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Bad formatting is an accessibility issue. I cannot read badly formatted text without giving myself either a headache or a full-on migraine. I am not joking, and I know I'm not the only person. Learn to format or resign yourself to being the architect of your own prison of unread fic. rant about summaries below. It includes yelling, swearing, and several summary formats for people to use.
IF I SEE ONE MORE "OHHHHH I CAAAAAN'T SUMMARIZE WELL JUST READ IT" I AM GOING TO LOSE MY FUCKING MIND. I do not read those fics specifically be cause I don't know what's fucking in them now do I!?
If you "can't write summaries" do not say so and think people will read your fic out of pity. I specifically do not click on fics that trot that slop out and expect me to eat.
Hell in a Fucking Hand Basket - just include a fucking line or two of dialogue!!!! It doesn't even have to be amazing dialogue!!!!!!
If you don't respect your own writing enough to figure out a way to summarize it and do at least minimal edits, I'm not spending my time on it. Why would I invest more than an eye roll if you're not going to bother to give your readers even three words and an occasional line break of actual consideration? "oooohhhh but its sooo haarrrrrrd"
THE FUCK IT IS. It may be intimidating or overwhelming at most, but if you wrote a fic in the first place, you can write two sentences. FFS, there's infinite possibilities! Pretend your fic is a book you're reading in a coffee shop. Imagine a stranger comes up to you and asks what the book is about. What would you tell them? Use that as the summary. Do you share the fic with friends? Ask them the most memorable part and use a paraphrasing of that. Keep the ending in, don't keep the ending in. You could even just list the main character(s) and what happens/what internal thoughts they have, what conversations happen.... This does not even have to be a complete sentence.
Here, I will even make a format for you cowards!!!
1. Who or what stars in the fic, what pairings are in rom fic
2. Blurb
3. Tags
4. Content warnings The blurb can be: the contrivance you thought was fun to explore, the actual plot with or without the ending, the type of au, an actual paragraph of the fic, or even just the inspiration, and a bajillion other things! EXAMPLE:
Mazeeda, Gabriele, Soo-Jung, Mazeeda/Soo-jung, Background Jamal/Betty
Retired Magical Girl AU. Former rival magical girls stuck at same table at a wedding of a childhood friend. Drunken shenanigans and makeouts ensue.
Tags: dramedy, adults haunted by teen angst, rivals to friends to lovers in 2 hours, bi solidarity
TW discussion of eating disorders
IT'S REALLY NOT THAT FUCKING HARD!!!!
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#EVEN “BLORBETTE AND BLORBELLA STAND AROSS THE ROOM SNARKING AT EACH OTHER FOR TEN CHAPTERS AND EVENTUALLY FUCK NASTY” IS BETTER THAN NOTHING#IF YOU CAN'T RESPECT YOUR OWN DAMN WRITING THEN RESPECT YOUR READERS!!!#“wEeEehHhHHhh I cAn'T wRhHiiIitE a SuUuHhmMaRreEeEe”#yes you can#yes you -damn well- can#YES YOU FUCKING CAN#FUCK YOU#STOP WALLOWING IN YOUR SHAME LIKE A DOG ROLLING AROUND IN ITS OWN SICK#OWN YOUR FREAK AND GIVE US TWO FUCKING SENTENCES ON THE 150K WORDS YOU'VE WRITTEN ABOUT HOW THE LATEST TEPID WHITE BOYS TOUCHED#THE 'WHY' CAN LITERALLY BE 'BECAUSE I SAID SO' BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT A FAN FICTION FUCKING IS!!!!#'this is about byzantine architecture‚ boat engines‚ gifted kid burnout‚ and t4t ace lesbian romance'#PERFECT I'LL TAKE 20#'sasuto n naruke r gay. 2gethur'#GREAT! PERFECT! A PLUS! NOW THAT YOU MADE AN EFFORT THIS WILL FIND THE PEOPLE THAT WILL READ IT LOVE IT PRINT IT OUT AND EAT IT BY THE PAGE#aaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!#I am a fucking busy woman and capitalism does not allow enough free time for me to have the patience for that kind of sad sack drivel#and even if it did I STILL wouldn't read anything with a garbage summary saying they can't fucking write summaries!!!!
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[Shout out to Havoc for asking this question, because I never stop thinking about it since. Ever since Us & Them, at the end when Beebs stopped Us from apologizing, rubbing his neck going on to say "I've been there once or twice," has always got me wondering if or who Beebs may have lost in his life? This is the first time we get an indication that there is something that Beebs perhaps feels guilty for or regrets? Something that troubles his past. I think in a server we all discussed who could it be that Beebs may have lost?
I remember once thinking of a past lover, since it was also once asked if either Shrike or Beebs have been in a relationship. From this question I came across:
As always, the answers are vague (or unhinged and I love that) but it leaves you to wonder if this the one that Beebs may have lost? By episode three, so far we are not given much information of who that person might be that Beebs' has lost. Then again, perhaps it could mean something entirely different?
