#i couldnt choose between the two LMAO

[connorsblog]

˙✧˖° SWEET TOOTH P.1 📷 ༘ ⋆｡ ˚

warnings: gore descriptions of animals, mention of walkers (obv), and some cussing if you count that,,

pairing: soft!s4!carl grimes x reader

kind of an au where rick doesnt pass out and carl & judith reunite immediately after the prison era (if that makes sense)

I HAD COMPLETELY forgotten why i was here, i was supposed to be scavenging.. but i got side tracked by a cluster of ducks off the edge of this pond.

they all looked oddly peaceful, even when walkers were snarling quietly behind the doors of the barricaded houses from when the world went to absolute shit.

my keys dangled loudly from my pant pocket as i crouched down, but i no other place to put them because i lost my bag a while ago, probably nabbed by a walker that was wandering around and i didn't notice.

a duck waddled by my feet slowly, something in its mouth. "whatcha got?" i whispered, the duck looking me straight in the eye before dropping the item on the dewed grass.

i picked it up slowly, inspecting it. i realized after a solid 15 seconds of looking at it that it wasn't anything interesting — just a piece of overly rusted metal.

i shoved it in my back pocket before getting up from my grass mound i had made, and set off to wherever i found solace in for the time being.

a duck quacked behind me loudly, but i ignored it before i heard the crunching of flesh. i turned around hesitantly, a sob slipping between my lips as i saw multiple ducks being torn apart piece by piece — blood spurting everywhere.

i turned around before the walkers could notice i was still there, using all of my strength to climb up one of those tall, darkened trees until they disappeared.

EVEN AFTER SOME time, i was still stuck in that damn tree. why did i even fucking choose to go up here? i knew they wouldnt leave until the sun rose — chasing after it idiotically.

i think i started to doze off before i heard a gunshot ring through my ears — watching the walkers being shot from probably about two or three spots.

i sat up after they all dropped to the ground, my feet swung over the trunk. i guess the people that killed them hadn't realized my presence.

"who are you?" an older man had shouted out, i guess he didn't realize i was a damn kid but, better safe than sorry.

i called out my name before all three of them seemed to relax, the same man who yelled at me had beckoned me to come down.

"you all look rough," i said, crinkling my lip backwards for a second. i never really had a filter — but that didnt seem to affect any of them.

"yeah — we probably do," the woman said. her voice was nice, she sounded kind. well, some people are straight up horrible and they sound sweet as a damn peach tree.

"i'm michonne," the woman said, seeming to grin like she couldnt do anything but.

"i'm carl!" the young boy introduced himself enthusiastically, smiling. why did they all smile so damn big?

"rick," the older man husked out, not smiling. well, finally one with some sanity i guess.

after a few seconds of silence, carl handed me a piece of chocolate that was half melted. "do you like candy? i have more at the house —" he talked with a certain enthusiasm i couldnt reciprocate, especially after watching those ducks being torn apart.

rick interrupted him, "we can't show them the house! what if they have people?" rick whispered, but i heard every word.

"i lost my people 'bout a week ago. mainly just sticking to this neighborhood for now," i spoke up. i didn't want these damn country people to conspire about me.

"dad, let them come to the house!" carl pleaded, "they seem nice, and its already like nighttime now."

rick was in thought for a moment, putting his hand on his chin as his gun slacked in the holster.

"yeah — c'mon. it's gettin' late, kid."

a/n: this sucks so bad but i'm making this a series to preoccupy myself LMAO

[its-no-biggie]

Have you ever read the rvb fanfic Mind Over Matter?

lmao anon your timing is great, genuinely. im assuming youre here from my recent washilon post, and if you check the replies youll see that i hadnt read it when i posted that. but i have since read it! i actually finished it last night and. wow.

really really really great fic. literally everything i couldve ever asked for - the way the wash/epsilon interactions are written is SO FUCKING GOOD. the humor, the tension, the awkward tiptoeing around their baggage, the forced vulnerability of sharing a brain. and all while theyre constantly fighting for their lives????? oh my god. fic of all time. i cant believe i hadnt read it until now. ough and that ending.......

okay. spoilers ahead cause i really need to talk about this ending

i cannot stop thinking about it. because its like. heres what we know

epsilon is an old ai who is implied to be failing the same way he is in canon

hargrove believes that integrating with a human mind can fix an old/failing ai

wash experienced some adverse effects from accomplishing inhuman feats while integrated, but even though they were both flying blind and in a recklessly dangerous situation, epsilon was very careful to take care of wash and he came out of it almost entirely fine (well. barring the injuries he got from external circumstances)

even the most extreme degree of integration between these two is reversible

therefore the main part of hargroves plan that poses a real danger to wash is epsilon being removed while theyre fused

the problem epsilon has in canon is that hes unable to do all the tasks carolina asks of him at once. as he integrates further into washs mind he is physically unable to push himself to that level of multitasking because washs brain couldnt handle it, but if anything they perform better in combat than epsilon and carolina

epsilon demonstrates an overabundance of caution when it comes to his capacity to hurt people (especially wash)

so like. is there really any reason they couldnt have done this again? what if hargrove was right about fusing improving epsilons function? even wash seemed hesitantly open to the idea of trying again, even while he was still in the hospital recovering from this whole ordeal.

just hear me out here. alternate ending where, instead of epsilon destroying himself to power the suit, wash is there for the big final showdown (or epsilon is wherever wash is) and he convinces epsilon to get in his head again. integrate on purpose this time. he knows the risks and it still scares him but he trusts epsilon, even if epsilon doesnt trust himself. and it works and epsilon doesnt get destroyed and he chooses to stay in washs head because he wants to stay he can no longer deny that trying to power linas armour is not sustainable. and they live happily ever after.......

this is 100% cope btw - the actual ending was fucking fantastic, this is just the happy ending im writing in my brain because im sad about it. i almost certainly would not still be thinking so much about this fic if it had actually ended that way. but the fact that its so within reach...... what if it couldve worked....... augh. head in hands

[jessicameleon]

get prime numbersed

fuckkkk im getting prime numbersed!!!

1. how many followers do you have

the number says 443 but who the fuck knows how many of them havent logged in since 2016 since this blog is over 10 years old

2. whens the last time you went on a date

probably not that long ago bc me n skylar go on dates pretty often. though its been hot as fuck and skylar's surgery so probably last month actually, i think when we walked to the mall

3. how many posts have you made

17,588. 17,589 including this one i guess. though thats including reblogs idk how to see just posts that ive created

5. what color are the walls of your room

white. the landlord special 😔

7. would you consider yourself good at art

eh, im fine, im better than i used to be but ive got a long way to go still

11. do you live in urban suburban or rural

according to my city's zoning map i live in the multi family high density zone. that sounds urban but its pretty suburban id say

13. if you had to choose one positive word to describe yourself

girl ^u^

17. one thing you want to buy but can't afford

its fucking furniture. furniture is so god damned expensive and i just wanna decorate!!!!

19. how old were you when you found out santa wasnt real

genuinely i dont fucking know. my family didnt really bother with santa too much and it wasnt really a crisis for me to learn, i think i just kinda accepted it over time or something. maybe they did when my brother was young but they knew hed spoil it for me so i never got the luxury

23. cds or record players

cds nuts LMAO nah ideally both but theres just something pleasing about the sound of vinyl

29. last outfit you wore

its hot as fuck so i couldnt really go all out but i wore my blue overall romper with my pink loose crop hoodie under and my floral slip ons. and a kn95 of course

31. least favorite popular clothing style

kinda all of them really because im just doing my own thang and i dont wanna be compared to that shit just acknowledge what im doing myself. i dont even hate fast fashion that much though it sucks for environmental and slavery reasons but most of that shit goes right to platos closet which is basically exclusively where i shop so more for me and ill actually wear them lmao

37. uncommon / obscure topic you're interested in?

my geography special interest probably :3 im the only american who knows where other countries are

41. would you rather go on a date to a museum or concert

given a choice between the two for a single date id probably pick museum but id honestly be happy with either as long as i like whoevers playing. and even if i didnt sometimes the openers are interesting or the venue has nice stuff going on

that was a lot!! but fank you fank you 💖

[a-deadly-serenade]

nocturne review, ramblings

obvs spoilers for the show down below.

