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unfinished wip: fem!luka
sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh im so tired let me out of hereeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
this wip has been sitting on my laptop for months and im not gonna continue it lmao so have a fem!tattoo artist!luka (ignore teh butch on the bg; shes busy)
(twt crosspost ig)
#honkai star rail#hsr#digital art#fanart#luka strongarm#hsr luka#fem!luka#tattoo artist!luka#flowershop au#florist x tattoo artist au#sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#guys#i cant do this anymore haha#have a headcanon: luka is a fan of cb#thus why shes inspired by those wrist tattoos bc theyre cool
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I LOVE triangles.
The drama, the frustrations, the miscommunication, the will-they-won't-they, the longing, the "wishing it was me", you know. The Trope.
I love reading about it and knowing who the end game is and feeling bad for the second lead.
I. LOVE. IT.
But I don't like it when it's happening to me irl...
haha someone stab me from the sides than choose please....
#diana updates#diana rants#who tf decided I was a lead girl in a love triangle material?#BETWEEN TWO AMAZING WOMEN NONETHELESS#HOW TF AM I SUPPOSED TO CHOOSE WITHOUT HURTING THE OTHER WTF#i cant do this anymore haha
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Being someone who read Under The Red Hood and came out with the firm belief that, for Jason, it's not about killing Joker, it's about Jason wanting proof Batman would choose him over the Joker (bc shelia chose the joker). Makes seeing any other media where it's all about just wanting the Joker dead is a teeny bit frustrating. to be honest
Jason could've killed the Joker himself, really, really easily. Jason kidnaps the Joker before the confrontation. I can't open my comic for a reference right now, but it felt like he had the Joker for quite a bit before the confrontation. He had him. He beat him up with a crowbar. He had every single opportunity to kill the Joker himself, but he didn't because that wasn't his goal. Make no mistake, he did plan for the Joker to be dead by the end of it, but do you see what im trying to say here
Edit: If I knew this post was gonna get 1000+ notes I would've tried to word it better or something, this was a rant I made on the way to the grocery store 😭
It's not about making Batman kill either. When Batman says he won't kill, Jason adjusts and goes, 'Let ME kill the Joker or kill me to stop me' instead. The test is all about Batman choosing him. The whole final confrontation is Jason's first death again. The parent, The Joker, and the explosives. It even ends with Jason unable to move as a bomb goes off right next to him again because the parent didn't choose Jason. And instead tried finding an option that'd benefit them and (consequencely) letting the Joker walk, again, lol, lmao <-in agony
#the final confrontation was basically his first death again#and YES he Does want the Joker dead#and it would've been really really nice if Batman was the one who did it#but when batman made it clear he wouldn't kill the joker. Jason easily switched to saying “LET me kill the joker” to accommodate#because he Wanted batman to pass his test#he gave a test to dick too. and technically tim but it wasnt the family test it was a different one so it doesnt rly count#AFTER utrh and the reveal and the batarang you can go hog wild about it. i care less about it then#granted i do believe they make jason more scared of the joker after it at some point#i guess because hes a bit too willing to kill the joker and ive heard jason wasnt meant to live after utrh#my watsonian explain for that is he was so fixated on his plan he cpuld override his fear. or maybe the pit. either work#i prefer the fixation bc i dont like the explanation that the pit was the /only/ reason he could get all plan together and done#BUT THATS UNRELATED!!!#dc stop putting the joker in jason stories im begging you please please please. lock him in a vault for the next 20 years or something#it Cpuld be good and i understand. but also. after so long of people that dont know or go for jasons need for family and parents#that love him and he can trust#the joker starts to feel like?? hm. words. a cop out? oh haha its that guy that killed him woagh hes here#i bet you dont even know that jaybin got beat until unconsciousness by an angry mob#while asking batman to save him only for batman to have to walk away#anwya. where was i going with this#i think i got off topic#jason todd#dc comics#batman#ADDED AN EDIT. SORRY. this post has been haunting me it keeps me awake. what if people misunderstand#they cant read my tags where i ramble more depth. thisbis the only option#EDIT EDIT: hiii#removed the sentence abt jason having the joker for several days bc i misremembered some things#go read its-your-mind 's addition instead also#ok no more i wont edit this post anymore i promise
