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I miss streaming but I also am like
So nervous about streaming by myself?
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BILLDUMP TIME (with transparency, because I can). Don't mind me, I'm just yeeting my goofy art at some way more talented individuals out of nowhere and then hauling ass back to the security of being a weird silent lurker ahaha
@tesscourtes and @beccadrawsstuff, respectively! These two Bills make a little prism of sorts together because of their recent crossovers on Patreon~ :3c Speaking of which, I highly recommend supporting both these artists! They do fantastic work! (TessCourtes and Beccup)
@qoolk on the left, and @monobmp on the right! I am such a sucker for these outfits~ OuO Go and check these two out, their art is phenomenal!!! >u<
@1spooky2me The most difficult Bill of the lot for me to draw, ahaha... Their art is so incredibly consistent and dynamic, I am, a little envious <:,) A little envious, but mostly impressed, so go look at their amazing art, what are you waiting for
And finally, @ckret2, whose writing is sublimely in-character and just a delight to read - they're a great artist, as well! I simply Could Not resist drawing their Bill in this ridiculous incredible and very fashionable pink feather dress, even though he only briefly wears it in their fic, so I also did a little bonus doodle of him in his standard hoodie to make up for it. XD (Also, as far as I'm concerned, Bill and Mabel were both correct in that lime green accessories make the dress Much Better.)
This is just a small selection of the human Bill designs I enjoy. I may draw and post more later on, who knows! Feel free to reblog with some neat Bill designs, either your own or by other folks - if any of the designs particularly call to me, I'll add them to the little list I've got going~ :D (Alternatively, if you really like my stuff and want me to draw something specific, you could...mmm...perhaps, commission me...? OuO)
Also I'm tagging Billford because uhhhh yeah, sorry not sorry, every single one of these Bills is getting shipped with Ford by the artists in some way or another, lmao
#fanart#gravity falls#bill cipher#human bill cipher#human bill design#billford#bill is just so Gender#regardless of whether or not he's a triangle. just. such Gender. wow#honestly tempted to draw the OG twink!bill and the mangopablo save-the-town!bill just for funzies#i may also attempt to draw alex hirsch's “canon” human!bill but uhhhh who knows LOL#i kinda feel like he made the design extra ugly just to poke fun at the fandom#so the “canon” aspect of it is kinda up in the air for me personally LMAO#not sure if i drew goldilocks!bill thicc enough tbh#just. look. it's hard to draw a person who is as close to triangular as a human can possibly get. ok??? ok#I TRIED AND THAT'S WHAT'S IMPORTANT OnO#in other news why did these turn out so much better than the drawings of my own design??? wtf that's so rude#get it together ME this is fukken embarrassing#btw if i draw something for you and you respond to thank me only to have me say nothing back it's because i am very awkward and anxious lol#there is also the adhd which makes me forget that i failed to respond like a normal person would have ahahahaha o-o#but mostly it's the horrors of being perceived for more than the two seconds it takes to yeet an art at a person O-O#why am i like this? good question! maybe i'll have an answer someday when i can actually afford therapy XD#I SHOULD HAVE BEEN ASLEEP FIVE HOURS AGO
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I also think it's nice that they made Camilla a sci-fi nerd and Luz a fantasy nerd. They're genres that are often seen as completely opposing one another by many people, which is what we're led to believe about Luz and Camilla in season 1. Luz is silly, nerdy, frequently in over her head and irresponsible and loves the boiling isles. We're led to believe that Camilla is the normal, conventional TV mother who'd be disgusted and terrified by the demon realm if she saw it.
Then yesterday's lie gives us a lot of nuance to this, and we realize that while they're still very different and now on opposite sides of a conflict, both mother and daughter are incredibly kind people (seen in their treatment of Vee) who love each other but struggle to make the right choices without hurting one another.
Then thanks to them drops all this Camilla characterization and we realize! She was a nerd too this whole time! The wedge between Camilla and Luz is motivated by past traumas and grief! and for the future has them switching sides on the central conflict of where Luz should stay (Camilla now wanting Luz in the demon realm because it's what's best for her, and Luz believing that staying in the human realm is what's best for the people she loves). They finally talk and realize that, like Willow pointed out earlier in the ep, the two are so alike. Camilla reveals that she's a secret nerd too! That she had a hard time growing up and accidentally hurt Luz trying to save her from the same fait! It's so important to me that Camilla keeps calling Luz a good witch. It's affirming her interests and goals, reminding her that she's just as good as the hero of her favorite story. And Luz finally only realizes that she wants to be understood...when she's finally able to understand her mom. When she realizes that the woman she loves and admires is just as much of a nerdy screw-up as her and that there's hope for her. Her palismen ends being multiple animals at once, showing both how Luz making unconventional choices (like carving an egg) keeps paying off for her and how her potential is limitless now that she finally knows and accepts her own goals, but to me it also reminds of the fact that Camilla is a vet and passed a love of all the weird and unliked animals (like wolves, possums, snakes, etc) to her.