so, i'm gonna be real with y'all; i dont think i would have watched this if not for one of my mutuals spilling the beans about alucard making an appearance 💀 s4 was ok and a fine conclusion to the og castlevania that started this animated franchise, but i dont think i will ever get over the absolute fumble and frankly, insulting way they wrapped up s3. even s4 had its cringe moments, like lenore getting a peaceful sendoff and carmilla getting to kill herself. but, i digress. i was going into nocturne with an already negative mindset and that may have made me more critical of the show. can u blame me though? lmao

i had seen a few clips and screenshots on twitter when they dropped the first 3 eps early and... they only helped solidify my decision to remain skeptical of the staff's writing capabilities. shit was already a little hazy and wishy-washy with their portrayal of isaac in s2 and how they treated hector thruought the show (not to mention the two asian-coded characters in s3). let's just say, the netflix castlevania team doesnt have the greatest track record when it comes to writing poc characters. so, when i saw screengrabs just outright stating that this show was going to deal with historically accurate racism? hm.

obvs as a white woman, i can only go so far on this criticism of the writing, but i dont really understand why they needed to include this? the comparisons and allegory of freedom from indentured servitude to the french revolution, was very weak and bare bones at best. you can keep the motif of the church existing on exploitation and blood of the people-- a whole cross section of the world was involved in the crusades, which is the priests & his entourages whole deal--but, why couldnt annette just be a witch? why did this "historical accuracy" need to get involved with the time period? bcuz the french revolution was name dropped? your main villain is a hungarian countess from the 16th century that made a pact with an EGYPTIAN goddess to become all powerful. like.

and also..... why the FUCK are vampires getting involved with the intercontinental slave trade bro??? 😭 theyre immortal beings that have seen the rise and fall of empires and can do whatever tf they want and go wherever tf they want and they choose to..... own a plantation? give af abut the economy? with selling goods??? okkkkk. also, this line of dialogue is insane to me:

you cant have a central theme of your story be standing up against the oppressors and then make said oppressors fantastical monsters. what kills me is that they've delved into the monstrosity of humanity in s1 and s2, and yet, when you bring in one of the most monstrous things humanity has ever done in its history for the sake of historical accuracy, you turn the very perpetrators into something mythical, and evil that the common folk had no chance of ever defeating even if they tried. its just overall, very messy and they certainly were not the creative team to try and tackle something like this.

speaking of, the writing, again, it definitely left something to be desired. there are moments that are good, don't get me wrong. episode 6 is a particular favorite of mine, shining through with its wonderful character moments b/w annette's soul searching with her ancestors, richter and juste's heart to heart, and olrox's confessions to mizrak. tera's sacrifice to ensure maria's safety is also really well done, as well as maria's final confrontation with her father in the church. however, these were fewer and farther between than i would have liked. a lot of the scenes that played out just fine, were ultimately sullied by this series' incessant need to insert swearing into every other sentence. its something that bothered me nearing the end of s4 especially, and i've just grown tired of it. it honestly takes me out of the scene to constantly hear fuck thrown out every 2 seconds for literally... no reason. i promise y'all can write meaningful and impactful dialogue without having your characters swear lmao

the writing itself is what unfortunately makes the first half of the show kind of drag a bit. the story doesn't really know what it wants to do. none of these new characters are really given time to breathe and be really fleshed out, bcuz every time things settle down and we're given the chance to learn more about their motivations, its like they're almost scared they'll lose your attention and any down time is immediately followed up with an intense action sequence. which, dont get me wrong, if theres one thing they dont disappoint with--its the action. but, i dont think that was ever up for debate to begin with. however, i believe that the characters really suffer bcuz of this. if you've never played the games, which, i believe most people tuning in to watch these series never have, you would have no idea who maria or richter are, and, i really don't think they were given enough time to be fleshed out. half the time, richter's dialogue just ends up being naive, walmart trevor belmont sarcastic one-liners and poor maria ping-pongs b/w the blandest, generic, wonderbread toutings of 'revolution' or calling richter a dick, wanker, or anything in b/w. episode 6, one of the better episodes as mentioned previously, is where we really get to see some actual growth around richter especially. there were moments where his trauma could have been further explored earlier, but they kind of got shoved to the wayside in favor of dragging out the interworking bw all the villains. which.....

if i'm gonna talk about the villains. my initial thoughts were that nocturne was going to be a one-and-done, standalone series with its own self contained story that would be wrapped up in these 8 episodes. i was wrong. and i really dont know how they're going to keep this story going. erzsebet is already a very weak and uninteresting and, honestly, confusing ? villain? for more than half of the series, she's talked about as the mysterious and all powerful Messiah and theyre gathering all these sacrifices for her to bring her back and create an army of night creatures. why is she considered powerful? bcause she made a pact with Sekhmet, an egyptian goddess. why did she do this? who knows! why does she have such a devoted cult of loyal followers when she hasnt done anything but kill a lot of people? again, who knows. why did maria's father think that a VAMPIRE would keep him in cahoots during this whole plan and not immediately fuck him over once she got what she wanted...? who fucking knows. olrox is the most interesting of the villains but even he isnt fully explored. the motivations are just not really explained very well and the buildup to erzsebet's arrival was so sudden that i literally thought i missed an entire episode. one minute, shes hiding in the shadows and the next ? waltzing in on a golden chariot and being heralded as the people's savior?? so damn messy and honestly? i really could not have cared less about her. which is insane to say, bcuz shes literally based off of a real countess who's case and life were a special interest of mine. i just... why an EGYPTIAN goddess?? shes from HUNGARY. were there no goddesses in europe to pull from she could have made a pact with? idk man it just makes no damn sense.

i am definitely more than a little peeved that this wasn't even the complete story, bcuz they did such a poor job establishing erzsebet as a villain, that i really dont give af what crazy shit they come up with to extend the story. you show her being a big badass in the very last episode. ok, you as an audience member, are immediately shown why dracula is so feared within the first 10 minutes of the first episode. and all of that wasnt even HIM fighting!!! the worst thing i've seen miss countess bathory do over here is summon a crazy orb and turn into a furry. like, where is the story going to go from here? they fight tera? save edouard and have a night creature alliance? make maria or alucard (yes, i'll get to him) summon the portal again? which btw... machine from HELL? im not even gonna touch that can of worms. somehow bring olrox back to.....? help kill bathory? idfk

and man...... i was hoping against hope that when i found out alucard was going to make an appearance, that it was just going to be some neat little cameo at the v end of the series after the main story had concluded. a little nod, a little treat to the audience that the next series would be encompassing the events of symphony of the night. maybe we'd even get a depiction of maria and richter when theyre older, i dont know, anything but throwing him in there as an overpowered hail mary to save the day. we couldnt just let these new characters figure it out and triumph in their own way? we had to drag him into this, now? i cant even tell you how disappointed i was when i saw that sword pierce drolta. ME! the resident alucard fan since i was like mf elementary school!!! ugh.

i think this is it for me and netflix castlevania lmao im a grumpy old man and miss when it was mainly fun easter eggs to the games, like how they brought in juste or how olrox turns into a big green monster and has an attack that sends flying skulls your way, or the REMIX of RICHTER'S THEME!!! but its just gotten so silly and the writing hasnt gotten any better..... from now on, im going to simply stick to the games that made me fall in love with this series in the first place & let this be the last time i ever feel the need to bitch about new 'netflixvania' content.

[theprinceandthewitch]

I was sitting here thinking about why Sampo sounds so effeminate in the Japanese dub and why he reminded me of a bisexual male character from Ouran Highschool Host Club. In OHSHC this character is portrayed with a... I dont know how to describe it other than a "feminine way of speaking" because he's not straight AND he crossdresses for work. Sampo talks in a similar way to him - it's that way of speaking you always hear from anime male characters who arent straight.

But I couldnt figure out why I made that connection immediately, because these character's are completely different and have different functions within their stories.

AND THEN I remembered how the word  両刀遣い "ryoutoutsukai," is used as a slang word for a bisexual person but also means someone who is a two-sword fencer.

Sampo duel wields swords during battle... I've also heard that this term isn't really used in a positive way either - basically it's used to imply a someone who has unfaithful qualities about them. Basically someone who is disloyal and a cheater. Which doesn't exactly fit Sampo... because you know, we arent dating him. But he is very wily and he uses an "idiotic" persona to hide his true personality and intentions while he pulls the strings behind the scenes. So it's like...

oh...

Oh okay, that's interesting. Honestly I love stuff like this because it makes you wonder what Hoyoverse sends out to the dubbing teams and how each dubbing team has different ways to portray the character.

Another example of changing his character in subtle ways is the "museum theft "Mr. Cold Feet" quest, when you reject Sampo's offer he calls the MC 자기야 [chagiya] in the Korean dub, which means babe/honey and is a word used between couples. While in the English dub he calls the MC brother/sister, which doesnt sound nearly as smarmy as calling the MC honey/babe when they choose to turn Sampo in to law enforcement. I've also read that the Japanese dub is also flirtatious but I'm not familiar with "flirtatious" Japanese words, so I cant tell if he's being flirtatious or not. And I have absolutely no understanding of the Chinese language, so LMAO.

