#i can’t believe it’s been a year seriously

[lucy90712]

Coming home for Christmas- Jude Bellingham

A/n: Happy holidays guys, I have one more Christmas story to come out in the next few days and then a surprise new mini series for new years so get ready Christmas is supposed to be a happy and joyful time of year but this year I just can't get myself in the Christmas spirit. My boyfriend Jude was supposed to spend Christmas with me and my family this year I left a week before Christmas to spend more time with my family and he was supposed to join us after his last league game but due to bad weather he hasn't been able to get a flight. He's been trying for days and last night he text me and said the last flight that would get here on time got cancelled and he wouldn't be able to make it. I had to hide my sadness in front of my siblings as they didn't need me to ruin Christmas for them but once they had gone to bed I did have a good cry with my mum. 

Last year I spent Christmas with Jude's family so this year we were supposed to switch and he'd spend Christmas with my family for the first time. I was so excited to have him here and so were my parents and siblings as they love Jude. We had so many plans and Jude was going to join in with all the family Christmas traditions like the matching pyjamas which I have on while I cry looking at Jude's untouched pair on the dresser in my room. Jude did promise to FaceTime me for most of the day but it just won't be the same as having him here. 

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I must've fallen asleep at some point last night as I got woken up by my youngest sister jumping on top of me yelling that Santa had been. She was trying to drag me out of bed and straight downstairs but I managed to convince her to wait just a minute which gave me just enough time to brush my teeth and grab a hoodie to keep me warm. It was only as I walked down the stairs I realised I had one of Jude's hoodies on which made me miss him all over again. Yet again I put on a smile as all my younger siblings were so excited and looking at all the gifts waiting for them under the tree. 

The kids really wanted to open presents but my parents insisted we all have breakfast first which in recent years has become my job as everyone loves my pancake recipe. I got the hint and got up to start making the pancakes but before I could get very far the doorbell rang and because I was closest I offered to answer it. My parents didn't say anything which has me a bit confused as I thought they'd be more curious about who was at the door at 7am on Christmas Day but I didn't think much else of it. 

I opened the door still holding the spoon I was about to use to mix the pancake batter but that quickly landed on the ground when I saw Jude stood in front of me. I couldn't believe it he wasn't supposed to be here but here he is stood right in front of me. After taking a second to process what just happened I jumped into his arms which luckily he was expecting and he caught me holding me tightly to his chest. 

"What are you doing here I thought your flight was cancelled" I said 

"I may have lied the flight was delayed for a while but I got in at 3am and slept in the airport for a bit before getting a taxi here to surprise you I thought it would be fun to see your face when I turned up which is why I didn't tell you" he said 

"This is the best Christmas present ever I was so sad that you were going to miss everything but now you're here you can help me make pancakes as that's the first tradition we have" I said excitedly 

"Let me bring my bags in then I'll help make your famous pancakes" he said 

I helped him bring in his suitcases and he took one up to my room but he told me to leave the other one downstairs as it had presents in. He greeted all of my family on his way back down and  made sure to act over the top excited when the kids showed him all the gifts under the tree. Eventually he escaped and helped me make the pancakes and serve them as they came out the pan. As Jude can’t take anything seriously for more than five minutes once I'd made both of us some pancakes he grabbed the whipped cream and put some on the pancakes but also my nose. He managed to take a picture before I could wipe the cream off and put it in his face instead. We had to clean up otherwise I'd get in trouble but we laughed the entire time which really made me happy as this is exactly what I wished today would be like. 

After breakfast it was time to open presents so Jude went and got his second suitcase which was completely filled with presents which he'd clearly wrapped himself as they weren't very neat but it's the thought that counts. He'd got a couple presents for all my siblings and my parents then he piled the rest of them up in front of me. He has a tendency to go a bit overboard with presents but I didn't expect him to get so much for the rest of my family too as I told him that he didn't have to and I could put some of my presents from him too. The kids all opened their presents first which they were very happy with especially their gifts from Jude as he got them all things they really wanted so they were happy. 

While they played with their new toys the rest of us took turns opening gifts. Jude really showed me up with the gifts he got my parents but I'm ok with it as it just shows me that I picked the best boyfriend who cares for my entire family not just me. I managed to redeem myself with my presents for Jude as I went all out I got him things I knew he'd like but also some more sentimental personal gifts which he seemed to really love. Jude can be hard to buy for as he already has everything and he makes a hell of a lot more than I do but I like getting him things that mean something. Jude like always got me things he knew I'd love and like always he was right although I think I'm going to need another suitcase to get it all back out Madrid. 

