#and crying for fadel my poor baby

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I want to share my interpretation of FadelStyle's sex scenes in the storage room, but before I get to the actual scene I need to establish FadelStyle's relationship arc so far. I won't go into detail about their attitude towards each other in episode 1 and 2 because @airenyah did such a great job of explaining Style's journey in this post and I wholeheartedly agree with everything she said.

To summarize, by the end of episode 2 Style is starting to sense something is off about Fadel and he is starting to want to connect to him, whereas Style manages to make past Fadel's defenses and enter his mind, albeit as a sexual fantasy. At this point neither of the two actively dislike each other as they used to before. Fadel still finds Style very annoying, but he is already starting to get used to it. Style still thinks Fadel is grumpy and rude, but he is intrigued by what lays under Fadel's mask. They don't really like each other, but they don't exactly hate each other either.

This dynamics continue in episode 3. As they meet each other more and more, Fadel softens up to Style as sees more of him. It's hard for Fadel to completely ignore the genuine care, concern and sincerity Style throws at him again and again. Style also starts to become even more intrigued by Fadel as he realizes just how deep the man is hiding himself. Not to mention the physical attraction between the two that very much exists and makes its presence known in the form of sexual fantasies.

When they actually hook up for the first time, there is only physical attraction that is driving their actions. As I mentioned before, they don't dislike each other, but they don't really like each other either. There is an emotional disconnect between the two. And I believe this is the reason this experience was not very fulfilling for either of them. Both of them seem to be the type to believe in having proper relationships instead of casual hookups, so sex without any sort of meaningful connection might be pleasant because of the physical attraction, but it's far from being able to make either of them feel content.

Comparing FadelStyle's first time to KantBison's first time makes this more evident. KantBison didn't even know each other's names when they jumped into bed together. But that didn't stop them from having a great time. They have no problems in finding sexual satisfaction without any emotional attachment. FadelStyle on the other hand seem to be unable to do that. It's a matter of preference, neither is right or wrong. The lighting choices in the two scenes also reflect the mood of the couples. For KantBison, it's a bright red-glaring, intense and passionate. The lighting is not warm, it's burning hot actually. Whereas for FadelStyle, the lighting is a cold blue, with no hint of warmth to be found.

In Fadel's fantasy, Fadel thinks about Style's interest in himself (his name and his tattoo). In Style's fantasy, Style imagines Fadel serving him with direct eye contact maintained at all times. Both of these fantasies further indicate to me that both of them crave a deeper connection with the other. And it's only when they find that connection that they can truly find sexual contentment.

I don't think Fadel meant to be that tender and worshipful with Style. I think he just couldn't help himself. Now that Style has had a taste of what it could feel like being with Fadel, he is not going to give up trying to make Fadel his. And Fadel has no way to defend against that kind of Style.

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The Heart Killers Episode 8: Castaway and House of Madness (my reaction)

Argh, man, every damn week it’s the same. I, once again, Iost the battle against my “no spoiler” rule. It’s just so hard to wait 10 hours after the episode aired until I’m finally able to watch it. So what were this week’s spoilers?

The bathtub scene: I thought they both go in at the same time, but it looks like Fadel takes a bath and then Style joins him. Style goes for a kiss, but Fadel turns his head to the side; clearly telling Style no. 

The car bed scene: Apparently they are in a love hotel or something. lol There is a lady with free lube and condoms. 😂 Fadel touches Style’s chin like he did in Style’s garage when he said there will be bruises if Style plays a dirty game with him. Style really does cry but I didn’t learn WHY. Fadel is fighting hard to comfort Style but decides against it. 

Kant and Bison will share lots of kisses that make some beautiful noises. 

I’m not sure about the following spoilers because I just had a super quick look at my Xitter timeline and then closed the app immediately: Style feeds Fadel? Two other guys, apparently a couple, stay with Fadel and Style at the country house. There is a marriage? Marriage hints? And Style hugs Fadel and says, “You own my life. take my cars, my body, my heart. take everything” (Gosh, if this is really in the show, BYE, y’all! I’m not going to survive that.) 

