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My fave songs: MBLAQ(엠블랙) - STAY
#mblaq#kpop#my fave songs#its 2024 but you can still find me here#mir my beloved#엠블랙#seungho#g.o#mir#joon#thunder#yang seungho#jung byunghee#bang cheolyong#lee joon#lee changsun#park sanghyun#kpop throwback#i cannot sleep so here i am
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I don't usually post my sketches but I really like how this one turned out.
What's the point of angst without some good aftermath healing?
#reprogrammed au#wk reprogrammed au#wild kratts#chris kratt#martin kratt#littlecrittereli#wild kratts fanart#I guess spoilers for the fic but not rlly?#I am projecting chronic nightmares from PTSD onto Chris fr#but it's okay cause Martin is here :)#Small headcanon they have actual rooms in the Tortuga#u cannot convince me they actually just sleep in hammocks every night#they probably share a room too to save space bc it is like a giant turtle and they got shit to do so#POV you're a very tidy person being forced to share a small living space with your messy as hell brother#but thats a story for another day
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📸: saamhallett via highwatermain
#sleep token#iv#ivy#taken from Sam’s America post in 2023#the fucking neck on that Jackson lmao I get jumpscared by 8strings every time haha#cannot imagine the Calm Cool and Collected playing style iv has while moving his hand across that absolute aircraft landing runway#he’s so fucking cool. do you guys know I look up to iv so much? he’s just like the whole package#such a cool musician; such a great scream; so effortless; so stylish; he knows how to have fun; he seems like such a sweetie#good on you iv#wow my feelings really ran away w me here huh#personal#I guess I shouldn’t say ‘look up to’ when I really meant ‘admire’ but I am not changing the tag now LOL
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it doesnt need to be said but its genuinely so funny how at-the-hip charles and erik are in krakoa like they really had the green light- the OBLIGATION- to be as obnoxiously close to each other as possible and abused that right to the fullest extent
#xmen#xmen comic#krakoa#cherik#snap chats#until the divorce of course but until then its actually so funny#how you really couldnt go a page or two without one or the other and the other one was close behind#ice climber ass duo over here. the delightful children from down the lane kind of proximity what the fuck was their PROBLEM#i feel like if one of them was teleported the other would just materialize right next to them thats how close they were#fuuuck what was the issue where sabretooth and co are in like. Brain Prison or something#and victor imagines charles but everyones like 'wait its weird if its just him where's magneto'#ITS SO FUCKING FUNNY and i NEED to know what issue that was .... to add it to my collection ....#also killed me how in immoral x-men issue 1 charles was yappin bout erik bein gone#and- God Bless Who i forget i think it was hope- was just 'can you please shut up about your dead boyfriend im begging you'#moira stronger than me if i had to deal with thing 1 and thing 2 on a daily basis i woulda snapped sooner frankly#ig when you live ten times through The Most Bullshit ever youre numb to most things but still. my god theyre so obnoxious#sorry im cackling at the bit in HoX where charles is about to announce krakoa to the world and erik's putting his hand on his shoulder#and you justs see moira in the back like dawgggg right in front of her .... can you two get a room#GENUINELY no im GENUINELY surprised they dont share a bedroom#im not even talking sharing a bed im taking my shipper goggles off im actually baffled they dont sleep in the same building#obvi id be lyin if i said i didnt love it tho To Be Real .. genuinely love seein them work together as a team .. until they werent </3#in every timeline they WILL divorce each other that's just the rule. actual canon event it cannot be changed or stopped its integral#ok ramble over. but not really not in spirit cause ill never be over this ill die before i am#im gonna go eat now i think i think thats something i As A Human has to do at least once a day
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Choo-choo! We've almost reached the likes goal on the reblog game!
Please be mindful of future likes for this game!
Now then get ready for departure soon! All Aboard!
For this post
Thank you everyone so, so, so, SOOOO MUCH!!! I set an incredibly difficult goal for this honestly, and yet you all helped it be reached!! I appreciate it so much, thank you!!
Unfortunately however, the next part is not finished yet. I was planning to have it finished and ready weeks ago, but I became severely sick and have been unable to finish it to have it ready for this wonderful moment :( I’m so sorry. And I am still pretty bad off, and I’m unsure how much longer it’ll be like this for me.