Then we have episode four, Plague Walkers. Episode four has given us an introduction, or revealing of Beebs' past. We gotten some bits and pieces to Shrike's lore, being possibly the last of his kind and being an ex LAW official enforcer. Beeb's lore has been a slow develop, and that's not something I have any issue with. I'm actually happy that the show is taking its time with pacing as that's something I miss from shows of today. So in episode four, we finally get a hint of where Beebs' come from. From the reactions, expressions, and how Beebs response to being with Ajax really shows how effected Beebs is by his past.
Something that comes up often between Ajax and Beebs' interactions is the mentioning of Beebs' parents. Now another suggested person that may have been lost to Beebs could have been his father. Before EP 4, I also thought that perhaps his father was the one he lost? I cannot remember an exact reason as to why, perhaps from the previews of EP 4 gave a suggested idea that it may have been Beebs' father when we first meet Ajax who also speaks as if "Barrack" house, his father, was once a great man- one with strong genes, of course.
But then we get to this scene, and judging from how Ajax speaks about Beeb's father here, it suggests that his father is still alive. How well? Who knows, but still alive, but perhaps not so "alive" in Beebs life.
When Ajax mentions that his father never recovered, gives me the impression that whatever happen between Beebs and his father, left not only a dent in their relationship, but also to Beeb's father as well as in he is still recovering from whatever traumatic experience that happen to the two of them. I would think it would be odd to say how he has never recovered for someone who could already be deceased. Because no one will ever recover from the dead...
So then I been thinking... What if its Beebs' mother?
I noticed that the one that tends to make Beebs' reaction the most is whenever Ajax mentions Beebs' mother. From the beginning of the episode, the mentioning of the mistakes made on the mothers side- that HIT Beebs there and center, but at the dinner as well? That comment from Ajax almost made Beebs lose his cool. I'm selecting now that Beebs' mother is the one he lost. I think Beebs had a closer bond to his mother, possibly the parent he related to more? Anything to do with his father, Beebs seems to show irritation or some form of stress when his name is mentioned. Such as when Beebs had to state which house he is from- being a Barrack- Beebs show no side of pride of having that name or being related to it. But his mother... when Ajax kept insulting his mother, that really seem to hit home for Beebs. The relationship that Beebs must have had with her... sharing perhaps how Beebs has almost like "runt" like traits to the family. The littlest one of the house. How it came from his mother side... There could be a good chance that what Beebs is holding regret for might be the lost of her, and maybe holds resentment to his father? Perhaps something that Beebs and his father got in an argument about? Or maybe an event occurred where Beebs or his father was responsible for her lost but neither of them can confront the truth?
At this point I am spit balling ideas. But until we get more lore on Beebs' past, I think his mother could have been the one he lost. Then again, this show has so far surprise me! But, its fun to try and think of theories. I'm not the best at it, but I like to wonder and analyze as well, I suppose!
Noticed I seem to ramble the most about Beebs- can you tell how much I love him? Enjoy one of my favorite screenshots of Beebs- Goodbye!]
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you are the first person ive encountered in my whole life who has actually attempted to really answer some of the more aggravating questions surrounding children and sex and just reading some of your recent posts has already enlightened me to my childhood situation a lot better. i will try to keep this brief bc my intent is not to air my whole childhood to the masses but to like. present a sort of spiders georg situation to help people understand why these things are important. here we go: (it is relevent to point out that i am extremely autistic and started presenting symptoms from two years of age onward.) i believe that i started being sexually active around four or five years old. i was extremely curious about sex to such a degree that it got me in trouble at school multiple times. it disturbed my mom greatly how often i brought up sexual topics. i discovered porn at the age of eight due to very poor parental supervision and a high level of internet access and i was immediately obsessed. i can confidently say that i watched more porn than any other kind of media as a child. by the time i was 10 id already had dozens of sexual encounters with kids my age and older, mostly initiated by me. i agree now that children cannot consent to sex with adults, but it took me a long time to come to that conclusion. for a very long time i wished more than anything for an adult who knew the ins and outs of sex to have a sexual relationship with me, bc i saw it as the only way i could be satisfied. children do not make good sexual partners when you are essentially ahead of the sexual curve i guess. i received absolutely no sex education until i reached middle school. my parents didnt talk to me about it whatsoever, deflecting everything i said about the subject. the sex education i did receive was piss poor, and i knew it. it was an "abstinence only" model of sex ed. no one took it seriously. my lack of understanding came back to bite me severely in high school. nowadays i understand concepts like consent and boundaries very well, and i think about these subjects deeply and am careful to consider them when interacting with other people. this was not the case in high school. my unusual sexual obsessions in childhood made me very uncautious about it with other people, and my level of autonomy and power was high enough that abuse was extremely possible. i am not proud to say that i did in fact commit sexual abuse in high school. i knew it was wrong. but to me, the wrongness was on the level of severity of stealing a pack of gum from the store. as soon as i had done it, i started to understand the true level of severity of what id done, and that still haunts me. i had up to that point believed that everyone must on some level have an interest in and desire for sex. i would have been ok with someone doing what i did to me, so it would surely be fine if i did it to someone else. i had no real conception of sexual violence and sexual coercion being real things that affected people deeply, both due to my physical and social isolation and extremely skewed perspective from watching porn for years. nowadays, i have very little sex, both because of lack of percieved opportunity, lack of motivation, and fear of committing the same transgressions i did in the past. nevertheless i remain extremely interested in and obsessed with sex, and wish i could spend all day having it. so i guess as someone who was sexually precocious: your kids need to know about sex. they need to be educated about it. a sufficiently determined child will find out about it regardless, and you need to give them the tools necessary to navigate it without hurting themselves and others. and additionally i think it would be a lot better for trans girls if our first exposure to transfemininity wasnt porn the majority of the time.
