#i care a lot that’s all i’ve got

[secretagentsagainstwhatever]

i’m just going to be listening to this on repeat until July 4th

[sunlitsoil]

there is always tomorrow

[turtleblogatlast]

Middle of the night thought that I may extrapolate on much, much later: The next iteration of Leo always has something about them that the previous iteration wanted or was denied of.

[ricky-mortis]

When they kissed I lost my mind

[pamouche]

some favorite lines from THE ECLIPSE RERUN. EPISODE 12

[cheriecoke]

i do not anticipate being on here much in november but just know i miss you all and i love you 🤍

[many-but-one]

I didn’t want to derail your post, @the-alarm-system because I felt that your post is important and should stand on its own, but I also wanted to address that you screenshotted my tags here:

I want to explain what I meant by my tags, as I feel like you may have misunderstood what I was saying. l am supportive of endos existing. I've made that clear on more than one occasion on my blog! I meant I don’t like the phrase “the future is plural” because of the ambiguity of it and the fact that it’s been so misconstrued by so many. I feel like a better phrase that is less likely to be misunderstood would benefit the plural community but I’m not sure what that could be.

From the lens of endogenic plurality flourishing + plurality acceptance and education, I don't mind the phrase "the future is plural." I know plenty of endo systems and they are fine people who deserve to exist how they like! The only reason I don’t like that phrase is the ambiguity and how misunderstood it tends to be, and like I said, I think a phrase that is still concise but less likely to be misunderstood would be useful. I just, again, don’t know what that would be. I truthfully think it tends to be misunderstood because traumagenic systems are applying it to their own experiences (it’s what I did and why I was not liking the phrase at first, not realizing it was referring to endo plurals) and so of course we wouldn’t want the future to be plural because that means kids are being traumatized. However, from an endogenic system’s perspective and them applying it to their own experience with plurality, I can definitely see why they coined the phrase and mean it in the “I want more systems to exist” because a majority of endogenic plurals don’t see their systems as having come from trauma, which means endo plurality increasing =/= children being traumatized in order to exist as plural.

As an aside, I needed to update my “lean toward anti endos” verbiage anyway. I wrote that like…a year ago, maybe more, when I was still on the fence about the whole thing. At this point I’m pretty sure most anti endos aren’t a fan of my stance and so wouldn’t want me associating with them anyway. I say syscourse neutral because I don’t take sides in syscourse and typically don’t engage with it as much as possible for my own sake. Syscourse feels like a toxic minefield more often than not and I don’t like participating. I’m chronically terrible at updating my socials, so than a recent deletion of all of our alter info on our pinned post + an updated DNI, I don’t think we’ve updated that top portion in ages. So, thanks for pointing that out so I can change that as I didn’t realize that was still there.

Normally l'd ignore your reblog/tag screenshot but I just want it to be clear where I stand on the subject and don't want people who don't follow me to see my tags and see me as an endo-unsafe person. I am syscourse neutral in that I don't take sides, but I support endos existing. I used to be firmly anti-endo but l've changed my stance and am trying to be a better and less hateful person. I’ve said some hateful things about endos in the past and I want it to be made aware that I’m not the same person I was a few years ago (literally and figuratively, lol, I was very bitter, angry, and hateful toward MY OWN existence as a system, but with a lot of healing and acceptance of MYSELF I have also realized I needed to be more accepting of others too, even if I don’t fully understand them) so I wanted to nip your assumption in the bud and take a moment to explain my stance a bit more so my endo followers know I’m not against their existence. /gen /nm /just trying to explain myself more than tags would allow LOL

[alagaisia]

Hey if you’re still enjoying and engaging with Harry Potter in any capacity you can unfollow me 😊 please and thank you

