#i definitely will not have forgotten about it by the time im done reading

[joysmileyay]

got rly bored and was going to write my first ever piece of homestuck fanfiction but then i was like wait i cant address this without rereading i dont wanna mischaracterize him here... and so now for the first time in like 3 or 4 fucking years i will be rereading homestuck. so that i can write a very short fic about dave and rose talking on the meteor

[l0vem41l]

something's wrong with the morning.

「 tws + notes: no tws, unedited 2 the max, potentially ooc but WHO GAF (me. igaf), he misreads tone over text and it's totally not me projecting, bros just a little anxious and its totally not me projecting, richard "acts of service" grayson in the real, pretty heavily romantic implied but it can be interpreted as platonic becuz we fw that here!!!!! 」

「 gn!reader, can be platonic or romantic <3 」

↳ ft. richard "dick" grayson/nightwing

author's note: yes i am uh. doing More dc stuff. guys im really sorry but its literally leeching off my brain like a parasite i fear. enjoy!!!!!!! ♪(´▽｀) <3 the lyric below is what i based this off of but as usual, GENDER NEUTRAL READER!!!

"and how something's wrong with the morning / when he doesn't phone to say he loves me"

dick has been staring at the text since the minute he received it.

“gm.”

you sent two letters. and a period at the end.

immediately, there's a weird feeling he gets— a pit forming in the depths of his stomach as he reads it over and over again, as if he expects it to magically change in front of his eyes.

you usually send something… more in the morning. you greet him happily and use a silly nickname, he greets you and uses a silly nickname back. it's sort of tradition for the two of you, mainly built on the fact that him being a vigilante leaves very little time for the two of you.

so what the hell happened to that tradition? where’s his “good morning pookie!” or “hope you slept well, sunshine :]” that he's grown so accustomed to?

of course, he has to go on with his day like usual. at least, he's trying his best. to his credit, he does pretty well. after all, dick grayson is a performer at heart! even if it secretly feels like a part of his world just collapsed in on itself, he does not sulk about it.

but to the observant, there's obviously been a shift.

the slightly irritable mood he’s been in? definitely normal. the fact that he’s been swiping away every notification with disinterest if it’s not you? totally nothing.

more astute criminals in blüdhaven are a little off put by the fact that nightwing is still at full quip capacity while hitting just a little harder and being just a teeny bit more bitchy.

there nervous speculation going around that next week he'll be in the discowing fit

nightwing notices that his mask is slipping a bit. but does he care? well... not really. what's more important to him is what's going on inside his head. and he's been thinking— hardcore reflecting on every single recent previous interaction with you, looking back to everything that must’ve made things go wrong.

maybe he should’ve let you win that one argument last monday, even though he’d been pretty certain he was right because you really aren't supposed to stack cards in uno that way.

or maybe “anything’s fine” as a response to you asking what he wanted for dinner was the wrong move— he knew you hated when he didn’t help your indecisiveness.

was it the movie he picked for movie night on your hangout? fuck, that might've been it, you totally hate the main actor. how could he have forgotten?

either way, he’s dead set on the fact he did something to piss you off and now you won’t even greet him good morning.

later in the afternoon, you find a cute little basket on your doorstep containing your favorite flowers, your favorite snacks… and an apology note??

“dick,” you message, “what’s going on?”

he doesn’t reply back. instead, he calls you.

before you can even greet him, his voice chimes in with a whole spiel you didn't expect to be hit with.

“i messed up. i know i did and i should've done better. and i’m so sorry, i wanna make this work and i just— from the bottom of my heart— i really, truly apologize—”

you blink several times at your phone before interrupting. “oookay, woah, woah, woah. let's slow down. the fuck are you apologizing for?”

“...your message this morning.” he mumbles out, barely audible. you can hear the pout in his voice somehow.

“what? the one i typed up while rushing to work?” it’s hard to stifle your laughter. “dude, i just woke up a little late. i promise i still love you.”

he doesn't know whether to feel more relieved that you're not actually upset with him or embarrassed about the drastic, immediate measures he took to make things right. things being absolutely nothing, because obviously you weren't gonna be petty over uno rules, nondecisions, or movies.

"you should come over. we can share the snacks if you get here in time." click.

he'll be at your door the minute patrol is done. not for the snacks though it is a nice bonus but to see you. lord knows you need the time together.

— reblogs always appreciated!

[celestialtarot11]

How to Turn Your Situation Into Something Positive 🍵💗

Hi friends! Welcome to another PAC reading where we’ll be looking at how to transform any current situations you’re in! Keep in mind there are many different groups here and there will be messages which you won’t resonate with, just leave it for someone else 😊❤️ Please like, comment and reblog to share the love ☮️

Pile 1 🌟- Hi there pile 1’s! Someone definitely did ya’ll dirty in a situation and it left you feeling sad and lonely. A loss was created because someone handled a situation unfairly, and you’ve been feeling very down. This situation felt like it was weighing on your chest, and possibly there was a misunderstanding of feelings, or someone took something the wrong way and blew up here. And I feel like you took the brunt of the situation for a long time. I feel like this is something that was happening for a long time, and you’ve been wanting justice to come to this situation, or karma to hit that person to show them where they went wrong. Its also very possible for some of you this person reached out and reignited those triggers and you’re finding it difficult to be compassionate towards them. Your anger is understandable and so are your triggers, I feel like spirit is saying it’s important to know your boundaries in this situation and have your back. Look after you first. There are/were people who benefitted from you having no boundaries because they liked the feeling of power, and that needs to change. There’s this feeling of stepping up or no longer accepting their bullshit, which I’m so proud of you pile 1! Know your worth and value. Thats how you turn this situation into a positive one. Knowing your true worth and value will help you walk away from anything that is less than what you want. This person could be bread-crumbing you and as of now you’re done with that energy! Im also hearing whilst its very understandable you’d wish someone their own karma, spend your time wishing yourself the blessings you’ve always wanted instead. Feed yourself empowerment and start thinking “how can I support myself now?” be there for yourself pile 1, and also once you heal you begin to see a lot of things that you didn’t before. Within yourself and everyone else. Happy healing pile 1 💗🌟 Wishing you the best! Please like comment and reblog to support this blog ✨

Pile 2 ☮️- Hi there pile 2! ❤️🌟 Welcome to your reading. For you I see you need to distance yourself from a community or situation here and really really focus on your self confidence. Your esteem, body, and health. There’s something about getting your life in order and no longer letting external factors or people tell you what to do. Become your own boss in this situation. Some of you need to take an active role in this situation as well and know you’re the shit! 💗 like speaking up, setting boundaries, deciding what YOU’ll do, not focusing on them. You’re everything anyone could ever want, and some of you may have forgotten that. Your true power is meant to come out in this situation. What would help as well is remaining unbothered by this person or situation. I’m hearing it’s a silly situation, for some of you. Like petty high school drama. There could be someone trying to compete with you and show they are the best, but truthfully insecurities are loud, confidence is quiet. I’m hearing from spirit let them make a fool out of themselves because they are responsible for themselves only! What they say and what they do is on them. Continue working on yourself because I feel like whoever this is, is trying to undermine your confidence or skill, and you won’t stand for it and shouldn’t! 😤 I also feel like spirit will be giving you messages in your dreams about this situation so definitely sleep with amethyst, clear quartz or lavender herb under your pillow. If not allergic, drink lavender and chamomile before you bed ✨either way I feel like your presence is truly amazing and its like royalty, and what you need to know is that don’t give those haters your attention. Focusing on yourself is literally the best outcome here. Thank you pile 2’s! Please like comment and reblog to spread the love 💗🌹

Pile 3 ⌛️- Hi there pile 3’s! First of all I just want to ask if ya’ll are okay? 🥹❤️ Ya’ll seem to be going through it. Either a relationship with someone got unhealthy and controlling, or there has been a loss and you’re struggling to cope with it. Spirit is offering a lot of support and healing right now, and although you may not see it or feel it, spirit is protecting you heavily now. There’s a veil around you. I also feel that this ending was necessary because it was getting toxic, controlling and brought out the worse. I think someone here had to make a decision to choose themselves over toxicity. And it’s okay to hurt by that too. Honor and acknowledge your loss without shaming yourself for making the healthy choice 💗 I received the Queen Of Cups so I feel like there’s something about focusing on your growth and healing now. “Let growth be your mission. Let healing be your reward. Let freedom be your goal.” I love this quote and I go by it. Spirit wanted me to share it with ya’ll. I feel like ya’ll have been working on your healing for a long time and revisited something of the past, and its been tough processing it. In a way, its allowing this new version of you to come through and grow every time 💗🥹 This new version of you has a lot of emotional abundance and knowledge, and is definitely patient and caring. I feel like your higher self is coming through to also say it’s important to feed yourself kind words. If harsh words worked it would’ve worked a long time ago is what I heard too. Call yourself the names you wish to be called, like nicknames, talk gently, and use respectful words to yourself the way you would with anyone else ✨💗 I feel like you guys used to give everyone your secret wisdom, or the things you’ve healed from like all of that information, and now you are being asked to remain private and selective about it. This will help you a lot in this situation to focus on yourself. Thank you for being here pile 3 and I sincerely hope this helped you ❤️🌟 Please like comment and reblog to help this blog grow 🌟😊

Thank ya’ll for stopping by! Its highly appreciated and I really hope this PAC got ya’ll the clarity you needed ❤️🥹 Thank ya’ll for being here always.