💯 thank you anon ♥️
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"The Vicious Wildcat is Clumsily Affectionate"
▪︎ Kagari's 1st Birthday
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This is a fan translation so please don't expect it to be 100% accurate. Creative liberties have been taken. All content belongs to Cybird. Reblogs are appreciated. Hope you enjoy!
This is my very first time translating/reading a Kagari event and since he is not yet out in the EN server, there might be terms that will turn out different than what I have used here when he is finally released.
Chapter 3
As Prince Kagari’s birthday drew to a close, the hustle and bustle gradually died down.
When night fell, I was sitting under a cherry tree, watching the lantern-lit town lights, when I heard footsteps coming.
Kagari: I had an appointment today.
(….You really came.)
Prince Kagari sat down next to me under the cherry tree.
There was a normal distance between us.
Emma: Is the party over?
Kagari: Not yet.
Emma: You left though.
Kagari: Meeting you is more important.
Cat: Meow
Mike no. 1 who cried out in agreement, was introduced to me by Prince Kagari.
He was playing around Prince Kagari’s feet, and moved away after being petted once.
(I had given him a letter and it looks like he safely delivered it to Prince Kagari.)
Kagari: Did you change your clothes?
Emma: Yes, I wanted to meet you as my normal self, Prince Kagari.
Emma: If we’re going to celebrate your birthday, I wanted to do it while being the person who met you in Kogyoku.
Kagari: …….
Emma: Happy birthday, Prince Kagari.
I swallowed my nervousness and gave him the gift I had been keeping hidden behind my back, wrapped in a cloth with a cherry blossom design.
Even after receiving the package, his expression remained unchanged.
But, he didn’t turn it down.
Prince Kagari skilfully opened the present after receiving it and quickly took out the item.
Kagari: A book?
Emma: It’s a book from Rhodolite.
Emma: You taught me a lot about the splendour of Kogyoku.
Emma: Getting to know so much about an unknown place is exciting….
Emma: I chose this book because I wanted you to experience the same emotion as me, Prince Kagari.
Emma: …And I hope that I can convey the splendour of Rhodolite…
Kagari: Is this a book set in Rhodolite?
Emma: That’s right! It’s a collection of short stories, but each story is heart warming,
Emma: It should be a panacea for when you’re exhausted.
(Particularly in the case of Prince Kagari, who rarely has peaceful times.)
(I want you to be at peace even for a brief moment.)
Kagari: I had almost forgotten that you are a book merchant.
Kagari: You’re the only one who’d gift me a book.
Prince Kagari looked at the cover of the book with interest and began flipping through it.
He seemed to like it as his gaze followed the letters.
(I’m glad he didn’t reject my gift because there was a possibility that he wouldn’t like it.)
Emma: ….I’m relieved that we were able to celebrate properly.
When I relaxed and expressed my emotions, Prince Kagari looked up from the book.
Kagari: You’re overthinking it. Birthday wishes don’t bother me.
(It seems that my thoughts were obvious to Prince Kagari after all.)
Emma: However, I was concerned about how you react like it’s none of your business.
Kagari: …So that’s what it looked like.
Prince Kagari closed the book, and quite unusually, lowered his emerald eyes.
Kagari: It’s not that I don’t like being celebrated, or that I’m not interested in birthdays.
Kagari: But… I still don't know how I feel about being celebrated.
Kagari: This has been a recent problem.
(That’s surprising….I can’t believe his cold demeanour was just because he wasn’t used to being celebrated.)
As I get to know this adorable side of the yasha, I suddenly realised something.
(‘recent problem'?)
(Birthdays come every year. If his behaviour is the same every time, it cannot be considered as recent.)
(Now that I think about it, it does seem strange. Apart from being the yasha, Prince Kagari is also a royal of Kogyoku. There must have been plenty of opportunities for him to be celebrated.)
(But he says he’s not used to these….)
After giving it some consideration, I decided not to ask any further questions, thinking it might not be appropriate to intrude.
(…I’m still confused by the way people in town celebrate…)
(But if Prince Kagari is unaffected by it all, there’s nothing for me to say.)
As the words trailed off, a light wind causes the petals of the cherry blossoms to flutter down in a lovely dance.
(Wow..)
Emma: It’s beautiful.
I turned my face away from Prince Kagari and held out my hand to the falling petals---
Emma: Prince Kagari?
