#i disnt notice at first

[aksbe]

[urapunk]

(TW; mentions of self harm and vomiting.)

A Gary Smith writing that I made, and'll probably make more of.

People Dont Consider Me a Tradgedy And I Wish They Did

It's funny how alike he is to Petey. He's no different, he gnaws his nails quietly in class and listens to conversations around him because its embarrassing to start a conversation other than being the one spoken to. But thats a lie. He's just nervous and it tastes bittersweet and disgusting in his mouth like straight syrup.

But he cant even get better. He just cant. And so in the back of the ambulance with his snapped arm and new cuts from glass, he found himself crying. Crying for once. He's going to be fixed up and.. And well.. Sent away. Three months they said. Thats an entire summer. A summer in a looneyhouse and then its right back to the hell of bullworth if his grandpa decides to offer enough money. Those same faces. Those same, disgustingly familiar faces that he knows are staring. They're always looking, looking and looking and looking.

The EMT can see the cuts lacing his arms up and down until they get to his upper arm, because they feel even worse there and he doesnt hate himself so much as to make it sting even worse.

But he still does it. Theres atleast 12 cuts on his upper arm and they were all from really bad times. Times he's repressed and forgotten, times that make him want to rip his arm off and grow a new one, times that make him vomit from the anxiety of them happening again.

The lights are so bright in the roof of this death van. They hurt his eyes so bad, and he's sure his ankle is broken or wrist is shattered. He doesnt even know its his arm yet. Why didnt he just get Jimmy kicked out instead? Did he have to take over bullworth? Couldnt he just... Couldnt he just talk.

But he doesnt know how. He babbles like a small child when it comes to his stupid emotions because what are they. They all feel the same, his heart races, his face contorts, and thats it. Thats only how it feels and it will never feel different, and thats only the literal sense. They can either make him feel like hes driving a bumpy road or they can feel like his guts are spilling out so disgustingly in his lap.

It doesnt stop, and when they give him a therapist in happy volts itll still be the same. His therapist would ask him questions, like 'what caused this for you,' or 'why'd you do it?'...

'Why'd you do it?'

'Why'd you do it gary!'

And thats when he let out a loud, frustrated groan of pain.... He couldnt hear the sirens. Where had the sirens gone? Why couldnt he hesr the ambulance that he was in-?

He noticed he was wrong. He wasnt in it. He was now in a hospital bed, light beaming through the curtains and illuminated the cast on his right arm.

The cast. The cast that would restrict him. He was restricted now. Restriction is a bitter word. He doesn't like it because it specifically restricts him. Restrict, restrict, restrict.

It hit him that he had just woken up. He disnt remember falling asleep, maybe they out him out because he was writhing too much or- crying. Did he cry? Was he crying? He shouldnt have been crying. But nevermind that. He had obviously woken up from something frustrating him and he had no clue what it was. Maybe its best he doesnt remember.

It wasnt much longer in the day when he was checked into happy volts. He felt sluggish, and he quickly recognized the disgusting, stomach churning 'calm' of medication. His therapists all said the same things throughout those 3 months. Each time he was first meeting them he'd do a survey; with one question that stumped him every time, not matter how many times it was explained. 'Are panic attacks frequent? On a scale of one to 10, how bad do your attacks get?'

What is a panic attack. His therapists all just gave him the same answer, but he was searching for one that really set it up in him. He underatood it, a little, but it was like the knowledge of the ocean. It has fish and is very deep; it's emotional and very scary.

The thin mattress he slept on was annoying, and he couldnt tell if it made his slouch better or worse. He didnt have to wear one of those stupid gowns, they gave him a nice blue sweatshirt and white sweatpants with...

Grippy socks.

It made him want to die the amount of times he tried to slide down the hall only to remember, these arent normal socks. They have GRIP to them. He'd nearly fallen a less than safe amount of times. He couldnt even be childish, he had to be reduced to a 'calm' medicated zombie that felt sick all the time.

The clothes were comfortable though, the bed was.. Okay, but the showers were awful. He didnt feel clean. It never got hot enough to help him feel soft and fuzzy.

And it reminded him that he'd never wipe away the punches thrown at him over the years.

But that was for his therapist to hear, only because she was paid to. He's talk to his grandpa when he got home, but.. His grandpa wouldnt want to hear that. He wouldnt want to hear about how his grandson fought more than he should. That his grandsontried to take over the school and broke his arm in the process, that he fought ontop of bulworth academy and his last name would be slandered now. They shared nothing but the word Smith sometimes.

When he finally got out his grandpa had brought him clothes to change unto before leaving, a soft white tshirt and black cargo jeans, and a dark green jacket. He loved that jacket so much. It was like the perfect shade, the color that was the embodiment of gary! When he finally settled in the car he noticed his grandfather gripped the wheel angrily.

"So why'd you do it Fish?"

'Why'd you do it?'

'WHY'D YOU DO IT GARY!'

That made him wanna hurl. He couldnt stop thinking of Jimmy when anyone asked, but hearing it from his grandpa was sickening. Especially with the nickname he had aince a boy. He always loved aquariums and fish and all to do with fishing, so papa called him Fish, or just... Gary.

His grandpa was met with silence... And it did worry him. A little bit. But there wasnt room for worrying about gary now.

"Fish, tell me." He wasnt spitting venom out alongside his words, but more like a bittersweet syrupy medicine thats overly sweetened, the kind you'd take as a child and wanna throw up after.

"I dont know."

...

[sadsoftserve]

So you know that Percy and Howie go to Lowe's bit a posted a while ago? So, I turned it into a mini fanfic, like any sane person does. :)

This is mainly Percy centric as I really like her character and how she acts, so this is like one giant headcannon for her. Oh, howies here too.

Percy And Howie go to Lowe's- a mini fanfic-

"Percival." Howie muttered under his breath as he watched Percy mindlessly wander through the lights section of the Lowe's. It was clear Percy was intrigued with the lights, as she looked like a moth drawn to a flame. However, Howie didn't have time for her antics, he came to get two things, screws, and 2 by 4's.

Percy wasn't into construction, she was primarily architectural, the step that comes before construction, so looking at lights, lamps, doors, and Windows was what she wanted to do. So she did exactly that.

"Percy." Howie spoke a bit louder and sterner this time, seeming to grab her attention. She looked over to him from the light fixture she was currently looking at.

"Oh, it seems I have gotten distracted once more. I truely apologize Howie." Percy apologized, as she turned her body to face him. She was standing in her usual stiff way as she spoke.

Howie sighed, he knew she couldn't help it and he was willing to be patient, but he wasn't a very patient person.

"You're fine Percy. Just try not to let it happen again." He sighed, as he and Percy continued to walk through the rest of the Lowe's heading to the wood section to grab the 2x4's, which were conveniently placed close to the screws he needed to make his 💫 honeyed snacks💫.

Both were quiet as they walked through the hardware store. Nothing to talk about, both were there to get what they needed to complete the job they were working on. Besides Howie always took small talk as a waste of time. And Percy disnt mind the silence, though the large amount of people there was overstimulating her a bit. But, nothing she couldn't handle.

Soon enough, both were in the wood section, Howie looking at various 2x4s and Percy watching. Howie was very picky when it came to building materials, he tended to stick with what he knew was reliable. However, Percy was getting antsy. She knew about his pickiness, and she was usually patient when it came to stuff like this, but, the noises, people, and bright lights of the Lowe's were sending Percys brain into overstimulation.

Percy audibly sighed as she begun lightly tapping her foot against the concrete floors. Howie took this as a sign of impatience from the woman.

"I'm trying to do this as fast as possible Percy, give me a moment." Howie responded to her audible sigh and body language as he looked at her then back to the wood in the aisle.