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hello I want to hit him with a crowbar
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#pfff#this is so dumb#someone help me please#i cant take it anymore#the kevin spookymonth grind#never stops#i wish it did#no but srs#help#HELP#damn man rigging is hard#who made me do this#i haven't slept in days haha
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i love that yall scream with me abt felix and stuff lolllll. i feel weird sometimes like i shouldnt post if im not writing cus yall are pretty much here for my writing.. so if im not writing like no one cares abt me lol but idk its still fun and it makes me so happy that yall still think of me even when ive not been active like thats so sweet?? jdnsjfjjs IDKK i cant articulate my thoughts correctly rn but i just wanted to say ily guys! 🤍🤍
#im so tired rn idk what im saying ldksjnfksk#lowkey kinda WANT everyone to forget abt me like PLSSS... the desire to fade into obscurity...... i hate being perceived 😭#i mean i feel like a ton of ppl already have lol#it feels so nice not being hounded for updates constantly..... phew...#ive barelu been writing this past month but when i do start again i'll probably not post anything until it's fully done cus like#i cant deal w pressure LOLL#if that wasn't obvious. but anyway#im starting a new internship which will be for the next 7ish months before i go back to school#soooo i'll probably have a ton more free time! no homework likeeeee lets go?#but yeah so no promises but im hoping ill get back into writing in a bit..! i do miss it#thats it for jems life update in the tags#dawggg ok wait yk what SUCKS. i have to start DRIVING......#im cooked fr i hate driving i can barely drive but 😭 i gotta go to WORK now ig...... cant just walk to classes anymore#and in crazy snow conditions.... fml......#my last internship i didnt have a license and just ubered everyday LOL#but that is so expensive#OKKAYY thats my main stress rn but once im moved and settled yall will hopefully hear more from me#like actual substance and not just screaming over felix. hopefully LOLLL#unless i get into a car accident. jk JKKK i will not even joke abt that that will not happen haha!!!+!! im not stressed at all#.txt
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the fact that i immediately landed an awesome job right out from graduation but then got covid in august and now my brain doesn't work right and i might lose my job because of it . there's a funny joke in here somewhere maybe
#txt#haha. like. how lucky was i to get this job. and unlucky to get sick and have my brain fucked over#also a loss of time perception. time does not move for me it feels like 7am still and its 10am#i feel like i got lobotomized. brainfog and much less of a filter of what i say/do and fatigue etc#shortness of breath when im stressed too. fucking annoying#i keep fucking up on the simplest tasks at work. literally filled out a simple form wrong that i've been doing right since day 1#and my supervisor is patient and i tried explaining brainfog but idt she takes it seriously and she gets more annoyed the more i screw up#and like. i need this job!!!!!!!!!!! it pays disgustingly well!!!!!! but if i cant do simple tasks right anymore then what am i even doing#ive had this stuff since late august but its so much worse suddenly and i dont know why :((#to be deleted /#<- if i can even remember i made this post at all LOL someone shoot me
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It is currently 4:55am can someone please draw bill cipher making out with discord from mlp and then ford catching them and then it cuts to ford and bill filing for devorce because of the affair
and then it turns out discord is bills devorce loyer and the candy girl from right now kapow is fords lawor and um the judge is pink pie or something also I want um Herbert west involsedin sum wa y
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#reanimator#herbert west#gravity falls#sos#standford pines#gravity falls stanford#discord#mlp#my little pony#discord my little pony#currently listening to that one ponymov theme song#affair#right now kapow#help my sanity#i can't sleep#my package hasn't shipped yet going insane#im going insane#who wants to get intimate haha just kidding#I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE#pinkie pie#mlp pinkie pie#mlp pinkie#JOKE this is a JOKE
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hello! I have been following you for years now, and just wanted to say that I'm really glad that your tags under reblogs went from depression and no plans for long life to becoming a tattoo artist and looking forward to living more. all while being faithful to pink. I hope that many many good things come your way from now on!