He grabbed my skirt tightly and I blink in surprise.
Kagari: You’ve been thinking about my birthday since morning, and now you’re fussing over cherry blossom petals?
He sounded somewhat sulky.
Emma: Of course I’m still thinking about your birthday.
Emma: It seems like even the cherry blossom trees are celebrating you.
Kagari: You’re the only one who needs to celebrate. So don’t look away.
It somehow feels like he wants to be spoiled.
A smile welled up in my face as I thought this was probably the best request Prince Kagari could come up with, since he was not used to celebrations.
Kagari: …What’s that smile for?
Emma: It’s nothing.
As I made an effort to relax, Prince Kagari’s suspicious face softened.
(Ahhh…)
This is the first time I’m seeing him smile today on his birthday.
(….He smiled at the very end.)
(Even if it was just for a moment, if it gives him a good memory on his birthday then it was worth celebrating.)
To avoid revealing my racing heart, I turned my focus back to the cherry blossoms, and Prince Kagari's tightening hold on me caused my skirt to wrinkle even more.
We remained quiet, and the wind carried the noise of the banquet.
Emma: ….I just wanted to give you the present but we ended up talking so much.
Emma: Prince Kagari, isn’t it about time you returned to the party?
Kagari: …..
Kagari: Don’t you want to keep the yasha to yourself, princess?
Emma: I think I have had enough.
I suggested that out of guilt, but Prince Kagari wouldn’t let go of my skirt.
Kagari: ….I want to stay here.
Emma: In that case…I’ll take you up on your offer.
When I accepted it, Prince Kagari sat closer to me.
Our bodies touched and the resulting warmth seeped into my heart.
(You chose to be by my side on this special day of yours.)
(My expectations are subtly revealed by the tense atmosphere.)
Emma: Can we continue to celebrate you for a little longer, Prince Kagari?
Kagari: Yeah
With the book in his hand, Prince Kagari leans towards me.
Kagari: Celebrate as much as you want to. I don’t know if I’ll be able to celebrate my birthday properly next year.
Emma: …..I don’t like such jokes.
Kagari: I was not joking. But don’t worry, I want to celebrate with you again and again.
(We need to celebrate in a manner that will keep him thinking that way.)
I accepted his cat-like, clingy behaviour while suppressing my restless heart.
⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯ㅤ𔘓 ⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯⎯
----A few days later.
As I left my inn, a familiar cat rubbed himself against me.
(Mike no. 1)
Today he had a small backpack, and he was looking at me as if he wanted me to open it.
I opened the backpack and revealed a small, palm-sized letter inside.
Cherry blossom petals dropped into my hand as I took out a small piece of paper with a brief message written on it from inside the envelope.
Thanks to the book you’ve given me, I won’t have problem killing some time for a while.
You’ve fetched a perfect score, princess.
(He liked that book.)
(If we can celebrate again next year, I wonder if he’ll be even more delighted to receive my wish than he was this year.)
(….I hope that happens.)
[Chapter 2] [Masterlist] [His POV]
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Y'all I was giggling and kicking the entire time while reading and also while translating this. He is SO adorable. I'm reallyy looking forward to Kagari now.
Guess I have a weakness for men who call me princess.
#ikemen prince#ikepri kagari#kagari amagase#ikepri translations#ikemen prince translations#ikepri#ikepri jp#ikemen series#cybird ikemen#d: omiresources
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So, I guess you're all dying to know how my first week at the KCC has been. Well, to put it bluntly? Shitty. It's been shitty.
It didn't start off great! Got fucked around by spaceport security who somehow needed to spend six hours checking my paperwork despite me being a student of the College - and the car uncle had promised me had decided to drive off, so I had to pay for my own taxi. Oh, and my Nelson was impounded. Straight up impounded! By customs. Despite the fact that the declarations were signed for by both my household and the College, weeks in advance.
And shit, sorry, I don't want that this all to come off as "the indignity! I had to submit to security checks and pay for things with my own money!" It's just I know this is my family fucking with me.
So I get to the College - late, of course. I had to make excuses to the Archchancellor. But it was all going to be worth it. It was all going to be worth it because I'd finally get to see a friend I hadn't talked to in ten years, and that would somehow make the entire humiliating nightmare my life has been for the last decade all worth it.
It's like I'm not even looking at the same person anymore. She literally said she didn't know who I was - just to hurt me. Like she'd mistaken me for someone else. Like she wouldn't know her own kin.
I had a fucking breakdown. Like, in front of everyone. It was atrocious. It just sucked, guys. It sucked. A lot of shit in my life has sucked but this? This was the low water mark. I don't think I have ever felt more empty or purposeless than I did at that moment.
And you know what? I woke up the next day, and she'd challenged me to a duel - over a "point of honour?" And now four people who just happened to be around at the time have gotten dragged in with me! The hellstorm of my life can't even restrict itself to just fucking with me anymore - it fucks up everyone around me, too!
Whatever I did to offend the Passions in a previous existence, it cannot possibly have warranted any of this.