"No, no. Take your time, Howie." She responded with her usual monotone and polite voice, as she started to look around the aisle as she waited. Wood. That's all she saw, god, she's only been in this aisle 5 minutes and she hated it.

She looked back to Howie, noticing he was completely invested in trying to find a good enough wood, that she could slip away, and hopefully find somewhere else to look that wasn't a wood aisle. She took the chance and slipped away, out of his view and continued walking through the Lowe's.

The first place she found herself in was the carpet section. One of the many places in the store she liked. Percy wandered down the aisle of carpets, feeling each sample upon the shelves, it calmed her down a bit. The feeling of carpet was one she enjoyed, and one that didn't give her that disgusting chill down her spine when she touched it.

Percy inhaled in the hardware store scent, as she exited the carpet section and moved her way along the store. She passed aisle after aisle of hardware goods, tools and many other things you would expect to find at a Lowe's. For some odd reason, Percy didn't feel as overstimulated as she did when she was in the wood aisle waiting for Howie. Why was that? She had no clue. Maybe it was the scent of the wood. Maybe it was the fact Howie was taking a long time, or maybe, Percy was self soothing by using ways she knew would calm her down. Either or, she felt more grounded than earlier.

Percy continued walking. She went from the carpet section to the paint section. She smelt the fresh paint being mixed, and saw the array of color samples that were aligned on the walls. She took a couple, some blue ones of various shades, and some yellow. Colors she thought that represented her. Comfort colors in a way.

Soon, she left the paint section, and made her way to the kitchen appliances. She took a look at the sleek silver fridges and stoves as she walked. Occasionally stopping to feel the handle, or press a button. The washers and dryers were there too. She found it strange that laundry machines and kitchen appliances were so close together, but she couldn't deny that she liked the sound the washers made when you turned the little knob.

She turned it a couple times, each time making a sorta ping noise.

Ping.

Ping.

It was a nice sound, one Percy found herself to like.

Ping.

Ping.

She smiled softly at the noise before continuing to walk. Percy made her way through the appliances and out to the registers. Faced with an annoyed looking Howie.

"Where the hell were you?" He asked with a look of irritation on his face, apparently Percy was gone longer than she realized.

"I was, here, in the store. Looking at the variety of merchandise. Why do you ask?" Percy answered his question and followed it up with her own.

"I've been waiting here for 15 minutes, Percy. 15 precious minutes." He glared at her with some sort of dissapointment on his face.

"I apologize for that. I did not realize how long I was going to be wandering. That is my fault."

"Damn right it is." Howie followed up her words with his own snide remark as he went to pay for his 2x4s and screws.

Before the two left the store, Percy took one last look back before smiling softly, she liked this store, it was a little overbearing at times, but overall it was enjoyable, she'll definitely find herself her on her day off.

[lovely-dove69]

The Arcana M6 +Valdemar with a S/O that cries blood

Asra💜: At first, they got worried, was this another unknown symptom of the plague?! Once you reassured them you were alright, they asked questions about it , as they wiped the bloody tears away.

Julian😈: Poor bby got so scared, dropping his coat as he ran to you. He dodnt remember any sort of condition like this, even if he was a really good doctor. Once explained, he asked you to explain, ect.

Nadia💐: She was on her way to your shared room from a very long meeting. When she opened the door, she wasnt expecting to see your bloody face, and bloody shirt. She rushed to you (with unbelievable grace), looking for any injuries. When she found none, she sighs in relief, rubbing her head from an upcoming headache. "My darling, i need a warning beforehand."

Portia👄: She disnt notice at all, until Pepi waltzed to her with little blood drops on her. Portia ran to find the source, and found you, face stuffed into blood tear-soaked pillow. She rubbed your back, frantically asking what was happening. Once you calmed down and explained, she offered to make her excellent pastries to make you feel better. 😍

Muriel💚: He was in the woods, chopping wood since it was close to winter, and yhe cave wasnt always warm. He was snapped out of his wood-chopping trance when Inanna came to him in a hurry. His mind immediately went to you, rushing back to the cave. He found you, washimg your face with a bloody rag. He reached for you, but pulled back, thinking he would hurt you more. Once you looked at him with a soft smile and an explanation, he hugged you close. How dare you scare him?

Lucio🐐: Now, this bitch, immediately saw, and screamed for a doctor. You had to slap a hand over his mouth so he'd stop screaming. It took about 30 minutes for him to calm down. He wasnt too happy at the scare, but kissed you. He was afraid you were dying, after all, he did sorta die like you did.

Valdemar👀: Curious, curious, curious...they sooo asked to 'inspect' you. After being denied, they decided to simply take notes, practically interogating you about your condition, poking at your body. Of course, they kept an eye on your condition, after all you were their lover.

Thanks for reading!

[ultimatebabygirlsupremebattle]

NOOO I DIDNT KNOW THIS EXISTED- I DISNT GET MY GIRL IN- FUCK!!!

WELP!! GUESS IM AGGRESSIVELY GONNA FOLLOW IT NOW.

I'm sorry, I kept the submissions over as long as I could.

But! There's still the mini tournaments! They're only one round each and they're themed, so you'll only have a week's notice to draw something and get it in before the open slots run out, but they do take submissions! They will be posted on Saturdays at 5pm EST and will contain the next week's theme so everyone can get ready! The first one will be tournament art exclusively, but from there you can immediately start getting ready for the next one!

[lqfiles]

DUDEEEE i was just going to re-read your works (need comfort because it’s been a couple of rough days as an army ✊🏼😔) (also, DONT ATTACK ME IM NICE PLSSS 😭😭)

but i would take jisung’s cookies too tf 😒 literally i wouldn’t even answer and would grab em, snatch em, and eat them in front of his face idcccc (this part tho made me laugh tho bc i would accidentally steal someone’s food too 😭 i embarrass way too often)

AND noooo knowing everyone in the neighborhood is having everyone know your business!! everyone talks shit about everyone so i gotta stand on business (cue my rbf because as much as i can easily befriend people, im shy 🥲)

ALSO I CANT WAIT FOR MORE? you write your characters so beautifully, im in love and i can’t wait for more 😩 literally every update is a little surprise hehe

(i noticed this btw but excuse the fact i say literally, dude, and like a lot, im from california and it’s a habit 😔🤞🏼)

- 🫧

(Bella has a little photoshoot today 🤭)

(it’s okay you’re one of the tolerable ones you’re my fave army ❤️🙏🏽) anyways that makes me wanna reread some of my stuff too now oh my god i love feeling the nostalgia, let me go and check my first few works out 😭

I FEEL LIKE IM THE TYPE TO MISTAKE THAT TOO like someone stretches their hand out with some food towards me while talking about i’m gonna assume they’re offering me food like.. MY BAD!

I DISNT EVEN CONSIDER THAT OOOUUU i just know drama gets passed around quickly over there 😭😭😭 you better stand on business and keep your OWN business to yourself and hope your fam does too 🙄

thank you bae 🥺 tbh the first few chaps aren’t THAT interesting as they haven’t properly met yet but i already wrote up to chap 6? 7? AND FHATS WHEN RHEY WILL PROPERLY TEXT SO ITS ONLY UP FROM FHERE 😝😝😝

if that’s how Californian people talk i might be californian because i can’t go a sentence without saying ‘like’ and literally’ and ‘bro’, CALIFORNIAN SISTER!!!!! ALSO AWWWEEE THATS SO CUTE pls tell me how the shoot went 🥹🥹🥹 i bet she’s gonna look so cute

[maraudersidk]

Bartylus

TW: mentions of child abuse, internal homophobia and transphobia, underage drinking and smoking

after posting my last thingy I've decided to rant abt bartylus on here so let's begin *rubs hands togethet mischievously*

Fyi regulus is trans in this he doesn't realize until later on so they're not in the same dorm.

