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adding this very dumb doodle of Streber getting thrown off the ring

My take on what the hell was going on with the three dumbasses before the rumble:

enjoy

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My take on what the hell was going on with the three dumbasses before the rumble:

enjoy

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I love u sm fandom, have this

He finally taking a break from the usual nightmares lmao

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posting this very dumb doodle of Streber that I made a long time ago that I don't think I've ever posted it in here. So I'm gonna share it with the whole class bc he looks so dumb it makes me giggle and still resonates with me till this day.

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Annddd! Here we're back with Page 10!! My favorite page as far as it's going

Man I love women

A comp of basically all my oc's mc's (going from stories 1 to 4), a fan oc from h2g2- AND TRILLIAN- who's in the center.

All women . . . pretty . . . *giggles and kicks feet*

Not much to say for this one, enjoy the women!! 💥🐱‍🏍💥👏💥

Jk, actually very brief intro info for almost all of them (except Trillian bc she's from an actual existent media ((i really need to post my h2g2 doodles gang i miss 'em)))

Story 1: Blanca an Alexa, u already know my girlies from previous post- now here with their redesigns! Ages? Late 20's early 30's Story 2: My girl Elizabeth! She's 21, she's the second story I made, she lives around the end of the Victorian Era, has a little bro half her age who she constatly babysits, aaannnddd . . . Bristish orphan. She's constantly tired and prob a bit depressed. Will I do a complete rant about her story? Prob one day, who knows wowo Story 3: And here we have Mary! She's 17 and wants to overthrown the goverment of the small island she lives in with her friends. She starts with no traumas at all and living her best life and by the end of the story she's basically gone through hell and back. She's my first fully developed story because it all kinda appeared to me in a dream and also first one I have full papers dedicated to the world building. I need to draw her and co more ngl. Story 4: So y'all already kinda know how Alex's story's rants goes but this case is kinda different because it's not Alex who appears, but his friend, Zofia - She gets introduced in s3 and appears all the way up til the end of the series. Don't really know how to describe her rather than showing so in future drawings. Fan oc from h2g2: LISTEN- DONT JUDGE ME- She's Mag (Marjorie) she's somewhere in her 30's And I'm not gonna rant about her in here bc she need her own formal post snfmsjjs, just know she's American, multilingual, She looks composed but can get to be unhinged (love her)

WOOOO WOMEN, AND MOST OF THEM IN THE ARO ACE SPECTRUM, LETS GOO (most of them bc the only exception is Zofia who's very sure she's not but at times deep inside questions it ((mostly bc people around her tell her so)) )

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And back to spooky month fanart with Page 9!!

As I said on Page 7, I've been struggling with finding my way to draw them, as seen in there we finally got there an in here we're just putting a bit of that to practice.

Also, page filled with hand practice and doodles bc I need to remember how to draw hands.

And in here we finally have more Streber!! So I tried to like, redraw him with that new "style" but i don't really feel convinced by how it come up here, so I still need to get the hand on that.

I need to draw Streber more fam I miss him.

Oh and also a few Alex doodles in there bc my mind makes him spin inside like a microwave.

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And here we go with Page 8! More about Alex's story in this one too!!

I forgot how much i loved to draw the mind creatures

I will not rant too much about the whole thing because that would take me to rant about the whole thing and this post would probably reach unholy lengts- so yeh-

Just gonna say that those three unrecognizable scribles u see are mind creatures (idk how to call them and i treat them like bugs at times), they live inside him and rappresent various parts of him. The one you see bellow is Billy!- Who rappresents his childhood and inner kid The two scribbles up-right is Hope! which- rappresents hope, as the name says, but not only that but is also the raddiation of positivity, creativity and happiness and all the possible irresponsible goodies. The one blurred scribble (bc im dumb and the sketchbook did not scan well) on the up-left and mini scribble on the very right is Mr. A, which rappresents all the insecurities, anxieties, lonliness- all the opposite of Hope, and your typical sassy jerk.