It's just so so sweet and it really shows how much love and thought the crew put into this mother daughter storyline (FTF haters are not welcome on this page, respectfully). I can't wait to see how both of these misunderstood but healing women (who radiate "little/big sister" and "mom" energy respectively) are gonna interact with a) the lonely, easily manipulated and well intentioned but ignorant collector (a mix of both their interests as a magic being with a space motif! I just realized that lol) and b) the nasty puritan white man who's really obsessed with conforming to society's norms even when it literally doesn't benefit him at all.
Anyway, I believe in noceda( AND clawthorne 👀) family supremacy 💙
#the owl house#toh#toh spoilers#luz noceda#camilla noceda#this isn't proofread so if there's words missing or misspellings or somethings unclear feel free to mention#but this is just a messy thought dump#I have a ROUGH WEEK. I wish there was a more positive vibe in the fandom rn (although i kinda get it but also :( sad)#but there isn't one i will create it#tentatively I don't have a responsibility to do that I just wanna talk about things i noticed and like#i am going to post reqs just u wait. bitch!#also uhhhh other things i thought while making this post but couldn't include:#hunter and gus being fantasy trekkies is really funny and cute but also fits really well with both of their characters#gus has always been in love with the human realm and this is the ultimate neat little bow on that.#he's dressed as a character he relates to (captain avery trying to get back home to the family he loves) and his interest is uniquely human#bc sci-fi is kinda uniquely rooted in/associated w/ the human realm in toh. even in something like Belos' steampunk tech#SPEAKING OF. hunter oh my GODDD#he gets so attached to the human realm in TTT bc he's finally somewhere safe (he's always been entrenched in the most-#-toxic parts of the demon realm and it's culture which is ironically propelled forward by one humans influence)#and it's like a part of him is reclaiming his weird split heritage. he loves magic and he loves sci-fi and he's silly abt both#he's not a witch or a human and he's happy. or at least he will be#anyway. i love this shows relationship to fiction it is sweet and comforting and funny
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slowly I'm recovering the beauty of discovery
(creature by half•alive)
(textless + timelapse below cut)
#yellowart#subnautica#i feel like the timelapse is kinda long but also this did take a long time to make#anyways. let me yap about the meanings of all the panels <3#'i am creation' -> the ocean being the source of life and where shit evolved from also a good way to sort of 'set the scene' for subnautica#'both haunted' -> GHOST leviathan; in the BONE fields#'and holy' -> this one was a bit trickier. debated about using the emperor but i knew i wanted to use her elsewhere#also debated hoverfish because its cute and well liked so i thought that would be funny for 'and holy'#also something something jesus walking on water also makes it fitting. in the end though i decided on a peeper with the enzyme trail#and i *tried* to make it loop over its head like a halo but idk how well that imagery came through. still mentioned it in the alt text tho.#'made in glory' -> was REALLY torn about this one. on the one hand i wanted to have like a picture of the code because something something#divine machine and it being made out of code making it inherently holy or something; but i wasnt sure if that would be too#'immersion breaking' since most of the stuff in this is like in game stuff i wasnt sure if acknowledging that it was a game would be#too much. my other idea was to draw a couple of creature eggs like a stalker egg and a spadefish egg or something; but in the end i just#went with the one that i personally thought was cooler so if you think it does feel out of place uhhhh sorry i guess lmao.#also yes that is code from the game. idk shit about programming i just think code shit is cool so i poked though a modding tutorial til i#found what it is they use to look at that shit and started poking around. its pretty cool tbh. anyways the specific part i chose for the#drawing was something under the peepers; i think its the bit that tells the enzyme peepers to do the enzyme stuff like the trail obviously#but also some other stuff. not 100% sure though like i said idk shit about this sort of thing but everything in there seems pretty well#labeled its kinda impressive. and very helpful for navigating even if you dont know shit lol.#anyways. 'even the depths of the night cannot blind me' -> blood kelp trench is i think one of the darkest biomes in the game#possibly THE darkest so i thought it would be fitting. probably my least favorite panel though i dont think i did a very good job#representing the area or representing the bloodvines :/#'when you guide me' -> sea emperor but more specifically her messages to the player telling you to 'come here'#'creature only' -> not sure how well i can articulate this but basically the idea of humans beig animals with animal needs to eat and drink#and the idea of being a part of the ecosystem. modern life tends to make us forget that sort of thing but id imagine for ryley being on the#planet would violently remind him of this with things trying to eat him while he has to try to eat things as well. being part of the food#web. 'creature only' because he is only a creature not non-essential systems maintenance chief; but a creature living in an environment and#trying to survive. or something like that. does that make any fucking sense to anyone besides me? whatever.#anyways yapping over 👍