But!! It was still pretty far along when I had to stop. A lot of it is done. And I have tried to make it up to everyone by making the part extra long. And it is becoming more lighthearted and about comfort now, the next choice to make falls into that ^^
ONCE AGAIN THANK YOU EVERYONE!! It means a lot to me to see that people are actually commenting on the comic and celebrating that it has reached its goal. It means a lot to see that people care!! I am so excited to get the next part out to you guys and to continue on this once again!! ^^ <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
#wayward’s asks#this is also why I have been gone again unfortunately#I talk about my general health below in case you don’t wanna read that#my stomach has turned on me and I’m unable to eat anything without horrific pain#it is like my gastritis from last year but doubled now#not eating has left me exhausted and I am sleeping a lot right now#but unlike last year I cannot afford to lose anymore weight#so it’s been a lot harder this time around#that’s why I’m not around a lot right now anywhere really#I am trying to fix it and make it better but it has steps and it’s taking time#I’m so tired of being tired and nauseous#so thank you for your patience#I really appreciate it#I see my other asks and I’m so sorry i haven’t gotten to the#them#but I wanted to respond to this and not just leave this here#because I do really appreciate everyone’s collective efforts a lot#thank you
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yeah, my life can just get so tough😔 (constantly in the mood to flirt but too shy and easily embarrassed to flirt with anyone)
#😔😔😔#wlw#wlw mood#sapphic#sapphism#lesbian#and also-#me when people flirt with me -> 🪨#hiding under a rock because im embarrassed and have no idea how to respond😔#but!!!#i just!!!#LOVE flirting so much it’s so fun#im just SO bad at it with strangers#wish i wasnt boring and that i could message people and flirt with them and get them to fall in love with me😤#@ everyone who has ever seriously flirted with me sorry my response was probably Like That#or if i just didn’t notice i still am used to assuming all positive attention is a joke sorry😅#im gay and i like sleeping#also also our cat is like draped over my leg SO awkwardly rn#not relevant but wanted to share#because she CANNOT be comfortable like that#and also I’M not comfortable with her like that#and yet#here we are
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Late night mush-brained I-really-need-to-edit-this-draft-because-this-is-probably-all-way-too-much-irrelevant-information late night thoughts
#deedoo thoughts#deedoo original#meme#memes#writing meme#writing humor#writing memes#whump meme#whump memes#whump humor#humor#Idk man recently I've been on a kick#The problem is that technically this is all AU fanfic of other long-established OCs of mine#so while in their original universe the relationship has had literal books to play out... these one-shot fics are like “OK HERE'S THE GIST”#but the gist is long#oh well this is a first draft and this is why I edit as much as I can before I post#hoping that after I sleep this doesn't sound as rambly to me as it does rn#also to be clear I love my readers!!!#I just feel like I myself am like “wow Deedoo shut up this backstory isn't why the people are here!!”#and yet I cannot shut up
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autobiography of red V.I.I CHANGE, anne carson
#anne carson#always thinking about this stretching what language can do#anne carson really said “all time is now” & that’s narrative to me it doesn’t matter when. eppur si muove#‘they recognised each other like italics’ i remember reading this years ago & thinking will i ever match any of it. one sentence even#also LOVE the girl in myc class who read like one of my poems & handed me this book like “i think you need this. there’s gender in here”#autobiography of red#i cannot sleep so i am thinking about this again🫠🙏🫠
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Knuckles... i miss him.. i literally just saw him, in fanfic
#need more of him#it is now 5 am i cannot sleep idk why#i mean i kinda know why my brain is fucked but#whateverrr just let me sleep ive been sleeping soooo good lately#i was doing sooo fucking good#istg if i clean here and am able to soeep#sleep then im blaming all my recent problems on SOMEONE who moved my trash bin#i havent been able to move it which sounds silly but whteverrrrr i had it in a strategic place i ginally moved it after like. three months#skdndjdndkdjekfjdjdj whatevrrrr now i feel determined to sleep so i will clean i guess and try to fuckign sleep#still i cant sleep mainly because im having the thoughts
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Sleep Token on Royal Albert Hall with a live orchestra. Ascensionism starts with a beautiful string section. The cellos take over with some really soft, high violin tremolos, and a beautiful viola base.