I know some ppl hc that barty and regulus had a fling but romantically it was on one-sided (barty had a crush on regulus) I however don't i hc that they dated from third year till a little before Christmas break of fifth year, they had their first date on their first hogsmeade trip.

They were each others first love and even when they broke up they always had a strong bond with each other and whenever they had a problem they would go to each other first even after jegulus and rosekiller happened (I'll explain those at the end).

FIRST YEAR:

When the two of them first met in first year it was because Barty was late for potions on the first day and ended up sitting beside regulus, regulus at first ignored him and didn't bother answering any questions he was asking. Barty 'fell first' crouch was immediately fascinated by regulus, he remembered seeing him at the feast after the sorting and barty obviously knew who he was and who his family was from his dad but he didn't care.

After that first class of potions barty began sitting beside regulus at meals usually not talking because he learned the hard way that regulus prefers silence. He started bringing extra jackets and sweaters because regulus was always freezing (regulus refused to take them tho). He also carried hair ties and bobby pins for regulus because he was always pushing his hair out of the way. He would give regulus knew nicknames everyday based on his favourite color floweres, books, because he noticed that regulus would always get slightly upset when ppl would his deadname.

Before Christmas break they sat together on the train with Evan Rosier and Pandora lestrange who came in halfway thru the train ride cuz her brother were being pains, Regulus didn't really talk to anyone but he was absentmindedly playing with a Barty's sweater ans making snide comments here and there. Barty hugged regulus goodbye at the train station (regulus disnt hug back nor push him away-he didn't get the chance to do the latter since the barty had let go after a millisecond). Regulus just rolled his eyes and said bye Crouch and walked across the platform to his parents and sirius.

During the break barty practiced heqting charms for regulus and started knitting with his mum so he could make one for regulus as a late Christmas present, his mum asked him why but he just played it off as wanting to get a new hobby.

Regulus was counting down the days to go back to hogwarts and possibly thinking of Barty tho he'd deny it if anybody asks. Sirius was teasing him relentlessly abt his 'bf' after he saw them hugging. He didn't understand why the thought of being someone's-preferably barty's-gf was bugging him sm.

He was also thinking abt the conversation he heard between sirius and James when they were talking thru the mirror one night before he went into sirius' room. Sirius was annoyed and said 'she's my sister james, there r rules abt that between best friends yk'. But he quickly looked panicked when he saw regulus in the doorway and told james bye and shrugged off any questions abt it.

When they went back to school barty ran thru every compartment searching for regulus, when he actually got to the right one tho he paused at the doorway, with the sweater in hand, not rlly sure what to do now. Regulus stared at him for a bit waiting before sighing and rolling his eyes with a small barely even there smile ans telling barty he could hug him for 10secs. Barty smiled before crashing into him, regulus stiffened slightly but calmed down at the familiarity of barty and loosely wrapped his arms around barty.

Barty let go after exactly 10secs and rhey sat down since the train was gonna start moving soon. Regulus was abt to ask abt the sweater when Barty threw it onto regulus' lap and blurted a rushed 'merry Christmas Silver'. Regulus was silent for a while scaring barty who was just now realizing that it was a bit much.

After abt a full 2mins regulus turned to barty with slightly tearful eyes and said 'for me?' Barty didnt rlly pick up the question instead focusing on regulus tears and he started panicking, 'Is it rlly thqt ugly? Im sorry I've never knitted before i just wanted to give u something im so sorry'. He shut up when he felt two arms wrap around his neck and a quiet tearful thank u mumbled beside his ear.

When regulus let go he frantically wiped his face then smirked at barty, 'Silver?'. Barty blushed slightly and said, ' is it bad?'. Regulus chuckled slightly, 'no i like it'. The nickname stuck and became a permanent thing.

Throughout the school year they spent alot of time together esp in the library since regulus liked reading and barty loved to make fun of the funny looking ppl in the history books, they didn't really hang out with anyone other than evan and pandora, usually sitting with them at meals.

SECOND YEAR:

Barty starts to notice how tired regulus gets back from summer and regulus notices barty never mentioned his father and scowling at him whenever he's mentioned in the newspapers. They don't really talk abt it but they know the other understands and doesn't push rhem for answers. Barty also develops a stton hatred for james potter since he like everyone else notice that he very obviously has a crush on regulus. Barty makes little jokes abt being in a relationship with regulus but stopped saying wife and gf when he say the look of sadness in regulus' eyes.

They spend every second of their days together, and barty going to all of regulus games and always runs up ans hug him with after each one.

After Christmas break regulus came back with a scar on his wrist that only showed if u rlly looked and barty noticed and asked him abt it but regulus just brushed him off with a cold look and didn't talk for thw rest of the train ride to school. The next day tho regulus was back to normal and gave barty a smile during breakfast to reassure him.

Regulus started warming up to evan and pandora as well, already being kinda familiar with them from events with their parents. Regulus also was more open to physical touch from barty as he was thw clingest person alive. Barty was always touching him somehow whether it be his head on regulus shoulder on locking their ankles together or sometimes holding his hand.

Before the went back home for break barty held regulus on his chest for the entire train ride back home, telling him silly stories to distract him from the reality of the situation. Before getting off the train they hugged each other tightly ans Barty told regulus that if anything happened he should come to him for the break, his father wasn't the worst but he was rarely home and he could hide regulus from his mum.

Regulus gave him a slightly forced amile and promised he would although they both knew it was a lie. He gave barty a kiss on the cheek and went back home.

The summer sucked for them both, regulus' mother was banning him from wearing trousers completely after she found the stash of sirius' hand me downs in his drawer. Barty had been

[ofstarsandfireflies]

Okay, so, I kinda wanna continue this one as another movie but I’m a bit stumped on what movie could serve as inspiration for a sequel.

You guys got any suggestions?

Stephen never really paid much attention to the world around him now or disnt need his protection anymore.

He kept to himself and himself usually liked to be kept hidden, almost ashamed of the washed out wizard he’d become.

He barely recognised himself in the mirror anymore.

His hair was down to his shoulders and his beard could use a trim, but he had work to do.

He was no longer Sorcerer Supreme, but just average everyday Stephen Strange, now an actor in a bid to do something with his life that didn’t require the use of his hands or his magic.

He was used to early starts and late nights, only having enough energy to make his way to his bed before sleep overcame him.

Which was why, whenever he found he could actually relax for once, he’d either catch up on sleep or maybe spoil himself with some rubbish television like a normal human being.

It was on one of these nights, as he searched the stations for something to watch, he came across a movie marathon that was on for fans before some big blockbuster movie came out called ‘The Avengers’

Actors portraying heroes when he himself used to be one.

It was ironic.

Stephen sat through the first Iron Man movie, having nothing else to watch, and liked it more and more as it progressed.

It was kind of weird seeing a movie about his old friend portrayed by a man who was almost identical to how he remembered Tony.

He was actually looking forward to this marathon.

Until some things began to stick out to him.

He first noticed it in Iron Man 2.

How did this movie know about the tesseract?

How did a fictional movie involving fictional characters know about something so powerful?

Thor was on next, and Stephen knew what Asgard looked like. He’d been there himself on many occasions.

So he was a little stunned when the Asgard being shown to him on screen was an exact replica of the place.

Next up was Captain America, which expanded more upon the tesseract.

Somehow this movie knew about the Infinity Stones.

But how?

They couldn’t just be guessing, someone had to be feeding them information.

Could it be another Sorcerer?

Maybe they were one of the actors, or on the staff?

At the end of the last movie, a trailer played for the upcoming team up movie.