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Yuuji: why do they call it an oven when you of in the cold food of out hot eat the food
Sukuna who didn't understand 75% of what he just said: ... ?? (incredulous connotation)
#just thought of this + had to put my idea down#although i'm sure it's been done before if not w the same exact characters#sukuna's in control of yuuji's body btw#uhhhh do i or do i not tag this for the masses (jjk tumblr) to see#fuck it why not. i have nothing to hide#if you need an idea of what kinda au this takes place in i recommend reading “you are here (and so am i)” by sunii_cafe on ao3#i'm lowkey obsessed w this fic + i the characterization is really good#it's hard to find “Good Sukuna” aus where he doesn't feel ooc + it does a very good job of not going that#if that matters to you obv. i know characterization doesn't matter to everyone#anyways. sorry about the rambling#jujutsu kaisen#jjk au#love like you au#<- my general “chilled tf out sukuna” au tag#itadori yuuji#ryomen sukuna#hotline yells into the abyss
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i've been making progress in infinite wealth this week and i got very happy seeing daigo again. so i made a bracelet
#i think i understand the vague posts i've seen regarding chapter 12 xD i haven't finished it yet but hmm#i need to rewatch that whole scene with the jimas#also uhhhh.... ebina is who's what.... huh............ whuh...............#am i insane for saying this game just gives me weird vibes so far. like. Like. idk. i'm having fun but the story/pacing is just Weird#it's not necessarily BAD but like. everything just feels kinda off????? does that make sense¿¿¿¿¿¿¿¿¿¿¿#iunnoool like i said i'm havin fun anyway. i'm enjoying the bucket list stuff a lot#anyway my nay wants me to make a kiryu bracelet for her 🫡 i wish i had a better variety of beads to work with#where do ppl buy beads..........#the void given form#((may as well put this in the art tag? bracelet making is a craft))
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GUYS.
GIRLS ARE SO PRETTY.
RAKGKAKVAKFKALGKEJ
AESTHETIC ATTRACTION IS REAL AND GODS IT'S AMAZING
#okay okay so guys#I was at the park on the swings singing like I usually fo#and I was feeling really pretty today but its hot as FUCK here so I was kinda all sweaty and my hair was sticking to my face and thej#THIS GIRL WALKS IN AND OMG#SHE WAS GORGEOUS#and the certain songs I were singing were uhhhh...very lesbian#just to clarify#not a lesbian but like I LOVE GIRLS OKAY. AM QUEER.#so then she starts swinging next to me#and I keep stealing glances at her#and I really wanted to tell her how pretty she was but i was SCARED cause one ive been singing love songs and two social interaction = scary#but eventually as I left I told her I loved her hair#AND SHE SMILED AT ME#AND SAID THANK YOU AND JUST SHE LOOKED REALLY HAPPY AND IM JUDT AKGKAKGKAKGA
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i love to draw ocs during school while having a shit ass day. makes me feel good. but???? im still having a shit ass day and i still feel bad????? jot like. "oh i did something now i feel bad" like "oh i feel terrible physically and mentally and im scared whats gonna happen next"
venting in tags a little bit kind of ihhuuh
#kinda vent#oscar vents??????#oscar draws something#oscar says shit#i sure just did that!#woo!#school is RUUIIINNGGIJNG me#ive had more bad days at school than usual#like its happening daily now#and im overthinking too much#aandd idk hwat to do#i have not seen my therapist in over a month and i dont wanna get a new one and i wanna cry and everythign is going BASdddlyyyy#BUT DRAWING helps#i kinda feel a little bettwr i guess#but uhhhh#yeaaahhhh im having a shit ass day.#my house isnt my comfort place#i dont HAVR a comfort place dude#i am too scared to go home bc i feel like my moms gonna yell at me and stuff and im gonna end up crying and im SO ANXIOUS#i dont like venting really#because i feel like it will trigger and scare peop.le#so i dont vent to people often when i need to#yk?#venting makes me feel guilty#but it makes me feel something else#i dont know what elsee#but i hope i didnt like.#scare any of u#or trigger anybody#im done venting BYE!