Paid Readings 💗✨

[suburbanbonfire]

tagged by @18minutemajor for a hockey art share tag game! I enjoy talking about myself but am terrible at posting so this is perfect. i WILL talk too much, this is a threat.

rules: post your first ever hockey art, your latest hockey art, and your favourite hockey art, then tag three hockey artists.

FIRST ART

I made the Kraken Orb (Korb) at the end of the 22-23 season, as a commemoration, although a sort of ironic one considering i had only gotten into hockey in time for the playoffs so there are a couple players here i actually never got to see play at all before making this (Joonas, Jaycob, Burky, Fleury)

it was a whole lot of fun though! Prior to this i was in a months-long art slump after leaving a fandom, so it was a total surprise to have hockey of all things be what revitalized my art.

technically, the very first hockey art from this was Matty; you can kinda tell by the way his lines are a bit thicker than the rest since i wasn't in my groove yet. i also knew coming in that i wanted to arrange the faces in a circle, but didn't plan out beyond that, so i just made sure that i was getting a variety of head directions in my references and hoped for the best. My favorites from this are Gru, Soucy, Dunn, Schultz, Borgen, and Eeli. I think they all turned out really well.

LATEST ART

MEAT CUT MEAT CUT

this one is fun for me because it's quite different from my usual style of art, with lineart and non-realistic forms/face. I've had the concept in my head for awhile after hearing/reading so many interesting descriptions of the physical qualities that good hockey players possess.

'Sacrifice the Body' actually came in mid-art when i had an epiphany doing something like driving my car or an activity similarly unrelated. Before that, it was going to be a lil heart drawn on the chest and the going contender for the label was 'Ferda.' which would've been great, but sacrifice the body just worked too dang well with the themes.

FAVORITE ART

i mean, c'mon. it's gotta be this one.

my magnum opus, my white whale. it came out even better than i saw it in my head and i love everything about it. when i came up with the idea, i had TOTALLY forgotten that Climate Pledge has those giant windows, so when i set out to find references and saw it, it instantly made everything even better with LIGHTING!!!!

It was my first time drawing this kind of interior architecture and although there's definitely things i would do differently now, im so so proud of how it looks and turned out. I was also still drawing through my decade-old laptop at that point, so I had to split up the work on this into two files - i sketched everything, then worked ONLY on the bg until it was about 90% done, then made a flattened copy to open as a new file to draw the players on top of.

I also have a bunch of WIP shots of it in my drafts I guess I'll throw in here now!

initial sketch to get down the composition before i remembered the window | lines of the building! i actually found a 3d virtual tour of CPA from before it was built which had the PERFECT angle, so i screencapped that and straight up traced the architecture. Ultimately, the scoreboard and the paint lines ended up getting moved around.

planning out my lighting in greyscale (i really need to do this more often, i struggle with values so much, alas) | in progress bg! at this point, the ice and the boards/glass were the only things completed. I eventually said 'fuck it' to being able to see the areas behind the stands like you could in all my references, and just put the people dots all the way up.

Now the most gut-wrenching part

THE TAGS

this is where me being bad at posting comes into play, because instead i just lurk and thats not great for forming connections HERE GOES

@ruinedcasket - it has been awesome seeing your art progress! would love 2 hear your thoughts about it

@rouzys - your kraken stuff is so pretty, love how you capture likenesses

oh god oh fuck everyone else i know has already been tagged fuck oh sshit

If You Are An Artist On Hockey Twit And See This, It Is A Sign

[vxiphoid]

៚ BREAK ALL RULES !!⟢

❨ skateboarding with ruggie ❩ omg an actual fic😧😧!!! oh look its those two best friends that clearly have feelings for each other but wont admit it… KISS ALREADY. i need to start writing for more characters, i love savanaclaw too much😞 ooc ruggie (just to be sure), mentions of injuries, cursing, extremely bad explaining for skateboard tricks goodbye, not proof read, other than that tooth rotting fluff<3

⌜ 1k+ words⌟

♫ take me to the sun - d4vd & who - 웨터 (wetter)

“OH FUCK—“

“ruggie!? ruggie, are you okay?!” the camera immediately dropped as you slid down the ramp to assist your friend, landing in this crooked position with both of you somehow in the frame. ruggie was curled up on the pavement when you knelt down beside him, worry splashed on your face. it wasn't until you were kneeling by him did the faux hurt disappear from his face.

“i think i fell for you.”

then he shot you a cheeky little wink. you stared blankly at the man sprawled in front of you. ruggie had to purse his lips to stop himself from laughing, your expression was priceless. you looked like you'd just been scolded for some sort of transgression—y’know, before you finally realized he was teasing you, which prompted to you start attacking him with everything you could muster. “you absolute asshole! i thought you actually hurt yourself!”

ruggie, on the other hand, balled himself up and protected his head with his arms as he cackled. “ow, fuck— don’t hit me, i’m already injured!” he wheezed between chuckles. your punches got lighter and lighter till they were nothing but little pats on his shoulder and ribs as his contagious laughter effected you. and eventually the two of you collapsed into hysterical giggles, covered in dirt and scratches but happy none the less.

“you done watching that video? it’s your turn, you know!”

ruggie’s voice snapped you back to reality, the video playing from your phone quickly forgotten as quick as it stole your attention. it was supposed to be a simple video of ruggie doing an ollie since he was so adamant about actually having it down this time yet… he turned it into a corny pick up line after brutally falling on his face. you’re totally posting this on magicam.

you placed your phone down besides you, sliding down the small ramp for the umpteenth time tonight. “yeah, yeah, im coming!” ruggie chose the perfect night to practice skateboarding for the moon was at its fullest and the stars were all out, lighting the whole area with twinkling luminescence. it really made things look ethereal, especially in contrast with the street lamps nearby.

ruggie had found this skateboard a month back and there was this run down skatepark near the school so you both decided, hey, why not give some tricks a try. all the bruises and cuts definitely made your teachers and some students concerned but at least you were improving every now and again. it didn’t take long for ruggie to get the hang of it, at least sort of. there was this one trick you saw online that completely peaked your interest and in attempt of trying it, you ended up with a bloody nose. nothing was going to stop you from mastering this trick though, and if that meant getting bruised up more then so be it.

ruggie was squinting at his hand as you approached him, “i think i did actually cut my thumb when i fell, though.”

you rocked back and forth with your hands deep in your (rather, his) puffy jacket like the biggest shit you could be. “unfortunately for you, were all out of hello kitty bandaids.” he snorted at your words, turning around to face you properly. small scratches littered his face along with brightly colored bandages in different shapes and his smile wasnt as bright as his ocean blue eyes. he nudges the board towards your feet, rolling up the sleeves of his sweater before offering his hand. “ready?”

ruggie didnt miss how careful you were taking his hand and the slight squeeze you added when you stepped onto the board. your other hand flew to steady yourself as you put your other foot on the board. you glanced up to see him biting his bottom lip as his eyes trained on your shoes for any sign of unsteadiness or discomfort—like you might topple over if he weren’t looking. his concern brought a faint warmth to your heart as his gaze flickered to meet you, he was being so gentle with you. his hand loosened slightly on yours but you held on tight enough so he couldn’t pull away. “you good?” he asked with furrowed brows as his gaze lingered on your face. “don’t want you fallin’ off—“

“no.” you interrupted, giving him a reassuring squeeze. “i’m ready.”

for extra measurements as ruggie let go of your hand, his fingertips hovered over yours to make sure you weren’t going to fall, his hands quickly missing the warmth.

you started off slowly, gliding across the ground gently. ruggie followed suit closely behind, watching carefully to ensure no accidents happen. the wind blew past your faces, tickling your cheeks as you gradually picked up speed. he watched you smile to yourself, the glint of pride in your eyes.