And Stephen sat rooted to the spot when he saw a chitauri leviathan on his television screen.

He’d fought those things.

And every detail about them in that short few seconds clip was scarily accurate, from their size, to how they moved.

What the hell was going on here?

Knowing the only way he could find his answers was to get into one of these movies, he waited for the right character to come along.

And just two years after the release of the Avengers movie, as he sat watching the second Captain America movie, he heard his name.

One of the hydra agents had spoke his full name as someone listed as a threat to them.

This phenomenon had just sky rocketed past ridiculous and into something-is-clearly-wrong territory.

Were they planning on making a a Doctor Strange movie next?

He wondered about that.

If they did, then the Avengers movie after his own should bring him into it right? He’d be on set with everyone from all of the other movies and would be able to figure out who was hiding amongst them who shouldn’t be.

He stopped watching the movies after that, more focused on getting his name on the list of actors this Marvel Studios would look at to portray...well, himself.

And wouldn’t you know it, he was chosen.

And it was on his own set, having to experience everything in his life all over again, that he met someone he recognised from the very first Iron Man Movie.

And every other movie since.

Stan Lee.

This man had created most of these characters and had wanted to star as a cameo for the eagle eyed fans.

It had to be him.

He had to be the one pulling these strings.

But when he cornered the elderly man, he didn’t seem worried about being found out by the Sorcerer Supreme.

He seemed ecstatic that he’d woken up.

He’d been trying to reach everyone in these movies about their lives in hopes of waking them up, but he hadn’t been successful.

But maybe Stephen could be.

Once Vision had been killed by Thanos, Wanda had quickly pulled everyone she could think of into her own reality to prevent them from being erased by the snap.

But she soon realised in this reality, Vision could be alive again, her magic inflicting everyone trapped in here to relive the moments leading up to when they had first become the heroes they were today, anything else significant to their character arcs being made into sequels.

Stephen tried to think of what he’d been doing before he’d given up using his magic.

He looked down at his chest, noticing for the first time that the eye of Agamotto he was wearing was just a prop.

He hadn’t had it on here.

Which means he’d given up the time stone to Thanos.

But what could have made him do something incredibly stupid and spell all their dooms?

Surely he’d have gone into the future and found a way that would have sealed them victory.

He knows he would have.

So either it had been taken by force...or...

Tony.

It had been for Tony.

He’d gone into the future to see how to survive that bloody battle and had come out with the knowledge that if he didn’t do something drastic, if he didn’t let Thanos have what he wanted, then Thanos would take Tony’s life right in front of him.

But this wasn’t supposed to happen.

They’d been making their way to Quill’s spaceship when the guardians began disappearing one by one.

Peter had grabbed hold of Tony and Tony had grabbed Stephen when the three of them had been ripped off Titan and thrown into this mess.

He hadn’t sacrificed half of the world’s population just so Tony could get stuck here, reliving his past mistakes without realising it.

He’d find him, and somehow he would wake him up.

He tried to think of any movie tropes that could help him and the only thing he could think of was to kiss him.

But if that worked, he’d have to-

He quickly pushed that thought away.

There was no way, in this reality or any other reality, that he would kiss Steve Rogers just to wake him up.

He’d have to think of something for everyone else. They didn’t matter right now.

What did matter was getting in a movie with Tony and bringing him back to his old self.

Quotes-

“That wasn’t an accident.”

“What do you mean?”

“I made it happen.”

“Oh, okay. Are you drunk?”

“Just find me an actor-a good actor! Maybe uh...uh Woody Harrelson!”

“He’s doing the next Hunger Games.”

“Um uh Michael Fassbender.”

“He’s doing the prequel to the X-Men prequel!”

“How about uh, Jeremy Renner?”

“Who?”

“Jeremy Renner! He was nominated! He was the Hurt Locker guy.”

“He’s an Avenger.”

“Fuck! They put him in a cape too? I can’t believe this.”

Confession. I don’t know where I’d put this but it’s such a great line I’m keeping it in anyway.

“And when we come back, an exclusive interview with Robert Downey Jr, who’s busy following up his billion-dollar Iron Man franchise with the equally successful Avengers series. He will take us behind the scenes-“

“That clown doesn’t have half your talent and he’s making a fortune in that Tin Man get-up. We were the real thing, Riggan.”

Definitely Stephen’s inner monologue.

A Strange World

In the normal world where actors portray superheroes, living amongst them is a man who’s the real deal.

Or is it the other way around?

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[happyflappymoscowbirbpleyyn]

Best friend’s Brother

Prompt two: Rain - “I lied when I said I didn’t need you.”

Pairing: Seychelles/Iceland/2P Estonia

@nordicrareshipsweek

Madis has a crush on Emil. Did anyone know about it? Besides Emil’s brother Lukas, not really. Despite being around Emil’s age, he’d hung around Lukas’ group more. Until he’d finally set eyes on the smaller blond. How it had happened was they (Madis, Beck, Matthias, Tino) were hanging out at Lukas’s house. Emil had come down to get food and something to drink and Madis had spotted him. Lukas had figured something was up when he saw Madis staring in a certain direction.

“Oh, hey little brother.” Emil rolled his eyes. “Hi Lukas.” “Is Michelle still playing the game you gave her?” “Yeah, she loves it.” Madis watched as Emil walked away. “Who’s Michelle?” He asked when Emil was gone. “His girlfriend,” Lukas responded. “She’s from Seychelles.” “Interesting.” Since then, Madis had started hanging around Emil and Michelle more. Emil had found it a bit weird a first, but went along with it afterwards. He chalked it off as Madis wanting more friends his age. Soon it got to the point where Emil had to tell him to back off, he wanted to spend time with just his girlfriend. That’s when they stopped seeing him for a while.

By that, it’d been months and Madis hadn’t been seen. Both Emil and Michelle took notice of this and asked the others about it. Which is when Lukas told them about him liking Emil. Which was when they realized... what if he were added to their relationship? It was Michelle that brought it up first and they both came to the conclusion that they could try a polyamorous relationship if Madis was ok with it. They just had to find him, which may not be so easy. So they set out to looking for the black haired Estonian. During their search, dark storm clouds came in overhead. Was it going to stop them? Nope. Not even when droplets started falling on their heads. Where was he?

Michelle texted Emil saying she found Madis at Toppen bar, so that’s where the Icelander went. When he got there he saw Michelle standing outside. Both are soaking wet. She didn’t say anything, just turned back to look in the window. Emil joined her and saw Madis sitting at the bar with his head down. He’s most likely drunk off his ass. A sigh escaped him. He was just about to go get Madis when the Estonian slowly sat up, paid the bartender, stood up, and walked out the door. Blue eyes look at Emil and Michelle when he finally noticed the two.

“Oh, look who it is,” Madis slurred. He’s drunk. “The two that disnt seem to care about me.” “We were wrong,” Emil said. “Want to try being part of a polyship?” Madis just stared for a moment as he tried to process what was said. “Yeah, ok.” Both Emil and Michelle smile. “Let’s go home.” Madis wouldn’t remember this in the morning.

[clarity-forest-water]

The wind was cold and soft on my face as I drove down the dirt road to my new house, my new life. My family had been forcing me to go through college and know that I'm out I can live my life as I want it.

I got a job while I was in college as a science teachers assistant and got paid good money. I bought a house in the country and around the forest to get away from Everything for a while.

I went to school to become a family and child care worker and plan on moving to New York and starting my career. I pulled up to the house and smiled, it was the only house in miles.

I got out of the car and looked the house up and down, two story and cabin like. I pulled the keys out of the car and walked up to the front door, the stairs made squeaking sounds as I went up them making me smile.

This was my home, not the perfect White House on the corner. I pulled the house key out of my pocket and attached it to the key ring for my car keys and unlocked the door.

