#i can't even cry anymore

[saint-mona]

Anyone else having just a few really shitty years?

Like, it keeps getting worse and you don't get to recover before more shit happens?

Just checking if this is relatable to anyone else, or if I'm completely alone.

[emee-ems]

This whole month has been a blur for my family...the biggest factor being my cat still missing. Things don't feel right. He's not here to enjoy all the paper. He's not here to get any new toys. He's not here and I don't even know why. This isn't how I wanted to ever say good bye to him....cause I didn't actually get to.

He just disappeared.

[sketchiefoxie]

Nothing hurts quite as bad as seeing someone else destroy themselves, and not being able to stop them. Especially when you struggled with the same things. My heart hurts :(

[cursedcadaver]

I just want to call my bestie and tell him how badly I fucked up and have him comfort me, but he's busy and I can't even talk to him.

I just want to call my bestie and talk to her about it all, but I can't, she's busy and has enough to deal with.

I can't talk to anyone. there's no one.

I feel more alone than I did before. the shame and guilt are eating me alive on top of feeling like shit.

[denimchicken]

i never knew heartbreak could feel so physical, genuinely feels like my heart has been ripped outta my chest

[noxiousgrace]

Cale is a man on a mission to make me cry as much as possible

"The records he had buried in his mind "

B R O

THIS MAN- *unintelligible sobbing and gibberish*

Idc if I'm reading this novel for the 3rd time, it still plays with my heart like it's a GODDAMN BASKETBALL

I'm so happy that he can finally let go of some of his grief 😭 he needs a break

(chap 424 when he cries after talking to lsh for the first time since his death)

[cheriafreya]

Random gifs of Kaveh (◕‿◕✿)

[rillils]

Oh, my love when will you come to look for me?

Tom McRae, Still lost | @catws-anniversary

[bangtanthoughts]

you know the ship is shit when the actors who play the shipped characters don't like it or used to but switched to a different ship

[talesfromthecrypts]

I don’t think that people get angry just cause other people romanticise vampires and relationships between vampires and humans in general. But people do get irked and bothered when other people romanticise some vampire media ignoring obvious rape, pedophilia, death threats, maiming, etc in it between vampire and human character, instead pretending it’s just some freaky love story aww or something and insisting on it. Cause there’s difference between what types of vampire x human relationships have what in it and how they pan out. So some call-out posts about that on Twitter are frankly speaking fair. Depends on vampire media they talk about of course.

Oh you didn't actually understand a thing I said huh. All of these are the basis for the vampire genre, liking the genre you have to be ok with a certain level of violence and unhealthy dynamics at minimum. Everyone who likes those knows its not good irl oh my god. This is all repackaged "women are too stupid to understand fiction". Anyway here are some popular vampire media relationships with rape, pedophilia, death threats, maiming in that order

[existingingrey]

So are you supposed to normally go on about your life when this guy is looking at you like this.

Won't you just drop everything, cover him with a blanket, pat his head while telling him everything is gonna be alright.

[nnnn99999]

I want to share my interpretation of FadelStyle's sex scenes in the storage room, but before I get to the actual scene I need to establish FadelStyle's relationship arc so far. I won't go into detail about their attitude towards each other in episode 1 and 2 because @airenyah did such a great job of explaining Style's journey in this post and I wholeheartedly agree with everything she said.

To summarize, by the end of episode 2 Style is starting to sense something is off about Fadel and he is starting to want to connect to him, whereas Style manages to make past Fadel's defenses and enter his mind, albeit as a sexual fantasy. At this point neither of the two actively dislike each other as they used to before. Fadel still finds Style very annoying, but he is already starting to get used to it. Style still thinks Fadel is grumpy and rude, but he is intrigued by what lays under Fadel's mask. They don't really like each other, but they don't exactly hate each other either.

This dynamics continue in episode 3. As they meet each other more and more, Fadel softens up to Style as sees more of him. It's hard for Fadel to completely ignore the genuine care, concern and sincerity Style throws at him again and again. Style also starts to become even more intrigued by Fadel as he realizes just how deep the man is hiding himself. Not to mention the physical attraction between the two that very much exists and makes its presence known in the form of sexual fantasies.

When they actually hook up for the first time, there is only physical attraction that is driving their actions. As I mentioned before, they don't dislike each other, but they don't really like each other either. There is an emotional disconnect between the two. And I believe this is the reason this experience was not very fulfilling for either of them. Both of them seem to be the type to believe in having proper relationships instead of casual hookups, so sex without any sort of meaningful connection might be pleasant because of the physical attraction, but it's far from being able to make either of them feel content.

Comparing FadelStyle's first time to KantBison's first time makes this more evident. KantBison didn't even know each other's names when they jumped into bed together. But that didn't stop them from having a great time. They have no problems in finding sexual satisfaction without any emotional attachment. FadelStyle on the other hand seem to be unable to do that. It's a matter of preference, neither is right or wrong. The lighting choices in the two scenes also reflect the mood of the couples. For KantBison, it's a bright red-glaring, intense and passionate. The lighting is not warm, it's burning hot actually. Whereas for FadelStyle, the lighting is a cold blue, with no hint of warmth to be found.

In Fadel's fantasy, Fadel thinks about Style's interest in himself (his name and his tattoo). In Style's fantasy, Style imagines Fadel serving him with direct eye contact maintained at all times. Both of these fantasies further indicate to me that both of them crave a deeper connection with the other. And it's only when they find that connection that they can truly find sexual contentment.

I don't think Fadel meant to be that tender and worshipful with Style. I think he just couldn't help himself. Now that Style has had a taste of what it could feel like being with Fadel, he is not going to give up trying to make Fadel his. And Fadel has no way to defend against that kind of Style.

[0xeyedaisy]

Aw man...

[shannonsketches]

he's so important to me

[sovaghoul]

A deep sensual hours-long dicking from a big squishy Quintessence Ghoul would fix me

[a-substantial-trash-pile]

in just 2 more days i'm going to have to say goodbye to my dog and it feels like a countdown to the end of the world. i know that's dramatic, but right now it's the only way i can describe the feeling. i love this weird little rat dog so much.