it was only after you’d kicked off the ramp did he feel it—the familiar tug of your magic. the wind was working with you, your legs lifting off of the floor as you went higher. your back foot going under the board and flipping it back around, letting out a whoop that ruggie was sure he hadn’t heard from you before. his mouth opened wider than ever at your display—the wind was pushing you faster than he’d seen you move before. you seemed to glide across the concrete, never once breaking your stride. though when you landed, albeit a little off balanced, your eyes lit up like you had one the biggest teddy bear from a rigged claw machine. your face was glowing too, almost glowing like it could reflect your joy. your giggle rang through the chilly night air like music to his ears, and as soon as the feeling passed he felt it return tenfold. you were so fucking adorable. “did you see that?!”

ruggie braced himself for impact as you ran towards him with your arms outstretched, jumping and tackling him to the ground in one swift motion. the momentum caused the both of you to tumble onto your backs, your bodies pressed together tightly. his breath knocked from his lungs yet nothing stopped him from laughing along with you.

he pushes you away, scanning your face. “you’re okay, right? no scratches?” he reached up to cup one side of your face, gently wiping away a tear from your eye that rolled down to your nose. you were such an emotional little thing, it was absolutely endearing and god, he loved seeing you like this.

“of course i am! who cares?” you exclaim, knowing by heart that ruggie would catch you if you lost control of the skateboard mid-air. he always did.

your noses were brushing up against each other as you spoke, his eyes flicking down for a moment before darting back up. your lips were inches apart and if his heart was beating loud enough for the both of you to hear, it surely must have been so damn loud, you couldn’t miss the flutter of his breath against your face.

“i do.”

and maybe it was his tone, maybe it was the way he was staring at you in that way he was—so intent and full of emotion. you swallowed the lump in your throat; maybe it had something to do with the way he was gripping both sides of your face. maybe it was the warmness of his hands on either side of yours—you didn’t know and you didn’t particularly care. the urge to press your lips against his became too strong.

but he did. he leaned closer and closed his eyes, and suddenly you could hear the loud beating of your hearts, deafening even, as his lips brushed against yours for mere millimeters, yet your entire body froze in place. his touch was light at first, a feather light kiss that sent shivers down your spine. but before you knew it you had threaded your fingers through his hair, pulling him closer and deepening the kiss in hopes of convincing yourself that you weren’t dreaming. you weren’t. it felt just as amazing as you dreamed of, warm and comforting as you melted into his embrace while pressing deeper into the kiss with passion.

ruggie pulled back with a breathless laugh, resting his forehead against yours in awe. a grin stretched across his face, his eyes still closed and a dazed look plastered across his features. he could see why everyone always said that love makes fools of us all, because he was absolutely sure he looked like a total buffoon.

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[anowamij]

⚠️WARNING!

caution: Everything written on this blog is fictitious and written for fun. If you don't like it and if it contains a subject that you are sensitive to, I suggest you go out. Please heed the warning. Thank you for reading...  

A.N : Thank you guys for all of your support Im actually writing this blog for fun and this is so much for me... As you can understand english is not my first language but thank you for your support and care ... 

How would Ateez behave after care? pt2.

San : San may be very emotional after sex and want to talk to you a lot. He may have taken the precaution of cleaning by putting a few wet wipes on the nightstand beforehand. Maybe he even prepared water and snacks because he wants to talk a lot of deep topics with you. San will talk to you well until the morning and talk about the future, and he will want to look into your eyes as if to memorize it. He may ask you a lot of silly questions. Like, would you still love me if I was a worm (he actually does this just to annoy you) He's generally a sweet talker, and I think candid moments like this are more peaceful than taking a shower in the bathroom (please can all men take a sample from san?)

Mingi: In general, Mingi can be motherly to you and always ask you if you are okay. Even because of this, cleaning can be forgotten and he starts to suffocate you with nice compliments and wants to see you in return. After sex, he may be more than considerate and gentle, just like when you first had a girlfriend, he may be overly sensitive, and in your first sexes, he will most likely hug you and cry like a big baby with happiness because you value and trust him. In general, he becomes very possessive, emotional and protective after sex, he hugs you like a kuala all the time and doesn't let go until you say you can't breathe (he becomes a full rootstock.) Water and food are always ready, so you don't have to worry about this, but as a hygiene, when you are hugging each other,if you can't breathe and you say that you need to go to the bathroom, he probably won't let you go and tells you that it can be done in the morning so you can sleep with a hug until the morning... ( please don't insist, he may think you did it to get rid of him because he is too emotional.)

Wooyoung : Wooyoung is someone who can be a bit strict about sex if there is something that needs to be done and can give you some love later, if it's a bit rough he can apply cream after a bath and then hug you quietly and thoughtfully. Wooyoung is always outspoken and that is his love language. He can be very frank with the person he loves, especially sincerely, so when he is at the hottest part of sex, "Hmm, can't you just lie down like that? It's like I couldn't focus, baby :)''. When you're in the middle of sex. It's kind of weird, but it's wooyoung... When you wake up suddenly, wooyoung might say, "you look prettier than yesterday, wow," but don't ask if I was ugly yesterday because you might suddenly get the answer yes. But he'll definitely be very flirty after sex and maybe when he gets to take care of the serious part and relax and get a candid hug, he can make a lot of jokes and flirt with you... Just like high school sweethearts. The little giggles, the excitement as if it were the first of everything, the sweet compliments being said, the heartbeats heard from the outside, the sparkle in the eyes and more, wooyoung reminds me of these...

Jongho : Jongho would definitely be very possessive after sex. First of all, he would ask you a thousand times if you were okay, and after he was sure, he would definitely take you to the bathroom first thing and he could carry you in his arms because he didn't want to tire you out more. He'd give lots of compliments and officially become your maid. Jongho came to life to start a family, to experience love, to learn to love, and to understand what it feels like to be loved and compassionate. That's why he can hardly trust people and is very loyal in the relationship, he is the perfect father. (But he may not feel mature for this yet. He must learn love, compassion and intimacy first.) He needs to fully trust the person who will be their first, and he is also quite picky. He prepares a scenario for his loved ones to try many times and measures their reactions. Jongho is much smarter than you think... Anyway (if you have any questions about this, feel free to ask in the comments) If Jongho trusts you completely, he will do everything in his power just to show you your love and sincerity just to him. Just like he becomes your maid and will defend you anywhere, anytime no matter what. He likes it when you treat him like a baby... Please tell him you love him too and will never leave him side and promise he will be your slave...

[hollyhomburg]

hii :DD im usually a quiet reader but i feel like i have to say smth about bily because its just SO GOOD. definitely in my top three maybe even my all time favorite. i binged read all thats posted in just a few days. lmfao i didnt get alot of sleep. but goddamn it was so worth it. im IN LOVE with your writing style omffgggg. the way you write the members/mc is just so WOW. ive also never read a fic with a trans character, and at first i was worried i wouldnt enjoy it but WOW OMG im in absolute love with tae 🥺 tae is my comfort character :(( im bisexual and i have to deal with my homophobic family every day. the way that the mc always is there for her- im crying i need someone like mc 🥺🥺 i would also like to say that im jin biased and ive almost never been able to find a good fic that has enough jin focus. and again WOWWOWOOW the amount of jin content we get IM IN LOVE THANK YOU 🙇‍♀️ omega jin has my heart. im so invested in this story thank you so fucking much for writing this amazing fic. i love love love your writing and i cannot wait for the next chapter. i hope you recover from your small cold quickly, have some warm tea and take care yourself <3 thank you again! lots of love ❤️❤️

Ahhhhh I’m so happy that bily is one of your faves! It’s one of my faves too, I think like a lot of other fanfic writers it’s like “I wanna read this one specific fic but I can’t find it, guess I need to write it!” but ooooof binge reading Bily is something that deserves praise! I would love a chance to read through it in one go since I’ve never done that 👀 honestly, I wanna know what I’ve forgotten about! I love that people are still finding bily after all this time <3

Ahhhh the Jin focus is one of my favorite parts about the beginning of the story, even if we haven’t seen too much of him in recent chapters due to the nature of the love story changing.

On the subject of my cold, I woke up this morning and feel like mostly better! Definitely a little yucky still but! I’m glad it’s not lingering at all! I hate being sickkkkkk so much but thank you for your well wishes!