The door even squeaked when I opened it, I popped my head in and saw furniture already in the house. I walked in as looked around, the kitchen was to my left and a living room to the right.

I had stairs in front of me leading upstairs to what I assume are bedrooms and a bathroom. I walked back down the squeaky stairs and grabbed one box from the back of my car.

I placed it inside the door, I went back and packed another heavy box to the house, this continued until all my boxes were inside and the car was locked.

I opened my bedroom stuff first and then went up stairs to see which room I wanted to sleep in. I had three bedrooms and two bathrooms. The biggest bedroom had a bathroom attached and I picked that room.

I ran downstairs and grabbed my blankets and pillows as all the bedrooms had beds and the living room even had a tv. 'Who ever left here left in a hurry or disnt know they wouldn't be back' I thought as I made my bed.

Scarlet red bed sheets and comforter to match along with a blood red pillow set of two and a small black throw blanket. The bed was four post and had black tulle and lace hanging from the rail.

The room was seamlessly beautiful and had the most attractive look even without my stuff in it. I noticed the sun had set and I looked at my alarm clock, 10:30p.m. It was way past time for bed and I sighed as I walked back dow the stairs and locked the door.

It had a door lock and a padlock along with a chain lock, I locked them all and went to get some water from the kitchen. I grabbed a glass from a box I sat in the there and got some water.

I walked back to my new room and smiled at I looked at the darkened window. I was finally free from the constant nagging of my parents to push myself.

I finally felt like I had freedom and could do anything I set my mind to. "We did it angel, we spread our wings and flew" I said to myself as I changed into night clothings.

I shut the blinds and crawled into bed, I heard the crisp autumn air outside rustle leaves in the trees. Everything seemed at ease "we flew, we spread our wing and took flight" I said to myself as I closed my eyes and fell into a deep sleep filled with wings, my new home, and flight.

#just something I wrote #its not much but it is a beginning

[goldylockswriting]

Stray kids reaction to being called baby boy

Soo I disnt have much time to post this week. But luckily my amazing friend and writer @kpopwillruinourlife made this adorable cute post for me. So thabk you for making this ans i hope you all enjoy her writing ad much as I do❤️

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♥︎ Chan would be shocked by the sudden new nickname

♥︎ But wouldn’t hate it

♥︎ He’d find it rather adorable being called baby boy

♥︎ And would most likely like being called baby boy when he’s in the right mood

♥︎ Like when you two are joking around and you call him baby boy as a joke

♥︎ Or when he’s in a very soft mood and you call him baby boy

♥︎ He’ll turn into mush for a while but still saying things like:

♥︎ “Stop it~ you’re the baby here!”

♥︎ “Says the baby her/himself.”

♥︎ But don’t do it too much he won’t like it too much

♥︎ Woojin wouldn’t like it that much

♥︎ He’d chuckle at first thinking you’re joking around

♥︎ And would find it funny until he notices how many times you’re calling him that

♥︎ And when he notices that you actually mean it

♥︎ “Do you really think I’m a baby boy?”

♥︎ Confused since he doesn’t see himself that way

♥︎ Is rather honest about it in the end though

♥︎ So he would actually tell you that he prefers not to be called baby boy

♥︎ “I’m sorry... it’s not really my thing to be called a baby boy.”

♥︎ “What did you just call me?”

♥︎ Yes that would be Minho his exact reaction the moment you’d call him baby boy

♥︎ In other words he’d be shocked and would honestly not like it that much

♥︎ Cause he rather wants you to see him as a mature man

♥︎ Someone that can protect you and keep you safe and happy

♥︎ Not a baby that needs to be taken care of

♥︎ “Please don’t call me that.”

♥︎ Honest and direct with telling you that he dislikes it a lot

♥︎ Even if you’d be disappointed, he wouldn’t want to feel like a baby

♥︎ Please understand

♥︎ Changbin would be shocked at first and wouldn’t reply to it

♥︎ Because he’s asking himself wether you mean it or not

♥︎ But when you do it again

♥︎ Smiley cutie

♥︎ He would actually secretly love being called a baby boy

♥︎ But each and every time you call him that he just doesn’t reply

♥︎ Just his huge smile kinda shows that he loves it

♥︎ If you’d ask him why he keeps smiling

♥︎ “It’s not the nickname! Not at all!”

♥︎ You never even mentioned the nickname you gave him

♥︎ Obviously enjoys it

♥︎ Hyunjin his eyes would turn wider then normal

♥︎ Cause seriously did you just call him baby boy?

♥︎ Shakes it off and just continues with whatever you two were doing

♥︎ But will most likely come back to it later when he’s too curious to keep it in

♥︎ “Why did you actually call me baby boy? You think I’m a baby?”

♥︎ You truthfully tell him why you call him baby boy

♥︎ If the reason is indeed that you see him as a baby he wouldn’t want you to continue cause he doesn’t want to be a baby in your eyes

♥︎ If the reason is that you just think he’s super cute he’d most likely turn into mush

♥︎ Don’t call him baby boy too much or he might get insecure

♥︎ He wants you to look at him like a mature man not a baby

♥︎ Jisung would freaking reply to it as if it’s normal

♥︎ As if he’s completely used to it

♥︎ Probably confusing you in the process

♥︎ But it’s just his simple way of showing you that he likes it

♥︎ No, loves it actually

♥︎ So yes do continue what you were doing

♥︎ Keep calling him baby boy and you’ll get rewarded with a happy boy

♥︎ Cause being taken care of would be something that he loves too

♥︎ Though sometimes he would want to show he’s a man

♥︎ And would act like he hates being called baby boy but yeah no he loves it

♥︎ Felix would get mixed feelings

♥︎ Wouldn’t know what to say or do at first when you call him baby boy

♥︎ Also cause I see him being someone to call his S/O baby girl/boy

♥︎ So in the end he would ignore it also using this method to kinda show that he doesn’t necessarily love it

♥︎ But he would love to be called baby boy when he’s in a mushy soft mood

♥︎ When you take care of him when he’s sick etc.

♥︎ And he would be all smiley and cute

♥︎ He does love other nicknames more then this one

♥︎ He’s a sucker for cheesy nicknames

♥︎ Seungmin denies it hard

♥︎ Wouldn’t like it and would honestly push it aside immediately

♥︎ He kinda tries to like it for you cause you seem to like it

♥︎ But he just simply can’t get used to being called baby boy

♥︎ “Every time you call me baby boy I just think of Jeongin.”

♥︎ In the end just wouldn’t like being called baby boy

♥︎ He really sees it more as a maknae thing

♥︎ So honestly you shouldn’t keep it up in the end cause he wouldn’t like it

♥︎”I’m no baby.”

♥︎ Is such a baby though

♥︎ Jeongin would secretly love it a lot

♥︎ Whenever you call him cute he would love it but deny

♥︎ He is a very tsundere type so honestly he will never tell you wether he likes it or not

♥︎ But please just keep giving him compliments

♥︎ Keep calling him baby boy

♥︎ It’ll make him happy and mushy

♥︎ Blushy too

♥︎ And another plus, he will most likely get more confident hearing all those sweet words and that cute nickname

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Again thank you @kpopwillruinourlife. If you dont know her already then definitely check out her blog!

Love you,

Goldy

[taschas-clexafix]

Welcome to my TED talk...

Okay my brain is slowly processing the latest episode The Gospel of Josephine... So Wow Eliza Taylor wow I am speechless you have me mad in love with everything you do and all the characters you bring to life TALENT!