10 hours of painful waiting and avoiding spoilers are over. 

It’s time for me to watch!

My, 1:14 hours. Roughly 5 minutes more than last week. Ty, show! 🙏🫶

Oh, Jeez, 1:27 minutes in, and I’m already giggling at our horny Style and Fadel’s “Seriously? WTF?” expressions. 

I love Style helping Fadel find Bison. He is such a sweet talker and actually good with people. Useful skills. 

Oh god, the crop top! Style looks incredible in them. 

Yes, Fadel, keep lying to yourself. He still is your boyfriend. You didn’t break up with him, technically. 😂 

I adore this lady! Lube and condoms on the house. 👍👍

Oh, Kant is already out of the water. Too bad, I wanted to see Bison rescuing him. 

Kant’s puppy dog eyes are stronger than usual in this episode! Uh, Bison, the hurt and angry vibe suits you, you feral kitten! 

Hahaha, there was only one car bed! I’m really curious about what will make Style cry. That man seems so unfazed by almost everything. 

Was that a Sex Pollen reference? 😂

“Fast. Hard. Furious” Lord, and in Thai, it sounds like Style is PURRING. I can’t! Fadel’s incredulous expression! Brilliant! 🤣

Oh, that was slick, Fadel! I didn’t see that coming! Way to handcuff someone. 

Man, the way they look at each other. You can’t switch off love at will. I hope Fadel can trust Style again. 

Oh, it’s happening! The crying! But…there was no angry shouting that led up to it. 

Oh dear me, I somehow speculated it would be about Style’s dad. I thought he was hurt or something. Awww, my heart! He is the sweetest boy! Thinking about his dad’s well-being after Style died and that he will meet his mother in heaven. My goodness, Style is so adorable! Such a sunshine. What a touching scene. 

Love how Fadel asks if Style is crying. The hesitation in his voice. He doesn’t like it. Ah no, don’t be so cold. Baby is crying! My, he wants to hug, and he doesn’t want to hug him. Argh! That was an emotional scene. Poor Style! And so different from the way I imagined it. I thought Fadel would do or say something that would make Style cry. 

So, Kant spilled the beans (kudos to him for taking the blame all on himself) and told Bison about the blackmailing. And Bison didn’t believe him. Or he doesn’t want to believe him because he is still so hurt and angry. And he is forcing Kant into the ocean again. Right into the arms of his trauma. 

Lol, they are so wholly unprepared for this life on the beach. It really feels like BL Castaway.

TOM HANKS mentioned!! 🤣😂

WILSON mentioned as well! And he is calling Bison that. Hahahaha 

LOL, I like Kant!

See? Just like with Fadel. All talking big about killing their boyfriends, but when said boyfriends get hurt, they are both worried. Can’t tell me that they are able to kill Style and Kant. 

Band aid to make it more hygienic. Yeah, sure. Kant has seen right through this act! 🤣 

I kind of forgot that Kant didn’t know Bison’s parents were murdered. 

Black suits Style. Him wearing black. Does it mean he is still sad? 

Hahaha, that Harry Potter reference took me out! That “psch” sound and the flourish with an imaginary wand. 😂😂 Perfect! 

Style pushed that Jeep (or what’s it called) with Fadel inside all that way? Thing surely weighs two tons. 😂

l can’t with Fadel and Style. They are like an old married couple. lol, shutting Style up with food. 😂

Ahhhhh, that quote from the spoilers I saw. “You own my life. Take my cars, my body, my heart. Take everything.”

So, no hug, but still a beautiful thing to say! And Fadel got the message. 

I take it back. Bison is not unprepared for that beach life. He wants to punish Kant and make him grovel. 

I feel for Kant. But I also can understand Bison. Man, the puppy dog eyes again. Can’t stay mad at someone with such lovely eyes. 

