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soooooā¦
Howās everyone doing? :D
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Currently in another sexuality crisis and I can't tell if I'm a cupioromantic (basically aromantic but still craves a romantic relationship) or if I've just lost all hope of finding love cause I honestly have never been in love from the long years I've spent on this earth kdsnkdjskdj
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well that sucks
#i hate feeling like i did something wrong#lekin kuch puch bhi nhi skti#like maybe mujhse bar bar koi galti hoti#shayad main hi problem hu#i cant help it#if it always happens then it would get to even me eventually#i only have so many fucks to givr and i dont wanna waste it on pointless stuff#but#bar bar same cheez repeat ho to doubts hote ha..#literally what am i doing wrong#bas mujhe hi kyu aisa feel hota ha baar that im the only jo alag h#not in a self righteous way#but just#feeling like this is not where i belong#idk anymore honestly#whatever#i cant let myself be bothered by this#im not going to try anymore#sab ek jese h#im the same probably
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I wish I could off any sort of help, but generally in the same boat as you. Aside from a couple online friends, I don't really have anyone and I don't want to be here. The most I can say is that if there's anything in your life that's REALLY stressing you out (for me, it was my brother), finding a way to remove it can at least make you less miserable. Like i moved away and physical pain that I had been in went away, and now generally something has to set me off just before or during my period to evoke those some dark spiraling feelings.
Not sure if there's anything like that in your life, and I got lucky with my ability to move, but it can get better. I don't think I'm necessarily "good", just manageable and I don't know if it'll ever get better than that, but certainly better than wanting to die 24/7
Also if you feel like this the week before and during your period, I'd take a look into PMDD if you're not already aware of it
Hello, thank you for the anon.
Honestly I less want to die and more just wish i could shut everything off for a long time or go back in time and stop it all from ever happening. Idk if it's like a vain hope things will get better or if I'm just a coward but yeah. I'm never gonna kill myself for the above reason. I just am so tired of suffering and feeling alone. Sometimes I think I just want someone to care but i also know that's unrealistic and I'm not supposed to bother people.
Really my biggest stressers come from things entirely outside of my control. I dont really want to get into it all atm. I'm just. Tired. Of everything and everyone. I've been treated terribly by people who should've been my friends and I confirmed with others that what they did was unfair so even though I fear I'm the pattern, at best I seem to draw assholes. At worse everyone just has an instinct to kick those down? I honestly dunno anymore.
As for PMDD. I used to get that and probably still do. Now it's too many days of the month to chalk up to it unfortunately.
Honestly, I'm just trying to make peace with the hell that is this world. I used to be a pretty happy person. Used to have a decent sense of optimism. Now I've experienced too much to feel that way again I think.
Eta: another thing that really took a toll on my mental state is how hostile and uncaring fandoms seem to have gotten. I used to be able to make fandom friends pretty well but now its pulling teeth to even get a conversation going. It's a weird thing that affects me ig. Maybe it's the nostalgia talking idk.
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Fancy robe practice featuring Bruce
#dreamer doodles#batman#bruce wayne#brucie wayne#idk i think i did good enough#i stared at so many fucking vintage model photos and movies for this one#honestly i feel like i could do a bit better#but I'm eh about working on this one anymore
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so, for all the firefighter!yuuji aus that i adore, i never see any ems!megumi, which feels like a crime
#itafushi#fushiita#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#itadori yuuji#fushiguro megumi#i did in fact have positions fleshed out for the entire cast but i'm honestly not into jjk enough to draw it all anymore#so i'll be posting any last wips/unfinished jjk pieces soon#and no this is not based on 9-1-1 im just an emt in training#au#jjk manga#megumi is obviously an aemt here but i feel like he'd go for paramedic in another two to three years#love the idea of him showing yuuji the ropes around the station#they'd ideally be early-twenties at least for all certifications to work with some wiggle room but idk it fits them#i think yuuji would make the ff choice at twenty for the earliest#so by the time the exam rolled around and he finished the academy halfway through twenty-one#megumi would have to pick ems right out of highschool to keep ages in line and give time to move from emt-b to aemt#idk im rambling#fanart#jjk fanart
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THE X-FILES (1993-2018)Ā | S06E19 āThe Unnaturalā