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how would you rank the ninja from worst to best based on the ninjago seasons youve seen?
Nya and Wu are the best, everyone else is the same to me
#Conceptually. Loyd; Garmadon; and Kai are interesting.#However later seasons of Loyd and Garmadon are so. They were kinda nuked#Like what do you MEAN Garmadon wasn't capable of having compassion or caring for Loyd (crystal king part 2). Like#Garmadon loved Loyd. That was a pretty important aspect of s1-2#like hello#What#the other ninja feel kinda the same to me for the most part? Especially in dragon rising. Specifically in dragon rising.#All of their one-liners have no distinct character voice. They're interchangeable. I'm going mad#Nin//jago compels me in a ''why is this so bad'' way. Or maybe it's that Sea Nya was so good compared to everything? idk#Like why was there something like that 14ish seasons in a fairly bland show. It boggles me. I'm boggled#I actually didn't watch any other part of Seabound.#In my experience ninja//go is best experienced by watching the finale/payoff#So you can fill in the set-up in your head.#I also watched a sort of edit about nya on youtube. Which gave me more context for her character#I need to stop doing a deep dive into ninj//ago like this doesn't interest me at all. I'm losing my mind. I must ignore my dark curiosity#Of wondering ''is there anything else like sea nya'' and the answer being no#I'm crying at how bad oni Loyd was like truly#Uhhhh Cole's stuff with grief wasn't awful? Or doesn't seem to be?#just like. Serviceable I guess#I'm going to be driven mad by ninja//go this shit is just. I can't even describe how I feel rn#It's so mush. It's hollow. It has nothing I like about stories or animation in it.#And I don't mind crazy lore! I'm a kh fan! But the lack of underlying logic. It makes me feel disoriented#It's like watching natla where every new line feels like it wasn't written with the last in mind#Like I guess if people like the characters????? Like that's it that's all you have#Like THIS is the show people are talking about when they're saying something is just a ''kids show'' you know#Why am I doing this this was a show made to sell merchandise it literally does not matter#I guess since the ninj//ago fandom and the lmk fandom are so closely connected I just see stuff for these characters all the time#ninjago critical#anon#asks
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Oh it would be so easy to hunt you down. I’d just toy with you, calling out to you “Rosie my sweet trophy. Why do you hide? You know you want this.” Then as soon as I find you my hand would be clasped over your mouth before you even have a chance to scream whilst my other hand roughly tears at your clothes so I can slide inside you. “Oh…why are you so wet if you don’t want this? I can see the fear in your eyes and feel your screams against my hand but your pussy is telling a different story.”
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#IDNSKSNKDNSKWNSKMSKSKDNKDKS#this fantasy always makes me fucking FERAL#I know I’d be incredibly easy to catch cause I’m not the fastest person alive but might be the clumsiest 😅#but I#WANT ALL OF THIS SO BADLY???????????!!!!!!???#don’t mind me currently in the back of my car soaked thinking about someone hunting me down#I can feel my heart pounding just thinking about it#my heart would fucking drop once I felt your hands on me#and I’d try everything I could to get out of your grasp and run away#but it would be useless - you are way too strong and way way too determined 🫣#maybe I’ll try and push you away but you’ll just chuckle a little bit and tighten your grip#also????!!?#I want someone to roughly tear off my clothes cause they can’t wait for me to take them off#honestly I want that to happen one day hahah#obviously we would have to like kinda talk it out before hand cause if someone ripped one of my fav outfits I’d be PISSED#but just get a cheap whatever thrift store one#and then they can just rip it to fucking shreds who cares#wonder how fast my screams of terror turn into screams of pleasure 🤭🤭🤭#with how wet I am just thinking about it??? I’d bet pretty damn fast hehe 😇#so uhhhh when is our date? 👀👀👀#ask#anon
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I had to skip therapy this week and I’m handling it really well. I’m definitely not filled with a sadness and rage that threatens to consume me whole.