Asides from them there's three more that torment the boy's mind, but that's a thing for the future.

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Page 7! Page that fandom will love the most i think

So as I was commenting in previous post, not only have I been feeling bad about my art lately, but also the way I draw my favorite characters from fav current media. Not gonna lie fam, this is a problem I've been dealing with ever since I got into spooky month, rant bellow-

Listen, everytime I go to any social media i bump into the most pretty and amazing and wonderful masterpieces of fanart of my fav sm characters and I always explode positively about that, because I love the fanart, the problems come when after seeing the masterpiece that's on my feed and getting the urge to make fanart of my own version/take of the blorbos myself . . . I fail! Because- idk- it doesn't look right- Everything looks too stiff(??? It doesn't come how I would want to. So I shut down and start feeling bad and all the down in the dumps stuff. And so I try to forget about it. And so on so on, put it on loop.

I don't know why this happens I just know I've been stuck on this for like 2 years, and to not think about I try to do draw them with the style of the series, but either so, it doesn't sit right with me, I want to draw them with the feeling and passion that I got for them but for some reason nothing seems to suit right--

sigh-- But for this page I said, you know what? you getting over that now. You're experimenting and you're gonna draw 'em as how u like and it doesn't have to be perfect and u can fail as much as u want.

And now we're here! And to be fair, I don't feel bad by how my blorbo looks drawn by me for the first time in a while! I started with the mini Streber's which was more to try to see how to go with it. The Kevin next to them with the usual "my style" take to see where to go. Then a lil Alex doodle to relax the hand. And finally the half head of Kevin right next to him. Did it mindlessly and when I actually looked at it was like- "hold up--.." And so I went to do a more complete version of it up in the center and I was very happy with how it came pff

Yee I know, not much experimenting as I told myself I would but hey, I liked it and I took it. I'll probably do more actual experimenting in the future tho.

The the rest of Kevins are just me trying to analyze wth did I do with the first one to keep that same essence in other-like drawings following that design. Struggled a bit there- not gonna lie, but for the page that was enough.

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Page 6!! Woooo (date bc i forgor: 17-7-25) In this page I bring you, head anatomy and stylization practices . . . Studies(?? I don't know how to call it guys so sorry-

So what we got here- well we got two portrait exercises base on the ref pictures from a Proko's video. Then I also tried to replicated the structure of the skull and head that also comes from one of his videos. The rest is just applying it all with no ref into some semi-realistic invented faces and then to rest, some doodles of another oc that I still gotta work on her design.

And yes, that's Kevin spooky month- I know

HE'S MY COMFORT CHARACTER OKAY AND I'M STRUGGLING TO DRAW HIM I'll talk about that whole deal in another post but yeh, let's say in a few words that I want to kinda do a portrait of him in a personal interpretation of how he'd look like semi-realistic style- And sometimes i don't get it right but after that Proko video and trying it from memory I think we're getting into something and progress is progress so yeh- I don't know if you guys want to see my previous attempts-

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So i just found out is yaoi day, soo... good evening h2g2 fandom i give u the doomed, 2morrow who knows..

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Yoooo We got to Page 5! Not much to say for this one. These were more "stylizing faces" practice. Going from trying to make the Beatles recognizable (because that's great exercise in a way- not kidding, is really wow-)

And also the rest of sketches coming from Banana boi's video, which I find extremely fun, interactive- and of course, usefull

Here's the vid if y'all curious! Absolutely love it and need 10 more like this-

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SO FINALLY OTHER PEOPLE- Pag 4, redrawing/redesining my very old and very first oc's!! wooohooo (date bc i forgot to include: 16-7-25) Ngl I didn't know i missed them The whole evolution this people have, guys- i need to do a deep dive rant about them so sorry-

