#i did make an appointment with my doctor

[stargazerdaisy]

Pretty sure I have a stress fracture in my foot. Yaaaaaaay.

[crowlixcx]

I’ll just go to head office and explain it all.

[funpuddle]

i say this as someone whos friends w a handful of plural/DID buds.. it's okay to come to terms with ur plurality. it's okay to say you have DID. its a frustrating thing to have and the world is very unkind to those with DID/who are plural. you kind of seem to brush off the really horrible trauma that seemed to happen to you really young, at least what i can glean from ur public posts and art. no, it's not normal for the bulk of everyone to have seperate identities or "guys" in their heads to cope with the world, but thats okay! no two people will experience mental illness in the same way. but sorry yeah, was going thru ur blog bcos ive been off tumblr for a min and saw the post conflating "alters/headmates" with "ocs/kinning". i mean this in the nicest way, they are not even close. me having a guy i project things i like/parts of me is not the same as having ur forming identity shattered into pieces by trauma and then ur brain coping to try and "fix" it by making a guy or guys to try and manuver the world

We all have parts maybe trauma just makes them more distinguishable. I was calling what were basically alters Ocs for the entire duration of middle and highschool and blurring the lines between straight up compartmentalized bits of self to serve a function, maladaptive daydreaming, and actual character writing. I think it's mostly fine with some awareness. For me it's just different words to describe things that perform the exact same function to various degrees. It's like a spectrum. But it's personal to everyone. I don't say that to negate my own trauma I say that but I think we can all be considered plural if we really looked hard enough.

Human brains don't follow DSM rules. Words and labels were made to serve us, not the other way around. I appreciate the sentiment it seems in good faith but in my opinion It's not helpful to fit brains in boxes

I am taking note of how it is safer to call an alter an oc than to accidentally call an oc an alter and perhaps I will have to think about that further and what it implies regarding internalized fears, but there is some genuine comfort in "not committing" to the idea and just letting feelings and thoughts come as they are, as they present themselves

[skunkes]

experiencing some real "nothing good comes easy" shit rn *fucked up scrub daddy reaction pic jpeg*

[blitzbuckz]

[disdaidal]

I wanna thank my irl friends who follow me here and also my beloved mutuals as well as followers who still send me kind messages and try to interact with me and my stuff even if I'm bad at doing it myself.

Honestly, things haven't been that great with me lately, so... it means a lot to me. Honestly. <3

[cultivating-wildflowers]

Found myself with free time on my hands (weekend plans with friends fell through because one of the girls is sick 😭). I get to go home and, after my second job tonight, do nothing until Sunday. Which is great because it’s been a crazy day.

[piningpercussionist]

And now for the month we've all been waiting for: WRATH.

[karda]

just made a doctors appt for something i wanna get out of the way before i start hrt, and i feel like im gonna throw up .

[running-in-the-dark]

I'm still not feeling great. now one side of my face also hurts lol, it's just one thing after another, this body sucks

[solpng]

good evening beautiful phone app ppl i am back

[curarems]

Exam season is great at reminding me why I should really get myself checked for adhd

[fancysasquatch]

My old HRT prescription finally ran out last week, and I'm still wait-listed by all the clinics in the area, so I was scrambling to find somewhere to get a stop-gap prescription. Planned Parenthoods are usually quick (I was picking up my first prescription within 90 minutes of walking in the door) but none of the ones near me offer in-office trans healthcare, and all the online appointments are booked out the next few weeks. Getting anything shipped from online prescription/pharmacy sites takes too long. I ended up deciding to just find the closest Planned Parenthood with open slots for in-person appointments. It wound up being the El Paso clinic.

The irony of having to go to Texas for transgender healthcare was not lost on me.

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

love my mum but why did she get me (her child who had surgery for foot deformities, who still has to wear custom made orthotics in their shoes, wears hiking boots everywhere because they’re true only things that don’t malform in 3 months to the weird way my feet rest, and has a bunch of damage and chronic foot pain related to my feet) barefoot shoes

[floral-hex]

bad news. ya boy’s got wicked low testosterone. I’m outta boy juice!

[nexus-nebulae]

holy shit i think this past saturday was the first time in TEN ENTIRE MONTHS that i forgot to take my pills for a day