheng wang's attention is now elsewhere.
and he finally asks,
i personally adore how benjamin acted this scene out. jiang tian immediately glances over at the luggage, somehow already knowing the context/direction of this conversation. (it's in the subtlety of benjamin's acting here that has me going nuts.)
when sheng wang asks this question, it reminds me of this scene in episode 1,
jiang tian was looming in front of sheng wang's house, wondering if he should stay or leave. possibly his only destination would be uncle ding's house. maybe he has nowhere to go, to be honest.
sheng wang immediately called him, voicing out his thoughts. and the context is similarâare you leaving?
although jiang tian answers sheng wang's question, not leaving him hanging the way he did in episode 1, it's still not enough. the reason being, as of right now, we're knowledgable of sheng wang's past. but what about jiang tian? we know nothing about him. we just know this boy is closed off and distant and cold and grumpy. but why?
these questions are the answers. but sheng wang doesn't know. not yet.
they could have just dropped the conversation here. but this is one of (the many) things i notice about sheng wang: he's always curious. always seeking answers. even in his studies, he would ask crab (i love you, friend) for the solution. and we saw some instances where jiang tian would share the method he used, etc, only to help him. and i think it's being presented at a different light here. sheng wang is waiting. he's waiting for jiang tian to give him answers.
as jiang tian says it's a habit, it might not be the answer sheng wang wanted, but it was needed, at least, only for the night.
it's so overwhelming to me how jiang tian has always been providing sheng wang with safety, happiness, anger, irritation, fun, answers and questions. how susceptible sheng wang is with everything jiang tian is. they are like mirrors reflecting one another. because for me, jiang tian is like a closed book, but i could understand him once i start reading. but sheng wang, he's more layered. he's open but also secretive. he expresses emotions, but not everyone reciprocates and understands him. not until jiang tian.
and i'm no longer sane in the head because of this.
#maybe you can tell... i'm not doing ok#and my way of coping with this tianwang brain rot is to think about them more#i should touch grass#i love them so much to the point of hating them#beecause they're such nuanced characters and why do they remind me of my 15 to 17-year-old self?#we might experience different things but the feeling is the same#the sense of not belonging anywhere#and everything in between#'the teenage angst' as some might call it#jiang tian and sheng wang are the embodiment of that#the on1y one#the on1y one series#the on1y one the series#jiang tian#sheng wang#tianwang#jiang tian x sheng wang#the brain rot is real and strong#na discusses
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guys i love them i promise i just have the urge to put them through the grinder sometimes
umm on the bright side here's the alternate good ending version lol!!!!!
#haiii ^_^#i didnt know whether to make a seperate post for the good ending one but it wouldve been weird so im just adding it onto here lol#op#one piece#sanji#usopp#god usopp#black leg sanji#vinsmoke sanji#sanuso#usosan#tw blood#tw injury#angst#comic#my art#mintart#ok originally i was gonna use every color but red for the first two pages and only make the butterfly red then make the last page red too#cuz yaaayyy symbolism whatever cringe and then i scrapped it cuz i love working with pink and i was nawt about to figure out#a whole new colour palette during finals week. also i have 5 minutes before class so im speed typing this LOL#anygays thanks lars for the usopp dies brainrot i HATE YOU#he's partly responsible for this actually#i hate how the colours of the last page turned out uurgghghhh im not fixing it tho bye#i like the rest of it tho >_<#i love writing dialogue but silent comics r pretty fun too#ive been doing a couple of those lately and theyve been helping me with gesture and expression practice#lol i love drawing sanji pathetic and in love#i love drawing usopp in general he's my favorite to draw ever im so glad he exists#JUST NOTICED THE LESBIAN COLOUR PALETTE UHHH NOT INTENTIONAL or maybe it could be yuri who knows. they r so very gender#i will draw sanuso yuri soon tho TRUST!!!!!!!!!
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Tempted to write a replaced au twst fic where Yuu (or alternatively, I'll use my Yuu, Riyuu, who is basically who I'm writing this for) used to be the cutest girl around, the cheery one who's always around everyone, the one you can't seem to dislike even if your crush falls for her because she earnestly says sorry (even though it's not her fault) and will always help you out if you need her back in her old school. But one day, a new girl comes around and her whole reputation got destroyed. She helps the new girl adjust, tells her all the rumours and introduces her to all the popular kids. But the girl ends up backstabbing her, telling the popular girls rumours about how she intentionally plays up the act to steal their crushes to her, and lies to the boys, telling them she's just playing with their hearts and that she's a horrible person.
Yuu ends up alone and excluded, being seen as "annoying" and only having a few close friends who doesn't really interact with her in public in fear of their reputation being ruined. She ends up miserable at school, and wishes to not go anymore. But one day comes a saving grace, she gets whisked by a mysterious black carriage into Twisted Wonderland, or more specifically, Night Raven College. She doesn't mind working if it meant she doesn't have to deal with her old school, there was still 1 and a half years left of school and she doesn't want to deal with all ghe group projects to be assigned that will inevitably end with everyone not wanting to team up with her. Plus, as annoying Grim is, he's like the animal friend all of the anime and storybook protagonists she knows has, and she doesn't mind him too much.
Some things did change after she and Grim got officially enrolled, but she had no problem adapting to the social expectations of the world, part time jobs with Sam -- and occasionally the canteen -- paid enough to get her tools for cooking basic but delicious food, and new friends without the weight of her past helped her get settled comfortably.
The existence of Overblots stunned her for a bit, but a peek into Riddle and Leona's memories helped her understand the concept, even if just a little. However, things began to change eerily simlarly to her old school when a new girl comes, also in a similar position to her, getting transported to a new, unfamilliar world, and seemingly hailing from a similar world to the Earth she knows. She warmly welcomes her, eager to finally befriend another girl, but it seems that the girl does not share the same enthusiasm.
The girl only barely responds to Yuu's attempts at forming a friendship, and always seems to talk her in a condescending way, and often dismisses her, and especially so whenever there are any boys around.
Yuu will not deny any statements claiming she's an attention seeker or that she plays up her sweet innocent girl act, but she knows to never, ever sacrifice a bystander for it. But if someone insists on war with her... well that's another, different story. She's learnt her lesson of being overly optimistic, and she will not make the same mistake twice. She will not let her make her life a living hell more than it already is with Crowley's irresponsibleness.
Aaand thus begins the story. Or well, however you wanna continue it. I'm honestly in favour of most Housewardens (Kalim, Vil, and Idia in particular. I'll put my reasoning in a few paragraphs down) Adeuce, Tweels, and Ortho for team Yuu. Why?
Well, first of all, Adeuce. This is mostly because the duo is like. with Yuu since Day 1, as much of a bitch as Ace is, I think those two are the most likely to trust and know Yuu well enough to not believe the lies R (< Replacer) tells. Especially Deuce, he doesn't want to betray a friend he knew for quite a while, that would not be very honor student-like of him!! And she helped him out in a lot of situations too! He doesn't want to hurt you after all the trouble you go through to help him, and also knowing how horrible your living conditions are. Ace would most likely give in to peer pressure if the student body is overwhelmingly in favour of R, but as of now, he maybe enjoys your company just a bit more than R. Just a bit, promise.
Tweels I feel like is self-explanatory. Those two are perceptive as fuck istg it scares me. Jade especially. I feel like the two would just toy with R for a bit despite her facade and lies before dropping her after she bothers them for attention and favours one too many times.
(Ortho ties in with Idia so I'll explain him in Idia's paragraph)
Kalim is actually very emotionally intelligent. He can come off annoying and stupid, but from all the scenes I see of him, he's actually really good at dealing with people. Have you seen how he deals with the Scarabia residents after Jamil's OB??? The way he phrases his sentences?? He didn't force or even plead with them to forgive Jamil, he simply asks them to wait before making permanent judgements, and I think he's gonna be uncomfy with how condescendingly R talks to Yuu, and even if he's used to people going after him for money, I feel like R mostly eyeing him for money and how she "secretly" sighs in annoyance everytime she goes out of the party for a "bathroom break" will only solidify his dislike/discomfort, even if he doesn't show it.
Vil is also kind of self-explanatory if you read into his character and not just the shell the official English localization makes for him. (I could rant for hours about how the official tl portrays his character istg. He's hardworking and he actually didn't attempt to poison Neige out of pure jealousy, he did it because he felt like all his efforts to be beautiful will never be able to surpass Neige, who, in his eyes, always seemed to be innocent and naturally beautiful. He feels like the villain in Neige's story. He feels like he is reduced to what he often plays as, a snobbish, overconfident villain obsessed with overthrowing the hero. And because of it, it became a twisted self-fulfilling prophecy, pushing him to, in a fit of despair, be that same villain everyone sees him as.) I really don't think he will take well to R's condescension to Yuu, who genuinely wants to befriend R. (I actually have a whole thing in my head where Yuu and Vil occasionally have sleepovers where they do skincare together after the whole VDC thing happened. I feel like this is also a "vent sesh" of sorts for the both of them, just to air out their grievances without much seriousness, and I think Yuu would admit to wanting a fellow girl in the school that she could befriend, since no matter what, being the only girl can be exhausting.) Ik Vil's not a girl but he is such a girls' girl istg.
Idia... this mostly ties into Ortho and The STYX Incident, but like,, I think we can all agree on this one,, Idia is smart and capital V Very pessimistic. Would you rather trust the girl you've known for a while, who saw your memories, who helped you in awkward social situations when she can and is besties with your brother or some random new girl who trash talks said girl behind her back? The former, right? Plus, even if Yuu did only hang out with him and his brother because she likes to secretly laugh at him behind his back, there's mo guarantee R wouldn't do the same, given his experience. And he would rather have someone who actively helps him and his brother out than someone who wouldn't.
I didn't put Malleus in because of how canon him actually treats Yuu. I feel like the fandom kind of put on rose-tinted glasses on with his character, and kind of ignored some things like, idk... him just leaving them to fend for themselves homeless during Octavinelle... maybe he thought Crowley would offer them a place to stay but like... I'm still bothered by how didn't atleast offer a spare room in Diasomnia. He's a housewarden goddamnit. He's not as distant or scary as the rumours say but like. still rubbed me the wrong way.