[wanderrlust0]

sorry i wont shut up about this but i feel so conflicted right now!!D; and maybe typing it all out will help???

and I highly suggest to not read this unless you want to be here for an hour reading nonsense LOL

im seeing my bestie friday so im gonna tell her everythinggg and get her opinion on all of this before i see him again in a few days.

i just started to hang out with a "new" friend but it makes my bf uncomfortable and idk what to do about it... and tbh im not going to stop being friends with them:/ ik that sounds kinda shitty on the surface but its like asking me to cut someone off right after getting to know them.

im gonna explain almost all of the context....

okay, so... 2020 was a ruff year. it was covid and quarantine. my mom was super super strict about it. once people began to hang out in small circles bc cdc said it was okay to, while still being careful, i was still not allowed to leave my house. i felt soso isolated and alone and it was def one of my lowest moments. me & my bf were basically in a long distance relationship.. or thats what it felt like. all we had was facetime. he started to hang out with his friend from school more often (i had stuff to say to him about that & its in another post). after a couple of months, my mom finally let us see each other.. but it had to be in my backyard only and we couldn't be close. it was okay at first but after a while we got bored and wanted more. he got impatient and petty about it. i understood where he was coming from but i was trying to be as optimistic as i could, even tho it was hard. its bc even for like the 1-2 hrs i got to see him, it made my day. (my friends were also starting to hangout in their backyards but i never told my mom bc i figured she wouldnt let me go.. but when i told her afterwards, she said she would have..??)

it was getting colder outside which made it harder for us to see each other. it was also just a sucky situation and it was creating some resentment. he wanted to talk with me on ft about it and i knew it would be serious. AND IT WAS. he did most of the talking and it was leading to a breakup. BUT (this is important) he couldnt for the life of him break up with me, let alone say the words.. SO.. he suggested that we do a break. neither of us have done that before but its obvious that it means its temporary and you use that time to figure things out and get some space (we DEFINITELY shouldve been clearer about it). he got emotional and i held mine in. he was saying all these good things about me and how he still wants me in his life and that we can get together again; that we would still talk everyday and be friends. at the time, weve been dating for about a year and a half. right after we hung up i bawled my eyes out and immediately facetimed my best friend in FL.

days go by and me and him are still talking everyday, only in a more friendly, platonic manner. eventually, he starts replying later and later, he turns off his location, and its like i feel forgotten about. im so used to knowing what hes doing that now it feels weird to not know and its hard to adapt to these changes.

I download tinder to find some FRIENDS to talk to (only for girls). he was barely talking to me and i was questioning our friendship relationship (situationship i guess). although i dont remember the details of my profile, i DEF made it clear that i was on there for making friends only. i had no intention of pursuing anyone for a relationship... bc i had my "bf" still. HE clearly went a diff route during our break....too much to unpack there but in the end, it just made him want to come back to me.

So.... Snow (that is their nickname ive given them for tumblr) was one of those people who i chatted with on tinder. theyre female but identify as they/them (i dont think they used those pronouns when we first started talking tho). they msgd first and our convo was actually really long-lasting so we followed each other on IG. (theyre also not the only one i've exchanged IG with so its not like i only gave it to them). Yes, I thought they were pretty when i swiped. sue me. i think many people are pretty. its just me acknowledging when someones aesthetically pleasing. eventually, we talked less and i also went on tinder less. After about a month into me and my bfs break, he begins to talk to me more like he used to. Then he asks if he can see me bc he missed me. Still cant leave my house with him but we hang out and its nice. HE ASKS ME IF I MET ANYONE NEW. i say no and hes like ...really?you sure? I ask him the same and he says no (while breaking eye contact,, literal red flag but i was blindsided). he tells me the truth over FT and that ruined me way more than i let on. (i think he's feeling a similar way now but for diff reasons)

we got back together after and the rest of the year (2021) was super fun. weve now been together for almost 4 1/2 years! since our BREAK NOT BREAKUP (not me @ ing him when he wont even see this) me and snow comment on each others IG posts now and again. for ex, ive said they looked so prettyyy & i would compliment their makeup skills. they would reply in a cute/flattery way. thats how they reply to comments. theyre also very embellished, like with emojis. theyve commented on my pics saying i look cute and hyping me up with compliments as well. it just turned into a natural, mutual thing; idk how else to describe it. its like having an online friend where you only interact thru the comments to show kindness. LOL IDK that sounds corny but yeah. girly things i guess. & then irl its so subdued.

so aside from the comments, we would react to each others stories like once in a blue moon. they posted about watching demon slayer so i said its a good anime. i posted me and my bfs halloween costumes and they said we looked so cute. fast fwd to the end of last yr... we said happy bday to each other and i brought up the idea of possibly hanging out one day if theyre down. so yes, i asked first. they said they would love to and that they were glad i asked bc they were too anxious to ask themselves (mood). im surprised at myself that i even asked but i guess i felt comfortable enough.

(i feel like im writing my own biography omg..) anyways, we get each others numbers and talk about our schedules. we were both very busy so nothing happened. we sporadically made small talk, as one does with their internet friend, over a couple of months. we talked on IG more & also thought about the plans for when we hang out. its now like almost summer and they text me asking if i was free last minute to hang out bc they were gonna be in my town but i was busy.

its now like a month later and i see them at the mall with their friend when i was with my bf. (i already spoke about this so i wont repeat it). after that day, we finally made a day to hang out. bf wasnt happy about it; i tried to reassure him; he saw and still sees them as someone to worry about; he thinks im gonna do something stupid and act out on any fantasies i may have. he knows im bi; he sees snow as someone who looks queer. he thinks that our intentions are to get closer to each other in a way that crosses a friendship.

he saw me listening to a playlist titled sapphic energy. it just consists of songs i enjoy by female artists and ive had that playlist for a long time now. i only edited the title.. but just now i switched it back to what it was before so thats ONE thing "fixed" to make him at ease.

he doesnt believe me when i tell him that my only intention and motive here is to make a good, new friendship. THATS ALL I WANT. AND THATS ALL SNOW WANTS. i can see how it can look like its more from an outside perspective bc of our IG comments but it was not like that in person at all!! it just felt like hanging out with a friend and introducing new things to each other like shows and foods. snow even made it clear that once someone is their friend, they cant see them any other way and that formed to protect their feelings. when we hung out there were literally no signs of feelings or anything that would cross boundaries. i didnt get that feeling i get when i have a crush and lose all my brain cells. by our second hang out we were past any awkwardness and it felt like a regular day out with a friend.

I did look cute that day but i always dress up!!! i dress up like every time i see my bf. i dress up for work. i dress up when im going out with friends. i enjoy fashion and makeup and looking pretty,,

last yr he was using bumble friends and he met up with a guy but they havent hung out since. ive helped him swipe on people before and i was okay with it, except when it was like an attractive girl.. would that be hypocritical of me tho?...idk. we def both get kinda jealous over these things. i can get territorial, like he is mine lol i am his. we would never be open or add a third and the thought of him befriending new females made me nervous. especially after what happened during our break. like idk, that still sticks with me and makes me think of bad feelings..and even more especially now after finding out about what he and his friend did.. but me feeling nervous about that is like what HE is feeling (T-T) I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT I CAN DO TO HELP AND IT SUCKS. i dont think i catch feelings easily. i dont get butterflies over people easily. im not an openly sexual person.

like. am i being unfair by continuing this friendship? snow doesnt know how he feels about us. idek if its worth telling but im gonna wait till more time passes and see how things go. would him hanging out with us make him feel better?? would it be too weird? he already doesnt like the idea of snow so how would he be in a room with them.

i wanna fast fwd to friday so i can tell my bestie about it and then fast fwd to sunday so i can see him. he is still not back to his usual self when we talk on snap. he tries to save serious confrontations for in person bc he sounds angry thru text so even tho itll make me nervous, i still wanna work this out so it doesnt ruin our relationship.

[tyki-mikk-and-his-prickly-dick]

In relation to my previous post, I'd like to say we can all agree that unfortunately Kanda is definitely going to die, right? He is walking death flags from start. Plus, even if he does survive, dude isn't ever going to be happy.

Adding more under the cut cos im just rambling mostly lol. Might be jumbled anyway, im on mobile and tired

Its sort of why I added the poll option "supremely happy". We all know its not going to happen, bc in all honesty to give dgm that kind of ending ruins all the suffering we've had to endure along the way 😔 The poll option is my happy au in my head where Alma is alive somehow and Kanda can chill out. I hope Hoshino doesnt pull a jjba reset, if you know you know. Its in the realm of possibility given the hint into the Noah's backstories somewhat

On another note, pretty sure Lavi is going to live, or at least not die until he's rejoined Allen and the others. Ive never forgotten Hoshino saying that she wouldn't answer questions about whats under Lavi's eyepatch bc she had plans for him or something along those lines, im paraphrasing here bc i read this years ago so my memory could be off a bit.