Now Josephine is a selfish little psycho bitch and I dig her vibes she gives zero fucks and the singing and dancing and calling our girls body a Ferrari mmm yes at least we know she is brilliant I mean scary smart a visionary as she puts it. We also know she is the worst little actress or really was not given enough info to play the all amazing Clarke Griffin to be honest I am pissed at every single person who witnessed Madi hugging Clarke with the dramatic it's been forever since we've seen each other bear hug that they ALWAYS DO! I MEAN "Clarke" just FREEZES in like what the actual fuck is wrong with everyone? That should have been it the end right there everyone should have been like what the actual fuck is wrong with you Clarke! Dead give away! What happens nothing maybe a few questioning glances but everyone is being selfishly stuck in their own heads sleeping on the situation that's playing out in front of them so blatantly obvious! If it had been anyone else who got body snatched Clarke Griffin would have known instantaneously also if Lexa was still alive we all know one second of being in her presence and she would be like you are not my wife give her back who are you! Now I don't blame Madi for being all wrapped up in wanting to go to school so badly she completely ignores the fact her mom isn't her mom she is still just a kid she hasn't trained enough with the flame to be more mature then her age yet. I'm especially pissed that Abby got so easily distracted and manipulated by Josephine like Abby is going off the deep end worse then before with the drugs she's lost it. Kane is not a saint he almost had her floated he had her beat in front of everyone to prove a point he's not perfect, no one is. Also they had to eat in the dark year they would have died so Abby stop beating yourself up for saving what you thought to be the last of the human race! On another note Josephine now knows pretty much EVERYTHING she SHOULDN'T because everyone was stupid and ignored the signs something was up! I'm sorry Bellarke fans but like he took for fuck ever! Then he approached it like an idiot because now who knows what Josephine will do with him like he obviously thought something was up so why the fuck would he get her alone come on dude this is why I only want platonic Bellarke sorry not sorry. Now things I would enjoy seeing is Abby saving Kane by Josephine manipulating her into the ways of the prime's making nightbloods and hmm maybe bringing Lexa back somehow can't be that hard I mean sure it would be a different body but fuck Clarke deserves Lexa and so do us fans. Ugh another thing Josephine said Consent is KEY! Bladeblah right now we only saw part of the tape for that first reborn Josie what if because she didn't consent she fights against josie and that's why consent and brainwashing is so important. Must be a mature and willing brain or the upload doesn't stick we all know Clarke will fight I think that Josie is getting some crazy ideas now that she has learned so FREAKING much thanks to the idiots Clarke is always saving god they are so helpless without her like I LOVE them but come on guys obvious signs ding ding ding lights going off alarms sounding signs! Clarke is going to have to save herself because everyone else is fucking clueless. All in all amazing episode I could literally watch Eliza do anything for hours straight she's so talented! Can't wait for next week where we learn that even more of the group is too dense to see the big ass red signs everywhere! Side note I think Octavia would have freaking noticed with the way Clarke disnt hug Madi! I mean all they have been doing is lashing out on Clarke for protecting her child last season and now she does some obvious shit givibg zero fucks about Madi like that come on! Anyways can you tell I needed to vent all that sorry not sorry.

Thanks for coming to my TED talk.

[crue6xx]

I don't mind (pt.1)?

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Type:Fluffy

Pairing:Mick×Reader

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You obviously had a crush on Mick the first time you say him, but you didnt think he was the romantic type, more reserved and quiet.

Being the groups "helper" for a whole 3 weeks was sure gonna be a ride, but yiu knew "helper" just ment tagging along doing whatever is helping them, but it was kind of fun although you expected to go with some other band, you loved Motley crue so this made your day--no year.

You acted as a shield for them and loved it, but things starting tossing over to a crush that may have gone right for once "nothing wrong with testing the water" you friend Stacy always says.

Stacy of all your friends pushes you with her quote to ask Mick out you know "test the water" but it's a job not a matchmaking ride.

No matter how much you liked him you wouldn't and you couldn't, that was your promise.

But there were there where times were Mick was irresistible and cute, and you just couldn't stop.

Make constantly sat with his legs open as he just sat there looking at quite nothing off into space thinking about things that probably know when there was thinking about, you got some of the ideas Mick talked about his conspiracies thoughts on reality and such like that.

After a show Mick asked you for a water bottle you ran to vending machine to grab one for him real quick, you walked into his room he was about to walk out you going straight into him while rushing in and tumbled on top of him on the ground he just kind of laid there and did nothing you obviously imagine this happen differently.

You got up as Mick did gave him the water bottle and asked if he was all right Mick said yes but he had a sparkle in his eye had a sparkle in his eye "you mind staying" Mick calmly said taking a seat on the couch and opening a water bottle taking a sip, you aren't used to being asked by people to hang out specially Mick Mars from Motley Crue, even the fact that Mick Mars was asking you because he doesn't usually ask peille, but you took the offer because you liked him.

You sat next to him for some reason Mick had his hand wrapped around your shoulder obviously you didn't mind, he was sipping his water has he talked about how he's actually generally a funny person and how he loves doing practical jokes on the band, you were a bit surprised cuz he seemed so introverted which he mostly was.

Mick soon stop sipping is water, he leaned towards you you back your head noticing he was putting his water bottle table as he leaned back up to position himself again it looked as if he was trying to kiss you which in fact he was, he pressed his lips against yours and I held your cheek you knew he intended to kiss you.

Turn into a make-out session that lasted for a good minute and the kiss broke Mick calmly said "wow I disnt expect that"

" wait what....I thought you wanted to"

" honestly I don't mind" Mick said moving some hair out your face, make went back to kissing you and made his way to your neck and whispered into your ear " I hope you don't mind I don't think you have the entire time"

Your hair on your neck stood one because you was kissing you and two because you knew exactly what he was talking about, you knew he was talking about the fact that every time he did something flirtatious on "accident" you would look over at him dazed almost drooling.

" how long" Mick Whispering into your ear as he had his hand running down your chest

" since I started here" you said returning the compliment by pressing Micks chest down and climbing on top of him and kissing him until a pound at his dresser door disrupted both of you "HEY WE ARE PACKING UP COME ON MICK", you climbed off of Mick wiping your lips and set on the couch asthma got up and open the door and told doc that he was busy and would most likely stay the night in his dressing room and meet the boys at the hotel tomorrow oh, you noticed he said it all while looking back at you every once in awhile winking and smirking until he close the door, and got back to where you left off.

[totesmygoats74]

Freshman 15

Julian was just starting his first day of college, alone for the first time, but he didn't mind it. His parents gave him enough money to start off in his own apartment next to his university, where everyone was booming about the new year that just started. Julian was awfully shy, until he met his best friend, Ky. Julian had a crush on Ky, Ky shared the same feelings, but they were too nervous to tell one another, untill one day.

Julian was never the healthiest person, his first few weeks of college were just pizza and soda, it only showed a little, but people noticed. Ky, on the other hand was on the football team, he's always had a dream to one day quit and just let himself go like he watched Julian do, but Ky was the best on the team, so it was nothing but a wish. Ky saw this opportunity to let someone else get fat for him, and Julian was the perfect person.

"H-hey Julian, I wanted to ask you something."

"Yea? What is it?"

"Would you like t-to go to the buffet downtown tonight?"

"Which one?" Julian questioned with a lit up face.

"You know, the pizza one" Ky hesitated, "The one you love to go to."

"As a date?" Julian blushed

"As a date." Ky answered blushing back at Julian

"Of course! You know I've always had a crush on you, I know it seem stup-" ky cut him off

"Oh my lord, really!? I have always had a crush on you, I just didn't want to tell you..."

-later that night-

Ky and Julian bothed showed up to the Pizza buffet, they were surprised at the fact that no one was there except them. They both took that to their advantage, Ky noticed Julian only grab about 2 slices of pizza, he was wondering why he wasn't grabbing anymore, and asked him.