Anyways I don't think my attention span will let me write it to completion so if anyone likes this and wants to write it feel free. Pls tag me if you do tho. I would love to read it :3
#was listening to all eyes on me while writing this btw#You can also insert an Obey Me crossover with Replaced AU on that end that also ended horribly#âFirst' the worst; maybe third's the charm!â#I don't play Obey Me though so I can't rlly construct the narrative for that one#Also I don't hate Malleus nor Malleyuu I swear#I just think we're a bit biased with his actions sometimes...#Anyways if anyone wants to just ditch the school for RSA#Valid. You're 100% valid#I just got attached to Adeuce Kalim and Vil lol#I would just run to RSA if I ever get the chance tho#Fuck Crowley noone likes Crowley đđ#twisted wonderland#twst#Do I tag twst x reader???#fuck it why not it's literally based on an entire angst au anyways#twst x reader#twisted wonderland x reader#replaced au#twst replaced au#twisted wonderland replaced au#okay enough tags I'm tired#I'm not gonna tag the specific characters mentioned#I'm too tired and I don't wanna :3#Also R is used for Replacer for this entire thing sorry#I haven't played twst for a long; looooong while but I like some of the boys too much to let go [sigh]#Also just bc it's fun to think about#Waiting for Limbus or HSR to get updated so take some twst brainrot in the meantime#I love Villainess manhwas#Ofc I would love Replaced AUs
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I'm gonna be shitting and screaming and starting fights if Sera becomes a villain. I can't take sibling angst, Sera loves Emily I swear guys believe meeee.
#im making a fanfic of two and a half halos and the mc is Emily and it focuses alot on her and sera's dynamic#ill probablg send it here when im done. in 100 years because i havent finished a fic in 20 centuries#hazbin hotel sera#seraphim#hazbin sera#emily hazbin hotel#hazbin emily#hazbin hotel emily#emily seraphim#hazbin hotel#PLEASE DONT MENTION HAND PLACEMENF PLEASE /S#I WAS DRAWINF THIS AT 3 AM AND I KEPT BLACKINF OUT BUT I KNEW ID LOSE MOTIVATION IF I DIDNT FINISH#I DIDNT NOTICE UNTIL I WAS DONE SO PLS JST- IDK. JST LOOK AT MY BABIES#i headcanon Sera as trans. for pride month i have the idea of putting every ship and character under their pride flags#sooo sera is gonna be covered with a trans flag and emily... also trans becauze everyone is trans becauze o said so#charlie is ALSO trans because i said so#i came up wit trans sera on my own(idk if it existed be4 but i jst thot of it and got all happy cuz she is so trans idc) but#i freaking love trans emoly and trans charlie so for a bit i felt wrong for hc so many characters as trans#rhen i woke up one day and was loke. yeah idgaf they all trans cuz theres not enoigh#like im not gonna ALAAYS depict them as trans except sera(she is 100% trans to me) i like the other hcs for fun. im so srs for sera i đ her#sera just wants to hug her huggable sister sometimes and thats ok! đđ#art#fanart#artists on tumblr#digital art#*in stupid egg boy voice* i wish Sera would hold ME in her arms... đ#gave them snouts because i cannot deal with the no noses. it genuinely disturbs me. have yall SEEN velvettes side profile omfg đ¨#my babies... i just want them to be happy. why must there be sibling angst... they jst want to do whats right âšď¸#im gonna fight to protect Sera from spme of yall fr fr cuz she do not deserve to be SO hated. JST. JST GET TO KNO HER I SWEAR SHE COOL#like i get it. what she doin is wrong. but if you was in her shoes you know you would do the same dont even lieeee đ¨
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"Todd? Are you up?"
"Neil?" Todd replied into the darkness of the room. "Are you okay?"
"Just thinking," Neil said softly. "You write good poetry, you know."
Todd smiled, glad that Neil couldn't see him. "It's nothing special..."
"Oh but it is!" Neil exclaimed, earning a few groaning boys from down the hall. "Your poetry is amazing. Spectacular, even. I want you to write for me one day."
Todd was confused. "What?" he gave an awkward chuckle.
"I want to perform your work," Neil said as if it were obvious. "You're going to be famous and I want to be the first one to read your poetry on stage."
"Actually?" Todd asked. His chest felt tight, like it was swelling up. "You mean that?"
Neil smiled, rolling his head to face Todd. "Of course."
#if their beds were closer then they would have been holding hands the whole time#no angst this time so you guys cant hate me yet#do you guys prefer fluff like this for anderperry or angst? just wanna know#this was gonna end in angst but i stopped myself#the next anderperry one will be angst :] love you guys#anderperry#todd anderson#neil perry#todd x neil#todd and neil#neil x todd#neil and todd#dead poets society#dead poets fandom#dps fandom#dps
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If I may request a Rise fic!! Iâm a huge sucker for comfort/cheer up tickles, so could you possibly write a disaster twins fic with Lee Leo and Ler Donnie where Leoâs been having a pretty bad day (because of what is your choice!) and ends up feeling self conscious about himself and stuff, so Donnie decides to cheer up his twin!! Please donât feel rushed and make sure youâre taking care of yourself ^_^
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âI canât believe youâre doing this to me again.â Leo grumbled under his breath as he rested his mouth on his palm, glancing away from his brother as he sighed loudly.Â
âWell maybe if you werenât so fucking reckless I wouldnât need to.â Donnie growled lowly, glaring down at his twin.
âIâm not a baby, Don. I donât need to be supervised like Iâm some bomb triggered to explode.â The younger said in exasperation, lying down on his bed whilst grabbing a comic book to read off of his desk.
If Leo was going to be told off and scolded by his dear beloved brow-loving brother, he should at least have something to occupy himself with in the meanwhile.Â
The softshell groaned eternally at his little brotherâs action, quickly snatching the piece of literature out of the otherâs hands and throwing it effortlessly to the ground.Â
Uninterested lime green eyes locked with a determined yet fierce light golden, both of them refusing to look away or blink to show their dominance.
But after a while, the red eared slider grew more impatient, looking away again as he picked a hangnail on his thumb, âIf youâre going to yell at me, can you just get it over with? I saw a reddit post predicting whatâs going to happen in The Umbrella Academy season four and I need to read it.âÂ
âYou can read that later, Nardo. I promise you, that reddit post isnât going to fly away.â The elder said as he pinched the bridge of his snout, âWhat I need you to do right now is acknowledge what you did today was stupid, alright?âÂ
Leo looked away from his older brother, scoffing lightly, âI do stupid things all the time. What stupid action of mine are you wanting to scream at me for this time?âÂ
The softshell turtle took a couple deep breaths at that comment, drumming his fingers on his left arm in a soothing motion because he was NOT going to give into the urge of strangling his twin brotherâŚ
âŚNo matter how much he deserved it.
âIâm not planning on screaming at youâ that wonât help anyone or anything.â The purple banded turtle explained calmlyâŚbut you could see and tell he was starting to lose his paitence.Â
âBut you want to.â The red eared slider pressed on.Â
âLeoâŚplease. I donât want to argue right now.âÂ
âWeâre not arguing. Weâre just kindly discussing my oh-so stupid descision that unfolded earlier today, right?â The younger twin smirked smugly, his eyes locking once again with his brother.Â
When it came to arguments, the leader in blue always had this wonderful tactic to avoiding things: attempting to annoy the other person so much that they drop the subject they wanted to discuss with him completely.
It always worked with RaphâŚwhich the red eared slider didnât know whether that was a good thing or a bad thing.
But the only downside of doing this tactic was his dumb twin saw right through itâŚ
âŚAnd Leonardo despised it.Â
âNardoâŚyou know what Iâm referring to. And stop picking, please. Your going to hurt yourself.â The older attempted to say in a tranquil voice, but it personally just sounded like he was one second away from losing. his. shell.
âI sadly do not know what your referring to.â The blue cladded teen said coyly, picking on his hangnail more desperately now, âCare to enlighten me, Tello?âÂ
Donnieâs expression hardened ever so slightly at his younger brotherâs absolute persistence on annoying him out of his right mind so he could eventually drop the subjectâŚbut the softshell turtle was not budging.
His twin would have to try way harder than that.
âIâd love to.â The light golden eyed mutant said in a fake sweet tone as he walked over to lean his shell on Leoâs closed door, crossing his arms in disaproval. The elder grabbed his brotherâs sword, planting it right next to his foot so the blue banded turtle couldnât reach for it.Â
The red eared sliderâs cocky grin turned to a small grimace (shake) as he soon came to terms with what his older brother was doingâŚ
âŚHe physically could not leave from this conversationâŚliterally.
Leonardo crossed his arms, trying to mimick the otherâs serious demeanor but was only met with an icy glare in return.Â
âWhat you did during todayâs mission was completley reckless and idiotic, LeonardoâŚand you know it.â The second oldest said, âI had that thug exactly where I wanted him but noooooo. Because you saw me trip you thought it would be a spectacular idea to throw yourself on top of me as that hooligan tried to hit me with his bat!!â Donatello seethed.Â
âWeâve been over this multiple times, Leo! There was no reason for you to do that!â The light golden eyed teen yelled, his glare only hardening more as he saw the younger stuttering over his words to try to defend himself.
âIâm not done.â The taller teen growled, all of his calmness and collectiveness thrown completley out of the window.
The slider slightly flinched (which went un-noticed by the other) at his brotherâs genuine angry tone, his left leg fidgeting and bouncing up and down like crazy.Â
His tactic was really starting to not work in his favour at allâŚ
âJustâŚstop putting yourself in the middle of danger like youâre just expecting the rest of us to just watch. Weâre your familyâŚand most importantly, we can defend ourselves just fine.âÂ
âWell ihisnât that hypocritic!â Leonardo scoffed before creasing his eye ridges together in genuine confusion, mumbling to himself, âHypâŚuhâŚhypocrotic? HypâŚHypocraticâŚ?âÂ
âHypocritical?â The older deadpanned.
âYES! THAT WORD!â Leo said, âWhen we were fighting Kraang Prime on the ship and he went to take a blow at MikeyâŚwhat did you do?â
Donatello scowled, his eyes not leaving his twin, ââŚI went in front of him and shielded him with my mystic tech.â
âExactly.â The lime green eyed mutant scoffed, âAnd how is that any different from what I did, hm?â
âBECAUSE I HAD A PLAN!!!â Donatello shouted, âI planned to accordingly go in front of Mikey so my sheild could protect both him and me. Did it end up turning out perfect? Fuck no. Kraang Prime slashed right through it and me and Mikey went tumbling towards the groundâŚâ The glasses wielding teen said through clenched teeth.Â
The light golden eyed teen rubbed his face tiredly, his hands clenching and unclenching in frustration, âBut I had a plan. You on the other hand, just zoomed recklessly on top of me and hoped for the best.â
ââŚI saved you, didnât IâŚ?â The younger twin mumbled out meekly, causing Donatelloâs blood to absolutley boil.Â
âThatâs not the point!!!â The elder said as he clenched his hands at his sides again.