#house of stone#karrakin trade baronies#lancer ktb#Theta's SotW Campaign#shadow of the wolf#lancer rp#atreyu cannamos#blog
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I'm a little suspicious there will be an accident because of the combination of rain and a tree apparently falling on Eddie and this show passing up the chance to parallel Eddie and Abby airport goodbyes. Though maybe they just got a U-Haul sponsorship. I would really like a simple episode in El Paso just about Eddie's feelings but IDK I don't think they've ever done a bottle episode without action or some kind of emergency. Do we have any information about episodes 11 or 12 yet?
We have very little to go on for 11 and 12, so of course we will take anything for a hint of some kind. But I really think the whole 'tree falling' quote was just a metaphor for something big coming up for Eddie in his personal life. I don't think he will be in any danger.
Eddie Diaz is a very complex character who deserves an episode where he finally comes to terms with who he really is on the inside.
He deserves to confront his parents for their terrible behaviour and he desperately needs to start working on fixing his broken relationship with Christopher.
Eddie and Chris were introduced to 911 as a fixed item, therefore story-wise Eddie's character cannot exist without Chris. His son is an integral part of everything he is and does in life. Christopher has always been his first thought and he has always been his motivation to keep on going.
A bottle episode about Eddie doesn't necessarily mean there won't be any action. Eddie could be in El Paso and see an accident happening or something like that. He'll help people out and maybe have a flashback. Or he saves someone he used to know.
The possibilities for a good storyline are endless here.
And who knows? Maybe, while being in El Paso, he also figures out that in order to follow his own heart and not Christopher's he will need to go back to LA, to Buck. 🤷♀️
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This addition might be considered a little bit off topic, so feel free to tell me to make my own post if you wish OP(s)!
Elder Scrolls games seem to have some kind of disease about them that makes it so they just cannot grasp the scale of JUST HOW BAD things are. Morrowind (edited bc my dumb ass forgot about beautiful Daggerfall and I own up to my mistakes), in my opinion, came the closest, but that's another post for another time. I think one of the problems with Skyrim and the Alduin storyline is that there's not really any true incentive in the game to seek out this information. You can ABSOLUTELY play the game not knowing anything but the bare dry bones of what is going on. Then, with no incentive TO learn deeper outside of having the question in the box go from white to grey, the incentive is more found in NOT asking the questions- gets you back to the ""fun"" gameplay quicker.
This DOES allow for player character variation (say you want to make your LDB an idiot or something) alongside an easier route for people who have already played before, but it doesn't work for portraying a world that is supposedly ending, or one that is being overtaken by dragon cults. To get the gravity of that to truly WEIGH on the player, you have to make it so not knowing, like not seeking out the books or the extra dialogue, in some way disadvantages the player.
However, this doesn't really tackle the issue of the confusing and overly simplistic way they handled Alduin in the first place. As said above, there's a huge unanswered question taken from the main storyline of "What the hell was he even trying to do?" that comes from different characters implying different sentiments. Perhaps this was supposed to be an attempt at pitting many theories against each other A LA Battle of Red Mountain(?), but without any elaboration on anything and no true incentive to seek out more information, alongside the fact that some of the MOST interesting stuff on Alduin isn't even in the game at all, it all just falls flat. You don't get a coherent story OR the full weight of the situation from the game, at all.
I'm, personally, fully convinced that this is the result of suppressing creative writing/portrayal ideas in the interests of making the game marketable. You can feel as you play the game, that it was intended to hit a very very wide audience. It's designed to be easily picked up and played by literally anyone, and that's a HUGE part of where the massive success came from. It was simplistic enough story wise so that nobody ever would have a single issue understanding. Big reach = Big money, and big money is more important to a game studio than a good story. Combine that reach with the fact that they've re-released the game (arguably) 17 times on 10 different consoles, it makes it pretty clear that they're more focused on creating and adding aspects to the game (and other games currently being worked on in the series) that make it lucrative-- not necessarily new, inventive, creative, or gripping story-wise.
Basically, this post is so correct it kinda hurts a bit. There are ways to make all of this information work. They don't really bother because they'd have to put more budget into story, and what if not every single person on the planet is pleased with the story? Bad for business. Better make it as generic as possible so it sells better. Fire every writer who cares. Underpay and mistreat the rest so they can't care. Now put Skyrim on the Switch. Now put it on VR. Now add paid mods. Now encourage everyone to play your MMO. Now release paid DLC. Now add something to the Crown Store. Now release paid DLC. Now add something to the Crown Store. Now release paid DLC. Now add something to the Crown Store. Now release paid DLC. Now add something to the Crown Store.
alright i might be misremembering some things bc it's been a while since i played the skyrim mq but.... man i really wish we could've had a proper conversation with alduin near the end of the game like we do with dagoth ur. like he's the one villain who isn't some Bad Guy gone mad with power he's literally a GOD. he's literally just doing his job!!!!! of ending the world!
i don't like how he's depicted as just a generic power hungry bad guy like isn't being the world eater literally his Purpose....you even have conversations w arngeir and paarthurnax, iirc, about the ethics of killing the "world eater" and if it's okay to let the current kalpa keep going when it's supposed to end. i wish that was a moral dilemma explored more in the game. i would've loved a final conversation between the ldb and alduin where he talks to you and asks you if you know what you're doing, if you know what it means to keep this world going. discussing if it's really your choice to decide when the world ends or stays. about death, rebirth and creation. who are you to interfere with this natural cycle?