Like. I get it. I was super into it as a kid too. I did not have the social context to pick up on the antisemitism or transphobia or sexism or fatphobia or bioessentialism or racism or anything else. I also picked up on surface-level language of Fighting Back Against Evil and ascribed my own values onto what that meant and thought we were all on the same page. I remember when the original kids who grew up with the books started becoming adult fans and picking up on the (blatant!) antisemitism and everybody was still mostly willing to give JKR the benefit of the doubt on it. (“She was writing kids books!” They said. “She didn’t know she was penning a global phenomenon! She picked a common literary trend in European fairy tales (antisemitic caricature) and didn’t examine it closely. It’s a mistake anyone could make,” we said. “She would probably do things differently now. After all, she word-of-god confirmed the vaguest hints she dropped that Dumbledore might be gay,” we said.) There was actually a span of several years where biases inherent in the actual real content of the Harry Potter series were coming to light and even the people pointing them out still seemed mostly to think it was an unfortunate accident.

That time has passed. Years ago! We are long past the first months of “maybe she doesn’t realize this seemingly-feminist tweet she liked was made by a noted TERF” and then “how could she not realize that these many veiled TERF-y things she’s retweeted have implications for the many queer fans of her work” and finally “oh wow okay JKR just dropped an entire transphobic manifesto on twitter. I guess the transphobia was the point.”

Yeah, there were a few months after that where people were still processing and still working through how they felt about Harry Potter and all of its flaws with the context of the now open transphobia of the creator. I was there for that. Remember how I was one of the kids who built it up into something noble and worthwhile based on my own beliefs about what messages it was probably trying to convey? Turns out it wasn’t trying to say any of those things, and when you take the time to examine all of the terrible shit that made its way into the text whether JKR intended it to be there or not, the whole series falls apart. It’s weird to discover that there’s a room in your house that’s rotten to the core, but eventually you figure out you can’t live like that, still going in there and holding your nose and pretending it’s still the same room you thought it was when the termites were only inside of the walls and hadn’t yet started chewing their way through the furniture. Because what’s going to happen is that they are going to infest the rest of your house. If you decide you can ignore transphobia and antisemitism and everything else just because you liked the color of the wallpaper, the rest of your principles are going to crumble too. You get rid of that fucking room. You put those books on a high shelf in the back of your closet behind other outgrown clothes and interests and you move the fuck on.

JKR uses the money made from her transphobic antisemitic children’s books to actively funding hate groups and to lobby for legislation that will and has actually affected the actual lives of trans people in an entire country. We are past the point of grieving something you were wrong about in childhood. Kids are wrong about a lot of stuff. You grow up and you learn new information and you change your behaviors based on it. You have to choose. It is transphobic to pretend there is not transphobia where there is. It is transphobic to support the work of someone who is using those funds to take rights from trans people with every fucking dollar. It is hateful to continue to engage positively with a story that at its very core is rooted in hate and bigotry and prejudice. You can choose to do all of those things but you cannot claim ignorance of them and you cannot choose those things and still pretend that choosing them upholds the values we convinced ourselves that Harry Potter stood for over a decade ago as uninformed children. You cannot choose to do those things and pretend to still support your trans and queer and Jewish neighbors. I do not want you in my neighborhood. Leave.

[spittyfishy]

Would any of y’all be interested in hearing about my own characters/stories or would it just be annoying?

[thelightreflects]

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[maaxverstappen]

giiirl we need the new chapter of help me hold on to you, but i know that life gets in the way and you should take all the time you need to write it but i just love this fic so much i can’t wait for the update 🩷🩷

I’m trying i promise :’) i worked on it today!! for some reason i’ve just been really struggling with the next arc in the story. I’m not sure how to progress it adequately and make it not. boring? but been working on a scene today :)

little snippet under the cut for being so patient

The elevator to his floor is right at the back of the lobby, so Max makes a move for it; ready to fall into bed.

He manages to squeeze into the almost-closing doors like a scene from a movie and finds there is only one other person in the elevator.

“Charles,” Max remarks with surprise. His fingers twitch by his side in an effort to not reach out and make sure Charles is really there. Still not used to seeing him in person like this, be able to count the freckles on his face like this.