âThen what is?!â Leo said desperately, âBecause from the looks of it, it just seems like you want to yell at me for just doing my job.âÂ
Leonardo pulled on his mask tails anxiously, trying to calm himself down but ultimately just making himself feel worse by doing the action, âIâve been trying to be a better leaderââ
âLeoââ
ââFor you and Mikey and April and Raph and Casey and C.J. a-and Dad! But it seems like no matter what the hell I do thereâs always something Iâm doing WRONG!!!â The younger twin shouted, blinking back tears as he glared at the ground as if it took his Jupiter Jim comic.
WhichâŚit did. The blue banded mutant wanted it back now, actuallyâŚ
âI saved you! I-I didnât even get hurt by doing it but somehow thereâs an issueâŚâ The lime green eyed teen murmured, both of his legs bouncing up and down as he tugged on his mask tails harder, âThere always isâŚâ
âLeonardo can you please just listen to me?â The older twin said in irritation.Â
âBut Don Iâmââ
âNo, Leo! Just listen! Thatâs all you need to do!â Donnie snapped as he cut his brother off, âI donât want you leaping head first into harms way! At all! Especially if you donât have a plan!â The softshell turtle exclaimed as he flapped his hands against the side of his thighs, but his eye contanct remaining on his little brother.
âOho so now you donât trust me well enough to know that I can handle myself in combat?â Leo said in a last desperate attempt to make his brother drop the conversation.
âIâŚâ The young scientistâs eye twitched, his eyebrows creasing together as he had to physically restrain himself to not beat the ever living crap out of the other teen, âTHIS IS NOT ABOUT TRUST, NARDO!â The light golden eyed mutant screamed desperately, his hands flapping faster as the red eared slider shrunk at his usage of tone, âThis is about you not even thinking about what would happen to yourself when you do reckless nonsense like this.â
Leo glanced to the side, his eyes watering as he bit the inside of his cheek.
He just wanted to help and be the leader his brotherâs deservedâŚ
But he always found a way to fuck it up without even noticing, huh?
"You don't think about what could happen to you and I hate it!â The elder cried, âWhat wouldâve happened if Raph didnât come behind the guy and knocked him out cold at the last second, huh?! Would you have just stayed right on me as he continued to beat you with his bat?!â
Leonardo bit the inside of his cheek harder, his legs bouncing up and down more as his fingernails dug unforgivingly into his arms, âI-Iâm sorry, Donnieââ
âOr would you have tried to fight him instead?! Mind you, you dropped your sword before coming to me so youâd have no weapon to defend yourself.âÂ
âYou don't think about how much it scares me when you do dumb shit like that! I hate seeing you get hurtâŚI freaking loathe it.â Donnie rested the back of his head on Leoâs door, taking a couple deep breaths and hugging himself in an attempt to calm himself down.
JeezâŚwhen the hell had he started yelling? His throat stung like a bitch nowâŚ
And when had he started shaking like a bobby head?!
The older twinâs expression softened, pinching the bridge of his snout once more, âI care about youâŚso fucking much, okayâŚ?â The purple banded turtle said gently as he gradually started to simmer down and become more calm, âYour my twinâŚmy little brother. And I hate to be repetitive but I-I just despise seeing you hurtâŚphysically or emotionallyâŚso please justâŚâ
The young scientistâs eyes widened, peering down at his brother who did not seem to be followingâŚat all.Â
Leoâs eyes were wide as saucers as he hit his arm with his fist repeatedly whilst obviously trying to suck in whatever tears dared to try and escape.Â
The taller turtle basically ran to his distressed twin, trying to stop him from harming himself any further but was only met with a low grunt.
Shit.
Shit. Shit. Fucking shit.Â
Wonderful job, Donatello! You yelled at your brother so much he shut down!
Even though you knew he canât fucking stand being yelled at and the whole point of you even being here was to explain what he did wrong collectively and calmly because that was the exact oppositeof what Raph does when heâs worriedâŚ
But no! You yelled at him anyway.
Wonderful job, DonatelloâŚwonderful. job.Â
The older twin sighed sadly, gently grabbing his brotherâs wrists so he would stop hitting himself. The two brotherâs shared eye contact once again, an unsure lime green meeting an understanding yet uncertain light golden.
âNardoâŚâ The softshell started, squeezing the otherâs hands gently, ââŚAre you with me, budâŚ?â
Leo just nodded quietly, squeezing back.Â
âGodâŚNardo Iâm so sorryâŚâ The older muttered, âI donâtâŚI donât know why the hell I lost my cool like that. I-Iâm sorry I yelled. I shouldnât of yelledâŚI-I justâŚâ Donatello sighed, squeezing his brotherâs hands once again. âIâm not angry with you. IâŚI was just frustrated.â
âWell, noâŚlet me rephrase: I am angry with youâ livid even. You know damn well enough that when you do those kinds of things my heart literally jumps out of my shell. I need you to put into consideration that I would like to live to at least seventy-sevenâŚâ
The younger twin giggled wetly, fidgeting with his brotherâs fingers as he spoke, ââŚWhy seventy-seven?â
âAlbert Einstein died when he was seventy-sixâŚI can and will outlive him.â The light golden eyed teen said matter-of-factly, âBut back to what I was initially sayingâŚI know you meant well. You saw that I was in troubleâŚand you dropped literally everything in order to help me get out of said trouble. You donât think of what happens to youâŚyou just do it because youâll know if you do weâll be alrightâŚâ
âI-I justâŚI just wanted to protect youâŚI-I just wanted to helpâŚâ Leo tried to explain.
âI know. I know, LeeâŚâ Donatello sighed, rubbing the sliderâs knuckles gently with his thumb, âBut you need to understand that with you trying to protect us that way, your putting us in the same situation your trying to keep us away from.â The elder explained lightly, smiling softly as him and his twinâs foreheadâs touched.Â
âYouâre getting hurtâ or at the very least almost getting hurt. Weâre feeling the same anguish and guilt you would feel if any of us did that. I get that you want to be a good leader and shitâŚbut you can lead well without doing thatâŚokay?âÂ
Leo fiddled with the otherâs fingers a bit more, his bouncing leg starting to calm a bit, âIâllâŚtry to be more careful when it comes to me protecting you guys like that. When I see you all in troubleâŚI justâŚreact. I donât really care about what happens to me as long as you guys end up okay. ButâŚIâll try to be more careful. And if I ever end up, like, being a bit too recklessâŚyou can just tell meâŚdeal?â
âDeal.â Donnie nodded, squeezing Leoâs hands one last time before letting go, wiping his twinâs eyes with his hoodie sleeve, âNow please stop crying or youâre going to make me start crying.âÂ
Leo snorted, examining the otherâs now tearing up expression, âI think itâs a bit too late for thatâŚâÂ
âGAH! FUHUCK!â Donnie cursed, wiping his own eyes as the slider laughed loudly at his exclamation.
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âLeoâŚdonât you think youâre getting a bit too big for thisâŚ?â Donatello grumbled as Leonardo was on his lap, getting all nice and comfy as he rested his chin on the olderâs shoulder. âNoooope.â Leo drawed out, making a dramatic popping noise at the end of the 'p', â'Sides, this is what you get for making me emo earlier.â
ââŚI said I was sorryâŚI didnât mean to shout at you like that. I was just concernedâŚâÂ
âI know that, you worrywart. I was just kidding.â The lime green eyed teen said lovingly, squishing his brother into a tighter embrace. The older let out a short shriek at the hug but of course didnât mind the other being so clingy.Â
If the young scientist really and truly did mind? Leo wouldâve been pushed to the floor by now.Â
The two twins shared a comfortable silenceâŚwellâŚa semi-comfortable silence.
The purple banded teen feltâŚoff. His younger brother had thisâŚlook in his eyes; like he wanted to say something but was afraid of what Donnie would say or how Donnie would react.
Which was so damn dumb Donatello didnât even know how to explain it.
ââŚThereâs something else on your mind.â The taller turtle hummed, his suspicions only rising as the other glanced to the side. âUhmâŚno there isnât. See? This is why I call you a worrywart.â Leonardo said, tapping his fingers on his thigh nervously.Â
Very convincing LeoâŚvery convincing.
âDonât even try lying to me, Leon. My older brother and twin senses are tingling. You canât argue against that kind of logic.â The scientist said matter-of-factly.Â
âWhat are you, Spiderman?â The younger snorted.Â
âWe shall never know.â The older shrugged, a small smile spreading to his face as he saw the other snort softly at his statement, âNow stop deflecting. Spill.âÂ
ââŚCan youâŚadjust my elbow bracesâŚ?â The red eared slider muttered.
ââŚWhy canât you do it?â The other questioned. Not in a malicious way; he was just genuinely curious.Â
âI like it when you do it. You make it more firm, y'know?â The blue banded turtle whined dramatically, âPleeeeeease?â
âUgh, Jesusâ fine. But drop the poutâŚyou look ridiculous.â The taller mutant sighed, lightly grabbing his brotherâs arm as he readjusted the braces.Â
The purple banded turtle meticulously took off the otherâs left arm brace, tracing his twinâs elbow to make sure it was healing correctlyâ which the slider couldnât help but wriggle slightly to.
As the older twin put the brace back on, he looked at the other turtle in complete worry, ââŚWhy are you squirming around so much?â Donatello asked in confusion.Â
ââŚNo reason.â Leonardo stated, but let out a tiny squeak as Donnie lightly pinched his forearm.Â
âYohou okayâŚ?â The glasses wielding mutant giggled. Â
âI-Iâm fihine!â The smaller turtle insisted, covering his mouth as he let out a loud shriek in result to his brother now lightly scribbling his forearm. âEEEEE! P-Plehease moohoove yohour hahahand!!â The younger sputtered out, hiding his face in the crook of the scientistâs neck which the older turtle couldnât help but let his heart melt to.