Just when I thought he couldn't possibly have bought any more gifts for me he grabbed my hand and took me to my room upstairs where he handed me a small wrapped box. I took the wrapping paper off but hesitated for a second before opening the box because part of me wondered if it was an engagement ring and as much as I love Jude we said we would wait a bit longer to take that next step in our relationship. My heart rate felt like it tripled when I opened the box and saw a beautiful but delicate ring but Jude quickly managed to calm me down. 

"Don't worry this isn't an engagement ring I know we agreed to wait for that but I wanted you to have something that showed how much I love you and shows my commitment to you until the day I give you a proper ring so I guess this a promise ring my promise to always be there by your side and to love you" he said nearly making me cry 

"Jude that's the sweetest thing you've ever said and this ring is beautiful" I said 

"I hoped you'd like it and I get if you don't want to wear it on your ring finger we don't want to give people the wrong impression but I thought you could wear it on your right hand and it could be our little secret only we know the true meaning behind it" he said 

"Thats a great idea" I said leaning in to kiss him 

"I do have them sometimes" he joked 

I gave him another kiss before he put the ring on my finger and we headed back downstairs. It was a matter of seconds before Jude was stolen from me by my brothers to play football even though it's freezing outside. Before I knew it I'd been roped in too and I was forced to be in goal but it was kind of ok with me as it meant I could put on thicker gloves and pretend they are goalkeeping gloves. Jude taught the boys a lot of little tricks which they picked up quickly and soon they were able to get just as many goals past me as Jude. They had fun but eventually even they felt the cold and we all got to go back inside where my sister was waiting with her new dolls that Jude got her so he was made to play with her but he didn't seem to mind. One of the many reasons I love Jude is because he's so good with all my siblings and they all love him so much when I come home they always ask for Jude even when he's not with me. 

Jude eventually got freed from doll playing duties and we got to relax for a little while before my mum started cooking the Christmas dinner and I agreed to help along with Jude who decided he didn't want to leave my side. I was a little nervous about him helping as he's not the best cook in fact he's the worst cook I know but with detailed instructions he did quite well dealing with the vegetables. As he watched the water bubbling his arms wrapped around my waist while I made the Yorkshire puddings which didn't help me at all but he's cute and I've missed him in our week apart so I let him. Once my part was done my mum made us go and enjoy ourselves which we didn't need to be told twice we finally got a few minutes to ourselves to relax and cuddle on the sofa. 

Dinner was lovely my mum did a great job and Jude was proud of his contribution so I didn't bother telling him the carrots were slightly overdone. For the whole meal he had a hand on my thigh occasionally rubbing circles on it all while smiling at me like he'd just seen a puppy. His smile was so infectious that we were both smiling at each other throughout the entire meal and completely in our down world. This is exactly how I pictured Christmas with Jude being the little moments like playing with my siblings, cooking together and enjoying dinner together really just made my heart feel filled with love and the Christmas spirit. 

After dinner we didn't have to help with cleaning up as we both helped cook so Jude carried me upstairs over his shoulders to my room. He insisted that we put on our matching pyjamas as he missed that part of my family tradition and then he made sure we took pictures together which he promised he would post but I know in a few hours one will be on his instagram story. Despite it only being 8pm we got ready for bed and got under the covers to cuddle as that's the only thing that felt right to end off the perfect day. Just when I thought things couldn't get any better Jude put on miracle on 34th street which I love to watch but he doesn't so I know he did it just for me. 

