#idk anymore honestly

[averagetmntfan]

sooooo…

How’s everyone doing? :D

[luvmequmi]

well that sucks

[saltysatellite804]

I wish I could off any sort of help, but generally in the same boat as you. Aside from a couple online friends, I don't really have anyone and I don't want to be here. The most I can say is that if there's anything in your life that's REALLY stressing you out (for me, it was my brother), finding a way to remove it can at least make you less miserable. Like i moved away and physical pain that I had been in went away, and now generally something has to set me off just before or during my period to evoke those some dark spiraling feelings.

Not sure if there's anything like that in your life, and I got lucky with my ability to move, but it can get better. I don't think I'm necessarily "good", just manageable and I don't know if it'll ever get better than that, but certainly better than wanting to die 24/7

Also if you feel like this the week before and during your period, I'd take a look into PMDD if you're not already aware of it

Hello, thank you for the anon.

Honestly I less want to die and more just wish i could shut everything off for a long time or go back in time and stop it all from ever happening. Idk if it's like a vain hope things will get better or if I'm just a coward but yeah. I'm never gonna kill myself for the above reason. I just am so tired of suffering and feeling alone. Sometimes I think I just want someone to care but i also know that's unrealistic and I'm not supposed to bother people.

Really my biggest stressers come from things entirely outside of my control. I dont really want to get into it all atm. I'm just. Tired. Of everything and everyone. I've been treated terribly by people who should've been my friends and I confirmed with others that what they did was unfair so even though I fear I'm the pattern, at best I seem to draw assholes. At worse everyone just has an instinct to kick those down? I honestly dunno anymore.

As for PMDD. I used to get that and probably still do. Now it's too many days of the month to chalk up to it unfortunately.

Honestly, I'm just trying to make peace with the hell that is this world. I used to be a pretty happy person. Used to have a decent sense of optimism. Now I've experienced too much to feel that way again I think.

Eta: another thing that really took a toll on my mental state is how hostile and uncaring fandoms seem to have gotten. I used to be able to make fandom friends pretty well but now its pulling teeth to even get a conversation going. It's a weird thing that affects me ig. Maybe it's the nostalgia talking idk.

[daydreamerwonderkid]

Fancy robe practice featuring Bruce

[amazonkindlejenner]

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[thefairmaidenoffandom]

so, for all the firefighter!yuuji aus that i adore, i never see any ems!megumi, which feels like a crime

[darlington]

THE X-FILES (1993-2018) | S06E19 ‘The Unnatural’

[orphanbychoice]

atp i genuinely doooon’t care if the old guard two is the worst thing put to film i just want to see the best character of all time (andromache the scythian) and her loser henchmen and everyone’s favorite girl nile freeman again

[enden-k]

long time no husband 🧎‍♀️

[kokoshka67]

'twas supposed to be a quick sketch

[apostaterevolutionary]

I am so sorry, apparently it’s 2024 and I’m arguing about dragon age again lmao. How did I get here! Why is this happening!! Time is a flat circle!!!

Anyway. People can feel how they want about the past games not mattering in this game. If you’re cool with it, I’m happy for you. But there’s one particular argument in defence of this choice that is really, really bothering me and I have to rant

The thing I keep seeing is “well all this other stuff has nothing to do with the main plot or Rook, so it should be cut” and that’s. Not a good way to tell stories in my opinion. Because here’s the thing: it’s not about the Big Overall Plot. It’s about the characters that live in this world, big and small

I’m going to use the example of Varric and Hawke cause I think it’s the easiest to explain quickly. Varric is a storyteller. That’s the defining trait of his character. He tells stories, and sometimes they’re true and sometimes they’re not and sometimes it’s something in between. In DA2 he tells you about his brother. In inquisition, he talks about hawke and there’s banter about several of the companions. Most of these are just little one liners that don’t “serve the overall plot” but they serve Varric’s character

And that matters

So if we take this character known for telling stories about people that have been in his life, well, he largely can’t do that now. How can he talk about Hawke, someone who can be a very close friend of his, without even their gender being a choice you can select? Or whether Varric should be saying ‘is’ or ‘was’ about them? How can he talk about the companions in DA2 or inquisition when a lot of them don’t have to be recruited or can die? Will he limit himself to only characters that are guaranteed to be a part of it and alive? Or is it that he and Rook will have such a shallow relationship that Varric, of all characters, never talks about his life and past exploits?

Or has Varric as a character changed so much that he doesn’t even want to tell stories anymore? That Hawke living or dying means nothing to him? That the friendships he built with people in 2 games mean nothing to him? That he’s become literally unrecognizable?

This is where the problem is. Sure, Rook maybe doesn’t care about these people they’ve never met. But do they care about Varric? What about if a companion mentions an old friend of theirs, talks about an experience they had that made them who they are - is that only okay if that experience isn’t from a previous game? Or are all the characters so flat that we never learn anything about their connections to others outside of Rook? Is this story SO focused on this player character and this plot that NOTHING else matters, even within the world, and there’s no depth to be found in any of the characters that feature in it?

Writing characters so that they only ever talk about things that “directly serve the plot” is how you get flat, unremarkable, boring, forgettable characters. And that’s not something I would have accused bioware of doing even if some instalments are stronger in this area than others. But it sounds like that’s what they’re doing here, at least with the past characters. Cause sure, maybe Morrigan is so closed off she’ll never mention her son and partner. That’s believable, even if iffy given that they’ve said she’s going to be more involved than we think. But Varric? VARRIC??? Never mentioning ANY of the people he used to spend time with and care about except Solas and maybe some of the inquisition characters that can’t die or not be recruited but also carefully skirting around what happened to them in the game? That’s literally not the same character

And I would expand this to like. A letter mentioning this or a codex mentioning that, or ambient dialogue about so and so - that makes the world feel deep and those random, unimportant NPCs feel richer by connecting them to the larger world. It’s not about “serving the plot”, it’s about making your world and characters deep enough that they feel real, lived in, and like something we can actually care about

[pin-poo]

[taffypointby]

hiiiii sorry if this is visible on ur blog somewhere im on mobile but what brush do u use for lineart??

uhhh if its about my latest drawing with ford and fidds holding a burger thеn its a default calligraphic brush in photoshop but i made it look kinda twirly !

(don't mind the minimum diameter though it's just my personal preference!)

thats what i've been using for lineart FOR YEARS but like lately i don't use ps that much for drawing and in most of my other recent drawings (those of this year at least?) i use this (in csp) :

[project-sekai-facts]

dude what the fuck is going on with ensekai . The 3dmv for filament fever on ensekais yt channel doesnt have the fucking event costumes its just their default ones 😭😭😭😭🙏🏼

They have one dollar

[booyahhstormz]

SCENE SKIPP !!! 💗

Love this guy fr

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[m-for-now]

Headcanon that Leo has the song "Honey, i'm good" in his distraction working playlist and whenever it comes on, he refers to Festus as the "somebody at home" when that line comes on and him and Festus just have a nice little time enjoying a silly little song