âOh.â Donatello hummed, biting back an amused laugh, âSorry. Sometimes I forget how ticklish you areâŚâ
âSnrt I-Ihihiâm nahat ticklish. I juhust donât wahant your hand thehereâŚâÂ
And isnât that quaint.Â
If Donnie had a penny for every time Leo said he 'wasnât ticklish', the softshell would be richer than Elon Musk.
ââŚRight. SoâŚyou wouldnât mind me doing this then?â The young genius mused as he scribbled one hand over his twinâs ribs. âEEEEHEH! Duhuhude noHOH!! F-Fuhuck yohou!â The younger twin managed through his small giggles, pushing on his brotherâs plastron to try and escape while he still could.
The elder laughed fondly at his little brotherâs futile actions, hugging him closer as he lightly tickled him, âNahardo! My brohohother in Christ gehet back here or youâre gohoing to fahall off of the bed!
âN-NOHO!! LEHET ME GO!â The lime green eyed teen screeched loudly, kicking his legs and pushing even harder on the otherâs plastron, his eyeâs widening in panic as his older brother casually lifted him up and pinned his arms above his head, his plastron now facing up on the bed.
Eugh boyâŚ
Donnie grinned, sitting on the otherâs thighs as he wiggled his unoccupied fingers in the air near the sliderâs side, âThatâs better~!â
âWAHAIT WAHAHAIT snrt PLEHEASE DEEHEE!!â The red eared slider cried, kicking his legs from underneath the scientist.
If he was going to go downâŚhe would at least go down fighting.Â
âI havenât even touched you yet, you goofâŚâ The older twin chuckled.Â
âB-BUHUT YOHOUR GOHOHONNA!âÂ
â'Gonna' what, exactly?â
âTihiHICKLE ME!!âÂ
âTickle you? Well, why didnât you just say so in the first place?â Donatello snickered, using his free hand to skitter his fingers along the crookâs of the youngerâs neck.Â
The blue banded turtle squealed, shaking his head back in forth whilst scrunching his shoulders, âGAHahaâ snrt EEEEHEEHEH oho cohome snrt OHAHAN!!âÂ
âWhatâs wrong, Leo? I thought you said you werenât ticklish~?â The older teased.
âSnrt STHDHAHAH! Shuhut UP! IHIâM naHAT!â The younger shouted, tugging and pulling his arms to try and get his handâs free from the otherâs grasp. Donnie just laughed softly at the action, wiggling his fingers above his little brotherâs stomach.Â
The lime green eyed teenâs eyes widened in panic, thrashing in the hold to try and loosen his brotherâs grip but the purple banded turtle did not budge even a smidge.Â
Leoâs laughs became more giddy and loud as he continued to squirm, small squeals and snorts escaping his beak as his twin brotherâs hand went sloooooowly to his stomach.Â
âN-NOHO NONONONO DAHAâ snrt DOHON!!â The smaller turtle snorted, hiding his face in the side of his arm which Donnie couldnât help but giggle to.Â
The light golden eyed mutant rested his hand on the sliderâs plastron, making the younger turtleâs laugh raise almost a thousand octaves.Â
âDOHONâT snrt DOHONâT DOHOHONâT snrt YOU DARE!! YOHOUR SOHO MEEHEEHEEAN!!â Leonardo whined, hiding deeper into his arm and becoming a giggly flustered mess.
The older twin shook his head fondly at his little brotherâs embarrassed state, taking the opportunity to tickle the youngerâs stomach while he wasnât looking.Â
Leo let out a loud scream, descending into high-pitched cackles as even louder snorts followed, âHAHAHAHELP!! IHIâM SNRT BEEHEEING SLAHAHAUTERED!!âÂ
âIâm quite literally only using one hand, Nardo. Stop being dramatic.â The light golden eyed teen mused whilst watching his brother snort and squirm, âAnd here I thought I was the dancer of the family. Look at you! Youâre making up a whole dance routine right now!â He said as he let go of Leo, crossing his arms in amusement.Â
âS-Shuhuhut snrt upâŚâ The younger twin wheezed out, hugging his middles as he playfully glared at his purple loving brother.Â
Then, a lightbulb went on in the scientistâs brain, a smug smile spreading to his face, âHmâŚyou know, Leeââ
âDohont call snrt me thahat!â Leo giggly interupted.Â
âUh-huh. Well, LeeâŚdid you know that the underarms are one of the warmest places on the human body?â The scientist said.Â
The lime green eyed mutant cocked his head to the side in confusion, âSoho?âÂ
âSoooo my hands are cold. Very cold, in fact. Iâd be forever in your debt if you couldââ
âNO! NONOHO WAHAY IN HEHELL! G-GOHO AWAHAHAY!â Leo squealed, reaching for his brotherâs wrists as the elder tried to tickle his neck once again.
SighâŚLeonardo made this too damn easy sometimes.
The glasses wielding teen wasnât just going to miss this oh-so-definetly-not-planned opportunity! The softshell scribbled his fingers along the sliderâs underarms, making the younger let out a loud squawk as he shot his arms down.Â
âNAHAH AHAHAHAâ snrt GEHET THEHE HEHELL OHAHAâ snrt OHOHOUT!!â Leonardo cried while banging his heels on the bed.Â
âWhat~?â Donnie hummed inocently.Â
âGEHEHET AHAâ snrt GEHET. OHOUT. OHOF THEHEHERE!â
âAweâŚwhy~?â
âBEEHEECAUSE IHITâS SOHO BAHAHAD!!!âÂ
âAnd?â Donnie chuckled, âThat sounds like a you problem, little brother.âÂ
âAHHHAHAâ snrt GAHAHAD FUHUCK YOHOU!!!â
âPardonâŚwhat was that?â Donnie questioned as he pinched where Leoâs hip met his thigh. âN-NONOâ snrt NAHAHAH!! I CANâTâ snrt PLEHEHEASE IâM snrt SORRY!! I-IHI TAHAHAKE IHIT BAHAHCK!!âÂ
âNahâŚI think Iâll just stay riiiiight here for a bitâŚâ The taller turtle smiled, using both of his hands now to tickle Leo into a laughing and snorting blob.
The younger weakly hit his big brotherâs arms, throwing his head back as he squeezed his eyes completely shut.Â
ââŚAnd you know what, Lee~?âÂ
âWHAHAHAT NOW?!âÂ
âIâm feelingâŚkind of famished.â The elder mused, his smile almost looking like the signature Jokerâs as he saw his younger brotherâs face pale.Â
Leonardo scrambled to sit up, fighting with his brotherâs arms as he giggly protested, âPLAHAâ snrt PLAHAHEASE! PLEHEASE snrt D-DOHONâT!!âÂ
Donnie pinched his brotherâs thighs unforgivingly, âYou should have thought about that before yapping such ill nonsense about yourself.â
âWHAHAâ snrt WHAHAHAâ snrt WHAHAT DIHID snrt IHIHI snrt EVEN SAHAHAY?!â The lime green eyed turtle cackled, flapping his hands on the mattress.Â
It took literally everything in the older twin not to coo his baby brotherâs adorable actions; instead, he lightly moved Leoâs hands away, smiling evily as he lowered his head to the otherâs plastron, âYou donât even know. Guess you really want this, huh~?âÂ
The blue banded teen kicked his knees into his brotherâs shoulders and shell, throwing his head back in complete hysterics whilst waiting for him complete and utter demise.Â
The softshell wasted no time blowing raspberries after raspberries in the middle of his youngerâs stomach, making sure to move the otherâs hands away any time he tried to push at the young geniusâ head.Â
Donnie didnât feel like getting brain damage after all.
Plus, he had his signature glasses á´
á´É´á´á´á´ĘĘá´ á´á´ on! And those were trademarkedâŚas you can wonderfully see.Â
âGodâŚcan you get more ticklish?â Donatello giggled, squeezing and squishing the red eared sliderâs knees with one hand and scribbling his sides with the other whilst contuinung to raspberry Leoâs stomach.Â
âDEEHEE DEEHEEHEE SNRT PLEHEHEASE!!! IHI SNRT DAHAHAHâ SNRT DAHAâ SNRT DAHUNNO!!â The smaller turtle screamed, happy stimming with his arms on the taller twinâs shoulder.
Donnie couldnât help but chuckle, deciding to show his twin a tad bit of mercy as he nibbled his stomach lightly.Â
The slider let out bloody murder from his beak, happy tears threatening to fall from his eyes as his bubbly cackles and snorts bounced off the walls of his room.
âJeezâŚI think Peppa Pig has some competition, huh~?â The light golden eyed mutant snickered.
âPLEHEHEASE!! TEHEHELLO SNRT IHIâM GOHâ SNRT GOHOHAâ AHAHA SNRT MYHYHY SNRTGAHAHAHAD!!!â The smaller teen pleaded.
âDo you promise to stop putting yourself in between danger and your family?â The older hummed.Â
âYEHEHES!!â The younger cried loudly.
âDo you promise to go easier on yourself?âÂ
âYAHAâ SNRT YAHAâ SNRT YEHEHES!!!â
âDo you promise to accept your doing an amazing job as leader and we all love youââ
âMY SNRT FUHUHUCKING SNRT GAHAHAD!!! IHIHI SNRT GEHET IT!!â Leonardo shouted, his blush now completley blending into the red stripes on his face.Â
The softshell turtle got off of the other, sitting next to his little brother as his little brother in question hugged his middles and giggled tiredly.Â
âY-Yohou could ohof juhuhust sahaid ahall of thahat wihihithout tickling meeheeeâŚâ The younger grumbled despite the evident smile on his face.
âAnd whereâs the fun in that?â Donnie smiled back, his expression softening as Leo got up and leaned against him softly. The older wraped an arm around the youngerâs shoulder, pulling him closer into a warm, protective gesture.Â
âAhand would yohohou look ahat that! Ihi got yohour emo bahad boy ahahass to smile todahay. Your eheeven hugging me~!â The blue banded leader spoke softly, his voice filled with affection as he poked his twinâs forehead cheekily.Â
âYou tell anyone that and I will not hesitate to deny that extremely untrue statement.â The scientist huffed, rolling his eyes fondly as his smile spread.