"I'm so glad you could make it today has been the best day" I said 

"Me too your whole family are so lovely your brothers are going to be great footballers, your sister has one hell of an imagination and your parents are just so kind to me" he said 

"They all love you so much probably more than me but that's ok because I love seeing all of you get along" I said 

"Well my family loves you more than me so I guess we're even" he joked 

"I guess we are" I smiled kissing him before settling back down to finish watching the movie

[forgottenroisin]

ooooo obsessed w allll of this!!!!1 i want it on my blog!!!! and also the replies we did <333333

giadesstrin Aug 1 @forgottenbrigit imagine having heavy cleaning associated w ur bday 😭😭😭 my condolences, brigit!!! I think she should be forgiven on the spot for ANY outburst of anger she EVER has in light of this information 😭😭😭 giadesstrin Aug 1 @forgottenbrigit AHHHHHHH OBSESSEDDDDD w her birth story tho!!!!!!!!!!!! Also ooooh omg @forgotteneithne i looove that hc that sorcha was v religious and bran more traditional but less believing! I feel like that also really dovetails w the story abt Sorcha seeing her own ghost on Samhain before she died, too!! Also rosie probs lowkey like ‘xerces called mama to him that we might keep Brigit w us’ if she died in winter forgottenbrigit Aug 1 Original Poster @giadesstrin @forgotteneithne laskjflsadjfdsalfj ahh omg yes love the idea that sorcha died in winter! forgotteneithne Aug 1 @forgottenbrigit @giadesstrin I love this too! Also brb crying about this too! 😭 forgotteneithne Aug 1 @giadesstrin @forgottenbrigit I also love this idea about their parents! Maybe since malconaire is SO rooted in nature, Bran did tend towards those traditions more? (That seems v on brand for the Malconaire family in general!) forgottenbrigit Aug 1 Original Poster @forgotteneithne @forgottenroisin I agree!!!! And I feel like that lends them to be kinda of ~spiritual~ if not religious? Brigit has always been more traditions based with the religion, too, until she literally started seeing the guardians haha giadesstrin Aug 1 @forgotteneithne @forgottenbrigit I feel like this also really fits w Rosie’s views of religion verging on superstition like…she’s all in on the traditions vis both parents but she was little when her mama died so she saw the faith but wasn’t old enough to fully understand it so she sort of flailed around tryna do her best w this mysterious world as presented to her by them both as a lil kid and…here we are! An eight year olds best understanding of what her mother told her worn away over tbc Decades to vague anxious misgiving and blind hope @forgottenroisin forgotteneithne Aug 1 @forgottenbrigit LIZZZZY! I love all of this! I definitely think Eithne always embroidered a new ornament for the tree each year as she as she'd mastered her needlework! And probably STILL does it, even though I doubt there's much tree decorating now! #thanksroderick forgotteneithne Aug 1 (and also probably #thanks @forgottenvalentina, too!!) Also, i def love the idea of the family being more spiritual than religious! I feel like maybe the Stafford influence + having Sorcha as a mother maybe led them all to take some of the traditions a bit more seriously over the years? I know on Eithne's side, I doubt she was ever overly religious, even with Sorcha's influence?? Aoife I think might be a bit more religious/follows the traditions than Eithne

giadesstrin Aug 2 @forgotteneithne @forgottenbrigit roisin sneaking the ornaments to the tree by wearing them as ‘earrings’ but since they’re just embroidery Valentina like ‘gross’ and doesn’t notice 😂 no but omg!! That’s so cute!! I love the idea that this maybe leaves a track record of like…the girls learning to see and such and they can line them up and see their progress 🥹🥹🥹 but also yeah!! Valentina def won’t have those devilish ways in ~her house! Now that Roderick’s against it!! I def feel like this tbc Probs leads to maybe like brigit and rosie climbing to the top of the tree and decorating it where Valentina can’t see? Also I like this idea that the older girls are more spiritual and the younger slightly more religious? Like it def feels like a fault line through the fam of watching ur mom die at a certain age yknow? The younger ones turning to her beliefs to deal w it or cling to her in her absence, etc, the older ones more influenced by their living parent or even feeling betrayed by tbc Faith that couldn’t save her etc like…whatever all of their reasons I find it interesting that it cracks along the older/younger half and basically I feel like there’s a lot we can explore there too! forgotteneithne Aug 2 @giadesstrin that is SO true!!! I sort of had the idea that Eithne spent a lot of time with her father— considering she was going to be his heir!— so I think she probably picked up his habits/ideas on their traditions mostly from him! But I definitely can see where Aoife was trying to connect with their mother in some way! Also, I think just the concept of having these silent, unseen entities there caring for them would be comforting to her in a way? Being that’s she’s sort of quiet and tbc @forgottenbrigit often unnoticed herself! Also just being younger and a bit more of a homebody, she probably had more exposure to some of her mother’s religious rituals or w/e??? giadesstrin Aug 2 @forgotteneithne oh yeah I wasn’t tryna push anything just meant those as like ~potential examples of what I was tryna say but yes! Eithne spending the most time w her dad as his heir I love that 😩😩😩 I know he was so unbelievably proud of her too 😩😩😩 and omg 🥺🥹 aoife connecting w unseen powers im WEEP 😩😩😩😩 you got this queen!!!!! I love the idea of like…their spheres of influence/hanging out w which parent kinda pushed them down individual paths that’s so presh 🥺🥺🥺