#the x files#txfedit#xfilesedit#chewieblog#userbbelcher#dailytvgifs#david duchovny#gillian anderson#fox mulder#dana scully#jamiesff#honestly idk who to tag anymore and these look so bad but hi i guess i'm back?#and if you saw me post these to the wrong blog no you didn't
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long time no husband š§āāļø
#drew arlefuri omegavrs all day but honestly dk how much i can post here#or even in other blog bc idk if this ship is of any interest over there#i think most fellow enjoyers are here ???#might just keep it to twt otherwise AJJHXXHSB#sketch#wip#im having a big attraction etc crisis once again so no one ask#i have no idea anymore so#im just ignoring it now AHAHAH
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'twas supposed to be a quick sketch
#deadpool#wolverine#deadpool and wolverine#deadpool 3#deadclaws#wolvepool#logan howlett#wade wilson#honestly idk anymore i kinda snapped#i wanted to do a quick scene redraw#and ended up here#its the nose#nose made me do it#yeah sure a warmup#keep lying to myself#poolverine
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atp i genuinely doooonāt care if the old guard two is the worst thing put to film i just want to see the best character of all time (andromache the scythian) and her loser henchmen and everyoneās favorite girl nile freeman again
#its not even funny anymore WHERE IS ANDY AND NORIKO!!!!!!!!!!! it was supposed to be the year of dyke drama šššššš#like given the way they structured the first movie the second would have to be almost wholly original and differ a lot from the comic#like andy cant go thru the shit noriko puts her thru so im guessing the script would switch her out with nile getting tossed in the ocean#but that doesnt really work with norikos comic characterization (trying to get andy to see her point by making her go thru what noriko did#isnt something quynh will gaf about if andy isnt one of the immortals. andys become thr āverminā noriko hates!!!)#and given the end of the movie everyones chill with copley so joe and nickys whole subplot cant exist anymoreā¦. idk maybe theyll switch out#copley with moose?? idc as long as we get their stupid car conversation tbh makes me laugh#honestly given the changes that would have to be made they probably just made a stupid movie and donāt want to release it. but I DONT CAREEE#its not exactly like the first one was that good i still mute it in preparation for every cringe needle drop like its a lame movie but its#genuineeeeee fun like i seriously do not care netflix give me my movie!!!#the old guard
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I am so sorry, apparently itās 2024 and Iām arguing about dragon age again lmao. How did I get here! Why is this happening!! Time is a flat circle!!!
Anyway. People can feel how they want about the past games not mattering in this game. If youāre cool with it, Iām happy for you. But thereās one particular argument in defence of this choice that is really, really bothering me and I have to rant
The thing I keep seeing is āwell all this other stuff has nothing to do with the main plot or Rook, so it should be cutā and thatās. Not a good way to tell stories in my opinion. Because hereās the thing: itās not about the Big Overall Plot. Itās about the characters that live in this world, big and small
Iām going to use the example of Varric and Hawke cause I think itās the easiest to explain quickly. Varric is a storyteller. Thatās the defining trait of his character. He tells stories, and sometimes theyāre true and sometimes theyāre not and sometimes itās something in between. In DA2 he tells you about his brother. In inquisition, he talks about hawke and thereās banter about several of the companions. Most of these are just little one liners that donāt āserve the overall plotā but they serve Varricās character
And that matters
So if we take this character known for telling stories about people that have been in his life, well, he largely canāt do that now. How can he talk about Hawke, someone who can be a very close friend of his, without even their gender being a choice you can select? Or whether Varric should be saying āisā or āwasā about them? How can he talk about the companions in DA2 or inquisition when a lot of them donāt have to be recruited or can die? Will he limit himself to only characters that are guaranteed to be a part of it and alive? Or is it that he and Rook will have such a shallow relationship that Varric, of all characters, never talks about his life and past exploits?
Or has Varric as a character changed so much that he doesnāt even want to tell stories anymore? That Hawke living or dying means nothing to him? That the friendships he built with people in 2 games mean nothing to him? That heās become literally unrecognizable?
This is where the problem is. Sure, Rook maybe doesnāt care about these people theyāve never met. But do they care about Varric? What about if a companion mentions an old friend of theirs, talks about an experience they had that made them who they are - is that only okay if that experience isnāt from a previous game? Or are all the characters so flat that we never learn anything about their connections to others outside of Rook? Is this story SO focused on this player character and this plot that NOTHING else matters, even within the world, and thereās no depth to be found in any of the characters that feature in it?