SO BASICALLY, their origin is so dumb i swear is criminal-

SO- back when it all started, I was around 11(? . . . 10(? . . . 9(??? I was a kid fixated at the time with Svtfoe and would disociate a lot so i created this fantasy "sona" that was basically a recolor of star with brown hair- This mostly because i liked the concept of girl who could jump into magical dimensions and get tf away from reality. So i lived through that. As time passed i wanted to make her more "my own" and at the same time. . . I was fixated on fnafhs- IYKYK

boom, picture jumpscare that i extracted from MY VERY OLD WATTPAD-

anyways, in fnafhs . . . (deep breath) there was this thing were some characters used to have like this ghost-like entity which was like their more.. rebel(? evil(? side(???

yes that's where Blanca comes from-

LISTEN Y'ALL, EVERYONE IS CRINGE PFF SKKJSFKJSN

we all start somewhere

SOOME TIME PASSED AGAIN, I STOPED WITH THE FNAFHS FIXATION BUT I STILL WANTED TO KEEP THEM AS THEIR OWN PERSONS- That's when the oc story lore begins- Initially i didn't really know what i wanted to do with it, i kept them as representations of myself, okay but what else. That's when the "hey let's make the rest of character cast based on these designs of my friends that doesn't look like my friends and put them all living in one dump house" idea came. Because i liked the idea of kids running away and going to live together. Yeh.

which leads us to this

initially it was going to have fnafhs logic- like, with the "shadows" and stuff, just to keep Blanca's presence around and also to give the guy on the right it's own too. And also it was kinda weird guys ngl, because asides from the shadows and relationship drama there was gonna be like- this fixed couple?????? with the guy and some other girl that was kinda of an antagonist of the gang (if u watched fnafhs, u know something similar was going on there, i don't know what went through my mind guys) Also, note, the girl with straight bangs didn't make it to first draft

Later on the story shifted, one, because i wanted to detach from the fnafhs stuff completely and two, . . . I just wanted something more original and developed idk what to tell ya.

So it turned into, CHARACTERS that are FRIENDS but with VERY TRAGIC BACKSTORIES- AND THEY ALL GO TO HIGHSCHOOL BECAUSE EVERYONE IS A HIGHSCHOOLER right?

lmao

The story then became: Blanca and Alexa are sister, they live a normal life- OH BUT NOT QUITE, WHY? because Blanca is a ghost and no one else asides Alexa and a few can't see her, and she's just a diva and a little shit at the same time.

Alexa is convinced she's alive and so is she herself. As the series goes on they discover the truth as they meet new and old friends and shenanigangs.

yeh The plot was not so developed

BUT guess what I focused more on?? YESS MMHH CHARACTER BACKGROUND.

now I will proceed to post these littles shits old designs and add their at a time backstory

Note: We are in 2018-2019 now (mostly 2019) the very first Alexa design you saw earlier is from 2015---

Present u the cast!! We got:

The Gays --- THE BROMANCE (basically queerbaiting uggghh, they queer now dw)

Pop-preppy rich girl and stray nerd dog

The lesbians next door

Skeptical serious down to earth bro and very bubbly chill nice guy bro

hyperactive bubbly sis and very chill sis

SO yeah, basically the idea was that most of them met a really obvious trope/cliches, so u got the nerd, the jock, the popular rich mean girl, ecc But each of them had like a "twist" to it

For example, Blanca had an over-the-place personality and could be considered popular but since she's a ghost she's basically invisible to the normal eye. Alexa is bubbly but is internally going through a hard time, constantly due to all the things that happened as consequence of Blanca's death at a young age. Stuart, the nerd with big square glasses, was well the otaku-nerd but not in any creepy missoginistic way. He just needs a confidence boost to actually act like the person he actually wants to be. Jhon, guy by the side with black hair, was like your typical jerky cool guy but actually he was like that because he suffered a lot from bullying when he was young and actually is kind and has a heart of gold. The preppy girl being the way she is because of parental snobby pressure and actually all she wants is to be in peace in whatever way possible. The "stray" dude was basically homeless gamer shit, i ain't gonna lie gang i didn't thought about him much pfff he was the last of the crew i created, he was supposed to be another nerd with a heart of gold who just goes around living under the walls and eating your food in secret, i don't know what else to tell ya And then the other gals where, they're also two dimensional, ngl, this because i focused more on the other part of the cast, at some point i even forgot they existed, but yeah uuhh, chill bedrotting girl and bubbly girl where basically all they had. And the two other bros.. well, the situatiin was also weird in there- Because like- I wanted to make them like opposites(? (like almost half of the cast yeah) but at the same time the dynamic also went into like, bubbly nice guy bro and the down to earth bro and.. nothing else.