But yeah... very interesting... thank you Japan I will be taking this bisexual representation idc if he's evil or whatever <3

[bigmack2go]

It has been brought to my attention that(by myself) that l never shared my hamilton translation w u guys!

Okay so first up i wanna say smt

I started translating hamilton back in 2021 before the german hamilton was a thing. When i found out it was gonna be a thing i stopped, i guess i was a bit disappointed but eh… it wasn’t like mine was gonna be a thing anyways so…. HOWEVER then german Hamilton came out and u h a t e d it. I despise this thing. Im sorry but i simply cannot stand it. This isn’t like hate against whoever made it, just welll,,, against their work? Not them as a person??? Ugh idek. so i continued the whole thing and also started to re-do some old stuff that i realised i could have done better. I wanted to make sure not to lose lin Manuel mirands style and/or touch to it. Not only because his style is awesome, but especially because i think ots crucial for the musical to be the masterpiece that it is, to bring out Hamiltons passion to write and shit. and when i picked it back up, i analysed his style of writing even more and made sure to use it. Anyway so i realise that im not as good as him but i tried and i may even not be as good as the official one but i honestly do think that i did a better job keeping Miranda‘s style. And also that most people wont even understand it but eh…

Now taht im finally done with all that stuff that no one cares about- lets strt: Alexander Hamilton, Aaron Burr, and My Shot/ Mein pulver! Little heads-up: there is shit that is couldnt choose between two versions lmao.

Burr: ‚bur’

Hamilton: ‚Ham’

Laurens: ‚Lau’

Lafayette: ‚Laf’

Mulligan: ‚Mul’

Ensemble: ‚ens’

Eliza: ‚Els’

Angelica: ‚ang’

Maria: ‚peg’

Washington: ‚wash’

Bur: wie wird ein bastard, weise, hurensohn

Der irgendwo im Nirgendwo, komplett ohne option, in karibischer Region, in unbekannter gegend,

Zurück gelassen wurde, einfach so

Anscheinend verarmt und im Elend,

Belesen und ein Man von Ehre(n)?

ErSTAUNTE generation

AUS LAUNe. •

Lau: der man auf dem Zehndoller schein;

Einer der Gründerväter,

Mit/hat keinem Vetter (mehr),

Hatte es viel schwerer,

Arbeitete viel härter,

Machte sich selbst stärker und wurde ein von-innen-versehrter Gelehrter. •

Laf: und jeden TAG SAH er zu,

Wie MAN SKLAven schlug,

Verschleppte, sie wegschuf,

Wie das Meer sie hinweg trug

Und „Gerechtigkeit“ sich seiten sucht.

Und er bleibt/blieb auf der hut,

Denn er weiß/wusste gut:

Es gab/gibt TAbus.

Denn er WAR/ist klug.

Doch er gehört nirgends DAzu.

Er wollte/will ein Teil sein. Der Bruder

War bereit zu stehlen, zu leihen,

Zu betteln, flehen und teilen/

War bereit zu stehlen, betteln und leihen,

Zu flehen, geben und teilen•

Mul: als sich gerade alles wieder auswog

Als ein hurricane aufzog

Und alles wieder verbog

Sah unser junge wie seine Zukunft bildlich vor ihm wegflog.

Was ihm blieb WAR‘n verstand und manier.

Dann hat er‘s ENDlich kapiert.

Er verstand, verband TINTe MIT herz,

Sein erster vers

Sein schmerz auf papier•

Bur: es sprach sich rum.

Es machte schnell die runde.

Es hieß, der junge

Ist unglaublich, erstaunlich!

Jede einzelne stunde

VerDANKT er spenden von fremden un ihn an‘s FestLAND zu senden,

Sein denken nicht zu verschwenden,

Um sein leid zu beenden

(Und vielleicht den schein zurück zu blenden.)

„Sieh zu dass du was lernst, Jung‘,/

„Schau zu dass du was lernst, Minjung‘,

Vergiss nicht wo du herkommst,

DAmit man dich nicht vergisst!“

Der NAMe den hier jeder kennt,

Der NAMe den ihr alle wisst;

SAG uns wer du bist!•

Ham: Alexander Hamilton!

Ham: man nennt mich Alexander Hamilton

Und vor mir liegt noch gut eine Million

Aber irgendwann (/), ihr seht dann schon!•

Els: sein vater, ausgerasted,

er grad zehn als er ging, ihn verlies, ihm seine Mutter blieb.

Die zwei jahre später hier saßen;

Sie konnten kaum aufstehen, konnten nicht laufen, das Bett verlassen, es tad weh sich nur zu bewegen, alles schiehn sich zu drehn.

Ens: und so musste Alex zusehen als seine Mutter ging

Wash: alsl zog er ein bei einem cusin

Der sich bald darauf erhängt/ das leben nimmt

Hinterließ ihm nur zweifel und scham

(Verletzten stolz)

Eine stimme die von innen kam

(Und ihn da raus hohlt)•

Bur: und es geht

Ens: „Alex, du hast jetzt nur noch dich selbst“ •

Wash: zieht sich zurück, falls er sich komisch verhält,

Ist das nur weil er sicherstellt,

Dass er nicht nochmal fällt

Liest alles im regal, ihm ist egal ob‘s ihm gefällt…•

Bur: jemand mit weniger talent

Währe längst am ende

Vorallem ohne auch nur einen cent

Der ihn jetzt noch retten könnte

Bur: er fing being seinem Hausherrn an

Verkaufte zuckerrohr und rum.

Er handelte

was er soch selbst nicht leistent konnte.

Er bahnt sich an Bücher, ganz egal wie.

Er plant wie

Seine zukunft aussieht.

Wie er da rankommt?:

Er hat ein Schiff genomm‘!

Er ist an Bord:

Auf dem weg nach new york!

Ens: in newyork kannst du neu anfang‘

In new york bist du ein ganz neuer mann

In New York•

Ens: New York!

Ens: irgendwann!/ ihr seht dann schon!

Ens: Alexander Hamilton, wir warten alle nur auf dich!

Merkst nie wann es reicht; wenn du zu weit gehst.

Du lerntest nie dir Zeit zu nehm

Oh-hoh

Alexander Hamilton,

Wenn Amerika für dich singt,/ wenn Amerikas Kinder sing‘,

Wissen sie was du durchliefst?

Wissen sie dass du selbst die regeln schriebst

(Omg im so proud of that one ydek!!!)

Die welt wor nie mehr so wie du sie kennst/ wie sie war•

Bur: Das schiff ist jetzt im Hafen,

Eines unter vielen.

Nur noch ein Immigrand

Bereit sich hoch zu spielen

Sein ruf ist längst zerstört,

Sein Name ist unbekannt/ vergessen

Laf&Mul/ Jef& Mad: WIR kämpften mit ihm/

wir warn mit ihm im Kampf

Lau: ICH lies mein leben

Wash: ICH stand ihm nah/

Weil ICH ihm nah stand/

ICH hab ihm vertraut

Els& Lau& Mar: ICH? Ich liebte ihn.

Bur: und ich? Ich bin der verdammte Narr

Der sein Leben nahm/

Und ich? Ich hab alles versaut.

[roocomehome]

20-22 and 8-10 pleaseee ❤️

got a REAL big fan here, making me answer 6 questions 🤨

under the cut again cuz longggggg ass post LMFAO

20: Pick your favorite edit you've done

I dont really have a fav, its kind of hard to choose sometimes, but heres a couple of favs :)

21: Pick your least favorite edit you've done LMAO okay, doing a couple again cuz its hard to pick

first two sims have never been shared and I do plan to share them under the unrooleased tag, but anyways I hate the first one cuz of the text. I generally just hate all the pics I took from the second render, I just didnt know what i was doing or how to do the things i wanted to achieve. now LISTEN FOR THE LAST ONE, i know ITS CUTE BUT .... i just hate Leo's facial expression, its not how i want it to look and i couldnt fucking get it to look right, so i gave up on it.

22: is there an edit you didn’t like when you made it but like now?

so surprise surprise its actually my navi post pic, ONLY because the plan for this render was for it to be a like text conversation between an AI and Roo, so Roo is supposed to look annoyed at his phone and I only realized AFTER I finished rendering and got it into GIMP, just how stupid the conversation seems especially since some of the dialogue is supposed to be cut off but that doesnt work over text ykwim, and i ALMOST scrapped it, but I stuck it out cuz I thought it'd be cute idk, then I hated it, now I LOVEEEE it.