Oh shit. He says the safe word! 😭😭😭 I can’t see these men crying! 😢 

Style being afraid of his little horror movie scenario. 😂 Cannibals. 😂🤣

What is this? These guys? The couple! Hahaha, they are hilarious! 

They are getting married. But the one guy made the other fall for him and then betrayed him. lol Fadel’s side glance at Style. 😂

What is this? lol There is a wedding? 😂 Style marries them? Oh my lord! Please, that is the second time marriage is mentioned on this show. Let Fadel and Style and Kant and Bison get married, too! 

Oh loooooordddd, the way Popcorn jumps the other guy (Baby?), making him almost drop to his knees, and he had to lean them against a wall for support. I’m wheezing! 😂😂😂😂😭😭🤣🤣🤣 Give me that daddy BL already! 😄😍🥰

Love the way Fadel looks. It’s clear he would like that, too. Marriage, that is. Oh, look what we have here, Fadel smiling. 🫠🫠🫠🫠

Mother is soooo cold and manipulative! I hope she doesn’t hurt our boys! 😭🙏 Keen, get the hell out of there and take your boyfriend with you. 

Nooooo, Kant! You don’t deserve to die! You were blackmailed. That makes a difference. Gosh, Kant’s eyes kill me. So much sadness and honesty. Bison kills me, too. Such anger and pain. All he wants is to be loved. Then Kant’s heartfelt confession and OJFC Bison just crumbles and breaks down. That trembling chin…god! The “you’re not fooling me again?“ 😭😭😭😭 Awwwww, that kiss, with the salty tears and all. I’m crying with them! 😭😭😭 Bison is so hurt. His breakdown feels so raw. Beautiful, touching scene! 

Okay, back to Fadel and Style. Haha, so, that is how Style came to feed Fadel..😍 Ah, Popcorn’s husband is called Jimmy. 

Oh, la la, Fadel is getting worked up. 💀💀 

I love Jimmy and Popcorn! This side story is so crazy but I LOVE it lots! 😂🤣 

Oh no, Fadel really gives Style a hard time. I know he has been betrayed before. I hope he can forgive Style somehow. I need them to reconcile. They deserve happiness.

Awwww, Style, you are such a sweetheart, really! 😍🤩🫠

That embrace while dancing. Last time they did that, it was so heartbreaking. Now, there is hope. I love it. 

Uh oh! Whoa! Wait! Popcorn?! What are you doing?? 

Uh, so, no Cannibals then. But a murderer couple? lol 😂 

Fadel can take the sling off? Wasn’t his arm broken? Has it already healed after two days? 

There it is: bathtub scene! 

NOOOO, a cut! 

But, oh, such a sweet scene! There are the kissing noises. 🫠🫠🫠😍

I love that Kant decides to live his life for his own goals once Babe has graduated. 👍 So romantic and soft. I’m happy for them. 

Back to the bathtub scene: Fadel looks so good here! Yes, then don’t argue anymore! 👍

Love the talk! And the footsie nipple teasing. Style seems to have a liking for Fadel’s nipples. 🫠 

“I never fell for you.” No one has ever lied as blatantly as Fadel! And they both know it! Who are you kidding, Fadel? Yes, Style, call him out on that. 

Wonderful scene with Style kissing Fadel’s hurt arm. And such a powerful moment when Fadel just evades the kiss by turning his head. No words needed. Love that Style has a new challenge: make Fadel kiss him again before he dies. 

Well, this was another amazing, gorgeous episode! I LOVE this show so much! Now I want a scene where Style protects Fadel with his body! We know Style will get hurt on his arm. I need Fadel to see just how serious Style is. 

Preview for episode 9:

There is the Fadel protecting Style scene! Yay!!!! 

And Style’s arm is injured! Fadel has to help him walk. What happened? And what happens with Fadel and Style in the water? How should Style prove to Fadel that he really likes him? That guy says and does the sweetest things already! I need to know right now! Dammit! Not another 7 days of painful waiting!! Nooooo! I can’t do this anymore. It’s torture. 💀😱😭