Man

Yeh i know- sshhhh, let me remind y'all, first story.

I got better i swear

So the whole "lore" or backstory behind the main plot was that: Blanca died around 7 years old, getting hit by a truck after following a ball down the street. The two sisters where playing together in the garden until well- The ball went out in the road and- (IM SO SORRY GUYS JACKIE'S BOX IS PLAYING IN MY MIND AND I CAN'T HELP BUT PLAY THE SCENE WITH YOU KNOW WHAT LYRICS BEHIND IT PFF-) Yeah! happy stuff- Actually what happened is that Alexa went for the ball but Blanca noticed the fricking truck, so she ran and pushed her away, thing is that Alexa got still heavily injured by it (her skull cracked) and was taken to the hospital immediately, Blanca obviously did not survive- The two bros where neighbors of the girlies and actually saw the accident, the family quickly moved out so they lost contact After Alexa got out of the hospital she kept talking about Blanca and everyone thought it was just some coping mechanism to deal with the trauma and no one told her anything. Therefore she grew up to hear his parent constant fighting due to the situation, getting bullied at school because she kept talking about someone who is not there and growing up to be edgy teen with rage inside but then changing to the whole opposite due to social pressure and the bullying getting worse. Blanca on the other hand, kinda living the best life, not having her parents on her back and getting to do whatever you want is fun but as years go by it gets lonely and growns to be a bit co-dependant to her sister due to being the only one who actually pays attention to her and also understands all the shit her sister went through. Even tho they both thing Blanca is alive, to free herself from mockery Alexa stopped talking about Blanca at her own house, the only friend she has and that can see Blanca too is (bubbly girl tm) and her bff that even tho she can't see her she just rolls with it and barely says something about it. That's all from that side- Now from the boys side, i liked the bromance bros too much guys im sorry. So basically, the nerd, Stuart, was kicked out of his house as soon as he reached enough age and to survived he lives in this low cost house and thrift clothes. While the other straight black hair boy, Jhon, when he was a kid he moved to this new town and met Alexa (post Blanca death) and they were friends for a few years until he moved away again. But then lots of years later, after escaping from the police for making too much noise in his garage (the man had a band), he meets the girl again and start talking once again, he decides to move to her school but since he has no place to stay the school settles him with Stuart because he has good grades or something like that, they complain but they got no other choice, so they start living together (and they were roomates type shit my brain thought). The man is dumb and he also needs a tutor so obviously Stuart is also in charge of that. They get to your typical arragment of, "if u help i can help u become more chill and I'll be more smart, win-win", so they start getting along after that.

(Old doodles of them from an old comic i made) They become homies

And at somepoint (don't ask me how) it all becomes a love V(??? . . . M(????? because the relationships start going like Jhon likes Alexa --- Stuart likes and not likes Jhon(?? --- Jhon might and not like Stuart(??? --- The other bro from the beggining likes Alexa too becayse they find each other again and now wants to become her boyfriend. --- Stuart has a bit of a crush on Blanca tho --- Blanca like the other guys cooler brother --- Alexa doesn't like no one

Conclusion, they all dumb and I hate them

You can clearly see I used them all for shippin and the plot was secondary-

Anyways, it all kinda ended on the sisters parents having enough of the bullshit and tell them the truth, crisis. The gang tries to help them by researching what the fuck is going on and who can or can't see her. In side plots- Prep girl used to and continued to bully Alexa by the start of the story, but the thing is, they were actually friends when A was going through her edgy fase and she helped her "glow up". They reconsile as the story goes on.