"Oh come on, you don't want anymore pizza? Im paying for the buffet, you might as well eat."

"Oh please, I don't want to act like a pig in a public resturant, besides im not even that hungry." Julian said in the middle of his bites.

"Oh please, I would love it if you acted like a pig in this sort of establishment, helps the cooks know they are doing a good job at cooking." He said with hesitation trying to hide his fetish.

"You sure? I don't want to embarrass you on how I eat, you asked me here anyways, but... alroght I am still hungry, and its all you can eat."

Julian took note on how Ky was watching him eat, and asked him why he wasn't eating, but Ky didn't answer to Julian just shrugged and ate. Julian's button up shirt he wore to seem fancy on the date was starting to get tighter and tighter as the buffer date went on, and Ky's shirt was sliding up his muscle belly as well, Ky wanted to seem like he was enjoying the time and not let the stomach ache he had from all the pizza effect him. He mostly just watched Julian's buttons get tighter when he got on his 14th plate of pizza, Ky though to himself "Man this guy can eat, and it doesn't seem to effect him at all" and then he saw that one of his buttons was about to pop. Ky didn't want to warn him, he wanted to see it fly off and his belly come undone from the shirt, his dick was already rock hard from the second Julian started eating. The button finally flew off after rhe 16th plate.

"Oops, looks like I ate too much, I have to buy a new button up now dammit."

"Oh no that's fine, you just keep eating, ill go get you a new size"

Ky managed to get himself out of the place before he came into his pants on accident after watching Julian. He went to the store to find a new button up for Julian, he bought him an XL button up shirt, after realizing that Julian popped a medium, He was only wearing a medium? Ky thought to himself. He later returned back to the pizza buffet to find out Julian had eating ar least 4 more plates from when Ky left, Julian was chowing down on his 20th plate, and then Ky was prompt to ask.

"Hey you wanna ditch this place qnd head back to my apartment? My roommate is on vacation for Spring Break. So it's fine"

"Yea totally! Let me just get one more plate in, I really am hungry tonight."

"Alright, I'll meet you there" Ky said while handing him a note with his address on.

Julian was so full, that it took him about 10 minutes to get to the car, he had to push his seat back in order to drive properly and not have his stomach touch the steering wheel. He finally made it to Ky's apartment when he realized Ky had fallen into a food coma, Julian himself was feeling a little tired too after have eaten not stop for about 2 hours. So he fell asleep on the couch, but when Ky was sleeping, he heard the door open and woke up, he noticed Julian sleeping up right on the sofa in his living room and took the advantage. Ly slept qoth Julian on his stomach using it as a pillow, and they didnt wake up until morning.

"Rise and Shine sleepyhead, last night was amazing, I wished it could have carried on, but right now we need to get you fed and home before anyone notices you're gone."

"Fed? Oh no Ky you're too sweet I could never ask you to fe-" Julian was cut off when Ky started shoving food into his mouth.

"Oh don't worry, I'm feeding you, I loved it when you pigged out last night, I offered to buy you a shirt because, well I almost came."

"Oh my lord...."

"Please don't leave, I need you, I want you, I want you to get fatter, please come on"

"A-alright" Julian said because he was nervous what Ky would do to him. Though, he always wanted to be a chub.

The next day Julian realized something about ky, his six pack was now a little tum, and Ky was furious, he would definitely be kicked off the team if this tum affected how he played, but he didn't mind it, he never wanted to be on the football team anyway he told himself, he just wanted to have something to do after classes, and then he looked at Julian, Julian was something to do after classes, and he gave Julian a smirk.

"Oof, I gotta go to classes, later we should totally do the pizza buffet again."

"You sure? Last time we went there you almost came in public... and grew a tum from it, what about your football career?"

"My football career is fine, I can always bulk up a little, all I need is you to bulk up A LOT more. They always say bigger is better."

-later at the buffet-

"You know this was a good idea, I love pizza, and I love all you can eat buffets, its like the perfect mix."

"I know right? Its like us being together, we would be a perfect mi-" Ky cut himself off.

"Um are you trying to say something Ky? It sounds lik- nevermind, im just gonna go get more pizza, this belly doesn't fill itself" he said slapping his belly like a drum, Ky blushed.

It was like last time, Ky stuffed himself along with Julian, though Julian's pizza gut was much bigger, Julian had to unbutton his pants to fit more, he didn't want this date to go to waste, he wanted to savor it. Ky, on the other hand noticed what use to be a muscle belly is not just a full ball of flab, he loved it, Julian's influence to him was like heaven, sure he was about to puke but rubbing his belly felt so good and arousing. He couldn't stop himself, nor could Julian, theh both stuffed themselves, people looked, but no one seemed to care to them. Ky was stuffed to the point he felt sick, Julian wasn't even half finished, sure his new large button up had popped, but he made sure to wear an undershirt, but not even that was helping, his belly was sticking out of his shirt to the point Ky noticed, that was enough to push him off the edge, he came into his pants, he moaned and groaned, Julian didn't seem to notice, he was ready to leave about that time anyways.

-later at Ky's house-

"So what happened? I heard you moaning and groaning." Julian said looked at the stuffed ky sittig on the sofa.

"Oh -huff- don't worry -puff- it was nothing" Ky was sppeaking through burps and was huffing and puffing.

"Alright I'm gonna grab a soda and leave then." He said reaching for the fridge.

"No come on, stay over for the night, I have a bed with you and my names on it." He said smirking, and noticed a bulge start to grow in Julian's pants.

"Oh yea? Does the bed also have S-E-X written on it?" He said also smirking

Julian followed Ky into his bed room and they started getting ready, Ky got down on his hands and knees and Julian syatted thrusting, Ky loved Julian's huge belly lay on top of him, his dick was getting harder and harder, cum was everywhere. Ky knew he was gonna have to clean this up, but he didn't mind at all, he loved it. Julian was having the best time of his life, he always knew he was gay, but he never knew how good it would feel to do this sprt of thing, they went on for 2 hours until both of them ran out of breath. Julian had to go home it was 1 in the morning, and it was the last day of Ky's roommate being on vacation, so instead Julian invited Ky over to his apartment to continue, but they didnt have sex, they ordered food, played video games, and stuffed themselves once more for the night.

Juliian asked Ky to move into his apartment, there wasnt as much room as Ky's but Ky accepted since he disnt mind sleeping in the same bed as Julian now, if he could even fit.

"Make yourself at home, literally." He said chuckling with his belly jiggling

Ky got hard again, the jiggling belly was the best scene he had ever seen, he didn't want any of that night to stop, but then they fell into another food coma. Ky woke up with a bigger belly, turns out all that eating doesnt just go away. His shirt was tighter his jeans wouldn't button, and his chizzled jaw turned into a double chin. He wasn't mad, he was happy, he thought he had too much of a fast metabolism to gain weight like this, but the couch was going to be furious, so he decided to quit the football team over the phone, his jersey didn't even fit anymore, but he didnt mind, he was happt to leave the football team, now he could focus more on fattening himself amd Julian up, Julian had a pretty big belly, and apetite for only being 19, but Ky never seemed to mind, he likes that part about Julian. Julian, though was loving how small Ky was, but he didnt mind he was getting more of a tum, he liked when Ky would use his belly as a pillow, and he would get constantly fed with Ky around, mostly cause his belly wasnt a good pillow empty and Ky loved that his stomach made gurgling noises in his ear, Julian always noticed a huge bulge in Ky's pants when he walked by, and Julian finally got up enough courage to finally ask if Ky could be his boyfriend.

"Hey uh, Ky, we've been going out on dates, and we even live together, so I am just gonna ask, would you be my boyfriend?"