#this is why i really love fan content and creations#because they really help fill the hole in this shit left behind in the best interests of profit#theres SOOOOOOO much you can do with the lore available and i hate how a lot of the official stuff is gradually getting put behind paywalls#like cool if you can enjoy the stuff that is paywalled! it just sucks that it IS paywalled.#and it sucks how people don't understand HOW it is a paywall. but again thats a post for another time
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So my dad does this thing where he watches Revenge of the Sith on mute because it's actually a pretty good movie if you just cut out all the dialogue. I would like to propose that the ideal way to watch the prequels is actually on mute with the score playing over them. Treat 'em like old fashioned silent movies, basically.
Like, okay, case study: it's not very easy to buy Anakin/Padme romance when you watch these movies. None of the dialogue sells it, it's mostly stilted and a little creepy. You know what does sell Anakin and Padme as this epic, doomed romance which leads to Anakin's fall? "Across the Stars" by John Williams. I watch those two in Attack of the Clones and I feel nothing. I listen to "Across the Stars" on the way home from the airport after binging a bunch of Clone Wars on the plane and I kind of want to cry.
Like, let's get rid of the jenky dialogue during the Mustafar duel, all the "from my point of view the Jedi are evil!" stuff that sounds like a ten year old wrote it, and just let John Williams convey the emotional beats. People already say that the Maul Duel in TPM is a highlight of the series and it's already 99% score and fight choreography. Let's just do that for the whole trilogy! I bet you anything the watchability and emotional impact shoot straight up across the board.
#i cannot possibly be the first person to come up with this#but it's not an idea I've heard before and i think it would be great#i wonder if there are any fan edits floating around that do this?#as i hinted this came to me over rhe course of a long day of air travel#back on my star wars bs no regerts#pontifications and creations#a star wars fan like my father before me
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okay but a version of events in which tommy takes ellie to the fireflies, but NEITHER of them come back. and maria joel have to work together to get them back
#maria and joel best friend agenda#has someone already done this (in a way that actually characterizes maria as an actual person w a plot lmfao)#pissed off maria and regretful af grumpy joel having to team up#joel at first being like i canNOT let you come with me youre pregnant#maria: and who the fuck are you to tell me what to do#joel: okay ur coming i guess#him doing anything and everything to make the trip as easy and safe as possible for her#runs on like four hours of sleep every night so she only has to take one watch and gives her 70% of their food#at first maria is sooooooo not having it like#sure you care about me and my baby who you asked your brother to LEAVE for yOUR SELFISH SHORTSIGHTED ASS#but then one night hes telling her a story about ellie and then she tells a story about kevin and he tells a story about sarah#and she can see how much he loves not just his late baby girl but his living one too#and in that moment she just kind of gets it#tommy told her this part of joel was long dead#the part that was soft and loving and good#but he was wrong#he was so wrong#and all maria needed was to see that for herself#and then they team up and break into davids camp and take care of business#tommy and ellie are probably there that makes sense#and then ellie is like we still have to finish this we’re going to the fireflies#maria: um haha ur funny no we’re not#ellie: i—#maria to tommy and joel: no we’re not everybody pack it up#we’re going HOME#joel and tommy: yes ma’am#maria miller#joel miller#au#i had a dream abt this last night couldnt at least do a tag story on it
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i don't know if i am horrible at communicating when i want a little attention or when i feel forgotten, or if people just in general never think it is about them because in their mind all of our needs are met and i am venting about everybody else?
#both could also be simultaneously possible#but doing the first one feels like shit cuz i want the need for me to naturally come and it somehow feels forced#even tho they could just listen to me and then reassure me once and then never think about it again#so like maybe i cant force anyone to feel anything anyways#so i should not worry about the results being insincere after i open up about them#but then it just makes me feel even more like shit cuz then i cannot hide behind it not being on purpose or out of lack of care#if they change nothing#and then i have to confront myself if i can live with it or if it hurts me too much or if i should give it less energy to preserve my sanit#BUT THE SECOND THING#which is a valid assumption on their sides i mean i had friends say they do not have friends#but then they did not count me in there#which i only realised after comforting them and also just asking so i know how i could support them more in such times obvi#i should really not drink this much caffeine and sugar in a day#it creates emotions and tired awakeness at night and we cant have that#DO NOT CONSUME 2 ENERGY DRINKS AND TWO COFFIES A DAY PEOPLE#W A R N I N G#nobody take this personally too please i am just great#it will all turn out well the road is sometimes just bumpy but its rideable yknow#BUT I AM DOING AMAZING fr fr#like no worries please i really did just get philosophical at midnight for no reason other that high sugar intake
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I suppose this counts as a kinfession. I just wanted to state how sometimes it gets really frustrating to see sentients who are kin with a not binary character that uses they/them (see Kris from Deltarune) and them then using he/him. I get that it is their own memories and literally them, but I suppose after a while it feels like some sort of erasure to me? I hope that makes sense, and if anybody could explain more to make me more comfortable with this specific thing, that would be lovely as well. I always want to keep an open mind.