forgotteneithne Aug 2 @giadesstrin oh no I def didn’t think you were trying to push anything!!! 💕💕 ALSO thinking about how we’d sort of discussed that Rosie is often Aoife’s ‘voice’ in situation— not that Rosie is forcing those ideas upon Aoife but that they’re sort of on the same page about these things!! Also just being the two youngest and maybe having less pressure of being the heir and, technically, the second in line for @forgottenbrigit I just realized!!! (Duh Kate, that’s how families work! 🤷🏻‍♀️) the two tbc Younger girls really got to explore things in sort of a different way that the older two! giadesstrin Aug 2 @forgotteneithne omggggg yassss and maybe even this coming out of them being the two who take spiritualism to a different place, both of them being younger and thus needing their mom more when she died and tryna reach out thru smth unseen and spiritual that she believed in!!!!! I looooove!!!! And omg yassss i def think rosie was spoiled haha I lowjey think her being the baby and losing her mom so early led bran to coddle her more tbqh like she lowkey learned what death was by watching it takeTBC Her mom and bran wanted to try to make up for that plus the fact that he was so overwhelmed by being a single dad to four girls suddenly and yeahhhh maybe overcompensated a bit 😭😂 @forgottenbrigit @forgotteneithne omg yeah au where eithne goes missing for a bit or smth and Brigit has to try being lady of the wood for a bit 😭😂 forgotteneithne Aug 2 @giadesstrin Eithne DEFINITELY coddled Rosie! She's desperate for nothing bad to happen to her sisters EVER but ESPECIALLY Rosie! Because she is the baby-- even now! Also i now am having so many thoughts about Brigit being the next in line to take Malconaire! like maybe there was this unspoken thing after @forgottencassimir showed up that it was him but Eithne def always wanted it to be brigit! and maybe she even considered that brigit might be the steward?! tbc (sorry @forgottencillian !) but idk... eithne knew her fate was malconaire so she wanted her sisters to have a chance to go out an explore and make their own lives so she might have never mentioned it to @forgottenbrigit !!! giadesstrin Aug 2 @forgotteneithne @forgottenbrigit oh cillian woukd 100000% agree that Brigit deserves it over him!! I also wonder if like…in Valentina’s mind it was Cassimir next but in brand it was still Brigit? And maybe that’s part of what caused the first argument there like bran still out his girls’ rights over his adopted children? Idk!! But also 🥺😩 eithne coddling rosie!!!!! Protecting her!!!! I feel like rosie def went through a phase when she first went to court of at once like craving that and tbc Rebelling against it bc she’s ‘too old’ for that now etc etc but yeah post-war she def realizes how lucky she was and how much she took that for granted even while rejecting it but I also don’t think she really knows how to articulate all of that?? And weirdly her trying like stop eithnes marriage etc is not only her just being a loving sister who wants the best for her etc…but also tryna repay her in kind and apologize for being a jerk when she was in her rebellious teen years hahaha forgotteneithne Aug 2 @giadesstrin Awww Rosie! <3 Ooo i could def imagine there might be a bit of a tiff between she and Eithne if Rosie felt like her older sister was at court, too, to 'watch out' for her! (which, lets be real, she probably kind of was!) but her trying to pay eithne back! SOB! I think she would totally have understood Rosie was just 'at that age' but also <3333333 giadesstrin Aug 2 @forgotteneithne oooh omg now I’m like 😭😭😭 bc what if they were in a bit of a fight when rosie left the castle fir malconaire and then all this hardship was breaking out and Rosie just felt so incredibly guilty terrified that might’ve been the last thing she ever said to her sister and 😭😭😭

Malconaire Imbolc Traditions

It is said that Phaedra, the goddess of spring, is often granted this one day by Xerxes, the god of winter, to allow the everyone to gather enough firewood to last them the rest of the winter. If the weather on Imbolc is fair, then the mornings are spent harvesting firewood in preparation for the rest of the winter to come. If, however, the weather is fowl, it is taken as a sign that winter is to come to an end soon, and instead everyone spends their mornings around the fire with warm drinks in hand celebrating that warmer days are ahead.