also, I really like your art. both lineart and coloring is very beautiful)
aaa tysm 💗 omg i was JUST thinking abt this recently!!! like im so glad i didnt kms during hs - college LMAO cuz now i can motorboat sukunas fat boobs in 2025 life is beautiful 👍🏻
#becoming a tat artist was not planned in any way but having $ and moving out rly did That#i forgot how much it sucked living w my fam the trauma of it all like it feels so distant now im like.. did that all rly happen sjejwjsm#im on ok terms w my fam now mostly cuz i basically ran away from home and cut contact at first but they begged me to forgive them basically#sort of so my sis n i visit them once a month or so and they r on their best behavior#and we play pretend normal family ANSWJJSWJKSJA#also there was the general existential dread like idk wat to do w my life im scared i should die 💀 BUT NOT ANYMORE CUZ ME HAS A JOB N CAN#AFFORD STUFF YAY :D#i havent wanted to kms since like 2020/2021 YAYZ#or 2022? idk my memory is soo completely fcked at this point stuff beyond a year ago seem super far away and weird but basically IVE BEEN#GOOD FOR A WHILE#i also dont cry anymore only at sad cat posts online haha but looking back that was not normal 👎🏻#specifically i was like i wanted my fam to find my dead body so i can traumatize them back and also run away from existential dread THATS A#KRAZEE LINE OF THOUGHT OMG I CANT BELIEVE THAT WAS MEEEEEE#now i have 2 beautiful kids (my cats) and i daydream abt my anime husbands#and i buy a bunch of hanboks#and go to the salon for my hair instead of bleaching it and dying it pink myself#and i get my nails done man life is GOOD :3#literally depression WHO#i cant believe i would have missed out on jjk cuz i only got into that in 2024 STAY ALIVE PPL!!! :3#drawing sexy sukuna every night haaaaaa 👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻#asks#TY AGAIN THIS ASK IS NICE 💗💗💗💗#allll da best to u toooo 💗💗🎀💗💗💗🎀💗💗💗🎀🎀
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love my bad mental health, love being suicidal all the time
#abc shut it#im tired of fighting it and trying to participate in life when it feels like i dont exist#love being lonely and then being told its due to my bad mental health so i pretend it doesnt affect me and i try and be myself#and no one likes me and i dont exist unless i remind people im a person so its kinda like#at a point where its not just suicidal ideation#its just a situation of /when/ and not if haha#ive been alive for 26 years and 20 of those have been exhausting as hell im ready to be done#exhausting and lonely and isolating im sick of it#i try and i try and my life doesnt get better or anymore worth living#and when i vent abt it i get told i need to try harder and im not trying at all and i need to stop being so depressed#its hard to not be depressed when the universe gives everyone around me a better experiences than me#i feel like im screaming that im here please pay attention#and nothing#i talk and my voice gets ignored or i get talked over#i post online to try and start conversations or make friends and i just get ignored#like do i exist at all to anyone else but myself#im trying to reach out and make friends but none of the ppl i wanna make friends with seem interested in having a conversation with me#i add all these people to discord and message them all the time#but nothing gets passed me sending them messages no one ever fucking messages me first#it feels like no one thinks about me and i dont matter#literally no one gives a fuck what i have to say#or anytime i talked im corrected on SOMETHING i say or i get a belittled in response#i cant do this shit anymore i cant#no one gives a shit about what i have to say and its really coming across that no one likes me#bc if my friends cant text me first or respond to my messages at all#why am i in the wrong feeling like im alone and have no friends when im the only one reaching out ever if i wanna have a conversation#and when i do feel like im allowed to talk i just talk and talk and talk and know the people dont give a shit abt what i have to say#i jsut feel like im here to be talked at and do things for other people and nothing more#that whenever i have an emotion its wrong and i need to bottle it up#and i dont eve get a chance to learn how to manage my emotions bc it feels like im going to get scolded or belittled for feeling things
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Fuck my stupid lonely gay life