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#Rottmnt tickle#Rottmnt tickle fic#Lee!Leo#Ler!Donnie#WHOOOOOO BOYYYYYYâŚ#Iâm sorry but Iâm not sorry đŤśđž#Angst is like my second child đśđžđđđđđ#But I feel like I need to explain some stuff bc this fandom is probably holding me at gunpoint rn đ
đŤ#The reason why I feel like Leo and Raph had so many disagreements when Leon became leader is bc Leo canât handle yelling#LIKE AT ALLâ he just sees it as whomever is yelling means their mad#So if Raphie boy was like: âI CARE ABOUT YOU AND LOVE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH YOU DUMB ASS BITCH WHY CANâT YOU JUST BE CAREFULâď¸â#Leo would hear it as: âI HATE YOU SO MUCH RN WHY CANâT YOU DO ANYTHING RIGHTâď¸â#This fandom has been sleeping on AuDHD Leo for Y E A R S and I shall not be silent anymore its SOOOOOOO OBVIOUS đâźď¸#I could not remember the word âhypocriticalâ for the LIFE of meâŚwhen I searched it up I probs wrote ��hippopotamusâ#Leon is trying PLEAAAASE catch him a break đđžđđžđđž#Older twin Donnie is canon idgaf I was in the writers room TRUST đđžđđđđ#Big bro senses đ¤đž Twin senses#Donnie is fucking UNSTOPPABLE đ¤đžâŚbud does need to learn how to control is volume when upset tho eheheheh#He genuinely doesnât know when heâs gradually getting louder or more upsetâŚthatâs why he was so panicked when Leo had his lil meltdown LOL#Raphie just expresses his worry with yellingâŚex: âAND NOT EAT POSIONâźď¸âźď¸âźď¸â#Oh yeah this takes place a couple months after the InvasionâŚso everyone is like healed and everything but yk theyâre still traumatized obvs#đđđž#Leoâs lil tactic on dropping convoâs is a HC I have so donât quote me on it đđž#GDGDGSHSN I ALSO NEED PPL TO DRAW DON WEARING HIS GLASSES MORE OFTEN HEâS SUCH A CUTIE PATOOTIE đđđđđđđđŠˇ#But tysm Nonnie!!! This was a TON of fun to write!#Make sure your taking care of yourself and drinking waterâ or at least get a snack đĽ°#But after the mission Raph was SEETHINGâŚand usually Don tries to talk to Leon instead cuz like he doesnât want either party being upset#Nor does he want either of them to feel overwhelmed. So when Leo was like âUr doing this to me again?!â Hes referring to all the times Don#<- has done that#Leo doesnât like feeling pitied but itâs not Donâs intention to make him feel that way he just loves him family
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My Personal Headcanon On Why Amy's Love For Sonic Died Down Lately (and their dynamic)
When they were younger, Amy's love for Sonic was pretty extreme, and Sonic was, understandable, uncomfortable for the most part. He knows she means well, but that girl needs to calm down.
She can fight, but sometimes her hammer could only stun her enemies for a while. (It took her a long time to get rid of that robot that has been chasing her around Station Square.) She wasn't fully independent yet, even if she fought on her own a couple of times.
She often follows Sonic and his friends around. She is part of the team, but she was not a strong as she is now at the time yet.
She admires Sonic. A LOT. And Sonic knows that. Obviously, he could only run away from something like that, since he is NOT ready for that kind of thing, and whether Amy takes the hint or stop, she still loves him.
...BUT, I think things were slightly starting to change between her and Sonic after Lost World.
Remember this line?
You remember that? Okay, okay. Here's another totally unrelated question:
Before the events of Lost World, when was the last time Amy said "I love you" to Sonic out loud?
...YEP. đ (Unless I'm missing something, let me know lmao)
As more games and adventures come out, the characters get slightly older, and Amy is 12 to 13 now, and she is most certainly at that age where her body starts to change, but especially on how she views Sonic.
She knows she loves Sonic, but it was this moment during her change where she actually wanted to admit that she loves him.
I believe that Amy was all about sharing her affection to him not through confessions, but through obvious hints. Sonic totally got it, and there was no need to confess. Sonic knows she loves her.
...But she never said it. And she almost did, but she never did again for a while.
I think this was the moment in her life where, oh, God, she actually loves Sonic. SHE LOVES HIM, WHAT.
And she was looking back at all the times she had with Sonic that she can now see were unpleasant to Sonic (At least that's what she thinks) and that's probably why she isn't so expressive about her love to him than how she used to back then.
She wasn't sure what to do with this realization, and sets aside it for a while, and nearly stayed as her casual, peppy self... until the Eggman War happened.
During the 6 months of being with the Resistance, fighting Eggman's army all day and all night, all she can think of was Sonic.
She dreams that he still with not just her, but with her friends. She just wanted to see Sonic again, she just wants to be with her hero again.
But I'd like to think that she was also thinking about how she used to treat Sonic back when they were younger, how Sonic would almost always run away from her whenever she asks him out, or always look so uncomfortable whenever she gets so close to him.
Cringing at those memories big time, she wanted to change and hopefully when Sonic is okay and comes back, she can be better for him.
...Or will he still find her uncomfortable regardless? Would he even be happy to see her at all if he did survive?
But, hold on! She can't just give up her love for Sonic! He made her who she is today! A peppy, nature-loving, hammer-swinging, confident, brave... loud-mouth... annoying... Sonic obsessed... weak... pathetic... lonely little girl.
If she gives up on Sonic, it'll be like she gave up on the one hedgehog who saved her life. If she didn't she'll still be the same ol' Amy.
I also like to think she had parents a long while before she met Sonic, and was even expecting a little sister, but a robot invasion happened from where she was and attacked her parents and instead of trying to save them, after getting hurt, she ran away, hoping that they'll come back okay. But they never did.
She was all alone, and needed someone, a friend, a new family, someone who will hold her hand, anyone, to be there for her. But she was ignored by lots, and at that point, she's better off by herself, but still longed for company.
Eventually though, her tarot cards told her her future hero, and there might be hope after all. She encountered Sonic, held onto the belief of the cards tight, and the rest is history.
So, with that headcanon in mind, not only did Amy loose her parents that she didn't save because of her cowardliness (she was only so little at the time that happened) and also Sonic, who she thought will be her only hope, but now gone.
She doesn't even care if he did come back, he'd probably hate her now after everything she did to him, always talking about their "future wedding" or forcing him to go to Twinkle Park.
For the last few months of the war, it was nothing but Amy mentally beating herself up for either refusing to change or moving on, and they are both not fine choices.
She loves Sonic, but he does not love her, and she finally, finally realized it. And it's probably for the best if no body loved her at all.
But of course Sonic did survive and all of her worries wash away in an instant, she's just not expressive about her love for Sonic AT ALL now, since she's still worried about it but rather not mention it to Sonic because it doesn't matter.
If Sonic doesn't love her, then her feelings don't matter to him, and according to Amy herself, that is okay.
But also, I'd like to think that Sonic was thinking about his friends a lot up in the Death Egg for the past months, sometimes it's Tails (worried for his safety), sometimes it's Shadow (because he's wondering why he would join Eggman.) At some point, for a few days, Amy was in his mind the longest, and he felt bad about how he thought he was rude and pushy to her.
He wondered if she's not thinking about it too much, and if she is, will she give up on him? Yeah, he doesn't feel the same and still not looking for a relationship, but it's so strange but interesting how anyone could ever like someone like Sonic the Hedgehog. Amy was never afraid to show that, and she probably might be now.
He couldn't help but feel guilty. They were kids when she was like this, but he was so... arrogant at the time too. Not a lot happened at the time yet. He'd always have trouble expressing how much he value his friends, until he shattered the Paradox Prism. (I'd like to think Prime took place before Forces. It makes sense.)
She is such a sweet girl, and he probably made her believe that he didn't care for her. Just because he doesn't feel the same, that doesn't mean he hates her at all.
He wished he never ran away from Amy... Worrying for his little bro and wishing to be a good person for Amy was when Sonic cried in the Death Egg for the first and only time.
Frontiers, in my opinion, is kind of confirming their dynamic now. Sonic is a lot more sincere and kinder to Amy and she is not all hyperactive and lovey to Sonic. There is probably a real reason for this now.
They are both hiding their feelings from them, and they are both unaware of this. Amy, hiding her mental issues from Sonic, and Sonic, hiding his guilt away from Amy.
None of those things are important now. Sonic is with Amy and Amy is with Sonic. They are here with each other. They can be finally be better for each other now.
They don't care if they'll ever be something more when they get older. None of that matters anymore. They are here with each other. They can be finally be better for each other now.
Maybe someday they'll both talk about it, but for now, the present is important. They care about each other too much to think about it right now.
It's the kind of love that is unbreakable. It doesn't even have to be romantic. It's just love. Love is important for everyone, in any form. It's something Sonic and his friends need. And especially Sonic and Amy.
Amy Rose is the living embodiment of love, and without her, a lot would go downhill for Sonic and co. Heck, if it weren't for her, Shadow wouldn't have never remembered Maria's promise, which lead him to save the world with Sonic, before he temporarily disappeared from their lives for a while.
She is always there to lend a helping hand for anybody, even bad guys like Metal Sonic, and despite what she had been through, both in Forces and headcanon wise, she still fights back, even without her hammer.
She will pick you back up on your feet, reminding you that you are important and that you are loved, and that you should never give up. It's pretty much the words of encouragement she herself needed also...
She is still the happy, hyper, butt-kicking hedgehog we all know and love, but she still need someone to pick her back up on her feet after so long. Thankfully, she has her friends and her blue hero. The hero who made her who she is today.
I think Amy has no idea how important she thought she is, but Sonic does. Sonic knows fully well how important she is to a lot of people. It's about time he returns the favor to her. It's his turn to remind her how much a lot of people love her.
How much he loves her.
And I feel like The Murder of Sonic the Hedgehog was the moment where their dynamic really shined, but also the starting point of their relationship not only healing, but also the next chapter of what's to come for them.
Everyone, friends old and new, gathered around for a special birthday. A birthday for the confident, unshakable, and radiant Amy Rose.
It was such a special moment in Amy's life. After years of chasing and following the people she look up to, she is part of the team, but most importantly, she is part of the family.
She is fully realized as someone more than just a fangirl, but someone strong, courageous, creative, kind and a big inspiration for others.
I feel like this moment here...
-is where Amy is eternally grateful to call her friends her family. A family she thought she'll never have again. She's not alone anymore, and as long as they're by her side, she'll never will be again.
Her chasing days are over. She's finally caught up to them. She's finally home.
And it's all thanks to Sonic.
If it weren't for him, she'd probably be alone forever. Her past moments with Sonic might be embarrassing to look back on for a while, but they are good memories regardless, because they involve him.