#I wish i was a better violinist so I could make this happen a little bit#I am committing to double down on my violin practice so this will come to fruition#please tell me we have more string players here please that would be so yummy. cellos i am calling out#(this is very much inspired by BMTH Royal Albert Hall concert yes. I am listening to Ascensionism and this arrangement just came to mind)#I cannot stress how much I need this to be a real thing#string players save me. string players. save me string players#sleep token
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black eyes
#my stuff#my writing#mein fucking goat i cannot keep having dreams about my ex and yet it is happening still#this is one of the less remarkable ones even. i’ve had two in the past month where i try desperately to give them a flatscreen tv#and one of those big ones too. like 40 inches across. i don’t own a flatscreen tv#i’ll admit it being in singapore is hitting me like a brick to the balls and i am grievously unwell#it’s like i come back and all the work i put in to deal with my anxiety and depression gets high in the woods and dies#but that’s not the point. the point is devoid of friends (in fucking america) and a hyperfixation (haven’t found anything that’s stuck)#i am full of nothing but yearning. good ol classic yearning. and i am so moved on from my ex but i keep trying to give them this fucking tv#!!!! ?????? huh????????????? mayne got………#a girlfriend or a cat would fix me. or leaving this country take your pick#working on it#i’ve made a to do list to combat my i have lost the will to do things problem#and on it is APPLY TO JOBS (note; outside singapore (note: outside america too))#i have a plan and it’s to get as far away as possible and live#we’re getting there#in the meantime here’s a funny poem#i was so. in the dream i actually wanted to see them which is crazy. top 10 bad fan characterizations#but it was a dream with a good color palette. all cool whites and grays and a deep deep blue for the night#cold cold white snow. etc. so of course i had to write about it#which i have done. and now i am going to sleep#good bye
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She so cute
#beautiful woman very spunky and strong and wise yes yes#stop looking at the tv lines#I SAID STOP#my teeth are so sharp ouch ouch ouch#the medical field can be so terrifying I’m so stressed out aaaaaaAAAAAAAAHHHH#what#I’m ok#hahahaha#have you ever seen the lights leave a persons eyes#what do these tags have to do with adira#why am I having a conversation with myself on here#I’m so sleep deprived it’s not even funny#the world of medicine is a traumatic place but I cannot replace the thrill it provides me xoxo#adira tts#tts adira#tts#craziest tags competition ig#tangled the series#screen caps#rapunzles tangled adventure
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Forgive me, forgive me. I ask, I beg, I pray, but it never comes.
You know I find it incredibly bewildering to see just how much kalki reflects myself in him like YEAH Duh of course he does, he’s my little guy it’s like his full time job. But at the same time he is a fully functional facet of my being and he is at the mercy of my whimsies, and whatever he discovers in his arduous journey of self realisation is ultimately a reflection of what I discover in the real world. It’s also incredibly funny because ffxiv lore for dark knights is really baked into the idea of (re)discovering yourself amongst the bloodshed and continuing to live and love and thrive despite the world working against us. who would have thought such a raw message could come from an mmorpg side quest about edgy emo boys of all places
also adamantite armour of fending i would lay down my LIFE for u
variant + phone bg version + ID below the cut
tch as if you guys are actually going to use artwork of my little guy as your phone background. i know. how dumb. let a girl dream. i should make an alternate version but it's of Fray and Myste
[START ID: A picture with a red background focusing on the character's bust that is placed to the left of the image's centre. He is coloured with a dark blue overlay, contrasting with the red background. He has brown skin, long black hair that falls over his shoulders, and is wearing blue and gold armour and earrings. He is looking at the viewer, right eye dark brown and the left an glowing unnatural red, with an expression that looks determined and angry and yet bitter and forlorn. In the foreground and on the right side of the piece, a miniature version of the character stands coloured in a light blue overlay and wearing the same blue and gold armour, looking as if he is glowing. He is facing towards the left of the piece, or perhaps at the character bust, his expression unreadable. Above the miniature character's head is the symbol representing the FFXIV dark knight, coloured in gold. END ID.]