I dont think ill ever actually share the intended dialogue, but the AI was supposed to be named ROO - Recondite Ovoidance Overseer, and at the end of my navi post was supposed to be the end of the conversation with Roo commenting "That's not even how you spell Avoidance. Stupid technology." I mainly scrapped it cuz I figured nobody would read it and it doesnt make that much sense 🙃

8: show an unedited screenshot and the finished product

Bringing back the Cataleya render (if you were expecting any TS4 screenshots im sorry 😭😭), honestly all the before and afters of the renders from that post would probably give you whiplash but this is the one that i thought best showed off "before and after" screenshots/renders

9: show us your most recent edit an edit of my own edit cuz I made my laptop Roo themed and I needed a wallpaper version of the navi banner lmao

10: show us your oldest edit okay now THIS one i can get behind because I actually really like my first edit now looking back on it, im also doing a second one cuzzzzz im really proud of it as well looking back on it. My OLDEST oldest edit (the Catty one) was my first blender render as well, that one I used someone else's pose (i dont remember which one) and then my very next edit (of Constance) is where I made my own pose with a reference and it came out pretty nice, the vogue stuff is reallyyyyyy cute I love it, granted there is a LOT of noise on the first vogue one but from faraway it looks rlly good

[rabbit-is-wise]

@ethan-elliott once again im responding in the rbs or else id put an essay in the replies

but yes! many people do genuinely think they’re different. ive talked at length about it in this post as well as touched on it in this one, (and probably others) but i think itd be helpful for anyone who keeps up with these ramblings of mine to properly explain the clancy =/= tyler argument (to my understanding), since my argument is a rebuttal to it.

like i talk about in the first linked post, the two major pieces of evidence are the journal entry written by clancy that describes the jumpsuit video from a third party perspective, and of course scaled and icy meaning “clancy is dead.”

now, im not going to break down those specifially (bc i already did in the first post lmao!), but that’s our starting point. and keep in mind, this is all just what i’ve gathered—other people may not believe the same details, and i generally do not engage with the people who push this theory, since it makes me a bit upset (for reasons i also touch on often), so i’m putting out the disclaimer that i’m not an expert on this side of the argument.

also, a guide for how i’ll be referring to the characters: “clancy” refers to the original clancy, the one who writes the journals, while “tyler” refers to the character who then takes on the name and is seen in the videos, and i will continue referring to him as such post name change to avoid confusion. tyclancy also refers to this same character.

from the jumpsuit journal entry, we then get clancy writing about staying another five days in trench, and then being taken back to dema by keons. it’s some time after this that clancy is killed by the bishops. i can’t offer you anything more on that because it doesnt happen, but see this tweet from the person i usually see pushing this theory (usernames scribbled i dont want to accidentally start anything)

ive heard the handwriting changes at this point—i don’t see it. you’ll just have to decide for yourself on that one i fear. but that’s the main evidence for this event placement.

following this, tyler writes about the events of natn, those videos happen, and then tyler is taken back to dema. while in captivity, he is approached by the bishops to write an album/show, and when they ask him to name it, he chooses to tell the people that clancy is dead. everything there is in his voldsøy letters, minus him saying the name scaled and icy or his intent behind it.

between his captivity and “i am clancy,” tyler chooses to take on the name to carry on the spirit of rebellion. the story then continues as we see it.

asides:

- this person specifically believes clancy gave into vialism, see here:

but i couldnt tell you how far that goes beyond them.

- one of the recent fpe letters mentions what it likely the cave clancy hid in before keons found him and that there are drawings in it because i guess tyler cant have found the cave himself or the fifteen other reasons they would talk about it

there’s probably more, i couldn’t tell you. i scrolled twitter for a while and made myself upset so im not gonna do that anymore.

when i say this next part, i really don’t mean to be rude, i just don’t know how to phrase it gently.

from what i can tell, the appeal of this theory comes from two factors: not remembering the details in journals, and a lack of understanding for how stories work.

i’ve discussed why clancy’s arc is important, because from a writing standpoint, setting this character up and then dropping them for another wouldn’t make sense. a character who haunts the narrative would not be set up like that, especially with zero acknowledgement from tyler. we as the audience would be let in on tyler’s inner thoughts about taking on this name, even if he keeps it from everyone else in-universe. the fact that it hasn’t been revealed in 7 years is reason enough.

we have had many reveals in that time, including an explanation for the jumpsuit video journal entry. but not this? not what would be a pillar of the story? and furthermore, what would this represent within the allegory? what could it represent that the glorious gone do not already embody?

many details that supposedly support this theory are a stretch, or forget the fact that twenty one pilots is still a real band in the real world apart from the story they happen to be telling.

this fandom is a glutton for making things more convoluted than they are. no, the curtains aren’t just blue, but if the setting isn’t trying to tell you about the character’s sadness, maybe the blue means something else. you have to understand the story before you analyze it. there is no subtext without the original text.

your interpretation of “clancy is dead” is exactly how i see it. some people just ignore what’s in front of them. and dont let your newer status discredit you, in 2019 i was also a clancy =/= tyler truther, because we hadn’t had all the reveals yet. i think some people just won’t budge on their beliefs.

the story supports what it supports. i highly doubt we’ll ever get more information on this, since “i am clancy” was meant to get everyone on the same page, so this debate will never end. it probably wouldn’t even if we did get further confirmation, since people just straight up think he was lying in that video. it’s just one of those things.

the new tb letter is a brutal reminder that i am the only person on all of twitter who thinks tyler and clancy have always been the same person i literally feel like this

[roaringheat]

ty for the kin positivity, kings

anyways my #1 kins are Mirage from Apex and Hermes from Hades (if that wasn't obvious lmao)

[todayisafridaynight]

just beat Y3 on hard and i do plan on doin’ legendary next but i’m debatin whether to do a fresh New Game or go with New Game+

[lemedstudent2021]

seconded!! i wore my braces for just under two years and i really really needed them (my upper front teeth got divorced when i was about 9 or 10 and each went in the opposite direction lmao) but had to wait till all my bebe teeth fell out (for me was at the grand old age of 13) and good lord the PAIN esp at first and every month is something to behold fr

i couldnt bite down on anything (accidentaly bit my fork once and nearly exploded then and there from the pain) and while i cant remember a solid couple of years of my life from back then i do remember that it does get better eventually. when i took mine off the difference was quite disorienting lol

anyway yes the braces wearer to be should absolutely be making an informed decision based on dentistry rather than cosmetics, my friend wore hers for a jaw alignment thing so while ur teeth may not be wonky it may be needed, and generally ur dentist knows best and will probably walk u through what kind of thing ur teef need.

my appointments were once a month and the only good thing was i got to choose the colour of the bands (always mulberry, maybe once or twice turquise) so have fun with it lol it makes the world of difference when u like whatevers on ur teeth i think. the last couple of months i didnt have the choice tho i had this ugly yellowing band that was one whole piece instead of smol bands for each bracket? yeah just so yall are aware theres that.

also idk if its a universal experince or if it was just my dentist but good lord she was ROUGH and i mean it well. like idk how to say it in english lol but she was heavy handed? yk the opposite of light footed everything she did to my poor teeth ached forever, but to her credit she was very fast so ig it balanced out lol.

SPEAKING OF. OH MA LORD WAX EXISTS??? AND I NEVER KNEW LMAO??? i think theyre sold in pharmacies u just ask for like wax for braces and they essentially make a lil barrier between the inside of ur mouth and the metal. i of course must suffer (tis my canon event) so for nearly two years the insides of my cheeks look like i brushed them with steel wool lol. please ask if there are products u can use to ease the pain kids and dont be a(n overly) passive idiot like me 👍 (i jest but u get it)

other fun stories include when i had lil blocks stuck to my molars for the first couple of months so id stop biting on my teeth when i closed my jaw? lol and i kept breaking them which exasperated my dentist to no end. hehe

and then one time i opened a pistachio with my teeth (pro gamer move) which was so stupid i hate pistachios so idk why i even did it but anyway the bracket snapped from the glue and i had a loose wire and metal thing that needed gluing on again lol. dont do that folks.

ALSO THE SOUR INJECTION WAS MY FAVOURITE PART AHAHAHAHAHHA i think it was glue??? i genuinely have no idea bc ive never been under anesthesia (which is insane to me but anywya) but it was blue im sure and ma dentist would tell me to keep my tongue away bc its acidic and presumably not for ingestion lol but my gremlin brain did not listen and it tasted like sour apple candy like come one. dont do that either kids

the sideways z shaped elastic was fun. in that it wasnt fun i couldnt talk lol but that sure as hell didnt stop me XD and then it became a night time thing only which was great bc i forced myself to start breathing form my nose while asleep which is much better (bc it filters and warms air etc. added bonus of not having the sahara desert down ur throat lol)

i dont want to talk about the wedge. (/j the one i had was gray so for months i kept getting told there was something stuck in my braces. TWASNT.) oh god and then one of my front teeth had to be filed a little to be straight (pfftt) and that was probably the worst thing ever. i hate drills and i hate whatever tf that was. never again

omg IM SO SORRY this turned into a rant/ ramble skdjwkjekwsmd but i had such an absurd experience with braces its kinda funny in retrospect.