"Duh, I fucking love you, your belly always gets me hard, and I would love to own your tum, and feed it, and rub it, I would just love to."

[feelingsofhope]

Found this in my drafts. Some interesting stuff here.

So, I’ve been getting a load of flak for how depressed i’ve been lately. well, I’m going to explain here...This is going to be long so get comfy.

I’m always being told to just “Relax” or do it for the “Fun” and not the fame.

See now normally ythis would be amazing advice to someone with a more normal background then mine. See why this is bad advice to me is because i didn’t get into Music cause it is fun. I did this solely for therapeutic reasons.  Now comes the part why it was therapy. I have really bad social issues, like o was afraid to talk to anyone cause i was an extremely slow learner. I didn’t understand the world or why people were the way they were. Not to mention i have alopecia totalis. So i lost my hair when i was in middle school 6th grade. And losing your hair in patches tends to kick down your self esteem and worth. I hated who i was, I hated that for some reason i had to deal with all of this  myself. Granted i made a few friends that became life long during this time, But, That was cause the common interest of FF7. Back to the hair loss, As you probably already figured out, I was bullied and made fun of a lot at school.Not just a little bullied im talking people used to fight me cause i looked sick and i was near them. the friends that i said i made started taking my side and helping me out with all these assholes. They were bigger than the bullys and they weren’t afraid to throw in a hit or ten. Now see this happened pretty much all the time, It was a daily regiment to get bullied and teased. this happened until like 8th grade. I had to repeat 7th grade so i ended up being a year behoind all of my friends. Now in this year behind i met some more life long friends. great people.  

Now that you have that part here is my home life... 

My father wasn’t much of a father to me, He used to be someone i looked up to until my niece was born. Now im gonna throw this out so you dont get it twisted. I love my niece and i dont hold any sort of resentment towards er at all. I’m very proud of my niece. But back to the subject.when my niece was born my father basically forgot i existed as his son. Ihe would only talk to me if to dicipline me or have me get him water. I tried to get his aproval on so many levels. But that didnt really happen. I was 11 when she was born, Cue in the stress and depression. Since i was just getting into middle school and all that i couldv’e really used my dads help to get me through all of this bullying and teasing. I didn’t get any respect at school and at home i felt like only my mother loved me and wanted me around. since he wasnt there i had to figure out what a man was all about. how to handle my self, protect myself and how to build my mind up enough to notice things. basically do what my dad was supposed to do. just prepare me for things i know he knew would happen. 

There is both home and school life.... Now here is where music was introduced to me...

8th grade i took up band class i played the tenor saxophone. Now at first i was annoyed that i was in a class where i was constantly judged about how i was playing. But i was wrong, Well atleast for middle school i was. i played in band for 6 months and then was advanced to advanced band. I took to it rather fast and i learned how to play the sax withing those 6 months. now this was a replacement for being social. I didnt have to make friends through talking to them and getting to know them. I made friends by playing music with others. This was an unspoken language tthat to me made more sense then any words that  could be spoken.Harmony in the room as all of the band played these songs. Me being afraid to talk to people led people to talk to me, Now i can talk to people just fine as long as i dont have to start the conversation. and i made a few more friends like this. 

So here is an intermission break down

I was bullied and my father wasnt there. I lost my hair do to stress and depression and i was scared to talk to anyone. Music made me feel like i knew a new language to communicate with the people around me. 

Now here is where Raves came into my life. during the summer before high school i went to my first rave called “lucid dreams”, I was terrified cause there were so many people there. I loved the music cause i was already listening to it for a few years already. But this scene had something different to it that i liked immediately. everyone didnt care how i was or why i was. They  would just smile at me and be friendly without me saying a single word.it was then ithat i found that the dj basically made the moodand was essentially the god of socialness. it was the first time i really felt at home and welcome in a very long time. After i started raving My hair started to grow back and i started to feel alive again. now just before i went to high school i went to one other rave that impacted me. It was called “Defcon 3″

This rave is what introduced me to the thought of being a dj. I remember me and my friends were stanfding outside and talking to this really awesome guy who always had a backpack on (Trajikk). Now we didn’t know who he was until he got on the stage that night and played some amazing hard house.Just seeing the attention he got when he spun his hour set i was in pure awe. i was talking to this man outside and he was completely coo. rhwn after his set i remember everyone going to him and saying how amazing his set was. This interested me causehe went up and showed off his abilities and was getting attention after. People were thanking him and saying how he made their night so much better. i seen this as he just helped these people have a better night. i mean he helped me that night. From that night i was inspired to become a dj, I went out and bought some turntables and a few records and started to play them. i had no idea what i was doing at all.  Then after about 6 or so months i found a website with a forum called “DJTrajikk.com” it was beatfrekz before. but it was the DJ i was talking to outside of the show! so i joined the forum and was like 5th place in posts. I  remember putting up a post saying i bought some decks and was wondering if anyone could help me out. 

Guess who answered, 2 guys from floorbangrs (Might have been beatfrekz still i am not sure) The first was DJ XLR8, He helped me learn how to count the beats and how to adjust. he disnt show me a whole lot but he let me mix and he would explain how things worked and why it didnt work. That day was amazing. I learned so much that day. Now the second reply was from my idol “Trajikk” he invited me over to his house and he tought me a lot more. I was taught how to count the beats and swith the beats up. Identify  and cueing. song structure, how to read a vinyle by the density of the grooves and howhen to mix and how to mix. These two djs taught me everything i needed to get started. a few months later trajikk gave me my first show called “Winter freeze” on December 18 2004. I was so happy that i was shaking. i played and of coarse iu was not so great because i was just starting, I played my set and stepped down. and the people that were there came up to me and started talking with me. They liked the music that i playd and and thanked me. 

To me this was heaven on earth, I loved being able to get off the stage and have people come to me to talk to me. I wasn’t scared of people anymore. it encouraged me to get really good at the art. i was beyond myself with how much music connected me back to the world of the living.

lets end this with why im so depressed...

Im so depressed because i’ve lost my hair, Lost my girl of 5 years, my father passed away and i have a lot of resentment still, I cant spin with these new kids anymore because its not to them like it was to me. It was my way of connecting to the world and now i lost my key to get back in the door. back in the day people would literally go to hear the music the dj played and stay for all the djs sets cause it was amazing mussic. now it’s a bunch of these new kids dressing like little hoes and douch bags. they only listen to one DJ and leave to go to a after party to get drunk and do drugs. and if they do stay they stay out in the smoking section the whole time. the music i play isnt what they like, My music isnt ‘Hard” enough for them. 

Now lets go to the competition night...

This is the end, I was pumped and ready to go and play the set of my life. I get there and i see so many people there already who were ready to support me. I was happy but i was terrified again. i had no connection to this scene anymore how would i dj? i was always confident in my abilities as a dj but this night i was scared more then ever. I drank a few and then played my set. I see in the crowd as i am Spinning the girl i cherish, My friends and my brother and his wife. My nephew and his friend all in the crowd. I freeze... then i press play on my track that was already playing and shut it off, i freaked out and just replayed it from the start. oh well. But with soo much pressure on me that i have never felt before i played a terrible set. They said it was a great set but to me....I felt like i let all these people that never come to see me down. I raised my normally high standard of my self to way higher than i could ever. I couldnt hear the music even though it was sooo loud. I couldn’t think, I couldnt do anything but hope.  The crowd stayed moving the whole time, and cheered me on. .. I felt like i wasted all these peoples time by playing a mediocre set. I let them down cause i didnt bring it like i wanted to. I wanted to impress the girl that i cherish... I put so much pressure on my self that i collapsed. I shut down and got drunk and hated my self.... 

Well i hope this clears things up a bit. You read this and tell me is im just being a dumb ass....