Sonic saved her life in more ways than one, and despite everything, he's grateful to have her too.
He cares about her. He really does... And in her eyes, that all she needed to know. As long as Sonic loves her in his own way, she'll be happy.
Amy hasn't given up on Sonic. As long as Amy always supports him, he'll be happy.
Maybe sometime in the future, they can talk about their problems, but that's a story for another time. At this point, they need to. Right now, they are happy. They are okay.
They are here for each other. They are finally better for each other now.
"You guys won't ever leave me, right?"
"Wouldn't dream of it."
#piko rambles#sonic the hedgehog#amy rose#Meant to be platonic but I don't care if you tag as ship lol#I've been meaning to post something like this for the longest time now but never really got into posting it-#-because you guys REALLY hate seeing these two together for some reason.#Well not for SOME reason. There are valid reasons why you don't ship them. Everyone has valid reason why they don't ship this or that.#But sometimes those reasons can just sound so petty to me. Like the reason why is because Amy is a stalker or Sonic hates her which is FALS#Also those age gap arguments are understandable but so goddamn annoying sometimes. Maybe when they hit their late teens or early twenties-#then they can be together if they want to. Besides a good percentage of Sonic ships are better off if they waited til they're old enough im#I love them regardless of whether they're just friends or an awkward older cringe fail couple lmao#But them being just friends and hiding away all their emotions towards each other just to keep them safe and happy with them- đđđ#Son/adow is my favorite ship of all time and sonamy is my favorite childhood ship/platonic ship because they both have one thing in common.#ANGST đ#I've been thinking about Sonic and Amy's dynamic as of late and MAN-#Mixed with some personal headcanons of mine and their dynamic as of late just makes me so emotional.#Sonic and Amy have gotten so close now and it's so sweet but so heartbreaking at the same time when you think about it.#I'm so happy they are getting along better and being there for each other but there is so much to dissect here. So much to think about.#I might be a little silly but Amy losing her parents and being alone for so long and being the reason why she's always hanging onto Sonic-#-explains SOOOOOOOOO much about her. At least that's my headcanon for WHY that is.#Amy with abandonment issues speaks to me on a personal level. I'm always afraid of being forgotten or left behind by my family.#I sometimes feel like I'm not good enough no matter how hard I try. I do not blame Amy. I relate to her a lot. It's one of the many reasons#-why Amy is my favorite character besides Sonic and Shadow.#She fights hard to prove she's a valuable member of the team and hates getting left behind but despite all that she wasn't afraid to-#-express herself and her love for people. But after the Eggman War there was some changes that made her less expressive about her love.#Yeah she still loves Sonic but she doesn't admit it because none of that matters anymore and she thought that not being loved by Sonic#-is better than being loved since she nearly wasted her life loving someone who she thought has constantly bothered. đĽ˛#But I think after TMoStH I think she'll be less afraid of being expressive about it. She and Sonic are just so caring for each other đ#I love these two way too much that when I think about them for too long I'll start SOBBING đđ I'M EVEN SOBBING RIGHT NOW LMAO
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Silence In The City (1)
I hate school a lot for not letting my finish anything that I wanted to write and luckily I found the time to write today! So I give you an idea Iâve had on my mind for a good while, Iâve just never written it down! I will say these characters are some of my favorite because of the dynamic I have planned for them! Hope you enjoy!
Word count: 4.3k
CW: Violence, depictions of anxiousness and anxiety
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Everything was all wrong. The way the system works. How life works. How humans work. It was all just some twisted lie. Of course humankind had been ruthlessly attacked by these monsters at first. Huge and massive beings that rose from the sea, easily crumbling buildings and killing millions. It was terrible, taking ages to finally figure out a way to kill them. There was nothing to bring back the lives lost, everyone was broken apart, cities crumbled to dust as vegetation took over what was originally theirs. And soon, it repeated and repeated, until these monsters would finally restore their original home. Destroying countless cities along the coast, sometimes even working their way closer to the middle of the land. Though they were usually killed by then.Â
Iâve never really been the type for fighting. Yet, I still find myself here. They had told us to go into our underground bunkers for safety but I couldnât make it in time. The city was quiet except for the thundering footsteps coming from the monster. I just ran into a building, scared and alone. I had no idea where my parents were, but I had hoped that they were safe. Next thing I knew, the monster was after me. Crumbling down buildings in an attempt to take a life since there was no one else around. Or so I had thought. I was cornered and tired, the dust from all the rubble filling my lungs. I was about to be killed by the rubble falling on top of me. I had already given up, knowing that I wasnât going to get out of this alive. When nothing had happened and there was a loud thud, I looked up, seeing an even bigger, more powerful being, standing over the monster. The monster struggled to get up while the one standing over leaned down, its eyes focusing on me.Â
They only looked half like the monster that had just threatened my life, but yet, didnât have the same malicious look in his eyes. Scales all along their body that stopped halfway up their fingers, neck, and chest. The most beautiful shade of purple eyes that I have ever seen, toned skin, tail with spikes all along their spine, even another pair of arms. And yet somehow, he acted even more human than he looked. He showed concern for a little while before scooping me up somehow, protecting me against any further danger. After all the loud growling and harsh noises were gone, only leaving the strange humanoid kaiju huffing for breath. They opened up their hands high up in the air, eyes studying me with worry. As if they had been making sure I wasnât injured. Of course I was still scared. I didnât know what was going to happen to me. Or what this guy would do to me. He had looked more human anyways.Â
Soon enough, I heard my parents' strained voices crying for me. Out of desperation to be reunited, I crawled over to the edge of their palm, reaching out to them with tears in my eyes. They had noticed the person who had saved me, obviously scared but they stayed, wanting me back. I looked back at the half-human half-kaiju, their eyes glaring down at my parents. He turned towards me, eyes going wide before slowly lowering his hand to the ground. I stumbled off, nearly falling face first but ran into the warm hug that was waiting for me. I glanced back at the monster who had looked away, having a troubled and dark expression before locking eyes with me. I started trembling, but otherwise put on the best nervous smile as my parents urged me to run away. Their eyes shot up before he crawled away, making sure not to crumble buildings.Â
I hadnât forgotten about that day. When people were allowed to come out, we all tried to go back to our homes, but most of them had been demolished. Including mine. We were placed in a camp until they could find a home for us to relocate to, but I just couldnât stop thinking about that guy. Whether they had been a monster or human, they had saved me. Even protected me. And I still ran away without giving a thank you. I was terrified, sure, but that didnât condone not thanking him. They practically saved the whole city and they wouldnât ever get any recognition for it. Usually those huge monsters were killed by people who could handle the suits, Iâve never seen anything like what just happened ever. Not on tv at least. Why did they look soââŹÂŚ surprised by me though? Like when I smiled at them, or when I was just scared out of my mind in the corner. I never found out the answer until today.Â
The camp was full of people. We were just lucky that food was okay and that we were getting supplied everything we needed. Until a military team had arrived. They were searching for someone. Telling people to gather in an area so they could check our faces. When they came up to me, they had all started talking. This didnât happen with any other person, which just worked up my nerves. Why were they here? To take me away? To punish me for not being able to make it to the bunker on time? I wasnât made for war! Was it because of that human-monster hybrid? Was I not supposed to see them? What was going on? A million questions stirred in my mind, making me anxious and worried. I had feared that they would be taking me away from home, and kept hoping that it wasnât the case.Â
I stayed still, playing with my hands and looking down at the ground, waiting to be told what would happen next. I was scared. I always have been. There was no reason for me to, but the anxiety always made me feel this way. This wasnât helping at all either. The military people came back, my parents gripping my shoulders and kept whispering that everything would be okay. I didnât believe them this time. They walked up to me once again, âYouâre being transferred under government care. Your objective is classified until arrival. Please follow us.â They had instructed, waiting for me to follow them. I jumped, looking back up at my parents with mortified faces. They were just as terrified as I was. I looked back at the guy who was just talking to me, âB-But my parents?â I scooted closer to them as they gripped my shoulder tighter. He had sighed, walking but up to me, âOnly you. Sorry kid, youâre being called to duty, and if you ignore we have been ordered to take you forcefully.âÂ
My eyes shot open, my entire body pausing. I didnât hear when my parents started arguing to let them come with me, but it just wasnât allowed. My mom, with tears in her eyes, looked at me. I always hated when she cried, âItâll be okay, alright Devon? Just please be careful.â I knew why she was saying it. They were going to take me away, and I donât even get a say. My parents had argued for me butââŹÂŚ I never fought for myself. Never was a fan of fighting. They had, however, allowed me to pack a few things. Or what I had left of my stuff. My parents watched me pack a few clothes, making sure I had everything. I looked back, seeing my dusty stuffed animal dog and grabbed it. I knew it was childish but I couldnât go anywhere without him. I could just clean them off when I get to wherever I was going to. My mom made sure to grab my pills and placed them in my bag, âDonât forget to take these.â She smiled sadly, trying not to cry. To be honest I was trying my hardest as well. I didnât understand why I had to leave. They never gave me a reason, and I was anxious. Was it bad? The place they were taking me to? Was I in trouble?Â
The thoughts never escaped my mind as I hugged my parents close, then started to follow the guy into a car. People had surrounded me, as if making sure I wouldnât try anything. Of course I wouldn't. I already knew I wouldnât win that battle. Not now or not ever. It was quiet on the way there. Sitting in a car for two hours, only listening to the people on the radio transmissions and getting stares from the people sitting next to me. I stayed quiet, afraid that if I said anything it would only make my situation worse. I was already away from my parents and Iâve lost my home, what more could they do to me besides kill me? I panicked at the idea as the car drove past a massive gate. There were several check-ins, and soon we were finally in. My heart wouldnât stop beating as I stared at the huge base. I walked through several hallways, earning stares from a lot of people. Some older, some looking the same age as me. I knew what this place was. To train people to kill those monsters that terrorize cities. Was that what I was here for? I wouldnât even last a single hour here.Â
They took me up an elevator, leading me to another place where there was a lab. Holographic screens everywhere, people testing new weapons out. I flinched when someone had started barking orders. I gripped my backpack tighter, thoughts swirling in my mind. Could I just go back home with my parents? Canât I just cry right now? Itâs taken so much out of me just to stop myself. I didnât want to show it to everyone else around me though. They would think Iâm even more of a useless kid than they already do. I could already tell that. So what was I even doing here if they all thought that about me?Â
The people started talking with one another before one of the scientists came up to me, the people who used to stand beside me to make sure I didnât try to escape took a step to the side. The woman was tall and looked to be in her thirties. I jumped as her eyes pierced through me, seeming to stare deep into my soul as she studied my every move. My eyes nervously trailed down to the ground, nervously moving around my feet. I felt like a big underneath her stare. And it didnât feel very good.Â
âThis is who the monster decided to save?â She sounded unimpressed as she wrote things down, circling around me. She lifted up one of my arms, shaking her head and sighing, âToo skinny, too weak, do you suffer from any illnesses?â She asked. I looked at her sadly, forcing my voice to work without cracking, âAnxiety disorder.â She raised her eyebrows, muttering something under her breath that I couldnât hear. It made my anxiousness even worse.