#AUGHH. AM I EVEN CAPABLE OF CONNECTING WITH OTHER HUMAN BEINGS#gun to my head. am i even a real person anymore#i dont even like talking to other people is the worst part#sometimes i wonder how my life would be if i hadnt developed insanely severe social anxiety in high school#never trust how you feel about your life after 8pm <- repeating this over and over#how do people even make online friends. like. i guess i would have to actually talk to people#but even then what if i say something wrong. what if i dont have anything to say. scary#i think a new hyperfixation would fix me (haha ) but i havent been able to enjoy anything on that level recently and its kind of#PISSING ME OFF but whatever. is this what neurotypical peoples lives are like. how do they do it#pacing in a circle zoloft takes 8 weeks to work zoloft takes 8 weeks#i guess i use this account as a vent mostly but thats because i have no where else to . LOL#whatever. another vent post for the ages. this ones not even coherent. im so good at talking about fucking nothing dude#vent#talking#i like going through my own vent posts and analyzing my character development like im from a story#hey past me i hate to zay it but stimulants did not fix your problems. in fact they sent you into a major dissociative episode#got put on ritalin now but i dont think its gonna help probably. but maybe thats because the last two adhd medications were so terrible#but i think my adhd too bad for weak stimulant and my anxiety too bad for strong stimulant . my mental illness cocktail untreatable#im so glad you cant see views on tumblr that shit made me so anxious on twitter i deleted an entire account lol#bro cant make friends and he cant maintain the friendships he has 😭 what a loser
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major league gaymer <3
#suggestive#clover and moochie ty 4 helping me with some details <3#this started off as a funny doodle haha sollux in sIut position tehe ٩( 'ω' )و#THREE FUCKING POINT PERSPECTIVE#I CANNOT#I CANT LOOK AT VANISHING POINTS ANYMORE 😭#homestuck#sollux#vaguely discord kitten au#sollux captor#anyway i MIGHT color this some day#because this is like. zine tier drawing for me 💀#and i dont wanna do that rn lol#liart
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Watching RWBY Chibi for the first time for this essay and I'm in absolute agony. Do people actually find this funny?
#rwde#on the 5th ep and i have been able to predict every joke so far and probs will continue to do so#cannot believe the amt of jokes that are literally just 'haha blake is a cat'#esp since the writers obviously understand that those kinds of jokes are in universe racist like WHY ARE YOU LEANING INTO THOSE JOKES THEN#you KNOW you tied black american racism to the faunus so why are you making fun of blakes identity as a faunus???#you can really tell its written by men too#the 3rd episode was viscerally uncomfortable every time jaune came on screen#that episode contained more realistic warning signs of an abusive man than anything the writers did w adam or jacque#like. hes straight up LIVID at his perception of being ignored and then destroyed weiss's scroll to preserve his dignity#probs bc he knows that any person who listened to his pathetic whimpering would file a restraining order bc he cant take a no for an answer#i hate jaune so fucking much#i remember reading in the xover comics that team jnpr was kidnapped and saying 'thank god jaune wont be in this'#technically he was but he wasnt hogging the screentime so its a win! throw that man in the garbage where he belongs!#also that bit where ruby screamed at blake that her book was filth whilst also keeping it is really disturbing#esp now that purity culture is becoming exceedingly more prominent#that has some v concerning implications for the society of remnant#if religion aint that common anymore why is ruby suddenly catholic?#'oh lighten up its a joke show' jokes need to be good and all the rwbyverse needs to be held accountable for its crimes against media#3d chibis are abominations and should be killed w fire
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you know what? at least he got his wedding. i guess ,
#liz blogs#knight rider#knight rider spoilers#kr#knight rider liveblog#stevie makes me so fucking sad you dont understand. you dont understand. oh my god.#''at least i could always run into you at the supermarket'' ''thats how i do it too'' yeah. yeah. about that. uh. um. not. anymoRE#oh my god. at least they finally got their wedding. oh m y fucking god. it was beautiful for all of 8 minutes#this episode really smacks you with horrible grief over michaels two best relationships. its not bad enough about stevie#but then kitt rushes to his side after he gets shot. protects him. calls the ambulance. follows behind it the whole way there and looks#after him. god. tapped into the camera in his room and saves his fucking life. SITTING IN THE PARKING LOT FOR WEEKS#AND MICHAEL GETES OUT AND GOES 'YEAH ANYWAY IM LEAVING THE FOUNDATION' BITCH ??????? BITCH ??????????????