PARENTS PLEASE READ THIS IF YOU ARE CONSIDERING GETTING YOUR CHILD BRACES

i have had braces for several months now. honestly i felt pretty pressured into getting them, but in the end it was mostly my choice and i wanted to improve the function of my teeth (my two front teeth protrude out a lot). and here's everything i wish i knew about braces before i got them.

DISCLAIMER: I AM NOT A PROFESSIONAL. this is just my experience. i am writing this mostly out of frustration because it is hard to talk and swallow because my tongue keeps grating on my molar bands.

they hurt. a lot. it's a bone-deep ache that is impossible to soothe without painkillers. your child will probably cry even if they are a teenager. i cried and my pain tolerance is sky-high.

it will be so hard to chew for about a week after getting them (and whenever you get then readjusted). it's incredibly frustrating and tear-inducing. even soft foods are difficult to chew. the first night i got braces i had to have my food blitzed up. it was pretty humiliating if i'm being honest.

some stuff (as mentioned before) such as molar bands make it hard to even talk or swallow because your tongue grates on the brackets so much.

there are many more appointments than you think there will be. expect many journeys to your orthodontist. usually it's time off school.

as with anything involving your child, your child should always be given a say. you cant even get braces before you have all your adult teeth, usually. if your child is old enough to get braces they are old enough to decide if they want one. my mother tried to pressure me to get braces to improve the appearance of my teeth for years before i chose to get braces to improve the function of my teeth.

overall, please remember that braces are mostly about improving the appearance of teeth and if there is no functional benefit to your child having braces, they will go through a very painful experience for cosmetic purposes.

thank you for reading and i am happy to answer any questions you may have! <3

[trashquisitor-shirozora]

Hey! I saw your reply to that anon ask about mandalorian, and i gotta say i agree with your view. There is something different in season 3 that i couldnt really explain, but you managed to put it into words. The past seasons feel character driven, while this season is more plot driven.

Honestly, i didnt have high expectations, because the ending of season 2 feels conclusive, so i dont know what theyre going to do after that. And when they said that din wont be the main focus of season 3, i felt a bit sad about it haha. I was thinking that maybe we're gonna explore more of din's identity crisis or something like that. But uhhhh idk. I have thoughts and emotions that i cant put into words. I hope you understand what im saying here lmao

Y'know, in hindsight - and can I really say so when we still have an episode left of Season 3, a whole ass Season 4, and however many seasons left until the Disneyfied Thrawn Trilogy Movie? - I feel comfortable saying that Din's story should've ended in Season 2 and he never should've gotten the Darksaber. I also want to argue that he got the Darksaber because Favloni did have plans for him, specifically, until something (Ahsoka and the Thrawn Trilogy and a movie) happened that made them decide to pivot hard into propping up Bo-Katan, whitewashing and sanitizing her backstory, and giving her all of Din's possible storylines. I mean, what did she really do over a season that made her better than Din, who lost everything saving Grogu from Gideon and finding a Jedi who could take him in?

Din was left alone on the bridge of Gideon's cruiser with Bo-Katan and Koska. He is truly alone. Does he follow them back to Bo-Katan's fleet, a CotW among others who don't trust him and his covert? Does he start his search for the Armorer and survivors of Nevarro? Din showed his face to another living being. What does his crisis of faith look like? We saw a glimpse of that in TBOBF; he wasn't doing too hot and then he was banished from his covert and told hwo to atone for his sins. We could've had a multi-episode arc following his journey to Mandalore and visiting the history of Mandalore and its desecration by the Empire. We could have seen him waver in his faith, struggling between what he believed and what he experienced and all the ways they intersect and conflict. Din won the Darksaber in combat. He now holds an ancient Mandalorian Jedi weapon that the Mandalorian diaspora now say marks him as Mand'alor (or the best candidate for Mand'alor). Does he grow into this role using his experience and skills earned as a bounty hunter and his covert's provider, or does he choose to surrender it to somebody else because he never wanted and still does not want the power and authority that comes with the title? Does he ever see Grogu again? Is Grogu doing well? How will they reunite? Well, TBOBF answered all those questions and we just have to accept they're back together at the start of Season 3.

Thse are just some of so many potential character-driven and character-centric stories that I'm never seeing in canon now. He's been wallflowered, pushed into the background, Bo-Katan's newest and biggest supporter in her so-called redemption arc even though you wouldn't fucking know that her redemption arc maybe should've included some mention of what she fucking did in the Clone Wars and the fucking Season 3 logo features Din and Grogu front and center.

(A lot of newer merch I see at the Disney Store, Heroes & Villains, Her Universe, etc. now feature multiple Mandalorians and Mandalorian helmets, so maybe that was a giveaway that we are following more Mandalorians now... and I am still forever struggling to find decent Din Djarin merch that puts him front and center. Fuck me, I guess)

I truly wonder what kind of Season 3 we could've gotten if Favloni, Kennedy, and Disney decided not to MCU-fy Filoni's precious darlings, if we were allowed to follow Din the way we did in the first two seasons. You could bring him back to the covert without losing him to the crowd. You could have him cross paths with Bo-Katan again and have her play a more significant role in his journey(s) without taking all of the spotlight.

I did have high expectations after Season 2, Anon, but once TBOBF came out, i realized I was fucked. And, well. Here we are.

[demadogs]

2 things:

Argyle will be COMPLETELY stoned the entire season and he'll just think he's on the craziest *trip* that he's ever been on.

Now, can I ask do you like Mileven together or do you ship Byler? Or do you stay out of shipping? Or you don't care who's with who, as long as everyone is happy?

I think Will has a major crush on Mike. Mike loves Will. Like he truly loves Will but just in the general type of love, a platonic type of love. If Mike finds out that Will likes him as more than a friend, I think Mike will handle the situation well. He will try to let Will down easy and then be a supportive best friend, no shaming.

first of all the concept of argyle thinking he’s tripping the entire time is so fucking funny i love that so much.

second, yes i do ship byler and i genuinely do believe it’ll happen. at first after season two i just thought “aw theyd be cute together” but then season three came out and i saw how unhealthy mileven was and all the evidence people shared on here that leaned towards byler and i was like “oh shit theyre actually doing this”. i thought mileven was really cute in season one and when they reunited in season two but then when we saw them as an actual couple they were really rough. i do want every character to be happy but i dont think mileven is right now.

im gonna share the biggest things or evidence that totally convinced me byler is the direction the duffers are heading. this might be long. not trying to be like “YOU MUST SHIP BYLER AND HERES WHY” but you seem nice and open to either so id like to show you what sold me on byler and im curious to hear your opinions on it after you read this. there’s plenty of things that show wills feelings so i’ll focus on mike since you already believe will loves mike.

1. the break up scene vs the rain fight scene

this is the biggest one for me by far. i study film and every color pallet in scenes, every song they choose, even the weather is very much intentional!! the mileven break up is super saturated, in broad daylight, and has a very humorous tone. they couldve easily made this a heartbreaking scene but they chose not to. also theyre not alone its not a moment between just the two of them.

the rain fight on the other hand is the complete opposite. it’s very blue, theres harsh shadows, its pouring rain, and the mood is much more emotional and hurt and they’re alone.

looking at these stills next to each other even if you didnt have the context at all you would be able to tell which interaction is more emotional and means more to the characters.

also look at the difference in mikes face after el and will’s last word. for el he just looks annoyed and for will he looks so hurt.

last point on these two. look at the difference between el and wills reactions to these interactions. i know you said you do believe will loves mike but look at el’s reaction. she doesn’t love him as much as she thinks she does either. why would she be laughing and highfiving?

2. the way the last mileven kiss is framed!!!!

again with the film shit, THIS IS INTENTIONAL. look how mike is not only in a closet, but the door to the closet is perfectly dividing their kiss. this to me convinced me that mikes gay not bi or anything else. some people think he’s bi but they wouldnt have the closet perfectly divide them if he was bi bc that wouldnt be the reason for them breaking up. they could have angled this kiss so many ways if the door wasnt directly in the middle of them i mightve thought it was a coincidence but it is. also not to mention his eyes are wide open, he didnt kiss her back, and he couldnt say he loves her to her face. 

3. this tweet

i dont blame people who dont read into social media posts about byler. i normally dont but like come on why did they tweet this lmao there’s no other meaning to this than implying hes afraid of the idea of liking girls sexually.

those are the biggest things for me personally. theres lots of other shit with wills feelings but i just focused on mike. sorry that was kinda long but id love to hear what you think after this!