The evergreen trees are often decorated for Imbolc and the great tree that grows through Malconaire has always been decorated by the children of the current Lord the night before

It has always been a tradition for the four girls to stay up late into the night placing garlands and ornaments upon its branches.

In the afternoon, the unmarried girls partake in a parade where they all wear white with their hair unbound as a symbol of purity and youth

They go from house to house in the village and receive food that shall be offered to the guardians that evening

It is said that Imbolc is the coldest night of the year and that it is the one night that the god Xerxes is allowed a warm haven from the cold winter nights

It is said that, if he is not invited in, that he shall cover the land in a great blizzard and his wrath shall know no mercy until the first day of spring comes

In each house, a bed is made up for Xerxes

A family member is then chosen to represent Xerxes (at Malconaire it is often Brigit given that this was her nameday)

Wearing a crown of ivy and snowdrops, they circle the house three times before knocking thrice upon the door and asking to be let in. On the third time, they are welcomed.

There is then a great feast in the evening to mark the last night of winter. Food and drink are set aside for the guardians.

After the festivities, they light candles and visit the graves of their loved ones -- decorating them with garlands of holly and ivy -- and saying silent prayers

Before going to bed, clothing is left out for the guardians to bless, with the hope that they shall give their wearer both healing and protection

The day following the festival, the entire village undergoes a "spring cleaning" as they look forward to the next season (brigit hated this part ngl)

They also rake the ashes smooth from the fire in the great hall to see if there are any signs that Xerxes had, indeed, visited

If there was nothing, it would be believed that bad fortune was coming to them during the next winter unless they made enough offerings to the guardians

Brigit's Birthday Traditions

Since Imbolc is actually Saint Brigid's day, I'm headcannoning that Brigit was actually born on Imbolc!

Her mother was not due for many weeks yet and when she suddenly went into labor during the celebration and festivities, it all came to a halt

It did not look well and they were concerned that neither she nor Brigit would survive

In the chaos, a bed was never made for Xerxes and a terrible storm blew through Malconaire which prevented the doctor from being sent for

When Sorcha realized what had happened, she stood from her own bed and opened the window, whispering out to Xerxes that her bed was his own, if he would spare her child

Despite Bran's insistence, Sorcha would not get back into her bed

A few moments before midnight, Brigit was born and as soon as she came into the world the wind and the snow stopped

When the doctor did arrive, he was stunned to see both mother and child were in such good health

In the morning, when the fire had burned out and the ashes were made smooth, there was a small rock found beneath them that Sorcha swore resembled a horse

She said that they should all take it as a sign that Xerxes has been there, after all, and it was he who saved them. She also said that she feared that this would mean that her Brigit would be as untameable and fierce as a wild horse (she was right)

Brigit's mother used to tell her this story whenever Brigit felt like she was out of place

When she was little, she believed it wholeheartedly, but as she grew older, she started to think her mother just told her this to make her feel better

It wasn't until she started to see the guardians for herself that she started to wonder if, perhaps, it was all true after all

She still has the rock that was found in the ashes

Brigit's present on her 18th birthday was the bow that belonged to her grandfather, Commander Lorcan

His sword and armour, of course, stayed with Lorcan and are in Padraig's possession but both her cousin and her father determined that Brigit ought to have his bow <3

@forgottenaoife & @forgottenroisin : I'm not sure if this has been established anywhere before, but I was wondering what the Malconaire's parents stance was on religion? Writing this, I feel like Sorcha was rather religious but Bran was more just in it for tradition? Thoughts on this???

[milligramspoison]

Happy anniversary to Sing being performed for the first time since 2012.

Happy anniversary to Sister To Sleep being performed for the first time since 2003.

Happy anniversary to the live fucking debut of fucking Fake Your Death.

Happy anniversary to when some of us thought they were gonna do something MCR5 related since they currently don’t have a fifth album out.