#the burst of creativity that shot through me is indescribable. i can only hope this is a sign that i am FINALLY out of art block#but OF COURSE my creativity comes back right when gamsat is around the corner. it's always a fucking exam. i fucking hate myself#maybe this piece is supposed to be vent art at how I CANNOT MANAGE MY SHIT AND I AM JUST. NOT DOING THINGS RIGHT. NOT DOING THINGS RIGHT !!#and i tell myself it's fine but maybe it's NOT fine? i told myself i'd work on it but nothing is getting worked on#nothing productive at all. not even for uni nor for myself. nothing is happening at all. it's just going through the days#waking up. wishing i'd slept more. stare at my laptop for hours. youtube. watch 10mins of lectures. then a nap. then the laptop. then sleep#but i dont and it pisses me off because nothing is working. i'm like if linguini lost his rat and i'm staring at the kitchen catching fire#maybe go to class if it's on for that day. scrambling notes together. pretending i DO have my shit together#i COULD put out the fire. but i'm not. i could and i can but im not. the extinguisher is in my hand. fire's not going out. i'm still here.#maybe. maybe that's why drk resonates with me so much. at the end of the day. maybe i am just a stupid bastard#-who can't get their act together. who actively shoots themselves in the foot and bleeds all over the place trying to make something happen#only this time- this time the perpetrator isn't someone i can point at and demand answers from. it's me hi i'm the problem it's me#and i can- i SHOULD find a way to make this all work. to make this whole Living My Life business work. but the extinguisher's in my hand#wow okay that was really heavy anyway uhhhhh TAGS TAGS TAGS TAGSSSSS#ffxiv#ff14#ffxivwol#ffxiv wol kalki#ffxiv dark knight#artoftheagni#and the fire keeps going#tw eyestrain#cw bright colors#idk the red is really bright and it;s nice for my eyes but idk for anyone else
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Mysterious Lotus Casebook ~ ep. 31
All these years, he's always been alone. You are the only friend I've ever seen him with.
#mysterious lotus casebook#li lianua#feng duobing#this scene wrecked me six ways from sunday#because llh continues to lie to him CONSTANTLY#but fdb understands that it's who llh is#how llh MUST be in order to LIVE with himself#and fdb is willing to put up with a llh who lies through his teeth rather than a lxy who is honest about himself#because then at least he'll be with a LLH who is ALIVE#and whenever llh talks about lxy being dead he means it#he cannot phyiscally live with the reality of who his past self was and what he did#so fdb expressing here that he doesn't need to know every inch of llh#is the greatest expression of love and acceptance I've ever seen#it's a devastating and bittersweet inverse of#the mortifying ordeal of being known#and I think I'm going to go cry myself to sleep now#(PS llh's heartbreaking little smile at the end is maybe the most sincere expression of happiness we've ever seen from him and I AM NOT OK)
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guys i think im nocturnal
#its 4 am#i cant sleep#because i slept in until noon#and then napped from 4 pm to 7 pm#and had one meal of pizza#so now i am hungry but cannot order food at 4 AM LMFAO#and... i have class in 6 hours#but im sitting here alternating between reading#check the pipes for frost#and writing my essay for class due tmrw#600/900 words done.#im almost there guys
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eepy lil guy
#i cannot put into words the amount of love and affection i have for him. u do not understand. he is my SON im giving him a QUILT#the first character i think in my whole life that i have loved so deeply i wish he were real so i could tell him. i want adoption papers#i feel so bad i wish he didnt hafta suffer with the tired eepy. i want to get him uncursed i want him cured i want him to be free from sleep#the absolutely crushing guilt of how much he misses from being tired all the time sounds miserable i want to#i dont even know. i want to help. i am just a stupid lil lady on my phone how can i possibly help him from here. it sucks. im stuck behind t#he screen and theres nothing i can do. it KILLS me. like haha if i invite him to my guest room 1000 times maybe itll help. sobs#twisted wonderland#twst#twst silver#silver vanrouge#suntails
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