But what did she mean by monster? Was it that guy that saved me? My eyes went wide at the thought. I was going to see him again? I felt terrified and scared, but at the same time happy? It was a strange mix of emotions as she had dragged me to a large metal door that seemed heavily protected. Automatic windows had opened, revealing a large room with only one inhabitant inside. My eyes widened as I played with my hands and shuffled my feet. There, only a few meters behind the glass, was the person that saved him. Trapped in a tiny metal box. Well, tiny to him, not so much for me. They looked to have been bothered in their sleep and slowly started opening their eyes, letting out a soft groan and never moving. Some part of me screamed to run, to hide and never look back, but the other part felt sympathy for him. Why was he locked up in here? Did he do something bad? It didnât really seem like it. They looked so peaceful, as if nothing was wrong.
âYouâre going to go in there. No escaping and we canât guarantee that it wonât kill you.â She instructed, getting ready to throw me in there. He gripped my bag and continued to look out the window, my nerves only worsening. Kill me?... would he really do that? After being so gentle and protective? Was that why I was here? Just to meet him again? See how heâd react to seeing the one person he helped get out alive. âGet a peculiar reaction out of him like you did at the attack and weâll see what weâll do with you afterââŹÂŚ. If youâre still alive,â She grinned like she had expected it to happen, âHereâs a tablet containing the means of shocking it into submission if you feel threatened, here is also an ear microphone so we can speak to you through it.â She handed me a small tablet with a few buttons, but I eyed the button with the lightning bolt on it warily. Shock him? I could barely think about it without gagging.
I gulped, not knowing how he would react to me. Holding the tablet that I had an odd feeling he would recognize and hate me for it. I also hated the fact that she called him an âitâ and a monster. If he was a monster then whyâd he kill one? Why would he save me in the first place? Why make sure he wouldnât topple over any buildings? I took a deep breath before I was shoved on the other side of the door. I yelped, landing face first onto the cold metal floor. I groaned quietly to myself, sitting up with my backpack still attached to me. I let out a sigh of relief, then made the mistake of looking up. My eyes were glued to the massive being in front of me, their entire face taking up my vision. I felt myself barely breathing, my body trembling, but I never ran away.Â
I jumped when their eyes had opened, groggily searching around the room until they landed on me. I held in a breath, my eyes wide but not full of fear. This was the person that saved me. They wouldnât kill me, right? It didnât really sound logical at all. ThoughââŹÂŚ that didnât really explain why he was locked up in here. He didnât really look like the type to do any true harm to someone
As soon as their eyes found me we held a silent staring contest until his own eyes grew wide as he picked up his head. Did he recognize me? He shook his head, laying back down on his arms. I looked around. Seeing that the room was cramped. Not for him at all but for the guy just laying on the ground seemed to be cramped. The ceiling looked too low for them to get on their legs, heck, it even looked too low for them to sit on their knees and sit up straight. I flinched when they slightly moved their head up a little more. I felt like a tiny bug under their gaze. I stared at one of their hands, the one I had been in just a few days prior and shuddered. Their claws were at least three times my own height. I briefly wondered just how small I am to him. How he saw me through his eyes. Just a bug? Another small insignificant creature?Â
I gripped the tablet in my hands, listening to the microphone in my ear. They had kept saying to talk, to do something, but what was there to do? He was just sleeping, and I ruined it. I didnât like the thought that they forced me to bother him. And the fact that he looked annoyed with me being in here too. I sucked in a shaky breath looking away and at the door, but I couldnât help but turn back to the vibrant purple eyes glaring at me, no, the tablet. The collar around his neck seemed to be the shock collar basing it off of the marks around where it is on his neck, there were also some on his wrists. All four of them. I looked down at the tablet in hand, and back at him, still glaring at the object in my hand. It sent a chill down my spine as I did the exact opposite of what they kept telling me to on the microphone. I placed it down and kicked it away from me, along with the microphone. There was no reason for me to have either of them. I wasnât going to pay attention to what they were going to say. None of this seemed right to me.Â
Their eyes went wide at my action, looking between me and the tablet that must not have looked far to him, but it was for me. They seemed to be shocked as they raised their head up, and up, until entirely looming over me, holding themselves up with their crossed arms. I gulped, not realizing just how big they truly were. I backed away a little thinking, for only a brief moment, that it was a mistake to toss away the one thing that could have kept me alive. Though, if he really wanted me dead wouldnât he have done so the other day? Instead of saving me he couldâve just let it happen. Instead he didnât. And I still had yet to thank him! They lowered their head, as if trying to examine me more before looking away, disappointed. Though I did catch a bit of sadness hidden. I hadnât noticed how much I was trembling. Or how much I had backed away, my back almost against the wall. I felt terrible for looking that way in front of him. What if that was why he was disappointed? Because everyone was scared of him and so am I? Of course Iâm scared but at least Iâm attempting to try something. I scrambled further up to see him looking completely away, almost turned to face the wall opposite of me. I kept taking steps closer despite the warnings given, and stood a few feet away from one of his hands. Big, scary, but I just grabbed the backpack on my shoulders and stood up on shaky legs. My breath was shaky, but I forced words to come out eventually, âTh-thank you. For saving m-me.â He slowly turned his head, his eyes searching to see if I was lying. I heard him scoff above me, the noise deep and irritated, âYouâre a really good liar. How about you go back with your friends out there and treat me like some monster like they all do?â I covered my ears with my hands, their voice loud. Liar? Friends? Monster? Did he mean the scientists? Why did he think I was lying? Was he really a monster if he saved my life and practically everyone elseâs by dealing with the real monster that day? Now there were even more questions than answers.Â
I didnât move. Even though I was terrified, trembling, and honestly thinking about just making a run for it, I still stayed. It was silent for what seemed like forever before they moved again, glaring at me, eyes piercing through my soul. âGo away.â He nearly growled, slamming a fist on the ground. I was airborne for a half a second, placing my hands out in front of me so I didnât land on my face. Heart racing, breath shaky, tears forming in my eyes. Dead- Dead. I couldâve died. The thoughts wouldnât leave as I stared at the fist only mere feet away. I looked back down, watching as my own tears hit the metal ground below. I couldâve been dead now. Why wasnât I dead? Why was I alive right now? Wasnât he going to kill me? My breathing quickened, my arms and legs becoming weak. I used a shaky hand to grab a fistful of my shirt against my chest, feeling how hard my heart was beating. How it seemed to ring through my ears with every thump. I closed my eyes, trying to get as much air into my lungs to calm myself down. My stomach throbbing. The anxiety eating at me. The constant thoughts of how I couldâve died. What I would look like. I just kept taking shaky breaths, slowly regaining my mind. I reached into my bag worriedly, grabbing a water bottle and my pills, dumping two out into my hand and downing them with water. I held my head, taking my last few deep breaths. My body was still trembling and my heart was still beating abnormally fast, but at least my mind wasnât lost.Â
Using the back of my hand, I wiped away the tears, sniffling and forcing myself to look up. Their other hands clawing at the metal, their eyes still piercing through me, holding me in place out of fear. Why was he so angry? Was it because he was trapped in here? Because they treat him like this? It didnât take a whole lot to figure out how they take care of him. The collars, the tablet, the chains on his lower pair of arms. Who knows what else. But was he really that bad? I mean, of course I just had a near death experience, but after a second look I realized he was just trying to scare me. It wouldâve worked. The people here were terrible. It didnât matter if he was half kaiju half human, did it? It didnât matter if he was probably taller than a skyscraper. Okay well that might invoke fear in literally everyone he meets but still. It didnât really seem to me that he truly wanted to hurt anyone. A few days ago he struggled to avoid breaking anything that might wreck the city even more than it already was. He even held me to keep me safe. How was he being held in a prison like this when heâs saving billions of people? It just didnât sit right with me.Â
I gathered up whatever courage I had left in me, trying to forget about what had just happened, âI-Iâm sorry that youâre i-in here.â My voice came out weak, quiet, almost like I was about to cry. Honestly, I was. Everything about this was telling me to run and get the heck out of here. That would be wrong. That would be proving their point that I think of them as a monster, wouldnât it?Â
Their eyes widened in shock, lowering their head even more, almost touching the floor. I flinched when they moved their fist, flattening their hand on the ground as if they were confused and interested. It was unnerving to have their full attention, but I stared right back, rubbing my arms to hide the fact that I was shaking. He lifted his head back up, contemplating. I had no idea what was happening, but for some reason their entire mood had seemed to shift. Why did they react that way when I said that I was sorry? They didn't seem mad anymore. Relief washed over me as he raised his hand up and covered up a mirror high above me. Was it actually a window? Were they watching us? I didnât know.Â
He sighed, studying me like he was earlier, trying to see if I was lying, âYouâre hard to stay mad at,â His voice was a lot quieter, âKieran. Thatâs my name.â He opened his mouth like he was about to say something else but shook his head, looking down at me. I sucked in a shaky breath. Kieran? âDevon.â I quietly said. He seemed to hear me before somehow. He removed his hand from the mirror, glaring at it for a few seconds like they had done some unspeakable crime. They actually did actually, keeping Kieran here in the first place.Â
âYouâre welcome for saving you by the way. Donât expect me to do it again.â He told me, turning away. I couldnât help but notice how he seemed to sound happier now. Like he was happy I was talking to him. I smiled, jumping when the door opened. I watched as several people walked it, three of them carrying a tablet and keeping a close eye on Kieran. The other people walked right towards me. I flinched, unable to fight back against the grip they had on my arms. I was forced to my feet and shoved through the door. I stole one more glance back at Kieran, meeting their sad eyes. Once the doors were closed, I let them push me around the long hallways. What did they mean they wouldnât dave me again. Would they have to? I wouldnât think so if I was going home after this. I did what they asked me to do, didn't I? Why did he look so sad when I left?Â
Eventually they opened a door that led to a small room with only the necessities. A bed, bathroom, closet. They threw me in there, âPeople will come and get you in the morning. They asked that you rest for now.â They had ordered from me. What? Was I staying here for the night and going home? I sat on the bed, digging out my stuffed animal and laying down, sinking into the hard mattress. I sucked in a shaky breath and cried silently. Nothing could ever just be normal.Â
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Iâve absolutely loved kaiju ever since I could remember and Iâve been wanting to write a story for it! To be honest I mostly wrote this for myself just to feed my delusions but also just to get out of my writerâs block and to save me from spiraling cause of school. But thank you for reading! This actually did get me out of a major writing slump (thank you school) so I will finally be able to finish answering asks and writing commissions. Thank you for being so patient!