Charles looks up from his phone. “Oh, hi.” He doesn’t look phased at all, goes right back to typing on his phone.

“Do you mind pressing the 34th floor for me?” Max asks, not wanting to lean over into Charles’ personal space too much to do it himself.

“Hm?” Charles asks, still engrossed in his phone, barely glancing over at Max.

Max points at the buttons. “34th floor please, if you can.”

Charles puts his phone in his back pocket and presses the button with a nod and a forced smile.

The lift starts moving surely but slowly. There’s no music which makes it all both better and worse. Max feels his heart rate rise with every floor they pass, wanting to say something.

[that-was-anticlimactic]

one of the worst feelings ever is wanting to write but your hands hurt too much or the words just don’t want to work so you just sit there staring at a half finished doc with tears in your eyes bc you want to write and you need to write but everything is telling you that you can’t

[adxmanial]

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[evergreen-endo]

i love when you say you'll get back to certain posts later and then

admittedly i am really bad about this but lately i haven’t had a lot of alone time to sit and read in peace + i really like to be able to add tags that point out my favorite parts of a piece … i don’t really like to leave fics blank or with just a character tag bc i like writers to have a little something to go back to later if that makes sense !

[vacantgodling]

how tf do you just whip up a group shot and make it look so easy bro I have to fight 16 demons and a feral squirrel just to draw two dudes in the same pic aeurnföiunbs

YOURE TOO SWEET 💛😭

to be fair, i was KIIIIINDA working from a reference which is the og version of this group shot was in 2017 vs 2024 (so have a side by side lol)

but tbh i TRY to use references most of the time but i can never find references that i want so i end up having to wing it 😭😭😭 like literally my group pose process is “i wanna draw a group pose!” *spends 6 hours searching for something* “yknow fuck it we ball”

it’s why i don’t draw poses beyond 2 people often it’s just a pain in the ass to find refs and anatomy wasn’t always my strong suit. and frfr, i don’t think anatomy is my strong suit now either but i have finally accepted the fact (after many MANY years) that art is kinda just a hobby and somehow that freedom really helped me out to just do whatever

[the-travelling-witch]

aight i'm making you coffee since you're more into fuel~ more hot cocoa for me (　・`ω・´)

*entering full gossip girl mode*

well, do you remember how during his last banner that menace didn't come home and i sent him to sleep on the couch? it only lasted a few weeks, enough for me to calm down a bit, BUT, big but, i'm still sulking so i only give in to his complaints for cuddles once a week (i'm touch starved myself but MY ASS we either both suffer or none, i don't even use him as my teething toy) and the rest of the time i cuddle a body pillow, much to his chagrin BWAHAHAHAH *Bowser laugh*

as for your beloveds, Holly, i saw the list grew longer (￢∀￢) care to info dump?

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i know you’re laughing about the coffee thing but i’m telling you, i need to keep a close eye on how many cups i’ve already had that day unless i want my bloodstream to be pure caffeine ㅠㅠ

rn i’m drinking herbal tea though, so it’s time for verbal tea jshshsh

oof sounds like scara has his work cut out for when he finally returns to the banners ㅠㅠ he’d better be super nice to you to make up for what he did last time!! i mean it seems to be in his best interest too…

as for me, when is the list not getting longer? there’s always more blorbos coming and never any leaving… i think it says a lot that i can’t even pinpoint who exactly you’re referring to here ^^;

if we’re going by recent additions to the cast, it would probably be hoshina soshiro from kaiju no. 8 and harumasa asaba from zenless zone zero (the guy on my icon and the reason i started zzz after resisting taking a peek for so long), i guess it’s dark haired blorbo season jshshs

i’m trying to remember if there’s any other new media i’ve started recently but i think i’ve just been revisiting ones i’ve already read/watched and i don’t think there’s been any revelations on that front ^^;

i’m making so many ocs though (esp for twst) and they all have my heart ^^