Speaking of death flags, I fully believe Lenalee will live (as of rn anyway might change. We havent seen much of her for a while), but Komui is almost certainly done for. He's lived through too much and if he doesnt become an accomodator for innocence, then he's almost used up his plot use imo. Dont get me wrong, I LOVE that man to bits but cmon. Ciao

I dont wanna even think it but Johnny aint in safe territory out here in the wilds. Mans literally breaking his back for allen, doing the most, being the best, keeping allen sane in the strongest sense of the word, but bro. Allens breaking point? Gonna be if something happens to Johnny. He's had his moment with Kanda, had his moment with Link, Lenalee isnt around, Lavi is stuck in a chair for unknown amount of time, timcanpy is... well.. yeah, he doesnt have a strong enough bond with Tiedoll, and that just leaves Johnny. Idk if he'll die or not, but something has gotta happen to Johnny, and probably soon, and im not looking forward to that. Its another red flag for Johnny that Link and Allen have properly reunited now. I bet that Neah will take over and hurt Johnny, Allen will go ballistic and take back control as best as he can, link will have to offer some kind of support, blah blah you get the drift. Point is im real scared for Johnny

[artinandwritin]

A little writing practise I did yesterday at 11 pm. I wasn't really sure how to put the idea of texting each other down in a way it still feels natural, but doesn't slow down the plot. I kinda think I did a good job for once :)

This is for GusSiri's modern au during the time period where Siri is about a month away from finishing high school and Gustav is just,,, fucking around in college doing who knows what haha. Have fun!

Unread-Read;

S: I got full marks on my biology test. Mrs. Haddock gave me a sticker because she thinks I worked so hard.

Unread.

S: Did you know red carnations symbolize affection?

Unread.

S: I found it online.

Unread.

S: I thought you would like it, you told me once you like carnations.

Unread.

S: Can I send you some? I don't know if they'll come through okay with the post, but I'm willing to try!

Unread.

Siri took a deep breath and put her phone away - this was no use. She had scrolled through her past messages with Gustav Larson for what seemed like hours, and none of them had been answered.

Not a single one.

She didn't know what had happened between the two of them. One moment, he was texting her what felt like every other minute, sending her pictures of his homework, his dog Fanghook, or things in stores he wished he could buy but didn't have the money for - the next moment, nothing. Only unread messages.

Of course, he must be busy, Siri knew he probably was. He was in college, following classes to get a degree in teaching. He was probably making new friends, going out with them, getting drinks and probably not needing her anymore.

After all, she was still in high school, all alone. She had her friend Adelaide Jorgenson, sure, but all her other friends had already left to pursue a carreer. And now, even Gustav had forgotten about her.

She grabbed her phone again, her fingers trembling as she tried again.

S: How's Fanghook? He must be so lonely, now that you're studying so much.

Unread.

S: To be honest… I feel lonely too.

Unread.

S: I miss you.

Unread.

S: Gustav, I miss you. Can you please text me back?

Unread.

S: It's okay if you can't.

Unread.

S: I'm sorry if I've done something wrong.

Unread.

S: Or said.

Unread.

S: Just please text me back.

Read.

Siri's eyes widened as the two marks in the corner of her message turned blue; she leaned back against her pillows as Gustav started typing.

G: Im so sorry! Roommate hid my phone for a joke, couldn't find it for days.

Her heart jumped.

S: It's okay, I was just worried.

G: Can I make it up to you?

S: No, you don't have to, it wasn't your fault.

G: Yeah no, if you miss me I definitely gotta make it up to you. Of course, everyone must miss me so much, I was so legendary in high school.

Siri chuckled, slowly calming down as she typed a response. Oh, how she had missed his little remarks.

S: They don't talk about you anymore :'). But… I do miss you. Quite a lot.

G: Wanna go get ice cream or something when you get outta class tomorrow? I've borrowed this sick scooter from a friend, I'll come pick you up.

Oh. A strange whirl went through Siri's stomach; her heart felt really light.

S: That sounds a bit like a date, Gustav. Isn't that girl you had eyes for gonna be jealous?

G: Nope, turns out she already had a boyfriend. So there is no-one to worry about.

Relieve washed over her; her shoulders relaxed at his message. However, her racing heart kept beating, and her hands suddenly typed on their own.

S: Do you want this to be a date?

G: Um.

G: Maybe a little. Not gonna lie, you're cute. And you've always been nice to me even tho I'm sometimes kinda an idiot ;).

Butterflies, that's what they were. They were twirling in Siri's belly as her gaze was glued to her phone screen. Her hands trembled at every word they texted to each other.

S: I kinda want this to be a date too.

G: You do?

S: Yeah. I think so.

G: So I guess we've got a date ;))). Anywhere you wanna go?

S: The movies? They're showing Titanic again.

G: Sounds good to me. I'm gonna hog the popcorn, be prepared >:). And!! Pleasepleaseplease put on a thin dress or something. I wanna offer you my sweater.

Siri couldn't help but laugh softly, casting a quick glance to her wardrobe. A sundress may be best suited for his little request and oh, how she adored the detail.

S: I will! Can we make dinner at your dorm after the movie?

G: Yep, I'll just bully my roommate out. And afterwards I'll take you home nice and save.

S: I'll see you tomorrow, can't wait :).

G: See ya, can't wait either.

G: And Seer.

G: I miss you too <3.

A smile overtook Siri; there was nothing that could describe that special feeling she felt when he said that.

S: <3.

She closed her phone, putting it down beside her. Her heart racing, she slid further down onto her bed as she started up at the ceiling. Oh, this would be perfect.

This would be absolutely perfect.

@rosiethedragongeek for the tags!! Just a lil smt for funsies <3

[cafedanslanuit]

AHHH!! it literally feels like im talking to a friend every time u answer my comments😭 but im doing ok classes are kicking my butt but its wtv ima try my best. Your story along with xokiddos are my distractions when i dont wanna do my hw🧍🏽‍♀️

Another question i have is how many chapters will u write for this story?? i think u already answered but im not sure. do u see yourself writing in the next 10 yrs?

Also ur story kind reminds me of one on AO3 called your sugar, yes please(angel-devil x reader) so if u ever want some inspiration i highly recommended😭 but the thing is they haven’t updated since last yr but they’re just probably busy and i hope they haven’t forgotten about it🥲

ok im just rambling..😅

from a fan🖤.. again

good luck with classes!! and omg i love xokiddo's works as well. i remember i first read Heart of Glass, and now i'm hooked with Hammer. and im gonna start Bloom as soon as i finish this series i'm watching >:) (i'm watching daisy jones and the six!! so far it's so cute, definitely feel the fleetwood mac vibes)

for the story i have planned 10 chapters! there may be one more or one less, because, for example, chapter 5 and 6 were supposed to be just one but i decided to divide them in two. soooo it may change but so far it's ten chapters. regarding the plot, i'd say next chapter is an important one because of what happens, which has been hinted at since chapter three i think. something that was bound to happen i guess :)

i definitely see myself still writing in the next 10 years. at this point it's so intricate in my life that i can't imagine myself living without doing it lol. i do want to start writing in spanish again (it's my native language after all) because i haven't done it in a while, but so far i haven't got the inspiration for it. i stopped writing in spanish in... 2017, 2018? maybe? i got back into writing in 2020, but only in english so far. i tried writing some poems in spanish but they weren't good lol.

i wanna look for the fic you asked tho!! i loooove chainsaw man and angel devil so i think i'll definitely like the fic <3

also don't worry about rambling!! i do that a lot too haha so it's alright with me :)

[icouldntfindquiet]

Can you give us a sneak peak, just a small one, of the next chapter of Dream?? If not then totally fine just wanting a sneak peak. Also how do you think Florence feels that Vans spending so much time on Clara. I know that’s what the story was about but will this part fizzle out and focus more on florence and Vans relationship? Does Van think florence is the one or maybe not? I would love to see more of how he feels for Florence!!

Also not criticizing your work, you’re an amazing writer and I love reading all of your work just curious as Im excited for florence and van and what their relationship holds for the future!!💖💖💖

Yeah, I can give a sneak peak! And no worries! I’m not offended at all. I’m open to feedback and am curious what people think so thanks for sending this! ☺️

Sorry it took so long to write back. You made me think about where I wanted to go with this story and I got carried away. Putting it under the cut because it’s long!