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#🏎️ — KINFESSION !#kinfession#kin blog#kin help#fictionkin#This is a fascinating concept that obviously doesn't have a straight answer.#It's purely subjective. But in my opinion. We have to first establish that who you were in source and in your memories is secondary to who#you are now.#So obviously. Your identity your change. The pronouns you go by can change.#And as a third person you are by all means allowed to feel squicked out by seeing that. I can't say I don't get squicked out when certain#cultural aspects of a character are disregarded by the people that are kin with them.#But if we were to police any of that. Then kinning would be immensely complicated and exclusionary in ways that do more harm than good.#We also cannot possibly assume someone's feelings towards their current or past gender identity. What if this hypothetical individual you'r#talking about *does* go by they/them but are still processing that part of their identity? What if they're nonbinary but choose to go by#he/him? We don't know!#We can't possibly know. And to make assumptions about people that are that complicated is too risky for me to be comfortable with.#I get where you're coming from. But I don't think it's something that 1) should ever be brought up to someone that is just trying to live#their life and 2) should ever come before the respect one has towards a person and their identity.#All in all. It's a fascinating subject I'm all for discussing. But not before stating that I consider the feelings of real people to be mor#important than the 'representation' a fictional character stands for.#Both because real people are people and not representation of anything. And because if you DID start going down this mental rabbithole I#think you would just drive yourself bonkers for no good reason.#I know I would.
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my best friend has been very distant w me lately and i asked today if she wanted to hang out and she said she probably couldn't bc it's her brothers birthday but she would let me know if she could and i have her location and i just looked and she's at her boyfriends house rn....
#we have it bc we're roomates so we started sharing locations when we first moved in like in case someone doesn't come home at night or smth#she recently told me that she wants to move out bc she has always wanted to live alone and she can finally afford it. and i asked her#directly like is there an issue because she is so non confrontational so she has never ever mentioned me doing anything that bothers her#and i said please tell me if there's something wrong because it would really suck if there was and i never got a chance to fix it because#you never told me. and she said no it has nothing to do with that i really just feel like it's time for me to live on my own. and a couple#days ago she was like okay i'm next in line for my apartment i'll probably move out in april. and i try to get her to hang out still and#she always has something else going on and i swear every night this week she's been at her boyfriends.#and if i see her around our apartment and try to make conversation at all she's so like short about it and barely responds like will only#give one word answers. i feel like it kind of started when i started dating e but i realized that i was spending less time with her and i#didn't want to be the girl that loses all my friends bc of a boyfriend so i started specifically reaching out to hang out with her and she#says no most of the time and never asks me. like i don't know what else i can do.#i'm like maybe it's bc of her boyfriend? bc they've been on again off again for a long time and previously when they were together it was#really distant with her like i barely saw her EVER. and they were mostly broken up for the past couple years and have been together i think#for a while again... but she knows i don't approve of that relationship and so she would like not say when they were talking again. so maybe#since lately they've been hanging out or dating or WHATEVER she doesn't fucking tell me what's going on with him. maybe that's why.#i literally like try to think of ways it could be my fault and maybe i'm being crazy but i cannot even think to blame myself for more than a#fleeting second bc i'm like. i have ASKED HER directly if there is an issue or something i do that bothers her and she says no. so even if#i'm somehow pissing her off would i ever know to change anything?? i just feel so frustrated bc it's like she's an entirely different person#to me. like this is not the person i know. and i don't know what else i could possibly do like i feel like we need to sit down and have a#conversation about it but what good does that do if she just acts like nothing is wrong. but i don't want to lose my friend i have such a#hard time making friends. i've known her since i was 14 like i can't imagine my life without her. we were the only two in our whole friend#group in high school to get out of the church i still love those other girls but we have so little in common now.
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Okay. Hear me out. My working theory is: Dream has an immense amount of karma from a past life that he is working out.
This is very typical to me of people like this: people who are so very good, so above average in kindness, fairness, honestly, and yet it seems like those people are getting handed the bad cards in life, again and again. Like no matter what goodness they put out to the world, they don't get it back. But there is a sense in it.
If they can manage to uphold their kindness and goodness and faith in people throughout all this, if they can keep holding their pure heart, oh, it burns up karma like nothing else. Like I can feel it, the substance of karma literally disintegrating as he powers through.
One look at his horoscope just kind of confirmed it to me: it's all squares and oppositions. (Essentially: powerful, difficult aspects that require resolution but can unlock greatness if resolved.) Kind of like a physical representation of karma. It's a horoscope of a person who obtains tremendous success but also has to go through tremendous challenges, but after, comes out as after a fire, totally purified in heart.