Writing characters so that they only ever talk about things that ādirectly serve the plotā is how you get flat, unremarkable, boring, forgettable characters. And thatās not something I would have accused bioware of doing even if some instalments are stronger in this area than others. But it sounds like thatās what theyāre doing here, at least with the past characters. Cause sure, maybe Morrigan is so closed off sheāll never mention her son and partner. Thatās believable, even if iffy given that theyāve said sheās going to be more involved than we think. But Varric? VARRIC??? Never mentioning ANY of the people he used to spend time with and care about except Solas and maybe some of the inquisition characters that canāt die or not be recruited but also carefully skirting around what happened to them in the game? Thatās literally not the same character
And I would expand this to like. A letter mentioning this or a codex mentioning that, or ambient dialogue about so and so - that makes the world feel deep and those random, unimportant NPCs feel richer by connecting them to the larger world. Itās not about āserving the plotā, itās about making your world and characters deep enough that they feel real, lived in, and like something we can actually care about
#I am so mad that Iām mad about this but Iām mad about this lmao#I wasnāt even decided on the game!!! I was cautiously waiting and seeing! and now Iām MAD!!!!! why would they do this!!!#anyway idk I just needed to get this out cause Iām doom scrolling too much and some of the defences of it just donāt make sense with good#storytelling and Iām upset that people donāt see that#again if you donāt care Iām happy for you please continue being unbothered#but god I am so bothered because I want good characters and wold building gdi#the plot is honestly so secondary like if the plot is ass but the characters are amazing Iād pick that ove good plot and shallow characters#every time#okay I need to get ready for bed and my head hurts lmao#I also donāt know how to do a cut in mobile anymore so sorry#long post#dragon age#veilguard#veilguard spoilers#text#shut up nerd#bioware critical
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#my art#resident evil#re4r#idk what to tag anymore honestly. hi.#adashley#ada wong#ashley graham#ada wong x ashley graham
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SCENE SKIPP !!! š
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#ramshackle#fanart#ramshackle fanart#skipp ramshackle#silly little guy that lives in my head#honestly idk what tags to use anymore#im not sure if it's scene or other style but anyways#I tried using my 'detailed'? style for once#that's all i have to say#RAHHHH
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Headcanon that Leo has the song "Honey, i'm good" in his distraction working playlist and whenever it comes on, he refers to Festus as the "somebody at home" when that line comes on and him and Festus just have a nice little time enjoying a silly little song
#bonus points if whoever you ship w Leo walks in on them and Leo jokingly rejects them for Festus like the song says#festus the dragon#i feel like Festus would make machine noises to go w the song#idk Spotify shuffled that song into my Leo Valdez distraction playlist#and honestly i thought it was funny#after typing it out i can't tell anymore if this is awesome or slightly weird#but i think Leo and Festus would listen to music together and have a fun little time while Leo is working in either the Bunker or the Forge#also personal opinion Festus is totally fine and doing well and came with Leo to the Waystation#i need more Festus content honestly#leo valdez and festus the dragon#make it a tag pls#leo valdez#pjo leo#leo pjo#leo valdez pjo#heroes of olympus#leo valdez headcanons#festus the dragon headcanon#pjo festus#am i spelling him wrong?? where are all the festus tags??#pjo hoo toa#also depending on your ships#jason grace#valgrace#nico di angelo#valdangelo#i'm... i should tag Caleo shouldn't i...#i'll leave that to the Caleo shippers#feel free to use this hc for your ship but yk#riordanverse
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I am here to gush on Sung Hyunje again bc i just love how he seemed like the typical rich and cool and obsessive ml lead but turns out he is ALL of that BUT ALSO heās an apron wearing housewife who loves coming up with a bunch of bullshit and shows no interest in ppl outside of their abilities (definitely a virgin) and the moment he falls in love he gives a wholesome fluffy earnest honest love where he is even willing to be the one to let go to save that person and heās so mature about it yet so innocent at the same time and he will kill your enemies for you
#sctir#fandom#sung hyunjae#i had a dream we were romantically involved and that made me cringe#cuz he aint my type#but nowā¦ idk anymore maybe itās me seeing how ace coded he is#but i wouldnt know what to do with how earnest he loves honestly its scary
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