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#G/t#g/t writing#sfw g/t#g/t community#giant/tiny#Oc: devon#Oc: Kieran#Silence in the City#I will probably write more about them just for the fun of it because I love how I planned out their dynamic#But yayyy finally out of my writing slump!#I also have a drawing for them Iâve been thinking about doing#The plan for this little story is just for the angst#And maybe possibly comfort?#Maybeeee#But thank you guys for reading!#Iâm sorry this took so long for me to finish#I hate school so much#Thank you again!#Kaiju stories#Kaiju fic#love you guys â¤ď¸
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You're an Empire
Darkest of Empires
(inspo song)
#this relationship is such a neverending source of sweet sweet toxic angst ahhhh#i love it#why are most of my jeanharry art blue and yellow well#jeanharry#harryjean#jean vicquemare#jean heron vicquemare#harry du bois#harry dubois#harrier du bois#disco elysium#disco elysium fanart#echoes scribbles#maybe???#actually yeah#yes i am often inspired by music why do you ask#i hate tumblr for making me split it :/#my art
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Continuing the JJK posting: Gojo is such a mystifying character.
Action show where swinging out the gate you introduce a character who is so incredibly powerful you then have to, before every fight, establish why Gojo can't just show up and fix the problem in seconds. His existence weakens the stakes of everything. The rest of the show you are backflipping ridding yourself of him. He jobs two major bad guys off the gate and every subsequent extensive fight with them feels like cleaning up his leftovers. Put him in a box, he's ruining the game balance. So absolutely broken. As a writer it makes your job so difficult, but it's also the entire point of him. "Hey I want to write the single most badass character of all time who can do the most insane shit but I will also engage with that", rock on king.
I think he's most interesting when understood as somebody who is fundamentally alien and removed from ordinary human thought processes. In his world there is absolutely nothing he cannot do, and the thought 'maybe I can't do something' just doesn't occur to him. He is capable of doing whatever he wants and of killing anybody who tries to stop him from doing what he wants. If he is not doing something, it is because he does not want to do it. If he wants to do something (kill all of his superiors) and he's not doing it, it's because he doesn't think it's the most effective route towards what he has decided to do. I think this informs the majority of his actions (and, importantly, what he doesn't do)(murder). I think he's reasoned out that you should have a general reason to do things, and it feels like sheer luck that he places value and meaning in human life, and as such you shouldn't kill them without a strong reason. Watching the flashback arc, if I hadn't seen a) JJK and b) Naruto and you asked me which shitty teen became a law abiding school teacher and which became a mass murderer I would have guessed the wrong ones.
Anyway, the way I like to think of him, he's a raging narcissist with a god complex to match. Horrifically, he's actually a good teacher, but he is also a teacher as an ego/'raising my child army' thing. He would be the kind of mother who is a good mother but lowkey had kids also as an ego/unconditional love/lots of attention/'surely my child will worship me' thing. Gets randomly into new hobbies, obsesses over them, gorges himself on the novelty factor, before dropping them in a week once he gets too good at them. Rinse and repeat. The only hobby that does not eventually grow boring is annoying people, so it's his only hobby. Geto told him age 15 that he'll never have any friends if he keeps on casually reminding people that they live on his sufferance, so he developed another back-up hobby more conducive for friendship of helping people forget that they live on his sufferance. This has convinced him that he's a god of subterfuge, intrigue, and trickery. Does eat women out, but is convinced that this makes him God's gift to women, and is actually pretty terrible in bed because his partner's desires never even occur to him. Is convinced he's as good at sex as he is everything else. Sex is actually the one thing he's bad at, but he's not ready to hear that.
In S1 he overall left me with the general impression that his entire idea of how high school worked was sourced from anime, and as such decided that being a teacher involved nothing but field trips, sports games, beach episodes, sports festivals, etc. Did not know how the classroom component worked so he skips it. Jossed, but also left me convinced that it would be very funny if he was an immortal 150-whatever years old and had founded the high school himself out of, you guessed it, an ego thing, and never once properly learned how high schools worked and just arbitrarily made his own aging students the new principals so he could continue engaging in training the kids who are too Misfit (TM) to get apprenticeships and living his fun slice of life anime life and raising a child army of kids who will worship him any day now. Annnyyyy day now. Any day now.
#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#gojo satoru#jjk gojo#jujutsu gojo#my posts#this makes it sound as if i hate him and think he's a terrible person#to be clear i think he's great and i just find characters most interesting when theyre terrible#watching the show i was just generally waiting for it to follow up on his established teenage homicidality#explain why and when he stopped being two thin hairs from murdering everyone he disliked#but they didn't so i have to suppose he's just chilled out a little#fic authors arent going far enough with him. i dont think his brain should resemble a human persons.#the 'i am above humanity' thing shouldn't be an angst thing it should be a factor of his psychology#thank you dora for stealth co-writing this post love you#might write the immortal thing might not. writing such a weird POV does sound fun to me though; id like to do it#itll either be very easy or very very hard#it feels like genuine straight-up luck that gojo's an active good guy. liike what.
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my salty ass because they didnât give sanzu his pretty aquarium ass eyes:
#the pink haired degenerate sanzu haruchiyo#akashi if youâre feeling naughty#i know this man#believe me#thatâs my mfkinâ man right there okay#my husbando#my feral little meow meow#i love his unhinged psycho baby ass#BUT I HATE THAT THEY DID HIM SO DIRTY THERE#his eyes are literally like canon#they made him so pretty everywhere else so why did they do that?!#sanzu x reader#sanzu smut#sanzu angst#sanzu fluff#mikey x reader#ran x reader#rindou x reader#izana x reader#tr smut#tokyo revengers smut#tokyo revengers#mitsuya x reader#draken x reader#chifuyu x reader#koko x reader#shinichiro x reader#baji x reader#kazutora x reader
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đď¸ Kirbtober 2024 Day 14: Miracle đď¸
(ID: Kirby series fanart of Zero Two looming over a newly-created Miracle Matter, gazing down upon it inscrutably with his single red eye, almost cradling it in segmented wings that burst with countless red, vein-like tendrils. The icosahedron gazes back blankly with red-and-black eyes on each of its sides⌠save for one in the center which sports an iris of orange and teal, tears leaking from it and dripping away into darkness. END ID.)
âHush, my dear blade. Consider your failures forgiven. For only in such a penitent form may you reach even a fraction of my perfection.â
Based on my personal headcanon that Dark Matter Blade - after the second failed takeover in KDL3 - might've been ârepurposedâ by his resurrected god into Miracle Matter.
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Started on 09/18/24, finished on 09/19/24. | Kirbtober 2023 Comp
#veins art#veins fanart#kirby series#kirby#zero two kirby#02#miracle matter#dark matter blade#<- (technically)#headcanon#kirbtober#kirbtober 2024#day 14#miracle#paintpanic#i uhh⌠mightâve gone a little overboard with this one... again ^^'#listen it was either this or feathers and we already know I have a beef with feathers so here I am just... livinâ up to my namesake I guess#⌠I honestly canât tell whether I love this or hate it with all my being#but BOY do I have thoughts about it (not quite full-blown-AU thoughts; just wouldnât-it-be-interesting-if thoughts)#and TBF I don't think DMB stays like this *forever*#(see his inclusion in the KMA subgame for proof of that... despite the nebulous canonicity of it)#it's just fun to think about all that good good *angst potential* y'know?#me hovering over characters with my microscope like âhow can I make you worse in every way possible?â#angst tw#eyes tw#scopophobia tw#body horror tw#loss of control tw#nonconsensual body modification tw#veinsfullofstars
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need u to share your kandrew agenda 𫶠tell me all about them
ALL about them? dangerous territory my friend...but i will try my best
kandrew are my favorite pair of worsties like i'm not even kidding i love writing them as friends to lovers because they could be having r-rated pg 18++ thoughts about each other at any given moment but they will die before they confess. im talking off the charts sexual tension okay the air is fucking charged. i do have a few fics on them but they're building up to kandreil...sadly no solos yet...
my brain says (đ¤âď¸) they have an understanding that goes deeper than a lot of the other relationships kevin has. i think one of andrew's best qualities is to listen to someone talk about the worst thing that has happened to them and not overreacting or coddling them afterwards (which is something im personally fond of and love to see) so he may as well have been a tether for kevin when he left the nest. (not to mention how similar jean and andrew are and going from one 3 to another would fit kevin well) to me, if someone sees them together at times they'll feel like andrew and kevin DETEST each other. they're ultimate bickering couple, constantly roasting each other, arguing as a build up to sex, they drink like their life depends on it, they hate each other, they're in love and i am watching all this with popcorn. they get each other tbh like they get it. they may not fully understand but they do get it.
also something about a dog collar but that thoughts not fully developed yet.
have some memes that might help:
#wymack hates them#loathes them really#if u wanna know smthn specific then u can ask ofc!!! i know most of this was pretty vague#aftg#kevin day#andrew minyard#kandrew#there's a lot more to say tbh#like i actually love fwb kandrew because of how hesitant they both seem to admit their feelings#but we all know that doesn't work#just feel like they'd be physically and humorously and emotionally present and comfortable around each other a lot of the time#but both of them have easy triggers and bad tempers which is a recipe for disaster and angst and i love that hehe#eeeeeeee they're actually really funny to me i love writing them have fun and then makeout#wheres that one post about how everyone should actually imagine kevin day bent over a desk with andrew doing unspeakable things to him#hmmm#i think kandrew is the most physically affectionate kevin ship i like
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