#WHAT HAPPENS TO KITT THEN 8( YOU CANT JUST LEAVE HIM BEHIND HE'S YOUR FUCKING BUDDY !!!!!!!! HES YOUR PAL#OH MY GOD !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM GOING TO CRY FOR LIKE THE 8TH TIME#BUILD ANOTHER CAR. PROGRAM ANOTHER AI. THIS ONE IS MICHAELS HE SHOULD GET TO KEEP HIM FOREVER#IM GOING TO CRY MY FUCKING EYES OUT OH MY G O D#i was right to be upset and nervous for this episode. i was right. i was right. oh . my god.#knight rider is ruining my life actually. jesus christ. i thought michael was actually going to Kill for the first time. oh my god.#im so upset. about the tv show. im so upset im in grief im going to cry#Again.#she threw himself in front of him. she threw -#''haha funy show about a guy and his car'' -- five months later i am never recovering. i am never recovering from my decision to watch kr#jesus. FUCKING christ oh my GOD
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I am nthn but h8 but I am also so so boring . I'm like the worst guy bc I am literally nthn goin on . nthn 2 luv nthn 2 h8 I'm like totally neutral in a way that's annoying . what happened . where did I go . who took me . didn't I used 2 b fun, didnt I used 2 b interesting. u used 2 b able 2 talk 2 me an I culd talk back . I used 2 b able 2 help u if u were down . what happened . I want him back. I want the old me back. pls. pls js let everythin go back. js a few mnths is all I need
#dont even care enuf 2 draft this.#w/e#im not even real anywayz#none offf thiss is realll anyyywayzzzz#literally cannot imagine a future w myself anymore lol!!!! i cant even c me in 2yrs .#NOT sayin i want 2 die. sayin that this me isnt sustainable . boy i have 2 change but ik if i do itll b 4 the wrse. oh well.#ahhhh who carez!!!!!#not like this matterz#my feelings lit do not matter lmao i need 2 rlly learn that . bc i thot they did but now ive bcome far 2 selfish#so#need 2.....unlearn that if i wanna mayb start smth positive#sighhh#srry ill go back 2 silly posting aftr this js give me a moment haha#rivers rambles <3
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ive been taking pictures of all of the pages of my old sketchbooks and uploading them on a private discord server (for now, ill see about getting an external drive or smth soon) because i dont want to lose my old art but i really dont want to carry all of these around for the rest of my life. the bad news is
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(its like, 2 floors of books. theres more that you cant see. help)
#blabs#i know having them around physically is technically a better idea but man. these have been building up since like 2012#i cant do that forever#ill probs keep a few of the very new and smaller ones#plus on my oldest one u cant even see the lines anymore haha idk what shitty pencil i was using there lol
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what if i lost the will to live like. as a joke. what then.
#i am fine ftr im just. exhausted haha#NOT to overshare about my personal life too much but my dog is dying. my horse is being given back to his og owner this summer / fall.#my dads kicking me out in two years (in favor of his girlfriend and her kids bc he would rather live w them!!!)#his alcoholism is driving me crazy bc hes treating me like absolute shit and berating me constantly#and stealing from me 🙃#ive lost my healthcare benefits + now have to either raw dog therapy out of pocket or loose my therapist#a therapist that took me a year of being on a waiting list to get in w btw#and idk i just genuinely feel like a loser rn like. im a 23 year old unemployed fat virgin who plays video games all day like. 🧍#where is this going for me. what is the point of it all. in two years im going to be fucking homeless on top of all that#unless some miracle happens bc as is i am too disabled to work.#im just reaching a point where i deeply dont care anymore. whatever happens happens im done fighting it#and ik its the abandonment issues talking here but knowing my dad is planning on abandoning me. 👍#thats two for two on parents leaving me. my entire family has at this point so like truly i cant trust any relationship#like if my PARENTS find me that unbearable. and my best friend who knew me my entire life thought so. then truly every relationship#i ever have is on a fucking timer like. idk if any besties r reading this im sorry i promise this is in no way a dig at yall#bc you guys do really make me feel loved and secure in a way no one else has but. id be lying if i said i wasnt still scared#anyways enough oversharing#i really am fine and safe rn btw like. at minimum u guys r stuck w me until arc*ne season 2 comes out 😂#my post
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