Currently in another sexuality crisis and I can't tell if I'm a cupioromantic (basically aromantic but still craves a romantic relationship) or if I've just lost all hope of finding love cause I honestly have never been in love from the long years I've spent on this earth kdsnkdjskdj
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I wish I could off any sort of help, but generally in the same boat as you. Aside from a couple online friends, I don't really have anyone and I don't want to be here. The most I can say is that if there's anything in your life that's REALLY stressing you out (for me, it was my brother), finding a way to remove it can at least make you less miserable. Like i moved away and physical pain that I had been in went away, and now generally something has to set me off just before or during my period to evoke those some dark spiraling feelings.
Not sure if there's anything like that in your life, and I got lucky with my ability to move, but it can get better. I don't think I'm necessarily "good", just manageable and I don't know if it'll ever get better than that, but certainly better than wanting to die 24/7
Also if you feel like this the week before and during your period, I'd take a look into PMDD if you're not already aware of it
Hello, thank you for the anon.
Honestly I less want to die and more just wish i could shut everything off for a long time or go back in time and stop it all from ever happening. Idk if it's like a vain hope things will get better or if I'm just a coward but yeah. I'm never gonna kill myself for the above reason. I just am so tired of suffering and feeling alone. Sometimes I think I just want someone to care but i also know that's unrealistic and I'm not supposed to bother people.
Really my biggest stressers come from things entirely outside of my control. I dont really want to get into it all atm. I'm just. Tired. Of everything and everyone. I've been treated terribly by people who should've been my friends and I confirmed with others that what they did was unfair so even though I fear I'm the pattern, at best I seem to draw assholes. At worse everyone just has an instinct to kick those down? I honestly dunno anymore.
As for PMDD. I used to get that and probably still do. Now it's too many days of the month to chalk up to it unfortunately.
Honestly, I'm just trying to make peace with the hell that is this world. I used to be a pretty happy person. Used to have a decent sense of optimism. Now I've experienced too much to feel that way again I think.
Eta: another thing that really took a toll on my mental state is how hostile and uncaring fandoms seem to have gotten. I used to be able to make fandom friends pretty well but now its pulling teeth to even get a conversation going. It's a weird thing that affects me ig. Maybe it's the nostalgia talking idk.
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saw this on twitter and then I heard someone wanting cacao in this so I just drew it
And then I saw people on twitter and tiktok yapping about four armed cacao and drew these.
And then people started comparing him to lord garmadon 😭😭
Anyways I like the idea of it
inspo: https://x.com/riverart__/status/1805637966167003293?s=46
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