[tendouluvr]

not telling them you’re pregnant - f!reader

- fluff, sliiiight angst maybe

- characters: suna, sakusa, semi

- warnings: pregnancy (i don’t go into detail of giving birth or anything), cravings, morning sickness aka throwing up, two mention of the act of sex in semi’s, some cursing

- wc: 1.4k, 888, 946

a/n: it’s f!reader cuz pregnancy but there’s no specific pronouns/gendered terms used

also idk how suna got so long, he was the last one i wrote for bc i couldnt think of anything lmao

[2. iwaizumi, atsumu, kageyama]

SUNA

#! suna has been practicing late into the night the past few weeks

#! there’s a big game coming up and the entire team is feeling the pressure and adrenaline from the crunch time

#! you haven’t been feeling too good lately, a lot heavier and more tired than usual

#! thinking it was just stress from work and the missing presence of your boyfriend, you pushed through it and thought it would go away in the next few days

#! unfortunately, luck wasn’t on your side and you started to get sudden needs to throw up

#! it didn’t take you long to realize why your physical and mental drive have been down lately

#! you’re pregnant

#! or you believe you are

#! you bought a few tests, some of different brands so you can have a variety, and headed home to confirm your suspicion

#! a few minutes later, staring back at you was multiple positive symbols and the bolded ‘PREGNANT’s

#! taking a few deep breaths, you decided to tell suna tonight once he comes home

#! you thought it was better to let him know as soon as possible

#! it wouldn’t hurt anyone plus the faster you rip the bandaid off, the easier it’ll be to deal with it

#! so you waited

#! and waited

#! until 11pm that night, when suna finally came through the front door

#! “tarō! how was practice? can we talk?” you hurriedly greeted him

#! he was taken aback, not expecting you to be right beside him and in his ear as soon as he came in

#! of course you weren’t, you made sure to put some space in between you and him

#! but suna was stressed and tired, so everything is intensified to him at the moment

#! “can you back up?” he mumbled, pushing his way from in front of you to walk to the kitchen

#! “oh, sorry. can we talk?” you sheepishly smiled, hoping he would say yes

#! you’re not blind, you can tell that suna was tired but you really didn’t wanna put this off

#! you were just gonna tell him, he gets surprised, you both talk it out, and then go to bed and continue figuring things out tomorrow morning

#! but before any of that can happen, suna bluntly told you, “no. i’m tired. i’m sure whatever it is isn’t a big deal. can it be tomorrow? i wanna sleep.”

#! you didn’t get to answer before he was already walking away to the bedroom

#! understanding where he was coming from, you mentally agreed to talk to him tomorrow. one day wouldn’t change anything and you’ve seen plenty of people not tell their partners until a few weeks in

#! he was right, it wasn’t a big deal (yet)

#! so you waited until tomorrow

#! and waited

#! and once again, he came home late

#! “hey! can we quickly talk, babe?”

#! “i’m tired. tomorrow, okay?”

#! “oh, okay. night, rin!”

#! “g’night.”

#! night came and there was still no talk

#! this continued on for about 2 weeks, you finally choosing to not care anymore and just let him find out whenever he finds out

#! technically, you could’ve just blurted out a simple, “i’m pregnant.” any point during your nightly five seconds conversations

#! but seeing that he really was tired, springing it onto him would either put him in a full body shock for three days or he just doesn’t fully process your words until three days after

#! a month has passed, your stomach was still barely showing like most women at their one month mark

#! you decided to book an appointment for a checkup, it’ll be while suna’s at practice

#! and that doctor appointment was the exact reason suna found out

#! he was at practice when komori entered the gym

#! he had a doctor’s appointment for his annual checkup, and that’s where he saw you

#! you didn’t see komori, busy reading the directory to find your way to the right office

#! but he saw you on the way out. seeing that you looked a bit busy, he chose not to greet you and just quickly walk to his car lmao why is this funny to me

#! entering the gym, he greeted everyone and apologized for his tardiness even though it was excused

#! walking up to suna, he tapped him on the shoulder and quietly told him, “i saw yn at the hospital earlier. it’s been awhile since we all got together huh, they looked a bit different.”

#! ok so komori, being the smart person he is, deducted that you were pregnant when he saw your finger pointing at the ob/gyn office

#! and he genuinely thought suna knew so his comment was suppose to be a small joke that was meant to tease suna and his sex life

#! suna, however, was confused

#! look different? did you get surgery?

#! “what do you mean?”

#! komori rolled his eyes and gave a sweet smile at suna, “congrats you two! when were you gonna tell the rest of us?”

#! suna: 👨‍🦲 huh

#! “are you guys not pregnant?” he blinked at suna’s frozen reaction

#! suna became unresponsive so komori just walked away mumbling to himself about being sure he read the sign right

#! a loud whistle blew and it shook suna out of his daze, everyone got ready to play a practice game of 3 vs 3 while suna ran over to the coach

#! “hey coach, um i think there’s an emergency at home. can i go? ok thanks.”

#! his coach just stares after him as he sprints off, you think? is there an emergency or not?

#! suna quickly drove home, he may or may not have speed a little, and entered the apartment

#! “yn? baby?” he called out only to be greeted back with silence

#! probably still at the hospital....what were you doing there? he thought to himself while rummaging around the house to find anything that could give him somewhat of an idea

#! he was digging around in the bedroom when you came home, his head so frenzied he didn’t hear the front door open

#! but you heard the ruckus from the bedroom and immediately went into fight or flight

#! panicking, you took out your phone to call suna while quietly opening the front door to make your way back out before the intruder catches you

#! the phone rang and rang until it was picked up. “suna?” you whisper-yelled into the speaker. you had a habit of calling him by his last name when you were freaking out. he noticed and was equally alarmed

#! “what’s wrong?” he whispered back just as panicked

#! “there’s someone in our apartment. can you come home?”

#! “huh? oh, are you home?” he cackles into the phone speaker making you move the phone away from your ear, “it’s me, sweets, c’mere.”

#! you warily walked on your tiptoes over to your bedroom, peeking your head in and what a surprise, it is suna

#! “jackass! why are you home?!”

#! “why didn’t you tell me?” he cut straight to the point

#! “huh?”

#! “you’re pregnant. when were you gonna tell me?” his voice sounding stern, but the quiet smile dancing on his face tells a different story

#! “i tried.”

#! “huh? what do you mean?”

#! “all those times i asked if we could talk. i was trying to tell you.”

#! his heart dropped, eyebrows furrowing, while he stared you down

#! suna became unresponsive once again, standing there trying to think back to the first time you asked him

#! two weeks ago

#! “i’m sorry,” he quietly whispers

#! “hm? i..it’s fine....i was a bit sad, but i’m over it. at least you know now,” you casually shrugged it off like it wasn’t a big deal

#! “no. i shouldn’t have pushed you aside like that. even if you weren’t pregnant, even if you had just wanted to tell me about some stupid video you saw that day, i shouldn’t have told you off. i’m sorry, i love you a lot and you deserve so much better.”

#! “tarō, shut up. i accept your apology and i forgive you, now make it up to me by giving me a back massage while i show you the ultrasound pictures!”

#! he kisses you before lifting you up bridal style making his way to the bed

SAKUSA

#! contrary to popular beliefs, sakusa is not an obsessive germaphobe who finds everything disgusting but you

#! he wouldn’t be playing volleyball if he was that afraid of germs,,,,,

#! yes, he cringes if random little kids grab onto him after games because 1) he’s drenched in sweat and that feeling is not fun

#! 2) he doesn’t even know themmm

#! and 3) he wanna go home

#! but sakusa loves you and if you happened to get pregnant, he would love your kid(s) just the same

#! however, he never told you this. he never really had a reason to voice this out loud

#! so when you actually did get pregnant, you were confused

#! the only interactions between sakusa and kids you’ve seen multiple times were the moments between him and his fans

#! you guys have been to family parties and his nieces, nephews, and cousins looooves him

#! maybe it’s the fact that he’s a tall looming giant and they just want to climb

#! but besides those moments, you don’t recall him ever telling you upfront that he wants children of his own

#! and the constant stress and pressure he always seem to be working around also doesn’t help reassure you in any way

#! being an athlete for a living means always watching your body, health, and looks for the cameras (but omi could care less about the last thing)

#! he also has to make sure whether or not he’s working well with his teammates, practice and improve on anything he’s having problems with, and deal with atsumu’s dramatic ass

#! you’re an overthinker and because of that, all of these reasons were just reasons for you to postpone the pregnancy news to your long term boyfriend

#! it wasn’t too hard anyway, considering practice runs late sometimes and he’s busy majority of the time doing other stuff

#! when you guys do have alone time together, you both are so focused on one another that you actually forget that you’re pregnant and you never told him

#! you’re about to hit the three months mark now — time goes by fast — and sakusa has noticed you and your body changing

#! at first he just thought you were going through a phase of cravings and a bit of bloating, so he didn’t mention it and just let you be

#! he never got to witness you getting morning sickness because he goes on early runs or he was just out doing morning errands so he wouldn’t have to deal with it later that day

#! so when he caught you in the kitchen cutting up a lemon, the last thing he was expecting you to do was bring the lemon directly up to your mouth

#! “uh, what are you doing?” his deep voice caught you off guard, effectively stopping the hand that was holding the lemon

#! you just stare at him, not wide-eyed, not surprised, just stare

#! “eating a lemon.”