#and I ate some hushpuppies#don’t worry. I’ve got therapy again in uhhhh January#I feel so stupid and selfish complaining about it but I really kinda needed that little 1 hour outlet to vent to someone I trust#but uh…. god it sounds so stupid and trite to say ‘hey I’ve been thinking a lot about killing myself lately’ but uh ‘hey…’#and I don’t want to complain about specifics on here because that’s annoying for people#my birthday is Sunday and my mom is still in the hospital not doing well and I’m just… done with everything#I’m ready to be done#but I’m too full of worry about my family after I’m gone.#and I frustratingly always hold on to things long after they’ve gone rotten. my life included.#maybe if I hold on things will improve. probably. but that’s a future issue and I’m here living now#to me. for me. it feels disingenuous to post online about being self destructive.#so I guess… I’m just upset 🤷🏻♂️ but when am I not?#it was a long. frustrating. terrible day.#it’s whatever#you can ignore this#text
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everything will be ok :) https://www.tumblr.com/sonic-voices/164562137054/everythingll-be-okay?source=share
I am literally going to cry thank you tails
#Also thank you anon I really really really appreciate it#Took a shower. Am feeling marginally better.#Uhhhh kinda vent further on in the tags so warning for that#My room is kinda messy and it's such a stupid minor thing to have a breakdown about but I physically cannot#Clean it and I don't know why and the fact it's dirty is making everything worse#WHICH. isn't the only issue actually I have a lot of those rn but today was just really stressful and exhausting#And I feel bad and gross#The shower did help tho#AND. Positive note I guess. IT TOOK ME LIKE 3 HOURS BUT I FOLDED MY BASKET OF LAUNDRY#Laundry is horrid and it had been sitting there for like 2 weeks unfolded BUT I DID IT so I think I'm kinda proud of me now idk#Anyways thank guys this too will pass I'll be okay
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found the fucking mother of all goddamn otp charts, so naturally i had to shoehorn in my favorite gay little freaks affectionate
i have like a million qualifiers for every single point on here but in the interest of not making this completely illegible and taking like 2 entire days to do ill spare the ramblings
#crow.txt#not writing#uhhhh do i have a tag for this kinda stuff.#i dont think so. fuck#headcanons#? is that one. fuck#feel free to ask however i never shut the fuck up about them fr#was it the best idea to post this at 8 am? perhaps not. but who care#also free handwriting hc in the name section fdjkfhd#eugh reuploading the chart cause it just DESTROYED the quality?
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three piercings for forty dollars INSANE. i actually go to this super nice girl who technically isn't qualified to do anything and i lay around 35 euros for one 👍🏻 they're expensive but i love them
also im at school rn waiting for my teacher to just show up because we should have a test or something whenever she decides it's time. i will not like this. ALSO i have news about my new professors some of them are the funniest things that have ever happened to me!! like my history and philosophy teacher he's THE BEST i love him profoundly he makes me laugh 💗 then there's. my latin teacher who is still sososo mean ugh
ALSO good luck on your applications!!! obviously i have no idea of how to do it or anything like that but i know it's a big deal!!!! so like, take your time etc because you need to choose wisely :) (no means of putting pressure or anything btw, really take your time) AND you'd make a REALLY GOOD influencer i just so know it 🥹 you're already an influencer in my heart (not derogatory) ❤️
35 eruros is actually so cheap compared to what they're in canada!?? like in canada its $60 (45 eu) for the HOLE and then you have to buy an earring which is like $50 (34 eu) bu youre not allowed to like... just get the hole and take ur own earring for sanitary reasons like.... perhaps if you let me stick this up yoir a
#RAHGH I WISH I LIKED MY TEACHERS#i have to ask for rec letters and how will i.#my history teacher is uhhhh. i probably will ask him but he doesn't know me that well#my english teacher. yeah fs (i had him for history last year). me when i played papas scooperia every single period#my math is my favourite. FAVOURITE. everyone hates her but oh i adore her#she also likes me bc im one of the only girls left in the program#like theres this ONE other girl (2 of us) but she's like#idk we're very differetn#anyways i WILL ask her bc she likes me.#then we have bio. aughkjdfhdkhhkjfg biooooo . hello. she caught me copying an assignment from the internet (answer jey was passed in the gc#and i made the mistake of opening it in class and she saw and gave me a 0 lmao) im not even worried like idgaf but she doesnt like me obiou#and shes those teachers that are sour for no reason like youll ask her sth (not just me) and she slike#“i taught you this”'#AAAAAAA#so i am nOT asking her#and then there's german who i will also ask lol! bc i got a 97 and he likes me very much#viele dank#or something#RAAAGH yk how some teachers make you feel stupid for like asking them stuf#thats kinda why i love my math teacher and my phys' teacher from last year#like my avg in BIO was %95 and she still made me feel so dumb.#but then my math teacher never does. not even as she hands me back my tests with %60 like thank you ms thank you thank you#she always lets me go for extra help even tho my avg rn is like %92 so idc#and physics last year!! she was so sweet even tho my avg was an 88% but only due to the IB curve bc on the tests id score like %52s#also i just realized that im writing %_ like $_ lol