"Stray nerd dog" as I said before, homeless and sneaked into houses to survive. He's also kind of tech bro(?? in a way-. He gets introduce into all this chaos after he sneaked in one night on the boy's (Stuart and Jhon's) house and they almost kill him with a broom like a rat (he was quite the rat kind ngl) They then decided to let him leave there and get to that compromise. YEaaahhhh That's all the lore i got. pfff Read my bibble.

But yeah- I left it like that for many years, at time going to redesign some of them to give them more uniqueness and adapt them as my style evolved

Alexa in 2018 - The girls in 2019/2020 - The girls in 2021 And now look at them in the post head image- that's them in 2025

This is her now. She's now in her 30's (it all started with them being around 14 and the got upgraded to 24 and they're getting upgraded AGAIN)

like- wow man. I'm happy for them ngl Gonna draw them more because they so pretty. You'll see in future pages. Now, I decide to retake these characters but absolutely rethink of whole new story, maybe keep some elements like their (platonic aspect) relationships and Blanca being a ghost, but asides from that, I feel like rewritting everything. Is amazing to see how this whole thing evolved. like wow.

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Yooo welcome back to Page 3 bc yes, i am obsessed with my son So here we are, this time with praticing head angles bc i remembered that was a thing i sometimes struggle with, specially when it comes to an up-view or low-view.

Style changes at times i know, but i mean, it happens, and this is a sketchbook after all. It doesn't have to be perfect and its just angle practice by the end of the day.

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Hellooo and so we're back with Page 2!

Always Alex but with different outfits

So as y'all see, it progressively becomes more sketched and less polished yeh, let's say that i stopped liking the poses and didn't wanted to clean the rough of the others, shhh it happens

So Alex! He's my boy, quick dictionary(? of some terms y'all see me use and how my mental system works when organizing these stories. Believe me. I have lots, and Alex is not the first of them

Alex's story is tho, the first one where I commited that has to see the light of day and that's my whole purpose in life atm. So he's my first official project. But in the ranking of chronological creations, he's n4. Y'all see the previous protagonists of them previous stories as we go on with this.

His story is also the most personal to me and the one i'm most attached to, so i guess that the anxiety i get when it comes from posting about him comes from there.

Alex's story is a series, fully 2D animated and it has 5 seasons, and a very large cast that I still have to figure out how to organize. (i'll explain how the seasons works for him in future posts)

Anyways system:

oc story x --- when it comes from classifying which character belongs to which story.

oc name sx --- this one is mostly Alex's story exclusive because he's the only story I know clearly how the seasons will go.

the main 3 --- how i call my 3 protagonist from the last 3 projects i made, because i love drawing them toguether in this magic void where they can coexist

random name story or insert actual title --- this for how i call my latest projects that for some reason my mind detaches them from the numerical classification i already had - have to add tho, the insert actual tittle also applies to some other stories i actually have a tittle for it so shh

That should be all, jeez i ramble too much sorry yall

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I've been feeling bad about my art lately so i'm gonna post my raw sketchbook pages to help me overcome the feeling

Page 1, my oc Alex with a pretty fun outfit

the left arm is bigger than the other but shhh, it can always be corrected on ps when digitalized. I am conscious that i need to polish my anatomy soone or later, we'll get at it As yall can see from the date from up the page, this was made early this month. I was feeling at my lowest for some reason so i wanted to feel back at it by drawing my comfort character Alex

Something is going wrong? Draw Alex

Y'all still don't know him because I rarely post about him in here but from all my oc's i think he's the only one who has a place in this blog.

but we shall not worry because more oc's are coming since all I do on my sketchbooks is draw my ocs and doodle random things.

Anyways, here's my boy Alex, I'll post his story/lore of him at some point or as I post more pics of him.

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I NEED TO DRAW WTF AM I DOINGG??????

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Yk rumor has it..

That the clerk at the local candystore..

..Is going through something.