Happy anniversary to LA night 5. My Chemical Romance forever and always <3

[pinklemonslices]

listened to anthems for a seventeen year old girl one too many times and now i’m having Feelings about the fact that mha is Over, which are nicely summed up by:

[dmwrites]

2023 fic roundup! Thanks for reading my stuff this year!

Below is all of the fic links, summaries, and any additional notes (in chronological order) from yours truly:)

NPC Bdubs: an in-game explanation to why Bdubs didn’t upload his Limited Life pov- Cleo notices that Bdubs is acting a little weird, almost like some kind of non-playable character.

The Coral Kids’ Keeper: Martyn and Scott live out on a island on the sea on the Limited Life server, and a sea creature that calls himself xbcrafted take interest in them. He protects them. He is here to protect them, right? (Dm note: oh my goddd I love this one still I love the horror at the end [I may just be biased to xb tbh lol])

Impulse’s post-death affirmation: Impulse got second place in Limited Life, and Skizz is so proud of him.

Clock Full of Love: Impulse gave Bdubs a clock in the beginning of Limited Life. At the end, Cleo adds her own touch to it.

Grian and Scar’s punishment: It all started when Grian and Scar touched his (Doc’s) redstone (tunnel bore). Their punishment? Zombiecleo scolding them.

Talks of Adoration on the Tower of Team TIES: Etho and Impulse have more in common then they think, and reflect on it all one sleepless night in the Team TIES base

Big and Handsome God Has A Big Sad: the empires s2 server can’t be empty, right? Sure, Joel hasn’t seen anyone in forever, but people still love him, surely, right? They wouldn’t all leave him. They wouldn’t. Right? (Dm note: this idea wasn’t executed as well as I would have liked, but I really like the crumbling reality vibes of this one)

Cuddling with the Homies: Grian, Impulse, Scar, and Skizz playing Sons of the Forest. They get one tiny-ass tent to all sleep in. It’s if the “only one bed” trope was four dudes being idiots in the woods in a tent.

I know how to keep you warm;)): the new life smp folks wonder if Chillager Martyn will freeze up if he gets flustered. Scott is up to the task. It’s all silly.

Copper Pearlo takes on The Button (2): Grian and Mumbo stumble upon copper golem Pearl

One Year Later: Double Life ended one year ago (when I posted this fic lol). Impulse makes Bdubs another clock

The CuteGuy Who Stepped Up: Scar needs a CuteGuy sidekick, and Grian does not want to be a sidekick in the slightest. Enter Joe Hills from Nashville, Tennessee. (Dm note: the CuteGuy main character was decided by a poll. This is also my second most-liked fic of 2023)

The Slime Code: Gem is a slime in New Life! She calls Jevin on Hermitcraft to ask about any slime rules she now needs to follow

A Dream of Pink: Joel has a dream of showing a pretty girl with pink hair (who roasts him) his hardcore world builds. She seems familiar…

3rd Life x NightVale: the radio transcript when Cecil Palmer from the town of NightVale interviews a strange man with a red sweater and split knuckles and keeps talking about something that happened in a desert. (Dm note: love this one, definitely caters to a very specific audience, but this one shows up in my notifs almost every day. I think I did a good job at the ad breaks and such.)

Sacrificial Impulse: Grian, Scar, and Skizz died while hunting ghosts with Impulse. Impulse wants to bring them back, no matter the cost. Also, EvilNotion is the ghost hunters’ boss.

xB’s Revenge- a Blood on the Clocktower story: based on the first session of hermitcraft’s BOTC, Iskall accuses xbcrafted of being the demon, and xB becomes the first innocent to die. But xB sticks around after death, and wants the sweetest revenge on Iskall. (Dm note: this one is long as hell but man the concept was so good. Drowned!xb is so good.)

Bdoubledown? How Cute: a brief conversation between Impulse and Skizz about Impulse’s brand new soulmate in Double Life

GIGS gets another G: Gem is jealous that Grian, Impulse, Scar, and Skizz are hunting ghosts, and wants to join in. Pearl, local odd woman, has a way. Possession is fun among friends! (Dm note: this is the most liked fic of this year, which is definitely not what I expected lol)

The Dungeon Is Hungry: Hypno thinks all the superstitions around the Decked Out 2 dungeon are stupid. That is until everything goes sideways and Cub is covered in sculk and pointing a sword at him down in level 4.