#! “i can see that.... why exactly?”

#! “dunno, the baby i guess.” you casually shrugged it off before popping the lemon slice into your mouth

#! “ah-,” he opened his mouth to stop you from eating the lemon, your words not fully processing in his mind, but cut off midway and froze when he finally realized

#! hearing him pause like that made you suddenly remembered that you never told him you were pregnant

#! you slowly turned back to look at him, mouth still slowly chewing the lemon slices

#! a moment of silence later, he unfreezes and just starts stiffly walking towards you

#! he grabbed you by the shoulders, made you look him in the eyes, before whispering, “you’re pregnant?!”

#! “y-yes..”

#! his eyes were wide, black pupils expanding as he stared you down, his lips slowly curving into a small smile

#! “you’re pregnant....,” he whispers, mainly to himself, hugging your head into his chest

#! “mhm, get off me i’m trying to eat,” you gently pushed him off but he wouldn’t budge

#! “omiiii please, if you get off i’ll give you a slice,” you tried bribing him. he couldn’t tell if you were being serious or just teasing

#! “no.”

#! “um ok, two slices?”

#! “no.”

#! “omi!”

#! he giggles before opening his arms to let you go

#! “why didn’t you tell me?”

#! you didn’t reply right away, making him start to overthink

#! did you not want the baby? or did you not want a kid with him? did you not want to be with him anymore? or was it not his?!

#! he childishly shakes his head side to side at the last question. he knew you wouldn’t do that

#! but you were still silent, making him nervously glance at you from the side

#! “sorry, piece of lemon stuck in my teeth. i just forgot to tell you,” the words easily flowing out of your mouth nonchalantly

#! sakusa’s fingers were literally about to start twitching from anxiousness beside you

#! a sigh of relief was heard from him and you turned to look at him

#! “you okay?”

#! he doesn’t answer, just gives you a smile and goes back to hugging you from behind

SEMI

#! you were currently sitting on the couch in your shared apartment waiting for semi to come home

#! he’s been on tour for a few months now, you both kept in touch by facetiming, texting, calling, and any other methods of virtual communication

#! you would tune into the live recording of all of his performances when you had time so you could watch him

#! a few weeks into tour, you suddenly felt different than usual but shook it off as nothing and probably just you missing your boyfriend

#! you believed that until one morning you were woken up by the sudden urge to throw up, dashing to the restroom as fast as your drowsy body can go

#! it was then that you realized you might be pregnant

#! the night before semi left, you both had sex to enjoy your last few hours together before he had to leave for a few months

#! with the new realization, you quickly dressed yourself to make a short trip to the store to pick up some tests

#! after half an hour of looking at yourself in the mirror, trying to wrap your head around this, you finally opened the first box

#! a few minutes later, all 5 tests were lined up on the bathroom counter showing positive

#! you stared at the tests, trying to make sure you weren’t reading it wrong

#! once you began to understand the responsibility of being pregnant a few hours later, you made a mental note to go out and buy some food for yourself the next day

#! you decided to sleep off the rest of that day

#! through all of the facetime calls with semi, you never once told him you were pregnant

#! you knew that if you told him he would freak out and either demand to go back home, or stay but all of his attention would be on you being pregnant alone at home for the rest of the tour

#! so here you are now, sitting with a 4 1/2 months baby bump waiting for your beloved to come home

#! it was around 6pm when the front door opened, sounds of shuffling bags and heavy steps could be heard from the musician

#! he cursed under his breath when he almost tripped over a duffle bag with some of his loungewear, calling out for you as he walks further into the apartment, “baby? i’m home!”

#! he was about to speak up again when he saw you asleep on the couch

#! bouncing his way over, he got onto his knees at the edge of the couch to observe your face. god i miss you, he thought to himself

#! he gently shakes you awake, you jolted in surprise not knowing you fell asleep in the first place

#! “hmm- what?,” soft murmurs falling from your lips as you adjusted your eyes at your surrounding

#! “eita!” he grinned at you, both of you pulling each other into a hug

#! “fuck, i miss you so much.” he whispered into your ears before placing his face into your neck

#! “i miss you more.” you tightened your grip around him making him move up on the couch to get more comfortable

#! you both moved around until he had you cradled in between him, your back against his chest

#! his hands going under your his shirt to caress you there when his movements stopped right on top of your stomach

#! it was silent as his warm hands rubbed your stomach in circles, the gears turning in his head

#! “are you- you feel- why’s your tum so round and hard?” he quizzically asked, still rubbing your stomach

#! “pregnant.” your voice a low whisper, he almost didn’t catch it

#! “what?”

#! “pregnant.” you repeated, a bit louder this time

#! “huh?”

#! “pregnant!” you sighed, moving his hand so you can get off of him

#! he grabs your wrist to stop you from walking away and turns you to look at him

#! “you’re pregnant?!”

#! “i just said that. yes.”

#! you knew you sounded blunt and a bit mean, it wasn’t his fault he doesn’t know at all, but your hormones have been making you crankier and it’s out of your control

#! “sorry. yes, i’m pregnant.”

#! his eyes continuously darts up and down from your eyes to your bump

#! “how long?”

#! “since you left.”

#! “was it the night before?” he was referring to your act of intimacy the night before he left

#! “yea.”

#! “wow. why didn’t you tell me?”

#! “because.”

#! “‘cuz what?”

#! “because i know you. you would either stop touring and come home, or stay but lose focus. i was just trying to not distract you because i know how important your career is to you. and because i thought that you’ll be having a six months break after this tour before your next comeback, i would tell you when you came home. i’m sorry if you’re ma-,”

#! “i’m not mad. oh don’t cry, babe, look at me.”he carefully cups your face, “it’s okay, it’s okay. i get why you kept it from me. and now that i have no schedule for the next six months, i can be there for you until the end of your pregnancy and the beginning of our baby’s life alright?”

#! you weakly nodded against his palms, and he brings you back down to lay your head on his chest as you both softly talk about the past months without each other

[mekatrio]

ok let me list down the most slayest issues for my self reference

issue 3 - adaptation of og teen titans cyborg plotline which is slay

issue 7 - starfire's race w blackfire, always slay when she's here

issue 9:

issue 10: aqualad issue!! i love the issues with the titans east members very much (≧∇≦)

issue 11: terra centric issue :D

issue 12: Extremely good mr mumbo issue that breaks the 4th wall and plays w the comic book medium! very very fun

issue 14: speedy centric 😎

issue 15: kwiz kid, kitten, and killer moth are very fun here hehe

issue 18: VERY GOOD issue with more 4th wall breaking, this time with a particular focus on the chibis!! this issue is so great 😭

issue 20: injustice the video game issue

issue 24: SUPER EPIC AWESOME ISSUE featuring a powerswap!!! has this gem:

issue 28: beast boy backstory 🥺 soooo so cute

issue 30: issue with the EXTREMELYYYY GORGEOUS ART.... like oh my godd the linework and coloring in the first section is so amazing, and the environmental design of the second section is just incredible!!!!

im so sad they were done by guest artists bc i would have loved more issues in these artstyles.... T_T

issue 31: the issue with the time paradox that broke poor 15 year old me's brain 😭 also hi nightwing

issue 34: very cute crossover issue where kid flash races mas y menos :3 also on a sidenote i love how kid flash looks in tt2003's artstyle, its so nice for a character to have robin's proportions but not his face as well (speedy, kwiz kid, etc...)

issue 36: DONNA TROY ISSUE AKA BEST ISSUE IN THE WORLD!!! also just a big ol homage to the Original original teen titans which is just great (not wolfman's titans, the OG ones)

issue 37: extremely adorable christmas issue 🥺

issue 39: very cute and fun valentine's day issue, also DONNA TROY APPEARANCE YIPEEEEEE

issue 40: the first section is a very fun villain pov plotline.... and the second is.... thunder and lightning. ok. at least it has nice guest art tho

issue 41: Epic girl-centric girlboss issue

issue 43: has this MASTERPIECE of a cover... i remember it being my phone background as a kid 😭

issue 44: a well written raven centric issue where she willingly chooses to keep the part of her that is trigon 🥺

issue 45: beast boy and cyborg origins! featuring a justice league cameo lmao

issue 46: oh these last few issues are extremely good.... starfire's long lost brother + blackfire closure! this one really shouldve been its own episode

also baby starfire is so cute T_T

issue 47: very sad robin backstory angst.... featuring a gross batman cameo lmfao

issue 48: SUPERRRR good issue omfg, features an alternate universe where the titans are evil, its so so great and fun. the alt universe designs are soooo good. also this page itself is amazing

issue 49: issue with slade the fucking loser, and also rose!!! extremely slay.