#I actually sat in shock the first time I saw his horoscope#like I cannot describe to you if you don't know astrology#how shocking it is to see#it's not often you see horoscopes like that#and when you do the person is always like that:#unusually saintly good through seemingly unfathomable unfairness and hardships#and if you ask me what sort of karma it was#I'd say it's probably along the lines of what a lot of people are accruing now unfortunately:#falsely accusing someone of something to get something for himself; possibly betrayal of close ones for selfish purposes#something along those lines because it's funny how it keeps coming up around him#this post is a joke but also not a joke yknow.#d#m
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No one talk to me I just came back from a family vacation to find out my favorite youtuber ever is leaving the platform.
I am devastated.
(I am actually happy for him, he has given me so much happiness for like 8 years. He deserves to let the channel go an enjoy his life. It just hurts, but I'll get over it
I'm so thankful for MatPat and Steph. I Hope every future endeavour or project they take on is successful and that over all they have a happy and fulfilling life with Ollie.💚❤️💛💙)
#I leave to a place with no cellphone signal and come back to this?#may be the lord was protecting me idk#What do I call this? a personal rant? Im not really ranting more like letting my feelings out#venting if you#never done this on my blog before but I feel like I have to#I've been a Fan of game theory since I was like 13 or 14#He was like the first youtuber I ever suscribed to#that spoke english cause my first language is spanish lol#His videos and overall community meant a lot to me. I dont know how could I possibly express that#Of course Im going to still watch the videos after he is gone with the new hosts but still it wont be the same#Hope this doesnt sound too like sad. I dont mean to be negative. I am legitemetly so proud and happy for him#I mean He had one of the classiest goodbyes of YouTube at least I can say my favorite youtuber was never cancelled thats a win haha#But seriously he has achieved so much and has over all been such a positive influencer how could I not be proud to call myself a Fan#so truly I am not sad He ended on the highest note you could ask for. I cannot ask for anything more from him.#I am not sad However I did cry like a Baby during the Video. Man I just. Im tearing up even thinking about it#but anyway#You bet I am going to watch every single one of his videos the second they upload until march 9.#And then I am going to dedicate the day to the celebration he supposedly plans for then#I will probably vent some more in a bigger post then too. like I did in this tags lol.#Right now... I just cant. I need to process a little more heh#MatPat#Matthew Patrick#The game Theorists#game theory#goodbye matpat
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#tw suicide#tw sui ideation#tw abuse#I have to be real right now and say that I absolutely cannot tolerate my existence much longer#I was told today by my grandpa that not only does he think I’m becoming like my mom(who is severely abusive and an addict) but also that my#aunt and uncle said the same thing#he even brought up a terrible story from years and years ago of my mom ruining a family gathering as a follow up just to compare me#even more#I can’t even express how excruciating that feels when I spend every waking day alone in my house doing every possible thing to#better my mental health so for my own family..that hardly ever intervened in the first place when I was being abused to say this is such a#low blow and so incredibly ignorant#I feel so emotionally unsafe#the only family member I consistently have contact with now is someone I don’t trust#I don’t even have friends to talk to because most of them have left my life within the past few months#I feel incredibly alone in my feelings and thoughts and I can’t stand to be in the same room as myself#I’m having a mental health team come out to evaluate me for the second time today 💀#i’m so exhausted#personal
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i think a bi guy might want something from me. i don't know if he's closeted.
#bisexuality#he caught me smiling at him off guard#he tried getting my attention which a friend has said is too effortful to be just teasing and he also stares#i've been getting into this universe to see how bi people think#i found an alt account on inst@ where he posted poems#a lot of them definitely feel like 'closeted bi' energy#but poems are really ambiguous so it could be about a lot of things. and i'd already felt deep boy vibes from him#he has a gf#i don't feel like judging him because this might be the first opportunity he has had to do anything about it#in fact i feel regret for not noticing things before and thinking he was mocking me or daring me#he might be thinking about this for months now this was a while ago#it's definitely different if he's closeted#he might feel alone#in a way most people can't fathom#and he trusts me if he's choosing to let me know this but he is in a relationship#unless it's open i mean all possibilities are a thing which is why not judging is important#so i have a vibe too if he took that decision without knowing me#a similar vibe to his because he got me to smile at him off guard which for a gay guy is a huge no in most cases#i've been mad at him for months because he stares and i know he has a girlfriend since he brings that up in class#last time he stared i stormed off the room because i was already intent on changing classrooms for other reasons#but then i arrived late and i was confused because we had a new tutor and when i sat down he was staring#i felt exposed because he KNOWS i am into him. he's known since that first day when he saw me smiling#but this can't be mocking. i think it's mocking when i hate myself and i've hated myself every day for months this year#this changed recently#he's not evil and i'm definitely not the last person on earth far from it and i mean come on look at that face he's just not ev#so he can't be teasing and he can't be thinking about intentionally hurting his gf which leads me to think he needs help if he's so intent#on letting me know about this#he needs something from me and i cannot deny it to him#because that is who i am#also isn't this literally evak from skam
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