Florence does have her insecurities. There are hints of it like when she said “we never forget the people we’ve dated” and when she teasingly threatened him saying if he’s thinking about her sexually, THEN there’s a problem. 😂 But she does put a lot of trust in him. Like he hasn’t done anything alarming to make her worry. But Van does worry that the feelings will come back when he sees her! You’ll get insight on what he’s thinking but after some time, it’ll be clear where he stands. Hint: Florence is still the one. 🥰

It seems like a lot of people are invested in Florence and Van. I’ve not forgotten about them, I promise! I’m just trying to figure out what to do with Clara without it being too rushed. If I’m being honest, I don’t know how far into the future I want to go. We’ll definitely have to visit Florence’s family again (Van has to redeem himself 😆), and Van and Florence need to move into their new apartment so there’s that. Once that’s all sorted, I’ll probably jump forward to Van planning his proposal. I get to explore this from a man’s perspective so that’ll be fun! I definitely want to write him asking her parents for approval, picking out a ring, etc. 😁 They’ll send out invitations to their wedding and will hear back from Clara. The story ends with Van reading her letter again but this time, it will be more complete.

And before I forget! Here’s the snippet. Thanks again for this ask and thank you so much for reading. ❤️

[puppyboy1337]

some words to my friends.

kaden : my amazing brother, you were always so much better than me. so much more talented, much nicer, much easier to digest. I love you my dear brother. I hope life gets easier for you. there’s so much I could say to you little brother, but I’ll stick with this : it gets easier. it gets better I promise you it does. I hope you thrive one day and no one ever hurts you again.

atlas : you’ve always been there for me, I wish I could’ve let you in more, let you know more, but I couldn’t ever do it. I was too scared I think. you’re an amazing friend, and one of the best I have. im so glad I get to call you a friend, even if we don’t talk much anymore.

nolan : ahh my goofball friend, always knowing how to make others laugh and not quite sure if you yourself are allowed to feel pain. I hope you learn one day that showing your pain isn’t a weakness, and that it’s okay to not be okay. you’re strong though, so very gentle with everyone and you care so much about everyone. it makes life a little easier knowing that you’re gonna be there to make us all laugh.

bella : little gremlin that you are, you’re a lot like nolan. you know how to make people laugh, how to make others smile. you’re an amazing friend. I wish I could show you more that you mean a lot to me. I truly hope you know that you’re an amazing person and that you deserve so many good things.

elijah : you’re so quiet, it’s hard to get a read on you most days. you have a deep rooted loneliness about you, no matter what any of us as your friends say, that will never go away. im so sorry I can’t help you feel less lonely, id give anything for you to not be. I wish I could do more for you.

lou : I hate to say this, but you’re forgotten a lot. you shouldn’t be. my first friend at our school, one of my closest friends. you’ve always come to me asking what I think of something you’ve done. I hope you never stop doing that because i treasure that a lot. we’ve grown apart, definitely, but you will always be my best and first friend.

silas : god Silas. you and your smile are gonna be the death of me and im ok with that. you’ve had a rough go at life, if I could take away your pain I would in a heartbeat. you deserve so much better than me, I will never know how to make myself digestible. I hope you realize how much you mean to me, and that I never wish to hurt you. there’s so much more i could say to you. I don’t have enough time to write it all down truthfully. one day I’ll tell you everything though.

[transcendence-through-exposure]

Hello and welcome to my page (If anyone does see this) i want to start with an introduction.

let's just say my name is D and with alot of years of battling my own demons, I've finally have an understanding with them to live in balance with myself. i would delete all the posts I shared but after looking at them i realized how depressed i really was growing up. It's a place in my mind i had forgotten about until recently and has been building up for some time now, so I've come here to share.

For some reason it's a trigger to be asked if I'm okay. I can't fully say im happy, but im at a point where i just can't feel emotions like i used to. I tried the whole emotion thing after being numb for so long... And so far it's only caused problems. for example, I've recently opened myself to have new friends ( because I've only ever hung out with the same group of friends since i was a child.)

Lets say i work with music not gonna be too specific but i ended up working with a fundraising group who i will not name and discovered the world of sober bars. I don't wanna say i had a problem with alcohol or drugs but i realized what i had been doing to myself but that's another story i will share, I'm currently 5 years off drugs and 3 years no alcohol or soda (nothing too hardcore) just liked to party when i was younger guess it was a coping mechanism for me and when someone close passed i went down a spiral it was the only thing that kept me numb. I used to love that numb feeling and the flavor of alcohol.. i miss it sometimes but im definitely a better person without it. growing up i was always around alcohol, drugs, and gang members. Back in the day it wasn't entirely safe in my neighborhood but im getting off subject again so i will definitely write about that in a later blog.

Back to what i was talking about long story short i let people into my circle and i guess for some reason i have this tendency to wanna help people when i have nothing to give a quote i always remember is " never pour from an empty cup" and i like to say " im not a cup. I'm the person who guides the water to the cup." Meaning im here to build you up, a way to turn the flow to fill up the cups of others. I don't know if I'll ever have a true happiness. again, it's a trigger and truly makes me cry sometimes even though im usually really good with not feeling anything.

Kinda why i started my career in music. It was a new version of me that i chose in my pursuit of happiness. I can honestly say if it wasn't for music i wouldn't be here right now. it's better than any drug or alcohol and gave the feeling of pure serenity. I want to show people that there's a world that cares for you even when there's no one around. When you need that conversation but dont have anyone to talk to. It's crazy to think that a total stanger can talk through this beautiful art to your soul and be able to heal from it.

I think that's enough for tonight it's about 3AM and started this on the beach (where i usually go to throw all my negative thoughts). I'm tired, ive been more tired than usually recently but i don't let it stop me from getting things done most of the time i dont want to. but i always push myself to get it done. Growing up depressed i learned to cope with it so i really dont feel emotions as hard as I used to

ps. Im not sad or happy im just good enough to get through everyday knowing that we're all destined for greatness, I'm more at peace with myself and understand my feelings. Im self centered, in balance with my thoughts and emotions. hope i can help others whether it be a story, music or personal poetry.

Ok now im done, Thank you so much for reading, hope to see you again peace and love ☯️ .

[cold-arrow]

Doctor’s Notes, Book 6 part 6

| Misery out of Mirrorbar | Summary, Things of note since last entry:

The airship, city errands Aldrin's accompaniment. mo money, mo riches, resupply Research, realization.

The Library of Mirrorbar, book on elementals. the smoke assassins  book, creatures from the elemental chaos, the fish and the "Frogs" Diseased discovery. taking notes, to take on the go

discussion of deadly consequences. a cure. departure for Deadstone Cleft. making aid, before it's too late. the Lantern Wrench warfare, Interrogation. a moment of peace. heart to heart a moment of panic. a dragon's presence

| 1 / 7 | the tension didn’t really fade after we introduced Aldrin to some of the other crew members and the captain. I’m a bit worried    as to how things are gonna go once we set out. Hopefully, it wont result with anybody being thrown over the edge? but I guess that very much depends. Lym definitely has thrown some glares at her brother, whenever she deigns to look at him. But hasn’t really done anything yet. Which is hopefully good?

-- I would have liked/preferred to set out as soon as possible as well, and… therefore felt quite guilty, for mentioning that there were still a couple of things I needed / wanted to take care of, while we were still in Mirrorbar. If it takes too long, ill just postpone some of the… hopefully less urgent things until later. Or next time were in the city. But ideally I get them taken care of right now, so that we might be prepared for the future.

Aldrin decided to come along with me, when I mentioned that I hade few errands to take care of, for which im grateful. Lym simply headed down below, towards her room on the ship, and seems to want to be left alone. And Omrick will be remaining behind as well, since he didn’t have anything to take care of. Seeing as it’s just me who needs to take of some some stuff. I’ll hopefully be able to keep by business a short as possible. And should very much keep an eye on the time. -- sold some of the remaining giant treasures that were still left in my bag. As well as the Ruby that Varan had recovered for me ( albeit a different one.) We’d thrown so many things in there when we assaulted the forge, that id forgotten, or overlooked some of the stuff that was still in there. the crown and the dragon cloak in particular. Quickly divvied up the money, and handed Aldirn his share as well. I feel like he deserves it. And don’t want him to feel left out. Will give Lym and Ormrick their shares as well once I’m back on the ship. This should hopefully, or definitely be enough to purchase the final supplies I need for the Lantern. And the others things as well while we’re on the road. (or air I suppose). -- got all the reagents I need. ( Hopefully )  Purchased some extra’s just in case. Which should (?) be enough. It took some searching to find a good shop, which wasn’t ideal. But at least I should have the things I need now. And haven’t wasted too much time yet.

| 2 / 7 | With all the purchasing and selling taking care of. The one big thing that remains is   Research.   Which… I don’t know how long it will take. Hopefully I can take some books with me, and check some of them out on the ship later. But I don’t really know what kind of policies that the library here might have, in regards to that. So ill have to see. Maybe they’ll make an exception,    if I mention that I’m part of the Lord Alliance? --

We had something more important to worry about… once we finally arrived at the library.   The door. Or entrance

I tried pulling on door a few times, pushing as well. But neither seemed to work. That’s when we noticed there was some text written above the entrance, that read:

A spoken word unseals me It starts with T, Halfway between twins The next character lies.