issue 50: another fun crossover issue with THIS masterpiece of a cover 😭

(nauck's pencils and stucker's inking is just so incredible 😭😭😭)

issue 51: yeah man these last few issues are really just storylines that shouldve been episodes but they couldnt afford to adapt into episodes. its alright tho bc at least they are comics! anyways, terra centric! another long lost sibling episode, and proper closure on terra's storyline <3

issue 53: cute bb flashback story.... and some kid flash and jynx closure :3

issue 54: talk about a last fucking minute appearance.... anyway i love the interaction between the two wonder girls so much. so so fun and i wish it was animated

issue 55: AWIFJFIOSOFPEPSLKLF,/S33/2 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[ftm-radio]

Do you have any suggestions for good binder brands? I tried gc2b and their binders didn't really work for me, mainly because my chest tissue moved around a lot and after the first 5 minutes I had to readjust a lot, but I don't know if that's a common issue with all binders or specifically the one I tried. If it's an all-binders issue, do you have any other recommendations for alternative methods?

fam, i know EXACTLY what you mean regarding everything moving around too much in gc2b binders. 😫 I'm not sure if that issue is caused by the binder not quite being the right size, or if it's just how gc2b binders are shaped/constructed. Like maybe you and me are in the same boat and we just don't have the right shape for gc2b to work well with us.

I have not had personal experience with these brands, but I think some folks have had better experiences with binders from Spectrum Outfitters and Shapeshifters. Another brand I know of is Underworks, but I don't think they're recommended for anyone who isn't thin and/or small-chested bc they are tighter and more uncomfortable. (I haven't looked into them much myself, so I could be wrong but that was the general vibe I got.)

However, there is one other binder brand i DO have personal experience with—ForThem. I got one of their binders recently, and like.... I love it so very much???? They are only in the US, though. (for now?? maybe they'll be more widely available in the future? i couldnt tell ya)

hang on I'm about to ramble so let me put a cut in here before the post gets too long lmao.

ForThem binder review and discussion of TransTape under the cut! 😘

okay SO. I just went up to get mine so I can be accurate with my gushing.

here's the info printed on the inside of the binder:

The Binder; Size: Illusion

65% Polyamide, 35% Elastane, 100% recycled from waste.

Wash cold. Dry flat. Love forever.

Made just for you with love in New York City.

First, lemme tell you about the sizing—they only need one measurement. Just one. Glory hallelujah for that bc getting the measurements for my gc2b binders was a pain in the ass and confusing and I hated it. When you go to their site they have a questionnaire for you to go through to find your size and it's pretty simple. They even have a video showing you how to measure your chest. Easy peasy. And you can have them save your binder size for you to come get it again later when you're able to order.

Regarding colors—because of the way these are made, you don't really get to choose what color binder you get (mine is Forest, it's this pretty nice desaturated dark green) but you can go on a waitlist for specific colors if you want.

Oh, and their binders are reversible. One side has a scoop neck and the other has a vee neck. I tried the vee neck and personally didn't like it, the scoop neck feels more secure & it covers my chest better, but it's nice to have the option.

Additionally, these binders are only available as half tanks. I think I saw one person say they are shorter than the gc2b half tanks but I just compared it to one of my old gc2b half tanks and it's basically the same. The biggest differences between the two are the necklines and the thinner straps on the ForThem binder.

okay with all that out of the way I have to tell you about the fit & how it feels to actually wear it.

.....it's so good, y'all.

Being a half tank I was worried it would have the same issue I had with my gc2b half tanks where I could not raise my arms without my tiddies literally falling out of the binder (although to be fair my first two binders from gc2b were also too big). But I mean even with my more-correctly sized full tanks from gc2b, if I did anything or lifted my arms my chest would fall out of place and be weird and uncomfortable.

well when I got my FT binder and tried it on, that was the first thing I checked. and I could lift my arms and move all around and my tiddies stayed inside the binder where they belonged. it was honestly a miracle. I mean, it's not completely perfect—over time they do kinda get pushed to the middle of my chest kinda like a monoboob situation, but it's not nearly as bad as walking five steps in a gc2b binder and having to adjust everything.

it's also just so comfortable?? the material is very soft and nice. like on the site they went on about how lovely the material is and i was like yeah sure but then i got mine and THEY WERENT KIDDING. it is so fricking soft i cant get over it. also, I don't notice the seams at all when I wear it, and the armholes don't really annoy me either. I honestly forgot to take it off a few times bc it was so nice to wear. (don't do that, tho! 8 hours or less, depending on what your body can handle!)

as far as compression goes, I think it does a fairly good job. if I'm wearing it and I put my hands on my chest and try to smush it all even more flat, I can't get much flatter than the binder gets me. does that make sense?? idk, it does a pretty good job and when I have a shirt on it looks great! I look like just another tubby guy with an appropriate amount of man boob.

I think literally my only thing with this binder that could be a little better is that the bottom edge has a tendency roll up sometimes. but I think that's because of my bigger stomach tbh, and if I fold over the material between my chest & belly it's not noticeable but keeps it from rolling. 🤷🏻‍♂️

as a fat guy with C(?) cup tiddies, this binder works better for me than gc2b did, for sure.

aaaaaaaaand now that the impromptu FT binder review is over, you also asked about alternative methods!

so yes, I highly recommend checking out ForThem binders if you're in the US!

another method I've tried is using TransTape, and I also recommend that if you're interested!!! It's definitely not suited to everyone, though.

If you haven't heard of TransTape before, the gist of it is that instead of wearing a binder for part of the day, you apply tape to your chest to manipulate the tissue into a more masculine shape. You can wear it for multiple days, sleep in it, shower/bathe/swim in it, exercise in it, etc. It's honestly amazing.

But there is a pretty tough learning curve when it comes to application (and removal.) It takes time to learn how to get the look/shape you want, but if you keep at it it's definitely worth it.

on the other hand, removing the tape is a whole other thing, and is my least favorite part. 😩

Basically, to remove the tape safely, you have to use oil to break down the adhesive, which is messy and annoying and requires a lot of time and patience. if you do not remove the tape properly, you will have a lot of ouch in your future, specifically in the form of abrasions and torn skin and sores/blisters (although the former is also dependent on application). and the worst part is, if you have any wounds from removal you can't use tape again until it's healed because that would be begging for trouble. (and infection.)

I personally had just.. the most awful trouble with removal. at first I was too impatient and pulled on the tape too much and didn't really give the oil time to do its job, but then even with my very last attempt when I tried SO HARD to be patient and waited for much longer than the recommended time, I was left with really sore and irritated skin despite feeling like it was the best i'd done at removing it. 😔

it was just really upsetting after a while, and it's part of the reason why I have taken a break from trans tape. the other reason is financial—i'd used up all the tape i had, and i couldnt really afford to keep buying more. depending on what size tape you get it can be almost 20 bucks a roll, and since I use two different sizes my next order would have been a little over $40. the ForThem binder I was eyeing was only a little more than that, and I figured spending the money on something I only had to buy once that would last for ages if it worked for me would be better than spending 40 dollars every month or so on tape that didn't seem to agree with me. 🥲

now, I've kind of done trans tape dirty by talking about the negatives first (sorry trans tape) but it is genuinely my favorite binding method.

when I got a little better at applying it, it was amazing and I had just the best euphoria. I didn't have to think about my chest, I didn't have to wear anything under my shirt, I didn't have to feel my chest move and bounce around because it was good and secure under the tape. I even got to enjoy being shirtless in my room for a bit one night, and it felt so comfortable and natural and wonderful that I'm.... not gonna think about it too much more or I'll get sad lmao

I'm not sure exactly what my problem with the tape was. I don't know if I had some very slight allergy to the adhesive that got worse the more I used it, or if it had something to do with using too much tape on my chest than my skin could handle, or if maybe bc I have eczema in a few places the skin on my chest is also too sensitive?? I don't know. maybe someday I can give it another go and try to figure it out.

but my point is, the issues I had with the tape that are preventing me from using it might not necessarily be problems for you, so if you are interested and are able to, I recommend looking into this particular method of tiddy-taming!!

it doesn't work for everyone, but goddamn, when it does work it is so flipping good. 😫💔