The Impossible Task: Martyn gets a very simple, two-word task in Secret Life: find RenTheDog. But Ren isn’t here… right? (Dm note: when I thought of this idea I literally said “ouch!” in my head lol)

GIGGS Hunts a Ghost!: the GIGGS crew gets called on by Zedaph to find and capture evidence of a ghost he claims he has seen haunting hermitcraft. (Dm note: the b-plot grian and zed rivalry is so funny to me idk why I decided they hate each other lolll)

A Moment of Peace: Martyn and Cleo are estranged soulmates in Double Life, and they take a moment to drink some tea and talk about what soulmate they’d like to have if they had a choice.

It Feels Different Now (and that’s a good thing): Pearl has to hurt people on the Secret Life server as part of her task, but she takes no joy in it now. She harkens back to what has changed between Double Life and now.

Jimmy’s Grave: Cleo made Jimmy a grave before he died in Secret Life. He did end up dying that very day, and a mourner comes by his grave when it’s all said and done.

Red: Pearl’s favorite color is red. She is made to be a red name, even when she’s not.

Becoming the Villain of the Server: (secret life) Scar digs up Jimmy’s grave to take his spine, to sell it to Joel, pretending that it’s Lizzie’s. Hey, what else is a man to do? (Dm note: this one fucks so hard, i love how fucked up the idea of it is, what Scar would have to do to make it happen. Eating this.)

From One Lonely Winner to Another: Scar wins Secret Life. Sunflowers grow from his skin to be with him as he goes to succeed the final task. (Dm note: another one I love, I just love the aesthetic of it all.)

[fadejumper]

Happy final week without a new Dragon Age game! This time next week it’ll only be three days away…

[alexturner2005]

RED ROCKS TODAY!!!!!!!

[trianglecats]

Really late 10 years [anniversary?] of Dreamscapers

[soft-serve-soymilk]

lying in bed absorbed in my various Daydreams and FantasiesTM when I just burst out into spontaneous giggling bc gdi it’s an emotional scene but it DOES NOT warrant Prelude to Act 2 from pmmm levels of emotional 😅😅 like damn. getting a bit melodramatic there aren’t we guys

[beautifultypewriter]

Yay for me!!

[sunsteps]

took me 1.5 hours to get through episode 1 of donghualian season 2 because i kept having to pause to hyperventilate and scream and cry and die. I CAN’T BELIEVE IT’S BEEN 3 ENTIRE YEARS 😭😭😭

[ssreeder]

Hi! Thank you so much for posting the new chapter :) I can’t even put into words how much I love your work. It feels crazy because I have been following liab for over a year now and I think I’ve never been this consistent with anything in my life :D i don’t know if it’s a secret but do you have the next chapters already planned out? And do you know how many chapters this part is going to be? Thank you for you hard work!!

Hiii aww I’m so glad you liked the new chapter! & yeah wow I’ve been writing this fic for like 2 years I think, shiiiit what is time ahhh. Thanks for sticking with me so long <3

I actually have pretty much all the chapter planned out until the battle begins but my problem is I do them by events so it’s like I want this this and this to happen in a chapter but idk how long it’ll take to make that happen but I know what I want to write lol.

(& sometimes the characters don’t LISTEN & I say be nice and make this an easy talk and they’re like no fuck you author I wanna fight right now and the convo takes 1.5k instead of idk 500 words lol. )

I just posted chapter 15 & I’m going to GUESS we are about halfway done. In my mind we are halfway through the last book and that means we have roughly 15 chapter left to go then the epilogue.

I’m pretty good at estimating chapter count but horrible at word count estimation haha.

Thanks for the ask I hope you have an awesome day!!

[kisasan]

[purble-gaymer]

half life 2 is awesome because you get to command an army of bug babies but also it sucks because i am at 1 hp there are a million combines and two airships and i just died for the fifth time in a row trying to fix the situation

[gregmarriage]

i wish all doctors and “medical professionals” a very fuck off and die x

[neon-danger]

Sleep really does help the "everyone hates me, I hate me" feeling. It also kills my motivation to do things, oh well.

I will say changing the language I use about myself and remembering that assuming my friends secretly hate me is kinda mean really helped me recognize my own self worth

So even when my brain is having A Moment I still know it’s not really a reflection of who I am as a person, but a consequence of the mental illness Im still learning to cope with, even on the meds