A riddle, apparently. It took me a while to figure out how to even start trying to solve it. Quickly finding the T mentioned it mentioned at least, upon one of the letters carved into the door. But after that, I…  got stuck. I managed to find the second letter as well, I think? But I wasn’t really even sure of that. And that’s about as far as I got. I… didn’t really understand what to do from there. And still feel incredibly stupid for not being able to solve the damn riddle.

Because, “if the next character is a lie” or is lying. Than how do you continue the riddle from there ???

I got a bit flustered due to my inaptitude, and my anxiety made want to give up, every time I got stuck again after the first two letters. Because I’d been standing there infront of the door for about dozen or so minutes now. trying to solve the library’s puzzle/riddle for, what at least felt like ages. And feeling guilty for taking so long cause the others probably wanted to get out of here as soon as possible. And making Aldirn wait, and coming along with me for all of this, while I got stuck in front of some weird door to the one place of knowledge and intelligence, which I felt like I was severely lacking in at this point. I… He… eventually managed to solve it. Thankfully. I told him about how I thought the first part of the riddle probably worked. And, he tried solving it as well. Taking sometime to study it alongside me. Before suddenly finding the answer. And speaking it out loud. The solution to the riddle, was Threshold.

After finding the second letter, he just continued the pattern. And found the R, which is where I got stuck. The riddle meant “lie” as in location. not as untruth. -- I uhm…. I’m uncertain whether im just stupid. Or whether its phrased poorly. If he hadn’t come along, I probably wouldn’t have been stuck their and eventually giving up, unable to gain access to the library.

| 3 / 7 |

The inside was   Quite   impressive. And I can kind of understand why the door was protected in such a way. Presumably, with even more abjuration or protective magic as well. The library here definitely gives the one at Crabgrass manor a run for its money. With bookshelves stretching for beyond my sight. Both to left and right of me, as well as above. Containing multiple levels, and a large cavernous pit in the centre, that stretched far into the earth below. Probably connecting to the underground part of the city, with its own section of the library.

Several people within it’s space, could be seen flying around. Utilizing boots of flight, or winged boots. To get around and access the higher shelves and more difficult to reach areas. Or to go down into the bit below. Both staff and visitors could use them apparently, cause it seems that they rented out the enchanted boots for personal use. As long as you remained inside, and returned them afterwards ofcourse. -- after looking at the interior for a minute or so, mesmerized, I eventually noticed a reception desk, and approached. And first and foremost, inquired about their policy on borrowing books. Since I  ?? wouldn’t really be certain as to when I might be able to return some of the books, that I’d like to take with me. The price was… a bit more expansive than I expected. So it’s a good thing a sold some stuff beforehand. 10 gold per week is quite a lot of money. -- Though it makes sense I suppose, all things considered.

The mention of what might happen should I loose the book, or damage it… was a bit unnerving. But I promised to take good care of them. And to keep them save within my bag of holding. ( which apparently would be beneficial to them, should I loose any of the books?    Not sure how… Though I guess they might somehow have access to the Astral sea perhaps?

               with that taken care of, I than asked for some help with finding some books. I… didn’t realize how vague my request was, for a book on elementals, until I spoken it out loud. I guess that “a creature from the elemental chaos” isn’t as specific as initially might have thought. (Big surprise) I tried to narrow it down a bit to: a book on air elementals. And a book on creatures, probably from the side of the elemental water planes within the Chaos. Which they kinda took as the best they’d get, and guided us deeper into the library. Searching for one of the many a bookshelves.

I didn’t realize that all the books were unmarked, or that some were locked even, until we arrived at our first destination. She pulled a few books from the shelves to look at, and looked at something the we didn’t couldn’t see on their completely blank covers. After browsing through them for a bit, she eventually found the first book she was looking for and handed it to me. “A Comprehensive Guide to Elemental Magic” by Alaric the Wise. Upon giving me a quick description of its contents it definitely seemed like it would suffice, and I thanked her for her help.

* in hindsight, perhaps the books have been magically obfuscated in some way. either through illusion, or invisible ink. And the employees have some sort of way to look or see through those?

-- the other book was a bit more difficult to find. The library assistant asked if we could wait for a bit, while she looked for someone who’d perhaps a bit more well suited for my second request. We waited for a few minutes, but she never returned. Instead a golem walked up to us, much to my surprise. And motioned for us to follow them. I was a bit distracted studying its design initially, before realizing that it was waiting, and quickly shelved my thoughts and observations for the moment and followed suit.

The golem led us quite far down into the library, to an underground section I think. Which is where we met with an older dwarven follow, surrounded by desks piled high with books. He first asked if we were the ones inquiring about a book on the elemental planes. And upon confirming, presented us with quite a few options to choose from.

Unfortunately most of them didn’t really fit what I was looking for, and every time I mentioned so, he simply  Threw  the book away, or against a wall. Which… nvm After having tossed several books to the side, he eventually found on creatures from the elemental plane of water, and the planes surrounding it. But unfortunately, I wouldn’t be able to take the book with me. However it was exactly what I was looking for, or at least as close as possible I think. So i had to settle for studying the book here at the library. And return it at the front desk later. I nevertheless thanked him for his help, leaving him to his towers and discarded pile of books. And sought out a relatively quiet corner to read from with Aldrin.

| 4 / 7 |

   there are a few reasons for as to why I was looking for these books. The main reason being to, hopefully, be prepared next time we encounter any elemental threats that… have it out for Lym.

And the frog like creatures we encountered on the road, as well as the strange tentacles she saw in Gauntlgrymm, were quite unnerving. and concerning. And if we are to face any them again, whenever we have another encounter with the Kraken, I’d… prefer to be prepared. – The other book on air elementals serving a similar purpose; as to study up a bit on those deadly smoke beings, or elementals? that ambushed us outside the cave entrance.

( as well as to look a bit more into the air elemental, that is powering the ship. The Item that I found in princess Cinderhild’s room, is still broken as well, as far as I can tell. Or empty? And might need some energy from an air elemental to restore. ( Also, I wonder how she is faring, in the outside world. I hope she’s alright ))

--

… So apparently, they are called Slaad. The things that we encountered, or attacked us on the road.

They come in all sorts of colours and flavours, and have a hierarchy of sorts that also denotes how dangerous they are. Grey ones being some of the worst apparently. Besides some interesting trivia, that they have gems of sorts? embedded in their skulls. For example. Something much more important became…. apparent / clear, as I read up on them. As in; some Slaady, implant  Eggs  beneath their victims skin. Which would eventually hatch and grow. And than devour the host’s internal organs, from the inside…   Or, A disease, that would slowly turn the victim into a Slaad. With no memory of them former selves.   ….   Especially powerful casters could be targets, as the slaad that   “Emerge”   from them, could possibly wield powerful and dangerous magics. I uhm…. I could continue on about the specifics. But I think I have some more important things to worry about, and take care of….

Finding a cure. Cause, while it didn’t mention,   How exactly the people got infected. I don’t really think that matters? -- And ill be looking into a way of hopefully curing all of us. Sooner rather than later. And take some preventative measures. -- I asked Aldirn to read the entries on Slaad as well. Just to make sure I had read it correctly. And… we quickly agreed to, Immediately return to ship, once we were done. * I made some additional notes on the Slaad which are within my other journal. And took some pictures to take back and show to the others, just in case.

| 5 / 7 | I quickly helped Aldirn with a bit more research on the fish we encountered in Gauntlgrym. Which were definitely primordial in nature and originated from the elemental plane of water as well. And they should probably? Be safe for consumption. In small amounts. But ideally it be best to not really on them as a food source, since the elemental magic that they are suffused with, could potentially be harmful to creatures like us.

