#i cant let myself be bothered by this

[luvmequmi]

well that sucks

[skunkes]

the bad: i have been raised without much warmth from my parents in childhood, but also pressured to conform to familial authority, doubt myself always, and value familial connections above all else (<- failed at this, and feel guilt about it.)

but also in experiencing this i have been so isolated from the entire rest of the world and others, that it will be nearly impossible to create my own "family" -> find safety and comfort in anybody else once my family is Gone. despite dis i find it really difficult to break away from the familiar, disobey and disappoint, because, well, why are my wishes more important than anybody else's. why would I cause upset and distress in anybody, and exert so much effort into my doubt filled half decisions, for my meaningless little Wishes. being away would also mean less time with these people who I'll never see again once they're gone. being raised this way is definitely paying off for those who did so.

the good: yaaaay adjacent inspiration for writing talon lore

[popadoot]

doodles ..trying to capture likenesses..can you tell whos who

[jils-things]

2024 is probably not my best year now that i think about it

[sniffanimal]

If you attended college, regardless if you completed a degree or not, how many times did you change your major? count only times you actively took classes towards a degree (not how many times you thought about switching, etc). also if you want in the tags to list them you can!

[puppyeared]

adhd comix

[ghostcrows]

me praying to get any kind of IT job and now just being so embarrassed that it happened because I DONT FUCKING KNOW ANYTHING? like you'd seriously think i would but i dont know a goddamn thing. a coworker watched me struggle to turn back on a monitor that went into sleep mode today. i couldnt find the fucking button on it. like i want to kill myself over that and i wish i was being funny but im being hilarious. they watch me fumble putting in my password on these 2000 goddamn websites i have to have accounts for for some reason AND they put me on the phone to squeak mousily at angry people who are calling for higher stakes problems than the library (but that part wasnt that bad bc most of them i got to just transfer the call)....i just want to SCREAM. i just want to scream because of the enormity of my incompetence. but its not even that serious. but it is. it is

[kaiserkisser]

today is such a stark contrast to yesterday in how much i fucking hate today (vent/rant in tags bc i forgor to do it on my vent one)

[radmista]

Sowing seeds of discontent and disharmony by hanging up on my parents birthday phone call the second my mom asked if I gained weight. Hope that sits badly on their minds while they think about how that's the first call I've engaged with them in 2 months and it was for the dogs birthday. Dad scrambling to text me for my mom that she didn't mean it. Like fuck I told her I've been having a rough month and day. She couldn't keep it to herself that badly. Fucks sake

[ferahntics]

Would you believe me if I told you I wasn’t gonna have any more OCs in Kirby verse hahaaaa- I am a Fool.

FOR REAL tho I don’t know how much I’ll actually write about him, I don’t even have a fixed name sjdhg it’s just Gravel Knight for now and idk how happy I am with it :’D

He was assigned as Quiver’s mentor, not necessarily just to actually train, but also cause he was one of the very few authorities who could actually deal with her rowdy behavior. At some point Quiver did pick an actual fight with him and she met with the same fate as that Awoofy and got bonked like a pingpong ball. His method of training really was like how birds fling their chicks out of the nests to fly - everything he taught was always done the hard way.

Also note, I was in fact inspired off of those gargoyle statues you have on cathedrals or castles and what not.

[arttsuka]

Does anyone else become almost completely dysfunctional when there are other people in the same room? Talking specifically about cooking

[consult-sherlockholmes]

Who needs sleep anyway, so overrated.

[satans-knitwear]

Desperately want to play more jedi survivor (im having such a good time on it!!) but its such a nice sunny day, but im also horribly ill and movement hurts.

[cartoonrival]

i was supposed to wait to become visibly unemployable until past a particular date when i was potentially going to have to meet some industry people but shaving my head had a bigger impact on my vibe than i expected

[illogicalghost]

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[nomairuins]

bedtime nowww probably ummm today qas not what i wanted it 2 be but its fine. i dont feel negative just a very very very numb day which is almost worse. but only almost 🙏