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whats tough about like. Having Chemistry and spending time with someone at the start of the spring semester is that valentines day is coming up and its like a make or break point with what you may or may not Be and you have to question what direction things are headed in and its a pressure just Not present in the fall semester idk. idk
#we uhhhh. kinda hit a bump in the road ...... idk.#hes. been very gentle and kind and understanding about where im coming from and so we havent talked in a couple days but just ....#god ok fuck it. we were hanging out saturday night and at some point we were going somewhere where parking sucked so i just suggested we go#in his car rather than separate bc finding parking for ONE car is a Struggle. anyways so afterwards we went back to where i parked my car#and i hahahhaaaaa was NOT leaving. it was just past midnight and so we were just hanging in his car talking for abt an hour#in there at some point i told him about that last crush and how it dragged on and he was like jesus CHRIST sia thats a lot#i was reclined in my seat and shutting my eyes listening to the music and i caught him looking at me a couple times andddddd uh#yeah basically i ended up in his lap and then we were kissing and touching and grinding for like the next hour and a half#and he asked if i wanted to go back to my place and i was like uhhhhhhhhhhhh not now so we stayed in there and just made out & talked more#and then he TOLD me. basically hes in a similar situation i was in this time last year. like a girl he liked and was talking to actually#has a bf. hes sorta in limbo and she still talks to bim and is stringing him along and playing off his hopes theyll get together for.#entertainment ig. everyone at this school is fantastic btw. jesus fucking christ.#so yeah he told me bc he said he didnt wanna hurt me or end up fucking me over and that i deserved full honesty and didnt want to get my#hopes up. which i REALLY appreciate. we talked for 8 days he got carried away once and immediately owned up. i do appreciate that#so like. he said that we can just be friends with or without benefits and i said id think about it. then at like 3 am we went home and he#check in with me to make sure i was alright since he could tell i had a LOT on my mind. i said id call him the next day and so we talked#and basically i explained the reason for my apprehensions and why i said no to hooking up (csa) and he was really understanding#and then like. i just asked him more about what was going through his head the night before & he described it as a heat of the moment thing#(which i agree it was) and like. he was genuinely concerned about me tho. idk#i told him that after i got home i had to shower for an hour scrubbyat every place he touched me and that im tired of feeling used#and he really heard me out and listened. he also asked if he hurt me and i said no but it def could have gotten to that point and i#and so he said 'im sorry for making your life at all hafrder to deal with' and i REALLY really#appreciate him being as honest as he was. so i said its cool we can be friends but i just need some space rn & he once again was really#understanding & said 'for as long as you need. just let me know whenever youre ready to just be friends again & if you need me to stay sway#from [xyz places we hung out] just let me know and if you need anything for class just feel free to reach out'#and. GOD i appreciate him. so that convo closed out on good terms. i was worried id need WEEKS but it rlly was just a few hours after that#i was ok again. traumas all about narratives and before that convo all i could see was another instance i was usee but like.#after actually talking it out all the fear around it dissipated and i can just see it for what it was: 2 friends who got carried away#but i really REALLY appreciate how hes handled this and we're both single & attracted to each other and so the question im thinking now is:#crushposting
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pro tip: if you're going to stay up until 1:40 AM don't start thinking about some of the lowest points in your life <3
#eugh feel kinda nauseous but its fine#i am going to take melatonin#and i am going to get out of that headspace#like guys dw nothing happened#im just thinking about when things did happen and its putting me back in that weird spot and ah fuck#nobody says stuff#venting ig#uhhhh idk my brain is too fried to think about it
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