Or maybe not. Cause perhaps the energy on the material planes cancels that. It wasn’t really clear on that part…   good to know though.

--

after dropping of the book about the elemental chaos at the front desk, and paying the borrowers fee for the book ill be taking with me, we quickly set out to the airship to go talk with the others.

Lym had decided to take a nap in the meantime, and was a bit groggy and irritated once Aldrin woke her up. But once we had gathered with Omrick on the deck of the ship, Aldirn and I shared our findings.

They were about as concerned as one might imagine.

I told them there was good news and bad news. The bad news being that all of us might be infected with a lethal parasite. But the good news being that, I probably might have a cure? Wasn’t sure yet. I know my restorative reagents are relatively potent. But not how much. Thankfully, Omrick explained that divine powers granted to him by his oath, should be able to cure any diseases. which hopefully includes parasitic diseases as well. Just to be safe. Both Omrick and I (hopefully) cleansed the entire party of any unwanted inhabitants, through our combine efforts. Him using his Lay on Hands, to cure all of us. And me quickly brewing together an, antidote / dewormer / antibiotic. The taste which wasn’t great. because the contents didn’t really mix well together, and coagulated a bit in… chucks. But ill keep that in mind for any future use, should we need it. And will make sure it goes down smooth next time. And tastes less terrible.

| 6 / 7 | We have finally set of. And our making our way to the Greypeak mountains. To try and find and scout out the Stone giants, that are increasingly becoming more of a threat. And a danger to… everything.

I’m a bit saddened that Angelo wont be joining us. But hopefully he’ll be alright. Am a bit worried as well, with everything going on in Gauntlgrym. We… should go there next. to help him out with things.

--

Began my work on the Lantern finally. It took a bit of time to prepare the final ingredients. But once that was done with, I could finally begin the enchanting process. Using a scroll of See Invisibility, I enchanted / treated to glass of the Lantern with the reagents and essence. -- The remaining components I used to inscribe some runes of dispelling and revealing magics onto the lantern itself. Which, should hopefully aid in its ability to reveal things, normally hidden from sight.

I just hope I don’t accidentally… find   Her  with it whenever I use it.

* full description of the enchanting process is in my other journal. -- Once I finally finished the lantern, I sought out Lym to show it to her and hopefully help me test it out. She unfortunately seemed to be resting when I went to her room. Which I realized a bit too late, once I heard her slightly irritated response upon knocking. But she was kind enough to help me out, and test out nevertheless. And it works! While it does need oil to burn, once it was lit, it was in fact able to reveal my invisible form with it’s enchanted light. Having taken a potion of invisibility, Lym was able to illuminate my from and reveal where I was. And it seemed to be working perfectly, much to my relief. Hopefully this should aid us, should we encounter any more invisible threats, chasing after her. Or any more Slaad that might now have it out for us   , along with the Kraken -- Aldrin had joined us for the demonstration as well, while reading a book. Curious to see what I had made. And after the few tests that I’d wanted Lym’s help with, he commented on how he was surprised/relieved that I hadn’t blown anything up yet with my Alchemy. Feeling a bit   underestimated, I offhandedly mentioned that I’d never blown anything up before, with one exception. And that was because the guy I was helping, was building some sort of explosive or bomb back in Mirrorbar, and had failed to label any of his reagents.

I didn’t really mean anything by it, but Aldrin suddenly got really serious. Pressing me a bit too much, for more details. I told him not to worry about it, and that it wasn’t anything serious as far as I knew. But… he didn’t really want to drop the matter. I tried to reassure him that it was most likely fine, and left it at that. But apparently he took offense to that? And mentioned perhaps needing to have a word with Lady Silverhand, while I simply left to clean up my workplace.

I don’t know, it felt like he was taking it too seriously?

--

Very seriously it seems. For he did end up contacting Lady Silverhand, and asked me later that day, to have a word with. Demanding, or… pressing me to clarify and expound in the matter of a bomb in Mirrorbar. I put up some protest at first, since…. I didn’t really feel like dealing with it. And that it was that big of an issue. But, it didn’t seem like he would leave me alone until I    elaborated on the matter. So eventually I just did

I told him about the All-purpose tool, and where I got it. And that, when I went to purchase it at a store that I had visited before, there was a different person or shopkeep there, working on something in the back. After hearing an explosion, I wanted to check if he was alright. And apparently, he had a small accident while he was working with some explosives. He was unharmed for the most part. But the Idiot hadn’t labelled any of his reagants. And didn’t seem to have a particularly safe work environment either. So, I helped him out for a bit, afraid that he would blow himself up otherwise. And upon realizing that I wasn’t send by his boss to in fact help him out, we agreed upon a discount on the tools I needed. I gave Aldrin a rough description of the young dwarf, and the name of the place, which he still was annoyingly incessant about. Like, how the fuck am I supposed to remember I guy a met several months ago. In perfect detail. I gave him a rough description the best I could. And asked him to hopefully drop it after that. And I requested as well to not immediately raid the place, for suspicious behaviour. But suggested to perhaps send someone to investigate first, and to check on the explosions. Kinda felt sorry for the guy after I promised not mention anything as long as he didn’t mention my name. so it’s the least I could do, I figure. Hope the idiot isn’t actually up to anything stupid.

| 7 / 7 | following day was a bit more relaxed. decided to do some reading on the deck. And had an interesting conversation with Lym and Aldrin. Lym was telling him a bit about herself. And some of the things that had happened to our group in the past few months. Like the Fire giants. Her parents and brother. The sky ship, and the temple. etc. So eventually I helped fill in on some the details of the things that had happened. And talked for a while. Hopefully it helps give him a bit more context on things, and a better understanding on everything that’s happened. He might also finally understand a bit now, why we sometimes forget to mention stuff to the LA, with how busy we are with…. everything. at least after the Frost giant disaster.

But, it was a good conversation. Am kinda curious about where he’s from. Should ask him about some of the things from his home next time I get the chance. | Something is wrong… There some to be a commotion above on the deck. And I just saw traces of a green gases outside the window. Some of the crew don’t seem to be feeling well and sound like they are couching their lungs up. I do…  What was that…  I-I-I  t-think I just heard to roar of a D-D-Dragon. Oh no...

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Hi again. The collars ask is so good! Read it again for a second time and had some thoughts. What if yoongi and tae had a playdate with the mcs meeting up in their lil collars??! maybe punishment?! Prob unrealistic bc theyre yanderes. but imagine their energy together! omg! for a more realistic version, maybe them sending a pic of their mc in collar to the other out of misunderstood jealousy or something. or accidentally walking in on the other. like tae walking into the studio. or he figures out the cover image or moans in the song. or maybe either try sex in public and the other sees them. maybe add ears/tails to the collars omg. idk but these sound so good to me omg. yoongi is my bias and tae is my bias wrecker omg. so my horny brain is on overdrive even tho im struggling with writing for college loll

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OMG UNIVERSE CROSSOVERS, into the multiverse of request m/cs 😭

what if they bought a little puppy playpen for them, maybe they’d argue at which one of their pets could do the better tricks and it just ends up with both the m/cs having a few toys plugging up with cum filled pussies as they nap by their owners feet :(

maybe tae and yoongs are really good friends so they buy matching collars 😭i think they’d definitely compete over who had the best pet and as yanderes there’s definitely a lot of tension between the two

maybe tae is a little less experienced than yoongi with the pet play, a little less mean so he wants to learn from his hyung and just barges into his studio only to catch them going at it on the couch.

i image tae sending yoongi a photo of his m/c’s cum stained thighs and yoongi wondering how on earth he got that photo that he used for his cover art, and has a go at him until tae confesses he didn’t even know that’s what it was and that it was his puppy’s slicked up thighs that he’d sent. and then maybe it would turn into a competition of how much cum they can stuff inside their pet because yoongi would definitely bring something up about taehyung barely making his m/c messy

i think both would be very very very into sex in public and would have definitely caught one another more than a few times, it’s not hard when one of them just fucks in the hallway or fingers their m/c in a room full of people, especially since i think both m/cs would produce a lot of slick, trained to leak arousal with only a few teasing touches

YOONGI WOULD FOLD WITH THE EARS add a butt plug in there and that man would be done for, he’d definitely take you from behind and tug on it just to tease you and maybe he’d even pet the fluffy ears when you suck him off

i feel like taehyung would like pulling his m/cs hair too much that the ears would get in the way. i think he’d definitely make her wear them, just so he can be mean and really make her his pet but once he starts getting a little rough i think they’d be long forgotten somewhere

good luck with college :(( my horny brain is always on overdrive it’s so bad 😭